0:00:02 > 0:00:06This programme contains some strong language.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06- LAUGHTER - All right, hold up.
0:01:06 > 0:01:09Someone has to say something nice about my friend Herb tonight,
0:01:09 > 0:01:12so I'm going to give it a shot.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14I have followed Herb Lee my whole writing career.
0:01:14 > 0:01:19I followed him through three publishing houses, I followed him when he started his own.
0:01:19 > 0:01:22It's embarrassing to need your editor so badly.
0:01:22 > 0:01:25So I'm gratified to announce that he has now followed me
0:01:25 > 0:01:28to Central Connecticut. Thank you very much.
0:01:28 > 0:01:31I didn't follow you. I had three heart attacks.
0:01:31 > 0:01:35- This was a pre-emptive strike against decrepitude. - LAUGHTER
0:01:35 > 0:01:39Well, whatever brought you here to the beautiful Marigold Retirement Community,
0:01:39 > 0:01:42I'm glad that you're here, right down the road from my place,
0:01:42 > 0:01:45and as long as Pippa keeps making that butterflied lamb,
0:01:45 > 0:01:47I'll do anything, Herb, I'll even caddy for you.
0:01:47 > 0:01:53- That's fine, as long as I don't have to play golf.- Wait, one more thing. I just want to say something else.
0:01:53 > 0:01:57I have known Pippa Lee for 25 years...
0:01:57 > 0:02:00and I think that I will never really know her.
0:02:00 > 0:02:04She is a mystery. An enigma.
0:02:04 > 0:02:09Giving, caring, beautiful, intelligent,
0:02:09 > 0:02:11the very icon of an artist's wife.
0:02:11 > 0:02:14- What are you talking about? - No, you are.
0:02:14 > 0:02:18And who precisely is this artist that Pippa's married to?
0:02:18 > 0:02:21LAUGHTER Exactly!
0:02:21 > 0:02:24Yes, that's my point! That's what it's come down to.
0:02:24 > 0:02:27The one true artist's wife left and she ended up with a publisher.
0:02:27 > 0:02:31To Herb and Pippa and their weird new condo.
0:02:31 > 0:02:35Yeah, I just, er... got three new poems.
0:02:35 > 0:02:36Wonderful!
0:02:36 > 0:02:39If you'd ever like to show them to somebody who's non-judgemental,
0:02:39 > 0:02:41I'd be happy to take a look at them.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44Really? I would like that. That would mean so much to me.
0:02:44 > 0:02:48I really wish Sam wouldn't keep saying Daddy moved to be near him.
0:02:48 > 0:02:52He's a satirist. Anyway, nothing's going to put a dent in Herb's ego.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55It's you I'm worried about.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56It's time for dessert.
0:02:56 > 0:03:01But, Herb, what is the real reason you moved here?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03Scaling down, making life more simple.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06I've liquidated everything so that when I go,
0:03:06 > 0:03:09Pip and the kids can get everything and not give it to the government.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12I thought you loved paying taxes.
0:03:12 > 0:03:16I have to admit, I actually like this house. It's so easy.
0:03:16 > 0:03:18I'm glad you feel that way, sweetie.
0:03:18 > 0:03:22(Though I can't help wondering how many people died here.)
0:03:22 > 0:03:25Your problem is you're too adaptable. You're the adaptable enigma.
0:03:30 > 0:03:34'To be perfectly honest, I've had enough of being an enigma.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40'I want to be known.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50'Like many people, I have lived more than one life,
0:03:50 > 0:03:53'so we're going to have to start at the beginning.'
0:03:53 > 0:03:55Breathe. Breathe.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56Shut up!
0:03:56 > 0:03:59I see the head. Come on, one good push!
0:03:59 > 0:04:02AAARGH! Oh, fuck you!
0:04:02 > 0:04:04- BABY CRIES - Good girl.
0:04:04 > 0:04:07'My birth was marked by several unusual occurrences.
0:04:07 > 0:04:11'First of all, I was covered in fine blonde fur.'
0:04:11 > 0:04:14- BABY CRIES - Why is she furry?!
0:04:14 > 0:04:16When a baby's this late, it sometimes grows
0:04:16 > 0:04:20a little vestigial hair, from the time that we were monkeys.
0:04:20 > 0:04:26- I had a monkey! I had a monkey!- Nurse!
0:04:26 > 0:04:28You can expect to have a beautiful baby girl.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31The hair is just vestigial, as I tried to tell your wife.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33I'm sorry if it offends you, Father,
0:04:33 > 0:04:36but we believe, millions of years ago, humans were covered with fur.
0:04:36 > 0:04:40- I know that. - So, is it a baby or a pet?
0:04:40 > 0:04:45'Suky knew my condition had nothing to do with evolution.
0:04:45 > 0:04:48'It was all her fault, because my mother had a secret,
0:04:48 > 0:04:51'her own little stash of sin.'
0:04:51 > 0:04:54WHISTLES
0:04:56 > 0:04:58How's my pal?
0:04:58 > 0:05:00I'm OK.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04Are you having a hard time living here in Wrinkleberry?
0:05:04 > 0:05:08It's strange having so much time on my hands.
0:05:08 > 0:05:12This place is so easy to maintain, but there's going to be charity work I can find.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14You wanna move back to the city?
0:05:14 > 0:05:15We just sold our apartment.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18Well, we can get another one.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20- Are you serious?- No.
0:05:21 > 0:05:26I'm just having a hard time thinking of this as the end of the line.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31I think it's sort of romantic,
0:05:31 > 0:05:35starting all over, just the two of us.
0:05:35 > 0:05:37So little stuff.
0:05:37 > 0:05:40Must you always look on the bright side?
0:05:42 > 0:05:47- Can I get you anything? Some carrot juice?- No, I'm fine.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56What was that cheese we had for lunch yesterday?
0:05:56 > 0:05:59It was Vacherin. I was so excited to find that at the market.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01I love that cheese.
0:06:13 > 0:06:17'Once I lost my furry coat, my mother was so relieved
0:06:17 > 0:06:20'that she became sort of obsessed with my appearance.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23'She even took a drawing course at the town hall,
0:06:23 > 0:06:25'the sole purpose of which was making pictures of me.'
0:06:25 > 0:06:28Aw, sweetheart, you have the most beautiful eyes.
0:06:28 > 0:06:32I think God took all of our best features and put them on your face.
0:06:32 > 0:06:36Don't you move. Almost done.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38SLAMS PHONE DOWN
0:06:41 > 0:06:44Why, you little...turkey, turkey, turkey, turkey!
0:06:44 > 0:06:46Ouch!
0:06:46 > 0:06:49MUSIC: "TEEN BABY"
0:06:49 > 0:06:51'She dressed me up as angels, cowgirls, movie stars.'
0:06:54 > 0:06:57'I was her prize possession.'
0:06:57 > 0:06:59# You're real, real cool
0:06:59 > 0:07:01# For you I'm a fool
0:07:01 > 0:07:04- # Teen baby, be mine - Honey, I will
0:07:04 > 0:07:08- # Teen baby, be mine - Honey, you know I will
0:07:08 > 0:07:10# Baby, be mine
0:07:10 > 0:07:13# All of the time
0:07:13 > 0:07:15# Oh, don't you know
0:07:15 > 0:07:17# I love you so
0:07:17 > 0:07:19# Glad you're my date
0:07:19 > 0:07:23# With me, you're great Teen baby, be mine... #
0:07:23 > 0:07:25GASPS
0:07:43 > 0:07:45SIREN WAILS
0:07:47 > 0:07:50Who else has a key?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52The cleaning lady.
0:07:55 > 0:07:59But I really can't see Miss Fanning breaking in with a few friends
0:07:59 > 0:08:02to have chocolate cake in the middle of the night.
0:08:02 > 0:08:05- And the maintenance people.- You think it was me? Am I losing my marbles?
0:08:05 > 0:08:08I wasn't saying that. I wasn't...
0:08:08 > 0:08:13- Hi!- There she is. Hi, sweetie!- Hi, Daddy!
0:08:13 > 0:08:16- You look great!- Oh, thanks.
0:08:16 > 0:08:17- Hey, Mom.- Hi.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21I'm starving. Can I get lamb chops?
0:08:21 > 0:08:24- You can get anything you want. Do you want a drink first?- Yeah.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27Oh, Ben says, uh... he can't make it until later,
0:08:27 > 0:08:29so we should just order without him.
0:08:29 > 0:08:33OK, these are just work prints, but...
0:08:33 > 0:08:35- Oh, my God. - ..you get the idea.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40That's incredible. It's amazing...
0:08:40 > 0:08:45Were you in a doorway? Where were you when you took this?
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Yeah, I just waited there. I knew they were coming back.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50That's incredibly powerful. Look at this.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54Oh!
0:08:56 > 0:08:58- These are so...powerful. - These are wonderful.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00- Just wonderful.- Grace, this...
0:09:02 > 0:09:05Hmm. Were you alone when you took these?
0:09:05 > 0:09:07- No, we had a guide. - You had a guide?
0:09:07 > 0:09:12- And I hitched a ride with...Giles Oppenheim.- With Giles Oppenheim? - Mm-hmm.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15- How did you manage that? - He kind of adopted me.
0:09:15 > 0:09:20- Did you hear about that photographer that got shot in Baghdad last week? - Uh-huh.
0:09:22 > 0:09:25You heard about the bomb?
0:09:25 > 0:09:27- Ben, shut up.- What bomb? - No, it's nothing. Ben!
0:09:27 > 0:09:32She was with that Oppenheim fellow and they heard the whistle.
0:09:32 > 0:09:33WHISTLES
0:09:33 > 0:09:38He wanted to go left, but she saw an alley towards the right and she pulled him towards it,
0:09:38 > 0:09:41and that's when the bomb hit. And if they'd gone left,
0:09:41 > 0:09:44they would have been smashed to smithereens.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46She thinks she's immortal now.
0:09:46 > 0:09:50That's a complete distortion. Why can't you ever not say something?
0:09:50 > 0:09:52I do not know.
0:09:52 > 0:09:56Everybody knows you're a killer but you gotta be careful. You have to use common sense.
0:09:56 > 0:10:01I do. Dad, look... There's no way that I'm not going to go back.
0:10:01 > 0:10:06If you had seen what I saw, you'd feel the same. You'd want to give these people some sort of dignity.
0:10:06 > 0:10:10- Just be careful.- Anyway, I'm going to Baghdad Saturday.
0:10:10 > 0:10:15- What's new with you?- Oh...I found a book. A real cash cow.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20Since when do you say "cash cow"?
0:10:20 > 0:10:24- I never said it because I never found one before.- What's it about?
0:10:24 > 0:10:29Oh, it's about war and romance and, er, bad weather.
0:10:29 > 0:10:31Is it good?
0:10:31 > 0:10:35A certain kind of good. Highbrow for lowbrows or lowbrow for highbrows.
0:10:35 > 0:10:39Summer reading for people with multi-million-dollar beach homes.
0:10:39 > 0:10:43- Used to be us.- Yeah, but we still wouldn't have read this book.
0:10:43 > 0:10:46So how are you, Ben? How is your paper coming?
0:10:46 > 0:10:48- It's fine.- What's it about?
0:10:48 > 0:10:50- The right to die.- The right to die?
0:10:50 > 0:10:52Or the right to kill.
0:10:55 > 0:10:59MUSIC: "That's All I want" by Bobby Day
0:11:03 > 0:11:05# A sweet little kiss when we embrace
0:11:05 > 0:11:08# A pretty little smile that's always on your face... #
0:11:08 > 0:11:12'Suky's energy was unflagging. Day and night.
0:11:15 > 0:11:19'In spite of an apparently weak thyroid,
0:11:19 > 0:11:22'for which she took pills at seven each morning,
0:11:22 > 0:11:25'12 noon, and four each afternoon.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28'I was the only one who knew she was secretly pretending
0:11:28 > 0:11:31'to be in a commercial half the time,
0:11:31 > 0:11:34'or a movie, and she was the star.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37'I thought she was absolutely perfect.'
0:11:37 > 0:11:40Mom, can I have some more milk?
0:11:40 > 0:11:41Mom...
0:11:41 > 0:11:44'Then there were days when Suky shorted out...
0:11:44 > 0:11:46'like a run-down robot.'
0:11:47 > 0:11:49Eat up, kids.
0:11:49 > 0:11:54'I always felt my real mother had disappeared in those moments. It scared me and made me angry.
0:11:58 > 0:12:01'I thought it must be my fault that she was sad,
0:12:01 > 0:12:04'and it was up to me to make her happy again.'
0:12:13 > 0:12:17I thought maybe you forgot to say goodnight.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26'Her moods ruled my life.'
0:12:33 > 0:12:36My baby...
0:12:39 > 0:12:42DOORBELL RINGS Oh, hello, Dot.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Would you like some coffee?
0:12:44 > 0:12:47Oh, no, I-I've already had some.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50- This is my son, Ben. - Oh, the lawyer?
0:12:50 > 0:12:53- Not yet. Nice to meet you. - And Herb. You met Herb.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56- Oh, hi, Herb.- Hi.
0:12:56 > 0:12:57Oh, my Lord.
0:12:57 > 0:13:01That's Mr Swaggart. He needed to go.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06Um, h-have a seat.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09You know, there are other young wives here.
0:13:09 > 0:13:12You see them...jogging around.
0:13:12 > 0:13:16- Is everything OK? - Well, yes, we're...we're fine.
0:13:18 > 0:13:20But my son, um...Chris...
0:13:21 > 0:13:24- In Utah?- Yes.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26He might be coming...east.
0:13:26 > 0:13:31Oh, that should be nice, if they would move near you.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34The thing is, he's had some kind of crisis with his wife, and...
0:13:34 > 0:13:36..he's left her...
0:13:38 > 0:13:41..and he's...he's living in his car.
0:13:41 > 0:13:44I just don't know what to do.
0:13:44 > 0:13:46He was always sort of half-baked.
0:13:48 > 0:13:49You know what I mean?
0:13:53 > 0:13:56You know, it's painful, I know...
0:13:58 > 0:14:02..but sometimes you just have to maybe accept they are who they are.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06I mean, I feel that with my daughter.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08You're right.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10HERB CLEARS THROAT
0:14:10 > 0:14:13I knew that I should come to you.
0:14:13 > 0:14:14I just had a feeling.
0:14:16 > 0:14:20- He's living in his car? - Yes, she said he was half-baked.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22I wonder what that means.
0:14:22 > 0:14:24It's code. It means halfwit.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26PHONE RINGS
0:14:26 > 0:14:27Hello?
0:14:27 > 0:14:29Hello, Marianne.
0:14:29 > 0:14:32What?
0:14:32 > 0:14:36What? No, tell him 45 is the absolute top offer.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Well, if he goes somewhere else, he goes somewhere else.
0:14:40 > 0:14:44Stop worrying. Everything's fine. You're doing a fantastic job.
0:14:44 > 0:14:46Have a nice morning, Marianne.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48God! That woman's going to drive me crazy!
0:14:48 > 0:14:52Your blood pressure went from 120/90 to 148/100 in that one conversation.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55Since when did you become a registered nurse?
0:14:55 > 0:14:59- A little appreciation for your ministering angel...- Would you rather go to the doctor's office?
0:14:59 > 0:15:03That woman's going to drive me crazy. We gotta change our number.
0:15:03 > 0:15:05- Can we get an office? - An office? Why?!
0:15:05 > 0:15:09I spent 40 years building up this company and they're crapping it up.
0:15:09 > 0:15:11They're children there. Absolute babies.
0:15:11 > 0:15:13If I had an office, I can be there from ten to one,
0:15:13 > 0:15:18I could talk to Marianne, read my manuscripts and then, when I come home, boom - I'm retired.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21That way when you and I are together we're really together.
0:15:21 > 0:15:26- You had three serious heart attacks. Is that not enough for you?- Yeah.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28- I gotta go.- Bye, sweetheart.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34- Love you.- See you.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37Back home to Brooklyn.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39OK, sweetheart. Thanks.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44HAMMERING
0:15:54 > 0:15:55What's happening here?
0:15:58 > 0:16:02OK. If I'm losing my marbles, so be it.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04But I need proof.
0:16:19 > 0:16:23'How long before he loses his mind completely?
0:16:32 > 0:16:34The half-baked son is moving in!
0:16:34 > 0:16:36Wonderful.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39PIANO PLAYS
0:16:39 > 0:16:43# After the ball is over
0:16:43 > 0:16:48# After the break of morn
0:16:48 > 0:16:52# After the dancers' leaving... #
0:16:52 > 0:16:55Pippa! Glad you could come by.
0:16:55 > 0:16:57A little eye candy.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00Thank you for having me. That's for you and Dot.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02I...wish you would keep an eye on Dot.
0:17:02 > 0:17:07She's having a hard time. I know she talks to you.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09Well, sure. Um, where is she?
0:17:09 > 0:17:13He won't come out! Can you believe it?
0:17:13 > 0:17:15A 35-year-old man hiding in his room
0:17:15 > 0:17:17when his parents are throwing a party for him?
0:17:17 > 0:17:22I told her this was a bad idea. It's right down the hall.
0:17:22 > 0:17:23- OK.- Spare bedroom.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26- Get her to drink a Pepsi-Cola or something.- OK.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28I'm not going out there!
0:17:28 > 0:17:31You can go out there for five minutes.
0:17:31 > 0:17:35- You've got to eat something. - Why are you crying? Stop crying.
0:17:35 > 0:17:38- SHE KNOCKS ON DOOR - Yeah? Who is it?
0:17:38 > 0:17:40Um, it's Pippa Lee. I'm looking for Dot.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42Oh, dear.
0:17:45 > 0:17:48Um, hi, Dot. Johnnie asked me to find you.
0:17:48 > 0:17:52Well, look at me. I can't go out there.
0:17:53 > 0:17:56I'm Pippa Lee.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58Chris.
0:18:02 > 0:18:05Oh, why are you putting that on?
0:18:05 > 0:18:09I ironed you that shirt I got you.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12Excuse me, but there's something I need to do.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14Where are you going?
0:18:15 > 0:18:18Oh...
0:18:18 > 0:18:20Where are you...?
0:18:20 > 0:18:22He was the sweetest little boy.
0:18:22 > 0:18:25I mean, you just can't imagine.
0:18:25 > 0:18:29When you adopt, you just don't know what you're going to get.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33ENGINE STARTS
0:18:33 > 0:18:36- TV:- 'Look out! Thank God she didn't fall in.'
0:18:36 > 0:18:41'Amazingly, it took me 16 years to figure out what was behind Suky's personality.'
0:18:43 > 0:18:46- She's taking dexedrine. - Who is?- Mom.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51- What's dexedrine?- Speed.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54It's why she never sleeps, why she acts so weird.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56Mom doesn't act weird.
0:19:06 > 0:19:10- Mom, why do you take this stuff?- Hmm? - These pills. Why do you take them?
0:19:10 > 0:19:13It's my medicine. Can you put it back, please?
0:19:17 > 0:19:19Chester told me it was speed.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21Chester doesn't know what he's talking about.
0:19:21 > 0:19:23So what would happen if you didn't take them?
0:19:23 > 0:19:27I'd get fat, like Grandma Sally. Is that what you want?
0:19:27 > 0:19:31You all want me to walk around like some sick walrus?
0:19:31 > 0:19:35- No.- How about you just let me do my work?
0:19:35 > 0:19:40Better yet, why don't you help me? Why doesn't anybody around here help me?!
0:19:40 > 0:19:43The cross is made up of a vertical beam and a horizontal beam.
0:19:43 > 0:19:47The vertical beam points to the sky, to the spirit.
0:19:47 > 0:19:50The horizontal beam is the line of the earth, of life on earth.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54That's what's so neat about Jesus. He wasn't just the Son of God...
0:19:54 > 0:19:57I'd like to know what you're really like.
0:19:57 > 0:20:00- What do you mean? - Without that stuff.
0:20:01 > 0:20:06Stop being so overdramatic. You're blowing this way out of proportion.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09So stop. I don't care if you get fat.
0:20:10 > 0:20:12It's my medicine.
0:20:19 > 0:20:20OK, fine.
0:20:21 > 0:20:24Let's just hope I don't blow up.
0:20:24 > 0:20:28Father, thank you for this food, for the gift of being together as a family.
0:20:28 > 0:20:32For these beautiful children around me.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35'Suky's cold turkey lasted exactly one week.'
0:20:35 > 0:20:38MUSIC: "Little Turtle Dove" by Bobby Day
0:20:41 > 0:20:45Who is the President? Does anyone know who the President is?
0:20:45 > 0:20:48Boys, I think we all know it's lawn-mowing day tomorrow.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51'Imagine a dinner like this that went on for an entire year.'
0:20:51 > 0:20:56I know you're very anxious to get out in the woods...
0:20:56 > 0:21:00'She was taking more and more of the stuff.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05'I never knew who she was going to be from one minute to the next.'
0:21:05 > 0:21:08And I also would like someone to take care of the gutters...
0:21:13 > 0:21:16# Can't you hear me calling, calling?
0:21:16 > 0:21:18# Calling for your love? #
0:21:18 > 0:21:20- Excuse me. Pippa! - # Can't you hear me... #
0:21:43 > 0:21:46ROCK MUSIC BLASTS
0:21:53 > 0:21:55- TURNS MUSIC DOWN - What is going on here, miss?
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Come dance with me, Mom. Mommy, dance with me, OK?
0:21:58 > 0:22:00I just want you to dance with me.
0:22:00 > 0:22:04- What is going on? - Put your feet on. Come on, remember?
0:22:04 > 0:22:07WHIMPERS
0:22:07 > 0:22:09Mommy, we got our own little secret now, OK?
0:22:11 > 0:22:13I totally did it.
0:22:13 > 0:22:16What? What are you talking about?
0:22:16 > 0:22:18Huh?
0:22:18 > 0:22:19I'm high too.
0:22:21 > 0:22:24Now we can both be high together, OK? You and me, Mom.
0:22:24 > 0:22:27Oh, you took my medicine. How much did you take?
0:22:27 > 0:22:31I don't know. It's OK, though, Mommy. I love you. I love you.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34Mom, I love you so much.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36SOBBING
0:22:36 > 0:22:40We just can't tell your dad about this, OK?
0:22:42 > 0:22:44Are you OK with this?
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Yeah.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59I am so...
0:22:59 > 0:23:01- SICK OF YOU!- You...!
0:23:01 > 0:23:05I knew you were bad from the day you were born! You...!
0:23:05 > 0:23:07NO-O!
0:23:16 > 0:23:20'She was never going to back down. She was never going to change,
0:23:20 > 0:23:23'even if it meant dragging me down with her.'
0:23:55 > 0:23:57(Oh, Herb!)
0:24:39 > 0:24:42Herb. Herb!
0:24:42 > 0:24:45Herb! Herb, wake up! It's me!
0:24:45 > 0:24:47- What?- It's me on the video.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Hold on, kid. What are we talking about here?
0:24:49 > 0:24:52The chocolate cake and the yoghurt.
0:24:52 > 0:24:56- I just saw it on the video. It's horrible.- It was you?
0:24:56 > 0:24:59I was sitting on the floor, eating like an animal!
0:25:01 > 0:25:03Herb...I think I'm going insane!
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Maybe I'm going insane.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Come here.
0:25:10 > 0:25:12Take it easy.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20Look at it this way. You being a sleepwalker
0:25:20 > 0:25:23is a lot better than me being senile, isn't it?
0:25:25 > 0:25:28- Hmm?- Of course it is.
0:25:29 > 0:25:32Anyway, sleepwalkers are a dime a dozen.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34You'll never get off a murder rap that way.
0:25:34 > 0:25:36SHE LAUGHS
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Oh, my God.
0:26:18 > 0:26:19Pippa Lee, right?
0:26:19 > 0:26:21Oh, hello.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25You got a job already!
0:26:25 > 0:26:27I'm working my way to the top.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31It's a beautiful day.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33Trying not to notice.
0:26:34 > 0:26:37Oh, and a pack of Marlboro Lights.
0:26:39 > 0:26:41- Costly habit.- I don't really...
0:26:41 > 0:26:43I don't smoke, I just, um...
0:26:44 > 0:26:47You don't work here at night, do you?
0:26:47 > 0:26:50I haven't yet. Why do you ask?
0:26:50 > 0:26:52Oh, I just always thought...
0:26:52 > 0:26:55what a horrible job it would be
0:26:55 > 0:26:57just waiting for someone to buy cigarettes or something.
0:27:00 > 0:27:02Matches?
0:27:02 > 0:27:04Please.
0:27:07 > 0:27:11I'm sorry about ducking out on you. I'm not a big party person.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16Oh, no, no, no, I shouldn't have interrupted.
0:27:17 > 0:27:20Um, actually, I don't need a bag. That's OK.
0:27:20 > 0:27:22And give your mother my best.
0:27:28 > 0:27:30These strawberries are so sweet.
0:27:30 > 0:27:32- Hmm?- Strawberries. So sweet.
0:27:32 > 0:27:34Mmm. Maple Bank Farm.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35How's the book coming?
0:27:37 > 0:27:39I'm 100 pages in. Who knows?
0:27:39 > 0:27:41You know.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43How do you know I know?
0:27:43 > 0:27:45Cos you always do that.
0:27:45 > 0:27:48You pretend it's not going to work when you know it is.
0:27:48 > 0:27:52I have an idea. Why don't you finish all my conversations for me,
0:27:52 > 0:27:55since you know what I'm thinking? It'll save us a lot of time.
0:27:55 > 0:27:57Well, there's a good idea.
0:28:00 > 0:28:02Do bats really get in your hair?
0:28:04 > 0:28:07Can you please just come up with one thing
0:28:07 > 0:28:10that isn't a weird little cliche?
0:28:10 > 0:28:14I think I left the lights on in the car.
0:28:40 > 0:28:44'Aunt Trish was the kindest person I had ever known.'
0:28:45 > 0:28:47We can talk about it later.
0:28:51 > 0:28:53Go get some rest.
0:29:03 > 0:29:04Who are you?
0:29:09 > 0:29:11I'm Kat.
0:29:11 > 0:29:13This is my room.
0:29:13 > 0:29:15Oh, I'm sorry.
0:29:15 > 0:29:18No problemo.
0:29:20 > 0:29:22CONTINUES TYPING
0:29:28 > 0:29:31- DOOR OPENS - Hey. Did you sleep OK?
0:29:34 > 0:29:37- Who's Kat? - Uh, she's my roommate.
0:29:37 > 0:29:40Listen, your parents are going to be here in a few hours.
0:29:40 > 0:29:43What?
0:29:43 > 0:29:46Honey, you have to deal with them sooner or later.
0:29:46 > 0:29:49You can stay with me, so long as you end up with a high-school diploma.
0:29:49 > 0:29:52I know there's a problem at your house.
0:29:52 > 0:29:53- You do?- Mm-hm.
0:29:56 > 0:30:00No-one else is going to say it, so I will. You did good getting away.
0:30:03 > 0:30:04Hmm?
0:30:05 > 0:30:07Ta-da.
0:30:09 > 0:30:11- OK, bye.- Bye. Bye.
0:30:15 > 0:30:17See you tonight, Pippa.
0:30:18 > 0:30:20Bye.
0:30:20 > 0:30:22Wow, Aunt Trish.
0:30:22 > 0:30:26We're a couple of black sheep, you and me.
0:30:32 > 0:30:34I'm not running away.
0:30:34 > 0:30:36I'm just done, that's all.
0:30:38 > 0:30:39What does that mean, you're done?
0:30:41 > 0:30:44It means I don't wanna live with you.
0:30:44 > 0:30:50- Oh, so this is all my fault.- What's all your fault?- What you did to me!
0:30:52 > 0:30:54I didn't do anything to you.
0:30:56 > 0:31:00I'm done. Don't you get it?
0:31:00 > 0:31:03You're not even going to come home for Christmas any more?
0:31:03 > 0:31:05No, I didn't say that. I...
0:31:05 > 0:31:07Of course I will, Mom.
0:31:10 > 0:31:14I just... I think it's better if I don't live there any more.
0:31:14 > 0:31:17What...what did I do to you?
0:31:19 > 0:31:22What did I do to you to make you so secretive and unhappy?
0:31:24 > 0:31:26Nothing.
0:31:27 > 0:31:31- What did I do to you?- Please, Mom.
0:31:31 > 0:31:32Please.
0:31:37 > 0:31:39Don't be sad.
0:31:39 > 0:31:42No, no, you don't be sad, honey, honey.
0:31:42 > 0:31:46My baby. It's OK. I love you so much.
0:31:49 > 0:31:51It'll be OK, OK?
0:31:54 > 0:31:56- I can't. I can't!- Pippa?
0:31:56 > 0:31:59- I'm done!- Pippa!
0:31:59 > 0:32:02I promise!
0:32:02 > 0:32:04I promise!
0:32:18 > 0:32:21'I would never go home for Christmas or anything else.
0:32:32 > 0:32:34'I was free.'
0:32:48 > 0:32:50- Thank God.- Chocolate? - I thought you'd left me.
0:32:53 > 0:32:56I can't take it any more. He's such a prick.
0:32:56 > 0:32:59Aw. Sam can have a mean sense of humour.
0:32:59 > 0:33:02Look, maybe if you laughed along?
0:33:02 > 0:33:05I have been laughing for four years and now I'm crying.
0:33:05 > 0:33:08I think Sandra's having an affair.
0:33:08 > 0:33:12What makes you think so?
0:33:12 > 0:33:16Well, she's talking about splitting with Sam, and...
0:33:16 > 0:33:19she's terrified of being on her own, you know, and it just adds up.
0:33:19 > 0:33:22Maybe she just wants you to think she's having an affair,
0:33:22 > 0:33:26so you'd tell me, and I'd tell Sam, and he starts treating her better.
0:33:26 > 0:33:29You really think Sandra's that conniving?
0:33:31 > 0:33:33- It's what women are like, a lot of them.- Conniving?
0:33:33 > 0:33:36No, it's not conniving, it's human nature.
0:33:36 > 0:33:40It's survival of the fittest. Need I refresh your memory?
0:33:40 > 0:33:42Never mind.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46I don't like this book.
0:33:47 > 0:33:49I'm going to sleep.
0:33:55 > 0:33:57I still think she's having an affair.
0:34:00 > 0:34:04Oh, by the way, I think I found you an office.
0:34:06 > 0:34:09- This is perfect.- Oh, I'm so happy.
0:34:09 > 0:34:12It only took two days to get the furniture.
0:34:12 > 0:34:17I just thought it'd be great to have a place away from Marigold Village.
0:34:18 > 0:34:22What's this for? In case I get paper cuts? Drop a phone on my foot?
0:34:22 > 0:34:25Old people bleed just like young ones, sweetheart.
0:34:25 > 0:34:28Why don't we get an EKG for the corner, an oxygen tent over there?
0:34:28 > 0:34:30OK, I'll leave you to it.
0:34:30 > 0:34:32Thank you for this.
0:34:32 > 0:34:34What a sweet woman you are.
0:34:38 > 0:34:40TYRES SCREECH
0:34:40 > 0:34:41CARS CRASH
0:34:47 > 0:34:48Jumped right out at me.
0:35:03 > 0:35:05Is he yours?
0:35:10 > 0:35:12WHINING
0:35:14 > 0:35:15Shit.
0:35:17 > 0:35:19SPEAKS INAUDIBLY
0:35:30 > 0:35:33- Hi. I'm so sorry I'm late.- Oh, hi!
0:35:33 > 0:35:35- That's a beautiful purse. - Oh, thank you.
0:35:35 > 0:35:38Oh, God. You look so beautiful.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41What are you doing different?
0:35:41 > 0:35:42It's the indolence.
0:35:42 > 0:35:46I wish I could be peaceful and good like you.
0:35:46 > 0:35:48Good?
0:35:51 > 0:35:54- What is it?- I just...
0:35:54 > 0:35:56It's over between Sam and me.
0:35:56 > 0:35:59Oh...
0:35:59 > 0:36:03And it's just all so completely, completely messed up,
0:36:03 > 0:36:05and I don't know what to do.
0:36:06 > 0:36:09I'm never going to have a normal life.
0:36:11 > 0:36:15You can be married to anybody, if that's what you're worried about.
0:36:15 > 0:36:18Anybody?
0:36:18 > 0:36:21Marriage is an act of will.
0:36:21 > 0:36:22I mean, I adore Herb,
0:36:22 > 0:36:26but our marriage functions because we will it to.
0:36:26 > 0:36:31If you leave love to hold everything together, you can forget it.
0:36:31 > 0:36:34Love comes and goes with the breeze, minute by minute.
0:36:34 > 0:36:38But you make it sound all so unromantic.
0:36:38 > 0:36:43Pick any man over 50 here. Either one of us could be married to him.
0:36:44 > 0:36:45Um, what about that one?
0:36:48 > 0:36:51He just needs his routines, that's all.
0:36:51 > 0:36:57I bet, if you anticipate his needs before he knows he has them, he'll be docile as a lamb.
0:36:58 > 0:36:59That one?
0:37:01 > 0:37:04He needs a lot of praise,
0:37:04 > 0:37:07but so long as you stick your finger up his ass while he's coming,
0:37:07 > 0:37:11he won't give you any trouble at all. I'm kidding. I was kidding.
0:37:12 > 0:37:15'I wonder if maybe I'm having a very quiet nervous breakdown.'
0:37:15 > 0:37:18Oh, did you get the boots?
0:37:18 > 0:37:22Yes. I mean, they're on hold, but I got 'em. I did it.
0:37:22 > 0:37:25Good. Good for you. You deserve them.
0:38:17 > 0:38:18Mrs Lee?
0:38:27 > 0:38:30- I want some cigarettes.- What kind?
0:38:30 > 0:38:32The white ones.
0:38:32 > 0:38:34Marlboro Lights?
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Pippa.
0:38:50 > 0:38:53Oh, my God.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59It's OK.
0:39:00 > 0:39:03Would you like me to drive you home?
0:39:16 > 0:39:19Maybe you shouldn't tell anyone about this.
0:39:19 > 0:39:21I'll try not to.
0:39:21 > 0:39:23You'll try not to?
0:39:25 > 0:39:28It might slip out one day.
0:39:28 > 0:39:29What?
0:39:36 > 0:39:39I think I just figured out what's so odd about you.
0:39:43 > 0:39:45You can't lie, can you?
0:39:53 > 0:39:56OK. Well, thank you.
0:40:35 > 0:40:37What's up?
0:40:37 > 0:40:40Pippa, for Chrissakes, I'm not dead yet.
0:40:43 > 0:40:44I'm sorry.
0:40:50 > 0:40:52'Aunt Trish's apartment was a haven
0:40:52 > 0:40:56'after the hysteria of my mother's household.
0:40:56 > 0:41:00'I fit in easily with the two of them,
0:41:00 > 0:41:03'but was secretly fascinated by Kat.
0:41:03 > 0:41:08'Maybe because she seemed a little bit dangerous.'
0:41:08 > 0:41:10- Bye.- Bye, baby.
0:41:19 > 0:41:23So, chicklet... Boom, boom! What's your favourite subject?
0:41:23 > 0:41:26Um, I don't really have one.
0:41:26 > 0:41:29- Well, what do you like? - Nothing in particular.
0:41:29 > 0:41:33- You must be good at something. - Nope.
0:41:33 > 0:41:35For the record, I think you're special.
0:41:35 > 0:41:38- Special how?- Special like I can't believe you landed in my lap.
0:41:38 > 0:41:41- KNOCK AT DOOR - Almost makes me believe in destiny.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46- Hey.- Hey.
0:41:46 > 0:41:49- This is my friend Shelly.- Wow.
0:41:49 > 0:41:51Shelly, this is Pippa.
0:41:51 > 0:41:54- You were right. She's perfect. - Mm-hm.
0:41:54 > 0:41:57Let's get this show on the road! Whoo-hoo!
0:41:57 > 0:41:59So...what do I do?
0:41:59 > 0:42:02When I was in the film business,
0:42:02 > 0:42:06we never asked questions. We just showed up and let shit happen.
0:42:06 > 0:42:09Just look at the camera like it's someone you know and don't like.
0:42:09 > 0:42:12That's the secret. Yeah, like that. That's Kitty.
0:42:12 > 0:42:15- Who's Kitty? - The girl in the novel she's writing.
0:42:15 > 0:42:19- That's what the pictures are for. - Kitty is...
0:42:19 > 0:42:22every woman's wild side. She's fearless.
0:42:22 > 0:42:24Don't you wish you were fearless?
0:42:24 > 0:42:26I guess so.
0:42:26 > 0:42:29Yeah, if you were, you wouldn't cry every time you hung up the phone
0:42:29 > 0:42:31after talking to your mommy.
0:42:31 > 0:42:33You'd forget the past.
0:42:33 > 0:42:35Is that what you do?
0:42:35 > 0:42:40I'm the girl from Pluto. I'm a scary thing.
0:42:40 > 0:42:42- Can we get doughnuts?- Later!
0:42:42 > 0:42:47OK, this is the scene where Mrs Washington comes home and finds you in her playpen.
0:42:47 > 0:42:49Who's Mrs Washington?
0:42:49 > 0:42:53Mrs Washington is the woman who owns the mansion where you're at
0:42:53 > 0:42:56and, one day, you come home and you decide to play with her kids' toys.
0:42:56 > 0:43:02OK. So, listen, you have to be really upset, so I need you to think of something sad.
0:43:02 > 0:43:04I'm just not really feeling anything.
0:43:06 > 0:43:08OK. Let's go.
0:43:09 > 0:43:12Come on, let's go. Come on, Shell.
0:43:14 > 0:43:18Is she going to hurt you? No, don't let her take the baby!
0:43:18 > 0:43:21That's right, that's your baby. Good. Yeah. That is perfect.
0:43:21 > 0:43:24Yeah, now the spanking, all right?
0:43:24 > 0:43:26- What?- It's just...it's pretend.
0:43:26 > 0:43:28Is this good?
0:43:30 > 0:43:34- Go.- Ow!- Christ!- Sorry! - No, I said pretend!
0:43:34 > 0:43:36Sorry.
0:43:36 > 0:43:37You all right?
0:43:39 > 0:43:41You wanna do it again?
0:43:41 > 0:43:42Yeah.
0:43:44 > 0:43:46OK.
0:43:46 > 0:43:48Let's do another one.
0:43:48 > 0:43:50Whoops.
0:43:50 > 0:43:52How do you feel, Kitty?
0:43:54 > 0:43:55Yeah, that's right. OK.
0:43:55 > 0:44:00Pull the leash, that's right. Go on, little puppy dog. That looks great.
0:44:00 > 0:44:04'I let those two weeks of my life happen
0:44:04 > 0:44:07'because, in a way, I felt I had no choice.
0:44:07 > 0:44:11'That's not quite true, though. It wasn't coercion.
0:44:11 > 0:44:13'I liked the attention, and...
0:44:13 > 0:44:15'Oh, I don't know. Anyway...
0:44:15 > 0:44:18'Aunt Trish came home sick.
0:44:18 > 0:44:20CAMERA CLICKS
0:44:33 > 0:44:36'That was the end of my stay with Aunt Trish.'
0:44:40 > 0:44:44- You slept late.- I'm sorry. It took me ages to fall asleep.
0:44:46 > 0:44:48OK, I'm off.
0:44:48 > 0:44:51See you at lunch.
0:44:51 > 0:44:54- Do you want anything from the market other than the apricot spread?- No.
0:44:57 > 0:45:01- What?- Since we moved to the old folks' home, you look younger.
0:45:01 > 0:45:03That's just because I'm not setting my hair.
0:45:03 > 0:45:05OK.
0:45:05 > 0:45:07SHE GASPS
0:45:23 > 0:45:25Chris?
0:45:25 > 0:45:27I'm sorry. It's Pippa Lee.
0:45:29 > 0:45:31I'm so sorry to disturb you.
0:45:31 > 0:45:35I forgot I'd left my car at the convenience store.
0:45:35 > 0:45:37I'll just wait out here. OK.
0:45:44 > 0:45:48Your mother told me you're going through a hard time.
0:45:48 > 0:45:50You could say that.
0:45:50 > 0:45:52Fired from my job at the men's shelter,
0:45:52 > 0:45:55I come home to find my wife sitting on top of my best friend.
0:45:55 > 0:45:59Wow. That's bad.
0:45:59 > 0:46:02Yeah, well, there's probably a good reason for it all.
0:46:02 > 0:46:04What?
0:46:05 > 0:46:07I'm an asshole.
0:46:07 > 0:46:12- You are?- I don't know why, I just always have been.
0:46:15 > 0:46:19That tattoo you have must have hurt terribly.
0:46:19 > 0:46:22I tried to join a Jesuit seminary once when I was 17.
0:46:24 > 0:46:27- You were going to be a priest? - Yeah.
0:46:28 > 0:46:31But they rejected my application.
0:46:35 > 0:46:37Do you still have a vocation?
0:46:37 > 0:46:40Just the tattoo.
0:46:42 > 0:46:44What made you lose your faith?
0:46:46 > 0:46:48I just stopped believing
0:46:48 > 0:46:52God was a mystery you could nail down with one book.
0:46:52 > 0:46:55But by that time, my parents had written me off as a fuck-up,
0:46:55 > 0:46:58I was married to a Jesus-freak,
0:46:58 > 0:47:01and I was just as pissed off at the world as when I was a Christian.
0:47:01 > 0:47:06Which brings us more or less up to date, give or take a decade.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11What are you thinking?
0:47:13 > 0:47:15I was just thinking that you seem like...
0:47:15 > 0:47:17What?
0:47:17 > 0:47:19Just that you seem so bright.
0:47:19 > 0:47:23It's a pity you never settled on any real work.
0:47:23 > 0:47:26It would make your life so much easier.
0:47:27 > 0:47:29- OK. Well, thank you. - I didn't mean to offend you.
0:47:29 > 0:47:33I suggest you go back to that little life you've puffed up for yourself.
0:47:33 > 0:47:37I'm sure you're very happy underneath all that anxiety.
0:47:40 > 0:47:44- You're right, you know. You are an asshole.- Told you.
0:47:44 > 0:47:47THUNDER RUMBLES
0:47:48 > 0:47:52MUSIC: "I'll Love You For A While" by Dusty Springfield
0:47:52 > 0:47:53'n the years after I left Aunt Trish,
0:47:53 > 0:47:57''All I can remember is fixes I got myself into.'
0:47:57 > 0:47:59# I will love you for a while
0:47:59 > 0:48:03# Just how long I cannot say... #
0:48:03 > 0:48:06'It was a freefall.'
0:48:06 > 0:48:08# I'll be on my way
0:48:10 > 0:48:13# While there's fire in your eyes... #
0:48:13 > 0:48:16'Truth is, I took every pill I could get my hands on.
0:48:16 > 0:48:19'It's no wonder I can't remember any of it.
0:48:19 > 0:48:23'One day, I found out my mother had died.
0:48:23 > 0:48:26'I tried to remain as numb as possible.
0:48:28 > 0:48:31'That was my boyfriend Jed.
0:48:33 > 0:48:37'Oh, no, it was Craig. Craig was my boyfriend.'
0:48:37 > 0:48:41- I can't believe you sold a painting to Gigi Lee.- Who is she anyway?
0:48:41 > 0:48:46She is an heiress, collector, party girl. She knows everybody.
0:48:46 > 0:48:49- She knows Andy.- Hey!
0:48:49 > 0:48:51- Hi, everybody!- Hi.
0:48:56 > 0:48:58This is Sam Shapiro, the novelist...
0:48:58 > 0:49:00That material belongs with the childhood.
0:49:00 > 0:49:04I know, but I'm moving back and forth in time. It's...liquid.
0:49:04 > 0:49:07But let the sequences accumulate. They're too staccato.
0:49:07 > 0:49:08I want that staccato feeling.
0:49:08 > 0:49:11Hello.
0:49:11 > 0:49:13Hi, are you with our party?
0:49:13 > 0:49:16Yeah, I'm with Craig. You bought a painting from him.
0:49:16 > 0:49:17Oh, yeah. This is Max, I'm Herb.
0:49:17 > 0:49:22- And you are?- Pippa Sarkissian. - What kind of a name is that?
0:49:22 > 0:49:24- English and Armenian.- Ah.
0:49:26 > 0:49:28Well, welcome.
0:49:31 > 0:49:34You don't have a bathing suit? Go naked!
0:49:34 > 0:49:37Nobody's here! Come on!
0:49:37 > 0:49:38Come on!
0:49:45 > 0:49:47PEOPLE CHATTERING
0:50:06 > 0:50:11I'm so happy to see you. I want to organise a show in Paris for you.
0:50:11 > 0:50:12Have you been in Paris before?
0:50:13 > 0:50:15It's fantastic.
0:50:27 > 0:50:28What's going on?
0:50:40 > 0:50:43Pippa. Pippa Sarkissian.
0:50:43 > 0:50:45Come here. Come.
0:50:47 > 0:50:49Sit. Talk to us.
0:50:51 > 0:50:56So, Pippa, what does a free spirit like you have for breakfast usually?
0:50:56 > 0:51:00- Does she look like she eats breakfast?- Do you?
0:51:01 > 0:51:02No.
0:51:02 > 0:51:04That's your first mistake of the day.
0:51:04 > 0:51:08- So in the morning, you get up, go to the studio?- I don't have a studio.
0:51:08 > 0:51:11You gotta be an artist dressed like that. Come on.
0:51:11 > 0:51:16- Well, what do you do?- I work in a clothing store.- You have no ambition?
0:51:18 > 0:51:23No-one has ever walked through that front door before without having some kind of ambition!
0:51:23 > 0:51:27The butler is writing a short story. He told me so himself yesterday.
0:51:27 > 0:51:30- I'm going to get a drink. You want a drink, Pippa?- Uh-uh.
0:51:30 > 0:51:33- Get me another one of these. - I will. I'll be back.
0:51:37 > 0:51:40This is the most amazing house I've ever seen.
0:51:40 > 0:51:42It's not a house, it's a mausoleum.
0:51:42 > 0:51:46There isn't one comfortable piece of furniture in the whole place
0:51:46 > 0:51:49except this couch. It's like living in an aquarium.
0:51:49 > 0:51:50Then why do you live here?
0:51:50 > 0:51:52My wife.
0:51:52 > 0:51:55I could never afford a place like this, although I'm not poor.
0:51:56 > 0:51:58So, Pippa,
0:51:58 > 0:52:01when are you going to start doing something about your life?
0:52:01 > 0:52:03What do you mean?
0:52:03 > 0:52:06Doesn't it get dispiriting being so aimless?
0:52:06 > 0:52:09I mean, "the times, they are a-changing" notwithstanding.
0:52:11 > 0:52:14What?
0:52:15 > 0:52:18You have such a sweetness about you.
0:52:20 > 0:52:22No, I'm not sweet.
0:52:23 > 0:52:27Well, you can be experienced and have a sweetness about you.
0:52:27 > 0:52:30It's an innate thing with you, it seems.
0:52:33 > 0:52:36I haven't seen that quality in a person in a long time.
0:52:38 > 0:52:39We're all going swimming!
0:52:43 > 0:52:45Oh, God.
0:52:45 > 0:52:49'I didn't realise it yet, but I had set my sights on Herb, and once that happened, watch out.'
0:52:49 > 0:52:53She's making me nostalgic for his first wife
0:52:53 > 0:52:55and, trust me, that's saying something.
0:52:57 > 0:53:03- You're interesting, Pippa. I've been observing you.- You have?
0:53:03 > 0:53:05You're like an ingenue femme fatale.
0:53:07 > 0:53:09OK, and what are you like?
0:53:09 > 0:53:14Writers are vampires. I'm waiting for the right girl to come along and make me a human being.
0:53:16 > 0:53:21You realise that if I leaned in right now and kissed you, I'd be the third guy tonight?
0:53:21 > 0:53:23Am I right?
0:53:23 > 0:53:26Yeah, you would.
0:53:46 > 0:53:47Come on!
0:53:47 > 0:53:52- There you go. Thanks. - See you next week.- Next?
0:53:55 > 0:53:58Fish tonight?
0:53:58 > 0:54:03Oh! Well, he, um, comes all the way from Maine every Thursday.
0:54:05 > 0:54:08- You feel guilty about the fish man? - A little.
0:54:10 > 0:54:14- I'm sorry about the other day. - Oh, that's all right.
0:54:15 > 0:54:19- How are you doing?- Oh, fine.
0:54:20 > 0:54:24I-I actually went to see someone about the sleepwalking,
0:54:24 > 0:54:26and he basically thinks I'm off my nut.
0:54:28 > 0:54:31Um, see, it's a psychiatrist.
0:54:31 > 0:54:34That's because he thinks I'm going to need medication, and a locksmith.
0:54:34 > 0:54:38See, he suggested that we bolt the bedroom door from the inside
0:54:38 > 0:54:40and Herb hide the key, and, um...
0:54:40 > 0:54:44Oh, I'm supposed to take up a hobby. I'm thinking bowling.
0:54:46 > 0:54:48Would you like to go for a drive?
0:54:48 > 0:54:49Sure.
0:54:49 > 0:54:51After you get your fish.
0:54:53 > 0:54:55I'll make pasta.
0:54:56 > 0:54:58Where do you want to go?
0:55:01 > 0:55:03I don't know. Um...
0:55:03 > 0:55:05I could show you where I grew up.
0:55:07 > 0:55:09OK.
0:55:10 > 0:55:12How do I get there?
0:55:12 > 0:55:17Oh, it's straight for a couple of miles and then we'll make a turn.
0:55:17 > 0:55:19I'll tell you. It's close.
0:55:20 > 0:55:22There it is.
0:55:30 > 0:55:32- Seems so small. - Is your family still here?
0:55:35 > 0:55:37No.
0:55:42 > 0:55:45That's my daughter Grace. She hates me.
0:55:48 > 0:55:49I wonder...
0:55:49 > 0:55:51What?
0:55:51 > 0:55:54..if I got it all wrong with her.
0:55:56 > 0:55:58I just didn't want to suffocate her the way my...
0:56:01 > 0:56:05I think it happens like that in families sometimes, though, where...
0:56:05 > 0:56:10you just keep swinging back and forth from generation to generation,
0:56:10 > 0:56:12getting it wrong, the opposite way.
0:56:16 > 0:56:18It was so simple with Ben.
0:56:21 > 0:56:24But you know, she, um... is a photographic journalist.
0:56:26 > 0:56:30Travels all over the world, wherever it's exploding, takes photographs.
0:56:30 > 0:56:34- Wow.- Yeah, I know. We must've done something right.
0:56:36 > 0:56:38It sounds like your daughter's like you.
0:56:40 > 0:56:42Why?
0:56:42 > 0:56:44You said you were always in a drama.
0:56:47 > 0:56:50Well, I was reckless with my life, that's true.
0:56:59 > 0:57:01I never saw her again.
0:57:04 > 0:57:07- Who?- My mother.
0:57:07 > 0:57:10After I ran away, she died. She had a heart attack.
0:57:13 > 0:57:15Oh, I can't wait to see!
0:57:18 > 0:57:22'If I could have anything, I would ask for one more afternoon with my mother.'
0:57:22 > 0:57:24Look at her eyes.
0:57:24 > 0:57:26'I would be kind.'
0:57:26 > 0:57:28Beautiful.
0:57:36 > 0:57:38I've been going to Dot's pottery class.
0:57:38 > 0:57:42- Oh, good. - Why do you think it's good?
0:57:42 > 0:57:45Your doctor said he thought you could use a hobby.
0:57:52 > 0:57:54Tell me what you like about me.
0:57:54 > 0:57:56- Right now?- Yeah.
0:57:58 > 0:58:00Well, you put up with me, for one thing.
0:58:00 > 0:58:03- That's it?- Of course not.
0:58:05 > 0:58:10Herb, what happened to us? We used to laugh so much.
0:58:10 > 0:58:11What happened?
0:58:11 > 0:58:14Can't laugh all the time.
0:58:14 > 0:58:15- Well, we have to laugh.- Or what?
0:58:15 > 0:58:17Or she died for nothing!
0:58:17 > 0:58:20- Not that again, OK? - Why am I not allowed to mention her?
0:58:20 > 0:58:23I will not let this marriage turn into a guilt fest.
0:58:23 > 0:58:26We have been through this a hundred times. She was crazy.
0:58:26 > 0:58:31You get involved with somebody like that, it's like putting your hand in a blender.
0:58:31 > 0:58:34I just can't take it, I can't take it. I keep seeing her, Herb.
0:58:34 > 0:58:36I keep seeing her. I keep...
0:58:38 > 0:58:41I keep seeing the past. The past just keeps caving in.
0:58:43 > 0:58:46I can't take it any more. I can't take it. I'm sorry.
0:58:49 > 0:58:53Maybe you should be taking antidepressants.
0:58:58 > 0:59:00What?!
0:59:07 > 0:59:11- You all right? You wanna talk? - My mother used to do this.
0:59:11 > 0:59:14She'd suddenly disappear, and I'd find her on the bed
0:59:14 > 0:59:17in front of the TV with a plate of toast on her belly.
0:59:17 > 0:59:19- That's how she died.- Yes, I know.
0:59:21 > 0:59:24- I have to take your blood pressure. - No, you don't.
0:59:39 > 0:59:43'I slept for a week after the party at Herb's beach house.
0:59:46 > 0:59:50'Maybe I was trying to avoid my next boyfriend.
0:59:51 > 0:59:56'When I woke up, I felt an overwhelming need to hear Herb's voice.
0:59:56 > 0:59:59'I missed him so much. It was strange.'
1:00:38 > 1:00:39'Hello?'
1:00:39 > 1:00:42Mr Lee? Hi, it's Pippa Sarkissian.
1:00:42 > 1:00:44'Pippa!'
1:00:44 > 1:00:48Hey. I-I was wondering, do you want to go out to breakfast?
1:00:49 > 1:00:52'It's three o'clock in the afternoon.'
1:00:52 > 1:00:55I meant tomorrow.
1:00:57 > 1:01:00'He treated me like a pal at first. He was avuncular.
1:01:00 > 1:01:05'He teased me about being a waster. I called him an old fart.
1:01:05 > 1:01:08'We would get together every couple of days
1:01:08 > 1:01:10'and take a walk or eat something.
1:01:10 > 1:01:13'He gave me reading lists. He wanted to educate me.'
1:01:15 > 1:01:18- Hey. Sorry I'm late. - You're always late.
1:01:18 > 1:01:20Well, maybe you're always early.
1:01:22 > 1:01:25I bought something for you. You only have to wear this once.
1:01:25 > 1:01:29I'll be alone at the beach house this weekend,
1:01:29 > 1:01:31and I want you to come for lunch.
1:01:31 > 1:01:35- You weren't supposed to buy this! - I needed to.
1:01:35 > 1:01:38'I loved being with Herb. He made me feel protected.'
1:01:38 > 1:01:41I thought I was a writer.
1:01:41 > 1:01:45I thought it was my calling, but it just wasn't.
1:01:45 > 1:01:47I, er...
1:01:47 > 1:01:49I-I couldn't...flow.
1:01:49 > 1:01:53I have a very critical nature, and it kept me from being able to flow.
1:01:53 > 1:01:56Then I...was slightly lost for a while,
1:01:56 > 1:01:58I had no idea what I was going to do.
1:01:58 > 1:02:01I had a friend in the publishing business,
1:02:01 > 1:02:05and he offered me a job, and here I am.
1:02:10 > 1:02:12Tell me what you like about me.
1:02:14 > 1:02:18You're not a show-off about it, but I think you're very intelligent.
1:02:19 > 1:02:23And...you're beautiful, but you're cool about it,
1:02:23 > 1:02:26and there's a sadness about you.
1:02:26 > 1:02:29And I like that...
1:02:29 > 1:02:31in moderation.
1:02:33 > 1:02:34I like your jacket.
1:02:34 > 1:02:36And that's it?
1:02:38 > 1:02:39No.
1:02:39 > 1:02:41No, I...
1:02:44 > 1:02:47I like your face, and your voice...
1:02:49 > 1:02:51..and, um...
1:02:51 > 1:02:53This is going to sound strange.
1:02:53 > 1:02:55Say it.
1:02:56 > 1:02:58It's like, um...
1:03:00 > 1:03:03..like I can feel what you're feeling.
1:03:03 > 1:03:08You know, if you feel nervous or happy or sad, I can feel it.
1:03:08 > 1:03:10I-In my body, in my fingers.
1:03:12 > 1:03:15What a remarkable thing.
1:03:15 > 1:03:17Oh.
1:03:17 > 1:03:21I'd like you not to feel as if you have to censor yourself around me.
1:03:21 > 1:03:24Tell me the most important thing about yourself.
1:03:27 > 1:03:29I'm a fuck-up.
1:03:37 > 1:03:40'I felt like I was being rescued from a burning wreck.'
1:03:40 > 1:03:43If I'm good for anything in the world,
1:03:43 > 1:03:46it's for letting you know how wonderful you are.
1:03:49 > 1:03:51You're my true wife, you know?
1:03:53 > 1:03:57No, you don't want me. I only make people sad.
1:03:57 > 1:04:00I don't believe that.
1:04:03 > 1:04:05Anyway, you have a wife.
1:04:07 > 1:04:10If I have to live with that lunatic for another week, I'll hang myself.
1:04:10 > 1:04:14For years, I've been hoping she'd have an affair
1:04:14 > 1:04:17so I can walk out on her, but she won't do it, the bitch.
1:04:20 > 1:04:22MACHINE WHIRRS
1:04:30 > 1:04:35Mrs Lee still seems unwilling to work her way up like the rest of us.
1:04:37 > 1:04:40(Go stick it up your ass.)
1:04:40 > 1:04:42What did you say to me?
1:04:50 > 1:04:54I don't understand. She agrees to divorce you if we have lunch with her?
1:04:54 > 1:04:57She wants to make the switch in some kind of elegant way.
1:04:57 > 1:04:59I can't believe you agreed to do this!
1:04:59 > 1:05:01I owe her this much! Come on, let's go.
1:05:01 > 1:05:05- Hello, Mr Lee. Nice to see you! Hello, miss.- Hello, Alphonsa.
1:05:05 > 1:05:10- Welcome. - Hi, hi. Hello, hello, hello.
1:05:13 > 1:05:16- Hi.- Sam! What a pleasant surprise.
1:05:16 > 1:05:19I'll tell Joseph to bring in the champagne.
1:05:19 > 1:05:21- Perfect symmetry.- What?
1:05:21 > 1:05:23Come on.
1:05:25 > 1:05:27She invited me for lunch.
1:05:29 > 1:05:31Stop!
1:05:31 > 1:05:33Cheers.
1:05:37 > 1:05:39Oh. You're such a baby.
1:05:39 > 1:05:42Thanks.
1:05:42 > 1:05:45'Let's face it, I wanted Gigi's life at that moment.
1:05:45 > 1:05:49'It wasn't the money, exactly. The money made everything seem all right.
1:05:49 > 1:05:52'It was the opposite of chaos, the opposite of everything
1:05:52 > 1:05:56'I had known up until then. I wanted to be sheltered at last.'
1:05:59 > 1:06:01Madam.
1:06:01 > 1:06:03- Lunch is served.- Oh, my.
1:06:06 > 1:06:09Pippa? ..Herb.
1:06:12 > 1:06:15This lunch is in honour of telling it like it is.
1:06:15 > 1:06:19You know how we all eat chops and hamburgers,
1:06:19 > 1:06:22and we don't think of the faces of who gets killed?
1:06:23 > 1:06:25Anybody here a vegetarian?
1:06:25 > 1:06:27Here's the truth as I see it.
1:06:27 > 1:06:28A pig for a cow.
1:06:28 > 1:06:31A fair exchange.
1:06:31 > 1:06:33And who's who?
1:06:33 > 1:06:36- Sorry. - OK, let's have lunch. Who wants pig?
1:06:36 > 1:06:37First, a toast.
1:06:39 > 1:06:41To transformation.
1:06:54 > 1:06:56Put the gun down.
1:06:57 > 1:06:59Put it down.
1:07:01 > 1:07:04Put it down, Gigi.
1:07:04 > 1:07:07Isn't it funny how men always marry women
1:07:07 > 1:07:12who are easier and easier to dominate, until they end up with an imbecile?
1:07:12 > 1:07:14Put the gun down.
1:07:16 > 1:07:19Put it down.
1:07:26 > 1:07:27Give me... No!
1:07:27 > 1:07:29GUNSHOT
1:07:46 > 1:07:49'Her image would haunt me for the rest of my life.'
1:07:53 > 1:07:56'I knew without thinking that not only would I marry Herb,
1:07:56 > 1:07:59'I would give myself to him, like a penitent.
1:07:59 > 1:08:03'This was my last chance at goodness.
1:08:03 > 1:08:07'If I fucked this up, I would be fallen forever.
1:08:07 > 1:08:11'Every day I tried to be good, to erase the past.
1:08:11 > 1:08:13'I stopped getting high.
1:08:13 > 1:08:16'But I didn't know how to be this new person.
1:08:16 > 1:08:18'Like a dancer learning a new routine,
1:08:18 > 1:08:20'I relied on repetition to teach my brain.'
1:08:20 > 1:08:22Hello?
1:08:22 > 1:08:24Hello?
1:08:24 > 1:08:26Hello?
1:08:26 > 1:08:29'It wasn't till I had the babies, though,
1:08:29 > 1:08:31'that I really believed my own act.
1:08:31 > 1:08:34'That was when Pippa Sarkissian disappeared forever.
1:08:36 > 1:08:38'That was how I became Pippa Lee.'
1:08:39 > 1:08:44I got thrown out of pottery class. I got thrown out of pottery class!
1:08:51 > 1:08:53- Who is it?- It's me.
1:08:54 > 1:08:55I'll be right there.
1:08:58 > 1:08:59Everything OK?
1:08:59 > 1:09:03- I got thrown out of pottery class. - Why?
1:09:03 > 1:09:08- I told the teacher to screw off. - Let me get my keys. We'll get some coffee.
1:09:08 > 1:09:11She's a witch. She's...
1:09:12 > 1:09:14Why is this towel here, sweetheart?
1:09:14 > 1:09:17Were you eating, and you didn't want to mess up the couch?
1:09:17 > 1:09:20No.
1:09:23 > 1:09:24What?
1:09:43 > 1:09:46WHIMPERING
1:09:52 > 1:09:54When did this start?
1:09:54 > 1:09:56Some time after we moved here.
1:09:59 > 1:10:03I was hoping it was an affair, but...
1:10:03 > 1:10:05it just isn't.
1:10:05 > 1:10:09I-I know this has got to be... dreadful for you.
1:10:11 > 1:10:15I...I want you to have all the money. You deserve everything.
1:10:16 > 1:10:20Thanks. Um, well, are you going to marry her?
1:10:20 > 1:10:24Well, at my age, it would be pretty ridiculous, wouldn't it?
1:10:26 > 1:10:28I just wanna live.
1:10:28 > 1:10:32The past few years, I can feel you starting to bury me, Pippa.
1:10:32 > 1:10:35I can feel the earth in my mouth, almost as if you're looking forward to it.
1:10:35 > 1:10:37How can you say that?
1:10:37 > 1:10:40I can feel you starting to pity me, being afraid of me.
1:10:40 > 1:10:43You're already in mourning. Don't deny it.
1:10:45 > 1:10:48I mean, of course, I-I am afraid of you getting old and dying.
1:10:48 > 1:10:49It's normal to be afraid.
1:10:49 > 1:10:52Well, I don't want to be normal and I don't want to be mourned.
1:10:52 > 1:10:54I'm not a ghost! I want to live!
1:10:54 > 1:10:57Nobody knows when the hell they're going to die.
1:10:57 > 1:11:00You could die tomorrow! Fuck you for making me feel like an old man!
1:11:00 > 1:11:02But, Herb, you are an old man.
1:11:02 > 1:11:04< CLATTERING
1:11:08 > 1:11:12Oh, my... Oh, Sandra! WHIMPERS
1:11:12 > 1:11:15Killing yourself with a disposable razor.
1:11:15 > 1:11:19I don't think anyone's ever done that before.
1:11:20 > 1:11:22She's in despair, you know. She loves you.
1:11:22 > 1:11:24This first-aid kit came in handy.
1:11:30 > 1:11:33'I had the strangest feeling walking down those stairs.
1:11:33 > 1:11:36'I suddenly felt so light,
1:11:36 > 1:11:39'as if a great weight had been lifted off of me.'
1:11:50 > 1:11:54'Remember this moment, sports fans. Remember where you were.
1:11:54 > 1:11:58'Pippa Lee rounding the bend, guilt baton in hand,
1:11:58 > 1:12:01'coming up on Sandra Dulles, and the pass is complete!
1:12:01 > 1:12:04'Pippa Lee has passed the guilt baton to Sandra Dulles!
1:12:04 > 1:12:06'I never thought I'd live to see this moment!'
1:12:38 > 1:12:39- Hi, there.- Hi.
1:12:49 > 1:12:51What's going on?
1:12:53 > 1:12:58My husband has been having an affair with a good friend of mine.
1:12:58 > 1:13:00So...
1:13:02 > 1:13:05It's official. Nobody needs me any more.
1:13:25 > 1:13:27KNOCK AT DOOR
1:13:31 > 1:13:33Hi, Ma.
1:13:33 > 1:13:35Dot!
1:13:35 > 1:13:37Wait.
1:13:37 > 1:13:42Dot! No, no, no. Please, I didn't mean to upset you. I really didn't.
1:13:42 > 1:13:46- That man is 35 years old... - But we haven't done anything.
1:13:46 > 1:13:48..and you are whatever you are.
1:13:48 > 1:13:50It's none...it's none of my beeswax.
1:13:50 > 1:13:52It is just disappointing...
1:13:54 > 1:13:58..when someone turns out not to be the person you thought they were.
1:14:05 > 1:14:07I lost control.
1:14:11 > 1:14:14I...I care about you tremendously.
1:14:15 > 1:14:17Why don't I feel anything?
1:14:19 > 1:14:23It can't be that I don't love you now. I adored you only this morning.
1:14:23 > 1:14:25You're in shock.
1:14:25 > 1:14:28It's all so tired.
1:14:28 > 1:14:29What is?
1:14:29 > 1:14:33This whole situation. Let's just fast-forward to the divorce.
1:14:55 > 1:14:57Aagh!
1:15:01 > 1:15:03Where are they?
1:15:06 > 1:15:08MONITOR BEEPS
1:15:14 > 1:15:16Where were you going, Mom?
1:15:17 > 1:15:20Ben, I really don't see that that's important.
1:15:20 > 1:15:23I just wanna get everything straight.
1:15:23 > 1:15:25DOOR OPENS
1:15:29 > 1:15:31I had chest pains.
1:15:35 > 1:15:37I feel like the gods are punishing me.
1:15:37 > 1:15:40Oh, please stop being such an egomaniac and drink your tea.
1:15:40 > 1:15:43Forgive me, Pippa!
1:15:44 > 1:15:46Forgive her for what?
1:15:46 > 1:15:48Oh... I-I can't...
1:15:49 > 1:15:53Ben, your father and Sandra were... They...they're in love.
1:15:53 > 1:15:56- Oh, Pippa! - That's why I was leaving.
1:15:56 > 1:15:57What?
1:15:57 > 1:16:01I'll jump out the window. I'm so stupid! I'm stupid!
1:16:01 > 1:16:03I'm so selfish!
1:16:03 > 1:16:08I'll jump out the window if you don't forgive me. I'm so stupid!
1:16:08 > 1:16:10I forgive you. Get up. Get up, please. OK.
1:16:12 > 1:16:14You do not forgive her.
1:16:14 > 1:16:16You're right, I don't.
1:16:16 > 1:16:18How could Dad do that to you?
1:16:18 > 1:16:21Sweetheart, he...was afraid of dying.
1:16:21 > 1:16:23He fell in love.
1:16:25 > 1:16:30And I wasn't altogether there either, as of late, so I don't know.
1:16:30 > 1:16:32Do you even care?
1:16:34 > 1:16:37How can I compete with that?
1:16:41 > 1:16:43Hi. Where is he?!
1:16:43 > 1:16:46- Oh, sweetheart. - Mrs Lee? You have a phone call.
1:16:46 > 1:16:50OK, Ben, will you take her in? I'll be right back.
1:16:50 > 1:16:52Hello?
1:16:52 > 1:16:54- SAM:- I just want to say, in all the world,
1:16:54 > 1:16:58you are the one person to whom none of this should be happening.
1:16:58 > 1:16:59Thank you, Sam.
1:16:59 > 1:17:02And I also want to say... that I love you.
1:17:02 > 1:17:05- Me too.- I mean, really.
1:17:05 > 1:17:06Oh.
1:17:09 > 1:17:12- Call you later.- OK.- Bye.
1:17:12 > 1:17:13- Sam?- Yeah?
1:17:15 > 1:17:18I don't want to make butterflied lamb any more.
1:17:22 > 1:17:24- Oh.- Do you see what I'm saying?
1:17:29 > 1:17:32- Why did Ben get to stay? - I don't know.
1:17:32 > 1:17:35- He seemed to want it the most. - Really? How do you measure that?
1:17:35 > 1:17:38Do you have some sort of love-o-meter?
1:17:38 > 1:17:43- Why don't we go home for a few hours? - Has someone been smoking in here?
1:17:44 > 1:17:46I don't know.
1:17:46 > 1:17:47Yuck.
1:17:50 > 1:17:53- Was it Daddy?- What?
1:17:53 > 1:17:56- If Daddy's been smoking, then... - No. No.
1:17:59 > 1:18:03So his brain is just dead? It's just completely dead?
1:18:03 > 1:18:07He'll never say anything ever again? Not one thing?
1:18:10 > 1:18:13That's what the doctors are telling us, sweetheart.
1:18:13 > 1:18:16You didn't even ask for a second opinion.
1:18:19 > 1:18:21STARTS ENGINE
1:18:27 > 1:18:30- Gracie, I know, sweetie...- Goodnight.
1:18:42 > 1:18:43Why did you bother to lie?
1:18:50 > 1:18:53Oh, my God, you are smoking.
1:18:53 > 1:18:54I'm quitting soon.
1:19:05 > 1:19:08But I have never seen you smoke in my whole life.
1:19:08 > 1:19:09I know.
1:19:23 > 1:19:25SOBBING
1:19:25 > 1:19:29I'm so sorry this had to happen to you.
1:19:29 > 1:19:31I'm not crying because of Daddy.
1:19:34 > 1:19:36I'm crying because...
1:19:36 > 1:19:39I'm so mean to you!
1:19:39 > 1:19:42All the time, and I hate it!
1:19:42 > 1:19:44Aw.
1:19:44 > 1:19:48And I don't want to be! I really, really, really don't!
1:19:53 > 1:19:56Oh, sweetheart, it's not your fault.
1:19:56 > 1:20:00- There's so many things you don't know about me.- No, not yet.
1:20:07 > 1:20:10I want to be your friend...
1:20:10 > 1:20:11because...
1:20:11 > 1:20:16because...we still have time.
1:20:18 > 1:20:20I'd be honoured to be your friend.
1:20:20 > 1:20:22No, not honoured.
1:20:22 > 1:20:23Just happy.
1:20:25 > 1:20:28OK, happy.
1:20:28 > 1:20:29Oh, Mom.
1:20:43 > 1:20:46CAR APPROACHES
1:20:54 > 1:20:58I saw your light on. I wanted to see if you needed anything.
1:20:58 > 1:21:00My mom told me what happened.
1:21:00 > 1:21:03Oh, my son is at the hospital,
1:21:03 > 1:21:06and I'm supposed to be resting, but I can't.
1:21:07 > 1:21:12I could drive you around a little bit. Do they have your cell?
1:21:14 > 1:21:17- Don't you have work? - I'm off till five.
1:21:18 > 1:21:20I could write Grace a note.
1:21:24 > 1:21:26OK.
1:21:38 > 1:21:40I'm leaving soon.
1:21:42 > 1:21:44And where will you go?
1:21:44 > 1:21:46Back out west, I guess.
1:21:54 > 1:21:56What do you pray for when you pray?
1:21:57 > 1:22:00For my kids to be happy, I guess.
1:22:01 > 1:22:03And to be good.
1:22:04 > 1:22:07It sounds so childish, saying it out loud.
1:22:08 > 1:22:11Do you want to pray for your husband?
1:22:13 > 1:22:15It's hopeless.
1:22:15 > 1:22:17His brain is dead.
1:22:18 > 1:22:21Not for his brain.
1:22:21 > 1:22:22For his soul.
1:22:22 > 1:22:26- I don't know how to do that. - Me neither.
1:22:26 > 1:22:28Let's try.
1:24:34 > 1:24:36Sorry.
1:25:18 > 1:25:20OK, Herb.
1:25:21 > 1:25:24I'm going to let you go.
1:25:29 > 1:25:32I'm sure you're pissed as it is that I've left you like this so long,
1:25:32 > 1:25:35but we wanted to wait for Grace.
1:25:48 > 1:25:50I love you anyway, you know?
1:25:57 > 1:26:00I'll always love you, you bastard.
1:26:02 > 1:26:03Are you ready now?
1:27:02 > 1:27:05OK, it's time to turn the corner.
1:27:05 > 1:27:07I'm going to stay with Ben and his girlfriend in town.
1:27:07 > 1:27:10I'm going to find a place near them,
1:27:10 > 1:27:13and I'm going to wait to become a grandmother.
1:27:28 > 1:27:30GASPS, TYRES SCREECH
1:27:44 > 1:27:46RELEASES HANDBRAKE
1:28:12 > 1:28:13I'm awake.
1:28:21 > 1:28:23Hi, Momma.
1:28:24 > 1:28:26I'm going on a trip.
1:28:26 > 1:28:28- A trip?- Yes.
1:28:28 > 1:28:31And I was wondering if you could call these movers, right here,
1:28:31 > 1:28:34and take whatever you want,
1:28:34 > 1:28:39and then tell them to give the rest to Goodwill, that would be great.
1:28:39 > 1:28:41- What about the memorial service? - Memorial service.
1:28:41 > 1:28:43Call everybody on here, except for Sandra,
1:28:43 > 1:28:47and just call me on my cell and give me the date.
1:28:47 > 1:28:48And you know what? What the hell. Invite Sandra.
1:28:48 > 1:28:51Mom, are you actually leaving?
1:28:51 > 1:28:53- I'll be back.- When?
1:28:53 > 1:28:55Sweetheart, your father was in love
1:28:55 > 1:28:59with a woman I cooked for two days a week over the past four years.
1:28:59 > 1:29:02I am not going to organise his memorial service.
1:29:05 > 1:29:07Who is that guy?
1:29:07 > 1:29:09He's my friend.
1:29:09 > 1:29:11A friend? What's going on?
1:29:11 > 1:29:14Ben, I'm not driving off into the sunset.
1:29:14 > 1:29:16I'm just seeing what happens next.
1:29:16 > 1:29:18I can't believe this is happening.
1:29:18 > 1:29:22She's given us half her life. Don't you think she deserves a vacation?
1:29:34 > 1:29:37I love you, I love you, love you.
1:29:40 > 1:29:44'I don't know how the rest of my story will go.
1:29:44 > 1:29:46'I don't know who I'll be in it.
1:29:46 > 1:29:51'All I know is...I feel like this is just the beginning.
1:29:56 > 1:29:58MUSIC: "I Lost It" by Lucinda Williams
1:30:06 > 1:30:10# I think I lost it
1:30:10 > 1:30:13# Let me know if you come across it
1:30:13 > 1:30:18# Let me know if I let it fall along a back road somewhere
1:30:20 > 1:30:22# Money can't replace it
1:30:22 > 1:30:26# No memory can erase it
1:30:26 > 1:30:30# And I know I'm never going to find another one to compare
1:30:32 > 1:30:36# Give me some love to fill me up
1:30:36 > 1:30:39# Give me some time Give me some stuff
1:30:39 > 1:30:40# Give me a sign
1:30:40 > 1:30:44# Give me some kind of reason
1:30:45 > 1:30:48# Are you heavy enough to make me stay?
1:30:48 > 1:30:52# I feel like I might blow away
1:30:52 > 1:30:53# I thought I was in heaven
1:30:53 > 1:30:57# But I was only dreamin'
1:30:58 > 1:31:01# I think I lost it
1:31:01 > 1:31:04# Let me know if you come across it
1:31:04 > 1:31:09# Let me know if I let it fall along a back road somewhere... #