0:00:05 > 0:00:08Don't tell me about my visa!
0:00:08 > 0:00:13My wife is stuck in that hellhole and I am getting on that plane!
0:00:16 > 0:00:20It's bad, Joe! They're evacuating the villages!
0:00:20 > 0:00:24The roads are washed out! We're hearing gunfire now!
0:00:24 > 0:00:28Can you...? PROPELLERS WHIRR Can you get to Calamar?
0:00:28 > 0:00:32Can you get across the border to Colombia?
0:00:32 > 0:00:34They're putting us on the bus!
0:00:34 > 0:00:37I don't know where they're taking us!
0:00:37 > 0:00:39Joe?
0:00:39 > 0:00:41Joe!
0:00:41 > 0:00:43Emily! Em...!
0:00:57 > 0:00:59BABY WAILS
0:01:08 > 0:01:12BRAKES SCREECH AND ALL SCREAM
0:01:12 > 0:01:15ENGINE REVS
0:01:26 > 0:01:28SCREAMING
0:01:33 > 0:01:36Emily Darrow was not just a doctor
0:01:36 > 0:01:39and a credit to the medical profession,
0:01:39 > 0:01:43she was a healer and a credit to the human race.
0:01:43 > 0:01:47Those who knew her were changed by her,
0:01:47 > 0:01:49inspired my her commitment
0:01:49 > 0:01:52to give, literally, everything of herself,
0:01:52 > 0:01:55which is why we're gathered here today,
0:01:55 > 0:01:58to celebrate this unique life,
0:01:58 > 0:02:01not so much taken from us...
0:02:01 > 0:02:03as given to us.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06From her colleagues at the university
0:02:06 > 0:02:08to her young patients
0:02:08 > 0:02:12here in Chicago Memorial's paediatric-oncology ward,
0:02:12 > 0:02:15she will be sorely missed.
0:02:17 > 0:02:21'We're told in medical school that the face of an emergency-room doctor
0:02:21 > 0:02:25'is the last thing a lot of people will ever see.
0:02:25 > 0:02:29'I keep that in mind when I see those frightened eyes staring out at me.
0:02:29 > 0:02:33'But I don't know what Emily saw - what image she took with her...'
0:02:33 > 0:02:37PAGER RINGS '..if there was a compassionate face,
0:02:37 > 0:02:39'or she died in a world of chaos.
0:02:39 > 0:02:43'And that I don't know this... haunts me.'
0:02:43 > 0:02:48The diver saw inside, senor. There is no-one alive.
0:02:48 > 0:02:52- Where's her body?- We are searching the shoreline and jungle now
0:02:52 > 0:02:55but the bus is under ten feet of water.
0:02:55 > 0:02:59The river runs at 17mph, senor. There is nothing you can do.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01Por favor, go home.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05I'm not goin' anywhere!
0:03:05 > 0:03:08Not till this is over.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10I assure you, senor...
0:03:10 > 0:03:12it's over.
0:03:16 > 0:03:19FAINT SOUND OF SIREN WAILING
0:03:21 > 0:03:23SIREN WAILS AND HORN BLARES
0:03:38 > 0:03:40- What are you doin' here? - I was paged.
0:03:40 > 0:03:44- What do we have?- Wasn't this morning your wife's memorial service?
0:03:44 > 0:03:48- I wanna keep anyone from joining her. What do we have?- Six-car pile-up.
0:03:48 > 0:03:5211 injuries, four went to County and six are comin' here.
0:03:52 > 0:03:56- All right, stay with me. How extensive? - Third-degree, 40 per cent, maybe 50.
0:03:56 > 0:04:00- Intube him?- Airway's crushed. - Pronounce him.
0:04:00 > 0:04:05- Hit the windshield.- All right, that's a blow-out fracture. Get a CT.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- What's this? - OD, attempted suicide.
0:04:08 > 0:04:12All right, give her to Simon. I'm interested in people who wanna live.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15- What's her term? - She hit the steering wheel.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18- How pregnant? - Looks like six months.
0:04:18 > 0:04:22- Let's get it out.- At six months? - It has a chance, but not in there.
0:04:22 > 0:04:27Look at her colour. It's still got a heartbeat. Let's get it out of there.
0:04:27 > 0:04:30- Get a consultation.- Let's order out for pizza while we're at it(!)
0:04:30 > 0:04:34- There's a procedure for terminating a pregnancy.- I'm not terminating,
0:04:34 > 0:04:38I'm delivering a baby. Get Prenatal down here now!
0:04:46 > 0:04:48It was the right call.
0:04:48 > 0:04:52Delivering a technically inviable foetus by Caesarean section
0:04:52 > 0:04:56- without consultation or permission of the mother...- Who was dead!
0:04:56 > 0:04:59- Not officially. - The baby is alive, Hugh.
0:05:01 > 0:05:04I'm concerned, Joe. So is the rest of the staff.
0:05:04 > 0:05:08- You refused to treat a suicide today.- I passed her on to Simon.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10As though she were unworthy of you.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14Can we discuss this tomorrow?
0:05:14 > 0:05:18Since Emily's death you have been working around the clock,
0:05:18 > 0:05:2124-hour shifts, I'm told, seven days a week.
0:05:21 > 0:05:25- Think I'm losing my edge?- Just the opposite, it's getting too sharp.
0:05:25 > 0:05:29You're starting to cut people around here. You need time off.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31You need to grieve.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35- I need to grieve? - Hmm.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44I am serious, Joe.
0:05:44 > 0:05:47Take that time off.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02Was it you who reported me?
0:06:04 > 0:06:06Passing on the suicide.
0:06:10 > 0:06:13How's she doing?
0:06:13 > 0:06:16She's waiting for a bed on the psych ward.
0:06:50 > 0:06:54- Why did you do this to me? - Do what to you?
0:06:56 > 0:06:58Bring me back.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00Where were you going?
0:07:00 > 0:07:03Someplace better.
0:07:03 > 0:07:07- Is that right? - I'll do it again, too.
0:07:07 > 0:07:10It's all I want now.
0:07:10 > 0:07:13Well, unfortunately, your heart disagrees.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16PAPER RUSTLES It's waged quite a battle tonight.
0:07:18 > 0:07:22No-one knows my heart.
0:07:24 > 0:07:27Maybe that's why it's still beating...
0:07:29 > 0:07:31..to give somebody a chance to.
0:07:35 > 0:07:38Let me tell you about that better place
0:07:38 > 0:07:41you think you're going to.
0:07:41 > 0:07:44You'd better be damn sure it's there...
0:07:44 > 0:07:48cos crappy as this place is, it's all there is.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51So go ahead...
0:07:51 > 0:07:54be my guest.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58But when you never wake up again, don't say I didn't warn you.
0:08:02 > 0:08:04Hi, Father.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06Time for a rebuttal?
0:08:10 > 0:08:14"..And on her footfall in the rustle of leaves,
0:08:14 > 0:08:17"Her whisper on the wind,
0:08:17 > 0:08:20"She speaks from a place beyond mortal pain."
0:08:20 > 0:08:23- Hey, look who's here! Joe! - Hey, you!
0:08:23 > 0:08:26- Nice timing!- You're just in time to finish the toast.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30- Here, pour him a beer.- Linda, can we have another one, please?
0:08:30 > 0:08:34- Rachel In Heaven, remember that poem, third year lit class?- Yeah.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36To Emily.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38- To Emily. - Emily.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42How are things at the hospital?
0:08:42 > 0:08:45You know, I don't know why we try so hard to save 'em,
0:08:45 > 0:08:49if they've got such a wonderful place to go, like...Rachel In Heaven.
0:08:49 > 0:08:53Well, that's where Emily is. And you can bet on that.
0:08:53 > 0:08:57- If anyone deserved to go, it was her.- She was the best of us.
0:08:57 > 0:09:01- The best of us.- I don't know what the hell she saw in you, though(!)
0:09:03 > 0:09:05She was the best of us.
0:09:05 > 0:09:09- And I have no idea what she saw in me.- She saw the second best of us.
0:09:09 > 0:09:13You guys were a great team. She was the heart, you were the mind -
0:09:13 > 0:09:16together you were unbeatable.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26Where are you, Joe?
0:09:29 > 0:09:31Nowhere.
0:09:31 > 0:09:34- I'm gonna go. - No, come on, man!
0:09:34 > 0:09:37- You just got here. - Stay.- Like you said,
0:09:37 > 0:09:40- I'm a mind without a heart. - Joe, come on.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43- I... That's not... - Don't leave, Joe.- Buddy,
0:09:43 > 0:09:47- that is not what I meant. - I know you didn't mean that, OK?
0:09:47 > 0:09:50But you were right on, buddy... and I love you anyway.
0:09:50 > 0:09:53All of you.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55Thank you for coming today.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57See you.
0:10:14 > 0:10:18- Hey, Doc. - SHE COUGHS
0:10:18 > 0:10:22- Hey, Miriam. - Sorry I missed the service.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26I didn't wanna cough all over everybody. Was it nice?
0:10:26 > 0:10:28I guess.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30I couldn't handle it.
0:10:30 > 0:10:34Well, then, you're not gonna do too good with this.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36They needed somebody to sign for it.
0:10:36 > 0:10:42I didn't wanna leave it out in the rain. It's a toy company in Texas.
0:10:42 > 0:10:46- That'll teach her to shop the Internet.- Yeah, that'll teach her.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49You'd think a professor of law
0:10:49 > 0:10:52- could be more precise with her language.- It's all right.
0:10:52 > 0:10:55You have a good night.
0:10:56 > 0:11:00Hey, I saw through the kitchen window Big Bird didn't eat again!
0:11:00 > 0:11:04- Should he go back to the vet?- The vet said Big Bird'll outlive us all.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06SHE CHUCKLES
0:11:13 > 0:11:15PHONE RINGS
0:11:19 > 0:11:21ANSWERPHONE BEEPS
0:11:21 > 0:11:26- 'It's Hal. We are going on a white-water trip.- You gotta come!
0:11:26 > 0:11:30- 'Don't leave me alone with them! - I sent you a packet, OK?!
0:11:30 > 0:11:32- 'See you, buddy! - Love you!'
0:11:32 > 0:11:37Sound good, Big Bird? Wanna go rafting with my old college chums?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Nice to see you, too.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29WOMAN GIGGLES 'Why is that funny?
0:12:29 > 0:12:32'I just, er, picture you with a beak, I guess.'
0:12:32 > 0:12:36Well, just imagine soaring around with me up there, flying.
0:12:36 > 0:12:39- If you do, you're on your own. - Why?
0:12:39 > 0:12:42Because eagles eat bunny rabbits. I'm a vegetarian.
0:12:42 > 0:12:45- In your next life, too?- Yes.
0:12:45 > 0:12:49So if you got a chance to come back, you'd wanna be earthbound again?
0:12:49 > 0:12:52No. I'll fly around with you up there.
0:12:52 > 0:12:55Do you know what I'm gonna be?
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Yeah, but...
0:12:57 > 0:13:01- if I'm a bird and you're an insect...- Yeah?
0:13:01 > 0:13:03..how are we gonna...?
0:13:03 > 0:13:06(You know. You know.)
0:13:06 > 0:13:10(We'll just have to do enough of that in this lifetime
0:13:10 > 0:13:12(to make up for the next ten.)
0:13:24 > 0:13:27EMILY SIGHS
0:14:02 > 0:14:07I'm going because I have to, Joe. Because it's who I am.
0:14:07 > 0:14:10Who we are, what we dedicated our lives to.
0:14:10 > 0:14:14- Oh, for God's sake, you're pregnant! - We addressed this, Joe,
0:14:14 > 0:14:18when we first met. That we'd pack our kids in on our backs
0:14:18 > 0:14:25- to show them what was important, to teach them our values!- It was naive, all right? It was naive!
0:14:25 > 0:14:27Our values?
0:14:33 > 0:14:35I'm needed there, Joe...
0:14:35 > 0:14:38and I'm going...
0:14:39 > 0:14:42..whether you choose to or not.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45CLATTERING AND ROLLING
0:15:09 > 0:15:12- 'So this thing was a paperweight? - Yes.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15'It was a gift for Valentine's Day.'
0:15:15 > 0:15:18It's gotta weigh half a pound and it was squarely,
0:15:18 > 0:15:22I mean squarely on the bedside table when I went to sleep.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24So what are you saying?
0:15:24 > 0:15:27I don't know. Nothing, I guess.
0:15:27 > 0:15:31It's just that...dragonflies were, sort of, her thing.
0:15:31 > 0:15:33You know, like her personal totem.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36How Indians have buffalo heads, or tiger heads or hawks,
0:15:36 > 0:15:39hers was...a dragonfly.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42She even had this small birthmark on her shoulder
0:15:42 > 0:15:46that looked like one. Said her grandfather had one, too,
0:15:46 > 0:15:49on his...on his butt, I think. HE CHUCKLES
0:15:49 > 0:15:52It's called familial haemangioma.
0:15:52 > 0:15:55I once skunked an entire graduating class
0:15:55 > 0:15:57by putting it on a final exam.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01And when she was alive, I had to scour
0:16:01 > 0:16:05for anything I could find with a dragonfly on it to buy her a present.
0:16:05 > 0:16:10Now... Now I see 'em everywhere. There was one...
0:16:10 > 0:16:15There was one bouncing against my office window yesterday. A real one.
0:16:15 > 0:16:19A package arrived she'd bought over the Internet,
0:16:19 > 0:16:22a mobile to put on the baby's crib... of dragonflies.
0:16:22 > 0:16:26And then this thing last night with the paperweight.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29You know what I think?
0:16:29 > 0:16:32I think you are, literally, going buggy living in that house.
0:16:32 > 0:16:36You should move. You're rummaging around in an empty nursery,
0:16:36 > 0:16:39you're living with a talking parrot who won't speak to you.
0:16:39 > 0:16:42It never would. It never liked me.
0:16:42 > 0:16:44It would only talk to Emily.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47She even taught it to announce her arrival
0:16:47 > 0:16:50when she came in the door.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53SQUEAKY VOICE: "Honey...
0:16:53 > 0:16:57- "Honey, I'm home."- You ought to sell that thing, Joe. Get rid of it.
0:16:57 > 0:17:01I'm stuck with it. I promised her I'd keep it for ever
0:17:01 > 0:17:05and I put a provision in my will that if anything ever happened to me,
0:17:05 > 0:17:08someone I trusted would take care of it.
0:17:08 > 0:17:10Would you?
0:17:10 > 0:17:14- Would you?- Oh, no. It's your promise, buddy. It's not mine.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20I need to live up to my promises to her.
0:17:20 > 0:17:22That's one thing I need to do.
0:17:22 > 0:17:27OK, fine. Any other promises that I should know about?
0:17:27 > 0:17:31Just one, but I'm taking care of that one myself, starting...
0:17:31 > 0:17:33today.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35- Hi, Joe. - Hugh.
0:17:35 > 0:17:39- I was hoping that you took our conversation seriously.- I did.
0:17:39 > 0:17:44I convinced Joe to take a couple of months off. Right, Joe?
0:17:44 > 0:17:49I promised Emily I'd look in on her kids on the oncology ward and never did.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51I thought this might be a good day.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54After six months? On oncology?
0:17:54 > 0:17:58I'm not sure how many are left, but if it's for Emily, fine.
0:18:01 > 0:18:03Asshole.
0:18:03 > 0:18:08You should get away, Joe. Isn't there someplace you could go?
0:19:35 > 0:19:38- FAINT CRY:- 'Joe!'
0:19:54 > 0:19:57'Joe!'
0:20:14 > 0:20:16- 'Joe!' - CLATTERING
0:20:19 > 0:20:21'Joe!
0:20:21 > 0:20:23'Joe, can't you hear me?
0:20:23 > 0:20:27'Joe! Joe!'
0:20:30 > 0:20:32CONTINUOUS BEEP
0:20:32 > 0:20:35- All right, hold CPR. - I'm getting nothing!
0:20:35 > 0:20:39- Continue with it! Shock him at 30! - Come on, Jeffrey!- Keep it going!
0:20:39 > 0:20:43- Clear!- Still nothing! - Charging to 60!
0:20:43 > 0:20:47- Shock him! - Clear!- Nothing!
0:20:47 > 0:20:51- Again.- He's not responding! - Again!- There's no pulse!
0:20:51 > 0:20:53- He's not coming back! - Dammit, again!
0:20:53 > 0:20:55Clear!
0:21:01 > 0:21:04He's gone.
0:21:28 > 0:21:31- HEART MONITOR BEATS RAPIDLY - He's got a rhythm!- He's back!
0:21:31 > 0:21:34- He's coming back! - Yes, Jeffrey!
0:21:34 > 0:21:38Do you need to be here? Clear the room, please! Get me an EKG!
0:21:38 > 0:21:42- His hand's moving! - Don't let him pull out that IV!
0:21:42 > 0:21:45- Jeffrey, can you hear me?! - Pupils reactive!
0:21:45 > 0:21:50- I just came on. What happened? - They're stabilising him.
0:21:50 > 0:21:53He flatlined, then his heart started again.
0:21:53 > 0:21:55That's our Jeffrey.
0:21:55 > 0:21:59His heart's stopped more times than anyone ever.
0:21:59 > 0:22:04He'll come out of there with stories about who he met in the tunnel.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06SHE KNOCKS
0:22:19 > 0:22:22- Hi, I'm Doctor Darrow from Emergency. - We know who you are.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25The hospital administrator heard
0:22:25 > 0:22:28that you got in the way in ICU yesterday
0:22:28 > 0:22:31and asked to be notified if you came back here again.
0:22:31 > 0:22:35Did the boy who was being resuscitated last night, er...
0:22:35 > 0:22:38- Jeffrey...?- Reardon. - Right. Is he...?
0:22:38 > 0:22:42- Is he still on the floor?- Mm-hm. He was one of your wife's favourites.
0:22:42 > 0:22:46Well, actually, that's why I'm here. I promised I'd look in on her kids
0:22:46 > 0:22:49but there don't seem to...be many left.
0:22:52 > 0:22:55(It'd be great if you could give me a little help.)
0:22:55 > 0:23:00Maybe not...put in that call to the hospital administrator.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02Between you and me, Doctor...
0:23:02 > 0:23:06the hospital administrator is... How do I put it?
0:23:06 > 0:23:09I use the word asshole.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11That about captures it.
0:23:12 > 0:23:16315. He's a real trip. You'll love him.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18Thanks.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29- Hello. - Hi.
0:23:29 > 0:23:32- How's he doin'? - Great.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37- Nice. - What is it?
0:23:37 > 0:23:39I couldn't say.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42Guess.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44All right.
0:23:46 > 0:23:48A crucifix made of Jell-o?
0:23:50 > 0:23:53- Man, you're good. He's good. - He hasn't stopped drawing them
0:23:53 > 0:23:56since he got out of the ICU yesterday.
0:23:58 > 0:24:02- So what is it? - I don't know, that's why I'm askin'.
0:24:02 > 0:24:04I just woke up thinking about it.
0:24:04 > 0:24:08- I happened to be in the ICU yesterday, Jeffrey.- I know,
0:24:08 > 0:24:11- I saw you in there. - You saw me in there?
0:24:11 > 0:24:15Yeah, you came in through the back of the room standing over my bed.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23- You saw me come over to your bed? - I'm pretty sure it was you.
0:24:23 > 0:24:25- But the tie was different. - Jeffrey.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29- Could I ask...?- Er...
0:24:29 > 0:24:33we're not encouraged to discuss these things.
0:24:33 > 0:24:35There was a nun on the ward,
0:24:35 > 0:24:39interviewing kids who'd had near-death experiences.
0:24:39 > 0:24:44It stirred up all kinds of trouble when some of it appeared on TV.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46She never even talked to me
0:24:46 > 0:24:50and I got the best near-death experiences of anyone.
0:24:50 > 0:24:54I'm allowed a coffee break if there's a doctor with him.
0:24:54 > 0:24:58In spite of hospital policy, I think they need to talk about it.
0:24:58 > 0:25:02You're scheduled for a CAT scan, Jeffrey. Don't go without me.
0:25:12 > 0:25:16- So what are we talking about, here, Jeffrey?- What we shouldn't.
0:25:18 > 0:25:21In the ICU yesterday, when I approached your bed, it...
0:25:21 > 0:25:26- it seemed to me you were pretty... - I was flatlined.- Exactly.
0:25:26 > 0:25:30- So how could you look up and see me? - I couldn't.
0:25:30 > 0:25:34- But you said... - I looked down.- Looked down?
0:25:34 > 0:25:38From the ceiling. That's where I was when I saw you.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45OK.
0:25:45 > 0:25:49- You don't believe me. - Should I?
0:25:49 > 0:25:52Ever seen that little bald spot on the top of your head?
0:25:55 > 0:25:59Bend down here. Come on, bend down here.
0:26:00 > 0:26:03Yeah, that was you.
0:26:06 > 0:26:09Jeffrey, do you know my name?
0:26:09 > 0:26:11You look like a...
0:26:11 > 0:26:13a William to me.
0:26:13 > 0:26:16I'm a Joe.
0:26:16 > 0:26:18Does it ring a bell?
0:26:20 > 0:26:23Emily's Joe?
0:26:23 > 0:26:26Joe Darrow.
0:26:27 > 0:26:31I saw her yesterday, too.
0:26:31 > 0:26:34What do you mean, Jeffrey, you "saw her"?
0:26:34 > 0:26:36She was there.
0:26:36 > 0:26:39Where?
0:26:39 > 0:26:41All around me.
0:26:44 > 0:26:46Inside the rainbow...
0:26:46 > 0:26:49the mist.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52I...I was falling... falling through it
0:26:52 > 0:26:55until she caught me...
0:26:55 > 0:26:58and brought me back up.
0:26:58 > 0:27:01She kind of flew me.
0:27:01 > 0:27:03She flew me out...
0:27:06 > 0:27:08..so I could come back...
0:27:09 > 0:27:14- ..and...and tell somebody somethin'.- Tell what, Jeffrey?
0:27:14 > 0:27:17To who?
0:27:19 > 0:27:21Joe.
0:27:21 > 0:27:24Tell me what, Jeffrey?
0:27:26 > 0:27:29Tell Joe what?
0:27:29 > 0:27:34It was loud in the rainbow... like thunder in there.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36(Tell me what, Jeffrey?!)
0:27:36 > 0:27:40- I don't know. - You were calling my name.
0:27:40 > 0:27:43Joe.
0:27:43 > 0:27:45Joe!
0:27:45 > 0:27:48Joe, can't you hear me?
0:27:48 > 0:27:50- Joe! - All right.
0:27:50 > 0:27:54- Joe!- Jeffrey. - Joe!- No, no, no! Slow down. Whoa!
0:27:54 > 0:27:56Whoa.
0:27:56 > 0:27:59Look at my eyes. Look at my eyes.
0:27:59 > 0:28:03Just breathe. Just breathe a little bit, OK?
0:28:04 > 0:28:05What happened?
0:28:05 > 0:28:07- I'm fine. - We were...
0:28:07 > 0:28:10He wanted to know what happened yesterday.
0:28:10 > 0:28:15- Well, his heart stopped again. - I know. I...I was there, actually.
0:28:15 > 0:28:19- He wanted to know what happened while it was stopped.- Oh.
0:28:19 > 0:28:22Telling one of his tall tales again.
0:28:22 > 0:28:26Next time he can sweep the ceiling while he's up there.
0:28:26 > 0:28:28My daddy don't believe me.
0:28:28 > 0:28:33He do the bald spot on you? Yeah, see, look.
0:28:34 > 0:28:37HE LAUGHS
0:28:37 > 0:28:41It don't work on everybody, just us bald guys, huh?
0:28:41 > 0:28:43Yeah, he got me with that one, too.
0:28:45 > 0:28:50- You had me going, there, Jeffrey.- It was the truth. You don't believe me?
0:28:55 > 0:28:59What if I do remember what she wanted to tell you?
0:28:59 > 0:29:03- Then would you believe me? - Do you remember it?
0:29:03 > 0:29:07- If you come back I might. - About what who wants to tell him?
0:29:07 > 0:29:11His wife. She wants me to tell him something.
0:29:11 > 0:29:15- Probably take out the trash, huh? - HE CHUCKLES
0:29:55 > 0:29:57- LAUGHTER - What?
0:29:57 > 0:30:01He even had me believing he saw my bald spot from the ceiling,
0:30:01 > 0:30:05- until I saw a mirror behind my head. - We can thank Mom for those genes.
0:30:05 > 0:30:09Well, I can see your bald spot from here.
0:30:09 > 0:30:12- I think bald is sexy. - Really?
0:30:12 > 0:30:15- Yes. - I've got a parrot might turn you on.
0:30:15 > 0:30:18Are you still living with that messy thing? Joe!
0:30:18 > 0:30:22- We're working on our relationship. - Is it a talking parrot?
0:30:22 > 0:30:25- A listening parrot. - A bird after my own heart.
0:30:25 > 0:30:29- That's what I do for a living - listen.- Really?
0:30:29 > 0:30:31Gwyn's a grief counsellor, Joe,
0:30:31 > 0:30:35that's why I thought it might be a good idea for you two to meet.
0:30:36 > 0:30:40- Is that right?- In fact, I've heard a lot of clients
0:30:40 > 0:30:43talk about the near-death experiences of their loved ones.
0:30:43 > 0:30:47They talk about being in a tunnel, moving toward the light.
0:30:47 > 0:30:51- And what's your thought on it? - I'm just your parrot, Joe.
0:30:51 > 0:30:56- Just listening.- I can tell you, as an eye surgeon it's all very simple.
0:30:56 > 0:30:59The tunnel is literal tunnel vision
0:30:59 > 0:31:04and the white light is the gradual bleaching out of the optic screen.
0:31:04 > 0:31:07How do you explain their ability
0:31:07 > 0:31:10to recall what everyone said around their deathbed
0:31:10 > 0:31:13after they were declared dead?
0:31:13 > 0:31:15It's the way we measure death.
0:31:15 > 0:31:19Obviously, the brain is functioning on some subliminal level,
0:31:19 > 0:31:23soaking up all the last bits of what's left to hear and see.
0:31:23 > 0:31:27That's what you get for having dinner with a family of doctors.
0:31:27 > 0:31:31- No discussion about floating around, no tunnel.- I guess not.
0:31:31 > 0:31:35Next they're gonna tell us there's no tooth fairy.
0:31:35 > 0:31:39The funny thing is, I thought I heard him calling out for me...
0:31:39 > 0:31:42this kid.
0:31:42 > 0:31:44I heard his voice calling Joe.
0:31:44 > 0:31:49And when I introduced myself to him, he asked me if I was Emily's Joe.
0:31:50 > 0:31:54Said that Emily was trying to reach me.
0:31:56 > 0:32:00Do you believe she's trying to reach you, Joe?
0:32:01 > 0:32:03No, Counsellor, I don't.
0:32:08 > 0:32:11I can give you an hour for free.
0:32:13 > 0:32:17Bye, Joe. Do you want me to package up dessert for you?
0:32:17 > 0:32:20Sorry. Can I use your phone?
0:32:26 > 0:32:28Excuse me.
0:32:34 > 0:32:36I am kinda busy at the moment, yeah.
0:32:37 > 0:32:42Well, isn't there anyone else who can cover for me tonight? All right.
0:32:42 > 0:32:44I'll be right over.
0:32:44 > 0:32:47I'm sorry, I'd really like to stay.
0:32:47 > 0:32:50No, you wouldn't. It's too threatening.
0:32:50 > 0:32:54It's about unresolved issues you're not ready to deal with yet.
0:32:54 > 0:32:58Guilt, anger toward our loved ones, that's why we conjure up spirits,
0:32:58 > 0:33:01from the Virgin Mary to our dearly departed,
0:33:01 > 0:33:05because we need to talk to them, not the other way around.
0:33:11 > 0:33:15You asked if I thought she was trying to contact me and I never answered.
0:33:15 > 0:33:17Let me answer now.
0:33:17 > 0:33:20She was my ultimate partner, my best friend and lover
0:33:20 > 0:33:23and I miss her beyond belief.
0:33:23 > 0:33:26I also know I'm never gonna see her again, not ever.
0:33:26 > 0:33:30And I'm just beginning to understand what that means so intensely
0:33:30 > 0:33:33that I sometimes wish I didn't have to wake up any more!
0:33:33 > 0:33:38And the last thing I need is someone telling me what or how to feel.
0:33:38 > 0:33:40Anger? Yeah.
0:33:40 > 0:33:43Guilt? You bet. But I don't need you
0:33:43 > 0:33:46crawling up my ass with a flashlight to tell me about it!
0:33:46 > 0:33:50Keep going, Joe. This is what you need.
0:33:50 > 0:33:52I'll drop you a cheque in the mail(!)
0:34:17 > 0:34:19Hi.
0:34:20 > 0:34:22Hey.
0:34:22 > 0:34:25- What's your name? - Ben.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27I'm Joe, Ben.
0:34:27 > 0:34:29I know.
0:34:32 > 0:34:36I'm just admiring your artwork. What is it?
0:34:37 > 0:34:40She said you should go there.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43- I'm sorry? - The lady.
0:34:43 > 0:34:47The lady in the picture down the hall.
0:34:47 > 0:34:50She said you'd...be coming to see me.
0:34:52 > 0:34:57- The nurse? - They said she was a doctor here.
0:35:00 > 0:35:05- What doctor? - She wants you to go there.
0:35:05 > 0:35:07Go where?
0:35:16 > 0:35:20I'm not... I'm not sure what you mean, Ben.
0:35:20 > 0:35:23Go where?
0:35:23 > 0:35:28I dreamed of her... in the ambulance when I came here.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30Then...
0:35:30 > 0:35:33I saw her picture in the hall.
0:35:33 > 0:35:37You know, the lady doctor in the picture of the Easter party
0:35:37 > 0:35:40with the cake on her nose?
0:35:40 > 0:35:43Are you talking about Dr Darrow?
0:35:45 > 0:35:48She died, I guess.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50And you...?
0:35:50 > 0:35:53And you dreamed of her?
0:35:56 > 0:35:59She wants you to go there.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04Go where, Ben?
0:36:04 > 0:36:06The rainbow.
0:36:10 > 0:36:12That's a rainbow?
0:36:14 > 0:36:17This...this is a rainbow?
0:36:26 > 0:36:29Have we met before, Ben?
0:36:30 > 0:36:32I don't know.
0:36:34 > 0:36:37How do you know who I am?
0:36:38 > 0:36:40She showed me your face.
0:36:45 > 0:36:47On a picture?
0:36:49 > 0:36:52In my mind.
0:36:52 > 0:36:54She said...
0:36:54 > 0:36:58I have to come back to tell you to go there.
0:37:02 > 0:37:04To a rainbow?
0:37:07 > 0:37:09Yes.
0:37:11 > 0:37:16Well, how would I... how would I do that, Ben?
0:37:31 > 0:37:34- Christine.- Uh-huh? - The boy in 312.- Ben?
0:37:34 > 0:37:38- Yes. Did he know my wife? - I don't think so.
0:37:38 > 0:37:42I think he just came in two weeks ago. Yeah, on the 3rd in a coma.
0:37:42 > 0:37:45Septic shock. Why, Joe?
0:37:48 > 0:37:50Nothing.
0:37:52 > 0:37:56Miriam, the...the first kid, he...he calls my name.
0:37:56 > 0:38:01I follow him into the ICU where he flatlines, all right? Dies.
0:38:01 > 0:38:05Then he says he saw me while he's floating around the ceiling
0:38:05 > 0:38:08and that Emily, who he met in a rainbow,
0:38:08 > 0:38:11- sent him back to tell me something. - Tell you what?
0:38:11 > 0:38:14He doesn't remember.
0:38:14 > 0:38:18- But the next kid does. - You want jelly? I got two kinds.
0:38:18 > 0:38:21- Are you taking me seriously? - Yes. Strawberry?
0:38:21 > 0:38:25What does it matter?! Do you... Do you hear what I'm telling you?!
0:38:25 > 0:38:28- I'm trying to focus on something real.- This isn't?
0:38:28 > 0:38:32It doesn't sound it so far.
0:38:34 > 0:38:36Listen to me, Joe.
0:38:39 > 0:38:43After Hannah died, I...I saw her everywhere.
0:38:43 > 0:38:46She told me I'd know if she was watchin' over me
0:38:46 > 0:38:52if I saw a daisy growin' with all the petals missing except one.
0:38:52 > 0:38:57And one day, I saw an entire field of one-petalled daisies.
0:38:57 > 0:39:02- Well, there you go. How do you explain that?- I was delusional.
0:39:02 > 0:39:06Well, I'm not, OK? I had these conversations!
0:39:06 > 0:39:11- Wait, you don't believe in heaven! - This isn't heaven, this is rainbows.
0:39:11 > 0:39:14Oh, and she wants you to join her...
0:39:14 > 0:39:16inside a rainbow?
0:39:16 > 0:39:20According to these kids, that's accurate.
0:39:20 > 0:39:24- According to me, they're putting you on.- So you think they're lying?
0:39:24 > 0:39:28I'm a lawyer, Joe! Nothing is real without evidence!
0:39:28 > 0:39:31Have you had any experience with Emily since her death?
0:39:31 > 0:39:34And if so, has it been documented?
0:39:34 > 0:39:37- You know the answer. Of course not. - Why?
0:39:37 > 0:39:40Because I haven't gone halfway to heaven
0:39:40 > 0:39:42and she has no way of reaching me!
0:39:55 > 0:39:58It does sound nuts, doesn't it?
0:39:58 > 0:40:01Well, I wouldn't employ you in my hospital if I heard that.
0:40:01 > 0:40:05And if I were you, I'd stay away from there.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07Isn't there somewhere you can go?
0:40:09 > 0:40:14I could go on a white-water trip. What I've always wanted to see...
0:40:14 > 0:40:18- white water. - I'll take care of Big Bird.
0:40:18 > 0:40:20Get outta here.
0:40:20 > 0:40:23Go see white water.
0:40:23 > 0:40:25And get your head straight.
0:41:07 > 0:41:09Wanna see?
0:41:12 > 0:41:15They were the last things she sent us.
0:41:30 > 0:41:32Hmm.
0:41:33 > 0:41:37Sorry to break it to you, pal, but, er...
0:41:37 > 0:41:40she was cheatin' on you.
0:41:59 > 0:42:02FAINT FLUTTERING
0:42:17 > 0:42:20It's just a bug, Big Bird.
0:42:20 > 0:42:22Attracted to the light.
0:42:22 > 0:42:25Let's not get crazy here.
0:42:49 > 0:42:51FAINT RUMBLING
0:43:04 > 0:43:07- PARROT:- Honey, I'm home.
0:43:11 > 0:43:13Honey, I'm home.
0:44:12 > 0:44:15Agh! Big Bird!
0:44:20 > 0:44:23Big Bird, no!
0:45:03 > 0:45:06PHONE RINGS
0:45:06 > 0:45:09- 'Hello?'- Miriam. - 'Joe?'- Miriam, listen to me.
0:45:09 > 0:45:12The bird, it's sick. I had to leave it.
0:45:12 > 0:45:16- 'I'm on my way to the hospital.' - Are YOU OK?
0:45:16 > 0:45:18Actually, I'm not. I feel...
0:45:20 > 0:45:24- I feel like I'm losing my mind. - What can I do?
0:45:24 > 0:45:27'It was acting like it used to when she'd come home.'
0:45:27 > 0:45:30I felt like she was there...
0:45:31 > 0:45:34- ..in the house. - Jesus, Joe.
0:45:34 > 0:45:38- I don't know what to do about the... - 'The bird?'
0:45:38 > 0:45:43I'll take care of it. I'll wake up the vet if I have to.
0:45:43 > 0:45:48- 'You just...hang in there, OK?' - All right. Thanks.
0:45:52 > 0:45:55- Is Jeffrey awake? - Er, not a good idea right now.
0:45:55 > 0:46:00- Is he in his room?- Visiting hours aren't until ten, Joe. Joe!
0:46:02 > 0:46:04Joe.
0:46:13 > 0:46:17Joe, there was some talk around here I think you should know about.
0:46:17 > 0:46:21- Where is he? Jeffrey. - Downstairs getting blood work.
0:46:21 > 0:46:24- Can I...?- His nurse, is she with him?- Listen to me.
0:46:24 > 0:46:28She said a nun was interviewing kids about near-death experiences.
0:46:28 > 0:46:31- Sister Madeline. - Where is she?
0:46:31 > 0:46:35She's no longer employed here, Joe. And do you know why?
0:46:35 > 0:46:39- Because she overstepped her bounds. - Where is she employed?
0:46:39 > 0:46:42Would Chaplain Services know?
0:46:42 > 0:46:46Could you leave us alone for a minute?
0:46:50 > 0:46:52What are you doing, Joe?
0:46:52 > 0:46:56You know what I'm doing. All right, you gave me permission...
0:46:56 > 0:47:00To look in on Emily's kids. That was two days ago.
0:47:00 > 0:47:04- I told you, I promised my wife! - That you'd upset them?
0:47:04 > 0:47:08Jeffrey's cardiologist saw the read-out on his EKG from yesterday
0:47:08 > 0:47:12and he was damned upset that your visit put him under such stress!
0:47:12 > 0:47:15What is goin' on, Joe?
0:47:22 > 0:47:26The bird's OK. He will outlive us all.
0:47:26 > 0:47:30I tried to clean up some of the mess in there.
0:47:30 > 0:47:32Overturned lamp, broken vase...
0:47:32 > 0:47:36- You didn't have to do all that. - I didn't do "all that".
0:47:36 > 0:47:39I left some of it...
0:47:39 > 0:47:41to discuss with you.
0:47:43 > 0:47:47That weird picture you told me the kids were drawin'...
0:47:47 > 0:47:49the wiggly cross...
0:47:53 > 0:47:55Is it the kids drawin' it, Joe...
0:47:55 > 0:47:58or is it you?
0:48:00 > 0:48:03Cos if you did this,
0:48:03 > 0:48:05you need some help.
0:48:07 > 0:48:09It's all over the windows, too.
0:48:19 > 0:48:22Watch the bird for me, will you?
0:48:52 > 0:48:57Excuse me. Excuse me, I'm looking for Sister Madeline.
0:48:57 > 0:49:01- Is that...?- What is this about? - It's personal. Is that her?
0:49:01 > 0:49:05- Call the office for an appointment. - Excuse me!- Sir...
0:49:05 > 0:49:09- Sister Madeline?- Sir! - Sister, could I speak to you?
0:49:09 > 0:49:12- Sir! - Please! Sister Madeline!
0:49:12 > 0:49:15Please, are you Si...?
0:49:15 > 0:49:17Please.
0:49:17 > 0:49:19Are you Sister Madeline?
0:49:19 > 0:49:22This is private property! You are trespassing!
0:49:22 > 0:49:26I tried to call, I'm sorry. Chaplain Services only gave me an address.
0:49:26 > 0:49:29- He'll call the police. - Please, ju...
0:49:29 > 0:49:33- Just five minutes! - You people have done enough damage!
0:49:33 > 0:49:35- You don't understand! - YOU don't!
0:49:35 > 0:49:38No more journalists, no more interviews!
0:49:38 > 0:49:41I'm not a journalist, I'm a...I'm a doctor.
0:49:41 > 0:49:45Head of... I'm head of Emergency Services
0:49:45 > 0:49:49at Chicago Memorial Hospital. Joe Darrow.
0:49:51 > 0:49:54- Emily's Joe? - Yes.
0:49:57 > 0:50:02(That's why I need to talk to you. I need to know about your work.)
0:50:03 > 0:50:07- I've called the police. I'd advise you to leave.- It's all right.
0:50:07 > 0:50:11- He's not a journalist. - He's still trespassing.- Sorry, I...
0:50:11 > 0:50:15We hired Sister Madeline with the understanding that her presence here
0:50:15 > 0:50:19- wouldn't cause any disturbances. - BELL RINGS - Sister.
0:50:19 > 0:50:21Sir.
0:50:26 > 0:50:29The police respond quickly. I'd advise you to leave.
0:50:46 > 0:50:49Do you have business at the school, sir?
0:50:49 > 0:50:53- I beg your pardon? - Step over here, please.
0:50:57 > 0:51:02RADIO SQUAWKS
0:51:39 > 0:51:42And I realised that in an age
0:51:42 > 0:51:45where no-one believes in miracles any more,
0:51:45 > 0:51:48I was witnessing miracles every day.
0:51:48 > 0:51:50And a paediatric-oncology ward
0:51:50 > 0:51:56was the perfect laboratory to study it - the near-death experience.
0:51:56 > 0:51:59Being kids they were more open
0:51:59 > 0:52:02to what happens on the other side.
0:52:02 > 0:52:06You're convinced it's not just in their minds?
0:52:06 > 0:52:09Just in their minds.
0:52:10 > 0:52:15What we're experiencing right now could be just in your mind.
0:52:15 > 0:52:20You're a doctor because you dreamed of being one, right?
0:52:20 > 0:52:22You...
0:52:22 > 0:52:25imagined that for yourself.
0:52:27 > 0:52:31If we can create this world with what we imagine,
0:52:31 > 0:52:33why not the next?
0:52:33 > 0:52:35So you're saying belief...?
0:52:35 > 0:52:38Gets us there.
0:52:38 > 0:52:40Did Emily believe?
0:52:42 > 0:52:45Because I think she got there.
0:52:45 > 0:52:48I believe she's trying to contact me.
0:52:48 > 0:52:51Two kids have seen her.
0:52:51 > 0:52:53One was flatlined,
0:52:53 > 0:52:56- another in a coma. - In the tunnel?
0:52:56 > 0:52:59In a rainbow...
0:52:59 > 0:53:02trying to tell me something, something urgent...
0:53:02 > 0:53:05but I don't know what.
0:53:05 > 0:53:10And they...they... they draw this...after they've...
0:53:10 > 0:53:14after they've seen her. Have you ever seen this before?
0:53:15 > 0:53:17No.
0:53:26 > 0:53:29I don't know.
0:53:29 > 0:53:31Am I...?
0:53:31 > 0:53:33Am I just goin' nuts?
0:53:35 > 0:53:37As nuts as Christopher Columbus,
0:53:37 > 0:53:41thinking there was another side to the Earth.
0:53:43 > 0:53:45Talk to an anaesthesiologist.
0:53:45 > 0:53:50They'll tell you...there are 100 steps on the ladder of consciousness
0:53:50 > 0:53:53between being fully alert... and being dead.
0:53:53 > 0:53:56To put a patient under,
0:53:56 > 0:53:59they bring them down only to the tenth rung.
0:53:59 > 0:54:02Beneath that
0:54:02 > 0:54:05is a descending grey scale,
0:54:05 > 0:54:09like the depths of an ocean no-one has explored.
0:54:09 > 0:54:14It's in those depths, those murky depths,
0:54:14 > 0:54:16she's finding them, the children.
0:54:16 > 0:54:19They're her conduit
0:54:19 > 0:54:22because she knew you'd find your way to them.
0:54:23 > 0:54:27Stay close to them. Be with them when they slip away,
0:54:27 > 0:54:30so you can be with them...
0:54:30 > 0:54:33when they first awaken before the details fade.
0:54:33 > 0:54:35One of them...
0:54:35 > 0:54:38will come back...
0:54:38 > 0:54:40with the answer.
0:55:39 > 0:55:43- Careful, careful! OK, let's go! - Watch your back!- I'll get it!
0:55:46 > 0:55:51- Down on the right!- Careful! - Hook him up to a ventilator!
0:55:51 > 0:55:54This is Jeanette in Nephrology.
0:55:54 > 0:55:56I need to speak to Doctor Dickinson, please.
0:55:56 > 0:56:00Doctor Darrow! ..Yes, it is an emergency.
0:56:00 > 0:56:03I can't hold. Keep me on the line. Doctor Dickinson,
0:56:03 > 0:56:08we've got a healthy kidney up here. Just Doctor Darrow. Joe.
0:56:08 > 0:56:11- Yeah?- 'Joe, I'm on my way over to harvest a kidney
0:56:11 > 0:56:14'and I want you to protect it for me.'
0:56:14 > 0:56:18- Tell me what to do.- All right, they're coming in for other organs
0:56:18 > 0:56:22but that kidney is mine. I want that made clear.
0:56:22 > 0:56:26Stay on top of his vitals, don't leave the room
0:56:26 > 0:56:30- and hold off the vultures. - Consider it done.- Put Jeanette on.
0:56:30 > 0:56:32- I'm ten minutes away. - Jeanette.
0:56:32 > 0:56:35Yes, sir?
0:56:47 > 0:56:51- Mr Dickinson?- Darrow. - They told me not to leave him,
0:56:51 > 0:56:55but I gotta get this monitor over to the recipient.
0:56:55 > 0:56:57I'll keep watch in here.
0:56:57 > 0:57:02Ventilator's set at 16. That ought to keep the organs fresh.
0:57:32 > 0:57:35FAINT WHIRRING OF HELICOPTER ROTOR
0:58:11 > 0:58:14- FAINT VOICE:- 'Joe.
0:58:21 > 0:58:24'Joe.'
0:58:43 > 0:58:45HE EXHALES
0:58:45 > 0:58:47MUMBLING
0:58:48 > 0:58:51Dear God! LIFT BELL PINGS
0:58:51 > 0:58:55- What room's the donor in?- 215. First double doors on your right.
0:58:55 > 0:59:00- Call air support and tell 'em we'll be right up.- Right.
0:59:00 > 0:59:02GASPS
0:59:04 > 0:59:09We're from Lakeview. We have a heart recipient prepped and ready to go.
0:59:09 > 0:59:13- You're not supposed to be in here. - Are you Dickinson?- Get out.
0:59:13 > 0:59:16- Hey, take it easy, Doctor. - Get everyone out!
0:59:16 > 0:59:20- No! It's OK, Joe.- Dickinson said... - I just spoke to him.
0:59:20 > 0:59:23- He said move 'em both into surgery.- Let's go.
0:59:23 > 0:59:26- Wait, OK? - Hey, it's all right!- It's not!
0:59:26 > 0:59:31- He's not ready to be moved!- Hey, what are we waiting for? Move him out!
0:59:31 > 0:59:35- Charlie, wait a second! - What?- This man's not dead.
0:59:35 > 0:59:39The brain scan jumped. I saw it. I saw it on the monitor.
0:59:39 > 0:59:43Come on, it's flat as a pancake. Come on, let's move him out of here!
0:59:43 > 0:59:45- Come on, let's go! - Charlie, listen!
0:59:48 > 0:59:52Charlie, there's something going on! Don't do this yet!
0:59:52 > 0:59:56- Don't kill this man! - This man is dead.- He spoke!
0:59:56 > 1:00:00- Joe, please.- I'm tellin' you! - He could not speak!- It was Emily!
1:00:00 > 1:00:04- It was her voice! I'm not crazy! - You back off!- You've got...!
1:00:04 > 1:00:09- You've gotta listen to me! Listen! - Joe...!- Hold off for a minute, OK?
1:00:09 > 1:00:11- Leave me with him. - This is nuts, Joe!
1:00:11 > 1:00:14- Come on, get him inside! - Hey! Hey! Hey! Hey, easy!
1:00:14 > 1:00:19- Back off, man! - Somebody get security!
1:00:19 > 1:00:23- Get him outta here!- For God's sake! - Get security, will you?!
1:00:23 > 1:00:26- Charlie, one fucking minute! - Get him outta here!
1:00:26 > 1:00:32- Joe! We need security in two south right away!- Please, listen to me!
1:00:54 > 1:00:57'Thanks for comin' down.'
1:00:58 > 1:01:02- You posted bail? - First offence. I got it waived.
1:01:02 > 1:01:05I also spoke to the hospital administrator,
1:01:05 > 1:01:07who's willing to drop all charges
1:01:07 > 1:01:11- if you'll agree to take a lengthy sabbatical.- I'll bet.
1:01:11 > 1:01:15He said you said a brain-dead organ donor spoke to you. Is that true?
1:01:15 > 1:01:18- No. - Good.
1:01:19 > 1:01:22It was Emily.
1:01:23 > 1:01:25Speaking through him.
1:01:25 > 1:01:29You know, I could almost understand it with the kids.
1:01:29 > 1:01:33I mean, they're gonna dream about her, she was key to their survival.
1:01:33 > 1:01:37- OK, then, how about the kid who never even laid eyes on her?- What kid?
1:01:37 > 1:01:40The kid I told you about in the kitchen!
1:01:40 > 1:01:45He first met her in a coma! I've got his admission records to prove it!
1:01:45 > 1:01:48That's evidence, right? Isn't that what you wanted?
1:01:48 > 1:01:52She's trying to reach me and she's becoming desperate.
1:01:52 > 1:01:54Why?
1:01:54 > 1:01:56Why desperate, Joe?
1:01:59 > 1:02:03- You don't think she's still alive? - If the kid could see her in a coma,
1:02:03 > 1:02:08- why couldn't she be communicating from one?- There were no survivors!
1:02:08 > 1:02:12- They searched the jungle for almost a month!- And never found her!
1:02:12 > 1:02:15That's why we're here, because you never saw her body
1:02:15 > 1:02:19and never got closure!
1:02:21 > 1:02:23Emily's dead, Joe.
1:02:24 > 1:02:28That's what this is all about - your refusal to accept that.
1:02:29 > 1:02:32Look, I understand it.
1:02:32 > 1:02:35If I hadn't seen Hannah's body, I wouldn't have believed it, either.
1:02:35 > 1:02:39I'd still be waitin' for her to come home, just like you are.
1:02:39 > 1:02:42You have to end this, Joe.
1:02:42 > 1:02:45You gotta do the hard stuff, like I did,
1:02:45 > 1:02:47like everyone does.
1:02:47 > 1:02:51You gotta clean out the closets, empty the drawers
1:02:51 > 1:02:54and...take down the vacancy sign that says,
1:02:54 > 1:02:59"Emily's ghost is welcome here," and get on with your life without her.
1:03:07 > 1:03:09(Right.)
1:03:11 > 1:03:13SIGHS
1:03:13 > 1:03:15What about that rafting trip?
1:03:15 > 1:03:18What do you mean what about it?
1:03:18 > 1:03:21Well, anything to get your mind off this.
1:03:21 > 1:03:25- So you think I should go? - Maybe I'll go with you. Huh?
1:03:25 > 1:03:29I'm mean with a paddle.
1:03:30 > 1:03:32The river's up this time of year.
1:03:32 > 1:03:36It's gone from a two-point difficulty to a five.
1:03:36 > 1:03:40I want us all to go over our river maps. Note the hazard points,
1:03:40 > 1:03:43- the waterfalls... - Check out these safari pants.
1:03:43 > 1:03:46- Pack light. - I'm just bringing my thong(!)
1:03:46 > 1:03:49- Well, I'm bringing my camera. - It better be disposable
1:03:49 > 1:03:53cos everything's gonna go in the drink. Here's to adventure.
1:03:53 > 1:03:55- Yey-ah!- Adventure. - Adventure.
1:04:11 > 1:04:16- What do you think?- I think it's an idea whose time has come.
1:04:16 > 1:04:20No, I mean... I mean, do you think it'll sell?
1:04:20 > 1:04:24- The agent said it needed a paint job. - Ach, get what you can and get out.
1:04:24 > 1:04:28- Leave the memories behind. - Well, you didn't after Hannah died.
1:04:28 > 1:04:33But I didn't have corpses playing ventriloquist with me.
1:04:34 > 1:04:37I'm gonna miss you, Joe.
1:04:37 > 1:04:39I'm gonna miss your waffles.
1:04:42 > 1:04:46Would you show it for me... if I'm gone for a week?
1:04:46 > 1:04:49- I'm taking that white-water trip. - With pleasure.
1:04:49 > 1:04:53It's good to see you joining the world again.
1:04:57 > 1:05:00WIND HOWLS
1:06:39 > 1:06:42FAINT GRINDING AND FOOTSTEPS
1:07:00 > 1:07:02CREAKING
1:07:32 > 1:07:35WIND HOWLS
1:07:35 > 1:07:37DOOR CREAKS
1:09:17 > 1:09:21- 'Hello?'- Hal, reading the map of the river, there's a symbol.
1:09:21 > 1:09:24- Two wavery lines that crisscross in the middle.- 'Waterfalls.
1:09:24 > 1:09:28'Put a big red circle around those. We'll have to portage there.
1:09:28 > 1:09:31'They're too high this time of year.
1:09:31 > 1:09:33'Joe?'
1:10:04 > 1:10:06A rainbow.
1:10:28 > 1:10:31- You are, er, the doctor? - Yes.- Muy bien.
1:10:31 > 1:10:34SPEAKS SPANISH
1:10:36 > 1:10:39- Is my pilot here? - Er, that is me.
1:10:39 > 1:10:42Victor. Como te va?
1:10:43 > 1:10:47- I take your bags. - Have you been flying long, Victor?
1:10:47 > 1:10:49Don't worry, I know how.
1:10:49 > 1:10:54- You have a licence, though, right? - Si. Pretty much.
1:10:59 > 1:11:01Janajuapa.
1:11:01 > 1:11:05- Janajuapa, you've been there? - Er, si. Janajuapa.
1:11:05 > 1:11:07This is it, right?
1:11:10 > 1:11:13- With the waterfall. - I don't know.
1:11:13 > 1:11:16I only been there in the dry season.
1:11:19 > 1:11:23- Is my interpreter here?- The Yanomami speak a little Spanish.
1:11:23 > 1:11:27I speak a little Wahibo. You talk to them through me.
1:11:27 > 1:11:30OK, we go.
1:11:40 > 1:11:43That your girlfriend in the picture?
1:11:44 > 1:11:46It's my wife.
1:11:46 > 1:11:49Used to be.
1:11:50 > 1:11:52You come to get her back, eh?
1:11:55 > 1:11:57In a way, I guess.
1:12:08 > 1:12:11There was an accident here last spring.
1:12:11 > 1:12:16- A bus...that washed away on a road. - La Cruz Roja?
1:12:16 > 1:12:20- The Red Cross?- Yes, that's right. - You can probably see it,
1:12:20 > 1:12:24now that the river is not so high. It's just up ahead on the way.
1:12:27 > 1:12:32The rock slide took more than just the bus. It isolated an entire tribe
1:12:32 > 1:12:35from the outside world. Can you see it?
1:12:35 > 1:12:37Down there.
1:12:39 > 1:12:42Nobody lived.
1:12:42 > 1:12:45The Yanomami are still wearing some of their clothing.
1:12:46 > 1:12:49And Janajuapa up ahead.
1:12:49 > 1:12:53Some of the bodies washed out of the bus, down the river
1:12:53 > 1:12:56and right into their village.
1:13:17 > 1:13:19The guys we are meeting,
1:13:19 > 1:13:22er, they work with all the tribes in the area.
1:13:22 > 1:13:25Did I mention... they don't like outsiders?
1:13:31 > 1:13:35It's a good thing you have me with you.
1:13:40 > 1:13:43SPEAKS SPANISH
1:14:13 > 1:14:17He say...he cannot take you to the village.
1:14:17 > 1:14:20But for a price...
1:14:20 > 1:14:22he can take you to their graves.
1:16:05 > 1:16:08THUNDER RUMBLES SOFTLY
1:16:36 > 1:16:38Senor.
1:16:38 > 1:16:40Senor...
1:16:40 > 1:16:42we should go.
1:16:49 > 1:16:51They, er...?
1:16:51 > 1:16:54They wouldn't know, would they, which, er...
1:16:54 > 1:16:57body was buried where?
1:17:00 > 1:17:03Look, if... if the weather gets...any worse,
1:17:03 > 1:17:06we don't get out of here...
1:17:06 > 1:17:08and...and that's no good for nobody.
1:17:33 > 1:17:35Senors...
1:17:35 > 1:17:38Senors, er...my wife.
1:17:38 > 1:17:41- Er, su esposa. - Mi esposa.
1:17:41 > 1:17:44- Red Cross. - La Cruz Roja.
1:17:44 > 1:17:48- Cruz Roja. Where? - Er, donde?- Where? Donde?
1:17:48 > 1:17:51Does anybody know where?
1:17:51 > 1:17:54VICTOR SPEAKS SPANISH Which one?
1:17:54 > 1:17:57BOTH SPEAK WAHIBO
1:17:57 > 1:18:00What? What are they saying?
1:18:00 > 1:18:05- They say they know her. - THEY ARGUE IN WAHIBO
1:18:11 > 1:18:15- What's he saying now?!- He says he wants to take you to the village,
1:18:15 > 1:18:19and he says, er, no. You need permission.
1:18:19 > 1:18:23- What is he saying? What the hell is he saying?!- I...I don't know! I...
1:18:42 > 1:18:44Senor!
1:18:45 > 1:18:49Senor, you can not go into the village! It is forbidden! Senor!
1:18:52 > 1:18:54Senor! Senor, stop!
1:19:07 > 1:19:09Senor!
1:19:09 > 1:19:13We can return with government people but you must come back with me now.
1:19:20 > 1:19:23I said now, senor!
1:19:24 > 1:19:25No! No! No!
1:20:20 > 1:20:22CREAKING
1:22:06 > 1:22:10- 'She wants you to go there, Joe. - Join her.
1:22:10 > 1:22:13'Joe. Joe! Joe, can't you hear me?!
1:22:13 > 1:22:16'Joe?!
1:22:16 > 1:22:19'...100 steps on the ladder of consciousness.'
1:22:22 > 1:22:26- 'No survivors. Where's her body?! - You think she's alive?
1:22:26 > 1:22:30'Emily?! Joe?! Listen to me!'
1:23:32 > 1:23:34RUMBLING
1:23:39 > 1:23:41SCREAMING
1:25:01 > 1:25:03GASPS
1:25:24 > 1:25:27< SPLUTTERS
1:25:37 > 1:25:40You are one crazy son of a bitch, you know that?!
1:25:40 > 1:25:44You're lucky to be alive, senor! You were not breathing!
1:25:44 > 1:25:48It's been over an hour! Get up! We will cross the river downstream
1:25:48 > 1:25:52and hopefully we can get to the airstrip before nightfall.
1:25:52 > 1:25:54She lived through the bus accident.
1:26:01 > 1:26:04She made it to the village.
1:26:05 > 1:26:10You cannot go to the village! Stop! I cannot go back without you!
1:26:10 > 1:26:14They'll take away my licence! Stop, senor!
1:26:35 > 1:26:37Senor!
1:26:37 > 1:26:41Senor, stop! Don't do this!
1:27:02 > 1:27:05Senor!
1:27:05 > 1:27:07PANTS
1:27:07 > 1:27:11The man said we must have permission.
1:27:13 > 1:27:15I've got permission.
1:27:15 > 1:27:18No-one's keepin' me out of there.
1:27:36 > 1:27:39ALL SHOUT IN WAHIBO
1:28:06 > 1:28:08Please.
1:28:08 > 1:28:13My wife. SHOUTING FADES Did you know her?
1:28:13 > 1:28:15Mi es... Mi esposa.
1:28:17 > 1:28:20Did you know her?
1:28:23 > 1:28:26Mi esposa.
1:28:31 > 1:28:33SPEAKS WAHIBO
1:28:33 > 1:28:35Doctora!
1:28:37 > 1:28:40Doctora. Mi esposa.
1:28:43 > 1:28:45Mi esposa.
1:28:47 > 1:28:49The waterfall.
1:28:49 > 1:28:52She was here.
1:29:08 > 1:29:10SPEAKS WAHIBO
1:29:13 > 1:29:15Come here.
1:29:24 > 1:29:27She say...
1:29:27 > 1:29:29they knew her alive.
1:29:29 > 1:29:32She came to help them.
1:29:32 > 1:29:34Into the river...
1:29:34 > 1:29:36broke her back.
1:29:36 > 1:29:39Dying.
1:29:51 > 1:29:54They could not save her body...
1:29:54 > 1:29:58but they save her soul.
1:30:24 > 1:30:26SPEAKS WAHIBO
1:31:43 > 1:31:45SPEAKS WAHIBO
1:31:52 > 1:31:55She said, "Dragonfly."
1:32:19 > 1:32:22'I don't know if Emily ever saw her,
1:32:22 > 1:32:24'at least while she was of mind and body...
1:32:24 > 1:32:27'and I don't know how the baby survived,
1:32:27 > 1:32:32'premature...so small and fragile, in the middle of a jungle.
1:32:34 > 1:32:37'What I do know is that Emily made sure
1:32:37 > 1:32:40'our child found her way into my arms.
1:32:40 > 1:32:45'What she taught me in life... she taught me in death.
1:32:45 > 1:32:48'To trust,
1:32:48 > 1:32:50'to have faith.
1:32:50 > 1:32:54'Because as a friend of mine once said,
1:32:54 > 1:32:58'"It's belief that gets us there."'
1:34:07 > 1:34:09MUSIC: "Star" by Zoo Story
1:34:17 > 1:34:18# Come
1:34:20 > 1:34:23# Come out and play
1:34:25 > 1:34:28# We miss your face
1:34:29 > 1:34:32# And the funny things you say
1:34:34 > 1:34:36# Be
1:34:37 > 1:34:41# Just be yourself
1:34:42 > 1:34:45# And nothing else
1:34:47 > 1:34:50# Will push you away
1:34:52 > 1:34:55# And I feel
1:34:55 > 1:34:59# So much love... #
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