0:00:45 > 0:00:49This film contains some strong language.
0:01:26 > 0:01:31Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again.
0:01:31 > 0:01:34I feel we can't go through another of these terrible times
0:01:34 > 0:01:38and I...shan't recover this time.
0:01:40 > 0:01:44I begin to hear voices and can't concentrate.
0:01:48 > 0:01:51So I am doing what seems to be the best thing to do.
0:02:07 > 0:02:11You have given me the greatest possible happiness.
0:02:11 > 0:02:14You have been, in every way,
0:02:14 > 0:02:16all that anyone could be.
0:02:19 > 0:02:25I know that I am spoiling your life, and without me you could work.
0:02:25 > 0:02:27And you will.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29I know.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34You see, I can't even write this properly.
0:02:38 > 0:02:43What I want to say is that I owe all the happiness of my life to you.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46You have been entirely patient with me...
0:02:47 > 0:02:50..and incredibly good.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Everything has gone from me
0:02:54 > 0:02:58but the certainty of your goodness.
0:02:58 > 0:03:01I can't go on spoiling your life any longer.
0:03:03 > 0:03:07I don't think two people could have been happier
0:03:07 > 0:03:11than we have been. Virginia.
0:05:02 > 0:05:05- Good morning, Doctor. - Mr Woolf.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07No worse, I think.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09I see.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12The main thing is to keep her where she is.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14Keep her calm.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17Friday, then?
0:05:17 > 0:05:19BIRDS SINGING
0:05:37 > 0:05:39TRAIN RUMBLING
0:06:22 > 0:06:25ALARM CLOCK RINGS
0:06:27 > 0:06:29CLOCK STRIKES
0:06:32 > 0:06:34ALARM BEEPS
0:06:55 > 0:06:57WATER RUNS
0:07:30 > 0:07:32CUPBOARD DOORS BANG
0:08:31 > 0:08:32DOOR CLOSES
0:08:38 > 0:08:41- Good morning, Leonard. - Morning, Virginia.
0:08:41 > 0:08:44- How was your sleep? - Uneventful.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47- The headaches? - No. No headaches.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51The doctor seemed pleased.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53- That's all from this morning? - Yes.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56This young man has submitted his manuscript.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59I found three errors of fact and two spelling mistakes
0:08:59 > 0:09:02and I'm not yet on page four.
0:09:03 > 0:09:04Have you had breakfast?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06- Yes.- Liar.
0:09:06 > 0:09:10Virginia, it's not my insistence, it's your own doctor's.
0:09:12 > 0:09:16I'm going to send Nelly up with some fruit and a bun.
0:09:16 > 0:09:18Right, lunch, then.
0:09:18 > 0:09:22Proper lunch, husband and wife sitting down together.
0:09:22 > 0:09:26Soup, pudding and all. By force, if necessary.
0:09:28 > 0:09:31Leonard, I believe I may have a first sentence.
0:09:34 > 0:09:35HE SIGHS
0:09:38 > 0:09:39Work, then.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47Then you must eat.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51DOOR CLOSES
0:10:36 > 0:10:38BIRDS SINGING
0:10:43 > 0:10:48"Mrs Dalloway said she would buy the flowers...
0:10:50 > 0:10:52"..herself."
0:10:52 > 0:10:55"Mrs Dalloway said she would buy the flowers herself."
0:10:58 > 0:11:01Sally, I think I'll buy the flowers myself.
0:11:01 > 0:11:02What?
0:11:03 > 0:11:05What flowers?
0:11:06 > 0:11:08Shit!
0:11:09 > 0:11:12You'll never be a big boy if you don't eat your breakfast.
0:11:12 > 0:11:15You'll be the big brother. It's an important job.
0:11:15 > 0:11:16Happy birthday.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18- Morning, honey. - Oh, Dan.
0:11:19 > 0:11:22Roses on your own birthday. You're too much, really.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24He'll eat it now that you're here.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28You shouldn't buy me flowers on your birthday.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31- Well, you were still sleeping. - So?
0:11:31 > 0:11:35We decided it would be better if we let you sleep in a little.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Morning, bug.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42You need to rest, Laura.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45- You're only four months away. - Dan, don't.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47I'm fine. I'm just tired.
0:11:47 > 0:11:51I've been telling him he's got to eat his breakfast.
0:11:51 > 0:11:54- That's true. - So, it's a beautiful day.
0:11:54 > 0:11:57What are you two going to be doing with it?
0:11:57 > 0:12:01- We've got our plans, don't we? - What plans?
0:12:02 > 0:12:07It wouldn't be much of a party if I told you every detail in advance.
0:12:07 > 0:12:09I'd better stop asking questions then, huh?
0:12:10 > 0:12:12That the time?
0:12:12 > 0:12:14- I'd better get going. - Have a good day.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16You, too.
0:12:18 > 0:12:21- Dan, happy birthday. - Thank you.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57You need to finish your breakfast.
0:13:21 > 0:13:22I'm gonna make a cake.
0:13:25 > 0:13:27That's what I'm gonna do.
0:13:27 > 0:13:30I'm gonna make the cake for Daddy's birthday.
0:13:30 > 0:13:33Mommy, can I help? Can I help make the cake?
0:13:34 > 0:13:40Of course you can, sweet pea. I'm not gonna do anything without you.
0:13:40 > 0:13:43No, of course! You have to come.
0:13:43 > 0:13:45Of course!
0:13:46 > 0:13:50I always wanted you and everybody involved in the ceremony.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52I don't know. Around 60.
0:13:52 > 0:13:56Well, it will. It'll mean so much... The whole occasion.
0:13:56 > 0:14:01It's the least I can do to have a nice dinner and thank everybody.
0:14:01 > 0:14:05You've done so much for him. I take that as a yes.
0:14:05 > 0:14:07- He'll be thrilled. - Oh, my God.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09That's great. I'm thrilled.
0:14:09 > 0:14:14- What if nobody comes? - 'This is Clarissa Vaughan.'
0:14:14 > 0:14:19I am just confirming that you're sending the car to pick me up first.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21- Hi, Clarissa. - Hi. Can't talk.
0:14:21 > 0:14:26Then going over to 679 Hudson, which is at 9th and 14th.
0:14:26 > 0:14:29Then you will take me uptown and you will wait for us.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31I'll be over at seven.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35BELL JANGLES
0:14:37 > 0:14:38SHE SIGHS
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Flowers!
0:14:40 > 0:14:42What a beautiful morning.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45Hi, Clarissa. How are you?
0:14:45 > 0:14:47I'm having a party.
0:14:47 > 0:14:50My friend Richard's won the Carrouthers.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53Well, that's just terrific... if I knew what it was.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57It's a poetry prize, for a life's work.
0:14:57 > 0:15:02It's the most prestigious. For a poet, it's the best you can do.
0:15:02 > 0:15:04Oh, very good.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07So, what would you like? The lilies are perfect.
0:15:07 > 0:15:11No. Too morbid. Hydrangeas, I think.
0:15:11 > 0:15:14And, erm... Oh, oh...
0:15:14 > 0:15:17Let's just have buckets of roses.
0:15:17 > 0:15:22And... I think I'm going to take these with me.
0:15:22 > 0:15:25- Rodney? - Thank you.
0:15:27 > 0:15:31I actually tried to read Richard's novel.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34You did? Oh...
0:15:34 > 0:15:37I know. It's not easy. I know.
0:15:37 > 0:15:40It did take him ten years to write.
0:15:40 > 0:15:43Maybe it just takes another ten to read.
0:15:45 > 0:15:47- It's you, isn't it? - What is?
0:15:47 > 0:15:49In the novel. Isn't it meant to be you?
0:15:49 > 0:15:51Oh, I see.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54Yeah.
0:15:54 > 0:15:55Sort of.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57I mean, in a way.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00Richard's a writer. He uses things which actually happen.
0:16:00 > 0:16:02Yeah.
0:16:02 > 0:16:06And, years ago, he and I were students, that's true.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08But then he changes things.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11- Oh, sure. - I don't mean in a bad way.
0:16:14 > 0:16:17It's more like... he makes them his own.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29'A woman's whole life
0:16:29 > 0:16:31'in a single day.
0:16:34 > 0:16:36'Just one day.
0:16:37 > 0:16:41'And in that day, her whole life.'
0:16:43 > 0:16:47This is what we need. Shortening...
0:17:44 > 0:17:47Mrs Dalloway, it's you?
0:17:47 > 0:17:50Yes, it's me!
0:17:50 > 0:17:52- It's me! - Come in.
0:17:54 > 0:17:57Richard. It's a beautiful morning.
0:17:57 > 0:18:00How about we let in a little more light?
0:18:00 > 0:18:04- It's still morning? - Yes, it is.
0:18:04 > 0:18:06Have I died?
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Good morning, my dear.
0:18:14 > 0:18:15- Any visitors? - Yes.
0:18:15 > 0:18:18- Are they still here? - No, they've gone.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20Hmm. How'd they look?
0:18:20 > 0:18:24Today? Sort of like black fire.
0:18:25 > 0:18:30I mean, sort of light and dark at the same time.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33There was one a bit like an electrified jellyfish.
0:18:33 > 0:18:37They were singing. May have been Greek.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42So the ceremony is at five. D'you remember?
0:18:44 > 0:18:46SHE SIGHS
0:18:48 > 0:18:52And then, the party is right after.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56TAP RUNS
0:19:00 > 0:19:03They did bring you breakfast?
0:19:03 > 0:19:06- What a question. Of course. - Richard, you did eat it?
0:19:06 > 0:19:09Well, can you see it? Is it here?
0:19:09 > 0:19:13- Is there breakfast lying around? - No, I don't see it.
0:19:13 > 0:19:15Then I must have eaten it, mustn't I?
0:19:15 > 0:19:18- I suppose. - Does it matter?
0:19:20 > 0:19:24Of course it matters. You know what the doctors say.
0:19:30 > 0:19:33Have you been skipping pills?
0:19:33 > 0:19:35- Clarissa, I can't take this. - Take what?
0:19:35 > 0:19:38Having to be proud and brave in front of everybody.
0:19:38 > 0:19:41- Honey, it's not a performance. - Of course it is.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44- I got the prize for my performance. - That is nonsense.
0:19:44 > 0:19:48I got the prize for having AIDS, going nuts and being brave about it.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I got the prize for having come through.
0:19:50 > 0:19:52- It's not true. - For surviving.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53That's what I got the prize for.
0:19:53 > 0:19:56You think I'd have got it if I were healthy?
0:19:56 > 0:19:58Yes, as a matter of fact, I do.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08- Is it here somewhere? - What?
0:20:08 > 0:20:10The prize. I'd like to look at it.
0:20:13 > 0:20:16No, you haven't gotten it yet.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21- It's tonight. - Are you sure?
0:20:23 > 0:20:26I remember the ceremony perfectly.
0:20:26 > 0:20:30I seem to have fallen out of time.
0:20:34 > 0:20:36Richard?
0:20:36 > 0:20:37Richard.
0:20:37 > 0:20:41It's a party. It's only a party.
0:20:42 > 0:20:43Hmm?
0:20:43 > 0:20:48Populated entirely by people who respect and admire you.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51Ah, a small party, is it? Select party, is it?
0:20:51 > 0:20:54- Your friends. - I thought I lost all my friends.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56I thought I drove my friends crazy.
0:20:57 > 0:20:58Jesus.
0:20:58 > 0:21:01Oh, Mrs Dalloway,
0:21:01 > 0:21:05always giving parties to cover the silence.
0:21:18 > 0:21:19Richard?
0:21:21 > 0:21:23You won't need to do anything.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25All you have to do is appear.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28Sit on the sofa.
0:21:30 > 0:21:32And I will be there.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35This is a group of people
0:21:35 > 0:21:39who want to tell you your work is going to live.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41Is it? Is my work going to live?
0:21:43 > 0:21:46I can't go through with it, Clarissa.
0:21:47 > 0:21:49- Why do you say that? - I can't.
0:21:49 > 0:21:52- Why? - Because I wanted to be a writer.
0:21:52 > 0:21:55- So? - I wanted to write about it all.
0:21:55 > 0:21:58Everything that happens in a moment.
0:21:58 > 0:22:01The way the flowers looked when you carried them in your arms.
0:22:01 > 0:22:05This towel, how it smells, how it feels. This thread.
0:22:05 > 0:22:07All our feelings.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10Yours and mine. The history of it,
0:22:10 > 0:22:13who we once were.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15Everything in the world.
0:22:16 > 0:22:18Everything all mixed up.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22Like it's all mixed up now.
0:22:26 > 0:22:27And I failed at it.
0:22:33 > 0:22:35I failed.
0:22:36 > 0:22:40No matter what you start with, it ends up being so much less.
0:22:43 > 0:22:48Sheer fucking pride. And stupidity.
0:22:55 > 0:22:59We want everything, don't we?
0:23:02 > 0:23:04I suppose we do.
0:23:04 > 0:23:06You kissed me on a beach.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12Yeah.
0:23:12 > 0:23:13Do you remember...
0:23:13 > 0:23:16Uh-huh.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18..how many years ago?
0:23:18 > 0:23:22- Of course, I... - What did you want...then?
0:23:27 > 0:23:29Come closer.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33I'm right here.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35Come closer, would you, please?
0:23:41 > 0:23:43Take my hand.
0:23:47 > 0:23:49Would you be angry...?
0:23:51 > 0:23:54Would I be angry if you didn't show up for the party?
0:23:54 > 0:23:56Would you be angry if I died?
0:23:58 > 0:23:59If you died?
0:23:59 > 0:24:01Who is this party for?
0:24:01 > 0:24:06What do you mean? What are you asking? What are you trying to say?
0:24:06 > 0:24:08I'm not trying to say anything.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11I'm saying...
0:24:11 > 0:24:14I think I'm only staying alive to satisfy you.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25Well...so?
0:24:25 > 0:24:27That is what we do.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29That is what people do.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31They stay alive for each other.
0:24:32 > 0:24:35The doctors told you, you don't need to die.
0:24:35 > 0:24:36They told you that.
0:24:36 > 0:24:39You can live like this for years.
0:24:39 > 0:24:41Well, exactly.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46I don't accept this.
0:24:46 > 0:24:48I don't accept what you say.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51And it's for you to decide, is it?
0:24:52 > 0:24:55How long have you been doing that?
0:24:55 > 0:24:57How many years, coming to the apartment?
0:24:58 > 0:25:02What about your own life? What about Sally?
0:25:04 > 0:25:07Just wait till I die, then you'll have to think of yourself.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10How are you going to like that?
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Richard...
0:25:22 > 0:25:25..it would be great if you did come to the party,
0:25:25 > 0:25:28if you felt well enough to come.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31Just to let you know, I am making the crab thing.
0:25:31 > 0:25:35Not that I imagine it makes any difference to you.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38Of course it makes a difference. I love the crab thing.
0:25:38 > 0:25:39SHE SIGHS
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Clarissa!
0:25:42 > 0:25:43Yes?
0:25:57 > 0:26:01I'll be back at 3.30. And I'll help you get dressed.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03Wonderful.
0:26:03 > 0:26:053.30!
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Wonderful.
0:26:42 > 0:26:44It's on this day...
0:26:45 > 0:26:47..this day of all days...
0:26:56 > 0:26:58..her fate becomes clear to her.
0:26:58 > 0:27:00KNOCK ON DOOR
0:27:05 > 0:27:06Excuse me, Mrs Woolf,
0:27:06 > 0:27:10Mr Woolf said I was to come and speak with you.
0:27:10 > 0:27:12I'm nearly finished, Nelly.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15Please attend me in the kitchen. I'll be down very soon.
0:27:23 > 0:27:27She says she wants something then it turns out she doesn't.
0:27:27 > 0:27:28She never does, does she?
0:27:28 > 0:27:30She never wants anything.
0:27:30 > 0:27:34Especially when she's particularly asked for it. A sure sign.
0:27:34 > 0:27:36- I wish I'd been there. - I wish you had, too.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38Did you give her that look,
0:27:38 > 0:27:41that sort of look you do?
0:27:42 > 0:27:44I said, "Madam..."
0:27:49 > 0:27:52Yes, Nelly, tell me.
0:27:52 > 0:27:54- How can I help? - It's about lunch.
0:27:56 > 0:27:58I just had to go ahead on my own.
0:27:58 > 0:27:59I understand.
0:28:03 > 0:28:06- You chose a pie? - I chose a lamb pie.
0:28:06 > 0:28:08That seems suitable.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11You being so busy with your writing.
0:28:12 > 0:28:15I had no instructions.
0:28:17 > 0:28:21You do remember that my sister is coming at four with the children?
0:28:21 > 0:28:24Yes, ma'am, I hadn't forgotten.
0:28:27 > 0:28:29China tea, I think.
0:28:30 > 0:28:32And ginger.
0:28:35 > 0:28:36Ginger, madam?
0:28:39 > 0:28:42I'd like to give the children a treat.
0:28:44 > 0:28:47We'd have to go to London for ginger, madam.
0:28:47 > 0:28:49I haven't finished this.
0:28:49 > 0:28:53And there's the rest of lunch to get ready.
0:28:53 > 0:28:56The 12.30 train will get you into London just after one.
0:28:56 > 0:29:00If you return on the 2.30 you should be back in Richmond soon after three.
0:29:02 > 0:29:05- Do I miscalculate? - No.
0:29:05 > 0:29:08Is something detaining you, Nelly?
0:29:17 > 0:29:21I can't think of anything more exhilarating than a trip to London.
0:29:22 > 0:29:24DOOR OPENS
0:29:26 > 0:29:31- Good morning, Mrs Woolf. - Good morning.- We shall publish no more new authors.
0:29:31 > 0:29:35I've discovered ten errors in the first proof.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37Lucky to have found them, then.
0:29:37 > 0:29:42"Paschendale was a charnel house from which no min returned."
0:29:44 > 0:29:48Do you think bad writing attracts a higher incidence of error?
0:29:50 > 0:29:53If it's all right, I thought I might take a short walk.
0:29:55 > 0:29:57- Not far? - No, just for air.
0:29:59 > 0:30:01Go, then.
0:30:02 > 0:30:05If I could walk mid-morning, I'd be a happy man.
0:30:15 > 0:30:17She'll die.
0:30:19 > 0:30:21She's going to die.
0:30:23 > 0:30:25That's what's going to happen.
0:30:27 > 0:30:29That's it.
0:30:35 > 0:30:37She'll kill herself.
0:30:39 > 0:30:43She'll kill herself over something which doesn't seem to matter.
0:30:44 > 0:30:45Let's think.
0:30:45 > 0:30:47You grease the pan, Mommy.
0:30:47 > 0:30:50I know you grease the pan, sweet one. Even Mommy knows that.
0:30:53 > 0:30:55This is what we're gonna do.
0:30:56 > 0:30:58Flour, bowl...
0:31:00 > 0:31:01..sifter.
0:31:01 > 0:31:04- Can I do it, Mommy? - Can you sift the flour?
0:31:06 > 0:31:10Yes, you can sift the flour, baby, if that's what makes you happy.
0:31:15 > 0:31:16Now...
0:31:20 > 0:31:25Isn't it beautiful? Don't you think it looks like snow?
0:31:27 > 0:31:30OK. Now, the next thing...
0:31:30 > 0:31:33The next thing I'm going to show you
0:31:33 > 0:31:35is we measure out the cups.
0:31:35 > 0:31:38Mommy, it isn't that difficult.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41I know it isn't difficult, it's just that I...
0:31:41 > 0:31:43I just want to do this for Daddy.
0:31:43 > 0:31:46- Because it's his birthday? - That's right.
0:31:46 > 0:31:49We're baking the cake to show him that we love him.
0:31:49 > 0:31:52Otherwise he won't know we love him?
0:31:55 > 0:31:57That's right.
0:32:06 > 0:32:10I got all the stuff! But I'm going right out again.
0:32:10 > 0:32:11My God, what a zoo!
0:32:11 > 0:32:14Why do people have to talk about dry cleaning?
0:32:14 > 0:32:16What is there to talk about?
0:32:16 > 0:32:18I bought you some flowers.
0:32:20 > 0:32:23- Where are you? - In here.
0:32:23 > 0:32:28I got someone at work to cover me. I'll be with you all night.
0:32:34 > 0:32:36Are you all right?
0:32:36 > 0:32:37Sure.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44- I guess you saw Richard. - That's right.
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Well, of course.
0:32:50 > 0:32:54I bet he said, "By the way, honey, do you mind, can I skip the party?"
0:32:56 > 0:32:59- Don't worry, he always shows up. - Oh, sure.
0:32:59 > 0:33:01In the end.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04Richard miss an award, a chance to talk about his work?
0:33:04 > 0:33:06I don't think so. He'll show up.
0:33:08 > 0:33:11- You did the seating. - I did.
0:33:14 > 0:33:17I don't believe it. Louis Waters? Is Louis coming?
0:33:17 > 0:33:20- Richard's Louis? - He is.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22You put him next to me.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26Why do I always have to sit next to the exes?
0:33:26 > 0:33:28Is this some kind of a hint?
0:33:28 > 0:33:31Shouldn't the exes have a table of their own
0:33:31 > 0:33:35where they can all ex together in ex-quisite agony?
0:33:35 > 0:33:38LAUGHTER
0:33:38 > 0:33:39I'm off.
0:33:41 > 0:33:43Try not to pass out from excitement.
0:33:48 > 0:33:51Clarissa, it's going to be beautiful.
0:33:52 > 0:33:53SHE SNIFFS
0:33:57 > 0:33:59- Thank you. - You're welcome.
0:34:06 > 0:34:09- DOOR CLOSES > - Why is everything wrong?
0:34:16 > 0:34:19It didn't work. Damn it! It didn't work.
0:34:23 > 0:34:25- Hey, Scott. - Hi, Mrs Barlow.
0:34:29 > 0:34:30DOORBELL CHIMES
0:34:38 > 0:34:40Mommy, there's someone at the door!
0:34:40 > 0:34:41DOORBELL CHIMES
0:34:48 > 0:34:50Hello?
0:34:51 > 0:34:53Hello? Laura?
0:34:53 > 0:34:56- Hi, Kitty. - Hi. Am I interrupting?
0:34:56 > 0:34:58- Of course not. Come in. - Are you all right?
0:34:59 > 0:35:01Why, sure.
0:35:01 > 0:35:04- Hi, Richie. - Sit down, I've got coffee on.
0:35:05 > 0:35:07- Would you like some? - Please.
0:35:07 > 0:35:12- Oh, look, you made a cake. - I know.
0:35:12 > 0:35:16It didn't work. I thought it was gonna work.
0:35:16 > 0:35:18I thought it would work better than that.
0:35:18 > 0:35:22I don't understand why you find it so difficult.
0:35:22 > 0:35:24- I don't know either. - Anyone can make a cake.
0:35:24 > 0:35:28Everyone can. It's ridiculously easy.
0:35:28 > 0:35:31- I bet you didn't grease the pan. - I greased the pan.
0:35:32 > 0:35:35All right. But, you know, you have other virtues.
0:35:35 > 0:35:38Dan loves you so much, he won't notice.
0:35:38 > 0:35:42Whatever you do, he'll say it's wonderful. Well, it's true.
0:35:44 > 0:35:47- Does Ray have a birthday? - SHE LAUGHS
0:35:47 > 0:35:50- Sure he does. - When is it?
0:35:50 > 0:35:52September. We go to the country club.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54We always go to the country club.
0:35:54 > 0:35:57We drink martinis and spend the day with 50 people.
0:35:57 > 0:36:01- Ray's got a lot of friends. - Oh, he does.
0:36:01 > 0:36:03You both have a lot of friends. You're good at it.
0:36:07 > 0:36:09How is Ray? I haven't seen him in a while.
0:36:09 > 0:36:14Ray's fine. These guys are something, aren't they?
0:36:14 > 0:36:18You can say that again. They came home from the war.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21They deserved it after what they'd been through.
0:36:21 > 0:36:24What...did they deserve?
0:36:25 > 0:36:28I don't know. Us, I guess.
0:36:28 > 0:36:29All this.
0:36:31 > 0:36:32Oh.
0:36:32 > 0:36:35- You're reading a book. - Yeah.
0:36:36 > 0:36:38What's this one about?
0:36:38 > 0:36:42Oh, it's about this woman who's incredibly...
0:36:42 > 0:36:45She's a hostess and she's incredibly confident,
0:36:45 > 0:36:48and she's going to give a party.
0:36:48 > 0:36:53Maybe because she's confident, everyone thinks she's fine.
0:36:53 > 0:36:54But she isn't.
0:37:03 > 0:37:04So...
0:37:06 > 0:37:08Well...
0:37:12 > 0:37:14Kitty, what is it? Is something wrong?
0:37:16 > 0:37:21I, er... I have to go into the hospital for a couple of days.
0:37:21 > 0:37:22Kitty.
0:37:23 > 0:37:27Yeah, I have, erm, some kind of growth
0:37:27 > 0:37:31in my uterus and they're going to go in and take a look.
0:37:31 > 0:37:34- When? - This afternoon.
0:37:36 > 0:37:40- I need you to feed the dog. - Of course.
0:37:57 > 0:38:00Is that what you came here to ask?
0:38:04 > 0:38:06What did the doctor say exactly?
0:38:07 > 0:38:11Well, it's probably what the trouble's been,
0:38:11 > 0:38:13about getting pregnant.
0:38:13 > 0:38:15The thing is...
0:38:16 > 0:38:21I mean, you know, I've been really happy with Ray.
0:38:25 > 0:38:27And now, it turns out there was a reason.
0:38:29 > 0:38:32There was a reason I couldn't conceive.
0:38:35 > 0:38:38- SHE SIGHS - You're lucky, Laura.
0:38:38 > 0:38:42I don't think you can call yourself a woman until you're a mother.
0:38:45 > 0:38:51But the joke is, all my life I could do everything.
0:38:53 > 0:38:56I mean, I could do anything, really.
0:38:58 > 0:39:01- Except the one thing I wanted. - Yes.
0:39:03 > 0:39:04That's all.
0:39:05 > 0:39:08At least now, they'll be able to deal with it.
0:39:08 > 0:39:11- That's what they're doing. - That's right.
0:39:11 > 0:39:15I'm not worried. What would be the point of worrying?
0:39:15 > 0:39:18- No, it's not in your hands. - Well, that's it.
0:39:18 > 0:39:23It's in the hands of some physician I've never even met.
0:39:23 > 0:39:27Some surgeon who probably drinks more martinis than Ray.
0:39:27 > 0:39:30- Oh, Kitty. - Of course, I'm worried about Ray.
0:39:30 > 0:39:32- Come here. - I'm doing fine.
0:39:32 > 0:39:34- Really. - I know. I know you are.
0:39:34 > 0:39:36I'm more worried about Ray.
0:39:36 > 0:39:40- He's not good with this stuff. - Forget about Ray.
0:39:40 > 0:39:42Just forget about Ray.
0:40:04 > 0:40:06You're sweet.
0:40:11 > 0:40:13You know the routine, right?
0:40:13 > 0:40:17Half a can in the evening and check the water now and then.
0:40:17 > 0:40:20And... Ray'll feed him in the morning.
0:40:25 > 0:40:27Kitty, you didn't mind?
0:40:30 > 0:40:31What?
0:40:32 > 0:40:34I didn't mind what?
0:40:42 > 0:40:44Do you want me to drive you?
0:40:48 > 0:40:51I think I'll feel better if I drive myself.
0:40:55 > 0:40:57Kitty, it's gonna be all right.
0:41:00 > 0:41:01Of course it is.
0:41:04 > 0:41:05Bye.
0:41:26 > 0:41:28What? What do you want?
0:41:32 > 0:41:33DOOR SLAMS
0:41:45 > 0:41:47Mr Woolf, Mrs Bell has arrived.
0:41:50 > 0:41:52Not due till four.
0:41:52 > 0:41:55Well, I can't help that. She's here.
0:42:00 > 0:42:03You look a perfect angel.
0:42:03 > 0:42:05Don't let the boys make fun of you.
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Fly away.
0:42:10 > 0:42:11Virginia.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16Leonard thinks it's the end of civilisation.
0:42:16 > 0:42:19People who are invited at four and arrive at 2.30.
0:42:19 > 0:42:21Oh, God!
0:42:22 > 0:42:24Barbarians!
0:42:24 > 0:42:28Well, we finished lunch sooner than we imagined.
0:42:30 > 0:42:34I've had to send Nelly to London for sugared ginger.
0:42:35 > 0:42:39Oh, Virginia, you're not still frightened of the servants, are you?
0:42:41 > 0:42:43Come on.
0:42:46 > 0:42:48And how are you, sister?
0:42:48 > 0:42:50Frantic. It's been ridiculous in London.
0:42:51 > 0:42:54- Ridiculous? How? - Busy.
0:42:57 > 0:42:59Why is busy ridiculous?
0:42:59 > 0:43:03I would've invited you to our party but I knew you wouldn't come.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05How did you know that?
0:43:07 > 0:43:09I thought you never came to town.
0:43:10 > 0:43:13That's because you no longer ask me.
0:43:15 > 0:43:18Are you not forbidden to come?
0:43:18 > 0:43:20Do the doctors not forbid it?
0:43:20 > 0:43:22The doctors!
0:43:24 > 0:43:26Do you not heed your doctors?
0:43:26 > 0:43:29Not when they're a bunch of contemptible Victorians.
0:43:29 > 0:43:32So, what are you saying?
0:43:32 > 0:43:37Are you feeling better? Has this vastness made you stronger?
0:43:37 > 0:43:40I'm saying, Vanessa, that even crazy people like to be asked.
0:43:40 > 0:43:42- BOY'S VOICE:- Nessa! Nessa!
0:43:42 > 0:43:45- RUNNING FOOTSTEPS - Nessa! Nessa!
0:43:45 > 0:43:48Hello, changelings. What have you got?
0:43:48 > 0:43:51- What have you found? - We found a bird.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53- Did you? - Yes.
0:43:53 > 0:43:55Where did you find that?
0:43:55 > 0:43:57I think it must've fallen from a tree.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00Oh, my goodness. Just look at him.
0:44:00 > 0:44:04- We might be able to save him. - Save him?
0:44:04 > 0:44:07I think you have to be careful, Quentin.
0:44:07 > 0:44:10There's a time to die and it may be the bird's time.
0:44:10 > 0:44:12Come on, let's pick some grass to make a grave.
0:44:12 > 0:44:14- Oh, Julian! - I'm just saying.
0:44:14 > 0:44:17At least it'll be a bed for it to die on.
0:44:17 > 0:44:19Come on, Nessa, let's make a grave!
0:44:20 > 0:44:23- Nessa! Come on! - Oh, God.
0:44:23 > 0:44:26Oh, very well. I'm coming. Wait for me, then.
0:44:27 > 0:44:31Angelica, will you be all right? Stay with your aunt.
0:44:31 > 0:44:33You're going too fast!
0:44:33 > 0:44:36- Julian, over here! - For goodness' sake.
0:44:36 > 0:44:37Quentin!
0:44:51 > 0:44:53Do you think she'd like roses?
0:45:00 > 0:45:01Is it a she?
0:45:03 > 0:45:08Yes. The females are larger and less colourful.
0:45:09 > 0:45:12What happens when we die?
0:45:12 > 0:45:14What happens?
0:45:19 > 0:45:22We return to the place that we came from.
0:45:22 > 0:45:26- I don't remember where I came from. - Nor do I.
0:45:31 > 0:45:32She looks very small.
0:45:34 > 0:45:38Yes, that's one of the things that happens.
0:45:39 > 0:45:41We look smaller.
0:45:42 > 0:45:44But very peaceful.
0:45:44 > 0:45:46- DISTANT VOICE: - We found you!
0:45:46 > 0:45:48Vanessa, where were you?
0:45:48 > 0:45:50VANESSA SHRIEKS
0:45:58 > 0:46:00Is it done? Have you finished?
0:46:00 > 0:46:03- Is the bird funeral complete? - Yes.
0:46:03 > 0:46:07Very well. Are we to be denied tea altogether for coming so early?
0:46:07 > 0:46:10- No, of course not. - Good.
0:46:10 > 0:46:14Come on, Angelica. Come on, boys.
0:46:14 > 0:46:16Let's have tea.
0:46:16 > 0:46:19- Nessa, tell him to stop it! - Stop it, Julian.
0:46:26 > 0:46:28Virginia?
0:46:28 > 0:46:30We're going in.
0:46:31 > 0:46:32Virginia!
0:47:14 > 0:47:15DOOR CLOSES
0:47:46 > 0:47:50Hey, bug. I've got this idea.
0:47:50 > 0:47:52We're gonna make another cake.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55We're gonna make a better one.
0:47:55 > 0:47:57What happened to the first one?
0:48:02 > 0:48:04And after that,
0:48:04 > 0:48:06I think we should go out.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08BUZZER
0:48:10 > 0:48:13HE SIGHS
0:48:13 > 0:48:16MUSIC: "Four Last Songs" by Richard Strauss
0:48:17 > 0:48:18Yes?
0:48:18 > 0:48:20Clarissa? It's Louis.
0:48:20 > 0:48:22- Louis Waters. - Louis?
0:48:23 > 0:48:26Oh, my God. You're early!
0:48:26 > 0:48:29- Do you mind? Is it all right? - BUZZER
0:48:45 > 0:48:49Why should I mind? I'm delighted!
0:48:49 > 0:48:51Well, now.
0:48:53 > 0:48:56- I feel like I'm interrupting. - Oh, why?
0:48:56 > 0:48:57No.
0:48:57 > 0:49:00I know the ceremony isn't until five but I flew in this morning.
0:49:02 > 0:49:06Well, Richard's going to be thrilled.
0:49:06 > 0:49:08He'll be thrilled to see you.
0:49:08 > 0:49:11- You think so? - Of course.
0:49:17 > 0:49:19What are we doing? We should go in.
0:49:25 > 0:49:27MUSIC STOPS
0:49:27 > 0:49:28Are you all right?
0:49:29 > 0:49:32Yes. It's nothing. It's just the party.
0:49:32 > 0:49:33Oh, right.
0:49:36 > 0:49:39Oh, wow, It's looking beautiful.
0:49:39 > 0:49:41- Thanks. - Are you still with...
0:49:41 > 0:49:44Yes, I am. Still with her. Ten years.
0:49:45 > 0:49:48- It's crazy. - Why is it crazy?
0:49:48 > 0:49:51No reason. Would you like something to drink?
0:49:52 > 0:49:54- Some water. - OK.
0:50:09 > 0:50:13- And you're still an editor? - Oh, sure.
0:50:13 > 0:50:15With the same publisher?
0:50:16 > 0:50:17Hm-hmm.
0:50:17 > 0:50:19How's San Francisco?
0:50:19 > 0:50:23Oh, it's one of those cities people tell you to like.
0:50:37 > 0:50:40Richard said he thought you were happy out there.
0:50:40 > 0:50:44Oh, great. So now the illness makes him psychic.
0:50:45 > 0:50:50You have to prepare yourself, Louis. He's very changed.
0:50:52 > 0:50:54I read the book.
0:50:54 > 0:50:57- Oh, God! - Exactly.
0:50:57 > 0:51:01I thought you were meant to do more than just change people's names.
0:51:01 > 0:51:04- Well... - Isn't it meant to be fiction?
0:51:04 > 0:51:07He even had you living on 10th Street.
0:51:07 > 0:51:09- It isn't me. - Isn't it?
0:51:09 > 0:51:13You know how Richard is. It's a fantasy.
0:51:13 > 0:51:16A whole chapter on should she buy some nail Polish?
0:51:16 > 0:51:19And then, guess what? After 50 pages, she doesn't.
0:51:19 > 0:51:23The whole thing seems to go on for eternity.
0:51:23 > 0:51:27Nothing happens and then, wham! For no reason, she kills herself.
0:51:27 > 0:51:32- His mother kills herself. - Sure, but still for no reason.
0:51:32 > 0:51:34- Well, I... - Out of the blue.
0:51:36 > 0:51:39I know the book is tough, but I liked it.
0:51:39 > 0:51:40I know.
0:51:42 > 0:51:45- Only one thing upset me. - What's that? What upset you?
0:51:47 > 0:51:51Well, that there wasn't more about you.
0:51:57 > 0:51:58That's kind.
0:52:01 > 0:52:02I went back to Wellfleet.
0:52:05 > 0:52:08- You did? - One day.
0:52:08 > 0:52:10I didn't tell you?
0:52:11 > 0:52:14No. But then, I never see you.
0:52:17 > 0:52:20You remember the house? It's still there.
0:52:20 > 0:52:24- I think you're courageous. - Courageous? Why?
0:52:24 > 0:52:28To dare go visit. What I mean is,
0:52:28 > 0:52:33to face the fact that we have lost those feelings for ever.
0:52:38 > 0:52:40- Shit! - Clarissa?
0:52:42 > 0:52:45I don't know what's happening. I'm sorry.
0:52:45 > 0:52:48I seem to be in some strange sort of mood.
0:52:48 > 0:52:51I'm sorry. It's very rude of me.
0:52:53 > 0:52:54SHE EXHALES
0:52:54 > 0:52:56I seem to be unravelling.
0:52:56 > 0:52:59- I shouldn't have come. - No, it's not you.
0:52:59 > 0:53:02It's more like having a presentiment.
0:53:02 > 0:53:04Do you know what I'm saying?
0:53:05 > 0:53:09Oh, God, it's probably just nerves about the party.
0:53:09 > 0:53:12- You know, bad hostess. - SHE SOBS
0:53:12 > 0:53:15Clarissa, what's happening?
0:53:15 > 0:53:16Jesus!
0:53:16 > 0:53:18What is it?
0:53:18 > 0:53:21SOBS UNCONTROLLABLY: Oh, God!
0:53:24 > 0:53:27- Do you want me to go? - No! Don't go. Don't...
0:53:29 > 0:53:33Don't go. Explain to me why this is happening.
0:53:34 > 0:53:36Don't...
0:53:36 > 0:53:38Don't touch me. Jesus.
0:53:38 > 0:53:40It's better if you don't.
0:53:43 > 0:53:46It's just too much.
0:53:46 > 0:53:49You fly in from San Francisco
0:53:49 > 0:53:52and I've been nursing Richard for years.
0:53:52 > 0:53:56All that time, I've held myself together, no problem.
0:53:56 > 0:53:57I know.
0:54:00 > 0:54:03- One morning...in Wellfleet...
0:54:04 > 0:54:08..you were there, we were all there.
0:54:08 > 0:54:11I'd been sleeping with him and I was out on the back porch.
0:54:14 > 0:54:19He came out behind me, and he put his hand on my shoulder.
0:54:22 > 0:54:24"Good morning, Mrs Dalloway."
0:54:28 > 0:54:30That's...
0:54:31 > 0:54:33That's when...
0:54:33 > 0:54:36From then on, I've been stuck.
0:54:37 > 0:54:38- Stuck?- Yeah.
0:54:41 > 0:54:44Yeah. With the name, I mean.
0:54:46 > 0:54:48SHE SIGHS
0:54:49 > 0:54:51And now you walk in.
0:54:52 > 0:54:56To see you walk in.
0:54:56 > 0:54:59Because I never see you. Look at you.
0:55:01 > 0:55:05Anyway, it doesn't matter.
0:55:05 > 0:55:09It was you he stayed with, it was you he lived with.
0:55:10 > 0:55:12I had one summer.
0:55:23 > 0:55:25The day I left him,
0:55:25 > 0:55:29I got on a train and made my way across Europe.
0:55:32 > 0:55:36I felt free for the first time in years.
0:55:51 > 0:55:53So, tell me about San Francisco.
0:55:55 > 0:56:00What's to tell? I still teach drama to idiots. Mostly.
0:56:00 > 0:56:01They can't all be idiots.
0:56:01 > 0:56:03No. No.
0:56:03 > 0:56:08In fact, I shouldn't tell you this. I've fallen in love.
0:56:09 > 0:56:10- Really? - Yes.
0:56:11 > 0:56:15- With a student. - With a student.
0:56:15 > 0:56:17Exactly.
0:56:17 > 0:56:19I know.
0:56:19 > 0:56:22You think, "Am I still up for this?" All this intensity,
0:56:22 > 0:56:25all those arguments, doors being slammed.
0:56:25 > 0:56:28Well, you know what it's like.
0:56:29 > 0:56:34- Are you feeling better? - SHE SIGHS:- A little.
0:56:35 > 0:56:37Thank you.
0:56:40 > 0:56:41You think I'm ridiculous?
0:56:44 > 0:56:46Ridiculous.
0:56:46 > 0:56:48Fortunate, too.
0:57:18 > 0:57:22I'm gonna leave you at Mrs Latch's. I have to do something.
0:57:33 > 0:57:35Mommy, I don't wanna go.
0:57:35 > 0:57:36You have to. I'm sorry.
0:57:36 > 0:57:39I have something to do before Daddy gets home.
0:58:26 > 0:58:29- Hello.- Hi, Mrs Latch.
0:58:29 > 0:58:31My boy's not very happy.
0:58:31 > 0:58:33Mommy, I don't want to do this.
0:58:34 > 0:58:36I have to go, honey.
0:58:37 > 0:58:41Your mommy has things she has to do. Come in, I got cookies.
0:58:41 > 0:58:43OK, baby?
0:58:44 > 0:58:46You have to be brave now.
0:58:47 > 0:58:50Don't worry. He's gonna be fine.
0:59:08 > 0:59:10Honey!
0:59:28 > 0:59:30Come on. Come on, darling.
0:59:35 > 0:59:37Mommy!
0:59:37 > 0:59:40- Stop it. - No! Mommy!
0:59:40 > 0:59:41Mommy!
0:59:41 > 0:59:45Mommy! Mommy!
0:59:45 > 0:59:47Mommy!
0:59:47 > 0:59:48Come on.
0:59:48 > 0:59:49Mommy!
0:59:51 > 0:59:52Mommy!
0:59:54 > 0:59:56HE SCREAMS: No!
1:01:11 > 1:01:12TYRES SCREECH
1:01:27 > 1:01:31Breakfast is served between seven and eleven in the Regency Room.
1:01:31 > 1:01:33Room service is available 24 hours.
1:01:36 > 1:01:37Thank you, ma'am.
1:01:38 > 1:01:41Is there anything else you need?
1:01:41 > 1:01:42Yes, erm...
1:01:43 > 1:01:46No. Not to be disturbed.
1:01:52 > 1:01:54CLOCK TICKING
1:02:58 > 1:03:01VIRGINIA: Did it matter then, she asked herself,
1:03:01 > 1:03:03walking toward Bond Street,
1:03:03 > 1:03:08did it matter that she must inevitably cease completely?
1:03:09 > 1:03:12All this must go on without her.
1:03:13 > 1:03:15'Did she resent it?
1:03:16 > 1:03:18'Or did it not become consoling
1:03:18 > 1:03:22'to believe that death ended absolutely?'
1:03:24 > 1:03:26It is possible to die.
1:03:28 > 1:03:32It is possible to die.
1:03:35 > 1:03:38There was a lovely coat for Angelica at Harrods,
1:03:38 > 1:03:41then nothing for the boys. It seemed so unfair.
1:03:41 > 1:03:43Why should Angelica be favoured?
1:03:46 > 1:03:47Virginia?
1:03:50 > 1:03:51Virginia?
1:03:51 > 1:03:52Virginia!
1:03:55 > 1:03:56What are you thinking about?
1:04:09 > 1:04:11Are you still with us?
1:04:21 > 1:04:24Your aunt's a very lucky woman, Angelica...
1:04:25 > 1:04:28..because she has two lives.
1:04:28 > 1:04:31She has the life she's leading
1:04:31 > 1:04:33and also the book she's writing.
1:04:33 > 1:04:36This makes her very fortunate indeed.
1:04:37 > 1:04:40What were you thinking about?
1:05:05 > 1:05:08I was going to kill my heroine.
1:05:10 > 1:05:13But I've changed my mind.
1:05:13 > 1:05:15SHE GASPS
1:05:15 > 1:05:17I can't.
1:05:17 > 1:05:19CLOCK TICKING
1:05:27 > 1:05:30SHE SOBS
1:05:30 > 1:05:33I fear I may have to kill someone else instead.
1:05:34 > 1:05:37QUENTIN SNIGGERS
1:05:41 > 1:05:43Oh, Quentin! I'm dropping them!
1:05:43 > 1:05:45We're ready!
1:05:45 > 1:05:48- Mind the shopping! - Fascinating visit.
1:05:48 > 1:05:51And they enjoyed it thoroughly.
1:05:51 > 1:05:53Do you have to go already?
1:05:55 > 1:05:57- I do wish you wouldn't go. - Virginia.
1:05:57 > 1:06:00The last thing you want is our noisiness.
1:06:00 > 1:06:05My hopeless, clumsy boys. Say goodbye, boys.
1:06:05 > 1:06:08- Goodbye! - Bye!
1:06:10 > 1:06:13- And you'll return to what? - Tonight?
1:06:13 > 1:06:18Oh, just some insufferable dinner
1:06:18 > 1:06:21that not even you could envy, Virginia.
1:06:21 > 1:06:22But I do.
1:06:24 > 1:06:26CLOCK TICKING
1:06:57 > 1:07:01Say something, Nessa. Didn't you think I seemed better?
1:07:01 > 1:07:02STIFLED SOB
1:07:02 > 1:07:05Yes, Virginia, you seem better.
1:07:20 > 1:07:21You think...
1:07:23 > 1:07:25You think I may, one day, escape?
1:07:26 > 1:07:28One day. One...
1:07:30 > 1:07:31Nessa.
1:07:33 > 1:07:36- JULIAN:- Nessa! - QUENTIN:- Come on, Nessa!
1:07:36 > 1:07:40- Come, Angelica, we must go. - QUENTIN:- Come on!
1:07:41 > 1:07:42Goodbye.
1:07:42 > 1:07:44Goodbye, little girl.
1:07:46 > 1:07:48Angelica, the train!
1:07:50 > 1:07:53We're gonna miss the train!
1:07:54 > 1:07:55Come on. Hurry. Big step.
1:08:00 > 1:08:02Come on, come on!
1:08:02 > 1:08:04I want to go home.
1:08:04 > 1:08:07We stayed too long. We've missed the train.
1:08:07 > 1:08:09Stay close.
1:08:20 > 1:08:21DOOR SHUTS
1:08:54 > 1:08:56SHE SIGHS
1:09:00 > 1:09:02CLOCK CHIMES
1:09:29 > 1:09:31I'm sorry. I know.
1:09:31 > 1:09:35I tried to get here earlier. I tried, OK? Don't start.
1:09:35 > 1:09:39It's just incredibly important because it's your party.
1:09:40 > 1:09:44- Julia. How have you been doing? - I'm fine.
1:09:44 > 1:09:48Come here. What have you been doing?
1:09:48 > 1:09:50Well, studying, Mom.
1:09:54 > 1:09:56Erm...
1:09:56 > 1:09:58So, what should I do? Chairs?
1:09:58 > 1:10:00No, let's clear off the desk first.
1:10:00 > 1:10:02We can take it into the bedroom.
1:10:03 > 1:10:05I bumped into Louis Waters.
1:10:05 > 1:10:09- Oh, you did? Where? - In the street.
1:10:11 > 1:10:15They're all here, aren't they? All the ghosts.
1:10:15 > 1:10:18All the ghosts are assembling for the party.
1:10:19 > 1:10:21He is so weird.
1:10:23 > 1:10:24What? You can't see that?
1:10:24 > 1:10:27You can't see that Louis Waters is weird?
1:10:30 > 1:10:31I can see that he's sad.
1:10:32 > 1:10:36Well, all your friends are sad.
1:10:38 > 1:10:41You've been crying. What's happening?
1:10:44 > 1:10:47All it is, I looked around this room and I thought,
1:10:47 > 1:10:51"I'm giving a party. All I want to do is give a party."
1:10:52 > 1:10:53And?
1:10:53 > 1:10:56I know why he does it, he does it deliberately.
1:10:56 > 1:10:59- Oh, is this Richard? - Of course.
1:10:59 > 1:11:03He did it this morning. He gives me that look.
1:11:03 > 1:11:05What look?
1:11:06 > 1:11:11To say... "Your life is trivial."
1:11:13 > 1:11:16"You are so trivial."
1:11:17 > 1:11:22Just...daily stuff, you know? Schedules and parties and details.
1:11:22 > 1:11:26That's what he means by it. That is what he's saying.
1:11:26 > 1:11:29It only matters if you think it's true.
1:11:30 > 1:11:33Well? Do you? Tell me.
1:11:36 > 1:11:39When I'm with him, I feel...
1:11:43 > 1:11:45..yes, I am living.
1:11:46 > 1:11:49And when I'm not with him...
1:11:50 > 1:11:54..yes, everything does seem sort of...silly.
1:12:00 > 1:12:02I don't mean with you. I...
1:12:02 > 1:12:04God. Jesus.
1:12:05 > 1:12:06SHE SIGHS
1:12:06 > 1:12:09Never with you. It's all the rest of it.
1:12:14 > 1:12:16Sally?
1:12:18 > 1:12:20The rest of it.
1:12:24 > 1:12:27- False comfort. - Because?
1:12:27 > 1:12:30- SHE SIGHS:- If you say to me, "When were you happiest?"
1:12:30 > 1:12:34- Mom...- "Tell me the moment you were happiest."
1:12:34 > 1:12:38I know. I know. It was years ago.
1:12:38 > 1:12:40Yeah.
1:12:40 > 1:12:44All you're saying is you were once young.
1:12:45 > 1:12:46SHE CHUCKLES
1:12:49 > 1:12:55- SHE SIGHS:- I remember, one morning, getting up at dawn...
1:12:56 > 1:12:59..there was such a sense of possibility.
1:12:59 > 1:13:02You know? That feeling?
1:13:02 > 1:13:04And I remember thinking to myself,
1:13:04 > 1:13:08"So this is the beginning of happiness,
1:13:08 > 1:13:12"this is where it starts, and, of course, there'll always be more."
1:13:12 > 1:13:14SHE LAUGHS
1:13:16 > 1:13:19It never occurred to me
1:13:19 > 1:13:25it wasn't the beginning, it was happiness.
1:13:26 > 1:13:28It was the moment.
1:13:31 > 1:13:33Right then.
1:13:41 > 1:13:42DOOR BUZZER
1:13:50 > 1:13:51DOOR BUZZER
1:13:53 > 1:13:55DOOR BUZZER
1:14:23 > 1:14:24DOG BARKS
1:14:54 > 1:14:57Nelly. I was wondering if you'd seen Mrs Woolf.
1:14:58 > 1:15:01I thought you knew, sir. Mrs Woolf has gone out.
1:15:36 > 1:15:38Excuse me. Excuse me.
1:15:41 > 1:15:43TRAIN WHISTLE
1:16:04 > 1:16:07Mr Woolf, what an unexpected pleasure.
1:16:07 > 1:16:10Perhaps you could tell me what you think you're doing?
1:16:10 > 1:16:11What I was doing?
1:16:11 > 1:16:15- I went to look for you. - I didn't wish to disturb you.
1:16:15 > 1:16:19- You disturb me when you disappear. - I didn't disappear!
1:16:20 > 1:16:22- I went for a walk. - A walk? Is that all?
1:16:22 > 1:16:25- Just a walk? - SHE SIGHS
1:16:25 > 1:16:29Virginia, we must go home now. Nelly's cooking dinner.
1:16:29 > 1:16:32It's our obligation to eat Nelly's dinner.
1:16:32 > 1:16:34There is no such obligation.
1:16:34 > 1:16:37No such obligation exists.
1:16:37 > 1:16:39You have an obligation to your own sanity.
1:16:39 > 1:16:44I've endured this custody! I've endured this imprisonment.
1:16:44 > 1:16:45Oh, Virginia.
1:16:45 > 1:16:48I am attended by doctors, everywhere.
1:16:48 > 1:16:52I am attended by doctors who inform me of my own interests.
1:16:52 > 1:16:54- They know your interests. - They do not!
1:16:54 > 1:16:57They do not speak for my interests.
1:16:57 > 1:17:00I can see that it must be hard for a woman of your...
1:17:00 > 1:17:02Of what? Of my what?
1:17:02 > 1:17:06..talents to see that she may not be the best judge of her own condition!
1:17:06 > 1:17:09- Who, then, is a better judge? - You have a history!
1:17:11 > 1:17:14You have a history of confinement. We brought you to Richmond
1:17:14 > 1:17:17because you've a history of fits, moods, blackouts,
1:17:17 > 1:17:20hearing voices. We brought you here
1:17:20 > 1:17:24to save you from the irrevocable damage you intended upon yourself.
1:17:25 > 1:17:28You've tried to kill yourself twice!
1:17:31 > 1:17:33I live daily with that threat.
1:17:33 > 1:17:37I set up... We set up the printing press not just for itself,
1:17:37 > 1:17:41not purely for itself, but so that you might have a ready source
1:17:41 > 1:17:43of absorption and of remedy.
1:17:43 > 1:17:48- Like needlework? - It was done for you!
1:17:48 > 1:17:50It was done for your betterment!
1:17:50 > 1:17:52It was done out of love!
1:17:54 > 1:17:58If I didn't know you better, I'd call this ingratitude.
1:17:58 > 1:18:00I am ungrateful?
1:18:01 > 1:18:04You call me ungrateful?
1:18:05 > 1:18:08My life has been stolen from me.
1:18:11 > 1:18:14I'm living in a town I have no wish to live in.
1:18:14 > 1:18:18I'm living a life I have no wish to live.
1:18:23 > 1:18:25How did this happen?
1:18:37 > 1:18:40It is time for us to move back to London.
1:18:45 > 1:18:47I miss London.
1:18:49 > 1:18:51I miss London life.
1:18:53 > 1:18:57This is not you speaking, this is an aspect of your illness.
1:18:57 > 1:18:58- It is me. - It's not you.
1:18:58 > 1:19:03- It is my voice. It's mine. - It is the voice that you hear.
1:19:03 > 1:19:07It is not! It is mine! I'm dying in this town!
1:19:11 > 1:19:13If you were thinking clearly,
1:19:13 > 1:19:16you'd recall it was London that brought you low.
1:19:16 > 1:19:19If I were thinking clearly...
1:19:21 > 1:19:23If I were thinking clearly...
1:19:23 > 1:19:25We brought you to Richmond to give you peace.
1:19:25 > 1:19:28If I were thinking clearly, Leonard,
1:19:28 > 1:19:32I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark,
1:19:32 > 1:19:35in the deep dark, and that only I can know,
1:19:35 > 1:19:38only I can understand my own condition.
1:19:39 > 1:19:44You tell me that you live with the threat of my extinction.
1:19:45 > 1:19:48Leonard, I live with it, too.
1:19:51 > 1:19:54This is my right.
1:19:54 > 1:19:56It is the right of every human being.
1:19:56 > 1:19:59I choose not the suffocating anaesthetic of the suburbs
1:19:59 > 1:20:02but the violent jolt of the capital.
1:20:02 > 1:20:04That is my choice.
1:20:04 > 1:20:07The meanest patient, yes, even the very lowest,
1:20:07 > 1:20:11is allowed some say in the matter of her own prescription -
1:20:11 > 1:20:14thereby she defines her humanity.
1:20:23 > 1:20:28I wish, for your sake, Leonard, I could be happy in this quietness.
1:20:31 > 1:20:35But if it is a choice between Richmond and death,
1:20:35 > 1:20:37I choose death.
1:20:44 > 1:20:46SHE SIGHS
1:20:48 > 1:20:49Very well. London, then.
1:20:51 > 1:20:53We'll go back to London.
1:21:27 > 1:21:28Are you hungry?
1:21:34 > 1:21:36I'm a little hungry myself.
1:21:55 > 1:21:57Come along.
1:21:58 > 1:22:01London train on platform one.
1:22:01 > 1:22:04This is the London train, terminating at Vauxhall.
1:22:09 > 1:22:12You cannot find peace by avoiding life, Leonard.
1:22:21 > 1:22:23This is the London train.
1:22:24 > 1:22:26London train on platform one.
1:22:42 > 1:22:44Mommy!
1:22:45 > 1:22:47Mommy!
1:22:56 > 1:23:00Hey. Hey, there, bug. Hey, what's wrong?
1:23:00 > 1:23:02Hi, Mrs Latch.
1:23:02 > 1:23:04- Sorry I'm late. - He's fine.
1:23:04 > 1:23:07He's been fine. He's just happy to see you.
1:23:07 > 1:23:09Couldn't have been that bad.
1:23:09 > 1:23:12- So, you got it cut, then? - Oh, yes. No problem.
1:23:12 > 1:23:15- Looks great. - They didn't have to do much.
1:23:15 > 1:23:18Well, we had a fine time together.
1:23:19 > 1:23:21Thank you, very much.
1:23:25 > 1:23:28So, that wasn't too bad, was it?
1:23:28 > 1:23:30I wasn't gone too long.
1:23:31 > 1:23:34- No, you weren't long. - That's right.
1:23:37 > 1:23:38At one point...
1:23:39 > 1:23:41I don't know.
1:23:44 > 1:23:47There was a moment where I thought I might be longer.
1:23:48 > 1:23:50But I changed my mind.
1:23:58 > 1:24:01- What is it, honey? - Mommy, I love you.
1:24:04 > 1:24:06I love you, too, baby.
1:24:15 > 1:24:16What's wrong?
1:24:20 > 1:24:21What?
1:24:28 > 1:24:31Don't worry, honey. Everything's fine.
1:24:31 > 1:24:34We're gonna have a wonderful party.
1:24:34 > 1:24:37And we've made your daddy such a nice cake.
1:24:41 > 1:24:43I love you, sweetheart.
1:24:45 > 1:24:47You're my guy.
1:24:58 > 1:25:00CAR HORNS BEEPING
1:25:09 > 1:25:10POLICE SIRENS
1:25:15 > 1:25:17HORN BLARES
1:25:22 > 1:25:24Mommy!
1:25:24 > 1:25:27Mommy!
1:25:30 > 1:25:32HORN BLARES
1:25:35 > 1:25:37SIRENS
1:25:46 > 1:25:49SIRENS
1:26:21 > 1:26:24Richard, it's me! I'm early.
1:26:25 > 1:26:26CLATTERING
1:26:29 > 1:26:31What the hell is going on?
1:26:31 > 1:26:32Richard?
1:26:35 > 1:26:37What are you doing here? You're early.
1:26:37 > 1:26:41What is going on here? What are you doing?
1:26:41 > 1:26:44I had this wonderful idea. I needed some light.
1:26:44 > 1:26:49- I needed to let in some light! - What are you doing?
1:26:49 > 1:26:50I had this fantastic notion.
1:26:50 > 1:26:53I took the Xanax and the Ritalin together.
1:26:53 > 1:26:55It had never occurred to me.
1:26:55 > 1:26:56- Richard! - Don't come near me!
1:27:02 > 1:27:06It seemed to me I needed to let in some light.
1:27:09 > 1:27:12What do you think? I cleared away all the windows.
1:27:12 > 1:27:16All right, Richard, do me one simple favour. Come sit.
1:27:16 > 1:27:19I don't think I can make it to the party.
1:27:19 > 1:27:21You don't have to go to the party.
1:27:21 > 1:27:24You don't have to do anything. You can do as you like.
1:27:24 > 1:27:27But I still have to face the hours, don't I?
1:27:27 > 1:27:30I mean, the hours after the party.
1:27:30 > 1:27:32And the hours after that.
1:27:33 > 1:27:36You do have good days still, you know you do.
1:27:36 > 1:27:41Not really. I mean, it's kind of you to say so,
1:27:41 > 1:27:43but it's not really true.
1:27:52 > 1:27:54- Are they here? - Who?
1:27:54 > 1:27:57- The voices. - Oh, the voices are always here.
1:27:57 > 1:28:01And it's the voices that you're hearing now, isn't it?
1:28:01 > 1:28:03No, no, no, no.
1:28:03 > 1:28:06Mrs Dalloway, it's you.
1:28:11 > 1:28:13I've stayed alive for you.
1:28:14 > 1:28:16But now you have to let me go.
1:28:18 > 1:28:21- Richard, I... - No. Wait, wait, wait.
1:28:21 > 1:28:22Wait.
1:28:25 > 1:28:28- Tell me a story. - What about?
1:28:28 > 1:28:31Tell me a story from your day.
1:28:32 > 1:28:33I, erm...
1:28:33 > 1:28:36- I got up. - Yes?
1:28:36 > 1:28:39And... I went out.
1:28:39 > 1:28:45And... I went to buy flowers, like Mrs Dalloway in the book.
1:28:45 > 1:28:46- You know? - Yes.
1:28:46 > 1:28:49- And it was a beautiful morning. - Was it?
1:28:49 > 1:28:52Yes, it was so beautiful. It was so fresh.
1:28:52 > 1:28:55- Oh, fresh, was it? - Yes.
1:28:58 > 1:29:02Like a... Like a morning on the beach?
1:29:02 > 1:29:03- SHE GASPS:- Yes.
1:29:03 > 1:29:06- Like that? - Yes.
1:29:06 > 1:29:10Like that morning when you walked out of that old house
1:29:10 > 1:29:13and you were 18 and maybe I was 19.
1:29:13 > 1:29:15Yes.
1:29:16 > 1:29:18I was 19 years old,
1:29:18 > 1:29:21and I'd never seen anything so beautiful.
1:29:23 > 1:29:28You, coming out of a glass door in the early morning still sleepy.
1:29:30 > 1:29:31Isn't it strange?
1:29:32 > 1:29:35The most ordinary morning in anybody's life.
1:29:40 > 1:29:43I'm afraid I can't make it to the party, Clarissa.
1:29:43 > 1:29:47The party...doesn't matter.
1:29:47 > 1:29:51You've been so good to me, Mrs Dalloway.
1:29:53 > 1:29:55I love you.
1:30:00 > 1:30:04I don't think two people could've been happier than we've been.
1:30:11 > 1:30:13- SHE GASPS:- Oh, God, no!
1:30:21 > 1:30:24Happy birthday! Happy birthday, Dan.
1:30:24 > 1:30:28This is perfect. This is just perfect.
1:30:28 > 1:30:30Do you think so?
1:30:30 > 1:30:32- Do you really think so? - Why, sure.
1:30:32 > 1:30:35- You must've been working all day. - That's what we were doing.
1:30:35 > 1:30:38Weren't we, bug? We were working all day.
1:30:38 > 1:30:42This is just fantastic. It's what I've always wanted.
1:30:42 > 1:30:43Oh, Dan.
1:30:43 > 1:30:47One day, Richie, I'll tell you how it all happened.
1:30:47 > 1:30:50- Don't. - I want to.
1:30:50 > 1:30:53I want to tell him the story. What happened...
1:30:54 > 1:30:56When I was in the war,
1:30:56 > 1:31:00I found myself thinking about this girl that I'd seen.
1:31:00 > 1:31:02I'd never met her at high school.
1:31:02 > 1:31:09This strange, fragile-looking girl named Laura McGrath.
1:31:11 > 1:31:12Yeah.
1:31:12 > 1:31:17And she was shy and she was interesting.
1:31:17 > 1:31:20And your mother won't mind if I tell you this,
1:31:20 > 1:31:24she was the sort of girl that you see sitting mostly on her own.
1:31:24 > 1:31:27I tell you, sometimes, when I was in the South Pacific,
1:31:27 > 1:31:32the fact is, that I used to think about this girl.
1:31:32 > 1:31:33Dan.
1:31:34 > 1:31:38I used to think about bringing her to a house, to a life...
1:31:39 > 1:31:41..pretty much like this.
1:31:43 > 1:31:45And it was the thought of the happiness...
1:31:47 > 1:31:50..the thought of this woman,
1:31:50 > 1:31:53the thought of this life, that's what kept me going.
1:31:54 > 1:31:57I had an idea of our happiness.
1:32:24 > 1:32:26- LEONARD: - Why does someone have to die?
1:32:26 > 1:32:28FIRE CRACKLES
1:32:30 > 1:32:31Leonard?
1:32:31 > 1:32:33In your book. You said someone had to die.
1:32:33 > 1:32:36- Hm. - Why?
1:32:38 > 1:32:42- Is that a stupid question? - No.
1:32:42 > 1:32:44I imagine my question is stupid.
1:32:45 > 1:32:47Not at all.
1:32:48 > 1:32:49Well?
1:32:53 > 1:32:54Someone has to die
1:32:54 > 1:32:57in order that the rest of us should value life more.
1:32:59 > 1:33:02- It's contrast. - And who will die?
1:33:04 > 1:33:06Tell me.
1:33:08 > 1:33:10The poet will die.
1:33:11 > 1:33:13The visionary.
1:33:14 > 1:33:16CLOCK TICKING
1:33:27 > 1:33:29What are you doing?
1:33:29 > 1:33:31I'm brushing my teeth.
1:33:35 > 1:33:37Are you coming to bed?
1:33:38 > 1:33:39Yeah, in a minute.
1:33:41 > 1:33:44- MELODICALLY: - Come to bed, Laura Brown.
1:33:49 > 1:33:53I ran into Ray. He said Kitty had to go to the hospital.
1:33:53 > 1:33:55I know.
1:33:55 > 1:33:58Nothing serious, he said. Just a checkup.
1:34:00 > 1:34:03- I'm terrified. - Why?
1:34:06 > 1:34:09- SOFTLY: - Oh, the idea she could disappear.
1:34:10 > 1:34:13Maybe you could go see her in the morning.
1:34:21 > 1:34:24I was going to. I was gonna stop by.
1:34:25 > 1:34:27I've had a wonderful day.
1:34:29 > 1:34:31And I have you to thank.
1:34:37 > 1:34:39Come to bed, honey.
1:34:40 > 1:34:42I'm coming.
1:34:50 > 1:34:52Are you coming?
1:34:53 > 1:34:55Yes.
1:34:59 > 1:35:02HE SIGHS
1:35:13 > 1:35:14What?
1:35:17 > 1:35:19I was hoping you were going to bed.
1:35:20 > 1:35:23I am. I am going to bed.
1:35:26 > 1:35:28What, then?
1:35:31 > 1:35:35All else is clear. The outline of the story is planned.
1:35:35 > 1:35:37Now one thing only.
1:35:37 > 1:35:40Mrs Dalloway's destiny must be resolved.
1:36:03 > 1:36:05DOOR BUZZER
1:36:20 > 1:36:23You're Laura Brown?
1:36:24 > 1:36:26Yes, I'm Richard's mother.
1:36:30 > 1:36:31Of course.
1:36:33 > 1:36:37I'm Clarissa Vaughan. Please, come in.
1:36:45 > 1:36:48My friend Sally is in the kitchen.
1:36:48 > 1:36:51And my daughter. I'll take this.
1:36:52 > 1:36:55We were having a party.
1:36:56 > 1:36:58We were going to have a party.
1:36:58 > 1:37:03I was lucky, I got the last plane from Toronto.
1:37:03 > 1:37:04So that's the monster?
1:37:06 > 1:37:08Hope I did the right thing.
1:37:08 > 1:37:11I found your number in his phone book.
1:37:11 > 1:37:13Yes, he had it.
1:37:14 > 1:37:16We didn't speak often.
1:37:28 > 1:37:33It's a terrible thing, Ms Vaughan, to outlive your whole family.
1:37:36 > 1:37:39- Richard's father died.- Yes.
1:37:39 > 1:37:41He died of cancer quite young.
1:37:42 > 1:37:45And Richard's sister is dead.
1:37:50 > 1:37:52Obviously, you feel unworthy.
1:37:53 > 1:37:56It gives you feelings of unworthiness.
1:37:57 > 1:38:00You survive and they don't.
1:38:05 > 1:38:09- Have you read the poems? - Oh, yes. Oh...
1:38:11 > 1:38:13I also read the novel.
1:38:20 > 1:38:26You see, people say the novel's difficult.
1:38:28 > 1:38:30- I know. - They say that.
1:38:35 > 1:38:37I know.
1:38:40 > 1:38:42He had me die in the novel.
1:38:43 > 1:38:45And I know why he did that.
1:38:49 > 1:38:52It hurt, of course. I can't pretend it didn't hurt,
1:38:52 > 1:38:55but I... I know why he did it.
1:38:59 > 1:39:02You left Richard when he was a child.
1:39:05 > 1:39:07I left both my children.
1:39:09 > 1:39:11I abandoned them.
1:39:17 > 1:39:20They say it's the worst thing a mother can do.
1:39:34 > 1:39:35You have a daughter?
1:39:35 > 1:39:37SHE SIGHS
1:39:38 > 1:39:40Yes.
1:39:41 > 1:39:44But I never met Julia's father.
1:39:44 > 1:39:46You so wanted a child?
1:39:47 > 1:39:49That's right.
1:39:51 > 1:39:53You're a lucky woman.
1:40:02 > 1:40:05There are times when you don't belong
1:40:05 > 1:40:07and you think you're going to kill yourself.
1:40:14 > 1:40:16Once, I went to a hotel.
1:40:19 > 1:40:22Later that night, I made a plan.
1:40:23 > 1:40:28The plan was to leave my family when my second child was born.
1:40:29 > 1:40:32And that's what I did.
1:40:33 > 1:40:37I got up one morning, made breakfast...
1:40:38 > 1:40:43..went to the bus stop, got on a bus.
1:40:45 > 1:40:47I'd left a note.
1:40:52 > 1:40:55I got a job in a library in Canada.
1:41:02 > 1:41:04It would...
1:41:06 > 1:41:10..be wonderful to say you regretted it.
1:41:10 > 1:41:11It would be easy.
1:41:16 > 1:41:18But what does it mean?
1:41:20 > 1:41:25What does it mean to regret... when you have no choice?
1:41:36 > 1:41:38It's what you can bear.
1:41:44 > 1:41:46There it is.
1:41:46 > 1:41:48No-one's going to forgive me.
1:41:54 > 1:41:56It was death.
1:41:58 > 1:42:00I chose life.
1:42:58 > 1:43:01Do you want to take your coat off?
1:43:10 > 1:43:12SHE SIGHS
1:43:42 > 1:43:44I thought you might like a cup of tea.
1:43:44 > 1:43:47Oh, my goodness. Thank you, dear.
1:43:48 > 1:43:51I feel like I'm stealing your room.
1:43:51 > 1:43:55We put the food away, so if you're at all hungry in the night,
1:43:55 > 1:43:57- just help yourself. - I will.
1:43:57 > 1:44:00- Where will you sleep? - The sofa.
1:44:00 > 1:44:03Oh. Oh, I'm sorry.
1:44:11 > 1:44:14- Goodnight, sweetheart. - Goodnight.
1:44:35 > 1:44:36Dear Leonard...
1:44:38 > 1:44:40..to look life in the face...
1:44:42 > 1:44:46..always to look life in the face...
1:44:48 > 1:44:51..and to know it for what it is.
1:44:53 > 1:44:56At last...to know it...
1:44:59 > 1:45:03..to love it for what it is, and then...
1:45:06 > 1:45:08..to put it away.
1:45:12 > 1:45:13Leonard...
1:45:15 > 1:45:17..always the years between us.
1:45:20 > 1:45:22Always the years.
1:45:23 > 1:45:27Always...the love.
1:45:28 > 1:45:33Always...the hours.
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