0:00:02 > 0:00:04I wanted to chase up a reference. A Dr Alison Sutton.
0:00:04 > 0:00:08This programme contains some strong language and some scenes which some viewers may find disturbing.
0:00:08 > 0:00:10I want to take you somewhere. Just you, me and Molly.
0:00:10 > 0:00:13I think we need to be honest with each other, don't you?
0:00:13 > 0:00:14Cath!
0:00:16 > 0:00:17I know who you are.
0:00:17 > 0:00:20Dr Alison Sutton left for a sheep farm in New Zealand
0:00:20 > 0:00:22six months ago.
0:00:22 > 0:00:26She had everything I didn't have and she was throwing it all away.
0:00:26 > 0:00:27I took it.
0:00:27 > 0:00:30You're a good doctor, the best we've had.
0:00:30 > 0:00:33Come home with me. I want you in my life.
0:00:33 > 0:00:35- I can protect you.- OK.
0:00:37 > 0:00:40Come here. You take care of yourself, pet.
0:00:40 > 0:00:43We got a delivery. In Edinburgh. You've got the job.
0:00:43 > 0:00:44Cath told me that she'd moved away
0:00:44 > 0:00:47- because you got physical with her.- That's not true.
0:00:47 > 0:00:49Paul here is a fully-trained HCA.
0:00:49 > 0:00:52All I want him to do is watch and report back to me.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- It's just you and me this evening. - Seriously?
0:00:56 > 0:00:57We will have to cope.
0:00:57 > 0:00:59So, what's the problem in here?
0:00:59 > 0:01:01Dental abscess, lower jaw, I was about to call max fax.
0:01:01 > 0:01:02Can we have a chat?
0:01:02 > 0:01:05- Anyone who doesn't need to be here, we get rid of them.- OK.
0:01:05 > 0:01:08- That's him, the toothache. - I can't do this.
0:01:08 > 0:01:10- That's four minutes.- You try.
0:01:16 > 0:01:17I sent him home.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19We need to support each other.
0:01:19 > 0:01:21I need you to alter this.
0:01:22 > 0:01:23If there's a complaint,
0:01:23 > 0:01:26they will rake over our records, our experience.
0:01:42 > 0:01:44RHYTHMIC THUDDING
0:01:59 > 0:02:01..seven, eight, nine, ten...
0:02:02 > 0:02:04ECHOING: Can I get some help in here, please?
0:02:07 > 0:02:08Cath.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49Oh! Oops, oops-a-daisy.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55LAUGHTER
0:02:57 > 0:02:59Molly, are you after my pancakes?
0:03:10 > 0:03:14Do you want pancakes, too? Go on, then. You do it yourself.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25OK, third time lucky.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29- Are we ready?- Ready.- OK.
0:03:29 > 0:03:33Three, two, one. Toss!
0:03:33 > 0:03:35- Oh. - GIGGLING
0:03:35 > 0:03:37That was your one. Coffee?
0:03:40 > 0:03:42TV ON
0:03:48 > 0:03:50Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you.
0:03:52 > 0:03:53I couldn't sleep anyway.
0:03:53 > 0:03:54How was the night?
0:03:56 > 0:03:58Usual. You know.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00Brigitte OK?
0:04:01 > 0:04:03Five minutes, sweetheart, then we need to go.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05I thought you were starting at two?
0:04:05 > 0:04:07Oh, paperwork, appraisal, you know how it is.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09Plus I'm paying for the nursery.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11I mean it, Molly! Come on.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13TV OFF
0:04:13 > 0:04:15I'll get your coat. You can eat that on the way.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22We don't want to be late.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30CHILDREN CHATTER
0:04:40 > 0:04:41INDISTINCT VOICES ECHO
0:04:54 > 0:04:56INAUDIBLE
0:05:33 > 0:05:35- Can't believe it's so quiet.- Shh.
0:05:35 > 0:05:37We never say the Q word.
0:05:37 > 0:05:40- Not unless we want the sky to fall down on our heads.- What, "quiet"?
0:05:40 > 0:05:41Shh!
0:05:41 > 0:05:43Isn't that right, Ally?
0:05:43 > 0:05:46Yeah, bad luck. Really, thought everyone knew that.
0:05:46 > 0:05:47Hey, don't be so harsh on...
0:05:47 > 0:05:49- Dawn.- ..Dawn.
0:05:49 > 0:05:52- She's new. ED virgin.- Sorry.
0:05:54 > 0:05:55Ally.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00This one's yours.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09- Did you get some sleep?- A little.
0:06:10 > 0:06:13I've just been up there. He's still in ITU.
0:06:14 > 0:06:18He's off all sedation but still no significant response yet.
0:06:20 > 0:06:24Obviously there's a chance that he might wake up in a week or so.
0:06:24 > 0:06:25Right. Sure.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30I mean, where there's life, there's hope, right?
0:06:34 > 0:06:35Is that all?
0:06:38 > 0:06:39I'm sorry.
0:06:40 > 0:06:41And, erm...
0:06:43 > 0:06:46I wanted to thank you for supporting me and...
0:06:47 > 0:06:50We need to stick together on this.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52Are you asking me or telling me?
0:06:52 > 0:06:53What?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55Christ, I'm asking you.
0:06:56 > 0:06:59As a friend, a... a colleague.
0:06:59 > 0:07:01Look, no-one wanted this to happen
0:07:01 > 0:07:04but I don't see the point in a postmortem. Do you?
0:07:04 > 0:07:08I mean, everyone unleashes the retro-spectoscope, and nobody wins.
0:07:08 > 0:07:11And that's all so easy for them when they weren't actually there.
0:07:12 > 0:07:15I don't want to lie. I'm not a liar.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18But it's us against them. Don't you get that?
0:07:18 > 0:07:21How many mistakes are you allowed to make?
0:07:21 > 0:07:23How many times can you get it wrong? I'll tell you - none.
0:07:23 > 0:07:25You have to be perfect.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28I'm not.
0:07:29 > 0:07:31Are you?
0:08:07 > 0:08:08Mr Connolly?
0:08:11 > 0:08:12Mr Connolly?
0:08:14 > 0:08:17James? James!
0:08:20 > 0:08:22Hey.
0:08:22 > 0:08:24Hey, Mr Connolly, are you OK?
0:08:25 > 0:08:27Hey, are you OK? Hey!
0:08:28 > 0:08:32Mr Connolly? Mr Connolly!
0:08:32 > 0:08:33Get off me!
0:08:36 > 0:08:38OK, he's fine.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40He's a regular. I'll keep an eye on him.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45All right.
0:08:54 > 0:08:55ECHOING, OVERLAPPING VOICES
0:09:01 > 0:09:03Hey.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07Got some work for you. Epigastric pain since the early hours.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09Mona.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11There is absolutely nothing wrong with me.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13You can say it as often as you like,
0:09:13 > 0:09:15but no-one goes without the doc here giving the OK.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20You should have called me. Or your GP.
0:09:20 > 0:09:24What, bother the doctor over a wee bit of indigestion?
0:09:24 > 0:09:28Or a heart attack. Perforated ulcer. Leaking aortic aneurysm.
0:09:28 > 0:09:31Oh, speak Scottish, dear. Or English at a push.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33I'm bilingual.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35It could be nothing or it could be something serious.
0:09:35 > 0:09:38Well, I don't think much of your bedside manner.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40Are doctors no' supposed to make us feel better?
0:09:42 > 0:09:46That's fine. Your heart trace looks normal, which is a good start.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Right. There you go.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55So how long have you been feeling this pain? And I want the truth.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57On and off for a couple of weeks.
0:09:58 > 0:10:01But this morning, must have been something I ate.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03OK, I'm just going to examine you.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07There you go. Going to put a pressure on your stomach,
0:10:07 > 0:10:08so tell me when it hurts. OK?
0:10:11 > 0:10:12Does that hurt?
0:10:12 > 0:10:13It's annoying.
0:10:16 > 0:10:17So, can I go soon?
0:10:17 > 0:10:19I'm going to order an erect chest.
0:10:19 > 0:10:21We'll need access, an abdominal screen.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23Amylase. Oh, and nil by mouth.
0:10:23 > 0:10:26- OK.- What, no tea?
0:10:26 > 0:10:27Not until I say so.
0:10:40 > 0:10:41MOBILE PHONE GAME BEEPS
0:10:41 > 0:10:43Where is everybody?
0:10:44 > 0:10:49It's like that ship. You know, the one where everyone disappeared?
0:10:49 > 0:10:50Hmm... Titanic?
0:10:52 > 0:10:55Marie Celeste. Anyway, it's really...
0:10:55 > 0:10:56Don't you say it.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59You know me better than that. Where's Ally?
0:10:59 > 0:11:01With our only patient. Majors two.
0:11:02 > 0:11:04Sorry, er, Dr Brenner?
0:11:05 > 0:11:07Rob Beasley. Patient Liaison.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Ah, yeah, sure. I remember. Everything OK?
0:11:09 > 0:11:12Er, you'll be aware there was a serious clinical incident
0:11:12 > 0:11:13in your department last night.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16Er, I am now. Is there a problem?
0:11:16 > 0:11:18Possibly. I'd like to discuss it with you now
0:11:18 > 0:11:19if you have a few minutes.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21It, er, seems quiet enough.
0:11:21 > 0:11:24Christ! It's like they all want us to die.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26We never say that word. Not here.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28- What, "quiet"?- Oh!
0:11:28 > 0:11:31Let's talk in my office.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33The patient's partner's already been in touch with us.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36She's a solicitor. Sits on the District Council.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38Ah, great.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40I'd usually go straight to the clinical lead,
0:11:40 > 0:11:42but in the circumstances, er,
0:11:42 > 0:11:44we need to get all the facts from the department's point of view.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47Usually best when everything's fresh in people's minds.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50- You know what medical notes are like.- I understand.
0:11:50 > 0:11:51I'm told, um, Dr Rayne
0:11:51 > 0:11:54and Dr Sutton were the two clinicians involved.
0:11:54 > 0:11:56Are they in today?
0:11:57 > 0:12:00Well, er, I believe so.
0:12:00 > 0:12:02Then shall we all swallow the frog?
0:12:08 > 0:12:10Hey. I heard about last night. You OK?
0:12:10 > 0:12:15- Yeah.- What about Ally? She takes it personally, you know, all this.
0:12:15 > 0:12:17It's weird.
0:12:17 > 0:12:18Maybe she gives a shit.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22Hey. I give a shit. We all do.
0:12:22 > 0:12:23They're all our patients.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26When was the last time you actually talked to one of them?
0:12:26 > 0:12:29I'm here to make them better, not listen to their life stories.
0:12:29 > 0:12:30She does. I've watched her.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34OK, so, maybe it's the multi-tasking thing.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36See, that is it right there.
0:12:36 > 0:12:39I try to talk to you and you make it into a stupid joke.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41It's not. None of this is.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46I'm sorry. Really.
0:12:50 > 0:12:51What happened last night?
0:12:54 > 0:12:56He couldn't breathe.
0:12:57 > 0:13:01You could see in his eyes what was going to happen, like he knew.
0:13:01 > 0:13:05She cut his neck and there was blood everywhere.
0:13:05 > 0:13:06Oh, do you know the worst thing?
0:13:06 > 0:13:09Like, the thing that gets me...
0:13:09 > 0:13:11I'm used to it.
0:13:11 > 0:13:17The...death, the pain, the blood, the tears.
0:13:17 > 0:13:18It's just normal.
0:13:21 > 0:13:22So what does that make me?
0:13:25 > 0:13:29The chest X-ray looks normal. We're just waiting on the blood results.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31Is the pain still there?
0:13:31 > 0:13:33Better. As I said, something I ate.
0:13:35 > 0:13:36How's the wee one?
0:13:36 > 0:13:39Fine. Good. She misses you.
0:13:42 > 0:13:47You weren't like those others. I wanted to keep you all to myself.
0:13:48 > 0:13:52To those other doctors, I was just another nosey old woman.
0:13:54 > 0:13:57Most people spy a lonely soul and they can't get away fast enough.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01But not you.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03Maybe I was lonely too.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05Och, well, I'm no' blind, I could see that.
0:14:05 > 0:14:07Can't hide something like that.
0:14:08 > 0:14:13But all you needed was a wee bit of first aid. Easily fixed.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18For people like me, it's more of a long-term affliction.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28So talk to me. Before it's too late.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41WHISPERS: I took something that didn't belong to me.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45What? What did you take?
0:14:51 > 0:14:52Sorry, Ally.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55Hi. You OK?
0:14:55 > 0:14:56Fine. We were just talking.
0:14:56 > 0:14:58Have you got a minute?
0:14:58 > 0:14:59Yeah.
0:15:03 > 0:15:05Why the hell didn't you tell me?
0:15:06 > 0:15:08If I'm going to protect you, if we're going to have any chance
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- of doing this, you can't keep stuff like this from me.- I'm not stupid.
0:15:11 > 0:15:14It's not about that. I've got Rob Beasley down here.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16He wants to talk to you and Brigitte.
0:15:17 > 0:15:19How's the patient?
0:15:19 > 0:15:22He's in the unit. I went up to see him this morning.
0:15:22 > 0:15:23And?
0:15:23 > 0:15:26Presumed hypoxic brain injury.
0:15:26 > 0:15:30He's off sedation but still unresponsive.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32- It was my fault. - Oh, don't give me that, all right?
0:15:32 > 0:15:35He was sick, you were in the firing line, you tried your best.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37And Brigitte was there. She's a senior,
0:15:37 > 0:15:38she should have been able to cope.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40She sent him home...
0:15:40 > 0:15:42five hours before.
0:15:43 > 0:15:46Told him he was wasting our time and needed to see a dentist.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48- You're joking?- No.- Oh, shit.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51I wanted to call max fax, but she said no.
0:15:51 > 0:15:54Wait a minute. So she overruled you?
0:15:54 > 0:15:56- Yeah.- Right.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Then that's what you tell them - the truth.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01You wanted to admit him, and Brigitte said no.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03If they start to investigate you, it puts us both at risk.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05- What, so Brigitte takes the blame? - Yeah.
0:16:05 > 0:16:08She was in charge. It'll all be on her. They'll just take your...
0:16:09 > 0:16:12They'll just take your statement and move on.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14You can't get mixed up in this.
0:16:14 > 0:16:17Which means that Brigitte needs to take the fall.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20There's something else.
0:16:21 > 0:16:22HE SIGHS
0:16:23 > 0:16:26Brigitte's water bottle - you know the one she always carries?
0:16:26 > 0:16:27Uh-huh.
0:16:27 > 0:16:29It's not water.
0:16:31 > 0:16:32She was drinking?
0:16:32 > 0:16:34Here? At work?
0:16:34 > 0:16:35I smelt it on her last night...
0:16:37 > 0:16:38..after it happened.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42There's a vodka bottle in her desk.
0:16:42 > 0:16:43HE EXHALES
0:16:45 > 0:16:47Then it'll be a mercy killing.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59- Dale's okay with it? - His suggestion.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02- I'm thinking about moving up there full-time.- Right.
0:17:02 > 0:17:03Maybe he's trying to get shot of you.
0:17:03 > 0:17:06Hey, you're looking at a model employee here, mate.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09So...think you've got a chance?
0:17:09 > 0:17:10This is about Molly. That's all.
0:17:10 > 0:17:13Yeah, right. And I've heard the way you talk about her.
0:17:13 > 0:17:15OK, well, maybe it's crossed my mind,
0:17:15 > 0:17:17but I've got to prove it, yeah?
0:17:17 > 0:17:19I've screwed up too many times.
0:17:19 > 0:17:21She's given me enough chances.
0:17:21 > 0:17:22My turn now.
0:17:22 > 0:17:25Shame it's a white van, not a white horse, though.
0:17:25 > 0:17:27Address is programmed in already.
0:17:28 > 0:17:29Voice is stuck on John Cleese.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31Sorry.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36Thank you for taking the time to speak to me.
0:17:36 > 0:17:38I know none of us want to be here.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40Obviously, I've read the medical notes.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43I understand Mr Gerrard presented first in minors?
0:17:43 > 0:17:44That's correct.
0:17:44 > 0:17:46Where he was seen by Dr Sutton.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48I presume dental abscess?
0:17:48 > 0:17:51He had a toothache, he wanted some antibiotics.
0:17:51 > 0:17:52He had no other concerns?
0:17:54 > 0:17:55No.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58You didn't consider specialist referral?
0:17:59 > 0:18:00No.
0:18:02 > 0:18:05There didn't seem to be any need. Obviously, I regret that now.
0:18:05 > 0:18:09Did you discuss that decision not to refer with your senior colleague?
0:18:13 > 0:18:14No, I didn't.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17I sent him home. It was my call.
0:18:18 > 0:18:21And my understanding from the maxillofacial consultant who has
0:18:21 > 0:18:24taken over Mr Gerrard's care is that submandibular extension
0:18:24 > 0:18:27of the abscess directly led to his airway obstruction.
0:18:27 > 0:18:30There were no signs of that at your first consultation?
0:18:30 > 0:18:32Not that I could see.
0:18:32 > 0:18:33Are you sure?
0:18:33 > 0:18:36No masses? No temperature?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39- Because I'm sure you said that... - Not that I could see.
0:18:39 > 0:18:42And you didn't think to check any of this with Dr Rayne?
0:18:42 > 0:18:44Discuss the case in any way?
0:18:44 > 0:18:45No.
0:18:46 > 0:18:48Obviously, that was a mistake on my part.
0:18:53 > 0:18:56And you had no other concerns about Dr Rayne's...
0:18:56 > 0:18:58conduct?
0:19:08 > 0:19:10No.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12OK. Thank you, Dr Sutton.
0:19:12 > 0:19:14And there's no need to use the M word -
0:19:14 > 0:19:15we're not admitting fault here.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18All I want at this stage are the facts.
0:19:18 > 0:19:21Um... When was the last time you performed a tracheostomy, Dr Rayne?
0:19:21 > 0:19:23Erm...
0:19:23 > 0:19:27I don't know. Five years? Maybe more.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30As soon as I realised that the procedure might be necessary,
0:19:30 > 0:19:31I called for help...
0:19:32 > 0:19:34MUFFLED SPEECH
0:19:43 > 0:19:47With Dr Sutton's assistance, I...
0:19:47 > 0:19:48We did our best.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51And, obviously, it wasn't the outcome
0:19:51 > 0:19:53that we would have wanted for the patient, but...
0:19:53 > 0:19:57I feel that we had no choice under the circumstances.
0:19:57 > 0:19:58OK.
0:19:58 > 0:20:01Well, the next steps depend on the relatives.
0:20:01 > 0:20:04However, it seems likely that this adverse outcome was the unavoidable
0:20:04 > 0:20:05consequence of serious illness.
0:20:05 > 0:20:09I will communicate that to them. I'll let you know the response.
0:20:09 > 0:20:10Thank you for your time.
0:20:15 > 0:20:17Ally? Ally!
0:20:18 > 0:20:19Please.
0:20:21 > 0:20:23Why are you doing this?
0:20:23 > 0:20:24Because it's all I deserve.
0:20:25 > 0:20:26I don't understand.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29We need to stick together, like you said.
0:20:29 > 0:20:31I just asked you to back me up, that's all.
0:20:31 > 0:20:33What choice do I have?
0:20:33 > 0:20:35I know what you do,
0:20:35 > 0:20:36what you keep in your desk.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40What are we talking about?
0:20:40 > 0:20:42You were drinking last night.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45What?
0:20:45 > 0:20:47- T-That's insane. - I know what's in your bottle.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49I found your stash in your drawer.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54OK.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56But it's not what you think.
0:20:56 > 0:20:59I know I have an issue, but I am on a programme with my GP.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01Don't. Don't lie to me.
0:21:01 > 0:21:04You were at work, caring for patients, and you were drunk.
0:21:04 > 0:21:06Drunk?
0:21:06 > 0:21:07You don't get drunk.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12I wish I COULD get drunk. You just stay normal.
0:21:12 > 0:21:15And believe me, that doesn't feel good any more.
0:21:17 > 0:21:19I know what you think of me,
0:21:19 > 0:21:21but I am here every day.
0:21:21 > 0:21:22I am still here.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30What are you going to do?
0:21:30 > 0:21:31Nothing.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33Because it's not my problem.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35I'm done with helping people.
0:21:35 > 0:21:38Stop, drink, I don't care. Do what you want.
0:21:38 > 0:21:39Just don't talk to me.
0:21:44 > 0:21:46Ally? You OK?
0:21:46 > 0:21:49- Yeah, I just need to get out of here.- Is this about last night?
0:21:49 > 0:21:51Because I can back you up. You did everything you could.
0:21:51 > 0:21:54- I'll tell them that. You can trust me.- Don't.
0:21:54 > 0:21:55You're a great nurse.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Take it from me - keep your head down and don't get involved.
0:21:58 > 0:22:01This is my problem, not yours, do you understand?
0:22:01 > 0:22:04- I'm not scared when it's the truth. - It doesn't matter.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06Just promise me you'll stay out of it, OK?
0:22:08 > 0:22:09OK.
0:22:25 > 0:22:27It wasn't me, I didn't tell them anything.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46I'm going to need you to turn out your pockets.
0:22:54 > 0:22:55I'm arresting you on suspicion of theft.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58You're not obligated to say anything, but anything you do say
0:22:58 > 0:23:01will be noted down and may be used in evidence. Do you understand?
0:23:01 > 0:23:03- BEASLEY:- I apologise for this.
0:23:04 > 0:23:06Someone had been stealing from patients and relatives.
0:23:06 > 0:23:09Hard to prove, unless you catch them in the act.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11You put a spy in my department?
0:23:11 > 0:23:13Oh, don't worry, I checked with Brigitte.
0:23:13 > 0:23:16It was need-to-know, you know?
0:23:16 > 0:23:18Real spook stuff.
0:23:18 > 0:23:19Can't say I didn't enjoy it, though.
0:23:21 > 0:23:24Can't believe how quiet it is in here.
0:23:24 > 0:23:25PHONE RINGS
0:23:28 > 0:23:30He had to keep saying it. Hello?
0:23:36 > 0:23:38Yeah. Right.
0:23:40 > 0:23:41OK.
0:23:41 > 0:23:44Four ambulances, the ethylene plant in Leith.
0:23:44 > 0:23:46Some sort of storage tank went up.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49At least two casualties with severe thermal and chemical burns.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52Another...six with possible inhalation injuries.
0:23:52 > 0:23:54- ETA three minutes. - Three...? Oh, shit.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56Right, let's get resus cleared.
0:23:56 > 0:23:58I want anaesthetics down here as a priority.
0:23:58 > 0:24:01Call surgery too. Brigitte?
0:24:01 > 0:24:03Er, you take minors, clear out what's left.
0:24:03 > 0:24:06- OK.- Ally, you're with me.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10ALLY: Andy?
0:24:11 > 0:24:12I can't.
0:24:13 > 0:24:16Yes, you can. You've come this far, don't do this now.
0:24:16 > 0:24:17I shouldn't be in there. We both know that.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19You were cool enough with Rob Beasley -
0:24:19 > 0:24:21- what the hell was that about? - I'm sorry, I just couldn't do it.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23- Not to her, not like that. - If this is going to work,
0:24:23 > 0:24:25then you need to listen to me.
0:24:25 > 0:24:26They're here.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30- Andy?- In a second.
0:24:32 > 0:24:35OK, fine. I don't know about you, but I've still got a job to do.
0:24:59 > 0:25:01SHE WHIMPERS
0:25:01 > 0:25:03SHE SOBS
0:25:10 > 0:25:11Resus One. OK.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16- Resus Two. - PATIENT WHIMPERS
0:25:19 > 0:25:21PATIENT BREATHES RAGGEDLY
0:25:22 > 0:25:24PATIENT BELLOWS
0:25:24 > 0:25:27He's Charlie. I'll take the other one.
0:25:27 > 0:25:28It's just ABC, OK?
0:25:28 > 0:25:31Secure the airway, get the lines in, fluids and morphine. All right?
0:25:33 > 0:25:34PATIENT BREATHES RAGGEDLY
0:25:34 > 0:25:36Hey, hey...
0:25:36 > 0:25:37These guys need us.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39You're the only one I can trust,
0:25:39 > 0:25:41so show me what a real doctor can do.
0:25:41 > 0:25:43- Yes?- Yeah.- Let's go.
0:25:45 > 0:25:46You're in a hospital now.
0:25:46 > 0:25:49My name's Ally, we're going to help you.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51Can you tell me your name, please?
0:25:51 > 0:25:52HE ATTEMPTS TO SPEAK
0:25:52 > 0:25:56Adam McKinnon, 26. Family's been informed.
0:25:56 > 0:25:57Morphine - how much?
0:25:57 > 0:25:59Five. How much has he had?
0:25:59 > 0:26:01- Uh...- No, no, no, ten?
0:26:07 > 0:26:09PATIENT PANTS AND MOANS
0:26:13 > 0:26:15HE BREATHES GUTTURALLY
0:26:15 > 0:26:16He's getting noisy.
0:26:18 > 0:26:19Soot there.
0:26:22 > 0:26:25Nasal hair singed. We could lose that airway.
0:26:25 > 0:26:26Anaesthetics on the way?
0:26:26 > 0:26:28Emergency theatre. Ten to 20.
0:26:28 > 0:26:29What about the consultant?
0:26:29 > 0:26:31Switchboard are trying the mobile.
0:26:31 > 0:26:32Right.
0:26:32 > 0:26:33HE SPLUTTERS
0:26:33 > 0:26:36He's closing all the time. Ally?
0:26:38 > 0:26:39RSI. Get the tray.
0:26:45 > 0:26:48- I can give you something for the pain.- It's nothing.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50How are the others?
0:26:50 > 0:26:51They're working on them.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59That's Adam's missus, Claire.
0:27:03 > 0:27:05Erm... I'll be back.
0:27:06 > 0:27:08- Hello.- Hi.
0:27:08 > 0:27:11Hi, my name's Dr Rayne, I'm one of the senior doctors here.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13You can call me Brigitte.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16Yeah, they called. They... They said there'd been an accident?
0:27:16 > 0:27:20Yes, that's right. Your husband is in our resus area.
0:27:20 > 0:27:21Right.
0:27:22 > 0:27:23So what do I do?
0:27:23 > 0:27:26Let me take you to the relatives' room. You can come this way.
0:27:26 > 0:27:27Right, come on, darling.
0:27:33 > 0:27:34OK.
0:27:40 > 0:27:41Crike on.
0:27:44 > 0:27:45He's gone.
0:27:45 > 0:27:47Everybody, hold your breath.
0:28:01 > 0:28:02SHE GRUNTS
0:28:09 > 0:28:10Oh, God, I can't see anything.
0:28:14 > 0:28:15ALLY PANTS
0:28:18 > 0:28:19I can't see the cords.
0:28:20 > 0:28:22There's nothing - it's too swollen.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24- 30 seconds.- Try a new position.
0:28:34 > 0:28:37More crike, see if that helps.
0:28:39 > 0:28:41TOOTH CRACKS Oh, shit.
0:28:43 > 0:28:44One minute.
0:28:44 > 0:28:46Should we call failed intubation?
0:28:46 > 0:28:49- Ally?- I'm nearly there, I just need a little longer.
0:28:53 > 0:28:54I can't do this.
0:28:59 > 0:29:01- KAREN:- Ally?
0:29:04 > 0:29:06Get Andy.
0:29:06 > 0:29:08Get Andy now.
0:29:11 > 0:29:13Wait, wait, wait, I can see the cords. I can see the cords.
0:29:13 > 0:29:15Bougie, quick.
0:29:22 > 0:29:24- KAREN:- It's been a minute-and-a-half.
0:29:24 > 0:29:25We need to oxygenate now.
0:29:33 > 0:29:35Five tube.
0:29:43 > 0:29:45That's it.
0:30:04 > 0:30:05Sounds good.
0:30:13 > 0:30:14Were we worried?
0:30:19 > 0:30:23Full thickness to face, arm and chest. About 36%.
0:30:23 > 0:30:24Another ten looks partial.
0:30:25 > 0:30:27His wife's here. I can talk to her.
0:30:27 > 0:30:28No, we'll do it.
0:30:35 > 0:30:37- Ready?- Yeah.
0:30:39 > 0:30:41- Hiya.- Hi.- I'm Alison Sutton.
0:30:41 > 0:30:44I'm the doctor who is looking after your husband.
0:30:44 > 0:30:45Thank you.
0:30:45 > 0:30:48This is Karen, one of our nurses.
0:30:48 > 0:30:50- What's your name?- Claire. This is Callum.
0:30:53 > 0:30:55There's two of you.
0:30:55 > 0:30:57Why are there two of you. What's wrong?
0:30:57 > 0:30:59- I... It's OK.- Just tell me.
0:30:59 > 0:31:02- If he's dead, I want to know. - Adam's OK.
0:31:02 > 0:31:05He is being transferred to the intensive care unit
0:31:05 > 0:31:07- in a few minutes.- Thank God.
0:31:09 > 0:31:11Sorry.
0:31:12 > 0:31:15- I just thought for a second that... - I'm afraid Adam has suffered
0:31:15 > 0:31:18severe burns to the chest and face.
0:31:18 > 0:31:21He's going to require long-term specialist treatment.
0:31:21 > 0:31:23I want to see him.
0:31:23 > 0:31:24Let me take this one.
0:31:24 > 0:31:26There's an Xbox in paeds.
0:31:31 > 0:31:34The heat has damaged his windpipe, so we've had to insert a tube
0:31:34 > 0:31:37to help him breathe, which is what the machine's for.
0:31:37 > 0:31:40The burns mean that he needs extra fluid into the veins.
0:31:42 > 0:31:44He is going to be transferred to the nearest plastics unit
0:31:44 > 0:31:46as soon as he's stable,
0:31:46 > 0:31:48- and then they'll be able to... - I'm going to be sick.- OK.
0:31:50 > 0:31:52SHE RETCHES AND COUGHS
0:31:52 > 0:31:54There you go.
0:31:54 > 0:31:55It's OK, sweetheart. It's all right.
0:31:55 > 0:31:57I was giving her a cup of tea and she just collapsed.
0:31:57 > 0:32:00- ALARM BLARES - I thought it would be OK.
0:32:00 > 0:32:01Can you take this?
0:32:03 > 0:32:04ALARM CONTINUES TO BLARE
0:32:11 > 0:32:14- It's weak. BP? - DAWN:- Couldn't find one.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17VT, I think. We need to shock her. Ally?
0:32:18 > 0:32:20Ally, should we shock her?
0:32:20 > 0:32:21I know her.
0:32:23 > 0:32:25OK, I'll call it. VT unstable. Synced shock at 100.
0:32:27 > 0:32:28MACHINE BEEPS
0:32:31 > 0:32:33MACHINE WHIRS
0:32:33 > 0:32:34OK, shocking at 100.
0:32:36 > 0:32:37Clear.
0:32:37 > 0:32:38ELECTRIC CURRENT THUMPS
0:32:39 > 0:32:40MONITOR BEEPS
0:32:44 > 0:32:45OK, charging to 200.
0:32:46 > 0:32:47MACHINE BEEPS
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Sync on.
0:32:49 > 0:32:50Clear.
0:32:50 > 0:32:51ELECTRIC CURRENT THUMPS
0:32:51 > 0:32:53Shock delivered.
0:32:53 > 0:32:54MONITOR BEEPS
0:32:58 > 0:32:59Looks like sinus.
0:33:05 > 0:33:06Better.
0:33:08 > 0:33:10OK, let's check her BP and move her to resus.
0:33:28 > 0:33:31ALLY'S VOICEMAIL: 'I'm not here, so leave a message after the beep.'
0:33:31 > 0:33:34- BEEP - Hiya. It's me.
0:33:34 > 0:33:35Um...
0:33:35 > 0:33:36guess where I am.
0:33:38 > 0:33:39I'm in Edinburgh.
0:33:39 > 0:33:42Um...a delivery.
0:33:42 > 0:33:46Anyway, I thought maybe, you know, I could mosey on over to you.
0:33:48 > 0:33:50OK. Um, bye.
0:33:53 > 0:33:55"Mosey on over to you."
0:33:55 > 0:33:57Shit.
0:33:58 > 0:34:00Muppet.
0:34:00 > 0:34:01HE SIGHS
0:34:16 > 0:34:17Troponin's 12,000.
0:34:17 > 0:34:21Looks like she had the posterior or something earlier this morning.
0:34:21 > 0:34:22I missed it.
0:34:23 > 0:34:25Don't worry, it could happen to anyone.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27You need to flip it.
0:34:29 > 0:34:31Then, it just looks like a normal heart attack, see?
0:34:32 > 0:34:33Oh, sorry.
0:34:33 > 0:34:36It's tough when it's someone you know.
0:34:36 > 0:34:38Brain gets scrambled.
0:34:38 > 0:34:40Weren't you on last night, too?
0:34:40 > 0:34:42Yeah.
0:34:42 > 0:34:45I've called cardiology. They're going to take her to the lab.
0:34:45 > 0:34:47A couple of stents, she'll be as good as new.
0:34:50 > 0:34:51I did this.
0:34:51 > 0:34:53No.
0:34:53 > 0:34:54God did this...
0:34:56 > 0:34:57..you tried to stop the bastard.
0:34:57 > 0:34:58Big difference, yeah?
0:35:00 > 0:35:01PHONE RINGS
0:35:04 > 0:35:05Hi.
0:35:05 > 0:35:07Yes, we've got a 58-year-old...
0:35:17 > 0:35:18Anything.
0:35:25 > 0:35:27INTENSE CACOPHONY
0:35:28 > 0:35:29Dr Sutton?
0:35:29 > 0:35:30Cath?
0:35:50 > 0:35:51Molly?
0:35:55 > 0:35:57Come here, sweetheart.
0:35:57 > 0:35:58Come here. Have you got everything?
0:35:58 > 0:36:00Go get your coat and your bag.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02Shame. We had big plans this afternoon.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04- Beach day.- Sorry about that.
0:36:04 > 0:36:05Maybe next time, eh?
0:36:06 > 0:36:07You can go next time.
0:36:07 > 0:36:10- But what if there isn't a next time? - Then, I'll take you.
0:36:10 > 0:36:12- With Andy?- Yeah, we'll see.
0:36:12 > 0:36:13Daddy.
0:36:17 > 0:36:18Hiya.
0:36:18 > 0:36:20What you been up to?
0:36:20 > 0:36:23You're Scottish now, are you? Och, aye, the noo, and all that?
0:36:25 > 0:36:26Hiya. Thought I'd surprise you.
0:36:29 > 0:36:32Are you OK?
0:36:32 > 0:36:34- Cath?- I'm sorry.
0:36:35 > 0:36:39- I never meant for any of this to happen.- Eh?
0:36:39 > 0:36:41Hey, what is it?
0:36:52 > 0:36:54But Ally went to...
0:36:56 > 0:36:57Fuck.
0:36:58 > 0:37:02So, what, ever since you left, you've been up here, pretending?
0:37:03 > 0:37:06This is insane. Don't you get it?
0:37:06 > 0:37:09If they find out, you go to prison.
0:37:09 > 0:37:11Then what happens? What happens to Molly?
0:37:11 > 0:37:14- I was doing this for her. She deserved a chance.- She had a chance.
0:37:14 > 0:37:17She had two people that would do anything for her - you and me.
0:37:17 > 0:37:18That's not true, though, is it?
0:37:18 > 0:37:20What she had was a mother with no career
0:37:20 > 0:37:22and a father who was never there for her.
0:37:22 > 0:37:26- I did my best.- Well, you know what? Your best was a pile of crap.
0:37:26 > 0:37:28But she kept forgiving you.
0:37:28 > 0:37:30And that's when I realised that she always would.
0:37:30 > 0:37:34For the rest of her life, she'd just keep making excuses for you,
0:37:34 > 0:37:37just like I did. So I set her an example.
0:37:37 > 0:37:39Fraud? Impersonating a doctor?
0:37:39 > 0:37:42I took control of the situation and I made things better.
0:37:42 > 0:37:44You always said you were as good as any doctor.
0:37:44 > 0:37:46I didn't think you'd actually go and do it.
0:37:46 > 0:37:48I'm good at my job.
0:37:51 > 0:37:54That journo, Sam -
0:37:54 > 0:37:56you told him I hit you.
0:37:56 > 0:37:57That's not true.
0:37:57 > 0:38:00Don't lie to me, Cath, he said it to my face.
0:38:00 > 0:38:02No. You know what happened?
0:38:02 > 0:38:04He assumed it because he knows what you are like.
0:38:04 > 0:38:07I didn't even have to lie - he assumed that you weren't
0:38:07 > 0:38:08just a shit gambler with a drink problem.
0:38:08 > 0:38:11You know what, you are crazy. I'm going to the police.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13I'm taking Molly and I'm going to the police.
0:38:13 > 0:38:15- No. - You're coming with Daddy, OK?
0:38:15 > 0:38:19- No!- Hey, hey! She is coming with me.
0:38:19 > 0:38:21Wait! I sent you money, remember?
0:38:21 > 0:38:23- Get out.- The truth is, you knew about this.
0:38:23 > 0:38:25All of it. We both agreed.
0:38:25 > 0:38:27I'd take this job and support us both.
0:38:27 > 0:38:30- That is bullshit. - 500 a month.
0:38:30 > 0:38:32That's my story. Who are they going to believe?
0:38:34 > 0:38:36That is not true. I knew nothing about this.
0:38:36 > 0:38:39But you took the money, though, didn't you?
0:38:39 > 0:38:41What, is it still sitting in your account?
0:38:42 > 0:38:44It doesn't even make any sense.
0:38:44 > 0:38:45How can an NHS nurse afford all that?
0:38:45 > 0:38:47So it will be your word against mine.
0:38:52 > 0:38:54Who the fuck are you?
0:39:05 > 0:39:07You're right.
0:39:07 > 0:39:08It's crazy.
0:39:09 > 0:39:11It was a mistake.
0:39:11 > 0:39:13When you found me, I was leaving.
0:39:13 > 0:39:15Look, I just want to go back to Sheffield,
0:39:15 > 0:39:19you, me and Molly, like none of this ever happened.
0:39:21 > 0:39:23I made a mistake.
0:39:23 > 0:39:26But we need to do this for Molly.
0:39:27 > 0:39:30I want to come home with you now.
0:39:30 > 0:39:33We can go back to how things were. That's what you want, isn't it?
0:39:47 > 0:39:49You seen Ally?
0:39:49 > 0:39:51Not for a while.
0:39:51 > 0:39:52Coffee room?
0:39:54 > 0:39:55Did she talk to you?
0:39:56 > 0:39:58She told me what happened.
0:39:59 > 0:40:00Did she tell you everything?
0:40:02 > 0:40:04- I think so.- And?
0:40:07 > 0:40:09What are you going to do?
0:40:11 > 0:40:12How long?
0:40:13 > 0:40:15- Do you want me to give you the full 12 steps?- No.
0:40:15 > 0:40:18I want you to tell me how long you've been treating patients
0:40:18 > 0:40:19when you're half pissed.
0:40:20 > 0:40:22Fucking hell.
0:40:24 > 0:40:25Why?
0:40:25 > 0:40:26Do you really need to ask me that?
0:40:30 > 0:40:35No, it's just... I just wish it wasn't true.
0:40:35 > 0:40:37You're my friend.
0:40:37 > 0:40:38I still am, I hope.
0:40:41 > 0:40:42I'm sorry.
0:40:44 > 0:40:47It's all right. It's OK.
0:40:47 > 0:40:49As if you haven't got enough to deal with, right?
0:40:51 > 0:40:57I can't let her take the blame for this. She was right. I was wrong.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59She knew he was sick and I missed it.
0:41:00 > 0:41:03She's good. She's a natural.
0:41:03 > 0:41:08What I'm trying to say is that she doesn't deserve any of this. I do.
0:41:08 > 0:41:12Nobody gets what they deserve. Haven't you worked that out by now?
0:41:14 > 0:41:16So, what next?
0:41:18 > 0:41:23- I don't know.- Sorry. Dr Rayne, that's your patient back from X-ray. - OK. Thank you.
0:41:27 > 0:41:28Hey, have you seen Ally?
0:41:28 > 0:41:33Not recently. Isn't she supposed to be nonclinical today, anyway?
0:41:33 > 0:41:36- Oh, yeah.- Is she OK?
0:41:36 > 0:41:40She seemed agitated before.
0:41:40 > 0:41:41Right.
0:41:42 > 0:41:48- Look, I really need to speak to her. I'll be back in 20, OK?- Sure.
0:41:55 > 0:41:56You live here?
0:41:57 > 0:42:01- I just need a few minutes. Can you get Molly's things?- OK.
0:42:34 > 0:42:36DOOR OPENS
0:42:50 > 0:42:51Ally?
0:42:57 > 0:42:59Who the hell are you?
0:43:01 > 0:43:05- What's going on?- Who the fuck is this guy?- I live here.
0:43:05 > 0:43:07This is my house.
0:43:08 > 0:43:11- You're screwing him? - It's none of your business.
0:43:11 > 0:43:13Look, Karl, I just want to leave.
0:43:15 > 0:43:19- Ally, what's going on?- Ally? - I need...- I want you out of here.
0:43:19 > 0:43:21- I need to talk to Ally. - Jesus Christ, this is insane.
0:43:21 > 0:43:25- This is my house and I'm telling you to leave.- Fine.
0:43:26 > 0:43:27Are you coming or what?
0:43:33 > 0:43:35Cath. It's time to go home.
0:43:39 > 0:43:40I'm sorry.
0:43:40 > 0:43:44- No, no, no, no. Not until you talk to me.- Back off, all right?
0:43:44 > 0:43:45She's coming with me.
0:43:45 > 0:43:48- You ready?- Ally.- Get out of the way.
0:43:50 > 0:43:53You see, not so easy, is it?
0:43:53 > 0:43:55Not when you're facing somebody who can fight back.
0:43:55 > 0:43:56Stop it.
0:43:58 > 0:44:00Get off each other.
0:44:01 > 0:44:03What are you doing?
0:44:06 > 0:44:07Where's Molly?
0:44:10 > 0:44:12Where's Molly?
0:44:13 > 0:44:18- Molly?- Molly? I'll check her room. Look downstairs.- Molly?- Molly?
0:44:22 > 0:44:25Molly, don't move. Stay there. Daddy's coming. Daddy's coming. It's OK.
0:44:25 > 0:44:26TYRES SCREECH
0:44:26 > 0:44:27Sorry.
0:44:28 > 0:44:30Stay there. Stay there. It's...
0:44:30 > 0:44:31CRASH
0:44:33 > 0:44:34- Call an ambulance now!- Molly!
0:44:37 > 0:44:41Are you OK? Are you OK? It's OK, sweetheart. Are you OK? Excuse me. Can you watch her?
0:44:41 > 0:44:43Mummy's going to go and help Daddy, OK?
0:44:45 > 0:44:47He's not breathing. I need help.
0:44:50 > 0:44:51Oh, shit!
0:44:57 > 0:45:02Head injury. GCS3 at scene. Blunt trauma. Presumed occult haemorrhage.
0:45:02 > 0:45:04This way, sweetie. Let Mummy and Daddy help the man.
0:45:04 > 0:45:07ROSC in the ambulance. We need more access. Let's get surgery down here.
0:45:09 > 0:45:11- What have we got here? - Scooped on Maythorpe Road.
0:45:11 > 0:45:14Two trained people at scene doing CPR.
0:45:14 > 0:45:17Let's get O neg running. As soon as he's stable we need a pan CT.
0:45:17 > 0:45:18Ally, do you know him?
0:45:19 > 0:45:23- Ally, is he a friend of yours? - He saved my daughter.
0:45:23 > 0:45:25Well, step aside and let me help him.
0:45:41 > 0:45:42How old is he?
0:45:44 > 0:45:46- 33.- We'll take him of course.
0:45:48 > 0:45:52- Otherwise stable? - Liver contusion. Fractured ribs.
0:45:52 > 0:45:54The surgeons don't want to operate.
0:45:54 > 0:45:56How did it happen?
0:45:57 > 0:46:04- My daughter ran out into the road. He saved her.- Shit. I'm sorry.
0:46:07 > 0:46:09We'll do our best, I promise. You never know.
0:46:12 > 0:46:15He was going to go to the police. I didn't have any choice.
0:46:15 > 0:46:19So you just walk away? Accept the life of a man you don't love.
0:46:19 > 0:46:21But it's my life. Not someone else's.
0:46:24 > 0:46:29- I've hurt people.- That's not true. You've helped people.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31You know what Brigitte told me?
0:46:31 > 0:46:35That you're a natural. You just know when you're needed.
0:46:35 > 0:46:38And nothing's changed. You're needed here. I need you.
0:46:51 > 0:46:52This is what I hate.
0:46:55 > 0:46:58Death I can live with. But it's the good ones that get punished.
0:47:00 > 0:47:05- Pressure's a bit low-key. Can you draw up some metaraminol? Just in case.- Sure.
0:47:27 > 0:47:31Daddy is going to be asleep. But that's OK. Are you ready?
0:47:31 > 0:47:32I need some help in here.
0:47:33 > 0:47:36ELECTRONIC BEEPING
0:47:37 > 0:47:41Blood pressure has just dropped. Nothing palpable.
0:47:41 > 0:47:43Must be bleeding again. Get her out of here.
0:47:45 > 0:47:47Come on, Molly. Let's get you some juice. Good girl.
0:47:50 > 0:47:53Let's get O neg running. Cross match four units and get the surgeons down here.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55Charlie, get some gases off.
0:48:00 > 0:48:02Surgeons on their way.
0:48:14 > 0:48:15He was stable.
0:48:17 > 0:48:18CT looked OK.
0:48:18 > 0:48:23There must have been some occult loss, retroperitoneal.
0:48:23 > 0:48:26- That would have shown up.- Maybe.
0:48:27 > 0:48:31- No. This never should have happened. He was stable.- With severe injuries.
0:48:31 > 0:48:34His bleeding had stopped. We had control. The surgeon saw him.
0:48:34 > 0:48:38But people still die. You know that as well as I do.
0:48:41 > 0:48:44When I came in here you were alone with him. Why?
0:48:50 > 0:48:54- It was just you when he died. What were you doing?- What is this?
0:48:54 > 0:48:58- Where was Karen?- I asked her to draw up some metaraminol.
0:48:59 > 0:49:03- You think I did something?- He was stable and then he just arrests.
0:49:03 > 0:49:08What did you do? Potassium bolus? Because that's how I'd have done it.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10Quick, simple, undetectable.
0:49:10 > 0:49:12That's just crazy.
0:49:28 > 0:49:30Ally.
0:49:30 > 0:49:32Don't call me that.
0:49:35 > 0:49:37OK, I...I thought about it.
0:49:37 > 0:49:44I drew it up and I looked at it and I thought about it. But I didn't.
0:49:44 > 0:49:46I didn't.
0:49:50 > 0:49:54- Ally, come on, you have to believe me.- I can't. I don't trust you.
0:49:54 > 0:49:57Don't you see? I don't trust you and you don't trust me.
0:49:58 > 0:50:00I've got to talk to Molly.
0:50:06 > 0:50:11Sweetheart, you know that Daddy was in an accident.
0:50:12 > 0:50:15And we brought him here to try and make him feel better.
0:50:17 > 0:50:22Well, I'm so sorry, sweetheart. But Daddy died.
0:50:23 > 0:50:24I'm so sorry.
0:50:26 > 0:50:27MOLLY CRIES
0:50:27 > 0:50:29I'm so sorry, sweetheart.
0:50:33 > 0:50:35I'm sorry.
0:50:35 > 0:50:36SHE SOBS
0:51:35 > 0:51:37I didn't do it.
0:51:42 > 0:51:45You leave now and nothing changes for you.
0:51:45 > 0:51:47Stay and everything is different.
0:51:47 > 0:51:50What, are you worried Brigitte's going to ask questions?
0:51:50 > 0:51:51She owes you.
0:51:52 > 0:51:57You wanted to change your life, to make it better. You've done it.
0:51:57 > 0:52:01Every day you're helping people. Saving lives, making a difference.
0:52:01 > 0:52:04Doing a job that no other fucker wants to do because it's too tough.
0:52:04 > 0:52:10It's too hard. It's too dirty. And not just that. You're good at it.
0:52:11 > 0:52:15- Why would you walk away from this life?- Because it's not real.
0:52:15 > 0:52:19- It doesn't matter.- It matters to me. - Listen, you work in a place like this
0:52:19 > 0:52:25and you realise it's just about... It's about life and death.
0:52:25 > 0:52:31That's the only truth. Everything else is just who we say we are.
0:52:31 > 0:52:33- I...- Listen to me, listen.
0:52:33 > 0:52:36Why change things when we both know this is something you want?
0:52:38 > 0:52:43Ally, you love being a doctor. Stay.
0:53:40 > 0:53:42- Hi.- Hi.
0:53:42 > 0:53:47- Thanks for coming. Brigitte, if you'd like to...- OK.
0:53:49 > 0:53:50Right, shall we just say it?
0:53:50 > 0:53:54I've been formally diagnosed with so-called stress
0:53:54 > 0:53:59so I'll be taking voluntary unpaid leave for six months at least.
0:53:59 > 0:54:01Which obviously leaves us short here.
0:54:01 > 0:54:04So Andy and I were wondering
0:54:04 > 0:54:09if you would consider taking on a bit more of my responsibilities
0:54:09 > 0:54:11of the day-to-day running of this department.
0:54:15 > 0:54:17Obviously it would mean extra sessional payments.
0:54:17 > 0:54:20Plus you'd get to experience the joy of meetings.
0:54:22 > 0:54:24You're putting me in charge?
0:54:24 > 0:54:26Well, strictly speaking, I'm in charge.
0:54:26 > 0:54:28And it's just until Dr Rayne feels able to return.
0:54:32 > 0:54:33Well?
0:55:01 > 0:55:06Hi. I'm Dr Sutton. I'm the senior doctor here. So what's the problem?