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0:00:15 > 0:00:17- The main shed is a mess...
0:00:17 > 0:00:21- ..and the cows have knocked down - one of the concrete block walls.
0:00:21 > 0:00:24- Ask Jason to build it up - to pay for his board and lodgings.
0:00:25 > 0:00:26- He's no use at all.
0:00:26 > 0:00:30- He's feeling sorry for himself - since Sara dumped him.
0:00:30 > 0:00:32- It would be a change for you.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35- Will you come up to help, please?
0:00:35 > 0:00:38- You can build a few blocks yourself.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41- Yes, but the job - has to be done properly.
0:00:41 > 0:00:45- And no-one around here - is as good a builder as you.
0:00:45 > 0:00:46- KNOCK ON DOOR
0:00:47 > 0:00:48- Hello, everyone.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51- Can you sign for this for me, - please?
0:00:58 > 0:00:59- Thanks.
0:01:02 > 0:01:05- Look, I'll do all the labouring - and make the tea.
0:01:06 > 0:01:08- How is he?
0:01:08 > 0:01:11- We're trying to persuade him - to do some work.
0:01:11 > 0:01:12- Good luck.
0:01:15 > 0:01:17- So will I see you up there - this afternoon?
0:01:17 > 0:01:20- Yes, alright. - Anything for peace and quiet.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31- It's a date for the inquest.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36- Hey. Are you OK?
0:01:36 > 0:01:37- Hey. Are you OK?- - What happened?
0:01:38 > 0:01:39- Too much pop on Saturday night?
0:01:40 > 0:01:43- It was an accident. - Do you fancy a cuppa? I'll pay.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45- I'd better not. - Garry will kill me if I'm late.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48- So keeping Garry happy - is more important...
0:01:52 > 0:01:55- She's determined to find - a father for her boy.
0:01:57 > 0:02:01- You knew it would be - during these next few weeks.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03- Once it's over you'll feel better.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06- It's been like a black cloud - on the horizon.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08- I'm fed up of everyone saying that.
0:02:09 > 0:02:11- "Things will get better - after the funeral...
0:02:12 > 0:02:15- "..better after the inquest, - better in a year."
0:02:15 > 0:02:18- It's going to take time.
0:02:18 > 0:02:22- When am I going to wake up - to find life is a bed of roses?
0:02:22 > 0:02:25- Jim, make an appointment - to see the counsellor.
0:02:26 > 0:02:27- He has no idea what's going on.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33- Hiya. Right, I've been thinking - and you need a change.
0:02:34 > 0:02:36- I want you to come - to the photo shoot tomorrow...
0:02:37 > 0:02:38- ..so we can have a family photo.
0:02:39 > 0:02:40- What family?
0:02:40 > 0:02:43- Well, Mam, me, Ed.
0:02:44 > 0:02:46- We're all here for you, Jim.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49- It would be nice - to have a photo together.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50- Not now, love.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52- Not now, love.- - Everyone smiling happily, is it?
0:02:52 > 0:02:55- You want me to forget - my true feelings, do you?
0:02:55 > 0:02:59- Well, I'll get out of your way - so you can carry on!
0:03:03 > 0:03:05- We've only got half an hour.
0:03:05 > 0:03:08- You know how hard it is - to find a place to park.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10- You don't have to come. - I can go on the bus.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13- It's no trouble. - I want to be with you, Mam.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15- I'll be alright.
0:03:18 > 0:03:20- You don't trust me to go, do you?
0:03:20 > 0:03:24- It's not that. I know - it's not going to be easy.
0:03:25 > 0:03:29- I want to prove to myself I can - do this without anyone forcing me.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32- Let me give you a lift at least.
0:03:32 > 0:03:35- Let me give you a lift at least.- - Trust me, Mark. I'm going.
0:03:41 > 0:03:45- We could offer - carbonara and tiramisu.
0:03:45 > 0:03:48- No. Just pizzas and pastas. - Easy. Nothing too posh.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52- We could offer free nibbles. - Olives, antipasti...
0:03:53 > 0:03:56- Nibbles? - Dai Ashurst would scoff the lot!
0:03:56 > 0:03:58- We could all dress up - like the mafia.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02- And there's no need to ask - who the Godfather would be.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05- Watch it or you'll have - a horse's head in your bed!
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- It would make a change - from waking up with him!
0:04:08 > 0:04:11- A Scotch, please.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13- Have you been to Italy, Jim?
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- No. Courtney went - on a school trip.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18- Oh, right. Where?
0:04:19 > 0:04:21- It doesn't matter now, does it?
0:04:28 > 0:04:29- What can I get you?
0:04:30 > 0:04:32- I want to see the boss.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35- Would it be alright - if we held a night here...
0:04:35 > 0:04:38- ..to raise money - for the parent and toddler group?
0:04:39 > 0:04:43- Kids running riot drinking squash - and parents talk about Sali Mali?
0:04:43 > 0:04:44- No, thanks!
0:04:44 > 0:04:47- No, thanks!- - Hywel's come up with a good idea.
0:04:47 > 0:04:49- A darts tournament.
0:04:50 > 0:04:52- Hey, that could bring people in...
0:04:52 > 0:04:55- ..if it's organized properly.
0:04:57 > 0:04:59- Don't look at me. - I've got loads to do.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02- I think it's a brilliant idea.
0:05:04 > 0:05:05- Do you agree, then?
0:05:06 > 0:05:07- Yes.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10- One hundred and eighty!
0:05:11 > 0:05:14- I'm sorry. - I didn't mean to remind you of...
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- Courtney?
0:05:17 > 0:05:20- You can say her name, you know.
0:05:21 > 0:05:23- Do you want to talk?
0:05:45 > 0:05:48- Welcome.
0:05:48 > 0:05:49- Please.
0:05:50 > 0:05:51- Hello, Helen.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53- Hello, Helen.- - Hi.
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0:06:49 > 0:06:52- I bought this for you - just after you were born.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54- You were two days old.
0:06:55 > 0:06:59- And I'd had the best gift - anyone could ever receive.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02- A little girl.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05- A perfect little bundle.
0:07:17 > 0:07:20- Um, you left this in the Deri.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23- I thought you might need it.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26- Have you read it?
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- I'm sorry. - I shouldn't have come here.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32- Nobody was supposed to see this.
0:07:34 > 0:07:35- It's all here.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40- Apart from her.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46- It's beautiful, Jim.
0:07:49 > 0:07:52- My name is Mark Jones - and I'm here because...
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- ..um...
0:07:56 > 0:07:58- ..I'm here because...
0:08:01 > 0:08:05- I'm here - because I'm addicted to tablets.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09- And I've done some terrible things - to get them.
0:08:10 > 0:08:11- I've lied.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13- Stolen.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15- Stolen from my family.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20- It's frightened me - that I could do such things.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23- I really want to come off them.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27- Get my life back in order.
0:08:28 > 0:08:31- But I'm not sure how to do that, - so...
0:08:31 > 0:08:33- ..that's why I'm here.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36- Come in.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45- Take a seat.
0:08:54 > 0:08:56- I'm Kath Jones.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00- This is my son, Mark.
0:09:02 > 0:09:05- I'm the one with the problem...
0:09:05 > 0:09:07- ..not him.
0:09:10 > 0:09:13- Every time I come here - I feel closer to her.
0:09:15 > 0:09:19- I couldn't get rid of her stuff - so I brought it all here.
0:09:22 > 0:09:24- Clearing her bedroom was horrible.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29- It felt as though - I was throwing her out of my life.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35- You think I'm cracking up, - don't you?
0:09:35 > 0:09:37- No.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41- If this helps you to cope...
0:09:42 > 0:09:44- ..then it's alright.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48- Listen...
0:09:48 > 0:09:51- Eileen doesn't know - about this place.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53- Nobody knows.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57- You won't say anything, will you?
0:09:57 > 0:09:59- You won't say anything, will you?- - I won't tell a soul.
0:09:59 > 0:10:01- I swear.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08- I haven't finished that yet.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09- I haven't finished that yet.- - Sorry.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12- Shall I go and sort out the cellar?
0:10:12 > 0:10:13- Shall I go and sort out the cellar?- - That's what I like to see.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15- An worker looking for work.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19- Is my company so uninspiring - that you hide away in the cellar?
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- The boss gives extra shifts - to his best workers.
0:10:23 > 0:10:27- You said in your text - you were going to phone me.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29- What text?
0:10:29 > 0:10:32- The one you sent me last week.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35- I was waiting for you to phone.
0:10:37 > 0:10:41- I don't remember sending that. - Someone must have taken my phone.
0:10:42 > 0:10:43- It's the only explanation, sorry.
0:10:43 > 0:10:44- It's the only explanation, sorry.- - Who would do that?
0:10:46 > 0:10:50- I was in the Deri last Thursday - with you, Geth and Hywel.
0:10:50 > 0:10:54- Oh, yes. That's exactly the sort - of prank Gethin would play.
0:10:54 > 0:10:56- So it was you.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59- I wouldn't play a dirty trick - like that on anyone.
0:11:00 > 0:11:02- Sorry. - Eifion's idea of a joke isn't funny.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05- Alright. I'll buy you both a drink.
0:11:05 > 0:11:06- I have to go.
0:11:06 > 0:11:07- I have to go.- - Vicky.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13- You had no right - messing with my phone.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15- What do you think you were doing?
0:11:15 > 0:11:18- What do you think you were doing?- - There's a ready-made family there.
0:11:18 > 0:11:22- Watch out, or you'll have ten kids - before you catch your breath.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27- How is anyone supposed to come - to terms with losing a child?
0:11:28 > 0:11:31- I'm trying to be strong - for Eileen...
0:11:31 > 0:11:32- ..but inside...
0:11:34 > 0:11:36- ..I'm in bits.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40- Courtney would be so ashamed of me.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45- But you're getting - professional help, aren't you?
0:11:48 > 0:11:52- I've made several appointments - but I haven't been once.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58- Well, maybe you're not ready - to talk to anyone yet.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01- I don't want to move on.
0:12:01 > 0:12:04- I don't want - to put it all behind me.
0:12:04 > 0:12:07- I feel I'm moving further away - from her every day as it is.
0:12:08 > 0:12:09- But at least here...
0:12:10 > 0:12:12- ..she's exactly how she was.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19- Does that make any sense?
0:12:20 > 0:12:22- Yes.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28- I tell Eileen that I go - to the appointments, but...
0:12:31 > 0:12:32- ..this is where I come.
0:12:34 > 0:12:37- Maybe you should be honest - with her.
0:12:37 > 0:12:41- No. I don't want Eileen to know - about this place.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43- OK. OK.
0:12:44 > 0:12:49- But you should tell her - about the sessions you're missing.
0:12:51 > 0:12:53- Listen, Jim...
0:12:53 > 0:12:58- ..your marriage will become - very stressful if you don't confess.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04- And that's the last thing - Courtney would want.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10- I thought Mathew was different.
0:13:10 > 0:13:13- Maybe you shouldn't have - slept with him on the first date.
0:13:14 > 0:13:16- The chemistry was there. - It felt right.
0:13:17 > 0:13:20- I haven't been as excited - about anyone for ages.
0:13:21 > 0:13:25- You hardly know him. There's no - such thing as love at first sight.
0:13:25 > 0:13:29- Only in films and on holidays - after four jugs of sangria!
0:13:29 > 0:13:33- Do you think the fact - I'm a single mother puts him off?
0:13:33 > 0:13:37- If he's not willing to accept Nicky - then he's not worth bothering with.
0:13:37 > 0:13:40- I was so happy when I got the text.
0:13:41 > 0:13:44- If you're as keen as that on him, - ask him for another date.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48- It's the only way - you'll find out how he feels.
0:13:48 > 0:13:50- What if he says no?
0:13:50 > 0:13:52- What if he says no?- - Where are your guts?
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- No. I don't want to look desperate.
0:13:59 > 0:14:00- Lemon drizzle.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03- Your favourite.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08- I'm sorry about Sioned - being insensitive earlier.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11- Her heart's in the right place.
0:14:12 > 0:14:13- That doesn't matter now.
0:14:16 > 0:14:17- Listen, um...
0:14:18 > 0:14:23- ..I want to talk to you - about these counselling sessions.
0:14:24 > 0:14:25- Is that where you've been?
0:14:26 > 0:14:29- I thought you might like to talk - after receiving that letter.
0:14:29 > 0:14:32- I've got a confession.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36- I haven't been going - to see the counsellor.
0:14:38 > 0:14:39- Not at all.
0:14:40 > 0:14:43- I've been lying to you.
0:14:43 > 0:14:46- What about all those appointments?
0:14:46 > 0:14:48- I haven't attended any of them.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51- Not one?
0:14:51 > 0:14:53- I couldn't.
0:14:55 > 0:14:59- At least it makes sense why you - never wanted to talk about them.
0:14:59 > 0:15:02- You know I don't like talking - about my feelings.
0:15:02 > 0:15:07- No. It takes a courageous man - to open his heart, doesn't it?
0:15:07 > 0:15:10- I was taught that only weak cowards - ask for help.
0:15:10 > 0:15:13- We all need to ask for help - sometimes.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15- I'm here for you. - You can talk to me.
0:15:15 > 0:15:18- When I lost John, - I talked to Denz a lot.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21- Professional help wasn't as easy - to find in those days.
0:15:21 > 0:15:24- You can't compare losing a baby - you hardly knew...
0:15:24 > 0:15:26- ..with losing a 17-year-old girl!
0:15:29 > 0:15:31- I'm sorry.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35- I was only trying to say...
0:15:36 > 0:15:40- ..that losing a baby is different, - not that it's less painful...
0:15:40 > 0:15:42- ..but it came out wrong.
0:15:44 > 0:15:47- I'd never want to hurt you.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53- I'll cut down on the tablets...
0:15:53 > 0:15:55- ..well, gradually.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58- I'll be controlling - how many she gets....
0:15:58 > 0:16:00- ..just like I do now.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04- But, um...
0:16:05 > 0:16:07- ..I'd like it if both of you...
0:16:07 > 0:16:10- ..were responsible - for some of the tablets...
0:16:10 > 0:16:12- ..in case of emergencies.
0:16:14 > 0:16:15- This is a home, not a clinic.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19- I can't do it without you.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22- What if you got desperate - for a tablet?
0:16:22 > 0:16:25- You hurt me. I can't forget that.
0:16:25 > 0:16:28- I've told you that I regret that.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30- Let it go, please.
0:16:30 > 0:16:33- We need to move on.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37- I'm very proud of you, Mam.
0:16:37 > 0:16:40- None of us want to see you - slipping back.
0:16:40 > 0:16:41- Do we?
0:16:42 > 0:16:45- Will you give her a second chance?
0:16:45 > 0:16:47- A chance to prove herself?
0:16:49 > 0:16:50- I'm determined to do it.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53- I'm determined to do it.- - You're not going near Nicky.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58- Alright, I promise.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01- Debs?
0:17:04 > 0:17:07- One step out of line and you're out. - Alright?
0:17:07 > 0:17:08- But...
0:17:08 > 0:17:10- But...- - That's the deal.
0:17:14 > 0:17:15- Right.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18- Well, I hope I don't let you down.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20- Well, I hope I don't let you down.- - So do I, believe me.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26- You're not thinking straight.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31- No-one should lose their own child.
0:17:31 > 0:17:33- But these things happen.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37- You have to learn to cope with it.
0:17:37 > 0:17:39- To cope with your feelings.
0:17:41 > 0:17:43- Feelings of anger are only natural.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47- I feel as if I'm getting angrier - every day.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50- You'll have better days in time.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54- I know you don't believe that now, - but...
0:17:54 > 0:17:56- ..it's true.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01- Do you know what, Eileen?
0:18:03 > 0:18:06- I don't think I have the strength - to go on.
0:18:09 > 0:18:10- Jim...
0:18:11 > 0:18:14- ..please get help.
0:18:14 > 0:18:17- I don't want to hear another word - about it.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22- I don't want to discuss my feelings - with a stranger.
0:18:23 > 0:18:25- It would be too painful.
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