0:00:02 > 0:00:03Good to have you home!
0:00:03 > 0:00:05Hi!
0:00:05 > 0:00:06You do love him, don't you?
0:00:06 > 0:00:08Tom?
0:00:08 > 0:00:09Yeah, I do.
0:00:09 > 0:00:12I remember when I had a boyfriend.
0:00:12 > 0:00:13Oh, for God's sake.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15- Brian.- You're a footballer.
0:00:15 > 0:00:17She's out of my league.
0:00:17 > 0:00:18I guess this is it.
0:00:18 > 0:00:21We grew up there and we hung out there. Everything changes after this.
0:00:21 > 0:00:22Ash told me Ethan's single again.
0:00:22 > 0:00:24Really?
0:00:24 > 0:00:27- Will you do me the honour of marrying me?- Yes.
0:00:27 > 0:00:28ALL: Cheese!
0:00:28 > 0:00:30I love filming her rants, it drives her mad.
0:00:30 > 0:00:32I'm not ranting, I'm talking.
0:00:32 > 0:00:33ENGINE ROARS
0:00:35 > 0:00:36Tom!
0:00:40 > 0:00:42Kate, you have to wake up.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44There's been a fatality.
0:00:44 > 0:00:45It doesn't mean it's your Kate.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47I need to see her!
0:00:47 > 0:00:48SIRENS WAILING
0:00:48 > 0:00:52Stop, stop now. Stop. We're going to have to call it. Stop, stop.
0:00:52 > 0:00:53HE PANTS
0:00:57 > 0:01:04This programme contains some strong language.
0:01:15 > 0:01:16Hi.
0:01:20 > 0:01:21How're you feeling?
0:01:24 > 0:01:26SHE PANTS
0:01:27 > 0:01:30You know you had us really worried there for a minute.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38Who are you?
0:01:38 > 0:01:39I'm Kate.
0:01:42 > 0:01:43I'm your best friend.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49We live next door to each other.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Yeah, that's right.
0:01:53 > 0:01:54Are you gone?
0:01:55 > 0:01:58You went to university, you left me behind.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01Rach, I would never leave you behind.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09Right. It's time.
0:02:12 > 0:02:15- For what?- Well, you need to get up.
0:02:15 > 0:02:16Later, when I'm better.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19Rach, you have to get up to get better, you know that.
0:02:23 > 0:02:24Later, I promise.
0:02:27 > 0:02:31Rachel has a torn liver, fractured pelvis,
0:02:31 > 0:02:34both her legs are broken in several places, also her left arm.
0:02:36 > 0:02:37We've had to induce a coma.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39She's in a coma?
0:02:39 > 0:02:40Talk to her.
0:02:48 > 0:02:52Hello, hello? Excuse me, our daughter's been in a car crash.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Harper, Kate Harper.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56You need the nurse's station. In the lift, up one level.
0:02:56 > 0:02:57Thank you.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:02:59 > 0:03:01- Is that your mother again?- Yeah.
0:03:01 > 0:03:04- We're going to have to answer that, you know.- When we know something.
0:03:04 > 0:03:05Come on!
0:03:05 > 0:03:08MOBILE PHONE CONTINUES RINGING
0:03:10 > 0:03:12LIFT: Going up.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14LIFT: Doors closing.
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Rachel?
0:03:19 > 0:03:20It's Mum.
0:03:20 > 0:03:22Dad's here too.
0:03:23 > 0:03:24Hiya, love.
0:03:26 > 0:03:27We just...
0:03:30 > 0:03:31You're going to be OK.
0:03:34 > 0:03:36You're going to pull through this.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39And when you wake up, we're going to be here.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44Do you hear me?
0:03:47 > 0:03:48Do you hear me?
0:03:50 > 0:03:52She heard you.
0:03:52 > 0:03:53She heard you.
0:03:53 > 0:03:54SHE SOBS
0:04:04 > 0:04:05Ann?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10Ann, love, come and sit down.
0:04:13 > 0:04:14KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Mr and Mrs Harper?
0:04:16 > 0:04:18Sorry for disturbing you.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20Can you remember what your Kate were wearing?
0:04:22 > 0:04:23Um...
0:04:24 > 0:04:27Well, she'd just got back.
0:04:27 > 0:04:30A black jacket...
0:04:30 > 0:04:31Sorry, I don't know...
0:04:31 > 0:04:34It's OK.
0:04:34 > 0:04:36Does she...paint her nails?
0:04:41 > 0:04:43- Light pink.- Ann?
0:04:43 > 0:04:48No, no, please no!
0:04:51 > 0:04:54Not our Kate! Please not our Kate!
0:04:54 > 0:04:55She were talking to Ashley!
0:04:55 > 0:04:57She was talking to Ashley!
0:04:57 > 0:04:59I'm so sorry.
0:04:59 > 0:05:03Kate were really poorly when she arrived.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05We tried everything.
0:05:06 > 0:05:07I'm sorry, we lost her.
0:05:11 > 0:05:12I know it's no comfort,
0:05:12 > 0:05:15but she wouldn't have been in any pain.
0:05:27 > 0:05:31I'm just not sure exactly, what is it you need me to do?
0:05:31 > 0:05:34The body will need to be identified.
0:05:34 > 0:05:36When? We need to do that tonight?
0:05:36 > 0:05:37MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:05:37 > 0:05:40That's not something you need to do tonight, Mr Harper.
0:05:40 > 0:05:42You can take your time.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44The formal identification can be done by a relative.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46MOBILE PHONE CONTINUES RINGING
0:05:46 > 0:05:47I'm just not sure if I'm ready.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49Martin?
0:05:49 > 0:05:50Martin?
0:05:51 > 0:05:53It's Kate!
0:05:58 > 0:06:02The police sometimes call the last number dialled,
0:06:02 > 0:06:03as part of their investigation.
0:06:03 > 0:06:05Investigation.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07Hey, come on.
0:06:07 > 0:06:11I want to see her.
0:06:13 > 0:06:15OK, OK.
0:06:20 > 0:06:22Do you remember King Kong?
0:06:22 > 0:06:25That girl above us in school?
0:06:25 > 0:06:26She used to beat me up.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31You were always saying to us stick up for myself.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Like you ever listened.
0:06:33 > 0:06:35She just stopped one day.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37I never did find out why.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41Did you stick up to her for me?
0:06:41 > 0:06:44Well, that's what friends do, don't they?
0:06:44 > 0:06:46They stick up for each other!
0:06:50 > 0:06:53Your mum and dad really need you, Rach,
0:06:53 > 0:06:54so does Leah.
0:06:57 > 0:06:58What about your mum and dad?
0:08:14 > 0:08:16HE CRIES
0:08:55 > 0:08:56Kate!
0:09:08 > 0:09:09Mr Harper.
0:09:11 > 0:09:14I was looking for Kate. No-one can tell me how she is.
0:09:18 > 0:09:20HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:09:20 > 0:09:21Son, she um...
0:09:32 > 0:09:34Tom, Tom, Tom! Tom!
0:09:34 > 0:09:37No, no, no!
0:09:37 > 0:09:39HE CRIES
0:09:39 > 0:09:40It's Dad!
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Shhh.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50I know, son.
0:09:50 > 0:09:51I know.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00Leah?
0:10:00 > 0:10:03Just wait, please.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05I'm sorry.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Have you heard how Rachel is?
0:10:08 > 0:10:10Leah, how's Rach?
0:10:10 > 0:10:13Ethan, I'm Inspector Peters.
0:10:13 > 0:10:17I'm arresting you on suspicion of causing death by dangerous driving.
0:10:27 > 0:10:30- Mum, Dad!- Christ, Leah! - Oh, my God!
0:10:30 > 0:10:32I'm OK, where's Rachel?
0:10:32 > 0:10:34- Look at you.- They said I was OK.
0:10:35 > 0:10:37Ashley's dead!
0:10:37 > 0:10:39So is Brian.
0:10:47 > 0:10:49This can wait, please.
0:10:49 > 0:10:50No, it can't, I'm sorry.
0:10:52 > 0:10:53He's in shock.
0:10:58 > 0:10:59Tom.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03I'm Detective Peters.
0:11:03 > 0:11:04Son...
0:11:06 > 0:11:10..I'm arresting you on suspicion of causing death by dangerous driving.
0:11:10 > 0:11:15You do not have to say anything, but it may harm your defence
0:11:15 > 0:11:19if you don't mention something which you later rely on in court.
0:11:20 > 0:11:22Do you understand?
0:11:22 > 0:11:25THUNDERSTORM
0:11:33 > 0:11:35I think I've left the front door open.
0:11:50 > 0:11:52What speed were you doing?
0:11:55 > 0:11:57Why did you decide to overtake when you did, Tom?
0:11:59 > 0:12:01I don't know.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12What...? What happens now?
0:12:14 > 0:12:16A collision team will start an investigation.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19If there's enough evidence, a case may be brought to trial.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21The other car that were in the accident...?
0:12:21 > 0:12:23The hospital's keeping the driver in for observation,
0:12:23 > 0:12:24but he should be fine.
0:12:26 > 0:12:27What about...?
0:12:31 > 0:12:34Tom hasn't been charged with anything at this time.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37So he's free to go home for now.
0:12:41 > 0:12:42I'm sorry for your loss.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09- Rachel's out of the OR. - Oh, thank God!
0:13:09 > 0:13:10The operation seems to have gone well,
0:13:10 > 0:13:12but it's early days still.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14Can we see her?
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Look, it's been a long night, why don't you go home
0:13:16 > 0:13:19and get some sleep and come back rested in the afternoon?
0:13:19 > 0:13:21I'm not leaving her, Jack.
0:13:22 > 0:13:24We'll stay.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26We're not leaving.
0:13:26 > 0:13:27OK.
0:13:27 > 0:13:28Come here, come on.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49HE SOBS
0:14:21 > 0:14:23You can't be in here, Ethan.
0:14:25 > 0:14:26HE SOBS
0:14:27 > 0:14:29Mr Grew, please.
0:14:31 > 0:14:32Please.
0:14:38 > 0:14:39Please.
0:14:55 > 0:14:56The door's open.
0:15:00 > 0:15:01I left the door open.
0:15:02 > 0:15:05All the Christmas lights are off.
0:15:05 > 0:15:09Is that because of Kate?
0:15:09 > 0:15:10Kate wouldn't...
0:15:10 > 0:15:13Anything could have happened. We could have been robbed blind.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15We could have lost everything.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22I need some air.
0:15:38 > 0:15:39I'm not going in there.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45I don't know why I put this thing on.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48I haven't worn it in years.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58Do you remember the night of the prom
0:15:58 > 0:15:59and how pretty Kate looked?
0:16:03 > 0:16:07How happy she were, joy were...
0:16:07 > 0:16:08beaming out of her.
0:16:10 > 0:16:11I can't, Ann.
0:16:13 > 0:16:14I can't.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18I taught her to ride a bike here.
0:16:22 > 0:16:24I played footie with her there.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26She were a real tomboy at first, weren't she?
0:16:30 > 0:16:33I keep trying to forget it and I can't!
0:16:35 > 0:16:38One minute she was here and the next...
0:16:42 > 0:16:44I'll be living with that every day.
0:16:47 > 0:16:48Every day.
0:16:52 > 0:16:56She sat here last night in his car.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58I waved to her, she didn't see me.
0:17:01 > 0:17:05- I should... I should've just dropped them off at the pub. - You can't think like that.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07- If I'd have stopped her going out. - No, Martin.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10I didn't get to say goodbye.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12I didn't get to tell her that I loved her.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15She knew, she knew.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17It's all my fault, isn't it?
0:17:17 > 0:17:20No, no, no. Shush! It's not!
0:17:21 > 0:17:25We never have to go in there again, I promise!
0:17:25 > 0:17:28We'll go and stay at my mum's till it's sold.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32I'm so sorry.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34One minute, you'll be strong for me,
0:17:34 > 0:17:36the next, I'll be strong for you,
0:17:36 > 0:17:39and that's how we're going to get through this, OK?
0:17:41 > 0:17:42Yeah.
0:17:45 > 0:17:46Yeah.
0:17:51 > 0:17:52It's Leah.
0:18:02 > 0:18:03I saw you outside and...
0:18:05 > 0:18:08Kate meant so much to all of us, I...
0:18:09 > 0:18:11..I had to do something.
0:18:11 > 0:18:15After all you've been through, darling!
0:18:19 > 0:18:21Oh, look at you.
0:18:33 > 0:18:35Oh, you must be freezing, come on...
0:18:37 > 0:18:38Come on.
0:18:40 > 0:18:41Come on.
0:19:02 > 0:19:05The hospital said we need an undertaker.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19Ethan's father said we should get a solicitor.
0:19:19 > 0:19:20A solicitor?
0:19:23 > 0:19:24Yeah, of course.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27HE SOBS
0:19:27 > 0:19:28Brian's more important.
0:19:33 > 0:19:35I didn't mean.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37I know, I can't.
0:19:38 > 0:19:39Shhh.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44I'll do it.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46No, no, no, no, I'd rather just...
0:19:46 > 0:19:48- Val...- Don't Val me, Charlie!
0:19:49 > 0:19:52You have to get some rest, love.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53I have to?
0:19:54 > 0:19:57I'll tell you what I have to do.
0:19:57 > 0:19:59I have to go upstairs,
0:19:59 > 0:20:01I have to pick out clothes for Brian,
0:20:01 > 0:20:02his good clothes for the...
0:20:02 > 0:20:04I know, I know.
0:20:04 > 0:20:07I have to go through his wardrobe and then I have to go to the mortuary.
0:20:07 > 0:20:11- Mum...- I have to give them Brian's clothes,
0:20:11 > 0:20:13the ones I HAVE to choose for him.
0:20:13 > 0:20:16- Shhh.- And I have to hear them say all over again they're sorry,
0:20:16 > 0:20:17nothing could be done.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24When they took me into the mortuary...
0:20:26 > 0:20:28..it looked like he were asleep.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31Inside, I was screaming,
0:20:31 > 0:20:33"Waken up, Brian, waken up!"
0:20:34 > 0:20:39But I just stood there because that's what I do.
0:20:39 > 0:20:40I never say...
0:20:46 > 0:20:47It were that car, weren't it?
0:20:52 > 0:20:55It were an accident, love!
0:20:55 > 0:20:57It were an accident!
0:20:57 > 0:20:58You think I'm stupid?
0:20:58 > 0:21:02Do you think I don't know he upgraded it?
0:21:02 > 0:21:04He overtook in the wrong place.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07Stupid, stupid car!
0:21:08 > 0:21:12It could have happened to anyone, any car, love.
0:21:12 > 0:21:13I should have said something,
0:21:13 > 0:21:16I knew I should have. It were that car, but...
0:21:16 > 0:21:19- Mum...- Please, love...
0:21:19 > 0:21:21..I never say anything and now...
0:21:21 > 0:21:23Mum, please!
0:21:25 > 0:21:26Oh, God!
0:21:26 > 0:21:29THEY CRY
0:21:31 > 0:21:35MUSIC: "All I Want" by Kodaline
0:21:35 > 0:21:38# All I want is nothing more
0:21:40 > 0:21:44# To hear you knocking at my door
0:21:47 > 0:21:52# Cos if I could see your face Once more
0:21:54 > 0:21:58# I could die a happy man I'm sure... #
0:22:00 > 0:22:01Tom!
0:22:01 > 0:22:05# When you said your last goodbye
0:22:07 > 0:22:11# I died a little bit inside
0:22:14 > 0:22:19# I lay in tears in bed all night
0:22:21 > 0:22:25# Alone without you by my side
0:22:27 > 0:22:31# But if you loved me
0:22:31 > 0:22:34# Why'd you leave me
0:22:34 > 0:22:36# Take my body... #
0:22:36 > 0:22:38- Kate was always so bossy. - Just like her mum.
0:22:38 > 0:22:39Hey!
0:22:39 > 0:22:42SHE SOBS
0:22:42 > 0:22:45You know, she was like a sister to our Rach,
0:22:45 > 0:22:47more than I ever was.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49I never knew how she put up with her.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Alcohol!
0:22:51 > 0:22:52THEY CHUCKLE
0:22:54 > 0:22:56When I moved here in second year,
0:22:56 > 0:22:58Kate were the very first person I met.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01The headmistress put me with her
0:23:01 > 0:23:04and Kate showed me round the school and introduced me to her mates.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07The head always used to put Kate with the newbies.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09She was like an official welcome pack to the school.
0:23:09 > 0:23:10THEY LAUGH
0:23:10 > 0:23:11I never knew that, did you?
0:23:11 > 0:23:12No.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18Do you remember that party?
0:23:18 > 0:23:21I think you were in Wales or something.
0:23:21 > 0:23:22It were Tom's 16th, weren't it?
0:23:22 > 0:23:24Everyone from school was there.
0:23:24 > 0:23:26It went on till about three in the morning.
0:23:26 > 0:23:28How come that we never heard anything from the neighbours?
0:23:28 > 0:23:31Oh, you know Kate, she could talk her way out of anything!
0:23:31 > 0:23:32THEY LAUGH
0:23:32 > 0:23:35When we got up in the morning, the day you were due back,
0:23:35 > 0:23:37all the walls had permanent marker on them!
0:23:37 > 0:23:39The living room, the hall,
0:23:39 > 0:23:41the kitchen, but Kate found some paint in the shed.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43That's why I told you
0:23:43 > 0:23:46it was too clean when we got back!
0:23:46 > 0:23:48The stairs, the kitchen, the place stank.
0:23:48 > 0:23:51We had to open all doors and windows to get rid of the smell!
0:23:51 > 0:23:52THEY CHUCKLE
0:23:52 > 0:23:54I'm just going to put the kettle on.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56Keep talking.
0:24:01 > 0:24:03Tom!
0:24:03 > 0:24:04Please, it's OK.
0:24:07 > 0:24:08I'll...
0:24:10 > 0:24:11I'll...I'll stand here.
0:24:11 > 0:24:12Just...
0:24:14 > 0:24:15..don't go.
0:24:19 > 0:24:20It's cold out.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22Do you want to...?
0:24:22 > 0:24:25OK, OK, I'll stay here. Just...
0:24:25 > 0:24:28HE CRIES
0:24:28 > 0:24:29Can I...?
0:24:40 > 0:24:42Tom...
0:24:45 > 0:24:47HE SOBS
0:24:49 > 0:24:52I don't blame you for not wanting to come in, I never...
0:24:52 > 0:24:54Mrs Harper.
0:24:54 > 0:25:00Oh, Tom, you've never once called me that, don't start now, it's Ann.
0:25:03 > 0:25:05I wanted to say I'm so sorry.
0:25:07 > 0:25:08It were an accident.
0:25:10 > 0:25:12It was nobody's fault.
0:25:16 > 0:25:18How's your mum and dad?
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Oh, I'm sorry, a stupid question.
0:25:22 > 0:25:24People keep asking me and it's just...
0:25:26 > 0:25:28..what you say when there's nothing to say.
0:25:30 > 0:25:31Oh, Tom.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40You've lost more than all of us,
0:25:40 > 0:25:42you've lost Kate, your brother...
0:25:46 > 0:25:49It's... It's just...
0:25:49 > 0:25:51These things happen, Tom.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58And we want you to know that we don't blame you.
0:26:00 > 0:26:02Please remember that.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09We know that you loved her...
0:26:09 > 0:26:11I did...
0:26:14 > 0:26:15Kate.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17MUSIC: "Angels" by The xx
0:26:17 > 0:26:20# It's more than I thought Could exist
0:26:20 > 0:26:22# You move through the room
0:26:22 > 0:26:25# Like breathing was easy
0:26:25 > 0:26:28# If someone believed me
0:26:28 > 0:26:33# They would be As in love with you as I am
0:26:33 > 0:26:38# They would be As in love with you as I am
0:26:38 > 0:26:43# They would be As in love with you as I am
0:26:43 > 0:26:49# They would be in love, love, love
0:26:52 > 0:26:54# And everyday
0:26:54 > 0:26:56# I'm learning about you... #
0:26:56 > 0:26:59Hey. I thought Ann was making the tea.
0:26:59 > 0:27:03No, um, I can take care of it.
0:27:03 > 0:27:04Are you OK?
0:27:04 > 0:27:07Yeah, honestly. Just go back in.
0:27:08 > 0:27:09OK.
0:27:10 > 0:27:11OK.
0:27:15 > 0:27:18# ..And leaving without them. #
0:28:06 > 0:28:07I've been awake all night.
0:28:09 > 0:28:10Me too.
0:28:14 > 0:28:16I didn't want to sleep,
0:28:16 > 0:28:20I thought if I could stay away, then, today might...
0:28:20 > 0:28:21I know.
0:28:28 > 0:28:31I don't think you should go to the funerals.
0:28:31 > 0:28:33I think you've been through enough.
0:28:38 > 0:28:41MUSIC: "Lover, You Should've Come Over" by Jeff Buckley
0:28:46 > 0:28:50# Looking out the door I see the rain
0:28:50 > 0:28:55# Fall upon the funeral mourners
0:28:58 > 0:29:02# Parading in a wake of sad relations
0:29:02 > 0:29:05# As their shoes fill up with water
0:29:12 > 0:29:14# And maybe I'm too young
0:29:15 > 0:29:19# To keep good love From going wrong... #
0:29:19 > 0:29:22- SHE WHISPERS:- Wake up.
0:29:22 > 0:29:27# ..But tonight you're on my mind
0:29:27 > 0:29:31# So you never know
0:29:33 > 0:29:38# Broken down and hungry For your love
0:29:38 > 0:29:42# But no way to feed it
0:29:45 > 0:29:50# Where are you tonight, child?
0:29:50 > 0:29:54# You know how much I need it
0:29:56 > 0:30:02# Cos it's not too late. #
0:30:06 > 0:30:08She swears it were me that put them there,
0:30:08 > 0:30:11but you know what she's like with anything black.
0:30:15 > 0:30:16Rachel?
0:30:19 > 0:30:20Mo?
0:30:29 > 0:30:30Kate...
0:30:32 > 0:30:34You're going to be OK.
0:30:35 > 0:30:37You're going to be OK.
0:30:37 > 0:30:39I thought we'd lost you.
0:30:39 > 0:30:40Rachel.
0:30:42 > 0:30:44It's OK. Take your time.
0:30:46 > 0:30:48Kate's gone.
0:30:53 > 0:30:55You've got to get better for her.
0:30:55 > 0:30:56Mum!
0:30:56 > 0:30:59I'm here, Rachel, I'm here.
0:31:00 > 0:31:02No, I want my mum.
0:31:36 > 0:31:37I found that in a...
0:31:41 > 0:31:43Brian'd want you to have it.
0:31:44 > 0:31:46Rachel woke up earlier.
0:31:47 > 0:31:48Yeah, I heard.
0:31:48 > 0:31:51She can't remember who she is,
0:31:51 > 0:31:54what happened. She doesn't remember any of us.
0:31:54 > 0:31:56The only person she remembers is Kate.
0:31:58 > 0:32:00Why didn't you go to the funerals?
0:32:04 > 0:32:05I couldn't.
0:32:09 > 0:32:11How could you not go?
0:32:11 > 0:32:15Her mum and dad, I couldn't have them looking up and seeing me.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17You're a coward, Tom.
0:32:17 > 0:32:19I don't know what Kate ever saw in you.
0:32:24 > 0:32:25DOOR CLOSES
0:32:27 > 0:32:29MUSIC: "Laughing With" by Regina Spektor
0:32:34 > 0:32:38# No-one laughs at God in a hospital
0:32:38 > 0:32:40# No-one laughs at God in a war
0:32:40 > 0:32:42# No-one's laughing at God
0:32:42 > 0:32:47# When they're starving or freezing Or so very poor
0:32:47 > 0:32:50# No-one laughs at God When the doctor calls
0:32:50 > 0:32:52# After some routine tests
0:32:52 > 0:32:54# No-one's laughing at God
0:32:54 > 0:32:55# When it's gotten real late
0:32:55 > 0:32:59# And their kid's not back From that party yet
0:32:59 > 0:33:01# No-one laughs at God
0:33:01 > 0:33:05# When their airplane Starts to uncontrollably shake
0:33:05 > 0:33:06# No-one's laughing at God
0:33:06 > 0:33:10# When they see the one they love Hand in hand with someone else
0:33:10 > 0:33:12# And they hope that they're mistaken
0:33:12 > 0:33:14# No-one laughs at God
0:33:14 > 0:33:15# When the cops knock on their door
0:33:15 > 0:33:17# And they say "We've got some bad news, sir"
0:33:17 > 0:33:19# No-one's laughing at God
0:33:19 > 0:33:23# When there's a famine, fire Or flood
0:33:23 > 0:33:26# But God can be funny
0:33:26 > 0:33:28# At a cocktail party
0:33:28 > 0:33:30# While listening to a good God-themed joke or
0:33:30 > 0:33:32# When the crazies say he hates us
0:33:32 > 0:33:34# And they get so red in the head
0:33:34 > 0:33:36# You think they're about to choke
0:33:36 > 0:33:38# God can be funny
0:33:38 > 0:33:40# When told he'll give you money
0:33:40 > 0:33:43# If you just pray the right way
0:33:43 > 0:33:47# And when presented like a genie Who does magic like Houdini... #
0:33:47 > 0:33:48Now...
0:33:51 > 0:33:55You stand straight in that dock.
0:33:55 > 0:33:57I don't care what the jury decide.
0:33:59 > 0:34:01Or what anyone round here thinks.
0:34:02 > 0:34:04You told the truth.
0:34:10 > 0:34:11And you are a Harris.
0:34:15 > 0:34:18And you are my son.
0:34:18 > 0:34:20# ..No-one laughs at God
0:34:20 > 0:34:21# On the day they realise
0:34:21 > 0:34:23# That the last sight They'll ever see
0:34:23 > 0:34:25# Is a pair of hateful eyes
0:34:25 > 0:34:26# No-one's laughing at God... #
0:34:29 > 0:34:30SHE SCREAMS
0:34:30 > 0:34:31Leah!
0:34:31 > 0:34:35Leah, where are my fucking trousers? I told you not to touch my stuff!
0:34:35 > 0:34:38- You told me to take them to the dry cleaners.- No, I didn't!
0:34:38 > 0:34:39You said to leave them downstairs.
0:34:41 > 0:34:44You're lying, why are you lying to me?!
0:34:46 > 0:34:48I must have got it wrong.
0:34:50 > 0:34:52Well, I've changed my mind, I'm not going.
0:34:52 > 0:34:57- But it's the last day of the trial. - I'm not going!- Ethan's facing a death by dangerous driving charge, Rachel.
0:34:57 > 0:34:59He could go to prison!
0:34:59 > 0:35:00You should be there.
0:35:00 > 0:35:03What fucking word don't you understand? I'm not going!
0:35:03 > 0:35:07Kate's parents aren't going, I'm not going!
0:35:08 > 0:35:09Leave me alone!
0:35:10 > 0:35:11SHE SIGHS
0:35:31 > 0:35:34All this waiting. How long does it take them to reach a verdict?
0:35:37 > 0:35:39Has Tom said anything to you yet?
0:35:39 > 0:35:41No, nothing.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43Not since eh...
0:35:43 > 0:35:47Yeah, not since before the crash, anyway.
0:35:47 > 0:35:48Rachel couldn't come, then?
0:35:48 > 0:35:50She wasn't feeling very well.
0:35:53 > 0:35:54Can I ask you a question?
0:35:54 > 0:35:55You just did.
0:35:59 > 0:36:00What changed?
0:36:01 > 0:36:05You know, like, you blamed Tom, what happened to Brian and that,
0:36:05 > 0:36:07but you don't blame me for what happened to Rachel?
0:36:07 > 0:36:10I see the way you are with her.
0:36:10 > 0:36:12She's treated you like a piece of shit for the past year
0:36:12 > 0:36:14and you're still there for her.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16Yeah, but...I was to blame.
0:36:18 > 0:36:20Just as much as Tom.
0:36:22 > 0:36:24Tom just bailed on everyone.
0:36:24 > 0:36:26It's like we don't exist.
0:36:26 > 0:36:29Blame doesn't change what happened.
0:36:29 > 0:36:30It was an accident.
0:36:32 > 0:36:34Do us a favour.
0:36:34 > 0:36:38Give this to Rachel, for her birthday.
0:36:38 > 0:36:39It's not till next month.
0:36:40 > 0:36:42You're not going to get sent down, Ethan.
0:36:42 > 0:36:44Ethan?
0:36:44 > 0:36:46The jury's in.
0:36:46 > 0:36:47HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:36:55 > 0:36:56HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:38:14 > 0:38:16Remind me to bring a cloth next time.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18The headstone needs a clean.
0:38:26 > 0:38:27SHE CRIES
0:38:28 > 0:38:30Hey, hey, come on.
0:38:33 > 0:38:36I know. Sometimes it just sneaks up.
0:38:38 > 0:38:41Aye, you were right, you know.
0:38:41 > 0:38:42I usually am.
0:38:42 > 0:38:44About what?
0:38:44 > 0:38:47Our place being here with our Kate.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50I had no business at that trial.
0:38:50 > 0:38:52FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING
0:38:52 > 0:38:53It's Val.
0:38:55 > 0:38:58I didn't know you'd be here. I don't want to intrude.
0:38:58 > 0:39:00No, no, no, no. Your son's here.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03I'm really sorry, Ann.
0:39:03 > 0:39:07There's no need to apologise.
0:39:07 > 0:39:10The boys were cleared of death by dangerous driving.
0:39:10 > 0:39:12Good, that's good.
0:39:12 > 0:39:15But, listen, we never wanted a trial.
0:39:15 > 0:39:17It were an accident.
0:39:17 > 0:39:19That's why we weren't there.
0:39:19 > 0:39:22Our Kate, she wouldn't have wanted any of this for Tom.
0:39:22 > 0:39:24- Martin...- Val.
0:39:24 > 0:39:26Val, it's OK.
0:39:27 > 0:39:29You don't have to say anything.
0:39:31 > 0:39:32You go and see your son.
0:39:35 > 0:39:37- Tell Tom we were asking after him. - Yeah.- I will.
0:39:44 > 0:39:47Come on, you, let's go home.
0:39:49 > 0:39:51MUSIC: "Ara Batur" by Sigur Ros
0:40:19 > 0:40:21What are you doing in here?
0:40:23 > 0:40:24Nothing, I...
0:40:27 > 0:40:28Nothing.
0:40:28 > 0:40:31These were Brian's, don't touch them.
0:40:33 > 0:40:35Sorry, Mum.
0:40:35 > 0:40:37Yeah, you're always sorry after!
0:40:37 > 0:40:39- If you thought for five...- Val!
0:40:44 > 0:40:46There's pizza in the kitchen.
0:40:56 > 0:40:58Leave some for me, kidder.
0:40:58 > 0:40:59Yeah.
0:41:10 > 0:41:12I was in here cleaning the other day.
0:41:15 > 0:41:18I opened his wardrobe, just to let his clothes breathe.
0:41:19 > 0:41:21And I started crying.
0:41:24 > 0:41:27I just saw all his clothes and...
0:41:29 > 0:41:32..I couldn't stop myself, I just started crying.
0:41:36 > 0:41:37I can pack them away, if you like.
0:41:40 > 0:41:41We lost one son.
0:41:43 > 0:41:46And I can't...
0:41:46 > 0:41:52I can't help hating the other one that did it.
0:41:52 > 0:41:55Well, give it time, love.
0:41:56 > 0:41:58Now, the trial's over.
0:41:59 > 0:42:02Don't say we can get back to normal.
0:42:02 > 0:42:04This isn't normal!
0:42:05 > 0:42:09It will be...one day.
0:42:12 > 0:42:15I don't know how to forgive him
0:42:15 > 0:42:17and I don't think I ever will.
0:42:20 > 0:42:22You don't mean that.
0:42:22 > 0:42:24God forgive me, I do.
0:42:35 > 0:42:39'How can you - YOU - go out with that?'
0:42:41 > 0:42:43THEY LAUGH
0:42:44 > 0:42:48- 'Rach, you're uglier than you look, you know!- Dance with me!
0:42:49 > 0:42:53- 'Come on...- Ouch! I've banged my head!'
0:42:53 > 0:42:55THEY LAUGH
0:43:06 > 0:43:07Tom?
0:43:11 > 0:43:13- Fancied a walk.- 'Course you did.
0:43:17 > 0:43:19Are those for...?
0:43:20 > 0:43:22Brian, yeah.
0:43:24 > 0:43:27Um, listen, I was supposed to give you this
0:43:27 > 0:43:29if the trial didn't go well for Ethan,
0:43:29 > 0:43:31but I figured you'd want it anyway.
0:43:31 > 0:43:32It's your birthday card.
0:43:35 > 0:43:37Your birthday's next month.
0:43:37 > 0:43:38Oh.
0:43:43 > 0:43:44I'm just going to say one thing.
0:43:44 > 0:43:47There's a first time for everything.
0:43:47 > 0:43:49Do you love Ethan?
0:43:49 > 0:43:50What?
0:43:50 > 0:43:52Well, you're my sister, he's a mate,
0:43:52 > 0:43:56and if you do love him, then, stop treating him like shit.
0:43:56 > 0:44:00He's been through just as much as everyone and...
0:44:00 > 0:44:02I mean, he's a good bloke, he deserves better.
0:44:02 > 0:44:05- Are you done?- Yeah.
0:44:05 > 0:44:07No.
0:44:07 > 0:44:11Ethan was facing prison and the whole time he thought of you.
0:44:11 > 0:44:14If you don't love him, then let him go, Rachel.
0:44:16 > 0:44:18I thought you were only going to say one thing.
0:44:18 > 0:44:20Yeah, well, maths was never my strong point.
0:44:27 > 0:44:29- There's no rush, you know. - Are you being funny?
0:44:29 > 0:44:33No! Like, I mean, there's no hurry.
0:44:33 > 0:44:35I can call us a lift or something.
0:44:35 > 0:44:38Yeah, cos that worked out really well last time.
0:44:41 > 0:44:42I'm joking!
0:44:44 > 0:44:45Jesus Christ!
0:44:50 > 0:44:54Yeah, and I just want to say sorry for telling you to fuck off earlier.
0:44:54 > 0:44:56SHE CHUCKLES
0:44:56 > 0:44:57What?
0:44:57 > 0:44:59You must be getting a bit soft in your old age.
0:44:59 > 0:45:03That is the first time you have ever apologised for anything.
0:45:03 > 0:45:07And I mean EVER. For as long as I can remember.
0:45:07 > 0:45:08Yeah, well, don't get used to it.
0:45:08 > 0:45:11And who are you calling old? Emo slag!
0:45:11 > 0:45:13Princess.
0:45:17 > 0:45:19It looks like nothing happened.
0:45:23 > 0:45:24It's OK, come on.
0:45:33 > 0:45:34Hiya.
0:45:34 > 0:45:36Rachel's gone on.
0:45:36 > 0:45:39I sent Leah to make sure she was OK.
0:45:39 > 0:45:40Was she expecting you?
0:45:40 > 0:45:42Um, yeah.
0:45:42 > 0:45:43HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:45:43 > 0:45:45Yeah, we was going to go to the crash site together, you know.
0:45:45 > 0:45:48I'm sure she just forgot. You know how Rachel is.
0:45:48 > 0:45:52Yeah, yeah, I'll just..
0:45:52 > 0:45:54I'll just meet them down there.
0:45:54 > 0:45:55It's time, Ethan.
0:45:55 > 0:45:57What is?
0:45:57 > 0:45:59To let our Rachel go.
0:46:01 > 0:46:04Rachel's not the same girl you started going out with.
0:46:04 > 0:46:06She looks the same,
0:46:06 > 0:46:09sometimes she even sounds the same...
0:46:09 > 0:46:12but there's some days I think we lost our daughter that day...
0:46:12 > 0:46:15- Susanna, please... - I'm grateful...
0:46:15 > 0:46:17We got a second chance.
0:46:17 > 0:46:19So did Rachel.
0:46:19 > 0:46:21And so should you.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23It's time to let her go.
0:46:23 > 0:46:25It's hard...
0:46:25 > 0:46:26And after the accident...
0:46:28 > 0:46:32..poor old Rach, she couldn't even remember who we was.
0:46:34 > 0:46:37And four months ago, she couldn't even walk.
0:46:38 > 0:46:41Just look at her now. She's...
0:46:41 > 0:46:42she's getting there, yeah?
0:46:42 > 0:46:45You can't keep hoping it'll be the same as it was before.
0:46:45 > 0:46:47It's not like that.
0:46:47 > 0:46:48It's just...
0:46:51 > 0:46:52..I love her.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57You know, I loved her then and...
0:46:57 > 0:46:59I love her now. I still love her, Susanna.
0:47:11 > 0:47:13SHE SIGHS
0:47:15 > 0:47:16Hey.
0:47:21 > 0:47:24You know this is the first time I've been back here since the crash?
0:47:27 > 0:47:30You know, I still can't remember anything,
0:47:30 > 0:47:32nothing from the crash, nothing from the day.
0:47:32 > 0:47:35You know, maybe that's for the best.
0:47:35 > 0:47:36I don't want to forget anything!
0:47:38 > 0:47:41I just don't want to lose anyone else.
0:47:42 > 0:47:48It's my birthday in a month, so you can give it to me then.
0:47:48 > 0:47:49OK.
0:48:11 > 0:48:12What are you doing here?
0:48:15 > 0:48:18You've been avoiding us all year, mate, and this is it, yeah?
0:48:18 > 0:48:20You shouldn't be here.
0:48:20 > 0:48:22He's a right to be here.
0:48:22 > 0:48:25No, we have a right to be here, you don't!
0:48:25 > 0:48:27I asked him here. It's what Kate would have wanted.
0:48:27 > 0:48:29What, so you're speaking on behalf of the dead now, are you?
0:48:29 > 0:48:33Me, Kate and Ashley were friends long before any of you came along!
0:48:33 > 0:48:35I think I know them so, yes, I am speaking for them!
0:48:35 > 0:48:38Yeah, well, fuck him, all right, cos he's not worth it!
0:48:42 > 0:48:45This is all your fault!
0:48:45 > 0:48:48Ashley, Kate and Brian are dead because of you!
0:48:49 > 0:48:51Why did you overtake that car?
0:48:51 > 0:48:52I don't know.
0:48:52 > 0:48:54I lost my sister because of you!
0:48:54 > 0:48:56- Leah...- Everything about her's different.
0:48:56 > 0:48:58You know, what she likes, what she doesn't like!
0:48:58 > 0:49:00You didn't lose me.
0:49:00 > 0:49:02Leah!
0:49:02 > 0:49:04You didn't lose me!
0:49:04 > 0:49:07You know I was the one that arranged that night out.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10Why did you overtake that car?
0:49:11 > 0:49:13It wasn't one thing.
0:49:13 > 0:49:16I just thought I'd put...
0:49:16 > 0:49:18I don't know.
0:49:18 > 0:49:20You just do what you do best, yeah, Tom.
0:49:20 > 0:49:22Just run away. Just like you did at the hospital,
0:49:22 > 0:49:25- just like you did at Katie's funeral, yeah?- I was afraid!
0:49:25 > 0:49:27Yeah?! Well, Katie's family needed you there, mate!
0:49:27 > 0:49:29How could I be with you and not see her?
0:49:29 > 0:49:31HE CRIES
0:49:31 > 0:49:34How could I be with you and not see her and know that it was my fault?
0:49:34 > 0:49:37HE CRIES
0:49:44 > 0:49:47And I keep saying that I'm sorry,
0:49:47 > 0:49:49over and over again,
0:49:49 > 0:49:51and it doesn't help!
0:49:51 > 0:49:55It doesn't bring Brian back and it doesn't make you better!
0:49:56 > 0:49:58And it doesn't help my mum and dad
0:49:58 > 0:50:00and I don't know what else to do!
0:50:01 > 0:50:02Right, get up.
0:50:02 > 0:50:03I can't.
0:50:05 > 0:50:08Come on! You've got to get up!
0:50:08 > 0:50:11I can't, I can't any more.
0:50:11 > 0:50:13My mum, you know,
0:50:13 > 0:50:14you know what she said?
0:50:17 > 0:50:18She said I broke her heart.
0:50:21 > 0:50:25And I want to fix things for her but I can't.
0:50:25 > 0:50:28I want to make things better and I just can't.
0:50:34 > 0:50:37You can't and that's the point.
0:50:37 > 0:50:39You just have to learn to live with the loss.
0:50:39 > 0:50:42And you can't do that by locking yourself away.
0:50:42 > 0:50:45Or hiding from everyone who reminds you of Kate.
0:50:47 > 0:50:49Have you visited her grave?
0:50:49 > 0:50:50No.
0:50:52 > 0:50:55Do you know what? I was exactly the same at the start.
0:50:55 > 0:50:57But now I like to visit her.
0:51:01 > 0:51:03You know, sometimes, I look around
0:51:03 > 0:51:05and I would see her standing there.
0:51:05 > 0:51:06I wish I could see her.
0:51:10 > 0:51:11Just once more!
0:51:13 > 0:51:15You hear about that all the time,
0:51:15 > 0:51:17people seeing someone they've lost,
0:51:17 > 0:51:20but I haven't seen her once!
0:51:20 > 0:51:22I haven't even dreamt about her.
0:51:26 > 0:51:29I think I'm going to forget what she looks like.
0:51:38 > 0:51:40You have to forgive yourself.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43You knew her. She has.
0:51:45 > 0:51:48Visit her grave, it's what she would want.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51Why do you even care?
0:51:53 > 0:51:57Because we're friends and friends stick up for each other.
0:51:57 > 0:51:59You know, I lost my best friend!
0:51:59 > 0:52:01And I don't want to lose anyone else!
0:52:10 > 0:52:13Do you know if we remember them, then, they're not really dead?
0:52:14 > 0:52:16MUSIC: "Grew Up At Midnight" by The Maccabees
0:52:16 > 0:52:18# Outside of the window
0:52:18 > 0:52:21# I was sticking with you
0:52:22 > 0:52:25# We were only kids then
0:52:25 > 0:52:29# We'd get soaked right through
0:52:29 > 0:52:31# We used to tell them
0:52:31 > 0:52:34# I was staying at yours
0:52:34 > 0:52:38# Sheltered in our own worlds
0:52:38 > 0:52:42# We'd watch the rain right through
0:52:54 > 0:52:58# We grew up at midnight
0:52:58 > 0:53:02# We were only kids then
0:53:05 > 0:53:12# We grew up at midnight
0:53:12 > 0:53:15# We were only kids then
0:53:54 > 0:53:58# We grew up at midnight
0:54:00 > 0:54:03# We were only kids then
0:54:05 > 0:54:10# We grew up at midnight
0:54:12 > 0:54:15# We were only kids then
0:54:15 > 0:54:20# But that night we knew. #
0:55:12 > 0:55:14MUSIC: "Girls Like You" by The Naked And Famous
0:55:14 > 0:55:18# Don't you know people write songs About girls like you?
0:55:18 > 0:55:21# About girls like you
0:55:21 > 0:55:24# About girls like you
0:55:27 > 0:55:32# Don't you know people write songs About girls like you? #
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