0:00:02 > 0:00:05This film contains some strong language
0:00:14 > 0:00:17Blood glucose fine. Liver function, kidney function, normal.
0:00:17 > 0:00:19Platelet count's normal. Haemoglobin levels normal.
0:00:19 > 0:00:23Blood pressure, 131 over 92.
0:00:23 > 0:00:24Isn't that a little high?
0:00:24 > 0:00:28Weight's fine. Could do with losing a centimetre or two off your waist.
0:00:28 > 0:00:31- Oh. Stool sample outstanding. - Oh.
0:00:31 > 0:00:33No, that means you haven't provided one yet.
0:00:33 > 0:00:36Yes, of course. No, I'd remember.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38You think it didn't stink or something?
0:00:38 > 0:00:41There's nothing wrong with you, Martin.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44Uh, your wife tells me you think you're mildly depressed?
0:00:44 > 0:00:46Well, I got the sack. I'm unemployed.
0:00:46 > 0:00:49- Yes. But it wasn't your fault, was it?- That's why I'm depressed.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51I got sacked for saying something I didn't say.
0:00:51 > 0:00:52Try running.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54I said the opposite of what I was sacked for.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56What are you working on at the moment?
0:00:56 > 0:00:58Uh, thinking of writing a book.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00Oh! Well, that's good. What's it about?
0:01:00 > 0:01:03Russian history.
0:01:03 > 0:01:04Try running.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07'The Whitehall feud between the transport secretary Stephen Byers
0:01:07 > 0:01:10'and his former press secretary Martin Sixsmith
0:01:10 > 0:01:11'continues to grow.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14'Mr Sixsmith has been putting his side of the argument.
0:01:14 > 0:01:16'Downing Street described the affair as a soap opera.'
0:01:16 > 0:01:19- REPORTER:- 'There was no sign of Mr Sixsmith at his home today,
0:01:19 > 0:01:23'but after a week of trying to clear his name in private,
0:01:23 > 0:01:24'he's now gone public.
0:01:24 > 0:01:26'He told the Sunday Times that senior figures
0:01:26 > 0:01:28'in government had offered him support.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30'"They assured me they accepted
0:01:30 > 0:01:32'"there was no suspicion of misconduct against me.
0:01:32 > 0:01:36"'I was therefore amazed they had unilaterally 'resigned' me."'
0:01:36 > 0:01:47CHOIR: # ..this icon of your radiant brightness
0:01:49 > 0:01:56# Not praying to be saved... #
0:01:56 > 0:02:00'I would like to make a statement regarding the circumstances
0:02:00 > 0:02:02'of Mr Martin Sixsmith's resignation.'
0:02:02 > 0:02:04'The question here, though, is - how long can Mr Blair
0:02:04 > 0:02:07'stand by his man and not himself be damaged?'
0:02:07 > 0:02:11'There's no doubt that there's been yet another embarrassment for the government.
0:02:11 > 0:02:15'They've not only had to eat fantastic quantities of humble pie,
0:02:15 > 0:02:19'indeed humble pie, I would say, with a side order of grovel sauce.
0:02:19 > 0:02:22'And so far as Mr Sixsmith is concerned...'
0:02:33 > 0:02:36There you are. Well, that was embarrassing.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39Father Tierney just asked me where you disappeared to.
0:02:39 > 0:02:42Well... I don't believe in God.
0:02:42 > 0:02:44And I think he can tell.
0:02:44 > 0:02:47Come on.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49- I'm worried about you, Martin. - I did that.
0:02:49 > 0:02:52I wish you had. You need to get back to work.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54What happened to that book on Russian history?
0:02:54 > 0:02:56No-one's interested in Russian bloody history.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17FAINT VOICES
0:03:20 > 0:03:22CHILDREN SQUEALING IN BACKGROUND
0:03:25 > 0:03:27GIRL GIGGLING
0:03:52 > 0:03:55I haven't seen you any place. Where are you from?
0:04:00 > 0:04:02Are you from Limerick, then?
0:04:06 > 0:04:08FOOTSTEPS
0:04:08 > 0:04:09- Hello, Philomena. - Father.
0:04:09 > 0:04:13How have you been? How's your new hip?
0:04:13 > 0:04:16Oh, it's very good. It's titanium.
0:04:19 > 0:04:22- I haven't seen you for a while. - I just came in to light a candle.
0:04:22 > 0:04:23Someone special?
0:04:25 > 0:04:27Yes.
0:04:28 > 0:04:29FAIRGROUND MUSIC
0:04:29 > 0:04:31I like your dress.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33Did you make it yourself?
0:04:33 > 0:04:37No. I bought it in a shop.
0:04:37 > 0:04:39And anyways, me auntie told me
0:04:39 > 0:04:41I wasn't supposed to speak to strange men like you.
0:05:02 > 0:05:05- WOMAN:- 'Did you let him put his hands on you?
0:05:05 > 0:05:08- ANOTHER WOMAN:- 'Did you enjoy your sin?'
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Did you take your knickers down?
0:05:11 > 0:05:15Answer Sister Hildegarde. Did you take them down?
0:05:16 > 0:05:17Yes.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21Oh, Reverend Mother,
0:05:21 > 0:05:23at school, the sisters never taught us about babies.
0:05:23 > 0:05:25Did your mother not tell you?
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- Her mother died ten years ago. - Oh.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29God rest her soul.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35- REVEREND MOTHER:- 'Don't dare blame the sisters for this.
0:05:35 > 0:05:39'You are the cause of this shame. You and your indecency.'
0:05:39 > 0:05:41DOORBELL RINGS
0:05:41 > 0:05:44SCREAMS AND SOBS
0:05:51 > 0:05:53I don't know what to do!
0:05:53 > 0:05:56We must get a doctor. The baby's the wrong way round. It's breech!
0:05:56 > 0:05:59It's in God's hands now. The pain is her penance.
0:05:59 > 0:06:02Hail, holy Queen, Mother of Mercy!
0:06:02 > 0:06:04Hail, holy Queen, Mother of Mercy!
0:06:04 > 0:06:06REVEREND MOTHER CONTINUES PRAYING
0:06:08 > 0:06:10Don't let her put my baby in the ground!
0:06:10 > 0:06:13It's cold in there. It's dark in there.
0:06:13 > 0:06:15TV IN BACKGROUND
0:06:18 > 0:06:21Just go up and turn their lights out in half an hour. OK?
0:06:21 > 0:06:24Doesn't she know you have a proper job?
0:06:24 > 0:06:27She's short staffed. I'm just filling in.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31I'll be home before midnight.
0:06:33 > 0:06:36Mother?
0:06:36 > 0:06:39What is it? Are you all right?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55Who is it?
0:06:58 > 0:07:00It's his birthday.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03He'll be 50 today.
0:07:08 > 0:07:09SCREAMS
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Breathe.
0:07:14 > 0:07:16It's a boy.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18BABY CRIES
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Oh, Martin!
0:07:45 > 0:07:47- Hello, David. - Hello.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49- Keith you know. - Yes, hello again.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51And Sally Mitchell, this is Martin Sixsmith,
0:07:51 > 0:07:53used to be the BBC's man in Moscow.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- And Washington. - Hello.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Then he became a spin doctor for the Government, and it all went a bit tits-up.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00Is that a fair summation, Martin?
0:08:00 > 0:08:04That's fair enough. I always say, "If you shovel shit for long enough,
0:08:04 > 0:08:06"eventually you'll get some on your shoes."
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Yes, you got it on your head. How did you manage that?
0:08:09 > 0:08:10What are you up to at the moment?
0:08:10 > 0:08:13I'm thinking of writing a book on Russian history.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16Or something else. Maybe get back into journalism.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18I remember you!
0:08:18 > 0:08:20You're the one who sent that terrible e-mail
0:08:20 > 0:08:24saying it was a good day to bury bad news on 9/11.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26- No, that was someone else. - Well, I thought it was you.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30No, it's a common mistake. On the day of Princess Margaret's funeral,
0:08:30 > 0:08:33I sent an e-mail saying let's make sure the only thing we "bury",
0:08:33 > 0:08:36- today, is Princess Margaret. - Which is slightly different.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38It's very different, actually... But...
0:08:38 > 0:08:41If you want to get back into journalism, you should talk to Sally.
0:08:41 > 0:08:45I just do sob stories, human interest. It's not really your cup of tea, is it?
0:08:45 > 0:08:46Well...
0:08:46 > 0:08:49But I'll be happy to have a look if you want to push any ideas my way.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51Yes... Please.
0:08:58 > 0:09:02Excuse me. Do you have a glass of Pinot Grigio?
0:09:03 > 0:09:05It's just red or white.
0:09:05 > 0:09:07I'll have white, please.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12I couldn't help overhearing you're a journalist.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14I know this woman, she had a baby when she was a teenager
0:09:14 > 0:09:17and she's kept it secret for 50 years.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19- I only found out today. - Um...
0:09:19 > 0:09:24Sorry. The baby was taken from her by these nuns.
0:09:24 > 0:09:27- They made her have him adopted. - Mm.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30And she's kept it a secret all this time.
0:09:30 > 0:09:34Well, the thing is, I'm working on a book at the moment about Russian history.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36That's my thing.
0:09:36 > 0:09:40And what you're talking about would be what they call a human interest story.
0:09:40 > 0:09:41I don't do those.
0:09:41 > 0:09:43Why not?
0:09:43 > 0:09:48Because "human interest story" is a euphemism for stories about
0:09:48 > 0:09:50weak-minded, vulnerable, ignorant people,
0:09:50 > 0:09:55to put in newspapers read by vulnerable, weak-minded, ignorant people.
0:09:55 > 0:09:59Not that you are. And, yeah, anyway, I hope you find him.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08Do you think I should do a human interest story?
0:10:24 > 0:10:26Hello, you must be Philomena. I'm Martin.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28- Hello, Martin. - Hello again.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Hello.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32We've got a table through here. After you.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35Just to the left.
0:10:35 > 0:10:38I must apologise for the other night.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40Afraid I was a bit... Caught me at a bad moment.
0:10:40 > 0:10:43That's all right. I'm just glad you managed to track me down.
0:10:43 > 0:10:46I hope you don't mind coming here. It's Mum's favourite.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49No, no, it's...it's very nice.
0:10:49 > 0:10:50Um, just...
0:10:55 > 0:10:58So, Philomena, how are you?
0:10:58 > 0:11:00I'm all right.
0:11:00 > 0:11:02I had a hip replacement last year, Martin.
0:11:02 > 0:11:04Right.
0:11:04 > 0:11:07It's much better than the bone one I had before.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09And it's titanium, so it won't rust.
0:11:09 > 0:11:12Oh. That's good, otherwise they'd have to oil you like the Tin Man.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14Is that right?
0:11:14 > 0:11:17No, I mean, you know, like The Wizard Of Oz.
0:11:19 > 0:11:23- He's just joking, Mum. - No, no, I'm just joking. No...
0:11:23 > 0:11:25My mother has advanced osteoarthritis in both her knees.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27Oh.
0:11:31 > 0:11:34- Shall we get some salad? - Salad, yes.
0:11:34 > 0:11:35Yes.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40Jane's the clever one in our family.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42She went to university as a mature student.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44You know, when you're quite old.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47Where did you go, Martin? Oxbridge, I bet.
0:11:47 > 0:11:49You've rumbled me. Oxford, yes.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51I knew you weren't a duffer.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53I don't think I've been in a Harvester before.
0:11:53 > 0:11:57- Do they not have them in London? - No, I tend to go to a little local place, near where I live.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59- And where's that? - Knightsbridge.
0:11:59 > 0:12:02Oh. Well, that must be very expensive.
0:12:03 > 0:12:06I love these little bits of toast on mine...
0:12:08 > 0:12:10And are you married, Martin?
0:12:10 > 0:12:14- Yes, I am. To Kate. 20 years. - That's good. That's grand.
0:12:16 > 0:12:17I did love him, you know.
0:12:21 > 0:12:24'I've kept what happened to me buried away for 50 years.
0:12:26 > 0:12:30'My father just left me with the nuns, he was so ashamed.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32'He told everyone I was dead.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34'My family never visited me.
0:12:36 > 0:12:40'After you'd had your baby, you had to stay in the abbey for four years.
0:12:40 > 0:12:44'In order to repay the sisters for taking you in, you had to work.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50'The worst jobs were in the laundry. That's where they put me.
0:12:50 > 0:12:54'I worked there seven days a week, the whole time I was there.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57'I worked there with my best friend, Kathleen.'
0:13:08 > 0:13:11'We were allowed to see our children for an hour a day.'
0:13:11 > 0:13:13- Come on. - 'That was all.'
0:13:16 > 0:13:18Walk, don't run!
0:13:28 > 0:13:30- Mary!- Mummy.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50'Anthony was best friends with Kathleen's daughter, Mary.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52'The two of them were inseparable.'
0:13:56 > 0:13:58Look at that. He won't let her out of his sight.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03What's the matter?
0:14:03 > 0:14:04The girls in the kitchen said that
0:14:04 > 0:14:07Mother Barbara had Mary up at the house.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09What do you think they wanted with her?
0:14:09 > 0:14:12- WHISPERS:- Phil.- > - I'm sure it's nothing to worry about.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14I won't be a minute.
0:14:17 > 0:14:21- Phil, I've got something for you. - Kathleen's worried sick.
0:14:21 > 0:14:25She thinks they'll take Mary from her. I told her they'd tell her first for sure.
0:14:25 > 0:14:27Look.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30You can't tell anyone you've got it.
0:14:32 > 0:14:35- I bet the father was handsome. - He was. How did you get this?
0:14:35 > 0:14:38I borrowed a Box Brownie and took it when Reverend Mother wasn't looking.
0:14:41 > 0:14:42Thank you.
0:14:46 > 0:14:50Whenever I look at that photo of Anthony, I say a little prayer for Anunciata,
0:14:50 > 0:14:53who saved his life when I gave birth to him.
0:14:53 > 0:14:57She died a long time ago now...
0:14:57 > 0:15:00But if she hadn't taken that, I'd have nothing.
0:15:00 > 0:15:04So, were you just trapped there the whole time?
0:15:04 > 0:15:07You could only leave if you paid them £100.
0:15:09 > 0:15:11But where would I get that kind of money?
0:15:13 > 0:15:15And where would I go?
0:15:19 > 0:15:21'I remember that day so clearly.
0:15:23 > 0:15:27'We all knew what it meant when a big car arrived.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29'Kathleen was inconsolable.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32'She knew this time they'd come for Mary.'
0:15:32 > 0:15:33No, no, no, no.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55INDISTINCT CONVERSATION
0:16:00 > 0:16:02Come away from there!
0:16:03 > 0:16:05What are you doing out here?
0:16:05 > 0:16:09I had a stomach-ache, Sister Hildegarde.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11It's my time of the month.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13You're not unique in that regard.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16Put your mind to your work and it will pass.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26CHILD CRYING IN BACKGROUND
0:16:44 > 0:16:45DOOR OPENS
0:16:45 > 0:16:48Phil, it's choir practice.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56You'll be in trouble if you don't go.
0:17:18 > 0:17:20'Normally, I loved to sing.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23'It was one of the only things I enjoyed in that place.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28'But all I could think about was poor Kathleen.'
0:17:30 > 0:17:32DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:17:41 > 0:17:45- Philomena, they're taking Anthony. - No, no.
0:17:45 > 0:17:46- They're taking him away. - No.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53- Where is he? - BABY CRYING
0:18:04 > 0:18:06CRYING
0:18:09 > 0:18:10Anthony!
0:18:12 > 0:18:13Anthony!
0:18:25 > 0:18:26ENGINE STARTS
0:18:39 > 0:18:41Anthony!
0:18:43 > 0:18:45Anthony!
0:18:47 > 0:18:48Anthony!
0:18:49 > 0:18:52Anthony!
0:18:52 > 0:18:53Anthony!
0:18:58 > 0:18:59Anthony!
0:19:06 > 0:19:11'They'd only come for Mary, but Anthony wouldn't let her out of his sight.'
0:19:11 > 0:19:14- They were inseparable. - I think what they did to you was evil.
0:19:14 > 0:19:16No, no, no, I don't like that word.
0:19:16 > 0:19:18No, no. Evil's good.
0:19:20 > 0:19:21Story-wise, I mean.
0:19:25 > 0:19:28Some of the nuns were very nice.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30It was a breech birth. They wouldn't even give her any painkillers.
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Excellent.
0:19:32 > 0:19:34Again, story-wise.
0:19:35 > 0:19:38So, can we go and talk to these nuns?
0:19:38 > 0:19:41Uh, yes, well, you could try. Maybe you'll have more luck than Mum's had.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44I've been several times over the years to ask where he was.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47And they're very helpful, they're not like they used to be.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49They said they'd try and trace him for me.
0:19:49 > 0:19:50- But they haven't?- No.
0:19:55 > 0:19:57Can you help me find him, Martin?
0:19:57 > 0:19:59Well, it's a very interesting story.
0:19:59 > 0:20:02You know, Martin, I'm taking Mum to Ireland for a few days next week.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05Why don't you come with us? You could visit Roscrea with her.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08Yes, there's plenty of room. It's a Vauxhall Cavalier.
0:20:08 > 0:20:11Oh, no. I mean, thank you. But...
0:20:11 > 0:20:13I like to fly.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20BIRDSONG
0:20:42 > 0:20:44Hello. Sorry I'm late.
0:20:44 > 0:20:45- Hello, Martin. - Hi, Martin.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47I had a bit of trouble with the hire car.
0:20:47 > 0:20:50- Well, this is lovely, isn't it, Jane?- There you go.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52I see why you wouldn't want to squash up with us in the Cavalier.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55No, no. It wasn't that. It was... I just had a few things to do.
0:20:55 > 0:20:58- Sure you don't want me to come, Mum?- You're not coming?
0:20:58 > 0:21:01No, I told Jane we'll be fine on our own, just the two of us.
0:21:01 > 0:21:04- Isn't that right, Martin? - Yeah. That's fine.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07I've put a few things in your bag. I'll see you tonight.
0:21:08 > 0:21:10- Thanks, Martin. - OK.
0:21:16 > 0:21:17STARTS ENGINE
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- What kind of a car is this? - A BMW.
0:21:26 > 0:21:28- That's German. - Mm-hm.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30Would you like a Tune, Martin?
0:21:30 > 0:21:33If I hum it, will you play it?
0:21:33 > 0:21:34No, would you like a Tune?
0:21:34 > 0:21:36Yes. I'm just...
0:21:37 > 0:21:39Thanks.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41Ooh.
0:21:44 > 0:21:46That's for good luck.
0:21:48 > 0:21:53I've always thought that Saint Christopher was a bit of a Mickey Mouse saint.
0:21:53 > 0:21:54I used to be an altar boy.
0:21:54 > 0:21:57Do you believe in God, Martin?
0:21:57 > 0:21:59Well, where do you start?
0:22:00 > 0:22:04I've always thought that was a very difficult question to...
0:22:04 > 0:22:06give a simple answer to.
0:22:06 > 0:22:08- Do you?- Yes.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10HE CHUCKLES
0:22:12 > 0:22:14BIRDSONG
0:23:01 > 0:23:03- You all right? - I'm fine.
0:23:06 > 0:23:07BUZZER
0:23:08 > 0:23:11I'm one of the lucky ones, Martin.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14Some of the mothers and babies didn't even survive the childbirth.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16Gosh.
0:23:17 > 0:23:20- Can I help you? - I'm Philomena Lee.
0:23:20 > 0:23:23- I made an appointment. - Yes. Come in, Philomena.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25This is my friend Martin Sixsmith, News At Ten.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Well, it's BBC News, actually, but not any more.
0:23:28 > 0:23:30- Oh, hello.- Hello.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38- Sister Claire will be with you shortly.- Thank you.
0:23:39 > 0:23:41May I use the bathroom?
0:23:41 > 0:23:43- It's downstairs on... - I know where it is.
0:23:46 > 0:23:48Will I get you both some tea?
0:23:48 > 0:23:49Yes, thank you.
0:24:46 > 0:24:48CRYING
0:24:49 > 0:24:51'Anthony!'
0:24:58 > 0:25:00'Anthony!
0:25:01 > 0:25:03'Anthony!'
0:25:04 > 0:25:06Anthony!
0:25:08 > 0:25:09- SOBBING:- Anthony!
0:25:11 > 0:25:15Anth...ony!
0:25:31 > 0:25:33DOOR OPENS
0:25:33 > 0:25:35- Hello.- Oh, hello.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38- I'm Sister Claire. - Yes, hello.
0:25:38 > 0:25:41I was just admiring your picture of Jayne Mansfield there.
0:25:41 > 0:25:45No, that's Jane Russell. Jayne Mansfield was the blonde one.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Yes, of course, yes. But they were both very big.
0:25:47 > 0:25:52I mean the two of them, they were huge. Their careers.
0:25:52 > 0:25:56- Which one of them died in a car crash?- Jayne Mansfield, yes.
0:25:56 > 0:25:58- And why is she on the wall? - Sorry, I didn't catch your name.
0:25:58 > 0:26:01- Martin Sixsmith. - Martin Sixsmith, News At Ten.
0:26:01 > 0:26:04Well, I was with the BBC, but not any more.
0:26:04 > 0:26:07Hello, Philomena. Very nice to meet you.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09- I'm Sister Claire. - Sister Claire.
0:26:09 > 0:26:12Now, when was the last time you came to see us, Philomena?
0:26:12 > 0:26:15It was well before your time, Sister Claire.
0:26:15 > 0:26:18I spoke to Sister Hildegarde on the telephone
0:26:18 > 0:26:21and when I came here she wasn't well enough to see me.
0:26:21 > 0:26:25She's still with us, but she's very frail now.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27Oh, Martin, have some buttered brack.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29Wouldn't mind.
0:26:31 > 0:26:35Mm. That's very nice. It's like a sort of pan dulce?
0:26:35 > 0:26:39- It's fruit bread, Martin. - Yes. No, I know. It's lovely.
0:26:39 > 0:26:43Well, now, I don't know if they told you last time, Philomena,
0:26:43 > 0:26:45but most of our records were destroyed in the big fire.
0:26:45 > 0:26:47- Oh?- Fire?
0:26:47 > 0:26:53Well, it was before my time. So I'm afraid I have no news of Anthony.
0:27:05 > 0:27:08I still go to Mass and...
0:27:09 > 0:27:14I don't want to cause any fuss or point the finger at anybody,
0:27:14 > 0:27:16or blame the Church in any way.
0:27:18 > 0:27:21I only want to know if he's all right. I don't even need to see him.
0:27:23 > 0:27:30I have visions of him and he's homeless and nobody loves him.
0:27:30 > 0:27:34Philomena, we can't take away your pain...
0:27:36 > 0:27:40..but we can walk through it with you, hand in hand.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43Um...
0:27:43 > 0:27:46These older nuns... Sorry to interrupt.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49These older nuns, perhaps they could help us with some of the details?
0:27:49 > 0:27:51Most of them have passed away.
0:27:51 > 0:27:54Right. What about the ones that haven't?
0:27:54 > 0:27:56I don't think you're going to get much sense out of them.
0:27:56 > 0:27:58But can we try?
0:27:59 > 0:28:02I don't think that's going to be possible.
0:28:02 > 0:28:04Why not?
0:28:04 > 0:28:07I'm happy to answer any questions Philomena has.
0:28:07 > 0:28:11- Well, I'm asking you a question. - You're a journalist.
0:28:11 > 0:28:12Yes, I am. Well, I used to be.
0:28:12 > 0:28:16- Martin's a Roman Catholic. - Yes... Well, no, I used to be.
0:28:16 > 0:28:20I'd feel more comfortable if I could speak to Philomena in private.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24DISTANT CHORAL SINGING
0:28:32 > 0:28:33DOOR SHUTS
0:28:47 > 0:28:49- Hello.- >
0:28:49 > 0:28:50Can I help?
0:28:50 > 0:28:53- Oh, sorry. I was just... - Are you looking for something?
0:28:53 > 0:28:55What's down here?
0:28:55 > 0:28:58- Those are private quarters. - Oh. OK.
0:28:58 > 0:28:59DOOR CLOSES
0:29:01 > 0:29:02I'll wait outside.
0:29:36 > 0:29:38BELL TOLLING
0:29:41 > 0:29:44Sorry, I was just having a look round.
0:29:53 > 0:29:55What did she say to you?
0:29:55 > 0:29:59Oh, she said you were a journalist and that...
0:29:59 > 0:30:01you were trying to manipulate me and that...
0:30:01 > 0:30:04I should be careful what I say to you.
0:30:04 > 0:30:06She also gave me this.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11- Do you want me to open it? - Mm-hm.
0:30:15 > 0:30:19Well, it's a contract, signed by you in 1955.
0:30:19 > 0:30:24It says, "I hereby relinquish full claim forever to my said child Anthony Lee.
0:30:24 > 0:30:25"I further undertake..."
0:30:25 > 0:30:28"..never to attempt to see, interfere with
0:30:28 > 0:30:32"or make any claim to the said child at any future time."
0:30:34 > 0:30:36I'll never find him.
0:30:36 > 0:30:38If they coerced you in any way to sign this,
0:30:38 > 0:30:40we can challenge them legally.
0:30:40 > 0:30:42Martin, no-one coerced me.
0:30:42 > 0:30:44I signed of my own free will.
0:30:50 > 0:30:52It's funny, isn't it?
0:30:52 > 0:30:54All the pieces of paper designed to...
0:30:54 > 0:30:57help you find him have been destroyed.
0:30:57 > 0:30:59But guess what? The one piece of paper
0:30:59 > 0:31:00designed to stop you finding him
0:31:00 > 0:31:03has been lovingly preserved.
0:31:03 > 0:31:07God in His infinite wisdom decided to spare that from the flames.
0:31:07 > 0:31:09I signed it because I believed I'd committed
0:31:09 > 0:31:11a terrible sin and had to be punished.
0:31:12 > 0:31:17But what made it so much worse was that I enjoyed it.
0:31:17 > 0:31:20- What?- The sex.
0:31:20 > 0:31:21Oh...
0:31:21 > 0:31:25It was wonderful, Martin. I thought I was floating on air.
0:31:26 > 0:31:29He was so handsome... and the way he held me in his arms.
0:31:31 > 0:31:34The thing is, I didn't even know I had a clitoris, Martin.
0:31:34 > 0:31:36Right?
0:31:36 > 0:31:38And after the sex was over, I thought
0:31:38 > 0:31:40anything that feels so lovely must be wrong.
0:31:41 > 0:31:43Fucking Catholics.
0:31:45 > 0:31:47Sorry.
0:31:47 > 0:31:51I spent 30 years as a nurse. I've heard worse than that.
0:31:51 > 0:31:54It's just, why would God bestow upon us
0:31:54 > 0:31:57a sexual desire that he then wants us to resist?
0:31:57 > 0:31:59Is it some weird game he's invented
0:31:59 > 0:32:03to alleviate the boredom of being omnipotent?
0:32:03 > 0:32:04It baffles me.
0:32:04 > 0:32:07And I think I'm pretty clever.
0:32:07 > 0:32:08Well, maybe you're not.
0:32:12 > 0:32:16- How'd it go?- What, from the Sisters of Little Mercy?
0:32:16 > 0:32:18Right, so just tea and cake, then?
0:32:20 > 0:32:23That's all they've ever given you, isn't it, Mum?
0:32:24 > 0:32:26It's not their fault, Jane.
0:32:26 > 0:32:29They had a fire and all the records were lost.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31- No, thank you. It's past your bedtime.- Thank you.
0:32:31 > 0:32:34Now, he's just poured it now. Slainte.
0:32:34 > 0:32:35Mother.
0:32:40 > 0:32:43- Right. Night, Martin. - Night, Jane.
0:32:43 > 0:32:47- Night-night, Martin. - Night, Philomena. Sleep well.
0:32:50 > 0:32:51Cheers.
0:32:51 > 0:32:54- Been up to the Abbey? - Mm.
0:32:54 > 0:32:56Yes. Yes, it's um...
0:32:56 > 0:32:59Things obviously very different now. The nuns are different.
0:32:59 > 0:33:01Not the same ones they had when the Magdalen girls were there.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04- WOMAN:- Sure. They're all gone now!
0:33:04 > 0:33:06We've had a few staying here, looking to find
0:33:06 > 0:33:08what happened to their sons or daughters.
0:33:08 > 0:33:10Not many of them get any joy from there.
0:33:10 > 0:33:13And the big fire that destroyed everything. Do you know how that started?
0:33:13 > 0:33:16- I should think they put a match to it.- Who?
0:33:16 > 0:33:20The sisters. Sure they had a great fire on the field out the back.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22What, so the Abbey wasn't on fire?
0:33:22 > 0:33:25They had a bloody big bonfire. Burnt all the records. Thousands of 'em.
0:33:25 > 0:33:28- Why? I mean... - This is years ago.
0:33:28 > 0:33:31I suppose they were embarrassed about selling babies to America.
0:33:31 > 0:33:33And they don't want people telling tales.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36- That's me mother.- You say they sold babies to Americans?
0:33:36 > 0:33:39A lot of the Yanks came over to Ireland to look for babies.
0:33:39 > 0:33:41They were the only ones who could afford them.
0:33:41 > 0:33:43£1,000.
0:33:43 > 0:33:47Jane Russell bought a baby from Derry in 1952...the film star.
0:33:47 > 0:33:49I can't believe they sold babies.
0:33:49 > 0:33:50She came in here looking for bourbon,
0:33:50 > 0:33:53but they had to give her a glass of Paddy instead.
0:33:53 > 0:33:56If you were a Catholic with £1,000, you could buy a baby.
0:33:56 > 0:33:59Jane Russell bought one to take home with her.
0:33:59 > 0:34:01But I'm not one to repeat gossip.
0:34:01 > 0:34:03No, no, I can see that.
0:34:03 > 0:34:06- Slainte. - Yes, cheers.
0:34:21 > 0:34:24MARTIN: 'Sally, you told me to call you if I came up with something
0:34:24 > 0:34:26'and this fell into my lap.'
0:34:26 > 0:34:28- Go on. - It's quite interesting, actually.
0:34:28 > 0:34:32I think there are themes about people searching for their family trees
0:34:32 > 0:34:35and the whole Irish diaspora...
0:34:35 > 0:34:37Don't use words like diaspora, Martin.
0:34:37 > 0:34:40I can't spell it and people don't know what it means.
0:34:40 > 0:34:42'The exodus that followed the Irish famine.'
0:34:42 > 0:34:45No, no, no. I'm genuinely not interested in what it means.
0:34:45 > 0:34:47OK.
0:34:47 > 0:34:49Who are the goodies? Who are the baddies?
0:34:49 > 0:34:52Well, it's about a little old Irish lady,
0:34:52 > 0:34:57a retired nurse, who is searching for her long-lost son who was taken,
0:34:57 > 0:35:02snatched from her at birth by...evil nuns.
0:35:02 > 0:35:06So how does it end? And it's got to be really happy or really sad.
0:35:06 > 0:35:09Either he's chairman of IBM or a hobo, it doesn't matter.
0:35:09 > 0:35:13The years melted away as a 50-year silence was
0:35:13 > 0:35:17broken by two simple words, "Hello, Mum."
0:35:17 > 0:35:18I could write it now.
0:35:20 > 0:35:22I didn't know you were so cynical.
0:35:22 > 0:35:25My guess is that Anthony was adopted and sent to America.
0:35:25 > 0:35:29The Abbey dealt almost exclusively with American customers.
0:35:29 > 0:35:30I can't believe they sold babies.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32They were trying to give him a better life.
0:35:32 > 0:35:35- They tried to make money out of him!- There's a problem.
0:35:35 > 0:35:39I got through to the Sacred Heart Adoption Society in Cork this morning.
0:35:39 > 0:35:42They referred me to the Irish Adoption Board,
0:35:42 > 0:35:44who referred me back to the Sacred Heart Adoption Society.
0:35:44 > 0:35:46- Sending you round in circles. - They won't help us.
0:35:46 > 0:35:50But I spoke to some contacts from my Washington days last night,
0:35:50 > 0:35:52and there are avenues we can pursue in America.
0:35:52 > 0:35:57The stumbling block is I can only get so far speaking on your behalf, Philomena.
0:35:57 > 0:36:01But as his mother, they would be legally bound to provide you with the information.
0:36:01 > 0:36:04Are you suggesting you take my mother to America with you?
0:36:04 > 0:36:09If you want. My editor's agreed to foot the bill.
0:36:09 > 0:36:12How would you feel about going to America with Martin?
0:36:12 > 0:36:14Uh... I... I don't know.
0:36:14 > 0:36:15I could come with you if you like.
0:36:15 > 0:36:17No, no, no, you have your work.
0:36:17 > 0:36:21I'm worried that Martin will have to go all that way with a daft old woman like me.
0:36:21 > 0:36:23- I don't think you're daft. - Go away, would you?
0:36:23 > 0:36:25Or old.
0:36:29 > 0:36:31I think I would like to go.
0:36:33 > 0:36:36I'd like to know if Anthony ever thought of me...
0:36:38 > 0:36:40..cos I've thought of him every day.
0:36:48 > 0:36:51Ooh, Washington. Lovely.
0:36:51 > 0:36:55- Did you pack your baggage yourself? - Yes. My daughter helped me.
0:36:55 > 0:36:58I'm getting the royal treatment, Martin. I feel like the Pope.
0:36:58 > 0:36:59HE CHUCKLES
0:36:59 > 0:37:01Well, it'll save your hip.
0:37:02 > 0:37:05Is that an interesting book? I've just finished mine.
0:37:05 > 0:37:09Uh... Yeah, no, mine's rather dull. It's about the October Revolution.
0:37:09 > 0:37:12- Political horse-trading... - Oh, mine's about horses.
0:37:12 > 0:37:15It's about this fellow, Robert, and he's engaged to this duchess.
0:37:15 > 0:37:19And he's only the son of a doctor, so he's done very well for himself.
0:37:19 > 0:37:21But this woman, this duchess, she's terrible.
0:37:21 > 0:37:24She's as vain as you like, and she's always looking at herself in the mirror
0:37:24 > 0:37:26and all that sort of thing.
0:37:26 > 0:37:28Anyway, she thinks he's as dull as ditch-water
0:37:28 > 0:37:32so he takes up an interest in the horses so he can get in with the upper classes.
0:37:32 > 0:37:35And, of course, he meets this girl down at the stables.
0:37:35 > 0:37:37And she's not even a doctor's daughter.
0:37:37 > 0:37:40Her father's a farm hand and he only has the one foot.
0:37:40 > 0:37:43- Oh, dear. - But of course they fall in love.
0:37:43 > 0:37:45And now he's torn between becoming a duke -
0:37:45 > 0:37:49if he marries the duchess, he'll become lord of the manor and all that...
0:37:49 > 0:37:51- OK.- ..and the stable girl who he loves,
0:37:51 > 0:37:53but she hasn't a penny to her name.
0:37:53 > 0:37:55Well, the big day's coming, the wedding, and this girl...
0:37:55 > 0:38:00This girl, she's lovely. She says Robert has to do his duty.
0:38:00 > 0:38:04He's already spoken for. And he's being measured for a suit.
0:38:04 > 0:38:07You can tell his heart's not in it cos all the while he's thinking about
0:38:07 > 0:38:09the horses and the stable girl.
0:38:09 > 0:38:12So they're all waiting for him at the church, all the hoi polloi,
0:38:12 > 0:38:14but the thing is, Martin, this duchess,
0:38:14 > 0:38:17she only wants Robert to spite the fella she's really after.
0:38:17 > 0:38:22And then towards the end she finds out that the stable girl has designs on Robert.
0:38:22 > 0:38:24But before that, the father with the one foot dies
0:38:24 > 0:38:27and he says to Robert, "Follow your heart."
0:38:27 > 0:38:30The duchess gives the stable girl her marching orders and she packs her things.
0:38:30 > 0:38:34There's a pony and trap waiting outside and she gets in, she says,
0:38:34 > 0:38:35"Do you know where we're going?"
0:38:35 > 0:38:38And the driver turns round, and if it isn't your man Robert!
0:38:38 > 0:38:41And he says, "I'm taking you to a place where no-one can hurt you any more."
0:38:41 > 0:38:44Well, I didn't see that coming, Martin, not in a million years.
0:38:44 > 0:38:46It's nice when there's a surprise.
0:38:46 > 0:38:49- Sounds like a real page-turner. - You can borrow it.
0:38:49 > 0:38:51- That's OK. - No, no. I've just finished it now.
0:38:51 > 0:38:54Well, I feel like I've almost read it.
0:38:55 > 0:38:57The Slipper And The Horse Shoe.
0:38:59 > 0:39:02Oh, there's a series of them.
0:39:02 > 0:39:03ANNOUNCEMENT IN BACKGROUND
0:39:06 > 0:39:07Champagne or Buck's Fizz?
0:39:07 > 0:39:10- No, thank you. - Oh. No, thank you.
0:39:11 > 0:39:14- It's free.- Oh.
0:39:14 > 0:39:15I say!
0:39:15 > 0:39:17I'll have a Buck's Fizz.
0:39:21 > 0:39:24Thank you. This is lovely, Martin.
0:39:26 > 0:39:27You have to pay for everything on Ryanair.
0:39:27 > 0:39:30- Well, they don't have club class. - Slainte.
0:39:32 > 0:39:34Martin!
0:39:34 > 0:39:36- Alex, how are you? - Not seen you since you...
0:39:36 > 0:39:39left the department. I was going to call you, actually.
0:39:39 > 0:39:41- Still friends? - Absolutely.
0:39:41 > 0:39:43I hope you didn't think I dropped you in it.
0:39:43 > 0:39:44Don't worry about it. The fog of war.
0:39:44 > 0:39:47Yeah, collateral damage.
0:39:47 > 0:39:49So, what are you up to? Off to the primaries?
0:39:49 > 0:39:51- Yes, yes. - No. He's helping me look...
0:39:51 > 0:39:55I'm just... We're just here... It's a human interest story. Journalism.
0:39:56 > 0:39:58Well, good luck with it. Listen, I better scoot back.
0:39:58 > 0:40:01OK.
0:40:01 > 0:40:03I'm sorry, Martin. Should we pretend we don't know each other?
0:40:03 > 0:40:06No. No, no, no, it's... It's just someone I used to work with.
0:40:06 > 0:40:08A spin doctor. I'm trying to avoid them.
0:40:09 > 0:40:13- Is that first class in there? - It's just a perk of the job.
0:40:14 > 0:40:16Just cos you're in first class,
0:40:16 > 0:40:18it doesn't make you a first-class person.
0:40:18 > 0:40:21He's all right.
0:40:22 > 0:40:26I think he needs a good swipe of shite.
0:40:28 > 0:40:30Yes, you're probably right.
0:41:07 > 0:41:10'Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Washington Dulles Airport...'
0:41:28 > 0:41:31Martin, did you have a little chocolate on your pillow?
0:41:31 > 0:41:32Yes, I did, yes.
0:41:32 > 0:41:34- How the other half lives, eh? - Yes.
0:41:34 > 0:41:37- Would you look at the view! - Wow. Yeah.
0:41:37 > 0:41:40Mine's of an air conditioning duct.
0:41:40 > 0:41:42PHONE RINGS
0:41:42 > 0:41:46Ah. It's Caroline from the records office. Better get this. Hello.
0:41:46 > 0:41:48Well, that's conjecture, guesswork.
0:41:48 > 0:41:52Good guesswork. Send over the long list, then I can sort of...
0:41:52 > 0:41:55- TV:- 'Martin Lawrence is going undercover.'
0:41:55 > 0:41:57Great. Fabulous. I'll talk to you in the morning.
0:41:57 > 0:41:59OK. Bye-bye.
0:42:02 > 0:42:04Shall we go for a walk, get rid of the jet lag?
0:42:04 > 0:42:07You said you wanted to visit the Lincoln Memorial?
0:42:07 > 0:42:10We could go and see Mr Lincoln. Or...
0:42:10 > 0:42:13we could watch, on television, Big Momma's House.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16It's about a little black man pretending to be a fat black lady.
0:42:16 > 0:42:19They've just showed some of it on the television.
0:42:19 > 0:42:22And they're all chasing after him.
0:42:22 > 0:42:24It looked hilarious, Martin.
0:42:28 > 0:42:30Isn't he wonderful?
0:42:30 > 0:42:33I've always wanted to see him in his big chair.
0:42:33 > 0:42:35Well, he was a big man.
0:42:37 > 0:42:40Literally - six foot four. Tallest American President.
0:42:40 > 0:42:44Well, you can see that. He's tall even sitting down.
0:42:44 > 0:42:46I had a friend whose daughter paid for her
0:42:46 > 0:42:48to go to Florida for her 70th birthday.
0:42:48 > 0:42:51She said to me, "Phil, the size of the portions, you wouldn't believe."
0:42:51 > 0:42:54If you just go... Let's just take a quick picture, see.
0:42:54 > 0:42:55You go stand by the line.
0:42:55 > 0:42:58- Is this for the article? - It is. Just go back further.
0:42:58 > 0:43:00Only I'm a little bit worried, because if we find him,
0:43:00 > 0:43:03he might be very disapproving of talking to the papers.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05Families are private things.
0:43:05 > 0:43:08I know. Go and stand back there. That's true, they are private,
0:43:08 > 0:43:10but tracking him down's an expensive business,
0:43:10 > 0:43:12and so it's sort of like a quid pro quo, isn't it?
0:43:12 > 0:43:16- What does that mean?- Well, it literally means this for that.
0:43:16 > 0:43:20Don't worry. I won't write anything you're unhappy with. I want to tell the truth.
0:43:20 > 0:43:22Yes. That's the thing I'm worried about.
0:43:22 > 0:43:24Should I smile or should I be serious?
0:43:24 > 0:43:29Erm... Let's do one happy, one not so happy.
0:43:34 > 0:43:38I'm getting scared, now we're getting closer.
0:43:38 > 0:43:42All these years, wondering whether Anthony was in trouble or in... prison,
0:43:42 > 0:43:44or goodness knows where.
0:43:44 > 0:43:48As long as I didn't know, I could always tell myself he was happy somewhere
0:43:48 > 0:43:50and that he was doing all right.
0:43:50 > 0:43:52But what if he died in Vietnam?
0:43:52 > 0:43:55Or came back with no legs, or lived on the street...
0:43:58 > 0:44:00Don't upset yourself. Hm?
0:44:00 > 0:44:04We don't know what we don't know. We'll deal with that when we get to it.
0:44:04 > 0:44:07Well, what if he was a drug addict, Martin?
0:44:07 > 0:44:09Or what if he was obese?
0:44:11 > 0:44:12Obese?
0:44:12 > 0:44:17I watched this documentary that says a lot of Americans are huge.
0:44:17 > 0:44:19What if that's happened to him?
0:44:19 > 0:44:21What on earth makes you think he'd be obese?
0:44:21 > 0:44:24Because of the size of the portions.
0:44:24 > 0:44:26TV ON
0:44:26 > 0:44:28PHONE RINGS
0:44:31 > 0:44:32Hello?
0:44:33 > 0:44:36No, I've got a bathrobe, Philomena.
0:44:37 > 0:44:40Yes, there are two in every room.
0:44:40 > 0:44:42And slippers.
0:44:43 > 0:44:45OK, you've just got a bit of jet lag.
0:44:45 > 0:44:47Just try and get your head down.
0:44:47 > 0:44:49All right, night-night.
0:44:50 > 0:44:52- How is everyone? KATE:- 'Yeah. We're all good.
0:44:52 > 0:44:54'Danny won his rugby match today, nearly scored a try.'
0:44:54 > 0:44:56- That's fantastic. - 'How's Philomena?'
0:44:56 > 0:45:01Well, I've finally seen, first hand, what a lifetime's diet of the Reader's Digest,
0:45:01 > 0:45:05the Daily Mail and romantic fiction can do to a person's brain.
0:45:05 > 0:45:06KATE LAUGHS
0:45:06 > 0:45:09She keeps telling the hotel staff how kind they are.
0:45:09 > 0:45:11She must think they're volunteers.
0:45:11 > 0:45:14She told four people today they were one in a million.
0:45:14 > 0:45:15What are the chances of that?
0:45:15 > 0:45:18'Come on, she's just a little old Irish lady.'
0:45:21 > 0:45:22KNOCK AT DOOR
0:45:26 > 0:45:28KNOCKING CONTINUES
0:45:34 > 0:45:36CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:45:38 > 0:45:39Hi. Is everything all right?
0:45:39 > 0:45:45Martin, I just wanted to tell you something earlier but it slipped my mind.
0:45:45 > 0:45:49And then I thought I'd tell you on the phone but I forgot the number.
0:45:49 > 0:45:51OK.
0:45:51 > 0:45:55Well, what I want to say, Martin, is thank you for helping me look for my son.
0:45:55 > 0:45:56Oh...
0:45:56 > 0:45:58I know you got the sack from your job...
0:45:58 > 0:46:01I mean, not the News At Ten one, but that other one.
0:46:01 > 0:46:03Well, their loss is my gain.
0:46:05 > 0:46:07Thank you.
0:46:07 > 0:46:10- Well, goodnight, Martin. - Goodnight, Philomena.
0:46:48 > 0:46:50PANTING
0:46:54 > 0:46:58'Hello, Caroline, it's Martin Sixsmith.'
0:46:58 > 0:47:02I just wanted to check... Yeah, the file with the immigration cuttings?
0:47:03 > 0:47:05I know you checked it. Could you send that through?
0:47:05 > 0:47:08We don't really have Mexicans in England.
0:47:08 > 0:47:11We have Indians instead, and everyone loves curry.
0:47:12 > 0:47:14Martin. Martin.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17They've got omelettes over there.
0:47:17 > 0:47:20- Thank you.- Pancakes, and waffles, any filling.
0:47:20 > 0:47:21- Cereal, bacon and sausage. - I know.
0:47:21 > 0:47:23- Anything you want. - I saw. I saw.
0:47:23 > 0:47:25- Breakfast is included, isn't it? - It is.
0:47:25 > 0:47:28It's just it's too early for me. My stomach hasn't woken up yet.
0:47:28 > 0:47:32Mine wakes up before I do. I'm having a ham and Swiss cheese omelette.
0:47:32 > 0:47:34- Will I get you one? - No, I... I'm not hungry.
0:47:34 > 0:47:36- What about blueberries? - Coffee?
0:47:36 > 0:47:37No, thank you.
0:47:37 > 0:47:41If you want to help yourself to breakfast, we have two buffets, hot and cold.
0:47:41 > 0:47:43- I know. She's just told me. - Fresh fruit, cereal,
0:47:43 > 0:47:45omelettes with your choice of filling.
0:47:45 > 0:47:47- I know what's on display. - We also have fresh pancakes.
0:47:47 > 0:47:50Thank you. Trying to have a private conversation.
0:47:50 > 0:47:52My apologies, sir.
0:47:54 > 0:47:57There's no need to be rude. She's a very nice person.
0:47:57 > 0:48:01I know. I'm sure she's one in a million, or one in a hundred thousand.
0:48:01 > 0:48:03- What do you mean?- You've said it to about ten people,
0:48:03 > 0:48:05so that's just maths.
0:48:05 > 0:48:07You should be nice to the people on the way up
0:48:07 > 0:48:09cos you might meet them again on the way down.
0:48:09 > 0:48:13Now, you of all people should understand that.
0:48:13 > 0:48:16I'd rather you were rude to me than the nice people who work here.
0:48:16 > 0:48:18Well, I'm sorry. I'm just trying to help you find your son.
0:48:18 > 0:48:20That's why we're here. So...
0:48:22 > 0:48:24Can I have some quiet time?
0:48:33 > 0:48:36- Were you born in Mexico? - I'm from Chihuahua.
0:48:36 > 0:48:40You must like nachos. My granddaughter Natalie got me into them.
0:48:41 > 0:48:46I've never been to Mexico, but I believe it's lovely, apart from the kidnappings.
0:48:46 > 0:48:47- GASPS:- Oh!
0:48:47 > 0:48:50SHE CHUCKLES
0:48:50 > 0:48:52MESSAGE ALERT
0:49:06 > 0:49:08Oh. Er...
0:50:15 > 0:50:17- There you go. - Thank you.
0:50:20 > 0:50:23They've run out of blueberries so I got you raspberries instead.
0:50:25 > 0:50:26I'm sorry. Is it a quiet time?
0:50:37 > 0:50:38That's my Anthony.
0:50:46 > 0:50:48He's dead, isn't he?
0:50:48 > 0:50:50Yes. I'm sorry.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53SHE SOBS
0:50:55 > 0:50:57No.
0:50:59 > 0:51:01I'm sorry.
0:51:01 > 0:51:03I'm so sorry.
0:51:23 > 0:51:25WHOOPING AND LAUGHTER
0:51:40 > 0:51:42- He's dead.- 'Who's dead?'
0:51:42 > 0:51:44The son. He died eight years ago.
0:51:44 > 0:51:45Oh, dear.
0:51:47 > 0:51:48And what did he die of?
0:51:48 > 0:51:49I don't know. I didn't find out.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51- I'm at the airport. - 'You're at the airport?'
0:51:51 > 0:51:54Well, she just wants to get back, be with her daughter.
0:51:54 > 0:51:58- 'What about the story?' - Well, he's dead.
0:51:58 > 0:52:00Dead or alive, happy or sad.
0:52:00 > 0:52:03'They're both good. Spin it. Find a story.'
0:52:03 > 0:52:07Look, if I stay here and she goes home, no-one's going to answer my questions.
0:52:07 > 0:52:09Then keep her there.
0:52:09 > 0:52:11What?
0:52:11 > 0:52:14Come on, she's in bits. It's like she's lost him all over again.
0:52:14 > 0:52:16That's great. Write that line down.
0:52:31 > 0:52:33- 'You signed a contract.' - You serious?
0:52:33 > 0:52:35'Yes. Call me when you've got something.'
0:52:40 > 0:52:42HE SIGHS
0:52:47 > 0:52:49Sorry, that was my editor.
0:52:49 > 0:52:53I suppose you'll have to use the not-so-happy-photo now?
0:52:54 > 0:52:56Yes. I suppose so.
0:53:02 > 0:53:05I remember that day at the fair.
0:53:05 > 0:53:09His father made me laugh by pretending to be an old man.
0:53:09 > 0:53:12And I made him laugh by pretending to be an old woman.
0:53:14 > 0:53:16And now I am one.
0:53:16 > 0:53:20I'll never know if Anthony ever even thought about me.
0:53:20 > 0:53:23And I'll never be able to say sorry.
0:53:29 > 0:53:31We start boarding in about an hour.
0:53:35 > 0:53:39Tell me, Martin, do we have what they call flexible tickets?
0:53:39 > 0:53:42- Yes, I think so. - Where you can change your flight if you change your plans?
0:53:42 > 0:53:44Yes, but...
0:53:44 > 0:53:47Supposing we didn't get on the aeroplane tonight?
0:53:49 > 0:53:52Because I've been sitting here waiting for a sign, and I haven't had one.
0:53:52 > 0:53:54And so I've made the decision myself
0:53:54 > 0:53:56and I'd like to stay a little longer.
0:53:58 > 0:54:01Well, if that's what you want to do?
0:54:01 > 0:54:02It is.
0:54:04 > 0:54:07I'd like to talk to someone who actually met him.
0:54:09 > 0:54:11All right, then we'll stay.
0:54:12 > 0:54:14TV ON
0:54:17 > 0:54:20I've been sent a picture of Anthony, if you want to see it.
0:54:20 > 0:54:21Oh.
0:54:21 > 0:54:24- Yes, please. - With President Reagan.
0:54:27 > 0:54:30It's from a woman we could meet tomorrow...
0:54:30 > 0:54:33called Marcia Weller.
0:54:33 > 0:54:37- She's an ex-colleague of Anthony's. - He looks very smart.
0:54:37 > 0:54:41Now, would you like a drink? Brandy, isn't it?
0:54:41 > 0:54:43They're all gone.
0:54:43 > 0:54:47Martin. This man looks just like you.
0:55:00 > 0:55:01It is me.
0:55:03 > 0:55:05Michael Hess.
0:55:07 > 0:55:08- I met him.- Where?
0:55:08 > 0:55:10- At the White House. - Dear God!
0:55:10 > 0:55:12About ten years ago when I was with the BBC.
0:55:12 > 0:55:13- What was he like? - I can't remember.
0:55:13 > 0:55:17- It was a Republican thing. - You must remember something.
0:55:17 > 0:55:19He was by the door when we went... I shook hands with him.
0:55:19 > 0:55:22Well, what kind of a handshake did he have?
0:55:22 > 0:55:25It was firm. I mean, I would remember if he'd had a weak handshake.
0:55:25 > 0:55:28You don't get to that position with a weak handshake.
0:55:28 > 0:55:30So he had a firm handshake, what else?
0:55:30 > 0:55:34- He was smart. - I always kept him smart.
0:55:34 > 0:55:36And did you remember anything he said?
0:55:38 > 0:55:39- "Hello." - "Hello. Hello."
0:55:39 > 0:55:41Might've been "hi".
0:55:41 > 0:55:42- "Hello." - He was polite.
0:55:42 > 0:55:46Well... Now, well, he was smart, and he had a firm handshake.
0:55:46 > 0:55:49- He said hello, which was nice. - He said hello. Hello.
0:55:49 > 0:55:52- He was polite. - Oh, Martin!
0:55:58 > 0:56:02I...knew your son for about ten years.
0:56:04 > 0:56:09He was senior legal counsel to both the Reagan and Bush administrations.
0:56:09 > 0:56:12He didn't do too badly, did he, Philomena?
0:56:14 > 0:56:19He'd never have got a job like that if he'd stayed with me.
0:56:19 > 0:56:21I think he'd have worked at McEverleys.
0:56:21 > 0:56:25That's a firm of solicitors in Castlebar.
0:56:25 > 0:56:27Did he ever mention Ireland, Marcia?
0:56:27 > 0:56:29I don't think so.
0:56:29 > 0:56:31Although I do have a number for his sister, Mary,
0:56:31 > 0:56:33- who came over from Ireland with him. - Great.
0:56:33 > 0:56:36- I can put you in touch. - Great, that's excellent.
0:56:36 > 0:56:38He looks very happy here.
0:56:40 > 0:56:43Who's this fella?
0:56:43 > 0:56:45That's his friend Pete.
0:56:48 > 0:56:51And were you his girlfriend, Marcia?
0:56:51 > 0:56:52Oh...
0:56:52 > 0:56:55No.
0:56:55 > 0:56:57I don't know if you knew, but he was gay.
0:56:58 > 0:57:02I used to accompany him when he'd go to official functions
0:57:02 > 0:57:05because being gay was frowned on in the Republican Party.
0:57:10 > 0:57:12But he was very charming and charismatic.
0:57:13 > 0:57:16Tell me, did he father any children?
0:57:16 > 0:57:19Philomena, Marcia's just told us that Anthony was gay.
0:57:19 > 0:57:23Well, I always knew that. But I just wondered if he might be bi-curious.
0:57:23 > 0:57:26- Bi-curious?- A lot of nurses I worked with were gay
0:57:26 > 0:57:29but one of them, called Brendan, told me he was bi-curious.
0:57:29 > 0:57:32I don't think he could make up his mind, Marcia.
0:57:32 > 0:57:35He didn't have any children. I'm sorry.
0:57:38 > 0:57:40Did Pete love him?
0:57:40 > 0:57:43Yes, he did.
0:57:43 > 0:57:46Phil, how did you know he was gay?
0:57:46 > 0:57:49Well, he was a very sensitive little boy.
0:57:49 > 0:57:54And as the years rolled on, I always wondered whether he might be.
0:57:54 > 0:57:58When I saw the photograph of him in the dungarees, there was no doubt in my mind.
0:58:14 > 0:58:16DOG BARKING
0:58:20 > 0:58:22Peter, what do you think?
0:58:22 > 0:58:25I think she's in a bad mood. She's kind of got crabby today, huh?
0:58:25 > 0:58:26Unlike you.
0:58:32 > 0:58:35Why did you keep this a secret for 50 years?
0:58:35 > 0:58:40What I'd done was a sin and I kept it all hidden away.
0:58:40 > 0:58:44And then I thought to myself that keeping it all hidden away
0:58:44 > 0:58:47was also a sin because I was lying to everybody.
0:58:49 > 0:58:52And as it went on I tied myself up in knots,
0:58:52 > 0:58:56worrying which was the worse sin of the two, having the baby, or...
0:58:56 > 0:58:57or the lying.
0:58:57 > 0:59:00Oh, in the end, I couldn't make up my mind, Martin.
0:59:01 > 0:59:05I was going to ask you, Martin, if it'd be possible not to use my real name
0:59:05 > 0:59:07when you write the story?
0:59:07 > 0:59:10Perhaps you could call me Nancy? I've always loved that name, Nancy.
0:59:10 > 0:59:12I have a niece called Nancy.
0:59:12 > 0:59:14Oh, no, maybe they'd think it's her.
0:59:14 > 0:59:18- What about Anne? Anne Boleyn? - Anne Boleyn?
0:59:18 > 0:59:20That's a lovely name. Somebody had that...
0:59:20 > 0:59:22We'll have to use your real name, Philomena.
0:59:22 > 0:59:24That's the way these things work.
0:59:35 > 0:59:37- Mary?- Yes.
0:59:37 > 0:59:41Hello, it's Martin. This is Philomena Lee. Anthony's mother.
0:59:41 > 0:59:43Well, Michael's mother.
0:59:46 > 0:59:47OK.
0:59:49 > 0:59:50That's our mother.
0:59:50 > 0:59:52I mean, our adopted mother.
0:59:53 > 0:59:56Was she a nice lady, Mary? She looks a nice lady.
0:59:56 > 1:00:00You know, I'm not going to lie to you. We didn't have the happiest childhood.
1:00:00 > 1:00:04Marge was OK, but our father, Doc, he could be a very hard man.
1:00:04 > 1:00:06CHILDREN SHOUTING
1:00:07 > 1:00:09Stop torturing her!
1:00:11 > 1:00:13And that's him with Pete Olsson.
1:00:15 > 1:00:17Mike and Pete were...
1:00:17 > 1:00:21That's all right, Mary. I know Anthony was a gay homosexual.
1:00:21 > 1:00:26And we met Marcia, who I believe was his beard. Is that right, Martin?
1:00:26 > 1:00:27Yes, that's about right.
1:00:27 > 1:00:32It must have been terrible, having to keep it a secret his whole life.
1:00:34 > 1:00:37- I assume my son died from AIDS. - Yes.
1:00:37 > 1:00:40He wasn't too happy the last couple of years of his life
1:00:40 > 1:00:42working for Reagan.
1:00:42 > 1:00:43He was pretty messed up about it.
1:00:43 > 1:00:46The Republicans withdrew funding for AIDS research
1:00:46 > 1:00:49because they blamed the epidemic on gay lifestyles.
1:00:49 > 1:00:52Right, because some of them wouldn't wear condoms
1:00:52 > 1:00:54because they said it spoilt the feeling.
1:00:57 > 1:00:59Where is he buried, Mary?
1:00:59 > 1:01:02Dad wanted him buried in the family plot in St Louis,
1:01:02 > 1:01:03but Pete wouldn't allow it.
1:01:03 > 1:01:05There was a huge fight.
1:01:05 > 1:01:08I didn't go in the end. I didn't want to get involved.
1:01:08 > 1:01:12- You can talk to Pete about it. - Yes, we have Pete's number.
1:01:12 > 1:01:15I think we're going to pay him a visit, aren't we, Philomena?
1:01:18 > 1:01:19Mm...
1:01:20 > 1:01:24Can I just ask you one thing, Mary? There's something I need to know.
1:01:24 > 1:01:28Did Anthony ever mention Ireland, or where he'd come from?
1:01:31 > 1:01:35Not really, no. We didn't really talk about that.
1:01:36 > 1:01:38No. Why would you?
1:01:42 > 1:01:45- Do you want some sugar, or some milk?- If you wouldn't mind.
1:01:45 > 1:01:48Thank you very much for your hospitality.
1:01:50 > 1:01:52CHILDREN'S VOICES ECHOING
1:02:05 > 1:02:09It seems odd that she was in the same room as someone who knew her mother,
1:02:09 > 1:02:11and yet she asked you no questions about her.
1:02:13 > 1:02:14I don't think it's odd.
1:02:14 > 1:02:18She'd just be asking questions about someone she didn't know.
1:02:21 > 1:02:24I'd like to go to confession. We passed a church on the way here.
1:02:24 > 1:02:27Why do you want to go to confession?
1:02:27 > 1:02:29To confess my sins, of course.
1:02:29 > 1:02:31What sins?
1:02:31 > 1:02:34The Catholic Church should go to confession, not you.
1:02:34 > 1:02:36"Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned.
1:02:36 > 1:02:39"I incarcerated a load of young women against their will,
1:02:39 > 1:02:42"used them as slave labour, then sold their babies to the highest bidder."
1:02:42 > 1:02:44I hope God isn't listening to you.
1:02:44 > 1:02:46Well, I don't believe in God. So, look, no thunderbolt.
1:02:46 > 1:02:48What are you trying to prove?
1:02:48 > 1:02:51Nothing, just that you don't need religion to lead a happy and balanced life.
1:02:51 > 1:02:53And you're happy and balanced, are you?
1:02:53 > 1:02:56I'm a journalist, Philomena. We ask questions.
1:02:56 > 1:02:59We don't believe something just because we're told it's the truth.
1:02:59 > 1:03:02Yet what does the Bible say? "Happy are those who do not see, yet believe."
1:03:02 > 1:03:05Hooray for blind faith and ignorance.
1:03:05 > 1:03:08And what do you believe in? Picking holes in everyone else and being a smart aleck?
1:03:08 > 1:03:11Taking photos whenever you like?
1:03:13 > 1:03:16I read a very funny headline in a satirical newspaper the other day,
1:03:16 > 1:03:18about the earthquake in Turkey.
1:03:18 > 1:03:20It said, "God outdoes terrorists yet again."
1:03:20 > 1:03:22Why God feels the need to suddenly wipe out
1:03:22 > 1:03:25hundreds of thousands of innocent people escapes me.
1:03:25 > 1:03:27You should ask Him about that while you're in there.
1:03:27 > 1:03:29He'll probably say He moves in mysterious ways.
1:03:29 > 1:03:32No, I think He'd say you we're a feckin' eejit.
1:03:46 > 1:03:47Hello.
1:03:50 > 1:03:52Hello?
1:03:52 > 1:03:53- 'Oh, hello.' - Hi, Sally.
1:03:53 > 1:03:54- 'What have you got?' - Guess what.
1:03:54 > 1:03:58He was a big-shot lawyer for both the Reagan and Bush administrations.
1:03:58 > 1:04:00'You're kidding. That's amazing!'
1:04:00 > 1:04:05And at the same time he was a closet homosexual who died of AIDS.
1:04:05 > 1:04:08'Oh... This is perfect for the weekend section.'
1:04:08 > 1:04:10And... I met him.
1:04:10 > 1:04:11- You knew him? - 'Yeah.'
1:04:11 > 1:04:15- So there's a personal angle? - 'Yeah, that's one of the angles.'
1:04:15 > 1:04:18But people need to know what happened to him. There's a real injustice here.
1:04:18 > 1:04:21'What about the evil nuns? What's happening with them?'
1:04:21 > 1:04:25Still there. They haven't gone away. If anything, they're a bit more evil.
1:04:25 > 1:04:26'It's great, Martin.'
1:04:26 > 1:04:29I'll call you back in a bit.
1:04:29 > 1:04:31Speak up now, dear. Don't be afraid.
1:04:36 > 1:04:38SHE SOBS
1:04:54 > 1:04:56Have faith, my dear.
1:04:56 > 1:04:58God will forgive you.
1:05:40 > 1:05:44Phil? Phil, you were right. I was being a feckin' eejit.
1:05:44 > 1:05:46- And I'm sorry...- I was doing some thinking in there.
1:05:46 > 1:05:50I'm going to get a loan from the Bradford and Bigley, Martin.
1:05:50 > 1:05:52- Bingley. - Because I don't have a mortgage.
1:05:52 > 1:05:54And you can get an extension for £10,000.
1:05:54 > 1:05:58My friend Renee did that. She had a conservatory built.
1:05:58 > 1:06:00Well, I don't need a conservatory.
1:06:00 > 1:06:03So I can give you all the money and then...
1:06:03 > 1:06:06And then that'll cover the costs of the hotels
1:06:06 > 1:06:09and all the flights and everything and you won't be out-of-pocket,
1:06:09 > 1:06:12and you won't have to publish the story cos I don't want it published.
1:06:12 > 1:06:14I don't want anyone to know about this, ever.
1:06:14 > 1:06:17Phil, you've done nothing wrong.
1:06:17 > 1:06:19You're entitled to know who your son was.
1:06:19 > 1:06:21Well, you heard what Mary said.
1:06:21 > 1:06:23She said he never gave me a second thought.
1:06:23 > 1:06:26He wasn't my Anthony, he was somebody else's Michael.
1:06:26 > 1:06:29- He probably hated the thought of me.- You don't know that.
1:06:29 > 1:06:31I should never have let him out of my sight.
1:06:31 > 1:06:33We just need to talk to Pete Olsson.
1:06:40 > 1:06:41RINGING TONE
1:06:41 > 1:06:42'Can I help you?'
1:06:42 > 1:06:45Hello. I'm trying to set up a meeting with Pete Olsson.
1:06:45 > 1:06:48- 'I believe you've called before, sir.'- Yes. I've called a couple of times
1:06:48 > 1:06:49and no-one's calling me back.
1:06:49 > 1:06:52I feel like I'm hitting my head against a brick wall.
1:06:52 > 1:06:54'We have explained Mr Olsson is too busy to deal with this matter.'
1:06:54 > 1:06:56- Yes, yes.- 'So, I am unable to put you through...'
1:06:56 > 1:06:59Right, but I think if you give me his personal number,
1:06:59 > 1:07:01I think he'll be OK with that, I do.
1:07:01 > 1:07:03- 'I can't give out personal numbers.' - I know.
1:07:03 > 1:07:07But I don't understand why he won't meet with Philomena for just an hour.
1:07:07 > 1:07:09- 'Thank you. Goodbye.' - I mean, it's not a...
1:07:09 > 1:07:10HANGS UP
1:07:26 > 1:07:28Philomena? You all right?
1:07:34 > 1:07:36RINGING TONE
1:07:38 > 1:07:41I'm sorry, sir, there's no answer.
1:07:41 > 1:07:44Well, she wouldn't have gone anywhere by herself.
1:07:45 > 1:07:49It's probably nothing, but she's very old and Irish.
1:07:49 > 1:07:52And she's a relative? I can't let you in unless she's a relative.
1:07:52 > 1:07:53Yes, she's my mother.
1:07:54 > 1:07:55Concierge!
1:07:59 > 1:08:01Phil? Mum?
1:08:06 > 1:08:08Hello?
1:08:09 > 1:08:11Mum?
1:08:14 > 1:08:16- There you are! - What's the matter?
1:08:16 > 1:08:18- I wondered where you were. - Is your mother OK now?
1:08:18 > 1:08:20- Yes, thank you. - OK, sir.
1:08:22 > 1:08:24I had to say that to get him to let me in.
1:08:24 > 1:08:29You shouldn't have the balcony door shut if you can't hear the door to your room.
1:08:29 > 1:08:31I was just having a little cry, that's all.
1:08:31 > 1:08:33Right.
1:08:33 > 1:08:35Are you going to come back inside?
1:08:35 > 1:08:37You didn't think I was going to jump off the balcony?
1:08:37 > 1:08:39No, of course not.
1:08:40 > 1:08:42Did you get through to Pete Olsson?
1:08:42 > 1:08:45Just to his office. He wasn't there.
1:08:48 > 1:08:50He doesn't want to see me, does he?
1:08:50 > 1:08:53Some people have a problem dealing with the past.
1:08:53 > 1:08:56Not you, though. But I'm sure he'll come round.
1:09:02 > 1:09:04Your chariot awaits.
1:09:06 > 1:09:08I got it in yellow.
1:09:58 > 1:10:02Now, Martin, there's something I want to say to you.
1:10:02 > 1:10:04Now, I've made a decision and my mind's made up.
1:10:04 > 1:10:06Nothing you can say is going to change it.
1:10:06 > 1:10:10I appreciate everything you've done for me, and thank you for looking after me.
1:10:10 > 1:10:12And I've loved the hotels, the food and everything,
1:10:12 > 1:10:15but this isn't working out the way I wanted it to.
1:10:15 > 1:10:18So, tomorrow I think we ought to get on a plane and go back to England.
1:10:18 > 1:10:20There it is. Now that's an end to it.
1:10:20 > 1:10:24Don't try and change my mind by saying clever things about this and that
1:10:24 > 1:10:26- just cos you went to Oxbridge and I didn't. - PHONE RINGS
1:10:29 > 1:10:31I went to Oxford. Oxford.
1:10:31 > 1:10:34Oxbridge is a portmanteau of Oxford and Cambridge,
1:10:34 > 1:10:37- where two words are joined together. - I don't give a... shiny shoe about that.
1:10:37 > 1:10:40- It's all the same to me!- We should go and visit Pete Olsson.
1:10:40 > 1:10:43You can go on your own! I'm not prepared to go all that way
1:10:43 > 1:10:46to hear someone else tell me I didn't give two hoots about Anthony
1:10:46 > 1:10:49and that I abandoned my child and all the rest of it.
1:10:49 > 1:10:50What's that?
1:10:50 > 1:10:52- What? - On the side of the glass there.
1:10:52 > 1:10:54- What? What's... - There. This.
1:10:55 > 1:10:57It's a Celtic harp.
1:10:57 > 1:11:00So we should go home. I'll mind my own business.
1:11:00 > 1:11:04I want to watch David Attenborough on television and I'll be happy with that.
1:11:04 > 1:11:06And what's that?
1:11:08 > 1:11:10That's a Celtic harp.
1:11:10 > 1:11:15Why would someone who cared so little about where he came from wear something so Irish?
1:11:16 > 1:11:20Well, perhaps he played the harp. He was gay.
1:11:21 > 1:11:22He didn't play the harp.
1:12:20 > 1:12:22Well, there it is.
1:12:22 > 1:12:24SHE GASPS
1:12:27 > 1:12:30I could never have given him a life like this.
1:12:31 > 1:12:34Oh, look, Martin, a little red Mazda.
1:12:42 > 1:12:44Bye.
1:12:44 > 1:12:46That's him.
1:12:46 > 1:12:48That's Pete Olsson.
1:12:48 > 1:12:49See you.
1:12:53 > 1:12:56What do we do now?
1:12:56 > 1:12:59- We doorstep him. - What's that?
1:12:59 > 1:13:02It's what nasty journalists do when they want to speak to someone
1:13:02 > 1:13:04who doesn't want to speak to them.
1:13:24 > 1:13:26This shouldn't take long.
1:13:33 > 1:13:35M...
1:13:48 > 1:13:50- Peter Olsson. - Yes?
1:13:50 > 1:13:53I'm Martin Sixsmith. I'm here with Philomena Lee,
1:13:53 > 1:13:55the mother of your late partner, Michael Hess.
1:13:58 > 1:14:00Wait.
1:14:02 > 1:14:03Can I just ask you one question?
1:14:03 > 1:14:06Can you get your foot out of my door?
1:14:11 > 1:14:12Come on.
1:14:14 > 1:14:17Hello. Hello?
1:14:17 > 1:14:20Sir, you can leave or I'm calling the police.
1:14:37 > 1:14:39HE SIGHS
1:14:43 > 1:14:45I'm sorry, I haven't been very helpful.
1:14:47 > 1:14:49Never mind.
1:14:49 > 1:14:50At least you tried.
1:14:59 > 1:15:01What are you doing?
1:15:01 > 1:15:03Wait here.
1:15:07 > 1:15:09CAR DOOR OPENS
1:15:20 > 1:15:22DOOR UNLOCKING
1:15:22 > 1:15:24Yeah, get off my property or I'm...
1:15:26 > 1:15:29I just want to talk to you about my son.
1:15:29 > 1:15:33He was taken from me. And I've been looking for him ever since.
1:15:40 > 1:15:42GENTLE PIANO MUSIC
1:16:50 > 1:16:52'Whoa...'
1:16:57 > 1:16:59INDISTINCT CONVERSATION
1:17:04 > 1:17:06INDISTINCT CONVERSATION
1:17:23 > 1:17:25Would you look at him, Martin.
1:17:29 > 1:17:31- Wait.- What?
1:17:32 > 1:17:33SHE GASPS
1:17:33 > 1:17:35What? What's wrong?
1:17:35 > 1:17:36You went to Ireland?
1:17:36 > 1:17:38You went to Roscrea?
1:17:38 > 1:17:40Yeah. Yeah, I took him.
1:17:42 > 1:17:44He was looking for you, Philomena.
1:17:46 > 1:17:49- That nun, I saw her at Roscrea. - Sister Hildegarde.
1:17:49 > 1:17:52She's older now but that was definitely her.
1:17:52 > 1:17:55They always told me they didn't know where Anthony was.
1:17:57 > 1:18:00But... they...they told us that they couldn't find you.
1:18:02 > 1:18:07They said that you had er... abandoned him as a baby.
1:18:07 > 1:18:10She's been looking for him! She's spent her whole life trying to find him.
1:18:10 > 1:18:12I did not abandon my child.
1:18:17 > 1:18:19He's er... He's there now.
1:18:21 > 1:18:23What do you mean?
1:18:23 > 1:18:25I had this huge standoff with his... father.
1:18:25 > 1:18:30He wanted him buried in the US, but it was your son's dying wish.
1:18:32 > 1:18:33He said he wanted to go home.
1:18:36 > 1:18:38He's buried at Roscrea.
1:18:49 > 1:18:51SHE SIGHS
1:19:33 > 1:19:34We've come full circle.
1:19:36 > 1:19:38Yes.
1:19:38 > 1:19:42The end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started
1:19:42 > 1:19:44and know the place for the first time.
1:19:44 > 1:19:48That's lovely, Martin. Did you just think of that?
1:19:48 > 1:19:50No, it's TS Eliot.
1:19:50 > 1:19:52Well, never mind. It's still very nice.
1:19:55 > 1:19:56Shall we go in?
1:19:56 > 1:19:59You're not going to make a scene in there, are you?
1:20:01 > 1:20:03I just want to ask a few questions.
1:20:03 > 1:20:06I don't want any tea, and I don't want any cake.
1:20:15 > 1:20:17BUZZER
1:20:23 > 1:20:26- Do come in, Philomena. - Thank you.
1:20:33 > 1:20:36Sister Claire's asked if you can wait in here for her.
1:20:45 > 1:20:48Now remember, Martin. It's not their fault.
1:20:48 > 1:20:50They didn't know Anthony had a different name.
1:20:56 > 1:20:58HE SIGHS
1:21:01 > 1:21:03One of them did.
1:21:03 > 1:21:05Martin!
1:21:23 > 1:21:25Goodbye, Sister. See you at Mass, bright and early.
1:21:25 > 1:21:28Excuse me. What are you doing? You're not allowed in here.
1:21:28 > 1:21:30He just walked straight in.
1:21:30 > 1:21:32This is completely inappropriate behaviour!
1:21:33 > 1:21:36Sister Hildegarde, it's OK, I'm not going to hurt you.
1:21:36 > 1:21:39I just want to ask you a question. I'm a friend of Philomena Lee.
1:21:39 > 1:21:41I saw you on a video with her son.
1:21:41 > 1:21:44Now, when you knew they were looking for each other,
1:21:44 > 1:21:46why did you keep them apart?
1:21:46 > 1:21:48We'll call the guards unless you leave now.
1:21:48 > 1:21:50I'm not leaving until she answers me.
1:21:50 > 1:21:53I'm sorry, I think your whole manner is absolutely disgusting.
1:21:53 > 1:21:56I'll tell you what's disgusting, is lying to a dying man.
1:21:56 > 1:22:00You could have given him a few moments with his mother before he passed away
1:22:00 > 1:22:01but you chose not to.
1:22:01 > 1:22:02- That's disgusting. - Come on, Sister.
1:22:02 > 1:22:04You don't have to listen to this.
1:22:04 > 1:22:07- Not very Christian, is it? - Wait!
1:22:12 > 1:22:14Let me tell you something.
1:22:15 > 1:22:20I have kept my vow of chastity my whole life.
1:22:21 > 1:22:24Self-denial and mortification of the flesh...
1:22:24 > 1:22:27that's what brings us closer to God.
1:22:27 > 1:22:28Sister Hildegarde...
1:22:28 > 1:22:31Those girls have nobody to blame but themselves,
1:22:31 > 1:22:34and their own carnal incontinence.
1:22:34 > 1:22:36Sister Hildegarde, please!
1:22:36 > 1:22:38You mean they had sex?
1:22:38 > 1:22:42What's done is done. What do you expect us to do about it now?
1:22:42 > 1:22:43Nothing.
1:22:45 > 1:22:47There's nothing to be done or said.
1:22:48 > 1:22:51I've found my son. That's what I came here for.
1:22:51 > 1:22:54- Martin.- Hang on. I'll tell you what you can do.
1:22:54 > 1:22:57Say sorry. How about that? Apologise. Stop trying to cover things up.
1:22:57 > 1:22:59Get out there and clear all the weeds and crap
1:22:59 > 1:23:02off the graves of the mothers and babies that died in childbirth.
1:23:02 > 1:23:05Their suffering was atonement for their sins.
1:23:05 > 1:23:08- One of the mothers was 14 years old!- Martin, that's enough.
1:23:08 > 1:23:12The Lord Jesus Christ will be my judge, not the likes of you.
1:23:12 > 1:23:14Really? I think if Jesus was here,
1:23:14 > 1:23:16he'd tip you out of that fucking wheelchair
1:23:16 > 1:23:19- and you wouldn't get up and walk. - Stop! Stop! I'm sorry.
1:23:20 > 1:23:22I didn't want to bring him in here to make a scene.
1:23:22 > 1:23:26Why are you apologising? Anthony was dying and she still wouldn't tell him about you.
1:23:26 > 1:23:28But it happened to me. Not you.
1:23:28 > 1:23:31It's up to me what I do about it. It's my choice.
1:23:31 > 1:23:33So, what? You're just going to do nothing?
1:23:37 > 1:23:38No.
1:23:42 > 1:23:43Sister Hildegarde...
1:23:46 > 1:23:48I want you to know...
1:23:48 > 1:23:50that I forgive you.
1:23:54 > 1:23:56What? Just like that?
1:23:56 > 1:23:59It's not just like that. That's hard. That's hard for me.
1:24:01 > 1:24:03But I don't want to hate people.
1:24:04 > 1:24:06I don't want to be like you.
1:24:08 > 1:24:09Look at you.
1:24:11 > 1:24:12I'm angry.
1:24:14 > 1:24:16It must be exhausting.
1:24:19 > 1:24:21Sister Claire, I wonder would you be
1:24:21 > 1:24:23so kind as to take me to my son's grave?
1:24:40 > 1:24:41Well...
1:24:43 > 1:24:45I couldn't forgive you.
1:25:08 > 1:25:10DOOR OPENS
1:25:11 > 1:25:13It's all right. I've calmed down.
1:25:14 > 1:25:15I just want to buy something.
1:26:05 > 1:26:07He knew I'd find him here.
1:26:14 > 1:26:16I'm not going to publish the story.
1:26:19 > 1:26:21It's between you and him.
1:26:25 > 1:26:26I got you something.
1:26:29 > 1:26:31Oh, Martin.
1:26:32 > 1:26:34Thank you.
1:26:51 > 1:26:57You know, I just decided... I did want you to tell my story after all.
1:26:57 > 1:27:00People should know what happened here.
1:27:28 > 1:27:32Did I tell you, Martin, I've finished that book? The Saddle And The Loom.
1:27:32 > 1:27:35- Would you like to read it? - Erm...
1:27:37 > 1:27:39Why don't you tell me about it?
1:27:39 > 1:27:42- ENGINE STARTS - Well...there's this weaver.
1:27:43 > 1:27:47She's quite plain, really. Well, she's pretty but she's plain.
1:27:47 > 1:27:48I like plain girls.
1:27:48 > 1:27:52Yes, well, and she's been told that she has to work all through the night,
1:27:52 > 1:27:54to weave a beautiful cloak,
1:27:54 > 1:27:58of the finest silk for the master to wear on his wedding day.
1:27:58 > 1:28:01So in the morning she shows him the cloak and
1:28:01 > 1:28:04she asks him, "What do you think, kind sir?"
1:28:04 > 1:28:06And he says, "It's beautiful."
1:28:06 > 1:28:10"I've never seen anything more beautiful in my whole life."
1:28:10 > 1:28:12But guess what? He's not even looking at the cloak.
1:28:12 > 1:28:15- He's looking at her! - SHE CHUCKLES
1:28:15 > 1:28:18Well, I didn't see that coming, Martin. Not in a million years.