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0:00:20 > 0:00:22- This is where you are.
0:00:22 > 0:00:23- This is where you are.- - It looks like it.
0:00:23 > 0:00:25- What are you doing?
0:00:25 > 0:00:27- What are you doing?- - I work here.
0:00:27 > 0:00:30- It's a bit early to start work, - isn't it?
0:00:34 > 0:00:35- Don't go.
0:00:37 > 0:00:38- I'm sorry.
0:00:40 > 0:00:43- Mam's found a lump on her breast.
0:00:43 > 0:00:45- She won't see a doctor.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47- What? Why not?
0:00:47 > 0:00:51- She says she doesn't want - to upset Jim.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53- I found out yesterday from Colin.
0:00:54 > 0:00:55- Have you talked to her?
0:00:55 > 0:00:57- Have you talked to her?- - Yes.
0:00:57 > 0:01:00- But I was angry - because she didn't tell me herself.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02- We argued.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05- I'm sure she understands - that you were upset.
0:01:06 > 0:01:08- I walked out, Ed. On my own mother.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12- I just didn't want her to see - how scared I am.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14- If I lose her I'll have no-one.
0:01:15 > 0:01:16- You'll have me.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19- Anyway, - you're not going to lose her.
0:01:20 > 0:01:21- You don't know that.
0:01:21 > 0:01:22- You don't know that.- - She'll be alright.
0:01:23 > 0:01:26- If there's a problem, - there's always treatment.
0:01:26 > 0:01:28- We'll sort this out. You'll see.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35- Have you asked Colin to mind - the shop on the day of the inquest?
0:01:35 > 0:01:37- What?
0:01:38 > 0:01:41- What's happening with the shop - on the day of the inquest?
0:01:41 > 0:01:43- I don't know yet.
0:01:44 > 0:01:47- Forget it. - You carry on playing with that.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49- Hiya.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52- I hope I'm not intruding.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55- I'm going.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59- You can talk to Eileen - if you can get her attention.
0:02:02 > 0:02:06- It's a stressful time for him - with the inquest and everything.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08- It's a stressful time for you too.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10- Me?
0:02:11 > 0:02:13- I've just been talking to Sioned.
0:02:13 > 0:02:15- She told me.
0:02:16 > 0:02:18- The whole village will know - at this rate.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21- She only told me.
0:02:21 > 0:02:25- She was upset. - She had to talk to someone.
0:02:25 > 0:02:29- You should have heard the way - she spoke to me yesterday.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32- She feels terrible now. - She's very worried.
0:02:33 > 0:02:37- But she still thinks you should - see a doctor and I agree with her.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40- I'm fed up of people - giving me advice.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43- What right do you have - to tell me what to do?
0:02:43 > 0:02:45- No right whatsoever.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48- But I know how you feel, Eileen.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50- I've been there.
0:02:54 > 0:02:58- The period before the diagnosis - was the worst time.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02- I was imagining - all kinds of things.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05- I was organizing my own funeral - in my head.
0:03:05 > 0:03:10- I thought I'd have to leave - the people I loved.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14- I can't believe this - is happening now...
0:03:14 > 0:03:17- ..after everything - we've been through.
0:03:18 > 0:03:19- I'm so frightened.
0:03:20 > 0:03:21- That's how I was.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25- The best thing I did - was see a doctor.
0:03:25 > 0:03:28- Because at least then...
0:03:28 > 0:03:32- ..I knew what had to be done - and what I was actually battling.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35- I don't think I'm as strong.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37- Of course you are.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40- You're not on your own. - Sioned and I will be there for you.
0:03:44 > 0:03:47- Listen, if you phone - the surgery now...
0:03:47 > 0:03:50- ..you'll get an appointment - this morning.
0:03:50 > 0:03:53- You don't have to tell Jim yet - if you don't want to tell him.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56- But honestly, - it's crucial that you do this.
0:03:56 > 0:03:58- Please, Eileen.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05- Oh. Skiving, are you?
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- I'll put the kettle on - and we'll have a cuppa.
0:04:08 > 0:04:09- Where's Vicky?
0:04:10 > 0:04:12- She's taken Nicky out somewhere.
0:04:13 > 0:04:14- And left you here on your own?
0:04:14 > 0:04:17- And left you here on your own?- - Yes. He was playing up here.
0:04:17 > 0:04:21- She promised to stay here - until I finished work.
0:04:21 > 0:04:22- Ah, right, I see.
0:04:22 > 0:04:25- You arranged a babysitter for me, - did you?
0:04:26 > 0:04:27- I can take care of myself.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31- That's the point, Mam, - you can't, can you?
0:04:31 > 0:04:33- I'm feeling a lot better today.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35- I've stripped all the beds.
0:04:36 > 0:04:38- I'll wash these now - and hoover my bedroom.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41- I haven't taken the post - to the village yet.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43- So off you go. - Don't let me stop you.
0:04:44 > 0:04:45- I can't leave you here on your own.
0:04:45 > 0:04:48- I can't leave you here on your own.- - You don't have much choice, do you?
0:04:48 > 0:04:50- Unless you want the sack.
0:04:51 > 0:04:55- Right. Behave yourself - until I get back, will you?
0:04:55 > 0:04:58- I'll call back in - after finishing Heol Aneurin.
0:04:59 > 0:05:01- Bloomin' cheek!
0:05:18 > 0:05:21- I don't have a driver at the moment. - I don't know where he is.
0:05:21 > 0:05:23- Ta-ra.
0:05:24 > 0:05:25- Where have you been?
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- Where have you been?- - With your mother.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29- He's persuaded me to see a doctor.
0:05:30 > 0:05:32- You wouldn't listen to me.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35- All that matters is that - she's going to see a doctor.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38- Maybe you could go with her.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40- She doesn't want me to go.
0:05:40 > 0:05:41- Of course I do. Come with me.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43- Of course I do. Come with me.- - I can answer the phone here.
0:05:44 > 0:05:47- You don't have to come - if you don't want to.
0:05:47 > 0:05:51- No. I'm coming with you. - I'll go and get changed.
0:05:54 > 0:05:55- Mam?
0:06:08 > 0:06:11- You're here early this morning.
0:06:11 > 0:06:15- I went to the cafe but it was - full of mothers and their babies.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17- I wasn't in the mood to stay there.
0:06:18 > 0:06:20- Yes. What are you plans for today?
0:06:21 > 0:06:23- Keeping out of Eileen's way.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25- I'm in her way in the flat.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27- I'm sure that's not true.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29- Yes, it is.
0:06:29 > 0:06:32- But there we are. - I'm not complaining.
0:06:32 > 0:06:35- At least she's not nagging me - about seeing that counsellor.
0:06:36 > 0:06:39- Have you been up - to Penrhewl recently?
0:06:39 > 0:06:40- No.
0:06:41 > 0:06:43- I can't face it.
0:06:43 > 0:06:46- I can't even bear - being in the flat...
0:06:46 > 0:06:49- ..listening to people downstairs - in the shop...
0:06:49 > 0:06:52- ..carrying on with life - as if nothing's happened.
0:06:52 > 0:06:53- Dani. Garry's on the phone.
0:06:53 > 0:06:55- Dani. Garry's on the phone.- - I'll phone him back.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57- I don't feel like having that.
0:06:58 > 0:06:59- Where are you going?
0:06:59 > 0:07:01- I don't know.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- Courtney's room?
0:07:03 > 0:07:07- No. I don't think I'm in the mood - to go there on my own today.
0:07:07 > 0:07:09- Do you want company?
0:07:10 > 0:07:12- Are you sure?
0:07:12 > 0:07:16- Of course. - I'll say I'm going out.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20- How much are these, Dai?
0:07:21 > 0:07:22- They're 3.00.
0:07:22 > 0:07:23- They're 3.00.- - 3.00?!
0:07:23 > 0:07:26- I saw them for 1.50 - in the pound shop.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- So go over to the pound shop - to buy them, Kath.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33- How much is this then?
0:07:33 > 0:07:34- I can't remember.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36- I can't remember.- - You need to put price tags on stuff.
0:07:37 > 0:07:38- I'm busy. I haven't had time, OK?
0:07:39 > 0:07:40- Have you seen Mam?
0:07:40 > 0:07:42- Have you seen Mam?- - I'll come and help you now.
0:07:43 > 0:07:44- No, it's fine.
0:07:44 > 0:07:45- No, it's fine.- - It's no trouble.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47- Come on. Hurry up!
0:07:49 > 0:07:52- Eileen, have you got any coriander? - We've run out.
0:07:53 > 0:07:54- Only dry coriander.
0:07:54 > 0:07:57- Sorry, Kelly, but we have to go.
0:07:57 > 0:07:59- Try Sheila's shop in Cwrtmynach.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01- Come on, Mam.
0:08:05 > 0:08:08- The kettle's on and look - what I found out there.
0:08:08 > 0:08:10- Oh, lovely.
0:08:10 > 0:08:12- I'll start by sorting these out - for you, shall I?
0:08:13 > 0:08:15- You were serious about helping, - were you?
0:08:15 > 0:08:19- Weren't you just hiding from Mark?
0:08:19 > 0:08:21- He should be doing his shift...
0:08:22 > 0:08:25- ..not walking up and down - the high street looking for me.
0:08:25 > 0:08:28- It's no wonder - my post is late every day.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32- He has no right treating me - like that.
0:08:32 > 0:08:34- I can take care of myself.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39- Maybe I took one or two tablets, - you know, now and again...
0:08:40 > 0:08:43- ..when it all got too much for me - but he treats me like a junkie.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46- Has Mam been in the cafe?
0:08:46 > 0:08:49- Right. You go and hide - behind the counter.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55- You haven't seen Mam, have you?
0:08:55 > 0:08:57- Do you see her here?
0:08:57 > 0:09:00- Don't you have work to do?
0:09:00 > 0:09:03- Yes, but she's gone AWOL - and taken all the tablets with her.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05- I'm sure she's OK.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09- They call those doughnuts, Mark.
0:09:10 > 0:09:11- Two?
0:09:11 > 0:09:12- Two?- - Do you want one?
0:09:13 > 0:09:16- No. I'd better take this post - around the village.
0:09:16 > 0:09:19- If I see your mother - I'll tell her to phone you.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25- Come on.
0:09:25 > 0:09:26- Before you ask...
0:09:27 > 0:09:30- ..I haven't taken one more tablet - than I'm supposed to take.
0:09:30 > 0:09:31- You do believe me, don't you?
0:09:31 > 0:09:32- You do believe me, don't you?- - Yes.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35- You'd be a lot more - irritable if you had.
0:09:35 > 0:09:39- Shut it! Let me tidy up down here - for you. Look at this mess.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41- That's my filing system.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44- That's my filing system.- - I won't be a minute sorting it out.
0:09:44 > 0:09:48- And that coffee won't make itself. - Two sugars, please.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50- Do you want milk?
0:09:50 > 0:09:52- Do you want milk?- - Yes. Full fat.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56- These magazines are ancient.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59- August 2015.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02- I should have brought some - from the shop.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04- We'll be here for ages, you'll see.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07- If you have to work, go back.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09- Don't you want me here?
0:10:10 > 0:10:12- Of course I do.
0:10:12 > 0:10:16- Maybe you'd prefer - to have Colin or Ed here.
0:10:16 > 0:10:17- Don't start. Not here.
0:10:17 > 0:10:19- Alun Jones. Room 1.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23- I'm sure you were supposed - to be next.
0:10:23 > 0:10:24- It's OK, Sioned.
0:10:24 > 0:10:26- It's OK, Sioned.- - No, it's not OK.
0:10:29 > 0:10:31- I had one like this.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33- I bought that for her.
0:10:35 > 0:10:39- She was a daddy's girl. She cried - every time I left the house.
0:10:39 > 0:10:43- I gave her that and told her - to cuddle it tight until I got home.
0:10:45 > 0:10:47- And she kept it all these years.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52- She was lucky - to have you as a father.
0:10:54 > 0:10:56- Once she became a teenager - all we did was argue.
0:11:02 > 0:11:05- You know, - you should have a little box...
0:11:05 > 0:11:09- ..and place the really special - items, like this, in it...
0:11:09 > 0:11:11- ..and take it home with you.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14- I don't have to do that.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18- I've got this place.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20- Courtney's room.
0:11:29 > 0:11:33- But this isn't Courtney's room, - is it?
0:11:34 > 0:11:36- Not really.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39- It's in Eifion's house.
0:11:42 > 0:11:46- This is Courtney's room now.
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0:12:01 > 0:12:04- How much longer? - We've waited over 30 minutes.
0:12:04 > 0:12:06- I'm not sure, sorry.
0:12:08 > 0:12:10- It's so unreasonable.
0:12:10 > 0:12:13- She doesn't know how long - they'll be.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15- Maybe one of the patients - has a problem.
0:12:15 > 0:12:18- You've got a problem. - That's why we're here.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22- You must be next. - I'll go and ask again.
0:12:23 > 0:12:24- No. Sit down.
0:12:25 > 0:12:26- Stop fussing and be quiet.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28- I'm only trying to help.
0:12:30 > 0:12:31- I knew you'd be like this.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34- That's why I didn't tell you.
0:12:34 > 0:12:35- That's why I didn't tell you.- - Thanks a bunch!
0:12:36 > 0:12:39- I have to wait my turn - like everyone else.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41- You don't understand, do you?
0:12:41 > 0:12:45- I'm not here to give you - a hard time, or her over there.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47- I don't want to lose you, Mam.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50- I don't want you to be ill either.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53- I just want to know that everything - is going to be alright.
0:12:54 > 0:12:56- You're getting upset - when there's no need...
0:12:57 > 0:12:59- ..and you're making me upset - as well.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02- Eileen Probert. Room 6.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04- Come on.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06- Right, I'd better go.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10- When I wake up in the morning...
0:13:10 > 0:13:13- ..before I come round...
0:13:14 > 0:13:16- ..I forget she's dead.
0:13:17 > 0:13:20- That's how I feel when I come here.
0:13:20 > 0:13:23- Jim, come with me.
0:13:25 > 0:13:30- Listen, I know it's great you can - come here to escape and stuff...
0:13:31 > 0:13:35- ..but the time will come - when you have to let go...
0:13:36 > 0:13:38- ..because Courtney has gone.
0:13:40 > 0:13:42- Yes.
0:13:44 > 0:13:46- But I don't want - to think about that yet.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49- Not until after the inquest.
0:13:49 > 0:13:50- Not until after the inquest.- - OK.
0:13:50 > 0:13:53- I just want to be here - for the time being.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56- OK. But can we leave now?
0:13:56 > 0:13:58- It's really cold here.
0:13:58 > 0:14:00- Is it?
0:14:00 > 0:14:01- Well, hold on.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06- Try this on. - I'm sure it will fit you.
0:14:07 > 0:14:08- No.
0:14:08 > 0:14:12- Come on. It cost me a fortune - but Courtney insisted on having it.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14- Wear it.
0:14:18 > 0:14:20- There you are.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22- It looks great on you.
0:14:25 > 0:14:26- No, don't take it off.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29- I know Courtney - would want you to have it.
0:14:31 > 0:14:32- OK.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36- But only if you come with me now.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38- It's time to go, Jim.
0:14:38 > 0:14:39- OK?
0:14:46 > 0:14:48- Mark was looking for you earlier.
0:14:48 > 0:14:49- Mark was looking for you earlier.- - What does he want now?
0:14:50 > 0:14:52- He can't do anything - without his mother.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54- Two coffees.
0:14:54 > 0:14:55- Ed.
0:14:58 > 0:14:59- Are you alright?
0:14:59 > 0:15:00- Are you alright?- - Yes. Why?
0:15:00 > 0:15:04- I saw Sioned earlier. - She wasn't in a very good mood.
0:15:04 > 0:15:05- So?
0:15:05 > 0:15:07- So?- - I don't want you to suffer.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- She has as much right to be - in a bad mood as everyone else.
0:15:11 > 0:15:14- I'm worried about you. - I can't help it.
0:15:14 > 0:15:18- Listen, I won't pretend everything - is perfect between us...
0:15:18 > 0:15:21- ..but it's getting better.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24- Come upstairs.
0:15:26 > 0:15:27- See you later.
0:15:34 > 0:15:35- How did it go?
0:15:36 > 0:15:38- The doctor couldn't tell - what the lump was...
0:15:38 > 0:15:41- ..but he's arranged - for me to see a specialist.
0:15:41 > 0:15:45- He couldn't even say how long - we'd wait for an appointment.
0:15:45 > 0:15:46- I'll have to be patient.
0:15:47 > 0:15:48- I'd like you to go privately?
0:15:48 > 0:15:50- I'd like you to go privately?- - There's no need for that.
0:15:50 > 0:15:54- Yes, there is. We can afford it.
0:15:54 > 0:15:55- MOBILE PHONE
0:15:55 > 0:15:56- That's my phone.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58- That's my phone.- - You left it by the bed.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03- I have to remind myself - not to take it personally...
0:16:04 > 0:16:05- ..when she loses her temper.
0:16:06 > 0:16:10- Sioned always lashes out at the - people who are closest to her...
0:16:10 > 0:16:12- ..when she's not coping.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14- I'll look after Sioned.
0:16:14 > 0:16:18- I can look into private options too - if you want.
0:16:18 > 0:16:19- No, I'll look after Mam now.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22- Go back to Deri Deithio - to cover there.
0:16:22 > 0:16:23- Right.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26- I'll phone you later - with the details.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29- We'll have to phone today - to make the appointment.
0:16:29 > 0:16:31- I'll talk to you later.
0:16:32 > 0:16:34- Thank you for your help today.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37- That's alright. You can rely on me.
0:16:42 > 0:16:45- Oh, you and your doughnuts!
0:16:45 > 0:16:47- At last! Where have you been?
0:16:47 > 0:16:51- What sort of welcome is that? - Aren't you pleased to see me then?
0:16:52 > 0:16:55- She's been with me at APD. - She came in after you left.
0:16:55 > 0:16:58- It's been the best day - I've had for ages.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01- I know exactly why - you're in such a good mood.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03- How many did you take?
0:17:05 > 0:17:09- Only the one you gave me - this morning.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15- Count them if you don't trust me.
0:17:16 > 0:17:18- I don't trust you.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22- That's why I'm taking time off work - tomorrow to keep an eye on you.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24- Suit yourself! I won't be here.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28- I won't be here - because I'll be at APD helping Dai.
0:17:28 > 0:17:30- Dai doesn't think I'm crazy.
0:17:30 > 0:17:34- Yes, there we are. Good. - I'll go now. See you in the morning.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36- Yes. So long, love.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42- I'm not as useless as you think.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49- And how soon afterwards - would I get the result?
0:17:52 > 0:17:53- Right.
0:17:53 > 0:17:58- Could you pop something into the - post to confirm that date, please?
0:17:58 > 0:18:00- Lovely. Thank you.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13- There's something - I need to tell you.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17- I'm sorry about earlier.
0:18:19 > 0:18:20- So am I.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26- Did you do anything today?
0:18:26 > 0:18:27- Yes.
0:18:28 > 0:18:29- I went to see Sioned...
0:18:30 > 0:18:32- ..and we went into town.
0:18:33 > 0:18:34- You?
0:18:39 > 0:18:40- Nothing worth reporting.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44- Nor me.
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