:00:20. > :00:30.Welcome to Inside Out but Yorkshire and Lincolnshire where for the
:00:30. > :00:35.first show of 2013, we are here at sold's mill.
:00:35. > :00:42.I know that Gordon is not coming back, and of all my heart has
:00:42. > :00:48.accepted it, my head does not. Waiting for news about waiting for
:00:48. > :00:53.a missing person, could a long-hop those trapped in limbo? If I could
:00:53. > :00:57.run away by now, have this has also my hand, but I know I do not have a
:00:57. > :01:07.choice. We follow one woman's personal battle against a brain
:01:07. > :01:10.
:01:10. > :01:17.tumour as she undergoes radical Am celebrating the life of the
:01:17. > :01:20.Yorkshire innovator, Frederick Delius.
:01:20. > :01:24.Just imagine how you would feel if someone close to you suddenly
:01:24. > :01:31.disappear. It is like a bereavement without a body had for some
:01:31. > :01:34.families, it is a mystery that never gets solved. Wendy's husband
:01:34. > :01:39.disappeared last year and she is in a limbo between believing he is
:01:39. > :01:49.dead but not having any proof. We have been looking at how a change
:01:49. > :01:53.
:01:53. > :01:58.in the law could help Wendy and This is the market town where Wendy
:01:58. > :02:07.has left for the past 30 years. But her life was torn apart after a
:02:07. > :02:10.summer holiday with her husband. These are shops that are specific
:02:10. > :02:15.look -- specifically of Nerja. Wendy's husband Gordon was a keen
:02:15. > :02:21.walker as well as an accomplished amateur photographer. This is the
:02:21. > :02:26.sort of terrain that he would be walking in. He took time and
:02:26. > :02:31.patience on photography. He loved wildlife, birds, animals, he would
:02:31. > :02:40.just sit for hours, to get the right shot. He just loved being
:02:40. > :02:46.outdoors. So he was a real explorer? Yes. He saw beauty in
:02:46. > :02:48.things that we would just, you know, pass by. We would not even notice.
:02:48. > :02:52.Last July, when they went on holiday to Spain, Gordon went
:02:52. > :03:00.walking in the mountains, but he never came back. He has not been
:03:00. > :03:08.seen since. I know that Gordon is not coming back. And although my
:03:08. > :03:11.heart has accepted it, my head does not. I still think that he is going
:03:11. > :03:14.to come in, you know. Since then, Wendy's life has been in limbo.
:03:14. > :03:21.Because she cannot prove her husband is dead, she cannot even
:03:21. > :03:26.get access to many of the family finances. There is nothing, nothing
:03:26. > :03:30.that I have had to deal with has been straightforward. I have no
:03:30. > :03:37.life assurance, the Gordon, so there is no big sums of money to
:03:37. > :03:43.come. It was just for the tour bus, for our old age, basically. So that
:03:43. > :03:46.we could live modestly, but comfortably. Sadly, Wendy is not
:03:46. > :03:52.the only one. Other families say the existing legal system makes
:03:52. > :03:55.things harder when a loved one disappears. Do you remember Steven
:03:55. > :03:59.Cooper? He stayed up to watch telly and his partner went to bed. Hours
:03:59. > :04:02.later, she will cut to find he and his car had gone.
:04:02. > :04:09.Five years ago, Steven Cooper went missing from his home in
:04:09. > :04:17.Huddersfield. He has not been seen since. It is so difficult, because
:04:17. > :04:22.if he had committed suicide, had he had been found, we would be able to
:04:22. > :04:25.go to the grave. We would be able to put flowers on the grave. But we
:04:25. > :04:32.have not got that. Three days after he disappeared, Steven's car was
:04:32. > :04:36.found abandoned in the Scottish Highlands, near Loch Laggan.
:04:36. > :04:44.have got to be realistic. He is nowhere to be found. There had been
:04:44. > :04:47.no sightings of him. What do you do? You have got to carry on, you
:04:47. > :04:50.have got to hope that he is alive, but in the back of your mind, you
:04:50. > :04:53.know he probably will not be. Despite repeated searches, nothing
:04:53. > :05:02.else has been found. That means his family, like Wendy, cannot get
:05:02. > :05:06.official confirmation that Steven is dead. It is a fight that
:05:06. > :05:11.families do not want to have to go through. It is adding to the stress,
:05:11. > :05:16.adding to the upset that they are being put through this. To declare
:05:16. > :05:20.somebody that means the world to them as dead. There are moves to
:05:20. > :05:24.change the law, so production of Death Certificate can be issued,
:05:24. > :05:27.making it easier for relatives and a member -- won a member of the
:05:27. > :05:29.family goes missing. As the new bill works its way through
:05:29. > :05:35.Parliament, the charity Missing People is calling for greater
:05:35. > :05:38.awareness of the burden on families in these circumstances. Families
:05:38. > :05:41.might want to look after the missing person's financial and
:05:41. > :05:45.legal affairs while they are missing because they hope they will
:05:45. > :05:49.come back. We will look to get something similar to a power of
:05:49. > :05:53.attorney which would allow them to retain a missing person's affair.
:05:53. > :05:57.But at the moment, nothing exists in law for the missing person to be
:05:57. > :06:00.able to do that. For Wendy, the new bill will make life a little easier,
:06:00. > :06:04.but it will not solve the mystery of what really happened to her
:06:04. > :06:14.husband. She is going back to Spain to retrace his final journey into
:06:14. > :06:16.
:06:16. > :06:22.Wendy is back in Nerja, and back at the hotel where she last saw Gordon.
:06:22. > :06:27.I get quite a calm feeling when I am here. One is because that the
:06:27. > :06:34.hotel is familiar to us, we have had many happy holidays here. The
:06:34. > :06:38.other is that I feel that by coming back, I am coming closer to Gordon
:06:38. > :06:47.again. Spanish police say they are still hoping Gordon will be found,
:06:47. > :06:50.but they cannot be sure. TRANSLATION: As time goes by, the
:06:50. > :06:54.more difficult it becomes, and the chance of actually finding the spot
:06:54. > :07:04.where he had the accident grows less. The area is craggy, so it
:07:04. > :07:12.
:07:12. > :07:17.needs specialist material like It is early morning. Wendy is
:07:17. > :07:24.following Gordon's's route out of Nerja. She is with Michiel
:07:24. > :07:30.Tweehuijsen, a local guide. Gordon left the hotel at 6am, after making
:07:30. > :07:34.detailed plans for a two-day walk into the mountains. It is morning,
:07:34. > :07:37.it is six o'clock, the son get up at that time of the year. Gordon
:07:37. > :07:47.was heading for El Cadena, a mountain he had tried to climb
:07:47. > :07:53.twice before. This is Nerja, this whole National Park. 14,500
:07:53. > :07:58.hectares. There is no one living here. This is the way that he
:07:58. > :08:07.started walking in the morning from where we left. To where we are at
:08:07. > :08:16.the moment. He would have taken his water for the work. -- for the walk.
:08:16. > :08:25.He followed the river. That is why he wanted to be the first day of
:08:26. > :08:32.walking. We have been searching all the springs and rivers. It is
:08:33. > :08:37.looking for an eagle in a big mountain of hay. -- and Lidl. But I
:08:37. > :08:46.will not give up. Gordon was on his own, and it was July, when
:08:46. > :08:51.temperatures could hit 45 degrees at midday. As most people who know
:08:51. > :08:55.Gordon, if he saw a couple of ibex down of the track and he got a
:08:55. > :09:00.would be a good photograph, he would follow them. We can only
:09:00. > :09:04.assume now because he has not been found on any of the main tracks,
:09:04. > :09:10.that that is possibly what he has done for so we can see what it is
:09:10. > :09:14.like all around here. If you fell down under these bushes and trees,
:09:14. > :09:18.what are the chances of being able to be seen? Wendy has reached the
:09:18. > :09:27.end of her journey. This is as near as she can get to Gordon's
:09:27. > :09:35.destination, the cloud covered summit of El Cadena. I do feel
:09:35. > :09:41.close, you know, in a strange way. Yes, it is where he is, for me, at
:09:41. > :09:48.the moment, until we know anything different. He is here. But it is
:09:48. > :09:58.just finding him that is difficult. The new law won't bring Gordon back.
:09:58. > :10:30.
:10:30. > :10:33.But Wendy is hoping that eventually, Every year, over a thousand people
:10:33. > :10:42.are diagnosed with brain tumours. It is a member patients described
:10:42. > :10:47.as having a ticking timebomb in your head. Debbie has let her
:10:47. > :10:57.follow her fight against the tumour would our cameras. This film does
:10:57. > :10:58.
:10:58. > :11:01.contain some images of brain Debbie is 38 years old and is
:11:01. > :11:09.having an operation to remove part of a brain tumour the size of an
:11:10. > :11:17.egg. She is wide awake and can see and hear everything that is going
:11:17. > :11:21.on. Drilling through the skull is immensely noisy, there is a lot of
:11:21. > :11:25.pressure, a deafening noise of the drill, so the skull acts like a
:11:25. > :11:27.sounding board. The operation will not cure Debbie, but it may delay
:11:27. > :11:35.her tumour from becoming more aggressive and potentially
:11:35. > :11:38.cancerous. It is a terminal illness. To go through such a massive
:11:38. > :11:42.experience, knowing that actually it is not going to do me an awful
:11:42. > :11:45.lot of good in the long-term, is really difficult. Debbie has
:11:45. > :11:50.invited us to film her operation to raise awareness about brain tumours,
:11:50. > :11:53.and to show what it is like to live with one. Debbie lives in
:11:53. > :11:56.Huddersfield with her husband and two children. Life has changed
:11:56. > :12:06.dramatically for them over the last six years since the discovery that
:12:06. > :12:07.
:12:07. > :12:12.Debbie had a brain tumour. We were just married. We had a small child.
:12:12. > :12:16.We were looking at planning our future, my career was going well.
:12:16. > :12:19.Suddenly, it was all swept away. It just felt like freefall. Debbie's
:12:19. > :12:29.brain tumour is slow-growing, or low-grade, but it could change and
:12:29. > :12:30.
:12:30. > :12:33.become malignant at any stage. call it a watch and wait. They want
:12:33. > :12:38.to see if anything is going to change. It is it really anxious
:12:38. > :12:48.period. It is kind of in normal life, then into hospital life, it
:12:48. > :13:11.
:13:11. > :13:15.This is the front and this wide area is the brain tumour. A lot of
:13:15. > :13:20.patients talk about a ticking timebomb and they know what they
:13:20. > :13:23.have a tumour that is not cancer but it can change and that is very
:13:23. > :13:28.difficult psychologically for some patients.
:13:28. > :13:35.Are you prepared for the surgery and you have the support?
:13:35. > :13:40.By things have been quite good. will travel to London for co-
:13:41. > :13:49.operation, and a week craniotomy, that means they will remove part of
:13:49. > :13:54.the tumour at I she is awake. hoped that the time for it to
:13:54. > :14:01.become malignant will be reduced so it will increase her survival time
:14:01. > :14:09.and prognosis. It feels it will now I have sat down and talked about it
:14:09. > :14:19.and I have seen the jumar on screen, it seems real. -- tumour. A bit
:14:19. > :14:22.
:14:22. > :14:31.breathless at the minute. It is the date of the operation and she will
:14:31. > :14:37.be in theatre for over three hours, conscious the whole time. The if I
:14:37. > :14:43.could, I would run away, but I have no choice about this. This is an
:14:43. > :14:47.exploratory operation to see how much of the tumour I can remove.
:14:47. > :14:55.am incredibly anxious and very fearful for my family who are
:14:55. > :14:58.waiting because I know what they will be going to. -- going through.
:14:58. > :15:00.The first part of the operation involves removing the top of her
:15:00. > :15:07.skull. Normally, patients would be anaesthetised for this, but in
:15:07. > :15:10.Debbie's case, they want to keep her awake. There could be
:15:10. > :15:19.difficulty controlling her airways so although it will be difficult
:15:19. > :15:26.for her, we will have her awake throughout. It that it? That is it.
:15:26. > :15:30.All the groundwork is done. I do not like doing it. As a doctor,
:15:30. > :15:36.and you do not like doing unpleasant things to people, but it
:15:36. > :15:39.does not heard. Or you all right? I am all right.
:15:39. > :15:44.Once they can see the brain, they stimulate different areas, to
:15:44. > :15:49.identify how much is tumour and how much is healthy tissue.
:15:49. > :15:59.I am going to start with what might be the sensory part for your left
:15:59. > :15:59.
:15:59. > :16:09.leg inside your body. Do you feel any funny feelings? Yes, in my
:16:09. > :16:10.
:16:10. > :16:20.foot! Right at the bottom. This may produce movement. In my left arm,
:16:20. > :16:22.
:16:22. > :16:31.it moved. That is motor, that is sensory. That was a hand twitching.
:16:31. > :16:36.Consistently? Yes. I am going to stop removing some of this tumour
:16:36. > :16:46.and by checking her movement, hopefully I will not stray into the
:16:46. > :16:53.motor area. A open your eyes, big smile, stick
:16:53. > :17:02.your tongue out, perfect. Squeeze your hand, Paul Reid towards you,
:17:02. > :17:08.in the air, down again -- pull your hand. Turn it round. The operation
:17:08. > :17:13.has been on for over an hour. is extraordinary is that Debbie is
:17:13. > :17:19.a break and can help them if I she tells them which part of her body
:17:19. > :17:25.feel funny as they remove part of the tumour. That is the cheek and
:17:25. > :17:33.that is the on and that his hands, so it is spread out widely stop
:17:33. > :17:36.mind --. -- arm. But it quickly becomes apparent that removing even
:17:36. > :17:38.small amounts of the tumour is making it difficult for Debbie to
:17:38. > :17:43.move her left leg. Is the work we go? He definitely
:17:43. > :17:50.weaker than it was before the operation. -- is the lake and
:17:50. > :17:57.weaker at. -- leg. But things don't improve and the surgeon decides to
:17:57. > :18:02.call it a day. I had to stop because I made it weaker, but if
:18:02. > :18:07.that gets better quickly, which it probably will, there is the option
:18:07. > :18:15.of another operation and in later date. You are fighting a battle in
:18:15. > :18:19.a losing war or to many but it might be worth considering.
:18:19. > :18:21.ultimately. In the end, they only manage to remove about 10% of the
:18:21. > :18:24.tumour, which is much less than was originally hoped.
:18:24. > :18:30.Three weeks later, and Debbie is back at home recovering from her
:18:30. > :18:36.surgery, and she is upbeat about how the operation went.
:18:36. > :18:41.It is better having some of Robert found that none of it out so for me
:18:41. > :18:45.it was a success. -- some of it. And I found an inner strength to
:18:45. > :18:48.cope with something I thought I would not be able to cope with.
:18:49. > :18:51.Debbie is one of thousands of people living in the UK with a
:18:52. > :18:56.brain tumour, but she believes there needs to be more research and
:18:56. > :19:02.a greater awareness, which is why she invited the cameras in.
:19:03. > :19:08.I wanted people to be a part of my journey, a part of what I am
:19:08. > :19:12.experiencing, to try to understand that there are so many of us who
:19:12. > :19:22.are the silent ones. Debbie may face more operations in the future,
:19:22. > :19:26.
:19:26. > :19:34.but for now, she must watch and When it comes to that for's most
:19:34. > :19:41.famous son, David Hockney probably takes the title -- Bradford's most
:19:41. > :19:47.famous art. But he does have a rival. Delius was born 150 years
:19:47. > :19:57.ago in Bradford. We have been looking back at a life of one of
:19:57. > :20:06.
:20:06. > :20:09.The work of the composer Delius. It is a story which put Bradford at
:20:09. > :20:14.the centre of world music. A rebel who rejected his parents' religion
:20:14. > :20:16.and swapped his family business for the love of his life. Music.
:20:16. > :20:26.The classical composer Frederic Delius was the ultimate non-
:20:26. > :20:28.
:20:28. > :20:31.conformist. He has always been in the category to himself. Of Taik-
:20:31. > :20:38.Lee single man do it -- single- minded, egotistical about what you
:20:38. > :20:42.wanted to achieve -- and the means by which she wanted to achieve that.
:20:42. > :20:45.-- he wanted. It is 150 years since Delius was born just a stones'
:20:45. > :20:48.throw away from this bustling city centre. But his contribution, both
:20:48. > :20:50.home and abroad, still resonates across cultures around the world.
:20:50. > :20:52.And today, one of those whose music he inspired, world-reknowned
:20:52. > :20:59.violininst Tasmin Little, whose father is from Bradford, has
:20:59. > :21:02.returned to the city to learn a bit more about her hero.
:21:02. > :21:07.First stop, the German church where a young Delius soaked up his first
:21:07. > :21:12.musical influences, while worshiping with his family.
:21:12. > :21:17.It is wonderful to be here, it really is, and to think of him
:21:17. > :21:21.being here as a young boy sitting board in the congregation. He ended
:21:22. > :21:24.up as a complete atheist! family were part of a wave of
:21:24. > :21:26.German immigrants who came to establish a strong identity within
:21:27. > :21:36.the city's wool trade. Their growing wealth evidenced in their
:21:37. > :21:37.
:21:38. > :21:43.own stained glass window here. They're off from a German family
:21:43. > :21:46.and music and church -- may off from. Quite the puritanical family
:21:46. > :21:56.and the family have made up their minds to go into the will and Trade
:21:56. > :21:58.
:21:59. > :22:06.and it turned out very differently! -- of the war when decade.
:22:06. > :22:11.-- woolen trade. What makes it special is the use of harmony, it
:22:11. > :22:17.is very lyrical and singing. He loved nature and he loved walking
:22:17. > :22:22.on the moors, and as a young boy, he wanted to run away from home. He
:22:22. > :22:26.tried to run away with his younger brother until they took with them
:22:26. > :22:31.was a bag of sweets! They were found along the moors with an empty
:22:31. > :22:35.bag of sweets and sent off home. He was always eager to immerse himself
:22:35. > :22:45.in nature. While nature may have been his first Love, he had to
:22:45. > :22:48.fight to find it. According to local historian Irene Lofthouse,
:22:48. > :22:51.when Delius was set to work at his father's warehouse in the thick of
:22:51. > :22:59.Bradford's grimy wool industry, he was like a fish out of water.
:22:59. > :23:04.Imagine all these males full of working looms and people and clogs
:23:04. > :23:10.-- cotton mills. It would have been really noisy. It would also have
:23:10. > :23:13.been filled the. -- a filthy. All this grubbiness wasn't for Delius.
:23:13. > :23:15.He had his own ideas. Instead of picking up the family business, he
:23:15. > :23:17.threw himself into music, travelling around the world for
:23:17. > :23:21.inspiration. And as Tasmin and I are about find
:23:21. > :23:31.out, his rich musical legacy is being used in a variety of creative
:23:31. > :23:32.
:23:32. > :23:35.A few miles from the family's warehouse is the Delius Special
:23:35. > :23:38.School, where music is a key part of the curriculum, in an
:23:38. > :23:43.environment where children have a variety of profound learning
:23:43. > :23:50.disabilities. Here, music is a vital means of
:23:50. > :23:55.communication, and Tasmin is keen to share her passion.
:23:55. > :24:05.So on times, in springtime, there is a thunderstorm and the thunder
:24:05. > :24:10.
:24:10. > :24:12.goes like this -- sometimes. And the like mink goes like this.
:24:12. > :24:16.Delius himself, Tasmin is keen to break down musical barriers, an
:24:16. > :24:21.attitude which is at the heart of this school's work. We have got
:24:21. > :24:25.children who are autistic and they have difficulty expressing their
:24:25. > :24:30.emotions in a normal situation. But give them music and talk to them
:24:30. > :24:34.about emotion through music and they can be as expressive and
:24:34. > :24:39.interested in opening Gupta people as anybody else, so it is quite
:24:39. > :24:48.wonderful -- opening up to people. Delius wanted his work to connect
:24:48. > :24:51.with the soul, and the curriculum here would be music to his ears.
:24:51. > :24:54.As Delius grew up, he moved away from Bradford, but continued to
:24:54. > :24:56.rebel against authority. His tastes became ever more bohemian, reaching
:24:56. > :25:06.a peak while mixing with the impressionists and philosophers in
:25:06. > :25:10.
:25:10. > :25:14.Paris. He loved good wine, he loved a cigar, he loved beautiful women,
:25:14. > :25:17.and ultimately people -- he paid the price for this in his later
:25:17. > :25:21.life. After Delius's years of debauchery in France, he went blind
:25:21. > :25:30.and needed constant care. His life was turned into a BBC film by the
:25:30. > :25:36.legendary director Ken Russell. knew Scarborough when I was a boy,
:25:36. > :25:38.when we used to live in Bradford, a filthy place! By this time, he had
:25:38. > :25:43.already travelled to America, Scandinavia and Germany, fusing the
:25:43. > :25:48.musical traditions of everywhere he went into his own distinctive style.
:25:48. > :25:53.And want you to imagine we are sitting on the cliffs looking out
:25:53. > :25:56.onto the sea -- I want you. Delius was a maverick throughout his life.
:25:56. > :25:58.But the multi-cultural influences of his music was too much for some.
:25:58. > :26:01.The British public wanted patriotism and, just as Delius was
:26:01. > :26:11.reaching his peak, his style was overshadowed by a piece of music
:26:11. > :26:16.
:26:16. > :26:26.that gave them what they were Algar was regarded as the bright
:26:26. > :26:29.
:26:29. > :26:35.new hope for British music. Elgar. My know get the raced out of
:26:35. > :26:38.the British musical history as a result -- Delius gets taking out.
:26:38. > :26:42.Mack Subsequently, it was Elgar, and not Delius, who came to define
:26:42. > :26:48.his musical generation. represents the diverse community
:26:48. > :26:52.Bradford is today, diverse constituents. National boundaries
:26:53. > :26:56.were not important to Delius. Delius may simply have been ahead
:26:56. > :26:58.of his time. As part of Tasmin's visit, she is performing a gala
:26:58. > :27:02.concert in the city's cathedral. Before she leaves, there is just
:27:02. > :27:05.time to squeeze in a visit to the place where this musical journey
:27:05. > :27:08.all began, Delius's birth place in Claremont Road, now the base for an
:27:08. > :27:11.international relief organisation, and a chance for us to reflect on
:27:11. > :27:18.his career. He was an outsider in the very next
:27:18. > :27:23.Bradford at the time. -- a mixed. That is right, and although he was
:27:23. > :27:29.an outsider and must have felt the clash between being in Bradford but
:27:29. > :27:34.having the strong German roots, that almost turned into the story
:27:34. > :27:39.of his success the curse he resisted the path that was set out
:27:39. > :27:44.for him and in resisting it, he made it very clear his own
:27:44. > :27:46.individual path. And that is a path which the people of Bradford at
:27:46. > :27:49.least are happy to follow, as tonight, a sell-out crowd enjoys
:27:49. > :27:59.Delius's music being played in the city which has continued to cherish
:27:59. > :28:05.
:28:05. > :28:09.During the different things we have done today, it has definitely
:28:09. > :28:15.brought me closer to the early part of his life, to see the place he
:28:15. > :28:25.would have gone to to do his day's work. Far removed from Delius the
:28:25. > :28:30.
:28:30. > :28:35.musician, so it has brought the man That is it for tonight, and if you