0:00:02 > 0:00:13This programme contains strong language
0:00:29 > 0:00:33# Among the trees and by the river
0:00:33 > 0:00:37# Lying there, my darling shivers
0:00:37 > 0:00:41# In her sleep with dreams of winter
0:00:41 > 0:00:44# Wider than her eyes
0:00:44 > 0:00:48# I feel her heart move through her chest
0:00:48 > 0:00:52# Warm and steady as she rests
0:00:52 > 0:00:54# Hear water ebbing with her breath
0:00:54 > 0:00:57# Lulling me to sleep
0:00:58 > 0:01:00# Ah...
0:01:02 > 0:01:05# Ah-ah-ah...
0:01:06 > 0:01:13# And here in the sky lights flash before our eyes
0:01:13 > 0:01:17# And I feel your warm hand
0:01:17 > 0:01:20# Slipping into mine
0:01:20 > 0:01:23# And we wait and we wonder... #
0:01:23 > 0:01:25- You OK? - Yeah.
0:01:28 > 0:01:36# Do I know what you are feeling?
0:01:43 > 0:01:48# This morning we drove out of town to the hills
0:01:48 > 0:01:53# Looking down I saw the ocean all around
0:01:53 > 0:01:56# As far as we could see... #
0:01:56 > 0:02:01- OK, I have a secret to tell you. - You're in the middle of the road.
0:02:01 > 0:02:06- I know. Do you want to hear it? - Do you wanna move your car first?
0:02:06 > 0:02:09No, not really.
0:02:09 > 0:02:12I just wanna tell you one more thing.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14All right.
0:02:14 > 0:02:18- What? - SHE LAUGHS
0:02:18 > 0:02:20That's not gonna be good.
0:02:20 > 0:02:22OK, tell me.
0:02:25 > 0:02:28I've been in love with you for...
0:02:47 > 0:02:49ALARM BEEPS
0:02:49 > 0:02:52ALARM STOPS
0:02:52 > 0:02:54SHE GROANS SLEEPILY
0:03:07 > 0:03:09SHE SOBS
0:03:34 > 0:03:39John Muir said, "Let children walk with nature."
0:03:39 > 0:03:43"Let them see the beautiful blendings
0:03:43 > 0:03:45"and communions of death and life,
0:03:45 > 0:03:48"their joyous inseparable unity
0:03:48 > 0:03:52"and they will learn that death is stingless indeed,
0:03:52 > 0:03:55"and as beautiful as life".
0:03:55 > 0:04:00That is my hope for Bennett, that this amazing young man
0:04:00 > 0:04:05who was taken from us so suddenly, who is so well-loved,
0:04:05 > 0:04:09is surrounded by everything that was beautiful to him.
0:04:09 > 0:04:12It is in this spirit that we return Bennett
0:04:12 > 0:04:17to that form from which God miraculously created all life.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37DISTANT BIRDCALL
0:06:42 > 0:06:44ALARM BEEPS
0:06:44 > 0:06:46ALARM STOPS
0:06:53 > 0:06:55SHE SOBS
0:07:20 > 0:07:23- KNOCKING - Come on, open the door, Ryan.
0:07:23 > 0:07:25Hold on.
0:07:27 > 0:07:32Come on. Ryan, just let me... Hey. Come on, buddy, let me in.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Jesus Christ, Ryan.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37Open up some of these windows, would you?
0:07:38 > 0:07:41I don't care what you say, next time you let Gloria up here.
0:07:41 > 0:07:45- Sorry.- It smells like something died and went to heaven.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48- I didn't know she was here. - She's not.
0:07:48 > 0:07:52But she's coming back very soon.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56- Where have you been? - I've been here.
0:07:56 > 0:07:59- What, in the house? - Yeah.
0:07:59 > 0:08:03Just check in from time to time, would you? Your mother's worried.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05- OK. - DOOR CLOSES
0:08:05 > 0:08:07What I want to know, what I need to know
0:08:07 > 0:08:13is, erm, what were the 17 minutes like for my son?
0:08:13 > 0:08:16I don't know what to tell you, Mrs Brewer, I wasn't there.
0:08:16 > 0:08:20You've spoken with every doctor, nurse, paramedic, fireman on call.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23I don't know what other information I can give.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26- What about Jordan Walker? - Mr Walker is still in a coma.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30I know, but I have a surveillance tape and in that tape it looks as if
0:08:30 > 0:08:33they spoke, that they might have had a conversation.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36Would he have been capable of having a conversation with my son?
0:08:36 > 0:08:39It depends on how slow the bleeding in his brain was.
0:08:39 > 0:08:43It's possible he could have stayed conscious
0:08:43 > 0:08:47long enough to carry on a conversation.
0:08:47 > 0:08:51- Then, he would've been the last person to speak to my son.- Yes.
0:08:51 > 0:08:54I have an appointment now, I'm sorry.
0:08:54 > 0:08:59- When do you think he'll wake up? - As I've said numerous times before,
0:08:59 > 0:09:02I've given you all the answers that I know.
0:09:02 > 0:09:06- But he could wake up. What would be the signs?- I'm sorry.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08TANNOY: 'Dr Linder, 2291...'
0:09:10 > 0:09:12Allen?
0:09:14 > 0:09:16Allen?
0:09:18 > 0:09:21Hi. How are you? I'm sorry...
0:09:21 > 0:09:24Er... A head full of numbers.
0:09:24 > 0:09:27- Ooh. You're sweating. - Yeah...
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Yeah.
0:09:32 > 0:09:34Yeah, thank you. You're right.
0:09:34 > 0:09:37I'll turn up the AC.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41Is this, er, is this roster correct?
0:09:41 > 0:09:44I don't have Linda down here for the summer.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46- How are you? - All right.
0:09:46 > 0:09:49You look like you've forgotten to sleep.
0:09:49 > 0:09:53I'm fine. Thanks for the flowers. They weren't necessary.
0:09:53 > 0:09:57I wanted to call so many times. I didn't know what to do.
0:09:57 > 0:10:00I just wanna be strong for Grace, that's all.
0:10:00 > 0:10:02That's what I'm doing.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04Of course.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08So, we got, er...
0:10:08 > 0:10:10we got 30 students here.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14- Ready and praying for graduation. - Well, let's see what I can do.
0:10:17 > 0:10:21If you want anything, anything at all, just let me know.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23I will.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33SIGHS
0:10:45 > 0:10:48WATER RUNS
0:10:49 > 0:10:52I read about an interesting idea today.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55I even made a purchase.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01Seems to be a lot of research on the web about grief.
0:11:02 > 0:11:07And, er, I stumbled across... a couple of interesting suggestions.
0:11:07 > 0:11:10Oh, Allen, don't.
0:11:10 > 0:11:13They suggested we...use a bell.
0:11:22 > 0:11:26We can ring this... when we're missing Bennett...
0:11:28 > 0:11:32..or when we think about him.
0:11:34 > 0:11:38You can put it anywhere in the house you like.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40Can I see the bell?
0:11:45 > 0:11:47RINGS BELL
0:11:55 > 0:11:58RINGS BELL LOUDLY
0:12:02 > 0:12:05CONTINUES TO RING BELL LOUDLY
0:12:10 > 0:12:12SIGHS
0:12:22 > 0:12:25BELL CONTINUES TO RING
0:12:25 > 0:12:28KETTLE HISSES
0:12:29 > 0:12:32KETTLE WHISTLES
0:12:35 > 0:12:37DOORBELL RINGS
0:12:45 > 0:12:46Hello.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48Hello.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51- Rose, right? - Yeah.
0:12:51 > 0:12:53Come on in.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55Just through here.
0:13:01 > 0:13:05- Would you like some tea, soda...? - No. I'm fine, thank you.
0:13:05 > 0:13:09- I'm sorry for just stopping by. - Not at all. I'm glad you did.
0:13:09 > 0:13:13- I've wanted to talk to you since the service.- Yeah, I know.
0:13:13 > 0:13:16I wish I could've given your wife more answers.
0:13:16 > 0:13:20- I know how much she wanted them. - Yes. She's very focused on that.
0:13:20 > 0:13:25It's only a matter of time. How are you feeling?
0:13:25 > 0:13:27Oh...
0:13:27 > 0:13:29Water. Can I have some water?
0:13:29 > 0:13:33Yes, of course. Please, sit down. Make yourself comfortable there.
0:13:33 > 0:13:37I've been trying to figure out how you knew Bennett.
0:13:37 > 0:13:40- Are you part of Youth In Government? - Er, no.
0:13:40 > 0:13:45Ah. You must be an intern, then, at the paper.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48- No. - No? Um...
0:13:48 > 0:13:52Community service? Just tell me if I'm hot or cold.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54Cold.
0:13:54 > 0:13:55Not East Ivy.
0:13:55 > 0:13:59I don't think he held on to many friends from junior high.
0:13:59 > 0:14:02No. I'm the one he got pregnant.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08- Excuse me? - I'm pregnant.
0:14:10 > 0:14:15I'm sorry. I'm... I don't understand.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18I'm three months pregnant.
0:14:25 > 0:14:27Is it Bennett's?
0:14:30 > 0:14:32Yes.
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Are you sure?
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Yeah.
0:14:44 > 0:14:46You gonna keep it?
0:14:51 > 0:14:54She told me they only spent one night together.
0:14:54 > 0:14:59I can't believe she has nowhere else to go until the paternity test.
0:14:59 > 0:15:02Paternity test? I'm not putting her through that!
0:15:02 > 0:15:05- Why are you defending her? - I'm not.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08- I don't see why she'd make this up. - Because she's 18 and broke!
0:15:08 > 0:15:12- Oh...- I can't deal with this. - Oh, Grace!
0:15:12 > 0:15:17- Grace, come here. Calm down. - We don't even know this girl!
0:15:17 > 0:15:21- She seems like a nice girl. - If it turns out to be his,
0:15:21 > 0:15:25I'm not gonna be happy about it. I don't want everybody thinking
0:15:25 > 0:15:29- that we're blessed. You don't think we're blessed, do you?- No, I don't.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32She's probably the one that dyed his hair blue, too.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35- He never would've done that. - I'll go down and get her.
0:15:35 > 0:15:38Wait. Why does she have to come to our house?
0:15:38 > 0:15:42We're grieving. That's not gonna be good for the baby.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45This must be our only choice.
0:16:03 > 0:16:07- Are you really pregnant? - Yeah.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10That figures. The one bad thing my brother does,
0:16:10 > 0:16:14and he's not even here to get in trouble for it.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16- I'm Rose. - I know who you are.
0:16:16 > 0:16:20He kept your yearbook photo on his bedside table.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23- He did? - Yeah. And I wouldn't touch it,
0:16:23 > 0:16:26because he probably jerked off to it every night.
0:16:26 > 0:16:30- So, you're his little brother? - Yeah. The fuck-up.
0:16:30 > 0:16:33- He didn't tell you I was a fuck-up? - No.
0:16:33 > 0:16:37- He never said you were fucked up. - He was just being polite, then.
0:16:38 > 0:16:43- Are you OK?- Yeah, I'm fine. Why? Do I not look like I'm OK?
0:16:43 > 0:16:47- You seem a little jumpy. - I'm a little restless, yeah.
0:16:55 > 0:16:59- You have a fever. - I don't know why. I feel fine.
0:17:00 > 0:17:04- Ryan?- Yeah? - My mom just checked into rehab.
0:17:04 > 0:17:08Bananas and Gatorade. Should help.
0:17:08 > 0:17:10Yeah.
0:18:22 > 0:18:25What would you say, if someone asked you about this night?
0:18:28 > 0:18:31Why do you want a compliment from me so badly?
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Well, because you haven't given me anything!
0:18:35 > 0:18:38I've given you everything.
0:18:38 > 0:18:41Right. But I want more.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43I wanna know what you're thinking.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47Please?
0:18:49 > 0:18:51I would say...
0:18:56 > 0:18:58I would say...
0:18:58 > 0:19:00WHISPERS
0:19:09 > 0:19:11The greatest?
0:19:11 > 0:19:15I like that.
0:19:17 > 0:19:19I like those words.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44FLOORBOARDS CREAK
0:19:47 > 0:19:51- GRACE:- 'Oh, my baby! I don't know... He's just...'
0:19:51 > 0:19:56- TV CHATTER - 'Somebody help me find my baby!'
0:19:56 > 0:19:58Somebody help me find my baby!
0:19:58 > 0:20:01- You see, I don't know where he went. - SHE SOBS
0:20:01 > 0:20:04Have you seen my baby? I can't find him.
0:20:04 > 0:20:07I can't find him. He's so small.
0:20:07 > 0:20:11- He was right here and then I can't find him.- Come on, sweetie.
0:20:21 > 0:20:24BOYS CHATTER AND LAUGH
0:20:32 > 0:20:36My mom takes walks every night at six. I followed her two nights ago
0:20:36 > 0:20:40and she just circles the block over and over again looking for James.
0:20:40 > 0:20:45- Hold that thought. Hi. You must be Ryan?- Mm-hm.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47Come in, please. Sit down.
0:20:49 > 0:20:53We were just finishing up. Feel free to listen or join in,
0:20:53 > 0:20:57- whatever you're comfortable with. - OK.- Sorry, Leighton.
0:20:57 > 0:21:01When I asked my dad where she was the first night
0:21:01 > 0:21:03he said she was looking for James.
0:21:03 > 0:21:07Sometimes she'll just run to his bedroom and throw open the door
0:21:07 > 0:21:10like she expects to see him sitting at his computer or something.
0:21:10 > 0:21:13Often parents that didn't view the body
0:21:13 > 0:21:16still look for their child in crowds.
0:21:16 > 0:21:20Sometimes they even think they see them. It's normal, Leighton.
0:21:20 > 0:21:24The best thing you can do is talk about it with her.
0:21:24 > 0:21:26I think it could help.
0:21:28 > 0:21:32- So, Ryan, hi. - Hey.
0:21:32 > 0:21:35- What brings you here? - Nothin'.
0:21:35 > 0:21:38I just thought it was the normal thing to do.
0:21:38 > 0:21:42- Are you experiencing any symptoms of grief?- No.
0:21:45 > 0:21:49- 'Who are you here to see?' - 'Jordan Walker.'
0:21:49 > 0:21:52- MACHINE BEEPS - I don't know why they can't get this right.
0:21:52 > 0:21:55- He prefers the blinds open during the day.- Really?
0:21:55 > 0:21:59Did he tell you that after he requested the aquarium?
0:21:59 > 0:22:02I just wanted a little life in this room.
0:22:02 > 0:22:06Er, decaf caramel macchiato, extra foam.
0:22:08 > 0:22:11- Sheila told me.- Trying to bribe me into feeding that fish
0:22:11 > 0:22:14- on the weekend? It's not gonna work. - No, it's fine.
0:22:14 > 0:22:17I'll be here on the weekends.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22- Thank you. - You're welcome.
0:22:23 > 0:22:27Oh, Toni, could you ask Dr Jacobson to stop in when he gets here?
0:22:27 > 0:22:31- I have a few questions for him. - Right away.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33Thank you.
0:22:33 > 0:22:35You give him the balloons, OK?
0:22:45 > 0:22:47CHATTERING
0:22:56 > 0:22:58SIGHS
0:22:59 > 0:23:02You know, you don't have to share if you don't want to.
0:23:02 > 0:23:06You can just listen. I highly recommend not sharing, actually.
0:23:06 > 0:23:10These people are like grief vultures.
0:23:10 > 0:23:13- Then, why are you here? - Nowhere else to go.
0:23:13 > 0:23:17And my sister, Amy, blew her brains out while we were at church.
0:23:17 > 0:23:19Oh, I'm sorry.
0:23:19 > 0:23:21What about you?
0:23:21 > 0:23:25Oh, my brother, erm, he died in a car accident.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28There's a ton of car accidents here.
0:23:28 > 0:23:31Leighton's brother was in a car, so was Sarah's and Jason's.
0:23:31 > 0:23:35Erm, Hilary's sister OD'd. And Jeremy's brother died
0:23:35 > 0:23:38before he was even born and he's the most dramatic one here.
0:23:38 > 0:23:42- It's like, "Do you even remember him?"- You're the only suicide?
0:23:42 > 0:23:45How do you know it wasn't murder?
0:23:45 > 0:23:49Because you just said she blew her brains out.
0:23:49 > 0:23:53Oh...yeah. Only suicide. Really special.
0:23:54 > 0:23:58You know, it does get easier, or...more interesting,
0:23:58 > 0:24:02all the different layers of...fucked-up-ness.
0:24:02 > 0:24:06I-I-I'm fine. I'm... I'm doin' OK, actually.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08The group's a good place to talk.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11Your friends will start avoiding you.
0:24:11 > 0:24:14Oh, I'm not talkin' about it with 'em.
0:24:14 > 0:24:17- Well, then, I'm really glad you're here.- Mm.
0:24:19 > 0:24:21CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS
0:25:04 > 0:25:06Did you ever notice me at all
0:25:06 > 0:25:10any of those times we passed each other? Did you at least...
0:25:10 > 0:25:12recognise me at some point?
0:25:12 > 0:25:14Keep your eyes closed. I'm almost done.
0:25:14 > 0:25:17OK, they're...they're closed.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20- INHALES DEEPLY - They're shut.
0:25:20 > 0:25:21Good.
0:25:22 > 0:25:24So...you won,
0:25:24 > 0:25:27like, Most Popular,
0:25:27 > 0:25:32or Best All Around or Best Guy To Know, right?
0:25:32 > 0:25:36Er...right, yeah. It was just Best All Around.
0:25:36 > 0:25:39So you're a nice guy?
0:25:39 > 0:25:41Er, you think so?
0:25:41 > 0:25:45Is that why you're here? Because you're nice to everyone?
0:25:46 > 0:25:48No.
0:26:02 > 0:26:05OK, well, you don't look like the prom king any more.
0:26:06 > 0:26:10- Oh...shit! - LAUGHS
0:26:10 > 0:26:14- My mom's gonna kill me. - Oh, I think it suits you.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17- Really? - Yeah.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19- You're sure? - Yeah.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25You're so pretty, Rose.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31THUNDER RUMBLES
0:26:43 > 0:26:46Let us know if there's anything you can't eat.
0:26:46 > 0:26:50I can only imagine how sensitive your stomach must be right now.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53I mostly crave bean burritos from Taco Bell.
0:26:53 > 0:26:56It was peanut butter and bananas for Grace.
0:26:56 > 0:26:58- Right?- Right. - When Grace delivered Ryan
0:26:58 > 0:27:02we thought she was gonna give birth to a banana split!
0:27:02 > 0:27:05- CHUCKLES - That was Bennett, actually.
0:27:08 > 0:27:11Ryan, how are you enjoying your summer?
0:27:11 > 0:27:13Summer's over.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Right.
0:27:15 > 0:27:20I don't know why I'm having a hard time remembering that.
0:27:20 > 0:27:23OK, here's another one. How's school?
0:27:23 > 0:27:26It's good. I got all the classes I wanted.
0:27:26 > 0:27:30Me and the guys hung out after school, went swimming
0:27:30 > 0:27:32and we might go see a movie later.
0:27:32 > 0:27:34Excellent!
0:27:34 > 0:27:39- Why is it excellent?- Well...seems like a nice way to spend a day.
0:27:39 > 0:27:42All that's missing is a bean burrito.
0:27:53 > 0:27:57- I've got something for Rose. - Great. Let's see it.
0:27:57 > 0:28:01So, there's this website where you can take two people's picture
0:28:01 > 0:28:03and see what their kid'll look like.
0:28:03 > 0:28:06And I took you and Bennett's yearbook picture. According to them,
0:28:06 > 0:28:10- your kid will be riding the short bus.- That's not appropriate.
0:28:10 > 0:28:14Let me see. Oh, look. Look!
0:28:14 > 0:28:18- At least it sets the standards pretty low. Right?- That's enough.
0:28:18 > 0:28:22- I'll still love it, maybe. - LAUGHS
0:28:22 > 0:28:25Anyone know if the weather's gonna clear up for the weekend?
0:28:25 > 0:28:29Why do you always change the subject when Bennett's name comes up?
0:28:29 > 0:28:31- I don't. - Yes, you do.
0:28:31 > 0:28:35- Grace...- You do. Watch. Did you dye our son's hair blue?
0:28:35 > 0:28:39- Rose doesn't wanna talk about this at the dinner table.- Why not?
0:28:39 > 0:28:42- I just wanna know.- Grace, leave it alone. Why make a point now?
0:28:42 > 0:28:47I'm not, I'm asking a question. Did you dye our son's hair blue?
0:28:47 > 0:28:49I'm finished.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51Yes.
0:28:51 > 0:28:55You know, when I went to the morgue I didn't think it was him.
0:28:55 > 0:28:58I thought they'd got the wrong boy because, I mean, our son
0:28:58 > 0:29:02would never dye his hair blue! I thought they'd made a mistake.
0:29:02 > 0:29:07And then...I saw his face and...it was him.
0:29:07 > 0:29:12It was our son. And he was dead. Again.
0:29:12 > 0:29:16It was like he died...twice.
0:29:16 > 0:29:19I'm sorry.
0:29:20 > 0:29:23You see, I didn't wanna make a point,
0:29:23 > 0:29:25I just...wanted to ask a question.
0:29:27 > 0:29:31I could come to you office hours, if that'd be easier.
0:29:31 > 0:29:35No, no, no, don't do that, Dante. Let's go again from the top.
0:29:35 > 0:29:38I'll come back tomorrow. I'll just make an appointment.
0:29:46 > 0:29:50I'm fine. I'm fine.
0:29:50 > 0:29:54Maybe you should think about taking a little more time off.
0:29:54 > 0:29:57- I can find a mid-term replacement. - No, no, I'm fine.
0:29:57 > 0:30:00Just haven't had my morning coffee, that's all.
0:30:03 > 0:30:07Will you have dinner with me tonight? No strings attached.
0:30:07 > 0:30:09We used to be good friends, remember?
0:30:11 > 0:30:14I... I just need one night of sleep, that's all.
0:30:14 > 0:30:18That's my problem, I just need one night of sleep.
0:30:18 > 0:30:20What about the beach house?
0:30:20 > 0:30:23It certainly is a wonderful place to...
0:30:23 > 0:30:26forget about the world for a while.
0:30:27 > 0:30:30Grace loves the beach house.
0:30:33 > 0:30:39Right... Well... When Rick's mother died
0:30:39 > 0:30:43I took the whole family to Florida for two weeks. It made a difference.
0:30:46 > 0:30:50I can't talk to you any more. You know that.
0:30:50 > 0:30:54I'm just trying to make sure you're taking care of yourself.
0:30:55 > 0:30:58It's not always about Grace.
0:30:58 > 0:31:01- Ryan, we're gonna go to the beach house.- When?
0:31:01 > 0:31:04The decision's been made, the whole family is going.
0:31:04 > 0:31:06I said, when?
0:31:06 > 0:31:09SIGHS
0:31:09 > 0:31:11- Now, today. - Can I bring someone?
0:31:11 > 0:31:14- Yeah, sure. Who? - Ashley.
0:31:14 > 0:31:18- No drugs! - Please, Dad, why not?
0:31:19 > 0:31:22I'm serious, Ryan. Now, help your mother pack.
0:31:22 > 0:31:24Do you think she wants a sample before we go?
0:31:26 > 0:31:28TYRES SQUEAL
0:31:35 > 0:31:39- Please, Grace, turn that off. - How did the car crumple like that?
0:31:39 > 0:31:41Maybe we should show this to Bill again.
0:31:41 > 0:31:46- Maybe something was wrong with the frame of the car.- There wasn't.
0:31:46 > 0:31:50He gets out of his truck and goes towards Bennett and he's,
0:31:50 > 0:31:53- it looks like he speaks to him... - That's Ryan's sample there.
0:31:53 > 0:31:58- He'd love you to test that. - ..then he gives him his jacket.
0:31:58 > 0:32:01Are you gonna test the sample or not?
0:32:05 > 0:32:10He was alive for 17 minutes. Aren't you the slightest bit curious about
0:32:10 > 0:32:14- what happened in those 17 minutes? - You know, maybe this is a good time
0:32:14 > 0:32:17to stop the testing, you know.
0:32:17 > 0:32:20Ryan's looking good and let's not push it.
0:32:20 > 0:32:23What do you think?
0:32:23 > 0:32:26I think it's really important to be consistent.
0:32:28 > 0:32:31All right.
0:32:32 > 0:32:37- I was just thinking it's too much for you.- I'm fine, I can do it.
0:32:48 > 0:32:51You didn't take her to the beach house, did you?
0:32:54 > 0:32:57Of course not.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05CAR STEREO # Wrapped around each other
0:33:05 > 0:33:09# Trying so hard to stay warm
0:33:09 > 0:33:14# That first cold winter together
0:33:15 > 0:33:19# Lying in each other's arms
0:33:20 > 0:33:23# Watching those old movies... #
0:33:23 > 0:33:27Man, this is a great song.
0:33:29 > 0:33:33Has anybody ever made love to this song?
0:33:33 > 0:33:38- Mom has, she's laughing. - # You were my leading lady
0:33:38 > 0:33:40# We had it all
0:33:42 > 0:33:45# Just like Bogey and Bacall
0:33:47 > 0:33:50# Starring in our own late, late show... #
0:34:07 > 0:34:10Am I sitting on his bed?
0:34:10 > 0:34:11Yeah.
0:34:11 > 0:34:14It's creepy.
0:34:16 > 0:34:19- Do you guys get along? - Er...yeah.
0:34:19 > 0:34:22I mean, we did when we were little.
0:34:22 > 0:34:26- My mom says I followed him around all the time.- He is really cute.
0:34:26 > 0:34:30My mom thinks he was the greatest thing that ever lived, but, er,
0:34:30 > 0:34:33he actually could be a real cocksucker when he wanted to.
0:34:33 > 0:34:37He won a lot of shit.
0:34:37 > 0:34:40Yeah. Yeah, he did.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43You probably would've wanted to date him.
0:34:43 > 0:34:48- No.- Yeah, you would have. Trust me. He had that effect on people.
0:34:48 > 0:34:51I think my mom even wanted to date him sometimes.
0:34:53 > 0:34:56- What about you? - What about me?
0:34:56 > 0:34:58Who wants to date you?
0:35:00 > 0:35:02I don't know.
0:35:02 > 0:35:05Er, you maybe.
0:35:07 > 0:35:09Maybe.
0:35:10 > 0:35:13- LAUGHS - You won't win!
0:35:13 > 0:35:16Gonna beat you down there!
0:35:32 > 0:35:34Hi, Grace.
0:35:34 > 0:35:37- Do you have a minute? - Er, sure.
0:35:39 > 0:35:42Er, I brought a book.
0:35:42 > 0:35:44I have this baby book.
0:35:44 > 0:35:47There are so many questions I don't know the answers to.
0:35:47 > 0:35:52So, I was hoping you might like to help me fill it out?
0:35:52 > 0:35:55- Is now a bad time? - Fine. What do you need?
0:35:55 > 0:35:57Um...
0:35:57 > 0:35:59Let's see.
0:35:59 > 0:36:03Er, his name. How did you come up with Bennett's name?
0:36:03 > 0:36:06- Tony Bennett. - The singer?
0:36:06 > 0:36:09- Mmm. - Oh.
0:36:12 > 0:36:16I'm having a really hard time thinking of baby names.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21Allen and I couldn't agree on the girl's name.
0:36:21 > 0:36:25- I wanted Ruby and he wanted something more traditional.- Ruby.
0:36:25 > 0:36:27That's pretty.
0:36:27 > 0:36:31- So, I hope that helps you out. - Do you wanna feel?
0:36:31 > 0:36:34- Aren't you gonna go swimming? - He kicks when he hears your voice.
0:36:34 > 0:36:37- Feel. - I'm fine. Thanks.
0:36:37 > 0:36:39Please.
0:36:51 > 0:36:54- It's strong. - Yeah.
0:36:56 > 0:36:59Again.
0:37:02 > 0:37:04I never thought I'd get pregnant.
0:37:04 > 0:37:09I didn't think you could the first time. Who has that kind of luck?
0:37:11 > 0:37:14- Think it was Bennett's first time? - Yeah, I think so.
0:37:22 > 0:37:26Funny, isn't it, how you're the only one who'll talk about him with me?
0:37:26 > 0:37:30I'd love to, more than anything. I have so many questions.
0:37:32 > 0:37:34I think you should go swimming.
0:37:35 > 0:37:39- I'm Bennett. - It's nice to meet you, Bennett.
0:37:39 > 0:37:41You, too.
0:37:43 > 0:37:46- OK.- Hey, wait. Where you going to college?
0:37:46 > 0:37:49- Er, Barnard. You? - I thought you were going to NYU.
0:37:49 > 0:37:52- No, I'm going to Barnard, they gave me a scholarship.- Great.
0:37:52 > 0:37:55Yeah, I'm going to Berkeley. No scholarship.
0:37:55 > 0:37:57Yeah!
0:38:02 > 0:38:07- I have to go to work cos I'm always really late, so...- All right, OK.
0:38:07 > 0:38:09Please don't go.
0:38:09 > 0:38:13It's taken me a year to get the courage to talk to you.
0:38:13 > 0:38:15Please don't go.
0:38:15 > 0:38:18You've waited till 3.15 on the last day of school?
0:38:20 > 0:38:23Right. I never said I had good timing.
0:38:25 > 0:38:28- I have to go to work. - Er, you know, can I maybe come...
0:38:28 > 0:38:31- Can I come with you? - LAUGHS
0:38:31 > 0:38:34- Yeah. - I'm sorry.
0:38:34 > 0:38:36- Yeah. - Yeah? Sure?
0:38:36 > 0:38:37Yeah.
0:39:16 > 0:39:19Ryan!
0:39:19 > 0:39:22- TRIES TO WHISTLE - Ry-Ryan?!
0:39:22 > 0:39:26- Ryan! Ryan! - WHISTLES
0:39:26 > 0:39:29There's strong currents out there! Come outta the water!
0:39:29 > 0:39:32- What?! - Don't question me!
0:39:32 > 0:39:36- Don't! Just come outta the water now!- I know how to swim.
0:39:36 > 0:39:41Goddammit, come out now! Right now and I mean it!
0:39:41 > 0:39:45Do you understand me?! Come out, please!
0:39:45 > 0:39:48Goddammit! Come out now!
0:40:03 > 0:40:07- What are you doing? Ryan, listen to me.- I know how to swim.
0:40:21 > 0:40:22Hey.
0:40:23 > 0:40:26- Oh, hi. Hi. - Hi.
0:40:27 > 0:40:29Did you swim?
0:40:29 > 0:40:32Yeah... I did.
0:40:32 > 0:40:35It was, er, good. It was good.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38A bit cold, but it was good.
0:40:38 > 0:40:41You OK?
0:40:41 > 0:40:44Yeah, I'm fine. I'm OK!
0:40:45 > 0:40:47Just fine.
0:40:47 > 0:40:50- Nothing like an ocean breeze, you know?- I know.
0:40:50 > 0:40:53I always wanted to live by the ocean.
0:40:53 > 0:40:57- My mom thought it was too close to the moon.- That's a good one.
0:40:57 > 0:41:00- Doesn't make any sense. - Not really.
0:41:00 > 0:41:05- Your mother is welcome to stay with us if she wants.- That wouldn't work.
0:41:05 > 0:41:07My mom is not really sane.
0:41:07 > 0:41:11That wouldn't scare anyone in our house.
0:41:11 > 0:41:15The truth is, I haven't told her I'm pregnant.
0:41:18 > 0:41:20Why not?
0:41:20 > 0:41:25Because she'll tell me I've chosen the wrong path.
0:41:25 > 0:41:27I don't want to hear that.
0:41:27 > 0:41:30I don't think you've chosen the wrong path.
0:41:30 > 0:41:33I'm not sure why you chose it but I'm not sorry you did.
0:41:33 > 0:41:37- I know there are other options. - We'd have supported you either way.
0:41:37 > 0:41:39- I'm not against any of them. - Of course not.
0:41:39 > 0:41:42- I just... I don't know. - You don't have to.
0:41:42 > 0:41:47- No, I do know... - Come here. You don't have to know.
0:41:47 > 0:41:52You don't have to know. We can talk about this at another time.
0:41:52 > 0:41:54Should we catch a movie?
0:42:06 > 0:42:08Ryan?
0:42:08 > 0:42:10Allen?
0:42:19 > 0:42:23- Do you want to see my only party trick?- Sure.
0:42:23 > 0:42:26Hold that.
0:42:32 > 0:42:35Look at that. That's good.
0:42:35 > 0:42:40I've never done that at a party. I don't know how it comes up.
0:42:40 > 0:42:43Do you have any party tricks?
0:42:46 > 0:42:50I don't know if it counts but I never forget peoples' numbers.
0:42:50 > 0:42:53I...tend to memorise numbers.
0:42:53 > 0:42:56What are my numbers?
0:42:57 > 0:43:02Well, you have 18 years, 216 months, 364 weeks.
0:43:02 > 0:43:0625,920 days.
0:43:06 > 0:43:09311,040 hours.
0:43:11 > 0:43:14You came to our doorstep on...
0:43:14 > 0:43:198/14, 2008, at 4:30pm.
0:43:19 > 0:43:22Your due date is 2/12/2009.
0:43:22 > 0:43:26Which leaves 119 more days.
0:43:26 > 0:43:292,136 hours.
0:43:29 > 0:43:33128,160 minutes.
0:43:36 > 0:43:39And you have two heartbeats.
0:43:39 > 0:43:43As I get to know you I'll tell you more.
0:43:46 > 0:43:48That's a much better party trick.
0:44:06 > 0:44:08Jesus Christ!
0:44:11 > 0:44:15- What happened? Where's Grace? - She's fine.- My son?- Upstairs.
0:44:15 > 0:44:20- What happened?- Your wife had a difficult time at a store.
0:44:20 > 0:44:24- She's out the back?- Yes. - Thank you. This is Rose.
0:44:31 > 0:44:35- You all right? - I called a taxi.
0:44:35 > 0:44:38- Why didn't you call me? - Because your phone was off.
0:44:39 > 0:44:42I'm sorry. I was at the movies.
0:44:44 > 0:44:48- You went to the movies? - Yes, with Rose.
0:44:48 > 0:44:51It was... It was nice to get out.
0:44:56 > 0:45:01- How could you turn your phone off? - It was only a couple of hours.
0:45:01 > 0:45:05Anything can happen in a couple of hours. Anything.
0:45:06 > 0:45:08What happened at the grocery store?
0:45:08 > 0:45:12So was it a funny movie. I mean, did you laugh?
0:45:12 > 0:45:15- Or was it sad, did you cry? - Ouch.
0:45:15 > 0:45:18- God, I can't stand that... - Ouch.
0:45:18 > 0:45:21Really. I'm warning you, don't...
0:45:21 > 0:45:23I just wanna know what happened!
0:45:23 > 0:45:26I've got an idea. Why don't you and Rose
0:45:26 > 0:45:29go off to Paris or Rome, or somewhere romantic,
0:45:29 > 0:45:33and get a vacation from all this death?
0:45:33 > 0:45:37- Hey, that's not fair. - You know what's not fair?
0:45:37 > 0:45:41It's not fair that you can go to the movies with her
0:45:41 > 0:45:46and I can't even pass Bennett's favourite cereal.
0:45:46 > 0:45:51- Don't do this. Just don't... - Allen!
0:45:51 > 0:45:54- Goddammit! - Allen!
0:45:54 > 0:45:57Allen! What are you...
0:46:01 > 0:46:05I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
0:46:13 > 0:46:16I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
0:46:23 > 0:46:27I'm so sorry. I really am sorry.
0:46:32 > 0:46:34I love you.
0:46:35 > 0:46:38I love you.
0:46:40 > 0:46:44Grace, I love you and no-one else, do you understand me?
0:47:41 > 0:47:46I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I was gone so long. But I'm back now.
0:47:46 > 0:47:49I know, wonderful, look.
0:47:49 > 0:47:53They can't even follow the simplest instructions. How many times...
0:47:53 > 0:47:59have I told them that you need the light? Enough of that. Let's read.
0:47:59 > 0:48:03Ellison again. I don't remember where we are.
0:48:03 > 0:48:07Is it the seventh or eighth chapter?
0:48:07 > 0:48:10Let's see. Eighth chapter.
0:48:10 > 0:48:16We're going to finish this summer reading list, which is a first.
0:48:16 > 0:48:20The high school is much more boring than the college.
0:48:20 > 0:48:23OK, where were we? Let's see.
0:48:23 > 0:48:25"He started toward me as in a dream.
0:48:25 > 0:48:29"Trembling like the needle of one of the gauges...his voice shrieking.
0:48:29 > 0:48:32"I stared. Something seemed to have gone wrong.
0:48:32 > 0:48:36"My reflexes..."
0:48:36 > 0:48:39You know...
0:48:39 > 0:48:42Allen, he hasn't always been like this.
0:48:42 > 0:48:47He's actually a very kind man. You would see that if you met him.
0:48:47 > 0:48:53He's never loved anyone less than he should. Never.
0:48:56 > 0:48:58I want you to know that.
0:49:06 > 0:49:09It's just a phase. A phase we're going through.
0:49:09 > 0:49:11Just like any other...
0:49:11 > 0:49:15- "What's the matter, I stammered..." - DOOR BANGS
0:49:15 > 0:49:18- He's all yours. - What's going on? Wait? What...
0:49:18 > 0:49:21- Mr Walker's being moved. - What? Where? Why?
0:49:21 > 0:49:24Mr Walker has warrants out for his arrest.
0:49:24 > 0:49:27We're taking him to County Hospital where there's security.
0:49:27 > 0:49:28- There must be a mistake. - No mistake.
0:49:28 > 0:49:33- What about his things? - He's not going to need his things.
0:49:33 > 0:49:37- He'll be terrified!- What do you think he will add to your life?
0:49:37 > 0:49:42The minute he wakes up, if he wakes up, he's being shipped to Rikers.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44Are you gonna visit him there, too?
0:50:11 > 0:50:13HE SIGHS
0:50:29 > 0:50:33I think Grace might be having an affair.
0:50:34 > 0:50:39- No.- I wouldn't blame her if she was. - I don't think she would do that.
0:50:43 > 0:50:45I did.
0:50:46 > 0:50:48I had one.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53HE SIGHS
0:50:55 > 0:50:58I needed to know that she loved me.
0:50:59 > 0:51:03Our entire married life, I've always felt like...
0:51:04 > 0:51:07..we were on our first date.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15I never deserved her.
0:51:15 > 0:51:17Never.
0:51:24 > 0:51:27Do you wanna go to a party with me? HE LAUGHS
0:51:28 > 0:51:31There's three kegs.
0:51:31 > 0:51:33HE LAUGHS
0:51:33 > 0:51:36LOUD DISCO MUSIC
0:51:38 > 0:51:41- I don't think I'm dressed for this. - Don't worry.
0:51:41 > 0:51:44These people are pretty non-judgemental.
0:51:44 > 0:51:47LOUD CHATTER
0:51:47 > 0:51:50Oh, my God! You're here!
0:51:50 > 0:51:53I didn't think it was possible for you to stretch like that.
0:51:53 > 0:51:57- Shea, this is Allen. Allen, this is Shea.- Hi. How are you?
0:51:57 > 0:52:00Hi. Nice to meet you. Wait. Did you guys realise
0:52:00 > 0:52:05this is a "wear something you'd never be caught dead in" party?
0:52:05 > 0:52:08No. But I'm wearing Grace's old maternity clothes, so that works out.
0:52:08 > 0:52:13- And you?- This is it.- Well, you're actually kinda perfect.
0:52:13 > 0:52:16Come on in!
0:52:17 > 0:52:21- Oh, boy. - Right on!
0:52:21 > 0:52:24Oh.
0:52:24 > 0:52:27I wouldn't be caught dead naked!
0:52:27 > 0:52:30Yeah!
0:52:30 > 0:52:33Hey, erm, are you a pregnant teen or something?
0:52:33 > 0:52:36Yeah, I am.
0:52:36 > 0:52:40Do you live under a freeway and are gonna have a homeless baby
0:52:40 > 0:52:45- and use it to raise more money?- No, I'm just a regular pregnant teen.
0:52:45 > 0:52:50Right on! I wouldn't be caught dead having a baby!
0:52:51 > 0:52:54Hey, is it OK if I just come a little closer
0:52:54 > 0:52:58and sit next to you guys for a second? I gotta tell you something.
0:53:03 > 0:53:06Dude, I'm on acid.
0:53:06 > 0:53:11I'm tripping, y'all. That's the way Britney Spears would say it.
0:53:11 > 0:53:13She'd be like, "I'm tripping, y'all".
0:53:13 > 0:53:16- We can go somewhere else. - Yeah.- No, wait. Wait. Stay.
0:53:16 > 0:53:20Say something familiar, man, please. Just say something familiar.
0:53:20 > 0:53:22I'm seeing too many ghosts.
0:53:25 > 0:53:28- French fries. - Yeah!
0:53:28 > 0:53:31- Mr Bubble. - Yeah!
0:53:34 > 0:53:37- Monkeys? - The ones that rip your balls off
0:53:37 > 0:53:40for not sharing birthday cake, or the nice ones?
0:53:40 > 0:53:44- No, the nice ones. - Yeah.
0:53:44 > 0:53:46SHE LAUGHS
0:53:46 > 0:53:49LOUD DISCO MUSIC
0:53:57 > 0:54:01- Well, that's... - LAUGHTER
0:54:01 > 0:54:05- Go, baby, go. - Yeah! Let's go.
0:54:07 > 0:54:09Bye.
0:54:11 > 0:54:14- What did you do? - People signed my belly.
0:54:14 > 0:54:17- Oh. - Seemed sweet at the time.
0:54:17 > 0:54:21"Have a great summer. Good luck with the new keg."
0:54:21 > 0:54:25I was never into yearbooks.
0:54:25 > 0:54:29- Do you wanna sign? - Erm...all right.
0:54:49 > 0:54:53Don't you think it might be easier if you talked about him with Grace?
0:54:58 > 0:55:01Flood gates.
0:55:02 > 0:55:05I don't know what I'd do if they opened.
0:55:06 > 0:55:08I'll talk about someone.
0:55:08 > 0:55:10But it'll really be him.
0:55:12 > 0:55:16- Why would you do that?- Because there are things I need to tell you.
0:55:19 > 0:55:21- OK. - OK.
0:55:22 > 0:55:25I knew this boy...
0:55:25 > 0:55:28who was really wonderful to me.
0:55:28 > 0:55:32- Is that OK? - Yes.
0:55:32 > 0:55:36The first time I saw him was in freshman English.
0:55:36 > 0:55:39He wore a baseball hat on the first day of school
0:55:39 > 0:55:43and our teacher made him take it off and his hair was all pasted
0:55:43 > 0:55:48on top of his head. And he smiled at me while he tried to fix it.
0:55:48 > 0:55:51And we watched each other after that.
0:55:52 > 0:55:54And I started to feel like I knew him.
0:55:55 > 0:55:59I looked at his yearbook picture so often, I knew his face by heart.
0:55:59 > 0:56:05Our senior year, I took piano and he had soccer.
0:56:05 > 0:56:09So we would pass each other every day after school in the exact same spot.
0:56:10 > 0:56:15And it became something I looked forward to.
0:56:15 > 0:56:18So much so that I could tell you all the days he was absent
0:56:18 > 0:56:21because those were the days that I was disappointed.
0:56:21 > 0:56:26And sometimes he would look at me. Sometimes he would turn away.
0:56:27 > 0:56:30And sometimes it would be so intense
0:56:30 > 0:56:34that we'd start looking at each other from the very beginning of the steps.
0:56:36 > 0:56:39And then, on the last day,
0:56:39 > 0:56:42he talked to me.
0:56:43 > 0:56:47And everything he said was exactly how I pictured it would be.
0:56:49 > 0:56:52And he felt the way he felt in my dreams
0:56:52 > 0:56:54and I thought everything was happening
0:56:54 > 0:56:57exactly the way it was supposed to.
0:57:00 > 0:57:03And I was the happiest I've ever been.
0:57:03 > 0:57:06Happy and scared all at the same time.
0:57:08 > 0:57:13And if he had signed my belly, he'd have written something comforting.
0:57:17 > 0:57:23That's one of the most difficult integrals...I've ever solved.
0:57:25 > 0:57:27Took me three years to do it.
0:57:29 > 0:57:32And I was in love with him.
0:57:35 > 0:57:38That's why I'm keeping this baby.
0:57:38 > 0:57:41I was in love with him for four years.
0:57:43 > 0:57:46I barely knew him,
0:57:46 > 0:57:49but everything... was exactly how I imagined it,
0:57:49 > 0:57:53everything was... just how I pictured it.
0:57:54 > 0:57:57And I had to keep this baby.
0:57:59 > 0:58:02I think he was the love of my life.
0:58:28 > 0:58:31I'm very tired.
0:58:34 > 0:58:37I can't fight it any more.
0:58:41 > 0:58:44I'm so tired.
0:59:34 > 0:59:38- That was a good story. - Thanks.
0:59:38 > 0:59:41No, I mean, I don't mean it that way. I mean it was good to hear.
0:59:41 > 0:59:44Not good for you, but good for me, I guess.
0:59:46 > 0:59:50- So what was your brother's funeral like?- I don't remember.
0:59:50 > 0:59:53- It's all just a blur? - No, I really don't remember.
0:59:53 > 0:59:57- I was too fucked up. - I didn't know you get high.
0:59:57 > 1:00:00I don't. My mom tests me every two weeks.
1:00:00 > 1:00:05It's pretty much the only thing they do that proves they know I'm alive.
1:00:06 > 1:00:09- Need a ride home? - Yeah, sure.
1:00:11 > 1:00:16Baby is head down, which means you're getting very close.
1:00:17 > 1:00:20How are you feeling, Mr Brewer?
1:00:20 > 1:00:23You look like you can use some rest.
1:00:23 > 1:00:26Oh, I'm fine. Thank you.
1:00:27 > 1:00:32- How's the baby?- Just where we want her to be right now.
1:00:32 > 1:00:35- It's a girl? - I'm sorry, I thought you knew.
1:00:35 > 1:00:40- It's a girl? - Oh, congratulations!
1:00:40 > 1:00:44- Is she healthy?- Doesn't get any stronger than that heartbeat.
1:00:44 > 1:00:48- You've taken really good care of her.- Oh, this is wonderful.
1:00:50 > 1:00:53This is wonderful.
1:00:54 > 1:00:56Excuse me.
1:00:57 > 1:00:59It's wonderful.
1:00:59 > 1:01:03OK, I'll be right back. A girl.
1:01:17 > 1:01:20- What is wrong with you? - I just need a minute.
1:01:20 > 1:01:23- So, take a minute. I'm going back in.- No...
1:01:24 > 1:01:29I don't want this baby, Allen. I don't care if I sound horrible.
1:01:29 > 1:01:31- You sound horrible. - If Bennett were alive,
1:01:31 > 1:01:34she never would have kept it. I can't be grateful.
1:01:34 > 1:01:37- You don't have to.- I won't. - Don't do anything.
1:01:37 > 1:01:40I don't care any more.
1:01:40 > 1:01:43Don't I have the right to tell you how I'm feeling?
1:01:43 > 1:01:46Not when everything you say is sounding so ugly.
1:01:46 > 1:01:50- Right, losing a child is ugly. - You don't have a patent on grief.
1:01:50 > 1:01:54- You're not the only one. Other people grieve.- You don't.
1:01:54 > 1:01:57- You haven't shed a tear once. - I'm gonna go back in.
1:01:57 > 1:02:00Listen, somebody has to stand strong, somebody has to be together.
1:02:00 > 1:02:03If I fall apart, everything goes to hell.
1:02:03 > 1:02:06I am so sorry that I can't handle my grief
1:02:06 > 1:02:10- and I don't treat this family like an army.- It's not all about you.
1:02:10 > 1:02:13There are people in our lives who need our attention.
1:02:13 > 1:02:16You don't give a puppy to someone who's just lost their dog.
1:02:16 > 1:02:20- You just don't do that. - So what, give her back? Hm?
1:02:20 > 1:02:24- Give her 20 bucks? Wish her luck? - Treating her like she's a gift
1:02:24 > 1:02:28like it makes it OK that our son is gone, it doesn't soften the blow.
1:02:28 > 1:02:30She does for me.
1:02:34 > 1:02:37Oh, I'm so glad for you. I'm so glad that the girl
1:02:37 > 1:02:40that is the reason our son is dead softens the blow for you.
1:02:40 > 1:02:44- That's not fair.- What was he doing in the middle of the road?
1:02:44 > 1:02:47If he's been with his friends, with us, would he have been?
1:02:47 > 1:02:50- Answer me that. - You don't know.
1:02:50 > 1:02:53You haven't made the slightest effort to get to know this girl.
1:02:53 > 1:02:56I don't want to get to know her. Why can't you understand?
1:02:56 > 1:03:01It should have been her that died that night, it should have been her!
1:03:19 > 1:03:21DOORBELL RINGS
1:03:28 > 1:03:30Hello?
1:03:31 > 1:03:33- Hi. - Can I help you?
1:03:33 > 1:03:36Yeah. Ashley left this scarf in my car.
1:03:36 > 1:03:39Um... Who are you?
1:03:39 > 1:03:41I'm Amy. I live here.
1:03:41 > 1:03:43Amy.
1:03:43 > 1:03:45Yeah.
1:03:46 > 1:03:49Ashley's older sister Amy?
1:03:51 > 1:03:55What'd she tell you? I grabbed a live wire?
1:03:55 > 1:03:58Fell overboard on our family cruise? What'd you tell him, freak?
1:03:58 > 1:04:00- Ryan.- I'm telling Mom. - I hate you!
1:04:00 > 1:04:02- Freak. - Ryan!
1:04:02 > 1:04:06Ryan, please wait. I can explain! Ryan, please, just listen!
1:04:06 > 1:04:09They don't pay attention to me. I might as well be dead!
1:04:09 > 1:04:12- You have no idea what it's like. - I do. I'm so sorry!
1:04:12 > 1:04:15- You're a LIAR! That's what you are. - It's all bad, trust me.
1:04:15 > 1:04:18You have no idea what it's like!
1:04:18 > 1:04:23Say it! Say you have no idea what it's like.
1:04:23 > 1:04:25I have no idea.
1:04:25 > 1:04:28Open the gate. Open the fucking gate!
1:04:28 > 1:04:31- Ryan, I just wanted you to like me. - Fuck you!
1:04:36 > 1:04:37Hello?
1:04:40 > 1:04:42Hello?!
1:05:01 > 1:05:06MUSIC: "Tiger Mountain Peasant Song" by The Fleet Foxes
1:05:18 > 1:05:22# Wanderers this morning came by... #
1:05:24 > 1:05:27- What have you done? - I called Gloria.
1:05:27 > 1:05:29You said we were gonna talk about it.
1:05:29 > 1:05:33I couldn't live with the house so neglected. Come on, please. Hey!
1:05:33 > 1:05:37- What is wrong with you?! - How could you do this? Whoa!
1:05:37 > 1:05:40What is this? You washed his shirt?!
1:05:40 > 1:05:44- You're fired!- Don't do this! Christ! Stop it! Go home.
1:05:44 > 1:05:46Grace!
1:05:46 > 1:05:50- You've erased him. - You're acting like a child.
1:05:50 > 1:05:52I've done nothing like that at all.
1:05:52 > 1:05:55I wanted to be able to see his pictures and to smell him
1:05:55 > 1:05:57- and now he's gone! - He's here.
1:05:57 > 1:06:01- He isn't here, he's dead! He's gone! - I know that, Goddamn it!
1:06:01 > 1:06:05Don't! There's nothing to hold on to. Don't you understand that?
1:06:05 > 1:06:08I haven't seen you shed one tear.
1:06:08 > 1:06:13What is wrong with you?! Can't you just cry one tear?!
1:06:13 > 1:06:15# Dear shadow
1:06:15 > 1:06:18# Alive and well
1:06:18 > 1:06:21# How can the body die?
1:06:21 > 1:06:26# You tell me everything
1:06:26 > 1:06:28- # Anything - Allen?
1:06:28 > 1:06:30- # True - Oh, my God.
1:06:31 > 1:06:34Allen? I'm sorry.
1:06:34 > 1:06:39# Into town one morning I went... #
1:06:39 > 1:06:41Oh, my God, Allen.
1:06:50 > 1:06:52Mrs Brewer?
1:06:59 > 1:07:03He had all the symptoms of a heart attack. Difficulty breathing,
1:07:03 > 1:07:07tightness in his chest, heartbeat changes, dizziness.
1:07:07 > 1:07:11- But it wasn't a heart attack?- Not as far as we can tell. EKG looks normal.
1:07:11 > 1:07:14- What was it?- His body is under an incredible amount of stress.
1:07:14 > 1:07:17He has high blood pressure, his sinuses have led to an infection,
1:07:17 > 1:07:20he's suffering from sleep deprivation.
1:07:20 > 1:07:24- But it was not a heart attack? - Sometimes patients manifest symptoms
1:07:24 > 1:07:27because it's easier to feel physical pain than emotional.
1:07:50 > 1:07:53Ryan. I wasn't expecting you.
1:07:53 > 1:07:55Can I share?
1:07:55 > 1:07:59My, my, er, story. My... Whatever it is you people do here.
1:07:59 > 1:08:03- Yes, of course.- Where do I start? Where do you want me to start?
1:08:03 > 1:08:06- You start wherever you like. - Can I say my brother's an asshole?
1:08:06 > 1:08:10- You can say whatever you want.- OK, my brother is an asshole, right,
1:08:10 > 1:08:14and now he's some fucking martyr god now that he's dead. He's dead.
1:08:14 > 1:08:17- He's dead, right?- Did you not get a chance to see the body?
1:08:17 > 1:08:20I, um, no, I was too fucked up.
1:08:20 > 1:08:24My mom came in to get me and I couldn't even move my head
1:08:24 > 1:08:28so I didn't get to say goodbye. I just, er, laid there in my bed
1:08:28 > 1:08:31thinking about the attention he was gonna get when he came home
1:08:31 > 1:08:34and how his stupid friends were gonna sign his cast
1:08:34 > 1:08:36and how he'd probably get a pity lay out of it.
1:08:36 > 1:08:40So, um, I didn't get to say goodbye.
1:08:41 > 1:08:44And, er, you know, the thing was about Bennett,
1:08:44 > 1:08:46um...
1:08:47 > 1:08:50The thing was...he, er...
1:08:59 > 1:09:02He was never an asshole.
1:09:05 > 1:09:07He was actually really cool to me.
1:09:09 > 1:09:13And he could have ratted me out a thousand times and he never did.
1:09:14 > 1:09:18Me and him used to do all kinds of fun shit together
1:09:18 > 1:09:21and the truth is I wanna be just like him.
1:09:21 > 1:09:23I loved him more than anything.
1:09:26 > 1:09:30And I was too fucked up to say goodbye.
1:09:32 > 1:09:35And in the end that's all I ever gave him.
1:09:35 > 1:09:38It was nothing. Do you know how that feels,
1:09:38 > 1:09:42to have your one shot... and fuckin' just blow it?
1:09:44 > 1:09:47It's gone. I'll never get that chance again.
1:09:51 > 1:09:54I just miss him so much.
1:10:11 > 1:10:16- Hey, Mrs Brewer.- He woke up? - Yesterday morning.
1:10:16 > 1:10:20Nobody called me. Is he all right?
1:10:20 > 1:10:24He seems OK. He's getting transferred to Rikers.
1:10:24 > 1:10:28- Can I talk to him? - Make it quick.
1:10:35 > 1:10:38Hello.
1:10:38 > 1:10:42I'm Grace.
1:10:42 > 1:10:45Brewer. Bennett's mother.
1:10:45 > 1:10:48The boy in that car?
1:10:50 > 1:10:54- So?- So you were the last person to see my son alive.
1:10:54 > 1:10:58I had the green. I'm gonna sue your whole family.
1:10:58 > 1:11:00You remember?
1:11:06 > 1:11:11- Are you feeling better?- Does it look like I'm feeling better?
1:11:14 > 1:11:17I saw the surveillance video
1:11:17 > 1:11:20and it looks like you spoke to my son,
1:11:20 > 1:11:23like you comforted him after the accident.
1:11:23 > 1:11:26I didn't comfort anybody.
1:11:26 > 1:11:29Now, I got some other shit on my mind.
1:11:30 > 1:11:35- Do you remember if he was in pain? - I'm not doing this, lady.
1:11:35 > 1:11:39- I have waited a long time to talk to you. Please.- Just get out.
1:11:39 > 1:11:43- I can't.- Get out! - I can't.
1:11:43 > 1:11:48He didn't die a hero or anything, if that's what you wanna hear.
1:11:48 > 1:11:50It isn't.
1:11:58 > 1:12:03I don't know. It happened. It happened fast.
1:12:04 > 1:12:06He asked me if it was his fault.
1:12:06 > 1:12:11- And you told him it wasn't? - I told him not to worry.
1:12:12 > 1:12:14And what else?
1:12:15 > 1:12:19- You really want to know this, lady? - More than anything.
1:12:23 > 1:12:25His body...
1:12:25 > 1:12:30was caught in between the front end of my truck and his door.
1:12:31 > 1:12:34There was so much crushed metal
1:12:34 > 1:12:39I don't know, maybe it was holding him together.
1:12:39 > 1:12:44I didn't want to move him. I don't think I could, even if I tried.
1:12:45 > 1:12:49His right arm was so far behind his body
1:12:49 > 1:12:54it looked like it wasn't even attached.
1:12:54 > 1:12:57I've never seen anything like it.
1:12:57 > 1:13:01I had to climb out over the top of my truck to get to him.
1:13:04 > 1:13:09I don't think he was in pain. I just... I think he was cold.
1:13:09 > 1:13:14- And then you gave him your jacket? - Yeah. It didn't make it any better.
1:13:14 > 1:13:19It was, erm...the blood.
1:13:19 > 1:13:23- The blood was making him cold. - How much blood?
1:13:26 > 1:13:28How much?
1:13:28 > 1:13:32More than, er, I've ever seen.
1:13:35 > 1:13:38Was he scared?
1:13:38 > 1:13:43Er...I don't know. I mean, there was, er...
1:13:43 > 1:13:48fluid everywhere, but a bunch of stuff coming out of him.
1:13:48 > 1:13:53He might have been crying, I guess. I don't know.
1:13:53 > 1:13:58Was he crying because he was in pain or because he was scared?
1:13:58 > 1:14:03- What's the difference? - Which one was it?- Scared. I guess.
1:14:06 > 1:14:11Do you think he knew he was dying? Did he know he was dying?
1:14:11 > 1:14:14He knew it was bad.
1:14:14 > 1:14:18But it's not like we were talking about God or anything.
1:14:18 > 1:14:22I just told him, "You listen for those sirens."
1:14:22 > 1:14:26- "Once you hear the siren everything will be all right". - SHE SOBS
1:14:27 > 1:14:31He needed me and I wasn't there, I should have been there
1:14:31 > 1:14:36to make sure that he wasn't afraid and tell him that I loved him
1:14:36 > 1:14:39- and hold him... - Hey, hey, hey.
1:14:39 > 1:14:41Hey, hey.
1:14:41 > 1:14:43Hey, hey. Er...
1:14:43 > 1:14:45You want some water or something?
1:14:45 > 1:14:50He needed me and.... He called out for me but I wasn't even there.
1:14:50 > 1:14:54He didn't call for you. He called out for her over and over.
1:14:54 > 1:14:57That, er, girl in his car.
1:14:59 > 1:15:02- Rose? - Rose! All he cared about was Rose.
1:15:02 > 1:15:06If she was hurt, if she was in pain. If she was asking for him.
1:15:06 > 1:15:11He kept telling me, "You've gotta help her".
1:15:11 > 1:15:14But I thought she was dead.
1:15:14 > 1:15:17- He asked for Rose?- He even asked me to turn up the radio.
1:15:17 > 1:15:20This poor kid, he's got blood coming out his ears,
1:15:20 > 1:15:23he wanted her to hear this song that was playing.
1:15:23 > 1:15:26He thought she might like to hear it.
1:15:28 > 1:15:30I have to go.
1:15:40 > 1:15:44Relax, you can stay here as long as you want.
1:15:44 > 1:15:49And, Rose, I've called my mom from Women's Correctional Facilities,
1:15:49 > 1:15:51this is like tiny, I swear.
1:15:55 > 1:15:58Hi, Lydia?
1:15:58 > 1:16:02Hi, this is Shea. I'm Rose's friend from work.
1:16:02 > 1:16:05- Tell her I'm OK. - Rose absolutely is fine.
1:16:05 > 1:16:09She wants me to tell you something which...
1:16:09 > 1:16:13OK. Well, we're not gonna need a lot of your time, so...
1:16:13 > 1:16:15I didn't know.
1:16:15 > 1:16:19Er, she lost her job.
1:16:19 > 1:16:24And she only has 15 minutes left on the phone.
1:16:24 > 1:16:29I'm sorry to hear that, but Rose wants me to tell you something.
1:16:29 > 1:16:33Which is that she is pregnant.
1:16:33 > 1:16:35Yay.
1:16:35 > 1:16:39I'd say just three or four months.
1:16:39 > 1:16:43Yeah, she's keeping it. She put off Barnard for a year.
1:16:43 > 1:16:48Yeah, she's handling it like a total Republican.
1:16:48 > 1:16:51She wants you to know she is not scared
1:16:51 > 1:16:55and she's getting support from the father's family and...
1:16:55 > 1:17:01Erm, I don't know. I guess whatever she needs. OK...
1:17:01 > 1:17:04She wants me to ask you something.
1:17:04 > 1:17:08Tell her it's OK if she wants to come here.
1:17:08 > 1:17:13- Tell her it's fine. - Are you sure?- Yeah.
1:17:18 > 1:17:21What?
1:17:21 > 1:17:26She wants you to ask for ten thousand upfront.
1:17:26 > 1:17:30She says she'll help you if you get the ten thousand now.
1:17:30 > 1:17:32She thinks that's what you'll need.
1:17:40 > 1:17:44She seemed, like, really glad to hear you were doing OK.
1:17:44 > 1:17:47It's fine.
1:18:17 > 1:18:22- The doctor said you could go. - Yep.
1:18:22 > 1:18:24Good.
1:18:26 > 1:18:29You talked with Jordan Walker didn't you?
1:18:31 > 1:18:33Yes.
1:18:34 > 1:18:37What did you learn?
1:18:44 > 1:18:46Bennett loved her, didn't he?
1:18:53 > 1:18:55Oh, yes.
1:18:59 > 1:19:04I wanted him to call for me. Is that a terrible thing?
1:19:04 > 1:19:07I called for you.
1:19:07 > 1:19:10I called for you every day.
1:19:13 > 1:19:16I'm here now.
1:19:16 > 1:19:18Oh, my God...
1:19:18 > 1:19:21Oh, my God. My boy.
1:19:21 > 1:19:26My poor, poor boy.
1:19:26 > 1:19:28OK, it's all right. OK
1:19:31 > 1:19:35HE SOBS
1:19:39 > 1:19:44I know, I know. It's OK. It's OK. That's it.
1:19:44 > 1:19:49I wasn't there when he needed me most. I-I could have saved him!
1:19:49 > 1:19:52I could've saved him. I could've saved him!
1:19:52 > 1:19:56I had 17 minutes and I could've saved him.
1:19:56 > 1:20:02Look at me. Allen, you couldn't. It was a mistake. It was a mistake.
1:20:02 > 1:20:04He died on impact, he didn't suffer at all.
1:20:04 > 1:20:07You couldn't have done anything. He didn't suffer.
1:20:07 > 1:20:11There was no suffering. There was nothing you could have done to help.
1:20:11 > 1:20:14- Really. - Oh, Grace...
1:20:14 > 1:20:17Grace...
1:20:22 > 1:20:24- HE SIGHS - It's OK.
1:20:28 > 1:20:30We have to bring her home,
1:20:30 > 1:20:32- we have to. - OK.
1:20:57 > 1:21:01All the places she could have gone. I'm gonna look for her.
1:21:01 > 1:21:06- We'll go with you. OK? - I'm ready. I'm OK. Come on.
1:21:06 > 1:21:08Let's go.
1:21:08 > 1:21:10- Good work. - Well done.
1:21:21 > 1:21:23Shea!
1:21:25 > 1:21:27Hi. It's Allen Brewer here.
1:21:27 > 1:21:30- You WOULD be caught dead dressed like that.- I'm looking for Rose.
1:21:30 > 1:21:34- You lost her? - In a way.
1:21:34 > 1:21:37- I don't know where she is. - I'd like to find her,
1:21:37 > 1:21:41we're very worried, so, please, if you could tell us something.
1:21:41 > 1:21:43It's about time.
1:21:47 > 1:21:51Try the place where they crashed. She goes there in the afternoons.
1:22:18 > 1:22:21BUS BRAKES SCREECH
1:22:24 > 1:22:27Rose!
1:22:29 > 1:22:32- Rose! Wait! - Rose!
1:22:32 > 1:22:33- Rose! - Rose!
1:22:33 > 1:22:36CLASSICAL PIANO TUNE
1:22:41 > 1:22:43Don't worry, the baby is fine!
1:22:43 > 1:22:46- Rose, we were worried, OK?- Why? Why would you be worried about me?
1:22:46 > 1:22:50Because I'm reading old yearbooks to learn out about my baby's dad?
1:22:50 > 1:22:53Where you goin', huh? You're gonna miss her!
1:22:54 > 1:22:57Because the most disgusting stuff just came out of me on a bus?!
1:22:57 > 1:23:00- Did your water break? - I'm fine!
1:23:00 > 1:23:05Really wonderful progress, Rose. A beautiful way to end the year.
1:23:05 > 1:23:07We were concerned. You disappeared!
1:23:07 > 1:23:09I could do anything and this baby will be OK.
1:23:11 > 1:23:13Bennett!
1:23:13 > 1:23:16Let us take you to the hospital and if it's too soon,
1:23:16 > 1:23:18then, we'll take you home.
1:23:20 > 1:23:24I don't want to. I don't want my baby to grow up in your messed-up home.
1:23:24 > 1:23:28Am I supposed to raise her without ever talking about her father?
1:23:28 > 1:23:31Tell her not to mention his name near her grandfather
1:23:31 > 1:23:33because he hasn't acknowledged he's dead?
1:23:33 > 1:23:37Or worry that her grandmother will smother her in her sleep
1:23:37 > 1:23:40because she'd rather she didn't exist?
1:23:40 > 1:23:43Or that her uncle will leave urine samples next to her crib?!
1:23:44 > 1:23:46Sorry, that's not fair. I like you, Ryan.
1:23:47 > 1:23:49I like you too.
1:23:49 > 1:23:50Thank you.
1:23:50 > 1:23:55Look, I promise I won't smother her in her crib.
1:23:55 > 1:24:00I...know I wasn't very helpful to you in your situation
1:24:00 > 1:24:03and if I had to do it again, I would do it completely differently.
1:24:06 > 1:24:08Rose...
1:24:08 > 1:24:10Look...
1:24:12 > 1:24:14Once you have this baby, you'll understand
1:24:14 > 1:24:17the most horrible thing that can happen to a mother
1:24:17 > 1:24:18is to lose her child.
1:24:25 > 1:24:26I'm sorry...
1:24:28 > 1:24:30..for what happened between us.
1:24:32 > 1:24:34I really am.
1:24:35 > 1:24:37Please, Rose,
1:24:37 > 1:24:42give us a chance here. Just...get in the car with us.
1:24:42 > 1:24:44Please.
1:24:51 > 1:24:54I don't even know who he is.
1:24:54 > 1:24:57What do you wanna know? We'll tell you.
1:24:57 > 1:25:00I wanna know everything I would know if he was still alive.
1:25:00 > 1:25:03I want more memories of him.
1:25:06 > 1:25:08We'll tell you everything you want to know.
1:25:08 > 1:25:10We'll keep talking till the baby comes.
1:25:14 > 1:25:16There's a picture of Bennett on the track.
1:25:16 > 1:25:20Was he fast. Is my baby gonna be fast?
1:25:20 > 1:25:22Yes.
1:25:22 > 1:25:23How fast?
1:25:23 > 1:25:2750-second 400 metre fast.
1:25:27 > 1:25:30Wow.
1:25:35 > 1:25:38Agh...
1:25:39 > 1:25:43OK... OK.
1:25:43 > 1:25:48He was voted Best All-Around. Why did people like him so much?
1:25:50 > 1:25:52- Tell me! - Er...
1:25:52 > 1:25:54Because he was a nice guy.
1:25:54 > 1:25:57In third grade when his friend Jack got glasses,
1:25:57 > 1:26:01Bennett felt so bad that he took Allen's reading glasses. Remember?
1:26:01 > 1:26:04He wore them to school so Jack wouldn't be alone.
1:26:04 > 1:26:06Good. OK...
1:26:06 > 1:26:08Erm... Who's this girl he's with?
1:26:08 > 1:26:12That is his prom date. He only went with her cos she gave good head.
1:26:12 > 1:26:15- Ryan!- That's true. - That's good. That's information.
1:26:15 > 1:26:20She was a very smart girl. They studied English Lit at Oxford.
1:26:20 > 1:26:23- She gave good head.- Ryan... - It's true.- What else?
1:26:23 > 1:26:29He hated having his picture taken. He'd make this horrible face.
1:26:29 > 1:26:32- What was the face.- Oh, it was... - Show me the face!
1:26:33 > 1:26:36- Terrible. - He'd eat anything off his plate
1:26:36 > 1:26:39as long as it was separated. He'd take all the toppings off pizza
1:26:39 > 1:26:44- and he'd eat 'em in order. It was weird.- A little OCD,
1:26:44 > 1:26:48- but in a very sweet way, right? - Very sweet.- When he ate Cheerios,
1:26:48 > 1:26:51- he'd eat them in pairs so they weren't alone...- God, this hurts!
1:26:51 > 1:26:55- I used to give him shit for that all the time.- He never flossed
1:26:55 > 1:26:58but wore an enormous amount of cologne once he discovered it.
1:26:58 > 1:27:01- His room smelled like a men's magazine.- Ow!
1:27:01 > 1:27:03OK...
1:27:03 > 1:27:05It's happening.
1:27:06 > 1:27:08- Agh... - I know. It's all right.
1:27:08 > 1:27:10Bennett lived for eighteen years,
1:27:10 > 1:27:14three months, seven days, two hours, thirty six minutes.
1:27:14 > 1:27:17He broke six bones in his lifetime,
1:27:17 > 1:27:21had a 3.97 GPA, never had a girlfriend before he met you.
1:27:23 > 1:27:26His highest temperature was 104.3.
1:27:27 > 1:27:32And, er...he knew how to count before he said his first word.
1:27:32 > 1:27:33Which was?
1:27:33 > 1:27:36- Wow. - Wow.
1:27:36 > 1:27:38CHUCKLES
1:27:38 > 1:27:40Thank you.
1:27:42 > 1:27:45Thank you.
1:27:47 > 1:27:50You're doing great. Just keep breathing.
1:27:50 > 1:27:53That's it. Squeeze my hand if you have to.
1:27:53 > 1:27:56You're doing great. Just keep breathing.
1:27:58 > 1:28:02We're going to be there soon. That's a girl. You're doing great.
1:28:03 > 1:28:05It won't be long. Attagirl.
1:28:05 > 1:28:13# A lullaby keeps on playing I'm thinking it's a dream
1:28:15 > 1:28:19# Cos you miss those loving arms... #
1:28:24 > 1:28:26Her name is Ruby.
1:28:28 > 1:28:32# And you've got a good mind to pray
1:28:35 > 1:28:37# They say it's all part of his plan
1:28:37 > 1:28:43# But what if he's got slippery hands?
1:28:47 > 1:28:50# It's a sad face you're wearing
1:28:51 > 1:28:54# Like a burned-out sun
1:28:55 > 1:28:59# Cos you miss those loving arms
1:29:03 > 1:29:11# You'd think a grown-man would care about his bootlace undone?
1:29:11 > 1:29:15# But you just miss those loving arms
1:29:18 > 1:29:23# Yeah... You miss those loving arms
1:29:25 > 1:29:29# And you've got a good mind to pray
1:29:32 > 1:29:35# They say it's all part of his plan
1:29:35 > 1:29:40# But what if he's got slippery hands?
1:29:41 > 1:29:44# Well, goddamn...
1:29:44 > 1:29:47# You're a boy, not a man
1:29:49 > 1:29:53# When you miss those loving arms #
1:29:59 > 1:30:00Hey!
1:30:04 > 1:30:06Hi.
1:30:06 > 1:30:08Hi.
1:30:09 > 1:30:12BELL RINGS
1:30:37 > 1:30:41# Everybody wants to know you
1:30:41 > 1:30:46# They float all around your head like a mobile
1:30:46 > 1:30:50# Hell, you don't know what they're saying
1:30:50 > 1:30:57# Oh, but can't you tell you're a golden egg?
1:30:57 > 1:31:01# Of all the ways I said your name
1:31:01 > 1:31:06# A hundred times but now it's changed
1:31:06 > 1:31:11# And little things I didn't have
1:31:11 > 1:31:16# Are going off like bottle caps
1:31:16 > 1:31:21# Earthlight, catch a reflection
1:31:21 > 1:31:26# The cold night wants some attention
1:31:26 > 1:31:29# I give without thinking
1:31:30 > 1:31:33# That's the way it is now... #