0:00:49 > 0:00:54James Kimberly Griffith.
0:00:56 > 0:00:58See I...
0:01:00 > 0:01:02The thing about life is...
0:01:06 > 0:01:09Oh, what was I going to say?
0:01:09 > 0:01:14The thing about life is...
0:01:14 > 0:01:17LAUGHS
0:01:17 > 0:01:19Oh!
0:01:19 > 0:01:22LAUGHS
0:01:26 > 0:01:28I'm 29 today.
0:01:29 > 0:01:30Won't see 30.
0:01:33 > 0:01:37Other than that, I'm OK. Really.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39OK.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25My mate, Davy.
0:02:26 > 0:02:30He's been helping out since he was made redundant.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33He was head of a PR firm that...
0:02:33 > 0:02:36Jesus, I don't even know what they did.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44Thank God, my sister Chloe's got her girls.
0:02:44 > 0:02:46She's taking it pretty badly.
0:02:46 > 0:02:49Tries to hide it, but...
0:02:49 > 0:02:53- I just hate seeing it. - There are people arriving.
0:02:57 > 0:03:01Bill. Ah, he's so excited!
0:03:01 > 0:03:04I think he's just glad to be away from his girlfriend.
0:03:04 > 0:03:05And the TV job he hates.
0:03:07 > 0:03:12He brought a tree with him that he grew from seed.
0:03:12 > 0:03:15He's determined to plant it for me when we get there.
0:03:15 > 0:03:19Oh, when we get there...
0:03:25 > 0:03:28My parents keep a brave face, but...
0:03:28 > 0:03:30Chloe, darling, do you want fruit salad?
0:03:30 > 0:03:33..no one should outlive their children.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40The sickness may be mine but the tragedy is theirs.
0:03:45 > 0:03:46I have to put a distance between me
0:03:46 > 0:03:50and all of this...pitying looks.
0:03:56 > 0:03:57Oh, Christ, I need to escape!
0:04:00 > 0:04:06So, my friends are taking me to my favourite place on Earth.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08Barafundle Bay.
0:04:22 > 0:04:24Miles. Made it at last.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26Haven't heard from him in a while.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29His dad died when we were 16. Cancer again.
0:04:29 > 0:04:31His dad was a writer.
0:04:31 > 0:04:35Made us both want to be writers, too.
0:04:35 > 0:04:38Miles had the pressure of expectation.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41I had the pressure of...time, I suppose.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43Too much of it then,
0:04:43 > 0:04:45too little of it now.
0:04:45 > 0:04:46Miles?
0:04:47 > 0:04:48You look like shit.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51I thought they'd stuck you out here cos you'd stuffed it.
0:04:51 > 0:04:55I'm Having a pretty good day rhabdomyosarcoma-wise.
0:04:55 > 0:04:58You, you, you. Jesus!
0:05:03 > 0:05:04No, no, absolutely not.
0:05:04 > 0:05:07- I agreed to this whole trip and there's one condition.- Miles!
0:05:07 > 0:05:10No, he's not taking it!
0:05:11 > 0:05:13Take care, sis.
0:05:22 > 0:05:23Ooh, God. Ow!
0:05:23 > 0:05:25He'll be fine.
0:05:26 > 0:05:27I love you, too.
0:05:38 > 0:05:41Not the slightest risk. You hear me?
0:05:41 > 0:05:44Bye!
0:06:37 > 0:06:41No, Davy, Davy, Davy! Watch it, yeah?
0:06:41 > 0:06:43- You ever played Tetris?- Oh, James!
0:06:43 > 0:06:45No, I'll get that.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47I'm fine, I'm fine!
0:06:52 > 0:06:56- I'll get you that other cushion. - No, no, not just yet. I...
0:06:56 > 0:06:59I'll get started under my on steam.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02- Who wants to push me then?- Me.
0:07:02 > 0:07:05Get off me you hairy, soppy git.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18- It's a bit bumpy, isn't it? - Like sex with an anorexic.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20How is Melissa?
0:07:21 > 0:07:24- She's fatter.- Is she? Nothing wrong with that.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32How bloody beautiful is this!
0:07:34 > 0:07:36We need to get to Sound Point this evening.
0:07:36 > 0:07:38No, we'll walk until
0:07:38 > 0:07:39James needs a rest.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41No, I'm fine.
0:07:43 > 0:07:47..agricultural story editor in the...
0:07:47 > 0:07:49Do we always talk about work, nowadays?
0:07:49 > 0:07:52It's something some of us spend our lives doing.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54Shut up, Miles.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56- Get a job.- Ladies.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00- Malfunction, everybody. - OK, I knew it!
0:08:00 > 0:08:02It's the weight. I'm telling you.
0:08:02 > 0:08:04- What?- Is it fucked? - Not on my shift.
0:08:04 > 0:08:07All right. On its side.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10All right, Davy, can you get me the toolbox, out the bottom?
0:08:10 > 0:08:13I can see it but I can't get it out cos there's too much weight.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16OK, well start unpacking it, then.
0:08:16 > 0:08:17Gee whiz!
0:08:17 > 0:08:20- Did you just say, "gee whizz"? - Why can't we just plant an acorn?
0:08:20 > 0:08:22You didn't just say, "gee whiz", Bill?
0:08:22 > 0:08:25I did say, "Gee whiz". I'm exasperated.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27Now, get that webbing bag out of there,
0:08:27 > 0:08:30and inside there, there's a little socket set and some pliers.
0:08:30 > 0:08:34- Gee whiz! Look at that webbing bag!- Hey!
0:08:38 > 0:08:40Biscuits. Great on their own.
0:08:40 > 0:08:41But once they get dipped in tea
0:08:41 > 0:08:44they become a whole different journey.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49Taking you to piss always makes me want to piss.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51You piss far more than I ever used to.
0:08:51 > 0:08:54Where's all this new piss coming from?
0:08:54 > 0:08:55I'm not drinking more.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57Would you shut the fuck up, please?
0:08:59 > 0:09:02HE SIGHS
0:09:03 > 0:09:05My makeup girl's reading one of your dad's books.
0:09:05 > 0:09:08At work the other day. The Lebanon Tree.
0:09:08 > 0:09:09How's your book coming on?
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Oh, I gave up on it. Couldn't be arsed.
0:09:12 > 0:09:16You should just write a diary about banging Chelsea chicks.
0:09:16 > 0:09:19- I'm finally bored of meaningless sex.- Bollocks!
0:09:19 > 0:09:22All right, I might as well piss now, too.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30You think that's the beetroot?
0:09:30 > 0:09:33Yeah.
0:09:33 > 0:09:37Bill, I'm just saying, we could stow some of the stuff here
0:09:37 > 0:09:38and pick it up on the way back.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41Well, if you girls hadn't packed your entire wardrobe.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44OK, let's trade for me, James.
0:09:44 > 0:09:45How's work going?
0:09:45 > 0:09:47You hate what I do.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Only because you do. You writing?
0:09:49 > 0:09:52I'm so bored with my book. I'm not a writer,
0:09:52 > 0:09:54I'm an ad-man I'm good at it.
0:09:54 > 0:09:57Did you get my short stories I sent you?
0:09:57 > 0:10:01Yeah, the one about the biker was great. Really great.
0:10:01 > 0:10:05The one about the nurse, it was bollocks.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08Well, I'm no writer, but I liked it.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10- Good for you, Davy.- Waft!
0:10:10 > 0:10:12Waft!
0:10:18 > 0:10:20Bloody hell. That's actually working.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26- Not just a pretty face. - Not just a pretty face.
0:10:26 > 0:10:29WHOOPING
0:10:29 > 0:10:31PERCUSSION
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Don't be angry.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09- I told your mum I'd call her in a bit.- You just called her last night!
0:11:09 > 0:11:11- I know, I promised. - All right, all right!
0:11:11 > 0:11:15Tell her we have hope in our hearts and wings on our heels,
0:11:15 > 0:11:17and, after that, no more phone calls.
0:11:17 > 0:11:21- And if you've got your bloody phone on you, I'll find it.- I haven't.
0:11:23 > 0:11:25Bill, we could just plant this tree.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27No!
0:11:32 > 0:11:35Sometimes I watch the credits and wait for the camera man.
0:11:35 > 0:11:38Yeah, it's not Shakespeare but pays the mortgage.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40Mate, Antiques Roadshow has a big audience.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43I work on Car Boot Cash, Davy.
0:11:44 > 0:11:45Are you sure?
0:11:45 > 0:11:47- What?- What?
0:11:47 > 0:11:48LAUGHTER
0:11:50 > 0:11:53- No way! The White Bull? Screw it! - I thought you knew where we were.
0:11:53 > 0:11:56- Well, I do now. - My Spidey Senses are tingling.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59Loving this, boys, loving this!
0:11:59 > 0:12:01Hit it, lads!
0:12:02 > 0:12:05FOLK MUSIC
0:12:05 > 0:12:07CHEERING
0:12:09 > 0:12:12I'll get the beers, then.
0:12:12 > 0:12:15- I'll have a Guinness.- Oi!
0:12:15 > 0:12:17Alcohol and morphine don't mix.
0:12:17 > 0:12:22I have never taken LSD and lost my shoes playing poker.
0:12:22 > 0:12:24I've never had a bandit hold a gun to my head.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26I've never been to Birmingham.
0:12:26 > 0:12:30- I've never sailed around... Really? - No.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33- What about Marco's 18th? - Was that Birmingham?
0:12:33 > 0:12:36BEEPS
0:13:00 > 0:13:04Don't you ever get the urge to do something really dangerous?
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Eat some undercooked pig.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09I mean, a real thrill,
0:13:09 > 0:13:13- a man thrill.- Steady!
0:13:13 > 0:13:15We've all forgotten that moment
0:13:15 > 0:13:19when you realize we'll never play in the World Cup Final or...
0:13:19 > 0:13:20be the first man on Mars,
0:13:20 > 0:13:26and all those daydreams become fantasies rather than possibilities.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31I have no response to that.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34This is nice, though, isn't it?
0:13:34 > 0:13:36Yeah.
0:13:39 > 0:13:42Yes, it is!
0:14:39 > 0:14:40Where did you get that watch?
0:14:40 > 0:14:44From my father. Birthday present.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47It's a Rolex Oyster Perpetual Sea-Dweller 4000.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49Yeah, your dad's a liar. It's a fake.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51- Fuck you!- Nice. Give it to me!
0:14:51 > 0:14:53I'm going to tell 'em you asked to see my cock.
0:14:55 > 0:14:57Do you like my wings?
0:14:57 > 0:15:00Give me the watch or I'll tear your fucking wings off!
0:15:05 > 0:15:07Don't want it anymore.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09Don't like fakes.
0:15:09 > 0:15:11Yeah, me neither, come on!
0:15:14 > 0:15:16We're both better off.
0:15:19 > 0:15:21Hey, poofter!
0:15:23 > 0:15:26What's the time?
0:15:44 > 0:15:46GLASS SMASH
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Come on!
0:15:48 > 0:15:49Brothers, this is not the way!
0:15:53 > 0:15:55SCREAM
0:15:55 > 0:15:56I'm sorry. That was an accident.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01He's like an Alsatian pup.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04He's one of those guys everyone just seems to love.
0:16:04 > 0:16:05Nut?
0:16:07 > 0:16:09Hold your fighting! Boys. Boys.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19Davy, I'm going in.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22This is what I'm talking about with your morphine chasers.
0:16:22 > 0:16:25- You're drunk.- Maybe. A little.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29- This is it. - Can you stop hitting the women?
0:16:29 > 0:16:31- Maybe you should sit this one out.- No!
0:16:31 > 0:16:34Sorry, Davy, ramming speed!
0:16:40 > 0:16:42Hey! What are you doing?
0:16:48 > 0:16:50Not him! He's got cancer!
0:16:50 > 0:16:54I'm not shitting with you.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56You don't hit people with cancer.
0:17:17 > 0:17:21Sensible retreat when the tide was turning.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57Why would you sleep naked in a tent with me?
0:17:57 > 0:17:58Cos it's like...
0:17:58 > 0:18:00Look I don't want to feel you prodding me in the back.
0:18:00 > 0:18:03- Yeah, did you feel that in the middle of the night.- What is that?
0:18:03 > 0:18:05- I'm not going to. - I think I farted, sorry ...
0:18:05 > 0:18:06- Talc? As you.- You smell.
0:18:06 > 0:18:09I don't know any adults who still use talcum powder.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11I don't use talcum powder.
0:18:11 > 0:18:16That's your boil skin flaking off all over our lovely tent.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18Oh, Jesus.
0:18:18 > 0:18:21We laid the tent on a cow pat.
0:18:21 > 0:18:26I thought that pillow was too good to be true.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31I have an insight now into what it's like to be one of your wank puppets.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33Pretty great, I'm told.
0:18:33 > 0:18:36Where are my clothes?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39- Mine are missing too. - Yes, they are.
0:18:41 > 0:18:45All your spare clothes are missing.
0:18:46 > 0:18:49Why? Why would you do this? Why?
0:18:49 > 0:18:54We have no need for the wasteful comforts of modern life.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56- I'll fucking kill you! - What?- Why did you stop there?
0:18:56 > 0:19:00We are going to experience the landscape.
0:19:00 > 0:19:03A wardrobe from leaves and Kendal Mint Cake.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05Don't chase him, you'll just encourage.
0:19:05 > 0:19:07Don't wrestle again!
0:19:07 > 0:19:10I'm bored of seeing them wrestle.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13God, it's like Deliverance.
0:19:13 > 0:19:14That's it,
0:19:14 > 0:19:16I'm wearing your clothes if I get wet.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19- Let's burn Davy's rucksack. - Let's burn Bill.
0:19:19 > 0:19:22LAUGHTER
0:19:22 > 0:19:26- Where's my Digestives? - Up my arse, you prick!
0:19:26 > 0:19:29Now, that is deeply, deeply,
0:19:29 > 0:19:31- deeply disturbing.- Oh, yes.
0:19:58 > 0:20:01- If the cart breaks... - Ah, get on, get a grip!
0:20:01 > 0:20:04- Come on, OK?- No!
0:20:04 > 0:20:06- No?- Come on!
0:20:06 > 0:20:10OK? Go, go, go!
0:20:10 > 0:20:14WHOOPING
0:20:37 > 0:20:39BICYCLE BELL
0:20:40 > 0:20:42Hello, there!
0:20:43 > 0:20:45- We four would like to take the ferry.- When?
0:20:45 > 0:20:47Whenever it leaves.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55Four. There are four of us.
0:20:57 > 0:20:59And the cart?
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Yes.
0:21:00 > 0:21:04Singles or returns?
0:21:04 > 0:21:05Return.
0:21:05 > 0:21:08But not today. We're camping.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11When are you coming back?
0:21:11 > 0:21:14Saturday. Latest.
0:21:17 > 0:21:20- Is he wearing eye make-up? - He is.
0:21:20 > 0:21:23- Four returns? - Yes. Does it run every day?
0:21:23 > 0:21:26365 days a year, 24/7.
0:21:26 > 0:21:28First ferry leaves 6am,
0:21:28 > 0:21:29last ferry back 8pm.
0:21:29 > 0:21:32No ferry at Christmas, New Year's day or Easter.
0:21:33 > 0:21:38So, it's neither 365 days a year, nor 24/7.
0:21:38 > 0:21:40Sell many returns, do you?
0:21:42 > 0:21:43Aye.
0:21:43 > 0:21:46What's your problem, mate?
0:21:47 > 0:21:51- I'm going to have to charge you for the cart.- Listen, Tootsie.
0:21:51 > 0:21:56I'll charge you for an extra passenger.
0:21:56 > 0:21:58How's that sound?
0:22:01 > 0:22:04Single or return for the cart?
0:22:57 > 0:22:59Fucking idiots!
0:23:12 > 0:23:16Jenna Jameson is naked right there.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20Kristin Scott Thomas naked there.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22Double barrel, all the way.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Davy. Can't get up.
0:23:28 > 0:23:31No, no, no. I'm OK.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34It's just a bit more than I'm used to.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37Just need to take some meds. I'll be OK.
0:23:47 > 0:23:49Don't tell the others.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29Heaven.
0:24:30 > 0:24:34Do you know, if this was heaven,
0:24:34 > 0:24:36I'd be pretty fucking chuffed.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42I like the way that you've subtly brought it back round to you dying.
0:24:42 > 0:24:44I'd forgotten.
0:24:53 > 0:24:57No, seriously, though, I don't believe in the pearly gates.
0:24:57 > 0:24:59What do you think, Davy?
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Come on!
0:25:05 > 0:25:12I don't know. I want to believe in something like God. I do.
0:25:12 > 0:25:13I do.
0:25:13 > 0:25:17Reincarnation. Born again.
0:25:17 > 0:25:19As a mollusc?
0:25:20 > 0:25:23Don't piss on my Nirvana!
0:25:23 > 0:25:26No, but seriously. Our souls...
0:25:26 > 0:25:27I don't know,
0:25:27 > 0:25:30but I've been doing a lot of thinking and reading about it recently,
0:25:30 > 0:25:33of course, and I think it's got something to do
0:25:33 > 0:25:37with that magic science we barely know anything about,
0:25:37 > 0:25:38like dark matter.
0:25:40 > 0:25:44Actually, there's a belief in Buddhist faith
0:25:44 > 0:25:45about a kind of constant energy.
0:25:45 > 0:25:49Quantum physicists have proven its existence.
0:25:51 > 0:25:55Perfect timeless universal space.
0:25:55 > 0:25:56Yeah.
0:25:59 > 0:26:00What?
0:26:03 > 0:26:08It's just like being, is-ness...
0:26:08 > 0:26:14I can't help but picture myself as dust dancing in the flicker light.
0:26:15 > 0:26:18Millions of atoms of constant...
0:26:20 > 0:26:21..is-ness.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24What the fuck are you talking about?
0:26:29 > 0:26:32Just picture me tap-dancing in the firmament
0:26:32 > 0:26:34and I'll be well happy.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42What do you think, Miles?
0:26:42 > 0:26:46- What happens when we snuff it? - No idea.
0:26:46 > 0:26:50You must have thought about it.
0:26:51 > 0:26:55What's your instinct? I want to know.
0:26:57 > 0:26:59After your dancing across the stars,
0:26:59 > 0:27:01do you want to hear that I think there's nothing?
0:27:01 > 0:27:05That you'll rot and that's it?
0:27:07 > 0:27:11After my father died, that's what I decided.
0:27:11 > 0:27:12Really?
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Yeah.
0:27:20 > 0:27:25I suppose, one day, we'll live on in our kids.
0:27:48 > 0:27:51Did anybody get any sleep?
0:27:53 > 0:27:55Sand in my sleeping bag.
0:27:58 > 0:28:02Christ, that is a great cup of tea.
0:28:19 > 0:28:23You make a great cup of tea that gives you real pleasure.
0:28:23 > 0:28:25Then you go and ruin it.
0:28:28 > 0:28:32Why don't you finish it, then get off your ass and make a new one?
0:28:38 > 0:28:43Oh, Bill, you were going to film tree frogs in the Amazon,
0:28:43 > 0:28:44and save the planet,
0:28:44 > 0:28:49and, instead, you're filming some heinous piece of daytime TV shit,
0:28:49 > 0:28:52in order to pay a mortgage to live with a girl that you don't even...
0:28:55 > 0:28:57I don't recognise you, anymore.
0:28:57 > 0:29:00- You're getting more and more watered down every day.- Nice.
0:29:00 > 0:29:01- Was that rehearsed? - Shut up, Miles!
0:29:01 > 0:29:05Jim, lots of people would kill for Bill's job.
0:29:05 > 0:29:09- At least he's in a relationship, unlike any of us.- Just...
0:29:09 > 0:29:12I never seem to get things done the way I thought I would.
0:29:12 > 0:29:15When I am happy, I just...
0:29:17 > 0:29:19..and now...
0:29:21 > 0:29:23I love lessons learned through anecdotal observation.
0:29:25 > 0:29:26Seriously, did you prepare that?
0:29:26 > 0:29:28Like you finish anything, anyway.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37I'm fine. Ignore this.
0:29:42 > 0:29:44Shit!
0:29:44 > 0:29:46I'm fine.
0:29:49 > 0:29:51Give me the joint.
0:29:51 > 0:29:54Oh, fuck!
0:29:54 > 0:29:56Here, take the phemoryl.
0:30:29 > 0:30:32Hey, we can get to Goat's Head tomorrow, easily.
0:30:32 > 0:30:35The perfect spot. Soft grass.
0:30:35 > 0:30:36Great view.
0:30:36 > 0:30:38Sounds good.
0:30:40 > 0:30:43- Miles, you know a lot about women.- No.
0:30:45 > 0:30:48Me and Abby have been together seven years now.
0:30:48 > 0:30:50And I just ...
0:30:50 > 0:30:54Bill, we both know that most people settle for something
0:30:54 > 0:30:57that they think is better than being alone.
0:30:57 > 0:30:59Great.
0:30:59 > 0:31:03- Is that me?- I don't know. How should I know?
0:31:08 > 0:31:11Why do I want the opinion of a man who doesn't believe in love.
0:31:11 > 0:31:15The love you're talking about is like an addiction.
0:31:15 > 0:31:18You should be thinking, "I can't live without you today".
0:31:18 > 0:31:21Everyday. That you'd do everything to make her want you more.
0:31:21 > 0:31:24Make her want you.
0:31:25 > 0:31:27Someone chinked the armour?
0:31:27 > 0:31:29No.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33OK, do you always tell me the truth?
0:31:33 > 0:31:35Yes.
0:31:35 > 0:31:39Is there really such a thing as multiple orgasms?
0:31:39 > 0:31:41- Yes.- Fuck!
0:31:43 > 0:31:44I need you guys to hold him down.
0:31:44 > 0:31:47I have to get this up inside him.
0:31:50 > 0:31:51You bastard!
0:31:51 > 0:31:53- Bastard.- You soap.
0:31:53 > 0:31:56I'm going to stick it up your arse, you gaylord.
0:31:56 > 0:31:58- And you!- Your face!- Hey!
0:31:58 > 0:32:02- I'm going to get elbow deep in your arse.- Ha-ha-ha!
0:32:02 > 0:32:04Applicants right here.
0:32:04 > 0:32:08- Come here. One, two.- Aw!
0:32:10 > 0:32:11If I'm reading this map right,
0:32:11 > 0:32:13and I know I am,
0:32:13 > 0:32:16I'm seriously going to save us some time.
0:32:20 > 0:32:22- Can I see the map?- No.
0:32:32 > 0:32:35- Couldn't we go round that way?- Davy, this is going to save us a day.
0:32:35 > 0:32:38Miles, let's get you strapped up.
0:32:38 > 0:32:40You can fuck off.
0:32:40 > 0:32:42- OK, lift your arms.- Really?
0:32:42 > 0:32:46- Why am I going first?- Because you're useless and we can do without you.
0:32:46 > 0:32:47Hold it!
0:32:47 > 0:32:50- Can I have your car if you fall? - You can fuck off!
0:32:50 > 0:32:52What are you doing?
0:32:52 > 0:32:54Come on, you jessie, up on your feet. Get a grip.
0:32:54 > 0:32:57- Whose fucking idea was this? - Not mine.
0:32:58 > 0:33:03- Davy, you're doing well. Lean back into it.- Davy!
0:33:03 > 0:33:05Don't. Don't look down just lean back.
0:33:05 > 0:33:06You don't want to fall, here, mate.
0:33:06 > 0:33:08You will break something.
0:33:08 > 0:33:10I like it where it's flat.
0:33:10 > 0:33:13Use your pelvis and your back. Get down there.
0:33:13 > 0:33:16Go on, nearly there.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Oh, yeah, man. Ow!
0:33:19 > 0:33:21Slowly, slowly.
0:33:21 > 0:33:26Why am I always the one that's getting it rather than giving it?
0:33:30 > 0:33:32- Ah!- James!- James!
0:33:35 > 0:33:37- Tie off his leg.- All right?
0:33:37 > 0:33:39GROANS
0:33:41 > 0:33:42Hold!
0:33:42 > 0:33:44Put your weight on it, Davy.
0:33:44 > 0:33:45- Got it?- Yeah.- Yeah?
0:33:45 > 0:33:47- OK.- Good.- Go on!
0:33:51 > 0:33:53- Nearly there.- Ah, yeah.
0:34:01 > 0:34:02Are you OK, Jim?
0:34:04 > 0:34:07- Fine.- Nice one, Bill!
0:34:14 > 0:34:17What do you think it is?
0:34:19 > 0:34:20It's a lovely day for it.
0:34:24 > 0:34:25Is it?
0:34:33 > 0:34:35Did you find anything useful?
0:34:35 > 0:34:37It depends on one's needs.
0:34:40 > 0:34:42I'm looking for something pretty specific.
0:34:48 > 0:34:5215 years ago, I was in a bar in Marseille.
0:34:52 > 0:34:54A Chinaman,
0:34:54 > 0:34:58a cargo boat skipper, was saying he lost a fortune.
0:34:58 > 0:35:00A container of Star Wars figures.
0:35:00 > 0:35:02Yeah?
0:35:02 > 0:35:06But no ordinary Star Wars figures. Faulty Darth Vaders.
0:35:06 > 0:35:10Made brown, like Ben Kenobi, instead of black.
0:35:11 > 0:35:13Unique.
0:35:13 > 0:35:15Collectable.
0:35:15 > 0:35:17But he'd lost 'em in a storm.
0:35:17 > 0:35:21The only container to go overboard, breaking up on the rocks.
0:35:27 > 0:35:30Now, years later, I'm here in Pembrokeshire. Walking.
0:35:31 > 0:35:34Trying to clear my head. A lot.
0:35:34 > 0:35:37And I see these coves, you know, and all this...
0:35:37 > 0:35:38all this rubbish.
0:35:38 > 0:35:41It should just be beautiful driftwood,
0:35:41 > 0:35:46not all this industrial flotsam and jetsam but, you know,
0:35:46 > 0:35:49men should still wear hats every day, but the world's changed.
0:35:53 > 0:35:56Um. You were talking about the Chinaman.
0:35:56 > 0:36:00No, no, no. The brown Vaders should be here.
0:36:00 > 0:36:03So, every day, I started coming down to look.
0:36:03 > 0:36:05A month went by.
0:36:05 > 0:36:08Two months. And then three.
0:36:09 > 0:36:10Nothing.
0:36:10 > 0:36:13I started thinking I was...crazy.
0:36:13 > 0:36:17But then one morning I found a yogurt pot.
0:36:17 > 0:36:21It had a sell-by date on it.
0:36:21 > 0:36:22November 1980.
0:36:22 > 0:36:27So, stuff is being washed up here from that exact year.
0:36:27 > 0:36:30Obviously, I kept on looking.
0:36:30 > 0:36:31- Obviously.- A year, two years.
0:36:31 > 0:36:33Still no Brown Vaders.
0:36:35 > 0:36:38- And then, last month...- No!
0:36:38 > 0:36:39No, but...
0:36:43 > 0:36:45..it's a light sabre.
0:36:45 > 0:36:49From a Darth Vader made between 1980 and 1981.
0:36:51 > 0:36:53They're here.
0:36:53 > 0:36:55I've never heard anything like it in my whole life!
0:36:55 > 0:36:59That makes two of us. I need a piss.
0:36:59 > 0:37:03No! Let me. I'm dying to see James's cock.
0:37:03 > 0:37:05- It's been ages. - I'm going down there!
0:37:09 > 0:37:12- Your friend is ill. - No, he's just excitable.
0:37:12 > 0:37:14Not him, the other one.
0:37:15 > 0:37:19Yes. He's got cancer. It's terminal.
0:37:19 > 0:37:23Right. I lost a friend to cancer.
0:37:23 > 0:37:27- My best friend ever.- Sorry.
0:37:27 > 0:37:31It's not your fault. It's just really, really, really, really,
0:37:31 > 0:37:34really, really, really unlucky.
0:37:34 > 0:37:37Right.
0:37:37 > 0:37:39I have other friends.
0:37:39 > 0:37:41People find me attractive.
0:37:42 > 0:37:47But I started looking for a new best friend from my existing friends
0:37:47 > 0:37:49and then acquaintances,
0:37:49 > 0:37:51and then new people.
0:37:52 > 0:37:54How long are you going to carry on looking?
0:37:54 > 0:37:58- For a new best friend? - No, for the...
0:37:58 > 0:38:00Oh.
0:38:02 > 0:38:05- No, I tend to look for things.- Yeah.
0:38:07 > 0:38:09I'm OK.
0:38:10 > 0:38:13- Great to be needed.- Huh.- Isn't it?
0:38:13 > 0:38:15I'd forgotten.
0:38:15 > 0:38:20Maybe you're one of the lucky ones. Rare.
0:38:20 > 0:38:21A gift.
0:38:23 > 0:38:25There already.
0:38:28 > 0:38:29And good.
0:38:31 > 0:38:34Thank you. Ah, thank you.
0:38:34 > 0:38:37No, thank you.
0:38:45 > 0:38:47- Where are you going?- A shit.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50Enjoy your walk.
0:38:54 > 0:38:56I LOVE that dude!
0:38:56 > 0:38:57I really thought he was going to kill us.
0:38:57 > 0:38:59Possibly fuck us. And then eat us.
0:38:59 > 0:39:01He could turn around and stalk us.
0:39:01 > 0:39:05He was...I don't know, he was actually...
0:39:07 > 0:39:13Davy, did he touch your private place?
0:39:14 > 0:39:15OK, that is wrong.
0:39:17 > 0:39:20It's the third star to the right and straight on till morning.
0:39:20 > 0:39:23Well, I thought it was second star.
0:39:23 > 0:39:25Well, fuck, no wonder we're lost.
0:40:24 > 0:40:27You've been hitting the morphine kind of hard.
0:40:41 > 0:40:42Guys!
0:40:42 > 0:40:44If this weather keeps up,
0:40:44 > 0:40:47- how about we hunker down here for an extra night?- No.
0:40:47 > 0:40:49I have to get back to work.
0:40:49 > 0:40:51I still think we're carrying too much stuff. I mean,
0:40:51 > 0:40:54- the fireworks.- Fireworks?
0:40:54 > 0:40:57- Davy!- What fireworks? - You've ruined it!
0:40:57 > 0:40:59Sorry, but...
0:40:59 > 0:41:02We had this idea, because you like looking at the stars
0:41:02 > 0:41:05and dancing through the cosmos
0:41:05 > 0:41:08that we'd put on a firework display for you at Barafundle.
0:41:08 > 0:41:10But they weigh a ton, so can we just light the fuckers here?
0:41:40 > 0:41:42Did you light all of them?
0:41:43 > 0:41:44Fucking hell!
0:41:48 > 0:41:51- Oh, fuck!- Get the fire out.- FUCK!
0:41:56 > 0:41:59SHOUTING
0:42:10 > 0:42:13Fucking great. What do we do now?
0:42:13 > 0:42:16You fucking idiot!
0:42:16 > 0:42:19- You idiot.- It was Bill, as well!
0:42:19 > 0:42:21That was...an accident.
0:42:25 > 0:42:26You fucking child!
0:42:28 > 0:42:30Oh, I'm glad it's funny!
0:42:30 > 0:42:31Oh, how humorous!
0:42:31 > 0:42:34We're all going to have to sleep in a tent that was made for...
0:42:34 > 0:42:37fucking, anorexic pygmies!
0:42:41 > 0:42:44Ah, come on, we'll have a little cuddle.
0:42:44 > 0:42:45Right. I got my knife.
0:42:45 > 0:42:47So, any of you starts going Brokeback,
0:42:47 > 0:42:48I'll be going Rambo, all right?
0:42:48 > 0:42:51Oh, God, you feel good...
0:42:52 > 0:42:55Turn the light off, then.
0:42:55 > 0:42:58- You twist it round.- What? - Turn the... that's it, all right?
0:42:58 > 0:43:01Can you just leave that?
0:43:01 > 0:43:02Ow!
0:43:02 > 0:43:04Ow!
0:44:33 > 0:44:36All right?
0:44:36 > 0:44:37Yeah.
0:44:42 > 0:44:45- # Dance, dance, wherever you may be. - No!
0:44:45 > 0:44:49- # I am the Lord of the Dance said he... #- No!
0:44:49 > 0:44:52Who packed these?
0:44:55 > 0:44:58You know you can use condoms to cover a microphone, actually.
0:44:58 > 0:45:00To record dolphins underwater.
0:45:00 > 0:45:02- That's what they use. - Cool. Everyone get that?
0:45:02 > 0:45:05It may not come up, but thanks, Bill.
0:45:05 > 0:45:07We shouldn't have cooked all the beans last night.
0:45:07 > 0:45:10We've plenty of food.
0:45:10 > 0:45:12- I'm not worried about me! - Oh, Jesus, stop!
0:45:12 > 0:45:16Stop what? Stop making sure he can do this bloody trip?
0:45:16 > 0:45:19You two don't have any idea how much responsibility I have to take,
0:45:19 > 0:45:21so you two can just piss about.
0:45:21 > 0:45:24You get thanks all the time.
0:45:25 > 0:45:27Well, that's nice.
0:45:28 > 0:45:31Why are you so desperate to be needed?
0:45:31 > 0:45:36- I'm glad you see it like that. I don't.- I'm grateful, but...
0:45:37 > 0:45:39..what are you going to do when I'm not around?
0:45:39 > 0:45:41I can't picture it.
0:45:41 > 0:45:44- Who knows, Jim?- Yes, but before, you used to moan about
0:45:44 > 0:45:46how you felt you were being taken advantage of at work
0:45:46 > 0:45:47until you lost your job,
0:45:47 > 0:45:50and then I think my cancer came along at just the right time.
0:45:53 > 0:45:56I shall treat you all to a shrink, when we get back,
0:45:56 > 0:45:57but, for now, can we just have a laugh?
0:45:57 > 0:46:03It's not about failing, it's about finding your...
0:46:03 > 0:46:05If you say raison d'etre, I'm going to kill myself.
0:46:05 > 0:46:06Shut up Miles, this is...
0:46:06 > 0:46:09Repugnant and boring.
0:46:10 > 0:46:11What do you want? What...
0:46:11 > 0:46:14What special thing are you searching for?
0:46:14 > 0:46:17James. He's doing fine, OK? And you're being a bit harsh.
0:46:17 > 0:46:20It's not about the cards that life deals you.
0:46:20 > 0:46:23It's about the hand that you feel safe playing.
0:46:23 > 0:46:26I thought the tea life making metaphor was good but that was...
0:46:26 > 0:46:27exquisite.
0:46:27 > 0:46:29You know, Miles,
0:46:29 > 0:46:32it's so easy to take the piss, but I'm angry with all of you.
0:46:37 > 0:46:38I don't want to die!
0:46:44 > 0:46:48I want more time.
0:46:50 > 0:46:52I want more time.
0:46:52 > 0:46:56I'd take any one of your pointless consumer-fucker lives!
0:46:59 > 0:47:01I was going to do so much!
0:47:01 > 0:47:04I was going to be special.
0:47:04 > 0:47:06- And I know that sounds pompous. It is.- You are.
0:47:08 > 0:47:09You make me sick!
0:47:11 > 0:47:15Don't. I love my life.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17Cancer's no excuse for being an egomaniac.
0:47:17 > 0:47:18Why are you special?
0:47:18 > 0:47:21So, you don't think I'd have amounted to anything as a writer.
0:47:21 > 0:47:23I don't know! That's the point!
0:47:23 > 0:47:26But by our age, my father had already written three books.
0:47:26 > 0:47:28Your writing's good, but you only finally sat down to do it
0:47:28 > 0:47:31because it became too painful to stand up.
0:47:33 > 0:47:37What? You're going to hit me now? You...pissy little arse-licker?
0:47:37 > 0:47:39Oh, fuck off!
0:47:39 > 0:47:41You bore the shit out of me!
0:47:41 > 0:47:44We're not your secretaries.
0:47:44 > 0:47:45We don't run away if you turn nasty.
0:47:45 > 0:47:48- I'm telling him the truth!- I know!
0:47:48 > 0:47:49- But WHY?- Oh, piss off.
0:47:49 > 0:47:51Why are you so cruel?
0:47:51 > 0:47:53You're just cruel.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55There's other ways to get what you want.
0:47:55 > 0:47:58Davy. It's like you're looking into my soul through a microscope.
0:47:58 > 0:48:00I have to redeem myself!
0:48:00 > 0:48:02Will you give me AIDS?
0:48:02 > 0:48:04Bill? Rabies?
0:48:07 > 0:48:10Come on. Oh, GOD!
0:48:10 > 0:48:11We don't need to be doing this!
0:48:11 > 0:48:13We should be laughing
0:48:13 > 0:48:15and talking bollocks about the good old days.
0:48:15 > 0:48:17I read your book!
0:48:18 > 0:48:20I read it.
0:48:21 > 0:48:23He finished it years ago.
0:48:52 > 0:48:53When did you read it?
0:48:53 > 0:48:55Two years ago.
0:48:55 > 0:48:57I knew you'd been writing something
0:48:57 > 0:48:58and I...
0:49:00 > 0:49:04..snooped around on your computer. And there it was, finished.
0:49:04 > 0:49:07Hated you for it. I copied it, but I...
0:49:07 > 0:49:09I didn't read it.
0:49:10 > 0:49:13And then I got sick.
0:49:13 > 0:49:16And I gave in to my desire to...
0:49:16 > 0:49:19even though I knew you'd never, ever be able to forgive me.
0:49:19 > 0:49:21Mate, if you wanted to get something off your chest,
0:49:21 > 0:49:23why didn't you just call me?
0:49:23 > 0:49:25I'd have come round, we'd have had a chat, watched Jaws,
0:49:25 > 0:49:26and pretended you weren't sick.
0:49:26 > 0:49:28I AM sick!
0:49:28 > 0:49:29BECAUSE you are!
0:49:29 > 0:49:32And when you're gone, you won't...
0:49:32 > 0:49:35know that this is fucking killing me!
0:49:35 > 0:49:40It's not worth talking about it. It's not going to change anything.
0:49:40 > 0:49:43This is just unnecessary, fake soul-searching,
0:49:43 > 0:49:46which EVERYONE is doing these days.
0:49:46 > 0:49:49And I can't even say this real stuff,
0:49:49 > 0:49:52cos I just might not get a chance to see you again, so I can say...
0:49:52 > 0:49:54You don't need to apologise, Miles...
0:49:54 > 0:49:57I wasn't going to apologise, you arrogant little fuck!
0:49:57 > 0:49:58I'm right!
0:49:58 > 0:50:00And we don't apologise.
0:50:00 > 0:50:02I can say this shit,
0:50:02 > 0:50:04come back in five minutes and say nothing.
0:50:04 > 0:50:06That's the point!
0:50:10 > 0:50:11Your book...
0:50:11 > 0:50:13Oh, shut up!
0:50:14 > 0:50:15You know it is.
0:50:15 > 0:50:18This trip was like a walk with a sick, white Oprah!
0:50:18 > 0:50:19You would hate you right now.
0:50:26 > 0:50:28Thank you.
0:50:33 > 0:50:35I'm not afraid of failing, now.
0:50:35 > 0:50:37Now, I don't have to live in...
0:50:37 > 0:50:41- I know.- You see my dad was so ...
0:50:41 > 0:50:43Yes, I know.
0:50:43 > 0:50:45And now the only other person who I...
0:50:45 > 0:50:47Yeah, I know.
0:50:47 > 0:50:49Well, if you're not going to fucking listen...
0:51:05 > 0:51:08Ow!
0:51:08 > 0:51:11- Fucking hell.- Don't worry about Jim. It's morphine talking.
0:51:11 > 0:51:14This morning he called me Robert.
0:51:14 > 0:51:18It really fucking hurt, Bill.
0:51:20 > 0:51:21You're psychotic.
0:51:44 > 0:51:46PHONE RINGS
0:51:46 > 0:51:47You promised!
0:51:47 > 0:51:51- I've got to get it. It's important. - What, more important than this trip?
0:51:51 > 0:51:54- Oh, Davy has a phone. - For emergencies.
0:51:54 > 0:51:57It's not about the phone. It's about you not wanting to be here.
0:51:57 > 0:52:00- All right. Give me the phone! - Guys, guys, the cart!
0:52:03 > 0:52:05Davy! Davy!
0:52:07 > 0:52:11What the fuck are you doing?
0:52:11 > 0:52:14- You would have gone over with it! - I would have got it, you twat!
0:52:14 > 0:52:15He just saved your life.
0:52:15 > 0:52:17You think he likes me more than you,
0:52:17 > 0:52:19you whiny poof?!
0:52:22 > 0:52:25Why do people keep throwing my stuff in the sea?
0:52:25 > 0:52:27OK, OK.
0:52:27 > 0:52:29That...also was an accident.
0:52:29 > 0:52:33The phone was bad. Bad, Davy!
0:52:33 > 0:52:36But it's not the end of the world.
0:52:36 > 0:52:38- Miles, your company knows... - It's not that simple!
0:52:38 > 0:52:40Everything's fucked.
0:52:40 > 0:52:44It's all shit and people rely on me.
0:52:44 > 0:52:46The banks called in the loan.
0:52:47 > 0:52:49I'm going under.
0:52:49 > 0:52:51Miles is failing. Are you happy about that?
0:52:52 > 0:52:55Boys. Boys!
0:52:55 > 0:52:58We have a problem.
0:52:59 > 0:53:02We'll just have to camp here till one of us goes back and gets help.
0:53:02 > 0:53:04No. We haven't finished the walk.
0:53:04 > 0:53:06Mate, you weren't doing that much walking,
0:53:06 > 0:53:07and now your transport's gone!
0:53:07 > 0:53:10We'll call your dad. Stay in a B&B on the mainland and...
0:53:10 > 0:53:12- Where's your phone?- In my bag.- Uh.
0:53:12 > 0:53:14No. I'm afraid it's in my bag, on the cart.
0:53:14 > 0:53:16This is un-fucking-believable.
0:53:16 > 0:53:19There's amazing, kind of, natural symmetry to all of this.
0:53:19 > 0:53:22- Shut up, Bill.- Where's the map? - It's in the cart.
0:53:22 > 0:53:23We're going on, it's not far.
0:53:23 > 0:53:27- I'll walk it. I can. - James!- No, Davy! I'm going on.
0:53:27 > 0:53:29I just want one night there.
0:53:29 > 0:53:35If you won't come with me, I'll go on my own. I have to, I have to.
0:53:35 > 0:53:38I'm not finished yet!
0:53:45 > 0:53:47We might be closer to the emergency phone at Barafundle.
0:53:47 > 0:53:49Either that or I run back to the last phone.
0:53:49 > 0:53:51I reckon I can jog it in five hours.
0:53:51 > 0:53:53When was the last time you ran for five hours?
0:53:53 > 0:53:55If we go on we should stick together in case we have to carry him.
0:54:00 > 0:54:03So, should I tell him or let him keep going?
0:54:03 > 0:54:05James, stop!
0:54:07 > 0:54:11Are you coming to Barafundle?
0:54:11 > 0:54:13We are. But it's that way.
0:54:15 > 0:54:16(Fuck.)
0:55:00 > 0:55:05- Davy.- What?- What do you really think about what I said to you earlier?
0:55:05 > 0:55:07You've no right to talk to me like that. None.
0:55:07 > 0:55:12Why didn't you say so in front of the others?
0:55:12 > 0:55:15Loyalty, you prick.
0:55:17 > 0:55:20Don't put out the fire with your piss, Bill. It stinks!
0:55:58 > 0:56:02- Is this all the gas we have? Bill? - He's asleep.
0:56:06 > 0:56:08God it's good to see him off the leash.
0:56:08 > 0:56:12He's a beautiful, big hearted force of nature.
0:56:12 > 0:56:14She crushes every natural urge in him.
0:56:14 > 0:56:16It's a horrible relationship.
0:56:16 > 0:56:17How do you know what he wants?
0:56:17 > 0:56:19Abby's pregnant.
0:56:20 > 0:56:22Oh, fuck.
0:56:22 > 0:56:25Why didn't you say anything?
0:56:25 > 0:56:26I wanted to enjoy the walk.
0:56:29 > 0:56:32- C-congratulations.- Don't!
0:56:32 > 0:56:34I'm not saying it's good news,
0:56:34 > 0:56:36in the circumstances, but you'll be a brilliant father.
0:56:36 > 0:56:38Is it definitely yours?
0:56:39 > 0:56:41Far as I know.
0:56:41 > 0:56:42And she wants to keep it?
0:56:44 > 0:56:46Baby or not. If she isn't the one...
0:56:46 > 0:56:48Of course she isn't the one!
0:56:48 > 0:56:50Then use this as the opportunity to have a fresh start, Billy...
0:56:50 > 0:56:53Shut the FUCK up, Jim! Yeah.
0:56:53 > 0:56:57It all gets watered down. But I stick to my decisions, however shit.
0:56:57 > 0:57:00And when all my dreams come to nothing,
0:57:00 > 0:57:02I'll be around to bloody see it!
0:57:05 > 0:57:07You should have told me before!
0:57:07 > 0:57:09You should have fucking told me!
0:57:18 > 0:57:20Oh, shit.
0:57:36 > 0:57:38Man, you really showed that tree.
0:57:43 > 0:57:45Listen, I'm sorry about your tree.
0:57:45 > 0:57:49No, I wouldn't want it any other way.
0:57:49 > 0:57:54My tree will drift away and wash up on some distant shore.
0:57:54 > 0:57:56It's perfect.
0:58:05 > 0:58:07You all right, Davy?
0:58:14 > 0:58:16Wait, wait, Miles!
0:59:41 > 0:59:44- SCREAMS - Jim!
0:59:44 > 0:59:48Breathe, James. Breathe.
0:59:48 > 0:59:50Fuck this!
0:59:50 > 0:59:53Fuck it. We have to get him back.
0:59:53 > 0:59:55I'll run on. Bill, you run back.
0:59:55 > 0:59:57We might see a boat or, or...
0:59:57 > 0:59:58Shut up, Miles. We'll be fine.
0:59:58 > 1:00:00Bill! Bill! This is ridiculous!
1:00:00 > 1:00:02- I don't know.- Jesus!
1:00:02 > 1:00:04You carry Jim for a bit.
1:00:04 > 1:00:06Don't tell me what to do.
1:00:09 > 1:00:10- Why?- You feeling all hard
1:00:10 > 1:00:13because I didn't kick your arse for throwing my phone in the sea
1:00:13 > 1:00:16- or because I'm actually right? - Will you just shut up!
1:00:16 > 1:00:20This isn't about you, right now. Pick him up!
1:00:20 > 1:00:22- Pick him up!- Fuck you!
1:00:22 > 1:00:25Pick him up, you fucking coward!
1:00:32 > 1:00:33Do you think we should stop them?
1:00:33 > 1:00:37Yeah, well, I know we should, but it's kinda fascinating.
1:00:39 > 1:00:43All right, let's call it a draw.
1:00:44 > 1:00:47I liked that little "Eek" noise you made
1:00:47 > 1:00:49when he got you in a headlock.
1:00:53 > 1:00:55It's not what I planned.
1:00:55 > 1:00:58I mean, why are you even here, Miles?
1:00:58 > 1:01:01We didn't expect you to turn up.
1:01:01 > 1:01:05This is actually happening. And it hurts.
1:01:05 > 1:01:06And it's amazing.
1:01:06 > 1:01:08I've been around for it all.
1:01:08 > 1:01:10He needed me and I was there for him,
1:01:10 > 1:01:13- and I'm really sorry you have such a problem with that.- Davy.
1:01:13 > 1:01:17You're right, I wasn't going to come.
1:01:23 > 1:01:25Your illness disgusts me.
1:01:25 > 1:01:26It shocks me.
1:01:26 > 1:01:29I couldn't physically be around it.
1:01:29 > 1:01:32It's true, I haven't been there for you.
1:01:32 > 1:01:34I'm sorry.
1:01:41 > 1:01:44Come on, you bugger.
1:02:57 > 1:02:59Jesus!
1:02:59 > 1:03:01Barafundle Bay.
1:03:03 > 1:03:06Actually, do you know what?
1:03:06 > 1:03:09This isn't the one I was thinking of.
1:03:12 > 1:03:14Thank you.
1:04:53 > 1:04:56Is there anything so peaceful
1:04:56 > 1:04:58as the sound of the ocean?
1:05:02 > 1:05:04I'm sorry.
1:05:05 > 1:05:10Who the fuck am I to tell you how to live your lives?
1:05:10 > 1:05:11I mean, I was just...
1:05:11 > 1:05:14I'm fucking your sister.
1:05:21 > 1:05:23I'm totally and utterly in love with her,
1:05:23 > 1:05:26and I have been for ten years.
1:05:26 > 1:05:28Shit!
1:05:28 > 1:05:31I watched her marry Mike, and I did nothing.
1:05:31 > 1:05:35Have children, move into her comfortable life.
1:05:35 > 1:05:39I wanted her and I pursued her. And I got her.
1:05:39 > 1:05:41God!
1:05:42 > 1:05:45We met up when you got sick. It's...
1:05:45 > 1:05:47It's ironic, isn't it?
1:05:47 > 1:05:48Yeah.
1:05:50 > 1:05:51One day, soon,
1:05:51 > 1:05:54she's going to bring the girls to my house.
1:05:56 > 1:05:58We're perfect for each other.
1:06:25 > 1:06:26James.
1:06:29 > 1:06:32I knew she had a thing for you, but then every woman does.
1:06:32 > 1:06:34So, what's the big fucking surprise, then?
1:06:35 > 1:06:37You could have anyone you wanted.
1:06:37 > 1:06:41- Why her?- You know why.
1:06:43 > 1:06:45The kids! What about the girls?
1:06:45 > 1:06:46I'm going to take care of them.
1:06:46 > 1:06:49Oh, God! When were you going to tell me any of this?
1:06:55 > 1:06:58- You weren't going to tell me!- No.
1:07:04 > 1:07:06Do you want my blessing?
1:07:06 > 1:07:09- No. I'll do it anyway.- Yeah.
1:07:09 > 1:07:10Yeah.
1:07:10 > 1:07:14James! James! Listen. Listen!
1:07:14 > 1:07:17There is one thing that my father said to me
1:07:17 > 1:07:20that is bigger than everything. And anyone.
1:07:20 > 1:07:23And if I was any son of his, I'd figure out what it is.
1:07:23 > 1:07:25I have.
1:07:30 > 1:07:33So I hope it works out for you.
1:07:57 > 1:08:00There's no ribbon to tie around it all, is there?
1:08:03 > 1:08:05I thought I was ready. Now I...
1:08:05 > 1:08:07I look at Bill and I think...
1:08:07 > 1:08:11if I could get through another nine months,
1:08:11 > 1:08:15hold on long enough to see Chloe sorted, with or without...
1:08:19 > 1:08:23I'm leaving early. And it all goes on without me.
1:08:25 > 1:08:28The strange thing is...
1:08:29 > 1:08:31..this is what I was most afraid of.
1:08:34 > 1:08:35But now it's...
1:08:36 > 1:08:39..it's a relief, Milo.
1:08:40 > 1:08:43Such a bloody relief!
1:09:29 > 1:09:30How's the book?
1:09:30 > 1:09:34I think it's more interesting with half the pages missing.
1:09:34 > 1:09:36I'm going for a swim.
1:09:36 > 1:09:38Your mum said...
1:09:38 > 1:09:40I know.
1:09:40 > 1:09:43Tomorrow, I'm going to swim out into the middle of the bay,
1:09:43 > 1:09:45and I'm not coming back.
1:09:47 > 1:09:53I know the enormity of this, and I am asking you...
1:09:55 > 1:09:58..to let me swim.
1:09:59 > 1:10:01- No.- Jim.
1:10:01 > 1:10:03We can't let you, mate.
1:10:03 > 1:10:06You can. The question is, will you?
1:10:08 > 1:10:09Has this been your plan all along?
1:10:15 > 1:10:16I thought you wanted to live.
1:10:16 > 1:10:18Why would...
1:10:18 > 1:10:24Because this is how my life is going to be from now on.
1:10:24 > 1:10:25Because of the pain.
1:10:25 > 1:10:27Because of the drugs
1:10:27 > 1:10:29that I take for the pain.
1:10:29 > 1:10:33Because of the drugs that I take for the side-effects of the other drugs.
1:10:33 > 1:10:35You've seen it. It's only going to get worse.
1:10:37 > 1:10:40My life is all up here, now, really, but...
1:10:41 > 1:10:44..it's taking over and gradually I'll slip further and further
1:10:44 > 1:10:46into thinking solely about pain
1:10:46 > 1:10:49and that's not worth living for.
1:10:49 > 1:10:51I don't know what the pain's like but surely we can...
1:10:51 > 1:10:54- What?- I don't know.
1:10:54 > 1:10:55I can't...
1:10:56 > 1:10:57You can.
1:11:00 > 1:11:02What would we tell your mum and dad?
1:11:02 > 1:11:06This is insane! I can't believe you're talking about it normally!
1:11:06 > 1:11:08The same thing as you'll tell the police.
1:11:08 > 1:11:11That you woke up in the morning and I'd gone. That you searched the dunes
1:11:11 > 1:11:14and then you saw something floating in the sea.
1:11:14 > 1:11:16You went to get me but by then it was too late.
1:11:25 > 1:11:27Every time I saw your family,
1:11:27 > 1:11:29I'd know they could have had you for another day.
1:11:30 > 1:11:32To say goodbye properly.
1:11:32 > 1:11:33That's just it,
1:11:33 > 1:11:36there won't be a better goodbye than the one we just had.
1:11:36 > 1:11:37There will.
1:11:37 > 1:11:39It isn't time yet.
1:11:39 > 1:11:43I have never been so alive.
1:11:43 > 1:11:46And now I want to end it.
1:11:48 > 1:11:54I want to finally finish something!
1:11:55 > 1:11:58Why don't you just go home and take an overdose like normal people?
1:11:58 > 1:12:00It'd be painless. You'd just fall asleep.
1:12:00 > 1:12:02It would be giving in.
1:12:02 > 1:12:06If I swim out and the sea takes me, it's different.
1:12:06 > 1:12:07I would be making a choice.
1:12:07 > 1:12:11I want to be conscious until I'm gone.
1:12:11 > 1:12:13I want to feel something,
1:12:13 > 1:12:16even if it's the pain of salt water in my lungs.
1:12:16 > 1:12:20I want to FEEL the fight.
1:12:20 > 1:12:23Something...huge...and...
1:12:25 > 1:12:27..terrifying...
1:12:29 > 1:12:31..and brave.
1:12:35 > 1:12:40I promised your mum I'd bring you back.
1:12:47 > 1:12:49Sorry, James.
1:12:55 > 1:12:58OK.
1:13:00 > 1:13:03OK, I'm sorry.
1:13:06 > 1:13:09It's too much to ask.
1:13:20 > 1:13:21HE GROANS
1:13:23 > 1:13:25Fuck!
1:13:35 > 1:13:37Davy! Davy!
1:13:46 > 1:13:49I can't find his meds bag.
1:13:49 > 1:13:51Must have slipped out.
1:13:55 > 1:13:57He doesn't have any morphine left.
1:13:57 > 1:13:59I'm not fucking deaf!
1:14:01 > 1:14:03We'll find it. Miles!
1:14:06 > 1:14:07Fuck!
1:14:10 > 1:14:15Davy! Davy!
1:14:15 > 1:14:18Where did you last get them?
1:14:18 > 1:14:19Fuck!
1:14:20 > 1:14:24Have some water, James.
1:14:28 > 1:14:31- Miles!- Fuck.
1:14:40 > 1:14:42I can't breathe! I can't...
1:14:49 > 1:14:51Hold the torch a minute.
1:14:55 > 1:14:57Fuck.
1:14:59 > 1:15:01Fucking shit!
1:15:01 > 1:15:03HE WHIMPERS
1:15:16 > 1:15:19- Miles! Miles, I got it!- Jesus!
1:15:29 > 1:15:31James!
1:15:32 > 1:15:34I've got it.
1:15:36 > 1:15:37James!
1:15:39 > 1:15:42Got it. James.
1:18:22 > 1:18:25I've got cramp.
1:18:34 > 1:18:37Sorry.
1:18:37 > 1:18:38Sorry.
1:18:41 > 1:18:43You've nearly outlived Davy.
1:18:49 > 1:18:52You've ruined this camping trip.
1:18:52 > 1:18:53Can we go home now, please?
1:18:53 > 1:18:55Ah, James.
1:18:55 > 1:18:58I'm scared.
1:18:58 > 1:19:04Sorry. If you can't do this, tell me.
1:19:06 > 1:19:07I'll swim as far as I can.
1:19:14 > 1:19:16I'd rather not be alone, mate.
1:19:23 > 1:19:26Please. Miles.
1:19:26 > 1:19:27Do this.
1:19:32 > 1:19:35Miles! Please!
1:23:22 > 1:23:24So I raise a morphine toast to you all.
1:23:24 > 1:23:29And if you should happen to remember it's the anniversary of my birth,
1:23:29 > 1:23:32remember that you were loved by me,
1:23:32 > 1:23:36and that you made my life a happy one.
1:23:36 > 1:23:39And there's no tragedy in that.
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