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0:00:17 > 0:00:19- We'll need another chair.
0:00:20 > 0:00:22- There are plenty here.
0:00:22 > 0:00:25- Sion's going to need - a chair as well.
0:00:25 > 0:00:27- Right.
0:00:28 > 0:00:30- The flowers are lovely, Anita.
0:00:31 > 0:00:35- Darren wanted to send a wreath - from him and Wil.
0:00:35 > 0:00:37- Rhys sent these, did he?
0:00:37 > 0:00:38- Yes.
0:00:38 > 0:00:40- KNOCK ON DOOR
0:01:18 > 0:01:20- That's Vicky's.
0:01:21 > 0:01:23- Just looking for a tissue.
0:01:23 > 0:01:26- Really? - Stealing from your granddaughter.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30- Just borrowing to tide me over.
0:01:30 > 0:01:33- You took the money - from the scratch card pot.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- I don't know nothing about no tin.
0:01:36 > 0:01:37- "Pot," I said, not tin.
0:01:42 > 0:01:44- It's about time - you went back to Pontypridd.
0:01:44 > 0:01:48- You can't throw me out of Debbie's - flat. It's none of your business.
0:01:48 > 0:01:51- Would you prefer me - to tell her you've been stealing?
0:01:52 > 0:01:53- You're not going to tell her.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55- You're not going to tell her.- - Not if you go back to Ponty.
0:01:56 > 0:01:57- Fine, I'll go.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00- Hi, Gu. - Has anyone seen Nicky's wipes?
0:02:01 > 0:02:02- Yes, they're here.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07- Dol's going back to Pontypridd.
0:02:07 > 0:02:08- Oh, really. Why?
0:02:10 > 0:02:15- I've got things to do. Taylor next - door's had my goldfish for weeks.
0:02:15 > 0:02:17- She's leaving today.
0:02:17 > 0:02:18- She's leaving today.- - Today?
0:02:18 > 0:02:21- Aye. Sorry, love.
0:02:27 > 0:02:28- Hey.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30- It's good to see you back.
0:02:30 > 0:02:32- Thanks. It's good to be back.
0:02:32 > 0:02:35- But maybe not - under these circumstances.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37- Have you been to see Ffion yet?
0:02:37 > 0:02:38- Have you been to see Ffion yet?- - Yes. That's where I'm going now.
0:02:39 > 0:02:42- I think a bit of time apart - has done us the world of good.
0:02:42 > 0:02:44- So she's getting better, is she?
0:02:44 > 0:02:46- So she's getting better, is she?- - She's like a different person.
0:02:46 > 0:02:51- I know it's early days, but it feels - as if she's turned a corner.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54- How's Daniel? Did you have fun?
0:02:54 > 0:02:57- Yes. He alters so much - every time I see him.
0:02:57 > 0:02:58- They grow up so quickly.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00- They grow up so quickly.- - Yes.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02- I'm kicking myself...
0:03:02 > 0:03:05- ..that I didn't make more of - an effort to see him over the years.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08- I'm sure he appreciates - your efforts now.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12- It's not fair for any child - to have to live without his parents.
0:03:13 > 0:03:13- Hiya.
0:03:13 > 0:03:14- Hiya.- - Hi.
0:03:14 > 0:03:16- Are you on your way there?
0:03:16 > 0:03:17- Yes.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19- Can I walk with you?
0:03:19 > 0:03:21- Can I walk with you?- - Of course.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23- Excuse me, Gethin. See you around.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25- Excuse me, Gethin. See you around.- - Yes. Bye.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29- I'm not looking forward to this.
0:03:34 > 0:03:35- Hiya.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37- What's this?
0:03:37 > 0:03:39- What's this?- - Come and sit down.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41- Fresh.
0:03:42 > 0:03:45- Yes, well, we've got a chance - to start again, haven't we?
0:03:47 > 0:03:48- I haven't put the bacon in.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52- Do we need bacon? - There's plenty of food here.
0:03:52 > 0:03:56- It'll only take a second. - How do you want your eggs?
0:03:58 > 0:04:02- It's impossible to fathom - the suffering you've experienced...
0:04:02 > 0:04:03- ..losing Meilyr.
0:04:04 > 0:04:07- No words can make sense - of such a loss.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10- But...
0:04:11 > 0:04:14- ..in the midst - of all this terrible sadness...
0:04:15 > 0:04:19- ..I hope you, as a family, - can feel the power of the support...
0:04:19 > 0:04:21- ..and love...
0:04:21 > 0:04:25- ..for all of you - from the people of this community.
0:04:27 > 0:04:29- Let us pray.
0:04:33 > 0:04:34- Oh, Lord...
0:04:36 > 0:04:38- ..be there for Meilyr's family...
0:04:38 > 0:04:42- ..during such a dark - and helpless time in their lives.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46- Be there for Sheryl.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50- Be there for Hywel.
0:04:52 > 0:04:55- Give them strength - in their darkest hour.
0:04:57 > 0:05:01- And help them, Lord, - to support each other.
0:05:09 > 0:05:13- Let's do something together - to give Gu a good send-off.
0:05:14 > 0:05:17- There's no need to do that, love. - I'll be back soon.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21- A meal? All of us together. - What do you say?
0:05:22 > 0:05:24- Fine with me.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27- Let's have it here. - There's no room in the flat.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29- BABY CRIES
0:05:29 > 0:05:31- OK, Nicky, I'm coming.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41- I'd best get back to the flat - and pack then.
0:05:42 > 0:05:45- Yes. Good idea.
0:05:55 > 0:05:57- She'll never change.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00- But for some reason, - every time she does it, it hurts.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02- Pathetic, isn't it?
0:06:04 > 0:06:05- Thank you.
0:06:08 > 0:06:10- Are you going to be alright - to carry him?
0:06:11 > 0:06:12- Yes.
0:06:13 > 0:06:16- Sheryl will need five minutes.
0:06:16 > 0:06:20- She isn't coming with us today. - She's not strong enough.
0:06:22 > 0:06:23- Sheryl.
0:06:25 > 0:06:26- I'm truly sorry.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34- I want some time with him - before you go.
0:06:34 > 0:06:37- I've already told Sion that.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52- Mami loves you, Meilyr.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56- And she'll love you forever.
0:07:07 > 0:07:09- Yes, alright.
0:07:09 > 0:07:10- No.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18- Come on, love. - You have to let him go. Come on.
0:07:20 > 0:07:21- Come on.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47- I want to go to the chapel. - I want to see the grave.
0:07:47 > 0:07:48- No. You're not strong enough.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51- No. You're not strong enough.- - I should be there. I'm his mother.
0:07:52 > 0:07:53- I'm his mother.
0:07:53 > 0:07:54- I'm his mother.- - I know.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57- I know, I know.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00- I'm his mother.
0:08:03 > 0:08:06- There's fruit. - Raspberries, strawberries.
0:08:06 > 0:08:07- Are you serious? I'm full.
0:08:08 > 0:08:09- More coffee then?
0:08:09 > 0:08:11- More coffee then?- - No, I'm fine, thanks.
0:08:11 > 0:08:13- Ffion, what is this?
0:08:14 > 0:08:15- What's what?
0:08:15 > 0:08:18- You - you're on pins. - Sit down and talk to me.
0:08:19 > 0:08:21- This is the thanks I get, is it?
0:08:21 > 0:08:25- I appreciate it - but you've gone to too much trouble.
0:08:26 > 0:08:28- Forget it.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30- What are you doing?
0:08:30 > 0:08:35- I wanted this to be perfect, - but you've just spoiled it.
0:08:35 > 0:08:36- Ffion...
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0:09:29 > 0:09:33- It's awful sad - about that little boy, isn't it?
0:09:33 > 0:09:35- It's awful sad - to have to leave here.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39- You made the decision to leave.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41- You made the decision to leave.- - Well, that's not quite...
0:09:41 > 0:09:45- I'll be visiting regularly now - anyway to see little Nicky.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47- I'm not sure about that.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49- I'm not sure about that.- - You can't stop me visiting.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50- Nicky's my grandson.
0:09:50 > 0:09:51- Nicky's my grandson.- - Great-grandson.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54- Why are you doing this, Debs?
0:09:54 > 0:09:57- Judging me on mistakes - I've made in the past.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59- Mistakes in the past?
0:09:59 > 0:10:01- The bailiffs were here last week!
0:10:01 > 0:10:03- The bailiffs were here last week!- - It's still the past.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05- Can't you give me a second chance?
0:10:05 > 0:10:08- How many do you want? - You've had enough.
0:10:09 > 0:10:10- You're so angry.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14- Yes, I am, Mam. - You always ruin everything.
0:10:15 > 0:10:18- I'm not saying I was perfect.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20- But I tried my best.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22- I did all my own cooking.
0:10:23 > 0:10:26- I made you all those lovely dresses - with my own fair hands.
0:10:27 > 0:10:28- Those dresses were horrible.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30- Those dresses were horrible.- - They were bloomin' lovely.
0:10:31 > 0:10:34- Cut me a bit of slack, Debs.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36- For the children.
0:10:37 > 0:10:41- There's no guaranteeing - how much longer I've got left.
0:10:41 > 0:10:42- Don't you dare!
0:10:42 > 0:10:44- Don't you dare!- - I'm no spring chicken.
0:10:46 > 0:10:47- I'm only saying.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50- Just go and pack, will you?
0:11:04 > 0:11:06- What's going on?
0:11:06 > 0:11:09- It's not going to work, is it?
0:11:09 > 0:11:10- What?
0:11:11 > 0:11:14- I'd rather you left now.
0:11:15 > 0:11:19- What about this morning's breakfast - to welcome me back?
0:11:23 > 0:11:25- I'm going for a walk.
0:11:25 > 0:11:29- And if you still feel the same - when I come back...
0:11:30 > 0:11:32- ..I'll leave, and I won't come back.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40- Were there enough flowers - on the grave?
0:11:40 > 0:11:42- Yes.
0:11:42 > 0:11:43- We left a wreath.
0:11:44 > 0:11:46- What did Sion say at the graveside?
0:11:47 > 0:11:48- He prayed.
0:11:48 > 0:11:49- What did he say?
0:11:50 > 0:11:51- Sheryl, I don't remember.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53- Sheryl, I don't remember.- - You don't remember!
0:11:53 > 0:11:55- Hey, try and eat a sandwich, - Sheryl.
0:11:56 > 0:11:58- You should keep your strength up.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01- You should have made the effort - to remember for me.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03- Hywel's tired, Sheryl.
0:12:03 > 0:12:06- Listen, he'll remember later on.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16- I don't understand - why people love me.
0:12:18 > 0:12:23- I've put my nearest and dearest - through a nightmare.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25- Ffion, come and sit down.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33- Watching Hywel earlier...
0:12:34 > 0:12:36- Why haven't I suffered like him?
0:12:36 > 0:12:39- You have suffered, Ffion, - seriously.
0:12:40 > 0:12:41- We've all suffered.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44- I've done some terrible things.
0:12:44 > 0:12:48- I've put Arwen at risk. - I've treated you like dirt.
0:12:48 > 0:12:52- What's the point - of bringing all that up?
0:12:52 > 0:12:53- I don't deserve you.
0:12:54 > 0:12:55- I don't deserve to be happy.
0:12:55 > 0:12:56- I don't deserve to be happy.- - Of course you do!
0:12:57 > 0:13:00- We've got a chance of a fresh start.
0:13:00 > 0:13:01- Walk away.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03- It's what I'd do in your shoes.
0:13:03 > 0:13:07- I'm not going to do that, Ffion, - because I love you.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09- Don't give up on us now.
0:13:09 > 0:13:10- Please.
0:13:15 > 0:13:17- Right, I'll go.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23- No. You know I don't want that.
0:13:26 > 0:13:29- You deserve so much better than me.
0:13:29 > 0:13:30- Better?
0:13:30 > 0:13:34- You're the best thing - that's ever happened to me.
0:13:35 > 0:13:39- We've got every right - to try and find happiness too...
0:13:39 > 0:13:41- ..just as much as anyone else.
0:13:43 > 0:13:44- What do you say?
0:13:45 > 0:13:47- Shall we give it a go?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59- Been in my purse years, this.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01- Look at those little sandals.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05- I know it wasn't easy - being my daughter.
0:14:05 > 0:14:09- There's no point talking about it, - the others will be back soon.
0:14:09 > 0:14:12- It wasn't easy for me either, - only child.
0:14:13 > 0:14:15- Mam and Dad passing away.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18- To be honest when Steve came along - I was glad of the help.
0:14:18 > 0:14:22- He wasn't all bad, Debs. - And he was good to you.
0:14:22 > 0:14:25- You always remember the negatives, - you do.
0:14:26 > 0:14:27- Always have.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31- We had good times in the caravan.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33- We had good times in the caravan.- - That was two weeks of the year.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35- I remember the real story.
0:14:35 > 0:14:39- Carrying you home from the pub, - cleaning up after the parties.
0:14:39 > 0:14:43- Cigarette butts, empty cans, - your dreadful mood swings.
0:14:43 > 0:14:47- I was a single mother, Debs, I had - no idea how to bring up a child.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52- Going to hold that against me - for ever, are you?
0:14:53 > 0:14:55- I'm not asking you to forgive me...
0:14:55 > 0:14:58- ..or even try to understand.
0:14:59 > 0:15:04- I'm asking that you accept - the way it was and move on.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07- Move on? Too much has happened!
0:15:07 > 0:15:10- Too much water - has passed under the bridge.
0:15:10 > 0:15:14- Why don't you concentrate - on the bridge rather than the water?
0:15:18 > 0:15:20- I'm gutted you're going.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23- Who can I blame - when things go wrong?
0:15:23 > 0:15:24- Cheeky little beggar!
0:15:25 > 0:15:26- A chocolate cake.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28- A chocolate cake.- - Hey, a feast!
0:15:29 > 0:15:31- Is everything alright?
0:15:32 > 0:15:34- Yes. Perfect.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42- Will you put that up for me, Mam?
0:15:45 > 0:15:48- He's the spitting image of you, - Sheryl.
0:15:48 > 0:15:50- Is he?
0:15:51 > 0:15:53- Exactly the same nose.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56- He looked so sweet in those clothes.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58- Like a little angel.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03- You took that photo, - didn't you, Hywel?
0:16:04 > 0:16:06- What?
0:16:06 > 0:16:07- What?- - Never mind.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10- You clearly - don't want to talk about him.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12- TEXT ALERT
0:16:21 > 0:16:23- Who is it?
0:16:23 > 0:16:24- Who is it?- - Gaynor.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26- She says she's there if we need her.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29- She says she's there if we need her.- - Go to her if you'd rather.
0:16:29 > 0:16:31- Don't be stupid, please.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33- You don't want to be here.
0:16:33 > 0:16:35- You don't want to be here.- - Sheryl!
0:16:41 > 0:16:43- Very nice. Thank you, Vicky.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46- I put it all in the oven. - All she did was the gravy.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49- No time for pudding. - I've got a bus to catch.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53- You're not carrying that case - to the station by yourself.
0:16:53 > 0:16:55- I was thinking of calling a taxi.
0:16:55 > 0:16:58- Dad will take you over, - won't you, Dad?
0:16:59 > 0:17:01- Um, yes. Go on then.
0:17:03 > 0:17:04- Well...
0:17:04 > 0:17:06- ..thanks, everyone.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08- It's been a blast.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13- When will we see you next, Gu?
0:17:13 > 0:17:15- I don't know, love.
0:17:16 > 0:17:17- I've got a lot to do back in Ponty.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20- Right, come on then, Ricky.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28- Come back - when it's all settled.
0:17:29 > 0:17:30- Are you sure?
0:17:31 > 0:17:34- A crap mother, a crap grandmother...
0:17:34 > 0:17:37- ..a cracking great-gran, you watch!
0:17:38 > 0:17:40- Come on then, we'd better go.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46- Don't forget to text me now, Vicks.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48- Don't forget to text me now, Vicks.- - Don't worry, I won't.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57- Don't mind if I take this, do you? - Something for the journey!
0:18:05 > 0:18:08- I'm making a cuppa. - Do you want one?
0:18:14 > 0:18:17- Rhys has sent an email. - You can read it on the tablet.
0:18:18 > 0:18:21- You didn't let me hold Meilyr.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23- The last time I saw him.
0:18:25 > 0:18:27- I held my arms out...
0:18:28 > 0:18:30- ..and you refused.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33- You said I'd have a chance again.
0:18:35 > 0:18:37- But I won't have a chance, will I?
0:18:38 > 0:18:40- Never.
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