0:00:02 > 0:00:03- 12 million!- 12.2.
0:00:03 > 0:00:05- Oh, my God.- That's what I said.
0:00:05 > 0:00:07I want a baby, I just think I could have picked my time a bit better.
0:00:07 > 0:00:10- She's not going anywhere. - You're irreplaceable.
0:00:10 > 0:00:12My daughter's ten now. I'm ready.
0:00:12 > 0:00:14Have you felt anything yet?
0:00:14 > 0:00:16Your position here is completely unassailable.
0:00:18 > 0:00:21We were thinking about pulling her start date forward a month or so.
0:00:21 > 0:00:24Just because you stayed at home for ten years doesn't mean I'm going to.
0:00:24 > 0:00:27She wants me out so she can take over!
0:00:27 > 0:00:30- I have to report it. - I will probably be suspended.
0:00:30 > 0:00:32I finally know what's been going on.
0:00:32 > 0:00:33CLANGING
0:00:33 > 0:00:35SCREAM THEN THUD
0:00:37 > 0:00:39SHE SHOUTS OUT
0:00:42 > 0:00:47This programme contains some strong language.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57SNUFFLING
0:02:09 > 0:02:11BABY SNUFFLES
0:02:11 > 0:02:13Hey, don't overdo it.
0:02:13 > 0:02:14Let her.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31How did it go?
0:02:31 > 0:02:32Well, I was fantastic.
0:02:34 > 0:02:36So much for a natural birth.
0:02:36 > 0:02:38Well, you held out a lot longer than I did.
0:02:38 > 0:02:41Only because she was waiting for updates from the police.
0:02:41 > 0:02:42Have they called?
0:02:42 > 0:02:44No.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00RINGING
0:03:01 > 0:03:05'This is the Vodafone voicemail service for 07...'
0:03:26 > 0:03:28So that's it? She jumped?
0:03:30 > 0:03:32This is bullshit! She would never do that!
0:03:32 > 0:03:35There's no evidence of any crime.
0:03:35 > 0:03:38So why would she call me over?
0:03:38 > 0:03:39Have you ever dealt with a jumper?
0:03:39 > 0:03:41They go back and forth.
0:03:41 > 0:03:44And when they fall, do they scream?
0:03:44 > 0:03:46Sometimes, yeah.
0:03:47 > 0:03:51There's no note. There's no reason.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55Two-thirds of suicides don't leave a note.
0:03:56 > 0:03:59So that's... You're just going to leave it at that?
0:04:00 > 0:04:02Where WAS Paula?
0:04:02 > 0:04:04With her husband.
0:04:04 > 0:04:06Oh, come on! That doesn't count.
0:04:06 > 0:04:09You don't accuse someone of murder just because you don't get on!
0:04:09 > 0:04:11That doesn't count, either.
0:04:11 > 0:04:12Who told you that?
0:04:12 > 0:04:14The office manager. The boss.
0:04:14 > 0:04:15The client.
0:04:22 > 0:04:25Is this how you want to spend her first days?
0:04:26 > 0:04:29I'm sorry about Kay - it's awful.
0:04:29 > 0:04:30You don't deal with it like this.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32It doesn't make any sense!
0:04:32 > 0:04:35Who says it has to make sense?
0:04:40 > 0:04:42It's suicide.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44It's a rabbit hole.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48You're not her family.
0:04:49 > 0:04:51We have a daughter.
0:04:53 > 0:04:55I want this to be about us now.
0:04:57 > 0:04:58It will be.
0:05:01 > 0:05:02It is.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04I'm sorry.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49DOORBELL RINGS
0:06:10 > 0:06:12What on earth was she doing up there?
0:06:15 > 0:06:16Oh, sorry, Ellen,
0:06:16 > 0:06:18I know you probably don't want to talk about it.
0:06:18 > 0:06:20You must feel terrible.
0:06:21 > 0:06:25I just can't sleep trying to work out why.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29Did you see anyone?
0:06:32 > 0:06:34No.
0:06:36 > 0:06:37Why did she call you?
0:06:40 > 0:06:42I don't know.
0:06:43 > 0:06:45I just can't believe it.
0:06:45 > 0:06:48After everything she did for me. Not just the job -
0:06:48 > 0:06:51I mean, she baby-sat for Caris,
0:06:51 > 0:06:52we had a spa booked...
0:06:52 > 0:06:55Hello! I thought we weren't doing visitors.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58Erm, Paula... this is my sister Rianne.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00- Paula from work?- Yeah.
0:07:00 > 0:07:01THE Paula?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- Hi, it's really nice to meet you. - And you.
0:07:03 > 0:07:04How is she?
0:07:07 > 0:07:09She's sleeping.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Oh - I promise, I won't breathe.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16Look, it's not a great time.
0:07:16 > 0:07:17No worries.
0:07:19 > 0:07:22Oh, bless you - you've had such a tricky birth.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24I mean, just because you missed the first few hours,
0:07:24 > 0:07:25it doesn't mean anything.
0:07:25 > 0:07:30There's so much rubbish talked about bonding when you have a C-section, but you did great.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33Anyway, no-one cares how she got here. Least of all her.
0:07:33 > 0:07:35Right, well, it was really lovely to meet you,
0:07:35 > 0:07:37and call if you need anything.
0:07:37 > 0:07:38Thanks very much for the flowers.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40That's all right. Bye.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47What is your problem? She's lovely.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Oh, my God!
0:07:52 > 0:07:53She is a monster, right?
0:07:53 > 0:07:55Oh, 24-carat.
0:07:55 > 0:07:56I love you.
0:07:59 > 0:08:03Would a normal mother be able to leave her baby for the first time without a qualm?
0:08:03 > 0:08:04Don't let Paula get to you.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07I'm not feeling anything.
0:08:07 > 0:08:08No, you will in a minute.
0:08:08 > 0:08:11If I was your obstetrician no way would you be out and about.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36Is there anything I can do?
0:08:36 > 0:08:38There will be.
0:08:38 > 0:08:39I'll let you know.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45We don't have to talk about it.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48She had no reason to be up there.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Maybe she heard something.
0:08:50 > 0:08:51Did she say that?
0:08:51 > 0:08:56No. But there was something she was upset about.
0:08:57 > 0:08:58Do you know what?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06She thought I was having an affair.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09I wasn't.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Who were you supposed to be having an affair with?
0:09:15 > 0:09:16Doesn't matter.
0:09:17 > 0:09:18We had a fight...
0:09:20 > 0:09:23..and that was the last time I saw her.
0:09:26 > 0:09:28Hey!
0:09:33 > 0:09:34Did she say anything to you?
0:09:34 > 0:09:35No.
0:09:35 > 0:09:40No! Listen, this was not about you. Don't ever think that.
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Listen, David, if Ian was having an affair,
0:09:45 > 0:09:48I would be devastated but I wouldn't kill myself.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50This is something else.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53I'd like to believe that.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55Maybe there was somebody else on that roof.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59Like, someone broke in, or...
0:10:00 > 0:10:03..or somebody else that had access.
0:10:04 > 0:10:06No, the police have been through all that.
0:10:06 > 0:10:07Are you sure?
0:10:07 > 0:10:09Ellen, what do you want me to do?
0:10:11 > 0:10:13David, I'm sor... I think I might have just burst my stitches,
0:10:13 > 0:10:16I'm just going to go and have a look.
0:11:54 > 0:11:56'We're here to remember the life of Kay Gillies.
0:11:56 > 0:12:01'A much-loved daughter, sister, wife and friend.'
0:12:01 > 0:12:06- BABY CRYING - This ceremony is an opportunity to celebrate Kay's life,
0:12:06 > 0:12:08as well as mourn her passing.
0:12:08 > 0:12:11The people we love make us more human.
0:12:11 > 0:12:13They become part of us...
0:12:13 > 0:12:15in our memories and hearts.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19Who have you lost?
0:12:19 > 0:12:20Kieran.
0:12:20 > 0:12:24- Our first tribute is given by one of Kay's closest colleagues and personal friends...- Shit, honey.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26..Ellen Rooney.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29I know on your programme it says Paula is giving this tribute,
0:12:29 > 0:12:31but we've decided...
0:12:31 > 0:12:32Am I right?
0:12:33 > 0:12:37..Ellen is the best person to mark this stage of the proceedings.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49When I started at university, Kay was the star graduate.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53She erm...
0:12:53 > 0:12:55she came back to mentor some of us.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58And then I introduced her to...
0:12:59 > 0:13:01..to one of my tutors.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08I warned David that Kay was unusual
0:13:08 > 0:13:11because she only worked 25 hours a day, eight days a week.
0:13:13 > 0:13:16She always said she never believed in Sundays.
0:13:17 > 0:13:19No such thing as a day of rest.
0:13:44 > 0:13:46I think we can all agree
0:13:46 > 0:13:50Kay was a very special woman, who we will all miss dearly.
0:13:58 > 0:14:00Take care of her, you.
0:14:00 > 0:14:01I'll do my best.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06See if you can twist her arm to bring the baby in,
0:14:06 > 0:14:08we're still waiting for the royal visit.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10How's Kieran?
0:14:11 > 0:14:13Yeah, he's fine.
0:14:14 > 0:14:16He wanted to come, but Caris is poorly.
0:14:29 > 0:14:32We're not going to have trouble bonding, are we?
0:14:33 > 0:14:35No, we're not.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38We're going to bond by going on little outings together.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41We're going to bond by finding out whether Paula was really with
0:14:41 > 0:14:45her husband that night, or whether someone's telling porkies.
0:14:59 > 0:15:00- Ready? - SHE STARTS ENGINE
0:15:17 > 0:15:18Shall we have a little break?
0:15:19 > 0:15:23Shall we pretend to phone your daddy? Let's do that.
0:15:34 > 0:15:36INAUDIBLE
0:15:37 > 0:15:42Oh, it's a shame Paula's working. She popped by, actually, to see Lia, but I was too out of it.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45Oh, I'm...sure she can nip out for an hour or so.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48Oh, no, no, no - don't bother her. I can't stay that long, anyway.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51I'll swing by again, It's not like I'm busy.
0:15:51 > 0:15:52How's she coping?
0:15:54 > 0:15:57Same as everyone else, you know. Total shock.
0:15:58 > 0:16:02But you were right there - you've had it worse.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04I don't know.
0:16:04 > 0:16:08I'm wondering if it's...harder if you DON'T witness it.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11It makes it harder to sink in, maybe.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12Where were you?
0:16:15 > 0:16:16When it happened?
0:16:16 > 0:16:18Oh, no, no, no - when you were told.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20- At home.- Hm.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23Yeah, we were at home all evening.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25With Caris?
0:16:28 > 0:16:29No, she wasn't.
0:16:29 > 0:16:32She was...
0:16:32 > 0:16:34on a...a sleepover thing.
0:16:39 > 0:16:42You should have brought more stuff with you, Mum!
0:16:43 > 0:16:44Hi!
0:16:44 > 0:16:46Hello!
0:16:49 > 0:16:52I thought you might need me a bit longer after the operation.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54It's called a cry for help.
0:16:54 > 0:16:58Ian! Have you been putting the wind up your mother?
0:16:59 > 0:17:01Here you go - here she is.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04Oh, hello! Hello, you!
0:17:07 > 0:17:10She's not a psychiatrist. She's a psychotherapist.
0:17:10 > 0:17:13Jesus, between the two of them you might as well be in the funny farm.
0:17:13 > 0:17:15- I know.- What's a funny farm?
0:17:16 > 0:17:20A funny farm is where you go when you do funny things.
0:17:21 > 0:17:24Or...people THINK you're being funny
0:17:24 > 0:17:27but actually you're being completely serious.
0:18:43 > 0:18:46When I say that we're managing without you,
0:18:46 > 0:18:50I don't want you to think that we're not missing you to bits.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52I don't want you to put yourself under any pressure
0:18:52 > 0:18:55to come back this early just because of...
0:18:55 > 0:18:56Kay.
0:18:56 > 0:18:58I want to be here.
0:18:58 > 0:19:00Sleep on it - that's all I'm asking.
0:19:02 > 0:19:07Well, now that I AM here, can I catch up with a few things or are you literally chucking me out?
0:19:12 > 0:19:14I can use the meeting room.
0:19:14 > 0:19:17Use Kay's, and don't make a thing of it.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20OK.
0:19:27 > 0:19:29- FOOTSTEPS - Hi.
0:19:33 > 0:19:35Kieran said she's gorgeous.
0:19:36 > 0:19:38Well, I'm not going to argue with that.
0:19:38 > 0:19:40Have you got any photos?
0:19:40 > 0:19:41Only about eleven hundred.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46There she is.
0:19:46 > 0:19:47Oh!
0:19:50 > 0:19:52- Aw! She's got your nose.- Yeah.
0:19:52 > 0:19:54Caris looks nothing like me.
0:19:54 > 0:19:56Oh, I'd love to meet her some time.
0:19:56 > 0:19:57Yeah, I'd love that.
0:19:57 > 0:20:01Well, why don't I bring Lia over and we can have a family dinner?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05God, listen to me, just inviting myself round!
0:20:05 > 0:20:08No, we-we... I'd love that - we should definitely do that.
0:20:08 > 0:20:09Well, shoot me some dates.
0:20:09 > 0:20:10Great, I will.
0:20:10 > 0:20:11OK.
0:21:27 > 0:21:28BABY CRYING
0:21:31 > 0:21:33Ssh!
0:21:33 > 0:21:35PHONE RINGS
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Hiya.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39'Where the fuck ARE you?'
0:21:39 > 0:21:41I'm at work. What's the problem?
0:21:41 > 0:21:42I'll give you a clue.
0:21:42 > 0:21:45CRYING
0:21:45 > 0:21:46Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Well, look in the freezer. I pumped gallons.
0:21:58 > 0:22:00She's not interested.
0:22:00 > 0:22:01I'll be home in an hour.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03Oh, great! I'll tell HER that.
0:22:03 > 0:22:05Mummy's in the freezer.
0:22:24 > 0:22:25Her phone?
0:22:25 > 0:22:27Yeah - did you keep it?
0:22:27 > 0:22:29Wh-Why would you want Kay's phone?
0:22:29 > 0:22:31Because there might be something on it.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34You know, I don't know what makes you think that you've got
0:22:34 > 0:22:36more of a right to be upset about this than I have.
0:22:36 > 0:22:38Kay thought you were having an affair. Was it with Paula?
0:22:40 > 0:22:42Look, I don't think you were having an affair,
0:22:42 > 0:22:45I don't believe you even entertained the notion of having an affair -
0:22:45 > 0:22:47but that she lives in hope, that I can believe.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49You mean, I gave her enough encouragement
0:22:49 > 0:22:50to push my wife off a roof.
0:22:50 > 0:22:53If you're so sure there's nothing dodgy, just let me see Kay's phone
0:22:53 > 0:22:58- and if there's nothing on it, I won't bother you again. - That's a deal. Great, let's do it.
0:23:10 > 0:23:13Right. Password for you, you're sorted...
0:23:15 > 0:23:18Have a good root round and let me know when you're done!
0:24:04 > 0:24:08I know you're doing this because you love her, but will you stop now?
0:24:14 > 0:24:16Can I ask one question?
0:24:20 > 0:24:23Do you know someone called Georgia?
0:24:23 > 0:24:25Someone else I'm screwing?
0:24:26 > 0:24:28I never thought that was the reason.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30As long as Paula did it.
0:24:30 > 0:24:32What was she doing here before?
0:24:34 > 0:24:36It was the first time she's been over.
0:24:36 > 0:24:37That's not true, David.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42I saw her lipstick upstairs when I was here before.
0:24:42 > 0:24:43Maybe Kay borrowed it.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46Women don't do that.
0:24:46 > 0:24:47Oh, do they not?
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Do they not give presents, either?
0:24:49 > 0:24:51You used to give Kay shit all the time.
0:24:52 > 0:24:55Why the fuck are we even discussing this? Just please go home, Ellen.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00Just go home.
0:25:36 > 0:25:38DOOR OPENS
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Hi.
0:25:41 > 0:25:44Did she settle?
0:25:44 > 0:25:48I'm afraid he called Lucy, so he knows when you left the office.
0:25:50 > 0:25:51Right.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53You feel she was pushed?
0:25:53 > 0:25:54It's more than a feeling.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56By the woman who replaced you?
0:25:56 > 0:25:58I know. I have factored that in.
0:25:58 > 0:26:01Have you tried talking to her?
0:26:01 > 0:26:05That might work in group, but it's not a good recipe for the office.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08You don't have to accuse her of anything - just get to know her.
0:26:10 > 0:26:12The more you talk to someone who's disturbed,
0:26:12 > 0:26:14the more they reveal themselves.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29No bonding with Grandma, OK?
0:26:41 > 0:26:43Are you pretending to be asleep?
0:26:43 > 0:26:45I'm pretending to be a parent.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49You leave at eight in the morning and you're back at midnight.
0:26:54 > 0:26:57You just had a baby - by fucking Caesarian.
0:26:57 > 0:27:00Yeah, you don't need to remind me, I'm the one on the painkillers.
0:27:01 > 0:27:02Where were you?
0:27:05 > 0:27:08He just lost his wife. I'm not going to apologise for being there.
0:27:11 > 0:27:15Did it never occur to you that Lia might need YOU, not just your milk?
0:29:33 > 0:29:34- KNOCK AT DOOR - Hi.
0:29:36 > 0:29:40I wanted to say sorry to you for the way I behaved towards you.
0:29:42 > 0:29:44Honestly, I totally understand.
0:29:44 > 0:29:47I invaded your space, your relationships - I'd be freaking out.
0:29:48 > 0:29:51Well, you kept this place going, so thank you.
0:30:05 > 0:30:06Thanks.
0:30:17 > 0:30:19LAUGHTER AND CHATTER
0:30:20 > 0:30:22PHONE RINGS
0:31:39 > 0:31:41Hey!
0:31:41 > 0:31:42Surprise!
0:31:44 > 0:31:45Hi.
0:31:46 > 0:31:48Hi!
0:31:48 > 0:31:51I don't think we've been properly introduced.
0:31:51 > 0:31:53I saw you outside once, you looked like you were having a bit of a bad day.
0:31:53 > 0:31:56Someone gave me a terrible haircut.
0:31:56 > 0:31:58Oh, bad hair day. That is the worst.
0:31:58 > 0:32:00It's looking good now, though.
0:32:00 > 0:32:01Is this your office?
0:32:01 > 0:32:03No, sweetheart, I'm just minding it.
0:32:03 > 0:32:05Did you need something?
0:32:05 > 0:32:06Oh, just these.
0:32:08 > 0:32:10Have you been to an architect's office before?
0:32:11 > 0:32:13Do you want a little tour?
0:32:13 > 0:32:15I have to go to the dentist.
0:32:16 > 0:32:20I can show you some of the models of the things we're going to build. It'll only take two seconds.
0:32:24 > 0:32:26No.
0:32:27 > 0:32:30Work's not as interesting as we think, is it?
0:32:30 > 0:32:31So when are you bringing Lia in?
0:32:31 > 0:32:32- Tomorrow.- Well, I should hope so,
0:32:32 > 0:32:35I never thought you'd meet mine before I met yours.
0:32:37 > 0:32:39Right, come on. I'll see you in a bit.
0:32:39 > 0:32:40Bye.
0:32:51 > 0:32:53PHONE RINGING OUT
0:32:53 > 0:32:54WOMAN: 'Hello?'
0:32:54 > 0:32:56Hi, am I speaking to Georgia?
0:32:57 > 0:32:59'Who's this?'
0:32:59 > 0:33:02My name's Ellen. I got your number from a colleague - she said
0:33:02 > 0:33:05you might be prepared to talk to me about an architectural project.
0:33:05 > 0:33:07'Who's your colleague?'
0:33:07 > 0:33:09Kay.
0:33:09 > 0:33:13'She called up a few weeks ago and never followed up, though.'
0:33:13 > 0:33:15I would love to follow up on her behalf.
0:33:15 > 0:33:17Do you have a window in the next couple of days?
0:33:18 > 0:33:22'I've got your number, so I'll check my diary.'
0:33:22 > 0:33:23Fantastic. Fantastic.
0:33:23 > 0:33:26It would be great if you had some time this week.
0:33:26 > 0:33:28'What's the project?'
0:33:28 > 0:33:30Er, it's...actually a little bit sensitive,
0:33:30 > 0:33:33I'd rather talk about it in person if that's OK.
0:33:33 > 0:33:35'OK. And what's your practice again?'
0:33:35 > 0:33:37Gillies Warnock Partners.
0:33:37 > 0:33:40'OK. I'll be in touch. Ellen...'
0:33:40 > 0:33:42Rooney.
0:33:42 > 0:33:43Thank you. Thanks so much.
0:33:43 > 0:33:45- 'No worries. Bye.'- Bye.
0:33:55 > 0:33:59If you're taking her in, I'm going to escape till tomorrow night.
0:33:59 > 0:34:01Well, I really appreciate your help.
0:34:01 > 0:34:05I've had some good chats with Paula, we're getting on much better.
0:34:05 > 0:34:08Keep your enemies close wasn't what I meant.
0:34:08 > 0:34:09You don't want me be honest -
0:34:09 > 0:34:11you want me to pretend everything's fine.
0:34:11 > 0:34:13Pretend better.
0:34:13 > 0:34:14Ian's worried about you.
0:34:14 > 0:34:16Because you told him to be.
0:34:16 > 0:34:19I haven't said a word of what you discussed with me,
0:34:19 > 0:34:23much as you might have liked me to. But he's not stupid,
0:34:23 > 0:34:24so don't treat him like he is.
0:34:27 > 0:34:30So, you any closer to proving Paula did it?
0:34:32 > 0:34:34After you promised me you'd stop.
0:34:34 > 0:34:35I never promised anything.
0:34:35 > 0:34:38I think you'll find that was all in your head.
0:34:38 > 0:34:40I said I wanted this to be about us.
0:34:40 > 0:34:42You two are the most important thing in my world,
0:34:42 > 0:34:45but you are not the whole world.
0:34:45 > 0:34:47Any reason why she might have done it?
0:34:47 > 0:34:48She's got a crush on David.
0:34:49 > 0:34:51And what's the evidence for that?
0:34:51 > 0:34:54How about if I take the rest of the week off?
0:34:54 > 0:34:55BEEP
0:35:05 > 0:35:07Rest of the week after tomorrow.
0:35:18 > 0:35:19Hey, who's this?
0:35:23 > 0:35:25Aww!
0:35:25 > 0:35:27Yeah, this is Mummy's office.
0:35:27 > 0:35:30Oh, my God, she's so beautiful.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32It's a lot of people, isn't it?
0:35:32 > 0:35:34Aw, let's have a look.
0:35:34 > 0:35:36Aw, Lia!
0:35:40 > 0:35:41Can I?
0:35:43 > 0:35:45Come on.
0:35:49 > 0:35:51Hello!
0:35:51 > 0:35:52Careful.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54Hello.
0:35:56 > 0:36:00Oh, that's it, yes! Yes, treasure.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02What I wouldn't give to start over.
0:36:04 > 0:36:07Hello. Hello...
0:36:14 > 0:36:15Oh!
0:36:20 > 0:36:22Yeah, bring her into the office -
0:36:22 > 0:36:25won't cause any disruption, no-one'll make a big deal(!)
0:36:29 > 0:36:30Are you thirsty?
0:36:30 > 0:36:32You thirsty?
0:36:32 > 0:36:33- Yes, yes, you are.- Shall I take her?
0:36:33 > 0:36:34Yes, you are.
0:36:36 > 0:36:37- There you go.- I've got you.
0:36:37 > 0:36:38Yeah, she needs a drink.
0:36:41 > 0:36:42Let me have a look at her.
0:36:44 > 0:36:46Goodness gracious me. She's beautiful.
0:36:46 > 0:36:48She's like, "What's that up there?"
0:37:38 > 0:37:41Guys, come on. Sign's up - tits out, it's not rocket science.
0:37:41 > 0:37:43Vernon, what are you doing in here?
0:37:43 > 0:37:44You texted me to come in.
0:37:44 > 0:37:47No, I said use MY office, this is Ellen's space now.
0:37:47 > 0:37:50Sorry, Vernon.
0:37:50 > 0:37:52Sorry, Ellen.
0:38:01 > 0:38:05Sorry, Vernon - that's not usually how I greet a client after a three-month break.
0:38:05 > 0:38:06How are you?
0:38:06 > 0:38:09Me and Vernon had a bet. He was September, I was mid-October.
0:38:10 > 0:38:12Well - here I am in June, so I win.
0:38:12 > 0:38:15LIA CRIES
0:38:23 > 0:38:25CRYING CONTINUES
0:38:27 > 0:38:29She's actually had plenty.
0:38:29 > 0:38:31I was nearly finished anyway, I'm about to head to a meeting.
0:38:31 > 0:38:34SHE tells you when she's finished, doesn't she?
0:38:34 > 0:38:36Trust a man to tell us how to do babies.
0:38:36 > 0:38:38She has to learn how to self-soothe.
0:38:38 > 0:38:40What, at four weeks?
0:38:40 > 0:38:41She'll settle in a minute.
0:38:42 > 0:38:44Project looks like it's in really good shape.
0:38:47 > 0:38:49CRYING CONTINUES
0:38:51 > 0:38:53She sounds like my investors.
0:39:31 > 0:39:33INAUDIBLE
0:39:46 > 0:39:50So - how do you feel about...a promotion?
0:39:53 > 0:39:56I need someone to look at the bigger picture and I can't do it on my own.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00You want me to take over from Kay?
0:40:01 > 0:40:05Well, that's not quite how I'D put it, but...yeah.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07What about the library?
0:40:07 > 0:40:09Paula's handling it.
0:40:10 > 0:40:13Vernon has got used to her, that's all.
0:40:13 > 0:40:15The library means something to me.
0:40:16 > 0:40:17Me too.
0:40:19 > 0:40:20Sorry.
0:40:21 > 0:40:22So we're fine.
0:40:22 > 0:40:25I've got a meeting - can I go?
0:40:25 > 0:40:26Who with?
0:40:26 > 0:40:27Jarman McCreadie. I'm late.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40Have I told you I love you today?
0:40:40 > 0:40:42Mm?
0:40:42 > 0:40:43Sweet girl.
0:40:54 > 0:40:55Hi.
0:40:55 > 0:40:59Did Ellen say where she was going for lunch? I need her to sign something.
0:41:01 > 0:41:02Someone out of Jarman McCreadie.
0:41:05 > 0:41:08I thought they'd closed. Must be someone looking for a job.
0:41:08 > 0:41:10Do you know them?
0:41:10 > 0:41:12I did a bit of work a couple of years ago for them.
0:41:12 > 0:41:15- It's fine. I'll see if I can catch her.- OK.
0:41:34 > 0:41:36PHONE RINGS
0:41:39 > 0:41:41RINGING STOPS
0:41:53 > 0:41:55Georgia!
0:42:00 > 0:42:02Georgia!
0:42:03 > 0:42:04Wait!
0:42:06 > 0:42:08Hey!
0:42:08 > 0:42:10Can you not harass me, please?
0:42:10 > 0:42:12I just want to ask you a couple of questions.
0:42:14 > 0:42:17You said you wanted to talk about a project.
0:42:17 > 0:42:19Did Paula just call and warn you off?
0:42:31 > 0:42:32LIA CRIES
0:42:50 > 0:42:52If you try this again,
0:42:52 > 0:42:54I will contact your employer.
0:42:54 > 0:42:56I cannot talk to you.
0:42:57 > 0:43:00I just want to know what you were going to tell Kay.
0:43:00 > 0:43:03I don't KNOW any Kay and I don't know you.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05Please don't contact me again.
0:43:15 > 0:43:17LIA SCREAMS
0:43:17 > 0:43:18Oh, God, I'm sorry...
0:43:18 > 0:43:22I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
0:43:22 > 0:43:24I'm terribly sorry!
0:43:24 > 0:43:27I'll sort you out of this.
0:43:27 > 0:43:29Ssh...
0:43:48 > 0:43:50INAUDIBLE
0:44:00 > 0:44:03Hey. Congratulations.
0:44:04 > 0:44:07I think I've probably got you to thank.
0:44:08 > 0:44:11Kay would be really proud of you.
0:44:11 > 0:44:13Well, shall we celebrate?
0:44:13 > 0:44:15Yeah.
0:44:16 > 0:44:19Your place? My place?
0:44:21 > 0:44:23Probably easier to do it at yours.
0:44:23 > 0:44:26I wouldn't mind a night out, actually.
0:44:26 > 0:44:28Forgotten what it feels like!
0:44:30 > 0:44:32I'd love to meet Caris properly.
0:44:34 > 0:44:36Yeah, great.
0:44:37 > 0:44:38So...
0:44:39 > 0:44:41Friday?
0:44:41 > 0:44:42Great.
0:44:44 > 0:44:46Snoring.
0:46:03 > 0:46:05You left her in a locked car.
0:46:07 > 0:46:10Oh, God... I did, I know.
0:46:11 > 0:46:12It was for one minute, though.
0:46:12 > 0:46:14- I know that's too long...- Ten. - ..but I swear it...
0:46:14 > 0:46:15What?
0:46:15 > 0:46:17It was ten minutes.
0:46:17 > 0:46:20That's... Where are you getting that from? That's a lie.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23That is a lie. I would NEVER do that.
0:46:23 > 0:46:25Maybe it just felt like a couple of minutes.
0:46:25 > 0:46:26Who took this?
0:46:26 > 0:46:28Police wouldn't say.
0:46:28 > 0:46:30- It's Paula.- What - again?
0:46:30 > 0:46:33And did she make you leave our one-month-old baby in a locked car?
0:46:33 > 0:46:36It was for one minute, Ian - it wasn't ten!
0:46:36 > 0:46:38This is her word against mine now,
0:46:38 > 0:46:41they can't just prosecute me on her say-so. We've got history.
0:46:41 > 0:46:42No, Ellen, you've got history.
0:46:43 > 0:46:47False accusations. Mental health history. Don't go there.
0:46:49 > 0:46:52We now have to figure out how to play social services.
0:46:52 > 0:46:54Yeah.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57And if you contradict them, you'll make it worse.
0:46:57 > 0:47:00No! No, I am not going to admit to something that I didn't do.
0:47:00 > 0:47:01There are two witnesses.
0:47:03 > 0:47:05It's Georgia! They know each other!
0:47:05 > 0:47:07Just listen to me!
0:47:08 > 0:47:11You left her in a locked car.
0:47:12 > 0:47:15Whether it was one minute, or five minutes, or 20 minutes,
0:47:15 > 0:47:18just...take responsibility.
0:47:21 > 0:47:24If you come out with any of this... conspiracy talk in front of them
0:47:24 > 0:47:29you mi...you might as well just hand our daughter over.
0:47:29 > 0:47:32- Are you hearing me?- Yeah.
0:47:32 > 0:47:34Now, we have to work together on this.
0:47:34 > 0:47:36Just tell me what to say, I'll say anything.
0:47:36 > 0:47:39I'll give you some talking points.
0:47:39 > 0:47:43You need to be careful, they know I'm a psychiatrist, and they weren't born yesterday.
0:47:43 > 0:47:44OK.
0:47:44 > 0:47:45- Yeah?- Yeah.
0:47:57 > 0:48:01Why do you think you left Lia crying inside a locked car for ten minutes?
0:48:02 > 0:48:05Yeah, I understand what you're saying.
0:48:05 > 0:48:08I think I've been trying to blame everyone except myself,
0:48:08 > 0:48:09but actually it's...
0:48:11 > 0:48:13..it's about me, and my relationship with Lia...
0:48:14 > 0:48:17..my relationship with myself.
0:48:20 > 0:48:22After my mother died, I got depressed.
0:48:22 > 0:48:24I had some therapy.
0:48:24 > 0:48:26That's how I met my husband, and
0:48:26 > 0:48:30he helped me understand some things about my family dynamic.
0:48:31 > 0:48:32Erm...
0:48:32 > 0:48:37Some of those issues resurfaced after the baby was born, and...
0:48:37 > 0:48:40the death of my mentor figure at work.
0:48:41 > 0:48:44I've just been projecting my own fears.
0:48:44 > 0:48:47But I think that now I'm able to talk about it and...
0:48:47 > 0:48:50and name it, I feel really sure it won't ever happen again.
0:48:51 > 0:48:53Let's talk some more about what was on your mind
0:48:53 > 0:48:55when you left her in the car.
0:49:01 > 0:49:03So what happens next?
0:49:03 > 0:49:06They'll put together a support package.
0:49:06 > 0:49:08Random checks.
0:49:09 > 0:49:12You can't afford to make any more mistakes. You're on probation.
0:49:15 > 0:49:16With you too?
0:49:18 > 0:49:19You did well.
0:49:23 > 0:49:24Do you still love me?
0:49:24 > 0:49:25Yes!
0:49:30 > 0:49:32Do we still have to go to Paula's?
0:49:35 > 0:49:38It's going to look terrible if we don't now, isn't it?
0:49:38 > 0:49:41I've just made a big show of how I'm over it.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44Let's do it.
0:49:44 > 0:49:46Let's just do it.
0:50:02 > 0:50:04Yeah, it's pretty much how we bought it.
0:50:04 > 0:50:07We had lots of plans, but life gets in the way.
0:50:07 > 0:50:09- Wow - it's an amazing space, though. - Oh, thank you.
0:50:09 > 0:50:11Where's Caris this evening?
0:50:11 > 0:50:13Oh, she's at a sleepover.
0:50:13 > 0:50:14Oh, that's a shame.
0:50:14 > 0:50:16- Hello, how you doing? - Nice to see you.
0:50:16 > 0:50:19- How you doing, Kieran?- Hey, man.
0:50:19 > 0:50:20I'm sorry about Kay.
0:50:22 > 0:50:24Well, we won't talk about that just now, eh?
0:50:24 > 0:50:27We're celebrating a promotion.
0:50:27 > 0:50:29I've got an idea, let's ban all work talk - how about that?
0:50:29 > 0:50:30100%.
0:50:30 > 0:50:32OK. No work, no babies.
0:50:32 > 0:50:34Oh, that's not fair!
0:50:39 > 0:50:42So is Caris going to be an architect when SHE grows up?
0:50:42 > 0:50:43No.
0:50:43 > 0:50:46No? What is she into, then?
0:50:46 > 0:50:48Sports, mainly.
0:50:48 > 0:50:50Oh, cool - which ones?
0:50:50 > 0:50:53You said no babies - this was your rule.
0:50:54 > 0:50:56Oh - who's Georgia?
0:50:59 > 0:51:02She called the office the other day, I think it was Georgia.
0:51:02 > 0:51:04I think she used to work for Jarman McCreadie -
0:51:04 > 0:51:06you did a little stint there, didn't you?
0:51:06 > 0:51:09Yeah. Two or three years ago.
0:51:10 > 0:51:11What did she want?
0:51:11 > 0:51:13Oh, I don't know.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15I was just in your office and I picked up.
0:51:17 > 0:51:18We said no work.
0:51:20 > 0:51:22YOU said. This is social.
0:51:22 > 0:51:24Sorry, I forgot to pass the message on.
0:51:24 > 0:51:27It's fine. I'm sure I've got her number.
0:51:27 > 0:51:28She said you did, yep.
0:51:28 > 0:51:31They shut down, didn't they?
0:51:31 > 0:51:33Ian, do you get bored of
0:51:33 > 0:51:36people asking you for medical advice at dinner parties?
0:51:38 > 0:51:41No, it's all right.
0:51:41 > 0:51:42Try me.
0:51:44 > 0:51:46Well, it's not me, it's...
0:51:46 > 0:51:48someone I know.
0:51:48 > 0:51:50Right.
0:51:50 > 0:51:54Yeah, he's happily married except she's got these...
0:51:55 > 0:51:58..I guess you'd call them mental health issues.
0:51:59 > 0:52:01But they won't see anyone, so
0:52:01 > 0:52:04how do you persuade someone that they need help?
0:52:08 > 0:52:11Well, "mental health issues" er...
0:52:11 > 0:52:14covers a pretty broad spectrum.
0:52:17 > 0:52:20Well, someone who has a problem accepting reality.
0:52:22 > 0:52:25Well, what's so great about reality? As long as they're not hurting anyone.
0:52:25 > 0:52:27Well, she's hurting HERSELF.
0:52:27 > 0:52:29I'm sure she's the best judge of that.
0:52:30 > 0:52:32I actually know exactly what you mean.
0:52:33 > 0:52:37I've had it up to here with people telling me the reality of being a mother.
0:52:42 > 0:52:44Well, I'd love to help, but erm...
0:52:44 > 0:52:48alcohol and mental health issues, they don't really mix.
0:52:53 > 0:52:54Are we done here?
0:52:54 > 0:52:58Something's off, don't tell me you can't feel it. They're hiding her.
0:53:01 > 0:53:02Let's just get out of here.
0:53:02 > 0:53:05I'm...I'm sorry, Paula, I think we're going to have to go.
0:53:05 > 0:53:09I've just got a text, and Lia's playing up. I'm really sorry.
0:53:09 > 0:53:11Don't be silly. Just go.
0:53:12 > 0:53:15You go. I'll...I'll stay.
0:53:19 > 0:53:22I've had three-quarters of a bottle of wine.
0:53:22 > 0:53:24It's fine - Kieran'll take you.
0:53:26 > 0:53:27This is ridiculous.
0:53:27 > 0:53:30It's fine. Just go.
0:53:30 > 0:53:32- I don't think we should leave these two alone.- No.
0:53:32 > 0:53:34If it's not now, it'll just be some other time.
0:53:34 > 0:53:37Yeah. May as well be now.
0:53:39 > 0:53:41(Just go.)
0:54:03 > 0:54:05Why won't you just leave me alone?
0:54:08 > 0:54:11Says the woman that reported me to social services.
0:54:15 > 0:54:18If you're not even going to admit that, what's there to talk about?
0:54:19 > 0:54:22Why would I kill her?
0:54:22 > 0:54:23David.
0:54:25 > 0:54:28I'm not the one in love with him.
0:54:28 > 0:54:33OK - sooner or later, I'm going to get to Georgia,
0:54:33 > 0:54:35and I'm going to find out what you're hiding.
0:54:35 > 0:54:37Ellen...
0:54:37 > 0:54:40I'm asking you,
0:54:40 > 0:54:42from one mother to another...
0:54:44 > 0:54:47..leave it alone.
0:54:47 > 0:54:49If she won't talk to me, Paula, someone will.
0:54:51 > 0:54:54Maybe your Kieran. He had a bit of a wobble tonight, didn't he?
0:54:54 > 0:54:56Or shall I just get someone to ask Caris straight out
0:54:56 > 0:54:59whether you were here the night that Kay died?
0:54:59 > 0:55:02She knows something. Where is she?
0:55:04 > 0:55:07If motherhood is the highlight of your life,
0:55:07 > 0:55:10why aren't you the proud parent showing her off?
0:55:16 > 0:55:19Do you remember when I touched you, and I felt your baby?
0:55:19 > 0:55:21Yeah.
0:55:22 > 0:55:24You didn't like it, did you?
0:55:24 > 0:55:26No.
0:55:26 > 0:55:27Because you felt violated.
0:55:27 > 0:55:29- Yeah.- Because it's not public property.
0:55:29 > 0:55:32- What's your point? - What you're doing to me
0:55:32 > 0:55:33is exactly the same.
0:55:34 > 0:55:36It's none of your business.
0:55:36 > 0:55:40I have no idea... I am just asking you where your daughter is.
0:55:51 > 0:55:52Fine.
0:55:59 > 0:56:00You win.
0:56:05 > 0:56:07You think she was involved in Kay's death?
0:56:07 > 0:56:09Was she with you the night that it happened?
0:56:09 > 0:56:10I thought this was about Kay.
0:56:10 > 0:56:12But now it's something that you have to do for him?
0:56:12 > 0:56:15Do you believe that Kay knew this and didn't tell you?
0:56:15 > 0:56:17That's between me and my dead wife.
0:56:17 > 0:56:21You need to have a think about who should be at the centre of your life. Not Kay, not me and not you!
0:56:21 > 0:56:23Stay away from her.
0:56:23 > 0:56:26I would. If she would stay away from me.
0:56:26 > 0:56:28You and Kay, you're just the same - selfish.
0:56:28 > 0:56:30Is that why you killed her?
0:56:30 > 0:56:34You show me a photograph of my dead wife, in front of her memorial.
0:56:34 > 0:56:37Is that supposed to convince me that you haven't lost it?
0:56:37 > 0:56:39When you accept you've got a problem and start addressing it,
0:56:39 > 0:56:42THEN we can have a conversation about Lia.
0:56:42 > 0:56:46All I want is to see her! I have to see her. I'm going to lose my mind.
0:56:46 > 0:56:48She needs a mother, Ellen.