0:00:02 > 0:00:04Do you ever think you're going mad and you've got everything wrong?
0:00:04 > 0:00:06And as for your actual feelings, I'm just going to have to guess?
0:00:06 > 0:00:08Well, don't guess too hard, cos you might just get them right.
0:00:08 > 0:00:12- Are we sorted? - Will you marry me?- What?!
0:00:12 > 0:00:15I've volunteered to help out at a primary school.
0:00:15 > 0:00:16You're the only person I've told.
0:00:16 > 0:00:18- Why don't you stay? - Well, it'd be hard to move now
0:00:18 > 0:00:21I've made myself comfy in this Slough of Despond.
0:00:21 > 0:00:22We never talk about it.
0:00:22 > 0:00:25I don't want to talk about it. I wanted to bury it.
0:00:25 > 0:00:27And bury us along with it.
0:00:29 > 0:00:32This programme contains some strong language.
0:00:38 > 0:00:42# I was woken up at 4am by your screams and anguished cries
0:00:42 > 0:00:44# Your mother was singing in the bathroom
0:00:44 > 0:00:48# "She will never be my child"
0:00:48 > 0:00:52# Oh, baby talks in her sleep so loud
0:00:54 > 0:00:57# We're living four flights up
0:00:57 > 0:01:00# But I swear right now it feels like underground
0:01:00 > 0:01:03SIRENS BLARE
0:01:03 > 0:01:05# You have absolutely no common sense
0:01:05 > 0:01:07# Yes, I know that's your charm
0:01:07 > 0:01:09# You spend the whole day on the phone
0:01:09 > 0:01:13# You say well, it helps you stay calm
0:01:13 > 0:01:15# You cling to my arm Yes, I know that's your charm... #
0:01:15 > 0:01:17BUZZER
0:01:19 > 0:01:21You got a light, mate?
0:01:21 > 0:01:22No.
0:01:24 > 0:01:26# Well, then could you give me some peace
0:01:26 > 0:01:29# You say, "Well, maybe for a while"
0:01:29 > 0:01:34# Sometimes, you know, you could almost be a child
0:01:36 > 0:01:38# Oh, must you tell me all your secrets
0:01:38 > 0:01:43# When it's hard enough to love you knowing nothing
0:01:44 > 0:01:47# We're living four flights up
0:01:47 > 0:01:50# But I swear right now it feels like underground
0:01:54 > 0:01:57# You are your own worst enemy
0:01:57 > 0:01:59# So don't expect my sympathy
0:01:59 > 0:02:01# Oh, go back to your mother's house
0:02:01 > 0:02:03# And cry your little heart out
0:02:06 > 0:02:09# We're living four flights up
0:02:09 > 0:02:13# But I swear right now it feels like underground. #
0:02:13 > 0:02:15DOOR SLIDES OPENS Morning.
0:02:20 > 0:02:23Mine's a full English, since you're asking.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28It's all right in here, isn't it?
0:02:28 > 0:02:31You've found yourself a perfect little escape hatch.
0:02:31 > 0:02:34Cos let me tell you, son, there's nothing but grief out there,
0:02:34 > 0:02:37and its follow up, Grief Two.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40You've got everything you need right here.
0:02:40 > 0:02:42And I won't tell anybody if you don't.
0:03:01 > 0:03:03What was Grandad doing here?
0:03:03 > 0:03:04What was Grandad doing here?
0:03:06 > 0:03:09You gotta move it to prove it.
0:03:09 > 0:03:10Move it to prove it.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14Come on.
0:03:36 > 0:03:39HE BREATHES DEEPLY
0:03:54 > 0:03:57MAURICE SNORES SPORADICALLY
0:04:10 > 0:04:13HE SNORES
0:04:16 > 0:04:20# Well, it seems so real... #
0:04:20 > 0:04:23I like running at night. That's all there is to it.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25- Is there a law against it? - Depends which shorts you're wearing.
0:04:25 > 0:04:28Dad, the reason you're running at night is cos you're holed up
0:04:28 > 0:04:30in here during the day.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33You're hiding. We know who you're hiding from.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35- Oh, do we?- I'm saying Louise in the dining room
0:04:35 > 0:04:36with the lead piping.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39We know you asked her to marry you and we know she said no.
0:04:39 > 0:04:41- How do you know?- Ralph told Eddie.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43- Does everyone know?- No, no.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46- I don't think the Polish lads know. - They do, actually.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48Oh, well, then just us and Ralph and the Polish lads.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50And we told Rebecca cos she was worried about you.
0:04:50 > 0:04:51And I asked Nicola for advice.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54OK, so just us, Ralph, Rebecca, Nicola and the Polish lads.
0:04:54 > 0:04:56- Is it any wonder I'm hiding? - Ah, so you are hiding!
0:04:56 > 0:04:58HE SIGHS
0:04:58 > 0:05:01Look, Dad, I know it feels like the hardest thing is to go round
0:05:01 > 0:05:03and talk to her, but sometimes the hardest thing is the right thing.
0:05:03 > 0:05:06Isn't that what Tony Blair said just before we invaded Iraq?
0:05:06 > 0:05:07Just sort it out.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10It was your idea for me to go round there in the first place!
0:05:10 > 0:05:11And my last words were "Don't do anything rash."
0:05:11 > 0:05:13This time, go and see her and clear this up.
0:05:13 > 0:05:15And if you feel a sudden proposal coming on,
0:05:15 > 0:05:18- just splash your face with cold water, right?- Right.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20- So go and get dressed, then. I'll take you round now.- Now?
0:05:20 > 0:05:22Yes, now.
0:05:33 > 0:05:37OK, we'll put Ramesh on after Lois, Scarlet, Millie and Helena.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39Maisie, you have settled on China In Your Hand now, have you?
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Cos it's too late to change your mind now.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44I am trying to concentrate but the girls keep doing cartwheels at me.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46Girls! Girls! That corner is quiet space.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48Dance moves in that corner.
0:05:48 > 0:05:52- Yes, Ella?- Lois said that I can't wear the blue T-shirt
0:05:52 > 0:05:55but my mum said blue brings out my eyes.
0:05:55 > 0:05:56If they're looking at your T-shirt,
0:05:56 > 0:05:58you've lost the audience anyway, sweetheart.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00I will have a little word with Lois and see what I can do.
0:06:00 > 0:06:01But if you can't sort it out,
0:06:01 > 0:06:04then you'll both be doing it in your PE kits.
0:06:04 > 0:06:06I thought a bit of food might help things along.
0:06:06 > 0:06:09- Where do you want it? - Not in here, Dad.
0:06:09 > 0:06:13We'll be doing a complete run-through in one minute!
0:06:13 > 0:06:15All right, Millcross Primary School, fame costs,
0:06:15 > 0:06:18and right here is where you start paying.
0:06:20 > 0:06:22Are you sure you've done enough?
0:06:22 > 0:06:24I thought we were just doing crisps and nuts and drinks.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27Drinks! I'm going to have to go back.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29It looks great in there, though.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31- Hasn't she done well? - Brilliantly, yeah.
0:06:31 > 0:06:35So you see, I can live a fulfilling life and still live here.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37I could set up a stage school.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Oh, come on, guys, I was joking.
0:06:41 > 0:06:42Do you really think I was being serious?
0:06:42 > 0:06:44You came home in a campervan the other day.
0:06:44 > 0:06:48This is wonderful, though. You've always been good with kids.
0:06:48 > 0:06:50- Thank you.- I'm just saying, it might be something
0:06:50 > 0:06:53- you want to think about. - Like teacher training?
0:06:53 > 0:06:57- Yeah, if you like.- We could do it together, maybe.- What?
0:06:57 > 0:06:59Except you're way ahead of me on that one.
0:06:59 > 0:07:01Volunteering in a school next year,
0:07:01 > 0:07:06going on training courses. Stuart told me all about it.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08I just mentioned it to Stuart when he was round the other day.
0:07:08 > 0:07:11It sounds great, Mum, and good for you,
0:07:11 > 0:07:15- but it isn't what I want to do.- OK.
0:07:15 > 0:07:19Any other plans you want to share with me
0:07:19 > 0:07:20or should I just give Stuart a ring?
0:07:20 > 0:07:22I'll ask him.
0:07:28 > 0:07:30He's all right.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35All I mentioned was that I'd been thinking about it
0:07:35 > 0:07:38and that I'd volunteered next term at a school.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40Just two afternoons a week. It's not a big deal.
0:07:40 > 0:07:44Well, if it's not a big deal, then why tell your ex and not me?
0:07:44 > 0:07:46Let me see now.
0:07:46 > 0:07:49Could it be because you're so stuck in your own head
0:07:49 > 0:07:51you're not listening to anyone else?
0:07:54 > 0:07:56Are you pissed off with me because I've made some plans and not
0:07:56 > 0:07:59told you or because you don't think I should be making any plans at all?
0:07:59 > 0:08:01I don't know. Maybe Stuart knows.
0:08:01 > 0:08:04Well, for what it's worth, Stuart thinks I should just be
0:08:04 > 0:08:06popping out another baby and then I'd have something to do.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09You can put your mind to rest on that score.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11That's the last thing I want for us.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18When did you change your mind?
0:08:18 > 0:08:20You don't want another child, Alison,
0:08:20 > 0:08:23and I don't want another child.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26So what does it matter when I changed my mind?
0:08:26 > 0:08:28Is it that you don't want another child or you just don't want
0:08:28 > 0:08:31- another child with me?- See, now you're putting words in my mouth.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34Because somebody has to! You're not telling me anything.
0:08:35 > 0:08:38# Just to see if you glow in the dark
0:08:38 > 0:08:41# Sha-la-la-la
0:08:41 > 0:08:43# Sha-la-la-la... #
0:08:43 > 0:08:45How much trouble are we in here, Paul?
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Cos the other day you were telling me that you hated Joe's autism
0:08:48 > 0:08:49and now this, so I...
0:08:55 > 0:08:57Let's not blame Joe for the fact that we don't want another kid.
0:08:57 > 0:09:00Oh, right. OK.
0:09:00 > 0:09:01Who shall we blame?
0:09:01 > 0:09:03It's us, Alison. Blame us.
0:09:11 > 0:09:12You gotta move it to prove it.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14Move it to prove it.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35I'm not going to run out of petrol if I drive up
0:09:35 > 0:09:36to the front door, you know?
0:09:36 > 0:09:38How would it look if she saw you dropping me off?
0:09:38 > 0:09:42- Like I was dropping you off. - No, like I'd brought...back-up,
0:09:42 > 0:09:44like it was a big deal.
0:09:44 > 0:09:48If I walk up, it can look like I just happened to be passing
0:09:48 > 0:09:50and casually dropped by.
0:09:50 > 0:09:51Whatever you say, Dad.
0:10:16 > 0:10:17I'm coming with you.
0:10:40 > 0:10:44- Do you remember when we used to play cards with your mum and dad?- Yeah.
0:10:46 > 0:10:47What was it called, that game?
0:10:47 > 0:10:51It was like...bridge, but working class.
0:10:51 > 0:10:54- Solo.- Solo!
0:10:54 > 0:10:56Yeah, no, that was it.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59And your mum would always have a glass of wine.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03Just the one.
0:11:04 > 0:11:08- And if I ever poured her another glass she'd go, "Oh, no."- Yeah.
0:11:08 > 0:11:09I remember one night...
0:11:12 > 0:11:14..I must've drunk the rest of that bottle cos I was well gone,
0:11:14 > 0:11:16but I said, erm...
0:11:17 > 0:11:21I said, "You've got great self-control."
0:11:21 > 0:11:24And do you know what she said?
0:11:24 > 0:11:26She said...
0:11:27 > 0:11:32"If I get drunk, Paul, then the truth might come pouring out.
0:11:32 > 0:11:35"And once it starts, it might never stop."
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Well, that's just a mum thing.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40Every mum feels like that from time to time.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42That's how I feel.
0:11:42 > 0:11:47I feel like I've opened the door on us and...
0:11:48 > 0:11:51And all the bad stuff's just...
0:11:51 > 0:11:54It's pouring out and...
0:11:54 > 0:11:56..I can't make it stop.
0:12:00 > 0:12:03There, that's why I didn't want to talk about it.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14- Bad stuff like what? - Let's just get the drinks.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16Let's get the day done and get back to the school.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19No, no, no. Come on. At least I tell you my feelings.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22Why don't you try and tell me yours?
0:12:22 > 0:12:24- I just want to run away.- From what?
0:12:24 > 0:12:27From this. From this, all this. From everything.
0:12:30 > 0:12:31Let's just get the drinks.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39Don't you don't think I want to run away?
0:12:39 > 0:12:41Don't you think I get scared of all this stuff?
0:12:41 > 0:12:43Fine. Don't let me have any feelings of my own.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45- Yours are much more important. - I'm not saying that.
0:12:45 > 0:12:48I had a child when I was 18.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50I've been frightened every day since.
0:12:50 > 0:12:55And then you came along and you made everything less terrifying.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Until now.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59Now you're scaring me because the man I knew...
0:12:59 > 0:13:01The man I know...
0:13:04 > 0:13:06It's like you're disappearing in front of my eyes.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09It's because we live separately, Alison. We're living separate lives.
0:13:09 > 0:13:11It's because of Joe. But we agreed on that.
0:13:11 > 0:13:14But it's more than just being in different cities!
0:13:14 > 0:13:17And... And being apart, it's confirmed something I think
0:13:17 > 0:13:20deep down that we both already knew.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22No, don't, don't say this, Paul.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Don't.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28Look, it doesn't take two of us to do this.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31Where are you going?
0:13:31 > 0:13:35- We're separate, Alison.- No.- We are.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39I think we just need to be honest about it now.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50MOBILE RINGS
0:13:53 > 0:13:54Hello?
0:13:55 > 0:13:57What?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59Right, fourth emergency service at your disposal.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01What's the problem?
0:14:06 > 0:14:09Can we leave off the hide and seek now?
0:14:09 > 0:14:10I'm running out of energy.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14I think the words you're looking for are,
0:14:14 > 0:14:16"I've been expecting you, Mr Bond."
0:14:18 > 0:14:21Maurice, we both know that deep down
0:14:21 > 0:14:24- you didn't really want to marry me, did you?- Hang on a sec!
0:14:24 > 0:14:27No, you just panicked at the thought I was going to chuck you
0:14:27 > 0:14:28and you proposed.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31I've known a lot of men respond to panic by proposing.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33- It never ends well. - How many men, exactly?
0:14:33 > 0:14:35It's not important.
0:14:35 > 0:14:39Next time, why not just ask me how I'm feeling?
0:14:39 > 0:14:42Or tell me how you're feeling or tell me you're worried.
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Just don't ask me to marry you.
0:14:44 > 0:14:46You could at least pretend to be flattered.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49Why? I knew it wasn't coming from the right place.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52It'd be fair to say that short of kidnapping Ralph,
0:14:52 > 0:14:55proposing was just about the worst thing you could've done.
0:14:55 > 0:14:57Right! Right.
0:14:58 > 0:14:59So it's not a "no" then?
0:15:01 > 0:15:04I don't want to marry you, Maurice.
0:15:04 > 0:15:08But I would, to coin a phrase, like to knock about with you.
0:15:09 > 0:15:12Clean slate, day one.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14How about it?
0:15:14 > 0:15:16Good. Great. Day one?
0:15:18 > 0:15:19Good.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Great.
0:15:34 > 0:15:38# Is it underneath the willow tree
0:15:38 > 0:15:43# That I've been dreaming of? #
0:15:44 > 0:15:47Just a touch more expression, Bill, I think.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49There you go, Ramesh. Perfect fit.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51It is a realistic hat.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53But I would rather not dress up as a magician.
0:15:53 > 0:15:57I've a lounge suit at home. I'll get it this afternoon.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59A lounge suit? OK.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01Joe, how about you?
0:16:02 > 0:16:05I'm going to dress up as Joe.
0:16:05 > 0:16:07Course you are.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12Er, where's Dad? Is he OK? He seemed a bit...
0:16:12 > 0:16:16Oh, don't worry about Dad. He's just got one of those faces.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18It's the Stockport side of the family.
0:16:18 > 0:16:19I didn't drop you in it before
0:16:19 > 0:16:22telling him about the volunteering stuff, did I? I thought he'd know.
0:16:22 > 0:16:25No, of course you didn't, love. Course not.
0:16:27 > 0:16:30- Mum?- It's just...
0:16:30 > 0:16:31Sorry, it's just this. It's...
0:16:31 > 0:16:35Sorry. It's great you getting this off the ground
0:16:35 > 0:16:37and including Joe in it all.
0:16:39 > 0:16:42Is it good being back at your old school, Joe?
0:16:42 > 0:16:46Let me see now.
0:16:46 > 0:16:47You used to say that all the time.
0:16:47 > 0:16:51And I remember it means you aren't going to answer the question.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53Do they have gluten-free at your new school?
0:16:53 > 0:16:57I expect so, because some people think that gluten is bad for autism.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00And are all the children like you, Joe,
0:17:00 > 0:17:04at your new school? Are they all autistic?
0:17:04 > 0:17:06What will you do after, Joe?
0:17:07 > 0:17:09What will you do after?
0:17:09 > 0:17:12Because after Millcross, I am going to go to big school.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15I will do GCSEs, then science A Levels,
0:17:15 > 0:17:18then medicine at university.
0:17:18 > 0:17:22What will you do after? You know, when you grow up?
0:17:22 > 0:17:25You gotta move it to prove it. Move it to prove it.
0:17:26 > 0:17:31I don't mean after. I mean much, much longer after.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37There you are!
0:17:37 > 0:17:40Come on, Bill. This damp will play havoc with your sinuses.
0:17:41 > 0:17:43Come on, careful.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45In the plane, on the train.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Take a trip on a ship.
0:18:02 > 0:18:03KNOCKING
0:18:06 > 0:18:10This day one thing, what did you have in mind exactly?
0:18:13 > 0:18:15All I meant was...
0:18:15 > 0:18:18..two people who like each other going out
0:18:18 > 0:18:20and getting to know each other a bit better.
0:18:20 > 0:18:23- Maybe exchanging the odd anecdote... - Got plenty of those.
0:18:23 > 0:18:25..or maybe not.
0:18:25 > 0:18:27Just a clean slate.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29No history, no baggage.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32Seeing if...
0:18:32 > 0:18:34You know, having a bit of fun in a low key way.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Well, that's a coincidence.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39Joe's got a show later at school.
0:18:39 > 0:18:44All the things you like - kids, music, a raffle and that.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48- Sounds perfect.- 5pm start. Tell Ralph to come.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50He can ask Vanessa and then we won't even be a...
0:18:50 > 0:18:54Two. Yes, I get it. You're over-thinking it again.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56- See you later?- I'll be there.
0:19:00 > 0:19:02Is it evening dress or smart-casual?
0:19:03 > 0:19:07Smart-casual I think. I'll check.
0:19:07 > 0:19:08I was joking, Maurice.
0:19:14 > 0:19:16Separate lives? Did you actually mean it?
0:19:16 > 0:19:19I know, I surprised myself when I said it.
0:19:19 > 0:19:22But maybe I did mean it. Maybe I did.
0:19:22 > 0:19:24What is it with you and saying stuff out loud?
0:19:24 > 0:19:25DOOR OPENS
0:19:29 > 0:19:32We just lost who we were somewhere along the way
0:19:32 > 0:19:35and I can't find a way back, no matter how hard I try.
0:19:35 > 0:19:38Is it really that bad? I know you've been having trouble but...
0:19:38 > 0:19:41How did you know that you and Nicola weren't going to make it?
0:19:41 > 0:19:42- Which time?- The first time.
0:19:42 > 0:19:45The first time you knew it was broken.
0:19:45 > 0:19:46Well, probably when Nicola told me
0:19:46 > 0:19:50she'd been having sex with another man. That was quite a hint.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53Any other pearls of wisdom going to come along any time soon?
0:19:53 > 0:19:56- Or is that all you've got? - All I've got is this, Paul.
0:19:56 > 0:19:57I can't imagine a world where you
0:19:57 > 0:19:59and Alison would ever not be together.
0:19:59 > 0:20:03I can't imagine a world where you'd be happier without each other.
0:20:05 > 0:20:07I need you to come with me right now.
0:20:07 > 0:20:10I don't think I'll be going anywhere with you in that shirt
0:20:10 > 0:20:11and I've got Emily.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13You'll be all right with her, won't you, Paul?
0:20:13 > 0:20:15We'll give Nicola a ring on the way and tell her to pick her up.
0:20:15 > 0:20:18On the way where?
0:20:18 > 0:20:21You know you told me to take it easy and not do anything too hasty?
0:20:21 > 0:20:24- Yes.- Well, I haven't.- Good.
0:20:24 > 0:20:25Not with Louise anyway.
0:20:25 > 0:20:28But there have been other changes and they are hasty.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30Is this about the shirt? I realise it was an impulse buy,
0:20:30 > 0:20:32- but I'm sure we'll get used to it in the end.- I'm retiring.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34I'm putting the house on the market
0:20:34 > 0:20:37and I'm giving you the brewery, all of it.
0:20:37 > 0:20:39Day one, clean slate.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42I'll even put it in writing this time.
0:20:42 > 0:20:44- Without asking me? - I'm asking you now.
0:20:44 > 0:20:47- No, you're not.- It's only going to be a problem if you say no.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49Are you going to make it a problem?
0:20:54 > 0:20:55Why would you retire?
0:20:55 > 0:20:58You've got the body of a 20-year-old and the mind of a ten-year-old.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00- You're indestructible. - Between you and me,
0:21:00 > 0:21:01I don't always feel like that.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03And even if I did believe you, why would I come back here -
0:21:03 > 0:21:05to the place where I failed? What kind of fool would do that?
0:21:05 > 0:21:08- Perhaps I'm looking at him.- And I don't believe you would stay away.
0:21:08 > 0:21:10I can't boil an egg in your kitchen
0:21:10 > 0:21:12without you timing it on your sports watch.
0:21:12 > 0:21:15You're the only man I know who can pick an argument with an egg timer.
0:21:15 > 0:21:17And I've got a life in Manchester, Dad.
0:21:17 > 0:21:20My flat, my job, my research, my students,
0:21:20 > 0:21:2340-inch TV, phone signal.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25Have you any idea how insulting it is to even ask me?!
0:21:25 > 0:21:28- Are you interested? - Course I'm fucking interested.
0:21:32 > 0:21:36"He had even forgotten his balaclava.
0:21:38 > 0:21:41"He was indeed a very forgetful worm."
0:21:43 > 0:21:45- The end.- Not lost it, then.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51BABY SNORES
0:21:55 > 0:21:58- Did Eddie send you?- Nobody sent me.
0:21:59 > 0:22:02Nicola told me you were here and I came of my own accord.
0:22:05 > 0:22:08- Bring it all back, did it? - It did, indeed.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10Being scared shitless, mainly.
0:22:10 > 0:22:13You looked like you were enjoying it.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15What do you see when you look at her?
0:22:17 > 0:22:21Possibilities. Endless. The world is hers if she wants it.
0:22:21 > 0:22:23It's hardly going to be plain sailing, is it,
0:22:23 > 0:22:24with Eddie and Nicola as parents?
0:22:24 > 0:22:27When you look at Joe, do you think the same? Cos I don't.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30I just see the difficulties that he's going to face.
0:22:30 > 0:22:31And maybe even overcome.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34See it's that! It's that! It's the...
0:22:34 > 0:22:36..it's the relentless optimism that I can't do.
0:22:36 > 0:22:41- I can't do it because it's a lie. - No, no, it's not. It's just harder.
0:22:41 > 0:22:45- So we have to try harder. - I've been trying harder!
0:22:46 > 0:22:47OK.
0:22:49 > 0:22:53I've been trying harder and I'm failing...
0:22:54 > 0:23:00..with Joe and us and I can't find a way to make it better.
0:23:00 > 0:23:03You were never going to blame Joe for feeling bad about yourself,
0:23:03 > 0:23:05so you blame me. I get it.
0:23:06 > 0:23:09And I think I finally understand the Sophie thing.
0:23:09 > 0:23:10Oh, God, the Sophie thing?
0:23:10 > 0:23:14I think it was part of you... you turning away from me.
0:23:15 > 0:23:16I see that now.
0:23:16 > 0:23:19We said we were going to put our sanity first and we didn't.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24And now we're here...
0:23:26 > 0:23:28..and it, it doesn't feel right.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31If you're going to run away from this, if...
0:23:35 > 0:23:39If you feel that you can handle things better with us apart...
0:23:41 > 0:23:45..then do it. Do it sooner rather than later, Paul,
0:23:45 > 0:23:47cos I won't wake up every morning wondering
0:23:47 > 0:23:50if this is the day that you're going to go. I can't, I'm not...
0:23:50 > 0:23:51..strong enough for that.
0:23:55 > 0:23:59# Closed your eyes and left me here
0:23:59 > 0:24:03# And now I'm jealous of your sleep
0:24:04 > 0:24:08# I made some noise to wake you up
0:24:08 > 0:24:12# It seems you've drifted out of reach... #
0:24:12 > 0:24:15So, Joe, you stand up, nice and tall
0:24:15 > 0:24:19and you say, "This is called Move It by Michael Rosen."
0:24:19 > 0:24:20And you take a breath...
0:24:22 > 0:24:26..and then breathe out, begin. OK?
0:24:26 > 0:24:28When are you going to go and get changed, Rebecca?
0:24:28 > 0:24:31Or are you hoping to get by on lip gloss and charisma like me?
0:24:31 > 0:24:34Oh, no. I've left my dress behind.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36I knew I'd forgotten something.
0:24:40 > 0:24:44# ..I think I'm glad to be awake
0:24:44 > 0:24:48# I've met these fractured thoughts before
0:24:48 > 0:24:53# They grin and wander round this place
0:24:53 > 0:24:59# I'll get up, all I find is the people that I hate
0:24:59 > 0:25:04# Real life disappears and gets shrink-wrapped in its place
0:25:04 > 0:25:09# I get up, watch TV, helps me feed my vicious streak
0:25:09 > 0:25:12# Real life disappears
0:25:12 > 0:25:15# Then we watch the spooks on the news
0:25:15 > 0:25:18# Playing chess with the cynics
0:25:18 > 0:25:22# Hope you die in the arms of your shrinks... #
0:25:22 > 0:25:24BANGING ON DOOR
0:25:30 > 0:25:33Hey, all right, Mark? What are you doing here?
0:25:34 > 0:25:36Where's your mum?
0:25:36 > 0:25:38She dropped me off.
0:25:38 > 0:25:39She's picking me up in a bit.
0:25:39 > 0:25:42Because if I want to go to college, I have to be independent.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44Oh, I see.
0:25:44 > 0:25:46If I want to go to college, I have to be independent.
0:25:46 > 0:25:50Yeah. Yeah, no, I got that.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52I made Alison a cake.
0:25:52 > 0:25:53Hey, that's, that's fine. That's good.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55She's not here at the minute...
0:25:55 > 0:25:57To say thank you for helping me with my college application
0:25:57 > 0:25:58and the council bastards.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03Well, that's lovely. Thank you.
0:26:12 > 0:26:15- Would you like a slice? - Yes. Yes, yes.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20So when do you think you'll hear about college?
0:26:22 > 0:26:23In a while.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26Or less than a while.
0:26:26 > 0:26:28Are you worried?
0:26:32 > 0:26:35Very worried. Yes.
0:26:35 > 0:26:36Hey, don't be.
0:26:38 > 0:26:43You're a good lad and whatever happens, you'll be fine.
0:26:45 > 0:26:47Right?
0:26:54 > 0:26:56Are you worried?
0:26:58 > 0:27:01- Why, do I look worried?- Yes.
0:27:08 > 0:27:11Well, between you and me, I am pretty worried.
0:27:17 > 0:27:20I've had my cake so I think I'll leave now.
0:27:20 > 0:27:21Your mum's not here yet.
0:27:21 > 0:27:24- She told me to wait at the bottom of the drive.- All right.
0:27:28 > 0:27:29See you.
0:27:45 > 0:27:48New shirt? Very adventurous.
0:27:53 > 0:27:55So how's the campervan business, then, eh?
0:27:55 > 0:27:57- Don't you start.- Start what?
0:27:57 > 0:27:59Trying to tell me to go to university.
0:27:59 > 0:28:01- Chance of a lifetime and all that. - Whoa, whoa, whoa.
0:28:01 > 0:28:03You know how I feel about university.
0:28:03 > 0:28:06Our Eddie came back dafter than when he went, with a pierced ear
0:28:06 > 0:28:08- and a taste for Danish pastries. - Exactly.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11- Costs an arm and a leg nowadays anyway.- That's what I keep saying.
0:28:11 > 0:28:13Yeah.
0:28:14 > 0:28:15Well, you keep saying it.
0:28:17 > 0:28:18Right.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21Cos you know and I know it's not about university, is it?
0:28:21 > 0:28:23It's about Joe. In't it?
0:28:26 > 0:28:28If you can wait in here until the hall's ready for you.
0:28:28 > 0:28:31Thank you. Will the little one be in a pushchair?
0:28:31 > 0:28:33Because you'd best get on the aisle if so.
0:28:33 > 0:28:36Thank you. We'll be sure to do that.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38Hello, gorgeous. Has your dad brought his best biro?
0:28:38 > 0:28:40- I've had contracts drawn up. - Not tonight, hey, Dad?
0:28:40 > 0:28:43- What contracts? - I've given him the brewery.
0:28:43 > 0:28:44Lock, stock and several barrels.
0:28:44 > 0:28:47Tell him to put us out of our misery and say yeah.
0:28:47 > 0:28:50I know you're the brains of the operation, Nicola.
0:28:51 > 0:28:53And you're actually thinking about it?
0:28:53 > 0:28:56I thought you liked the job you're doing in Manchester.
0:28:56 > 0:28:59I do, but when he offered me the brewery, I didn't turn him down.
0:28:59 > 0:29:03Well, I dunno, maybe it tells me something.
0:29:03 > 0:29:07- And Emily's here and...- Do you really think he'll leave you alone?
0:29:07 > 0:29:09He's very controlling.
0:29:09 > 0:29:11Yes, that can be a terrible trait in a person.
0:29:13 > 0:29:15I think he's changed. The shirt he bought?
0:29:15 > 0:29:17Casual fit. Borderline paisley.
0:29:17 > 0:29:20- So you think that's evidence he's relaxing?- I'm just saying.
0:29:20 > 0:29:23Give it six months and he might be in chinos.
0:29:29 > 0:29:33Hey! Listen up, you two. I've just been talking to Rebecca.
0:29:33 > 0:29:35- Right.- About her plans and that.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37Well, I hope you talked some sense into her.
0:29:37 > 0:29:39I don't need to. She's the sanest member of the family.
0:29:39 > 0:29:41You'd do well to listen to her yourself.
0:29:41 > 0:29:44- Get your heads out your arses. - Great, thanks, Dad. Great advice.
0:29:44 > 0:29:47- Can we get on now?- You know she's planning to stay because of Joe,
0:29:47 > 0:29:51don't you, eh? You know she thinks he won't manage without her?
0:29:53 > 0:29:56Are you sure about that?
0:29:56 > 0:29:58- Is that what she actually said? - Pretty much, yeah.
0:29:58 > 0:30:00Why don't you ask her yourself?
0:30:00 > 0:30:01I think I've been stood up.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11Ralph, Vanessa. There you are!
0:30:11 > 0:30:13I wondered where you'd got to.
0:30:20 > 0:30:24- We're not late, are we?- No, no. I've just been, er, you know,
0:30:24 > 0:30:27- waiting and that.- New shirt.
0:30:27 > 0:30:31Yeah, well, you know, it's just 50% off.
0:30:31 > 0:30:34- Right.- Still, er, comes under the "no big deal" clause.
0:30:35 > 0:30:37Shall we get a seat, Maurice?
0:30:37 > 0:30:40Yeah. Great, that's a good idea.
0:30:43 > 0:30:46APPLAUSE
0:30:48 > 0:30:51Welcome, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls,
0:30:51 > 0:30:54to the Millcross Primary End Of Year Show.
0:30:54 > 0:30:56You're in for an evening of surprises.
0:30:56 > 0:30:59When you do come back to the brewery...
0:30:59 > 0:31:01..will you come back to us too?
0:31:01 > 0:31:06..and to the back of the hall, in the very unlikely event of a fire...
0:31:06 > 0:31:08You don't have to give me an answer now.
0:31:08 > 0:31:10First up, we have our very own Little Mix.
0:31:10 > 0:31:14APPLAUSE AND CHEERING
0:31:18 > 0:31:22MUSIC: Shout Out To My Ex by Little Mix
0:31:23 > 0:31:26SHE CHUCKLES
0:31:29 > 0:31:36# Don't push too far, your dreams are china in your hand
0:31:36 > 0:31:40# Don't wish too hard because they may come true... #
0:31:40 > 0:31:45DANCE MUSIC PLAYS
0:31:56 > 0:31:59Now, madam, show the card to the audience.
0:32:04 > 0:32:08Now, put the card back into the pack.
0:32:09 > 0:32:11Thank you.
0:32:11 > 0:32:16I want everyone in this room to think of the card they just saw.
0:32:16 > 0:32:19Was this your card, Madam Joe's Mum?
0:32:19 > 0:32:22- The seven of hearts? - Yes. Yes, it was.
0:32:23 > 0:32:25Thank you. You've been a good sport.
0:32:25 > 0:32:28Let's have a big hand for Mrs Joe's Mum.
0:32:28 > 0:32:30CHEERING AND APPLAUSE
0:32:30 > 0:32:35"Magic?" I hear you say. But no.
0:32:35 > 0:32:39Observation and logic. Here's how I did it.
0:32:39 > 0:32:42SHE SOBS
0:33:07 > 0:33:09Mum, have you been crying?
0:33:09 > 0:33:10No, no. Just...
0:33:12 > 0:33:15- Have you been drinking? - Not if you haven't been crying.
0:33:26 > 0:33:29D'you think Joe's going to be all right?
0:33:29 > 0:33:32- Tonight, or, like, ever? - Just tonight for a start.
0:33:32 > 0:33:36Yeah, he knows it off by heart. He seems to enjoy doing it.
0:33:38 > 0:33:40That's fine.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42He'll be fine.
0:33:43 > 0:33:44And not just tonight.
0:33:46 > 0:33:47If that's what you're worried about,
0:33:47 > 0:33:49if that's why you feel you can't leave home.
0:33:49 > 0:33:51I'm Joe's sister...
0:33:52 > 0:33:53..and you don't know what that's like.
0:33:53 > 0:33:56- I'm the only one who knows what that's like.- I know, I know.
0:33:56 > 0:33:57No, you don't.
0:33:57 > 0:33:59The thing you aren't getting is that one day...
0:34:01 > 0:34:04..I will be the only person Joe has in the world.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06I've known that since he was diagnosed.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08I carry it round with me every day.
0:34:09 > 0:34:13This show, today, all this...
0:34:14 > 0:34:18..I got him in this. I included him. I, I get it.
0:34:20 > 0:34:22The strange thing is that you and Dad don't seem to.
0:34:22 > 0:34:26No, we do, we know you feel that. And we know that...
0:34:26 > 0:34:28We know that you have to deal with that.
0:34:29 > 0:34:30But right now, love...
0:34:31 > 0:34:34Right now, he's me and your dad's responsibility
0:34:34 > 0:34:35and we're fine with it.
0:34:35 > 0:34:38Yeah, but what if you and Dad aren't fine with each other?
0:34:38 > 0:34:40What then? Where does that leave him?
0:34:40 > 0:34:43Me and Dad, we're OK. Course we are.
0:34:43 > 0:34:47And there's a huge world out there waiting for you to make your mark.
0:34:54 > 0:34:59When I say put the card back, I already know what the card is.
0:34:59 > 0:35:02This is called a sleight and it is not magic.
0:35:02 > 0:35:05There is no magic. Thank you.
0:35:08 > 0:35:11Thank you, Ramesh, for that entertaining
0:35:11 > 0:35:13and educational interlude.
0:35:13 > 0:35:18I do the actions, the buttons don't do anything
0:35:18 > 0:35:23- but I need to do the talking and the walking.- OK.
0:35:23 > 0:35:26There you go, Flo! Now that should hold
0:35:26 > 0:35:29and if it doesn't, you just waggle the other legs a bit more,
0:35:29 > 0:35:30all right?
0:35:39 > 0:35:42I'm having a nice time, are you having a nice time?
0:35:42 > 0:35:44You don't have to talk to me like a phrase book, Maurice, and, yes,
0:35:44 > 0:35:45it's lovely.
0:35:45 > 0:35:48Each £5 ticket entitles you to a plate of food of your choice
0:35:48 > 0:35:50and a drink. We have to do it that way cos, er,
0:35:50 > 0:35:52we don't have an alcohol licence.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54A school without an alcohol licence. Who would have thought?
0:35:54 > 0:35:56SHE LAUGHS
0:35:58 > 0:35:59Leave your food.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02We need to talk.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04Two of my least favourite sentences in the English language.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07Come on.
0:36:07 > 0:36:09Shall I have first go sliding down the banister
0:36:09 > 0:36:10or do you fancy warming it up for me?
0:36:10 > 0:36:13Eddie, you need to stop offsetting your anxiety
0:36:13 > 0:36:14by filling the silences with humour.
0:36:16 > 0:36:18Right.
0:36:18 > 0:36:20I mean, don't stop altogether.
0:36:20 > 0:36:22It's not a deal breaker.
0:36:23 > 0:36:25If we get back together, I can tolerate it.
0:36:29 > 0:36:33Well, I'll certainly bear that in mind if we...get back together.
0:36:36 > 0:36:38Which...
0:36:38 > 0:36:41..I'm not sure we are, are we?
0:36:42 > 0:36:46Really, deep down, is that a good idea? Not...
0:36:46 > 0:36:49..because of the humour just... Anyway...
0:36:51 > 0:36:55- ..what do you think? - Eddie, for the next five minutes,
0:36:55 > 0:36:58I want you to talk like me and not like you.
0:36:58 > 0:36:59- Like you?- Yeah.
0:37:00 > 0:37:02Brutally honest?
0:37:03 > 0:37:05Honest at least.
0:37:07 > 0:37:09All right.
0:37:09 > 0:37:12All right. I'll try.
0:37:14 > 0:37:16This is...
0:37:25 > 0:37:28I am coming back to the Lakes...
0:37:28 > 0:37:29..to make a go of the brewery.
0:37:30 > 0:37:32Not for you.
0:37:32 > 0:37:34At least not in that sense.
0:37:35 > 0:37:37I will come back as Emily's dad...
0:37:40 > 0:37:41..and your best friend.
0:37:43 > 0:37:45Nothing more.
0:37:47 > 0:37:48Ever.
0:37:56 > 0:37:58OK, OK.
0:38:02 > 0:38:04Well...
0:38:07 > 0:38:10I've never had a best friend before, so...
0:38:11 > 0:38:13..that will be interesting.
0:38:17 > 0:38:20- I'm sorry if you're upset, but... - No, Eddie, it's...
0:38:24 > 0:38:28It would be nice to have love, but I prefer clarity.
0:38:31 > 0:38:34It's started. You're going to miss Joe!
0:38:34 > 0:38:37DISTANT SINGING
0:38:42 > 0:38:43You OK, Joe?
0:38:46 > 0:38:47Are you OK, Joe?
0:38:47 > 0:38:50You just go up there, stand at the front
0:38:50 > 0:38:51and nice and loud, yeah?
0:38:53 > 0:38:56I like Move It, don't I?
0:38:56 > 0:38:58It'll be brilliant. You know it will be.
0:39:03 > 0:39:08# Till I am beside the someone who
0:39:09 > 0:39:15# I can mean something to
0:39:16 > 0:39:19# Where...
0:39:20 > 0:39:27# Where is love? #
0:39:35 > 0:39:38Thank you, Bill. You really made that your own.
0:39:38 > 0:39:40We were all tearing up in the audience.
0:39:40 > 0:39:44Now, we have a special treat, ladies and gentlemen,
0:39:44 > 0:39:46as a boy who used to come to Millcross
0:39:46 > 0:39:48has come back today to perform.
0:39:48 > 0:39:52Ladies and gentlemen, I give you, Joe Hughes.
0:40:14 > 0:40:16This is called Move It by Michael Rosen.
0:40:28 > 0:40:30- WHISPERS:- Joe!
0:40:30 > 0:40:32No. Leave him. He's fine.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38Joe! Joe, you gotta move it to prove it.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40Move it to prove it.
0:41:21 > 0:41:22Careful!
0:41:32 > 0:41:34There?
0:41:36 > 0:41:38OK? OK.
0:41:51 > 0:41:54- Let's hear it for the world's ugliest boyband.- Dad!
0:42:01 > 0:42:03You gotta move it to prove it.
0:42:03 > 0:42:04Move it to prove it.
0:42:06 > 0:42:08In the plane
0:42:08 > 0:42:10On the train
0:42:11 > 0:42:13Take a trip
0:42:13 > 0:42:15On the ship
0:42:15 > 0:42:17You gotta move it To prove it.
0:42:19 > 0:42:20Move it to prove it.
0:42:23 > 0:42:25Take a hike
0:42:25 > 0:42:27Take a bike
0:42:27 > 0:42:29Use your feet
0:42:29 > 0:42:31On the street
0:42:31 > 0:42:33You've got to move it
0:42:33 > 0:42:35To prove it
0:42:35 > 0:42:36Move it
0:42:36 > 0:42:37To prove it.
0:42:43 > 0:42:45Are we there?
0:42:45 > 0:42:47Where?
0:42:47 > 0:42:49Are we near?
0:42:49 > 0:42:50We're here!
0:42:57 > 0:42:59Good lad!
0:43:08 > 0:43:10- Dad!- Dad!- Dad?
0:43:11 > 0:43:13- Dad?- Maurice?
0:43:14 > 0:43:17Can you hear me? Maurice?
0:43:17 > 0:43:19Dad?
0:43:19 > 0:43:21- Dad?- Dad?- Maurice?- Come on, come on!
0:43:21 > 0:43:24- Maurice, can you hear me? - Dad, come on!
0:43:25 > 0:43:26Dad!
0:43:33 > 0:43:36When something like this happens...
0:43:36 > 0:43:39..like what happened...
0:43:40 > 0:43:46- To Grandad.- Yeah, to Grandad. It's cos he wasn't feeling very well.
0:43:46 > 0:43:50So they put him in an ambulance and he's here
0:43:50 > 0:43:54and the doctors are really trying very hard to help him
0:43:54 > 0:43:56and... And make him feel better.
0:44:00 > 0:44:01Grandad.
0:44:01 > 0:44:03Yeah. Yeah.
0:44:10 > 0:44:12On the floor.
0:44:12 > 0:44:14- Yeah.- That's it, mate.
0:44:14 > 0:44:17So when people go on the floor like that,
0:44:17 > 0:44:19it means that they're not very well.
0:44:20 > 0:44:24And that can be really frightening for them and...
0:44:24 > 0:44:26..for the people that see it.
0:44:27 > 0:44:33And most times, when people come to the hospital, they get better.
0:44:33 > 0:44:37And sometimes, when people come to the hospital...
0:44:40 > 0:44:43..well, they don't get better.
0:44:43 > 0:44:46And they get very tired...
0:44:48 > 0:44:49..and...
0:44:49 > 0:44:50He's asking for a fish supper.
0:44:50 > 0:44:53And sometimes they ask for a fish supper! How about that?
0:44:54 > 0:44:56Is he OK? How is he?
0:44:56 > 0:44:57They've done some tests.
0:44:57 > 0:44:59The consultant has ruled out a stroke and a heart attack.
0:44:59 > 0:45:01So what caused it?
0:45:01 > 0:45:04They'll just poke him around till they find out.
0:45:04 > 0:45:07Although my own theory is his new shirt was too tight.
0:45:08 > 0:45:12Grandad's going to be fine. That's good news, isn't it?
0:45:12 > 0:45:15You don't have to answer that straight away, Joe.
0:45:15 > 0:45:17Come on.
0:45:25 > 0:45:28Oh, you've brought the rest of the Spice Girls with you this time.
0:45:28 > 0:45:29Yep.
0:45:29 > 0:45:32He was asleep on a pool table this morning.
0:45:32 > 0:45:34- Right.- Talk about attention seeking.
0:45:34 > 0:45:37Joe's finest moment too much for you, was it?
0:45:37 > 0:45:39I'm sorry, Joe. I must have eaten a dodgy sausage roll.
0:45:39 > 0:45:41Yeah, that'll be it.
0:45:41 > 0:45:43- They weren't sausage rolls. - Sorry, can I rephrase that?
0:45:43 > 0:45:46I must've eaten a dodgy artisan pork roulade.
0:45:46 > 0:45:49Have you made your mind up about the brewery yet?
0:45:49 > 0:45:52Oh, so that's what this is all about. Emotional blackmail?
0:45:52 > 0:45:54- How you feeling, Grandad? - Oh, at last!
0:45:54 > 0:45:56Someone who sounds like they care. Thank you.
0:45:56 > 0:45:59Never better, love. I must've got overexcited by your brilliant show.
0:46:00 > 0:46:03Now, we've done the emotion, can you all bugger off?
0:46:03 > 0:46:05I can't bear most of you at the best of times.
0:46:06 > 0:46:08Come on, just try and get some rest, will you?
0:46:08 > 0:46:10You're a good one to talk.
0:46:11 > 0:46:12Oh, Dad.
0:46:13 > 0:46:16Right, see you tomorrow, then, Maurice.
0:46:16 > 0:46:18Be good to them nurses.
0:46:18 > 0:46:19Come on, Joe.
0:46:20 > 0:46:23Did, erm, Louise not come down?
0:46:23 > 0:46:26She saw you laid out with your mouth open and just kept walking.
0:46:27 > 0:46:29She didn't want to crowd you out.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31I'll tell her you made a comeback.
0:46:31 > 0:46:34- Don't go round there and mess things up for me again.- Dad,
0:46:34 > 0:46:36next time you pass out and see that bright light ahead of you,
0:46:36 > 0:46:40- don't fight it. Walk towards it. - Yeah, yeah.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42Goodnight.
0:46:48 > 0:46:50Have they all gone yet?
0:46:51 > 0:46:53You fell over.
0:46:53 > 0:46:55Was it funny?
0:46:55 > 0:46:58- Yes.- Well, that's all right, then.
0:47:25 > 0:47:27Well, if he just fainted it'd be good to know why.
0:47:27 > 0:47:29I saw the bag, Paul.
0:47:32 > 0:47:35Went home to get Rebecca's dress and I...
0:47:35 > 0:47:37..I saw that you'd packed a bag. I saw the bag.
0:47:44 > 0:47:46How are you going to tell him?
0:47:53 > 0:47:55He's indestructible.
0:47:55 > 0:47:56It's his superpower.
0:47:56 > 0:47:58Sorry, I should've warned you.
0:47:58 > 0:48:01Well, thanks for coming round to tell me. It's really kind.
0:48:01 > 0:48:05Well, you are the one who's chosen to take on Maurice.
0:48:05 > 0:48:07The bull in your china shop.
0:48:09 > 0:48:12- Sorry, did that sound a bit dodgy? - You sounded like him then.
0:48:12 > 0:48:14Did I?
0:48:14 > 0:48:15Well, that's a first.
0:48:20 > 0:48:23I thought he was dead, you know?
0:48:23 > 0:48:24So did I.
0:48:24 > 0:48:27Cos that's the kind of trick that fate plays.
0:48:27 > 0:48:31He's been helping me through my chemo and he's the one that dies.
0:48:31 > 0:48:33It's carer fatigue, it happens a lot.
0:48:33 > 0:48:35Whatever's going to be written on Dad's death certificate,
0:48:35 > 0:48:37it's not going to be "carer fatigue."
0:48:37 > 0:48:40It's one of the many things that drives me mad about him.
0:48:40 > 0:48:42Underneath that gruff, tactless exterior,
0:48:42 > 0:48:45there's a gruff tactless interior trying to get out
0:48:45 > 0:48:47and underneath that is a big soft bastard
0:48:47 > 0:48:49who wants to fix everyone and everything.
0:48:51 > 0:48:54- Does he know you've rumbled him?- No.
0:48:54 > 0:48:56And if he ever finds out, I'll never speak to you again.
0:49:01 > 0:49:04The consultant asked if he was the stressful type.
0:49:04 > 0:49:06Well, it's been a couple of hours.
0:49:06 > 0:49:09I expect the consultant will know the answer to that by now.
0:49:31 > 0:49:34Rebecca, before you go,
0:49:34 > 0:49:36can we have a quick word?
0:49:44 > 0:49:45Er...
0:49:45 > 0:49:49You can do anything you like and we can't stop you staying here.
0:49:49 > 0:49:53But if you're staying here cos of Joe, or because of me
0:49:53 > 0:49:54and your mum, then you can't do that.
0:49:56 > 0:49:57We won't let you do that.
0:49:59 > 0:50:02If you were any keener to get rid of me I might get a complex.
0:50:02 > 0:50:05No, don't get us wrong, part of me would love you to stay.
0:50:05 > 0:50:07But we've already rented out your bedroom, so...
0:50:12 > 0:50:13Joe, come on!
0:50:13 > 0:50:16Where you going?
0:50:16 > 0:50:17I promised.
0:50:18 > 0:50:21Colin Crocodile says, "Night-night."
0:50:21 > 0:50:24And Teddy Ted-Ted says, "Night-night."
0:50:24 > 0:50:27And Florence Flamingo says, "Night-night."
0:50:27 > 0:50:29And Auntie Alison and Uncle Paul say, "Night-night."
0:50:29 > 0:50:32And Joe says, "Night-night."
0:50:32 > 0:50:34And Grandad Maurice says, "Night-night."
0:50:34 > 0:50:36I mean, he's in a different bed tonight.
0:50:36 > 0:50:39And Grandad Vincent says, "Night-night."
0:50:39 > 0:50:41And he's in bed...
0:50:41 > 0:50:44..somewhere, we hope.
0:50:44 > 0:50:46- NICOLA ON PHONE:- Eddie?
0:50:46 > 0:50:48You can stop now. She's fast asleep.
0:50:48 > 0:50:50OK, right. Good.
0:50:53 > 0:50:56- She's been asleep for a while, hasn't she?- Yep.
0:50:56 > 0:50:59About ten minutes, but I didn't like to interrupt.
0:50:59 > 0:51:00Very funny.
0:51:00 > 0:51:02Hey...
0:51:02 > 0:51:04..you'll never guess where I'm sitting.
0:51:04 > 0:51:06Maurice's big chair.
0:51:06 > 0:51:08- How did you know?- Fathers and sons.
0:51:08 > 0:51:12It's primal. You're practising for when he really does die
0:51:12 > 0:51:13and you can sit in it forever.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15Did you just say that?
0:51:15 > 0:51:17Course you did.
0:51:17 > 0:51:19You just said that...
0:51:19 > 0:51:21..because you would.
0:51:21 > 0:51:24- Night-night, Nicola.- Night-night.
0:51:32 > 0:51:36MUSIC: Philadelphia by Magazine
0:51:49 > 0:51:53# Your clean-living, clear-eyed, clever, level-headed brother says
0:51:53 > 0:51:57# He'll put all the screws upon your newest lover
0:51:57 > 0:51:58# Buddha's in the fireplace
0:51:58 > 0:52:01# The truth's in drugs from outer space
0:52:01 > 0:52:02# Maybe it's right to be... #
0:52:02 > 0:52:04I just worry that...
0:52:04 > 0:52:06..it'll get worse and worse.
0:52:06 > 0:52:08You could just take a leaf out of Joe's book.
0:52:08 > 0:52:10You could get everything and everybody that matters to you
0:52:10 > 0:52:12and just keep them in sight.
0:52:12 > 0:52:15Not worry about what's gone before or what's going to happen next.
0:52:15 > 0:52:17A moment. That's...
0:52:17 > 0:52:21..him on the stage saying that, that was... It was a moment.
0:52:23 > 0:52:26He's a bundle of anxieties just like the rest of us.
0:52:26 > 0:52:27More than the rest of us.
0:52:27 > 0:52:29I'm not saying he isn't. I'm not saying he isn't.
0:52:29 > 0:52:33But he's managed something that, that we haven't been able to do.
0:52:33 > 0:52:34He shook all the shite away
0:52:34 > 0:52:37and he left himself with what really counts.
0:52:37 > 0:52:39And that's enough for you?
0:52:39 > 0:52:41Is it? That moment?
0:52:42 > 0:52:45I don't need anything else. I'm not going anywhere.
0:52:55 > 0:52:58So, day one. How's it going so far?
0:53:03 > 0:53:05You were great today, Joe.
0:53:10 > 0:53:11If I go somewhere...
0:53:13 > 0:53:15You know, if I go somewhere else...
0:53:17 > 0:53:19Somewhere else away?
0:53:19 > 0:53:21Yeah, somewhere else away.
0:53:23 > 0:53:25Well, I'll always come back.
0:53:26 > 0:53:27And I won't go for long.
0:53:30 > 0:53:31And you'll be in my head all the time
0:53:31 > 0:53:36and we can speak every day on the computer or on Dad's phone.
0:53:42 > 0:53:43But I'll be here.
0:53:45 > 0:53:47Well, you might not be.
0:53:48 > 0:53:50When you get older, you might go travelling too.
0:53:56 > 0:53:57When you go...
0:53:58 > 0:53:59Yeah?
0:54:03 > 0:54:04I'll wait here.
0:54:05 > 0:54:07That's right, yeah.
0:54:09 > 0:54:10I'll wait here.
0:54:10 > 0:54:12In here.
0:54:13 > 0:54:16Yeah, if that's what you'd like. Yeah!
0:54:20 > 0:54:22There's no away.
0:54:28 > 0:54:30That's right, Joe.
0:54:30 > 0:54:32For you and me, there is no away.
0:54:32 > 0:54:35MUSIC: The Same Deep Water As Me by I Am Kloot
0:54:35 > 0:54:38# Swim out to the ocean
0:54:40 > 0:54:45# Drown your thoughts out at sea
0:54:46 > 0:54:49# And dip your hands in the water
0:54:52 > 0:54:56# The same deep water as me
0:54:57 > 0:55:02# You've been watching for cloudbursts
0:55:03 > 0:55:07# You've been praying for rain
0:55:09 > 0:55:13# Drench your soul in the water
0:55:15 > 0:55:18# Cleanse your heart of the stain
0:55:21 > 0:55:23# Cleanse your heart of the stain
0:55:47 > 0:55:51HE SINGS ALONG: # The river of love
0:55:52 > 0:55:56# Flows deep through the night
0:55:58 > 0:56:01# Rolls you in the waves
0:56:04 > 0:56:07# Drags you out with the tides
0:56:10 > 0:56:14# Swim out to the ocean
0:56:15 > 0:56:18# Drown our thoughts out at sea
0:56:20 > 0:56:25# And dipped your hands in the water
0:56:27 > 0:56:31# The same deep water as me
0:56:33 > 0:56:37# The same deep water as me... #