0:00:02 > 0:00:04Last night, it never happened. I can't have it.
0:00:04 > 0:00:06We'll find another way.
0:00:06 > 0:00:09You've never taken me seriously, have you?
0:00:10 > 0:00:12She stands up for what she believes in.
0:00:12 > 0:00:14When was the last time you did that, Jack?
0:00:14 > 0:00:17I've applied for selection as the Labour candidate in the by-election.
0:00:17 > 0:00:19I feel like the person I'm supposed to be.
0:00:19 > 0:00:21Took your time getting there.
0:00:21 > 0:00:23She just won't stay on her medication.
0:00:23 > 0:00:24Can her doctor not do something?
0:00:24 > 0:00:27Short of sectioning her again and I can't let that happen.
0:00:27 > 0:00:29It's such a load to carry on your own.
0:00:29 > 0:00:32What if it's not enough for her? You know, me, marriage.
0:00:32 > 0:00:35I'm hoping that once we have our own home, we have a family,
0:00:35 > 0:00:37that it will be enough.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39The police pulled Victor up on a stop and search.
0:00:39 > 0:00:43They found cocaine in your car. You have to go there, Jack, put it right.
0:00:43 > 0:00:44If I do, I'm screwed.
0:00:44 > 0:00:46I suggest you make a call
0:00:46 > 0:00:48and resign your candidacy before the press get hold of it.
0:00:48 > 0:00:50- Dad.- I've heard it all before.
0:00:53 > 0:00:56- So, you're flying solo? - I'm so done with all that.
0:00:58 > 0:00:59Never say never.
0:01:02 > 0:01:10This programme contains some strong language
0:02:42 > 0:02:45'Mark Thatcher, the Prime Minister's son is reported missing
0:02:45 > 0:02:49'in the Sahara desert, while taking part in an international motor race.
0:02:49 > 0:02:52'It's yet another blow for the beleaguered Prime Minister
0:02:52 > 0:02:54'who only recently was voted
0:02:54 > 0:02:56'one of the most unpopular prime ministers in history.'
0:02:56 > 0:02:58DOORBELL RINGS
0:03:01 > 0:03:02Thanks for doing this.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04Yeah, well, I'm doing this for you, not him.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12You came, thank God.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16After the drugs charge, when he lost his candidacy,
0:03:16 > 0:03:19never picked himself up after it.
0:03:19 > 0:03:22He just wasn't the same Jack.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25- Before it was cocaine and now he's started mixing it with heroin.- What?
0:03:25 > 0:03:28Why the hell didn't you tell us before?
0:03:28 > 0:03:30We didn't put it together at first,
0:03:30 > 0:03:32and then we didn't realise how bad it was till it was too late.
0:03:32 > 0:03:35I came home from work last week and he was rolling around on the floor,
0:03:35 > 0:03:37shouting about headaches and cramp,
0:03:37 > 0:03:39so I gave him some aspirin, put him into bed.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41When I went to check on him, I couldn't wake him.
0:03:41 > 0:03:43He got blood poisoning,
0:03:43 > 0:03:47dirty needle or whatever crap his dealer uses to cut the heroin.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50We took him to the hospital, they pumped him full of antibiotics
0:03:50 > 0:03:52and methadone and then just turfed him out.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54He was back on heroin the next day.
0:03:54 > 0:03:58So, what is it you want us to do exactly?
0:03:58 > 0:04:02- Help us detox him.- Isn't a rehab unit the best place for that?
0:04:02 > 0:04:04He refuses point blank to go there,
0:04:04 > 0:04:08- says their petty rules remind him of boarding school.- Very Jack.
0:04:11 > 0:04:14Is this what he wants? He really wants to get off it?
0:04:14 > 0:04:18Yeah, between hits, when he can think straight.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20We need to keep him re-hydrated and moving,
0:04:20 > 0:04:22but not out the flat, not for any excuse.
0:04:22 > 0:04:24And there'll be plenty of those.
0:04:24 > 0:04:25One foot outside this flat,
0:04:25 > 0:04:27he'll go straight back to his dealer and score.
0:04:27 > 0:04:30What's the street price of heroin these days?
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Ow. What? Well, it's got to set him back a bit, hasn't it?
0:04:35 > 0:04:37Valium for the panic attacks Anti-nausea.
0:04:37 > 0:04:39How long will it take?
0:04:39 > 0:04:40Two weeks, give or take.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42Those who can should take time off work.
0:04:42 > 0:04:45It's best to have two of us here, if things get volatile.
0:04:45 > 0:04:48- Well, we might need to contain him. - What? Lock him up?
0:04:49 > 0:04:51Whatever it takes.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57If you're not up for it, just say.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00- No-one's saying that, Orla. - No, of course not.
0:05:00 > 0:05:02It's a big ask, that's all.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04Shouldn't his family pitch in?
0:05:04 > 0:05:07His father cut off all ties after the drugs bust.
0:05:07 > 0:05:08There is no-one.
0:05:08 > 0:05:12Don't we owe him this? All of us.
0:05:14 > 0:05:16Dear God, without him, you wouldn't have even met.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20Or are we just forgetting that?
0:05:33 > 0:05:35Jack.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39- Jack.- Jack.- Watch his head.
0:05:51 > 0:05:52'London time last night...
0:05:54 > 0:05:58'..the Argentinian cruiser, General Belgrano, was...'
0:05:58 > 0:06:00Didn't we say we'd start on a Monday?
0:06:00 > 0:06:02We start today, Jack, as agreed.
0:06:02 > 0:06:04Yeah, but Monday is the first day of a working week.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07It makes no sense to start on a Sunday.
0:06:07 > 0:06:12I can score one more hit and then we'll get down to it.
0:06:13 > 0:06:17First thing tomorrow morning, I'll get down...
0:06:17 > 0:06:20Charlie, Charlie, you're with me on this, right?
0:06:21 > 0:06:24- Charlie?- OK, I can do Tuesday afternoon,
0:06:24 > 0:06:26so we just need cover up until then.
0:06:26 > 0:06:30I've got something on tomorrow, but you can do it, can't you, Alan?
0:06:30 > 0:06:33Aye, aye, put us down for the first shift.
0:06:33 > 0:06:34Me too.
0:06:37 > 0:06:40I might be OK for later in the week, Wednesday or Thursday.
0:06:46 > 0:06:50Stay, Lilly. Orla's made up a bed for us.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54Right. Well, let me come with you tomorrow.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56Somebody can cover here a few hours, it's fine.
0:06:56 > 0:07:01I prefer... I prefer going on my own anyway, you know that.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05Come here.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11One day, we'll see this for what it is.
0:07:13 > 0:07:14Bad patch.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17Hey?
0:07:19 > 0:07:21We'll beat this yet, you'll see.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53OK, Jack, I'm here.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55My head's just not there yet, Jay.
0:07:58 > 0:08:01You said my head had to be, my head had to be in the right place.
0:08:03 > 0:08:07One more hit. Where's the harm in one more hit?
0:08:07 > 0:08:09Shh, shh.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11Shh. Hold still, eh?
0:08:40 > 0:08:41How the wives and mothers feel
0:08:41 > 0:08:43seeing their men going off to the Falklands.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45Is it a just cause, defending British citizens,
0:08:45 > 0:08:47or the last gasp of a dying empire?
0:08:47 > 0:08:50And I want a profile piece on Shirley Williams for the second segment,
0:08:50 > 0:08:54a year after quitting Labour for the SDP, regrets, highs, lows.
0:08:54 > 0:08:57A WOMAN SOBS
0:09:00 > 0:09:01Excuse me.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13You're scaring me, Lilly.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17What's happened?
0:09:18 > 0:09:19Tell me.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25All those years,
0:09:25 > 0:09:28all that aggro we went through trying to get the pill.
0:09:30 > 0:09:33It never crossed my mind I wouldn't be able to get pregnant
0:09:33 > 0:09:34when I were ready.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37I just assumed.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46That were the only pregnancy I'll ever have.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54A doctor told you that?
0:09:56 > 0:09:58So, see another one, get a second opinion.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00That was the second opinion.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04Or the fourth, I've lost count.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10It's called Asherman's Syndrome.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14It's when an abortion damages the womb.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21Isn't there something they can do? Operate?
0:10:21 > 0:10:22It's too risky.
0:10:22 > 0:10:24The scarring's too bad.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29I was prepared to take the risk, but...
0:10:30 > 0:10:34- Alan still doesn't know? - Only that I've a problem conceiving.
0:10:36 > 0:10:37Not why.
0:10:41 > 0:10:46This was, like, a point on the horizon to fix on.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50Something I could aim for.
0:10:55 > 0:10:57It's like a light's gone out, Charlie.
0:11:03 > 0:11:04Do you hate him for it?
0:11:08 > 0:11:10Jack.
0:11:17 > 0:11:18Takes two.
0:11:22 > 0:11:27- Stay, don't go like this. - No, I-I'm fine, I'll call.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29Wait, I'll come with you.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Lilly!
0:11:50 > 0:11:54# Spilling up pink silk and coffee lace
0:11:54 > 0:11:58# You hook me up I rendezvous at your place
0:11:58 > 0:12:01# Your lipstick and your lip gloss. #
0:12:01 > 0:12:03MUSIC STOPS
0:12:03 > 0:12:06There's other places we can go to, you know.
0:12:12 > 0:12:15What's his name, the one in Manchester?
0:12:15 > 0:12:18The one who did the test-tube baby.
0:12:18 > 0:12:19It's over.
0:12:23 > 0:12:28We'll try other alternatives. There's adoption, maybe.
0:12:31 > 0:12:35You always said that you couldn't love a child that wasn't yours.
0:12:35 > 0:12:36No, no.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40I want what you want, Lilly.
0:12:40 > 0:12:42And if it's a baby...
0:12:42 > 0:12:45What about when it's not a baby any more?
0:12:46 > 0:12:51When it's a stroppy teenager with a mind of its own.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58Well, I'll have learnt to love it by then.
0:13:00 > 0:13:03Love like that's not something you learn.
0:13:05 > 0:13:06It's something you give.
0:13:08 > 0:13:09Unconditionally.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14Hey, hey, hey.
0:13:16 > 0:13:19Come here. Come here. Shh.
0:13:35 > 0:13:38We can still have a good life, me and you, Lil.
0:13:40 > 0:13:45We can do things that couples with kids can't do, you know.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47Travel and...
0:13:56 > 0:13:57We'll be free.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08Houston, we have a problem.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13Ah! There's my precious girl.
0:14:17 > 0:14:21I came home from work and she'd camped out on the doorstep, waiting.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33I need to be near a television set at all times,
0:14:33 > 0:14:35things are moving so fast now.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39Oh, I need a radio for the World Service, a shortwave one,
0:14:39 > 0:14:42and some pens.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45Mum, where are your pills?
0:14:48 > 0:14:50Your pills, where are they?
0:14:51 > 0:14:53I'm taking a break from them, dear.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07Someone has to keep a log of the Argentinian casualties.
0:15:07 > 0:15:10You can't trust them to tell us.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12368 died on the Belgrano.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15And all we hear about are the 20 who died on the Sheffield.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17They talk about a proportionate response,
0:15:17 > 0:15:19how is that a proportionate response?
0:15:19 > 0:15:23Either every human life is of value or it isn't.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36This brings back memories.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38Days of yore, when we were students.
0:15:38 > 0:15:41When did you and I ever do this as students?
0:15:41 > 0:15:42In here we did.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45And much more.
0:15:52 > 0:15:55God only knows what she's doing down there.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58What's one more cuckoo in the nest?
0:15:58 > 0:16:01How about I do your shift here tomorrow?
0:16:02 > 0:16:04You can sort out your mum.
0:16:05 > 0:16:08What about work?
0:16:08 > 0:16:10I'm not in court until the day after, so...
0:16:21 > 0:16:23This thing with Lilly,
0:16:23 > 0:16:26you think it's the biological clock they're on about?
0:16:26 > 0:16:28That she left it too late.
0:16:35 > 0:16:39Maybe it's time we got our own show on the road in that department.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52What if it's a trade-off?
0:16:53 > 0:16:57A woman becomes a mother, she puts her child's needs before her own.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02That's what we're programmed to do, that's the deal.
0:17:04 > 0:17:08What if it means everything I can still achieve gets lost?
0:17:10 > 0:17:11I get lost.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18Like that poem, not waving, but drowning.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25Well,
0:17:25 > 0:17:26you won't be in it alone...
0:17:28 > 0:17:30..because I'll be right there with you.
0:17:32 > 0:17:33I'll be your life raft.
0:18:01 > 0:18:04'Further air operations were also conducted
0:18:04 > 0:18:06'over the Falkland Islands today.
0:18:06 > 0:18:08'The Vulcan attack on Port Stanley airfield this morning
0:18:08 > 0:18:12'was successful and all the aircraft involved returned safely.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14'In the case of Sea Harrier attacks,
0:18:14 > 0:18:19'one of our aircraft was shot down. The pilot has been killed.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22'His name will be announced after confirmation has been received
0:18:22 > 0:18:24'that his next of kin have been informed.
0:18:24 > 0:18:27'All the other Sea Harriers returned safely.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31'Elsewhere, Argentinian aircraft have been intersected...'
0:19:26 > 0:19:28Ah!
0:19:35 > 0:19:37I need some gear.
0:19:40 > 0:19:41Yes, now.
0:19:42 > 0:19:45When? When tomorrow?
0:19:46 > 0:19:47No, no.
0:19:49 > 0:19:50I'll come to you.
0:20:12 > 0:20:13Guilty.
0:21:06 > 0:21:08CAR DOOR SLAMS
0:21:08 > 0:21:10ENGINE STARTS
0:21:10 > 0:21:12CRUNCH OF GRAVEL
0:21:30 > 0:21:32The manic phase is hard enough,
0:21:32 > 0:21:34when she crashes into the depression.
0:21:34 > 0:21:36And now she has this thing about the Falklands.
0:21:36 > 0:21:39Obsessions are a common symptom with manic depression.
0:21:39 > 0:21:44- The chemical imbalance in her brain means...- I know what it means, I've had to deal with it long enough.
0:21:44 > 0:21:48I just can't hold down a job and watch her 24 hours a day any more.
0:21:49 > 0:21:50I can't do it.
0:21:52 > 0:21:55I need you to help me get her admitted again.
0:21:55 > 0:21:56Get her back on the medication,
0:21:56 > 0:22:00I can pretty well cope with her when she's on it.
0:22:00 > 0:22:02You're her doctor, they'll have to listen to you, won't they?
0:22:02 > 0:22:04I'm sorry, Miss Pugh.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07There's an embargo now on all voluntary psychiatric admissions.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10It's part of a new mental health policy from the government.
0:22:10 > 0:22:13All long-term mental hospitals are to be closed,
0:22:13 > 0:22:18all patients relocated to hostels or at home.
0:22:18 > 0:22:21"Care in the Community" - that's what they're calling it.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30Then she'll have to be sectioned,
0:22:30 > 0:22:32so it's not a voluntary admission.
0:22:32 > 0:22:34They can only do that if she's a threat to herself or others.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36So, what? We wait till she cuts her wrists again
0:22:36 > 0:22:39or takes another overdose?
0:22:39 > 0:22:42Is there no-one in your family that can help you?
0:22:45 > 0:22:48My brothers say their own families are their priority.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Apparently, caring is women's work.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58She pulled the ladder up after her, didn't she?
0:22:58 > 0:23:00Thatcher.
0:23:02 > 0:23:03I didn't see that coming.
0:23:07 > 0:23:08Sorry to waste your time.
0:23:10 > 0:23:13MUSIC: "Chant No 1" by Spandau Ballet
0:23:20 > 0:23:24# I checked the time It was almost time
0:23:24 > 0:23:26# A curious smell An intangible crime
0:23:28 > 0:23:31# I'm washing my clothes But the stain still grows
0:23:32 > 0:23:35# Cover your eyes The stain still shows
0:23:35 > 0:23:38# I feel the graze against my skin
0:23:40 > 0:23:43# I feel the graze against my skin
0:23:43 > 0:23:45# I know this feeling is... #
0:23:45 > 0:23:46Argh.
0:23:48 > 0:23:50HE LAUGHS
0:23:52 > 0:23:55# There's a guilt within my mind
0:23:55 > 0:24:00# There is a motion in my arms
0:24:00 > 0:24:01# Oh, I should... #
0:24:01 > 0:24:03How can I help, Mrs Harper?
0:24:05 > 0:24:08- I'd like to start my own business.- Hm.
0:24:08 > 0:24:12- What sort of business would that be? - Greeting cards.
0:24:12 > 0:24:13Erm...
0:24:13 > 0:24:15Oh, sorry, sorry.
0:24:18 > 0:24:21I've applied for an Enterprise Allowance.
0:24:24 > 0:24:25Put some costs together.
0:24:27 > 0:24:32I need a loan of £3,000 for three months to get started.
0:24:32 > 0:24:35That'll buy a print run of 1,500 to produce 12,000 cards
0:24:35 > 0:24:38from my own designs I did at art college.
0:24:40 > 0:24:44I need to research current trends, of course.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46I'm aiming for the high end of the market, though,
0:24:46 > 0:24:52big department stores, er, independent art and gift shops.
0:24:52 > 0:24:54Have you approached any of them?
0:24:54 > 0:24:56Secured any potential orders?
0:24:59 > 0:25:02Well, without any finished cards to show them...
0:25:05 > 0:25:08It's chicken and egg, isn't it? Catch 22.
0:25:08 > 0:25:12We're not in the habit of handing out unsecured loans, Mrs Harper.
0:25:12 > 0:25:15This is the enterprise culture everyone's on about, is it?
0:25:15 > 0:25:21We would need collateral, your house, for example.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24You'll need your husband's support for that, obviously.
0:25:26 > 0:25:27Obviously.
0:25:29 > 0:25:30Excuse me.
0:25:42 > 0:25:45HE LAUGHS
0:25:45 > 0:25:47HE MUTTERS TO HIS COLLEAGUE
0:25:49 > 0:25:51- Three grand.- Three grand? - THEY LAUGH
0:25:58 > 0:26:01Oh, no, don't say it.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03The flat door was locked.
0:26:05 > 0:26:06We thought he was in his room.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10Look, he can't have gone far, his car's right...
0:26:28 > 0:26:30Go into the kitchen, Mum.
0:26:31 > 0:26:35Do you think we should get Jay back to check on him?
0:26:35 > 0:26:36Let him sleep it off first.
0:26:41 > 0:26:43Orla, is there a key for this room?
0:26:43 > 0:26:46There might be a spare bunch in the kitchen, let's see.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15It's for the loan.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18To pay the printer for the first run
0:27:18 > 0:27:21and once it's paid off and I'm up and running...
0:27:21 > 0:27:23Have you seen the interest rate on this?
0:27:23 > 0:27:25I went to four banks, Alan.
0:27:25 > 0:27:27Each and every one laughed me out of court.
0:27:27 > 0:27:31That was the best deal I could get and I had to beg to get that.
0:27:31 > 0:27:33Do you need that many cards, Lilly?
0:27:34 > 0:27:38The more you print, the cheaper it is, that's just how it works.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41I'll do the folding and stuffing of envelopes, to keep costs down.
0:27:41 > 0:27:4412,000 cards.
0:27:45 > 0:27:47I mean, we should all live so bloody long.
0:27:50 > 0:27:52What if we can't pay back the loan? We'd lose the house.
0:27:52 > 0:27:55- Forget it!. - Hey, no, don't be like that.
0:27:55 > 0:27:57- No, you're right, it's a daft idea. - Don't be like that.
0:27:57 > 0:28:02No, I just...I don't understand the rush.
0:28:03 > 0:28:04Lilly, it's a big step.
0:28:04 > 0:28:07We are what we are, Alan.
0:28:07 > 0:28:09Waiting won't change anything.
0:28:09 > 0:28:10Oh.
0:28:12 > 0:28:15Look, you start at that new school next term.
0:28:15 > 0:28:17You're going to be working all day,
0:28:17 > 0:28:20- I don't know how you're going to find time to...- I called them.- What?
0:28:20 > 0:28:23I called them, told them I'm quitting teaching.
0:28:27 > 0:28:31I'm not spending every day surrounded by kids, Alan, I'm not.
0:28:41 > 0:28:44ALAN SIGHS
0:29:26 > 0:29:29Right. We need to get a phone in here.
0:29:29 > 0:29:31And if you can set up that computer?
0:30:13 > 0:30:15I hope I did the right thing calling you.
0:30:26 > 0:30:28He's still pretty much out of it.
0:30:30 > 0:30:31Thanks.
0:30:48 > 0:30:49Can you hear me?
0:31:02 > 0:31:04Jack?
0:31:19 > 0:31:21On my way here, I was...
0:31:22 > 0:31:24..thinking how all this started.
0:31:25 > 0:31:28This...this estrangement between us.
0:31:33 > 0:31:36When you were little,
0:31:36 > 0:31:40everybody called you Daddy's boy.
0:31:41 > 0:31:42Drove your mother mad.
0:31:45 > 0:31:47"He only has eyes for you," she used to say.
0:31:51 > 0:31:55You always used to wait for me at the front door when I got home.
0:31:56 > 0:31:57Always.
0:31:59 > 0:32:01Without fail.
0:32:07 > 0:32:09But then you went away to school...
0:32:12 > 0:32:15..and it was me who was waiting at the door.
0:32:20 > 0:32:23But it wasn't the same child who came back.
0:32:25 > 0:32:26No.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31It was an angry, little stranger.
0:32:38 > 0:32:40Was I to blame for that?
0:32:41 > 0:32:43Was I to blame for sending you away to school?
0:32:45 > 0:32:46It never did me any harm.
0:32:53 > 0:32:58And then, later, when you were a teenager, you were doing
0:32:58 > 0:33:02what all kids do, you were finding your own way and...
0:33:05 > 0:33:09..and I thought that challenging me was part of that
0:33:09 > 0:33:11and that you'd pull through it.
0:33:18 > 0:33:21All I could feel was the...
0:33:22 > 0:33:25..loss of that little boy who used to wait for me.
0:33:30 > 0:33:34I could feel his absence, even in your presence.
0:33:41 > 0:33:44That was when it started, wasn't it?
0:33:44 > 0:33:45Our war of attrition.
0:33:47 > 0:33:50The day I drove you to that bloody school.
0:33:56 > 0:33:59The wrong turns you've taken since I've...
0:34:01 > 0:34:02..driven you there too.
0:34:11 > 0:34:14I do want to help you through this, Jack.
0:34:23 > 0:34:25Please.
0:34:26 > 0:34:28Let me.
0:34:44 > 0:34:46DOOR SHUTS
0:34:47 > 0:34:50- I'll come by again tomorrow, when he's feeling more himself. - JACK SOBS
0:34:50 > 0:34:53If you need anything, in the meantime...
0:34:55 > 0:34:56Thank you.
0:35:34 > 0:35:37'You want me to be your mole?
0:35:37 > 0:35:38'Well, that's good.
0:35:39 > 0:35:41'I did it for you!
0:35:41 > 0:35:43'I think we both know why you did it, Jack.
0:35:43 > 0:35:46'Look in the mirror, Jack. Look! Loyalty has nothing to do with it.'
0:35:46 > 0:35:48'There is only one loser around here.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50'It's because you feel, you get so angry.
0:35:50 > 0:35:52'What's the proof of it?
0:35:52 > 0:35:56'I've never met anybody so full of pre-digested crap as you.'
0:35:56 > 0:36:00'If I needed further proof of my total irrelevance to you,
0:36:00 > 0:36:02'today was it.
0:36:03 > 0:36:09'Whatever this pitiful excuse for a relationship is, it's over.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11'What was it you said in your interview?
0:36:11 > 0:36:14'About being defined by moral values.
0:36:14 > 0:36:16'I'm here, aren't I?'
0:36:17 > 0:36:20'You hesitated, Jack. You hesitated.
0:36:20 > 0:36:22'You hesitated. You hesitated.'
0:36:23 > 0:36:26JACK SOBS
0:36:39 > 0:36:42I don't want Victor seeing me like this.
0:36:42 > 0:36:45Orla's taken him to the station, he's gone to Toxteth.
0:36:47 > 0:36:50Group action from the riots, police misconduct.
0:36:54 > 0:36:56Reading them the riot act, knowing him.
0:37:02 > 0:37:03The best man won, didn't he?
0:37:07 > 0:37:08You chose well.
0:37:18 > 0:37:20Jack?
0:37:20 > 0:37:24Everything I touch turns to shit, Charlie.
0:37:24 > 0:37:25That's not true.
0:37:27 > 0:37:32Name one thing, one fucking thing I've not screwed up!
0:37:35 > 0:37:38Losing you is top of the bloody list.
0:37:45 > 0:37:48It was always a fire-fighting operation...
0:37:49 > 0:37:51..you and your demons.
0:37:53 > 0:37:56I thought if I just hung in long enough...
0:37:56 > 0:37:59But you're the only one who can beat them, Jack.
0:37:59 > 0:38:01This hell that you're going through now,
0:38:01 > 0:38:03maybe this is what it takes to make you see that.
0:38:03 > 0:38:07And the hell I've put the others through? The damage I have done!
0:38:12 > 0:38:13I'm worthless.
0:38:15 > 0:38:18Worthless, useless,
0:38:18 > 0:38:22- pointless, rubbish piece of shit that I am!- Don't say that.
0:38:24 > 0:38:28I want out of this shit of a life! I want out! I want out!
0:38:28 > 0:38:31- Jack!- Worthless, worthless fucking piece of shit!
0:38:31 > 0:38:33Stop it, stop it, Jack.
0:38:33 > 0:38:37- I just want out of this fucking life!- Jack! Stop it! Stop it!
0:38:37 > 0:38:39- This fucking...- Jack!
0:38:39 > 0:38:41- Fuck!- Stop, stop it!
0:38:41 > 0:38:44- I want out of this shit of a life. - Jack, stop it! Jack, stop it!
0:38:44 > 0:38:46- Stop it!- Fuck.
0:39:35 > 0:39:36Mum?
0:39:42 > 0:39:43Mum!
0:39:45 > 0:39:46Mum?
0:40:21 > 0:40:25Right, that's 9,225.
0:40:29 > 0:40:32'The Battle of the Falklands was a remarkable military operation.
0:40:32 > 0:40:35'Boldly planned, bravely executed
0:40:35 > 0:40:37'and brilliantly accomplished.
0:40:37 > 0:40:40'We owe an enormous debt to the British forces
0:40:40 > 0:40:43'and to the Merchant Marine.
0:40:43 > 0:40:45'We honour them all.
0:40:45 > 0:40:47'They have been supported by a people,
0:40:47 > 0:40:50'united in defence of our way of life
0:40:50 > 0:40:53'and of our sovereign territory.'
0:40:53 > 0:40:55From a nation of dissenters
0:40:55 > 0:40:57to flag-waving nationalists in one leap.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59Some conjuring trick.
0:40:59 > 0:41:01Someone's feeling better.
0:41:04 > 0:41:05Still no news?
0:41:07 > 0:41:09I'll take her stuff, while I'm here.
0:41:10 > 0:41:12Stay, eat with us.
0:41:12 > 0:41:15Victor's waiting for me.
0:41:18 > 0:41:20I had the weirdest dream the other night.
0:41:20 > 0:41:22We were back together, you and me.
0:41:27 > 0:41:29Blast from the past, eh?
0:41:35 > 0:41:37If Mum turns up or anything...
0:41:37 > 0:41:38You'll be the first to know.
0:41:47 > 0:41:49Charlie. You dropped this.
0:41:53 > 0:41:54Could she be here?
0:41:56 > 0:41:58Oh, God.
0:42:02 > 0:42:06MUSIC: "Do You Really Want To Hurt Me?" by Culture Club
0:42:14 > 0:42:20# Everything is not what you see It's over again
0:42:22 > 0:42:23# Do you really...? #
0:42:23 > 0:42:25MUSIC STOPS
0:42:44 > 0:42:46BIRD SQUAWKS
0:43:25 > 0:43:27- BANG! Oh, my God.- Shh.
0:43:39 > 0:43:42SHOUTING
0:43:43 > 0:43:45You must evacuate the area!
0:43:45 > 0:43:48You have five minutes to clear the area.
0:43:48 > 0:43:50WHISTLES BLOW
0:43:56 > 0:43:58Leave immediately!
0:43:58 > 0:44:01WOMAN SCREAMS
0:44:01 > 0:44:03You must evacuate the area!
0:44:06 > 0:44:09# We shall overcome... #
0:44:11 > 0:44:12Mum!
0:44:14 > 0:44:15Mum!
0:44:18 > 0:44:19Come on, Mum.
0:44:21 > 0:44:23- Get off her!- Argh!
0:44:44 > 0:44:46There we are.
0:44:59 > 0:45:00I'm so sorry.
0:45:04 > 0:45:06What I put you through.
0:45:08 > 0:45:13I'm no good to anyone, myself or anyone else, am I?
0:45:21 > 0:45:23We're none of us perfect.
0:45:43 > 0:45:45SHE SIGHS
0:45:55 > 0:45:58You tried forcing it, yeah?
0:45:58 > 0:46:01Tried and failed.
0:46:01 > 0:46:03Won't the key be with the door keys?
0:46:03 > 0:46:07If we knew where they were. The police had to force their way in.
0:46:10 > 0:46:12So...
0:46:12 > 0:46:15you two still based down in Florida?
0:46:15 > 0:46:18Most summers, we're here or France.
0:46:18 > 0:46:22- We have a place near Nice now. - All right for some.
0:46:22 > 0:46:27So, life in Edinburgh, you're running a bookshop there?
0:46:27 > 0:46:30Yeah. My customers call me Mr Singh.
0:46:32 > 0:46:36Consultant surgeons are the only doctors allowed to be called mister.
0:46:36 > 0:46:39I never got that far, did I?
0:46:42 > 0:46:44Orla wrote to us,
0:46:44 > 0:46:47- about the civil thing that you had. - Marriage is the word.
0:46:47 > 0:46:51Or is that a dirty word when applied to the likes of me?
0:46:52 > 0:46:56- I was going to say congratulations. - I think we have lift-off.
0:46:56 > 0:46:59Where'd you find those?
0:46:59 > 0:47:01In the study.
0:47:02 > 0:47:05- Nah.- It's not going to give up its secrets easily, is it?
0:47:16 > 0:47:18Want a hand?
0:47:22 > 0:47:24Victor was talking to Alan at lunch.
0:47:26 > 0:47:30Apparently, his marriage didn't work out. He's divorced.
0:47:34 > 0:47:37And you're telling me this because...?
0:47:37 > 0:47:40Oh, yes, right, I see.
0:47:40 > 0:47:42Because you think that, after all these years,
0:47:42 > 0:47:45we might be in for a touching rapprochement?
0:47:45 > 0:47:47Nice try.
0:47:47 > 0:47:51Tell me, does it make it easier punishing me rather than yourself?
0:47:51 > 0:47:53If so, knock yourself out.
0:48:06 > 0:48:09'This evening, he carried his son out into the world.
0:48:09 > 0:48:13'It was only a shabby street behind Paddington Station,
0:48:13 > 0:48:17'but, tonight, it was the focus of world attention.
0:48:17 > 0:48:20'Just the top corner of the heir apparent was visible,
0:48:20 > 0:48:22'his parents were the only...'
0:48:22 > 0:48:23Thanks for coming.
0:48:25 > 0:48:28So, your card business is taking off?
0:48:28 > 0:48:29More than I dared hope.
0:48:32 > 0:48:34But you didn't get me here to talk about that, did you?
0:48:37 > 0:48:40You're the last person I should be telling this to.
0:48:40 > 0:48:43But you're the first person I thought of.
0:48:46 > 0:48:47I'm pregnant.
0:48:50 > 0:48:52I thought you were on the pill?
0:48:52 > 0:48:54I missed a couple.
0:48:54 > 0:48:56Our mercy mission with Jack.
0:48:57 > 0:48:58Forgot to double up.
0:49:02 > 0:49:05Oh, no, not Jack.
0:49:11 > 0:49:14I was afraid you'd be angry.
0:49:15 > 0:49:17Or hate me.
0:49:17 > 0:49:19Or both.
0:49:21 > 0:49:23You're better than that, I know.
0:49:25 > 0:49:26Does Victor know?
0:49:30 > 0:49:32My first thought was abort it.
0:49:35 > 0:49:36But what if it's Victor's?
0:49:40 > 0:49:44Then I thought, "Maybe I only want to get rid of it because I'm scared."
0:49:46 > 0:49:47Scared of what?
0:49:47 > 0:49:49If I have it, I'll disappear.
0:49:51 > 0:49:52I won't be me.
0:49:54 > 0:49:58I asked the doctor at the clinic if there was a...
0:49:58 > 0:50:01prenatal test they could do before it was born, which can tell the...
0:50:01 > 0:50:03- The race.- The paternity.
0:50:05 > 0:50:09They'll only do tests like that when there's a genetic risk
0:50:09 > 0:50:11of a condition incompatible with life.
0:50:15 > 0:50:17If I tell Victor, I'll lose him.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22I mean, it's Jack, isn't it?
0:50:28 > 0:50:30Tell him it's someone else's.
0:50:36 > 0:50:38It's not just one lie in one conversation, is it?
0:50:41 > 0:50:43I'd have to live with it for a lifetime.
0:50:45 > 0:50:47What sort of person would that make me?
0:51:02 > 0:51:05DOOR OPENS
0:51:05 > 0:51:07Man of the house is home!
0:51:07 > 0:51:09Where's that fatted calf?
0:51:13 > 0:51:15I need to talk to you about something.
0:51:15 > 0:51:17Hmm. Sounds ominous?
0:51:20 > 0:51:21Can you just sit down, please?
0:51:32 > 0:51:35MUSIC DROWNS SPEECH
0:52:00 > 0:52:02If not mine, then who?
0:52:27 > 0:52:28You were up north on a case.
0:52:31 > 0:52:33There was a party after the studio, one night.
0:52:36 > 0:52:37I had too much to drink and I...
0:52:41 > 0:52:43Someone you work with?
0:52:49 > 0:52:51It could still be yours.
0:52:53 > 0:52:55- There's no way of knowing until... - It's born
0:52:55 > 0:52:56and we see what colour it is.
0:53:00 > 0:53:02What we have isn't enough for you, is it?
0:53:04 > 0:53:06Yes.
0:53:06 > 0:53:07It was just...
0:53:10 > 0:53:12..a moment of weakness.
0:53:14 > 0:53:17What we have is more than I ever hoped for.
0:53:17 > 0:53:18It's more than I deserve.
0:53:45 > 0:53:47LILLY SIGHS
0:54:06 > 0:54:09Be West Ham. Niggers always go for West Ham.
0:54:09 > 0:54:12Not got the bloody sense they was born with. Ha.
0:54:14 > 0:54:16What did you call me?
0:54:16 > 0:54:20What's up, Sambo? West Ham lost again, have they?
0:54:20 > 0:54:22THEY LAUGH
0:54:30 > 0:54:32Argh.
0:54:32 > 0:54:33Argh.
0:55:09 > 0:55:10What happened to you?
0:55:13 > 0:55:15A moment of weakness.
0:55:33 > 0:55:35Is this it for us, Victor?
0:55:58 > 0:56:02- Cheers!- Your so-called best friend cuts you out of her life for years,
0:56:02 > 0:56:04what do you expect? A red carpet?
0:56:04 > 0:56:07- I had no choice.- I have to move on.
0:56:07 > 0:56:11- What does a special adviser do? - The ghosts in the political machine, the power behind the throne.
0:56:11 > 0:56:13- Motherhood?- Best thing that's ever happened to me.
0:56:13 > 0:56:16Truth be told, I've got you all here under false pretences.
0:56:16 > 0:56:19You go, leave someone else to pick up the pieces after you as usual.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21A trick I never quite mastered.
0:56:21 > 0:56:24I'm a surgeon, it's what I do.
0:56:24 > 0:56:26For fuck's sake, say something!
0:56:26 > 0:56:28Have you any idea of the damage you've done?
0:56:28 > 0:56:29She doesn't deserve you.
0:56:29 > 0:56:31I'll need authorisation before I can touch it.
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