0:00:02 > 0:00:06# The moon is like a boat, my love
0:00:06 > 0:00:10# Of lemon peel afloat, my love
0:00:10 > 0:00:16# And with a sail of gauze, my love
0:00:16 > 0:00:21# She seems to slightly pause
0:00:21 > 0:00:25# Upon her silent way
0:00:25 > 0:00:30# All on her starry way
0:00:30 > 0:00:33MUSIC: Voyage of the Moon by Mary Hopkin
0:00:33 > 0:00:39This film contains some scenes of a sexual nature
0:00:39 > 0:00:45# She seems to linger long, my love
0:00:45 > 0:00:50# As if spelled by a song, my love... #
0:00:50 > 0:00:52PANTING
0:00:52 > 0:00:57# I know she tarries not, my love... #
0:00:57 > 0:00:58PANTING INTENSIFIES
0:00:58 > 0:01:01# Her journey unforgot
0:01:01 > 0:01:04# She makes her starry way
0:01:04 > 0:01:09# She makes her starry way... #
0:01:09 > 0:01:13SONG ECHOES
0:01:16 > 0:01:19ABBIE: "There was a time when meadow, grove and stream
0:01:19 > 0:01:21"The earth and every common sight
0:01:21 > 0:01:24"To me did seem apparelled in celestial light
0:01:24 > 0:01:27"The glory and the freshness of a dream
0:01:27 > 0:01:30"It is not now as it hath been of yore
0:01:30 > 0:01:33"Turn whereso'er I may, by night or day
0:01:33 > 0:01:36"The things which I have seen I now can see no more."
0:01:38 > 0:01:39BELL RINGS
0:01:55 > 0:01:57Hey.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04What's wrong?
0:02:04 > 0:02:05Nothing.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08Butterflies.
0:02:08 > 0:02:09Hmm.
0:02:20 > 0:02:21GIRLS GIGGLE
0:02:25 > 0:02:28- ALL:- Good morning, Miss Mantel.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31- SHE SIGHS - Sit.
0:02:34 > 0:02:37To the front, please, Abigail.
0:02:41 > 0:02:45School regulations dictate,
0:02:45 > 0:02:49as you well know, skirts should be
0:02:49 > 0:02:54no more than 2 inches from the ground when kneeling.
0:03:00 > 0:03:01MISS MANTEL SIGHS
0:03:03 > 0:03:05Up.
0:03:09 > 0:03:13And those are not regulation.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15Stop your clowning!
0:03:16 > 0:03:21It'll get you nowhere, Abigail Mortimer.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29SHE CHUCKLES
0:03:53 > 0:03:56An egg is a cell.
0:03:56 > 0:03:59It has a nucleus and a membrane.
0:04:05 > 0:04:09When the yolk matures, the follicular sac ruptures.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11If any blood vessels cross the stigma,
0:04:11 > 0:04:13a small drop of blood may get on the yolk
0:04:13 > 0:04:15as it's released from the follicle.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18It's what causes most blood spots in eggs.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20Egg first or chicken, Mr Hopkins?
0:04:20 > 0:04:24The egg's still a mystery to scientists.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26It's complex.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28It's a tiny centre of life.
0:04:30 > 0:04:34- LYDIA:- And then she's like... - ABBIE GIGGLES
0:04:34 > 0:04:37So you're, like, scurrying through the corridor.
0:04:37 > 0:04:38"Abbie, wait!"
0:04:38 > 0:04:40THEY GIGGLE
0:05:01 > 0:05:03What's in it?
0:05:05 > 0:05:07I used to have hair your colour.
0:05:09 > 0:05:11Have I told you that?
0:05:11 > 0:05:13No, I don't think so, Mrs Lamont.
0:05:16 > 0:05:18Oh, come on! You've heard it millions.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26CLATTERING
0:05:37 > 0:05:39Thanks, Abbie. You're an angel.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41SHE COUGHS
0:06:10 > 0:06:12Just look.
0:06:17 > 0:06:19- LYDIA:- Imagine what it's seen.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21"The time-dismantled oak."
0:06:22 > 0:06:24Let's meet underneath it
0:06:24 > 0:06:26the same day every year for the rest of our lives.
0:06:39 > 0:06:43ABBIE: "The moon doth with delight
0:06:43 > 0:06:47"Look round her when heavens are bare
0:06:47 > 0:06:50"And waters on a starry night
0:06:50 > 0:06:54"Are beautiful and fair."
0:07:01 > 0:07:05ABBIE: "There was a time when meadow, grove and stream
0:07:05 > 0:07:06"The earth and every common sight
0:07:06 > 0:07:10"To me did seem apparelled in celestial light
0:07:10 > 0:07:13"The glory and the freshness of a dream
0:07:13 > 0:07:16"It is not now as it hath been of yore
0:07:16 > 0:07:19"Turn whereso'er I may, by night or day
0:07:19 > 0:07:23"The things which I have seen I now can see no more."
0:07:34 > 0:07:37"The rainbow comes and goes
0:07:37 > 0:07:39"And lovely is the rose
0:07:39 > 0:07:40"The moon doth with delight
0:07:40 > 0:07:43"Look round her when heavens are bare
0:07:43 > 0:07:47"Waters on a starry night are beautiful and fair."
0:07:47 > 0:07:50Try not to be quite so emphatic.
0:07:56 > 0:08:00"The sunshine is a glorious birth
0:08:02 > 0:08:06"But yet I know, where'er I go
0:08:06 > 0:08:08"That there hath past a glory from the earth."
0:08:11 > 0:08:13That will do.
0:08:13 > 0:08:15PERCUSSION AND PIANO PLAYING
0:08:33 > 0:08:35MUSIC CONTINUES
0:08:47 > 0:08:49GIRLS VOCALISING
0:09:49 > 0:09:51MUSIC ENDS
0:09:57 > 0:09:59When that's gone all the way in,
0:09:59 > 0:10:03slide the other tube up, too, then pull them both out.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05TOILET FLUSHES LYDIA: Hey, presto.
0:10:09 > 0:10:10SHE SIGHS
0:10:11 > 0:10:14As you know, I'm a virgin.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16So?
0:10:16 > 0:10:18Virgins can use them.
0:10:18 > 0:10:19Anyway...
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- Let's establish your status, shall we?- Oh, Lamb.
0:10:23 > 0:10:25You lost it, Abbie, didn't you?
0:10:26 > 0:10:28He had a car. What can I say?
0:10:30 > 0:10:31I don't get it.
0:10:35 > 0:10:37Close your eyes, kiss your lips.
0:10:44 > 0:10:45SHE LAUGHS
0:10:49 > 0:10:52It takes you somewhere else.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55BELL RINGS
0:10:56 > 0:10:58Abbie?
0:11:14 > 0:11:16That's why you're upset.
0:11:18 > 0:11:19But...
0:11:21 > 0:11:22I can't be.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26He pulled out early, said it was a really Catholic thing to do.
0:11:30 > 0:11:33Yeah, we know, the bell's rung.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36Sorry. They're not my rules.
0:11:43 > 0:11:45Don't tell anyone,
0:11:45 > 0:11:48but we think I'm pregnant.
0:11:48 > 0:11:49SHE LAUGHS
0:11:56 > 0:11:58STYLOPHONE PLAYING
0:12:07 > 0:12:10NOTES ASCENDING
0:12:13 > 0:12:15SHE LAUGHS
0:12:18 > 0:12:20Crowd goes wild.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28So, not seen you in a while, Abbie.
0:12:28 > 0:12:31I've been busy, Kenneth Never Ken.
0:12:33 > 0:12:34Mmm.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37Looks that way.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39SHE LAUGHS
0:12:39 > 0:12:41It's your turn to go to the launderette.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Yeah, yeah, Crazy Face.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46Don't get your knickers in a twist.
0:12:46 > 0:12:47- LYDIA:- Come on.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Abbie, do you mind just grabbing a couple of the things
0:12:49 > 0:12:52from the bottom of the launderette basket?
0:12:52 > 0:12:53Stop.
0:12:53 > 0:12:54OK.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58HE PLAYS NOTE ON STYLOPHONE
0:13:00 > 0:13:01ABBIE: I was an egg.
0:13:03 > 0:13:05Now I've made an egg.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Actually, we're already born with all our eggs.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12I feel so crummy.
0:13:13 > 0:13:16Pregnancy's not good for you.
0:13:16 > 0:13:18- And look at our mothers. - SHE CHUCKLES
0:13:20 > 0:13:22You've always had it in for your mum, haven't you?
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Me?
0:13:26 > 0:13:27Morty?
0:13:28 > 0:13:31She's had it in for me since the day I was conceived.
0:13:33 > 0:13:35SHE SIGHS
0:13:41 > 0:13:42SHE CHUCKLES
0:13:45 > 0:13:47Gin and a knitting needle.
0:13:48 > 0:13:50- Yeah. - SHE GROANS
0:13:57 > 0:14:00I'm definitely bigger.
0:14:00 > 0:14:01They're killing me.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03DOOR OPENS
0:14:07 > 0:14:09- You've changed. - SHE CHUCKLES
0:14:09 > 0:14:11Did we extend the invitation?
0:14:20 > 0:14:22It'll loosen you up, Crazy Face.
0:14:22 > 0:14:23I don't wanna be loose.
0:14:28 > 0:14:30Oh, nice.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38"Everything that lives serves the purposes of the earth.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40"Everything that dies serves the moon."
0:14:42 > 0:14:43- KENNETH:- Hmm?
0:14:43 > 0:14:45You know I'm pregnant. SHE SIGHS
0:14:45 > 0:14:47- She's telling everyone. - You're in trouble?
0:14:47 > 0:14:48Kenneth!
0:14:50 > 0:14:55Let's do some magick, with a K, to dispel it.
0:14:55 > 0:14:56I could do a spell.
0:14:56 > 0:15:00- Oh, yeah? When's that ever worked, hmm?- You know, most people think it's bad,
0:15:00 > 0:15:04- but all the occult actually means is "hidden".- Ooh.
0:15:04 > 0:15:09On a more practical note, a bit of...
0:15:11 > 0:15:14..vigorous exercise might get rid of it.
0:15:17 > 0:15:19Let's go dancing.
0:15:19 > 0:15:22Yeah. Where?
0:15:23 > 0:15:25Not far.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27MUSIC: It's Your Thing by The Isley Brothers
0:15:28 > 0:15:31BOTH GIGGLE
0:15:31 > 0:15:32- THEY SING ALONG:- # I can't tell you
0:15:32 > 0:15:35# Who to sock it to
0:15:35 > 0:15:39# It's your thing Do what you wanna do
0:15:40 > 0:15:44# I can't tell you who to sock it to
0:15:44 > 0:15:48# If you want me to love you Maybe I will
0:15:48 > 0:15:53# Believe me, woman It ain't no big deal
0:15:53 > 0:15:56# Oh, you need love now
0:15:56 > 0:15:58# Just as bad as I do
0:15:58 > 0:16:01# Makes me no difference now
0:16:01 > 0:16:04# Who you give your thing to
0:16:04 > 0:16:06# It's your thing
0:16:06 > 0:16:08# Do what you wanna do
0:16:10 > 0:16:12# I can't tell you... #
0:16:12 > 0:16:14GRUNTING
0:16:16 > 0:16:17Come on...
0:16:17 > 0:16:19I want you... I want...
0:16:21 > 0:16:22Come to me...
0:16:23 > 0:16:25Come to me, come on.
0:16:25 > 0:16:26Come on.
0:16:26 > 0:16:27GRUNTING
0:17:07 > 0:17:08DOOR CREAKS OPEN
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Lamb.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29This situation has made you so unpredictable.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31I'm sorry.
0:17:31 > 0:17:33I don't know what came over me.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40It's just...
0:17:40 > 0:17:41You're...
0:17:43 > 0:17:46- You know, everything and... - And vice versa.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50It didn't mean a thing, truly.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54SHE SCOFFS It's only Kenneth.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02He went on about the laws of love, you know.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Free love. SHE CHUCKLES
0:18:11 > 0:18:13And you told Susan about your situation.
0:18:13 > 0:18:17I wanted shock on that innocent little face.
0:18:21 > 0:18:22THEY GIGGLE
0:18:31 > 0:18:33I think I've wet myself.
0:18:36 > 0:18:38Maybe you're losing it.
0:18:39 > 0:18:41No, it's...
0:18:41 > 0:18:43It's just a bit of...
0:18:43 > 0:18:45You know.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53He said the French call an orgasm a small death.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57That's what it's like, you know.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59When a guy's inside you and you get it right.
0:19:01 > 0:19:03Feels like you're blacking out.
0:19:04 > 0:19:06Dying.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21SHE CHUCKLES
0:19:23 > 0:19:26MUSIC: Little Things by Tracey Thorn
0:19:30 > 0:19:34# Little things
0:19:34 > 0:19:39# Lie in wait to catch you out
0:19:39 > 0:19:44# Leave you with the taste of doubt
0:19:44 > 0:19:48# Hidden in your mouth
0:19:50 > 0:19:53# Little lies... #
0:19:53 > 0:19:56BELL RINGS
0:19:56 > 0:19:58INDISTINCT CHATTER
0:19:58 > 0:20:03# Hide behind the new sunrise
0:20:03 > 0:20:08# Leave you wondering
0:20:08 > 0:20:13# Leave you wondering
0:20:13 > 0:20:16# Leave you wondering... #
0:20:16 > 0:20:18WRITING ON BLACKBOARD
0:20:32 > 0:20:38Abigail Mortimer and Lydia Lamont.
0:20:38 > 0:20:39Detention.
0:20:44 > 0:20:47During the war, I always managed to arrive on time.
0:20:49 > 0:20:51Even contending with doodlebugs.
0:20:55 > 0:20:59One day you'll realise that even you,
0:20:59 > 0:21:02Abigail,
0:21:02 > 0:21:03are living history.
0:21:12 > 0:21:13SHE VOMITS
0:21:13 > 0:21:16Oh, for crying out loud! Oh...
0:21:17 > 0:21:19Janet, go and get a mop.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25INDISTINCT CHATTER
0:21:31 > 0:21:34Shame to waste it.
0:21:43 > 0:21:46Do you think it tastes metallic?
0:21:46 > 0:21:50That happened when my mum was pregnant.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53ABBIE SIGHS
0:21:56 > 0:21:57I didn't say anything.
0:22:00 > 0:22:04According to Lydia, my body has become a situation.
0:22:05 > 0:22:08We'll soon be dealing with the situation.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10You're not gonna get rid of it yourselves?
0:22:10 > 0:22:12We've got it under control.
0:22:12 > 0:22:15It's not passed you by its legal nowadays?
0:22:15 > 0:22:17Not for the likes of us.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03- Abbie? - SHE GASPS
0:23:10 > 0:23:12ABBIE CHUCKLES
0:23:26 > 0:23:31So, you will each learn these recipes off by heart.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Can't we learn a poem instead, Miss Mantel?
0:23:33 > 0:23:35No.
0:23:37 > 0:23:38I'll be back shortly.
0:23:40 > 0:23:41DOOR CLOSES
0:23:41 > 0:23:42SHE SIGHS
0:23:45 > 0:23:47Her breath stinks.
0:23:48 > 0:23:51Puking up on her is probably the most attention she's ever had.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53SHE LAUGHS
0:23:53 > 0:23:54Never lived.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56LYDIA SIGHS
0:23:56 > 0:23:58"Savoury turnovers make a tasty dish
0:23:58 > 0:24:01"and a pleasant change from the ordinary fare..."
0:24:01 > 0:24:03I keep thinking about keeping it.
0:24:05 > 0:24:06I know you don't want it.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11I'll get medical books from the library, Morty.
0:24:11 > 0:24:13Nothing will go wrong.
0:24:13 > 0:24:15I know.
0:24:15 > 0:24:16It's just a feeling.
0:24:16 > 0:24:18But you can't trust feelings.
0:24:18 > 0:24:20We're not kids any more, Lamb.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22We've got to face up to it. There's a real world out here.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25Yeah, and you're the centre of it.
0:24:25 > 0:24:28- What's that?- All this because he had a car.
0:24:29 > 0:24:30And what the hell was Kenneth?
0:24:32 > 0:24:34He's my brother.
0:24:34 > 0:24:37Why is doing it so important to you anyway?
0:24:37 > 0:24:38I don't get it.
0:24:38 > 0:24:40I feel so crummy.
0:24:45 > 0:24:49I can't focus properly, Miss Mantel. Honestly, I feel so awful.
0:24:49 > 0:24:50DOOR CLOSES
0:24:50 > 0:24:54- For crying out loud! - MISS MANTEL SIGHS
0:24:54 > 0:24:58Oh, I have better things to do with my time than this.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00Out! Out!
0:25:03 > 0:25:05DOOR CLOSES
0:25:28 > 0:25:30Say something, please.
0:25:30 > 0:25:33We'll always be, whatever happens.
0:25:33 > 0:25:35What do you want me to say? I'm sure you have something in mind.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38You always seem to these days. You even sided with my mother.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40Oh, don't be like that.
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Come on!
0:25:41 > 0:25:43I know she's awful. Please, I'm really not up for a fight.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46Admit it. You think we're over.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50Say it.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52You're getting it up and I'm not right any more.
0:25:53 > 0:25:56- I'm feeling... - You and your feelings!
0:25:56 > 0:25:58Millions of women have had babies, Abbie.
0:25:58 > 0:26:02It's nothing special. It's life.
0:26:02 > 0:26:03And life only.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07Abbie?
0:26:14 > 0:26:16Abbie?
0:26:17 > 0:26:20Abbie! Abbie!
0:26:21 > 0:26:24It's Lamb. It's Lydia. Come on, Abbie!
0:26:24 > 0:26:27Help! Please, someone!
0:26:27 > 0:26:29Come on! Come on, Abbie.
0:26:29 > 0:26:30Come on, Abbie, don't be silly.
0:26:30 > 0:26:32Sit up. Come on, Abbie!
0:26:32 > 0:26:33Someone's coming. It's gonna be fine.
0:26:33 > 0:26:36- MISS MANTEL:- What's the matter? - Miss Mantel!
0:26:36 > 0:26:37I think she's losing the baby!
0:26:37 > 0:26:39Well, let her get some air!
0:26:41 > 0:26:43Abigail? Abigail!
0:26:43 > 0:26:44Get an ambulance!
0:26:48 > 0:26:49SHE GASPS
0:27:15 > 0:27:18MUSIC: Are You There? by Tracey Thorn
0:27:29 > 0:27:34# Oh...
0:27:36 > 0:27:40# Oh...
0:27:42 > 0:27:46# Oh...
0:27:48 > 0:27:52# Oh...
0:27:54 > 0:27:59# Are you there?
0:28:00 > 0:28:04# Are you there?
0:28:06 > 0:28:11# Oh...
0:28:13 > 0:28:15# Oh... #
0:28:15 > 0:28:17- LYDIA:- Abbie!
0:28:19 > 0:28:20Abbie!
0:28:24 > 0:28:25Abbie!
0:28:25 > 0:28:30# Are you there... #
0:28:31 > 0:28:33DOOR OPENS
0:28:33 > 0:28:39# Are you there? #
0:28:46 > 0:28:47Abbie's dead.
0:28:49 > 0:28:51SHE WHIMPERS
0:28:55 > 0:28:57It's true.
0:29:00 > 0:29:02She's dead.
0:29:14 > 0:29:17It wasn't something bad?
0:29:17 > 0:29:19She's dead.
0:29:19 > 0:29:20Well, it wasn't...
0:29:20 > 0:29:22- What?- Drugs.
0:29:25 > 0:29:27It was natural.
0:29:27 > 0:29:29Natural.
0:29:29 > 0:29:30Abbie's young.
0:29:33 > 0:29:35Her poor mother.
0:29:42 > 0:29:43RHYTHMIC THUMPING
0:29:56 > 0:29:58'..the race has been run and won.
0:29:58 > 0:30:02'A look at the arguments by Julian Peddle.
0:30:02 > 0:30:05'To most of us, man's breath-taking adventure in space looks...'
0:30:05 > 0:30:07THUMPING CONTINUES
0:30:17 > 0:30:20We are grieved and shocked
0:30:20 > 0:30:23to announce the death of Abigail Mortimer.
0:30:24 > 0:30:30Abigail... Abbie was a girl of rare charm,
0:30:30 > 0:30:31a most lively...
0:30:32 > 0:30:37A talented and popular pupil who had a promising future ahead of her.
0:30:39 > 0:30:44Teachers have praised her performance as a committed pupil
0:30:44 > 0:30:46who was energetic.
0:30:49 > 0:30:51And dependable.
0:30:54 > 0:30:58Her passing is a true loss to us all.
0:31:04 > 0:31:06She will be remembered as
0:31:06 > 0:31:10a loyal friend who enjoyed art and reading poetry
0:31:10 > 0:31:14and as the founder of the alternative school orchestra.
0:31:15 > 0:31:17Abbie's life was full and happy
0:31:17 > 0:31:21and we shall remember her with respect and affection.
0:31:21 > 0:31:23As a memorial,
0:31:23 > 0:31:25it has been decided to establish
0:31:25 > 0:31:29the Abigail Mortimer Fifth-Form Poetry Prize.
0:31:30 > 0:31:35Miss Fanshawe will now lead assembly in non-denominational prayer.
0:31:39 > 0:31:40SHE CLEARS HER THROAT
0:31:41 > 0:31:46Let us take a minute to remember Abigail in silence.
0:32:06 > 0:32:09You were such a friend to us all.
0:32:09 > 0:32:11For Abbie Mortimer.
0:32:11 > 0:32:14"The good die first." Wordsworth.
0:32:14 > 0:32:16She liked him.
0:32:17 > 0:32:20- SUSAN:- "There hath passed away a glory from this Earth."
0:32:21 > 0:32:24- JANET:- She was beautiful.
0:32:24 > 0:32:27You're up there with the angels.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31She would have made a great mum.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Close your eyes.
0:33:18 > 0:33:20Pucker your lips.
0:33:20 > 0:33:21Do it.
0:33:41 > 0:33:43It takes you somewhere else.
0:33:48 > 0:33:51MUSIC: Follow Me Down by Tracey Thorn
0:33:53 > 0:33:58# Oh...
0:34:01 > 0:34:05# My friend, my friend
0:34:05 > 0:34:10# Uncurl, unbend
0:34:10 > 0:34:14# I'll be your guide
0:34:14 > 0:34:18# Stay by my side
0:34:18 > 0:34:25# And follow me all the way down
0:34:32 > 0:34:38# Down, down, down
0:34:38 > 0:34:43# All the way down
0:34:50 > 0:34:56# Oh. #
0:35:08 > 0:35:09I'm late, Miss Mantel.
0:35:48 > 0:35:49SHE EXHALES
0:36:39 > 0:36:42ABBIE: "The glory and the freshness of a dream
0:36:42 > 0:36:44"It is not now as it hath been of yore
0:36:44 > 0:36:48"Turn whereso'er I may, by night or day
0:36:48 > 0:36:51"The things which I have seen I now can see no more."
0:36:51 > 0:36:52Abbie?
0:36:54 > 0:36:55Oh.
0:36:56 > 0:36:57It's you.
0:36:59 > 0:37:00You fainted.
0:37:03 > 0:37:05BELL RINGS
0:37:05 > 0:37:06- SHE SIGHS - Don't...
0:37:09 > 0:37:10I can't remember much.
0:37:19 > 0:37:21But now,
0:37:21 > 0:37:23I've never felt so bad.
0:37:24 > 0:37:26Tell me about it, Lamb.
0:37:26 > 0:37:28I'm feeling rotten. Didn't wanna say.
0:37:47 > 0:37:50- LYDIA:- It was this feeling...
0:37:53 > 0:37:55SHE SIGHS
0:37:58 > 0:37:59Yeah.
0:38:01 > 0:38:04I don't remember anything before or after.
0:38:06 > 0:38:08Just this spacey...
0:38:08 > 0:38:10WHOOSHING
0:38:13 > 0:38:15It's showing us that
0:38:15 > 0:38:20there is enough energy in a slice of cake to walk a mile.
0:38:20 > 0:38:23It also helps explain the combustion engine.
0:38:23 > 0:38:26- MAN ON TV:- 'And at the end of it all, there's a little purified
0:38:26 > 0:38:28'argon gas from the huge tank.
0:38:28 > 0:38:33'The gas holds a few radioactive atoms containing neutrinos.
0:38:33 > 0:38:37'Later, the radioactivity will be measured in his laboratory.
0:38:37 > 0:38:39'Already they've given one important answer...'
0:38:44 > 0:38:46SHE SIGHS
0:38:49 > 0:38:54Let's meet under it the same day every year
0:38:54 > 0:38:56for the rest of our lives.
0:39:09 > 0:39:12- LYDIA:- What was it like with her?
0:39:14 > 0:39:16She was something else.
0:39:19 > 0:39:21Like...
0:39:23 > 0:39:25..a warrior queen.
0:40:09 > 0:40:12What's my future?
0:40:31 > 0:40:32DOOR OPENS
0:40:32 > 0:40:34- EILEEN:- Can someone go to the shop?
0:40:38 > 0:40:39WOMAN ON TV: 'I am terrified.
0:40:39 > 0:40:42'I am terrified by his arms, by his nuclear destruction.
0:40:42 > 0:40:46'I think this is perhaps a prophetic sign...'
0:40:48 > 0:40:52What if we said we're never gonna go to the shops for you ever again?
0:40:52 > 0:40:56I mean, you'd have to face the real world then, hmm?
0:40:56 > 0:40:59When was the last time you went outside, Mother?
0:41:00 > 0:41:02What are you so afraid of?
0:41:08 > 0:41:10Come on, Crazy Face.
0:41:24 > 0:41:26Titch, time, please.
0:41:30 > 0:41:33I guess I forgot to wind it.
0:41:33 > 0:41:36Who else with the time?
0:41:36 > 0:41:38- CONNIE:- It's not working.
0:41:40 > 0:41:41Susan?
0:41:41 > 0:41:43It's stopped.
0:41:45 > 0:41:47- MISS CHARRON:- It's a coincidence.
0:41:51 > 0:41:53Susan, fetch some water.
0:42:03 > 0:42:05SHE EXHALES
0:42:05 > 0:42:07MUSIC: They Only Do Harm by Tracey Thorn
0:42:07 > 0:42:14# Yes, they only do harm... #
0:42:14 > 0:42:15SHE EXHALES
0:42:15 > 0:42:19# Yes, they only do harm... #
0:42:19 > 0:42:21SHE BREATHES RAPIDLY
0:42:21 > 0:42:27# Yes, they only do harm. #
0:42:27 > 0:42:29SONG STOPS ABRUPTLY
0:42:38 > 0:42:39MISS CHARRON GASPS
0:42:52 > 0:42:54Gwen, would you read?
0:42:57 > 0:43:00"So he, trembling and astonished, said,
0:43:00 > 0:43:03"'Lord, what do you want me to do?'
0:43:03 > 0:43:05"Then the Lord said to him..."
0:43:09 > 0:43:11Gwen?
0:43:14 > 0:43:18MUSIC: All The Seasons by Tracey Thorn
0:43:18 > 0:43:21# All the seasons turn around... #
0:43:21 > 0:43:23Gwen, if you...
0:43:23 > 0:43:27SONG REPEATING
0:43:33 > 0:43:34SONG STOPS ABRUPTLY
0:43:42 > 0:43:45It's just a few neurotic types.
0:43:46 > 0:43:49Relax. You think the medical officer should be brought in?
0:43:49 > 0:43:50We'd be the laughing stock.
0:43:50 > 0:43:54A few girls trying it on, making a display of themselves.
0:43:54 > 0:43:56We used to put wet blotting paper in our shoes.
0:43:56 > 0:43:58Why?
0:43:58 > 0:44:01It draws the blood from one's head and can cause a faint, you see.
0:44:02 > 0:44:06They all seem to have their mind elsewhere these days.
0:44:06 > 0:44:07SHE SCOFFS
0:44:21 > 0:44:23CREAKING
0:44:43 > 0:44:44MUSIC PLAYING ON RADIO
0:44:44 > 0:44:47- KENNETH:- Mmm.
0:44:47 > 0:44:48DOOR OPENS
0:44:49 > 0:44:51Ooh! Sickles.
0:44:52 > 0:44:53And Pickles.
0:44:56 > 0:44:57The sick chicks.
0:45:02 > 0:45:06Are you sure you're fit to go to school?
0:45:06 > 0:45:07Susan?
0:45:16 > 0:45:18Right.
0:45:18 > 0:45:20Let's go.
0:45:20 > 0:45:22We don't want to be late.
0:45:27 > 0:45:29And just look at the result of not being educated.
0:45:39 > 0:45:42ALL: # All things bright and beautiful
0:45:42 > 0:45:47# All creatures great and small
0:45:47 > 0:45:50# All things wise and wonderful
0:45:50 > 0:45:55# The Lord God made them all
0:45:55 > 0:45:59# Each little flower that opens
0:45:59 > 0:46:03# Each little bird that sings
0:46:03 > 0:46:05# He made their... #
0:46:09 > 0:46:12Settle down. Miss Charron has merely fainted.
0:46:15 > 0:46:17Return to your seat, Lydia.
0:46:25 > 0:46:27Please continue, Miss Fanshawe.
0:46:27 > 0:46:31- MISS FANSHAWE:- # He made their glowing colours
0:46:31 > 0:46:34# He made their tiny wings. #
0:46:35 > 0:46:36SHE SIGHS
0:46:36 > 0:46:38I feel pitiful.
0:46:39 > 0:46:42I could do a spell.
0:46:45 > 0:46:47As you know, I don't believe in magic.
0:46:47 > 0:46:49I'm a rationalist.
0:46:49 > 0:46:52Oh, a rationalist.
0:46:52 > 0:46:54- I'm not so sure. - I know my mind.
0:46:55 > 0:46:56HE SIGHS
0:46:56 > 0:46:59What's it all about, then, Crazy Face?
0:47:00 > 0:47:02It's not about anything.
0:47:06 > 0:47:08You see this?
0:47:08 > 0:47:12That one runs through the heath and under your school.
0:47:13 > 0:47:15Ley lines.
0:47:15 > 0:47:18They have this energy -
0:47:18 > 0:47:20sacred, sublime.
0:48:15 > 0:48:20ABBIE: # The moon is like a boat, my love
0:48:20 > 0:48:26# With lemon peel afloat, my love
0:48:26 > 0:48:31# And with a sail of gauze, my love
0:48:31 > 0:48:35# She seems to slightly pause
0:48:35 > 0:48:39# Upon her silent way
0:48:39 > 0:48:43# All on her silent way. #
0:49:00 > 0:49:01SHE BREATHES HEAVILY
0:49:05 > 0:49:07THEY MURMUR
0:49:07 > 0:49:08BELL RINGS
0:49:27 > 0:49:30MUSIC: It Was Always Me by Tracey Thorn
0:49:48 > 0:49:51# I've been waiting for a long time... #
0:49:51 > 0:49:53SHE GROANS
0:49:53 > 0:49:57# I've been looking for the wrong sign... #
0:49:57 > 0:49:59- MR HOPKINS:- Open the windows.
0:49:59 > 0:50:03# I've been staring at the skyline alone
0:50:07 > 0:50:11# I've been watching as the seas break
0:50:11 > 0:50:16# I've been hoping for a keepsake
0:50:16 > 0:50:23# I've been wondering if we'd make it home
0:50:26 > 0:50:31# Cos it was always me
0:50:31 > 0:50:37# It was always me
0:50:37 > 0:50:40# It was always me
0:50:40 > 0:50:47# You know, you know You know, you know... #
0:50:47 > 0:50:49INAUDIBLE
0:50:49 > 0:50:51# It was always me
0:50:51 > 0:50:59# You know, you know You know, you know. #
0:50:59 > 0:51:01What's happening, Lydia?
0:51:12 > 0:51:15She...
0:51:15 > 0:51:17- She was so... - I know.
0:51:17 > 0:51:18I know.
0:51:26 > 0:51:27Lydia!
0:51:30 > 0:51:32I don't know what's happening.
0:51:48 > 0:51:52Miss Charron fainted. It's not just us.
0:51:52 > 0:51:55- How come you're not ill, Titch? - I don't know.
0:51:55 > 0:51:58For whatever reasons, Titch,
0:51:58 > 0:52:00you're immune.
0:52:02 > 0:52:04Titch doesn't believe us.
0:52:04 > 0:52:07I mean, why hasn't Miss Alvaro got the doctors in?
0:52:07 > 0:52:09Oh, such a woman of the world.
0:52:09 > 0:52:10She is!
0:52:10 > 0:52:12SHE SCOFFS
0:52:12 > 0:52:15She's the one thinking you're making it up.
0:52:17 > 0:52:18I don't like to criticise,
0:52:18 > 0:52:22but the handling of this has not been great, has it?
0:52:22 > 0:52:24Some people just want to bury their heads in the sand.
0:52:29 > 0:52:30DOOR OPENS
0:52:37 > 0:52:40MISS ALVARO: It's been a difficult time, I know.
0:52:40 > 0:52:43Don't throw your potential away.
0:52:45 > 0:52:47Do you need some time off school, Lydia?
0:52:47 > 0:52:50No. No.
0:52:51 > 0:52:54There's been some concern expressed.
0:52:54 > 0:52:57You're quite an influence on the others with what you are doing.
0:52:57 > 0:52:58I'm not doing anything.
0:53:02 > 0:53:05I'd like your parents...
0:53:05 > 0:53:08Your mother, to come and see me.
0:53:33 > 0:53:34There you go.
0:53:37 > 0:53:40- Bye.- Bye.
0:53:40 > 0:53:41- Bye.- Bye.
0:53:42 > 0:53:43SHE SIGHS
0:53:43 > 0:53:46Don't you know beehives are completely outmoded, Mother?
0:53:47 > 0:53:49Miss Alvaro would like to see you.
0:53:49 > 0:53:51You know,
0:53:51 > 0:53:55I reckon it's in my official records that my father ran off.
0:53:57 > 0:53:58Should I say driven off?
0:54:01 > 0:54:03Should I make you an appointment to go in?
0:54:03 > 0:54:04SHE RUSTLES PAPER
0:54:04 > 0:54:06Hmm?
0:54:07 > 0:54:08Monday?
0:54:11 > 0:54:12Tuesday?
0:54:14 > 0:54:16Any day of the week?
0:54:32 > 0:54:34DOOR OPENS
0:54:45 > 0:54:46What have you done?
0:54:48 > 0:54:50Nothing.
0:54:57 > 0:54:59"The late Carl Jung
0:54:59 > 0:55:03"wrote of changes in the constellation of psychic dominants
0:55:03 > 0:55:05"which bring about long-lasting transformations
0:55:05 > 0:55:08"of the collective psyche.
0:55:08 > 0:55:10"Old secrets rise to the surface..."
0:55:10 > 0:55:11HE SNIGGERS
0:55:14 > 0:55:15Sorry.
0:55:15 > 0:55:18I don't know why I'm shaking like this.
0:55:18 > 0:55:21- Why are you dancing? - SHE GIGGLES
0:55:21 > 0:55:22You're laughing at me.
0:55:22 > 0:55:25Well, I'm laughing at me, too, but it's not funny, Kenneth.
0:55:25 > 0:55:27THEY LAUGH
0:55:54 > 0:55:56"..to the surface
0:55:56 > 0:56:00"and dissolve into the consciousness of the human race
0:56:00 > 0:56:04"to fertilise the seed of evolutionary growth."
0:56:04 > 0:56:06MUSIC: When Two Worlds Collide by Jim Reeves
0:56:06 > 0:56:09# Your world was made up of things sweet and good
0:56:09 > 0:56:15# My world could never fit in
0:56:15 > 0:56:17# Wish it could
0:56:17 > 0:56:22# Two hearts lie in shambles
0:56:22 > 0:56:26# And oh, how they've cried
0:56:26 > 0:56:33# That's what happens when two worlds collide. #
0:56:51 > 0:56:54SUSAN: "The fullness of your bliss,
0:56:54 > 0:56:56"I feel it,
0:56:56 > 0:56:57"I feel it all."
0:56:57 > 0:56:59- Crazy witches! - HE CHUCKLES
0:57:11 > 0:57:12- MISS MANTEL:- Don't look at me.
0:57:15 > 0:57:17Stand.
0:57:20 > 0:57:23You are not to fraternise with any of these girls.
0:57:26 > 0:57:28- But, Miss Mantel...- No buts.
0:57:29 > 0:57:33We'd like you to observe silence in the corridors and the communal areas.
0:57:33 > 0:57:36You will not attend assemblies and you'll be taking games alone.
0:57:38 > 0:57:40CLATTERING
0:57:40 > 0:57:42On. Now.
0:57:45 > 0:57:47They stink.
0:58:01 > 0:58:03BELL TOLLS
0:58:05 > 0:58:08INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS
0:58:58 > 0:59:00INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS
0:59:07 > 0:59:09May I have absolute silence?
0:59:11 > 0:59:12I want to hear a pin drop.
0:59:25 > 0:59:27BANGING STOPS
0:59:30 > 0:59:33We're very fortunate to have Mrs Maud Leece
0:59:33 > 0:59:36from the Stockshire Women's Circle joining us today
0:59:36 > 0:59:40to give a talk entitled "Accidents in the Home."
0:59:44 > 0:59:46Good morning.
0:59:46 > 0:59:50I wonder how many girls are aware of the work of the Women's Circle.
0:59:53 > 0:59:54I see.
0:59:54 > 0:59:58Well, I have brought leaflets that can be given out afterwards.
0:59:58 > 1:00:00As Miss Alvaro has informed you,
1:00:00 > 1:00:05I'm here today to talk about accidents in the home.
1:00:06 > 1:00:09Unfortunately, your home is the place where...
1:00:09 > 1:00:13- I'm sorry...- ..accidents are most likely to occur.
1:00:13 > 1:00:15- MISS ALVARO:- Girls!- They are frequently either burns...
1:00:15 > 1:00:17Girls! For crying out loud.
1:00:17 > 1:00:20MUSIC: Follow Me Down by Tracey Thorn
1:00:20 > 1:00:23# Oh...
1:00:25 > 1:00:30# Oh... #
1:00:34 > 1:00:36- MISS ALVARO:- I'm so sorry.
1:00:36 > 1:00:39# Oh...
1:00:56 > 1:01:01# Oh...
1:01:06 > 1:01:11# Oh...
1:01:25 > 1:01:30# My love, my love
1:01:30 > 1:01:34# Serene above
1:01:34 > 1:01:38# The moon, your guide
1:01:38 > 1:01:42# Is in the sky
1:01:42 > 1:01:49# You follow her all the way down
1:01:57 > 1:02:03# Down, down, down
1:02:03 > 1:02:08# All the way down
1:02:15 > 1:02:20# Oh...
1:02:23 > 1:02:29# Oh. #
1:02:31 > 1:02:32THEY GASP
1:02:37 > 1:02:38GIRL COUGHS
1:02:40 > 1:02:41GIRLS MOAN
1:03:15 > 1:03:17- LYDIA:- Everything that lives serves the purposes of the earth.
1:03:17 > 1:03:20Everything that dies serves the moon.
1:03:20 > 1:03:22Everything that lives serves the purposes of the earth.
1:03:22 > 1:03:24Everything that dies serves the moon.
1:03:24 > 1:03:26- MISS FANSHAWE:- Now, girls...
1:03:26 > 1:03:29VOICE ECHOES
1:03:29 > 1:03:32..I want to talk to you about the devil.
1:03:32 > 1:03:35The devil can enter in many ways,
1:03:35 > 1:03:37so please cross your legs.
1:03:48 > 1:03:51INDISTINCT VOICES OVERLAP
1:03:56 > 1:03:59- MRS LEECE:- Accidents in the home. In the home...
1:03:59 > 1:04:01VOICE ECHOES
1:04:04 > 1:04:06- GIRL:- Show us the test results.
1:04:15 > 1:04:18MUSIC: Wet Dream by Max Romeo
1:04:19 > 1:04:22WOMAN SCREAMS, SONG ENDS ABRUPTLY
1:04:29 > 1:04:31I haven't got a decent coat.
1:04:33 > 1:04:36Go on, Mum, do it for me.
1:04:38 > 1:04:39For me.
1:04:42 > 1:04:44I'm taking her things she might need.
1:04:46 > 1:04:47Good idea.
1:04:51 > 1:04:53Why can't you care?
1:04:54 > 1:04:55That what you're doing?
1:04:59 > 1:05:01POTS CLATTERING
1:05:02 > 1:05:04DOOR CLOSES
1:05:26 > 1:05:28The school's been shut down.
1:05:28 > 1:05:30- NURSE:- Shh.
1:05:30 > 1:05:33- Kenneth Never Ken. - You're the brother.
1:05:33 > 1:05:34Yep.
1:05:40 > 1:05:42You must believe something's wrong now.
1:05:42 > 1:05:45I suppose all this can't be for nothing.
1:05:45 > 1:05:47It's them and us, Titch.
1:05:47 > 1:05:48SHE CHUCKLES
1:05:50 > 1:05:52Don't look at me like that.
1:05:52 > 1:05:55You make me feel I'm making this up.
1:05:55 > 1:05:58If it's how you feel, it's how you feel.
1:05:58 > 1:05:59All right?
1:05:59 > 1:06:03I don't know. It's like Ouspensky said...
1:06:03 > 1:06:04"To be free, one must be conscious."
1:06:04 > 1:06:07It seems simple, but it's not simple.
1:06:09 > 1:06:13It's all about perception.
1:06:18 > 1:06:22Sometimes I wonder who you see when you look at me.
1:06:23 > 1:06:26I see my friend, Lydia.
1:06:26 > 1:06:30And I see a powerful personality.
1:06:31 > 1:06:32Powerful.
1:06:36 > 1:06:37Nobody knows who I am any more.
1:06:43 > 1:06:44What I'm really like.
1:06:47 > 1:06:49What I think about doing.
1:06:52 > 1:06:54I wanted you to know I've been discharged.
1:06:54 > 1:06:56Most of the other girls, too.
1:06:56 > 1:06:57They didn't find anything wrong?
1:06:57 > 1:06:59Just...
1:07:00 > 1:07:01All my tests were clear.
1:07:03 > 1:07:05- That's wonderful.- Hmm.
1:07:25 > 1:07:27- MISS MANTEL:- Poor Abigail Mortimer.
1:07:29 > 1:07:31She thought she knew it all.
1:07:32 > 1:07:33Naive little thing.
1:07:33 > 1:07:36Abbie and Lydia.
1:07:36 > 1:07:38So very close.
1:07:38 > 1:07:39Those skirts!
1:07:42 > 1:07:43SHE CHUCKLES
1:07:45 > 1:07:46Lydia...
1:07:48 > 1:07:49Unhinged.
1:07:51 > 1:07:53She'll move on.
1:07:53 > 1:07:54The young always do.
1:08:00 > 1:08:03I'm sorry we have to let you go.
1:08:03 > 1:08:05It's OK. It's all right.
1:08:05 > 1:08:06I...
1:08:08 > 1:08:10I was getting a little...
1:08:11 > 1:08:14Anyway, I have my art.
1:08:18 > 1:08:20Are you going to have it?
1:08:23 > 1:08:25I didn't think you'd be so understanding, Miss Mantel.
1:08:27 > 1:08:28It's not as if I'm married.
1:08:28 > 1:08:31Neither was I.
1:08:31 > 1:08:32You mean...
1:08:32 > 1:08:36Contrary to popular belief,
1:08:36 > 1:08:38I was never a nun.
1:08:38 > 1:08:41No, I was going to say, you had a child?
1:08:45 > 1:08:47SHE SIGHS DEEPLY
1:09:06 > 1:09:08- MALE PSYCHIATRIST:- Let's see, Susan...- Susie.
1:09:10 > 1:09:15Is there any friend in particular you especially look up to, admire?
1:09:18 > 1:09:22So, who was the first person in your age group to show symptoms?
1:09:27 > 1:09:30If you don't want to talk about it, just say.
1:09:34 > 1:09:36Any history of illness in the family?
1:09:36 > 1:09:39My cousin, she has fits.
1:09:39 > 1:09:41Have you witnessed a seizure?
1:09:43 > 1:09:46When you first noticed your symptoms,
1:09:46 > 1:09:48had anything happened?
1:09:48 > 1:09:49Exams?
1:09:50 > 1:09:52An illness around you? A death?
1:09:54 > 1:09:58If I were a fly on the wall in your house,
1:09:58 > 1:10:00what would I see, Janet?
1:10:00 > 1:10:02Just... Like a normal family.
1:10:04 > 1:10:06Normal, like normal.
1:10:08 > 1:10:12- PSYCHIATRIST:- Your teachers, what are they like?
1:10:12 > 1:10:14Well...
1:10:14 > 1:10:18Miss Alvaro, she wouldn't care if we were all dead.
1:10:18 > 1:10:22And Miss Mantel,
1:10:22 > 1:10:24she's a malicious prude.
1:10:24 > 1:10:28I like...
1:10:28 > 1:10:29Miss Charron.
1:10:29 > 1:10:31LYDIA: She's been sick, too.
1:10:31 > 1:10:34PSYCHIATRIST: She's close in age to you?
1:10:34 > 1:10:35That's important, isn't it?
1:10:37 > 1:10:38I think so, too.
1:10:38 > 1:10:41- PSYCHIATRIST:- Have you had sexual intercourse?
1:10:41 > 1:10:42Yeah.
1:10:44 > 1:10:47No.
1:10:47 > 1:10:49I can't really remember.
1:10:49 > 1:10:51Your mother? Well, is she?
1:10:51 > 1:10:54I haven't caught anything off her, if that's what you mean.
1:10:56 > 1:10:59Do you like the attention you get from your mother when you faint?
1:11:00 > 1:11:03I hate it if she gets concerned about me.
1:11:03 > 1:11:06Have you had your first sexual experience, Lydia?
1:11:06 > 1:11:09- I don't do things like that. - Could you expand?
1:11:11 > 1:11:14I don't put dates on things.
1:11:14 > 1:11:18You know, I read...
1:11:18 > 1:11:21that one person is really like three people.
1:11:21 > 1:11:24The person you think you are, the person other people see,
1:11:24 > 1:11:26and the person you really are.
1:11:26 > 1:11:29- You're a bright girl, aren't you? - Don't patronise me.
1:11:29 > 1:11:32- Is that what you think I'm doing? - I don't know what you're doing.
1:11:32 > 1:11:34If anything.
1:11:34 > 1:11:36I'm...
1:11:36 > 1:11:37I'm not...
1:11:43 > 1:11:45..mad. I'm not.
1:11:46 > 1:11:48Your father?
1:11:49 > 1:11:51I don't know him.
1:11:51 > 1:11:55She drove him away. She squeezes the life out of everybody.
1:11:57 > 1:11:59You've talked to your mother about him?
1:12:01 > 1:12:03What's a man that I've never known got to do with all this?
1:12:05 > 1:12:10Have you ever had irregular periods or excessive bleeding?
1:12:10 > 1:12:12Do you ask everyone that?
1:12:12 > 1:12:14Just the female patients, of course.
1:12:14 > 1:12:16It's important to have
1:12:16 > 1:12:19a record of all your physical symptoms.
1:12:20 > 1:12:25All I know is that...
1:12:25 > 1:12:27I'm... I'm feeling...
1:12:28 > 1:12:30..is that I'm feeling...
1:12:33 > 1:12:36I feel...
1:12:36 > 1:12:38It...
1:12:38 > 1:12:39I feel...
1:12:39 > 1:12:41It's... I...
1:12:41 > 1:12:42It's...
1:12:42 > 1:12:45I... I feel, er...
1:12:45 > 1:12:47What do you feel, Lydia?
1:12:47 > 1:12:48Ill.
1:12:48 > 1:12:51No-one wants the truth, do they?
1:12:51 > 1:12:54That does make me angry. Write that down.
1:12:54 > 1:12:57I think there's quite a lot going on under that anger.
1:12:59 > 1:13:00It's racing.
1:13:02 > 1:13:04It's like it's gonna jump out.
1:13:04 > 1:13:08I resent this idea that we're just emotional.
1:13:08 > 1:13:09This is real.
1:13:09 > 1:13:11It's real in its consequences, yes.
1:13:11 > 1:13:14What's important here is that it's real to you.
1:13:14 > 1:13:17Real to me? What does that mean?
1:13:17 > 1:13:19It's real to all of us.
1:13:19 > 1:13:21Something's seriously wrong.
1:13:21 > 1:13:22Why is everyone ignoring us?
1:13:33 > 1:13:34SHE SIGHS
1:13:36 > 1:13:39He's prescribed tranquilisers for all of us.
1:13:39 > 1:13:41They don't seem to want to believe we're ill.
1:13:41 > 1:13:42My advice?
1:13:44 > 1:13:46Don't take the pills.
1:13:46 > 1:13:48And try and hide your symptoms.
1:13:48 > 1:13:50I'm finding,
1:13:50 > 1:13:51being in the more advanced stages,
1:13:51 > 1:13:53that my symptoms don't show as much anyway.
1:13:53 > 1:13:56- The advanced stages? - Yeah, Connie.
1:13:57 > 1:14:00Being further along, I'm ahead.
1:14:00 > 1:14:03You just can't stand that we're all feeling ill, too.
1:14:03 > 1:14:05No! I'm glad you're ill.
1:14:05 > 1:14:07Well, no, not glad, but you know what I mean.
1:14:07 > 1:14:08I'm gonna get my parents
1:14:08 > 1:14:11to arrange for us to see a leading medical specialist.
1:14:11 > 1:14:12- Susan!- Susie.
1:14:12 > 1:14:13Come on!
1:14:15 > 1:14:16I'm not gonna let you down.
1:14:19 > 1:14:22MUSIC: Are You There? by Tracey Thorn
1:14:32 > 1:14:35Hysterical contagion, that's the diagnosis.
1:14:37 > 1:14:38The wandering womb.
1:14:39 > 1:14:41- Pardon?- Hysteria.
1:14:41 > 1:14:43From the Greek for uterus.
1:14:43 > 1:14:46Hippocrates believed that the disordered womb led to hysteria.
1:14:51 > 1:14:54MISS MANTEL: Standards of behaviour must be kept.
1:14:54 > 1:14:59This is a school, it's not a mental institution.
1:15:01 > 1:15:05This generation, they think they're so misunderstood.
1:15:06 > 1:15:09If they had any idea what it's like to be a middle-aged woman,
1:15:09 > 1:15:11they'd know what misunderstood meant.
1:15:11 > 1:15:12THEY CHUCKLE
1:15:14 > 1:15:16THEY LAUGH
1:15:47 > 1:15:50Sounds to me like they didn't find anything wrong.
1:15:50 > 1:15:52The tests weren't advanced enough.
1:15:56 > 1:15:59You didn't go mentioning me to them, did you?
1:15:59 > 1:16:02The world doesn't revolve around you, Eileen.
1:16:02 > 1:16:04You know, I'm supposed to go and see another psychiatrist.
1:16:04 > 1:16:06I don't think you'll have much choice but to come.
1:16:06 > 1:16:09They'll ask lots of probing questions about you, you know.
1:16:11 > 1:16:14They're very interested in exactly why I am like I am.
1:16:19 > 1:16:22Have you got any idea what it's like having you as a mother?
1:16:22 > 1:16:25It's so unfair! I never asked to be born to you!
1:16:25 > 1:16:26Get away from me!
1:16:26 > 1:16:29DOOR OPENS
1:16:29 > 1:16:30- KENNETH:- Wow.
1:16:32 > 1:16:34What's Crazy Face gone and done now?
1:16:38 > 1:16:40DOOR CLOSES
1:16:53 > 1:16:56You know, I'm definitely in the advanced stages, too.
1:16:56 > 1:16:59That specialist of yours will just put it down to female hormones.
1:17:01 > 1:17:04I mean, it could be all kinds of things.
1:17:05 > 1:17:07For all sorts of reasons.
1:17:13 > 1:17:14Tastes metallic.
1:17:18 > 1:17:20You're nothing like her, you know.
1:17:23 > 1:17:25You've never actually cried for Abbie, have you?
1:17:31 > 1:17:34Anyway, I've not come to see you.
1:17:35 > 1:17:37I came to see Kenneth.
1:17:38 > 1:17:40Kenneth.
1:17:40 > 1:17:42We've started seeing each other now.
1:17:43 > 1:17:45You know, we've got a real thing.
1:17:50 > 1:17:51I requested to see you, Lydia, because...
1:17:51 > 1:17:54You never liked her, did you?
1:17:54 > 1:17:56Excuse me?
1:17:56 > 1:17:57Her name's Abbie.
1:17:59 > 1:18:01As much as I'd like to take a close interest in every pupil...
1:18:01 > 1:18:03Are you going to tell me exactly what's going on?
1:18:05 > 1:18:06Are you?
1:18:11 > 1:18:14- You're afraid of me. - SHE SCOFFS
1:18:14 > 1:18:15You're merely a girl.
1:18:18 > 1:18:20- What are you writing?- It's nothing.
1:18:20 > 1:18:22It's about me.
1:18:22 > 1:18:25You go around in that thing.
1:18:25 > 1:18:27You're so...
1:18:28 > 1:18:29You're so...
1:18:29 > 1:18:33The school secretary is personally visiting your mother this morning to deliver the news.
1:18:34 > 1:18:36It is for the best, Lydia.
1:18:36 > 1:18:38It is with regret that I must inform you...
1:18:38 > 1:18:39You can't.
1:18:42 > 1:18:44You can't get rid of me. I have rights.
1:18:54 > 1:18:56- MISS ALVARO:- So we thank you, Miss Charron,
1:18:56 > 1:18:59for your invaluable contribution in recent years
1:18:59 > 1:19:01and give you good wishes for the future.
1:19:02 > 1:19:06And finally, in response to recent events,
1:19:06 > 1:19:07I wish to clarify
1:19:07 > 1:19:10that absolutely nothing has been found in any tests
1:19:10 > 1:19:13on the school or on the pupils.
1:19:13 > 1:19:16We have a reassuringly clean bill of health.
1:19:16 > 1:19:19Anyone that says otherwise is wilfully wrong.
1:19:32 > 1:19:33You'll never get rid of me.
1:19:33 > 1:19:36I will not tolerate such conduct in this school.
1:19:37 > 1:19:40- You all know something is wrong. - Get her out.
1:19:41 > 1:19:43Are you not gonna fight for the truth?
1:19:43 > 1:19:45What have you been reduced to?
1:19:45 > 1:19:48- MISS ALVARO: Prefects, get her out.- Inertia?
1:19:48 > 1:19:49You're all asleep.
1:19:49 > 1:19:51To be free you must be conscious.
1:19:51 > 1:19:55Kill the system. It's killing you!
1:19:55 > 1:19:57- PIANO PLAYING MISS MANTEL:- Up, up, up.
1:19:59 > 1:20:03ALL: # He who would valiant be
1:20:03 > 1:20:06# 'Gainst all disaster
1:20:06 > 1:20:10# Let him in constancy
1:20:10 > 1:20:13# Follow the master... #
1:20:15 > 1:20:18- MUTTERING:- Same day every year for the rest of our lives.
1:20:18 > 1:20:20Same day every year for the rest of our lives.
1:20:22 > 1:20:23- SOBBING:- Abbie.
1:20:31 > 1:20:33Lydia?
1:20:33 > 1:20:35You really should leave.
1:20:35 > 1:20:38To be free, you must be conscious.
1:20:38 > 1:20:40Why does everyone want to get rid of me?
1:20:47 > 1:20:49Get off me.
1:20:54 > 1:20:57There's something here.
1:20:57 > 1:21:00I can feel it. Something so poisoned, so wrong.
1:21:02 > 1:21:04Lock the door.
1:21:10 > 1:21:12Stop it.
1:21:18 > 1:21:22- What have I done to you all? - Done? You haven't done anything.
1:21:25 > 1:21:27He should have kept me in the hospital.
1:21:29 > 1:21:31I'm mad, I'm crazy.
1:21:31 > 1:21:33You are not crazy, Lydia.
1:21:33 > 1:21:35You are not crazy, you're not mad.
1:21:35 > 1:21:37We're normal.
1:21:38 > 1:21:40If it's real to me...
1:21:42 > 1:21:44I made it up.
1:21:44 > 1:21:46I've never really been ill.
1:21:46 > 1:21:49- SUSAN:- What? What about us?
1:21:49 > 1:21:52- We've all had it, Lydia.- I've not.
1:21:52 > 1:21:55We've all got it. Nobody can just faint.
1:21:55 > 1:21:57I guess I started it.
1:21:57 > 1:22:00Well, it happened to me very early and I can assure you I'm no faker.
1:22:02 > 1:22:03I'm... I'm not a copycat.
1:22:03 > 1:22:06All of the tests were negative.
1:22:06 > 1:22:09And how come the others recovered so quickly?
1:22:09 > 1:22:11That psychiatrist said if it was real to me...
1:22:15 > 1:22:18- I don't think it is. - You know what, Lydia?
1:22:23 > 1:22:24You're the fake.
1:22:30 > 1:22:32SHE THUMPS WALL
1:22:33 > 1:22:36Everything's wrong.
1:22:44 > 1:22:45DOOR OPENS
1:22:46 > 1:22:48- LYDIA:- So... - DOOR CLOSES
1:22:48 > 1:22:51- SHE PANTS - ..I'm expelled.
1:22:55 > 1:22:56Good for you.
1:22:59 > 1:23:01- Teenagers! - DOOR SLAMS
1:23:09 > 1:23:12ABBIE: It feels like you're blacking out, dying.
1:23:19 > 1:23:24# The moon is like a boat, my love
1:23:24 > 1:23:29# Of lemon peel afloat, my love... #
1:23:36 > 1:23:38- LYDIA:- Even you don't want me.
1:23:42 > 1:23:43It's not like that.
1:23:44 > 1:23:46You know it's not.
1:24:12 > 1:24:13LYDIA BREATHES HEAVILY
1:24:48 > 1:24:50BOTH BREATHE HEAVILY
1:24:58 > 1:25:00PANTING
1:25:37 > 1:25:38Blacking out.
1:25:41 > 1:25:43Small death.
1:25:45 > 1:25:47DOOR OPENS
1:25:47 > 1:25:48Get off!
1:25:51 > 1:25:53Get away from her!
1:25:53 > 1:25:55Go on, you get the hell away!
1:25:55 > 1:25:57Get out of my house! Get out!
1:25:57 > 1:26:00- Stop it!- Get off me!
1:26:01 > 1:26:02Go on, get out of my house!
1:26:04 > 1:26:06Go on!
1:26:06 > 1:26:08Stop looking at her. I mean it!
1:26:17 > 1:26:19You disgust me.
1:26:21 > 1:26:24You ought to be locked up.
1:26:24 > 1:26:25You're dangerous.
1:26:27 > 1:26:29I...
1:26:29 > 1:26:32I forgot he was my brother.
1:26:32 > 1:26:34- SHE SCOFFS - You forgot?
1:26:35 > 1:26:37Oh, you've not been ill,
1:26:37 > 1:26:40but you are sick and you're sick in the head.
1:27:00 > 1:27:02There's not a man to be trusted.
1:27:05 > 1:27:11I know he went and left you, but you must have trusted him once.
1:27:11 > 1:27:14- I mean, you had two kids with him. - One.
1:27:14 > 1:27:16Two. There's me, remember?
1:27:16 > 1:27:17- One.- Two!
1:27:17 > 1:27:19I can count.
1:27:19 > 1:27:22- SHE SCOFFS - What?
1:27:22 > 1:27:23You're not his.
1:27:27 > 1:27:28SHE SCOFFS
1:27:30 > 1:27:32That's why he ran away.
1:27:35 > 1:27:38Whose am I?
1:27:38 > 1:27:41- Forget it, it's history. - It's my history.
1:27:41 > 1:27:43Who is he? Is he still alive?
1:27:43 > 1:27:46Oh, come on, you've got to tell me!
1:27:46 > 1:27:47Well, was there...
1:27:47 > 1:27:49Is there something wrong with him?
1:27:50 > 1:27:52There was, wasn't there?
1:27:55 > 1:27:57What's wrong with me? Who am I?
1:28:10 > 1:28:11He came from the shadows.
1:28:13 > 1:28:14What?
1:28:17 > 1:28:18And then he...
1:28:20 > 1:28:21He...
1:28:30 > 1:28:32You mean...
1:28:35 > 1:28:36You were...
1:28:38 > 1:28:40You were...
1:28:40 > 1:28:42I'm...
1:28:43 > 1:28:45SHE SCOFFS
1:28:45 > 1:28:46SHE SIGHS
1:28:56 > 1:28:59And I look like him, don't I?
1:29:05 > 1:29:08I've grown up looking like him.
1:29:09 > 1:29:11SHE SIGHS
1:29:11 > 1:29:15I always knew something was wrong. Now I know.
1:29:15 > 1:29:17It was me. It's always been me.
1:29:20 > 1:29:22- I should never have said. - I'm glad I know the truth.
1:29:43 > 1:29:46FOOTSTEPS RUNNING
1:29:51 > 1:29:53SHE SOBS
1:29:57 > 1:30:01ABBIE: The time-dismantled oak.
1:30:01 > 1:30:03Let's meet underneath it the same day
1:30:03 > 1:30:05every year for the rest of our lives.
1:30:07 > 1:30:09The time has come...
1:30:16 > 1:30:17Abbie!
1:30:20 > 1:30:21Abbie!
1:31:13 > 1:31:14Abbie!
1:31:18 > 1:31:19Abbie!
1:31:25 > 1:31:27I feel so free!
1:31:32 > 1:31:33Lydia?
1:31:35 > 1:31:38Lydia, sweetie, please come down.
1:31:38 > 1:31:42Look at me, Mum! Look at me! Watch me!
1:31:42 > 1:31:44Watch me! Watch me!
1:31:44 > 1:31:47- No, sweetie, please! Just come down.- Abbie!
1:31:47 > 1:31:49Lydia, please. Come down.
1:31:51 > 1:31:53We could go to the seaside.
1:31:53 > 1:31:55SHE LAUGHS
1:31:55 > 1:31:57That'd be nice. We've never been to the seaside.
1:32:03 > 1:32:04I feel so real.
1:32:07 > 1:32:09I feel so awake, free!
1:32:11 > 1:32:12So conscious.
1:32:15 > 1:32:17Lydia.
1:32:23 > 1:32:24Abbie!
1:32:33 > 1:32:35INDISTINCT VOICES WHISPER
1:32:39 > 1:32:41WATER SPLASHES
1:32:50 > 1:32:52There's nothing wrong with you.
1:32:52 > 1:32:53SHE SOBS
1:33:02 > 1:33:04MUSIC PLAYS
1:33:09 > 1:33:14ABBIE: # The moon is like a boat, my love
1:33:14 > 1:33:19# Of lemon peel afloat, my love... #
1:33:25 > 1:33:28"Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting
1:33:28 > 1:33:32"The Soul that rises with us, our life's Star
1:33:32 > 1:33:36"Hath had elsewhere its setting And cometh from afar."
1:33:49 > 1:33:51LYDIA GASPS
1:33:51 > 1:33:52SHE SOBS
1:34:06 > 1:34:09MUSIC: Let Me In by Tracey Thorn
1:34:09 > 1:34:15# You're up there in your room with all your demons
1:34:19 > 1:34:25# I'm down here in the kitchen with my pans
1:34:28 > 1:34:32# I'm sitting here thinking
1:34:32 > 1:34:40# What is it you're inking on your hands
1:34:42 > 1:34:45# On your hands
1:34:48 > 1:34:54# Confiding all your secrets to your notebook
1:34:57 > 1:35:04# I'm confiding all my worries to my friends
1:35:08 > 1:35:12# And screwed up in the bin
1:35:12 > 1:35:19# All the poems you begin but can't end
1:35:21 > 1:35:25# You can't end
1:35:25 > 1:35:30# Oh, let me in
1:35:30 > 1:35:33# And light is on its way
1:35:33 > 1:35:41# Oh, the air is thick with things we can't say
1:35:43 > 1:35:47# We can't say
1:35:47 > 1:35:51# Oh, let me in
1:35:52 > 1:35:55# Oh, let me in
1:35:56 > 1:36:01# Oh, let me in
1:36:02 > 1:36:06# Oh, let me in
1:36:07 > 1:36:10# Oh, let me in. #