0:00:02 > 0:00:04With regard to his memory loss, he could be feigning,
0:00:04 > 0:00:06exaggerating or simply...
0:00:06 > 0:00:07malingering.
0:00:07 > 0:00:10Now, I feel I have no choice, other than to remand her to the
0:00:10 > 0:00:12Seapark Juvenile Justice Centre in Bangor.
0:00:12 > 0:00:13I don't care what you do.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15The only one who's honest is Paul.
0:00:15 > 0:00:18The police say they have fresh evidence to put to Spector.
0:00:18 > 0:00:19What sort of evidence?
0:00:19 > 0:00:22Apparently they have found a lock-up rented by Spector.
0:00:22 > 0:00:24Why are you in this place?
0:00:24 > 0:00:25I twisted my sister's arm.
0:00:25 > 0:00:27After he broke his sister's arm, he raped her...
0:00:27 > 0:00:29and carried her into the street,
0:00:29 > 0:00:32threw her into a passing bin lorry that crushed her to death.
0:00:32 > 0:00:34No-one has any idea how bad Gortnacull House was.
0:00:34 > 0:00:38Are you certain that Baldwin, Paul Spector, was Jensen's favourite?
0:00:38 > 0:00:40Every night and every day for a full year.
0:00:42 > 0:00:45Paul Spector, I am further arresting you for the murder of
0:00:45 > 0:00:49Susan Harper on the 18th of August 2002.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51I insist this interview be suspended.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53I must take instruction from Mr Spector.
0:00:53 > 0:00:55Do you recognise this man? Do you know his name?
0:00:55 > 0:00:56David Alvarez.
0:00:56 > 0:00:58This interview stops now.
0:00:58 > 0:00:59What is going on?
0:00:59 > 0:01:01The police have been clever.
0:01:01 > 0:01:03They have something on me that I can actually remember.
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0:01:08 > 0:01:13and scenes which some viewers may find upsetting.
0:01:13 > 0:01:16I'd worked that day, in a Caribbean restaurant.
0:01:16 > 0:01:20It was a warm day. There was thundery rain.
0:01:22 > 0:01:25David and I went out after work, went out drinking.
0:01:25 > 0:01:28We went to a local club, I can't recall the name.
0:01:30 > 0:01:35We met Susan Harper there. She invited us to her house.
0:01:35 > 0:01:38I think she shared a house, but there was no-one there.
0:01:40 > 0:01:41We went up to her room.
0:01:41 > 0:01:42The three of you?
0:01:44 > 0:01:45Yes.
0:01:45 > 0:01:47What happened?
0:01:50 > 0:01:52She and David had sex.
0:01:54 > 0:01:55And you?
0:01:57 > 0:01:58I watched.
0:02:00 > 0:02:01What sort of sex?
0:02:04 > 0:02:06Ordinary sex.
0:02:08 > 0:02:09What happened then?
0:02:12 > 0:02:13David left.
0:02:15 > 0:02:18He went out to find more drink.
0:02:18 > 0:02:19He left us together.
0:02:21 > 0:02:22Go on.
0:02:26 > 0:02:27We, erm...
0:02:29 > 0:02:33I invited her to try something a bit different.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35What?
0:02:36 > 0:02:37A sex game.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43What happened was an accident.
0:02:43 > 0:02:44A consensual game?
0:02:44 > 0:02:46Yes.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50Then how did this David Alvarez individual come to be found
0:02:50 > 0:02:51guilty if he wasn't even there?
0:02:51 > 0:02:53And why murder, why not manslaughter?
0:02:56 > 0:02:57It's complicated.
0:02:57 > 0:03:00Did David Alvarez find somewhere to sell him drink?
0:03:00 > 0:03:03I don't know. He never came back.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08Could I please have some water?
0:03:17 > 0:03:20- CLEARS HIS THROAT:- Have you, erm...
0:03:22 > 0:03:24..remembered more in regard to the other charges?
0:03:26 > 0:03:27No.
0:03:31 > 0:03:34It will look bad if you stop answering now.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40Erm...just be careful what you say.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01So at that point you were left alone with Susan Harper?
0:04:01 > 0:04:02Yes.
0:04:02 > 0:04:03What happened then?
0:04:05 > 0:04:07I suggested that she tried something, erm,
0:04:07 > 0:04:11a bit more exciting than the sex that she'd had with David.
0:04:12 > 0:04:13What?
0:04:15 > 0:04:17I'd been experimenting.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19With?
0:04:28 > 0:04:30Exhibit 132.
0:04:33 > 0:04:34I've never seen these before.
0:04:34 > 0:04:37- You admit it's you? - He admits no such thing.
0:04:37 > 0:04:39Experimenting like that, with sexual asphyxiation.
0:04:39 > 0:04:43Is that the sort of behaviour you involved Susan Harper in?
0:04:43 > 0:04:45I advise you not to answer that question.
0:04:47 > 0:04:48Yes.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50How? Specifically.
0:04:53 > 0:04:54Her head in a plastic bag.
0:04:58 > 0:04:59Tied off at the neck?
0:05:02 > 0:05:04No, just a thin plastic bag.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06Did you tie her hands?
0:05:06 > 0:05:08No, her hands were free.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Was it your suggestion to use the bag?
0:05:10 > 0:05:12Yes.
0:05:12 > 0:05:13Why?
0:05:14 > 0:05:19For the same reasons as in these pictures, to feel in control,
0:05:19 > 0:05:21to feel out of control...
0:05:21 > 0:05:24to feel powerful, to feel weak,
0:05:24 > 0:05:27to be fearful, to be trusted.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Were you supposed to remove it?
0:05:30 > 0:05:33She was...at the peak of orgasm,
0:05:33 > 0:05:37to tear off the bag, it floods
0:05:37 > 0:05:41the brain with oxygen-laden blood, leads to a feeling of euphoria.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43Or death.
0:05:45 > 0:05:46Sadly, yes.
0:05:46 > 0:05:47Sadly?
0:05:50 > 0:05:52Did she understand the risks involved with such behaviour?
0:05:54 > 0:05:55I think so.
0:05:55 > 0:05:56Did you explain it?
0:05:57 > 0:05:59I don't remember.
0:05:59 > 0:06:02Why didn't you remove the bag for her if she lost consciousness?
0:06:02 > 0:06:04Could you not see she was suffocating?
0:06:06 > 0:06:08I wasn't looking at her.
0:06:08 > 0:06:10I was going down on her.
0:06:12 > 0:06:16We'd been drinking, taken coke. Maybe that's why she died.
0:06:16 > 0:06:22And yet David Alvarez, who wasn't even there at the time,
0:06:22 > 0:06:24is serving a life sentence for the murder.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28His choice.
0:06:28 > 0:06:30Why would he make that choice, do you think?
0:06:32 > 0:06:35I don't know. You'll have to ask him.
0:06:37 > 0:06:39So what did you do when you realised what had happened?
0:06:39 > 0:06:42Did you call for an ambulance? Did you call the police?
0:06:42 > 0:06:44- No.- Why not?
0:06:44 > 0:06:46It didn't occur to me.
0:06:46 > 0:06:47What did you do?
0:06:49 > 0:06:50Cleaned up.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54Does that account for the presence of a washing-up bowl by the bed?
0:06:56 > 0:06:58Yes.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00I fetched the water and washed her.
0:07:01 > 0:07:02Emptied it into the bath.
0:07:02 > 0:07:04I was meant to bring it back to the kitchen.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06I must have forgotten.
0:07:06 > 0:07:07What colour bowl?
0:07:08 > 0:07:10Green, I think.
0:07:10 > 0:07:12So you just left her there, in her room?
0:07:12 > 0:07:14On her bed?
0:07:14 > 0:07:15Yes.
0:07:15 > 0:07:16What did you do then?
0:07:17 > 0:07:19I walked the streets.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20And after that?
0:07:21 > 0:07:24Left London. I came back to Belfast.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26And that's when you became Paul Spector?
0:07:26 > 0:07:30- Yes.- Did you have any communication with David Alvarez?
0:07:30 > 0:07:31No.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33- At no point?- No.
0:07:34 > 0:07:39I ask you again, why would he take the blame, do you think?
0:07:42 > 0:07:46He must have felt he was doing the right thing, I suppose.
0:07:46 > 0:07:47And why would he think...
0:07:48 > 0:07:50..taking the blame was the right thing to do?
0:07:52 > 0:07:54You tell me.
0:07:57 > 0:07:59He said he felt in your debt.
0:08:02 > 0:08:03She speaks.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07He said he felt he owed you a great deal.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10Because you protected him as a child.
0:08:10 > 0:08:11Did I?
0:08:13 > 0:08:16You told me...
0:08:16 > 0:08:19that Father Jensen didn't abuse you at Gortnacull.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23You said that you made yourself repulsive so that
0:08:23 > 0:08:25he wouldn't touch you.
0:08:26 > 0:08:28I don't remember that.
0:08:29 > 0:08:31I don't recall talking to you before.
0:08:32 > 0:08:36But every boy there was abused in some way.
0:08:36 > 0:08:37No-one escaped.
0:08:39 > 0:08:44In fact, some boys were singled out for special treatment.
0:08:46 > 0:08:51And you were one of Father Jensen's favourites.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54He even had a pet name for you.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58He called you "Pretty Boy".
0:09:00 > 0:09:03He chose you to be his favourite for a whole year.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10When it came time for you to choose your successor...
0:09:11 > 0:09:15..you looked right past David Alvarez.
0:09:15 > 0:09:17You chose another boy.
0:09:19 > 0:09:22And, for that, he was eternally grateful.
0:09:25 > 0:09:29Or at least until it became clear that the friend that he was
0:09:29 > 0:09:34protecting from an unfortunate fatal accident
0:09:34 > 0:09:37was actually a friend who was, at that time,
0:09:37 > 0:09:39at the beginning of a career as a serial murderer.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45Drop the charade, Peter.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Own your confession.
0:09:50 > 0:09:53Have the courage of your convictions
0:09:53 > 0:09:55and admit that you remember it all.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59You remember everything.
0:09:59 > 0:10:03I'm sorry, but you are intentionally prejudicing my client's case.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05I will want this removed from the transcripts.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08Were you not worried that the police would come after you?
0:10:10 > 0:10:13Come after Peter Baldwin, do you mean?
0:10:13 > 0:10:17Of no fixed abode somewhere in London?
0:10:17 > 0:10:18No, I wasn't.
0:10:19 > 0:10:23A year later I was Paul Spector, living in Belfast,
0:10:23 > 0:10:27soon to become a married man with a child.
0:10:28 > 0:10:32Truth be told, I didn't give Alvarez and Susan Harper much thought.
0:10:35 > 0:10:41You know, I've been told a lot about Paul Spector, since I was shot.
0:10:44 > 0:10:49At first I was horrified, but then, I must admit...
0:10:52 > 0:10:56..little by little, he's started to intrigue me.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59Paul, please stick to the facts surrounding the death of
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Susan Harper...
0:11:01 > 0:11:04and avoid speculating about things you can't remember.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08The speculation intrigues me.
0:11:12 > 0:11:15I'm told that I laid out Sarah Kay's underwear on her bed,
0:11:15 > 0:11:17in the shape of her body.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23That's what I used to do as a child.
0:11:25 > 0:11:30Lay out my mother's clothes on her bed, in her shape,
0:11:30 > 0:11:31imagine she was there.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37It aroused me.
0:11:39 > 0:11:45When I was a wee bit older, 12, 13, whenever I could,
0:11:45 > 0:11:47I would obtain female underwear.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50I'd use it to masturbate.
0:11:53 > 0:11:54Is that perverse?
0:11:57 > 0:12:00Was that the start of something that led me here?
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Or was it earlier?
0:12:04 > 0:12:05Gortnacull?
0:12:06 > 0:12:08Or earlier still, my mother's death?
0:12:11 > 0:12:13I want to know.
0:12:13 > 0:12:14I want to know the real me.
0:12:18 > 0:12:21Then stop hiding behind the mask of amnesia.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25We're all wearing masks to some extent.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29You certainly are.
0:12:32 > 0:12:38There are memories, thoughts that feel like memories...
0:12:40 > 0:12:41..that are starting to come back to me.
0:12:41 > 0:12:45This interview has strayed way beyond its stated purpose.
0:12:45 > 0:12:46And there's a voice.
0:12:51 > 0:12:54There's a voice saying, "We're losing him, we're losing him."
0:12:57 > 0:13:01So, there must have been at least one person who cared
0:13:01 > 0:13:03whether I lived or died.
0:13:07 > 0:13:08That was me.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12That was my voice.
0:13:14 > 0:13:15And I did care.
0:13:17 > 0:13:23I thought death would be too easy for you, too easy an escape.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27And I didn't want you to cheat the system.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29And I still don't.
0:13:30 > 0:13:34I want you to be punished for the crimes that you've committed.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41Rose Stagg was so right about you.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46She saw right through you,
0:13:46 > 0:13:52your infantile desire to have a captive and captivated audience.
0:13:54 > 0:13:57You just want to be noticed,
0:13:57 > 0:14:01you want to be the centre of attention,
0:14:01 > 0:14:03to have special treatment,
0:14:03 > 0:14:05to make your mark.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11But it's all just a performance. All of it.
0:14:13 > 0:14:18You perform for me, for your solicitor, your doctors,
0:14:18 > 0:14:21your nurse, your psychiatrist, even your family.
0:14:24 > 0:14:28It's all just one big performance...
0:14:30 > 0:14:36..as protection against the dreaded black hole of your heart.
0:14:42 > 0:14:46Well, guess what, Paul, it's time to grow up.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53It's time to take responsibility for what you've done.
0:14:55 > 0:14:57Let's stop this pathetic charade.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02I really must insist on a break now.
0:15:02 > 0:15:05I need time with my client to prepare
0:15:05 > 0:15:09a written statement about the death of Susan Harper that he will read.
0:15:16 > 0:15:21Interview is being suspended at 15.47 so that Paul Spector
0:15:21 > 0:15:23can consult with his solicitor.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27Fetch the detention officer.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40ALARM BLARES
0:15:43 > 0:15:44ARM SNAPS
0:15:57 > 0:15:59SHOUTING
0:16:08 > 0:16:10BURNS SHOUTS
0:16:16 > 0:16:19Get your hands off me! Get your hands off me!
0:16:19 > 0:16:21Don't touch me! Do you hear me?!
0:16:21 > 0:16:23Don't you put your hands on me!
0:16:24 > 0:16:25Have you been drinking?
0:16:41 > 0:16:44You, escort Mr Healy out of here! You...
0:16:44 > 0:16:45where's that fucking ambulance?!
0:16:45 > 0:16:47It's all right.
0:16:52 > 0:16:55It's all right, it's all right.
0:17:05 > 0:17:06Drive.
0:17:07 > 0:17:08Drive!
0:17:26 > 0:17:28HE SOBS
0:18:00 > 0:18:01I'm shaking.
0:18:01 > 0:18:03How much did you see?
0:18:03 > 0:18:06Erm, my monitor went dead. The attack on Gibson.
0:18:06 > 0:18:08It didn't stop there.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10What a way for the whole thing to end.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12End? What do you mean?
0:18:12 > 0:18:14We can't possibly represent him now.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16Why not?
0:18:16 > 0:18:18I've never seen violence like that before in my life.
0:18:18 > 0:18:22What have we just witnessed? The very thing you described.
0:18:22 > 0:18:23Their deep obsession with each other.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26The emergence under duress of "Bad Paul".
0:18:26 > 0:18:29If Larson doesn't find evidence of dissociative disorder,
0:18:29 > 0:18:32a split personality, then we will find a psychiatrist who does.
0:18:32 > 0:18:35Then we play the "not guilty by reason of insanity" card or even,
0:18:35 > 0:18:37if necessary, "guilty but insane".
0:18:37 > 0:18:40I can't, Sean, I can't be in the same room with him again.
0:18:40 > 0:18:42I get it. You admire her.
0:18:42 > 0:18:43You want to be her when you grow up.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44The fact remains,
0:18:44 > 0:18:47if you can't make the accused your focus then you shouldn't be
0:18:47 > 0:18:50a defence lawyer, probably not a criminal lawyer at all.
0:18:50 > 0:18:51Fine.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53What?
0:18:53 > 0:18:54You're on your own.
0:19:22 > 0:19:23DOOR BUZZES
0:20:35 > 0:20:36Open your mouth for me.
0:20:41 > 0:20:43Bring your teeth together.
0:20:45 > 0:20:46Painful?
0:20:46 > 0:20:48No, no.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51No crunching noises. Any problems with vision?
0:20:51 > 0:20:52No.
0:20:52 > 0:20:56I think you have a minimally displaced zygoma fracture.
0:20:56 > 0:21:00You're going to be on a soft diet for two weeks or so.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03Though the bleeding's impressive, the lacerations small.
0:21:03 > 0:21:07Might require a stitch or two. Irrigate the wound with
0:21:07 > 0:21:09lots of normal saline and I'll take a look.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11If you'd like to lie back on the bed for me, please.
0:21:13 > 0:21:16SHE GROANS
0:21:30 > 0:21:32Any pain?
0:21:32 > 0:21:33Mmm. Some.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36- Shall I check for blood in the urine?- Yes, please.
0:21:44 > 0:21:47I'd like to keep you in overnight for observation.
0:21:47 > 0:21:49That won't be necessary.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51Don't worry, it'll just be bed and breakfast.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53I'll be back to stitch that eyebrow.
0:23:17 > 0:23:19Thought I'd look in on you before I go.
0:23:21 > 0:23:23What time is it?
0:23:23 > 0:23:25Just after two.
0:23:26 > 0:23:29This is my ninth straight night in a row.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31I've been on for 17 hours.
0:23:32 > 0:23:33Getting too old for this.
0:23:36 > 0:23:39I bet you're glad I saved his life.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47How's Tom Anderson?
0:23:47 > 0:23:48His arm's broken.
0:23:50 > 0:23:53He's undergone a closed reduction to pull the bones back into position.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55- Oh, Jesus.- He's been sent home with his arm in a cast.
0:23:58 > 0:24:01Given that you're less likely to develop
0:24:01 > 0:24:04post-traumatic stress disorder if you don't sleep
0:24:04 > 0:24:06after a bad experience,
0:24:06 > 0:24:10maybe I should...keep you awake a wee bit longer at least.
0:24:12 > 0:24:14Don't you have a home to go to?
0:24:14 > 0:24:17I do. A wife and five kids, as it happens,
0:24:17 > 0:24:22from a daughter of 12 to a son of seven months. If I go home now,
0:24:22 > 0:24:25it'll be nappy changes and the four o'clock feed.
0:24:25 > 0:24:28Might as well sit with you for a bit.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31I'll ask you questions.
0:24:32 > 0:24:34- Really?- Aye.
0:24:35 > 0:24:36Go on.
0:24:39 > 0:24:41Do you like flowers?
0:24:44 > 0:24:46Of course.
0:24:46 > 0:24:49Can you play any musical instrument?
0:24:50 > 0:24:53I could play the violin when I was a girl.
0:24:54 > 0:24:56Have you ever been happy?
0:24:56 > 0:24:57If so, when?
0:24:59 > 0:25:01When I was a child,
0:25:01 > 0:25:03before my father died.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10Have you any real friends?
0:25:12 > 0:25:13A few, yeah.
0:25:15 > 0:25:17Have you ever wished anyone dead?
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Yes, I have.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28Are you a good swimmer?
0:25:30 > 0:25:32Very.
0:25:32 > 0:25:36Are men or women the stronger, do you think?
0:25:38 > 0:25:40What do you think?
0:25:40 > 0:25:43Oh, women, without a doubt.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45In fact, it's time you hurried up and took over.
0:25:45 > 0:25:48I mean, it's going to happen so why not get on with it?
0:25:50 > 0:25:51Which is your favourite season?
0:25:53 > 0:25:54Spring.
0:25:56 > 0:26:00Has Mr Spector been a threat to himself or others in the past week?
0:26:00 > 0:26:04There have been no more breaches of protocol since he's been back.
0:26:04 > 0:26:07Anything more from the test results?
0:26:07 > 0:26:10Have you found any compelling inconsistencies?
0:26:10 > 0:26:15No, I haven't. Which is unsurprising given his professional knowledge.
0:26:18 > 0:26:21I know it's in your nature to infer invisible unconscious processes
0:26:21 > 0:26:25behind the memory loss and that it is an exceptional
0:26:25 > 0:26:29doctor who will take the risk of concluding in writing that someone
0:26:29 > 0:26:35is malingering but, with respect, that is what I think you should do.
0:26:36 > 0:26:38Do you?
0:26:38 > 0:26:41The CT head scan with and without contrast was normal,
0:26:41 > 0:26:45the MRI of the brain and the spinal cord showed normal results.
0:26:45 > 0:26:48There's no evidence of structural brain damage in
0:26:48 > 0:26:51the neurological examinations or neuroimaging.
0:26:51 > 0:26:53With his history of lying and everything that
0:26:53 > 0:26:59he stands to gain from exaggeration and fabrication of the symptoms,
0:26:59 > 0:27:02the amnesia has to be malingered.
0:27:03 > 0:27:06He's proved how dangerous he is.
0:27:06 > 0:27:07It has to be fake.
0:27:32 > 0:27:34It's not me.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35What?
0:27:37 > 0:27:40I look at my body and it's not me.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43It'll take a while to get used to, that's all.
0:28:02 > 0:28:06We've had a report, ma'am, from the Juvenile Offenders' Centre.
0:28:06 > 0:28:10It seems that Katie Benedetto has been self-harming.
0:28:10 > 0:28:12How?
0:28:12 > 0:28:14Cutting herself with a piece of bone.
0:28:14 > 0:28:16What?
0:28:16 > 0:28:19They think she must have found it in her food at some point.
0:28:20 > 0:28:21Jesus.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28'Is there a happy memory from any part of your life
0:28:28 > 0:28:30'that you can remember?'
0:28:39 > 0:28:43I used to think that there was a black hole inside me
0:28:43 > 0:28:45that nothing could fill.
0:28:47 > 0:28:49Then I had a daughter.
0:28:51 > 0:28:55I remember the first time that I put her to sleep.
0:28:56 > 0:29:00I was standing, holding her in my arms, rocking her.
0:29:02 > 0:29:04I was looking at her all the time.
0:29:05 > 0:29:07She was looking up at me.
0:29:09 > 0:29:14I began to feel that she trusted me, that she felt safe.
0:29:17 > 0:29:21She must have done because her eyelids started closing...
0:29:23 > 0:29:26..little by little, and then she was asleep.
0:29:31 > 0:29:33That's a good memory.
0:29:36 > 0:29:38Why did you attack Stella Gibson?
0:29:40 > 0:29:42Why did you break that young man's arm?
0:29:52 > 0:29:56There is a visible and an invisible world.
0:29:57 > 0:29:59That's why people get hurt.
0:30:09 > 0:30:11Do you think I'm treatable?
0:30:13 > 0:30:14Of course.
0:30:17 > 0:30:18Curable?
0:30:20 > 0:30:23Hmm, that's different.
0:30:33 > 0:30:36What would you do for me if I was your patient?
0:30:39 > 0:30:44Try to get you to pay attention wisely to things as they are.
0:30:46 > 0:30:49Foster clear thinking and open-heartedness.
0:30:51 > 0:30:55Try to develop the capacity in you to experience
0:30:55 > 0:30:58a feeling without necessarily acting on it.
0:30:59 > 0:31:03Try to enable you to see the difference between thoughts
0:31:03 > 0:31:04and reality.
0:31:10 > 0:31:13I'd imagine you're a good father.
0:31:13 > 0:31:15What do you mean by "good father"?
0:31:20 > 0:31:24Someone who is present, there for his children.
0:31:37 > 0:31:39Has anyone ever told you you sometimes have bad dreams
0:31:39 > 0:31:41that you can't remember?
0:31:41 > 0:31:44Has your mummy or your daddy ever told you that?
0:31:44 > 0:31:47Yes. Mummy took me to the doctor's one time.
0:31:48 > 0:31:51Have you had any bad dreams since you've been staying with
0:31:51 > 0:31:53- Joan and Stephen? - I don't think so.
0:31:54 > 0:31:56She hasn't. She's been sleeping well.
0:31:56 > 0:31:58Daddy said he had bad dreams like mine when
0:31:58 > 0:32:00he was in the children's home.
0:32:02 > 0:32:06Did he? Did he say what he dreamed about?
0:32:06 > 0:32:07Frightening things.
0:32:09 > 0:32:12How do you feel about your daddy right now, Olivia?
0:32:13 > 0:32:15I love him.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17But?
0:32:17 > 0:32:19I don't think I'll go see him for a while.
0:32:22 > 0:32:24How long do you think before you'll see him again?
0:32:24 > 0:32:27When I'm grown up I might. Or if I have a baby.
0:32:28 > 0:32:31If I have a baby, I might go take her to see him.
0:32:34 > 0:32:37What happened to your face?
0:32:37 > 0:32:38I was in a car accident.
0:32:41 > 0:32:43No, I wasn't.
0:32:46 > 0:32:48Paul Spector attacked me.
0:32:56 > 0:32:58I've got marks like that.
0:33:05 > 0:33:07Show me.
0:33:07 > 0:33:08I can't.
0:33:08 > 0:33:10Why?
0:33:10 > 0:33:14They're on my upper thighs and on the soles of my feet.
0:33:16 > 0:33:19I didn't want anyone to know, to see them.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22They were private.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26Why did you do it?
0:33:29 > 0:33:31I think for the same reason you do.
0:33:33 > 0:33:35What's that?
0:33:35 > 0:33:37Anger.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42What did you have to be angry about?
0:33:44 > 0:33:45My father.
0:33:49 > 0:33:50Why?
0:33:52 > 0:33:54He died.
0:33:57 > 0:33:58How?
0:34:00 > 0:34:02He was ill.
0:34:05 > 0:34:06How old were you?
0:34:07 > 0:34:0814.
0:34:15 > 0:34:17My father killed himself.
0:34:17 > 0:34:19I thought it was an accident.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24He chose to ride a motorbike.
0:34:25 > 0:34:28Even though I worried about him every time he went out...
0:34:30 > 0:34:32..every night he was late home.
0:34:37 > 0:34:39He loved the bike more than he loved me.
0:34:42 > 0:34:45Loved the thrill of speed more than he loved his only daughter.
0:34:47 > 0:34:49I don't call that an accident.
0:34:52 > 0:34:54Is that why you're throwing your life away?
0:34:57 > 0:34:59You know you can't get him back.
0:35:01 > 0:35:03No matter how hard you try.
0:35:29 > 0:35:34There was a man of double deed, Who sowed his garden full of seed;
0:35:36 > 0:35:41When the seed began to grow, 'Twas like a garden full of snow;
0:35:43 > 0:35:48When the snow began to melt, 'Twas like a ship without a belt;
0:35:49 > 0:35:55When the ship began to sail, 'Twas like a bird without a tail;
0:35:57 > 0:36:03When the bird began to fly, 'Twas like an eagle in the sky;
0:36:05 > 0:36:12When the sky began to roar, 'Twas like a lion at my door;
0:36:14 > 0:36:18When my door began to crack, 'Twas like a stick across my back;
0:36:21 > 0:36:28When my back began to smart, 'Twas like a penknife in my heart;
0:36:29 > 0:36:32And when my heart began to bleed...
0:36:35 > 0:36:42..'Twas death, and death, and death indeed.
0:37:05 > 0:37:07I need you to do me a favour.
0:37:11 > 0:37:15'STELLA: I know that everything feels tainted, polluted.'
0:37:16 > 0:37:17But it's not.
0:37:23 > 0:37:27We all have those voices in our heads, that tell us we're
0:37:27 > 0:37:31a disappointment, that tell us our work is insignificant.
0:37:33 > 0:37:36That it's not good enough, it takes too long, it's too hard.
0:37:38 > 0:37:43But when times are tough, we need tough dreams.
0:37:45 > 0:37:47But real dreams, not lies.
0:37:49 > 0:37:51Not an unreality like Paul.
0:37:56 > 0:38:01You need to fight for yourself, Katie, because right now...
0:38:03 > 0:38:04..you're in danger.
0:38:30 > 0:38:32What's this?
0:38:33 > 0:38:35It's your chocolate.
0:38:35 > 0:38:37I don't want that chocolate. I want what he's got.
0:38:37 > 0:38:40Mark, you're diabetic. That's your special chocolate.
0:38:40 > 0:38:43I don't like special chocolate. I want what he's got.
0:38:43 > 0:38:45This stuff tastes like dog chocolate.
0:38:45 > 0:38:47I'm not eating dog chocolate!
0:38:48 > 0:38:49I'm afraid it's this or nothing.
0:38:49 > 0:38:51Then give me my money back.
0:38:51 > 0:38:54I've spent your money on the things you asked for.
0:38:54 > 0:38:55I want my money back!
0:38:56 > 0:38:57Mark, calm yourself.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59I'm not a dog. I'm not eating that shit. I refuse.
0:38:59 > 0:39:02Calm down, Mark, or you'll be restrained.
0:39:02 > 0:39:04What did you say to me? You called me a homosexual!
0:39:04 > 0:39:06- I didn't call you anything! - You called me a homosexual!
0:39:06 > 0:39:07Calm down now!
0:39:07 > 0:39:09SHOUTING
0:39:17 > 0:39:19HUBBUB
0:39:37 > 0:39:39ALARM BLARES
0:39:49 > 0:39:51HE MOANS
0:40:14 > 0:40:19'STELLA: We all need love and we all need nurture.
0:40:20 > 0:40:22'There's too much death and destruction.'
0:40:22 > 0:40:25But friends who love you should...
0:40:27 > 0:40:29..warm you like the sun.
0:40:31 > 0:40:34Make you feel good about yourself.
0:40:34 > 0:40:38Not freeze you in their contempt and in their hate.
0:40:40 > 0:40:44Anger corrodes our belief that anything good can happen to us.
0:40:47 > 0:40:52Paul's been destroyed by his anger, his rage.
0:40:56 > 0:41:02And you, you hurt a friend, to impress him.
0:41:07 > 0:41:08But he doesn't care.
0:41:12 > 0:41:14He doesn't even know you exist.
0:41:27 > 0:41:30SHOUTING CONTINUES
0:41:50 > 0:41:52HE SCREAMS
0:41:57 > 0:41:59Watch his head, watch his head.
0:41:59 > 0:42:02And out, and out. Let's go! Let's go.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05Go, go, go!
0:42:07 > 0:42:10HE BANGS ON DOOR
0:42:16 > 0:42:20Fuck off! That's right, fuck the lot of you!
0:42:20 > 0:42:22Fuck off!
0:42:26 > 0:42:28HE CHOKES
0:42:57 > 0:42:59BREATHING STOPS
0:43:12 > 0:43:14You and I were loved so much...
0:43:16 > 0:43:18..even if our fathers couldn't stay around for us.
0:43:20 > 0:43:24Maybe we both need to be held while we grieve,
0:43:24 > 0:43:29but it has to be someone who can feel pain for our pain,
0:43:29 > 0:43:30not revel in it.
0:43:33 > 0:43:35Not someone who will abandon us.
0:44:54 > 0:44:57LABOURED BREATHS
0:45:09 > 0:45:10Sweet Jesus.
0:45:10 > 0:45:14Somebody call for an ambulance! Call an ambulance.
0:45:14 > 0:45:15Where's Spector?
0:45:17 > 0:45:18Where's Spector?!
0:45:46 > 0:45:49Check the treatment room! The de-escalation room!
0:45:49 > 0:45:50Check the kitchen!
0:46:08 > 0:46:10Shit!
0:46:10 > 0:46:11Bailey's room!
0:46:19 > 0:46:21Oh, God!
0:46:26 > 0:46:28Got him, got him.
0:46:28 > 0:46:31Quick. Mind his head, mind his head, mind his head.
0:46:33 > 0:46:35Get the belt, get the belt.
0:46:38 > 0:46:39Paul, Paul.
0:46:49 > 0:46:51PHONE RINGS I'm sorry.
0:46:54 > 0:46:55Gibson.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02OK.
0:47:02 > 0:47:04What is it?
0:47:06 > 0:47:08- I have to go.- What's happened?
0:47:08 > 0:47:10I can't tell you. I'm sorry.
0:47:10 > 0:47:12Is it Paul?
0:47:15 > 0:47:16Bye, Katie.
0:47:49 > 0:47:55Oh, God, Dr Larson, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
0:50:16 > 0:50:19Paul Spector, the man charged with the four recent murders
0:50:19 > 0:50:21in the Belfast area...
0:50:21 > 0:50:23was found dead last night in one of the bedrooms of
0:50:23 > 0:50:27the Foyle Clinic where he was undergoing psychiatric assessment.
0:50:29 > 0:50:33This morning, an inquiry was launched into how he had come to die
0:50:33 > 0:50:36whilst under level two observation by clinic staff.
0:50:37 > 0:50:42Spector, 32, was found dead at 9.31pm.
0:50:42 > 0:50:44While efforts were made to revive him,
0:50:44 > 0:50:46he was certified dead by doctors at 9.51pm.
0:50:48 > 0:50:50The Foyle Clinic's leading clinician
0:50:50 > 0:50:52was also injured during the incident.
0:50:52 > 0:50:55He is in hospital and in a stable condition.
0:50:55 > 0:50:58His injuries are not thought to be life-threatening.
0:50:58 > 0:51:02Another patient, Mark Bailey, 29, was killed.
0:51:02 > 0:51:05His family have been informed.
0:51:05 > 0:51:08An inquiry into his death is ongoing.
0:51:10 > 0:51:13I can confirm that the PSNI are not looking for anyone else
0:51:13 > 0:51:18in connection with the murders of Fiona Gallagher, Sarah Kay,
0:51:18 > 0:51:21Alice Parker Monroe or Joseph Brawley.
0:51:21 > 0:51:25An inquest will take place into each of those deaths.
0:51:25 > 0:51:29DCI Eastwood will oversee the preparation of those inquest files.
0:51:32 > 0:51:37In light of recent events, and as of today,
0:51:37 > 0:51:39I am standing down from my position
0:51:39 > 0:51:42as Gold Commander of Operation Musicman.
0:51:43 > 0:51:47In addition, the Chief Constable has accepted my resignation.
0:51:48 > 0:51:50I would like to take this opportunity to thank
0:51:50 > 0:51:53Detective Superintendent Gibson for all her hard work,
0:51:53 > 0:51:59her dedication to duty and her leadership during the investigation.
0:52:01 > 0:52:02Thank you.
0:52:12 > 0:52:14I'm sorry, sir.
0:53:10 > 0:53:11Take care, Dani.
0:53:14 > 0:53:16And you, ma'am.
0:53:46 > 0:53:50"In olden times, when wishing still did some good...
0:53:51 > 0:53:55"..there lived a king whose daughters were all beautiful.
0:53:56 > 0:54:01"But the youngest was so beautiful that the sun itself, who indeed
0:54:01 > 0:54:07"has seen so much, marvelled every time it shone upon her face.
0:54:08 > 0:54:12"In the vicinity of the King's castle there was a large,
0:54:12 > 0:54:15"dark forest and in this forest,
0:54:15 > 0:54:19"beneath an old linden tree, there was a well.
0:54:21 > 0:54:23"In the heat of the day,
0:54:23 > 0:54:27"the Princess would go out into the forest
0:54:27 > 0:54:30"and sit on the edge of the cool well.
0:54:30 > 0:54:35"To pass the time she would take a golden ball,
0:54:35 > 0:54:38"throw it into the air and then catch it.
0:54:39 > 0:54:41"It was her favourite plaything..."
0:55:29 > 0:55:31- Thank you.- Thank you.
0:55:54 > 0:55:59"As she was lying in bed, he came creeping up to her and said,
0:55:59 > 0:56:04"'I am tired and I want to sleep as well as you do.
0:56:04 > 0:56:06"'Pick me up or I'll tell your father.'
0:56:08 > 0:56:12"With that, she became bitterly angry and threw him against
0:56:12 > 0:56:14"the wall with all her might.
0:56:14 > 0:56:18"'Now you will have your peace, you disgusting frog!'"
0:56:20 > 0:56:23She's supposed to kiss him, not throw him against the wall.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27That's Disney.
0:56:27 > 0:56:29This is the real story.
0:56:32 > 0:56:36"But when he fell down, he was not a frog...
0:56:38 > 0:56:43"..but a prince with beautiful, friendly eyes."