0:00:20 > 0:00:22- Drew, who did that to ye?- Naebody! What's it to you?
0:00:22 > 0:00:24What are you even daein' here?!
0:00:24 > 0:00:25- He's self-harming. - You're lying.
0:00:25 > 0:00:27Nothing bad is going to happen.
0:00:27 > 0:00:29But if it was, you wouldn't be able to stop it.
0:00:29 > 0:00:34He's not only black and blue, he's skin and bone!
0:00:34 > 0:00:35He's fading away.
0:00:35 > 0:00:39I know I'm going to lose him bit by bit.
0:00:39 > 0:00:44As long as I am able, I am going to fight tooth and nail.
0:00:44 > 0:00:47- I love you. - Then, why are you leaving me here?
0:00:47 > 0:00:48TOILET FLUSHES
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- Ahhh!- Ahhh!
0:00:56 > 0:00:58Molly, Molly, it's me, Alasdair.
0:00:58 > 0:00:59Alasdair!
0:00:59 > 0:01:01Yes, I'm sorry, Liz made me up a bed,
0:01:01 > 0:01:03we were listening to Gilbert and Sullivan.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05# I am the very model of a modern major-general... #
0:01:05 > 0:01:07Oh, Liz, Liz!
0:01:07 > 0:01:10# I've information, animal, vegetable and mineral... #
0:01:10 > 0:01:12You're raving! Have you dunted yer heed?
0:01:12 > 0:01:15It's a song from The Pirates of Penzance.
0:01:15 > 0:01:19- What is going on out here? - I caught this yin creeping aboot.
0:01:19 > 0:01:21PHONE RINGS
0:01:21 > 0:01:24Oh, what's this now? It's two o'clock in the morning.
0:01:27 > 0:01:28Hello?
0:01:29 > 0:01:31Elizabeth Hamilton speaking.
0:01:34 > 0:01:37You didnae need to see me all the way to the front door.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39It's all part of the service.
0:01:39 > 0:01:41This the way you get tips off the old dears, aye?
0:01:41 > 0:01:44Aye, I just flirt with the old dears. But don't you tell Scarlet.
0:01:44 > 0:01:46HE CHUCKLES
0:01:46 > 0:01:49- Oh, Stella... - Oh, you've got to be kidding me.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Look, stay at our place tonight, we'll get this fixed the morra.
0:01:53 > 0:01:56No way! Jimmy, all our stuff is in there, what have they done with it?
0:01:56 > 0:01:58Look, I'm no' taking no for an answer!
0:02:01 > 0:02:03Thanks.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05Don't want to see a damsel in distress, eh?
0:02:05 > 0:02:07- Eh, I'm no in distress, I'm fine. - I know, I know.
0:02:14 > 0:02:15Mum?
0:02:15 > 0:02:18- What you doing up? - I just wanted to check my e-mail.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22Why you still up?
0:02:23 > 0:02:26I was watching a documentary on Britain's best unsolved murders,
0:02:26 > 0:02:27pure gave me the heebies.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29- Best?- Well, maybe it was worst.
0:02:32 > 0:02:35- What you daein'? - University offers are due.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39I thought they would come through just after midnight, but...
0:02:39 > 0:02:42there's nothing yet though. Must be the morning.
0:02:42 > 0:02:44You'll get in.
0:02:44 > 0:02:45Well, it's easy for you to say, I mean,
0:02:45 > 0:02:48what if I don't get any offers at all?
0:02:48 > 0:02:51You that desperate to get away fae us?
0:02:51 > 0:02:53There are universities near here, you know.
0:02:55 > 0:02:57You worried about me leaving?
0:02:57 > 0:02:59LAUGHING SOFTLY: Naw.
0:03:02 > 0:03:03Is your arm OK?
0:03:05 > 0:03:06Just itchy.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Right, I'm going back to bed.
0:03:16 > 0:03:18HOPE COOS
0:03:29 > 0:03:31Shh-shh-shh. HOPE CRIES
0:03:35 > 0:03:41- What's going on?- I didn't mean to upset her.- It's OK.- Sorry, Stella.
0:03:41 > 0:03:43It's OK, Kelly. Just give her here, I can dae it.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45Shh-shh.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49- OK.- I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52What are you daein' here? I didnae know you were staying...
0:03:52 > 0:03:54- I know, I shouldnae be... - What's happening?- It's fine.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57Just got confused and I heard a cry and...
0:03:57 > 0:04:00- Oh, darling, come here. - I just thought I would help...
0:04:00 > 0:04:01KELLY-MARIE SOBS
0:04:01 > 0:04:03Look, I'm sorry, I'm just going to go.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06- MUFFLED CHILDREN'S VOICES - Don't be daft. That's Madonna and Cal up now.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08- Jimmy, gonnae see to them? - Look, you really don't have to go.
0:04:08 > 0:04:09Naw, really, I dae.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13KELLY-MARIE SOBS QUIETLY
0:04:17 > 0:04:21The girl just said that Malcolm had pneumonia,
0:04:21 > 0:04:24and we should get there as a matter of urgency.
0:04:25 > 0:04:27Should he not be in hospital if he has got pneumonia?
0:04:27 > 0:04:29- Stella? - Eileen, I'm so glad to see you.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32Are you OK? I didn't expect to see you back here so soon.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Listen, we have to get going, Eileen.
0:04:34 > 0:04:36I'm really sorry, I've just got nowhere else to go.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39I couldnae get in to my flat, and I was staying at
0:04:39 > 0:04:42- Scarlett and Jimmy's, but... - Slow down - it's fine.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44I hate to ask, but is it all right if I stay?
0:04:44 > 0:04:46Listen, we are just on our way out, dear.
0:04:46 > 0:04:50- It would just be one for night. - Malcolm has taken a turn.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53- Aww, right. - We're just heading to the care home.
0:04:53 > 0:04:55I'm sorry, I shouldnae have bothered you, I'll just go.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57No, no, don't be daft, of course you can stay.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00Molly's looking after Stuart, she'll keep you company.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03- Listen, I can watch Stuart if you want.- Really?
0:05:03 > 0:05:04Aye, it's the least I can dae.
0:05:04 > 0:05:07Take over baby-sitting duties and let Molly get up the road.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10- Oh, thank you. Here.- Eileen!
0:05:10 > 0:05:12All right, Liz. I'll be back as soon as I can.
0:05:16 > 0:05:17Angus Lindsay.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21Day four.
0:05:21 > 0:05:23My concentration is good.
0:05:25 > 0:05:27My energy levels are...
0:05:27 > 0:05:29HE INHALES
0:05:29 > 0:05:30..are good.
0:05:31 > 0:05:33I have filled in today's questionnaire
0:05:33 > 0:05:35and I submitted it online.
0:05:35 > 0:05:36Busted!
0:05:36 > 0:05:39COMPUTER BLEEPS
0:05:39 > 0:05:42- LAUGHING:- What's going on?
0:05:42 > 0:05:47- What? Nothing, nothing.- Here, are you daein' webcam work.- What?
0:05:47 > 0:05:48You know, like...
0:05:48 > 0:05:51- # I'm your private dancer... # - Shut up!
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Come on, you've been weird all week, even Ellie's noticed it.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56Now you're filming yourself in the middle of the night -
0:05:56 > 0:05:57what's going on?
0:05:57 > 0:05:59HE SIGHS
0:05:59 > 0:06:01Right, fine.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04- I'm daein' a medical trial for some students at the uni.- Whit?
0:06:04 > 0:06:06No way, man, that's pure heavy.
0:06:06 > 0:06:08Here, you wantae watch it, you don't
0:06:08 > 0:06:10want your heed to end up swelling up like a pure...
0:06:10 > 0:06:13No! It's no like that. It's a sleep deprivation study,
0:06:13 > 0:06:16I've to stay up for five nights and dae a video diary each night.
0:06:16 > 0:06:20- What's the point in that? - I dunno, I'm just a participant.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23Mate, you've been up all week for some students?
0:06:23 > 0:06:26Just wrap it and get to your bed, you look awful!
0:06:26 > 0:06:29Well, I've been up for three nights. It's just one mare night.
0:06:29 > 0:06:32- After the night.- You. Are. Mad.
0:06:34 > 0:06:35BOB EXHALES
0:06:42 > 0:06:44COMPUTER BLEEPS
0:06:44 > 0:06:49He'll... He'll be better once we get him to hospital.
0:06:49 > 0:06:50Uh-huh.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54I suppose we should have expected something like this to happen.
0:06:54 > 0:06:57- This place is a shambles.- Oh, Liz...
0:06:59 > 0:07:03He needs to be seen by a real medical professional.
0:07:03 > 0:07:06He's being seen by a GP.
0:07:06 > 0:07:10No, I, I'm talking a specialist at a hospital.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14Then he'll be back to full strength in no time.
0:07:14 > 0:07:16Liz, were you listening?
0:07:17 > 0:07:20Whatever happens, my dad doesn't have much longer.
0:07:20 > 0:07:23No, they said if he was taken into hospital
0:07:23 > 0:07:26they would expect him to make a full recovery.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- From the pneumonia.- Y-Yes.
0:07:29 > 0:07:33But if it is not that, it will be something else.
0:07:33 > 0:07:37We really need to think about making him as comfortable as possible.
0:07:37 > 0:07:41Oh, no, hospital is the best place for him.
0:07:41 > 0:07:44Let's see how the antibiotics work.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47Och, chances are they won't.
0:07:47 > 0:07:51No, he needs to be moved to the hospital by the end of today.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53For what...?
0:07:54 > 0:07:58- For what...?! - For a few extra months?- Yes!
0:07:59 > 0:08:02Liz... Liz, I know this is difficult, but...
0:08:04 > 0:08:06..my dad hasn't been well for a long time,
0:08:06 > 0:08:09and he's not going to get any better.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11We need to consider...
0:08:13 > 0:08:14..letting him go.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18Out of the question!
0:08:21 > 0:08:24I need to get home, I need to make arrangements for the pub.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26Well, I'm going to wait here.
0:08:26 > 0:08:29No, you come with me, we could both do with a rest.
0:08:29 > 0:08:33I promise I will get us back here as soon as possible.
0:08:33 > 0:08:34SHE SIGHS
0:08:34 > 0:08:37- All right.- I'll need to phone Gina.- Gina?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40Yeah, we will need to tell her what is going on.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48MUSIC PLAYS ON LAPTOP
0:08:56 > 0:08:57DOORBELL RINGS
0:08:57 > 0:08:58I'll get it!
0:09:02 > 0:09:04- Congratulations!- Shh!- What?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06I thought we were meeting at the Oyster.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08Well, I didn't think you would want to carry
0:09:08 > 0:09:09these around all day...Dr McLean.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Shh! I haven't found the right moment to tell...you know?
0:09:17 > 0:09:20Here he comes, the human gift voucher, Mr Birthdays and Christmas.
0:09:20 > 0:09:21What'd you mean?
0:09:21 > 0:09:24- Only ever turns up for the good news.- Wait a minute, Caitlin.
0:09:24 > 0:09:27Mum, I was going to tell you, I just hadn't found the right moment.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30- Is that right?- So you got in, then?
0:09:32 > 0:09:34Sorry, did I speak out of turn?
0:09:34 > 0:09:38I was going to tell you, and Mum. They're only conditional offers.
0:09:38 > 0:09:39What's the condition?
0:09:39 > 0:09:41I need to get A's in my higher physics
0:09:41 > 0:09:44- and my advanced higher biology. - There is always conditions, Jenny,
0:09:44 > 0:09:46you would be as well learning that the now.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Well, I'm going to need to work hard, I know that.
0:09:48 > 0:09:51- That's no' what I mean. It's a trap.- No, it's not.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53I got an e-mail, and I double-checked
0:09:53 > 0:09:55on the actual UCAS website.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57University IS the trap.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59What do you want to go to university for anyway?
0:09:59 > 0:10:01You'll only end up working in a burger van.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03Oh, come on, Caitlin, you're taking this all wrong.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05It's all right for you, innit?
0:10:05 > 0:10:08Glamorous Gary swanning in when all the heavy lifting's been done.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10Because you're Mother of the Year, aren't you?
0:10:10 > 0:10:13- What's that mean to mean?! - Hardly textbook parenting, is it?
0:10:13 > 0:10:16- Who do you think you are?!- Gonnae just shut up, the both of yous!
0:10:19 > 0:10:21- Let's get that coffee.- I need to go and check if Drew is OK.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23He'll be fine, he's got his mum.
0:10:31 > 0:10:35Eileen thinks we should just let him die in that nursing home,
0:10:35 > 0:10:37not even give him a chance to get better.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39Oh, does she?
0:10:41 > 0:10:44And she says it as if it is nothing, as if...
0:10:44 > 0:10:47she's talking about some old car that's needing scrapped.
0:10:47 > 0:10:54- That's terrible.- I mean, how can she give up on her own father like that?
0:10:57 > 0:11:01I know he may not be the same man that I married,
0:11:01 > 0:11:02but he's still Malcolm.
0:11:04 > 0:11:07What do you think Malcolm wants?
0:11:07 > 0:11:08Oh, he's...
0:11:10 > 0:11:14..completely unresponsive now, he's got no idea what's going on.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18Yeah, but, I mean, you're his wife.
0:11:19 > 0:11:23What do you think he would want done in this situation?
0:11:25 > 0:11:28Well, I should think he would want what anyone would want,
0:11:28 > 0:11:30to get better.
0:11:38 > 0:11:42- Hi!- Hey, wee man.- Be a good boy for your grandad.- I will, bye, Mummy.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44Eh, Kel'...
0:11:44 > 0:11:46Oh, does he not have a coat? Excuse me.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49- I'm taking him to Montego Street, no Montego Bay.- What is it?
0:11:49 > 0:11:51Where's his coat?
0:11:51 > 0:11:55- Wait there.- Am I going to have to call child services here?
0:11:55 > 0:11:58There you go. Right, gie Granny a kiss.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01- And be good.- I will, bye. - What's up with her?- Who?
0:12:01 > 0:12:04Kylie Minogue, who do you think?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Lenny, she's just lost a baby.
0:12:06 > 0:12:10- She'll be fine, I'll look after her. - Somebody better. 'Mon, pal.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19Hiya. Didnae hear you come in this morning.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22- How's your dad?- Och, you know...
0:12:22 > 0:12:24You managed to find sheets and everything OK?
0:12:24 > 0:12:28Aye, it was the best sleep I've had in ages actually.
0:12:28 > 0:12:30- Thanks for looking after this one. - That's OK.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33- So what did the care home say?- What?
0:12:33 > 0:12:35About your dad, is it anything serious?
0:12:35 > 0:12:37No, no, it's nothing serious.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41It's good to see you back, Stella.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44And this wee one too.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46I know, she has got the patience of a saint considering
0:12:46 > 0:12:48everything that has happened.
0:12:48 > 0:12:51- Must get that fae her daddy. - Where is Stevie?
0:12:54 > 0:12:56- He's going to come back for us. - You sure?
0:12:58 > 0:13:00He wouldnae leave Hope, Eileen.
0:13:00 > 0:13:01He's no' just gonnae let us go.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04Stella, you do realise, if he comes back to Shieldinch
0:13:04 > 0:13:07- he'll be arrested?- Yep.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10Em, anyway, that must have been a right shock for you getting
0:13:10 > 0:13:14- that news in the middle of the night.- Honestly, I'm fine.
0:13:14 > 0:13:18- Liz is the one I am more worried about.- How, what's wrong with her?
0:13:18 > 0:13:20Oh, she's in denial.
0:13:23 > 0:13:26- Lenny Murdoch criticising how - I- look after MY weans?
0:13:26 > 0:13:29- Just don't let him get to you, eh? - I'm no' letting him get to me!
0:13:31 > 0:13:34- He's right but, int' he? - Right about what?- Kelly.
0:13:35 > 0:13:39She's getting worse, Jimmy. She drifts aboot the hoose like a ghost.
0:13:39 > 0:13:42- I know, it's heartbreaking. - It's Cal she's got to think about.
0:13:42 > 0:13:45- What can we dae?- Well, I think she needs to speak to somebody.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48She'll barely leave the hoose to go to the shops!
0:13:52 > 0:13:59Yes, yes, I see. Yes, I understand, thank you.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03We'll be in shortly.
0:14:07 > 0:14:13That was the home. Malcolm is not responding to the antibiotics.
0:14:13 > 0:14:16So are you going to have him moved into the hospital, then?
0:14:16 > 0:14:20- Well, that's our only option. - That's terrible, isn't it?
0:14:20 > 0:14:25Ohh...one minute you're 18, at the dancing, having a ball,
0:14:25 > 0:14:31then the next, you're 82...in a hospital bed wi' tubes in you.
0:14:34 > 0:14:37Oh, right. I was never much of a dancer.
0:14:37 > 0:14:38MOLLY LAUGHS
0:14:38 > 0:14:41I mainly went to the dancing for the fellas an aw!
0:14:41 > 0:14:47You know what I mean? Oh, dear, where does the time go?
0:14:49 > 0:14:51They said they were confident that they could
0:14:51 > 0:14:53treat his pneumonia at the hospital.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56- Well, that's good, isn't it?- Yes.
0:14:57 > 0:14:59Then what?
0:14:59 > 0:15:01How do you mean?
0:15:01 > 0:15:05Well, once they have treated the pneumonia, then what happens?
0:15:05 > 0:15:07Well, then he would return to the home.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09MOLLY EXHALES
0:15:09 > 0:15:14If I was in his position, I'd just want to be left alane to go.
0:15:14 > 0:15:18- It's me I'm talking about here. - Aye, well, you're not Malcolm.
0:15:18 > 0:15:22No, you're quite right, I'm not.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27I'm just saying that... Oh...
0:15:28 > 0:15:31- Disnae matter.- Oh, speak your mind, Molly, for goodness' sake.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34Well...
0:15:34 > 0:15:36we're ladies of a certain age.
0:15:36 > 0:15:41- CHUCKLING:- Yes. - And we can easily imagine
0:15:41 > 0:15:43being where poor Malcolm is now.
0:15:48 > 0:15:53Ohh, I'm sorry, I didnae mean to upset you.
0:15:54 > 0:15:58Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry...
0:16:01 > 0:16:04You know, I...
0:16:04 > 0:16:08I knew fine when we were married that we wouldn't
0:16:08 > 0:16:09have each other long,
0:16:09 > 0:16:12we were neither of us spring chickens, but...
0:16:13 > 0:16:16..I didn't expect to lose him so soon.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18But you've no' lost him yet.
0:16:18 > 0:16:22He hasn't recognised me in months, Molly.
0:16:22 > 0:16:25Oh, ya soul.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29At least...
0:16:29 > 0:16:31I can still see him.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35I can hold his hand.
0:16:35 > 0:16:38I know where he is.
0:16:40 > 0:16:44If I let him go now, he'll be...
0:16:44 > 0:16:47SHE SOBS
0:16:47 > 0:16:52..Malcolm Hamilton will be gone for ever,
0:16:52 > 0:16:55and I'll just be here on my own.
0:16:55 > 0:16:58- But you're not on your own. - You know what I mean.
0:16:58 > 0:17:04I do, but I'm telling you, you are not alone. You've got me.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18Malcolm...
0:17:18 > 0:17:19used to say...
0:17:22 > 0:17:24.."When your time's up...
0:17:26 > 0:17:27"..your time's up."
0:17:33 > 0:17:36Hey. Well, did you get your offers through today?
0:17:36 > 0:17:40Yes, I got conditionals to Glasgow and Dundee.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43- That is brilliant, well done. - Thank you.- You're not thrilled?
0:17:43 > 0:17:46Oh, I am, and thank you for everything.
0:17:46 > 0:17:49You are a clever, hard-working girl who gets everything she deserves.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52- I am very proud of you. - So am I.
0:17:52 > 0:17:53Sorry, we've not met.
0:17:53 > 0:17:56- Oh, this is Dr Jandhu. - Annie.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58Hi, I'm Gary, Jenny's dad.
0:17:58 > 0:18:01- So you're Jenny's dad?- That's right, proudest man in Shieldinch.
0:18:01 > 0:18:03- Well, nice to meet you.- You too.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05Now is where the hard work starts, Jenny.
0:18:05 > 0:18:07It is not easy getting a medical degree, you're going to
0:18:07 > 0:18:09work harder than you ever thought possible.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11If I even get in.
0:18:11 > 0:18:14- You have got this far, have a bit of faith in yourself.- Exactly.
0:18:14 > 0:18:15Look, I need to get to work.
0:18:15 > 0:18:19Why not take a day off from giving yourself a hard time?
0:18:19 > 0:18:20Celebrate.
0:18:20 > 0:18:24The world will keep turning, even if you're not punishing yourself.
0:18:30 > 0:18:34- Hiya. You no' answering your door now, no?- It's you.- Uh-huh.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36Was just on my way to work,
0:18:36 > 0:18:38thought I would see how Jenny got on with her university offers.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40Where is she, out celebrating with her pals?
0:18:40 > 0:18:42What is there to celebrate?
0:18:42 > 0:18:44Ohh.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48- Did she no' get in? - She got in.- That's brilliant!
0:18:48 > 0:18:51I'm losing them all, Ellie.
0:18:51 > 0:18:53Jenny's leaving and Drew's up the stairs worrying about
0:18:53 > 0:18:55her leaving already.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57He'll be straight out the door after her.
0:18:57 > 0:19:01Look...they're getting to that age.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04- They just want away from me. - That is not true.
0:19:05 > 0:19:09- Can you stay?- Doll, I can't, I need to open up the pub.
0:19:09 > 0:19:13- Malcolm's not well, so Eileen needs me.- Fine, go to your work, then.
0:19:13 > 0:19:17- Caitlin, Malcolm is in a really bad way.- I'll be fine, on you go.
0:19:17 > 0:19:21You are your own worst enemy, you need to start supporting those kids.
0:19:21 > 0:19:23I do support those kids!
0:19:23 > 0:19:25Jenny got into university!
0:19:25 > 0:19:27You should be throwing a party for her,
0:19:27 > 0:19:29no a wee pity party for yourself.
0:19:36 > 0:19:38Right...
0:19:38 > 0:19:42I'm going to give you one more chance. I'm going to count
0:19:42 > 0:19:46to three, and if this bolt doesnae come off...
0:19:46 > 0:19:50One, two, three...
0:19:51 > 0:19:52CLANG
0:19:52 > 0:19:54Stupid...
0:19:54 > 0:19:56- Stupid car!- Haw, calm doon!
0:19:56 > 0:19:59I warned it, Bob, I gave it one more chance, I'm no messing aboot here!
0:19:59 > 0:20:02Angus, it's a motor, it cannae hear you!
0:20:02 > 0:20:04ANGUS SIGHS
0:20:04 > 0:20:05What am I daein' with my life, Bob?
0:20:05 > 0:20:09What are you daein' this stupid sleep study thing for anyway?
0:20:09 > 0:20:11You're gonnae end up killing yourself, and for what?
0:20:11 > 0:20:14You're right.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown here.
0:20:16 > 0:20:20- For one measly grand, it's no even worth it.- Ho, ho...
0:20:20 > 0:20:22Slow doon, slow doon.
0:20:22 > 0:20:25- A grand? They're paying you a grand?- Aye.
0:20:27 > 0:20:31But...I feel like there's... bugs under my skin.
0:20:31 > 0:20:35I'm seeing things, Bob, mental things.
0:20:35 > 0:20:38- I saw a cartoon rat last night. - Aye, but a grand's a grand.
0:20:40 > 0:20:44- I just want to go to my bed. - Ho, come on, hey.
0:20:44 > 0:20:46Go and get us a couple of coffees or something, eh?
0:20:46 > 0:20:49Cos I tell you what, you're no going to sleep now.
0:20:49 > 0:20:51You're into the garage for the cost of a new exhaust,
0:20:51 > 0:20:54so you'd better get that money, all right?
0:20:54 > 0:20:56- All right.- Right, come on, go. Go on.
0:21:02 > 0:21:04KNOCK ON DOOR
0:21:04 > 0:21:05- Go away!- I've had time to think.
0:21:05 > 0:21:08We should dae something for your sister, I don't want that...
0:21:08 > 0:21:10Gary...
0:21:10 > 0:21:11What are you doing?
0:21:11 > 0:21:14It's nothing, it looks worse than it is.
0:21:14 > 0:21:15What have you done?!
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- Annie doesn't give out compliments easily.- Really?
0:21:26 > 0:21:27I thought she seemed nice.
0:21:27 > 0:21:30Well, she is nice, but she doesn't give out compliments easily.
0:21:30 > 0:21:33Well, you deserve all the compliments going.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35I'm so proud of you, Jenny.
0:21:35 > 0:21:36COINS SCATTER
0:21:38 > 0:21:40Sorry, folks.
0:21:40 > 0:21:42What is it?
0:21:42 > 0:21:44Mum and Drew think I'm abandoning them.
0:21:44 > 0:21:45You're not abandoning anyone.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47I know, but that's not how they see it.
0:21:47 > 0:21:50- You need to put yourself first this once.- Mum can't cope without me.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52Jenny, you have got this all back to front.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54- You don't know what it's like. - I know you're not the mum.
0:21:54 > 0:21:57We are not like other families, we are a team,
0:21:57 > 0:21:59and it needs all of us to function.
0:22:00 > 0:22:02Sorry.
0:22:06 > 0:22:08Your mum raised you all right, didn't she?
0:22:08 > 0:22:11I know I wasn't always there to help, but from where I'm sitting,
0:22:11 > 0:22:13she did a great job.
0:22:13 > 0:22:16So why can't she do the same for Drew and Ruby?
0:22:16 > 0:22:18- OK?- OK.
0:22:18 > 0:22:22- That's better. - I know I'm being a misery.
0:22:22 > 0:22:26Can we just go back and check they're OK? I feel bad about before.
0:22:26 > 0:22:27Of course.
0:22:32 > 0:22:33HE YAWNS
0:22:53 > 0:22:55RADIO PLAYS
0:22:55 > 0:22:57- Did you see...?- What?
0:23:04 > 0:23:07I'm fine, you're overreacting.
0:23:07 > 0:23:12What's wrong with you? How could you do this to yourself?
0:23:14 > 0:23:16Am I such a bad mother?
0:23:18 > 0:23:19Naw!
0:23:21 > 0:23:23If you loved me, you wouldnae do this.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Caitlin, I think you should hear Jenny out.
0:23:28 > 0:23:32- Aye, whatever. - Are you OK, Drew?- I'm fine.
0:23:32 > 0:23:33Mum, can I go upstairs, please?
0:23:33 > 0:23:35Sit there.
0:23:35 > 0:23:37Maybe it would be best if just the three of us talked.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42- Mind your own business. - What's wrong?
0:23:42 > 0:23:46- Nothing, he has just hurt his arm, that's all.- How did he hurt his arm?
0:23:46 > 0:23:47I don't know.
0:23:47 > 0:23:49- Is that blood?- Stay there.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53- What's wrong with you? - What do you care?
0:23:53 > 0:23:56You're desperate to get away fae us, aren't you?
0:23:56 > 0:23:59- I'm not, I'm part of this family! - Caitlin, what is going on?
0:24:01 > 0:24:04You going to ride in on your white stallion and saved the day, aye?
0:24:04 > 0:24:06- What is wrong with Drew?- I'm fine.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08He's hurting himself!
0:24:08 > 0:24:09- CAITLIN SOBS - What?
0:24:11 > 0:24:13What do you mean, "He's hurting himself"?
0:24:16 > 0:24:18- He's going to be fine.- Drew!
0:24:36 > 0:24:40- Liz...here are you are.- Eileen.
0:24:43 > 0:24:47OK, I want you to listen to me, I've been thinking about this a lot.
0:24:47 > 0:24:51- So have I.- And I'm afraid I'm going to have to be very clear with you.
0:24:53 > 0:24:55I do not think we should move my dad.
0:24:57 > 0:25:01- Neither do I.- What? What did you say?
0:25:03 > 0:25:07- I agree.- You agree?- Yes.
0:25:09 > 0:25:12Great, good, well, I'm glad you've seen sense.
0:25:15 > 0:25:22A friend...helped me to realise that I was being selfish.
0:25:22 > 0:25:26Oh...I think that's a bit strong.
0:25:26 > 0:25:32Liz, I know this is difficult, but we will support each other.
0:25:32 > 0:25:35That's what my dad would want. And we are all he has got now.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41Why's my dad not in the hospital?
0:25:45 > 0:25:47I know that I haven't been about as much because I have been
0:25:47 > 0:25:51studying and everything, but I'll make sure I'm home more.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53I'll be there for you.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56Please, look at me, Drew.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00You don't have to worry about me leaving you,
0:26:00 > 0:26:02because I'm not going to.
0:26:02 > 0:26:04I won't go to university, I just want you to be OK.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06I don't want to hold you back.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08You're not holding me back, you're my brother
0:26:08 > 0:26:10and I want to be there for you.
0:26:10 > 0:26:11I'll just drag you down with me.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15- You need help. - I need to be left alone.
0:26:19 > 0:26:21- I'm going to call Dr Jandhu. - No, don't!
0:26:21 > 0:26:23I'm sorry, Drew, but we need help.
0:26:23 > 0:26:26Please, I'm serious, Jenny, I'll be fine.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29- If you care about me you willnae dae this!- I'm sorry.
0:26:34 > 0:26:36How could you have not told me how ill he is?
0:26:36 > 0:26:38What did you think was happening with our 82-year-old father?
0:26:38 > 0:26:40Did you think he was going to
0:26:40 > 0:26:42- get a second wind? - Yeah, well, I'm here now.
0:26:42 > 0:26:44We're going to get him back on the road to recovery.
0:26:44 > 0:26:45It's not that straightforward!
0:26:45 > 0:26:49First things first, we will get him into hospital and get this
0:26:49 > 0:26:52pneumonia dealt with, and then we will see about treating his mind.
0:26:52 > 0:26:55Treating his mind?! I can't believe I am hearing this, are you joking?
0:26:55 > 0:26:58There is always things online about new treatments,
0:26:58 > 0:26:59we have to try everything.
0:26:59 > 0:27:02It is too late!
0:27:02 > 0:27:04Have you even investigated complementary therapies?
0:27:04 > 0:27:06- Are you drunk? - Oh, Eileen.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09I'm sorry, Liz, but she needs to hear this.
0:27:09 > 0:27:13My dad has been getting worse and worse for months.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16The last time he recognised me was over a year ago.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18Now, I am sorry that you didn't get a chance to say goodbye,
0:27:18 > 0:27:21but it's too late. He's gone already.
0:27:23 > 0:27:25- You're heartless.- Girls!
0:27:25 > 0:27:28You are the one that wants to keep that body in there alive,
0:27:28 > 0:27:30just to salve your guilty conscience.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33Girls, please, this is not what Malcolm would want.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36Sorry, Liz, my wee sister has always thrown her weight about like this.
0:27:36 > 0:27:39I'm not going to let you do this.
0:27:39 > 0:27:44- It's not my fault that you let him down at the end.- How can you say that?!
0:27:44 > 0:27:47And how can you think that me and Liz don't know what's best for him?
0:27:47 > 0:27:50- We have to let him go. - You're not in charge!
0:27:50 > 0:27:52Oh, will you please be quiet?
0:27:53 > 0:27:57- Show a little respect.- Sorry, Liz.
0:27:57 > 0:28:00Sorry, Liz.
0:28:00 > 0:28:04I'm going in there... to check on him.
0:28:06 > 0:28:09And I expect to see you two behaving like civilised beings
0:28:09 > 0:28:11when I come out.
0:28:17 > 0:28:20Look, it goes right from there way along to there.
0:28:20 > 0:28:24I mean, you do know who your Auntie Amber is, don't you?
0:28:24 > 0:28:26She's your daddy's sister. I'm fixing all this house up
0:28:26 > 0:28:27cos she's coming home soon,
0:28:27 > 0:28:30and we are going to stay in this house together, me and her.
0:28:30 > 0:28:31Oh, and you, of course.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34You'll have your own room, you can stay whenever you want.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36You'll like that, eh?
0:28:36 > 0:28:37You'd like that, Cal, eh?
0:28:37 > 0:28:40- Dad!- Hey, wee man, how you doing?
0:28:40 > 0:28:42How's the books doing?
0:28:42 > 0:28:45Getting there. Diluting them day by day.
0:28:45 > 0:28:46Can't just press a button
0:28:46 > 0:28:49and erase all signs that my mother ever existed, you know?
0:28:49 > 0:28:53- It's a process.- Well, as long as the process is in process.- It is.
0:28:53 > 0:28:56So, this is it, then, eh?
0:28:56 > 0:28:58Casa del Lenny.
0:28:58 > 0:29:01The Ponde-Murdoch. Awful big house just for you.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04Just as well I'm no' going to be staying on my own, then.
0:29:04 > 0:29:05You seem pretty sure that
0:29:05 > 0:29:07Amber's gonnae want to come back and play happy families.
0:29:07 > 0:29:09- What's that got to do with you?- Nothing.
0:29:09 > 0:29:12Nothing, exactly, so mind your own business.
0:29:12 > 0:29:13SMASHING
0:29:13 > 0:29:15Oh, be careful! They're Italian.
0:29:16 > 0:29:18Cost more than a week of his wages.
0:29:18 > 0:29:20Well, pleasure catching up with you, as always.
0:29:20 > 0:29:22Hey, hey, what is it, you no' speak the English?
0:29:22 > 0:29:24They tiles, in there!
0:29:24 > 0:29:26Dad!
0:29:28 > 0:29:30You be a good boy for your mummy, OK?
0:29:34 > 0:29:38So, look, I've been thinking, I should be your coach.
0:29:38 > 0:29:42I should train you through your last night. It's the least I could dae.
0:29:42 > 0:29:46I'll be...Amelie Mauresmo to your Andy Murray.
0:29:46 > 0:29:48COFFEE CUP THUDS AND BOB SIGHS
0:29:48 > 0:29:50Mate, wake up. Come on, wake up!
0:29:50 > 0:29:54- I'm awake.- Right, come on, nae mare sitting doon for you.
0:29:54 > 0:29:57- Does Andy sit doon?- Aye, he sits down between sets.
0:29:57 > 0:30:00Aye, well, he wouldnae if he was trying to stay awake, would he?
0:30:00 > 0:30:04From here on in, I want you to be thinking, "What would Andy dae?"
0:30:04 > 0:30:08- Because he's a winner and you're a winner too, Angus.- I'm a loser.
0:30:08 > 0:30:09No, come on, look, get up.
0:30:09 > 0:30:11Come on, you're a winner, mate,
0:30:11 > 0:30:16- and you're gonnae finish this study and win the money, right?- Right.
0:30:16 > 0:30:20- And you're gonnae pay for the exhaust that you leathered.- Right.
0:30:20 > 0:30:24- And gie me 10% for helping. - Right.
0:30:24 > 0:30:25What?
0:30:28 > 0:30:29I got carried away there.
0:30:31 > 0:30:33Don't worry about it.
0:30:33 > 0:30:37He's not going to last another night unless we get him into hospital.
0:30:37 > 0:30:38EILEEN SIGHS
0:30:38 > 0:30:40I know.
0:30:40 > 0:30:43I understand Liz is his wife and it's her they need to get
0:30:43 > 0:30:46the consent from but if we work together, we can persuade her.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53I don't want to persuade her.
0:30:53 > 0:30:55She's right.
0:30:55 > 0:30:59He needs to be allowed to go, it's the best thing.
0:30:59 > 0:31:00But I'm here now.
0:31:00 > 0:31:03I can take some of the burden, I'll look after him.
0:31:03 > 0:31:06It's not about that, this isn't about me or Liz,
0:31:06 > 0:31:07this is about my dad.
0:31:09 > 0:31:10Right, well, let's just...
0:31:10 > 0:31:14- get him through this and we'll see how he is.- I know how he is.
0:31:14 > 0:31:17We can't drag him to hospital and have him in pain
0:31:17 > 0:31:19for weeks and weeks just...
0:31:19 > 0:31:22so that you can get a bit of time at his bedside.
0:31:23 > 0:31:26Please, Eileen.
0:31:26 > 0:31:27Please, I...
0:31:28 > 0:31:32- I didn't know how bad he was. - It doesn't matter now.
0:31:33 > 0:31:35But even if there's a...
0:31:37 > 0:31:39..a tiny...
0:31:40 > 0:31:42..a tiny wee hope that...
0:31:43 > 0:31:46..that he sees me and...
0:31:46 > 0:31:48remembers.
0:31:49 > 0:31:51Even for a moment.
0:31:54 > 0:31:56- SOBBING:- So I can...
0:31:56 > 0:31:58So I can tell him how much I love him.
0:32:02 > 0:32:05He knew, Gina. He knew.
0:32:12 > 0:32:14- What can I do? - Is that a joke?
0:32:14 > 0:32:17Seriously, I want to help. Let me help.
0:32:17 > 0:32:19It's got nothing to do with you, though, has it?
0:32:19 > 0:32:21Drew's my son, no' yours.
0:32:21 > 0:32:23You might be able to turn Jenny's head with your whole gay da' thing,
0:32:23 > 0:32:25but Drew's mine.
0:32:25 > 0:32:27Just mine.
0:32:27 > 0:32:28You're not on your own.
0:32:28 > 0:32:29SHE CHUCKLES
0:32:29 > 0:32:31But I was when I was 18, though, wasn't I?
0:32:31 > 0:32:35When you left Jenny and me without even looking over your shoulder,
0:32:35 > 0:32:39so don't think you can come in now and start trying to fix things.
0:32:39 > 0:32:41I know what I did.
0:32:41 > 0:32:43SHE SIGHS
0:32:43 > 0:32:44You think you know it all.
0:32:44 > 0:32:47Things look different in the rear-view mirror.
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Do you know what I had to do to make sure
0:32:49 > 0:32:52- there was food on the table for Jenny and Ellie and me?- No, but...
0:32:52 > 0:32:55- And to keep the lights on! - No, but...
0:32:55 > 0:32:57That was then. This is now.
0:32:57 > 0:33:00You don't get it, do you? This is then!
0:33:00 > 0:33:03It's still then, it's never stopped being then for us.
0:33:03 > 0:33:05Everything's that's ever happened to me and my kids
0:33:05 > 0:33:07started the day you left.
0:33:07 > 0:33:09DOORBELL RINGS
0:33:09 > 0:33:11Get lost!
0:33:11 > 0:33:14- I was just a kid.- So was I!
0:33:14 > 0:33:16But you've lived a whole life since then,
0:33:16 > 0:33:18so it seems like a lifetime ago to you.
0:33:18 > 0:33:22But I'm still here, still picking through the mess you made.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26- Hi.- What do you want?
0:33:26 > 0:33:28Well, Jenny called me about Drew.
0:33:28 > 0:33:30There's nothing the matter wi' ma Drew.
0:33:30 > 0:33:33Everyone just needs to butt out and leave me to it
0:33:33 > 0:33:35cos I cannae rely on anyone.
0:33:39 > 0:33:42Do you remember when we shared a room?
0:33:42 > 0:33:46Of course. You were the messiest wee besom going.
0:33:49 > 0:33:53- Do you remember I broke your doll? - You decapitated her.
0:33:53 > 0:33:55- Do you remember what Dad did?- Yeah.
0:33:55 > 0:33:58He said I had to pick one of yours and do the same to it.
0:34:00 > 0:34:03- I thought you were going to.- Me too.
0:34:03 > 0:34:06- But he knew you wouldn't, though.- I know.
0:34:08 > 0:34:11I couldn't. You looked like wee Orphan Annie.
0:34:13 > 0:34:17He was like Shieldinch's King Solomon.
0:34:18 > 0:34:22He knew that if he let us make the decision, we'd do the right thing.
0:34:26 > 0:34:28What?
0:34:28 > 0:34:30Do you remember the doll he made you?
0:34:32 > 0:34:34- Trudy.- Wooden Trudy.
0:34:34 > 0:34:35Woody Trudy!
0:34:35 > 0:34:37THEY CHUCKLE
0:34:37 > 0:34:40- You're lucky he didn't make one for you.- Mum wouldn't let him.
0:34:40 > 0:34:42I've never had so many skelves.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44THEY LAUGH
0:34:48 > 0:34:51EILEEN SOBS
0:34:54 > 0:34:57It's OK. It's OK.
0:35:02 > 0:35:04I'd forgotten what he was like.
0:35:06 > 0:35:12I've been so busy running up and down to here and seeing him
0:35:12 > 0:35:14so bewildered and not...
0:35:15 > 0:35:17Not recognising me.
0:35:19 > 0:35:21DOOR OPENS
0:35:21 > 0:35:26I'm sorry. Dad's getting worse.
0:35:26 > 0:35:30Not going to be long, girls. I think we should all be with him.
0:35:30 > 0:35:31We should.
0:35:33 > 0:35:35- Are you OK with this?- Yeah.
0:35:36 > 0:35:38I just want to say goodbye.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43- KNOCKING ON DOOR - Drew?
0:35:43 > 0:35:46- It's Dr Jandhu, can I come in?- Naw.
0:35:50 > 0:35:54Sorry, but your sister was insistent I see you.
0:35:54 > 0:35:58Look, I'll only be a minute and then I can get her off both our backs.
0:35:58 > 0:36:00I'm fine. There's nothin' wrong with me.
0:36:03 > 0:36:07- I hear you've got a nasty cut on your arm.- It's fine.
0:36:07 > 0:36:09I thought I was the doctor.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11I said it's fine.
0:36:13 > 0:36:15Are you sure it's not infected?
0:36:15 > 0:36:18Because you know if a cut gets infected, it could spread.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21- Do you know that? - I don't care.
0:36:22 > 0:36:25And what about if you lost an arm or fell into a coma?
0:36:25 > 0:36:27Would you care then?
0:36:29 > 0:36:30Naw.
0:36:37 > 0:36:40Hi. It's nearly midday, should you no' be dressed?
0:36:40 > 0:36:42Go inside, Callum.
0:36:43 > 0:36:46- We had a great time, in case you're wondering.- I'm not.
0:36:48 > 0:36:50DOOR CLOSES
0:36:54 > 0:36:58Yeah, hello. Yeah, it's Lenny Murdoch here.
0:36:58 > 0:37:00Listen, can I make an appointment?
0:37:03 > 0:37:06Caitlin, can I have a word with you in private, please?
0:37:06 > 0:37:08I'll give you a bit of space.
0:37:14 > 0:37:17I've cleaned and dressed the wound. It should heal all right.
0:37:17 > 0:37:20And I've told Drew that I'm going to make an appointment for him
0:37:20 > 0:37:22- to come in and see me.- Fine.
0:37:22 > 0:37:24I'm going to refer him
0:37:24 > 0:37:28to a specialist team who deal with adolescent mental health.
0:37:28 > 0:37:31They may well refer him on for some therapy.
0:37:31 > 0:37:34Well, that sounds like a shrink. He isnae crazy.
0:37:34 > 0:37:37I know that, Caitlin.
0:37:37 > 0:37:39It's a straightforward form of therapy.
0:37:39 > 0:37:42It's got a good success rate with patients who are self-harming.
0:37:42 > 0:37:45And how long's that going to take?
0:37:45 > 0:37:48Well, I'm not going to lie you, you know, it can take a while to
0:37:48 > 0:37:52get into therapy but, you know, I'll do everything I can to get him seen.
0:37:52 > 0:37:56- But...like, what? Weeks? - Well, more than likely, yes.
0:37:56 > 0:37:58And what am I meant to do in the meantime?
0:37:58 > 0:38:00Well, that's what I wanted to talk to you about.
0:38:00 > 0:38:01CAITLIN SIGHS
0:38:01 > 0:38:04Look, Caitlin, please, sit down.
0:38:07 > 0:38:10Look, there are various harm-reduction strategies
0:38:10 > 0:38:12- that we can employ. - What do you mean?
0:38:12 > 0:38:15Well, the biggest risks to Drew right now stem from infection.
0:38:15 > 0:38:18And there are things that we can do to reduce those risks.
0:38:18 > 0:38:20How about we stop him doing them altogether?
0:38:20 > 0:38:21Well, yeah, of course,
0:38:21 > 0:38:23we have to address the underlying problem but...
0:38:23 > 0:38:27- But what?- Well, it's not going to happen overnight.
0:38:27 > 0:38:30- We need to get a plan for right now. - What does that mean?
0:38:31 > 0:38:34If he's alone in his bedroom...
0:38:34 > 0:38:37there's a risk he could take things too far.
0:38:37 > 0:38:40Are you...? Do you think my son's trying to kill himself?
0:38:40 > 0:38:44No, no, but the consequences of what he's doing could be fatal.
0:38:44 > 0:38:46Get out.
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Look, I understand how you're feeling...
0:38:48 > 0:38:49Get out now!
0:38:50 > 0:38:54I'm sick of people trying to tell me what's best for my kids.
0:38:54 > 0:38:55I'm the boy's mother!
0:38:55 > 0:38:58- I know what's best! Me, no' you!- Fine.
0:38:59 > 0:39:02Come and see me when you've calmed down.
0:39:03 > 0:39:05DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:39:05 > 0:39:08- Mum, what did Dr Jandhu say? - A lot of nonsense.
0:39:08 > 0:39:11- Where you going? - To see your brother.
0:39:14 > 0:39:16- I'm going to take these doors aff the hinges.- How?
0:39:16 > 0:39:18Do you think I cannae work a screwdriver?
0:39:18 > 0:39:19I'm no' letting you out my sight.
0:39:19 > 0:39:22- Mum, you can't watch him 24/7. - Well, I wish I didnae have to.
0:39:22 > 0:39:24- What? You gonnae come to school with me?- If I have tae.
0:39:24 > 0:39:25- Play football wi' me?- Aye.
0:39:25 > 0:39:27Doon the shoaps, hang about wi' all my pals?
0:39:27 > 0:39:29I'm gonnae stick to you like flypaper.
0:39:29 > 0:39:31What?! You gonnae come to the toilet wi' me tae?!
0:39:31 > 0:39:34- I'm gonnae dae whatever it takes to save you...- You cannae protect me!
0:39:34 > 0:39:37- How can you be so stupid?!- Please!
0:39:38 > 0:39:40It's no' your job to protect him!
0:39:40 > 0:39:42I'm his mum.
0:39:43 > 0:39:45I'm his mum!
0:40:00 > 0:40:02HE SIGHS
0:40:06 > 0:40:08You always said I was a bad mother.
0:40:08 > 0:40:11And now I've gone and proved it, haven't I?
0:40:11 > 0:40:15- I've wrecked their lives. - No.
0:40:15 > 0:40:20I thought I had it under control, I thought I could handle it.
0:40:20 > 0:40:21You tried your best.
0:40:21 > 0:40:24SHE SIGHS
0:40:24 > 0:40:27- I could've lost him. - But you didn't.
0:40:27 > 0:40:30I still might. I cannae stop him.
0:40:30 > 0:40:33It's my fault. I'm poison.
0:40:33 > 0:40:34That's not true.
0:40:37 > 0:40:39That's why you left.
0:40:39 > 0:40:41That's why Jenny wants to leave.
0:40:41 > 0:40:44Everyone that gets away from me is better off for it.
0:40:44 > 0:40:46Caitlin, I left because I'm gay.
0:40:46 > 0:40:48It was nothing to do with you.
0:40:48 > 0:40:52And Jenny isn't even leaving, she just wants to go to university
0:40:52 > 0:40:55because you did such a brilliant job raising her.
0:40:55 > 0:41:00She's...smart and ambitious and caring.
0:41:00 > 0:41:03That's all you.
0:41:03 > 0:41:04I'm no' even one of those things.
0:41:04 > 0:41:07You raised Jenny, Caitlin.
0:41:07 > 0:41:09Her successes are your successes.
0:41:10 > 0:41:13You've so much to be proud of.
0:41:15 > 0:41:18So why is my boy hurting himself?
0:41:21 > 0:41:24Whether you like it or not, I'm here.
0:41:24 > 0:41:25I'm not going anywhere.
0:41:27 > 0:41:30I cannae do this on my own any more.
0:41:30 > 0:41:33You're not alone, I promise.
0:41:34 > 0:41:36I need help.
0:41:36 > 0:41:39CAITLIN SOBS
0:41:43 > 0:41:47MELANCHOLIC MUSIC PLAYS
0:42:53 > 0:42:55I held his hand...
0:42:58 > 0:43:00..till it was cold.
0:43:02 > 0:43:04I had to let it go.
0:43:21 > 0:43:24This is not your fault.
0:43:24 > 0:43:27I never gave those kids a chance.
0:43:27 > 0:43:31You've always tried to do your best by them. It all started with me.
0:43:31 > 0:43:35If I'd never have left, then you'd never have been in this situation.
0:43:36 > 0:43:38Never met Pete.
0:43:38 > 0:43:42- Never met Ruby's dad.- Exactly.
0:43:42 > 0:43:45If I didnae meet them, well, I widnae have Drew or Ruby.
0:43:47 > 0:43:49The kids are the only thing I ever did right.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53Me too with Jenny.
0:43:53 > 0:43:55How did I ever raise that girl?
0:43:55 > 0:43:56HE CHUCKLES
0:43:56 > 0:43:58I don't know.
0:44:00 > 0:44:02But however you did it...
0:44:02 > 0:44:03you did it right.
0:44:06 > 0:44:12Drew's problem - it's a serious one but it's not the end of the world.
0:44:12 > 0:44:14There are systems in place to help him.
0:44:16 > 0:44:19And we can help him get better. Together.
0:44:23 > 0:44:25I don't know what to say to him.
0:44:26 > 0:44:29Well, you don't need to say anything.
0:44:29 > 0:44:31Why don't you just...
0:44:31 > 0:44:32listen for a bit?
0:44:36 > 0:44:39You said you were going to give me advice on this decor.
0:44:39 > 0:44:43- Maybe some other time, eh? - I don't have the time, Kel'.
0:44:43 > 0:44:45Amber's gonnae be here.
0:44:45 > 0:44:47She's getting out soon and I thought,
0:44:47 > 0:44:50"Well, you'd know better than me what a young lady would want, eh?"
0:44:50 > 0:44:52I don't really know much about interior design.
0:44:52 > 0:44:56- You spend enough time indoors. - So that's what this is about?
0:44:56 > 0:44:59- I'm going.- No, no. Ho.
0:44:59 > 0:45:01Look, she's all I've got left, OK? Her and Callum.
0:45:01 > 0:45:05You cannae go wrong with neutral colours - sand, cream.
0:45:05 > 0:45:07- Sand and cream?- Aye.
0:45:08 > 0:45:12- Look, I know what you're going through.- No, you don't.
0:45:12 > 0:45:16- You lost a child. - You have no idea how I feel.
0:45:16 > 0:45:18You don't think I know what it's like,
0:45:18 > 0:45:20to want to just chuck it all?
0:45:26 > 0:45:28Every morning I wake up,
0:45:28 > 0:45:30the first thing I think of is the people I've lost.
0:45:30 > 0:45:32- Do you?- Yes.
0:45:32 > 0:45:38And right after that, I think of the people I still have - Amber, Cal,
0:45:38 > 0:45:39you.
0:45:39 > 0:45:43That's the list that matters. Do you get me?
0:45:43 > 0:45:47- Easier said than done, though, isn't it?- I didn't say it was easy.
0:45:47 > 0:45:49- It's no' easy.- I'm no' ready.
0:45:49 > 0:45:51Callum can't wait for you to be ready,
0:45:51 > 0:45:54- he needs his mummy now. - I'm there for Callum.
0:45:54 > 0:45:55- Aye?- Aye.
0:45:55 > 0:45:58My baby just died. I'm allowed to grieve.
0:45:59 > 0:46:02Look, going to do me a favour?
0:46:02 > 0:46:04- Beige, cream.- No. No...
0:46:06 > 0:46:09I've got an appointment with the doctor and I know it's daft,
0:46:09 > 0:46:11but I don't like going in myself.
0:46:14 > 0:46:18- Right, so when is your appointment, then?- Now. Please.
0:46:18 > 0:46:21- I need to get back home straight afterwards, right?- That's fine.
0:46:21 > 0:46:22Right.
0:46:22 > 0:46:24KNOCK AT DOOR
0:46:24 > 0:46:25HE SIGHS
0:46:25 > 0:46:28DOOR OPENS
0:46:28 > 0:46:33- Don't.- I'm no' here to shout. I just want to talk.
0:46:45 > 0:46:47What's going on in there, son?
0:46:47 > 0:46:51- Nothing.- Please. Try and explain.
0:46:57 > 0:46:58I just feel empty.
0:47:01 > 0:47:04There is just... There's just nothing inside.
0:47:06 > 0:47:12I get angry and frustrated. I mean, I don't even know who I am.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17There's just nothing.
0:47:20 > 0:47:22Sounds mad.
0:47:22 > 0:47:26It doesnae sound mad. Is there anything I can do?
0:47:28 > 0:47:31Do you know what it's like to only know half of who you are?
0:47:31 > 0:47:35- You're Drew McLean, you're my son. - I'm no' just YOUR son, though.
0:47:37 > 0:47:39It's like...
0:47:39 > 0:47:44naebody else is like this. No' Jenny, no' Ruby, no' you.
0:47:45 > 0:47:47So is this him?
0:47:49 > 0:47:50Is this my da'?
0:47:52 > 0:47:55I don't even know anything about him.
0:47:55 > 0:47:58- It doesnae matter, Drew, he doesnae matter.- He matters to me!
0:47:58 > 0:48:00I know he does.
0:48:01 > 0:48:03But knowing your dad...
0:48:04 > 0:48:06..that isn't going to be the answer to all your problems.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08That's not for you to decide.
0:48:13 > 0:48:15I'm not...
0:48:15 > 0:48:18I'm no' saying it's going to instantly fix me.
0:48:20 > 0:48:24I'm just saying, at least if I know the other half of me,
0:48:24 > 0:48:25I will know something.
0:48:27 > 0:48:29Instead of nothing.
0:48:31 > 0:48:35I will tell you about him, just no' now.
0:48:35 > 0:48:38It's always "just no' now".
0:48:38 > 0:48:43Let's get you better. Then we can talk about it all.
0:48:43 > 0:48:44I'll never be better.
0:48:47 > 0:48:50- I'm a freak.- You are not a freak!
0:49:09 > 0:49:11Do you want me to come in with you?
0:49:14 > 0:49:15Kelly-Marie?
0:49:17 > 0:49:20- What's going on? - Just go and see her.
0:49:25 > 0:49:26Are you ready?
0:49:50 > 0:49:55- He's really gone. - Come on, let's get you home, eh?
0:49:55 > 0:49:57- Just going to give me a second? - Of course.
0:50:00 > 0:50:05It's just the minute we... get to the pub, we have to tell folk
0:50:05 > 0:50:08and then it's really real.
0:50:10 > 0:50:14- I know.- Who'll be next?
0:50:14 > 0:50:16What?
0:50:16 > 0:50:21I know I'm being morbid but there's nothing between us and the horizon.
0:50:21 > 0:50:27- We're hardly at death's door.- No. But we can see it from the street.
0:50:27 > 0:50:28Come on.
0:50:32 > 0:50:34Gina, I...
0:50:34 > 0:50:36I am all on my own.
0:50:38 > 0:50:39No, you're not.
0:50:41 > 0:50:42I'm here.
0:50:52 > 0:50:53Come on.
0:51:05 > 0:51:07I did go to see your dad.
0:51:08 > 0:51:11When you said you went to Tenerife?
0:51:11 > 0:51:14Was it that obvious? I meant to get a sunbed when I came back.
0:51:17 > 0:51:19Your dad isnae well.
0:51:21 > 0:51:24- What do you mean? - He was always sensitive.
0:51:25 > 0:51:27When I was pregnant it got worse.
0:51:27 > 0:51:31Then when you were born, it got desperate. He was depressed.
0:51:32 > 0:51:34It was a bad situation.
0:51:36 > 0:51:39Drew, I want you to know that I only ever did what I thought was right.
0:51:39 > 0:51:41What DID you do?
0:51:43 > 0:51:45I took you and Jenny and I left.
0:51:46 > 0:51:48I needed to protect you.
0:51:49 > 0:51:53Maybe I should have stayed and looked after him but...
0:51:53 > 0:51:55I had two kids to think of.
0:51:58 > 0:52:03- I always thought he left because of me.- No, son, no. Not at all.
0:52:05 > 0:52:07Is that what you've thought all this time?
0:52:09 > 0:52:12I'm like him, ain't I?
0:52:13 > 0:52:16That's why you went to go and see him, cos I'm like him.
0:52:20 > 0:52:23You have got some of his good qualities. You're thoughtful...
0:52:25 > 0:52:27..kind...
0:52:27 > 0:52:31sensitive. You don't get that from me.
0:52:32 > 0:52:37But if you mean if you're like him, like his illness, well, no, you're no'.
0:52:39 > 0:52:42You're no' like him. Here...
0:52:47 > 0:52:50- Is... Is that...?- Aye.
0:52:50 > 0:52:51That's what you would
0:52:51 > 0:52:52look like with a moustache.
0:52:54 > 0:52:56Don't ever grow a moustache!
0:52:59 > 0:53:00Cheers.
0:53:02 > 0:53:04Nae news is good news, though, uh?
0:53:04 > 0:53:10- I hope so. - Aye, Malcolm's Clyde-built.- Yeah.
0:53:10 > 0:53:12- Is Angus all right?- Aye, how?
0:53:12 > 0:53:15Well, he's been in the toilet for an awful long time.
0:53:15 > 0:53:18- He's probably fell asleep. - What is he, a nymphomaniac?
0:53:18 > 0:53:20Is he a what?
0:53:20 > 0:53:23You know, one of they people who falls asleep all the time.
0:53:23 > 0:53:24Narcoleptic?
0:53:26 > 0:53:29No, what it is is that...
0:53:29 > 0:53:31- All right, Stella?- Hiya.
0:53:31 > 0:53:34- I didn't know you were back. - Aye, Stella's back.
0:53:36 > 0:53:40- Is Stevie with you? - No, he's not with me the now.
0:53:40 > 0:53:43- I was just wondering if there was any news?- No, nothing yet.
0:53:43 > 0:53:46- Can I see wee Hope?- Course you can.
0:53:48 > 0:53:51All right, pal? Hiya.
0:53:57 > 0:53:59FRUIT MACHINE BEEPS
0:54:19 > 0:54:21Did you all see that?
0:54:22 > 0:54:25- What?- That guy.
0:54:27 > 0:54:29You'll have to narrow it down a bit, mate.
0:54:29 > 0:54:35That big guy with the beard. The big kind of Braveheart-looking kind of guy.
0:54:35 > 0:54:37Don't torture him!
0:54:37 > 0:54:42- Oh, Willy? - Aye, Willy. So he's real?- Aye.
0:54:42 > 0:54:45At weekends he does a Billy Connolly tribute act
0:54:45 > 0:54:48and then during the week he's a Highlander at a tourist centre.
0:54:48 > 0:54:50It was his exhaust you battered earlier on.
0:54:50 > 0:54:53I thought I was losing it there.
0:54:53 > 0:54:55Forget about this money, I just need to go to sleep.
0:54:57 > 0:54:59Eileen.
0:55:03 > 0:55:05I... I just wanted to...
0:55:08 > 0:55:13I just wanted to let you all know that our dad died earlier today.
0:55:15 > 0:55:17Eileen, I am so sorry.
0:55:20 > 0:55:22I can't believe it.
0:55:34 > 0:55:36Tell me I hallucinated that.
0:55:38 > 0:55:40No, mate, you didnae.
0:55:43 > 0:55:49- Are you OK?- Listen, I am sorry, darling. I have been a nightmare.
0:55:49 > 0:55:53- I couldn't be prouder of you.- Of me?
0:55:53 > 0:55:55My wee Jenny going to be a doctor.
0:55:55 > 0:55:58- I'm probably not even going to go. - Aye, you are.
0:55:58 > 0:56:02You'll be going to university if I have to drag you there.
0:56:02 > 0:56:05You have to live the life of your dreams.
0:56:05 > 0:56:06I mean, if you don't,
0:56:06 > 0:56:09then all we have been through has been for nothing.
0:56:12 > 0:56:15Someone has got to earn enough money to get us a big house!
0:56:15 > 0:56:16Come here.
0:56:18 > 0:56:20Right, I better make a move.
0:56:20 > 0:56:23All right, no need to keep angling, you can stay.
0:56:23 > 0:56:25- Stay?- Aye, for dinner.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27I'm no' offering you a bunk-up!
0:56:28 > 0:56:31- Family dinner? - Don't make me regret asking you.
0:56:31 > 0:56:32OK.
0:56:32 > 0:56:35- It's your turn to buy the chips. - My turn?
0:56:35 > 0:56:38Aye, you've got 17 years' worth of chips to buy back.
0:56:38 > 0:56:40Welcome to the family.
0:56:46 > 0:56:50# You won't regret it
0:56:51 > 0:56:54# Women don't forget it
0:56:56 > 0:57:01# Love is their whole happiness
0:57:04 > 0:57:07# And it's all so easy
0:57:07 > 0:57:15# Try a little tenderness... #
0:57:29 > 0:57:32"These are the things I want you to do for my funeral.
0:57:32 > 0:57:34"No stuffy church service."
0:57:34 > 0:57:38And he's written a eulogy that he wants Gabriel Brodie to read.
0:57:38 > 0:57:39- Is he even coming?- Gabriel?
0:57:41 > 0:57:45You do what you like but I won't be a part of it.
0:57:45 > 0:57:48Dad's gone now and having Brian here today would just
0:57:48 > 0:57:49complicate things.