:00:08. > :00:10.Over the next half-hour, we will bring you some
:00:11. > :00:12.of our original stories and exclusive interviews
:00:13. > :00:19.Back in April, we learned that the NHS is now seeing
:00:20. > :00:22.dozens of young children each year who are unhappy
:00:23. > :00:30.Doctors told us of a fourfold increase in youngsters aged
:00:31. > :00:33.ten or under who have been referred for help in the last six years,
:00:34. > :00:36.We spoke exclusively to six-year-old Lily,
:00:37. > :00:46.who was born a boy but has spent the last few years living as a girl.
:00:47. > :00:56.I really didn't want to be a boy. I feel like I am in the wrong body.
:00:57. > :01:11.Would you be able to draw me Now I am living as a
:01:12. > :01:37.Would you be able to draw me a picture of how you look,
:01:38. > :01:40.wanted to wear girl clothes? I wanted to, because I wanted to just
:01:41. > :01:48.see how it looked, and see if anyone laughed or not. And I would be
:01:49. > :01:54.happier then. Why were you so sure you would be happier wearing girls'
:01:55. > :02:00.clothes? Because sort of I am a girl. I like girls' stuff. Can you
:02:01. > :02:04.remember what you were thinking what he felt when you were wearing boys'
:02:05. > :02:18.clothes? I was a bit cross and sad. clothes to school, I felt much
:02:19. > :02:20.better. I have girl trousers, a girl cardigan, a girl top
:02:21. > :02:55.the day that they had last summer? My friend is a footballer. What
:02:56. > :02:56.please? OK. It is there. It is the pink one. So, is this
:02:57. > :03:20.there some more stuff in here? Just my wings. They are gorgeous!
:03:21. > :03:30.I just wish they could make me fly. I bet you do. Do you think as you
:03:31. > :03:40.grow up, you might change your mind? To be a boy again? No. How do you
:03:41. > :03:43.know? Because I will just have girl clothes and never forget about
:03:44. > :03:49.anything, because girl things are all over my room, and I have a bunch
:03:50. > :04:03.of Hello Kiddie things. Loads. didn't like girls' stuff? I suppose
:04:04. > :04:09.what I mean is, if you were not allowed to play with
:04:10. > :04:18.still treated you as a boy. Really upset. I would tell my mummy and
:04:19. > :04:23.daddy. I would see if they said yes and no, but if they said no I would
:04:24. > :04:34.get really cross. And upset, more upset. Now I am living as a girl, I
:04:35. > :04:37.feel much better. That was sexual Lily, born a boy but
:04:38. > :04:43.who has been living as a girl for the past few years. -- six-year-old
:04:44. > :04:46.drawn. You can find all our exclusive films and interviews on
:04:47. > :04:54.our programme page. -- six-year-old Lily. I wanted to record the diaries
:04:55. > :05:02.on breast cancer to of the treatment. Every diagnosis
:05:03. > :05:05.and experience is different is, this is mine.
:05:06. > :05:12.I am in hospital, as you can see. I am in a hospital room and today I
:05:13. > :05:20.had a mastectomy. And I feel all right. I can't believe it. I went
:05:21. > :05:31.under the anaesthetic at about 10:45 this morning. I woke up at about
:05:32. > :05:34.2:40 five. I looked at the clock and thought, my children will be coming
:05:35. > :05:42.to see me. And I feel all right, I can't it! The NHS staff have been
:05:43. > :05:46.awesome and completely -- I am completely in awe of them, they are
:05:47. > :05:54.so inspiring and so caring and I feel so grateful for them. When I
:05:55. > :06:00.woke up from the anaesthetic, I did cry, because it was just relief,
:06:01. > :06:05.such a relief to stop the malignant tumour in my right breast has gone.
:06:06. > :06:09.Everyone who is diagnosed from cancer has a different story and a
:06:10. > :06:15.different experience. A different way of approaching it. For what it
:06:16. > :06:20.is worth, I do not feel I am battling cancer, I do not feel I am
:06:21. > :06:30.fighting cancer, I am simply being treated for cancer. Here is the
:06:31. > :06:35.thing. Having cancer is manageable. It can be manageable. Having a
:06:36. > :06:41.mastectomy is totally doable. I did not know those things until I got
:06:42. > :06:47.cancer. And that is what I want to tell people. I know everyone is
:06:48. > :06:50.different when they are diagnosed, every cancer is different, everyone
:06:51. > :06:54.has a different experience, but that is mine, and I hope you do not mind
:06:55. > :07:04.me sharing that with you. Good morning. It is the morning
:07:05. > :07:08.after the day before, that'll do! I am just about to have some
:07:09. > :07:19.breakfast. Cornflakes, toast, I am starving. I feel good, a bit tired,
:07:20. > :07:21.that's it. The sun is shining and I am being discharged today, I am
:07:22. > :07:26.going home. In the last few days in the build-up
:07:27. > :07:34.to this first cycle of chemotherapy, I have been feeling quite vexed and
:07:35. > :07:40.anxious and apprehensive, because it is fear of the unknown, what is it
:07:41. > :07:47.going to feel like? And also, really impatient to get the first one under
:07:48. > :07:57.my belt. Right now I have got to where this hat for another hour so
:07:58. > :08:03.it keeps my scalp cool. But I just feel like you want to go to sleep.
:08:04. > :08:09.I just got back from the hospital, I was there for about three hours in
:08:10. > :08:14.total. The worst bit for me was definitely wearing the cold cap.
:08:15. > :08:17.When it came off, the headache disappeared and the feelings of
:08:18. > :08:23.nausea went away, which was brilliant. There was ice in my hair
:08:24. > :08:28.and in the cap, so that is how cold it was. I think it reminded me of
:08:29. > :08:33.having a hangover, you have a headache, you don't want to talk and
:08:34. > :08:36.you feel really sleepy. But the handover you usually want to eat
:08:37. > :08:39.lots of carbohydrate and I did not feel like eating a thing. I am
:08:40. > :08:45.really glad, one down and five to go.
:08:46. > :08:51.Quick update. Early evening, I spent most of the afternoon in bed. As the
:08:52. > :08:57.day has gone on, I have felt increasingly queasy and drained.
:08:58. > :09:04.Which is really boring! Good morning. It is a grey November
:09:05. > :09:08.morning and it is winning a bit but I don't mind because I have spent
:09:09. > :09:13.the last day and a half in bed, feeling lethargic and... Not
:09:14. > :09:19.miserable but just no motivation to do anything. Today, I feel, 48 hours
:09:20. > :09:23.after the first session of chemotherapy, I am desperate for
:09:24. > :09:35.some fresh air so I have come to take Gracie for a walk. Good girl! I
:09:36. > :09:39.feel lucky today, I don't want to speak too soon because it is only
:09:40. > :09:44.the first session I have had but I feel OK. I am under no illusions, I
:09:45. > :09:50.know that is the chemotherapy goes on, things will get worse, but so
:09:51. > :09:54.far, so good. Thank you for all your messages
:09:55. > :09:58.following those video diaries, they really are very much appreciated.
:09:59. > :10:02.Earlier this year we also gave a video camera to three people living
:10:03. > :10:37.with various stages of dementia. Meet Wendy, Keith and Christopher.
:10:38. > :10:44.For those of us living with dementia, our memories are our most
:10:45. > :10:52.valued possessions. So, here in this room I have pictures on the wall,
:10:53. > :10:57.pictures of people, family and friends, so when I forget where all
:10:58. > :11:03.these places are, or the names of the people in the pictures, when I
:11:04. > :11:08.stand here and look at them, I feel is one of happiness. Because when we
:11:09. > :11:10.lose our memories, it doesn't mean we lose emotions that we feel
:11:11. > :11:30.inside. To my mind, you have to think of any
:11:31. > :11:45.positive you can. For having such a cruel disease. I love Great British
:11:46. > :11:51.Bake Off. Everybody talks about the sadness and the emptiness when the
:11:52. > :11:55.final comes and you know it is not good to be on again next week. Well,
:11:56. > :12:02.I can just stop watching it from the beginning again, and not remember
:12:03. > :12:10.who won, or who gets knocked out, each week, I without Great British
:12:11. > :12:18.Bake Off. I have three biggest fears, one is going over the edge
:12:19. > :12:25.into someone else that I don't recognise, the other fear is losing
:12:26. > :12:32.my independence, and the final one is not recognising two people that
:12:33. > :12:38.mean so much to me. I have said to them that one day, I will come in
:12:39. > :12:43.the room and I would know who you are, I will not know your name, but
:12:44. > :12:49.I'm sure I will feel that emotional connection of love that we have for
:12:50. > :12:59.each other. And for them to always remember that, even though I won't
:13:00. > :13:07.recognise them, I still love them. Dear diary, this morning I went for
:13:08. > :13:10.a walk, I had been thinking recently, reflecting on what it is
:13:11. > :13:16.like to live with dementia. I suppose the honest answer is it is
:13:17. > :13:21.up and down. Some days, the sun is shining, clear and good days, other
:13:22. > :13:24.days, the fog descends and I had to say that recently, there has been
:13:25. > :13:32.more foggy days and I had previously. My word retrieval is not
:13:33. > :13:36.as good. People say to me, sometimes we would hardly know you have
:13:37. > :13:43.dementia. That is true, on good days, I cope very well. Other days,
:13:44. > :13:46.I am less good. But the days that those days I can to withdraw into
:13:47. > :13:51.myself so that people outside see me. Is it frustrating? It is
:13:52. > :13:57.extremely frustrating. It makes me angry as well. It makes me angry
:13:58. > :14:02.that I'm not better able to deal with it.
:14:03. > :14:07.It is Sunday morning. I am just going to talk to you about my early
:14:08. > :14:13.morning ritual in the bathroom. It is not as bad as it sounds!
:14:14. > :14:20.For some time I have struggled to remember if I've brushed my teeth,
:14:21. > :14:24.shaved or combed my hair. I put everything out of the box, use it,
:14:25. > :14:29.and as I've used it, place it back in the box again. So when I've
:14:30. > :14:35.cleaned my teeth, the booth brush goes back in, when I've shaved, the
:14:36. > :14:38.shaving stuff goes back in. It is developing strategies like that that
:14:39. > :14:44.allow me to live independently and to live well. You've done lots of
:14:45. > :14:50.things, but in the middle of your working career, you made boats for
:14:51. > :14:54.ten years. Yes. Scr And you were a magistrate and when you were a
:14:55. > :14:59.magistrate you realised that things weren't quite right. That's right.
:15:00. > :15:01.Things were passing you by was how you put it.
:15:02. > :15:06.LAUGHTER You never know who you put away or
:15:07. > :15:10.didn't! You don't really want to dwell too
:15:11. > :15:13.much on what it should have been like, what it would have been like
:15:14. > :15:19.if you hadn't like, what it would have been like
:15:20. > :15:23.if you hadn't got it. And when you first get it, people say, "Oh, I
:15:24. > :15:29.always forget what I've gone upstairs to collect." It's different
:15:30. > :15:35.and I used to say to people, "It's different." You can go and do
:15:36. > :15:40.something and the moment we get in the car, it's gone. Which is quite
:15:41. > :15:46.shattering actually for a bit until you get used to it. We get used to
:15:47. > :15:50.most things, don't we? Yes. A wonderful afternoon. The sun has
:15:51. > :15:56.just gone down. What is it, darling? What are we looking at?
:15:57. > :16:02.It is a beautiful moon. The moon, yes. I hope it comes out because it
:16:03. > :16:07.is quite spectacular, isn't it wonderful? It maybe too early, but
:16:08. > :16:12.you remember what it is now. Yes. What is it that we're looking at?
:16:13. > :16:19.It's a... It's the moon, isn't it? Yes.
:16:20. > :16:23.To live in a beautiful place like this, I think, adds to sometimes the
:16:24. > :16:30.sadness that we can't enjoy some of the things that we thought we would,
:16:31. > :16:35.but I think basically, it's a huge help to be in a lovely place.
:16:36. > :16:39.Do you find it difficult to say to yourself I've got to be positive, I
:16:40. > :16:43.must be like you are? Well, I just want to keep on going because if I
:16:44. > :16:46.come and hit something or do something, I can't do that, I can't
:16:47. > :16:54.do this, if there is something there, I can and so you crack on.
:16:55. > :17:01.Does it scare you, Christopher? No. Because if it happens, the chances
:17:02. > :17:07.are, someone says, "I know that." Does the Alzheimer's scare you to
:17:08. > :17:14.think that you've lost memories? No, I don't think so. I don't think so
:17:15. > :17:21.because I've done that and what's in the back of me. This is something,
:17:22. > :17:24.always going forward. Thanks to Wendy, Keith and
:17:25. > :17:27.Christopher for recording their thoughts and experience of living
:17:28. > :17:34.with dementia for you. Next, in this Christmas special, our
:17:35. > :17:38.reporter Benjamin Zand meets the preppers, the men fixated on making
:17:39. > :17:44.sure they are fully equipped to survive in the event of a ka that is
:17:45. > :17:50.trofy. Roach spent most of his time in the force and he is a prepper.
:17:51. > :17:53.Preppers feel as if catastrophe is imminent and prepare for a range of
:17:54. > :17:58.disasters from nuclear war to financial collapse. He escapes to a
:17:59. > :18:06.location in preparation for such an event. So I asked him to take me
:18:07. > :18:13.along. So Roach told me to come to this door which is supposedly his
:18:14. > :18:15.house. The specific scenario we were doing was in the case of contagion
:18:16. > :18:36.or a pandemic. It's not the most inconspicuous
:18:37. > :18:47.tent, is it? It isn't survival. This is living simply.
:18:48. > :18:52.In the space of about 30 minutes we have set-up campment we've got a
:18:53. > :18:55.fire. We've got some food and he is cooking bangers and mash, life is
:18:56. > :19:03.good, but we're still in a forest, but it's not that good.
:19:04. > :19:09.If there was contagion and some zombie-like creatures came out...
:19:10. > :19:15.I'd kill them. How? With the knife or something? With anything. With
:19:16. > :19:20.anything. With anything like this. With anything. With your hands, with
:19:21. > :19:23.a piece of wood. Would you try and bail out if there was people who
:19:24. > :19:30.came, or would you try and fight back? Ultimately, it's, there are so
:19:31. > :19:37.many possibles. Yeah, welcome to my world. So do you
:19:38. > :19:40.think that deep down inside you kind of, because you've spent so long
:19:41. > :19:44.preparing for it, you kind of hope something is going to happen? No, I
:19:45. > :19:48.don't. I don't want the world to end. I don't want bad things to
:19:49. > :19:56.happen to good people, you know. But I'm not in control of the world. Are
:19:57. > :20:00.you paranoid? No. LAUGHTER
:20:01. > :20:05.Because I just suppose most people don't think about such consequences
:20:06. > :20:10.and such potential disasters. Some people would say that you're taking
:20:11. > :20:14.this too far. To a degree, they are absolutely right. What you could do
:20:15. > :20:19.is put every spare penny you've got in the bank for a rainy day, that's
:20:20. > :20:22.prepping. You could pay off your mortgage ten years early. Whatever
:20:23. > :20:28.you decide, you have to do to prepare for the future, that makes
:20:29. > :20:32.you a prepper. Some men are preparing for the end of the world,
:20:33. > :20:36.others are pumping their money into super cars, flash cars which cost
:20:37. > :20:39.hundreds of thousands of pounds and are paraded around the streets of
:20:40. > :20:43.London each year. It has become a problem that some councils are
:20:44. > :20:46.considering a supercar ASBO. We headed into the middle of
:20:47. > :20:47.Knightsbridge in Central London to talk to some of the car owners and
:20:48. > :21:22.the fans. I'm Tim, I run a YouTube channel
:21:23. > :21:27.where I upload car videos of all sorts including car spotting in
:21:28. > :21:32.knight bridge. I've got a Lamborghini. I'm Alex. I'm a
:21:33. > :21:38.supercar dealer. Admittedly, I do sell the kipped of cars which are
:21:39. > :22:08.making the noise. My name is Josh and I'm here car spotting.
:22:09. > :22:14.This is a Lamborghini. It is one of the newest models out. But the
:22:15. > :22:18.majority of the people want all these cars out on the road,
:22:19. > :22:24.especially the tourists, you know, they come to Central London to see
:22:25. > :22:28.these cars. They actually stop us and say, "Please can we take a
:22:29. > :22:33.picture of your car with us beside it?" This is what brings and makes
:22:34. > :22:37.London. People come here, you know, and then also it brings business to
:22:38. > :22:43.the bars, to the restaurants and to all the cafes. We shouldn't look at
:22:44. > :22:47.the small negative side that people are complaining about, this noise
:22:48. > :22:51.issue, but we should look at the bigger picture where, you know, this
:22:52. > :22:57.is actually bringing money to London. When the summer comes out
:22:58. > :23:00.and all the cars come out, quite a few people bring out their cars,
:23:01. > :23:05.there is a bit more noise than usual, but this is city life and I
:23:06. > :23:10.also believe that the people that want 100% peace and quiet, they
:23:11. > :23:14.should move out to the countryside. The truth of it is, they are very
:23:15. > :23:19.difficult not to make a noise because they are so hyper and they
:23:20. > :23:25.are so highly tuned that that is what they are designed to do. It is
:23:26. > :23:29.abnormal on a nice day in London to see quite a few special cars that
:23:30. > :23:33.normally you'd see in a Motor Show. The reason that I come here as
:23:34. > :23:37.opposed to car shows, you see more of them and they are driving around,
:23:38. > :23:46.whereas in car shows, they are more just static.
:23:47. > :23:50.LOUD REVVING We get like an adrenalin rush when we see them and
:23:51. > :23:55.then we chase after them and try and film them and we stick them on
:23:56. > :23:59.YouTube channels and Instagram. That's a Maserati, I am not too sure
:24:00. > :24:08.about that model, but it is a really nice one!
:24:09. > :24:14.When I started car spotting, there was no real purpose to it, it was
:24:15. > :24:17.just a wait of taking photos and posting them on the internet, but
:24:18. > :24:21.with the rise of Instagram has opened up content you post to a vast
:24:22. > :24:26.audience around the globe and when you take pictures of super cars, a
:24:27. > :24:30.lot of people are seeing things on your social media streams that they
:24:31. > :24:34.will never see in real life. These things you are supposed to hear, you
:24:35. > :24:38.are supposed to see and feel the passion and the majority of people
:24:39. > :24:42.out in the street, they get a lot of pleasure from seeing these things
:24:43. > :24:47.otherwise you only see them in magazines and on the television.
:24:48. > :24:53.When you purchase a supercar, you buy it not bass it is quiet, they
:24:54. > :24:56.are supposed to be, look this is a ?2 million plus tax Ferrari, if it
:24:57. > :25:00.doesn't make a noise and if you don't get noticed in it, if you
:25:01. > :25:04.don't have that special feeling when you're driving it, it is pointless
:25:05. > :25:07.buying it. We have road traffic laws that should stop most of the
:25:08. > :25:12.behaviour you don't want to see happening. It should stop the
:25:13. > :25:16.pointless revving, for noise disturb Abs, driving fast or recklessly,
:25:17. > :25:20.there are plenty of laws to stop this. The councils shouldn't be
:25:21. > :25:24.making rules regarding motoring, that should be done by the police if
:25:25. > :25:28.there is an issue, but I don't think there is. If they spent hours
:25:29. > :25:31.witnessing what happens, there would be a different understanding of it
:25:32. > :25:35.and I feel it is almost something that could be solved just by having
:25:36. > :25:43.a higher police presence. They are designed and built for a racetrack,
:25:44. > :25:49.but the King's Road is a good place to drive them. In a car park, you
:25:50. > :26:00.would have the same thing happening, but with less expensive cars.
:26:01. > :26:11.CAR HORNS SOUND Thank you for watching this Christmas specialment
:26:12. > :26:13.we're back on air on 4th January and in the meantime, you can watch our
:26:14. > :26:22.stories on our programme page.