:00:00. > :00:15.This week we meet the primary schoolgirl who was born a boy.
:00:16. > :00:18.And we find out why Lawrence of Arabia came to live
:00:19. > :00:25.Welcome to Inside Out. I'm Paul Hudson.
:00:26. > :00:28.Tonight, how old he have to be to decide your future?
:00:29. > :00:30.We meet the nine-year-old who was born
:00:31. > :00:35.It just matters that you, you, are who
:00:36. > :00:42.Also tonight, we followed the GPs train to care for
:00:43. > :00:44.elderly patients at home as the local hospital
:00:45. > :00:50.There's got to be a much bigger acknowledgement of the need to
:00:51. > :00:53.properly fund and properly resource and properly integrate health and
:00:54. > :01:00.And, later in the programme, how and why historic
:01:01. > :01:03.legend Lawrence of Arabia came to live here in Bridlington.
:01:04. > :01:06.He used to take these little marine craft out
:01:07. > :01:09.into the bay and he'd let the aircraft, and bomb him.
:01:10. > :01:12.And, so, he was just like a sitting duck in the
:01:13. > :01:27.The number of children referred to Yorkshire's gender ID
:01:28. > :01:32.Heidi Tomlinson has spent the last six months with a nine-year-old
:01:33. > :01:35.Amber, who was born a boy but wants to become a girl.
:01:36. > :01:39.Her parents have agreed to this film to help raise awareness of this most
:01:40. > :01:45.It's June and eight-year-old Amber has an appointment
:01:46. > :01:48.Do you want to show me your extensions?
:01:49. > :01:51.You're hoping that those might go in so your hair's a bit longer?
:01:52. > :01:57.I think they might be for dressing up and to make her feel
:01:58. > :01:59.when she needs a girly day but I don't think
:02:00. > :02:03.She wants to look like a girl despite being a boy physically.
:02:04. > :02:05.Are you excited about having a new style?
:02:06. > :02:14.Her mum Becky says she's too young to wear it regularly.
:02:15. > :02:21.Do you know, I never realised how long your lashes were.
:02:22. > :02:22.I never realised how wrong they were.
:02:23. > :02:34.Tomorrow she goes to school as a girl for the first time.
:02:35. > :02:37.I think you look really glam. You look gorgeous.
:02:38. > :02:48.Amber was born Nicholas, the youngest of three boys.
:02:49. > :02:52.Amber was living a lie. She was playing the part of a son.
:02:53. > :02:59.She was playing the role that she saw from her brothers.
:03:00. > :03:04.And she was filling that boy role through their guidance.
:03:05. > :03:07.At a very eary stage she became obsessed
:03:08. > :03:11.She watched a programme about drag queens
:03:12. > :03:18.I didn't want to be a drag queen any more.
:03:19. > :03:20.So, I told my mum, can I be a boy again?
:03:21. > :03:28.And, then, I remember saying, "What is transgender?"
:03:29. > :03:34.Her parents say she was a girl trapped in a boy's body.
:03:35. > :03:41.It's not about what anybody else thinks.
:03:42. > :03:44.It's not about what they deem better for my child.
:03:45. > :03:51.It's me and everybody else who has to run to catch up.
:03:52. > :03:55.How convinced are you that Amber will stay as a girl now?
:03:56. > :04:04.From day one, she wasn't as the other boys were.
:04:05. > :04:07.She had got a feminine side to her, more than anything.
:04:08. > :04:10.She wanted to do the cleaning, she wanted to do dolls,
:04:11. > :04:19.But but my mind is, like, pulling me to one side and my other
:04:20. > :04:24.The one on the left is saying, being a boy.
:04:25. > :04:26.The other one is saying, being a girl.
:04:27. > :04:43.The big day arrives, Amber will go to school as a girl.
:04:44. > :04:49.Do you know what you're going to do if you need the loo?
:04:50. > :05:03.Today classmates will call her Amber instead of Nicholas.
:05:04. > :05:07.Last term there was a special assembly about Amber's
:05:08. > :05:16.Her friends have promised to support her although she has been
:05:17. > :05:29.The best bit is the kids referring to her as Amber.
:05:30. > :05:34.The teachers have come up to her and said hello.
:05:35. > :05:38.Very positive reaction from the teachers.
:05:39. > :05:54.I think I need to go home and bawl my eyes out.
:05:55. > :05:56.It's been an emotional time at home, too.
:05:57. > :05:59.Amber's teenage brothers have both found the change hard to accept.
:06:00. > :06:07.It just came to have it when I was in tears.
:06:08. > :06:09.It was just too hard for me to think about.
:06:10. > :06:14.She said that she wanted to be a girl.
:06:15. > :06:20.I thought she was too young to understand.
:06:21. > :06:22.When she wanted to change her name to Amber that
:06:23. > :06:37.It come to a bit where she just said, "Mum,
:06:38. > :06:46.And I was just eaTing something at the time
:06:47. > :06:49.I went in tears. I just walked away.
:06:50. > :06:53.Amber's parents are separated but they are united
:06:54. > :06:56.And people think it's a neglect type of thing.
:06:57. > :06:58.You're forcing it on to her, that poor child.
:06:59. > :07:02.It's come from the child herself. It's nothing to do with us.
:07:03. > :07:04.Strong friendships give Amber confidence but there have been some
:07:05. > :07:09.One of them said, are you going to die your hair, I said no.
:07:10. > :07:11.Another said, are you going to get married
:07:12. > :07:24.She's changed in her personality by doing like things like she's
:07:25. > :07:32.getting more confident and stuff that she is doing.
:07:33. > :07:35.Usually, she wouldn't really wear jewellery when she was a boy
:07:36. > :07:37.but now she's a girl, she wears much more jewellery.
:07:38. > :07:40.A few months after transition, Amber celebrates her ninth
:07:41. > :07:47.birthday with afternoon tea, one of her favourite things.
:07:48. > :07:49.You're not allowed to just fill your plate up with paper, either.
:07:50. > :07:56.But eating's become an issue, she thinks putting on weight
:07:57. > :08:02.Hiding food. It's not good, is it?
:08:03. > :08:07.Puberty is getting closer as each year goes by.
:08:08. > :08:09.She's keen to take hormone blockers to delay the obvious
:08:10. > :08:16.It's something they've discussed with psychologists at the gender
:08:17. > :08:22.Of the blockers, I think that is something that would be,
:08:23. > :08:24.if this is something that Amber definitely wants, that's come
:08:25. > :08:28.at a certain stage of development, she has to go through a certain
:08:29. > :08:35.If that changes down the line and she wants to keep continuing,
:08:36. > :08:41.We don't want to do something to early,
:08:42. > :08:45.Can you imagine yourself as a teenager?
:08:46. > :08:50.If I'm not an blockers, I'll be all bulky, all manly, like.
:08:51. > :08:53.And then, at night, I'll be trying to pray, saying,
:08:54. > :09:08.We've been filming Amber for six months.
:09:09. > :09:11.The family wanted us to tell their story to encourage
:09:12. > :09:16.acceptance and understanding of transgender children.
:09:17. > :09:22.I am aware of a lot of people's views.
:09:23. > :09:31.Been called disgusting and everything else and,
:09:32. > :09:40.realistically, I think those people need to just step outside
:09:41. > :09:42.their little box, their judgmental box and realise that
:09:43. > :09:43.transgender people are, you know, humans.
:09:44. > :09:47.Have you given Amber too much freedom?
:09:48. > :09:55.That is something that I tear myself up about.
:09:56. > :09:58.I've just got to do the best that I can
:09:59. > :10:01.with the information available to me.
:10:02. > :10:05.She's so much more brighter and confident than what
:10:06. > :10:14.Do you think your too young to make your mind up about this?
:10:15. > :10:30.It isn't like something bad's going to happen.
:10:31. > :10:47.It just matters that you are who you want to be.
:10:48. > :10:51.And, don't forget, if you've got any views on tonight's programme,
:10:52. > :10:54.or you've got a story you think we might like to cover,
:10:55. > :10:57.you can get in touch on Facebook or on Twitter.
:10:58. > :11:01.Why Lawrence of Arabia came to live here
:11:02. > :11:11.to close a Community Hospital in the Peak District
:11:12. > :11:14.they realised they wouldn't be popular
:11:15. > :11:17.but argued it would be cheaper but better
:11:18. > :11:20.for some elderly patients to be cared for at home.
:11:21. > :11:24.has been to one nearby GP practice that is doing
:11:25. > :11:29."It's been revealed this lunchtime that the NHS wants to close
:11:30. > :11:34.two community hospitals in Derbyshire."
:11:35. > :11:36.Newholme hospital in Bakewell was built
:11:37. > :11:47.Now health bosses say it doesn't fit into the NHS of the 21st Century.
:11:48. > :11:50.The people I've spoken to in Bakewell today are shocked.
:11:51. > :11:58.Nearby at Baslow health centre the news has got everybody talking.
:11:59. > :12:02.It's a real shame because people rely on it,
:12:03. > :12:08.You know, it should be there for people.
:12:09. > :12:11.I think the elderly, especially, are going to be quite devastated.
:12:12. > :12:16.But some think the idea of moving care out of hospital
:12:17. > :12:18.and into people's homes is a good one.
:12:19. > :12:22.I think it sounds marvellous if people
:12:23. > :12:31.People are so passionate about Newholme
:12:32. > :12:34.Because it's been around for 150 years.
:12:35. > :12:37.Just about anybody you speak to around here will have had either
:12:38. > :12:45.a member of the family work in the hospital
:12:46. > :12:46.or be admitted to the hospital.
:12:47. > :12:47.It's just health economics, isn't it?
:12:48. > :12:49.We've got an older, frailer population.
:12:50. > :12:52.The evidences, keeping people out of hospital is better for them.
:12:53. > :12:53.We have downward pressure on our finances.
:12:54. > :12:56.It is absolutely essential for us to do things differently.
:12:57. > :12:58.For us to be ready to meet the needs of
:12:59. > :13:06.So how easy is it to care for patients at home?
:13:07. > :13:10.Today Dr Jordan's been called to visit Jill James,
:13:11. > :13:12.an elderly patient with dementia who's at risk
:13:13. > :13:19.We're going to see a lady who's
:13:20. > :13:29.met her before and she's 79 and she's got a chest infection.
:13:30. > :13:37.I gather from your daughter that you're
:13:38. > :13:52.Have you had anything to eat or drink today?
:13:53. > :13:55.She's very breathless. Her oxygen sacs are low.
:13:56. > :13:58.The temperature is high. And she has got a chest infection.
:13:59. > :14:03.We've got a couple of choices that they are not easy choices.
:14:04. > :14:10.I was obviously quite shocked at how unwell Jill was.
:14:11. > :14:13.Quickly try to assess, is this appropriate to go into hospital?
:14:14. > :14:17.Which, unquestionably, it would have been.
:14:18. > :14:20.Or is this someone we can try and manage at home which was clearly
:14:21. > :14:32.Hello, it's Doctor Jordan from Baslow surgery.
:14:33. > :14:34.I wonder if you can help me with some IV fluids and
:14:35. > :14:37.antibiotics to help a lady at home, please.
:14:38. > :14:39.I shall now call the on-call microbiologist at Chesterfield
:14:40. > :14:42.To move Jill into a hospital bed would cost hundreds
:14:43. > :14:46.Putting a jigsaw of home care in place is cheaper
:14:47. > :14:53.You're having to be a conductor of a very large orchestra.
:14:54. > :14:56.You're having to try and get lots of services in very quickly.
:14:57. > :14:57.Good afternoon, central access point.
:14:58. > :15:07.Hello, Kate, it's Doctor Jordan. Calling from Baslow surgery here.
:15:08. > :15:09.I was wondering if... Hello, Doctor Jordan.
:15:10. > :15:14.I was wondering if you could help me support a lady to stay at home,
:15:15. > :15:16.who's quite elderly and unwell at the moment.
:15:17. > :15:18.Five phone calls later carers and antibiotics are on their way.
:15:19. > :15:20.Louise is sure keeping Jill out of hospital
:15:21. > :15:38.It would have taken one phone called to admit
:15:39. > :15:41.her into hospital and in our time-poor job, that so easy to do.
:15:42. > :15:43.But, just that little bit of extra effort
:15:44. > :15:49.We're going to have to follow that up tomorrow,
:15:50. > :15:52.but it's the right thing to do for that
:15:53. > :16:00.Newholme hospital has cared for patients
:16:01. > :16:15.Elderly patients come here to get
:16:16. > :16:23.back on their feet with the help of specialist teams.
:16:24. > :16:25.The clinical commissioning group now wants those teams to visit people
:16:26. > :16:28.at home instead ? and they're asking the public what they think.
:16:29. > :16:30.But it's not just about specialists -
:16:31. > :16:32.doctors are worried, if the hospital closes,
:16:33. > :16:35.who will feed and wash vulnerable patients
:16:36. > :16:41.Very specifically, we don't have enough carers
:16:42. > :16:49.Social services cuts It won't be able to step
:16:50. > :16:52.up to give the extra care that is needed
:16:53. > :16:56.83-year-old Peter Warin hasn't been eating properly
:16:57. > :17:00.Very scared. He had a bleeding head wound.
:17:01. > :17:10.When he was weighed, when he was admitted, he was 40 kilos.
:17:11. > :17:13.It was Newholme that has allowed him
:17:14. > :17:15.to rebuild his strength, giving him the right diet
:17:16. > :17:23.Oh, it's wonderful. The food is marvellous.
:17:24. > :17:29.Well, the number of people here who need care
:17:30. > :17:37.A Community Hospital is very, very important.
:17:38. > :17:46.Particularly with such an ageing population.
:17:47. > :17:48.It's more than a month since Dr Jordan put in
:17:49. > :17:56.For weeks the family have been visited daily by nurses,
:17:57. > :18:07.It's just a miracle what's happened to mum.
:18:08. > :18:11.She is almost back to her normal self and she'll be able to carry on
:18:12. > :18:14.We've got lots of things we want to do still.
:18:15. > :18:17.Those hanging baskets are nice. When did you get those?
:18:18. > :18:23.It's a good quality of life she's got back to.
:18:24. > :18:25.I haven't got a cough, at all. No.
:18:26. > :18:34.The best local response, really, is to
:18:35. > :18:42.I'll lie in front if a bulldozer comes.
:18:43. > :18:44.Meanwhile, in Bakewell, after a series of public meetings
:18:45. > :18:49.All the feedback that we get
:18:50. > :18:52.from the general public will be
:18:53. > :18:58.An announcement is expected in the next few weeks.
:18:59. > :19:02.Down the road in Matlock some health staff have already moved
:19:03. > :19:08.from Newholme so they're in the same building as social services.
:19:09. > :19:10.There's a lot of repetition between health and social care,
:19:11. > :19:13.so being based in same office will hopefully
:19:14. > :19:26.and more elderly patients, it's all part of a bigger picture.
:19:27. > :19:28.It's really clear that for a sustainable future
:19:29. > :19:34.for an increasingly elderly population there's got to be proper
:19:35. > :19:37.acknowledgment of the need to properly fund and properly
:19:38. > :19:53.Now, I've been on the trail of one of the greatest British heroes of
:19:54. > :19:59.A man who made his name in the sands of Arabia
:20:00. > :20:02.and his story has been told in films and in many books.
:20:03. > :20:05.But, did you know, before his death, he came to live
:20:06. > :20:11.In 1934, a passenger arrived here in Bridlington train station.
:20:12. > :20:13.He was one of Britain's most famous men.
:20:14. > :20:17.But he had an assumed name to try and avoid being identified.
:20:18. > :20:24.He was better known as Lawrence of Arabia.
:20:25. > :20:28.The new arrival was an international celebrity
:20:29. > :20:40.Nearly a hundred years later, Lawrence is still remembered
:20:41. > :20:43.in films and books for his role in leading an Arab rebellion
:20:44. > :20:48.What, in your opinion, did these people hope
:20:49. > :21:04.These days in Bridlington, only a few clues survive
:21:05. > :21:09.He came because he'd started a new life, under an assumed name,
:21:10. > :21:17.Aircraftsman Shaw, To give him his adopted name, has
:21:18. > :21:20.always been a difficult man to photograph, ever since his war
:21:21. > :21:22.exploits made him the uncrowned King of Arabia.
:21:23. > :21:25.For more than ten years, Lawrence had been pursued by the Press.
:21:26. > :21:28.When he arrived back in Britain in 1929, he wanted to evade
:21:29. > :21:34.the public spotlight by joining the marine branch of the RAF.
:21:35. > :21:37.My search begins in Bridlington library, where I'm finding evidence
:21:38. > :21:46.It's very obvious just looking at the collection of
:21:47. > :21:49.books and newspapers here on this table but there is an awful lot of
:21:50. > :21:53.Absolutely. Yes.
:21:54. > :21:57.People were very proud of the fact that Lawrence was a part of the
:21:58. > :21:59.community, not just here working but mixing with
:22:00. > :22:04.them in the harbour, and in the shops.
:22:05. > :22:07.In a collection of newspaper cuttings, Sarah's found what looks
:22:08. > :22:10.like the first public record of Lawrence's posting here,
:22:11. > :22:21.It's all about what he did here in Bridlington.
:22:22. > :22:27.He used to take these little marine craft out into the bay
:22:28. > :22:39.So, he was just like a sitting duck in the middle of Bridlington Bay.
:22:40. > :22:42.It was here in Bridlington harbour that
:22:43. > :22:44.Lawrence spend most of his working days.
:22:45. > :22:47.He was based with the RAF in boat sheds behind me.
:22:48. > :22:49.This is the only surviving footage of Lawrence's
:22:50. > :22:54.which started at Hythe near Southampton
:22:55. > :23:00.He was developing high speed launches for air sea rescue,
:23:01. > :23:04.as well armoured boats for bomb target practice.
:23:05. > :23:06.His work was a deliberate escape from the glory
:23:07. > :23:11.After the Middle East, Lawrence, a quiet, reserved man,
:23:12. > :23:17.enjoyed coming to a seaside resort in winter.
:23:18. > :23:24.Richard Knowles has researched Lawrence's RAF duties
:23:25. > :23:31.Lawrence of Arabia, here in Bridlington,
:23:32. > :23:38.Well, he'd have been very familiar with this sort of
:23:39. > :23:42.feeling because he was here on three occasions.
:23:43. > :23:45.Briefly in 1932, for about a month in the summer of 1933
:23:46. > :23:48.and for a few months, towards the end of his
:23:49. > :23:54.It paints a very different picture of
:23:55. > :23:56.the one we all know, Lawrence of Arabia.
:23:57. > :24:02.It's a very different scene to be seeing
:24:03. > :24:05.Lawrence in the desert but, of course, he went through quite a
:24:06. > :24:11.traumatic time, after that period, and came into the RAF and towards
:24:12. > :24:13.the end of this career was very influential
:24:14. > :24:18.How important to Lawrence was his work in the RAF?
:24:19. > :24:19.I think he found great satisfaction
:24:20. > :24:25.Which led, of course, in the Second World War to the
:24:26. > :24:27.development of air sea rescue launches.
:24:28. > :24:33.Using some of the technology that he'd used.
:24:34. > :24:35.Now, anything which belonged to Lawrence is highly prized.
:24:36. > :24:39.Richard has original hand-written notes which describe
:24:40. > :24:45.Here we have a tiny fragment of paper, in
:24:46. > :24:53.pencil, in Lawrence's actual hand with his signature at the bottom,
:24:54. > :24:55.and this talks about type 200 number 208.
:24:56. > :25:05.He goes on about it in quite some technical detail.
:25:06. > :25:13.I think these logs and the letters of the period show the pride and
:25:14. > :25:16.these satisfaction he got out of it. You can mirror the achievements of
:25:17. > :25:21.the latter part of his career with the time in the desert.
:25:22. > :25:23.So what did Lawrence really think of Bridlington?
:25:24. > :25:26.Richard's got a fragment from one of his letters which gives a clue.
:25:27. > :25:34.It says, post to and from Bridlington take at least two days.
:25:35. > :25:38."A Dreadful little place." On his final posting,
:25:39. > :25:51.Lawrence stayed at what used This is the room he stayed in during
:25:52. > :25:53.that last visit. It's changed massively. One thing that hasn't
:25:54. > :25:56.changed is the view of the harbour. In fact, most of the time,
:25:57. > :26:06.Lawrence liked Bridlington. He was in a melancholy mood because
:26:07. > :26:14.he wasn't looking forward to retirement from the RAF. He wrote,
:26:15. > :26:19.have you ever felt like a leaf that has fallen from a tree in autumn. He
:26:20. > :26:23.was in that kind of mood. But he spent the time in the room behind is
:26:24. > :26:25.writing letters to his famous friends.
:26:26. > :26:27.He was supposed to be an ordinary aircraftsman.
:26:28. > :26:29.But here he wrote to leading politicians,,
:26:30. > :26:44.He talks about the waves coming up the beach like lions. It was a quiet
:26:45. > :26:49.place here in winter. It's quite bleak in winter. Even on a day like
:26:50. > :26:55.this. He also writes that it's a place that there are not many people
:26:56. > :26:56.about in winter. He talks of just cats and landladies husbands to keep
:26:57. > :26:59.him company. In a lock-up garage behind
:27:00. > :27:01.the hotel, Lawrence It was to play a tragic part
:27:02. > :27:14.in what happened to him It was against this harbour wall,
:27:15. > :27:20.possibly, that the last two photographs of him were taken. He
:27:21. > :27:26.was on a push bike, leaning against the wall, just before ten o'clock in
:27:27. > :27:35.the morning. So the man who was photographed so many times, the last
:27:36. > :27:41.known photograph was against a wall in Bridlington. He cycled down in
:27:42. > :27:48.due course and then in May 1935, he was tragically killed. What was he
:27:49. > :27:52.really like? Eighty years after his death,
:27:53. > :28:04.the legend of Lawrence lives on ? He was a very great man. He was a
:28:05. > :28:09.poet, a scholar and a mighty warrior. He was also the most
:28:10. > :28:18.shameless exhibitionist since Parliament and Bailey. There are no
:28:19. > :28:23.camels and I'm not going to the desert so we've got Bridlington
:28:24. > :28:41.beach and, come on, Molly. We can do it.
:28:42. > :28:55.Whoa! Whoa!. I've had enough now. That's it from others in Costa Del
:28:56. > :28:58.Bridlington. Joined as next week. We'll be talking about the battle to
:28:59. > :29:04.protect red squirrels in the Yorkshire Dales.