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0:01:05 > 0:01:08- I was hoping I'd wake up and find - it was all just a nightmare.
0:01:10 > 0:01:11- Erm...
0:01:13 > 0:01:16- Go to the spare bedroom. - You didn't get much sleep.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20- I'm going to Llwyncelyn.
0:01:23 > 0:01:26- Hywel. There's no rush, is there?
0:01:33 > 0:01:36- I did put them on the spot - about a couple of things.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38- Did you? I must have missed that!
0:01:39 > 0:01:41- You should have asked us - for a quote.
0:01:41 > 0:01:44- I'm writing an article about the - protesters this week, alright?
0:01:45 > 0:01:47- Don't listen to them. - You're doing a good job.
0:01:48 > 0:01:51- Says Mrs Unbiased! - Where do you stand on this, Garry?
0:01:52 > 0:01:53- As far away as possible.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55- Hywel!
0:01:56 > 0:01:57- Hywel!
0:01:59 > 0:02:02- What's wrong with him? - I want a word with him.
0:02:03 > 0:02:04- Listen, erm...
0:02:04 > 0:02:06- Meilyr has died.
0:02:07 > 0:02:10- Hywel found him in the cot - yesterday afternoon.
0:02:11 > 0:02:13- Sorry. I'd better go after him.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23- I've just heard something terrible.
0:02:24 > 0:02:26- Meilyr has died.
0:02:28 > 0:02:31- Eileen, - the posters against the development.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35- Don't say you're in favour! - Have you...?
0:02:35 > 0:02:37- Cadno.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39- Hywel and Sheryl's son has died.
0:02:40 > 0:02:41- What?
0:02:55 > 0:02:56- It was my fault.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02- I should have checked on him - more often.
0:03:05 > 0:03:07- The blankets were too warm - for him...
0:03:07 > 0:03:10- ..or I did something when - I was trying to revive him.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12- No. You did everything you could.
0:03:12 > 0:03:13- No. You did everything you could.- - No.
0:03:14 > 0:03:16- Or he'd still be here. I know that.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21- You can't think like that, Hywel. - You can't.
0:03:21 > 0:03:22- It's true.
0:03:26 > 0:03:28- I should have cared for him better.
0:03:34 > 0:03:35- Sheryl's phoned.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44- Did you talk to her?
0:03:48 > 0:03:50- What am I supposed to tell her?
0:04:38 > 0:04:40- I'm sorry, Hywel, I don't...
0:04:40 > 0:04:42- I'm sorry, Hywel, I don't...- - What? So you know.
0:04:43 > 0:04:44- I told her.
0:04:45 > 0:04:46- I told you not to tell anyone.
0:04:47 > 0:04:48- Sorry, I thought it would better...
0:04:48 > 0:04:50- Sorry, I thought it would better...- - Oh, did you?!
0:04:54 > 0:04:56- You haven't told Sheryl, have you?
0:04:57 > 0:05:02- Sheryl doesn't know. The doctors - want her to get stronger first.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05- I have told a few people.
0:05:05 > 0:05:08- It's my fault. - I should have explained.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10- Will you make sure - people understand...
0:05:10 > 0:05:12- ..that Sheryl doesn't know?
0:05:13 > 0:05:14- KNOCK ON DOOR
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- I don't want to see anyone.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26- Hywel, erm...
0:05:26 > 0:05:29- The police are here to see you.
0:05:30 > 0:05:34- What do you want? You asked me - endless questions yesterday.
0:05:34 > 0:05:38- We know it's a difficult time, - but as in all cases like this...
0:05:38 > 0:05:41- ..we have to see where Meilyr died - and collect any evidence.
0:05:43 > 0:05:46- Evidence? You make it sound - as if I did something wrong.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52- I'd better go.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57- You do think I did something, - don't you?
0:05:59 > 0:06:02- That's why you asked me so many - questions. You think I hurt Meilyr.
0:06:03 > 0:06:04- I would never hurt Meilyr!
0:06:05 > 0:06:07- We have to establish - exactly what happened.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10- Let them do their job, Hywel.
0:06:11 > 0:06:14- It's less than 24 hours - and they're doing this to me!
0:06:14 > 0:06:17- We have to see where Meilyr - was lying.
0:06:17 > 0:06:19- You can't take that!
0:06:19 > 0:06:21- We have to.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23- We have to.- - Hywel, please!
0:06:25 > 0:06:28- That's all I have left.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32- Come and sit down. - You shouldn't be watching this!
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0:06:55 > 0:06:57- MOBILE PHONE
0:06:57 > 0:06:59- Do you want me to answer it?
0:06:59 > 0:07:00- Do you want me to answer it?- - No.
0:07:06 > 0:07:07- It's Sheryl again.
0:07:13 > 0:07:17- I know you're only doing your job, - but how long are you going to be?
0:07:23 > 0:07:26- I can't imagine how a parent copes - after losing a child.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28- I know. It's awful.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31- Shall we get out of the village - and clear our heads a bit?
0:07:31 > 0:07:34- It's not every day - we get a day off together.
0:07:34 > 0:07:35- No, you're right.
0:07:36 > 0:07:41- By the way, I've had a reply from - DJ to the letter I sent last week.
0:07:42 > 0:07:43- How is he?
0:07:43 > 0:07:45- How is he?- - Alright.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48- But he wants me to go - and see him next week.
0:07:48 > 0:07:50- Cool.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52- I'm not sure if I can.
0:07:52 > 0:07:53- Why not?
0:07:54 > 0:07:57- I don't like the idea - of going inside a prison.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00- You're a good friend, aren't you?
0:08:00 > 0:08:04- Now, where's the coffee? - I feel like a zombie!
0:08:10 > 0:08:12- You can carry on day after day...
0:08:12 > 0:08:15- ..it's still there, but not - in the forefront of your mind.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19- Then you hear about the same thing - happening to someone else...
0:08:19 > 0:08:22- ..and it takes you straight back - to the moment it happened.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25- I even remember what I was wearing.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27- And what he was wearing.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32- I know it's selfish - because worse things...
0:08:32 > 0:08:35- ..have happened to other people, - but I can't help it.
0:08:40 > 0:08:44- I didn't sleep a wink the night - before that photo was taken.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46- Every time he fell asleep, - you woke up.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49- Sorry!
0:08:49 > 0:08:50- No.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52- No, you were perfect.
0:08:54 > 0:08:57- Although I was shattered, - I adored you both.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01- I don't have any memories of him.
0:09:04 > 0:09:06- I think I'd better reopen the shop.
0:09:07 > 0:09:08- There's no rush.
0:09:09 > 0:09:10- People won't understand.
0:09:10 > 0:09:12- People won't understand.- - So?
0:09:12 > 0:09:17- Let me make you some lunch. - Think of yourself for once, Mam.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19- Alright. Lunch would be lovely.
0:09:19 > 0:09:23- Good. You sit there, - and I'll get everything ready.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25- Thanks for listening, love.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27- It's fine.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30- It's usually you - who has to listen to me.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47- They're so slow here.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49- I have to go to work in ten minutes.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51- How long does it take - to cook egg and chips?
0:09:53 > 0:09:55- Hello? Anyone home?
0:09:57 > 0:09:59- There's nothing worse - than losing a child.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02- It's the worst thing - that's ever happened to me.
0:10:03 > 0:10:07- There's no point thinking about it. - These things happen, don't they?
0:10:07 > 0:10:10- Hiya. Can you do a few hours - at Penrhewl later?
0:10:11 > 0:10:12- I have to go into town.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15- Alright. I'll ring you after work.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17- Thanks.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20- I'm free for an interview now if...
0:10:20 > 0:10:22- I'm free for an interview now if...- - Sion, give it a rest.
0:10:22 > 0:10:24- It's my day off.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27- Oh, the posters.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30- I wish I hadn't shouted - at Eileen this morning.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33- I should have sensed - that something was wrong.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36- It wasn't your fault. - These things happen.
0:10:36 > 0:10:38- Such news can affect so many people.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40- Such news can affect so many people.- - Yes, you're right.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46- I've just been to see Hywel.
0:10:46 > 0:10:48- The police were there - collecting evidence.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50- Poor Hywel.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53- There's something else.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56- Sheryl doesn't know - that Meilyr has died.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03- I only found out a few weeks ago - that I have BPD.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06- Borderline personality disorder.
0:11:09 > 0:11:11- DJ is the only other person - who knows.
0:11:14 > 0:11:16- I am alright. Promise.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21- Thanks for telling me.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24- The thing is, you see...
0:11:25 > 0:11:27- ..I do want to go and see DJ.
0:11:28 > 0:11:29- But I'm frightened.
0:11:31 > 0:11:35- You know how I can be. Obsessive.
0:11:35 > 0:11:39- But if he knows you've got this - borderline personality thing...
0:11:39 > 0:11:42- ..maybe he'll understand.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46- Or maybe you need more time - to figure things out.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50- You don't have to go next week, - do you?
0:11:50 > 0:11:54- Gem, don't put too much pressure - on yourself.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57- Thanks.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00- Now, can we please go out - and get some fresh air?
0:12:01 > 0:12:04- Seeing Sion's face all the time - is stressing me out!
0:12:10 > 0:12:12- Hello, you.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14- Hiya.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16- Are you alright?
0:12:16 > 0:12:20- No. I didn't get much sleep - last night, and I've got a cold.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22- Meilyr isn't ill as well, is he?
0:12:23 > 0:12:25- No. He's fast asleep.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28- How are you feeling?
0:12:28 > 0:12:30- Much better again today.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32- What time are you coming in?
0:12:32 > 0:12:35- I'm going crazy here. - There's nothing to do.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37- That's why I'm phoning.
0:12:37 > 0:12:41- I don't think I should come in. - I don't want you to catch anything.
0:12:41 > 0:12:45- Oh. The lurgy must be - going around Cwmderi.
0:12:45 > 0:12:48- You're the second person - to cancel now.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50- Yes, I know. Sorry.
0:12:50 > 0:12:52- Look, I'd better go.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54- I love you both.
0:12:54 > 0:12:56- We love you too.
0:12:56 > 0:13:00- Get better soon, OK, so that - you can come in tomorrow.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04- Yes, and if not tomorrow, - definitely Thursday.
0:13:04 > 0:13:05- OK.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21- She'll never forgive me.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26- Do you want me to move that?
0:13:41 > 0:13:43- My calves are killing me.
0:13:43 > 0:13:45- I think we walked a few miles.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47- I think we walked a few miles.- - Aye, and the rest!
0:13:48 > 0:13:50- I've made a decision.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52- I'm going to go and see DJ.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56- Maybe I was being - a bit overdramatic.
0:13:58 > 0:13:59- I want to see him...
0:13:59 > 0:14:04- ..and I'm in a better position - now that I know about the BPD.
0:14:06 > 0:14:10- So I'm going to go and to hell - with the consequences.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12- Que sera sera.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14- What does that actually mean?
0:14:14 > 0:14:16- What does that actually mean?- - What will be, will be.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18- Is it French?
0:14:18 > 0:14:20- Or Italian.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22- Actually...
0:14:22 > 0:14:23- ..Spanish?
0:14:54 > 0:14:55- I was...
0:14:57 > 0:14:59- I was thinking yesterday morning...
0:15:02 > 0:15:05- ..I'll have to teach him to play - rugby when he's old enough.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- Teach him to pass and tackle, - like I did with Rhys.
0:15:17 > 0:15:19- It doesn't matter now, does it?
0:15:25 > 0:15:28- I would have loved to have - watched him grow up.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34- He could have gone - completely off the rails.
0:15:37 > 0:15:40- He could have broken every heart - in the valley...
0:15:41 > 0:15:43- ..and I wouldn't have minded.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48- He would be my son.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53- And I would be his father.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03- Make the most of your time, lads.
0:16:13 > 0:16:14- I'm glad I've caught you.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17- Only just. I'm on my way out.
0:16:17 > 0:16:20- Something for us to drink - at the weekend in the Mumbles.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23- I thought it would be nice - for you to have a break.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26- Yes.
0:16:30 > 0:16:31- I do understand how you feel.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33- I do understand how you feel.- - How could you?
0:16:34 > 0:16:37- Cadno and I lost a baby. - In the womb.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42- No opening this until the weekend!
0:16:42 > 0:16:45- I know what you're like - after a shift.
0:16:45 > 0:16:46- Cheek!
0:16:48 > 0:16:50- Get a move on - or you won't have a job.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15- Try and eat a little before I go.
0:17:17 > 0:17:19- Don't leave me.
0:17:21 > 0:17:23- I can't stay here on my own.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25- Of course I'll stay.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32- Try and eat a little for me, - will you?
0:17:38 > 0:17:39- Maybe later?
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