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0:00:32 > 0:00:35- My name's Meinir Siencyn.
0:00:41 > 0:00:45- It's been a year since I was - diagnosed with breast cancer.
0:00:50 > 0:00:53- Today I find out - if it's the cancer or me...
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- ..who has won the battle.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09- From the very beginning...
0:01:12 > 0:01:15- ..I've filmed - every step of my journey.
0:01:16 > 0:01:19- I need the chemotherapy - to get rid of the cancer...
0:01:19 > 0:01:23- ..but the chances - of me having children are slim.
0:01:23 > 0:01:26- From the six months of chemo...
0:01:26 > 0:01:29- ..to the operation - to remove the tumour...
0:01:30 > 0:01:33- ..I've come to know myself.
0:01:33 > 0:01:36- My strengths and my weaknesses.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38- And also the people around me.
0:01:39 > 0:01:41- My relationship with Ems has grown.
0:01:42 > 0:01:46- If we can get through this, - we can get through anything.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50- At the end - of the first programme for S4C...
0:01:51 > 0:01:54- ..I learnt that the operation - had been a success.
0:01:54 > 0:01:58- It's clear.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00- But there was more to come...
0:02:00 > 0:02:05- ..as I went through more treatment - and settled back into normal life.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10- That wasn't too bad.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13- This is - the next part of the story...
0:02:13 > 0:02:15- ..in my battle against cancer.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40- Hello. We're farming today.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43- Farming with Meinir Siencyn - and Emyr Davies.
0:02:44 > 0:02:45- I'm just helping Dad out.
0:02:45 > 0:02:49- I'm just helping Dad out.- - Don't film me. Don't film me naked.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51- I'm not, I'm focusing on your face.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54- OK, stay up there then.
0:02:54 > 0:02:57- Meinir getting naked.
0:02:57 > 0:03:00- Whoo-hoo-hoo!
0:03:16 > 0:03:21- When I was going through - my cancer treatment and the chemo...
0:03:21 > 0:03:25- ..I never saw that look - of sheer panic on Ems' face...
0:03:25 > 0:03:28- ..that he adopts - when I get on the quad.
0:03:28 > 0:03:32- He's like, "Nooooooo!"
0:03:36 > 0:03:39- Less than a month - after finishing chemotherapy...
0:03:40 > 0:03:43- ..I have to begin - another course of treatment.
0:03:43 > 0:03:46- This time, - I'm dealing with it without Ems.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54- Meinir Siencyn's in the suitcase!
0:03:55 > 0:03:58- I want to come with you, - so I'm hiding in your case.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05- Ta-ta.
0:04:08 > 0:04:13- For the next three weeks, while Ems - is away working in Spain...
0:04:14 > 0:04:17- ..I'll drive two hours every day - to Ysbyty Glan Clwyd...
0:04:18 > 0:04:20- ..to undergo intense radiotherapy.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24- It's less than a month - since I had my results.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26- You think you're getting better...
0:04:27 > 0:04:30- ..and then you're back in - for more treatment.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32- But it's something I have to do.
0:04:32 > 0:04:36- It's like an insurance - to get rid of the cancer...
0:04:36 > 0:04:40- ..and make sure - the blasted thing doesn't return.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44- Hiya. Meinir Siencyn.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46- Take a seat.
0:04:47 > 0:04:49- Let's go over here.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53- I'm still getting hot flushes.
0:04:53 > 0:04:56- It's one of the side effects - of the chemotherapy.
0:04:57 > 0:05:01- Sorry, I have to take off my hat - and coat because I get so hot.
0:05:01 > 0:05:06- I hope it's just the effects - of the chemotherapy...
0:05:07 > 0:05:09- ..not an early menopause.
0:05:09 > 0:05:11- I'd be gutted.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14- It's worried me from the start...
0:05:14 > 0:05:17- ..that I might never be able - to have children.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21- The chemotherapy - stops your eggs being released.
0:05:24 > 0:05:28- But I'm confident - I'll start ovulating again...
0:05:28 > 0:05:32- ..because I had five periods - out of six during chemotherapy.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35- I don't want children yet.
0:05:35 > 0:05:39- Ems definitely - doesn't want children yet.
0:05:45 > 0:05:48- I don't want to think about - things like that.
0:05:48 > 0:05:51- Meinir Siencyn, please. Hiya.
0:05:56 > 0:05:59- It's like - something out of Dr Who, isn't it?
0:06:02 > 0:06:08- The machine blasts a special type - of X-ray around the breast area...
0:06:08 > 0:06:10- ..where I had the surgery.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15- Any remaining cancer cells - are killed.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27- Weird! I didn't know - whether to hold my breath or not.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30- But you - just have to breathe normally.
0:06:30 > 0:06:34- It's like having a camera in your - face. You just have to stay still.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37- You think, 'Did I twitch?'
0:06:37 > 0:06:39- We'll see you tomorrow.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43- Oh, yes. I was going to say - see you in three weeks!
0:06:43 > 0:06:45- No, I'll see you tomorrow.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02- My hair's growing back. Can you see?
0:07:10 > 0:07:15- These marks are like little tattoos - before the treatment.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23- I'm feeling quite emotional.
0:07:24 > 0:07:29- I've been - receiving cards through the post.
0:07:29 > 0:07:34- One woman has sent me a card - and in it she says...
0:07:35 > 0:07:37- .."Dear Meinir, you don't know me...
0:07:38 > 0:07:42- "..but I watched the S4C programme - about you this evening.
0:07:42 > 0:07:46- "I lost my dear husband to cancer - six years ago.
0:07:46 > 0:07:49- "He was called Ems too, - he was full of fun...
0:07:49 > 0:07:51- "..and had a great sense of humour.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55- "Make the most - of your special relationship.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57- "Keep it up! Christine."
0:07:57 > 0:08:02- The support I've received - from people is amazing.
0:08:03 > 0:08:07- It's just a pity Ems isn't here - to share it with me.
0:08:08 > 0:08:11- But I'll tell him about it - on Skype later.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18- I'm tired of driving back and forth.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21- It's tedious - having to come here every day.
0:08:22 > 0:08:27- It doesn't make you feel great. - As you can see, I go very red.
0:08:33 > 0:08:35- Yay! I can see you today.
0:08:37 > 0:08:43- My lovely little friend - always accompanies me.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48- There she is.
0:08:48 > 0:08:52- I'm missing you loads.
0:08:52 > 0:08:56- I was busy before but - I'm starting to get very sore now.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58- My skin's red.
0:09:00 > 0:09:03- Yay! Tanwen's back. - This is my little sister.
0:09:04 > 0:09:06- She's back from New Zealand.
0:09:06 > 0:09:09- You look really good, Meinir.
0:09:18 > 0:09:19- A carol service, Tans.
0:09:21 > 0:09:22- At two o'clock.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25- Those are some of the nurses I know.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29- # Once In Royal David's City #
0:09:31 > 0:09:33- It's Christmas Eve...
0:09:33 > 0:09:38- ..so everyone else - is frantically buying presents...
0:09:38 > 0:09:40- ..and others are in the pub.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43- But I've just had radiotherapy.
0:09:43 > 0:09:47- My penultimate session - and the last one before Christmas.
0:09:47 > 0:09:48- Happy Christmas.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09- Hello. Hiya, Betsan.
0:10:09 > 0:10:13- I'm going to the hospital again.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15- Ysbyty Glan Clwyd. Aren't we, Bets?
0:10:15 > 0:10:17- I've come for...
0:10:19 > 0:10:21- ..my final radiotherapy session.
0:10:21 > 0:10:24- My very last one.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27- Hopefully the last one ever.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30- This is the end of my treatment.
0:10:32 > 0:10:35- Hey, and here he is!
0:10:35 > 0:10:38- Emyr Davies.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40- Hello!
0:10:43 > 0:10:45- Hi, Ems.
0:10:46 > 0:10:48- Alright, sweetheart?
0:10:48 > 0:10:50- Hello, Betsan.
0:10:50 > 0:10:54- Ems is coming - to the last one with me.
0:10:54 > 0:10:58- This is the last actual session - for Meinir Siencyn.
0:11:02 > 0:11:04- Those are nice earrings.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- Are they? Where did I get them?
0:11:08 > 0:11:10- Where did you get those?
0:11:10 > 0:11:13- Nice little earrings from Sion Corn.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15- From Sion Corn?
0:11:21 > 0:11:23- And that's it.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29- Happy?
0:11:29 > 0:11:30- Yes, I am, actually.
0:11:34 > 0:11:36- Thanks for everything, Ems.
0:11:38 > 0:11:41- For looking after me all the time.
0:11:43 > 0:11:47- After eight weeks of going - back and forth the hospital...
0:11:47 > 0:11:49- ..the treatment is finally over.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58- Now it's time for my body - to recover and strengthen.
0:12:01 > 0:12:06- I intend to do that by competing in - a world-famous mountain bike race.
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0:12:16 > 0:12:19- For the first time since I was - diagnosed with breast cancer...
0:12:20 > 0:12:23- ..Ems and I - are going on holiday together.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26- Welcome to Spain.
0:12:26 > 0:12:30- I have to wait another six months...
0:12:30 > 0:12:36- ..to find out if the chemotherapy - and radiotherapy have worked.
0:12:36 > 0:12:39- We thought - we'd come to Spain to relax...
0:12:39 > 0:12:41- ..and aid my recovery.
0:12:41 > 0:12:46- Ems came up with the idea and - I thought, yes, that sounds great.
0:12:46 > 0:12:50- The most dangerous footpath - in the world is here.
0:12:58 > 0:13:03- Since the diagnosis, - I'm determined to fight the cancer.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06- I need to set myself a goal...
0:13:06 > 0:13:08- ..and push my body to heal.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11- I'm planning to do that on a bike...
0:13:11 > 0:13:17- ..by competing in the world-famous - Megavalanche bike race in France.
0:13:17 > 0:13:20- It's a crazy downhill race.
0:13:21 > 0:13:24- 2,000 people - start at the top of a glacier...
0:13:24 > 0:13:27- ..and bike downhill - to the bottom of Alpe D'Huez.
0:13:27 > 0:13:33- I only have five months of training - to get my body strong enough...
0:13:33 > 0:13:35- ..to compete in the Mega.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39- I'm already in training - with Ems in Spain.
0:13:41 > 0:13:43- Are you alright?
0:13:43 > 0:13:45- Yes, but I'm very rusty.
0:13:46 > 0:13:51- I don't like explaining to other - people what I've been through.
0:13:51 > 0:13:55- They look at you cycling - as if to say...
0:13:55 > 0:13:57- .."My God, she's rubbish."
0:13:57 > 0:13:59- This is massive for me.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03- You haven't been on a bike - for eight months.
0:14:03 > 0:14:06- I know. It's hard. It's really hard.
0:14:12 > 0:14:17- # Happy birthday to you
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- # Happy birthday, dear Meinir, - happy birthday to you #
0:14:20 > 0:14:22- Yay!
0:14:22 > 0:14:24- How's your day been?
0:14:28 > 0:14:32- It started off OK - and then it became amazing...
0:14:32 > 0:14:36- ..because Emyr Davies surprised me.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38- With this.
0:14:41 > 0:14:43- Hell, yeah!
0:14:44 > 0:14:48- A weird thing - has happened to me today too.
0:14:48 > 0:14:50- It's my birthday...
0:14:50 > 0:14:54- ..and I start my medication - for the first time.
0:14:57 > 0:15:00- I have to take this - for 10 years now, Ems.
0:15:03 > 0:15:07- It doesn't stop the cancer, - it just stops it latching on.
0:15:07 > 0:15:11- It thinks it's oestrogen. - But never mind.
0:15:11 > 0:15:13- That's the most important thing.
0:15:14 > 0:15:17- During treatment, - one of the hardest things...
0:15:17 > 0:15:19- ..was having no income.
0:15:19 > 0:15:24- But now I'm getting stronger - and Ems has finished college...
0:15:24 > 0:15:25- ..things are about to change.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27- ..things are about to change.- - I was offered a job...
0:15:27 > 0:15:32- ..in a new bike shop - that's just opened in Llanberis.
0:15:32 > 0:15:36- It's my first week back at work - and I'm assisting...
0:15:37 > 0:15:41- ..which is brilliant because - I haven't worked for a year.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44- Going straight back to - camera work would be tough.
0:15:44 > 0:15:47- I'm really tired and I'm struggling.
0:15:47 > 0:15:51- People think I've recovered too, - which is quite difficult.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54- I'm pushed to my limits.
0:15:54 > 0:16:00- I push myself but I'm tired, - so I come back down to there...
0:16:00 > 0:16:03- ..and then I push myself a bit more.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08- I'm less tired then.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11- That was OK.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13- That wasn't too bad.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20- Come on, Bets.
0:16:21 > 0:16:25- It's really nice - leading a normal life again.
0:16:27 > 0:16:30- I have mixed feelings about people.
0:16:33 > 0:16:35- It's very difficult saying this.
0:16:35 > 0:16:38- There are some people...
0:16:38 > 0:16:43- ..such as really close friends - who've helped me through everything.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47- Then there are others who, - when they found out...
0:16:48 > 0:16:50- ..just avoided me.
0:16:51 > 0:16:55- And then there are others who, - when they see me...
0:16:55 > 0:17:00- ..ruffle my hair and say, "Your - hair's growing, you look well."
0:17:00 > 0:17:03- I just feel like telling them - to f*** off.
0:17:03 > 0:17:07- Sorry, but I don't go around - ruffling your hair, going...
0:17:08 > 0:17:12- .."Ooh, you've coloured your hair" - or something like that.
0:17:14 > 0:17:19- I feel like sh*t sometimes - and people say, "You look so well."
0:17:19 > 0:17:25- I'm like, "You've no idea - what I've been through."
0:17:25 > 0:17:29- But there's one person who's - been there every step of the way.
0:17:30 > 0:17:33- There's one question - I have to ask Ems.
0:17:33 > 0:17:36- How are you coping - after all the treatment?
0:17:37 > 0:17:38- Eh?
0:17:38 > 0:17:43- How are you, Emyr Davies, - coping after Meinir's treatment?
0:17:44 > 0:17:46- After my treatment.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48- How am I coping?
0:17:48 > 0:17:51- Yes.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57- I don't know, - it's easy to kind of...
0:17:58 > 0:18:00- ..forget about it.
0:18:06 > 0:18:11- Obviously when you see someone - with a bald head and looking ill...
0:18:11 > 0:18:13- ..you notice the physical changes.
0:18:14 > 0:18:18- You need looking after and I need - to make sure you don't too much.
0:18:19 > 0:18:23- Although you look - much healthier on the outside...
0:18:23 > 0:18:26- ..your organs are still suffering...
0:18:26 > 0:18:29- ..and they've been through - a hell of a lot.
0:18:29 > 0:18:34- You almost want your brain - to block out that horrible time.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39- Don't make me cry.
0:18:39 > 0:18:42- It's OK to cry.
0:18:42 > 0:18:45- We've been through loads.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47- Yes.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51- I guess it's like...
0:18:56 > 0:18:59- ..you shouldn't have - gone through loads.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04- This is - the first time I've cried in ages.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12- I love you, Meins.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17- Thanks for looking after me.
0:19:17 > 0:19:21- I haven't forgotten - that it's been hard for you too.
0:19:22 > 0:19:26- Maybe it's a good thing - that it's all come out now.
0:19:31 > 0:19:34- Are you alright? What are you doing?
0:19:34 > 0:19:36- I'm packing...
0:19:37 > 0:19:40- ..because you and I - are heading to the Megavalanche.
0:19:41 > 0:19:45- This is the bedroom. You've - already seen the garage in the back.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48- How does Meinir Siencyn feel?
0:19:48 > 0:19:49- I don't feel very well.
0:19:49 > 0:19:51- I don't feel very well.- - What's wrong?
0:19:51 > 0:19:55- I don't know, I just - don't feel well. I've overdone it.
0:20:00 > 0:20:02- From Llanberis to the French Alps.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08- I'm finally about to compete...
0:20:08 > 0:20:12- ..in the world's - most extreme mountain bike marathon.
0:20:12 > 0:20:14- I'm scared witless.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18- Through the chemo - and radiotherapy...
0:20:18 > 0:20:23- ..my goal - was to compete in this race.
0:20:23 > 0:20:25- But on the first day of training...
0:20:26 > 0:20:28- ..things hadn't gone to plan.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47- Poor Meinir.
0:20:47 > 0:20:52- I've broken a bone - in that bit that sticks out...
0:20:53 > 0:20:55- ..just by my shoulder.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03- The dream - of competing in the Mega...
0:21:03 > 0:21:05- ..is over once again.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12- You had a bloody good go, though, - didn't you?
0:21:15 > 0:21:17- So...
0:21:18 > 0:21:20- ..I'll try next again next year.
0:21:23 > 0:21:24- I might be out of the race...
0:21:25 > 0:21:28- ..but at least Ems - is able to compete.
0:21:28 > 0:21:33- He has an incredible race, finishing - eighth out of 3,000 mountain bikers.
0:21:36 > 0:21:38- But I've made it here...
0:21:39 > 0:21:41- ..after a hellish year.
0:21:41 > 0:21:46- Just to be on the bike and - actually cycling around the track...
0:21:46 > 0:21:48- ..is just amazing.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51- The next thing is the scan...
0:21:51 > 0:21:55- ..to see if it's clear.
0:21:59 > 0:22:01- Cue the music!
0:22:17 > 0:22:21- Last week I went for the mammogram, - the first scan...
0:22:21 > 0:22:23- ..which is carried out annually.
0:22:24 > 0:22:28- Usually they tell you on the day - if everything's normal...
0:22:28 > 0:22:32- ..but I received a letter - a day later telling me...
0:22:32 > 0:22:37- ..I needed to go back in - for an ultrasound scan.
0:22:44 > 0:22:47- Everyone had a look of terror - on their faces...
0:22:47 > 0:22:50- ..when I told them.
0:22:50 > 0:22:55- But there's no point - worrying needlessly.
0:22:56 > 0:23:00- It's weird - going back into that room again.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03- We had the worst news last time.
0:23:12 > 0:23:14- Hello. How did it go?
0:23:15 > 0:23:17- I'm really...
0:23:18 > 0:23:21- This is massive. A massive result.
0:23:21 > 0:23:25- I'm really happy. No-one - in the world is happier than me.
0:23:26 > 0:23:29- I'll still need annual check-ups...
0:23:29 > 0:23:32- ..and the experience - of having cancer...
0:23:32 > 0:23:34- ..will always be part of my life.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38- But from the very beginning, - by keeping positive...
0:23:38 > 0:23:42- ..I wasn't going to let - the cancer get the better of me.
0:23:44 > 0:23:46- Here she is.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52- Cool.
0:23:52 > 0:23:54- Over and out.
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