0:00:20 > 0:00:24You know the code. You don't steal customers from another hairdresser.
0:00:24 > 0:00:26Don't blame me, you're the one that got off his face last night.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28- What's this? - It was up on Buster's page.
0:00:28 > 0:00:32- Ellie got married in Vegas, to Buster.- She what?
0:00:32 > 0:00:33I didn't know what I was doing.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35How could you do this to me?
0:00:35 > 0:00:37- I applied for an annulment as soon as I realised.- Get out.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39- Bob, please?- I said get out.
0:00:39 > 0:00:42- I can't believe how much a mess I've made.- Your man'll come round.
0:00:42 > 0:00:43You don't know how stubborn he can be.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46- You and Zinnie?- Stella, please, can we just talk about it?
0:00:46 > 0:00:48Gonnae just shut up and go, Stevie.
0:00:48 > 0:00:50So if I don't pay you enough attention,
0:00:50 > 0:00:51ever-ready Eileen is waiting in the wings.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53Message received and understood.
0:00:53 > 0:00:55- What's happened, Stella? - I found a lump.
0:00:55 > 0:00:56- Me and my baby...- Our baby.
0:00:56 > 0:01:00We don't need you looking after us, we don't need you full stop.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02If this is cancer,
0:01:02 > 0:01:04then you're going to have a hell of a fight on your hands.
0:01:19 > 0:01:20HE SHOUTS ALONG WITH MUSIC
0:01:20 > 0:01:22# I don't want a lot for Christmas
0:01:22 > 0:01:25# There is just one thing I need
0:01:25 > 0:01:28# I don't care about the presents
0:01:28 > 0:01:32# Underneath the Christmas tree... #
0:01:32 > 0:01:34MUSIC STOPS
0:01:34 > 0:01:36Cannae concentrate with that racket.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38Aye, all that good will to all men's enough to give you
0:01:38 > 0:01:40the pure dry boak, man.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45C'mon, mate. I know what's wrong wi' you.
0:01:45 > 0:01:48There's nothing wrong. If anything, it's this motor.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Third time it's come in this week.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51No' Ellie then?
0:01:51 > 0:01:55Nup. I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm done with women.
0:01:55 > 0:01:59Ellie, Stella, Ailsa, Nicki. The list is endless.
0:02:01 > 0:02:04I'm fed up with the, "This time it's going to be different."
0:02:04 > 0:02:05It never is.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07You say that now...
0:02:07 > 0:02:08Naw. I'm serious.
0:02:08 > 0:02:12You and me, we've been made to look right dunderheads.
0:02:12 > 0:02:13Thanks for the reminder.
0:02:13 > 0:02:15Every other day, I see Stella around.
0:02:15 > 0:02:17Now it's going to be the same with Ellie.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Well, there's a lesson there - it involves doorsteps and...
0:02:19 > 0:02:22Well, to hell with them. We don't need them.
0:02:22 > 0:02:24We've got each other.
0:02:24 > 0:02:27No offence, mate, but you're not who I imagine cuddling up to
0:02:27 > 0:02:28on a cold winter's night.
0:02:28 > 0:02:32Well, get a hot water bottle and get over it.
0:02:32 > 0:02:36Love and romance - it doesn't exist.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39But your mates, they're forever.
0:02:39 > 0:02:40Eh, bro?
0:02:42 > 0:02:43Yo.
0:02:49 > 0:02:52HE SIGHS
0:02:52 > 0:02:56MUSIC: Driving Home For Christmas by Chris Rea
0:03:01 > 0:03:03It's not like Stella to be late.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06She knows it's Serge's day off, right?
0:03:06 > 0:03:09When she shows up, want you to let her know I've went back to the pub.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12- I've got a delivery due. - Where is she, anyway?
0:03:12 > 0:03:14This is pushing it.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17I've got better things to do than being worked to the bone in here.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19Just let her I was looking for her, will you?
0:03:20 > 0:03:22Hi, can I have another two coffees?
0:03:22 > 0:03:24- Aye, just take a wee seat.- Thanks.
0:03:25 > 0:03:29A social media account? Are you having a laugh?
0:03:29 > 0:03:32At my age, communication is an antidote to loneliness.
0:03:32 > 0:03:36Lonely? You? Get up and mind that shop.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38I've got to finish this stocktaking.
0:03:38 > 0:03:41Last thing I need is you going viral on social media.
0:03:41 > 0:03:43That'd be like giving a monkey a machinegun.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44Less of your cheek!
0:03:44 > 0:03:47Besides, this is the shop computer,
0:03:47 > 0:03:49it's not here for your personal entertainment.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52Like I haven't seen you playing yon Bejazzled on it.
0:03:52 > 0:03:53It's Bejewelled.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56That's another reason why I don't want you let loose on the internet.
0:03:56 > 0:03:57'Mon, beat it!
0:04:02 > 0:04:04- SHE SCREAMS - Holy Mother!
0:04:04 > 0:04:07I near had a heart attack there!
0:04:07 > 0:04:09What are you doing behind here?
0:04:09 > 0:04:11Sorry. I don't know what I was doing.
0:04:11 > 0:04:12Is everything OK?
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Aye, it's fine. I just wanted to speak to Scarlett
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- but it can wait. - Scarlett! You're wanted.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Oh, Stella. Everything all right, doll?
0:04:24 > 0:04:25Aye, OK.
0:04:25 > 0:04:27Ma, do you want to go through the back
0:04:27 > 0:04:30and sort out the biscuit delivery we just got.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32I thought you were wanting me to mind the shop?
0:04:32 > 0:04:33Just want to go, Ma!
0:04:39 > 0:04:41And don't touch that computer!
0:04:44 > 0:04:47- SOFTLY:- You want me to get some cover for the shop
0:04:47 > 0:04:49so that we can go and talk about this?
0:04:50 > 0:04:52You went to the hospital, didn't you?
0:04:52 > 0:04:55Darlin', you can tell me. I've been through it.
0:04:55 > 0:04:56DOOR OPENS
0:04:56 > 0:04:59- Right, Ma.- Hi.- How's things?
0:05:01 > 0:05:04Ma? Do you want to come and cover the shop for me, please?
0:05:04 > 0:05:08- MUTTERING:- In the back, out the back. Bloomin' ping pong ball.
0:05:08 > 0:05:09Do you know what, Scarlett,
0:05:09 > 0:05:11I'll just speak to you about it later, it's not important.
0:05:11 > 0:05:13Stella, wait!
0:05:14 > 0:05:16- See, what you've done now.- What?
0:05:32 > 0:05:34RINGING
0:05:36 > 0:05:41HE GROANS
0:05:42 > 0:05:46BEEPING AND RINGING
0:05:58 > 0:06:01- LAUGHTER - Yaaas!
0:06:03 > 0:06:06Jenny, stop the noise, will you? My head's banging.
0:06:06 > 0:06:07Has the post been?
0:06:07 > 0:06:10KIDS CHATTER
0:06:10 > 0:06:13- Has the post been?- No.
0:06:13 > 0:06:16- Missed.- Yes! Ha-ha!
0:06:19 > 0:06:21It's great having you here.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24BOY LAUGHS
0:06:35 > 0:06:37Can I have ice cream for breakfast?
0:06:37 > 0:06:38No.
0:06:38 > 0:06:39Gonnae get you this time.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41The kids love having you around.
0:06:44 > 0:06:47You mean you love me around to look after the kids.
0:06:47 > 0:06:49And for the cooking. And the cleaning.
0:06:49 > 0:06:52Come on now. It's got to be better than living cheek by jowl
0:06:52 > 0:06:55with Hoddit and Doddit. Much more fun.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58You call this fun? Molly's flat was...
0:06:58 > 0:07:01Like a lock-in at a church social?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- Ah...- Oh!
0:07:03 > 0:07:05THEY LAUGH
0:07:05 > 0:07:07- ..peaceful.- Sorry!
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Any chance of getting my clothes?
0:07:16 > 0:07:19I was told I needed to see a doctor before going home.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20Do you know when they'll be round?
0:07:25 > 0:07:26Are those my clothes?
0:07:29 > 0:07:33COUGHING AND RETCHING
0:07:46 > 0:07:47Oh!
0:07:57 > 0:08:00How does this damn thing work?
0:08:00 > 0:08:02I would like a cappuccino, please.
0:08:02 > 0:08:05And I like it with that leaf shape on the foam.
0:08:05 > 0:08:06And sprinkles.
0:08:07 > 0:08:09Do you know how to make it?
0:08:09 > 0:08:12Of course I do. The machine's playing up.
0:08:12 > 0:08:16Right. We need one ordinary latte, one decaf skinny,
0:08:16 > 0:08:19a mocha and a caramel macchiato. I'll get their food order.
0:08:19 > 0:08:20You'd better give him a hand, son.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23He's all fingers and thumbs with that thing.
0:08:23 > 0:08:24LOUD HISSING
0:08:24 > 0:08:26Look, there must be a fault.
0:08:26 > 0:08:29Aw, dear. Broken a nail?
0:08:29 > 0:08:31Where the hell is Stella? I shouldn't have to be doing this.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34Especially since you're not very good at it.
0:08:34 > 0:08:37So... Stella was supposed to be here this morning?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40She had an appointment first thing.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42She said she'd be back by 10.00.
0:08:42 > 0:08:45PHONE RINGS
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Robbie. This isn't a good time. You're what?
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Ho! Where do you think you're going?
0:08:54 > 0:08:56Stella!
0:09:04 > 0:09:05What did they say?
0:09:05 > 0:09:06I'm fine.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08You sure?
0:09:08 > 0:09:09Aye, you can relax.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12You've not got a sick ex on your conscience.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15You telling me the truth?
0:09:15 > 0:09:17Sorry, I forgot your default was to lie.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21- That's not fair. - Life isn't fair, Stevie.
0:09:23 > 0:09:24Like I said, I'm fine.
0:09:25 > 0:09:26You don't look relieved.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29What do you expect? I've been up half the night, haven't I?
0:09:29 > 0:09:30But it's OK?
0:09:30 > 0:09:31I said that, didn't I?
0:09:33 > 0:09:35That's brilliant.
0:09:35 > 0:09:36I need to get to my work.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37Alex'll be glad to see you.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40He thought he was going to have to wear your apron to help Patrick out.
0:09:50 > 0:09:53You're keen. Hoping for a love letter from your hubby?
0:09:53 > 0:09:55That's not even remotely funny.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Nothing interesting. Just a Christmas card for Jenny.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59Aren't you going to open any of these?
0:09:59 > 0:10:01You can't just ignore them.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03- Caitlin, some of them are bills. - So?
0:10:03 > 0:10:04So, they need to be paid!
0:10:04 > 0:10:07It's nearly Christmas time. I need my money for stuff for the kids.
0:10:07 > 0:10:10But they don't just disappear because you shove them in a drawer!
0:10:10 > 0:10:112016's problem.
0:10:11 > 0:10:14Anyway, you're the one that's living here for nothing.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16You're not exactly improving my cash flow.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18I'm still paying rent at Molly's!
0:10:18 > 0:10:20Aye, and living here for hee-haw. Excuse me.
0:10:29 > 0:10:32SHE SIGHS
0:10:37 > 0:10:39I told you. You can't go.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41A pal of mine's in hospital.
0:10:41 > 0:10:42Well, then he's being looked after.
0:10:44 > 0:10:45Cheers, come back soon!
0:10:46 > 0:10:49I'm not paying you to play on your mobile.
0:10:49 > 0:10:50Patrick!
0:10:53 > 0:10:57About time! I didn't buy this place so I could be a skivvy, you know.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58See, this...is not what I do.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01Do you appreciate the risk I took - the opportunity I gave you -
0:11:01 > 0:11:04making you the manager? You need to get a grip of yourself.
0:11:04 > 0:11:05Are you even listening to me?
0:11:11 > 0:11:12What?
0:11:13 > 0:11:15You might want to go a bit easy on her.
0:11:15 > 0:11:17Why?
0:11:17 > 0:11:20I'm no gossip. But...she could be ill.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34Angus. I think we've cracked it.
0:11:37 > 0:11:38Bob.
0:11:41 > 0:11:42Hey.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45I hope you don't mind me coming to your work.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47It was just...
0:11:47 > 0:11:50Well, I was hoping we could have a chat?
0:11:50 > 0:11:52Chat away.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54SHE SIGHS
0:11:54 > 0:11:57Maybe we can go for a coffee or something?
0:11:58 > 0:11:59I'm busy.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03- I'll leave the pair of you.- No.
0:12:06 > 0:12:07What is it you came to say?
0:12:07 > 0:12:10We've got a lot of work to get on with.
0:12:11 > 0:12:12What's this?
0:12:12 > 0:12:15It's my lawyer's letter. About the annulment.
0:12:15 > 0:12:17- Buster's not going to fight it.- So?
0:12:17 > 0:12:19So, I thought...you'd see that...
0:12:19 > 0:12:24What? That marriage and commitment is meaningless to you? Job done.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26No, that I'm serious.
0:12:26 > 0:12:28- What about?- You.
0:12:28 > 0:12:31It was a stupid drunken mistake, I'm trying to put it right.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34You went across the Atlantic to allegedly dump your boyfriend.
0:12:34 > 0:12:37You ended up marrying him. That's a real sign you're serious about me.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39I was wasted.
0:12:39 > 0:12:40I'll go grab us some coffees.
0:12:40 > 0:12:44No! You're staying. Ellie's the one that's leaving.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47This doesn't change what you did.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50- Bob...- Good luck being back on the market, Ellie.
0:13:17 > 0:13:19Are you all right?
0:13:19 > 0:13:20Aye, how?
0:13:20 > 0:13:23I was hoping to get away for half an hour.
0:13:23 > 0:13:25- Are you gonnae cope? - Why wouldn't I?
0:13:25 > 0:13:28I wouldn't usually ask - it's just I've got a bit of a situation.
0:13:28 > 0:13:30Just go. It's fine.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37Where's he going?
0:13:37 > 0:13:38He's due a break.
0:13:40 > 0:13:42Look, I maybe came on a bit strong earlier.
0:13:42 > 0:13:45Yeah, well, I was late. I should have let you know.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47You shouldn't be doing things like this.
0:13:47 > 0:13:51Listen, if you need a rest and you want me to organise it, just say.
0:13:51 > 0:13:52I'm not unreasonable.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54What's that supposed to mean?
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Molly said you might be poorly.
0:13:56 > 0:13:59- So, if there's anything I can do... - Anything you can do?
0:13:59 > 0:14:02You can stop gossiping with Molly! What is wrong with you, man?
0:14:02 > 0:14:03Excuse me? You're out of order!
0:14:03 > 0:14:06You don't talk to me like that, no matter what's wrong with you.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09You know what? I'm done with this.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11What are you doing?
0:14:11 > 0:14:13You can't just leave me!
0:14:13 > 0:14:14Stella!
0:14:26 > 0:14:29Hey. Wait. I've just been at your flat looking for you.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31Why?
0:14:31 > 0:14:34I heard from the hospital. I...thought you might want to chat.
0:14:34 > 0:14:35What for?
0:14:35 > 0:14:37I know the diagnosis, Stella.
0:14:37 > 0:14:40Look, if you want to go through your options. Clarify what...
0:14:40 > 0:14:41Are you a specialist?
0:14:41 > 0:14:44You going to tell me anything I don't know already?
0:14:44 > 0:14:46I don't know. How about giving me a try?
0:14:46 > 0:14:49- I'm busy. - No, you're not too busy for this.
0:14:49 > 0:14:50Come on.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03What kind of pie's that?
0:15:03 > 0:15:07This is no ordinary pie. This is a Jandhu pie.
0:15:07 > 0:15:10Actually, it's not a pie at all. It's lasagne.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12Is that you branching out, aye?
0:15:12 > 0:15:14The one thing I have discovered over the years,
0:15:14 > 0:15:15is that Annie loves her scran.
0:15:15 > 0:15:18And tonight, she's not going to know what hit her.
0:15:18 > 0:15:19Lucky Annie.
0:15:19 > 0:15:22Well, that is exactly how I want her to feel.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24A woman needs to know that she's loved.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27Mate, easy on the cheese.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35I should have just stayed an alkie. Life was easier that way.
0:15:35 > 0:15:39This kind of diagnosis can be difficult to deal with.
0:15:39 > 0:15:41Oh, is that right, aye(?)
0:15:41 > 0:15:43And you have a hard decision.
0:15:43 > 0:15:46Just as well me and Stevie aren't together then, isn't it?
0:15:46 > 0:15:47He got out just in time,
0:15:47 > 0:15:50instead of being stuck with somebody with no chest and no hair.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53- Stella...- Look, do you know what's really freaking me out?
0:15:55 > 0:15:58It's the fact that I might not be able to feed my baby myself.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01If I go ahead and have the mastectomy.
0:16:01 > 0:16:05You're talking like you're going to go through with this pregnancy.
0:16:05 > 0:16:08I know you've been told that the best
0:16:08 > 0:16:12odds of survival, in this instance, is to have a termination.
0:16:12 > 0:16:15It means your body can bear more aggressive treatment.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19Stella.
0:16:19 > 0:16:20Look at me.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26I need to know that you understand what I'm saying to you.
0:16:27 > 0:16:30I know that this is the hardest decision
0:16:30 > 0:16:34for any pregnant woman to make. But you have to be realistic.
0:16:34 > 0:16:37And there's always a possibility that you could get pregnant again.
0:16:37 > 0:16:38Aw, that's all right, then.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40As long as I might be able to get pregnant again,
0:16:40 > 0:16:42who cares about the wean that's inside me now?
0:16:42 > 0:16:44That's not what I said.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47Are you honestly telling me that this is what it's come to?
0:16:47 > 0:16:50With all the fancy research and fundraising that goes on -
0:16:50 > 0:16:51this is it?
0:16:53 > 0:16:55That I might have to lose my baby?
0:16:55 > 0:16:59Well, the other option is that you go through with the pregnancy,
0:16:59 > 0:17:00you have that mastectomy,
0:17:00 > 0:17:03and you put off having chemo until after the baby's born.
0:17:03 > 0:17:04I'll do that then.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09Look, I need to be convinced that you're aware of the risk to
0:17:09 > 0:17:11yourself if you do that.
0:17:11 > 0:17:14If you put off having chemo then the cancer might spread.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16And it could become untreatable.
0:17:19 > 0:17:21You'll reduce the possibility of your own survival.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29So, if I have this baby, then I might die?
0:17:32 > 0:17:34Aye, OK. You've done your job. I get it.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36I think you should talk to Stevie about this.
0:17:36 > 0:17:38I don't want him to have anything to do with it.
0:17:38 > 0:17:39It's a really difficult decision.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42- You cannot do it alone. - But I am alone.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43It is what it is.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Where's the fire?
0:17:48 > 0:17:52Just been to the doctor? What's the latest?
0:17:52 > 0:17:54You're a pure brass neck.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56I'm only showing interest.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58By shouting your mouth off - to my boss - about my business.
0:17:58 > 0:18:02I... Well... If I mentioned something to Alex,
0:18:02 > 0:18:04it was out of concern.
0:18:04 > 0:18:06Aw, aye. "Concern."
0:18:06 > 0:18:09You don't give a toss about me, Molly. You never did.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12I was never good enough for you or your family.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14And do you know what you are?
0:18:14 > 0:18:17A nosy, old witch that takes pleasure in other people's misfortune.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19- That's enough.- You kid on that you're that funny and gallus,
0:18:19 > 0:18:23you even pretend that you're caring. But you're not. You're just nasty.
0:18:27 > 0:18:28Yeah, to Shieldinch.
0:18:30 > 0:18:32Aye. We'll be waiting outside A & E.
0:18:32 > 0:18:34Right, cheers.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37You could have brought joggers or something with a bit more give.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39I grabbed the first thing I could find.
0:18:39 > 0:18:41I thought you wanted out of here quick.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43I'm not going to get anywhere fast in these, am I?
0:18:43 > 0:18:46Oh, ha-ha. They're actually cutting off my circulation.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53So, you going to tell me what happened then?
0:18:53 > 0:18:55I told you, I spewed then blacked out.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57So, what do they think's wrong with you?
0:18:57 > 0:18:59Um...they don't know.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01And they're letting you out? Is that wise?
0:19:01 > 0:19:02Can we just go, please?
0:19:02 > 0:19:05Should we not wait to hear what the doctor's got to say?
0:19:05 > 0:19:07I was hammered, all right?
0:19:07 > 0:19:10The last thing I remember was somebody suggesting tequilas and
0:19:10 > 0:19:13then the next thing I'm waking up on a hospital trolley
0:19:13 > 0:19:14with a hangover from hell.
0:19:14 > 0:19:18I've already had the doctor imply I'm wasting NHS time
0:19:18 > 0:19:21so right now, all I want to do is go home, get washed,
0:19:21 > 0:19:24and change into some clothes that I can breathe properly in!
0:19:30 > 0:19:33DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:19:36 > 0:19:39Hey, I've just come about my rent.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41Oh, aye, it's due.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44The thing is, I'm not actually living here.
0:19:44 > 0:19:48So I can't afford to pay you rent and rent to my sister.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51Are you saying that you'd rather live with Caitlin?
0:19:51 > 0:19:54No, of course not. What do you think?
0:19:54 > 0:19:58She's hell on wheels. But I can't come back here, can I?
0:19:58 > 0:20:01Bob can barely look at me.
0:20:01 > 0:20:03Surely you'd have more chance of winning him round
0:20:03 > 0:20:05- if you were living here? - Do you think so?
0:20:07 > 0:20:10Oh, Molly, I cannae believe I made such a mess of things.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16That's better.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18Molly, are you all right?
0:20:18 > 0:20:21DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:20:21 > 0:20:25If you two are in for your lunch, you'll just need to take pot luck.
0:20:25 > 0:20:29I was just saying to Ellie that she can move back in
0:20:29 > 0:20:32because it's daft her paying rent and not living here.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34Only if that's cool with you.
0:20:34 > 0:20:35Aye. Why not.
0:20:37 > 0:20:39Brilliant.
0:20:39 > 0:20:44It's probably about time we got our own gaff anyway, eh, Angus?
0:20:44 > 0:20:45Doesn't exactly impress the ladies
0:20:45 > 0:20:47when you say you stay with your gran.
0:20:48 > 0:20:52So, as soon as we find somewhere, I'll let you know.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54Then you can move back in.
0:20:55 > 0:20:58Great. Thanks. I need to go.
0:20:58 > 0:20:59I better get back to work.
0:21:21 > 0:21:23- What possessed you? - The lassie's still paying rent.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26And I suppose you don't want to miss the cash.
0:21:26 > 0:21:28Never mind how I feel about her hanging around the place.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30Don't you get on at me!
0:21:30 > 0:21:34I've just about had my fill of your exes. Shouting at me.
0:21:34 > 0:21:35Humiliating me.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Ellie shouted at you?
0:21:37 > 0:21:38Not Ellie.
0:21:38 > 0:21:40Who then?
0:21:40 > 0:21:41Gran?
0:21:46 > 0:21:50Good. Going to give me us a hand with this, will you?
0:21:53 > 0:21:55What's wrong with you?
0:21:55 > 0:21:57Bob. He hates me.
0:21:59 > 0:22:01- I know the feeling.- Stevie!
0:22:01 > 0:22:03You practising for a British Bake Off or something?
0:22:03 > 0:22:05- Where's Stella?- I don't know.
0:22:05 > 0:22:06I'm not putting up with this.
0:22:06 > 0:22:08I tried to be sympathetic about her health problems,
0:22:08 > 0:22:10- but she just walked out in a strop. - What?
0:22:10 > 0:22:12In the mood, I'm in right now, if she doesn't come back,
0:22:12 > 0:22:14she's fired. Tell her!
0:22:15 > 0:22:16What's that about?
0:22:16 > 0:22:17No idea.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21Right, 'mon finish this off, will you?
0:22:33 > 0:22:36Oh, aye! Who's got you on the warpath?
0:22:36 > 0:22:38- I'm looking for Stella.- How?
0:22:38 > 0:22:41- My gran said she had a right go at her at the doctor's.- What?
0:22:41 > 0:22:43You should have seen my gran. She was trembling.
0:22:43 > 0:22:45I thought only an earthquake could do that to her.
0:22:45 > 0:22:47I'm having it out with Stella.
0:22:47 > 0:22:48Wait. Did she say why she kicked off at her?
0:22:48 > 0:22:50Who knows? But you know what, Ma?
0:22:50 > 0:22:52I'm fed up of letting women take the mick.
0:22:52 > 0:22:54Thinking they can get away with hurting folk and
0:22:54 > 0:22:57not getting any payback. This time Stella's getting it in the neck.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59Wait, wait, Bubba. Just going to leave it.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00No, Ma. This is about me an' all.
0:23:00 > 0:23:03- I think I know what might have happened.- What?
0:23:05 > 0:23:08Ma, you better tell me,
0:23:08 > 0:23:11because when I see Stella, I'm not going to miss and hit the wall.
0:23:17 > 0:23:20KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:23:46 > 0:23:48But you don't know anything for sure?
0:23:48 > 0:23:50I know she had an appointment at the breast clinic today.
0:23:50 > 0:23:53She came looking for me, and I could see by her wee face...
0:23:53 > 0:23:57I would have gone and seen her but I didn't want to be pushy.
0:23:57 > 0:24:01If she's lost it with my ma, she must be in a pure state about it.
0:24:01 > 0:24:05It also makes me think that it's bad news.
0:24:05 > 0:24:06I need to go and check on her.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10Do you want to look after the shop the now?
0:24:10 > 0:24:13Tell you what. You go and speak to her.
0:24:13 > 0:24:15I'm not the right person, Ma.
0:24:15 > 0:24:16There's nobody else. Just go!
0:24:22 > 0:24:23All right, hen.
0:24:24 > 0:24:26I need to see Dr Jandhu for a few minutes.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29- No, I'm sorry, she's busy. - Come on, surely you can fit me in.
0:24:29 > 0:24:30I'm sorry, I can't help.
0:24:30 > 0:24:33I'm not asking a favour here, doll! This is important.
0:24:33 > 0:24:35- What's going on? - I need to speak to you.
0:24:35 > 0:24:37You will not raise your voice at me.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39And I won't tolerate my staff being harassed.
0:24:39 > 0:24:40I know, I get it,
0:24:40 > 0:24:43you think I'm some lowlife that doesn't deserve the time of day?
0:24:45 > 0:24:47I'll deal with this.
0:24:51 > 0:24:52Stella?
0:24:55 > 0:24:56Stella! I know you're in there.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08PHONE RINGS
0:25:13 > 0:25:14Stella, are you drinking?
0:25:21 > 0:25:25I have made it clear that I cannot break patient-doctor confidentiality.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27But you can give me some indication, can't you?
0:25:27 > 0:25:29You need to talk to Stella directly.
0:25:29 > 0:25:32She'll not talk to me. That's why I came to you.
0:25:32 > 0:25:33It's bad, isn't it?
0:25:35 > 0:25:37She's got cancer and shutting me out.
0:25:37 > 0:25:40Listen, I know I screwed up, all right. I know that.
0:25:40 > 0:25:42But if she's sick, she needs to get help.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44And I need to be involved. I'm that baby's dad.
0:25:44 > 0:25:48Like I said, you need to discuss this with Stella.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09- What do you think you're doing? - You wouldn't answer.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11I just wanted a wee bit of time by myself,
0:26:11 > 0:26:13- is that all right with you? - You been drinking, aye?
0:26:13 > 0:26:15- Get out.- What?!- Get out!
0:26:15 > 0:26:17What is it with you and your family, Bob?
0:26:17 > 0:26:20What makes you think you've got any right to come up here
0:26:20 > 0:26:21and interfere with my life?
0:26:21 > 0:26:22What's wrong with you? Get a grip!
0:26:22 > 0:26:25My ma sent me because she was worried about you.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27- The state of you. - I'm not drunk, am I?
0:26:27 > 0:26:29You think I care? I'm just the messenger.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32- Then get away from me, then! - With pleasure.
0:26:32 > 0:26:34Ho. What're you doing here?
0:26:34 > 0:26:36More like what're you doing?
0:26:36 > 0:26:39- You lied to me this morning. - Oh, my God, man.
0:26:39 > 0:26:40Come on, Stella.
0:26:42 > 0:26:45- I love you... - Don't you dare say that to me!
0:26:45 > 0:26:47Don't you dare come to my door talking about me lying
0:26:47 > 0:26:49and you caring. You know nothing!
0:26:49 > 0:26:51That's enough! Calm down, will you, just calm down!
0:26:51 > 0:26:56Stella, chill! You're all right. Stella. It's all right.
0:26:56 > 0:26:57I hate you!
0:26:57 > 0:27:01I hate myself for ever believing I could trust you.
0:27:01 > 0:27:04- You should go, mate. - Nobody asked you.
0:27:04 > 0:27:07What did they say at the hospital?
0:27:07 > 0:27:09If she's ill, it's my business. Not yours, all right.
0:27:09 > 0:27:11Does she look like she wants you around?
0:27:11 > 0:27:13- Just bolt, will you! - No. You bolt.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15MUFFLED GRUNTS
0:27:15 > 0:27:16This isn't about you!
0:27:16 > 0:27:19- Until you tell me what they said, I'm going nowhere.- Yeah, you are.
0:27:19 > 0:27:21I've got cancer!
0:27:26 > 0:27:28I've got cancer, OK?
0:27:31 > 0:27:35And I need to choose between saving myself and saving the baby.
0:27:39 > 0:27:41You happy?
0:27:41 > 0:27:42Stella.
0:27:42 > 0:27:45- Get away from me, Stevie! - No, please listen...
0:27:45 > 0:27:47I don't want you anywhere near me, Stevie.
0:27:48 > 0:27:50You heard her.
0:27:51 > 0:27:52I do love you.
0:27:54 > 0:27:55You know that.
0:27:57 > 0:27:58And that baby's mine too.
0:27:58 > 0:28:02OK, see after what you done to me, you don't get any say in the matter.
0:28:18 > 0:28:20Stella, wait!
0:28:22 > 0:28:24Bob, you'll need to go after her.
0:28:24 > 0:28:27- Me? - Well, she doesn't want me, does she?
0:28:27 > 0:28:29I don't want here on her own. Just go.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40KNOCK ON DOOR
0:28:40 > 0:28:43I thought I told Gail to keep out nuisance visitors.
0:28:43 > 0:28:45Ha!
0:28:45 > 0:28:47You are very hot when you're sarcastic.
0:28:47 > 0:28:51And you are very annoying when I am trying to work.
0:28:51 > 0:28:54Look, unless you have a limb falling off or something red
0:28:54 > 0:28:57and itchy you want me to look at, I have to be getting on.
0:28:57 > 0:28:59I'm making you something special tonight.
0:28:59 > 0:29:01And I wanted to check you're going to be home in time?
0:29:01 > 0:29:03Aren't you the model husband(?)
0:29:05 > 0:29:06I am trying to be, Annie.
0:29:08 > 0:29:10I've got yoga.
0:29:10 > 0:29:12After it, then. You'll be hungry.
0:29:13 > 0:29:16OK, you think me cooking you a romantic meal is trite.
0:29:16 > 0:29:19But I don't know what else to do.
0:29:19 > 0:29:21What are you cooking?
0:29:21 > 0:29:25Wild mushroom, aubergine and kale lasagne. With a herb salad.
0:29:25 > 0:29:27As long as you've got some wine in.
0:29:27 > 0:29:30Enough to dull the pain of an evening with me. Yes.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37Patrick! Answer your phone.
0:29:37 > 0:29:40Stella's done a runner and I'm here by myself.
0:29:40 > 0:29:43I'll pay you whatever it takes. Just get back here now, OK?
0:29:51 > 0:29:53Ah!
0:29:56 > 0:29:58DOOR OPENS
0:30:00 > 0:30:04Mmmm, that's one way to get the customers in.
0:30:04 > 0:30:07Please don't make yourself decent on my account.
0:30:07 > 0:30:08Can I get you something?
0:30:08 > 0:30:11Latte and a yum yum.
0:30:15 > 0:30:19So you're from Edinburgh, eh? Morningside.
0:30:19 > 0:30:20Craiglockhart, actually.
0:30:20 > 0:30:23Still Edinburgh though, so I always thought you were a bit,
0:30:23 > 0:30:27you know, up yourself - but seeing you getting down and dirty...
0:30:27 > 0:30:29Latte, was it?
0:30:29 > 0:30:32I couldn't let you run off, on your own. In your condition.
0:30:32 > 0:30:35I'm not drunk, if that's what you're thinking. I opened the bottle
0:30:35 > 0:30:38- but I poured it down the sink. - I was just worried.
0:30:39 > 0:30:42I'm sorry...about your diagnosis.
0:30:42 > 0:30:44When my ma got hers, it turned everything upside down.
0:30:44 > 0:30:48- For everybody.- Well she didn't face losing her baby, did she?
0:30:48 > 0:30:50I'm just saying. She's wanting to help you.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53- If you'll let her. - It's funny that, isn't it?
0:30:53 > 0:30:56The whole time I was with you she never even liked me.
0:30:56 > 0:30:58She's probably relieved we're not together.
0:31:01 > 0:31:03- You need to get that seen to. - I'll live.
0:31:04 > 0:31:07It's my fault you got hurt, isn't it?
0:31:07 > 0:31:08Aye, it is.
0:31:17 > 0:31:19Thanks for looking out for me back there.
0:31:23 > 0:31:25I just can't believe him, man, honestly.
0:31:25 > 0:31:27I can't believe he had the cheek to come up
0:31:27 > 0:31:29and say how that he cares - when him and Zinnie...
0:31:29 > 0:31:31Stella! I don't want to hear, all right?!
0:31:31 > 0:31:34Now I'll be there for you, through the cancer, course I will,
0:31:34 > 0:31:37but I don't want to get into it with you and him.
0:31:37 > 0:31:38It's always the same.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41Stevie screws up, I pick up the pieces.
0:31:41 > 0:31:43Well, I didn't ask you to do that, did I?
0:31:43 > 0:31:46No? Well, what about when Stevie couldn't cope with your ma either?
0:31:46 > 0:31:49You just don't get it, do you?
0:31:49 > 0:31:52You're going on about how awful Stevie is.
0:31:52 > 0:31:53What do you want me to do?
0:31:53 > 0:31:56He only done to you what you done to me.
0:31:56 > 0:31:59- You're still angry with me? - Tell you what.
0:31:59 > 0:32:01I'll come and see you in a few years and you tell me
0:32:01 > 0:32:03if you're still upset about what Stevie done to you.
0:32:13 > 0:32:15- I never meant to hurt you. - But you did.
0:32:15 > 0:32:19And you're going on to Stevie, about trust, and how he abused it.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21Do you not think you done the same to me?
0:32:21 > 0:32:25You screwed me up, Stella. I can't trust anybody now.
0:32:25 > 0:32:28- And I'm sorry that you're sick, but...- But I deserve it?
0:32:29 > 0:32:31What? No.
0:32:31 > 0:32:33That's what you're saying, isn't it?
0:32:33 > 0:32:35That this is punishment for what I did to you.
0:32:35 > 0:32:39No. That's just stupid, Stella. I shouldn't have said what I did.
0:32:39 > 0:32:41No. You're right.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44What I did to you was exactly what Stevie did to me.
0:32:44 > 0:32:45So now I'm paying for it.
0:32:46 > 0:32:50No matter what you've done, nobody deserves to be going
0:32:50 > 0:32:52through what you're going through, all right, Stella?
0:33:05 > 0:33:06What the...
0:33:08 > 0:33:09What happened to you?
0:33:12 > 0:33:13Stevie?
0:33:17 > 0:33:19Stella went for me.
0:33:19 > 0:33:20Stella did this?
0:33:22 > 0:33:23Why?
0:33:25 > 0:33:27I'll go and get something for those scratches.
0:33:27 > 0:33:30I didn't realise what I'd done to her.
0:33:30 > 0:33:35It was just one moment. One stupid, drunken moment.
0:33:35 > 0:33:36Aye well, we all have 'em.
0:33:36 > 0:33:38What the hell is wrong with me?
0:33:40 > 0:33:44I had everything I've ever wanted. Stella.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46Baby on the way. And what did I do?
0:33:50 > 0:33:53I should be there for her right now.
0:33:53 > 0:33:54When she needs me the most.
0:33:55 > 0:33:57But I'm the last one she wants.
0:33:57 > 0:34:00Look, just give her time.
0:34:00 > 0:34:01She'll come round.
0:34:03 > 0:34:05I doubt it.
0:34:05 > 0:34:08There's no danger Bob's going to put in a good word for me.
0:34:08 > 0:34:10Bob? What's he got to do with it?
0:34:10 > 0:34:12He was there when it all kicked off.
0:34:15 > 0:34:17I told him to look after her.
0:34:18 > 0:34:20How's that for irony?
0:34:20 > 0:34:22Does Stella really need looking after?
0:34:24 > 0:34:26Aye, she does.
0:34:28 > 0:34:30Well, you can trust Bob.
0:34:35 > 0:34:39So they say opposites attract. East meets West.
0:34:45 > 0:34:48I don't know whether to kick you or kiss you.
0:34:48 > 0:34:50There should be laws against women like that.
0:34:50 > 0:34:52Oh!
0:34:52 > 0:34:55BREATHILY: Needing more sugar over here, sugar.
0:34:55 > 0:34:56I'm off.
0:35:00 > 0:35:01Where's Michael Buble gone?
0:35:01 > 0:35:03He's...got something to do.
0:35:11 > 0:35:14- How are you feeling?- Uncomfortable. I don't know how you can wear these.
0:35:14 > 0:35:17Good threads. I gave you the chance to go home and get changed.
0:35:17 > 0:35:20I needed to eat. I just hope nobody sees me in this get up.
0:35:20 > 0:35:22Seriously? That's what you're worried about?
0:35:22 > 0:35:26Maybe I need to go to a spa or something. Detoxify myself.
0:35:26 > 0:35:29Clear my body of alcohol and my mind of Will.
0:35:29 > 0:35:31Maybe this is the answer.
0:35:31 > 0:35:33"Purifies your body, blah-blah-blah.
0:35:33 > 0:35:38"Improves harmony in body and mind."
0:35:38 > 0:35:39This is exactly what I'm needing.
0:35:39 > 0:35:43Hot yoga? Would an early night and a can of ginger not do the same?
0:35:43 > 0:35:46There's a class on tonight. Come on and chum me.
0:35:46 > 0:35:48Not even if you paid me.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50You want these togs back or what?
0:35:52 > 0:35:53I did love you, you know.
0:35:57 > 0:35:59You just loved Stevie more.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03It was different.
0:36:06 > 0:36:07Aye.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16Cos he could give you a baby.
0:36:21 > 0:36:24I didn't mean that. Not in that way.
0:36:24 > 0:36:25Well, what did you mean?
0:36:32 > 0:36:34If we'd had a wean...
0:36:37 > 0:36:39..do you think we'd still be together?
0:36:47 > 0:36:49I shouldn't have asked that.
0:36:49 > 0:36:50I understand why you did.
0:36:55 > 0:36:57If you hadn't met Stevie...
0:37:01 > 0:37:02But I did.
0:37:08 > 0:37:09So...
0:37:11 > 0:37:14Was it cos I couldn't give you a wean?
0:37:18 > 0:37:21Was it cos I couldn't cope with Deek dying?
0:37:24 > 0:37:29I mean, I was depressed.
0:37:29 > 0:37:32I was pathetic.
0:37:32 > 0:37:34That must have been such a turn off for you.
0:37:34 > 0:37:36It wasn't that.
0:37:39 > 0:37:40Then what was it, then?
0:37:42 > 0:37:45Right, OK. Aye.
0:37:46 > 0:37:49I was frustrated that we couldn't have a baby.
0:37:52 > 0:37:53But I would have got over it.
0:37:59 > 0:38:01You just weren't well Bob.
0:38:02 > 0:38:03You were grieving.
0:38:06 > 0:38:08So were you.
0:38:08 > 0:38:10It was different.
0:38:11 > 0:38:14Then what happened to us, Stella? What was it?
0:38:14 > 0:38:15Stevie.
0:38:20 > 0:38:23He gets me. At least I thought he did anyway.
0:38:26 > 0:38:28He understand things about me
0:38:28 > 0:38:30that I don't even understand about myself.
0:38:39 > 0:38:40I'm sorry.
0:38:46 > 0:38:49She'd've been better off with Bob, anyway.
0:38:49 > 0:38:50Really?
0:38:50 > 0:38:54C'mon, compare him to me, who'd you say the safe bet was?
0:38:54 > 0:38:55Exactly.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59Better man by a long stretch.
0:39:00 > 0:39:03So, why didn't things work out between them?
0:39:03 > 0:39:07They hit a rough patch. His best pal died.
0:39:07 > 0:39:09Stella tried to be there for him
0:39:09 > 0:39:11but of course I came along and destroyed all that.
0:39:13 > 0:39:15And what about all the others, though?
0:39:15 > 0:39:18Bob and Angus are always joking about Bob's failed romances.
0:39:18 > 0:39:19What else can he do?
0:39:19 > 0:39:23He can't exactly greet himself to sleep every night, can he?
0:39:23 > 0:39:24Can't have been that bad.
0:39:24 > 0:39:26You don't want to go there, pal.
0:39:27 > 0:39:28Poor Bob.
0:39:30 > 0:39:32That said though, you and Stella,
0:39:32 > 0:39:34everybody knows it takes two to tango.
0:39:34 > 0:39:37- You can't put that all on yourself. - Nae excuse but.
0:39:39 > 0:39:42Do you know she hurt Bob so badly for me?
0:39:43 > 0:39:45And what did I do in return?
0:39:46 > 0:39:50- I've learned that the hard way. - Aye. You and me both.
0:39:59 > 0:40:01Is it me or is it roasting it in here?
0:40:01 > 0:40:04You do know it's hot yoga.
0:40:04 > 0:40:06You going to be able to cope with this?
0:40:06 > 0:40:07Aye, I like it. I'm like a cat.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11Oh, you are joking.
0:40:11 > 0:40:12Have you done this before?
0:40:12 > 0:40:13Once or twice.
0:40:13 > 0:40:16No wonder there's unemployment. She's got every job going.
0:40:16 > 0:40:17Come on. We'll just go.
0:40:17 > 0:40:19But we're here now.
0:40:19 > 0:40:21Aw, please.
0:40:23 > 0:40:26Has anyone not done hot yoga before?
0:40:26 > 0:40:27Do you two want to come up front?
0:40:30 > 0:40:32Just watch my moves and copy.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38Kneeling on the ground with knees wide apart.
0:40:38 > 0:40:41With big toes together, sit back on the heels.
0:40:41 > 0:40:44Inhale - lengthen up through the spine.
0:40:44 > 0:40:46Come on, Robbie, down on the mat.
0:40:46 > 0:40:49Exhale, stretch the arms out in front of you, palms to the ground.
0:40:49 > 0:40:52Slowly lower your torso down over your legs.
0:40:52 > 0:40:54Shift your weight back into your hips.
0:40:54 > 0:40:55- This is stupid.- Shh.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59Commence Sama Vritti Pranayama.
0:41:01 > 0:41:02Here, let me help.
0:41:05 > 0:41:06Come on Robbie, relax.
0:41:06 > 0:41:11Even, steady breathing helps calm the body and focus the mind.
0:41:11 > 0:41:13Seriously? With you lying on top of me?
0:41:26 > 0:41:30Look, if it's any consolation, I'm just as bad as you.
0:41:30 > 0:41:33You let down Stella. I let down Bob.
0:41:33 > 0:41:36What happened with you and Bob is nowhere near what me
0:41:36 > 0:41:37and Stella are going through.
0:41:37 > 0:41:39- No?- No.
0:41:39 > 0:41:42Stevie, how can you even measure something like that?
0:41:42 > 0:41:44You love Stella.
0:41:44 > 0:41:45And I love Bob.
0:41:45 > 0:41:48I did something stupid and so did you.
0:41:48 > 0:41:51And now we're both struggling to win them back. End of.
0:41:51 > 0:41:54Oh, don't get all superior on me. And act like there's any difference.
0:41:54 > 0:41:56Stella's got cancer.
0:41:56 > 0:41:59And she's pregnant with our baby.
0:41:59 > 0:42:02I think I've got a bit more on my conscience than you.
0:42:08 > 0:42:10I got us a couple of fish suppers.
0:42:10 > 0:42:11Oh, no, I cannae, man.
0:42:11 > 0:42:14Aye, ye can. Come on.
0:42:16 > 0:42:17Batter in.
0:42:21 > 0:42:23Remember when we used to get fish suppers every Friday?
0:42:23 > 0:42:25Aye. And you'd always had a pickle.
0:42:25 > 0:42:27HE LAUGHS
0:42:27 > 0:42:28I do miss it.
0:42:28 > 0:42:30Aye, me too.
0:42:30 > 0:42:33It's weird how when you're with somebody you're best pals.
0:42:33 > 0:42:37And then when you split up you become strangers.
0:42:37 > 0:42:39Aye, I know, and I want us to be pals again.
0:42:41 > 0:42:44Look, Bob, what if I make the wrong decision?
0:42:44 > 0:42:45You won't.
0:42:45 > 0:42:48Whatever you decide is right.
0:42:48 > 0:42:49What do I do?
0:42:49 > 0:42:52It's not for me to say, is it?
0:42:52 > 0:42:54What's the most selfish?
0:42:56 > 0:42:58Know what I mean? Choosing my life over my wean's?
0:42:58 > 0:43:03Or bringing a baby into this world that might not have a ma?
0:43:03 > 0:43:05I've already lost a wean. I cannae do that again.
0:43:07 > 0:43:09Whatever I do, it's going to be wrong.
0:43:12 > 0:43:13I wish I could help.
0:43:13 > 0:43:14You are helping.
0:43:20 > 0:43:22I want you to be happy.
0:43:25 > 0:43:27Maybe Ellie could do that.
0:43:35 > 0:43:36Forgive me?
0:43:39 > 0:43:41Aye.
0:43:41 > 0:43:44I realise now it wasn't about me.
0:43:44 > 0:43:47Well, if you can forgive me, how can you not forgive Ellie?
0:43:51 > 0:43:52And you and Stevie?
0:43:52 > 0:43:55No. You're a much better person than I am.
0:43:55 > 0:43:57There is no me and Stevie.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00Aye, there is. Or what was the point of us breaking up?
0:44:02 > 0:44:05You and him, you're not over, never will be.
0:44:08 > 0:44:09I know.
0:44:12 > 0:44:16CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYS
0:44:38 > 0:44:40I can feel it working. Can you?
0:44:40 > 0:44:42Four. Hold the stomach in.
0:44:42 > 0:44:43Three!
0:44:43 > 0:44:45I need air!
0:44:45 > 0:44:47Robbie, remember Sama Vritti Pranayama.
0:44:47 > 0:44:49- Will you just get to... - HE GULPS
0:44:49 > 0:44:51You all right, Robbie?
0:44:54 > 0:44:55SHE SHRIEKS
0:45:02 > 0:45:05- Is she OK? - I just took her back to the flat.
0:45:07 > 0:45:08Thanks.
0:45:08 > 0:45:11- You should go see her. - You saw what happened the last time.
0:45:11 > 0:45:14She doesn't want anything to do with me. She made that clear.
0:45:14 > 0:45:17- What about you? - What do you think?
0:45:17 > 0:45:19She's having our baby. She's sick. I want to be there for her.
0:45:19 > 0:45:22You sure? She's gave you a get out.
0:45:22 > 0:45:24- You think I want that? - I don't know.
0:45:24 > 0:45:25Listen, you.
0:45:25 > 0:45:26I love her, all right?
0:45:26 > 0:45:28She's the one shutting me out.
0:45:28 > 0:45:31What? You think I want her to go through this on her own?
0:45:31 > 0:45:32What can I do?
0:45:32 > 0:45:35Aye. Probably best you just give up then, eh?
0:45:42 > 0:45:44I still think you should get checked out at the hospital.
0:45:44 > 0:45:48Really, it's unnecessary. I was just being microwaved is all.
0:45:48 > 0:45:51It's always the same temperature. I'm always very careful.
0:45:51 > 0:45:53I'm sure you are. Everyone else is fine.
0:45:53 > 0:45:55- I could drive you there.- No.
0:45:55 > 0:45:57- It's no bother.- No!
0:45:57 > 0:45:59Why are you so against going to the hospital?
0:46:02 > 0:46:04I don't appreciate my time being wasted.
0:46:04 > 0:46:07If there's something I need to know...
0:46:07 > 0:46:09I had a bit too much to drink last night and ended up in A & E.
0:46:09 > 0:46:11Because you were drunk?
0:46:11 > 0:46:14How much did you have to drink? And don't lie.
0:46:14 > 0:46:18A couple of bottles of wine. Shots.
0:46:18 > 0:46:19Tequila too.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23So this is alcoholic poisoning.
0:46:24 > 0:46:27OK. Go home.
0:46:27 > 0:46:29Try and get some rest.
0:46:29 > 0:46:32Drink plenty of fluids.
0:46:34 > 0:46:36Non-alcoholic.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42- Is that yours?- Thanks.
0:46:42 > 0:46:44So how's things going at the surgery?
0:46:44 > 0:46:46I heard they'd offered you full time there.
0:46:46 > 0:46:48- Aye, I bet you did.- What?
0:46:48 > 0:46:53Well, I'm sure AJ's made his feelings on the matter very clear.
0:46:53 > 0:46:56No, actually, it was Molly that mentioned it.
0:46:56 > 0:46:58Oh, right. Sorry.
0:46:58 > 0:47:00Right, well, I hope it works out for you. Have a nice day.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02Eileen...
0:47:03 > 0:47:07- I'm being a cow.- Mm-hmm.
0:47:07 > 0:47:08I shouldn't have snapped.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11Forget it.
0:47:11 > 0:47:12No, no, no.
0:47:12 > 0:47:16It's not fair, I shouldn't be taking my marital woes out on you.
0:47:16 > 0:47:18Seem to be making a habit of it lately.
0:47:18 > 0:47:20Are things tricky at home?
0:47:22 > 0:47:25Look, I think it's admirable that you're here at all.
0:47:25 > 0:47:28I mean, it shows real strength after...
0:47:28 > 0:47:31What, my cheating husband moving into his ex-girlfriend's flat?
0:47:31 > 0:47:32We were kids.
0:47:34 > 0:47:35I know.
0:47:36 > 0:47:40So I take it AJ's not happy about you working at the surgery?
0:47:40 > 0:47:42Something like that.
0:47:42 > 0:47:44It's ridiculous. I mean, I know he's your husband and all that...
0:47:44 > 0:47:46No, no, no, it's fine.
0:47:46 > 0:47:48You're preaching to the choir here on that one.
0:47:48 > 0:47:51I thought he was bigger than that.
0:47:51 > 0:47:52He has his moments.
0:47:54 > 0:47:57I'm just surprised he's not been chewing your ear off about it.
0:47:57 > 0:47:58No.
0:47:58 > 0:48:02And if he had, he'd have more than his pies in the oven.
0:48:02 > 0:48:04A woman after my own heart.
0:48:05 > 0:48:09Listen, if you ever fancy having a good moan about weak men
0:48:09 > 0:48:11and strong successful women,
0:48:11 > 0:48:13there's a bottle of wine with our names on it over at my pub.
0:48:13 > 0:48:15You're on.
0:48:17 > 0:48:20- That's me the talk of the steamie. - Come on, mate, it's not that bad.
0:48:20 > 0:48:22Angel's going to love telling everybody
0:48:22 > 0:48:24that I've got a drink problem.
0:48:24 > 0:48:26Would you trust somebody that might have the shakes
0:48:26 > 0:48:28with a pair of scissors next to your head?
0:48:28 > 0:48:31What if she's right? What if I have got a drink problem?
0:48:31 > 0:48:33That's the hangover talking.
0:48:33 > 0:48:36Patrick, as a pal, I need you to be honest.
0:48:37 > 0:48:39Do you think I'm an alcoholic?
0:48:39 > 0:48:41Alcoholic? No.
0:48:43 > 0:48:45A drama queen? A little.
0:49:02 > 0:49:04'Where are you?'
0:49:04 > 0:49:07Sorry. I had a load of paperwork I had to catch up on.
0:49:07 > 0:49:10'Are you avoiding spending time with me?'
0:49:10 > 0:49:11Course not.
0:49:11 > 0:49:14I'm doing my best here, but you need to give me something back.
0:49:14 > 0:49:16'When are you going to be home?'
0:49:16 > 0:49:19I don't know. Soon, I hope.
0:49:19 > 0:49:20All right, bye.
0:49:22 > 0:49:24HE SIGHS
0:49:40 > 0:49:41I hope you don't mind...
0:49:42 > 0:49:44The door was open.
0:49:50 > 0:49:54I need you tell me exactly what they said at the hospital.
0:50:04 > 0:50:06I can't have the chemo while I'm pregnant.
0:50:11 > 0:50:12The longer that I hang off
0:50:12 > 0:50:15the more likely it is that the cancer will spread.
0:50:18 > 0:50:21So the doctors...they want you to have a...?
0:50:21 > 0:50:22A termination. Aye.
0:50:32 > 0:50:34The only thing that was keeping me going was the thought
0:50:34 > 0:50:35of having this baby.
0:50:35 > 0:50:37Don't you dare.
0:50:37 > 0:50:38You need to fight.
0:50:40 > 0:50:44I want you to do whatever it takes to cure you of this.
0:50:46 > 0:50:48You have to get better.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53I'm not going to let you go.
0:50:56 > 0:50:58Do you want to lose this baby?
0:51:01 > 0:51:03I cannae choose the baby over you.
0:51:03 > 0:51:05I won't choose the baby over you.
0:51:07 > 0:51:09You don't have to. I do.
0:51:13 > 0:51:16I've already lost a baby, Stevie.
0:51:16 > 0:51:19I cannae choose to let this one die.
0:51:20 > 0:51:23But what about the treatment?
0:51:23 > 0:51:25You cannae just give that up.
0:51:26 > 0:51:27Not if it's going to save you.
0:51:30 > 0:51:33Stella, please. Just...listen to me.
0:51:34 > 0:51:35You have to get better.
0:51:37 > 0:51:38You've got to try.
0:51:39 > 0:51:42What if this baby was the one good thing to come out of the mess
0:51:42 > 0:51:43we've made of things?
0:51:43 > 0:51:47You've got to fight this.
0:51:47 > 0:51:49Please.
0:51:49 > 0:51:50Well, it's my decision.
0:51:57 > 0:51:58OK.
0:52:02 > 0:52:07Maybe I don't have any right to have a say in this because I screwed up.
0:52:13 > 0:52:16I know you're strong enough to put yourself through this on your own.
0:52:18 > 0:52:20But it'll destroy me if you shut me out.
0:52:22 > 0:52:24I want to help you get through what's ahead.
0:52:25 > 0:52:27Whatever you decide.
0:52:31 > 0:52:34I know it won't make up for what I've done. Nothing will.
0:52:38 > 0:52:41Just...please let me try.
0:52:45 > 0:52:46Please.
0:52:50 > 0:52:51If it's OK with you, then,
0:52:51 > 0:52:53I'm going to need to stay here a wee while longer.
0:52:53 > 0:52:56OK? I'm made up.
0:52:56 > 0:52:58DOORBELL RINGS
0:52:58 > 0:53:02Here. Go on. Cheer up. It's nearly Christmas.
0:53:02 > 0:53:03Ching!
0:53:08 > 0:53:09Ellie...
0:53:16 > 0:53:18Could we have a word in private?
0:53:18 > 0:53:19All right.
0:53:34 > 0:53:38Look, going to Vegas was insanity, I know that.
0:53:38 > 0:53:42I should have been here for you and for Angus.
0:53:42 > 0:53:46But getting drunk, getting married?
0:53:46 > 0:53:48Just proves I'm just as stupid as my sister.
0:53:48 > 0:53:50Ho!
0:53:51 > 0:53:53I don't deserve you.
0:53:54 > 0:54:00You were the best thing that ever happened to me and I wrecked it.
0:54:00 > 0:54:01I accept that.
0:54:02 > 0:54:08I just hope that we can still be friends and I won't ever...
0:54:16 > 0:54:18You had me at insanity.
0:54:19 > 0:54:23SHE SIGHS HAPPILY
0:54:27 > 0:54:29Doesn't make it any easier, does it?
0:54:35 > 0:54:40Well whatever you decide, you can still have the mastectomy.
0:54:42 > 0:54:46I don't care, Stella,
0:54:46 > 0:54:48what shape you are. I don't.
0:54:48 > 0:54:50I just want you to be well.
0:54:53 > 0:54:55We wanted this baby, Stevie.
0:54:59 > 0:55:01But if...you have the baby
0:55:01 > 0:55:03and then you're too sick to look after it...
0:55:03 > 0:55:05Wait a wee minute.
0:55:07 > 0:55:09You said you wanted to be a part of this.
0:55:12 > 0:55:14The wean would have you.
0:55:16 > 0:55:20- You can walk out that door right now if you want to...- No!
0:55:20 > 0:55:21I'm part of this.
0:55:21 > 0:55:22Whatever I decide?
0:55:25 > 0:55:26Whatever you decide.
0:55:30 > 0:55:33You know...
0:55:33 > 0:55:36there's always a possibility that we could...
0:55:37 > 0:55:39You could have another wean.
0:55:41 > 0:55:44Even if you didn't want it to be with me,
0:55:44 > 0:55:47you need to concentrate on getting better just now.
0:55:47 > 0:55:50Yeah, well, if I did get rid of it...
0:55:50 > 0:55:52I don't think I'd be able to live with myself.
0:55:54 > 0:55:55I cannae do it.
0:55:58 > 0:56:00I was kidding myself even considering it.
0:56:04 > 0:56:06- You need to be sure. - Yeah, well, I am.
0:56:11 > 0:56:12I'm just...
0:56:15 > 0:56:16..really scared.
0:56:25 > 0:56:28Come on, Eileen, it's Christmas. It's time for miracles.
0:56:28 > 0:56:30Are you saying I need a miracle to get a man?
0:56:30 > 0:56:34Someone's viewed your profile. Hello, early-30s entrepreneur.
0:56:34 > 0:56:35It's the best we can afford.
0:56:35 > 0:56:38It's not magical though, I want it to be magical.
0:56:38 > 0:56:39Magic costs money.
0:56:39 > 0:56:41Is it so hard for you to believe that
0:56:41 > 0:56:44I might just want to spend Christmas with you?
0:56:44 > 0:56:45This is the part where I say,
0:56:45 > 0:56:47there's no way you're in your thirties.
0:56:47 > 0:56:50Maybe you should look at my life and the way it is and change your ways.
0:56:50 > 0:56:52I'm your Ghost of Christmas Future, Alex.
0:56:52 > 0:56:54How can I look my kids in the eye?
0:56:54 > 0:56:56The kids get it, you're the one with no grip on reality.
0:56:56 > 0:56:58It's you that can't face a skint Christmas, not them.
0:56:58 > 0:57:01No-one wants to break their mum's heart at Christmas.
0:57:01 > 0:57:03I do. Does that make me a bad person?
0:57:03 > 0:57:05- They look like last night's clothes. - I stayed over with a friend.
0:57:05 > 0:57:08Good of her to put you up. Or him.