0:00:00 > 0:00:03This programme begins with women talking frankly
0:00:03 > 0:00:05about intimate health issues.
0:00:18 > 0:00:22Hello and welcome to our programme. We will bring you some exclusive
0:00:22 > 0:00:27interviews that we have wrought cast over the last year. In April we
0:00:27 > 0:00:33revealed that 800 women were suing the NHS and the manufacturers of
0:00:33 > 0:00:38mesh implants that had left them in permanent pain, sometimes unable to
0:00:38 > 0:00:43have sex or walk. Following that story, the organisation that sets
0:00:43 > 0:00:46the guidelines for doctors in England have now announced that want
0:00:46 > 0:00:53to ban mesh treatments in some cases. In April, this programme
0:00:53 > 0:01:01exposed a painful secret. Thousands of women were keeping to themselves.
0:01:01 > 0:01:06Every time I walk, it feels like something sharp is inside me.The
0:01:06 > 0:01:10tape had come through my joiner, so it was actually all the way through
0:01:10 > 0:01:16and protruding through.My husband is so much less of my husband. We
0:01:16 > 0:01:19cannot have sex. We haven't had sex for 4.5 years.They thought they
0:01:19 > 0:01:26were alone, so suffered in silence for years, and aware there were many
0:01:26 > 0:01:31more like them.Over the last five years, I counted I have had over 53
0:01:31 > 0:01:35admissions because of agonising pain.I phoned my husband and I
0:01:35 > 0:01:41said, I can't live any more, I can't go through this.I actually do think
0:01:41 > 0:01:51it is in my head. I didn't know where else to turn.This is a joiner
0:01:51 > 0:01:55will mesh. It is used when women have a product or bladder
0:01:55 > 0:01:59incontinence normally brought on by childbirth and it is often made from
0:01:59 > 0:02:04polypropylene, the same material used to make this kind of drinks
0:02:04 > 0:02:09bottle. Over the past 20 years, more than 100,000 women across the UK
0:02:09 > 0:02:13have had joiner will mesh implants. Some doctors now believe a minimum
0:02:13 > 0:02:20of one in ten patients experience problems.Just a number. Somebody's
0:02:20 > 0:02:28mum, somebody's sister and all these people are impacted.Can I ask, did
0:02:28 > 0:02:34you have been suicidal thoughts?You did? Yes. I planned it. I mapped it
0:02:34 > 0:02:42out.With us this morning, a dozen or so... Earlier this morning --
0:02:42 > 0:02:47Visio, we revealed hundreds of women taking legal action against the NHS.
0:02:47 > 0:02:54Would you support calls for the mesh to be banned? Yes. Definitely. The
0:02:54 > 0:02:58simple procedure could end up costing tens of billions of pounds
0:02:58 > 0:03:04in compensation. Over the last seven months, many, many women have told
0:03:04 > 0:03:11us their stories.I just wonder how many people are going to get
0:03:11 > 0:03:16crippled before anyone listens to us, what we go through on a daily
0:03:16 > 0:03:21basis is a nightmare.But convocations with mesh can arise in
0:03:21 > 0:03:33other places as well. -- complications.Oh, my God. No wonder
0:03:33 > 0:03:43it inches. It is really thick. Just like nylon. It is...In July, we
0:03:43 > 0:03:46revealed NHS mesh repairs were leaving many patients in chronic
0:03:46 > 0:03:53pain.It is this I had been stabbed with something hot, I don't want to
0:03:53 > 0:03:57eat, I don't want to venture out too far.We even arranged for two hernia
0:03:57 > 0:04:06mesh patients to meet up.Take a seat. I have had an operation I
0:04:06 > 0:04:15didn't need and six years worth of investigation.Some gynaecologists
0:04:15 > 0:04:18claimed a ban on the mesh implants would risk depriving women of the
0:04:18 > 0:04:23option treatment which will in cost -- incontinence has been effect do.
0:04:23 > 0:04:27A growing number of doctors believe the risk is too great and in
0:04:27 > 0:04:36Scotland, the use of mesh has been suspended. Labour have called for
0:04:36 > 0:04:40joiner will mesh repairs to be banned on for a public enquiry will
0:04:40 > 0:04:43stop they received cross-party support.Let's say it is as little
0:04:43 > 0:04:48as one in ten in whom this is going wrong if that were a medicine, it
0:04:48 > 0:04:53wouldn't be on the market.Now this programme can exclusively reveal the
0:04:53 > 0:04:56National Institute for health and clinical excellence has effect if we
0:04:56 > 0:05:01recommended a ban on vagina will mesh repairs for products. They say
0:05:01 > 0:05:06the procedure should only be used for research. The health watchdog
0:05:06 > 0:05:11was initially going to publish its updated guidance in 2019, but as the
0:05:11 > 0:05:14spotlight intensified, it was brought forward to December and they
0:05:14 > 0:05:20say they will not comment until then. Campaigners are calling this
0:05:20 > 0:05:24latest development a backdoor ban and historic moment, but also say
0:05:24 > 0:05:28the fight is far from over. They want a temporary suspension of all
0:05:28 > 0:05:34pelvic mesh repairs while an audit is carried out to find out the true
0:05:34 > 0:05:38scale of the women affected. They also want them to provide advice on
0:05:38 > 0:05:45other types of mesh repairs like hernias. The idea for that story
0:05:45 > 0:05:49came to us from one of our viewers who herself was in chronic pain. If
0:05:49 > 0:05:53you have a story you think we should be covering, it get in touch. You
0:05:53 > 0:06:00can e-mail us. This, following the collapse of the charity kids
0:06:00 > 0:06:05Company. Back in 2015. Its founder seemed to disappear from public
0:06:05 > 0:06:10life. But in October of this year, she was back. Two years on, her
0:06:10 > 0:06:13anger and defiance that she had anything to do with the charity
0:06:13 > 0:06:16folding was very evident.Have a look.
0:06:16 > 0:06:20There wasn't financial mismanagement of kids company. Let's be very clear
0:06:20 > 0:06:29about that. When Kids Company closed in August 2015, we had a year's
0:06:29 > 0:06:34money ahead, three months reserves. What shot the doors of Kids Company
0:06:34 > 0:06:40was false sexual abuse allegations being taken to Newsnight, broadcast
0:06:40 > 0:06:45and then the police subsequently found that no crime had been
0:06:45 > 0:06:49committed, we were cleared, but by then, it was too late because the
0:06:49 > 0:06:54funders who had alleged the money withdrew their grants and because of
0:06:54 > 0:06:59that...They had to close it. You couldn't pay your staff.You were in
0:06:59 > 0:07:03financial trouble. No, we couldn't pay our staff... It is very
0:07:03 > 0:07:06important than we have this conversation that you ask me
0:07:06 > 0:07:11questions, because there are so many inaccurate pieces of information...
0:07:11 > 0:07:16You couldn't pay your staff. We reason we couldn't pay our staff...
0:07:16 > 0:07:20That is true. No, we couldn't pay our self-employed staff cause our
0:07:20 > 0:07:27payroll staff were paid completely to the last month that they worked
0:07:27 > 0:07:33with us. The reason we couldn't pay the self-employed staff is because
0:07:33 > 0:07:38the Cabinet office created a rumour that the 3 million grant they gave
0:07:38 > 0:07:47us wasn't the salaries and wasn't spent. Consequently... 2.1 million
0:07:47 > 0:07:51of that Grant was left in the bank account when we could have paid the
0:07:51 > 0:07:55self-employed, and that's the point. You had to get an emergency grant
0:07:55 > 0:07:59from the government.Well, you describe it as an emergency grant.
0:07:59 > 0:08:04The truth is that they were significant discussions taking place
0:08:04 > 0:08:09behind the scenes with the Cabinet office about the fact that the
0:08:09 > 0:08:15funding they were giving us was insufficient. The problem is that in
0:08:15 > 0:08:18this short television interview, I cannot give you the full detail, but
0:08:18 > 0:08:26what I can tell you is that there was a systematic dismantling of Kids
0:08:26 > 0:08:32Company by a kind of political driven malicious campaign.Why would
0:08:32 > 0:08:36that be, when this was a government who had given new £47 million in
0:08:36 > 0:08:40grants?It was government is not cohesive. You think all of
0:08:40 > 0:08:46government works together.It doesn't. OK, politically motivated
0:08:46 > 0:08:52dismantling you say. So some kind of conspiracy to shut you down? Who
0:08:52 > 0:08:57would...Who was involved in that? There were some civil servants and
0:08:57 > 0:09:03some politicians and the difficulty I have is I don't know exactly
0:09:03 > 0:09:08who... Who do you think?We know this has happened.Who do you think?
0:09:08 > 0:09:13I don't know and I'm not going to get into a guessing game.Can you
0:09:13 > 0:09:17understand that it does sound... Slightly absurd to say on the one
0:09:17 > 0:09:22hand the government is giving you 47 million. That is a lot of money. On
0:09:22 > 0:09:26the other hand, there is an unnamed civil servant or two trying to
0:09:26 > 0:09:33somehow, civil servant, dismantle you.Well, look, you think you live
0:09:33 > 0:09:42in a democracy, but actually, it's not that straightforward.You're not
0:09:42 > 0:09:46going to apologise to the children that were let down by the closure of
0:09:46 > 0:09:51Kids Company.Don't put me in that position, that Tory. Don't frame it
0:09:51 > 0:09:55in that way, because that is not right.Children were let down by the
0:09:55 > 0:10:01closure of Kids Company.Would you like to apologise? In my book, I
0:10:01 > 0:10:06have clearly stated that the one thing I experienced is extreme
0:10:06 > 0:10:11sorrow at the fact that the children suffered in this way.Would you like
0:10:11 > 0:10:15to take some responsibility for that?We were not responsible for
0:10:15 > 0:10:19the closure of this company. Not at all? No, and I'm absolutely clear
0:10:19 > 0:10:24about that. The only way we'll get the truth here is if there is some
0:10:24 > 0:10:30kind of an enquiry, I don't want us to spend the money on it, but some
0:10:30 > 0:10:33kind of" -- enquirer that is independent of the government.Next
0:10:33 > 0:10:37question. Would you like to apologise to the taxpayers and the
0:10:37 > 0:10:41people who donated from the goodness of their heart money that you
0:10:41 > 0:10:45wasted?I don't think we waste of money. Why are you assuring that we
0:10:45 > 0:10:50wasted money?Where did that come from? Well, a pair of shoes for
0:10:50 > 0:10:57£305.That, I don't know what the story of that is.Potentially a
0:10:57 > 0:11:02waste. Anyone spending £305 on shoes is a waste.If that has taken place,
0:11:02 > 0:11:07and I don't know what the real story of that is, I would have to find out
0:11:07 > 0:11:12about that, and that is something that I would not... Let me ask
0:11:12 > 0:11:16you... People gave us money, be very careful about this again. We
0:11:16 > 0:11:22actually fund raised to buy the children clothes so they were
0:11:22 > 0:11:26restricted funds to buy children clothes.People give you money when
0:11:26 > 0:11:32you fund raise, from the goodness of their heart. Don't expect it to be
0:11:32 > 0:11:38spent on designer shoes. Someone described it as a child of an
0:11:38 > 0:11:42Iranian diplomat including funding their Ph.D.Studies. Again, that
0:11:42 > 0:11:47isn't how the story is and I don't think you should frame it in this
0:11:47 > 0:11:53way.This is all from an audited report.What report?Where is this
0:11:53 > 0:11:59audited report? An adult client paid...You have just made an
0:11:59 > 0:12:02allegation and I think you haven't identified the source of the report
0:12:02 > 0:12:07for me, I don't know where you're getting your figures from, we housed
0:12:07 > 0:12:11families, I don't know which family you are describing, but you are not
0:12:11 > 0:12:17asking me the questions that really matter, which is why was Kids
0:12:17 > 0:12:22Company left with some 17,000 children who were statutory
0:12:22 > 0:12:26responsibility with no-one willing to pay for it. Why were we getting
0:12:26 > 0:12:30that type of child through our doors? Those are the sorts of
0:12:30 > 0:12:33questions you should be asking me. The life -- those are the questions
0:12:33 > 0:12:39you should want me to ask. We took two celebrity with opposing views
0:12:39 > 0:12:44out on a blind date to put serious political debate in an everyday
0:12:44 > 0:12:49setting. This is showed that an increasingly polarised world where
0:12:49 > 0:12:52debate is often black and white, there can be consensus amongst
0:12:52 > 0:12:57people on opposite sides of the spectrum. Wish I had the silverware,
0:12:57 > 0:13:05polished glasses and invited them to lunch. An election blind date.
0:13:11 > 0:13:21Could you go to bed with remain? Could you make them see the light? I
0:13:21 > 0:13:30will not answer that. I will turn answer that!Are you only attracted
0:13:30 > 0:13:45to Brexiters? That's a good question. He has no words.You must
0:13:45 > 0:13:50ask if the story about you meeting someone on a plane is true.Is it
0:13:50 > 0:13:54true?This is a ridiculous setup. You were snogging a model. I hope
0:13:54 > 0:14:01someone has a video.What was she doing in business class? That is a
0:14:01 > 0:14:08very good question. Would question. Were you stitched up?What that
0:14:08 > 0:14:15episode shows is you cannot trust anybody, you cannot talk to
0:14:15 > 0:14:21anybody,.That is awful. I don't think you can trust random people.
0:14:21 > 0:14:28There I was, sitting at the bar, having dinner in the one cystectomy
0:14:28 > 0:14:34and start talking. What do you do?
0:14:34 > 0:14:43What you need, Nigel, is just a nice, steady Brexiteer girlfriend.
0:14:43 > 0:14:47It is then you don't have to have a conversation with her all the time
0:14:47 > 0:14:51you have had with me. Just saying I don't understand why you feel so
0:14:51 > 0:14:55strongly over dinner to her, when you should be exchanging sweet
0:14:55 > 0:14:59nothings. And you know you are both on the same page, you both want out,
0:14:59 > 0:15:04you both think the European project is disgusting.I still don't get why
0:15:04 > 0:15:09you feel so strongly about this.I grew up in Brussels, I have worked
0:15:09 > 0:15:16in Brussels.Fine.I would like what we had, Nigel, and I don't want to
0:15:16 > 0:15:20lose it. Cameron I think probably did as much to lose the referendum
0:15:20 > 0:15:25as anyone else.The deal was rubbish.The deal wasn't good
0:15:25 > 0:15:29enough. So Cameron I hold almost entirely responsible for this, more
0:15:29 > 0:15:33than you.Do you? That's disappointing.And then, when we
0:15:33 > 0:15:38went over the waterfall in a bucket he left Downing Street with a song
0:15:38 > 0:15:49in his heart.He had to. He had to go.I used to play golf. The other
0:15:49 > 0:15:54big hobby that I got which used to be considered really geeky, really
0:15:54 > 0:16:06geeky... Metal detecting. Can I guess? Carriage driving.No.Is its
0:16:06 > 0:16:1640?It is historical.Grass rubbing -- is it sporty. And my close?Not
0:16:16 > 0:16:28really. I am a First World War nut. Oh yes. Lennon an absolute nut.
0:16:28 > 0:16:37Nigel, what should I do with the rest of my life?What do you want to
0:16:37 > 0:16:40do?I don't know. I think I am swimming against the tide at the
0:16:40 > 0:16:45moment.Well, you will lose that one, but that's OK. What do you want
0:16:45 > 0:16:55to do?I just wondered if I made a terrible mistake, as well.I think
0:16:55 > 0:16:59you did pretty well, actually.So it doesn't matter that I'm the butt of
0:16:59 > 0:17:03ridicule from half the Cabinet for joining the Lib Dems. Back to
0:17:03 > 0:17:11politics? I was asking Nigel what should do with the rest my life, and
0:17:11 > 0:17:20have eyed dropped a massive (BLEEP) have at bay made a mistake?How
0:17:20 > 0:17:27would you sum up your political first date?Like... It is really
0:17:27 > 0:17:31interesting, because Rachel is seen in this country as being this sort
0:17:31 > 0:17:38of hardline remainer, but when you talk to her about the European
0:17:38 > 0:17:42Union, in France she would be a hardline Eurosceptic.I think that
0:17:42 > 0:17:49is right. There are few of us that, even hardline...Had she been from
0:17:49 > 0:17:52anywhere else I would completely understand why she sacrificed her
0:17:52 > 0:17:59reputation to join the Liberal Democrats.Do you think you have
0:17:59 > 0:18:02sacrificed a reputation?I seriously felt we were entering a 1-party
0:18:02 > 0:18:06state on an issue that I believe to be wrong in every particular. I felt
0:18:06 > 0:18:10that I couldn't actually live with myself unless I had made a futile
0:18:10 > 0:18:13gesture, and stand up and be counted. If only to be shot down.
0:18:13 > 0:18:17And how would you sum up your political first date with Nigel
0:18:17 > 0:18:21Farage?Well, like Nigel Farage, incredibly entertaining and
0:18:21 > 0:18:28infuriating. And wrong.And wrong. You can watch the full-blown date
0:18:28 > 0:18:32between Nigel Farage and Rachel Johnson and others, including Mary
0:18:32 > 0:18:39Beard and Peter Stringfellow, on our website. Mental health is an issue
0:18:39 > 0:18:42we talk a lot about on this programme, because we know it is
0:18:42 > 0:18:48important to you. Mental health issues affect one in four of us. Our
0:18:48 > 0:18:51correspondent wanted to share his story about how playing football had
0:18:51 > 0:18:55given him a reason to live after attempting to take his own life
0:18:55 > 0:18:59several times. In one of the most touching encounters of the year, he
0:18:59 > 0:19:07told us about the suicide of his own father.One morning on the ward the
0:19:07 > 0:19:10occupational therapist would be up and asked if I wanted to play
0:19:10 > 0:19:14football. And of course I said yes. I didn't really expect much at
0:19:14 > 0:19:22first, but I realised I had no... So I rang my mum and asked if she could
0:19:22 > 0:19:27get me some. Within an hour she had gone out and bought me a pair. At
0:19:27 > 0:19:31the time I didn't realise that if my mum hadn't bought me those boots,
0:19:31 > 0:19:34things might have changed and I might have lost my life to mental
0:19:34 > 0:19:44illness.Take your time.So every week, I attended training, and it
0:19:44 > 0:19:47gave me hope for the future, that I could be someone my family and
0:19:47 > 0:19:52friends could be proud of. To me, it wasn't just football. It was my
0:19:52 > 0:20:01life. It had given me stuff to build on. Instead of destroying, I had
0:20:01 > 0:20:05become stronger in my war on my Demons. Every week I would put so
0:20:05 > 0:20:10much effort in that I couldn't walk a days afterwards. It changed meat
0:20:10 > 0:20:14into a better man and it made me want to stay alive so my mum and
0:20:14 > 0:20:19brothers would have to bury me. Instead, they could say to everyone
0:20:19 > 0:20:24that my son and brother plays for QPR. I have done some amazing things
0:20:24 > 0:20:30at QPR Healthy Kickers. My biggest achievement would be in my first
0:20:30 > 0:20:34three seasons at the club I was top goalscorer. Every time I put on a
0:20:34 > 0:20:39kick to make it, I was in a schoolboy any more. I was James. I
0:20:39 > 0:20:42was free from my Demons. Unfortunately, others aren't so
0:20:42 > 0:20:53lucky. In 2010I lost my father to suicide, on my sister's birthday.
0:20:53 > 0:20:57But I've taken the good from the bad, and I've met amazing people,
0:20:57 > 0:21:03travel to places to play football. I get to make people crowd. For a
0:21:03 > 0:21:09young boy you'd like me, losing my dad left me confused in this big
0:21:09 > 0:21:15world. I didn't have any sense of direction. I met my coaches, Connor
0:21:15 > 0:21:19and Nathan, and they helped me find my way. They stood in my corner. The
0:21:19 > 0:21:24support I had from them was amazing. I just felt so thankful they became
0:21:24 > 0:21:29my role models. They showed me that I am worth something. I am lucky
0:21:29 > 0:21:34enough to know them. We can never stop people getting mentally unwell,
0:21:34 > 0:21:38but we can help them recover with the use of football. It worked for
0:21:38 > 0:21:43me and many others that I have played four, against and played
0:21:43 > 0:21:55with. Football saved my life.Well done. That was magnificent. Are you
0:21:55 > 0:22:06all right? Do you think it is important to speak out?People are
0:22:06 > 0:22:11suffering in silence, because they don't have someone to look up to and
0:22:11 > 0:22:19say enough is enough. You have got to change. I... People who are
0:22:19 > 0:22:25mentally unwell are seen as this sort of outcast in society, and once
0:22:25 > 0:22:32we start breaking down the stigma, people will come out and say they
0:22:32 > 0:22:36have got problems.We will continue to keep in touch with James in the
0:22:36 > 0:22:41new year, and follow his progress on our programme. And if you need help
0:22:41 > 0:22:47and support, you can find a list of charities at the BBC action line.
0:22:47 > 0:22:51Finally, in 2018 we will be looking forward to a royal birth. William
0:22:51 > 0:22:58and Kate's child, plus the wedding of Prince Harry and Meghan Markle.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01It was a special anniversary in September which touch the hearts of
0:23:01 > 0:23:05so many, the 70th anniversary of the Queen and Prince Philip. Here is how
0:23:05 > 0:23:08we mark their enduring relationship.
0:23:27 > 0:23:37# When you are in love... # It's a loveliest night of the year.The
0:23:37 > 0:23:39king and queen announced the betrothal of their dearly beloved
0:23:39 > 0:23:45and daughter, the Princess Elizabeth, to Lieutenant Philip
0:23:45 > 0:23:51Mountbatten.I am so happy that on this, my third visit, my future
0:23:51 > 0:23:57husband is by my side.
0:24:06 > 0:24:15Into the dull November morning, two braise draw the carriage. Inside,
0:24:15 > 0:24:22Her Royal Highness Elizabeth, and her father.
0:25:34 > 0:25:38Thank you for watching. We are back live on a January.