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:00:09. > :00:13.Hello, welcome to it inside out northwest and for a last programme

:00:13. > :00:17.of the year we are in it Cheshire, it is very festive and we will get

:00:17. > :00:23.in the Christmas but it. On Inside Out tonight, we meet the woman

:00:23. > :00:26.whose life has been taken over by the sound of music. I went out the

:00:26. > :00:33.back door and the front door to see if there was music being played.

:00:33. > :00:38.Where is it coming from? We are finding out the price we pay as

:00:38. > :00:47.council cuts begin to bite. Every day it is a constant battle between

:00:47. > :00:54.you and the authorities. And we report on the former prisoner who

:00:54. > :01:04.has moved on to become a pastor. By rights I should be dead. A I should

:01:04. > :01:15.

:01:15. > :01:18.not be here so I treat every day as And So it's the time of year when

:01:18. > :01:21.we can't escape Christmas songs they're played over and over in

:01:21. > :01:28.shops and on the radio. But what if you really couldn't get rid of a

:01:28. > :01:30.song in your head? That's what's happened to a woman in Liverpool -

:01:30. > :01:34.Cath Gamester hears Silent Night, among other tunes, on a constant

:01:34. > :01:44.loop in her head. Shelagh Fogarty went to meet her to find out more

:01:44. > :01:47.

:01:47. > :01:51.about Musical Ear Syndrome. I went to bed and when I woke up at

:01:51. > :01:54.8 o'clock and I heard music and it was God Save Our Gracious Queen and

:01:54. > :02:04.I thought to myself it must be next door he must be playing a record

:02:04. > :02:09.

:02:09. > :02:13.cos it was going on and on and on. I went out the backdoor, I went out

:02:13. > :02:20.the front door, I went out to see if there was any music being played

:02:20. > :02:25.everywhere I was thinking where is it coming from?

:02:25. > :02:28.It just goes on and on and on - one song after another and it's a tenor

:02:28. > :02:38.it's a man's voice and it's a nice voice very strong, very loud and

:02:38. > :02:44.

:02:44. > :02:47.there's like a background of music. Cath Gamester has an extremely rare

:02:47. > :02:54.condition called Musical Ear Syndrome where the patient hears a

:02:54. > :03:03.series of half a dozen songs which constantly repeat in their head.

:03:03. > :03:13.What can you hear now? You'll Never Walk Alone. I hate telling people

:03:13. > :03:14.

:03:14. > :03:17.people think I'm daft. The condition mainly affects the

:03:17. > :03:27.elderly it's estimated one in 10,000 may get it each year and is

:03:27. > :03:27.

:03:27. > :03:32.due to a problem in the brain not the ear. Its causes leaves

:03:32. > :03:35.sufferers and their doctors mystified. First of all it isn't

:03:35. > :03:38.tinnitus tinnitus is what people get that does come from your ear

:03:38. > :03:41.and that's like a ringing or a buzzing sound and that can drive

:03:41. > :03:44.you bonkers and can be really distressing but you know that it's

:03:44. > :03:47.coming from your ear and you know that it's not particularly musical

:03:47. > :03:51.and it's not the same as just having a tune in your head that

:03:51. > :03:54.goes round and round and round and annoys you which I get most of my

:03:54. > :03:57.life "Downtown" by Petula Clarke for example was going round and

:03:57. > :04:00.round for no clear reason but you know that it's just going round and

:04:00. > :04:04.round and that it's not really being played, I know that Petula

:04:04. > :04:07.Clarke isn't in the room singing to me but when you get a musical

:04:07. > :04:10.hallucination or musical ear syndrome then it feels as if it's

:04:10. > :04:14.real it feels as if there's a record player playing it or the

:04:14. > :04:17.artist is in the room or in the next door room and as far as you're

:04:17. > :04:27.concerned probably everyone else ought to be able to hear it as well

:04:27. > :04:31.

:04:31. > :04:36.so it's very very real. So Cath, I've got a list of the songs you

:04:36. > :04:39.hear all the time. Silent Night, Abide with me, Happy Birthday

:04:39. > :04:49.you've just said you can hear that, there's no place like home, You'll

:04:49. > :04:53.

:04:53. > :04:56.never walk alone good scouse lady and land of hope and glory as well.

:04:56. > :05:04.I know Silent night is one of the songs is that just at Christmas

:05:04. > :05:07.time? No it's all the year round, that starts the round again it's

:05:07. > :05:10.like a circle nothing to do with Christmas time> nothing to do with

:05:10. > :05:20.any time it's like happy Birthday, every few minutes I'm wishing

:05:20. > :05:29.

:05:30. > :05:32.someone happy Birthday. I hate that one. It is a bit of a drone. Dr

:05:32. > :05:35.Nick Warner is a psychiatrist specialising in the elderly. When

:05:36. > :05:39.he was practising in Wales he kept notes of the patients he saw with

:05:39. > :05:47.musical ear syndrome and found that many of them were hearing the same

:05:47. > :05:53.songs. What we found is there were an awful lot of people who heard

:05:53. > :05:56.hymns and Christmas carols came up regularly. But in particular the

:05:56. > :05:59.hymn Abide with me which came up time and time again. There was

:05:59. > :06:09.about a 50% chance that you would hear Abide with me if you were

:06:09. > :06:11.

:06:11. > :06:14.going to hear musical hallucinations of hymns. Quite a

:06:14. > :06:18.reassuring sort of hymn it may not be reassuring when you are hearing

:06:18. > :06:21.it and you don't want to be hearing it and when you think there's a

:06:21. > :06:26.male voice choir practising in the little bungalow next door to you

:06:26. > :06:29.that are doing this very distressing. But you have to wonder

:06:29. > :06:35.as a psychiatrist if there is something that is generating this

:06:35. > :06:38.need for reassurance. As you are getting older and that you are not

:06:38. > :06:46.alone and that you are safe and secure and that there is somebody

:06:46. > :06:56.with you. Are you a religious woman? No, I wouldn't have those

:06:56. > :07:09.

:07:09. > :07:11.songs in the house I like my Dean Martin and all those.

:07:11. > :07:14.Musical Hallucinations aren't anything new - the Composer Robert

:07:14. > :07:17.Schumann claimed to have heard a tune in his head which he used to

:07:17. > :07:27.compose the Ghost Variations. What's interesting about this tune

:07:27. > :07:37.

:07:37. > :07:40.is its similarity to Abide With Me. And the former Beirut hostage Brian

:07:40. > :07:42.Keenan told me in a radio interview that he too had experienced musical

:07:42. > :07:52.hallucinations when he was blindfolded and held in an

:07:52. > :07:58.

:07:58. > :08:00.underground cell. It wasn't a tune out of memory. It

:08:00. > :08:04.was this kind of kaleidoscope with such eloquent and exquisite harmony

:08:04. > :08:08.and it was if it had all come into this tiny black hole under the

:08:08. > :08:11.earth that I was locked in and was playing just for me and it was very

:08:11. > :08:15.moving, it was very enriching and then it became very frightening

:08:15. > :08:17.because I knew it didn't exist but the power or it was bigger than my

:08:17. > :08:20.capacity to resist it" Cath believes the songs in her head

:08:20. > :08:29.were triggered by a course of anti depressants she was prescribed

:08:30. > :08:37.following the death of her sister. She stopped taking the tablets but

:08:37. > :08:41.the tunes remain. So you said to me sometimes you put the hoover on to

:08:41. > :08:47.drown it out, sing at the top of your voice or put music on very

:08:47. > :08:56.loudly and sometimes you tell it off, don't you? Tell me about that.

:08:56. > :09:00.I tell it to shut up and be quiet, I've had enough of it. I just get

:09:00. > :09:03.really angry with it, I say "shut up and leave me alone will you give

:09:03. > :09:06.me a bit of peace." While there is no cure, Nick Warner

:09:06. > :09:08.believes there are steps people can take to make the condition more

:09:08. > :09:10.bearable. I think talking about it to other

:09:10. > :09:13.people probably helps, I hope that's helped Cath, distracting

:09:13. > :09:15.yourself, doing as much as you possibly can, getting yourself

:09:15. > :09:18.involved in other activities, listening to other music - some

:09:18. > :09:21.people have found that putting on other music enables that other

:09:21. > :09:24.music to take over from the musical hallucinations, some people with

:09:24. > :09:28.hearing impairment it's a good idea to try and make sure your hearing

:09:28. > :09:37.aid's in good working order. People who live alone it may not be the

:09:37. > :09:44.best thing to live alone. It might be better to get out and see other

:09:44. > :09:47.people or get people to come and see you. And I did find that in

:09:47. > :09:52.some people medication did help - that would be low doses of

:09:52. > :09:55.antipsychotic drugs. You've told me you don't like

:09:55. > :09:59.telling people but you do know that by going on the telly you're

:09:59. > :10:02.telling a lot of people. That is a good thing.

:10:03. > :10:06.Well, I would say to these poor people out there who are like me

:10:06. > :10:12.don't let it worry you too much, get on with life and enjoy yourself

:10:12. > :10:18.as much as you can and be happy. I've worked out the fact that I

:10:18. > :10:28.should be glad it's not a serious illness well. I hope it isn't. So I

:10:28. > :10:36.

:10:36. > :10:40.just get on with everything and try to live my life as I can. Still to

:10:40. > :10:50.come the former drug dealer who has gone from prison to being at

:10:50. > :10:50.

:10:50. > :10:59.Pastore. Some of us like to tear up our household budgets at this time

:10:59. > :11:07.of year. Little chance of that for councils across the North. But

:11:07. > :11:11.councils want to raise revenues. As our reporter has found out, that

:11:11. > :11:18.can mean that the cost of the same services can differ widely

:11:18. > :11:21.depending on where you live. Times are tough in the town halls across

:11:21. > :11:24.the north as our local councils feel the financial squeeze. As cuts

:11:24. > :11:30.start to bite, they have to make sure they're making money wherever

:11:30. > :11:34.they can. You probably think you are already paying enough for your

:11:34. > :11:40.council services, but I will find out which are charging the most and

:11:40. > :11:45.least. They us is where the rats came through and colder round here,

:11:45. > :11:50.and it ended up on this debt. weeks ago Olive who lives in North

:11:50. > :11:56.Tyneside had some unwelcome visitorsrats. They come down the

:11:56. > :12:01.path and run all over. They are everywhere. You are frightened to

:12:01. > :12:04.open the door. Nearby building work meant these

:12:05. > :12:07.rats were looking for a new home in the sheds and houses nearby. But

:12:08. > :12:10.there was more unwelcome news when Olive phoned her council to get

:12:10. > :12:14.some help. North Tyneside Council introduced the �20 charge in April

:12:14. > :12:22.as part of it's budget and has offered to give Olive advice on her

:12:22. > :12:30.rat problem. I would pay for it, but I think this is something

:12:30. > :12:33.different, this is dirty. It is not nice. Maybe Olive should move.

:12:33. > :12:39.Northumberland, Hull the Wirral, Doncaster and Stockton will all

:12:39. > :12:42.sort out your rat problem for free. If it is free for them, why

:12:42. > :12:45.shouldn't it be free for everyone? Olive becomes the first person to

:12:45. > :12:48.receive a prestigious certificate from Inside Out - the coveted "Hard

:12:48. > :12:53.Times" award. Amongst the 10 councils facing the

:12:53. > :12:56.biggest cuts across the country are Burnley, Barrow and Preston.

:12:56. > :13:03.Councils across the country say they have little choice but to hike

:13:03. > :13:04.up some of their charges. And it seems no council service is off

:13:04. > :13:06.limits Merseyside Undertaker David

:13:06. > :13:16.Barrington is seriously unimpressed with Sefton Council's plans to hike

:13:16. > :13:18.

:13:18. > :13:22.up cremation fees from �600 to �750. Here, the dead need to be dead rich.

:13:22. > :13:32.It should be a service to the bereaved, it is not a commercial

:13:32. > :13:33.

:13:33. > :13:43.business. Making it one of the most expensive in the country

:13:43. > :13:49.So what about other areas? believe it is a tax on the dead.

:13:49. > :13:53.The Revenue is not being reinvested in their crematorium service. It is

:13:53. > :13:58.going into a black hole in the council. What should they do?

:13:58. > :14:03.think they can make cuts elsewhere. I do not think to maximise the

:14:03. > :14:08.revenue from one particular service is the way to go. Do not take the

:14:08. > :14:14.money just because you can. understand the anxiety of people. I

:14:14. > :14:19.would not want to be in a position either. But for the council, we

:14:19. > :14:24.have to try and make savings. We have to increase charges and that

:14:24. > :14:28.is one of the many charges which is being increased. What about other

:14:28. > :14:31.regions? Well, Copeland Council in Cumbria is proposing up to a 15 %

:14:31. > :14:41.rise in fees. And the cheapest? Cheshire West and Chester, St

:14:41. > :14:42.

:14:42. > :14:47.Helens and Durham are financially some of the best places to die. So

:14:47. > :14:50.you are going to get an inside-out hard times a ward.

:14:50. > :15:00.And in these hard times if you thought you could save a few

:15:00. > :15:06.

:15:06. > :15:13.pennies by growing your own - I'm I appreciate they have to do some

:15:13. > :15:17.savings, but 170 % is a phenomenal rise. Sheffield council disputes

:15:17. > :15:21.that had elations and says that Government cuts and protecting

:15:21. > :15:26.services have forced it to raise fees. It is an easy way for the

:15:26. > :15:29.council to raise money. If you've got green fingers Sunderland is a

:15:29. > :15:33.good place to live - one of the cheapest allotments in the north

:15:33. > :15:37.for just over a tenner. But in Bury a medium size plot will set you

:15:37. > :15:42.back well over �100. I think that is an excellent price. Phil

:15:42. > :15:45.reluctantly accepts the Inside Out Hard Times award. So we're being

:15:45. > :15:54.hit in the pocket- and some people think councils should be looking

:15:54. > :15:59.hard at their payroll before they put up their charges. We talk about

:15:59. > :16:03.middle-managers being paid �1,000 a year plus. They need to cut back on

:16:03. > :16:08.this bureaucracy. They do not need to make people redundancy for the

:16:08. > :16:13.sake of it, but at the same time, they are not imply much exchangers,

:16:13. > :16:18.they are there for essential public services and they have to cut the

:16:18. > :16:25.cloth to suit their needs. Councils point to tens of thousands of job

:16:25. > :16:29.losses, but maybe not amongst this lot. Where to start? Probably the

:16:29. > :16:32.over-zealous us of the parking wardens. Tony who runs a music shop

:16:32. > :16:42.in Bolton believes this is how the council is making up some of it's

:16:42. > :16:46.

:16:46. > :16:52.short fall. Every day is a constant battle, it fears that it is us and

:16:52. > :16:58.them. Is it about the money? sure it is about the money. I am

:16:58. > :17:02.afraid you get are hard times award. Thank you. Were making money from

:17:03. > :17:06.parking enforcement and parking fines and that is reinvested road

:17:06. > :17:09.safety schemes and highway maintenance to improve the highways

:17:09. > :17:18.for every one that uses them. you're not raising more money under

:17:18. > :17:21.the guise of getting tough with parking? No, not us all. Some tough

:17:21. > :17:28.times and choices ahead, but as I have seen, the difference in

:17:28. > :17:32.charges is stark. Why? And is it fair? It is not unfair. Local

:17:32. > :17:35.authorities have their own priorities and making their own

:17:35. > :17:39.budgets and their own financial decisions and of course they are on

:17:39. > :17:43.different local context. Each local authority has to cut its cloth

:17:43. > :17:47.accordingly and that is the essence of it. If people feel it is unfair

:17:47. > :17:51.there are various mechanisms through which you can participate,

:17:51. > :17:56.not only the ballot box, but having the citizens' panels and other

:17:56. > :18:00.community partnerships in local authorities around the country.

:18:00. > :18:05.balancing the books is going to be tough for Northern councils, and

:18:05. > :18:09.some would say that they need to make money where they can. But as

:18:10. > :18:16.we cannot choose what we get our services, it is no wonder that we

:18:16. > :18:21.look enviously at those paying a whole lot less than other areas.

:18:21. > :18:25.From many of us, Christmas is a time when we see our local vicar in

:18:25. > :18:29.action. But the Minister who delivered the Christmas message at

:18:29. > :18:35.a church in Runcorn yesterday is a bit different. He has served five

:18:35. > :18:45.years in prison for armed robbery and drug offences. We have his

:18:45. > :18:48.

:18:48. > :18:51.The Christmas service at the Hope Corner Community Church in Runcorn

:18:51. > :18:58.is always a little bit different and the minister giving yesterday's

:18:58. > :19:03.sermon certainly is. Pop quiz question, how many wise men were

:19:03. > :19:07.there? Shout it out of! As a teenager, Darrell Tunningley was

:19:07. > :19:10.sentenced to five years in prison for armed robbery and a string of

:19:10. > :19:17.drug offences. But he found God in jail and his life has been turned

:19:18. > :19:25.on its head ever since. By Iraq its, I should be dead. I have been shot

:19:25. > :19:27.at, I should be dead. By overdose. I should not be. He's now co-

:19:27. > :19:31.minister at Hope Corner with special responsibility for youth

:19:31. > :19:41.and inclusion projects. A far cry from his violent and drug-fuelled

:19:41. > :19:48.

:19:48. > :19:52.past. It is easy to give knowledge to these young people, it is even

:19:52. > :19:55.more her useful when you have personal experience and it has made

:19:55. > :19:58.a massive difference. Darrell grew up on this estate in Knottingley

:19:58. > :20:05.near Pontefract in Yorkshire. He had a loving family and lots of

:20:05. > :20:10.talents but he seemed hell-bent on going off the rails. As a young

:20:10. > :20:15.child, I was full of mischief and then I became victim to the drugs

:20:15. > :20:21.and drug dealing and car theft. And so do progress done and done. It

:20:21. > :20:24.was my drug use that escalated, and the drug dealers' taking, I was

:20:24. > :20:28.selling. That got worse and I got into harder and heavier drugs and

:20:28. > :20:35.selling harder and heavier drugs. You get so deep in, you cannot get

:20:35. > :20:45.out. What drugs did you take? started with cannabis, Algol landed

:20:45. > :20:47.

:20:48. > :20:52.progress to Ecstasy, cocaine, LSD. Then I took heroin and I started

:20:52. > :20:55.having serious problems. My parents raised me well, and then to see me

:20:55. > :21:02.sliding down that route was difficult for them, very hard for

:21:02. > :21:11.them. Hello, mum. A allow! Darrell and his parents are now closer than

:21:11. > :21:16.they've ever been a far cry from his lost teenage years. He was

:21:16. > :21:20.aggressive. Not physically, but for her belief. He couldn't really, you

:21:20. > :21:25.could not really talked to him. You could not get through to him.

:21:25. > :21:30.you questioned him about anything, he would not wanted. He was

:21:30. > :21:35.intelligent, so he was very cunning, very good at covering his tracks.

:21:35. > :21:40.did not realise, but he had been hiding drugs in the house. Did you

:21:40. > :21:47.ever feel responsible? You wanted to say sorry to every one of those

:21:47. > :21:53.people that was affected through my son. And I am sorry. That people

:21:53. > :22:03.that Tarrel stole from or harmed, people like that, they were not the

:22:03. > :22:03.

:22:03. > :22:07.only victims, we were the victims Darrell's choices eventually led

:22:07. > :22:10.him to prison. Darrell's lifestyle eventually caught up with him. He

:22:10. > :22:13.was arrested after taking part in an armed robbery and, when the

:22:13. > :22:21.judge took a string of drug offences into account, he was

:22:21. > :22:25.jailed for five years. He was just 17. I carried a reputation in with

:22:25. > :22:31.me, but I had to cement that reputation which meant that the

:22:31. > :22:36.gloves were off. Whatever was necessary. I would react, go from

:22:36. > :22:41.zero to 100, no build up, just react violently with a pool war or

:22:41. > :22:45.a fist, do whatever it took on tell people were very wary of how they

:22:45. > :22:49.would approach me. But while he was in HMP Wolds on Humberside his life

:22:50. > :22:53.changed forever. Darrell went to the prison chapel to take part in

:22:54. > :22:58.an Alpha course. For him it was a skive free tea and biscuits instead

:22:58. > :23:05.of being locked up in his cell. But he was caught off guard by the

:23:05. > :23:10.people running the course. By Naze said to me that there was someone

:23:10. > :23:15.out there willing, Jesus was willing to offer me not just a

:23:15. > :23:20.clean slate, but to incinerate the Old Slade what so ever, there

:23:20. > :23:24.wasn't even a Shadow of a memory in existence any more, and give UN new

:23:24. > :23:28.start. That was something I had ever heard before. That night in

:23:28. > :23:36.his cell he picked up the bible they'd given him and read it for

:23:36. > :23:41.the first time. While reading that, I read an Old Testament story about

:23:41. > :23:46.Job that had everything and lost everything, but would not shake his

:23:46. > :23:50.faith in God, and I thought what was good for him? And I sat and

:23:50. > :23:54.said the first prayer I ever said, but they cannot repeated, because

:23:54. > :23:58.there were swear words in it, but I was repeating what was happening in

:23:58. > :24:04.my heart and head. There was no thunderbolt, no lightening flash -

:24:04. > :24:08.but the next morning Darrell woke up a new man. When I looked in

:24:08. > :24:12.America next morning, I did not recognise my own reflection. I was

:24:12. > :24:16.beaming, glowing, the anger and they paid and the bitterness and

:24:16. > :24:20.the resentment, everything that was leading the way, it just wasn't

:24:20. > :24:28.there. He made an urgent appointment with the prison

:24:28. > :24:31.chaplain. I said the man standing in front of me here is not the same

:24:31. > :24:36.as the man that was here yesterday. He said, you worry new creation.

:24:36. > :24:39.And then we both started crying. And I realised then that everything

:24:39. > :24:43.would be different. Darrell renounced drugs and violence and

:24:43. > :24:45.his faith grew over the last 18 months of his sentence. In his last

:24:45. > :24:55.prison Buckley Hall in Rochdale, fate intervened once more when he

:24:55. > :24:56.

:24:56. > :25:00.took part in an Easter Passion Play. The first sign I had of them as I

:25:00. > :25:04.walked through the doors was him on a 10 ft cross-dressed as Jesus,

:25:04. > :25:09.acting in the Passion Play. I had been given some information by the

:25:09. > :25:16.chaplain to say there has been a massive change in his life. When I

:25:16. > :25:20.met him, I was not let down. I will tell them it was me! So moving

:25:20. > :25:23.inside me said that this guy can really help us and we can really

:25:23. > :25:26.have Pym as well. For the last 12 years Darrell has thrown himself

:25:26. > :25:36.into his mission at Hope Corner. His first-hand knowledge of drugs

:25:36. > :25:38.

:25:38. > :25:42.and the problems facing disaffected teenagers has proved invaluable.

:25:42. > :25:48.Everyone who has been there has had behavioural difficulties are went

:25:48. > :25:53.to stress and violence at home. Darryl went through a similar thing

:25:53. > :25:57.so everyone wants to be like him. When I came here first, I was very

:25:57. > :26:02.aggressive, kicking off on everyone I saw, I did not care about anyone,

:26:02. > :26:09.but with Darryl, he has taught me to stay calm and not lose my rag

:26:09. > :26:12.whenever someone is annoying me. was not in any education, size

:26:12. > :26:17.finding other ways to do stuff, drinking, smoking, doing things

:26:17. > :26:21.they should not be doing, but since I met Daryl, my life has totally

:26:21. > :26:23.changed and I stopped doing the things there was doing. He's also a

:26:23. > :26:33.regular visitor to prisons where his experience resonates with

:26:33. > :26:36.inmates. Hello, how area. On a recent trip to Wetherby, where he

:26:36. > :26:46.spent 12 months as a teenager, he bumped into someone who remembered

:26:46. > :26:49.

:26:49. > :26:52.the old Darrell. How are you? Expats very good! He had a bad

:26:52. > :26:58.reputation, he broke someone's jaw, but we had to do something with him

:26:58. > :27:02.when we took him on and be achieved that. If I said to someone, I am

:27:02. > :27:08.breaking your jaw! Darryl is a living example of what is possible

:27:08. > :27:11.for those that see that life has turned around. He has got the

:27:11. > :27:18.experience of the other side of the fence. Of living on the inside of

:27:18. > :27:22.the fence, of living behind the bars and the steel door. And did a

:27:22. > :27:25.good will of the window just see myself, so I know which you can

:27:25. > :27:29.become, regardless of what anyone has told you last. Darrell

:27:29. > :27:32.Tunningley is born again. With a beautiful family and a calling

:27:32. > :27:40.which gives him total fulfilment, he pinches himself every day. But

:27:40. > :27:46.he never has, and never will, forget his past. All of those

:27:46. > :27:50.people I sold drugs to, are only dead because of me. And families

:27:50. > :27:56.are destroyed. That is the lasting legacy. What is the damage I have

:27:56. > :28:01.caused? Through the things I did. I came Torpoint ferry realised that I

:28:01. > :28:05.cannot do anything about what I have done it and I have paid the

:28:05. > :28:12.price that society demanded for what I have done. Now, it is time

:28:12. > :28:16.to stop as many people as possible from getting there. Banda is a

:28:16. > :28:26.future that is far greater than you dare to dream. For your life. You

:28:26. > :28:30.just need to let them unhappy. -- let someone help you. Bad is it