0:00:30 > 0:00:34"This is the first letter I have ever written.
0:00:34 > 0:00:38"And I thought I would write it about love."
0:00:59 > 0:01:01Cheers, thanks very much.
0:01:01 > 0:01:02Can I have a receipt?
0:01:02 > 0:01:05Er, we don't normally bother.
0:01:05 > 0:01:07I do need one.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12I could ask Anthony to do you one properly on the computer.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14I'd like one before you go.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17Um, do you know what, I haven't got anything that I can...
0:01:19 > 0:01:20Here.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30Do you want my autograph on there, love?
0:01:32 > 0:01:35I don't blame ya, quality paintwork like this.
0:01:36 > 0:01:37Who shall I make it out to?
0:01:44 > 0:01:46"With love, Anthony."
0:02:06 > 0:02:08I'd quite like a Chinese-y one,
0:02:08 > 0:02:11but do you remember Fat Dave the Plumber?
0:02:11 > 0:02:13The one who lost all the weight?
0:02:13 > 0:02:19Yeah, he's got a Chinese one - it says, "Big Man, Little Fear."
0:02:19 > 0:02:23But then he got off with that lass who works in the chippy -
0:02:23 > 0:02:30she clocks his tatt, and she pees herself laughing cos apparently it never said what he thought at all.
0:02:30 > 0:02:31What did it say?
0:02:31 > 0:02:34He never found out - he threw a moody, and he left.
0:02:34 > 0:02:36He's still very sensitive about it, though.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39That's why he lost the weight - he's never been back in the chippy since.
0:02:41 > 0:02:42Seriously!
0:02:48 > 0:02:50Right. See you tonight.
0:02:52 > 0:02:53School. Parents' Evening.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55You're joking, aren't ya?
0:02:55 > 0:02:57I've been banned since our Jade was in Year Five,
0:02:57 > 0:03:01and Maggie accused me of perving over that Miss Dawson!
0:03:01 > 0:03:02Can you believe that?
0:03:02 > 0:03:04See ya later.
0:03:09 > 0:03:10He just doesn't like me, is all.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14- Don't do that.- What?
0:03:14 > 0:03:18I know what you're thinking. "It wasn't like this with our Keiran - our Keiran was top of his class."
0:03:18 > 0:03:20I wasn't thinking that.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23I'm not him, Dad - I never will be.
0:03:29 > 0:03:32- All right, love. - Use the extension lead.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34Who says romance is dead, eh?
0:03:37 > 0:03:41Erm, you're going to hate me now.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45- I can't go tonight.- What?
0:03:45 > 0:03:47I've got to work. Karen's gone home sick.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49I don't want to go on me own.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51There's no-one else. I'm really sorry, sweetheart.
0:03:51 > 0:03:55It's Parents' Evening, Lisa, why would you go?
0:04:03 > 0:04:07Hey, she didn't mean that.
0:04:08 > 0:04:12I know it's your worst nightmare, but you're not eight years old any more,
0:04:12 > 0:04:14nobody can make you stand at the front of the class.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21JJ? I'm going.
0:05:07 > 0:05:08"T"?
0:05:19 > 0:05:21'Hello?'
0:05:21 > 0:05:22Karen?
0:05:22 > 0:05:24'Speaking.'
0:05:24 > 0:05:26I thought you was off sick?
0:05:26 > 0:05:28'No, I'm fine. Who's this?'
0:05:28 > 0:05:33Erm, yeah, It's JJ. Lisa's husband.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36'Hi, JJ. What is it?'
0:05:36 > 0:05:42I was hoping that, erm, you could give her a message for me when she comes into the office?
0:05:42 > 0:05:43'Lisa's not coming back tonight.'
0:05:46 > 0:05:48- She isn't? - 'No, is there anything...'
0:05:48 > 0:05:52- No, I must've made a mistake. Sorry, I got that wrong.- 'OK.'
0:05:52 > 0:05:54- Yeah, sorry.- 'Bye, love.'
0:05:54 > 0:05:56- Yeah, forget it, sorry.- 'Bye.'
0:06:03 > 0:06:09Hey! Well, you're better than our Anthony!
0:06:09 > 0:06:12Gets a tattoo, then goes out for a few pints.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14Lucky lady, aren't I?
0:06:18 > 0:06:19Where's Lisa?
0:06:21 > 0:06:22Working.
0:06:22 > 0:06:26Well, bet Jade and Abbie have been up to no good again, eh?
0:06:28 > 0:06:31'You're not eight years old any more. Nobody can make you stand in front of the class.'
0:06:43 > 0:06:47It isn't Abbie's behaviour that worries us most,
0:06:47 > 0:06:52or the fact that she struggles, academically.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54That's what we're here for.
0:06:54 > 0:07:02But we can't help, none of us can, if she doesn't even turn up.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08What?
0:07:08 > 0:07:11Her attendance has to improve.
0:07:11 > 0:07:13I don't think she's missed a day since Year Four.
0:07:13 > 0:07:18Abbie's attendance rate this term is 48%.
0:07:32 > 0:07:33Mr Roscoe.
0:07:37 > 0:07:41- Mr Roscoe. - 'He just doesn't like me...'
0:07:41 > 0:07:45- 'I can't go tonight.'- 'Where's Lisa?'- 'Well, I've got to work...'
0:07:45 > 0:07:50'You're not eight years old any more, nobody can make you stand in front of the class.'
0:07:50 > 0:07:53'With love, Anthony, Anthony, Anthony...'
0:07:56 > 0:07:57'You're going to hate me now.'
0:07:59 > 0:08:03'Well, I, I've got to work, Karen's gone home sick.'
0:08:07 > 0:08:10- You OK?- I can't...breathe...
0:08:10 > 0:08:14OK, just try and keep calm, OK, take deep breaths in and out.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15That's it.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24I started having them just before my 40th.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26- Cheers.- Strange way to celebrate.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35It's all a waste of time, innit?
0:08:36 > 0:08:39Well, it feels like that, sometimes.
0:08:39 > 0:08:43I've been doing this 21 years.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47I don't know if I've made a jot of difference.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52You have to hope you have, don't you?
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Even if you never find out.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00I know what happened.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05To your wife and son.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10I wouldn't get behind the wheel after a single glass.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14If people knew what could happen, if they could see you.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17Have you got a family?
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Just a husband.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25Do you know what I thought when they told me?
0:09:27 > 0:09:33Our Keiran had been going on for ages and ages for me and Claire to take him and our Abbie on the steam train.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35Y'know, the East Lancashire Railway?
0:09:37 > 0:09:38And, erm...
0:09:40 > 0:09:46I put it off and I put it off, cos, well, you just do, don't you?
0:09:48 > 0:09:53And then, when they told me, the first thing I thought was,
0:09:53 > 0:09:56"He hasn't been on the train yet."
0:09:59 > 0:10:03Look, thanks, for everything.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07I'll hold a good thought for you.
0:10:07 > 0:10:08What?
0:10:09 > 0:10:13- What?- What did you say?
0:10:13 > 0:10:15I'll hold a good thought for you.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17That's what Claire used to say.
0:10:17 > 0:10:22- Oh. Sorry. - Oh, no, no. It was nice.
0:10:22 > 0:10:24It was nice to hear it.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53How could you do it?
0:10:54 > 0:10:56How could you lie to us?
0:10:59 > 0:11:02- I thought you never missed a day. - What are you talking about?
0:11:02 > 0:11:06Her attendance! 48%!
0:11:06 > 0:11:08That's rubbish, that.
0:11:08 > 0:11:12I never go in for registration, what's the point?
0:11:12 > 0:11:15But I'm there for lessons, even if my name's not down.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18What is the point in being there if nobody realises you're there?!
0:11:32 > 0:11:36Ant? Mate? I need your help.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40- What?- "T."
0:11:40 > 0:11:44Oh, aye, yeah. What d'you think?
0:11:44 > 0:11:47- Why "T"?- Well, I didn't want to risk anything Chinese-y in the end.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50Well, you're not a "T", you're an "A".
0:11:50 > 0:11:52Ah, to you, I'm an "A".
0:11:54 > 0:11:56So, erm, who're you a "T" to?
0:11:56 > 0:11:58Do you want a list?
0:12:00 > 0:12:02"With love, Anthony."
0:12:02 > 0:12:04What's up, mate?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Doesn't matter.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23She lived in the same block as me.
0:12:23 > 0:12:28Lisa. I didn't know her or nothing,
0:12:28 > 0:12:32but she heard about Claire and Keiran's accident and she came round.
0:12:36 > 0:12:43I was putting Abbie to bed, and she was being a proper pain,
0:12:43 > 0:12:48and I felt like I was just...you know?
0:12:48 > 0:12:52And then, knock on the door.
0:12:52 > 0:12:56Miracle. That's what it seemed like to me.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58Doesn't seem like that now, though.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12I need you to read these to me.
0:13:16 > 0:13:20- Love letters. To Lisa.- From you?
0:13:21 > 0:13:24From my best mate.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26CHAIR SCRAPES
0:13:26 > 0:13:30I found 'em last week. I need to know what they say.
0:13:30 > 0:13:36And I haven't got anybody else I can ask, cos I was going to ask him.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39You should read these yourself.
0:13:39 > 0:13:40No, don't - Fiona!
0:13:51 > 0:13:55Words are not my strong point.
0:13:55 > 0:14:01I mean, can work out words and numbers.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04There's eight years of letters there...
0:14:06 > 0:14:09..but I can't put together, like, a whole...
0:14:09 > 0:14:13God, it even drives me mad just looking.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18I'm not totally thick, I reckon.
0:14:18 > 0:14:20It's just that I never...
0:14:23 > 0:14:25Lisa doesn't know how bad it is.
0:14:25 > 0:14:29And I don't want her to. Not now.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31God, it even feels well weird just saying it to you.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34You're the first person I've told since Claire.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36But these are personal, they're... private.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38I'm her husband! TIN DROPS TO THE FLOOR
0:14:39 > 0:14:40- CAFE OWNER:- You all right?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Just leave it!
0:14:47 > 0:14:51I could help you, if you want.
0:14:51 > 0:14:56I can get away when I've got a free period and we could meet up.
0:14:56 > 0:14:58Until you can read these yourself.
0:15:22 > 0:15:25I've, erm... I've got to work tonight.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29It's Karen, she's off again.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33I'm getting a bit fed up, but what can you do?
0:15:39 > 0:15:40Be back about ten.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59I can't, can I? If I could, you wouldn't even be here!
0:15:59 > 0:16:03Is there anywhere you go to...empty your head?
0:16:03 > 0:16:07Somewhere where you feel...comfortable and safe?
0:16:09 > 0:16:13Did you build all this? The houses and the tunnels and everything?
0:16:13 > 0:16:14Yeah.
0:16:17 > 0:16:20- It's easy, really.- Well.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22Here you are. Have a seat.
0:16:25 > 0:16:28Write me something about trains then.
0:16:28 > 0:16:31The colour or the type. Whatever.
0:16:31 > 0:16:34- Trains?- Yeah.
0:16:37 > 0:16:38How's Karen?
0:16:40 > 0:16:41Feeling any better?
0:16:43 > 0:16:46Er...yeah. Yeah, I think so.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50What was it?
0:16:52 > 0:16:56She's, erm... She's having some tests, actually.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02Won't be surprised if she's off again.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15Just a quick note to say what for the kids' presents?
0:17:18 > 0:17:19Thanks.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25You're better than you think, you know.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12I've not had a milkshake since I was, like, eight.
0:18:13 > 0:18:16Do you know what it feels like when somebody's lying to you
0:18:16 > 0:18:18and you know that they're lying?
0:18:18 > 0:18:21Yeah, well, I'm not like our Kieran, am I? I'm not perfect.
0:18:21 > 0:18:24What's it got to do with Kieran and your mother?
0:18:24 > 0:18:25Everything's got to do with them.
0:18:25 > 0:18:27- CAFE OWNER:- All right?
0:18:27 > 0:18:29Here again?
0:18:33 > 0:18:37Lisa. I've been here with Lisa.
0:18:37 > 0:18:40- So this lad, why wasn't he in school? - His name's Moz.
0:18:42 > 0:18:45- And he's been suspended.- Well, you've got a catch there, Abbie(!)
0:18:45 > 0:18:46I can see why you've snapped him up.
0:18:46 > 0:18:50- If I was in school every minute of every day, I'd never see him. - Then see him after school.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52Why does it have to be this big secret?
0:18:52 > 0:18:55- Well, cos it does!- Why?
0:18:55 > 0:18:56Cos I knew you'd be like this!
0:18:56 > 0:18:59Oh, do you know what? I couldn't care less about him.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01Well, obviously, I could.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04Oh, come on, Abbie, everyone can see that he's a loser,
0:19:04 > 0:19:07- and I don't want him coming round to our house.- Dad!
0:19:07 > 0:19:10Look, what I care about is whether you go to school or not.
0:19:10 > 0:19:11But I hate it!
0:19:11 > 0:19:15What I care about is you telling me you're going when you're not.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18Do you want to get to my age and hardly be able to do anything?
0:19:18 > 0:19:20Why? What can't you do?
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Promise me you'll start going again.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30Promise me.
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Promise.
0:19:34 > 0:19:36What's your husband like?
0:19:39 > 0:19:40Why?
0:19:41 > 0:19:43Just wondered.
0:19:44 > 0:19:45Doesn't matter.
0:19:47 > 0:19:48He's lovely.
0:19:50 > 0:19:51Is he a big fella?
0:19:54 > 0:19:58Well, he's not enormous. But bigger than average, I suppose.
0:20:00 > 0:20:01Is he very clever?
0:20:04 > 0:20:06Yeah. He is quite clever.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10Bet he's dead serious, though, isn't he?
0:20:12 > 0:20:15No. He can be really funny.
0:20:19 > 0:20:20- LISA:- JJ? >
0:20:22 > 0:20:23JJ?
0:20:23 > 0:20:27JJ?
0:20:27 > 0:20:28Hiya!
0:20:28 > 0:20:29Forgot me purse.
0:20:29 > 0:20:31Yeah, I just nipped home to, erm...
0:20:31 > 0:20:34You're a big kid, you, John Joseph. That's your problem!
0:20:44 > 0:20:45I can't come here again.
0:21:09 > 0:21:10Heh...
0:21:12 > 0:21:13Helen is...
0:21:16 > 0:21:19W... W...
0:21:30 > 0:21:31JJ!
0:21:32 > 0:21:33JJ!
0:21:33 > 0:21:35Mrs Johnson, her name was.
0:21:37 > 0:21:40And she used to go round the class pointing at kids to read,
0:21:40 > 0:21:42poem at a time.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45I was eight.
0:21:45 > 0:21:51And when it gets to me, it was this boring poem about a ferry or a ferryman or something,
0:21:51 > 0:21:58and I couldn't do it, obviously, but instead of moving to the next kid,
0:21:58 > 0:22:01she tells me get to the front of class and tells me to try harder.
0:22:01 > 0:22:05And I did. I mean, I really did try harder.
0:22:05 > 0:22:10But I couldn't get past the first couple of words, and she says to me,
0:22:10 > 0:22:12"You'll stand at the front of this class
0:22:12 > 0:22:14"at the beginning and the end of every day
0:22:14 > 0:22:16"till you can read this whole poem aloud."
0:22:16 > 0:22:18I never set foot in there again.
0:22:22 > 0:22:24It's not the approved method.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30I told Lisa about it the night we...
0:22:32 > 0:22:33..y'know, for the first time.
0:22:35 > 0:22:40So when she asked you to talk dirty, that's not what she meant, is it?
0:22:42 > 0:22:46She said I should've gone back in the next morning and nailed it.
0:22:46 > 0:22:48To show Mrs Johnson.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51And I knew that was the moment to tell her
0:22:51 > 0:22:54that that wasn't exactly an option, but...
0:23:01 > 0:23:03Do you think we could meet up one night?
0:23:05 > 0:23:06There's somewhere we should go.
0:23:40 > 0:23:41Trains.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47Have you ever even been on the internet?
0:23:47 > 0:23:50Nah. Not really techie-type type, you know.
0:23:52 > 0:23:56You times all the words in here by a billion
0:23:56 > 0:24:01and you could still fit them on a single computer. On a single phone!
0:24:02 > 0:24:07It's like the world's enormous, and you're living within a few square inches of it.
0:24:07 > 0:24:09That's just me, innit?
0:24:10 > 0:24:11Is it?
0:24:12 > 0:24:16I'm not saying you should hot-air balloon across the Sahara.
0:24:16 > 0:24:19I just think you should be able to apply for a job.
0:24:19 > 0:24:20I like my job!
0:24:20 > 0:24:22Read from a fancy menu.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25Nah. I'm not that keen on eating out.
0:24:25 > 0:24:27Work out what time the next bus is.
0:24:27 > 0:24:30Ten-to and twenty-past, has been for years!
0:24:30 > 0:24:33- JJ!- What?!
0:24:35 > 0:24:38This isn't about reading or writing, this is about you.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42Your whole life is built around avoiding things,
0:24:42 > 0:24:46and if you put just a little bit of effort into facing them
0:24:46 > 0:24:51like you have done in the past few weeks, just look what you can do!
0:24:51 > 0:24:53Don't hold yourself back.
0:24:59 > 0:25:00FIRE ALARM
0:25:03 > 0:25:06THEY BOTH LAUGH
0:25:08 > 0:25:10Your face!
0:25:10 > 0:25:13I don't believe that!
0:25:13 > 0:25:15I haven't run like that since the '80s.
0:25:16 > 0:25:18What if they find out it was me?
0:25:18 > 0:25:21Oh, yeah, cos that'll be the first thing they'll think of, won't it?
0:25:21 > 0:25:24Middle-aged couples breaking into libraries.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26That's our joyriding.
0:25:26 > 0:25:29We did NOT break in.
0:25:29 > 0:25:30Exactly.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33- Oh, my heart's going.- So's mine.
0:25:52 > 0:25:55Well, we'd better be, erm...
0:25:55 > 0:25:56What?
0:25:56 > 0:25:58Going.
0:25:58 > 0:25:59Oh, yeah.
0:26:03 > 0:26:05You all right?
0:26:05 > 0:26:06Yeah.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08You sure?
0:26:09 > 0:26:10Yeah.
0:26:10 > 0:26:12See you tomorrow, won't I?
0:26:46 > 0:26:48How could you do that?
0:26:48 > 0:26:51How could you just not turn up?
0:26:51 > 0:26:52Dad?!
0:26:52 > 0:26:54What are you doing?
0:26:54 > 0:26:58Mr Roscoe, I'm taking detention at the moment.
0:26:58 > 0:27:01If there's anything that needs to be discussed,
0:27:01 > 0:27:03I suggest you make an appointment for a more convenient time.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24There's plenty for tea.
0:27:24 > 0:27:25Stay down here.
0:27:25 > 0:27:27No.
0:27:27 > 0:27:28Abbie...
0:27:28 > 0:27:29No.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43I'll, erm... I'll put it onto trays.
0:27:45 > 0:27:49They're starting to ask questions at school...
0:27:49 > 0:27:50about where I go.
0:27:52 > 0:27:55You know, you could read those letters now...
0:27:55 > 0:27:58if you really wanted to.
0:27:58 > 0:28:02You should go to a class. A proper one.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04You need more than me.
0:28:07 > 0:28:09Is this you saying goodbye, then?
0:28:09 > 0:28:13I don't have to be your teacher to see you.
0:28:17 > 0:28:21Don't you ever just want to grab another human being and say,
0:28:21 > 0:28:25"This is me! Am I OK? Am I all right?"
0:28:25 > 0:28:27Because no-one says it any more.
0:28:31 > 0:28:33No-one says anything.
0:28:40 > 0:28:41We could...
0:28:42 > 0:28:44We could go away...
0:28:44 > 0:28:46of a night.
0:28:53 > 0:28:57You know Dave? Fat Dave, the plumber?
0:28:57 > 0:28:58The one who lost all the weight?
0:28:58 > 0:29:02- Yeah. He's getting married.- Hmm?
0:29:04 > 0:29:07He's invited me to his stag do this Saturday.
0:29:08 > 0:29:10Yeah, it's in Liverpool,
0:29:10 > 0:29:12but he's got some great deal or something,
0:29:12 > 0:29:13so there's a hotel and everything.
0:29:14 > 0:29:16Oh.
0:29:16 > 0:29:17Tony going?
0:29:18 > 0:29:20Anthony?
0:29:20 > 0:29:22Yeah. Is he?
0:29:22 > 0:29:25Uh.
0:29:29 > 0:29:31Fat Dave's getting married!
0:29:31 > 0:29:33Who told you that?
0:29:33 > 0:29:34Lisa.
0:29:34 > 0:29:36She told Maggie.
0:29:36 > 0:29:38Yeah, he is.
0:29:38 > 0:29:41- And he's having a stag do?- Yeah.
0:29:41 > 0:29:43Why's he not invited me?!
0:29:46 > 0:29:48Do you know something?
0:29:48 > 0:29:52I don't think he likes you, mate. That's what I heard.
0:29:52 > 0:29:53Sorry.
0:30:13 > 0:30:17'You could read those letters now, you know...
0:30:17 > 0:30:18'if you really wanted to.'
0:30:42 > 0:30:45'You need more than me.'
0:30:46 > 0:30:49'Is this you saying goodbye, then?'
0:31:08 > 0:31:09JJ?
0:31:23 > 0:31:24JJ?
0:31:42 > 0:31:44You've got a brother?
0:31:51 > 0:31:53He got sent down.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55That's why we started writing.
0:31:58 > 0:31:59Drink driving.
0:32:01 > 0:32:04He hit a couple. They were in their seventies.
0:32:04 > 0:32:06It killed them both.
0:32:06 > 0:32:09It was ten years ago.
0:32:11 > 0:32:14What do you do when someone you love does something so awful?
0:32:18 > 0:32:19But when I heard that...
0:32:19 > 0:32:22a bloke in my block had lost his family...
0:32:24 > 0:32:26..in that way...
0:32:26 > 0:32:31I thought, well, I can do something, can't I?
0:32:32 > 0:32:37But the closer we got, the more I got to know you and Abbie,
0:32:37 > 0:32:41I couldn't say anything. How could I? You'd never have seen me again.
0:32:41 > 0:32:43Where is he now?
0:32:44 > 0:32:46He lives in Oldham.
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Doesn't touch a drop.
0:32:50 > 0:32:52He wanted to see me.
0:32:52 > 0:32:54He was desperate.
0:32:56 > 0:32:59I didn't know what to do. It was Abbie's parents' evening
0:32:59 > 0:33:02and I didn't want to miss that, I felt terrible.
0:33:02 > 0:33:06But Terry's not in a good way, you know, and...
0:33:06 > 0:33:08I couldn't not see him. I had to.
0:33:10 > 0:33:12And I've kept seeing him.
0:33:15 > 0:33:16JJ...
0:33:18 > 0:33:19..he can't undo what he did.
0:33:21 > 0:33:23But you have to go on, don't you? What else can you do?
0:33:25 > 0:33:28When you knocked on my door, I thought it was a miracle.
0:33:30 > 0:33:33But it wasn't, was it? It was just pity and guilt.
0:33:37 > 0:33:40No. That might've been why I knocked, but it wasn't why I stayed.
0:33:40 > 0:33:44I'm with you out of love, both of you.
0:33:44 > 0:33:47Can't you see that? Isn't that obvious in everything I do?
0:33:58 > 0:33:59You can't see him again.
0:34:01 > 0:34:02Ever.
0:34:03 > 0:34:05I'm sorry, JJ, but I have to.
0:34:07 > 0:34:10I want to spend the rest of my life with you and Abbie...
0:34:11 > 0:34:14..but I can't abandon him.
0:34:14 > 0:34:16Terry needs me too.
0:34:19 > 0:34:21You're going to have to live with it.
0:34:24 > 0:34:25Anthony?
0:34:25 > 0:34:28Anthony, mate.
0:34:28 > 0:34:29What?
0:34:29 > 0:34:33You're Anthony to almost everybody, almost all of the time, right?
0:34:33 > 0:34:36So why did you get that "T" tattooed on your back?
0:34:36 > 0:34:37HE SIGHS
0:34:37 > 0:34:45Right, look. If you say "A", right, people think ass, right?
0:34:45 > 0:34:50But if you say "T", then people think like...
0:34:50 > 0:34:52T-Bird, so...
0:34:54 > 0:34:58That is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard in my whole life.
0:35:00 > 0:35:03I thought there was something going on between you and Lisa.
0:35:03 > 0:35:05Can you believe that?
0:35:08 > 0:35:11I thought that you and her were carrying on behind my back.
0:35:11 > 0:35:13It's all cos of that "T", mate. It's cos of the "T".
0:35:13 > 0:35:15What are you talking about?!
0:35:16 > 0:35:20That's sort of why I've been seeing Fiona Taylor.
0:35:20 > 0:35:22You know, the teacher.
0:35:22 > 0:35:25Do you think that I would do that to Maggie? To you?
0:35:27 > 0:35:30Well, yeah. You talk a good game, mate.
0:35:30 > 0:35:33Talk! It's talk! Banter!
0:35:33 > 0:35:35What do you think we're going to do at work all day,
0:35:35 > 0:35:38talk about Stephen Hawking?
0:35:38 > 0:35:42I would never, ever cheat on Maggie. Ever!
0:35:42 > 0:35:45It might be all right in your marriage, mate,
0:35:45 > 0:35:46it's not all right in mine!
0:36:17 > 0:36:21- Fi!- You shouldn't have come here.
0:36:21 > 0:36:22Fi!
0:36:25 > 0:36:26I'm sorry I didn't turn up.
0:36:28 > 0:36:30I can't see you again.
0:36:34 > 0:36:35Fi?
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0:37:23 > 0:37:24He's your brother, isn't he?
0:37:30 > 0:37:32Why've you got that shirt on?
0:37:33 > 0:37:37I thought I should take you out. Properly, like. You know, for a meal.
0:37:38 > 0:37:40- You eating out?!- Why not?
0:37:41 > 0:37:45- You've got an odd button. - Yeah, I know. I know.
0:37:47 > 0:37:50- I've got a spare one upstairs. Give me a sec.- OK.
0:37:58 > 0:38:00All right, love?
0:38:00 > 0:38:02Abbie?
0:38:06 > 0:38:09- I'll kill him.- It wasn't Moz.
0:38:09 > 0:38:10So who was it, then?
0:38:10 > 0:38:12Jade.
0:38:12 > 0:38:13Jade?! Why would Jade hit you?
0:38:13 > 0:38:16- Cos I hit her.- I thought you two were best-mates?
0:38:16 > 0:38:17What's happened?
0:38:19 > 0:38:21No more lies, Abbie.
0:38:21 > 0:38:23I want the truth.
0:38:26 > 0:38:30She made a joke about the thing between you and Mrs Taylor.
0:38:30 > 0:38:33She saw you in the car park just before we came home
0:38:33 > 0:38:36and then she heard her dad telling her mum.
0:38:36 > 0:38:38I'm not sure which one Mrs Taylor is.
0:38:38 > 0:38:41Is that why you came into school to see her, then, Dad?
0:38:41 > 0:38:42Is that why you were mad with her?
0:38:42 > 0:38:45I bet it was her you took into that cafe and all.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59I found Terry's letters weeks ago.
0:38:59 > 0:39:02I thought they were love letters.
0:39:05 > 0:39:09I thought you were having a thing, so, erm...
0:39:09 > 0:39:11I started seeing her.
0:39:11 > 0:39:13You knew they were from Terry as soon as you read them.
0:39:13 > 0:39:18No, but I didn't read them, not properly, not at first because...
0:39:18 > 0:39:20I just read little bits of them.
0:39:20 > 0:39:23- This is pathetic.- No, it's not. - It's pathetic!- I promise you, it's the truth.
0:39:25 > 0:39:28- Where are you going? - I'm going to stay at Maggie's.
0:39:28 > 0:39:30You can't leave!
0:39:32 > 0:39:34Lise...
0:39:34 > 0:39:36Mum?
0:39:43 > 0:39:44Oh, come here.
0:39:56 > 0:39:58I haven't finished!
0:39:59 > 0:40:02I couldn't read those letters...
0:40:04 > 0:40:06..because I can hardly read anything.
0:40:08 > 0:40:11Or at least I thought I couldn't.
0:40:11 > 0:40:15And I couldn't show them to Anthony cos I thought they were from him.
0:40:17 > 0:40:20And I couldn't show them to Abbie because...
0:40:21 > 0:40:23Abbie's Abbie.
0:40:23 > 0:40:25So, erm...
0:40:26 > 0:40:29..I asked Fiona Taylor to tell me what they said.
0:40:31 > 0:40:32But she wouldn't.
0:40:36 > 0:40:38So she was helping me to read them myself.
0:40:39 > 0:40:43Something...nearly happened, but it never, right?
0:40:43 > 0:40:46It never, I promise you, it never.
0:40:49 > 0:40:51You can go if you want to go, but...
0:40:51 > 0:40:55But will you just listen to this first, hey?
0:40:55 > 0:40:57Please, just listen to this first.
0:41:06 > 0:41:09Ferry me across the water
0:41:09 > 0:41:12Do, boatman, do
0:41:12 > 0:41:13If you've a...
0:41:15 > 0:41:16..penny in your purse
0:41:18 > 0:41:19I'll ferry you.
0:41:23 > 0:41:26I have a penny
0:41:26 > 0:41:28In my purse
0:41:28 > 0:41:30And my eyes are blue
0:41:32 > 0:41:35And for that penny
0:41:35 > 0:41:36In your purse
0:41:37 > 0:41:39I'll ferry you.
0:41:46 > 0:41:51'This is the first letter I have ever written
0:41:51 > 0:41:53'and I thought I would write it about love.
0:41:53 > 0:41:58'And the reason I'm writing is because you said once
0:41:58 > 0:42:01'that you weren't sure you'd made a jot of difference...
0:42:01 > 0:42:02TRAIN TOOTS
0:42:02 > 0:42:07'..but this letter should tell you, you have.
0:42:07 > 0:42:10'Yours sincerely,
0:42:10 > 0:42:14'John Joseph Rosco.
0:42:14 > 0:42:18'I know there won't be no marching band or fireworks or balloons.
0:42:18 > 0:42:22'But there'll be a lad choosing to spend the day with my family
0:42:22 > 0:42:26'when he could be someplace else and a woman sitting by her brother
0:42:26 > 0:42:29'when she could have thrown his letters in the bin...
0:42:37 > 0:42:39'..and a man holding his wife's hand
0:42:39 > 0:42:41'knowing she hears him when he says,'
0:42:41 > 0:42:44"Ferry me across the water
0:42:44 > 0:42:46"Do, boatman, do.
0:42:46 > 0:42:48"You ferry me
0:42:48 > 0:42:50"And I'll...
0:42:50 > 0:42:52"I'll ferry you".
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