0:00:09 > 0:00:14'250 days a year, two and a bit hours a day, 600 hours,
0:00:14 > 0:00:17'37 days a year on this train with these people.'
0:00:17 > 0:00:19Excuse me, you're in my seat.
0:00:19 > 0:00:21- I'm sorry, is it reserved? - No, there are no reservations.
0:00:21 > 0:00:24'I shouted at this woman on the train today. That's me.'
0:00:24 > 0:00:26The nutter on the train.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28Let's go out. Just me and you.
0:00:28 > 0:00:31Somewhere that's not a parents' evening or a school play.
0:00:31 > 0:00:33- Love you.- Love you too.
0:00:33 > 0:00:36That was completely out of order yesterday.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38- I wanted to apologise.- Oh.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41It's this journey, you know, it makes people tense.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44Especially me on a Monday morning. I'll see you tomorrow, 7:39.
0:00:44 > 0:00:48Just don't let me find you in my seat, all right?
0:00:48 > 0:00:49Joking. Sorry.
0:00:52 > 0:00:55Just so you know, I'm going to be late one night a week from now on.
0:00:55 > 0:00:57Matter of fact, I've joined a gym.
0:00:57 > 0:01:01- I used to play a bit of football. - A footballer? When?
0:01:01 > 0:01:021983.
0:01:07 > 0:01:08You reek of chlorine.
0:01:12 > 0:01:13And what does Ryan say?
0:01:13 > 0:01:18- Just because we're getting married, he doesn't need to know everything about me.- Except he does.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25Are we about to make a mistake?
0:01:25 > 0:01:26I don't care.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49We need to press the button.
0:01:49 > 0:01:50Oh, yeah.
0:01:56 > 0:01:58- Here, let me.- No, I can do it.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00It's just a bit greasy, isn't it?
0:02:00 > 0:02:02Give it to me. W-W-Wait. Watch, watch this.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04Agh!
0:02:08 > 0:02:10- Oh, sorry.- It's OK.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16- Ooh.- Ooh.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30Sorry, am I disturbing you?
0:02:30 > 0:02:33No, look. I'm turning it off, see?
0:02:33 > 0:02:35- Where you going? - Brush my teeth. Garlic.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06HE COUGHS
0:03:06 > 0:03:08Well, if you need a drink that badly...
0:03:09 > 0:03:11No, I'm just...
0:03:12 > 0:03:14I'm just nervous, that's all.
0:03:15 > 0:03:16Yeah, me too.
0:03:16 > 0:03:18Here.
0:03:23 > 0:03:26Champagne and toothpaste. Oh, it's absolutely vile.
0:03:26 > 0:03:27God, you're so lovely.
0:03:34 > 0:03:36- Agh!- Sorry!- No, it's OK.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39I just need to get this...
0:03:41 > 0:03:43My laces.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44You know, I feel a bit...
0:03:44 > 0:03:46Can we...?
0:03:49 > 0:03:52Maybe we should just get some air?
0:03:52 > 0:03:54Yeah...
0:03:54 > 0:03:57Yeah, let's... Let's do that.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08I'm sorry, I feel like I've messed this up.
0:04:10 > 0:04:13The version in my head was a little different.
0:04:13 > 0:04:15What happened in that version?
0:04:17 > 0:04:20Well, I could get my shoelaces undone for a start.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32You haven't messed it up.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Besides...
0:04:34 > 0:04:35it's still early.
0:06:18 > 0:06:21Why do I feel like I need a cigarette?
0:06:21 > 0:06:22I don't even smoke.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26Also, this is a non-smoking room, so...
0:06:28 > 0:06:31Think that's the least of our worries, don't you?
0:06:35 > 0:06:36Are you worried?
0:06:37 > 0:06:39Me? No.
0:06:42 > 0:06:44A little.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48You?
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Yeah, I worry...
0:06:55 > 0:06:57I worry that when I get home and put the key in the lock,
0:06:57 > 0:07:00there's going to be this low rumble and the whole house falls down.
0:07:02 > 0:07:03That won't happen.
0:07:05 > 0:07:08No regrets.
0:07:08 > 0:07:09No apologies.
0:07:13 > 0:07:14OK.
0:07:37 > 0:07:40So look, I'm on the 18:49 if I stay awake that long.
0:07:40 > 0:07:42I'm on lates, so...
0:07:42 > 0:07:44So, what? 7:39 then?
0:07:44 > 0:07:467:39.
0:07:46 > 0:07:48Well, erm...
0:07:48 > 0:07:50- Thank you and...- No, thank you.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54One last time in broad daylight?
0:07:54 > 0:07:56Shall we risk it?
0:07:56 > 0:07:58The last time ever.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00Last time ever.
0:08:00 > 0:08:02I'd better concentrate.
0:08:41 > 0:08:43Dad!
0:08:43 > 0:08:46Hey.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48- What's this for? - You know what it's for.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Well, let's hear it, then.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59- Hello, stranger.- Hi. CHARLOTTE PLAYS "Frere Jacques"
0:08:59 > 0:09:01Nothing like buying your daughter's love.
0:09:01 > 0:09:04It sounds so much better, doesn't it?
0:09:07 > 0:09:09She's back! At last!
0:09:18 > 0:09:21Oh, no offence, but you look knackered.
0:09:21 > 0:09:24Yes, thank you. That's been pointed out already today.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26That'll be from Kerry's sofa.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29- Well, do you know what's never happening again?- Go on.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32You are never, ever, EVER,
0:09:32 > 0:09:36spending another night away from me for the rest of your life.
0:09:36 > 0:09:38Hooray!
0:10:01 > 0:10:03PHONE VIBRATES
0:10:12 > 0:10:14PHONE BEEPS
0:10:26 > 0:10:28SHE CLEARS THROAT
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Oh, hang on...
0:10:32 > 0:10:34No, can we stop now, please?
0:10:34 > 0:10:36How long you been on for? Like, two minutes?
0:10:36 > 0:10:37Yeah, but...
0:10:37 > 0:10:39my heart's not in it tonight.
0:10:39 > 0:10:40Yeah, I didn't think so.
0:10:42 > 0:10:44OK, well...
0:10:44 > 0:10:45what shall we do instead?
0:10:47 > 0:10:48To Monday nights, eh?
0:10:48 > 0:10:51And a strict exercise regime.
0:10:51 > 0:10:53Sorry, is this a jam jar?
0:10:53 > 0:10:55It's a thing, a gimmick.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58There it is, right there.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00- Did you hear it?- What?
0:11:00 > 0:11:02My mid-life crisis kicking in.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06A sports car, a tattoo - that is textbook.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08Yeah. Something practical, eh?
0:11:08 > 0:11:11Like a landline or my national insurance number.
0:11:11 > 0:11:14- Or you could run a marathon. - Well, I've joined a gym.
0:11:14 > 0:11:15Or have an affair.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18A one-night stand with a stranger on a train.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24Except you're not a stranger.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33Stop, stop, stop, stop...
0:11:33 > 0:11:35I feel like a teenager.
0:11:35 > 0:11:39- Touching each other up on the train - it's ridiculous. - Let's go somewhere private, then.
0:11:39 > 0:11:42- I'm not going in the toilet, Carl. - No, we could go to a hotel, you know?
0:11:42 > 0:11:45- Or do you think that's a bad idea? - It's moving things on.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47So it is a bad idea, then?
0:11:47 > 0:11:50- Oh, God. See, I knew this would happen.- I'm sorry, I just...
0:11:50 > 0:11:53I just wanted to say, you know? Get it out there, see what happens.
0:11:53 > 0:11:55I'm sorry. Just forget it.
0:11:55 > 0:11:56Unless you want to...
0:11:56 > 0:11:59It's not about wanting to. We can't just do whatever we want.
0:11:59 > 0:12:02Can't we? Why not? Just this once, just do it and see what happens.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04What could possibly happen?
0:12:05 > 0:12:09When I get off this train I'm going to go home to Ryan.
0:12:09 > 0:12:11And I'm going to kiss him and get in bed with him
0:12:11 > 0:12:14and tell him that I love him and I will mean it, too.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17- I know and I don't mind.- Oh, great. Well, as long as you don't mind!
0:12:17 > 0:12:19No, I mean, I do mind. It's just...
0:12:19 > 0:12:21I haven't stopped loving Maggie just because we've started...
0:12:25 > 0:12:26This is our stop.
0:12:28 > 0:12:31Tell me it's not just me. Hey, it's not just me, is it?
0:12:31 > 0:12:34Because you know I'm not the stalking type.
0:12:34 > 0:12:35No, it's not just you.
0:12:39 > 0:12:42- Hello.- Yeah, stayed late at work, you know.- Quick drink after work.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Well, see you in the morning.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48Stupid, isn't it? So stupid.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50Who's he going to tell? He doesn't know us.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53I know but it's my fault, getting carried away.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55Well, we'll just have to be more careful in the future.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59The future?
0:13:01 > 0:13:02Let's...
0:13:04 > 0:13:05..sleep on it.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Hm?
0:13:29 > 0:13:32- What is this exactly? - Ah-ah! Keep watching.
0:13:38 > 0:13:39Oh!
0:13:44 > 0:13:45It's for the honeymoon?
0:13:45 > 0:13:47Longer than the honeymoon.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49Much, much longer.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54They say it's a brilliant place to raise kids.
0:13:54 > 0:13:58- We don't have kids! - Yes, but we will have. We will.
0:13:58 > 0:14:01- I'm going to miss my train. - Look, Sal...
0:14:01 > 0:14:06I know I'm not always on the ball but I know when you're not happy.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09I can see it when you head off for the train.
0:14:10 > 0:14:13As far as I'm concerned, my sole aim,
0:14:13 > 0:14:17my number one priority in life now, is to make you happy.
0:14:17 > 0:14:20And I'm going to give it 110%.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23- 110% is not possible. - Well, that's your opinion.
0:14:23 > 0:14:25No, it's not an opinion, it's ACTUALLY impossible.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28- Hey, nothing's impossible. - No, giving it 110% IS impossible.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31Oh, for Christ's sake! It's a figure of speech!
0:14:32 > 0:14:34Look...
0:14:34 > 0:14:36this could be a whole new start for us.
0:14:36 > 0:14:40New job, new friends, hopefully a new arrival.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Change.
0:14:43 > 0:14:46I thought that's what you wanted.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16PHONE VIBRATES
0:15:37 > 0:15:39SHE SHOUTS IN EXCITEMENT
0:15:58 > 0:16:00Can I ask you something personal?
0:16:00 > 0:16:02Oh, here we go. Typical men.
0:16:02 > 0:16:03- What?- Everything's a competition.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05You don't know what I'm going to ask.
0:16:05 > 0:16:07- You want to know who's better in bed.- No, I don't!
0:16:07 > 0:16:10Well, he's not better, it's different.
0:16:10 > 0:16:13Very attentive, very keen.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16It's like being in one of his classes. There's warm-up,
0:16:16 > 0:16:20stretching, warm-down, plenty of hydration to hand.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22Gives it 110%.
0:16:22 > 0:16:24So no complaints, then?
0:16:24 > 0:16:26Only that sometimes I'm not in the room with him. That's all.
0:16:30 > 0:16:31Let's not do that again.
0:16:34 > 0:16:36- What?- Talk about the others.
0:16:38 > 0:16:40It's not on.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42It feels like...
0:16:42 > 0:16:45Well, it feels like what it is.
0:16:45 > 0:16:46Betrayal.
0:16:48 > 0:16:51- For Christ's sake...- Hey, come here.
0:16:51 > 0:16:52What?
0:16:54 > 0:16:57Well, we're having our first argument.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00No, I mean it. I'm serious. I don't like that.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01It makes me sad.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04How would you feel if I asked that about...
0:17:04 > 0:17:07- I can't even say her name! - I'm sorry.
0:17:09 > 0:17:12Let's just keep it on the island, yeah?
0:17:15 > 0:17:17We're going to miss our train.
0:17:23 > 0:17:27I thought all this exercise was meant to tire you out.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29Yeah, me too.
0:17:29 > 0:17:30It's just, erm...
0:17:30 > 0:17:32It's work stuff, you know?
0:17:34 > 0:17:37- Do you want to talk about it? - No, it's OK.
0:17:37 > 0:17:39You go to sleep.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43I'm just going to lie here till it gets light, you know?
0:17:46 > 0:17:49So it's gym night tonight - I'll be back late.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Do you think it's making any difference? I mean, physically.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55Promise me you won't get too big.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00'Ryan wants us to move to Australia.'
0:18:02 > 0:18:06- Australia?- Yeah, he said we could live by the sea.
0:18:06 > 0:18:10He's got relatives there, he feels we'd belong.
0:18:10 > 0:18:14And the quality of life - it's a great place to bring a child up.
0:18:14 > 0:18:15What, you're pregnant?
0:18:15 > 0:18:16No, Carl.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20- Sorry, Australia?- Yeah, I know.
0:18:20 > 0:18:23What, so you'll just... You'll give up work? Or what?
0:18:23 > 0:18:26- Well, it's a bit of a commute otherwise.- Sorry...
0:18:26 > 0:18:29Why are you joking about this?
0:18:29 > 0:18:32- Because I don't know if I'm going yet.- Well, do you want to? I mean...
0:18:32 > 0:18:37I'm really trying to hate the idea but I can't quite. I mean...
0:18:37 > 0:18:40I need something new, I need something to change.
0:18:40 > 0:18:42Well, I don't want anything to change.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44Carl, I'm getting married!
0:18:44 > 0:18:46You don't think that might throw up some difficulties?
0:18:46 > 0:18:50- Oh, by the way, I can't meet you that day - it's my wedding. - It's different.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53- Unless you want to come. Why don't you bring your wife? - It's different.
0:18:53 > 0:18:55- What's the difference? - I won't see you any more.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13Why don't we...
0:19:14 > 0:19:17Let's just try and enjoy now, yeah?
0:19:19 > 0:19:20Yeah.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27Let's spend the whole day together next time. Let's just...
0:19:28 > 0:19:29..spend it together.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32We'll go into London and we'll be...
0:19:32 > 0:19:35We'll be like tourists or something.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37OK, we'll be tourists.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46It's just one day off.
0:19:46 > 0:19:47I have to say, it's not ideal.
0:19:47 > 0:19:50Well, I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important, would I?
0:19:50 > 0:19:53- Can't what's her name, the lady wife?- Maggie, she's called Maggie...
0:19:53 > 0:19:58She's been called Maggie for the last eight years - why don't you write it down or something, eh?
0:19:58 > 0:20:01It's just one day off so I take my son to see this university.
0:20:01 > 0:20:06- That's all.- Well, since you feel so strongly about it.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08- Thanks.- Carl...
0:20:09 > 0:20:12Carl, I wonder, could you tell me what it says outside my office?
0:20:13 > 0:20:15What?
0:20:15 > 0:20:17The sign, there. What does it say?
0:20:19 > 0:20:21It says, "Head of Commercial Property."
0:20:21 > 0:20:22One more time?
0:20:22 > 0:20:24"Head of Commercial Property."
0:20:26 > 0:20:27Thank you.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56That is where I used to live. My first flat.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58We were over there.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Tiny little bedsit.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03And that is where I work.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07And there's my office. See my boss.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09- Oi! We're skiving!- Hello!
0:21:09 > 0:21:11Smile.
0:21:17 > 0:21:19You're such a tourist.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22What do you need a picture of Big Ben for?
0:21:22 > 0:21:24I need to photograph some pigeons.
0:21:26 > 0:21:27What shall I do?
0:21:29 > 0:21:31I don't know.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Maybe I'd better delete them.
0:21:38 > 0:21:39Yeah, I think so.
0:21:43 > 0:21:44Come here.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52'What are you staring at?'
0:21:54 > 0:21:56I'm just taking photographs.
0:21:57 > 0:21:58Click.
0:22:00 > 0:22:01Click.
0:22:35 > 0:22:37DOOR OPENS
0:22:37 > 0:22:40TELEVISION IN BACKGROUND
0:22:50 > 0:22:51How was university?
0:22:54 > 0:22:56Did it have good facilities?
0:22:56 > 0:22:57Great facilities.
0:23:04 > 0:23:08Listen, could you turn that off for a second?
0:23:08 > 0:23:11I just wanted to say that when I was your age...
0:23:13 > 0:23:14..because I was once...
0:23:16 > 0:23:19..I always did the sensible, responsible...
0:23:20 > 0:23:22..ordinary thing.
0:23:22 > 0:23:25And I'd hate to think that you get to my age and you have the same...
0:23:28 > 0:23:29..regrets.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32Are you drunk?
0:23:32 > 0:23:33No.
0:23:33 > 0:23:37I just think you should follow your heart, all right? You should...
0:23:37 > 0:23:38do your theatre or whatever
0:23:38 > 0:23:41and you do it with my blessing, OK? Do you understand what I'm saying?
0:23:44 > 0:23:45OK.
0:23:51 > 0:23:54HE TURNS TV BACK ON
0:23:59 > 0:24:02I mean, just a simple, "Thank you, Dad." Would it kill him?
0:24:02 > 0:24:05- For nine grand a year plus maintenance?- Kids, eh?
0:24:05 > 0:24:07Yeah, you're better off out of it, mate.
0:24:07 > 0:24:10Well, I don't mean that. I don't mind really, cos I love them...
0:24:10 > 0:24:12Carl...
0:24:14 > 0:24:16I'm letting you go, Carl.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19I thought so.
0:24:19 > 0:24:24When you closed the blinds, I thought, "Here we go. Bullet in the head time."
0:24:24 > 0:24:26- I can't lose my job, Grant. - I'm sorry, it's out of my hands.
0:24:26 > 0:24:28It's not your decision?
0:24:28 > 0:24:31By which I mean I have no choice.
0:24:31 > 0:24:35You're expensive, Carl, you make mistakes, you lack motivation...
0:24:35 > 0:24:37- My head's been elsewhere.- It has.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39But I can address that, I mean, I am addressing it.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42And it's time for you to do something different.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46- I can't do anything different. - Find something. Take time!
0:24:46 > 0:24:50There'll be a package - you've been here a while, so it's generous.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53- It won't be enough. - You don't know what it is yet.
0:24:53 > 0:24:55Will it be enough for the rest of my life?
0:24:55 > 0:24:58For my family, for my kids?
0:24:58 > 0:25:00- Change is always scary. - You're telling me.
0:25:00 > 0:25:03- But it's a very fluid job market. - You think so?
0:25:03 > 0:25:07With all those shiny new graduates out there. Do you think that's what they're looking for, eh?
0:25:07 > 0:25:10A solid, middle-aged salary man?
0:25:10 > 0:25:12I can't lose my job, Grant.
0:25:15 > 0:25:16I'm sorry, mate.
0:25:19 > 0:25:20And don't call me "mate".
0:25:22 > 0:25:24Don't kick me in the head and then call me "mate".
0:26:27 > 0:26:30I love you.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33So much.
0:26:34 > 0:26:36That's nice.
0:26:36 > 0:26:37Now go to sleep.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57- TRAIN ANNOUNCER:- 'This train is for London Waterloo.'
0:27:01 > 0:27:03- Why didn't you tell her last night? - Cos you know why.
0:27:05 > 0:27:08I mean, if I don't take the train I...
0:27:08 > 0:27:10Go home and tell her. Straightaway.
0:27:13 > 0:27:14What about us?
0:27:17 > 0:27:18We'll be apart for a while.
0:27:18 > 0:27:21You know, for 12 years I have hated that train.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24Wasted hours, just routine.
0:27:24 > 0:27:26And now that I don't have it any more, I'm...
0:27:29 > 0:27:30I am lost.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35You'll be back soon.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04I think - and bear with me on this one -
0:28:04 > 0:28:07I think it's a good thing.
0:28:07 > 0:28:10No, listen, I'm not saying it's not a shock and I'm not saying "don't worry",
0:28:10 > 0:28:12cos I know you will. But we've got savings.
0:28:12 > 0:28:14They're not meant for this, though, are they?
0:28:14 > 0:28:16Well, what else are they for?
0:28:16 > 0:28:18University, you know, holidays, retirement.
0:28:18 > 0:28:22Then we'll economise. You can refund your season ticket, cancel the gym.
0:28:22 > 0:28:25We can live off lentils and make clothes out of old curtains.
0:28:25 > 0:28:27- Sell one of the kids. - Don't make fun of me.
0:28:27 > 0:28:31I wouldn't dream of it. But we are fine, we're luckier than most.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34We can live off my salary while you can look for something more local.
0:28:34 > 0:28:38Something that's not going to have you clutching at your left arm in five years' time.
0:28:38 > 0:28:41And I'm not even joking, I do keep waiting for that call.
0:28:43 > 0:28:45Work's hard, isn't it? It's meant to be hard.
0:28:45 > 0:28:47Yeah, but it's not meant to kill you.
0:28:47 > 0:28:52I love you, Carl, but you have been unbearable these past few years.
0:28:52 > 0:28:55Sorry but it's true.
0:28:55 > 0:28:57- No, I know. - This is our chance to start afresh.
0:28:59 > 0:29:01I'm too old to start anything.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04Well, you're old but you're not too old.
0:29:04 > 0:29:08It's just humiliating. I mean, What'll the kids think?
0:29:08 > 0:29:11- They'll understand.- It's shaming, you know? I feel ashamed.
0:29:11 > 0:29:13For what possible reason?
0:29:44 > 0:29:46Of course, once you've joined you'll be able to use
0:29:46 > 0:29:50the facilities in all of our branches,
0:29:50 > 0:29:51open...
0:29:54 > 0:29:56- Kerry...- Yeah?- ..could you just take over for one second?
0:30:32 > 0:30:34TV CHANNELS CHANGE
0:30:34 > 0:30:36Will you please stop doing that?
0:30:39 > 0:30:42Christ. I've got to get out of here. I'm going to go for a run.
0:30:42 > 0:30:45Now? It's pouring with rain. Why don't you wait till morning?
0:30:45 > 0:30:46Have you seen my phone?
0:30:46 > 0:30:49- Why do you need your phone? - Just so I can listen to music.
0:30:49 > 0:30:51Oh, there it is.
0:30:52 > 0:30:56Don't look at me like that. I'll only be what? Half an hour. OK?
0:31:00 > 0:31:03Quick, quick, quick! Do you know, I had to stand on the train on the way home?
0:31:03 > 0:31:05I was so indignant about it.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08I wanted to say, "I'm a pregnant woman! How dare you?!"
0:31:08 > 0:31:10Maybe you should stop.
0:31:10 > 0:31:13Work? You want me to lie in bed for 32 weeks?
0:31:13 > 0:31:15- I'm not ill, I'm pregnant. - No, I know, I know.
0:31:15 > 0:31:18I just want to keep you here, all by myself.
0:31:18 > 0:31:21- Every minute of the day. - Bit like a hostage?
0:31:21 > 0:31:22Exactly!
0:31:22 > 0:31:23My beautiful hostage.
0:31:23 > 0:31:26PHONE BEEPS
0:31:28 > 0:31:30Oh, it's Kerry.
0:31:30 > 0:31:32Wants me to cover for work tomorrow.
0:31:32 > 0:31:34When can we tell people? At the wedding?
0:31:34 > 0:31:36Yes, we can make an announcement.
0:31:36 > 0:31:39Will we need to adjust your dress?
0:31:39 > 0:31:42PHONE VIBRATES
0:32:12 > 0:32:14CRASH!
0:32:24 > 0:32:27It's a recruitment consultancy, they're not promising anything.
0:32:27 > 0:32:30They just want to "assess my skill set". Whatever that is.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32I didn't even know I had a "skill set".
0:32:32 > 0:32:34You didn't mention anything last night.
0:32:34 > 0:32:38I've only just checked my e-mails, haven't I? It only came last night.
0:32:38 > 0:32:41It's a last minute thing, they just want a chat. It might be nothing.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44- It might lead to something.- Exactly.
0:32:59 > 0:33:02I've got to rush, I'm going to get the 7:39.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05- It's a bit early, isn't it? - I've still got my season ticket, haven't I?
0:33:05 > 0:33:07Might as well use it.
0:33:07 > 0:33:10Look, I'll give you a call, let you know how it goes. Bye.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26I'm thinking of cancelling my membership.
0:33:31 > 0:33:34- Are you sure that's a good idea? - My situation has changed.
0:33:37 > 0:33:38Yeah, mine too.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42OK, well...
0:33:42 > 0:33:43I'll get the cancellation forms.
0:33:43 > 0:33:45Unless you want to talk me out of it?
0:33:48 > 0:33:51You look smart. I hope it's for an interview.
0:33:51 > 0:33:54No, it's not an interview, it's a consultation.
0:33:54 > 0:33:58So it's an interview about an interview, you know?
0:33:58 > 0:34:00Well, that's good. See? I told you.
0:34:00 > 0:34:02Back on the train in no time.
0:34:02 > 0:34:05Yeah, I hope so. Fingers crossed, eh?
0:34:12 > 0:34:15There's no interview.
0:34:15 > 0:34:17- No, I thought not. - I've missed you, Sally.
0:34:17 > 0:34:21- I've missed you too but, Carl... - I know, but I mean like a lunatic. I'm sitting at home...
0:34:21 > 0:34:24Carl, what do you expect to happen?!
0:34:24 > 0:34:27Describe the sequence of events! How does this end happily?
0:34:32 > 0:34:35I have absolutely no idea.
0:34:35 > 0:34:37No, me neither.
0:34:37 > 0:34:39So what?
0:34:39 > 0:34:40Is this is it?
0:34:42 > 0:34:44Goodbye, yeah?
0:34:48 > 0:34:49Come here.
0:35:02 > 0:35:04Oh...
0:35:04 > 0:35:06Oh, no.
0:35:06 > 0:35:09What? What?
0:35:09 > 0:35:10Carl, I'm so sorry.
0:35:26 > 0:35:28Maggie...
0:35:32 > 0:35:34- Maggie!- Don't you DARE!
0:35:41 > 0:35:43- Shall we find somewhere?- To what? - To talk.
0:35:43 > 0:35:46I do not want to talk and I don't want to cry in public.
0:35:46 > 0:35:48Christ, I've been humiliated enough as it is.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50- Do you want me to explain? - I want you to go away.
0:35:50 > 0:35:52- There's a train in two minutes. - Do not get on the same train as me.
0:35:52 > 0:35:55Of course I'm going to get on the same train! Maggie...!
0:35:55 > 0:35:57That's my season ticket, Maggie!
0:36:12 > 0:36:14DOOR CLOSES
0:36:14 > 0:36:16How was the interview?
0:36:16 > 0:36:19- Maggie...- With the recruitment people, did it go well?
0:36:19 > 0:36:21I was so pleased when you told me, watching you skipping
0:36:21 > 0:36:24out the house all full of hope and dressed up.
0:36:25 > 0:36:29- Don't be like this.- Oh, what? Am I making you feel uncomfortable?
0:36:31 > 0:36:34- She's a friend of mine. - A little more than a friend.
0:36:36 > 0:36:38Yeah, a little more, yeah.
0:36:38 > 0:36:41How long has she been more than a friend?
0:36:43 > 0:36:44A month.
0:36:44 > 0:36:48And how many times have you been more than friendly?
0:36:48 > 0:36:49Six or seven.
0:36:52 > 0:36:55Well, at least it's not double figures. And when was the first time?
0:36:55 > 0:36:58That train strike. You know, when I was stuck up in London.
0:36:58 > 0:37:00When you spent the night in the hotel.
0:37:02 > 0:37:05- It was just going to be the once. - But you couldn't help yourself?- No.
0:37:05 > 0:37:07Oh, couldn't resist, it was too much.
0:37:07 > 0:37:11- The attraction was just too strong - It wasn't like that.
0:37:11 > 0:37:13Well, things aren't going that well with Mrs M.
0:37:13 > 0:37:16Not the same old spark. Not surprising after all these years.
0:37:16 > 0:37:18We never talked about you. It's got nothing to do with you.
0:37:18 > 0:37:22- Oh, I think it's got something to do with me.- But it's not because of you.
0:37:22 > 0:37:25I've always been happy here, there's never been anything missing here.
0:37:25 > 0:37:27I've always loved it here, I've always loved you.
0:37:27 > 0:37:29So why? Is she younger?
0:37:29 > 0:37:32No. Yeah, a little bit but... you know, in many ways you're similar.
0:37:32 > 0:37:35Well that's flattering, that she reminds you of me.
0:37:35 > 0:37:38- That's not what I... I'm just trying to explain.- I don't want to hear it!
0:37:38 > 0:37:40What could you possibly say?
0:37:40 > 0:37:43That you were stuck in a rut? Me too!
0:37:43 > 0:37:45That you felt invisible, under-appreciated,
0:37:45 > 0:37:48not special any more? Me too!
0:37:48 > 0:37:51That you sometimes wanted more sex or different sex?
0:37:51 > 0:37:53Or you felt old and tired and ugly and dull
0:37:53 > 0:37:56and you just wanted to know what it felt like to be fancied again?!
0:37:56 > 0:38:00There is nothing - NOTHING - that you don't feel that I don't feel just as much and maybe more!
0:38:00 > 0:38:02But I don't do anything about it
0:38:02 > 0:38:06because I have a family that I love and I would not betray them!
0:38:06 > 0:38:07I met someone.
0:38:07 > 0:38:10And I felt something for her and she felt something for me.
0:38:10 > 0:38:13All right? We never looked for it.
0:38:13 > 0:38:15If I'd sat on a different seat or got on a different train,
0:38:15 > 0:38:18this might never have happened. And I know you don't want to hear this
0:38:18 > 0:38:20- but we couldn't help ourselves, OK? - Do you love her?
0:38:24 > 0:38:26I love the idea of her.
0:38:26 > 0:38:28I love seeing her and I love being with her.
0:38:28 > 0:38:29Do you still love her?
0:38:35 > 0:38:36I think I possibly might, yeah.
0:38:38 > 0:38:41But I love you too and, I mean, I love you both.
0:38:41 > 0:38:44Doesn't work like that. The new one pushes the old one out.
0:38:48 > 0:38:50I'm going to stay here
0:38:50 > 0:38:53and you're going to pack a bag before the kids come home.
0:38:53 > 0:38:55- What are you going to tell them? - I don't know yet.
0:39:24 > 0:39:27Right, you ready? OK, don't laugh.
0:39:28 > 0:39:32"I, Ryan, take you, Sally, to be my wife
0:39:32 > 0:39:34"and these things I swear.
0:39:35 > 0:39:38"I promise to love you and to take care of you.
0:39:39 > 0:39:41"I promise to listen to your problems
0:39:41 > 0:39:43"and to do my best to understand.
0:39:44 > 0:39:47"I promise to support you financially..."
0:39:47 > 0:39:50I'm not sure about that bit, might be a bit too practical.
0:39:50 > 0:39:52"..but to respect your independence too."
0:39:52 > 0:39:57- PHONE VIBRATES - "But most of all I promise to be your friend."
0:39:58 > 0:40:00Sorry. That won't happen on the day.
0:40:00 > 0:40:03Well, I don't mind, as long as you don't pick up.
0:40:03 > 0:40:05"Hi, can't talk now, I'm at the altar." So, carry on.
0:40:05 > 0:40:09Erm... "But most off all I promise to be your friend
0:40:09 > 0:40:11"and to give you 110%,
0:40:11 > 0:40:13"whether it's mathematically possible or not."
0:40:13 > 0:40:14Little joke there.
0:40:16 > 0:40:18Oh, you don't like it, do you?
0:40:18 > 0:40:21- I mean, well... This is just a first draft.- Sorry, give me one second.
0:40:21 > 0:40:23Yeah, no, no. Go, go, I need to...
0:40:32 > 0:40:35- How are you? - 'A bit shaky, to be honest.'
0:40:35 > 0:40:38She's talking to the kids now and then I'm going to see them tomorrow.
0:40:40 > 0:40:42Christ knows what I'm going to say.
0:40:42 > 0:40:44'I am so sorry.'
0:40:44 > 0:40:45'It's not your fault.'
0:40:45 > 0:40:48- Isn't it? It feels like it is. - Sally, look...
0:40:51 > 0:40:53There's no reason any of this should affect you.
0:40:53 > 0:40:55'You know, I've not mentioned any names.
0:40:55 > 0:40:58'Maggie doesn't know who you are, so you're...
0:40:59 > 0:41:00'You're safe.'
0:41:01 > 0:41:05So you should just stick to your plan.
0:41:05 > 0:41:06'Carry on with your life and...
0:41:08 > 0:41:10'..be happy.'
0:41:12 > 0:41:13OK?
0:41:19 > 0:41:21You ready? Where are you?
0:41:21 > 0:41:22One minute.
0:41:42 > 0:41:44Ryan...
0:41:44 > 0:41:45I've been seeing someone.
0:41:48 > 0:41:51I've been seeing someone. A relationship.
0:41:53 > 0:41:57- Tell me his name! - Just a man I met on the train. No!
0:41:57 > 0:41:58Carl. Carl is his name.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00- He know about us?- Yes. - He knows we're engaged?
0:42:00 > 0:42:04- What about the baby?!- He doesn't know about the baby. Ryan, you're frightening me!
0:42:04 > 0:42:06- Is it his?- No!
0:42:06 > 0:42:10How do you know? How do you possibly know, you stupid woman?
0:42:10 > 0:42:14Because we were always careful. You're hurting me, Ryan!
0:42:14 > 0:42:16We're fine, everything's fine!
0:42:16 > 0:42:18I'm sorry!
0:42:21 > 0:42:24DRAMATIC MUSIC
0:42:40 > 0:42:42I made a friend on the morning train.
0:42:44 > 0:42:45And, erm...
0:42:47 > 0:42:49I hadn't made a friend for a while and...
0:42:53 > 0:42:54I know you look at adults
0:42:54 > 0:42:58and think that we've grown up and out of all that stuff but we haven't.
0:42:58 > 0:43:01Anyway, the friendship turned into, well...
0:43:03 > 0:43:04..something else.
0:43:07 > 0:43:09And it was meant to be a secret. Not that that makes it OK
0:43:09 > 0:43:11but you weren't supposed to get hurt, you know?
0:43:11 > 0:43:12Or your mum either.
0:43:18 > 0:43:20- If there had been any other way, I... - What? Not to get found out?
0:43:20 > 0:43:23- It wasn't something that Sally and I...- Sally!
0:43:23 > 0:43:24..entered into lightly.
0:43:24 > 0:43:27Just so you know, this moment here, right now,
0:43:27 > 0:43:30sitting here with you two - it's the worst moment of my life by far
0:43:30 > 0:43:34because I love you two and I hate the fact that I've hurt you.
0:43:50 > 0:43:52So does this mean I'm going to have a stepmum?
0:43:52 > 0:43:54No, no it doesn't mean that.
0:43:54 > 0:43:57Cos you and mum are getting back together?
0:43:57 > 0:43:59I don't know. I don't know.
0:44:04 > 0:44:06I'd better go.
0:44:08 > 0:44:10Mum said to give you this.
0:44:14 > 0:44:16Bye, Dad.
0:44:36 > 0:44:39But I don't understand - you could have got away with it.
0:44:39 > 0:44:41I didn't want to "get away with it".
0:44:41 > 0:44:44Standing there in front of everyone thinking,
0:44:44 > 0:44:46"This is the happiest day of my life - I got away with it."
0:44:48 > 0:44:50A vow's a vow, isn't it?
0:44:50 > 0:44:53Besides, he'd have found out somehow.
0:44:53 > 0:44:55Was he angry?
0:44:55 > 0:44:56Well, he wasn't that fussed.
0:44:56 > 0:44:58No, I mean was he violent? You know, did he...
0:44:58 > 0:45:00Did he hit you?
0:45:00 > 0:45:02I think the thought crossed his mind.
0:45:04 > 0:45:07It's the first time I've ever seen him lose control. I...
0:45:07 > 0:45:10- I didn't think he was capable. - God, if he'd hit you, I'd...
0:45:10 > 0:45:14I wouldn't get too heroic. He's in slightly better shape than you.
0:45:18 > 0:45:21I'm sorry, I...
0:45:21 > 0:45:24- For weaving your web of temptation? - Well, no...
0:45:24 > 0:45:25I've made my own decisions.
0:45:27 > 0:45:29God, and now I've got to tell my parents
0:45:29 > 0:45:32and his parents, all our friends.
0:45:32 > 0:45:36Oh, Christ. It's like trying to...
0:45:36 > 0:45:40stand still in a burning house and I just want to run out and I can't.
0:45:40 > 0:45:43- Well, maybe we could. - What?- We'll just go away.
0:45:44 > 0:45:46- Together?- Yeah.
0:45:47 > 0:45:50My mum and dad have got this cottage. It's miles away from anywhere.
0:45:50 > 0:45:52You want me to meet your parents?
0:45:52 > 0:45:53Christ, no!
0:45:53 > 0:45:56They won't be there - that's the point. It'd just be us.
0:45:56 > 0:45:58I've got a key -
0:45:58 > 0:46:02just a place we can hide for a bit, you know?
0:46:02 > 0:46:04Just catch our breath.
0:46:04 > 0:46:07- Ryan!- Do you know what you've done, you bastard?!- Ryan!
0:46:07 > 0:46:09Do you?! Do you?!
0:46:09 > 0:46:11- Please!- DO YOU?!
0:46:15 > 0:46:18DRAMATIC MUSIC
0:46:41 > 0:46:43So he met your fiance, then?
0:46:44 > 0:46:45He has.
0:46:50 > 0:46:53- I didn't expect this to happen. - No, of course you didn't.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57I've never really thought about you. Which is wrong, I know.
0:46:57 > 0:46:58Oh, you think so?
0:46:58 > 0:47:01He was a bit lost, I think and...
0:47:01 > 0:47:04I was too and we just... We happened to find each other.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11He does adore you, you know. That never changed.
0:47:11 > 0:47:14- I know it isn't any consolation. - No, it isn't.
0:47:14 > 0:47:16But I don't think we're bad people.
0:47:20 > 0:47:22No, bad people never do.
0:47:28 > 0:47:30Mrs. Matthews?
0:47:33 > 0:47:36I told them not to call you - it's completely unnecessary.
0:47:36 > 0:47:39They said you were unconscious.
0:47:39 > 0:47:40Concussion.
0:47:40 > 0:47:43Just some cuts and bruises, that's all.
0:47:43 > 0:47:46Well, at least something good has come out of all this.
0:47:47 > 0:47:50- You should see the other fella. - Not a mark on him.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55I thought he was a jogger. I thought he was just going to jog on
0:47:55 > 0:47:58and then he started kicking the crap out of me.
0:48:01 > 0:48:04He's a professional athlete, for Christ's sake.
0:48:10 > 0:48:12It hurts when I laugh.
0:48:12 > 0:48:13Yeah, me too.
0:48:14 > 0:48:18Well, I only came to turn off your life support and you're fine so I'll say goodbye.
0:48:18 > 0:48:21- Maggie...- I can't do this, not yet.
0:48:22 > 0:48:25We were a team.
0:48:25 > 0:48:27A really good team. I thought so anyway.
0:48:27 > 0:48:30So I don't want you under the illusion this'll to make us stronger
0:48:30 > 0:48:33or that we'll be able to chat or some crap like that, cos it won't.
0:48:34 > 0:48:36This has destroyed us.
0:49:10 > 0:49:12- What do you think?- It's beautiful.
0:49:21 > 0:49:25- So are you absolutely sure? - I'm absolutely sure.
0:49:25 > 0:49:27But how can you be sure?
0:49:27 > 0:49:29Biology, arithmetic.
0:49:30 > 0:49:32We were stupid about some things,
0:49:32 > 0:49:33but we were always careful about that.
0:49:33 > 0:49:36But even then so there must be a tiny chance...
0:49:36 > 0:49:37Carl, if he or she gets to five years old
0:49:37 > 0:49:40and suddenly has your eyes then I'll give you a call.
0:49:40 > 0:49:41But I know the baby's Ryan's.
0:49:43 > 0:49:46Congratulations. I'm sorry.
0:49:46 > 0:49:47That combination.
0:49:47 > 0:49:50- God, no wonder he hit me so hard. - You're lucky he didn't kill you.
0:49:52 > 0:49:54I bet want to kill me as well, don't you?
0:49:55 > 0:49:57That's why I'm here.
0:49:57 > 0:49:58So, how are you feeling?
0:50:01 > 0:50:02Confused.
0:50:02 > 0:50:05Nauseous.
0:50:05 > 0:50:06Scared.
0:50:08 > 0:50:10I thought about it happening for years but...
0:50:11 > 0:50:13..I never imagined doing it alone.
0:50:24 > 0:50:26TV CHANNELS CHANGE
0:50:28 > 0:50:30Can we watch just one thing?
0:50:30 > 0:50:32Yeah, sure.
0:50:41 > 0:50:43I always thought pregnancy was supposed to be an aphrodisiac.
0:50:46 > 0:50:48I think that only works if it's your baby.
0:50:53 > 0:50:54I can hear the sea.
0:50:56 > 0:50:58Yeah, me too.
0:51:07 > 0:51:09I couldn't sleep at all last night.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11Me neither.
0:51:11 > 0:51:13I thought it was supposed to be soothing.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15No, not because of that.
0:51:15 > 0:51:17It's just that I wanted to say...
0:51:18 > 0:51:20look, I know this wasn't in the plan
0:51:20 > 0:51:22and things got out of hand and stuff and...
0:51:23 > 0:51:26..it's not what we expected or what we wanted but...
0:51:27 > 0:51:30..but one thing I don't feel -
0:51:30 > 0:51:31what I won't feel...
0:51:32 > 0:51:34..is regret.
0:51:37 > 0:51:40Cos I don't regret meeting you, Sally.
0:51:40 > 0:51:44- And I don't regret kissing you or falling in love with you...- Carl.
0:51:44 > 0:51:46And I want you to consider that you, me and...
0:51:46 > 0:51:48- Carl, you don't need say it. - Why not?
0:51:48 > 0:51:50Because you don't mean it.
0:51:54 > 0:51:56We were better on the train.
0:51:57 > 0:51:59We were better there - it was just us two.
0:52:01 > 0:52:04Out in the world, we'd just...
0:52:04 > 0:52:05It wouldn't work.
0:52:07 > 0:52:08I know what you want...
0:52:08 > 0:52:10and it's fine.
0:52:15 > 0:52:18We had a fine time for a while, didn't we?
0:53:27 > 0:53:31- You're sure you don't want me to come with you? I'll just come to the station or something.- No.
0:53:31 > 0:53:34All that hanging out the window, waving goodbye? It's all right.
0:53:36 > 0:53:38Be good.
0:53:38 > 0:53:40I always was before.
0:54:04 > 0:54:06So...
0:54:06 > 0:54:08There's just no point being stubborn.
0:54:10 > 0:54:12I've decided to look on this as a wobble.
0:54:14 > 0:54:15A wobble?
0:54:15 > 0:54:17Yeah.
0:54:17 > 0:54:19You've just had a wobble.
0:54:19 > 0:54:22- I've never heard it called that before.- Sal, please.
0:54:22 > 0:54:24Just let me continue.
0:54:24 > 0:54:28Basically, there's too much at stake here.
0:54:28 > 0:54:32Not just our futures and the baby's but...
0:54:32 > 0:54:34the deposit too,
0:54:34 > 0:54:38and all the organisation. And I refuse to throw all that away.
0:54:40 > 0:54:44So I'm prepared...
0:54:44 > 0:54:46to just say, "There.
0:54:46 > 0:54:48"OK, that... That happened."
0:54:50 > 0:54:52And now we continue exactly as planned.
0:54:55 > 0:54:57In other words,
0:54:57 > 0:54:59I forgive you, Sally.
0:55:01 > 0:55:03You've just had a wobble.
0:55:50 > 0:55:51Can I come in?
0:55:59 > 0:56:02PHONE ALARM BEEPS
0:56:16 > 0:56:18"Such a wagoner as Phaethon would whip you to the West..."
0:56:18 > 0:56:22Is that, "Phae-ton" or "Phae-thon"? Or even "Thae-thon"? Could be.
0:56:24 > 0:56:26No, go on, carry on. It's really good.
0:56:27 > 0:56:30"..and bring in cloudy night immediately...
0:56:30 > 0:56:33"Spread thy close curtain, Love-performing night.
0:56:33 > 0:56:36"That, unawares, eyes may wink, and Romeo,
0:56:36 > 0:56:38"leap to these arms, untalked of and unseen..."
0:57:08 > 0:57:11Sally!