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0:00:32 > 0:00:35- Meinir is a woman - who loves the outdoors...
0:00:35 > 0:00:37- ..mountain biking and clog dancing.
0:00:38 > 0:00:43- She enjoys taking part in physical - challenges, no matter how dangerous.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46- She's determined - to conquer everything.
0:00:48 > 0:00:52- In May this year, - she had no idea she'd be facing...
0:00:53 > 0:00:56- ..the biggest challenge - of her life so far.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42- Six months ago, - Meinir, who's a camerawoman...
0:01:42 > 0:01:47- ..decided to document her - experiences in order to help others.
0:01:47 > 0:01:50- She knew - she'd need help from the outset...
0:01:50 > 0:01:53- ..so she asked me to get involved.
0:01:54 > 0:01:58- That's Meinir for you, - eager to film everything.
0:01:58 > 0:02:03- They told me I had breast cancer, - but unfortunately...
0:02:04 > 0:02:07- ..it wasn't - just localised in the breast...
0:02:07 > 0:02:12- ..it was in the lymph nodes, - in the lymph glands.
0:02:12 > 0:02:15- Meinir is one of the 2,600...
0:02:15 > 0:02:19- ..diagnosed with breast cancer - each year in Wales.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21- She's fighting for her life.
0:02:21 > 0:02:25- She's come to a hospital - in Manchester with her partner...
0:02:25 > 0:02:27- ..to find out if she can conceive.
0:02:27 > 0:02:31- They haven't seen a case like mine.
0:02:31 > 0:02:35- Because I'm young, - what usually happens...
0:02:35 > 0:02:39- ..is that women have the treatment - first and then the chemo.
0:02:39 > 0:02:44- While they're waiting for - the treatment and throughout it...
0:02:44 > 0:02:48- ..they can get on with - the process of freezing the eggs...
0:02:48 > 0:02:52- ..and raising oestrogen levels - and things like that...
0:02:52 > 0:02:55- ..but it's - the other way around with me...
0:02:56 > 0:02:58- ..in that I'm having chemo first.
0:02:58 > 0:03:01- The Manchester doctors - are worried...
0:03:01 > 0:03:05- ..that the oestrogen level - will affect the tumour.
0:03:05 > 0:03:10- The Bangor doctors - want me to start chemo right away.
0:03:13 > 0:03:17- Everybody's telling me - it's my decision...
0:03:18 > 0:03:21- ..but it's difficult because...
0:03:23 > 0:03:28- ..I need to have the chemo - in order to get better...
0:03:28 > 0:03:30- ..and get rid of the cancer...
0:03:30 > 0:03:36- ..but the chances of me having - children are negligible afterwards.
0:03:38 > 0:03:43- I know there are - plenty of women and men out there...
0:03:43 > 0:03:46- ..who can't have children...
0:03:49 > 0:03:53- You try to deal with one thing - and something else comes along.
0:03:57 > 0:04:01- It's just been - a lot to take in this week.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- Actually, I've got a problem too. - I've got piles.
0:04:09 > 0:04:10- You can't say that.
0:04:10 > 0:04:13- You can't say that.- - You've got cancer, I've got piles.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- This is Ems, a Betws-y-Coed lad.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19- His humour will be essential.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21- Meinir is my first love.
0:04:24 > 0:04:28- Lots of people - have childhood sweethearts...
0:04:28 > 0:04:31- ..but you're my best friend - and my first love.
0:04:32 > 0:04:36- It came as a hell of a shock.
0:04:36 > 0:04:42- For the next few months, I'm - going to be the carer, I suppose.
0:04:45 > 0:04:47- I'll look after you.
0:04:48 > 0:04:52- I will. I know what I have to do.
0:04:54 > 0:04:57- Ems competes - in world championships...
0:04:57 > 0:05:04- ..as well as international - and national competitions.
0:05:04 > 0:05:07- He's at a higher level of biking.
0:05:07 > 0:05:11- When we go - mountain biking together...
0:05:11 > 0:05:15- ..he always says to me, - "Go on, Meins, try this!"
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- You got me into it.
0:05:17 > 0:05:22- I liked mountain biking beforehand - but never downhill biking.
0:05:26 > 0:05:28- The problem I've got...
0:05:28 > 0:05:31- ..is that Ems - makes it look so simple...
0:05:31 > 0:05:34- ..because he's good at it.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37- I think, 'Gosh, I can do that!'
0:05:37 > 0:05:41- For Meinir, looking ahead - to the future is important.
0:05:46 > 0:05:49- Although they've told me - I have cancer...
0:05:49 > 0:05:51- ..I'm going to fight it...
0:05:51 > 0:05:53- ..and next year I'm competing...
0:05:54 > 0:05:57- ..in one of the most bonkers - downhill competitions...
0:05:57 > 0:05:59- ..called Megavalanche.
0:06:00 > 0:06:03- Megavalanche - is held annually in the French Alps.
0:06:03 > 0:06:07- It's both a physical - and mental challenge.
0:06:07 > 0:06:12- It's a completely nuts marathon - involving hundreds of cyclists...
0:06:13 > 0:06:16- ..biking 26km downhill.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23- But the following months - will be difficult.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27- To be honest...
0:06:28 > 0:06:30- ..I'm very nervous.
0:06:30 > 0:06:32- If feels as if - I'm about to sit an exam.
0:06:33 > 0:06:36- An exam I haven't revised for...
0:06:36 > 0:06:39- ..and I've no idea what to expect.
0:06:39 > 0:06:43- I feel a little aargh! - at the moment.
0:06:46 > 0:06:49- Here we are for my first session - of chemotherapy.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55- This is - the reception of Alaw Unit...
0:06:55 > 0:06:59- ..a ward for cancer patients - where chemotherapy is administered.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02- The toxic chemicals...
0:07:02 > 0:07:06- ..will kill all cells, - including healthy ones.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14- She will return - every three weeks for four months.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18- Despite their anxiety, - their attitude hasn't changed.
0:07:30 > 0:07:32- It feels really weird...
0:07:33 > 0:07:37- ..that I've reached this ward.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51- I've rubbish veins too, by the way.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53- It goes in your hand.
0:07:57 > 0:08:01- It's a lot to take in, - especially since you're so young.
0:08:08 > 0:08:11- Ems is just here - to get free biscuits.
0:08:12 > 0:08:14- This is the first.
0:08:14 > 0:08:16- This is the first.- - Oh, my God!
0:08:17 > 0:08:19- It's cold and it feels like...
0:08:19 > 0:08:21- It's cold and it feels like...- - You know there's something there.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24- Yes, I can feel it a little. - It's weird.
0:08:25 > 0:08:28- What I expected...
0:08:28 > 0:08:32- ..was to lie here - for hours on a drip....
0:08:33 > 0:08:35- ..and it just went in gradually.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40- I didn't expect to see - a lovely nurse here...
0:08:41 > 0:08:43- You charmer!
0:08:43 > 0:08:45- ..injecting it in.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47- You don't know what to expect.
0:08:48 > 0:08:51- That's the whole thing - when you first start.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01- How do you feel, Meins?
0:09:04 > 0:09:07- I feel - as if I've had a couple of pints.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09- I'm a bit woozy.
0:09:12 > 0:09:17- There are three weeks - between this session and the next.
0:09:17 > 0:09:21- That's when it kills - all the cells in your body...
0:09:21 > 0:09:25- ..in order to kill the cancer.
0:09:25 > 0:09:29- During that time, you're more likely - to pick up infections...
0:09:30 > 0:09:35- ..and all kinds of things.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37- You lose your appetite.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40- I know I'm going to lose my hair.
0:09:42 > 0:09:46- I don't know how I'm going to be - over the next fortnight.
0:09:46 > 0:09:49- This is the bit I'm dreading.
0:09:54 > 0:09:57- I've got my party bag...
0:09:57 > 0:10:01- ..and a bucket for injections.
0:10:01 > 0:10:04- We've been given loads of tablets.
0:10:04 > 0:10:06- Thank you!
0:10:08 > 0:10:11- I've basically finished - the first session of chemo.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19- We're going home now.
0:10:19 > 0:10:24- I'm just going to see how it goes - and how it takes effect.
0:10:24 > 0:10:26- I just have to hope for the best.
0:10:27 > 0:10:32- Two days later, Meinir - has returned to her mother's home.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36- I feel OK at the moment.
0:10:36 > 0:10:40- I feel sick in the morning - and a little at night too...
0:10:40 > 0:10:42- ..but I'm not too bad.
0:10:43 > 0:10:46- I'm quite pleased about that.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49- This is the party bag - I was given in hospital.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53- I've already - taken those because I felt sick.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55- I need to take these now.
0:10:55 > 0:10:57- One of these...
0:10:57 > 0:10:59- ..four of those...
0:11:00 > 0:11:03- ..and the most important thing - I have to do...
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- ..is take my temperature every day.
0:11:14 > 0:11:15- 36.4
0:11:17 > 0:11:18- That's good news.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21- That's good news.- - You're healthy today.
0:11:21 > 0:11:26- The hardest thing for me - is the sitting down.
0:11:26 > 0:11:29- Well, not sitting down - but taking it easy.
0:11:29 > 0:11:32- I can't do it.
0:11:32 > 0:11:35- I'm always flat-out.
0:11:35 > 0:11:39- I've come to a standstill now.
0:11:39 > 0:11:41- They've given me these needles...
0:11:42 > 0:11:47- ..which I have to - stick in my stomach.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50- They asked - if I wanted a district nurse...
0:11:50 > 0:11:52- ..and I said, "No, we'll manage."
0:11:53 > 0:11:55- Here's the needle...
0:11:55 > 0:11:59- ..and what you need to do - is stick it into the stomach...
0:11:59 > 0:12:02- ..and then inject it...
0:12:03 > 0:12:06- ..and pull it back out, OK, Ems?
0:12:06 > 0:12:08- Straight into there?
0:12:08 > 0:12:10- Oh, God!
0:12:12 > 0:12:14- I can't do it.
0:12:19 > 0:12:20- Ooh! OK.
0:12:21 > 0:12:22- Now?
0:12:22 > 0:12:24- Now?- - Yes.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34- That's it.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39- That was fine. That's it.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48- Hello, Meinir.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50- Hello, Meinir.- - Hiya, are you OK?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52- What are you doing?
0:12:52 > 0:12:58- I'm just trying - to sort out all my debts.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02- There's no money coming in - at the moment.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04- I just have to find a way.
0:13:04 > 0:13:08- Perhaps they can change things - around or that I can pay less.
0:13:09 > 0:13:11- Everyone keeps putting you on hold.
0:13:11 > 0:13:14- For 20 minutes at a time.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19- I'm feeling weak at the moment. - I don't feel too special.
0:13:20 > 0:13:24- I thought - I'd get through this easily.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27- I thought, "I'm OK."
0:13:27 > 0:13:33- But my legs are heavy - and I'm tired this afternoon.
0:13:36 > 0:13:40- Oh, well. There are going to be - ups and downs, aren't there?
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0:13:56 > 0:13:58- Bets! Come on, girl!
0:13:59 > 0:14:02- Do you want to go for a walk? - Come on then.
0:14:03 > 0:14:07- Four days after her chemotherapy - session for breast cancer...
0:14:07 > 0:14:11- ..Meinir has another tough day.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13- One, two, three, come on then!
0:14:14 > 0:14:17- I'm not - looking forward to today at all.
0:14:18 > 0:14:23- I was talking to one of my oldest - friends from primary school earlier.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26- She said, - "You've never had short hair.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28- I said, "No, I know."
0:14:29 > 0:14:32- Losing hair is one of - the side effects of chemotherapy.
0:14:33 > 0:14:36- One of her worst fears - is waking up one morning...
0:14:36 > 0:14:38- ..to find her long hair - has fallen out.
0:14:39 > 0:14:41- I'm really nervous. - I don't know why.
0:14:42 > 0:14:44- It might sink in after that.
0:14:45 > 0:14:49- I'm expecting - big chunks of hair to fall out.
0:14:50 > 0:14:54- Are you ready? Through my legs. - Can you go through my legs?
0:14:54 > 0:14:56- Well done!
0:14:59 > 0:15:03- At the moment, everybody I've - seen who's come to visit me...
0:15:04 > 0:15:06- ..has said, "You look well.
0:15:06 > 0:15:11- "I was afraid to come and see you," - and things like that.
0:15:11 > 0:15:14- If this goes, they'll be like...
0:15:14 > 0:15:16- .."Oh. Oh, yes."
0:15:17 > 0:15:20- If you see a bald woman - or someone with a scarf...
0:15:20 > 0:15:24- ..you know - they're going through chemotherapy.
0:15:24 > 0:15:28- You tend to think, - "They're really, really ill."
0:15:32 > 0:15:35- Eilsa, one of Meinir's - oldest friends...
0:15:36 > 0:15:38- ..has the honour - of cutting her hair.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54- I haven't seen my hair yet.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56- Are you ready?
0:15:56 > 0:15:57- Are you ready?- - Yes.
0:15:59 > 0:16:02- Oh, my God!
0:16:05 > 0:16:09- It just doesn't look like me, - does it? Oh, wow!
0:16:09 > 0:16:13- It's so different. I'm just - not used to having short hair.
0:16:24 > 0:16:28- Mam keeps telling me - that I look nice...
0:16:29 > 0:16:31- ..but I hate it.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35- Really I do. I don't like it at all.
0:16:37 > 0:16:41- I'd rather have - a bald head instantly.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44- I'll look like that.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53- Meinir's back at Ysbyty Gwynedd...
0:16:54 > 0:16:56- ..but not for chemotherapy - this time.
0:16:57 > 0:17:01- Within the past two days...
0:17:01 > 0:17:04- ..my hair - has really started to fall out.
0:17:04 > 0:17:05- Is your head sore?
0:17:05 > 0:17:07- Is your head sore?- - A bit, yeah. Look.
0:17:08 > 0:17:09- Wigs!
0:17:09 > 0:17:11- What's it like?
0:17:14 > 0:17:16- I like the colour.
0:17:16 > 0:17:19- What do you think? - Looks more like me.
0:17:19 > 0:17:21- I like the ones with roots.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26- That's cute.
0:17:26 > 0:17:32- This is more like - my hair used to be.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34- I could do a lot more with this.
0:17:34 > 0:17:39- This already has a kink in it, - so I couldn't straighten it...
0:17:40 > 0:17:42- ..so it'd be...
0:17:42 > 0:17:44- I don't know. It's nice.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47- But I think this is the one.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53- Good morning.
0:17:53 > 0:17:54- I've just woken up.
0:17:55 > 0:17:59- This is the morning after - the second chemo session.
0:18:01 > 0:18:05- My hair - has really started to fall out now.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08- This is how it looks.
0:18:13 > 0:18:15- Oh, dear.
0:18:22 > 0:18:24- Is it coming out?
0:18:24 > 0:18:26- Oh, yeah.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28- What do you think of my hair?
0:18:29 > 0:18:32- She had short hair...
0:18:32 > 0:18:35- ..which made her look like a boy, - kind of thing.
0:18:35 > 0:18:40- I didn't recognize her - when she walked in the room.
0:18:40 > 0:18:44- It was really weird. It felt like - I was with a different person.
0:18:45 > 0:18:48- I know it's tight - but that's how I felt sometimes.
0:18:48 > 0:18:53- With her hair gone, only Meinir's - gorgeous face is left.
0:18:57 > 0:19:00- I think - she'll be cuter with a bald head...
0:19:00 > 0:19:03- ..instead of silly little tufts.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05- What are you doing?
0:19:05 > 0:19:08- I'm preparing food - for Meinir Siencyn.
0:19:08 > 0:19:11- This is her super healthy diet.
0:19:12 > 0:19:18- I'm going to stew these apples - in boiling water.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20- They're more nutritious that way.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24- Because they're warm, your body - doesn't have to work so hard.
0:19:25 > 0:19:27- Chemotherapy affects appetite...
0:19:27 > 0:19:32- ..but the body needs nutrients to - fight the cancer and the treatment.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35- A healthy diet is important.
0:19:35 > 0:19:39- Meinir also believes - that herbs keep her body strong.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46- Bloody hell!
0:19:47 > 0:19:50- He's obsessed with wearing my wigs!
0:20:04 > 0:20:07- Before the third session - of chemotherapy...
0:20:07 > 0:20:12- ..Meinir visits the consultant to - check if the treatment is working.
0:20:12 > 0:20:13- So I just carry on with the chemo?
0:20:13 > 0:20:16- So I just carry on with the chemo?- - Yes. I'm happy that it's working.
0:20:16 > 0:20:21- We carry on regardless. There's - no benefit of scanning earlier.
0:20:21 > 0:20:24- The other doctor said to make sure.
0:20:24 > 0:20:28- If we're not certain, then we would, - but I'm happy.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31- Have you had a look? - Is it going down?
0:20:32 > 0:20:35- It's going down. So far so good.
0:20:44 > 0:20:49- Now for the third chemotherapy, and - Meinir contemplates the next step.
0:20:50 > 0:20:53- I get a room to myself today!
0:20:53 > 0:20:57- I'll have surgery - to remove the lymph gland...
0:20:57 > 0:21:02- ..and they'll also remove...
0:21:02 > 0:21:05- ..whatever's left.
0:21:06 > 0:21:08- They told me...
0:21:09 > 0:21:12- .."You will lose your nipple."
0:21:12 > 0:21:14- I thought, 'Oh, great!'
0:21:14 > 0:21:19- Mam's husband's mother - has also been through breast cancer.
0:21:20 > 0:21:23- She had surgery...
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- ..and her nipple - was chopped off and stuff.
0:21:26 > 0:21:31- She said - she was given fake nipples...
0:21:31 > 0:21:33- ..to stick on.
0:21:33 > 0:21:38- Her husband said, "I keep finding - nipples everywhere on the floor."
0:21:38 > 0:21:42- Apparently, - she'd gone shopping to Tesco...
0:21:42 > 0:21:45- ..and went in - with this fake nipple...
0:21:45 > 0:21:49- ..but when she came back, - she couldn't find the nipple.
0:21:49 > 0:21:53- She thought it had fallen - into the tomatoes or something!
0:21:53 > 0:21:57- So some old lady must've had - a fake nipple with her salad!
0:22:06 > 0:22:10- Chemotherapy leaves its mark. - Meinir is feeling ill.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13- I'm feeling really sick.
0:22:13 > 0:22:17- I felt sick earlier...
0:22:18 > 0:22:22- ..and you told me to take - some tablets to make me feel better.
0:22:22 > 0:22:26- I have to take tables - before going to bed too...
0:22:26 > 0:22:29- ..but I don't want to - take them too early...
0:22:29 > 0:22:32- ..otherwise - I'll feel sick during the night.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39- Yes.
0:22:41 > 0:22:43- Sorry.
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0:23:04 > 0:23:07- Mountain biking takes up - most of Ems' time in summer...
0:23:08 > 0:23:11- ..but due to girlfriend Meinir's - cancer treatment...
0:23:11 > 0:23:14- ..Ems hasn't had the opportunity - until now.
0:23:28 > 0:23:31- I was racing today in Llangollen...
0:23:31 > 0:23:34- ..and I was doing really well - in practice.
0:23:34 > 0:23:36- I was going along the track...
0:23:36 > 0:23:40- ..when this child pulled - his bike out to turn around...
0:23:40 > 0:23:42- ..and didn't see me coming.
0:23:43 > 0:23:46- So my finger and handle bars - whacked straight into him.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55- What's happening?
0:23:55 > 0:23:58- I've broken my finger.
0:23:58 > 0:24:02- I'm annoyed more than anything - because it wasn't my fault.
0:24:02 > 0:24:05- Some kid didn't look...
0:24:05 > 0:24:09- ..whacked his bike out - and I went straight into him.
0:24:09 > 0:24:12- I'm glad it's not me - back in hospital again.
0:24:21 > 0:24:25- Two days later, it's Meinir's turn - to return to hospital...
0:24:25 > 0:24:29- ..for her fourth - chemotherapy session.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31- Here he goes.
0:24:31 > 0:24:34- Emyr Davies.
0:24:34 > 0:24:38- He'll start pushing me - off the bed now. Seriously.
0:24:38 > 0:24:44- That's what he's like. I'll be - on the floor and he'll be like that.
0:24:44 > 0:24:47- When you immerse your hand - in hot water...
0:24:47 > 0:24:52- ..the veins rise to the surface, so - she'll be able to choose a good one.
0:24:52 > 0:24:57- The drug I'm having this time - is different from the other three.
0:24:58 > 0:25:01- If I get a reaction, - I have to say straightaway.
0:25:05 > 0:25:09- Get me fruit pastilles - or something like that.
0:25:12 > 0:25:16- Ems is chuffed - that he's going to buy some sweets.
0:25:16 > 0:25:21- This chemotherapy is worse, - I suppose...
0:25:21 > 0:25:24- ..because her nails - are going to come off.
0:25:24 > 0:25:28- That's going to be - another horrible experience.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31- It makes you wonder - what it's doing to her insides.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34- My chest is tight.
0:25:34 > 0:25:35- Your chest is tightening?
0:25:35 > 0:25:37- Your chest is tightening?- - Yes.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43- I'm hating this.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46- Sometimes I'm frightened.
0:25:46 > 0:25:50- It flicks through my mind.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52- I try not to think about it...
0:25:52 > 0:25:54- ..but what if it comes back?
0:25:57 > 0:26:00- I was somehow trying...
0:26:01 > 0:26:04- ..to prepare myself for the worst...
0:26:05 > 0:26:07- ..though it sounds horrible.
0:26:08 > 0:26:11- In 2004, the worst happened - to Meinir's family...
0:26:12 > 0:26:17- ..when her father died six weeks - after he was diagnosed with cancer.
0:26:17 > 0:26:21- It's my parents' anniversary - tomorrow.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24- The day after that - was the day Dad was buried.
0:26:24 > 0:26:28- It just brings it - all back up again for Mam.
0:26:28 > 0:26:30- It's difficult for her.
0:26:30 > 0:26:33- I'm really gutted - that Dad isn't here.
0:26:33 > 0:26:36- He'd have been - the biggest worrier...
0:26:36 > 0:26:38- ..although he'd never show it.
0:26:38 > 0:26:42- Most of my injuries when I was small - were my father's fault.
0:26:43 > 0:26:47- I'd bang into lampposts on my bike - because Dad wanted a race.
0:26:47 > 0:26:51- I broke a rib - while I was sledging...
0:26:51 > 0:26:54- ..because Dad had dared me...
0:26:54 > 0:26:57- ..to go down this slope with a drop.
0:26:57 > 0:27:02- Merry Christmas and a happy New Year - from Dawnswyr Delyn.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04- I hope the year 18...
0:27:05 > 0:27:07- 1989...
0:27:07 > 0:27:11- Meinir's father established - a folk dancing group...
0:27:11 > 0:27:13- ..in 1987.
0:27:13 > 0:27:17- He danced as well as coached - and her mother was the accompanist.
0:27:17 > 0:27:22- She's still the accompanist, though - it's my mother who runs the group.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25- I'm just checking - you're in line with everyone.
0:27:26 > 0:27:31- My mother asked Meinir for help to - prepare for the National Eisteddfod.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36- I'm here to help Dawnswyr Delyn.
0:27:37 > 0:27:39- This is the rehearsal.
0:27:39 > 0:27:44- Dad used to run the group and - lead rehearsals when he was alive.
0:27:44 > 0:27:47- He formed Dawnswyr Delyn - about 25 years ago.
0:27:47 > 0:27:51- I've been invited - to help them with the dancing...
0:27:52 > 0:27:54- ..for the Eisteddfod.
0:27:55 > 0:27:58- I'm only meant to be helping out...
0:27:58 > 0:28:01- ..but I'm there, in amongst them...
0:28:01 > 0:28:04- ..because I throw myself - into things.
0:28:05 > 0:28:09- I'll get home and sit down and - it'll feel like I've run a marathon.
0:28:10 > 0:28:12- "I can't move!" - It's awful, isn't it?
0:28:12 > 0:28:15- Normal people would just relax.
0:28:15 > 0:28:18- But not me.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21- Come on, let's go! Oh, my God!
0:28:22 > 0:28:26- With chemotherapy, you can - either do everything or nothing.
0:28:26 > 0:28:27- I don't want to say anything.
0:28:27 > 0:28:29- I don't want to say anything.- - Say something.
0:28:29 > 0:28:31- I don't know what to say.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34- Are you OK, Meins?
0:28:34 > 0:28:35- No.
0:28:39 > 0:28:42- Meins hasn't been well...
0:28:42 > 0:28:45- ..for the past two days.
0:28:45 > 0:28:48- She's been stuck in bed - and it's been horrible.
0:28:48 > 0:28:50- I phoned Alaw Unit today.
0:28:51 > 0:28:54- She basically told me - to bring her in to the unit.
0:29:10 > 0:29:13- I'm not feeling well with this one.
0:29:13 > 0:29:16- I've been in bed for three days.
0:29:16 > 0:29:19- I have a high temperature.
0:29:24 > 0:29:27- I'm really worried about you.
0:29:31 > 0:29:33- I don't know, I'm just...
0:29:34 > 0:29:37- I think you're too tough, Meins.
0:29:37 > 0:29:41- They've given me my own room...
0:29:41 > 0:29:47- ..instead of in the ward - behind the chemotherapy unit...
0:29:51 > 0:29:53- ..for naughty people.
0:29:54 > 0:29:56- The nurse, no, doctor, sorry...
0:29:57 > 0:29:59- ..she said...
0:29:59 > 0:30:03- ..after looking in my mouth - that my entire body is like that.
0:30:04 > 0:30:06- All my insides are like that.
0:30:19 > 0:30:21- I've just vomited.
0:30:32 > 0:30:35- Although Meinir's weak - and in a great deal of pain...
0:30:35 > 0:30:38- ..Ems tries to lift her spirits.
0:30:38 > 0:30:41- I went for a date with a horse - the other night.
0:30:41 > 0:30:43- Pfffffff!
0:30:59 > 0:31:02- Ems is taking a shower.
0:31:05 > 0:31:07- He's so funny.
0:31:07 > 0:31:10- He makes me laugh - and he always cheers me up...
0:31:10 > 0:31:13- ..even when - I'm feeling really sick...
0:31:13 > 0:31:18- ..and can't answer him - because I'm so weak...
0:31:20 > 0:31:23- ..and concentrating on my breathing.
0:31:23 > 0:31:25- He's still funny.
0:31:25 > 0:31:28- A nurse asked me...
0:31:28 > 0:31:32- ..if we'd been together - a long time and stuff like that.
0:31:34 > 0:31:37- But no, we haven't - been together that long.
0:31:39 > 0:31:43- Then she said, - "Do you live together?"
0:31:43 > 0:31:45- And I said...
0:31:47 > 0:31:51- .."Well, he kind of moved in - without us ever discussing it"...
0:31:52 > 0:31:54- ..which is quite funny.
0:31:59 > 0:32:01- My new hairdryer. What do you think?
0:32:02 > 0:32:05- After a week - of being in a room by herself...
0:32:06 > 0:32:10- ..to avoid any infections, - a special friend pays her a visit.
0:32:13 > 0:32:16- Have you come to see me?
0:32:16 > 0:32:18- Thanks for bringing her.
0:32:26 > 0:32:28- I saw the doctor this morning...
0:32:29 > 0:32:31- ..and she said...
0:32:32 > 0:32:34- ..that I can go home this afternoon.
0:32:34 > 0:32:38- I'm just waiting for more drugs.
0:32:38 > 0:32:42- I thought she was taking the piss - when she brought me...
0:32:42 > 0:32:45- ..this massive bag.
0:32:45 > 0:32:47- Right, let's go home.
0:32:52 > 0:32:56- I lost my balance then. - I still don't feel too well.
0:33:04 > 0:33:09- At last Meinir is allowed home, - but she still feels unwell.
0:33:11 > 0:33:15- Hello. This is - what's been happening today.
0:33:16 > 0:33:19- The joys of chemotherapy.
0:33:19 > 0:33:23- My nose has been bleeding - right up until this came out.
0:33:25 > 0:33:27- It looks disgusting.
0:33:27 > 0:33:31- It's some kind of clot or something.
0:33:31 > 0:33:33- See? I'm fine now.
0:33:33 > 0:33:35- My headache's gone.
0:33:36 > 0:33:38- I don't know what that was.
0:33:38 > 0:33:40- I'll phone the nurse to check.
0:33:40 > 0:33:43- I don't think - it's anything to worry about.
0:33:43 > 0:33:45- It comes with the territory.
0:33:46 > 0:33:48- Anyway...
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0:34:06 > 0:34:08- It's the day of the surgery.
0:34:08 > 0:34:11- Meinir will go under the knife...
0:34:12 > 0:34:16- ..to have the lymph gland and - the lump removed from her breast.
0:34:16 > 0:34:18- A pre-op.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24- I'm ready to go on holiday.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27- Packed and ready to go.
0:34:27 > 0:34:30- I have to take things - more seriously.
0:34:33 > 0:34:37- Come here. Come here.
0:34:37 > 0:34:40- Are you going to give me - a proper hug?
0:34:40 > 0:34:42- Come here and give me a hug.
0:34:51 > 0:34:55- Oh, God, I'm starting - to feel nervous now. Weird.
0:34:57 > 0:34:58- Aah, Betsan!
0:35:07 > 0:35:09- Oh, well, it has to be done.
0:35:10 > 0:35:11- Good luck.
0:35:11 > 0:35:14- Good luck.- - Thanks, Eric. Thank you very much.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32- The monkey's getting it.
0:35:33 > 0:35:36- The monkey's having the operation.
0:35:38 > 0:35:40- How are you?
0:35:42 > 0:35:44- I'm tired.
0:35:46 > 0:35:50- I was really nervous - when we were chatting last night.
0:35:50 > 0:35:53- I've a good feeling - that it'll all be fine.
0:35:55 > 0:35:59- All I hope for - is for Meins to be alright.
0:35:59 > 0:36:01- I'm going down in about 20 minutes.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07- I'm a bit nervous now.
0:36:07 > 0:36:10- It feels like I'm in the gate...
0:36:10 > 0:36:12- ..ready for my first race.
0:36:16 > 0:36:19- They're going to insert a needle...
0:36:20 > 0:36:23- ..to administer the anaesthetic...
0:36:23 > 0:36:26- ..before giving me - another anaesthetic.
0:36:28 > 0:36:31- They're going to remove the lymph - and then the lump.
0:36:35 > 0:36:38- Right, - you'll start drifting off to sleep.
0:36:46 > 0:36:49- Now that Meinir's - under anaesthetic...
0:36:49 > 0:36:51- ..she's ready for surgery.
0:37:25 > 0:37:27- Are you alright, Meinir?
0:37:27 > 0:37:29- The operation's over now.
0:37:31 > 0:37:34- Sorry, I thought you were Ems. - I'm confused.
0:37:34 > 0:37:37- You're coming round - from the anaesthetic.
0:37:43 > 0:37:47- Anaesthetic - makes you say stupid things.
0:37:47 > 0:37:48- Oh, my God!
0:37:49 > 0:37:52- My father was like this - - # Diddle-ee-diddle-ee-dee #
0:37:55 > 0:37:57- It's painful...
0:37:57 > 0:38:02- ..under my armpit.
0:38:02 > 0:38:05- See, I can handle pain like this...
0:38:07 > 0:38:11- ..but chemo pain...
0:38:11 > 0:38:15- ..goes right into your bones.
0:38:15 > 0:38:20- As I said, - chemo pain is loads worse.
0:38:21 > 0:38:24- I just hope they've got it all.
0:38:26 > 0:38:29- I'm just glad it's been done, - to be honest.
0:38:48 > 0:38:52- I'm a bit hoarse because the pipes - are shoved down your throat.
0:38:52 > 0:38:56- I'll sound a little weird.
0:38:56 > 0:38:59- But I'm starting to feel better now.
0:38:59 > 0:39:01- I feel OK after the surgery.
0:39:01 > 0:39:04- My boob is a little swollen.
0:39:04 > 0:39:08- I embarrassed Mr Crawford.
0:39:08 > 0:39:12- He came to check me this morning - and I said...
0:39:12 > 0:39:14- .."Did you insert an implant?"
0:39:14 > 0:39:16- He was all embarrassed!
0:39:18 > 0:39:23- It's the day after the operation.
0:39:26 > 0:39:28- See?
0:39:28 > 0:39:30- I can extend it to the side too.
0:39:30 > 0:39:34- This is the special bag - I carry around.
0:39:34 > 0:39:36- I've two bags.
0:39:37 > 0:39:43- One comes out of the boob and - the other comes out of the armpit...
0:39:43 > 0:39:45- ..to drain all the fluids.
0:39:46 > 0:39:48- They aren't happy - for you to leave...
0:39:48 > 0:39:51- ..until it's less than 30ml.
0:39:51 > 0:39:54- I've been filling it - up to 100ml so far.
0:39:54 > 0:39:56- I won't be going anywhere soon.
0:39:57 > 0:40:02- A fortnight after the operation - and it's another important day.
0:40:07 > 0:40:10- Today we're going to the hospital.
0:40:10 > 0:40:14- Meins will be given the results.
0:40:14 > 0:40:20- Basically, it's taken a week to see - what effect it's had on the cancer.
0:40:21 > 0:40:26- We'll find out if the tests - are negative or positive.
0:40:26 > 0:40:30- I just want to try - and look a little more...
0:40:30 > 0:40:32- ..human.
0:40:32 > 0:40:34- Oh, God, no, not like that.
0:40:34 > 0:40:37- I'm not too good with make-up.
0:40:39 > 0:40:41- Dr Davies is changing my dressing.
0:40:41 > 0:40:43- Argh!
0:40:45 > 0:40:47- I'm paranoid now.
0:40:56 > 0:40:58- I'm stuck.
0:41:03 > 0:41:04- Do you want to know the result?
0:41:04 > 0:41:06- Do you want to know the result?- - Yes, please.
0:41:06 > 0:41:08- There is no result.
0:41:10 > 0:41:14- They told me - the test results weren't ready.
0:41:15 > 0:41:17- We have to go back next week.
0:41:24 > 0:41:26- What can you do?
0:41:26 > 0:41:29- The Ysbyty Gwynedd staff - were like...
0:41:29 > 0:41:32- .. "We're really sorry, - they're not here.
0:41:32 > 0:41:35- They'll be here next week, - definitely."
0:41:35 > 0:41:37- There's nothing you can do.
0:41:37 > 0:41:41- You can film this, if you like, - because I'm not bothered.
0:41:42 > 0:41:44- I just put up with it.
0:41:44 > 0:41:47- You see? Damn him!
0:41:47 > 0:41:50- He's trying to hide - all the dirty dishes...
0:41:50 > 0:41:53- ..because I can't do anything - at the moment.
0:41:54 > 0:41:59- I can't clean, - wash the dishes or lift anything.
0:41:59 > 0:42:02- Look at this place. It's like a tip.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05- Look at all those dishes. Damn him!
0:42:06 > 0:42:10- A week has passed. Will she - have better luck the second time?
0:42:26 > 0:42:28- We've been to the hospital.
0:42:34 > 0:42:37- They still don't have my results.
0:42:39 > 0:42:40- Seriously?
0:42:40 > 0:42:42- Seriously?- - I'm not joking.
0:42:42 > 0:42:46- They make me wait...
0:42:46 > 0:42:50- ..to find out - if I still have cancer or not...
0:42:50 > 0:42:54- ..not just one week...
0:42:54 > 0:42:58- ..but they make me go in again - and make me wait another week.
0:42:59 > 0:43:02- I won't hear until next week. - It'll be almost a month.
0:43:03 > 0:43:06- Something's wrong - in the management somewhere.
0:43:13 > 0:43:15- The wait is excruciating.
0:43:16 > 0:43:20- Meinir is suffering after-effects - from the surgery and chemo.
0:43:20 > 0:43:23- I'm just fed up.
0:43:32 > 0:43:34- It's just...
0:43:36 > 0:43:38- The treatment is difficult.
0:43:40 > 0:43:43- I've remained positive - about everything....
0:43:46 > 0:43:50- ..but this week has been - particularly difficult...
0:43:50 > 0:43:52- ..because I'm...
0:43:55 > 0:43:57- ..waiting for the results.
0:43:59 > 0:44:02- Waiting a week for them was OK...
0:44:02 > 0:44:04- ..but I've been waiting...
0:44:06 > 0:44:10- This is the third week.
0:44:11 > 0:44:15- I don't want to go back in...
0:44:16 > 0:44:18- ..and have more surgery...
0:44:19 > 0:44:22- ..because I'm feeling unwell - after this one.
0:44:26 > 0:44:30- I said it was nothing compared to - having my appendix out...
0:44:31 > 0:44:33- ..but it is.
0:44:33 > 0:44:36- It just hadn't kicked in - at that point.
0:44:40 > 0:44:43- I'm having a bad day, that's all.
0:45:00 > 0:45:05- Five months have passed since Meinir - was diagnosed with breast cancer...
0:45:05 > 0:45:07- ..and three weeks since the test...
0:45:08 > 0:45:10- ..to determine - if the cancer has been removed.
0:45:17 > 0:45:19- Well?
0:45:19 > 0:45:21- We had the results this time.
0:45:22 > 0:45:23- So, um...
0:45:24 > 0:45:26- ..they said...
0:45:26 > 0:45:31- ..that they'd taken - the entire sample...
0:45:31 > 0:45:33- ..and it's clear.
0:45:35 > 0:45:37- Get in! Well done.
0:45:38 > 0:45:40- Fantastic news.
0:45:40 > 0:45:44- Meinir and Ems can look forward - to a happy Christmas and New Year.
0:46:34 > 0:46:37- The past five months - have been a whirlwind.
0:46:38 > 0:46:42- Even when I felt really ill, I was - determined to continue filming...
0:46:42 > 0:46:46- ..hoping it'd help someone - going through the same thing.
0:46:46 > 0:46:49- It's strengthened our relationship.
0:46:49 > 0:46:53- There's a strong bond between us.
0:46:53 > 0:46:59- If we can get through something like - this, we can get through anything.
0:46:59 > 0:47:01- When I've been really low...
0:47:02 > 0:47:06- ..if I'm honest, - I've been thinking...
0:47:06 > 0:47:10- ..that I don't want to be in bed - for months until I die.
0:47:13 > 0:47:17- The next step - is to train for the Megavalanche.
0:47:20 > 0:47:24- I can't believe I'm even - attempting it. The race is mental.
0:47:24 > 0:47:27- It's completely nuts.
0:47:27 > 0:47:31- I must be crazy - for thinking I can do it.
0:47:31 > 0:47:36- But, tough, - if I can do this, I can do the Mega.
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