0:00:03 > 0:00:08There's a community of people in Britain that's growing every day.
0:00:08 > 0:00:11It's big. There are two-and-a-half million of us.
0:00:11 > 0:00:13Breathe in and hold your breath.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15You may know some of us.
0:00:15 > 0:00:17Perhaps you're a member yourself.
0:00:17 > 0:00:19We all have cancer.
0:00:19 > 0:00:22There is no right or wrong of living with it.
0:00:22 > 0:00:24Life has got to carry on.
0:00:24 > 0:00:25That's the thing, you see?
0:00:25 > 0:00:27Life has got to carry on, hasn't it?
0:00:27 > 0:00:29That's right.
0:00:29 > 0:00:32There are two-and-a-half million of us living with cancer,
0:00:32 > 0:00:35and nearly 1,000 more join us every day.
0:00:35 > 0:00:37The biopsies show breast cancer.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39I thought they would.
0:00:39 > 0:00:40I'm sorry for being so blunt.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42It's all right.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44But don't make the mistake of thinking a diagnosis
0:00:44 > 0:00:46is always a death sentence.
0:00:46 > 0:00:48All right, dear, now? Are you better now?
0:00:48 > 0:00:50I am. I feel better now.
0:00:50 > 0:00:54Now, for the first time, at least half of us will survive.
0:00:54 > 0:00:58I'm no way on the way out, not for a long way. No.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00No, I'm not going anywhere yet.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04But then again, about half of us won't.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07I said to the wife, "Do you think I'm going to die?"
0:01:07 > 0:01:10And she told me, "Don't be so bleedin' stupid.
0:01:10 > 0:01:12"You're going to be here for ages."
0:01:12 > 0:01:14But I love you.
0:01:14 > 0:01:15Give us a kiss.
0:01:15 > 0:01:16Shut up, stupid.
0:01:18 > 0:01:21It's time to ditch the hushed tones, the awkwardness.
0:01:21 > 0:01:24Just to let you know that the steroid that we give,
0:01:24 > 0:01:27when it's going in, it can give you a bit of a prickly bottom.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29Oh, I see what you mean.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32We want to share what it's really like to live with cancer.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34You want to shout at people and say,
0:01:34 > 0:01:39"Well, can't you just stop? Because my world has stopped."
0:01:39 > 0:01:41None of us have chosen to be here,
0:01:41 > 0:01:44but, still, welcome to our world.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51- Bum in. Swing your feet up. - Thank you.- Marvellous.
0:01:51 > 0:01:55It's just another day in one of the many chemotherapy units
0:01:55 > 0:01:56around the country.
0:01:56 > 0:01:58It's still dripping.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00- Hmm?- It's still dripping.
0:02:00 > 0:02:02MACHINE BEEPS
0:02:02 > 0:02:04You've been off your food.
0:02:04 > 0:02:06- Yeah, I've lost over a stone in weight.- Yeah.- Yeah.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08And I can't... This is it.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10I've got to put it back on, they said.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13But I'm only little - I shouldn't have to put it all back on.
0:02:13 > 0:02:14Yeah, you look fine to me from here.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16I'll tell you what I was told years ago,
0:02:16 > 0:02:18when I was first diagnosed with it,
0:02:18 > 0:02:20helps with getting your appetite going - sherry.
0:02:20 > 0:02:21- Sherry? Yeah?- Yeah, yeah.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23- Sherry.- Yeah, because it's 45. - Sherry?
0:02:23 > 0:02:25Yeah, I saw that years ago.
0:02:25 > 0:02:27- I'm not a drinker, you see. That's my trouble.- Yeah. Yeah.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29That's where you've gone wrong.
0:02:29 > 0:02:30Yeah, that's where you've gone wrong.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33That's why you're in here - you've not been drinking enough.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37- So you've got a little boy? - Yeah.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41- Oh, bless him.- Just two... Just two and a bit years old.
0:02:41 > 0:02:42Oh, gosh, I remember... Mine is 20 now.
0:02:42 > 0:02:45Two and a bit and mine's 20, crikey!
0:02:45 > 0:02:48- Oh, I'm here...- So, you're...
0:02:48 > 0:02:50I'm here every week.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52- Are you? - Touch wood, it's doing good.
0:02:52 > 0:02:57Good. Yeah. I've got another three rounds of this oxaliplatin.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59Yeah.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02But, for me, like, they've told me it's a terminal diagnosis.
0:03:05 > 0:03:09There are some things you never want to hear from your doctor,
0:03:09 > 0:03:11but, inevitably, loads of people do.
0:03:11 > 0:03:15- Let's get you dressed, shall we, James?- Yes.
0:03:15 > 0:03:16Let's get the T-shirt off.
0:03:16 > 0:03:18Oh...
0:03:18 > 0:03:21You going to be a nightmare for me? Yes, you are.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23- MARK CHUCKLES - Sit up.
0:03:23 > 0:03:28When Mark was 27, he was diagnosed with stage four bowel cancer.
0:03:28 > 0:03:30Right leg.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32Five years of treatment has kept him alive
0:03:32 > 0:03:35but he knows the clock is ticking.
0:03:35 > 0:03:39'I really want James to know that I am
0:03:39 > 0:03:43'a dad who is in love with his son, even though I might not be there.'
0:03:43 > 0:03:45- Shall we get going to nursery, James?- Yeah.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47Do your zip up.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51All right, let's go. 'He's two and a quarter years old
0:03:51 > 0:03:53'and he knows who I am and he loves me to bits,
0:03:53 > 0:03:57'but, at the moment, I know he's too young to remember me
0:03:57 > 0:03:59'when he's older.'
0:04:04 > 0:04:08I don't know when I'm going to die so I want to make a journal
0:04:08 > 0:04:10to say, you know,
0:04:10 > 0:04:13"I know I can't be there with you,
0:04:13 > 0:04:15"but I wanted to be part of your life."
0:04:17 > 0:04:21When he gets married or things like that.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24You know, "I want you to know that I've thought about those things that
0:04:24 > 0:04:28"I won't be able to celebrate with you, those days...
0:04:31 > 0:04:33"..but I am there."
0:04:35 > 0:04:38But, in the short term, I want to be there for his first day of school.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41MARK'S VOICE BREAKS
0:04:41 > 0:04:44And that's my main...
0:04:44 > 0:04:46HE INHALES
0:04:46 > 0:04:49..my main focus in the next three years, if...
0:04:49 > 0:04:52You know, I'm hoping not to die in that timescale.
0:04:52 > 0:04:56My main focus is to be there on my son's first day of school.
0:05:02 > 0:05:07But whether Mark makes that day depends on the spread of his cancer.
0:05:07 > 0:05:12He's come with his wife Kerrie to find out his latest results.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14- KERRIE:- 'We don't know what they're going to say
0:05:14 > 0:05:19'so we can't prepare ourselves for the outcome.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22'They could give us the worst news possible -
0:05:22 > 0:05:24'that it's spread even further.'
0:05:24 > 0:05:26Mark Bridges, please.
0:05:32 > 0:05:36- Hello, Mark.- Hello. - Hello. Come on in.- Hiya.
0:05:36 > 0:05:39- Hello, nice to see you. - Nice to see you. Have a sit down.
0:05:39 > 0:05:40Thank you.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44Right, how are you doing?
0:05:44 > 0:05:46I'm very well, actually.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48- I really can't complain in the last couple of weeks.- Yeah.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50- It's been really...- It's been good.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52- It's been, well, quite good, and I've not been sick.- OK.
0:05:52 > 0:05:55And it's been great because I've been able to spend time
0:05:55 > 0:06:00with my family and that, which has meant a lot to me, so, yeah.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02- So, you've got your scan.- Yeah.
0:06:02 > 0:06:04- You can see it's quite a long report.- Yeah, it is.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07I think that... I think, reading through it,
0:06:07 > 0:06:10essentially it looks like things are stable.
0:06:10 > 0:06:14There are no new areas in the chest, in the lungs.
0:06:14 > 0:06:16and the areas that are there
0:06:16 > 0:06:20are roughly the same size as they were before.
0:06:20 > 0:06:22- So it's not come back to my liver or anything like that?- No.
0:06:22 > 0:06:23- Bowel?- No, no.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27Just remained stable in my lungs and hasn't come back anywhere else.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29I was waiting for a "but" on your list.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31- Yeah.- I know, that's what I was waiting for.- No. Yeah.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34- That's kind of a positive thing, I think. Do you?- Yeah.
0:06:34 > 0:06:37- Brilliant, really. Brilliant. - Well done.- Thank you very much.
0:06:37 > 0:06:38- Thank you very much.- OK. - Good to see you.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Thank you. Thanks very much.
0:06:47 > 0:06:49Come on, then, James.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51Kick to Daddy. Yeah.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58I was always expecting growth of the tumours I had,
0:06:58 > 0:07:02so, just to know that I'm not deteriorating
0:07:02 > 0:07:04at a really rapid rate,
0:07:04 > 0:07:07that's what was the best feeling, knowing that this has, kind of,
0:07:07 > 0:07:10stabilised and I'm exactly the same as I was three months ago.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14And in terms of the rest of my life, how long I've got to live,
0:07:14 > 0:07:17it just makes me think, "Yeah, it's going to be longer."
0:07:19 > 0:07:21- MARK LAUGHS - You silly-billy.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23You're a silly sausage, aren't you?
0:07:25 > 0:07:28You can't get away from the fact that cancer is bad news.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31There was a time when it was the worst news in the world.
0:07:31 > 0:07:33When you're first diagnosed, you think,
0:07:33 > 0:07:36- "That's it. End of story." Don't you?- Yeah. Yeah.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39- That's...- That's just the start of the journey.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41Yeah, of course it is. Yeah.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43But the pendulum is swinging the other way
0:07:43 > 0:07:46and, thanks to early diagnosis and advances in treatment,
0:07:46 > 0:07:50some cancers aren't quite as bad as you might think.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52So, which one have you got? Which cancer have you got?
0:07:52 > 0:07:55- Cervix.- Cervix, yeah.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57You'll be all right.
0:07:57 > 0:08:00I'm still here after 15 years. I think...
0:08:00 > 0:08:02- Just keep going.- Keep going.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06Claire, I'll see you a bit later.
0:08:08 > 0:08:1150-year-old Steve from South East London
0:08:11 > 0:08:13is a self-employed painter and decorator.
0:08:13 > 0:08:15It's very competitive, my job.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17There's so many people to take your place, really.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19You can't take your foot off the gas, as it were.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22You've got to be on the pulse, really.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25I do put myself under a lot of pressure.
0:08:25 > 0:08:28Steve got his cancer diagnosis three weeks ago.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30Now, with an operation on the cards,
0:08:30 > 0:08:34he's under pressure to get all his remaining work wrapped up.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36- How are you doing, mate? Are you all right, son?- Not bad. You?
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Yeah, sweet, yeah.
0:08:38 > 0:08:41- This is Les, by the way - my main man.- Hi. All right?
0:08:41 > 0:08:43All right, what are we doing, then?
0:08:43 > 0:08:45Les, let's just hit this lid. Hit this lid. Hit this area.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Only because it's nice and clean, and I ain't intruding on anybody.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54How long have you known Steve?
0:08:54 > 0:08:56I've known Steve a long time, a long, long time.
0:08:56 > 0:08:59- 30 years, that long? - STEVE EXHALES
0:08:59 > 0:09:01I think I see Steve more than his wife sees him,
0:09:01 > 0:09:03because I'm with him every day.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05- I work with him every day. - LES LAUGHS
0:09:06 > 0:09:08He's always working too hard, Steve.
0:09:08 > 0:09:11He works hard, hard all the time, and Saturdays, Sundays....
0:09:11 > 0:09:13And I always say, "Steve, you've got to slow down, mate.
0:09:13 > 0:09:15"It's too much."
0:09:15 > 0:09:17- Les, you know that job around the corner?- Yeah.
0:09:17 > 0:09:21- I might have to go there tomorrow, or you, or us.- Yeah.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23Because we arranged it before, didn't we?
0:09:24 > 0:09:27Ben, how are you? You're not flying?
0:09:27 > 0:09:29Yeah, no, no, no. Yeah, yeah.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32Yeah, thanks for that job anyway, by the way. I did...
0:09:32 > 0:09:34I was going to price it, but I've got a bit...
0:09:34 > 0:09:38I've got a bit of... I've got a bit of a health issue.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40Prostate cancer.
0:09:40 > 0:09:41Yeah.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44Basically, I'm getting it removed in five weeks.
0:09:44 > 0:09:45I'd like it to be earlier,
0:09:45 > 0:09:49but, you know, I've got to get this bit of work done and then...
0:09:49 > 0:09:51Yeah, yeah, yeah.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53Yeah, so...
0:09:53 > 0:09:56Yeah, it's put me out of the ball game for a little while.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58Yeah, take care, Ben. Cheers, mate. Bye.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00Bye-bye.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03Les, I've been cleaning my vinyl all weekend,
0:10:03 > 0:10:05so you can have it when I pass away.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Yeah. I've got a nice little cleaning thing.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09What about the van keys? Can I have the van keys?
0:10:09 > 0:10:10Yeah, I've got you insured on it now,
0:10:10 > 0:10:12so you ain't go to worry about that.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18You don't know what to say.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21It's like someone tells you that and you don't know what to say.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23You know what I mean?
0:10:23 > 0:10:25To hear that from a friend, you're thinking, "What?"
0:10:25 > 0:10:27It's scary. It's very scary.
0:10:27 > 0:10:30Do you know what I mean? It makes you think.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33But I still want his record collection, though.
0:10:35 > 0:10:38Definitely taken the wind out of my sails, really.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40You know, I'm a bit more of a serious Steve now -
0:10:40 > 0:10:43not as jolly or happy-go-lucky any more.
0:10:43 > 0:10:46Only found in men, the prostate gland
0:10:46 > 0:10:50is tucked behind the bladder and secretes seminal fluid.
0:10:50 > 0:10:55Steve's needs to come out but it's a tricky operation in a tricky place.
0:10:55 > 0:10:57Oh, I could do without it, really.
0:10:57 > 0:11:01I was having a right good old time with life -
0:11:01 > 0:11:03bringing my kids up and paying my mortgage.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06I was having a good old time.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09And it's likely he's going to have to live with the common side effects
0:11:09 > 0:11:13of impotence and incontinence for a while.
0:11:13 > 0:11:14I'm a worrier.
0:11:14 > 0:11:18Everybody says I'm a worrier but my worry is my business.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21I don't want to stop working cos, you know, that's going to be...
0:11:21 > 0:11:24that's going to affect my income.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27The surgery will also put work on hold for two months,
0:11:27 > 0:11:31which is going to have an impact on all of Steve's family.
0:11:32 > 0:11:36Unfortunately, we didn't have any mortgage insurance -
0:11:36 > 0:11:38critical illness insurance -
0:11:38 > 0:11:42for our mortgage, so that wasn't an option,
0:11:42 > 0:11:46but having a mortgage holiday was, so that takes a bit of pressure off.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50We'll see. We just have to work something out.
0:11:52 > 0:11:53Keep things to a minimum,
0:11:53 > 0:11:56keep things sensible,
0:11:56 > 0:11:58and go with what we've got.
0:12:00 > 0:12:01All right, H? Henry? Austin?
0:12:01 > 0:12:03- How are you doing? You all right? - Yeah, good.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Let's have a touch, then.
0:12:05 > 0:12:09Deep down, yeah, he's... He's...
0:12:09 > 0:12:11He's... Yeah, he's a bit worried.
0:12:11 > 0:12:14It's just a strange, strange time.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16THEY LAUGH
0:12:16 > 0:12:20- VOICE BREAKING:- It makes me happy to see them playing. Yeah.
0:12:20 > 0:12:25Erm, they always love having their dad around, playing,
0:12:25 > 0:12:26you know, going out there.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29So, yeah. Sorry, a bit emotional there.
0:12:29 > 0:12:30Erm...
0:12:32 > 0:12:35Well, you can see, you know, you can see how much they love it -
0:12:35 > 0:12:37a bit of attention from Dad.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39Oh, class A!
0:12:39 > 0:12:42He'll be back out there before you know it, hopefully.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Hopefully.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47Oof!
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Sorry!
0:12:51 > 0:12:55As science continues to push the boundaries of treatment,
0:12:55 > 0:12:58the death sentence that cancer once handed out to us
0:12:58 > 0:13:00has been reduced to life.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06Darling, I'm very impressed with your aubergine cooking.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09- HE SCRAPES THE PAN - That's jolly good.
0:13:09 > 0:13:12You're a star - A1 aubergine cook.
0:13:17 > 0:13:21Six years ago, Katy underwent treatment for a malignant melanoma -
0:13:21 > 0:13:24a notoriously unpredictable skin cancer.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28Two months ago, the cancer returned.
0:13:28 > 0:13:30It did make me cry
0:13:30 > 0:13:33because I thought, "Hey, I've got to six years.
0:13:33 > 0:13:38"You told me I only needed to get to five and I've done an extra year."
0:13:38 > 0:13:41And I really thought I was out of this.
0:13:41 > 0:13:43I really thought I was out of this.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47I mean, only a few months before, we'd been...
0:13:47 > 0:13:49You'd actually been called, hadn't you, with the all clear?
0:13:49 > 0:13:51Well, no, I mean, a year ago.
0:13:51 > 0:13:53- Hmm.- Yeah.- June last year.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55- It was a year.- Oh, June last year, yes.- June last year.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57Because I always remember you saying things like,
0:13:57 > 0:13:59"Oh, it's going to be five years all clear.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01"Then it's ten years all clear."
0:14:01 > 0:14:03In my mind it was like, "You've got through it. You're all clear."
0:14:03 > 0:14:05- "Does that make sense?"- Yeah. Yeah.
0:14:05 > 0:14:09A couple weeks after Katy discovered the second melanoma,
0:14:09 > 0:14:11it was successfully removed,
0:14:11 > 0:14:15and scans now confirm that she is cancer-free.
0:14:15 > 0:14:19This time, Katy was lucky, her melanoma was still operable,
0:14:19 > 0:14:22but there is a 50-50 chance that it will return again
0:14:22 > 0:14:25and she may not be so fortunate next time.
0:14:25 > 0:14:29When you've had a cancer come back the second time
0:14:29 > 0:14:31and it's come back in a place
0:14:31 > 0:14:34that they didn't expect it to come back, you know,
0:14:34 > 0:14:37at a time they didn't expect it to come back,
0:14:37 > 0:14:40you lose trust in your own body.
0:14:40 > 0:14:43But now, a lifeline has been thrown out -
0:14:43 > 0:14:45Katy has been given the chance to join a clinical trial,
0:14:45 > 0:14:50testing a new kind of drug treatment known as immunotherapy
0:14:50 > 0:14:54that, if successful, will prevent the cancer ever returning,
0:14:54 > 0:14:56but there are risks.
0:14:56 > 0:15:01When you first called me and said, "I've been offered this trial,"
0:15:01 > 0:15:06and you listed some of the side effects to me, and I instantly...
0:15:06 > 0:15:10I didn't say it to you, but my instant reaction was,
0:15:10 > 0:15:13"No, you can't do this. Those side effects are too scary.
0:15:13 > 0:15:16"They've operated. They've removed it. It was successful.
0:15:16 > 0:15:17"Why would you bother?
0:15:17 > 0:15:21"Why would you pump drugs into you that you don't need?"
0:15:21 > 0:15:25And it was only until you truly explained to me that,
0:15:25 > 0:15:29if you didn't do anything and you sat back and did nothing,
0:15:29 > 0:15:32actually you'd always be thinking, "What if?"
0:15:32 > 0:15:34And I, you know, make no bones about it with you,
0:15:34 > 0:15:38because you're all adults, that I am nervous about it, obviously.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40And I'm going to see how it goes,
0:15:40 > 0:15:44and that's saying two fingers to cancer,
0:15:44 > 0:15:46and I am carrying on, mate.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58- Hello, everybody! - Hello!- How are you?
0:15:58 > 0:16:01- Thanks so much.- I'm very well. - Nice to see you.- And you.
0:16:01 > 0:16:05- Woohoo!- So beautiful.
0:16:05 > 0:16:07- OK.- Woohoo!- Amazing.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09It does look quite different.
0:16:09 > 0:16:13To see it reborn into a new creation,
0:16:13 > 0:16:15and for a new marriage,
0:16:15 > 0:16:17is just something that's quite special.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22- Crazy.- Hmm.
0:16:22 > 0:16:25The day before Katy discovered the melanoma had returned,
0:16:25 > 0:16:29her 18-year-old daughter Harriet announced her engagement.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33SHE CHUCKLES
0:16:33 > 0:16:38Amazing, just remembering, you know, there's mine and Peter's dates
0:16:38 > 0:16:40of 11 August, 1990,
0:16:40 > 0:16:43and obviously we've just celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary.
0:16:43 > 0:16:47"H and A, 5 September 2015."
0:16:47 > 0:16:48It's so cool.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50And there's room for more!
0:16:52 > 0:16:55Yeah, I look at it and see the 25 years that Peter and I
0:16:55 > 0:16:58have been married and wonder how many more years I will have.
0:16:59 > 0:17:01It is so amazing.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04My baby, no longer.
0:17:04 > 0:17:09When you have had cancer, although we all try and beat it,
0:17:09 > 0:17:12sometimes some of us win and some of us don't,
0:17:12 > 0:17:14so I think there's that feeling of
0:17:14 > 0:17:18"I've got a big journey ahead of me, and will I cope?"
0:17:20 > 0:17:22SHE SOBS AND LAUGHS
0:17:26 > 0:17:29- MACHINE BEEPS - Anything exciting on your sandwiches?
0:17:29 > 0:17:31I can't tell you.
0:17:31 > 0:17:32You can't tell me?
0:17:32 > 0:17:34I can, but the wife doesn't know. It's Spam.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36Spam?
0:17:36 > 0:17:38No, I like Spam!
0:17:38 > 0:17:40I bought a tin yesterday, and she said, "What's that?"
0:17:40 > 0:17:43I said, "It's for my butties for when I'm in the hospital tomorrow."
0:17:43 > 0:17:45Spam and brown sauce - fantastic.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Are you getting about and still doing stuff?
0:17:52 > 0:17:53- Yeah, I go swimming.- Yeah?
0:17:53 > 0:17:56I go swimming and a bit of running.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58- Yeah?- A lot of walking, yeah.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00So you're quite healthy.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02I used to look like Tom Daley.
0:18:08 > 0:18:11- Giraffes.- Can you count how many there are, James?
0:18:11 > 0:18:13- JAMES BABBLES - Mummy.
0:18:13 > 0:18:16Can you count the giraffes?
0:18:16 > 0:18:18- Mummy! - Shall we go and see the okapi?
0:18:18 > 0:18:19I think we should probably go. Come on.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21- Let's go around the corner. - Come on, then.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23With the good news of his last results,
0:18:23 > 0:18:27Mark's on a reduced course of chemotherapy for a while.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29Fewer drugs mean fewer side effects,
0:18:29 > 0:18:34allowing him and Kerrie the chance to hide from his cancer for a while.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37It's just a nice relief not to be looked at as,
0:18:37 > 0:18:38"Oh, poor you," you know?
0:18:38 > 0:18:40- And, "How are you?" - And, "How are you?"
0:18:40 > 0:18:42It's not "How are you?", it's "How are YOU?"
0:18:42 > 0:18:46And you think, "Oh, yeah, I'd forgot for a second, but thanks."
0:18:46 > 0:18:48Can you see those two lions, there?
0:18:51 > 0:18:54It's just nice to, kind of, be that normal family.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56I think we crave it so much.
0:18:58 > 0:19:03And I can't even imagine that you wouldn't be here. You know?
0:19:03 > 0:19:05- I know.- It just...- I am the same. - It doesn't make any sense.
0:19:05 > 0:19:09It's beyond... You know, it's incomprehensible to me.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21- Right, are you listening? - Yes, dear.
0:19:21 > 0:19:23You're going to the fourth floor.
0:19:23 > 0:19:26You go through the main entrance and it's on the right,
0:19:26 > 0:19:29in the green section. OK?
0:19:29 > 0:19:30Have you written it down?
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Yes, it's written down.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35Eight weeks after his diagnosis, Steve is on his way
0:19:35 > 0:19:38to Guy's Hospital to have his prostate removed.
0:19:38 > 0:19:40He really hasn't been about much.
0:19:40 > 0:19:42He's worked pretty much every day.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44I mean, he's obviously got it conscious in his mind that
0:19:44 > 0:19:47he's going to be off for four to six weeks, perhaps.
0:19:47 > 0:19:50So, you know, he's self-employed.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53You've got... I've put some water in there, as well.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57Yeah, I'm worried. Yeah, I'm worried.
0:19:57 > 0:19:58I'm not scared because...
0:19:58 > 0:20:02I'm not... I won't get scared cos I've got to be the man.
0:20:02 > 0:20:03It's not a sexist thing,
0:20:03 > 0:20:06it's just an approach whereby I need to be strong,
0:20:06 > 0:20:07and I am to a degree,
0:20:07 > 0:20:09but I feel a bit more vulnerable.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11I'm a little more vulnerable now.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13All the things have been ripped away from me -
0:20:13 > 0:20:15all the stability, all the scaffolding you have -
0:20:15 > 0:20:17and now you're on this, like, little rocky road now.
0:20:17 > 0:20:19'I don't know where I'm going yet, you know?'
0:20:19 > 0:20:22OK, don't drive your mum... Do your homework.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24Do all the stuff that you need to do, OK? Promise?
0:20:24 > 0:20:26- Say, "I promise, Dad." - I promise, Dad.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29Only because you love me.
0:20:29 > 0:20:30You be good, yeah?
0:20:30 > 0:20:33I expect you to be the governor. You're the man of the house.
0:20:33 > 0:20:36- You look after everything, all right?- Dad.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40Be good, be strong. Be...
0:20:40 > 0:20:41No time to reflect, then, is there?
0:20:41 > 0:20:43Oh, there's never any time, is there?
0:20:43 > 0:20:44Life's just one big rush -
0:20:44 > 0:20:46a series of emotions, and then it's gone,
0:20:46 > 0:20:48and it's back to work.
0:20:48 > 0:20:50All right, I've got to go and get my prostate out.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52- SHE SNIFFLES - Can you ring me as soon as you...?
0:20:52 > 0:20:54Of course, I'll ring you when I get there.
0:20:54 > 0:20:58I'll give you an hour-to-hour, sort of, running commentary, all right?
0:20:58 > 0:21:01- OK, I love you all. Be good. Be good.- Yeah. Bye.
0:21:01 > 0:21:02- Love you. Bye.- See you. See you.
0:21:02 > 0:21:03Be strong!
0:21:03 > 0:21:06- I'm always strong. - THEY LAUGH
0:21:13 > 0:21:16I want to understand it as being, "Oh, it's curable,"
0:21:16 > 0:21:19cos everybody says, "It's curable and you're going to be all right."
0:21:19 > 0:21:21I want it to be that.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27- How are you? - I'm all right, Steve. How are you?
0:21:27 > 0:21:29Not too bad, a bit anxious, but here we go.
0:21:29 > 0:21:31- That's understandable.- Game on.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33- So, you've been through everything? - Mmm.
0:21:33 > 0:21:37Yeah, I've been through all the whole process, the procedures and...
0:21:37 > 0:21:39And what's happened about work?
0:21:39 > 0:21:41Are you managing to sort things out or...?
0:21:41 > 0:21:43Yeah, sure, yeah, all the jobs are finished,
0:21:43 > 0:21:45and all the targets met.
0:21:45 > 0:21:49I've got some staff carrying our basic contracts that are ongoing
0:21:49 > 0:21:51so it's all dealt with. No pressure.
0:21:51 > 0:21:52When are you hoping to get back to work?
0:21:52 > 0:21:53As soon as possible, really.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56- In six to eight weeks, you should be OK.- That's good, yeah.
0:21:56 > 0:21:59And when you compare it to how long it used to be from open surgery,
0:21:59 > 0:22:00where people'd be three or four months
0:22:00 > 0:22:02- before they'd be able to... - Wow. Incredible.
0:22:02 > 0:22:04That's the advantage of this type of surgery.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06- Yeah, a couple of months, yeah. - OK.
0:22:06 > 0:22:07- Good?- Yeah.
0:22:07 > 0:22:09- I'll see you later.- Cheers.
0:22:11 > 0:22:12Over the last ten years,
0:22:12 > 0:22:15advances in the treatment of prostate cancer have seen
0:22:15 > 0:22:19some of the greatest improvements in survival rates of any cancer.
0:22:33 > 0:22:36- Ready for us to start? - All right, now.
0:22:41 > 0:22:45So, this is the camera, which has got a very bright light on it,
0:22:45 > 0:22:49and what we're doing is we're just marking out the abdominal cavity
0:22:49 > 0:22:53to where we want to put the incisions before.
0:22:53 > 0:22:57The robotic-assisted keyhole surgery he is having is less traumatic
0:22:57 > 0:23:00on the body than conventional surgery, and will hopefully keep
0:23:00 > 0:23:05the complications of impotence and incontinence to a minimum.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07Afro-Caribbean people have a narrow pelvis
0:23:07 > 0:23:09that makes it slightly trickier
0:23:09 > 0:23:12because the space that you've got to operate in is reduced.
0:23:12 > 0:23:15He's also very muscular, and so, you know,
0:23:15 > 0:23:16that just makes it slightly more difficult
0:23:16 > 0:23:18from the point of view of getting the dissection.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20The important thing to do is just take your time
0:23:20 > 0:23:22and make sure that it goes right.
0:23:31 > 0:23:36He went down to the operation at about 3, I think,
0:23:36 > 0:23:393 o'clock and, erm...
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Erm...
0:23:41 > 0:23:46He's still in there now, so, erm, at 7:10,
0:23:46 > 0:23:47so, erm...
0:23:49 > 0:23:54So I'm here, waiting, just to hear, hopefully, that he's come out soon.
0:23:55 > 0:24:01It's quite frightening to think of him being out for all that time.
0:24:01 > 0:24:02MACHINE BEEPS
0:24:02 > 0:24:05All right, there it is,
0:24:05 > 0:24:08so now we're going to put the prostate in the bag.
0:24:11 > 0:24:14He's been in there for five hours nearly, now,
0:24:14 > 0:24:15which doesn't seem right,
0:24:15 > 0:24:18so I think I'll start to worry a bit soon.
0:24:19 > 0:24:22There's the bag,
0:24:22 > 0:24:26and gently coming out is the prostate in the bag,
0:24:26 > 0:24:29and we're going to send it off to pathology.
0:24:30 > 0:24:33Oh, hi, Claire. It's Mr Popert here.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36Hi, how are you?
0:24:37 > 0:24:39Are you anxious? I'm sure.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42No, it's all gone fine. He's just waking up now.
0:24:42 > 0:24:45The main thing is that everything came out fine.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47Everything's gone back fine.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49He should bounce back really very quickly.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51Hopefully we'll be able to get him up tomorrow.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53He should be able to have breakfast tomorrow morning,
0:24:53 > 0:24:56and, you know, we'll start thinking about getting him home
0:24:56 > 0:24:58either tomorrow or the day after.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00We'll see how he goes.
0:25:00 > 0:25:01OK, bye.
0:25:01 > 0:25:02Thanks so much, bye-bye.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Oh, God.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11I'm starting to get the shakes.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16There's this sense of, just, "Whoosh!"
0:25:16 > 0:25:19My body's gone into a bit of shock.
0:25:19 > 0:25:25It's 10:35 now and I need to get the train home.
0:25:25 > 0:25:30It'll take me an hour, so I need to get back to the boys now.
0:25:30 > 0:25:31It's been a long day.
0:25:40 > 0:25:44There was one little incident where the doctor said,
0:25:44 > 0:25:46"Keep fit and well."
0:25:46 > 0:25:48- Yeah.- So me and the wife went to a snorkelling class
0:25:48 > 0:25:50- and I'd only just started the chemo that week.- Mmm.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53Well, the thing was that the swimming pool environment
0:25:53 > 0:25:54with the damp atmosphere -
0:25:54 > 0:25:56even in the changing rooms, the steamy atmosphere -
0:25:56 > 0:25:59- it's a breeding...- It's almost a breeding ground for it.- Yeah.
0:25:59 > 0:26:02By Saturday tea-time, my temperature had gone up to 38.3.
0:26:02 > 0:26:05The doctor was a bit annoyed. "What are you doing?"
0:26:05 > 0:26:07I said, "Hang on, you told me to keep fit and well,
0:26:07 > 0:26:08"and that's why we're doing it."
0:26:08 > 0:26:11- Didn't say, "Don't go swimming." - We didn't say you can't.
0:26:11 > 0:26:12- Because of that environment.- Yeah.
0:26:12 > 0:26:14Will you be glad once all of this is over,
0:26:14 > 0:26:16and you can get back to those things?
0:26:16 > 0:26:17- Yeah, I'm going back to it.- Yeah?
0:26:17 > 0:26:19I've got this 14-inch scar on my back
0:26:19 > 0:26:21that I'm going to tell the kids was a shark attack.
0:26:21 > 0:26:23- SHE LAUGHS - Can't waste it, can you?
0:26:23 > 0:26:26No matter what the doctors or the stats say, there are always
0:26:26 > 0:26:30going to be times when we think the cancer's got the better of us.
0:26:30 > 0:26:31Who wouldn't?
0:26:33 > 0:26:35CHOIR SINGS
0:26:46 > 0:26:53Alistair, will you take Harriet to be your wife?
0:26:53 > 0:26:55Will you love her,
0:26:55 > 0:26:57comfort her,
0:26:57 > 0:26:59honour and protect her?
0:26:59 > 0:27:01'Harriet got engaged on a Monday,
0:27:01 > 0:27:05'and I got the diagnosis on the Tuesday,
0:27:05 > 0:27:09'so she's looking for a new life as a married woman,'
0:27:09 > 0:27:13and I was looking to a life
0:27:13 > 0:27:15that I thought was going to be very cut short.
0:27:15 > 0:27:19Harriet and Alistair have given their consent,
0:27:19 > 0:27:22and made their marriage vows to each other.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25'One of the things about cancer is you want to shout at people
0:27:25 > 0:27:27'and say, "Well, can't you just stop?"
0:27:27 > 0:27:29' "Because my world has stopped."
0:27:29 > 0:27:31'And you can become selfish,
0:27:31 > 0:27:34'and I think I have become a bit selfish at times.'
0:27:35 > 0:27:39And so possibly it's been hard for her
0:27:39 > 0:27:42to walk what should be a really, really happy journey,
0:27:42 > 0:27:44interspersed with her mother,
0:27:44 > 0:27:47who is not happy about what's happening to her.
0:27:47 > 0:27:51I therefore proclaim that they are husband and wife,
0:27:51 > 0:27:54those whom God has joined together.
0:27:54 > 0:27:57ORGAN PLAYS
0:28:12 > 0:28:16Two days after seeing her daughter marry, Katy's en route to London
0:28:16 > 0:28:19with a friend to start the immunotherapy trial.
0:28:19 > 0:28:24I can feel myself, the knot getting bigger in my tummy...
0:28:24 > 0:28:27- The closer we get? - The closer we get. - KATY LAUGHS
0:28:27 > 0:28:30It's just purely the fact that you don't know
0:28:30 > 0:28:34how your body will react to something that is a trial.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36Cancer drug research has always moved forward
0:28:36 > 0:28:39on the back of human trials, but they're unpredictable
0:28:39 > 0:28:42and there's always an element of risk.
0:28:42 > 0:28:45For Katy, it's a leap in the dark.
0:28:45 > 0:28:47These drugs may save her
0:28:47 > 0:28:50but they may also prove debilitating and toxic.
0:28:50 > 0:28:53It's a horrible choice to face.
0:28:55 > 0:28:58- Hi, Katy.- Hi. - Emily Grayson.- Hello, Emily.
0:28:58 > 0:28:59I'm Louise. Nice to meet you.
0:28:59 > 0:29:01Nice to meet you both. How was the wedding?
0:29:01 > 0:29:04- Oh, it was wonderful.- Yeah, yeah. The weather's gorgeous.
0:29:04 > 0:29:07- I know, amazing.- Yeah? - Amazing. We were very blessed.
0:29:07 > 0:29:08So I've got the consent form here.
0:29:08 > 0:29:11One thing that's important to mention is this is a trial.
0:29:11 > 0:29:12Yeah, quite.
0:29:12 > 0:29:13We're always here to answer questions
0:29:13 > 0:29:15and, if you want to stop the trial,
0:29:15 > 0:29:17you can withdraw your consent at any point, OK?
0:29:17 > 0:29:19- That's important to mention. - Yeah, absolutely. Yeah.
0:29:19 > 0:29:21The big stumbling block for this trial, for me,
0:29:21 > 0:29:26has been the infusions and the worry of actually having it.
0:29:26 > 0:29:29Obviously, if things get too bad and the toxicity is too bad,
0:29:29 > 0:29:31- then I would... - Come off trial, yeah.
0:29:31 > 0:29:33You would either say to me, "That's enough, enough,"
0:29:33 > 0:29:37- and we'll come off trial. Fine. OK. - OK?- Yeah, no problem.
0:29:37 > 0:29:39I think it's that fear of the unknown,
0:29:39 > 0:29:41but, once you start, people tend to feel a lot more reassured.
0:29:41 > 0:29:44Oh, I'm sorry. Obviously there was something that...
0:29:44 > 0:29:45No, it's not you.
0:29:45 > 0:29:47- KATY SOBS - It's not you. Don't worry.
0:29:47 > 0:29:49It's just that fear of... It is the fear of the unknown.
0:29:55 > 0:29:59Katy signed the paperwork, committing to a year's trial,
0:29:59 > 0:30:03but there are still a few hours to kill before her first treatment.
0:30:06 > 0:30:09I really hoped that I would be able to be more controlled,
0:30:09 > 0:30:11and I'm not.
0:30:11 > 0:30:15You know, when you're faced with the toxicities...
0:30:15 > 0:30:17SHE TAKES A DEEP BREATH
0:30:17 > 0:30:23..and the damage to somebody who feels really healthy and well,
0:30:23 > 0:30:26now it feels wrong.
0:30:26 > 0:30:28I may have signed lots of consent forms
0:30:28 > 0:30:32but I haven't actually taken that first step until I have...
0:30:32 > 0:30:34until I go this afternoon,
0:30:34 > 0:30:37and so there's still a little bit of my head that says,
0:30:37 > 0:30:41"You can run away. You can run away from this. You don't need to do it."
0:30:43 > 0:30:47Katy may never know if these drugs work.
0:30:47 > 0:30:49Maybe her cancer's never destined to come back,
0:30:49 > 0:30:52but cancer forces you to weigh up the odds,
0:30:52 > 0:30:55and right now this trial gives her the best possible chance
0:30:55 > 0:30:58of staying cancer-free,
0:30:58 > 0:31:01but, for others, the cost of treatment may be too high.
0:31:01 > 0:31:03I'm happy as I am at the moment.
0:31:03 > 0:31:05I don't want to be incapacitated through drugs,
0:31:05 > 0:31:10and through medication, when I could...not be.
0:31:11 > 0:31:12For three months,
0:31:12 > 0:31:16Mark has been enjoying a reduced dose of chemotherapy
0:31:16 > 0:31:17but, in 24 hours,
0:31:17 > 0:31:21the results of his latest scan will determine what comes next.
0:31:21 > 0:31:24With the results tomorrow, it's...
0:31:24 > 0:31:27It's pretty big cos, I mean,
0:31:27 > 0:31:30I may well end up saying that I don't want to follow
0:31:30 > 0:31:32the course of treatment they offer me.
0:31:35 > 0:31:37Yeah, I don't want to be living a life where
0:31:37 > 0:31:40I can't even get out of bed through tiredness.
0:31:40 > 0:31:41I don't want that to be my life.
0:31:41 > 0:31:47I'd rather have a life where I can live a normal life
0:31:47 > 0:31:51up to the point where the cancer takes over my body.
0:32:06 > 0:32:11We've agreed that it's all about quality of life now,
0:32:11 > 0:32:14so, if he doesn't want to have any more chemotherapy,
0:32:14 > 0:32:16I said I'd support him, no matter what.
0:32:16 > 0:32:20- Thank you.- Come on in and have a seat.- OK.- Cheers.- All right?
0:32:20 > 0:32:22Now, Dr Brown will be with you shortly.
0:32:22 > 0:32:25- OK.- OK, thank you. - MARK SIGHS
0:32:28 > 0:32:29- Are you all right?- Yeah.
0:32:29 > 0:32:32Are you nervous?
0:32:32 > 0:32:34Yeah, I'm feeling a bit nervous.
0:32:34 > 0:32:35I am.
0:32:37 > 0:32:40- Hello.- Hello.
0:32:40 > 0:32:41Hi, nice to see you.
0:32:41 > 0:32:44- Nice to see you.- Yeah. - Are you all right?- Hi.
0:32:44 > 0:32:46I've not seen you in a while. How are you doing?
0:32:46 > 0:32:47Yeah, good, thank you. You?
0:32:47 > 0:32:49So, how's it going?
0:32:49 > 0:32:54I've been all right. I had a cold, which turned into a sinus infection.
0:32:54 > 0:32:57- Yeah, I had antibiotics from the GP last week for that...- OK, OK.
0:32:57 > 0:32:59- ..and, yeah, that's gone, so...- OK.
0:32:59 > 0:33:01- So, we've got your scan results, haven't we?- Yes.
0:33:01 > 0:33:04- So that was the main purpose of today, really.- Hopefully, yeah.
0:33:04 > 0:33:08And that's starting to show that things are starting to worsen again.
0:33:08 > 0:33:09Right.
0:33:09 > 0:33:11That obviously means that the treatment that you've had
0:33:11 > 0:33:15for the last three months isn't helping as much as we'd want.
0:33:15 > 0:33:18- Hmm.- So we need to think about, where are we going?
0:33:18 > 0:33:20And we chatted a little bit about this last time
0:33:20 > 0:33:22because I know you were a bit concerned
0:33:22 > 0:33:24- about coping with...- Well, I know.
0:33:24 > 0:33:27It has been weighing on my mind, this very conversation,
0:33:27 > 0:33:29- and what I would say, really. - Yeah, yeah.
0:33:29 > 0:33:32Because, you know, you've just told me that
0:33:32 > 0:33:36- and now my immediate reaction is, "Yeah, I want oxaliplatin."- Yeah.
0:33:36 > 0:33:38But, up to this very point, I've been saying that I don't want it.
0:33:38 > 0:33:41- Yeah.- But now you've just said that, I'm like, "Bring it on," again.
0:33:41 > 0:33:43I don't know, it's just a real, complete...
0:33:43 > 0:33:46I've just literally had a complete reversal in my mind
0:33:46 > 0:33:48- about what I want to do, but...- Mmm.
0:33:48 > 0:33:51Because last time you were saying, in terms of quality of life....
0:33:51 > 0:33:52It's really difficult.
0:33:52 > 0:33:56- The quality of life is just not there on oxaliplatin.- If...- Mmm.
0:33:56 > 0:34:00That's it. I mean, if he had oxaliplatin,
0:34:00 > 0:34:03what are we talking about in terms of length of life
0:34:03 > 0:34:05- is that going to give him? - What's it actually going to do?
0:34:05 > 0:34:07Is it...? Are we talking, it could shrink it?
0:34:07 > 0:34:10- It's looking...- Or just stabilise it?- I think, realistically,
0:34:10 > 0:34:13any switch of chemo would be looking just to try and see
0:34:13 > 0:34:15if it could stabilise things again,
0:34:15 > 0:34:17but, in terms of how long,
0:34:17 > 0:34:20I don't know whether it's going to be six months, nine months,
0:34:20 > 0:34:23a year, 15 months, 18 months.
0:34:23 > 0:34:25- Mmm.- That's...
0:34:25 > 0:34:27OK, well, I think that's it, really.
0:34:27 > 0:34:30I mean, I'll probably just see you next week with the final decision.
0:34:30 > 0:34:33- Thank you.- Thank you. - Cheers, then, thank you.
0:34:33 > 0:34:34- Thank you very much.- Yeah.- Cheers.
0:34:34 > 0:34:36Oh, I'll leave that with you.
0:34:36 > 0:34:38- Thank you.- Cool. Yeah.
0:34:44 > 0:34:45Here we go, eh?
0:34:46 > 0:34:47Yep.
0:34:52 > 0:34:53Food for thought, isn't it?
0:34:53 > 0:34:55Mmm.
0:34:56 > 0:34:57Yeah.
0:35:02 > 0:35:05It got stuck in there!
0:35:05 > 0:35:06- Is it stuck?- Yeah.
0:35:06 > 0:35:09Why is it stuck? It's not stuck.
0:35:09 > 0:35:11All finished.
0:35:11 > 0:35:14Finished! Can you get some more water?
0:35:14 > 0:35:17'Our timescales, they have reduced now.'
0:35:17 > 0:35:20'Just the future taken away that bit more.'
0:35:20 > 0:35:22I'm going to be a widow.
0:35:25 > 0:35:27I'm not even 30.
0:35:27 > 0:35:30I suppose I just feel, because I've got a son,
0:35:30 > 0:35:33and I know I'm going to be on my own,
0:35:33 > 0:35:36I've got to get prepared,
0:35:36 > 0:35:38and how can you prepare for something like that?
0:35:38 > 0:35:44"Ah-ah-achoo! Jonny sneezed, and popped straight out of the tree..."
0:35:44 > 0:35:47My worry is I'm on my own.
0:35:47 > 0:35:50Who's going to drop James off at school? Who's going pick him up?
0:35:50 > 0:35:52How can I do that and work a nine-to-five job?
0:35:54 > 0:35:58It's very upsetting for me because I'm not going to be leaving
0:35:58 > 0:36:03a great financial legacy or anything like that for my family,
0:36:03 > 0:36:07so I know that Kerrie will have a difficult time when I'm dead.
0:36:07 > 0:36:09- MAN ON TV:- At night, he's asked to do many things...
0:36:09 > 0:36:12I do feel guilty - just talking about life after Mark
0:36:12 > 0:36:14- is huge guilt.- But I don't feel...
0:36:14 > 0:36:17I don't feel, like, that I don't want to hear it.
0:36:17 > 0:36:18I feel like it's great.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21I think it's good - healthy - for Kerrie to talk about it.
0:36:21 > 0:36:24I really want to encourage that she does move on from me
0:36:24 > 0:36:28because I just want James to have the best opportunities in life.
0:36:28 > 0:36:31Now, I know you're never going to replace me, but...
0:36:31 > 0:36:33Well, that's it, that's what you're saying is...
0:36:33 > 0:36:34- I know.- ..what I've got to do.
0:36:39 > 0:36:41- Erm...- Difficult, isn't it?
0:36:41 > 0:36:43Yeah.
0:36:43 > 0:36:45We're on two different paths now.
0:36:45 > 0:36:52His is focusing on his treatment and mentally getting through it,
0:36:52 > 0:36:56and mine is to make a future for me and James.
0:37:07 > 0:37:09- STEVE SIGHS - Oh, right,
0:37:09 > 0:37:11what else have I got to remember?
0:37:11 > 0:37:13Erm...
0:37:13 > 0:37:17It's been three weeks since Steve had his prostate removed
0:37:17 > 0:37:20and, like so many men, he's getting used to some of the less dignified
0:37:20 > 0:37:22aspects of prostate surgery.
0:37:22 > 0:37:26Oh! She's got cold hands, as well. That's the worst thing.
0:37:26 > 0:37:28She's got cold hands.
0:37:29 > 0:37:30Go out for a jog first.
0:37:30 > 0:37:33Get some blood pumping around your body.
0:37:33 > 0:37:35Take your hand away.
0:37:35 > 0:37:37- Ah!- Pinching in!
0:37:37 > 0:37:40- She loves sticking needles in me. - I don't, actually.
0:37:40 > 0:37:42- What are they for? Do you know what they're for?- Blood thinning.
0:37:42 > 0:37:47After the operation, you're more susceptible to blood clots,
0:37:47 > 0:37:50hence these stockings that I have to wear, as well,
0:37:50 > 0:37:51all the time.
0:37:51 > 0:37:55Besides the stockings, he's also got to wear incontinence pads.
0:37:55 > 0:37:57Is that bothering you?
0:37:57 > 0:38:00Not really, as long as I've got them on right, you can't really see them.
0:38:00 > 0:38:01Just when it leaks and you're in public
0:38:01 > 0:38:03and you're having a conversation and you...
0:38:03 > 0:38:05"I've got to go! I've got to go!"
0:38:05 > 0:38:08That reminds me, time I've got to get my nappy bag ready!
0:38:08 > 0:38:10CAR DOOR CLOSES AND ENGINE RUMBLES
0:38:18 > 0:38:20Look at these boys. Look at their reaction.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22They're going, "What the hell?" Look.
0:38:24 > 0:38:25How are you doing?
0:38:25 > 0:38:28Are you all right?
0:38:28 > 0:38:31- How are you doing, son? Are you all right?- All right, mate?- Yeah.
0:38:31 > 0:38:35Although he's not fit enough for work, being self-employed
0:38:35 > 0:38:37means he can't let any job slip through his fingers.
0:38:37 > 0:38:40- TOOL BUZZES - So we're going to start
0:38:40 > 0:38:41hardboarding the end today...
0:38:41 > 0:38:42Oh, right, OK.
0:38:42 > 0:38:44..so it's ready for skimming on Monday.
0:38:44 > 0:38:47This room will be plastered and dried
0:38:47 > 0:38:49in maybe two, three weeks, really,
0:38:49 > 0:38:51so I've got to be in this room in three weeks,
0:38:51 > 0:38:55fighting fit and just ready to get it done, really.
0:38:56 > 0:38:59- STEVE GRUNTS - Oh, I can't do that yet.
0:39:00 > 0:39:02Whatever happens, I've got to be here.
0:39:06 > 0:39:09But just a few days after his return to the building site,
0:39:09 > 0:39:11Steve is rushed into hospital.
0:39:11 > 0:39:15It was just like a mass of blood in the toilet.
0:39:15 > 0:39:18It was really awful, and it was really, really painful.
0:39:18 > 0:39:19I was in tears.
0:39:19 > 0:39:22The worst pain I've had in my life, really.
0:39:22 > 0:39:24It didn't stop. It lasted for about 40 minutes.
0:39:24 > 0:39:27It was intense, it was.
0:39:27 > 0:39:28- Hello.- Hello.
0:39:28 > 0:39:30Yeah, nice to see you.
0:39:30 > 0:39:31Nice to see you again.
0:39:31 > 0:39:33- Yeah, yeah.- Is it OK if I...? - Certainly, yeah.
0:39:33 > 0:39:36- Certainly, that's fine. - Just for a second.- Yeah.
0:39:36 > 0:39:38So, you've had some bleeding?
0:39:38 > 0:39:40Yeah, one of the worst pains of my life,
0:39:40 > 0:39:45and I just can't think why it happened, really,
0:39:45 > 0:39:46I'm still trying to think...
0:39:46 > 0:39:49- Well, I've pulled your reports across from there...- Yeah, yeah.
0:39:49 > 0:39:52- ..and there was a proven urine infection in the urine...- Yeah.
0:39:52 > 0:39:54..and I wonder whether that made the bladder
0:39:54 > 0:39:56a little bit, sort of, red and inflamed.
0:39:56 > 0:39:58Obviously, the urine's now gone back to a normal colour.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00- Yeah, yeah.- We've got the flush off.
0:40:00 > 0:40:01- Yeah.- So, the plan would be,
0:40:01 > 0:40:03we're going to just give you a once-over with a CT scan
0:40:03 > 0:40:06and just check there's no other blood around in the system...
0:40:06 > 0:40:09- Right. OK.- ..which I'm not expecting but I think we should check that.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11- OK.- OK, nice to see you. - Yeah, thanks.
0:40:11 > 0:40:14I'll come back to see you when we've got the results of the scan.
0:40:14 > 0:40:18Yeah, thanks, Doctor. Thanks for all your effort. Cheers. Thank you.
0:40:23 > 0:40:25- STEVE SIGHS - I know it sounds a bit sad,
0:40:25 > 0:40:27but it's just those...
0:40:27 > 0:40:31Everybody down there, all got perfect health, just walking about.
0:40:31 > 0:40:33I just want to be down there, you know?
0:40:33 > 0:40:37I want to be back in that thing we call life, you know?
0:40:42 > 0:40:44- Good morning. - Hello, how are you this morning?
0:40:44 > 0:40:46I'm very well, thank you. And you, Steve?
0:40:46 > 0:40:48- What would you like this morning? - The usual, please.
0:40:48 > 0:40:50Along with dealing with her cancer,
0:40:50 > 0:40:53Katy's also getting used to student life.
0:40:53 > 0:40:57A year ago, she gave up her career as a research scientist
0:40:57 > 0:40:59to follow a calling to train as a priest.
0:40:59 > 0:41:02It's the start of her second year at college.
0:41:02 > 0:41:05I have had people say to me, "Well, how can you have a faith?
0:41:05 > 0:41:08"How can you believe in a God that would allow cancer?"
0:41:08 > 0:41:13What so many people are trying to do is put God in a box and define him.
0:41:13 > 0:41:15You can't define God - he's a mystery.
0:41:15 > 0:41:18And... And I think...
0:41:18 > 0:41:20SHE TAKES A DEEP BREATH
0:41:22 > 0:41:26Yeah, it's very, very tricky.
0:41:29 > 0:41:30Come in.
0:41:32 > 0:41:34- Hi, Katy.- Hello, Robert.
0:41:34 > 0:41:36- Good to see you.- And you.
0:41:36 > 0:41:38- Are you all right? - Yes, I'm fine.- Great.
0:41:38 > 0:41:40OK, come and sit. Come and sit.
0:41:40 > 0:41:42Thank you.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46So, how is it going, Katy?
0:41:46 > 0:41:47It's going OK.
0:41:47 > 0:41:49- Is it?- I think, just about.
0:41:49 > 0:41:50Just about.
0:41:50 > 0:41:51Yeah, so I'm...
0:41:51 > 0:41:55- I think it's been harder than I thought it was going to be...- Yeah.
0:41:55 > 0:42:00..but, on the other hand, your advice to come back was...
0:42:00 > 0:42:02It definitely feels like the right advice.
0:42:02 > 0:42:06But one of the most difficult things I've found about coming back
0:42:06 > 0:42:08is this double-identity thing.
0:42:08 > 0:42:12- So, Katy Garner, ordinand at Cuddesdon...- Yeah.
0:42:12 > 0:42:16- ..Katy Garner receiving treatment at the Marsden...- Yeah.
0:42:16 > 0:42:22- ..and I'm struggling a bit with knowing how to blend the two.- Sure.
0:42:22 > 0:42:24Dare I ask how things are with God at the moment?
0:42:24 > 0:42:29- KATY LAUGHS - Well, I mean, you know, God...
0:42:29 > 0:42:31There are moments -
0:42:31 > 0:42:35and I'm sure you wouldn't be surprised to hear this - when I...
0:42:35 > 0:42:39- I wonder whether I believe in God...- Yeah.
0:42:39 > 0:42:44..because of all the issues that are tied up with,
0:42:44 > 0:42:48you know, if he is a loving and powerful God,
0:42:48 > 0:42:50how can he let this sort of thing happen?
0:42:50 > 0:42:53Actually, Katy, this is a new and horrible and very difficult
0:42:53 > 0:42:56and complicating factor,
0:42:56 > 0:42:59- but the journey that you're on goes on.- Yeah.
0:43:06 > 0:43:09All right, speak to you in a bit. Bye.
0:43:09 > 0:43:10That was my little lad.
0:43:10 > 0:43:12Was he wondering where you are?
0:43:12 > 0:43:14He's like, "When are you coming home?"
0:43:14 > 0:43:16I said, "Well, I'm still having chemo."
0:43:16 > 0:43:18"Well, how long are you going to be?"
0:43:18 > 0:43:19I said, "Why?"
0:43:19 > 0:43:21He said, "Cos I really miss you...
0:43:21 > 0:43:23"and I want to play on my Xbox,
0:43:23 > 0:43:26"I can't set it up!" Oh...
0:43:26 > 0:43:31- It's our 48th wedding anniversary on Monday.- Good grief.
0:43:31 > 0:43:32Oh, congratulations!
0:43:32 > 0:43:35We've had a wonderful marriage, haven't we?
0:43:35 > 0:43:36We have. We've been very lucky.
0:43:36 > 0:43:39We've got to keep him going for another two years,
0:43:39 > 0:43:42- whatever happens.- We're planning our 50th as well, yes.
0:43:44 > 0:43:47With the further spread of his cancer in the summer,
0:43:47 > 0:43:50Mark did decide to continue treatment,
0:43:50 > 0:43:52but now it's no longer having any effect,
0:43:52 > 0:43:55and his options have run out.
0:43:55 > 0:43:58There is nothing left to hold his cancer back.
0:43:58 > 0:44:02Now, as I'm not having any active treatments, it could be two months.
0:44:02 > 0:44:06It could be up to ten months I have to live,
0:44:06 > 0:44:09- or anywhere in between, really. - On average, I think...
0:44:09 > 0:44:11- On average, he said four-and-a-half months.- Four.
0:44:11 > 0:44:14So that was, kind of, two months ago.
0:44:14 > 0:44:16- Erm...- And he's still here.
0:44:16 > 0:44:17I'm still here now.
0:44:25 > 0:44:30Have you put in place everything that you need to put in place?
0:44:30 > 0:44:33I have written down my passwords.
0:44:33 > 0:44:35- I think...- No, there's not much else to do, really.
0:44:35 > 0:44:36There's not much else.
0:44:36 > 0:44:39She knows my preferences regarding the ceremony, in terms of
0:44:39 > 0:44:43- it being a non-religious and atheist ceremony.- Non-religious.
0:44:43 > 0:44:46Erm, but there's no... We haven't got any arrangements.
0:44:46 > 0:44:50We've got our will - that's in place.
0:44:50 > 0:44:53There you go! You've got it.
0:44:53 > 0:44:56I want to see James's first day of school,
0:44:56 > 0:44:59- but I think that's a bit far away, probably, now.- Yeah.
0:44:59 > 0:45:01But we're still happy.
0:45:01 > 0:45:03We know what's on the horizon.
0:45:03 > 0:45:07And we still have arguments like a normal...
0:45:07 > 0:45:08Yeah, she's still arguing with me.
0:45:08 > 0:45:10I still argue.
0:45:10 > 0:45:14- And...- And we're happy. We're happy for now.- Which is hard.
0:45:14 > 0:45:17I think people find that hard, as well, because of all this news.
0:45:17 > 0:45:18When they see us, you know,
0:45:18 > 0:45:21they'd probably think that we'd just be like... You know?
0:45:23 > 0:45:26And we joke about things, you know, where people would probably think,
0:45:26 > 0:45:28"Oh, I wouldn't joke about that.
0:45:28 > 0:45:30"Oh, are you saying that in front of us?"
0:45:30 > 0:45:32I'm like, "Well, you know,
0:45:32 > 0:45:35"that's just life."
0:45:35 > 0:45:36But it's the highs and lows,
0:45:36 > 0:45:38isn't it, of everybody's life, you know?
0:45:38 > 0:45:40Nobody is just permanently sad.
0:45:42 > 0:45:44- Yeah.- Yeah.- We're doing all right.
0:45:51 > 0:45:53Les? Les?
0:45:53 > 0:45:55Lesley? Jim?
0:45:55 > 0:45:58Jim, put Les on, can you?
0:45:58 > 0:46:02- See you later, Henry, I'll give you a ring.- OK.
0:46:02 > 0:46:03All right, can you do that?
0:46:03 > 0:46:04You know, I'm sorry, mate,
0:46:04 > 0:46:07but she's taken the day off to be at home today.
0:46:07 > 0:46:09It was just one day and I'm back tomorrow.
0:46:09 > 0:46:12I'm just at Guy's today. OK?
0:46:15 > 0:46:17Ready, Claire?
0:46:17 > 0:46:21Steve has recovered from his emergency stay in hospital
0:46:21 > 0:46:24and has returned to work, but today he's on his way back in
0:46:24 > 0:46:27to get the results of his eight-week checkup.
0:46:27 > 0:46:30I'm going in there with my head held high, thinking and wishing
0:46:30 > 0:46:32and praying to God that it goes the right way.
0:46:32 > 0:46:35This is the first stage of getting my life back to normal.
0:46:35 > 0:46:37It's not just about getting rid of cancer,
0:46:37 > 0:46:38it's about getting my life back to normal,
0:46:38 > 0:46:41cos my life's not been right since...
0:46:41 > 0:46:44Whoa, well, since I got diagnosed, really.
0:46:46 > 0:46:49One of the important results is the PSA test,
0:46:49 > 0:46:52a blood test that can indicate whether cancer is present.
0:46:55 > 0:46:57- Hi.- Hi, come in.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02- Do you want to sit down here? - All right.
0:47:06 > 0:47:08Ohh.
0:47:08 > 0:47:13Right, the results of the tissue that was removed
0:47:13 > 0:47:16showed that the disease was confined to the prostate,
0:47:16 > 0:47:19but we would then expect the PSA blood test
0:47:19 > 0:47:22- to fall to a very low level.- Hmm.
0:47:22 > 0:47:25Now, at six weeks, eight weeks after surgery,
0:47:25 > 0:47:28we would expect the PSA to be undetectable,
0:47:28 > 0:47:32- but the PSA value is 0.8.- Right.
0:47:32 > 0:47:34Now, that's higher than I would be comfortable with.
0:47:34 > 0:47:36The possibility, as we would have to think,
0:47:36 > 0:47:41is could there be any evidence of prostate cancer cells elsewhere?
0:47:41 > 0:47:43So that's not really a good reading, fundamentally, then, Doctor,
0:47:43 > 0:47:47- really, is it?- It's not a good reading, but it's...- No, no.
0:47:47 > 0:47:49It happens occasionally.
0:47:49 > 0:47:52We have to take that and we'll have to see where we will go from here.
0:47:56 > 0:47:58Thank you very much.
0:48:09 > 0:48:11I bet you feel exhausted now, do you?
0:48:11 > 0:48:13I'm exhausted.
0:48:13 > 0:48:14Yeah.
0:48:14 > 0:48:17Ah, just these bloody deadlines.
0:48:17 > 0:48:20- Work deadlines?- No... - Oh, these deadlines?
0:48:20 > 0:48:23No, I can't normally...
0:48:23 > 0:48:25- I just want to get out of here. - They say that all the time, though.
0:48:25 > 0:48:28Even Mum's eye, she's got three appointments just to get...
0:48:28 > 0:48:34I'm not talking about your mum's eye, I'm talking about me.
0:48:34 > 0:48:36- I'm talking about... - I know, I know.
0:48:36 > 0:48:38..having to come back here, time after time.
0:48:38 > 0:48:40I just want to get out of here, to be honest with you.
0:48:40 > 0:48:42I just want to get out of this place,
0:48:42 > 0:48:44cos it's not a good day today, really.
0:48:44 > 0:48:46It's not gone the way I wanted it to go.
0:48:46 > 0:48:49I don't want to get all upset or...
0:48:49 > 0:48:51I just want to get out of here.
0:48:54 > 0:48:59We all face setbacks - they're part and parcel of dealing with cancer -
0:48:59 > 0:49:01but, at times, they can be overwhelming.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10After four months on the trial,
0:49:10 > 0:49:14Katy has begun to experience the severe side effects she'd feared.
0:49:14 > 0:49:15I can do it.
0:49:15 > 0:49:17KATY GROANS
0:49:17 > 0:49:19This has been incredibly tough.
0:49:21 > 0:49:26It's really hard taking drugs that give you side effects.
0:49:26 > 0:49:28So they want you on the trial?
0:49:28 > 0:49:30So they still want me to stay on the trial.
0:49:30 > 0:49:32And do you want to be on the trial?
0:49:32 > 0:49:36Well, I think I still want to be on it at the moment.
0:49:36 > 0:49:37You know, obviously,
0:49:37 > 0:49:43if I got the same reaction with this weird muscle and neck
0:49:43 > 0:49:47and impossible pain again,
0:49:47 > 0:49:49I suspect they would probably take me off it anyway.
0:49:49 > 0:49:52Oh, this bread is so hard to eat!
0:49:52 > 0:49:55- Why?- Because it's...
0:49:55 > 0:49:56Because of your jaw?
0:49:56 > 0:49:58It's at my jaw.
0:50:00 > 0:50:03Several months later, with even more severe side effects,
0:50:03 > 0:50:05Katy's now off the trial,
0:50:05 > 0:50:08but remains hopeful that the drugs have boosted her system enough
0:50:08 > 0:50:10to prevent any re-occurrence of her cancer.
0:50:12 > 0:50:16'One of the good things about having a reaction like this
0:50:16 > 0:50:18'is the fact that you're having a drug'
0:50:18 > 0:50:20that's obviously having an effect.
0:50:20 > 0:50:23And if it's having an effect on your immune system like that
0:50:23 > 0:50:25you hope that it's having an effect on anything else
0:50:25 > 0:50:29that's to do with your cancer cells, if I've got any.
0:50:42 > 0:50:44All right.
0:50:44 > 0:50:46- Don't be too long.- I won't.
0:50:46 > 0:50:47And don't do too much.
0:50:47 > 0:50:50I won't, never do. See you later, Claire. Take care.
0:50:50 > 0:50:52Love you.
0:50:52 > 0:50:54Steve is finally back to work.
0:50:58 > 0:51:01There's a point where you've got to say, "Right, enough's enough.
0:51:01 > 0:51:02"I've got to get on now."
0:51:02 > 0:51:06No matter what the pains are, or the rehab time is.
0:51:06 > 0:51:07Just, you know...
0:51:07 > 0:51:09I've got the call to go now, so here we are.
0:51:09 > 0:51:12Monday morning, you know.
0:51:12 > 0:51:14I suppose it is a degree of pressure to go back, you know.
0:51:16 > 0:51:18He's very, very fatigued.
0:51:18 > 0:51:21The bladder incontinence is beginning to...
0:51:23 > 0:51:26..stress him out now cos it's really awkward.
0:51:26 > 0:51:28My nappy collection there, sorry.
0:51:28 > 0:51:31I didn't really want to show that, but there you go!
0:51:31 > 0:51:34That's me. I've got to use six of those a day.
0:51:34 > 0:51:36Only cos, like what I said earlier,
0:51:36 > 0:51:40I'm not actually thinking about it, I just want to...
0:51:40 > 0:51:45need to be probably off another two day...another two weeks, really,
0:51:45 > 0:51:47sit down and work the bladder.
0:51:47 > 0:51:49But, you know, needs must.
0:51:49 > 0:51:51People need things finished, so here we go.
0:51:51 > 0:51:53Here we go. Here we go.
0:51:58 > 0:52:00- All right, Steve? - Progress, look at that. Look.
0:52:00 > 0:52:02Do you remember that?
0:52:03 > 0:52:05Wow. Can you remember this?
0:52:06 > 0:52:07I can feel it coming together!
0:52:09 > 0:52:11- HE CHUCKLES - All right, let's crack on, then.
0:52:14 > 0:52:16- Stay on the ground!- Yeah, right.
0:52:16 > 0:52:19Yeah? Make sure you stay on the ground!
0:52:19 > 0:52:22Don't overdo it. Your mates care about you.
0:52:22 > 0:52:23Yeah.
0:52:24 > 0:52:26- I like it when he says that! - LES LAUGHS
0:52:26 > 0:52:28Makes me feel important.
0:52:32 > 0:52:34Steve's...
0:52:34 > 0:52:37I told him to go in, watch the tennis, put his feet up.
0:52:37 > 0:52:40Anything, but...it's just Steve, isn't it?
0:52:41 > 0:52:43He needs to take it really easy, I told him.
0:52:43 > 0:52:45He thinks he's better but he's not.
0:52:47 > 0:52:49Look, see that? "Hire-A-Loo."
0:52:49 > 0:52:53That's where I'm going to be shortly, changing my nappy.
0:52:54 > 0:52:55Ideally, if I'd...
0:52:56 > 0:52:58..probably studied a bit harder at school
0:52:58 > 0:53:03I may be in a nice swanky toilet with tiles and flushing systems,
0:53:03 > 0:53:04but no, I'm on a building site.
0:53:06 > 0:53:09I don't want to be in this position, I just want to be normal,
0:53:09 > 0:53:11like I used to be.
0:53:21 > 0:53:24It's been nearly four months since Steve's operation,
0:53:24 > 0:53:27and he's on his way back to hospital for his latest results.
0:53:30 > 0:53:33Would you be alarmed if I start kicking chairs and stuff?
0:53:33 > 0:53:35- What, today?- Yeah. - SHE LAUGHS
0:53:36 > 0:53:37What do you mean?
0:53:38 > 0:53:42- Why do you say that?- I don't know, I just feel like kicking chairs today.
0:53:42 > 0:53:43No, no...
0:53:45 > 0:53:48I don't know. It would be a big relief if there's no...
0:53:48 > 0:53:50if this comes clear.
0:53:50 > 0:53:51That'd be a big relief.
0:53:51 > 0:53:55But if not, it's like, eurgh, back to...
0:53:55 > 0:53:56back to...
0:53:56 > 0:53:58not depression, but...
0:53:59 > 0:54:02..knowing there's more procedures to go on, really.
0:54:08 > 0:54:10Come in, sit yourselves down.
0:54:16 > 0:54:19First things first. How are you?
0:54:19 > 0:54:20Yeah, not bad.
0:54:20 > 0:54:21Still a bit incontinent.
0:54:21 > 0:54:23Well, still incontinent.
0:54:23 > 0:54:27But generally feeling... a bit back to normal now.
0:54:27 > 0:54:30I mean, that's good and I think that should all settle down.
0:54:30 > 0:54:31Yeah, yeah.
0:54:33 > 0:54:36The other thing is the PSA blood test.
0:54:37 > 0:54:39- Yeah.- So...
0:54:39 > 0:54:41- that's come down.- OK.
0:54:41 > 0:54:46So, when we met last time, you know, it was at 0.8.
0:54:46 > 0:54:48It's now down at 0.43.
0:54:48 > 0:54:53So, at the moment there's absolutely no indication to go forward
0:54:53 > 0:54:55with any kind of radiotherapy treatment...
0:54:55 > 0:54:57- Ah, that's good news. - ..or hormonal treatment.
0:54:57 > 0:55:00And the reassuring thing is the PSA is falling, it's not going up.
0:55:00 > 0:55:03- So we just have to keep going with that.- Yeah.- That's great.
0:55:03 > 0:55:05OK, so if you just give that to the lady at the desk.
0:55:05 > 0:55:07I really do appreciate that.
0:55:07 > 0:55:10- Thank you. Thank you very much. - I really needed that.
0:55:10 > 0:55:14Ahh! That's a great relief, that, Claire, isn't it? Give us a hug!
0:55:14 > 0:55:16SHE CHUCKLES
0:55:16 > 0:55:18Oh, dear.
0:55:19 > 0:55:21All right, dear, now? Are you better now?
0:55:21 > 0:55:24I am. I feel better now.
0:55:24 > 0:55:25Mmm.
0:55:28 > 0:55:30Right, we can...
0:55:31 > 0:55:33..go and have a cup of tea now.
0:55:34 > 0:55:35HE EXHALES
0:55:36 > 0:55:39- That's good news! - That is very good news, yeah.
0:55:39 > 0:55:41With these results, Steve can now relax,
0:55:41 > 0:55:45but he will continue to be monitored for any changes.
0:55:45 > 0:55:46I'm just an everyday guy,
0:55:46 > 0:55:48with an everyday family,
0:55:48 > 0:55:52and they've just made it become sort of back to my everyday life again.
0:55:52 > 0:55:54And they're just incredible, really, for that.
0:55:54 > 0:55:56It's a good day.
0:55:56 > 0:55:58Claire, I've got nothing in me now!
0:55:59 > 0:56:00All right, I can crack on now.
0:56:09 > 0:56:11Hello? You all right?
0:56:11 > 0:56:15Hello. How are you?
0:56:16 > 0:56:18- Steve.- Yeah?- You going to tell them?
0:56:18 > 0:56:22- What?- What?- What?- What?
0:56:22 > 0:56:24What happened? No, nothing.
0:56:24 > 0:56:27Just went to the hospital and I got an "all clear".
0:56:27 > 0:56:31Yes! Yes! All clear? Does that mean he doesn't have cancer any more?
0:56:31 > 0:56:33- Yeah, yeah. - Is it all clear?- Yes, all clear!
0:56:33 > 0:56:36He'll go back in December for a check then.
0:56:36 > 0:56:38THEY LAUGH
0:56:39 > 0:56:41- So brave.- Well, what do you think of that, then?
0:56:43 > 0:56:47For too long, cancer has been kept behind closed doors,
0:56:47 > 0:56:48surrounded by fear.
0:56:48 > 0:56:51- You hear all the horror stories, don't you?- Yeah, you do.
0:56:51 > 0:56:53A bloke down the road, "Oh, he's died of cancer."
0:56:53 > 0:56:55- Everybody hears about it.- Yeah.
0:56:55 > 0:56:59Yeah, but they don't hear about the other ten people who's fine
0:56:59 > 0:57:01and say, "Oh, I had a bit of that."
0:57:01 > 0:57:03But as more and more of us join the community,
0:57:03 > 0:57:06those awkward conversations have got to stop.
0:57:06 > 0:57:08Don't feel sorry for me cos it's not the end of the world.
0:57:08 > 0:57:10People do cope with it.
0:57:10 > 0:57:13We've all got to learn to live with cancer.
0:57:13 > 0:57:14Tom, one more and you're done!
0:57:14 > 0:57:17- Yes, hopefully that'll be the end of it, yeah.- Excellent.
0:57:17 > 0:57:19Can't believe my last one's in three weeks.
0:57:19 > 0:57:21I'll put the...
0:57:21 > 0:57:23bunting out and everything for the last one!
0:57:23 > 0:57:24THEY LAUGH
0:57:24 > 0:57:27- Back in work, three weeks! - No!- Yeah.
0:57:27 > 0:57:29Can't wait! Oh, can't wait!
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