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PEOPLE CHEER | 0:00:28 | 0:00:31 | |
DRUMMING | 0:00:31 | 0:00:33 | |
PEOPLE CHATTER | 0:00:34 | 0:00:37 | |
PEOPLE CHEER | 0:00:40 | 0:00:42 | |
CHEERING | 0:00:53 | 0:00:55 | |
# You don't hear me | 0:01:06 | 0:01:09 | |
# You don't see me | 0:01:12 | 0:01:14 | |
# You don't even know I'm alive | 0:01:18 | 0:01:22 | |
# So why do you call me? # | 0:01:23 | 0:01:27 | |
We're bloody late now, innit? | 0:01:30 | 0:01:32 | |
Well, I tried. | 0:01:32 | 0:01:33 | |
You need to look in a mirror before you start doing an interview. | 0:01:33 | 0:01:36 | |
Well, I am looking in a mirror, I think I look great in there. | 0:01:36 | 0:01:38 | |
-Did you check yourself before you got on the bus? -Yeah, did I? Of course I did. | 0:01:38 | 0:01:41 | |
You didn't, did you? | 0:01:41 | 0:01:42 | |
-I check meself out all the time. -You didn't, did you? -No. | 0:01:42 | 0:01:46 | |
-Why do you not do that? -I don't. | 0:01:46 | 0:01:48 | |
-Do you know who you are? -HE LAUGHS | 0:01:48 | 0:01:51 | |
-RADIO: -'..Gary Numan, he's got a sold-out show | 0:01:51 | 0:01:53 | |
'at the Hollywood Forever Cemetery - | 0:01:53 | 0:01:54 | |
'which I'll be headed to - then he's off to the east coast | 0:01:54 | 0:01:57 | |
'playing in Brooklyn, which I hear has also been sold out.' | 0:01:57 | 0:02:01 | |
'I used to get so frightened... I could... I couldn't... | 0:02:03 | 0:02:06 | |
'You couldn't have a conversation a day or two before. | 0:02:06 | 0:02:09 | |
'Couldn't talk at all, yeah, just absolutely terrified of it. | 0:02:09 | 0:02:12 | |
'I used to be sick.' | 0:02:12 | 0:02:14 | |
'My dad said to me one day, | 0:02:15 | 0:02:16 | |
' "If you can't find a way of dealing with your fear of it, | 0:02:16 | 0:02:19 | |
' "your stage fright," then he said, | 0:02:19 | 0:02:21 | |
' "It's just the most stupidish thing to try to succeed in." ' | 0:02:21 | 0:02:24 | |
Go! | 0:02:24 | 0:02:25 | |
'So, I started to come up with images and...things to hide behind.' | 0:02:25 | 0:02:30 | |
CHEERING | 0:02:30 | 0:02:32 | |
'By being over there and by being able to tap into the American scene | 0:02:47 | 0:02:53 | |
'much more than I have done by being based here, | 0:02:53 | 0:02:55 | |
'then it should open up all kinds of opportunities that are not | 0:02:55 | 0:02:58 | |
'really there or haven't been there for me and... | 0:02:58 | 0:03:02 | |
'because I've not had that local knowledge or experience' | 0:03:02 | 0:03:04 | |
of what opportunities there are there | 0:03:04 | 0:03:06 | |
and how to make the most of them, how to grab them. | 0:03:06 | 0:03:10 | |
-Yeah... -SHE YELLS | 0:03:10 | 0:03:11 | |
-'I've got three little girls...' -Give her to me, grumpy head! | 0:03:11 | 0:03:14 | |
'It just made me think differently...' | 0:03:14 | 0:03:15 | |
Why am I grumpy? Why am I grumpy today? | 0:03:15 | 0:03:17 | |
'..where would we all be happier as a family? | 0:03:17 | 0:03:20 | |
'One day I just woke up and just thought, | 0:03:20 | 0:03:22 | |
' "I think we should do it." ' | 0:03:22 | 0:03:23 | |
-INTERVIEWER: -'Girls, why don't you tell us your names?' | 0:03:23 | 0:03:26 | |
-I'm Raven! -I'm Persia. | 0:03:26 | 0:03:28 | |
Where's Echo? | 0:03:28 | 0:03:29 | |
-RAVEN: -Dad, what's your favourite colour? | 0:03:29 | 0:03:31 | |
-Black. -Black lipstick, black nail varnish, black make-up. | 0:03:31 | 0:03:35 | |
-He does wear it on stage, you know. -'What's that?' | 0:03:35 | 0:03:38 | |
-GIRLS: -Make-up! | 0:03:38 | 0:03:39 | |
Do I look better or do I still look just as old? | 0:03:39 | 0:03:43 | |
You look old when you don't have make-up on, you look nice when... | 0:03:43 | 0:03:46 | |
You look young when you have make-up on. | 0:03:46 | 0:03:48 | |
LAUGHING: Oh, really? | 0:03:48 | 0:03:49 | |
-I was dyeing... Dyeing my hair yesterday... -Oh! | 0:03:51 | 0:03:54 | |
..to get rid of the grey bits, and she said to me, | 0:03:54 | 0:03:56 | |
"Why are you doing it?" | 0:03:56 | 0:03:57 | |
And I said, "Well..." Don't do that. | 0:03:57 | 0:04:00 | |
"It'll make me look a bit younger." | 0:04:00 | 0:04:02 | |
And she said, "It doesn't, you know?" | 0:04:02 | 0:04:04 | |
She said, "You just look just as old but without grey hair." | 0:04:04 | 0:04:07 | |
MUSIC: Are "Friends" Electric? by Gary Numan & Tubeway Army | 0:04:08 | 0:04:13 | |
It's very, very different to what it used to be... | 0:04:13 | 0:04:15 | |
I'm not the little androidy figure that I used to be. | 0:04:15 | 0:04:19 | |
I don't do that any more cos, you know, it's three decades ago. | 0:04:19 | 0:04:23 | |
# Whoa, whoa | 0:04:23 | 0:04:24 | |
# Whoa-oh-whoa-oh-whoa-oh... # | 0:04:24 | 0:04:27 | |
If you had to sit down and write | 0:04:27 | 0:04:29 | |
the best 30 electronic songs ever... | 0:04:29 | 0:04:34 | |
MUSIC: Cars by Gary Numan | 0:04:34 | 0:04:37 | |
..I'm pretty damn sure that Cars and Are "Friends" Electric? | 0:04:37 | 0:04:40 | |
would be pretty high on the list. | 0:04:40 | 0:04:41 | |
They are classics. | 0:04:41 | 0:04:43 | |
Especially in a form where there aren't that many still. | 0:04:43 | 0:04:48 | |
It was in the air in that electronic music was exciting and new, | 0:04:48 | 0:04:52 | |
but Gary's success took everyone completely by surprise. | 0:04:52 | 0:04:57 | |
# Here in my car I feel safest of all | 0:04:57 | 0:05:00 | |
# I can lock all my doors | 0:05:00 | 0:05:02 | |
# And it's the only way to live in cars... # | 0:05:02 | 0:05:05 | |
Everything turned totally on its head with Cars. | 0:05:07 | 0:05:09 | |
It was a dramatic sea change and Gary came into that | 0:05:09 | 0:05:12 | |
as something very different. | 0:05:12 | 0:05:13 | |
The first album he made for us, | 0:05:13 | 0:05:14 | |
although it was a guitar record, was a... | 0:05:14 | 0:05:17 | |
was a very different-sounding record to any other punk record | 0:05:17 | 0:05:19 | |
that was being made at the time. | 0:05:19 | 0:05:21 | |
He discovered synthesisers and everything changed from there. | 0:05:23 | 0:05:25 | |
Well, I first got a record deal in '78. | 0:05:29 | 0:05:31 | |
There was a mini Moog in the control room - a synthesiser - | 0:05:31 | 0:05:34 | |
which I had never seen a real one before. | 0:05:34 | 0:05:36 | |
Then I pressed the key and luckily, | 0:05:36 | 0:05:39 | |
it had this most amazing bottom-end growl, roar sound. | 0:05:39 | 0:05:44 | |
HEAVY SYNTHESISER TONES PLAY | 0:05:44 | 0:05:47 | |
And I was just blown away by it, just the most amazing thing. | 0:05:47 | 0:05:50 | |
So powerful and, I mean, the room shook, you know, | 0:05:50 | 0:05:53 | |
really, really powerful. | 0:05:53 | 0:05:54 | |
He wanted to go into the studio kind of almost immediately | 0:05:54 | 0:05:57 | |
having hardly toured and promoted the first record. | 0:05:57 | 0:06:00 | |
Obviously we wanted more promotion for the first record and we were | 0:06:00 | 0:06:03 | |
a bit nervous about not having the money to put him | 0:06:03 | 0:06:05 | |
in the studio again... | 0:06:05 | 0:06:06 | |
But nonetheless we did, cos he was a very powerful character | 0:06:06 | 0:06:09 | |
and what he wanted he usually got. | 0:06:09 | 0:06:11 | |
I've often wondered, you know, | 0:06:11 | 0:06:13 | |
because the people that had it before me left it on that sound. | 0:06:13 | 0:06:20 | |
It could have been left on any number of other sounds, which... | 0:06:20 | 0:06:23 | |
Cos it was quite capable of making a huge amount | 0:06:23 | 0:06:25 | |
of really shit ones as well... | 0:06:25 | 0:06:27 | |
"Doo!" and all that sort of horrible stuff. "Eek!" | 0:06:27 | 0:06:31 | |
So it could have been, you know, | 0:06:31 | 0:06:33 | |
that I press a key and it went "Eek!" | 0:06:33 | 0:06:35 | |
and I thought, "They're rubbish!" You know? | 0:06:35 | 0:06:37 | |
And I wouldn't have thought... But again, just gone into the studio, | 0:06:37 | 0:06:40 | |
carried on making my punk album and thought no more about it. | 0:06:40 | 0:06:43 | |
But it didn't, it made this amazing sound. | 0:06:43 | 0:06:46 | |
And I just converted that from a guitar doing it to the synth, | 0:06:47 | 0:06:51 | |
twiddling around as I went to try to make it do different things, | 0:06:51 | 0:06:54 | |
not knowing how they worked at all, | 0:06:54 | 0:06:55 | |
but just twiddling until it did something that sounded better. | 0:06:55 | 0:06:58 | |
So all very, very amateurish and experimental, | 0:06:58 | 0:07:01 | |
and I went back to the record company with this sort of | 0:07:01 | 0:07:04 | |
pseudo-electro punk album, and then we started arguing | 0:07:04 | 0:07:07 | |
cos it wasn't what they wanted, it wasn't what they had sent me in for, | 0:07:07 | 0:07:10 | |
or it wasn't what they signed me for in the first place. | 0:07:10 | 0:07:13 | |
About a week later he discovered a Polymoog, and armed with those two | 0:07:13 | 0:07:17 | |
new discoveries, he made the album that became Replicas. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:20 | |
Well, I was... | 0:07:24 | 0:07:25 | |
I was...passionate about it, you know, | 0:07:27 | 0:07:29 | |
I honestly believed that I'd found something that nobody else had. | 0:07:29 | 0:07:33 | |
I was wrong. | 0:07:33 | 0:07:34 | |
I was absolutely terrified that another electronic album's | 0:07:36 | 0:07:41 | |
going to come out before mine, | 0:07:41 | 0:07:42 | |
I wanted to be the first to have a purely electronic album... | 0:07:42 | 0:07:46 | |
-And... -'Were you listening to other stuff, though? Cos...' -Which I was never going to... | 0:07:47 | 0:07:51 | |
Yeah, the stupid thing is, I was never going to be the first. | 0:07:51 | 0:07:54 | |
Kraftwerk had already done it, Barry had already done it. Lots of other people had done it. | 0:07:54 | 0:07:57 | |
Which I think is probably why it wound up the other people a bit. | 0:07:57 | 0:08:00 | |
Because they had been doing it for some time, you know? | 0:08:00 | 0:08:03 | |
And then I come along at the very last minute and stumble across it. | 0:08:03 | 0:08:07 | |
That sort of music was going to be massive. | 0:08:09 | 0:08:11 | |
And I wanted to be at the front end of it. | 0:08:13 | 0:08:15 | |
And in the blink of an eye I'm the first synth-rock rock star. | 0:08:17 | 0:08:21 | |
Gary's initial importance was that he was the guy who really | 0:08:26 | 0:08:31 | |
broke synthesisers into pop music. | 0:08:31 | 0:08:35 | |
It was still a kind of left-field thing, really. | 0:08:35 | 0:08:38 | |
The impact that he had on every level creatively and commercially | 0:08:38 | 0:08:42 | |
completely changed the course of electronic music. | 0:08:42 | 0:08:45 | |
The impact was dramatic. | 0:08:45 | 0:08:47 | |
You know, at one point, | 0:08:47 | 0:08:48 | |
the first three albums were all in the top 20 at the same time. | 0:08:48 | 0:08:51 | |
And he walked on stage and 3,000 people went completely insane. | 0:08:51 | 0:08:55 | |
Gary's now got this enormous success and there's been no build-up to it | 0:08:55 | 0:08:58 | |
and he's very young, he's only 21. | 0:08:58 | 0:09:01 | |
You know, it's massive sort of things to deal with | 0:09:02 | 0:09:04 | |
and in that atmosphere... | 0:09:04 | 0:09:06 | |
..he is kind of seen to the outside world quite remote | 0:09:07 | 0:09:11 | |
and it did leave him very isolated. | 0:09:11 | 0:09:14 | |
The house used to frighten me. | 0:09:16 | 0:09:18 | |
Around about ten o'clock at night I used to just start to feel | 0:09:18 | 0:09:22 | |
a bit funny, you know? There's a room upstairs that I made into, like, | 0:09:22 | 0:09:26 | |
a one-room bedsit and I used to go up there when it got late. | 0:09:26 | 0:09:30 | |
I used to feel safe in that one. | 0:09:30 | 0:09:32 | |
Gary managed to live in one room, the middle of the five bedrooms... | 0:09:32 | 0:09:36 | |
He painted the whole thing black, including the ceiling... | 0:09:36 | 0:09:39 | |
-And that's where he... -White carpet. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:41 | |
That's where he spent most of his time, you know... | 0:09:41 | 0:09:43 | |
He just lived in one room. | 0:09:43 | 0:09:45 | |
I used to cook meself chips every day and I used to go to sleep | 0:09:45 | 0:09:50 | |
watching... You know that Monty Python film, Holy Grail? | 0:09:50 | 0:09:54 | |
I used to watch that every night to go to sleep with... | 0:09:54 | 0:09:57 | |
..after me chips, so it stunk of...fat and...disgusting, really. | 0:09:58 | 0:10:03 | |
-I remember there being a dinghy in his front room... -Yeah! | 0:10:03 | 0:10:06 | |
..which sat in there for quite a long time. Um... But... | 0:10:06 | 0:10:09 | |
-'Why did he have a dinghy in his front room?' -I can't quite remember. | 0:10:09 | 0:10:12 | |
And I'm not sure why I inflated it in the front room. | 0:10:12 | 0:10:15 | |
Might have been raining or something, but I wanted to see what | 0:10:15 | 0:10:17 | |
it looked like and put the engine on, to just see what it looked like. So I did that. | 0:10:17 | 0:10:21 | |
And then it actually made quite a comfy sofa | 0:10:21 | 0:10:23 | |
cos you could sort of lay in it. | 0:10:23 | 0:10:25 | |
So, it just... | 0:10:25 | 0:10:27 | |
I never let it down, I never used it, | 0:10:27 | 0:10:29 | |
it just stayed in the front room for...a couple of years, I think. | 0:10:29 | 0:10:32 | |
That's in his house. | 0:10:33 | 0:10:35 | |
GEMMA LAUGHS | 0:10:35 | 0:10:37 | |
Sneaking into his house! | 0:10:39 | 0:10:41 | |
I paid a girl £50 to take me to his house, so I must have run in, | 0:10:41 | 0:10:46 | |
had some photos and run out again. | 0:10:46 | 0:10:49 | |
I can't believe he even asked me out! | 0:10:49 | 0:10:51 | |
SHE LAUGHS | 0:10:51 | 0:10:53 | |
So, yeah, so '86 I first started taking pictures of Gary | 0:10:53 | 0:10:57 | |
or whatever... | 0:10:57 | 0:10:59 | |
Or of all the Numan conventions. | 0:10:59 | 0:11:01 | |
That's what a lot of these are as well. | 0:11:01 | 0:11:03 | |
SHE LAUGHS | 0:11:03 | 0:11:04 | |
But here's a little bit of Mr Numan I've just saw... | 0:11:04 | 0:11:07 | |
Yeah, see, I'd get my friend to take pictures when we were | 0:11:07 | 0:11:10 | |
just standing nearby, so I could just be near him. | 0:11:10 | 0:11:13 | |
SHE LAUGHS | 0:11:13 | 0:11:15 | |
That's the first time I had a photo with him ever. | 0:11:15 | 0:11:18 | |
And that's it. | 0:11:19 | 0:11:20 | |
Oh, my God, that is hideous, put it away! | 0:11:21 | 0:11:24 | |
Oh, this would be 1983. | 0:11:24 | 0:11:28 | |
I was...15. | 0:11:28 | 0:11:31 | |
I shaved off the sides of my hair and had the black ponytail. | 0:11:31 | 0:11:36 | |
I love that I've got all this stuff, I mean, I collected bootlegs, | 0:11:36 | 0:11:40 | |
picture discs, everything, | 0:11:40 | 0:11:43 | |
but I've lost all the fan side of it as it is. | 0:11:43 | 0:11:45 | |
I can't push anyone out of the way any more and get to the front row. | 0:11:45 | 0:11:49 | |
I don't have any of that any more. | 0:11:49 | 0:11:51 | |
But I've gained him as a husband, so I can't be that upset about it! | 0:11:51 | 0:11:54 | |
-Gem? Gemma, where are those fat socks? -Two minutes. | 0:11:57 | 0:12:01 | |
-Spot covering! -Essential! | 0:12:02 | 0:12:04 | |
-Mole... Mole coverage. -Essential. | 0:12:04 | 0:12:07 | |
-Under-eye-baggage coverage. Can't fix wrinkles. -That's-That's... | 0:12:07 | 0:12:11 | |
That's not a talk through your make-up, | 0:12:11 | 0:12:14 | |
that's a talk through what's wrong with my face! | 0:12:14 | 0:12:16 | |
LAUGHTER | 0:12:16 | 0:12:18 | |
'Well, I've travelled around the world many times, | 0:12:18 | 0:12:20 | |
'met hundreds of thousands of people.' | 0:12:20 | 0:12:22 | |
'She has the most amazing personality | 0:12:23 | 0:12:25 | |
'of anyone I've ever met.' | 0:12:25 | 0:12:27 | |
Where do you keep them? | 0:12:27 | 0:12:29 | |
She's...everything that I'm not, which is a lot of things. She is. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:36 | |
I'm... I'm... | 0:12:36 | 0:12:39 | |
I'm an anorak, nerd kind of bloke, you know? | 0:12:39 | 0:12:44 | |
And I'm obsessive about certain things, | 0:12:44 | 0:12:47 | |
I get really boring and really into stuff and I'm really antisocial. | 0:12:47 | 0:12:52 | |
I think that's the Asperger's thing, but... | 0:12:52 | 0:12:54 | |
So, she is my... | 0:12:54 | 0:12:57 | |
She's my buffer between me and the rest of the world. | 0:12:57 | 0:13:00 | |
Did we get Cokes in? | 0:13:02 | 0:13:03 | |
Did we get any Cokes in earlier? I don't want one, but did we get any? | 0:13:05 | 0:13:07 | |
Yeah. There's a whole KitKat in his poo there. | 0:13:07 | 0:13:11 | |
MUSIC ECHOES FROM TENT | 0:13:11 | 0:13:14 | |
So he just did his thing, shook 'em all together, he went, | 0:13:21 | 0:13:24 | |
"Right, I'll process your approval, then." | 0:13:24 | 0:13:26 | |
-And that was it. "Is that...?" -Not a trumpet in sight! | 0:13:27 | 0:13:30 | |
No! "Is that...? Does that mean I can live in America?" | 0:13:30 | 0:13:34 | |
-And he went, "Yes, ma'am, it does." And I said... -Notice she says "I"! | 0:13:34 | 0:13:37 | |
-Yeah, I... -'Oh, yeah!' -I -live in America. There's no "we"! | 0:13:37 | 0:13:41 | |
-It's the same as "we"! -No, it's not, though, is it? It's not, it's not. | 0:13:41 | 0:13:44 | |
-Yeah, there's "I" in team, my team. -I say "we". -Anyhow, um, we're in. | 0:13:44 | 0:13:49 | |
-We're in, it's all good, I was really excited... -You cried. | 0:13:49 | 0:13:52 | |
..I started crying... He was like Rain Man, old Dustin! | 0:13:52 | 0:13:55 | |
I was emotionally challenged. | 0:13:55 | 0:13:57 | |
-D'you know why? -He's useless! I was crying... | 0:13:57 | 0:14:00 | |
-Because for the last two years, I have done everything. -Fuck off! | 0:14:00 | 0:14:04 | |
LAUGHTER | 0:14:04 | 0:14:06 | |
Without me, he wouldn't even be in America, so... | 0:14:06 | 0:14:08 | |
I felt a massive sense of relief that it had all gone well... | 0:14:08 | 0:14:13 | |
-Silly bollocks there, who has done nothing... -Fuck off! -Nothing... | 0:14:13 | 0:14:18 | |
I've done shitloads, everyone knows you're lying who will watch this... | 0:14:18 | 0:14:21 | |
Well, they...might. | 0:14:21 | 0:14:22 | |
-LAUGHTER -They will by the end of it! | 0:14:22 | 0:14:24 | |
GARY LAUGHS | 0:14:24 | 0:14:26 | |
-GEMMA: -When I was, I think I was 14 and I did the careers talk - | 0:14:26 | 0:14:29 | |
"What are you going to do when you leave school, what job?" | 0:14:29 | 0:14:32 | |
"I don't need one, I'm going to marry Gary Numan." | 0:14:32 | 0:14:34 | |
-And I was sent out! -SHE LAUGHS | 0:14:34 | 0:14:36 | |
I didn't think I was going to need a job. | 0:14:36 | 0:14:38 | |
I was going to marry Gary Numan and that was it. | 0:14:38 | 0:14:40 | |
CROWD SINGS | 0:14:40 | 0:14:43 | |
MUSIC: Are "Friends" Electric? by Gary Numan & Tubeway Army | 0:14:43 | 0:14:46 | |
# Now the light fades out | 0:14:53 | 0:14:55 | |
# And I wonder what I'm doing in a room like this | 0:14:59 | 0:15:02 | |
# There's a knock on the door... # | 0:15:04 | 0:15:06 | |
HE YELLS | 0:15:07 | 0:15:09 | |
# And just for a second I thought I remembered you | 0:15:09 | 0:15:13 | |
-CROWD: -# Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh | 0:15:15 | 0:15:20 | |
# Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh... # | 0:15:20 | 0:15:25 | |
I'm still, obviously, | 0:15:28 | 0:15:29 | |
a shadow in terms of success as to what it was in '79/'80. | 0:15:29 | 0:15:34 | |
I lost that. Lost all that. | 0:15:34 | 0:15:36 | |
# So now I'm alone... # | 0:15:36 | 0:15:37 | |
I've learned to really enjoy it now. | 0:15:37 | 0:15:39 | |
That's a fundamental difference - I love being in a band, | 0:15:39 | 0:15:43 | |
I love touring, I love being on stage. | 0:15:43 | 0:15:46 | |
If I could keep it going for another 100 years, then I would. I love it. | 0:15:46 | 0:15:51 | |
And I would love to have number one records again... | 0:15:52 | 0:15:54 | |
whether that's likely or not. | 0:15:54 | 0:15:56 | |
# Whoa, whoa | 0:15:56 | 0:15:59 | |
# Whoa-oh-whoa-oh-whoa-oh | 0:15:59 | 0:16:02 | |
# Whoa, whoa | 0:16:02 | 0:16:04 | |
# Whoa-oh-whoa-oh-whoa-oh | 0:16:04 | 0:16:07 | |
# Whoa, whoa | 0:16:07 | 0:16:10 | |
# Whoa-oh-whoa-oh-whoa-oh | 0:16:10 | 0:16:12 | |
# Whoa, whoa. # | 0:16:12 | 0:16:15 | |
A natural evolution for me | 0:16:16 | 0:16:17 | |
would be to get into film music at some point. | 0:16:17 | 0:16:20 | |
So Los Angeles in particular | 0:16:20 | 0:16:21 | |
would be a better place for us to live. | 0:16:21 | 0:16:23 | |
I actually lived in Los Angeles in the early '80s at some point | 0:16:24 | 0:16:28 | |
and I loved it. | 0:16:28 | 0:16:29 | |
I came back, career started to get into trouble... | 0:16:29 | 0:16:33 | |
I thought I would sort meself out and then move out | 0:16:34 | 0:16:38 | |
and, uh, that never worked out, | 0:16:38 | 0:16:40 | |
it actually got worse and worse and worse for the next ten years. | 0:16:40 | 0:16:43 | |
The rest of the world just... went away. | 0:16:43 | 0:16:46 | |
Gemma's always wanted to do it, so there's been like a gentle pressure. | 0:16:46 | 0:16:51 | |
In fact, when we met, | 0:16:53 | 0:16:54 | |
she actually was in the process of moving to America as an au pair. | 0:16:54 | 0:16:57 | |
She had to make a choice, | 0:16:57 | 0:16:59 | |
either stay with me and see if that worked out - and this is, | 0:16:59 | 0:17:01 | |
I mean, we had only just met, really - or go off and do her | 0:17:01 | 0:17:05 | |
sort of big American dream thing. | 0:17:05 | 0:17:07 | |
And she took a gamble and stayed with me. | 0:17:07 | 0:17:10 | |
And then... bottomed out really badly. | 0:17:10 | 0:17:14 | |
The only thing that kept me going was that I had some equipment | 0:17:15 | 0:17:18 | |
at home, I made albums at home... | 0:17:18 | 0:17:20 | |
..in a little 12-track portastudio. | 0:17:21 | 0:17:23 | |
I made three albums on that. | 0:17:23 | 0:17:25 | |
Put them out meself cos I couldn't get a record deal. | 0:17:25 | 0:17:28 | |
You sort of wake up and you realise that it's all been... | 0:17:32 | 0:17:35 | |
..lost somehow. | 0:17:37 | 0:17:38 | |
-COMPERE: -Let's hear it for the one, the only, Mr Gary Numan! | 0:17:38 | 0:17:45 | |
RAUCOUS CHEERING | 0:17:45 | 0:17:48 | |
The album that I'm working on that we're trying to get finished | 0:17:56 | 0:17:59 | |
at the moment, the working title is called Splinter. | 0:17:59 | 0:18:01 | |
It's been six years. Slow process, innit? | 0:18:01 | 0:18:05 | |
Raven wrote her first song this morning. | 0:18:05 | 0:18:06 | |
-'What's it about, then?' -I don't know yet. | 0:18:06 | 0:18:09 | |
It's just music at the minute, isn't it? | 0:18:09 | 0:18:11 | |
PERSIA STRIKES HIGH HAT | 0:18:11 | 0:18:12 | |
SHE SINGS | 0:18:12 | 0:18:14 | |
'I'm being forced to pack up today... | 0:18:14 | 0:18:18 | |
'But it's a bit too soon really, | 0:18:18 | 0:18:20 | |
'I've still got loads of stuff going on.' | 0:18:20 | 0:18:22 | |
'Selling this house, buying the American house... | 0:18:23 | 0:18:25 | |
'My studio's going to be in the container.' | 0:18:25 | 0:18:27 | |
Right, come here, then. | 0:18:27 | 0:18:28 | |
'It's been much more fraught than I thought it was going to be. | 0:18:28 | 0:18:31 | |
'Like, it takes two years of tortoise-like progress, | 0:18:31 | 0:18:35 | |
'then all of a sudden, chaos.' | 0:18:35 | 0:18:37 | |
Mum, I'm coming! | 0:18:38 | 0:18:40 | |
I'm over Daddy's shoulders. | 0:18:41 | 0:18:43 | |
All I'm excited about is the swimming pool, that's it. | 0:18:43 | 0:18:46 | |
The swimming pool, she loves the swimming pool. | 0:18:46 | 0:18:49 | |
I'm excited about all of it because the castle's got secret passageways | 0:18:49 | 0:18:54 | |
and it's got a pool and a tennis court. | 0:18:54 | 0:18:57 | |
That's all shit stuff. | 0:19:11 | 0:19:12 | |
I've always thought of synthesisers being like screwdrivers. | 0:19:14 | 0:19:17 | |
You know, they're the tools of the trade. My guitar is different. | 0:19:17 | 0:19:20 | |
I've got a guitar that my mum and dad bought me | 0:19:20 | 0:19:23 | |
when I was...quite young and it's been with me through everything. | 0:19:23 | 0:19:27 | |
You know, the first gig I ever did when I was a kid. | 0:19:27 | 0:19:30 | |
I still use it now - it's on every record I've ever made. | 0:19:30 | 0:19:33 | |
It's covered in scratches, it's been broken in half three times, | 0:19:33 | 0:19:37 | |
I think, maybe four, and rebuilt. | 0:19:37 | 0:19:39 | |
It's the only possession I've got | 0:19:39 | 0:19:40 | |
that I would be genuinely sad, you know, if I lost it | 0:19:40 | 0:19:44 | |
or if it got stolen or something. I really love it. | 0:19:44 | 0:19:47 | |
But the whole fame thing... | 0:19:52 | 0:19:54 | |
You imagine you're kind of standing on a train station | 0:19:54 | 0:19:57 | |
and this express train comes flying through | 0:19:57 | 0:20:01 | |
and you put your hand out and you grab it and it whisks you away | 0:20:01 | 0:20:05 | |
at sort of lightning speed and everything is a blur, | 0:20:05 | 0:20:07 | |
then at some point you lose your grip and you fall off. | 0:20:07 | 0:20:12 | |
The train disappears and then you find yourself in the middle | 0:20:12 | 0:20:15 | |
of nowhere, a bit beaten up and totally lost. | 0:20:15 | 0:20:19 | |
At one point I was somewhere in the Far East, decided to stop off | 0:20:24 | 0:20:28 | |
in the Philippines for a few days on the way back, | 0:20:28 | 0:20:30 | |
just to have a break from it all because it had just been | 0:20:30 | 0:20:32 | |
relentlessly mental everywhere, and as I got off the plane, | 0:20:32 | 0:20:36 | |
all these people came up and were throwing garlands round me head... | 0:20:36 | 0:20:39 | |
Turned out I had a gold single in the Philippines. | 0:20:39 | 0:20:42 | |
Didn't even know I had a record out in the Philippines. | 0:20:42 | 0:20:45 | |
It felt as if there wasn't a corner in the world | 0:20:45 | 0:20:47 | |
that you could go to to get away from it. | 0:20:47 | 0:20:50 | |
# I believe in the cruelty of life | 0:20:57 | 0:21:01 | |
# I believe in all of the hopeless and lost | 0:21:05 | 0:21:11 | |
# I see you | 0:21:11 | 0:21:12 | |
# Oh-oh... # | 0:21:12 | 0:21:15 | |
No, everyone loves it, everyone really loves the house | 0:21:15 | 0:21:18 | |
and it looks great and, as I say, it's really big. | 0:21:18 | 0:21:20 | |
And it's really interesting, you know, | 0:21:20 | 0:21:22 | |
it's not just got a lot of space, you know, | 0:21:22 | 0:21:25 | |
there's these secret staircases and little trapdoors... | 0:21:25 | 0:21:30 | |
So, it's just amazing, absolutely amazing. | 0:21:30 | 0:21:32 | |
-Which one was it? -SHE LAUGHS | 0:21:33 | 0:21:36 | |
I love it, do you love it? | 0:21:39 | 0:21:40 | |
-KIDS LAUGH -No, you are! | 0:21:40 | 0:21:42 | |
I just... I like everything in the house. | 0:21:42 | 0:21:45 | |
When I was in the swimming pool, as soon as I got to the deep end, | 0:21:45 | 0:21:49 | |
I start going up and up and it's sort of like I'm flying. | 0:21:49 | 0:21:52 | |
'Tell me what you want to be, then, when you grow up?' | 0:21:52 | 0:21:54 | |
I want to be a famous horse rider because I love horses. | 0:21:54 | 0:21:59 | |
I want to be an actress and work with Angelina Jolie. | 0:22:00 | 0:22:05 | |
I want to be both, | 0:22:05 | 0:22:06 | |
I just want to be a famous horse rider and I want to work at... | 0:22:06 | 0:22:12 | |
..LA Ink. | 0:22:13 | 0:22:14 | |
I'm the queen of the world! | 0:22:16 | 0:22:19 | |
-'Girls, what does Daddy do for a job?' -He works. | 0:22:19 | 0:22:23 | |
All he does is sings and works, he doesn't go out to work, | 0:22:23 | 0:22:28 | |
he doesn't go to buildings, that's all he does. He works at home. | 0:22:28 | 0:22:31 | |
-And then he goes to buildings. -'What does he do, though, Raven?' | 0:22:31 | 0:22:34 | |
Um... Move out the way. | 0:22:34 | 0:22:36 | |
Um, he-he sings... He... Um... | 0:22:38 | 0:22:44 | |
He, um... | 0:22:45 | 0:22:47 | |
He-He, um... | 0:22:49 | 0:22:51 | |
'Is Daddy a rock star?' | 0:22:51 | 0:22:53 | |
-Yeah. -He is. | 0:22:53 | 0:22:55 | |
ECHO YAWNS | 0:22:57 | 0:22:59 | |
This is going to be the studio building. | 0:22:59 | 0:23:01 | |
I need to have another room built within the room that's there now. | 0:23:01 | 0:23:05 | |
And the second end is going to be an office. | 0:23:05 | 0:23:08 | |
So I'll set up a temporary thing in the house somewhere... | 0:23:08 | 0:23:13 | |
Don't need much equipment for writing, to be honest. | 0:23:13 | 0:23:15 | |
And write some more songs, | 0:23:15 | 0:23:17 | |
get enough ready and we'll finish it off in this room here. | 0:23:17 | 0:23:20 | |
The thing that I used to notice at the other place, | 0:23:21 | 0:23:23 | |
because it wasn't particularly brilliantly soundproofed, | 0:23:23 | 0:23:26 | |
I was aware that people walking past the house could hear. | 0:23:26 | 0:23:30 | |
And even Gemma, if I knew Gemma was coming home or if the kids | 0:23:30 | 0:23:33 | |
were playing outside, I'd feel really nervous... Not... | 0:23:33 | 0:23:35 | |
Embarrassed about singing really loud knowing that | 0:23:35 | 0:23:38 | |
they could hear what I was doing. | 0:23:38 | 0:23:39 | |
I've never got over that, never. | 0:23:39 | 0:23:41 | |
I have to be honest, | 0:23:44 | 0:23:45 | |
I do find this place a bit creepy when it gets dark. | 0:23:45 | 0:23:48 | |
Yeah, now he won't go and see Paranormal Activity, Smiley... | 0:23:48 | 0:23:50 | |
I'm not going to see any horror films at all until I've been here for about... | 0:23:50 | 0:23:53 | |
He won't go and see them now. I've got no friends here, I'll have to go by myself. | 0:23:53 | 0:23:57 | |
There's all suits of armour and stuff, you know, | 0:23:57 | 0:23:59 | |
and there's swords of hands holding, which is a bit creepy. | 0:23:59 | 0:24:02 | |
-Are you never going to see them again? Cos of this house? -Why...? | 0:24:02 | 0:24:05 | |
That's you, innit? Hot or cold. There is nothing in between. | 0:24:05 | 0:24:10 | |
Because I'm not going to see a few films this week | 0:24:10 | 0:24:13 | |
because I'm a bit scared of the house, I'm never going again. | 0:24:13 | 0:24:16 | |
'Gemma, be honest, though, | 0:24:16 | 0:24:17 | |
'would you stay in this house on your own for a weekend...' | 0:24:17 | 0:24:20 | |
-Yes. Yeah. -'..with the lights off?' -Yeah, she wouldn't care. -Yeah. | 0:24:20 | 0:24:23 | |
She likes being scared, apparently. | 0:24:23 | 0:24:25 | |
I don't want a real serial killer to come here, though. | 0:24:25 | 0:24:27 | |
-Not a real one! -Aw... | 0:24:27 | 0:24:29 | |
Is that inviting them? | 0:24:30 | 0:24:32 | |
SHE LAUGHS | 0:24:32 | 0:24:33 | |
-You... -What if a burglar comes in with a gun? | 0:24:33 | 0:24:37 | |
A bit more bloody likely than the serial killer - | 0:24:37 | 0:24:39 | |
-hurt just as much probably! -No, that's more instant. | 0:24:39 | 0:24:42 | |
Serial killers talk to you and they take trophies... | 0:24:42 | 0:24:44 | |
They don't all talk to you, they just kill lots of people. | 0:24:44 | 0:24:47 | |
No, the good ones, the really interesting ones... | 0:24:47 | 0:24:50 | |
You can't say good ones! | 0:24:50 | 0:24:51 | |
No such thing as a "good" serial killer, is there? | 0:24:54 | 0:24:57 | |
-Not good as in good-hearted, but... -Fucking hell! Good-hearted?! | 0:24:57 | 0:25:02 | |
-What are you talking about?! -I don't... | 0:25:03 | 0:25:06 | |
'My whole life changed from the moment she came along. | 0:25:11 | 0:25:14 | |
'She's brilliant, man. She's so funny. | 0:25:14 | 0:25:17 | |
'And we bounce off each other all the time.' | 0:25:17 | 0:25:19 | |
Do you...? Who do you like? | 0:25:20 | 0:25:22 | |
Blondie or Marilyn Monroe? | 0:25:23 | 0:25:27 | |
-Mummy... -# Happy... # | 0:25:27 | 0:25:29 | |
-Mummy, tell me. -That time or dead? | 0:25:29 | 0:25:31 | |
This is Gary's new studio. | 0:25:42 | 0:25:45 | |
Just sent me a photograph of it last night in America, very, very nice. | 0:25:45 | 0:25:48 | |
Very grey. A bit like his personality! | 0:25:48 | 0:25:51 | |
It's very, very good and I'm very envious. | 0:25:51 | 0:25:53 | |
I've changed the way my day works since Gary and Gemma moved | 0:25:53 | 0:25:56 | |
to America. I've had to. | 0:25:56 | 0:25:58 | |
Gary will write the song completely in the studio. | 0:25:59 | 0:26:01 | |
Usually it will be, you know, some drum loops and some sounds | 0:26:03 | 0:26:07 | |
which he feels are right for the track. | 0:26:07 | 0:26:09 | |
Um, he'll record a guide vocal or an actual vocal... | 0:26:09 | 0:26:13 | |
give me all of the parts, then I'll kind of develop his ideas. | 0:26:13 | 0:26:17 | |
We want him to write 16, 17 songs and we have 16, 17 tracks | 0:26:17 | 0:26:22 | |
to choose from and we come up with the strongest album | 0:26:22 | 0:26:24 | |
that we possibly can. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:26 | |
So my job is to develop those ideas. | 0:26:26 | 0:26:30 | |
This is a new track, Gary sent me the parts for it last night. | 0:26:30 | 0:26:32 | |
HAUNTING ARABIAN MUSIC PLAYS | 0:26:32 | 0:26:36 | |
He came up with this idea and he sent me | 0:26:37 | 0:26:39 | |
a reference track of beautiful Arabic. | 0:26:39 | 0:26:42 | |
It's a constantly evolving thing. I mean, this is...version 11. | 0:26:42 | 0:26:46 | |
"SPLINTER" CONTINUES TO PLAY | 0:26:46 | 0:26:48 | |
You leave a seven-year gap between writing albums, | 0:26:48 | 0:26:50 | |
you have to come back with something really strong. | 0:26:50 | 0:26:53 | |
It's got to be a good album. | 0:26:53 | 0:26:54 | |
And it has to be done quickly. This year. | 0:26:55 | 0:26:58 | |
I think he's done incredibly well to...get to where he is now. | 0:26:58 | 0:27:02 | |
'What if he doesn't finish it?' | 0:27:02 | 0:27:03 | |
He will finish it. | 0:27:03 | 0:27:05 | |
He will finish it. | 0:27:05 | 0:27:07 | |
'I still think of making albums is they just seem like huge mountains | 0:27:13 | 0:27:16 | |
'to climb, all that emotional fucking shit that comes with it. | 0:27:16 | 0:27:20 | |
'Not sleeping and the worrying and getting short-tempered | 0:27:20 | 0:27:24 | |
'and getting completely possessed by it and...' | 0:27:24 | 0:27:26 | |
'..preoccupied by it and, you know, quite difficult to live with. | 0:27:28 | 0:27:32 | |
'You know all that is coming and it's not something you jump into | 0:27:32 | 0:27:35 | |
'with a big-eyed smile on your face and go, "Yay! Here we go! | 0:27:35 | 0:27:38 | |
' "This is going to be great!" Cos it isn't. It's horrible.' | 0:27:38 | 0:27:41 | |
'And I find it more and more difficult...' | 0:27:42 | 0:27:45 | |
Nah... | 0:27:45 | 0:27:46 | |
'And that's probably a good reason why it's taken me | 0:27:46 | 0:27:49 | |
'such a long time to actually do it.' | 0:27:49 | 0:27:51 | |
Sometimes... | 0:27:51 | 0:27:53 | |
..ten minutes and it's all done. | 0:27:55 | 0:27:57 | |
You know, sometimes four or five hours. | 0:27:57 | 0:27:59 | |
It really depends. | 0:27:59 | 0:28:01 | |
But so much of it is doing it wrong. Getting it wrong. | 0:28:02 | 0:28:06 | |
You try something, it doesn't work. You try something, doesn't work. | 0:28:06 | 0:28:09 | |
Dozens and dozens and dozens and then you'll find something | 0:28:09 | 0:28:11 | |
that works. | 0:28:11 | 0:28:13 | |
HE TRIES OUT A MELODY | 0:28:13 | 0:28:15 | |
That's quite pretty. | 0:28:31 | 0:28:32 | |
Then I do a vocal for it without words, | 0:28:33 | 0:28:36 | |
just singing noises and sounds that come to mind. | 0:28:36 | 0:28:40 | |
When I sing the gobbledygook bit before I start doing lyrics, | 0:28:40 | 0:28:42 | |
the music gives you the sense of the lyric, if you like. | 0:28:42 | 0:28:47 | |
Intro, extended intro, verse first with the lyric. | 0:28:47 | 0:28:51 | |
Chorus with the lyric. Little link part. Verse. | 0:28:51 | 0:28:54 | |
Instrumental verse, that one didn't end well, verse with lyric. | 0:28:54 | 0:28:57 | |
So that's the way I sort of have a picture of what the arrangement is | 0:28:57 | 0:29:01 | |
and where the lyrics need to be... | 0:29:01 | 0:29:03 | |
And then I... | 0:29:03 | 0:29:05 | |
It looks like Morse code a little bit, | 0:29:05 | 0:29:08 | |
but I write down where the actual syllables need to be... | 0:29:08 | 0:29:13 | |
HE SINGS MELODY | 0:29:13 | 0:29:17 | |
And then you just start to put it together. | 0:29:17 | 0:29:19 | |
I find words that will fit with this and...piece it together. | 0:29:19 | 0:29:26 | |
And I get a certain amount of feel from the gobbledygook. | 0:29:26 | 0:29:29 | |
When I sing the gobbledygook bit before I start doing lyrics, | 0:29:29 | 0:29:32 | |
there is almost every time certain lines or words that will... | 0:29:32 | 0:29:38 | |
..come up again and again and again and when you sing it, | 0:29:39 | 0:29:41 | |
so they feel natural. | 0:29:41 | 0:29:43 | |
Um, see, it might even be that bit, so that would be... | 0:29:44 | 0:29:48 | |
"So are we over?" | 0:29:48 | 0:29:49 | |
Then you move words around and shorten it and... | 0:29:50 | 0:29:53 | |
A bit like tweeting, in a way, where you find a way | 0:29:53 | 0:29:56 | |
of making what you want to say in words that are acceptable | 0:29:56 | 0:30:00 | |
fit this flow... | 0:30:00 | 0:30:02 | |
And it's like a jigsaw puzzle with... | 0:30:03 | 0:30:06 | |
..words and sounds and it's... | 0:30:07 | 0:30:09 | |
I love it, I find it really interesting. | 0:30:09 | 0:30:11 | |
Probably my favourite part of the whole process, actually, | 0:30:13 | 0:30:15 | |
the lyrical side of it. | 0:30:15 | 0:30:17 | |
And even when it's a bit of a struggle, it's really interesting. | 0:30:18 | 0:30:22 | |
Sometimes with music when you're struggling, | 0:30:22 | 0:30:24 | |
it can get really frustrating. | 0:30:24 | 0:30:26 | |
I start to panic a little bit that I'm not going to find a way... | 0:30:26 | 0:30:29 | |
..around the problem. | 0:30:31 | 0:30:32 | |
You know, a way of developing it the way I want to and I sometimes feel | 0:30:32 | 0:30:35 | |
quite limited and frustrated with the fact that I can't play better... | 0:30:35 | 0:30:40 | |
# Ooh, it comes | 0:30:40 | 0:30:46 | |
# Ooh, it comes | 0:30:50 | 0:30:56 | |
# Ooh, my last day... # | 0:30:59 | 0:31:04 | |
Little shits. | 0:31:13 | 0:31:14 | |
'What are you doing?' | 0:31:14 | 0:31:15 | |
I'm cleaning cat piss off the curtains. | 0:31:15 | 0:31:18 | |
'How much of a fan were you of Gary's then?' | 0:31:18 | 0:31:20 | |
Massive. | 0:31:20 | 0:31:21 | |
I went to nearly every gig and waited for ages to get in | 0:31:21 | 0:31:24 | |
the front row...since I was little. | 0:31:24 | 0:31:27 | |
I went for his face, I only fancied his face and his music. | 0:31:27 | 0:31:31 | |
I stole an album off my brother cos I fancied the man | 0:31:31 | 0:31:36 | |
that was on the back in my ten-year-old way... | 0:31:36 | 0:31:40 | |
Yeah, I think I liked the make-up. | 0:31:40 | 0:31:42 | |
Oh, my God, they've done it on the back as well. | 0:31:42 | 0:31:44 | |
SHE MAKES RETCHING TONE | 0:31:44 | 0:31:46 | |
Little shits. | 0:31:47 | 0:31:48 | |
If I wasn't in a band, I would never have had a girlfriend in my whole life | 0:31:51 | 0:31:54 | |
cos I can't, I've got no chat with women at all, none. | 0:31:54 | 0:31:59 | |
CHEERING | 0:31:59 | 0:32:01 | |
We did a tour, she hadn't been on that tour and she was always | 0:32:02 | 0:32:06 | |
on all the tours, so I noticed she hadn't been there. | 0:32:06 | 0:32:08 | |
Yeah, cos I think she's lovely looking, | 0:32:08 | 0:32:10 | |
I'd always notice if she was there. | 0:32:10 | 0:32:11 | |
And she'd always be right down the front. | 0:32:11 | 0:32:13 | |
It wasn't until my mum died that I had a proper conversation with him. | 0:32:15 | 0:32:19 | |
24. | 0:32:20 | 0:32:21 | |
He rang me up... Got my number from the fan club. | 0:32:23 | 0:32:28 | |
I didn't believe he'd be ever ringing me, I thought it was | 0:32:28 | 0:32:30 | |
someone winding me up and I thought someone was being really horrible. | 0:32:30 | 0:32:34 | |
My mum had just died and someone's ringing up pretending to be | 0:32:34 | 0:32:37 | |
Gary Numan and...eventually...I just started asking him questions | 0:32:37 | 0:32:42 | |
about himself. | 0:32:42 | 0:32:43 | |
Oh! And then I thought, "Oh, actually, it does sound like him." | 0:32:43 | 0:32:47 | |
I remember the first time we ever went out together, | 0:32:47 | 0:32:49 | |
I was giving her all my best stories. | 0:32:49 | 0:32:52 | |
She'd heard them all, read them all. I had nothing to say. | 0:32:52 | 0:32:56 | |
He'd only ever seen me made up at gigs, so I wanted to go there | 0:33:03 | 0:33:09 | |
and meet him with no make-up on in jeans and T-shirt... | 0:33:09 | 0:33:15 | |
Because I thought I'd rather on this first date | 0:33:15 | 0:33:20 | |
he saw me as I am and just not ring me ever again because I was ugly. | 0:33:20 | 0:33:25 | |
'I was riddled with all kinds of issues | 0:33:25 | 0:33:28 | |
'which have slowly got better over the years | 0:33:28 | 0:33:30 | |
'thanks to her patience and perseverance.' | 0:33:30 | 0:33:32 | |
When I went to his house and I saw he had a pair of...moccasins... | 0:33:32 | 0:33:39 | |
"That is my man!" | 0:33:40 | 0:33:42 | |
I saw the moccasins and I thought, "Fuck sake! He wears moccasins!" | 0:33:44 | 0:33:49 | |
CHEERING | 0:33:49 | 0:33:51 | |
We got through all the pop star bit and then started to... | 0:33:51 | 0:33:55 | |
I mean, almost straightaway, really, | 0:33:55 | 0:33:57 | |
started to just be two normal people just trying to get on. | 0:33:57 | 0:34:01 | |
My early fantasies I'd had about Gary, I fantasised that | 0:34:01 | 0:34:06 | |
he would save me from my council estate in a helicopter, | 0:34:06 | 0:34:10 | |
dressed in his I, Assassin outfit | 0:34:10 | 0:34:12 | |
and I'd be running from Daleks, | 0:34:12 | 0:34:14 | |
and he'd be my hero. That was it. | 0:34:14 | 0:34:17 | |
-KID LAUGHS Ready? -Yes. | 0:34:19 | 0:34:22 | |
KID LAUGHS | 0:34:22 | 0:34:26 | |
We got married in '97 and Raven came along not till 2003. | 0:34:31 | 0:34:37 | |
We started trying for kiddies, though, as soon as we got married. | 0:34:37 | 0:34:42 | |
And it wasn't happening, and then started on IVF. | 0:34:42 | 0:34:45 | |
Some sad things happened on the way to getting Raven. | 0:34:47 | 0:34:51 | |
The first attempt worked. | 0:34:51 | 0:34:53 | |
We got pregnant, it was really brilliant news, | 0:34:53 | 0:34:56 | |
and then it came to the 11-week scan and there was something | 0:34:56 | 0:34:59 | |
really wrong with her - big, thick membrane up the back of her neck - | 0:34:59 | 0:35:04 | |
and then they told us she was 100% Turner syndrome, | 0:35:04 | 0:35:07 | |
which meant she would be stillborn. | 0:35:07 | 0:35:09 | |
We had a couple of miscarriages, | 0:35:09 | 0:35:11 | |
an ectopic pregnancy and then three that just didn't work at all. | 0:35:11 | 0:35:15 | |
And then Raven. Raven was the seventh attempt. | 0:35:15 | 0:35:19 | |
She was twins and we... At 14 or 15 weeks I lost her twin. | 0:35:19 | 0:35:25 | |
Raven survived. | 0:35:29 | 0:35:31 | |
We were told we couldn't really have any more and then I had | 0:35:31 | 0:35:35 | |
two happy accidents. | 0:35:35 | 0:35:36 | |
Persia and Echo. | 0:35:36 | 0:35:39 | |
It was after Echo that I had the severest postnatal depression but I | 0:35:39 | 0:35:45 | |
got postnatal depression when I was pregnant with Persia and it | 0:35:45 | 0:35:48 | |
didn't go away until two years after Echo. | 0:35:48 | 0:35:51 | |
We've had a lot of horrible things happen to us. | 0:35:51 | 0:35:54 | |
There's no wonder it suddenly caught up with us one day. | 0:35:54 | 0:35:57 | |
When I was younger I used to have a job in a warehouse. | 0:36:13 | 0:36:17 | |
Every week somebody would be given the job of going out at lunchtime | 0:36:17 | 0:36:20 | |
to get the fish and chips or whatever it was for dinner, | 0:36:20 | 0:36:23 | |
and they stopped sending me cos I would take hours cos I didn't | 0:36:23 | 0:36:26 | |
want to talk in front of people. It was just a weird hang-up. | 0:36:26 | 0:36:29 | |
That was when I was sort of 17, 18, so I've always had it. | 0:36:29 | 0:36:32 | |
I just get really nervous and flustered. | 0:36:32 | 0:36:36 | |
I'm all right doing it if she's there. I'm all right, you know. | 0:36:36 | 0:36:41 | |
But if she goes to the toilet or something like that... | 0:36:41 | 0:36:45 | |
I'm panicking. | 0:36:45 | 0:36:46 | |
Now that I drink a little bit, | 0:36:46 | 0:36:48 | |
that's really made such a huge difference. | 0:36:48 | 0:36:50 | |
I don't like the taste of it all, it's horrible. | 0:36:50 | 0:36:52 | |
I just start to feel better - just like medicine. | 0:36:52 | 0:36:55 | |
He's hard work to get to go anywhere. | 0:36:56 | 0:36:59 | |
Those early years, people were really horrible and said bad things | 0:36:59 | 0:37:03 | |
about his mum and all that sort of stuff. He feels self-conscious, | 0:37:03 | 0:37:08 | |
he's always worried that people will start singing Cars | 0:37:08 | 0:37:11 | |
and then take the piss. | 0:37:11 | 0:37:13 | |
But I think it's passed. | 0:37:13 | 0:37:15 | |
NO AUDIO | 0:37:15 | 0:37:19 | |
I had lots of trouble at school. | 0:37:19 | 0:37:21 | |
I knew I had difficulties in certain areas that other people | 0:37:21 | 0:37:25 | |
didn't seem to have. | 0:37:25 | 0:37:27 | |
The school sent me to a psychiatrist, | 0:37:27 | 0:37:30 | |
so that pretty much singled me out, just being | 0:37:30 | 0:37:32 | |
a bit different to the others, but not in a good way or in a cool way. | 0:37:32 | 0:37:36 | |
Behaviour, mainly. Really terrible behaviour. | 0:37:38 | 0:37:42 | |
I can flare up. | 0:37:42 | 0:37:44 | |
If somebody says something that's not right - and I don't mean | 0:37:45 | 0:37:48 | |
this in an integrity or sort of forthright opinions, I don't | 0:37:48 | 0:37:53 | |
mean it like that - it's actually in a very kind of autistic way. | 0:37:53 | 0:37:57 | |
Somebody says something that's not right, | 0:37:57 | 0:37:59 | |
I will pick them up on it. | 0:37:59 | 0:38:01 | |
It comes across in a child as being a bit bolshie and a bit arrogant. | 0:38:01 | 0:38:06 | |
Never meant it like it. | 0:38:06 | 0:38:08 | |
Then they sent me to a local child psychologist and it was there | 0:38:08 | 0:38:12 | |
that they first started to talk about Asperger's. | 0:38:12 | 0:38:15 | |
They put me on two drugs, | 0:38:15 | 0:38:18 | |
valium and nardil. | 0:38:18 | 0:38:21 | |
And they calm you, | 0:38:21 | 0:38:24 | |
keep you flat, cos I was extremely up and down at school. | 0:38:24 | 0:38:28 | |
He's very much a loner at times. | 0:38:33 | 0:38:35 | |
He could amuse himself completely on his own. | 0:38:35 | 0:38:39 | |
Gary didn't seem to need lots of people around him. | 0:38:39 | 0:38:43 | |
He was very quiet. | 0:38:43 | 0:38:46 | |
Always a bit shy but argumentative when he was at home with us - | 0:38:46 | 0:38:52 | |
he gets that from his dad. | 0:38:52 | 0:38:55 | |
My dad was my manager, so that he would be there, | 0:38:56 | 0:38:59 | |
and he doesn't step foot outside the door without my mum being there, | 0:38:59 | 0:39:04 | |
so they come as a team. | 0:39:04 | 0:39:06 | |
For me, it gave me a little bit of security and comfort and | 0:39:06 | 0:39:11 | |
someone to talk to and trust in the middle of everything | 0:39:11 | 0:39:14 | |
going mental around you, so for me it was nice to have them there. | 0:39:14 | 0:39:19 | |
I often felt they helped me keep my feet on the ground as well. | 0:39:19 | 0:39:22 | |
Tony had got involved in 1980 | 0:39:24 | 0:39:26 | |
as the full-time manager. | 0:39:26 | 0:39:28 | |
I mean, it's brilliant because, | 0:39:28 | 0:39:30 | |
you know, it's obviously someone that you implicitly trust. | 0:39:30 | 0:39:34 | |
Tony would drive him around, you know, | 0:39:34 | 0:39:37 | |
bought Gary the guitar and PA system and so on. | 0:39:37 | 0:39:40 | |
It was very much Tony's dedication and the fact that he would get | 0:39:40 | 0:39:46 | |
his wallet out and support his son, you know, | 0:39:46 | 0:39:49 | |
that made any of it possible in the first place. | 0:39:49 | 0:39:51 | |
HE LAUGHS | 0:39:51 | 0:39:56 | |
When he very first started, he just needed to someone to go with him. | 0:39:56 | 0:40:00 | |
I used to go out and roadie for him, you know, and supply him the van | 0:40:00 | 0:40:06 | |
and get him to all the different places he used to play. | 0:40:06 | 0:40:08 | |
He used to play little pubs and clubs around London and that was it, | 0:40:08 | 0:40:14 | |
I was involved from there. | 0:40:14 | 0:40:15 | |
What do you think of Gary's music? | 0:40:15 | 0:40:17 | |
Well, I've just grown to like it, I suppose. | 0:40:17 | 0:40:20 | |
I'm not really that musical | 0:40:20 | 0:40:22 | |
but I've really grown to like it, | 0:40:22 | 0:40:25 | |
I really do enjoy it. | 0:40:25 | 0:40:26 | |
-What do you think about the lyrics that he writes? -Erm... | 0:40:26 | 0:40:29 | |
Well, I don't understand 'em half the time, to be quite honest, | 0:40:29 | 0:40:32 | |
you know, I don't know where he gets it from. | 0:40:32 | 0:40:34 | |
We could see so many people dressed in black, as Gary did. | 0:40:34 | 0:40:38 | |
I said to Tony, "Must be somebody really big on there cos | 0:40:38 | 0:40:41 | |
"there's loads and loads of people." | 0:40:41 | 0:40:44 | |
And I didn't realise it was our Gary, | 0:40:44 | 0:40:47 | |
they were all dressing like him. | 0:40:47 | 0:40:50 | |
He was nervous, I mean, | 0:40:51 | 0:40:53 | |
to me, he seemed the most likely person of all to do what he does. | 0:40:53 | 0:40:58 | |
And I can remember particularly one - I think it was | 0:40:58 | 0:41:02 | |
Top Of The Pops - it was coming up to the time when Gary was due | 0:41:02 | 0:41:06 | |
for his bit to be filmed and he was about to do a runner | 0:41:06 | 0:41:11 | |
out the back of the studio. | 0:41:11 | 0:41:13 | |
I wonder if that's too much. | 0:41:14 | 0:41:16 | |
-Two big ones of them. -If you're wondering... | 0:41:16 | 0:41:19 | |
And there was, like, little steps and he come down, he said, | 0:41:19 | 0:41:22 | |
"I can't do this, Mum. I can't do it." I said, "Of course you can." | 0:41:22 | 0:41:26 | |
He said, "I don't think I can." I said, "Yes, you can." | 0:41:26 | 0:41:29 | |
Enjoying it? | 0:41:29 | 0:41:31 | |
And that very sort of level-headed, practical, | 0:41:32 | 0:41:36 | |
firm-but-fair kind of approach did Gary an awful lot of good, | 0:41:36 | 0:41:41 | |
certainly when the success happened. | 0:41:41 | 0:41:44 | |
On the one hand, I was very sort of...protected. | 0:41:44 | 0:41:48 | |
On the other hand, I remained very child-like and unworldly. | 0:41:48 | 0:41:53 | |
Gary was cool for about five minutes. | 0:41:53 | 0:41:58 | |
There was a little moment but the thing is that | 0:41:58 | 0:42:01 | |
no journalist could actually hold up their hand and say that they | 0:42:01 | 0:42:04 | |
got the kudos for discovering Gary, | 0:42:04 | 0:42:06 | |
and so that isolated him from the British media. | 0:42:06 | 0:42:11 | |
On top of it, you know, Gary very much wanted to bring | 0:42:11 | 0:42:14 | |
a kind of showbiz approach to it as well. | 0:42:14 | 0:42:18 | |
I guess because he was so stylised, what was seen, I suppose, | 0:42:18 | 0:42:23 | |
as an artificial persona in an era where everything was meant to be | 0:42:23 | 0:42:27 | |
organic and real and back to basics. | 0:42:27 | 0:42:29 | |
That violated the kind of punk stance that | 0:42:29 | 0:42:34 | |
a lot of journalists still had. | 0:42:34 | 0:42:36 | |
So journalists hated him for that, | 0:42:36 | 0:42:38 | |
the way he moved on stage, the whole robot thing, | 0:42:38 | 0:42:41 | |
just obviously very easy to ridicule. | 0:42:41 | 0:42:45 | |
Never had a problem with people not liking anything that I'd done. | 0:42:45 | 0:42:48 | |
The only thing that I didn't understand was the hostility | 0:42:48 | 0:42:51 | |
that came with it. In the press people talk about you | 0:42:51 | 0:42:54 | |
as if you'd done something really bad, | 0:42:54 | 0:42:57 | |
you know, this horrible person. | 0:42:57 | 0:42:59 | |
One newspaper said that my mum and dad should have been doctored | 0:42:59 | 0:43:02 | |
for giving birth to me. That's a big strong, isn't it? | 0:43:02 | 0:43:05 | |
What have I done? | 0:43:05 | 0:43:06 | |
I've written a song that millions of fucking people like - oh! | 0:43:06 | 0:43:10 | |
What the fuck is all that about? | 0:43:10 | 0:43:12 | |
# This is what you are... # | 0:43:14 | 0:43:18 | |
You know what they used to say to me? | 0:43:24 | 0:43:26 | |
"Well, it's tongue-in-cheek, it's not really meant." | 0:43:26 | 0:43:29 | |
Well, why do they print it, then? | 0:43:29 | 0:43:31 | |
Just hurtful and nasty. | 0:43:31 | 0:43:32 | |
For years and years and years he had really bad press. | 0:43:34 | 0:43:37 | |
He got masses of it, you know, | 0:43:37 | 0:43:41 | |
I'm surprised that he carried on, | 0:43:41 | 0:43:43 | |
to be honest, his press was so bad. | 0:43:43 | 0:43:46 | |
When you read something that's really horrible, you know, | 0:43:46 | 0:43:49 | |
you'd rather not but I think the way you deal with it is what matters. | 0:43:49 | 0:43:54 | |
I'm lucky and I've got that sort of brain, it all just...flies by me. | 0:43:54 | 0:44:00 | |
That's where I'm going and you can say what you like, | 0:44:00 | 0:44:04 | |
I'm still going that way. | 0:44:04 | 0:44:06 | |
I must have had more bad press in the first ten years than anyone else | 0:44:06 | 0:44:09 | |
in the history of the music business. | 0:44:09 | 0:44:12 | |
If I'd been the sort of person that was bothered by that sort of stuff | 0:44:12 | 0:44:15 | |
then I'd have fallen by the wayside a long time ago. | 0:44:15 | 0:44:20 | |
The press didn't have any effect on me but other things did. | 0:44:22 | 0:44:25 | |
Mid-'80s time, decisions I'd been making had been really stupid. | 0:44:25 | 0:44:29 | |
You kind of lose faith in yourself. | 0:44:29 | 0:44:32 | |
His focus once he became successful seemed to be on making lots | 0:44:32 | 0:44:37 | |
and lots of records and doing bigger and bigger shows, and also, | 0:44:37 | 0:44:42 | |
at the same time, he got his pilot licence. | 0:44:42 | 0:44:44 | |
He had this sort of focus that he had to keep doing the next thing - | 0:44:44 | 0:44:48 | |
fly around the world. | 0:44:48 | 0:44:49 | |
The lighting, I mean, we had to take a massive lighting rig out. | 0:44:49 | 0:44:52 | |
We used to go out with three or four 40-foot trucks every time we toured, | 0:44:52 | 0:44:56 | |
so our costs were enormous. | 0:44:56 | 0:45:00 | |
And it was really sort of down to Gary, | 0:45:00 | 0:45:02 | |
that's the side of Gary that I could never control. | 0:45:02 | 0:45:05 | |
He would come up with figures and my response would always be, | 0:45:05 | 0:45:08 | |
"How much?!" | 0:45:08 | 0:45:09 | |
What's coming in one end is great, you know, the more the merrier, | 0:45:10 | 0:45:14 | |
but as long as you control what's going out the other end. | 0:45:14 | 0:45:17 | |
My dad would say to me, "If you do this, | 0:45:20 | 0:45:24 | |
"you're going to lose all that money. You need to scale it down." | 0:45:24 | 0:45:28 | |
And I'd half-heartedly do it. Not enough so that we didn't lose money. | 0:45:28 | 0:45:32 | |
And then next time it'd be even worse so I'd scale it back | 0:45:32 | 0:45:35 | |
a little bit more, you know, but not enough. | 0:45:35 | 0:45:38 | |
And we just carried on losing money year after year until it got so bad | 0:45:38 | 0:45:41 | |
that we just couldn't borrow any more. | 0:45:41 | 0:45:44 | |
You know, my dad...found himself in this horrible position | 0:45:44 | 0:45:48 | |
of trying to keep us surviving from one day to the next. | 0:45:48 | 0:45:51 | |
And I caused that. | 0:45:51 | 0:45:53 | |
Yeah, he told me that was coming, years before. | 0:45:53 | 0:45:56 | |
That's all my fault. | 0:45:56 | 0:45:58 | |
-INTERVIEWER: -How bad did it get? | 0:46:03 | 0:46:04 | |
Well, they tried to repossess my house at one point. | 0:46:04 | 0:46:06 | |
That kind of shakes you up a little bit. Just over 600 grand in debt | 0:46:06 | 0:46:09 | |
when it's at its worst. Couldn't sell tickets, | 0:46:09 | 0:46:12 | |
album sales had fallen down to just a few thousand. Nightmare. | 0:46:12 | 0:46:17 | |
My mum and dad would go out nightly around different credit card | 0:46:17 | 0:46:20 | |
machines, trying to get money out of them. They had a stack of them. | 0:46:20 | 0:46:24 | |
The career was really plummeting downhill badly and there comes that | 0:46:24 | 0:46:30 | |
fateful day when you listen to advice for the first time. | 0:46:30 | 0:46:34 | |
And that's the kiss of death because once you do that | 0:46:34 | 0:46:37 | |
you stop following your own path. | 0:46:37 | 0:46:40 | |
You become lost. | 0:46:40 | 0:46:42 | |
I keep hearing rumours about you | 0:46:42 | 0:46:44 | |
-and your career and the fact you're retiring. -Yeah, that's right. | 0:46:44 | 0:46:47 | |
I mean, he used to talk back then a lot about | 0:46:47 | 0:46:50 | |
he had better relationships with machines. | 0:46:50 | 0:46:53 | |
-How are you filling your days nowadays? -I'm flying. -Flying? | 0:46:53 | 0:46:57 | |
-Bit of a dangerous hobby. -No, it's all right. | 0:46:57 | 0:47:00 | |
The interest is actually being able to control the machinery | 0:47:00 | 0:47:04 | |
and be able to make them do what you want them to do. | 0:47:04 | 0:47:07 | |
You know, obviously with the Asperger's you can see how | 0:47:07 | 0:47:10 | |
people get drawn to machinery or to things that are more solid | 0:47:10 | 0:47:17 | |
than a pop career. | 0:47:17 | 0:47:19 | |
Pulling upside down and you can feel it twitching and trying to get away, | 0:47:19 | 0:47:23 | |
close to the ground and survive, year after year. | 0:47:23 | 0:47:26 | |
It's a challenge. | 0:47:26 | 0:47:28 | |
Gary just lately is on a fantastic creative splurge. | 0:47:35 | 0:47:41 | |
Compared to the sort of pattern from the last few years, you know, | 0:47:41 | 0:47:45 | |
they've been coming quicker than I can produce them, at the moment. | 0:47:45 | 0:47:48 | |
I'm still about two behind. We just want Gary to continue. | 0:47:48 | 0:47:52 | |
We're not trying to get into the charts, | 0:47:52 | 0:47:54 | |
we are trying to reach out to a wider audience. | 0:47:54 | 0:47:57 | |
For example, Dave Grohl has been playing Down In The Park | 0:47:57 | 0:48:00 | |
with Foo Fighters for many years. He's obviously a big fan of Gary's. | 0:48:00 | 0:48:03 | |
He's getting into fanbases like that. | 0:48:03 | 0:48:06 | |
Nine Inch Nails, you know, I don't even know the last time, | 0:48:06 | 0:48:09 | |
or even if they'd ever had any chart success in the UK. | 0:48:09 | 0:48:13 | |
But 17,000 people will go and see them at the O2 Arena. | 0:48:13 | 0:48:16 | |
Obviously a massive connection there between Gary and Trent. | 0:48:16 | 0:48:19 | |
Back in that time when I was trying to figure out what Nine Inch Nails | 0:48:19 | 0:48:22 | |
was going to be about, there was someone that was vitally important | 0:48:22 | 0:48:25 | |
to me that was a huge inspiration. | 0:48:25 | 0:48:28 | |
And it is with great pleasure and honour | 0:48:28 | 0:48:33 | |
I present to you Gary Numan! | 0:48:33 | 0:48:38 | |
Really, the Gary reinvention really starts with the musicians, | 0:48:38 | 0:48:42 | |
people like Smashing Pumpkins, | 0:48:42 | 0:48:44 | |
and Tricky was dying to talk about Gary in interviews. | 0:48:44 | 0:48:49 | |
Beck as well. There was something starting to happen. | 0:48:49 | 0:48:53 | |
The artists who picked up synthesisers or got into | 0:48:57 | 0:49:00 | |
synthesisers were starting to become successful themselves. | 0:49:00 | 0:49:04 | |
When he went on stage with Nine Inch Nails at the O2, that was a moment. | 0:49:04 | 0:49:08 | |
HE EXHALES | 0:49:08 | 0:49:10 | |
You know, 17,000 people start singing Metal, they're going mental. | 0:49:10 | 0:49:13 | |
It was just... Jesus. | 0:49:13 | 0:49:16 | |
# We're in the building where they make us grow | 0:49:16 | 0:49:19 | |
# And I'm frightened by the liquid engineers | 0:49:19 | 0:49:22 | |
# Like you... # | 0:49:22 | 0:49:24 | |
That Nine Inch Nails thing, | 0:49:24 | 0:49:26 | |
I thought that would give him massive confidence. | 0:49:26 | 0:49:28 | |
I knew he'd be scared doing it but I was frightened at the same time that | 0:49:28 | 0:49:33 | |
if Trent said no, would I ever tell him... | 0:49:33 | 0:49:37 | |
about that note to Trent Reznor? | 0:49:37 | 0:49:40 | |
It's a weird old thinking, but I knew Gary loved them, he loved Gary, | 0:49:40 | 0:49:46 | |
I knew he was doing Metal live and I thought, "Oh, my God, | 0:49:46 | 0:49:49 | |
"that would make him feel great | 0:49:49 | 0:49:52 | |
"if that happened, if maybe he sang." | 0:49:52 | 0:49:57 | |
Trent wrote back and said, "Yeah, I really would love that." | 0:49:59 | 0:50:02 | |
And I went and told Gary that and that made him feel really good, | 0:50:02 | 0:50:06 | |
and he went on that trip and that gave him loads of confidence | 0:50:06 | 0:50:10 | |
and he came back from the trip, the Nine Inch Nails trip, | 0:50:10 | 0:50:13 | |
and he'd been asked to do the last shows with them, and his confidence | 0:50:13 | 0:50:16 | |
was there and I thought, | 0:50:16 | 0:50:18 | |
"Oh, yes, that's going to be enough to go back in the studio." | 0:50:18 | 0:50:21 | |
And then...you know, | 0:50:21 | 0:50:24 | |
he had a big fallout with his mum and dad, | 0:50:24 | 0:50:27 | |
which hit him really, really hard. So... | 0:50:27 | 0:50:30 | |
It went high, high, high, straight down again and then - wallop. | 0:50:30 | 0:50:34 | |
It was horrendous. Panic attacks and went on the antidepressants. | 0:50:34 | 0:50:39 | |
And I was depressed at the same time | 0:50:39 | 0:50:41 | |
so it was really fucking awful. | 0:50:41 | 0:50:45 | |
My mum was pretty much out of it, it became me and my dad. | 0:50:48 | 0:50:52 | |
And we were just at each other... | 0:50:52 | 0:50:55 | |
really badly. Really badly. | 0:50:55 | 0:50:58 | |
Um... | 0:50:58 | 0:51:00 | |
And it seemed to escalate into all kinds of other things, | 0:51:00 | 0:51:02 | |
into our history and... | 0:51:02 | 0:51:05 | |
Couldn't believe... | 0:51:08 | 0:51:11 | |
how quickly we went from being this loving... | 0:51:11 | 0:51:14 | |
..thing, family, into just...shit. | 0:51:18 | 0:51:23 | |
Utter shit. | 0:51:25 | 0:51:27 | |
If we hadn't fallen out, then I would never have left. | 0:51:43 | 0:51:48 | |
Too big a tie. | 0:51:48 | 0:51:49 | |
Yeah, but we did. | 0:51:54 | 0:51:56 | |
And with that tie cut... | 0:51:56 | 0:51:58 | |
Yeah, why not? | 0:52:07 | 0:52:08 | |
-Is that broken, Dad? -Yeah, it's broken. | 0:52:33 | 0:52:36 | |
Don't know what I'm doing. | 0:52:39 | 0:52:41 | |
I don't even know if I'm supposed to take this bit on the end off. | 0:52:41 | 0:52:43 | |
-What you doing? -I'm building a small nuclear device. | 0:52:43 | 0:52:46 | |
When have you been handy? | 0:52:46 | 0:52:48 | |
SHE CHUCKLES | 0:52:48 | 0:52:50 | |
-Unbelievable! -When did you learn how to do that? | 0:52:50 | 0:52:53 | |
Have you got an A To Z on how to put me down? | 0:52:53 | 0:52:56 | |
Are you soldering? | 0:52:56 | 0:52:59 | |
To be so close to the finishing post and for it to be sounding so good, | 0:52:59 | 0:53:01 | |
and we're both really happy with it as well. | 0:53:01 | 0:53:04 | |
Me and Gary haven't fallen yet, which is a miracle in itself, | 0:53:04 | 0:53:07 | |
considering the dramas with the hard drive. | 0:53:07 | 0:53:09 | |
I can't see, that's the trouble. | 0:53:09 | 0:53:11 | |
-Even with my glasses on, I can't see. -Do you want me to do it? -Yeah! | 0:53:11 | 0:53:14 | |
-Can you do it? -Yeah, I used to solder at BT. -No way! Go on, then. | 0:53:14 | 0:53:18 | |
It's the fate of the whole album in Gemma's hands right now. | 0:53:20 | 0:53:23 | |
What is this? Oh, don't give me any responsibility. | 0:53:23 | 0:53:26 | |
What is this I'm doing? | 0:53:26 | 0:53:27 | |
-This is all the actual sounds we're going to be recording. -No, it's not. | 0:53:27 | 0:53:30 | |
It is. That's what it is. | 0:53:30 | 0:53:32 | |
-You're joking. Please, tell me you're joking. -No. | 0:53:32 | 0:53:35 | |
-I don't think... -Wait till it cools down. | 0:53:36 | 0:53:40 | |
Actually cools down. Put it in the fridge. | 0:53:41 | 0:53:43 | |
No, no, don't glue the points, glue the main...main area. | 0:53:45 | 0:53:49 | |
# Every time I scream | 0:53:49 | 0:53:53 | |
# For someone to blame | 0:53:53 | 0:53:55 | |
# A shadow falls on me | 0:53:56 | 0:53:59 | |
# Whispers my name Whispers my name | 0:53:59 | 0:54:04 | |
# When will it end? | 0:54:04 | 0:54:08 | |
# When will it end? # | 0:54:11 | 0:54:15 | |
Fixed. | 0:54:15 | 0:54:16 | |
-You what? -I fixed it. BT quality control. I fixed it. | 0:54:16 | 0:54:23 | |
Fixed the plug-in. | 0:54:23 | 0:54:24 | |
Left to my own devices, with my own eyes, I fixed it. | 0:54:24 | 0:54:28 | |
80 gig of the 85 gig you brought over is backups that you're never | 0:54:28 | 0:54:32 | |
-going to listen to again. -Bollocks. I use them all the time. | 0:54:32 | 0:54:35 | |
# Every time I breathe | 0:54:35 | 0:54:39 | |
# Locked in this room | 0:54:39 | 0:54:42 | |
# A shadow falls on me... # | 0:54:42 | 0:54:47 | |
You happy with all the first section or anything you want to change? | 0:54:47 | 0:54:51 | |
No, no... | 0:54:51 | 0:54:53 | |
# Lay by your side | 0:54:53 | 0:54:55 | |
# A shadow falls on me. # | 0:54:55 | 0:54:58 | |
Cover that end section. | 0:54:58 | 0:55:00 | |
MUSIC RESUMES | 0:55:01 | 0:55:02 | |
I don't have an easy time. | 0:55:06 | 0:55:08 | |
At the beginning of this album it was pretty fraught at times. | 0:55:08 | 0:55:12 | |
Some of it I really loved and some of it I really didn't, and so | 0:55:12 | 0:55:15 | |
it took us a while to understand exactly what I was looking for. | 0:55:15 | 0:55:18 | |
I envy people that have that supreme confidence about what they're | 0:55:18 | 0:55:21 | |
doing and they just assume that everything they do is brilliant | 0:55:21 | 0:55:24 | |
because they did it. I've never had that. | 0:55:24 | 0:55:27 | |
I'm not trying to sort of tap into whatever that...you know, | 0:55:27 | 0:55:31 | |
magic moment was... | 0:55:31 | 0:55:34 | |
Well, I don't want to do songs that sound like Cars again, | 0:55:34 | 0:55:38 | |
I don't want to do any of that. | 0:55:38 | 0:55:39 | |
I sit in there listening to sounds and then get really excited | 0:55:39 | 0:55:43 | |
about something that I've not heard before, | 0:55:43 | 0:55:45 | |
y'know, just, "Listen to that, that's great." | 0:55:45 | 0:55:47 | |
That's where the excitement is. That's what you got into it for. | 0:55:47 | 0:55:50 | |
You got into music because you were... | 0:55:50 | 0:55:54 | |
You wanted to do something... | 0:55:54 | 0:55:56 | |
You wanted to make music that you hadn't heard before. | 0:55:56 | 0:55:59 | |
You wanted to find ways of doing it that you hadn't come across before. | 0:55:59 | 0:56:03 | |
And, you know, that's kind of the excitement of it, really. | 0:56:03 | 0:56:07 | |
And... | 0:56:07 | 0:56:09 | |
You want to be proud of it, | 0:56:09 | 0:56:10 | |
you want to be proud of what you're doing and you want to be... | 0:56:10 | 0:56:13 | |
You don't want to make an album that sounds like the one before | 0:56:13 | 0:56:16 | |
and the one before that. You don't want to do that. | 0:56:16 | 0:56:19 | |
# This isn't easy | 0:56:19 | 0:56:21 | |
# But it's what I believe ECHO: What I... What I... | 0:56:21 | 0:56:25 | |
# Something is broken and twisted and pushes away | 0:56:25 | 0:56:29 | |
ECHO: # Away...away... | 0:56:29 | 0:56:31 | |
# I'd like to mend every hurt, it can never be | 0:56:31 | 0:56:37 | |
# Be there to catch every fall, it can never be | 0:56:41 | 0:56:45 | |
# Be there to love everything you will ever be | 0:56:49 | 0:56:54 | |
# Sleep now, I wish you sweet dreams I will never see... # | 0:56:58 | 0:57:04 | |
Depression came just after I turned 50. | 0:57:13 | 0:57:16 | |
And I thought I handled it really well, doesn't make any difference, | 0:57:18 | 0:57:22 | |
I'm just the same person now as I was before. | 0:57:22 | 0:57:25 | |
And then it wasn't the same at all. | 0:57:25 | 0:57:28 | |
I didn't know how to deal with it. | 0:57:28 | 0:57:31 | |
I didn't even know what was wrong about it. | 0:57:31 | 0:57:33 | |
I started having anxiety attacks to do with dying. | 0:57:39 | 0:57:42 | |
I would see an old person in the street and I would think about, | 0:57:42 | 0:57:47 | |
"How can you be, say, 70 or 71, whatever it is, | 0:57:47 | 0:57:51 | |
"knowing that you've only got a few years left at best, | 0:57:51 | 0:57:54 | |
"how do you cope with that?" | 0:57:54 | 0:57:57 | |
Started to get really paranoid about getting illnesses and... | 0:57:57 | 0:58:01 | |
Pathetic, really. Really ashamed of myself. | 0:58:01 | 0:58:04 | |
He'd known for ages that he could be depressed and up and down and | 0:58:04 | 0:58:07 | |
up and down, but this panic attack thing was new and I just held him, | 0:58:07 | 0:58:12 | |
made him feel... | 0:58:12 | 0:58:14 | |
You feel helpless, really, | 0:58:14 | 0:58:16 | |
but I held him and talked to him about the tablets I'd been on, | 0:58:16 | 0:58:19 | |
cos there's such a stigma about going on antidepressants. | 0:58:19 | 0:58:23 | |
I didn't want to go on them, cos I just didn't, | 0:58:23 | 0:58:26 | |
"I didn't want to go on them, people get addicted," | 0:58:26 | 0:58:29 | |
you know, there's such a stigma about going on them and also | 0:58:29 | 0:58:32 | |
about men being able to talk about...having problems. | 0:58:32 | 0:58:37 | |
I would lay in bed and I would think about my children. | 0:58:37 | 0:58:40 | |
And I would think, | 0:58:40 | 0:58:42 | |
"When I die, they're still going to be quite young. | 0:58:42 | 0:58:45 | |
"I'm not going to see 'em." | 0:58:45 | 0:58:46 | |
And I started to cry and get really upset about it and then it | 0:58:48 | 0:58:50 | |
was like dominos - one thought happened, the next thought | 0:58:50 | 0:58:54 | |
would come along, you couldn't stop it, like du-du-du-du-du, | 0:58:54 | 0:58:57 | |
and away you go and within minutes of that thought I'm absolutely | 0:58:57 | 0:59:02 | |
in pieces all over the floor. | 0:59:02 | 0:59:05 | |
You know, go and find Gemma | 0:59:05 | 0:59:07 | |
and get all hugged up and that and calm down. | 0:59:07 | 0:59:10 | |
Realised that's not right. | 0:59:10 | 0:59:12 | |
So that started to happen all the time, so I went to the doctor | 0:59:12 | 0:59:17 | |
and said, "Bit embarrassed about this but this is what's going on." | 0:59:17 | 0:59:21 | |
They said, "Look, any kind of anxiety attack is because | 0:59:21 | 0:59:24 | |
"there's an underlying depression." So they put me on antidepressants. | 0:59:24 | 0:59:27 | |
They don't make you feel happy | 0:59:29 | 0:59:31 | |
but they make you able to cope, | 0:59:31 | 0:59:33 | |
so I was now able to look at an old person and not start crying | 0:59:33 | 0:59:36 | |
and making a fool of myself. | 0:59:36 | 0:59:39 | |
The way it worked with me is they just stop you giving a fuck... | 0:59:40 | 0:59:44 | |
..about anything. | 0:59:46 | 0:59:48 | |
Didn't give a fuck. Didn't give a fuck. | 0:59:48 | 0:59:50 | |
And it was then that they... | 0:59:50 | 0:59:53 | |
did their intervention thing on me and took me out | 0:59:53 | 0:59:55 | |
and they're giving it loads about... | 0:59:55 | 1:00:00 | |
you know, the way you are, | 1:00:00 | 1:00:01 | |
"You need to focus on your music and do this," and I'm in La La Land. | 1:00:01 | 1:00:06 | |
They said, "What you thinking about?" | 1:00:06 | 1:00:09 | |
I said, "I'm thinking about kittens. | 1:00:09 | 1:00:11 | |
"I was just thinking about getting a kitten." | 1:00:11 | 1:00:15 | |
I'm kind of going, "Yeah, | 1:00:15 | 1:00:16 | |
"that's all well and good but you've got to write a bloody fucking song." | 1:00:16 | 1:00:21 | |
I knew if those things weren't happening there's no life for us, | 1:00:21 | 1:00:27 | |
there's no house, there's no...anything. | 1:00:27 | 1:00:32 | |
They said, "You gotta come off 'em. | 1:00:32 | 1:00:34 | |
"Your career is falling apart around you, you haven't written a new song | 1:00:34 | 1:00:39 | |
"in three years and all you're thinking about is kittens | 1:00:39 | 1:00:42 | |
"when we're having this conversation." | 1:00:42 | 1:00:44 | |
Don't care. | 1:00:44 | 1:00:45 | |
# Here in my car I feel safest of all | 1:00:51 | 1:00:54 | |
# I can lock all my doors It's the only way to live | 1:00:54 | 1:00:58 | |
# In cars... # | 1:00:58 | 1:01:00 | |
It was heavy. End of 2009, all of '10 and a bit of '11 was shit. | 1:01:05 | 1:01:11 | |
Heavy, heavy shit. | 1:01:11 | 1:01:13 | |
Depressions crossed over. | 1:01:13 | 1:01:15 | |
And we weren't really seeing who we were any more. | 1:01:15 | 1:01:20 | |
We can't fix anything cos the kids are there. | 1:01:20 | 1:01:23 | |
If you're fighting, they hear it. | 1:01:23 | 1:01:25 | |
If you go and try and sort it out, they'll interrupt. | 1:01:25 | 1:01:29 | |
It felt like stupid things we were fighting over. | 1:01:29 | 1:01:32 | |
I didn't want it any more. | 1:01:32 | 1:01:34 | |
I wanted him and I wanted him back but it wasn't that one. | 1:01:34 | 1:01:38 | |
I didn't want Gary Gump, | 1:01:38 | 1:01:40 | |
I didn't want that one, I wanted... | 1:01:40 | 1:01:42 | |
Gary Webb back and it was... he was gone. | 1:01:42 | 1:01:46 | |
MUSIC BLARES | 1:01:46 | 1:01:48 | |
I made it by just doing what I loved, | 1:01:54 | 1:01:56 | |
something that was very... unlikely to be successful. | 1:01:56 | 1:02:00 | |
And yet it did it. | 1:02:00 | 1:02:02 | |
But, you know, | 1:02:02 | 1:02:03 | |
I started to write songs cos I thought they might get on the radio. | 1:02:03 | 1:02:07 | |
"I'll write a ballad cos ballads are doing quite well at the minute." | 1:02:07 | 1:02:11 | |
Trying to write songs to achieve something. | 1:02:11 | 1:02:15 | |
That's what killed me before. | 1:02:15 | 1:02:18 | |
I had huge debts. Couldn't get a record deal. | 1:02:23 | 1:02:26 | |
Pretty much thought it was over. The career was all but dead and buried, | 1:02:26 | 1:02:29 | |
so there was no obvious way out of it. | 1:02:29 | 1:02:31 | |
And this is where Gemma was important cos she encouraged me | 1:02:31 | 1:02:34 | |
to just go back and do it for a hobby again, | 1:02:34 | 1:02:36 | |
sing everything rather than getting backing vocalists in, | 1:02:36 | 1:02:38 | |
play everything yourself. | 1:02:38 | 1:02:40 | |
Found that I really loved it again and I started to write much heavier | 1:02:40 | 1:02:44 | |
than it had ever been, write from the heart again. | 1:02:44 | 1:02:47 | |
And ever since I've jealously guarded this attitude that I had | 1:02:47 | 1:02:50 | |
when I started and I'll never let it go again. | 1:02:50 | 1:02:54 | |
What do you think the fans are going to think of Splinter? | 1:03:02 | 1:03:05 | |
I don't know, to be honest. Difficult to say. | 1:03:05 | 1:03:08 | |
I've got my own self-doubt issues at the minute. Thank you. | 1:03:08 | 1:03:11 | |
Don't go on about that again. | 1:03:11 | 1:03:13 | |
I'm not going on about it, I'm just saying. | 1:03:13 | 1:03:15 | |
I think it's completely normal. | 1:03:17 | 1:03:19 | |
You know, you've been working on something for a long time, | 1:03:19 | 1:03:22 | |
and you're just about... | 1:03:22 | 1:03:24 | |
Like, tomorrow when we master it, that's it, | 1:03:24 | 1:03:27 | |
there is no more chances to fix anything or change anything. | 1:03:27 | 1:03:31 | |
And this one, because it's been such a long time between this | 1:03:31 | 1:03:34 | |
and the last one, I think it's all the worse cos there's just that... | 1:03:34 | 1:03:38 | |
You feel that sense of expectation about it that if you spent | 1:03:38 | 1:03:41 | |
seven years doing something, it needs to be really, really good. | 1:03:41 | 1:03:46 | |
There's a lot of very anxious fans out there, I think... | 1:03:46 | 1:03:50 | |
can't wait to hear it. | 1:03:50 | 1:03:52 | |
No pressure, then. | 1:03:53 | 1:03:55 | |
There you go. Now I feel terrible again. | 1:03:55 | 1:03:58 | |
# And all that I was | 1:04:01 | 1:04:03 | |
# And all that I wanted | 1:04:05 | 1:04:10 | |
# And all that I couldn't be | 1:04:10 | 1:04:13 | |
# Has gone and turns to stone | 1:04:13 | 1:04:17 | |
# And I am not here | 1:04:19 | 1:04:22 | |
# And I am not real | 1:04:24 | 1:04:27 | |
# But I am still calling out your name to guide you home | 1:04:29 | 1:04:36 | |
# You are | 1:04:40 | 1:04:41 | |
# Still breathing | 1:04:43 | 1:04:46 | |
# So | 1:04:46 | 1:04:49 | |
# You are | 1:04:49 | 1:04:51 | |
# Where I can never be... # | 1:04:53 | 1:04:59 | |
It'll sink in a bit more a bit later, I think. | 1:05:01 | 1:05:04 | |
That's him excited. | 1:05:04 | 1:05:07 | |
No, I... The thing is, I'm now worrying about what comes next. | 1:05:07 | 1:05:12 | |
That's that bit done and then we gotta get the artwork sorted out. | 1:05:12 | 1:05:16 | |
And then they start reviewing it. | 1:05:16 | 1:05:19 | |
Yeah. | 1:05:19 | 1:05:20 | |
And they'll try to make you feel like an utter... | 1:05:20 | 1:05:25 | |
prat. | 1:05:25 | 1:05:26 | |
I don't know how or why but it just seemed to...thaw, somehow. | 1:05:33 | 1:05:38 | |
Gemma made this lovely gesture and... | 1:05:41 | 1:05:43 | |
..offered to make up. | 1:05:45 | 1:05:47 | |
Which I didn't expect at all, I didn't see that coming. | 1:05:48 | 1:05:51 | |
Didn't tell me she was going to do it. | 1:05:51 | 1:05:54 | |
And my mum and dad seemed to welcome it in a way that... | 1:05:54 | 1:05:58 | |
made me realise they see what I see. | 1:05:58 | 1:06:01 | |
She's a really kind, lovely person, you know, most brilliant... | 1:06:01 | 1:06:05 | |
And mum. | 1:06:09 | 1:06:10 | |
Gemma fixed so many things. | 1:06:12 | 1:06:15 | |
# You don't see me | 1:06:15 | 1:06:17 | |
# You don't even know I'm alive | 1:06:21 | 1:06:26 | |
# So why do you call me? | 1:06:26 | 1:06:30 | |
# We were dust | 1:06:45 | 1:06:47 | |
# In a world of grim obsession | 1:06:47 | 1:06:51 | |
# We wouldn't taunt from mouth | 1:06:55 | 1:06:59 | |
# Like an isolation... # | 1:06:59 | 1:07:01 | |
Stupid time to have a holiday, actually. | 1:07:03 | 1:07:05 | |
I just thought in-between finishing the album and all the main work | 1:07:05 | 1:07:09 | |
for it, I thought this would be a really good time just to have | 1:07:09 | 1:07:13 | |
a little getaway from it all with the kiddies, | 1:07:13 | 1:07:15 | |
but there's been so much going on to do with it, which is a shame. | 1:07:15 | 1:07:19 | |
The main thing has been the photographs, the albums. | 1:07:19 | 1:07:22 | |
We've got a bit of a deadline issue, need to get these things done. | 1:07:22 | 1:07:27 | |
I've had issues in the past but... | 1:07:27 | 1:07:31 | |
you know, nothing like this, | 1:07:31 | 1:07:34 | |
when I've been on the end of a really shit internet connection | 1:07:34 | 1:07:38 | |
getting more and more grumpy... | 1:07:38 | 1:07:40 | |
Girls are running around, Wilbur's dribbling... | 1:07:40 | 1:07:44 | |
Yeah. | 1:07:44 | 1:07:45 | |
But, you know, the other issue is Gemma organises | 1:07:45 | 1:07:48 | |
a fairly relentless schedule for your relaxing holiday. | 1:07:48 | 1:07:53 | |
With military precision! | 1:07:53 | 1:07:55 | |
# We all pray | 1:07:55 | 1:07:57 | |
# For the end | 1:07:57 | 1:07:59 | |
# For the god to take us... # | 1:07:59 | 1:08:02 | |
Echo? | 1:08:05 | 1:08:06 | |
Echo! | 1:08:06 | 1:08:08 | |
Get your arm in! | 1:08:08 | 1:08:09 | |
# One by one... # | 1:08:09 | 1:08:11 | |
Look at his flip-flops. | 1:08:14 | 1:08:17 | |
# And the fear | 1:08:17 | 1:08:19 | |
# Was all around us | 1:08:19 | 1:08:22 | |
# The machines screamed from | 1:08:24 | 1:08:28 | |
# Moon to sun... # | 1:08:28 | 1:08:30 | |
I said, "Look, we have to leave by four, | 1:08:30 | 1:08:32 | |
"or else we're going to be getting to the next place in the dark." | 1:08:32 | 1:08:35 | |
I think we left Solvang about six, you know. | 1:08:35 | 1:08:38 | |
-Doesn't care. -It's a road trip of fun. | 1:08:41 | 1:08:43 | |
It hasn't been, but it's supposed to be fun. | 1:08:43 | 1:08:46 | |
-Yeah, all of us! -But you've even moaned about the driving. | 1:08:46 | 1:08:50 | |
-You knew it was a driving holiday. -These detours you've added to it. | 1:08:50 | 1:08:54 | |
The one to San Francisco was 251 miles, it ended up being 410. | 1:08:54 | 1:08:59 | |
That was a bit out of the way, that one. | 1:08:59 | 1:09:01 | |
Was a bit out of the way, wunnit(?) | 1:09:01 | 1:09:02 | |
-That one was, yeah. -Not quite what I'd imagined, that. | 1:09:02 | 1:09:06 | |
-So moany. -And we still did two hours in the dark. -It's a road trip. | 1:09:06 | 1:09:10 | |
Never normally look forward to going home after a holiday. | 1:09:11 | 1:09:14 | |
Do you? Oh, yeah, you do, don't you? | 1:09:16 | 1:09:19 | |
# Wipe away all of your tears, it can never be | 1:09:30 | 1:09:35 | |
# Wake you to see a sunrise I will never see... # | 1:09:39 | 1:09:44 | |
Oh, oh, oh, oh... | 1:09:46 | 1:09:48 | |
# Ohh-ohh, it comes | 1:09:48 | 1:09:53 | |
# Ohh-ohh, it comes | 1:09:57 | 1:10:02 | |
# Ohh, my last day. # | 1:10:06 | 1:10:11 | |
CHILDREN CHATTER | 1:10:12 | 1:10:15 | |
We both see sides of each other that we never saw before children, | 1:10:16 | 1:10:20 | |
and so we're trying to deal with your own issues with it, | 1:10:20 | 1:10:24 | |
your own stresses and strains and worries, and you're trying to | 1:10:24 | 1:10:27 | |
allow the way you are now different with each other because of that, | 1:10:27 | 1:10:32 | |
because you're both going through it and dealing with it | 1:10:32 | 1:10:34 | |
in your own ways, and you both have good days and bad days. | 1:10:34 | 1:10:37 | |
And you're at each other, and often you're out of sync. | 1:10:37 | 1:10:40 | |
You have a little think - "Yeah, I'm getting out of this." | 1:10:40 | 1:10:42 | |
I was going to run away from it. | 1:10:42 | 1:10:45 | |
But I wrote it all down. What would it mean if she wasn't there? | 1:10:45 | 1:10:50 | |
And that was brilliant. Just brings you right back, right back. | 1:10:52 | 1:10:57 | |
There's no way in the world that's going to happen. | 1:10:57 | 1:10:59 | |
-What you'd do without me? -Yeah. -Is that your favourite song, Gemma? | 1:10:59 | 1:11:03 | |
Actually, without it being about that, yeah, it is. | 1:11:03 | 1:11:07 | |
But that, Splinter, Lost. | 1:11:07 | 1:11:10 | |
But writing that, | 1:11:10 | 1:11:12 | |
writing that stopped me from doing something really stupid. | 1:11:12 | 1:11:16 | |
Overwhelmed by it all, don't know what to do. Don't know what to do. | 1:11:16 | 1:11:20 | |
Can't stand it. | 1:11:20 | 1:11:22 | |
Not getting on, everything's a pressure, | 1:11:22 | 1:11:25 | |
worrying about money as always. | 1:11:25 | 1:11:27 | |
Just horrible. Horrible. | 1:11:29 | 1:11:31 | |
The song Lost, one of the few songs I think I've ever written where | 1:11:31 | 1:11:35 | |
it genuinely made a difference to what I was going to do with my life. | 1:11:35 | 1:11:39 | |
And when I heard it, heard the lyrics, I knew it was about us. | 1:11:39 | 1:11:43 | |
Or... Well, actually me, that one. | 1:11:43 | 1:11:47 | |
But I didn't know he'd gone and done it as therapy. | 1:11:47 | 1:11:50 | |
I... No, I didn't, he doesn't tell me anything like that. | 1:11:51 | 1:11:55 | |
I guess and I know, cos I say, | 1:11:55 | 1:11:57 | |
"What's that song about?", and he briefly tells me. | 1:11:57 | 1:12:01 | |
And it's enough. I go, "OK." | 1:12:01 | 1:12:03 | |
And I hear it and think, "OK, now I know." | 1:12:03 | 1:12:05 | |
# Are we so broken | 1:12:05 | 1:12:08 | |
# That you can walk away? | 1:12:10 | 1:12:15 | |
# When you think back to when we first met, are you sad? | 1:12:18 | 1:12:24 | |
# And when you think back to all we've been through | 1:12:29 | 1:12:34 | |
# Does it make you cry? | 1:12:34 | 1:12:36 | |
# And when you think back to all the love shared, do you feel anything? | 1:12:40 | 1:12:47 | |
# And when you think back, well | 1:12:50 | 1:12:53 | |
# Did you ever think we'd come...to...this? | 1:12:53 | 1:12:59 | |
# And yet here we are | 1:13:01 | 1:13:05 | |
# And I'm lost | 1:13:06 | 1:13:09 | |
# If we're over | 1:13:11 | 1:13:16 | |
# Then you're far away | 1:13:16 | 1:13:19 | |
# If we're over | 1:13:23 | 1:13:26 | |
# Then I'm lost. # | 1:13:26 | 1:13:29 | |
He gets frightened. He's really worried about tonight. | 1:13:45 | 1:13:48 | |
I think he just gets really nervous. | 1:13:48 | 1:13:51 | |
Also, he's 55, and this has taken so long to get to where it is | 1:13:51 | 1:13:57 | |
and everything, | 1:13:57 | 1:13:59 | |
the things he's been writing about and all the stuff | 1:13:59 | 1:14:03 | |
we've been through, and he's been through, | 1:14:03 | 1:14:05 | |
in the last seven years are all there in it. | 1:14:05 | 1:14:07 | |
So, no, it's not any old album. | 1:14:07 | 1:14:10 | |
This is an important thing to be doing. | 1:14:21 | 1:14:23 | |
We've done it before once, where we went into their studio. | 1:14:23 | 1:14:26 | |
This is a much bigger thing, it's being filmed, | 1:14:26 | 1:14:28 | |
there's a small audience, music supervisors, people to do | 1:14:28 | 1:14:31 | |
with films, people that are critical, | 1:14:31 | 1:14:34 | |
in a way, to my future in general. | 1:14:34 | 1:14:36 | |
After Are "Friends" Electric? went to number one and Replicas | 1:14:36 | 1:14:38 | |
came out, and then Pleasure Principle and Telekon, | 1:14:38 | 1:14:41 | |
these were big, planned albums. This feels similar to that. | 1:14:41 | 1:14:45 | |
This is how it should be done, | 1:14:47 | 1:14:48 | |
and it hasn't been done like that for 25 years. | 1:14:48 | 1:14:51 | |
It feels very exciting, but there's another part of me that thinks, | 1:14:53 | 1:14:57 | |
"If it doesn't work now, with all of these things in place, | 1:14:57 | 1:15:02 | |
"I'm done for." | 1:15:02 | 1:15:04 | |
# Is that why you've called me? # | 1:15:04 | 1:15:06 | |
There are so many good things happening. | 1:15:10 | 1:15:12 | |
The album's really good, | 1:15:12 | 1:15:14 | |
we seem to have really come up with something quite special, | 1:15:14 | 1:15:16 | |
we've got really good distribution in place all around the world... | 1:15:16 | 1:15:21 | |
It really does feel as if all the pieces that CAN be in place ARE, | 1:15:21 | 1:15:25 | |
but now we just need to see how that relates to the public. | 1:15:25 | 1:15:28 | |
CHEERING | 1:15:31 | 1:15:33 | |
And this is where we're at with it, it's all just about to happen, | 1:15:33 | 1:15:37 | |
and that's really frightening. Really frightening. | 1:15:37 | 1:15:40 | |
For every kind of moment of excitement, you've got | 1:15:40 | 1:15:45 | |
a bigger moment of terror in case | 1:15:45 | 1:15:47 | |
it all goes horribly wrong or if it doesn't work. | 1:15:47 | 1:15:50 | |
It's such a big thing and it's so important. | 1:15:50 | 1:15:53 | |
So important for my career, my life, my family, for everything. | 1:15:53 | 1:15:58 | |
You can't help but be frightened it's not going to work out, | 1:15:58 | 1:16:02 | |
because so much of it is perfectly in place. | 1:16:02 | 1:16:06 | |
APPLAUSE | 1:16:36 | 1:16:38 | |
Have you been keeping track on the chart position of your new album? | 1:16:44 | 1:16:48 | |
-I don't get sucked into that. -No? All right. | 1:16:48 | 1:16:50 | |
In the past, there's been midweek positions | 1:16:50 | 1:16:52 | |
that have been really exciting and really optimistic, | 1:16:52 | 1:16:54 | |
and then it just slowly falls out. | 1:16:54 | 1:16:56 | |
OK, interesting. Well, fingers crossed, eh? | 1:16:56 | 1:16:59 | |
Well worth the wait. | 1:16:59 | 1:17:00 | |
-Oakland on the 3rd. -Santa Ana. -Santa Ana on the 4th. | 1:17:06 | 1:17:11 | |
The reviews of the album have been great, consistently brilliant. | 1:17:11 | 1:17:15 | |
Even caught him reading them last night! | 1:17:15 | 1:17:18 | |
It's been so long, such a long, long career, so up and down. | 1:17:23 | 1:17:26 | |
SO up and down. | 1:17:26 | 1:17:28 | |
And it's been so near finished so many times, to have an album now... | 1:17:29 | 1:17:35 | |
To have an album now that might actually get into the charts | 1:17:35 | 1:17:38 | |
is just fantastic. | 1:17:38 | 1:17:41 | |
Fantastic. | 1:17:41 | 1:17:43 | |
"This could be your lucky day." | 1:17:45 | 1:17:46 | |
-ON RADIO: -'..deli meats and cheeses in select supermarkets, | 1:18:02 | 1:18:05 | |
'gourmet stores and fine eateries. | 1:18:05 | 1:18:07 | |
'My family is always on the go.' | 1:18:07 | 1:18:09 | |
Grandad? It's Echo. It's Echo. | 1:18:09 | 1:18:14 | |
The album went in at number 20 in the charts today. | 1:18:27 | 1:18:30 | |
I don't know, when was the last time that happened, Gary? | 1:18:30 | 1:18:34 | |
-1983. -That's the first time since 1983. | 1:18:34 | 1:18:37 | |
# Once there was life and we were strong, full of pride... # | 1:18:39 | 1:18:45 | |
No, he's taken away all that. | 1:18:48 | 1:18:51 | |
I'll expect the next album to be replete | 1:18:53 | 1:18:55 | |
with Beach Boys harmonies and that sort of thing! | 1:18:55 | 1:18:58 | |
# The flesh denied... # | 1:18:58 | 1:19:00 | |
-Very sexy man. -He's getting on a bit, right? | 1:19:02 | 1:19:04 | |
That does not matter. | 1:19:04 | 1:19:05 | |
I kind of planned my vacation around these shows. Yeah. | 1:19:05 | 1:19:09 | |
# And all things knelt before our word or died | 1:19:10 | 1:19:15 | |
# Now we're just a ruin... # | 1:19:16 | 1:19:19 | |
I grew up listening to Gary Numan since I was a teenager, | 1:19:19 | 1:19:24 | |
and for me, Gary's music really defined what it meant to be | 1:19:24 | 1:19:27 | |
an outsider in my own adolescent culture. | 1:19:27 | 1:19:30 | |
He made it OK to be that alien, to express myself in ways | 1:19:30 | 1:19:36 | |
that the rest of my culture couldn't understand. | 1:19:36 | 1:19:39 | |
# We're the unforgiven. # | 1:19:41 | 1:19:49 | |
Tonight was brilliant. | 1:19:58 | 1:20:00 | |
The reaction has been fantastic. Cos I love it, | 1:20:00 | 1:20:03 | |
I think the new stuff sounds fucking brilliant. | 1:20:03 | 1:20:07 | |
The thing that I've learnt over the last 30 years | 1:20:07 | 1:20:11 | |
or so is that you need to love what you're doing. | 1:20:11 | 1:20:15 | |
You mustn't do it to get in the chart, | 1:20:15 | 1:20:18 | |
you mustn't do it to keep an A&R man happy. | 1:20:18 | 1:20:21 | |
All of that is relevant, and politics, I suppose, | 1:20:21 | 1:20:24 | |
but when I tried all that, | 1:20:24 | 1:20:26 | |
it was fucking soul-destroying and I didn't enjoy it. | 1:20:26 | 1:20:29 | |
And now, I'm only writing stuff that I really love | 1:20:29 | 1:20:32 | |
and really enjoy playing live, and then you just... | 1:20:32 | 1:20:37 | |
You hope for the best, really. | 1:20:37 | 1:20:39 | |
"This year, when the day arrived, poor Gerald felt so sad | 1:20:42 | 1:20:46 | |
"Because when it came to dancing, he was really very bad." | 1:20:46 | 1:20:50 | |
Which one would you be - this one, this one or this one? | 1:20:50 | 1:20:53 | |
I'd probably be that small one sitting out there, not doing it. | 1:20:53 | 1:20:56 | |
-Why? -Cos I can't dance. -Yes, you can. -I can't. | 1:20:56 | 1:20:59 | |
-You can. -I can't, I can just move in strange little jerks. | 1:20:59 | 1:21:03 | |
-Be that, then. -That's a warthog, I don't want to be a warthog. | 1:21:03 | 1:21:08 | |
"Gerald swallowed bravely as he walked towards the floor | 1:21:08 | 1:21:12 | |
"But the lion saw him coming and they soon began to roar | 1:21:12 | 1:21:16 | |
" 'Hey, look at clumsy Gerald,' the animals all laughed | 1:21:16 | 1:21:19 | |
" 'Giraffes can't dance, you silly fool | 1:21:19 | 1:21:21 | |
" 'Oh, Gerald, don't be daft' | 1:21:21 | 1:21:24 | |
"Gerald simply froze up, he was rooted to the spot | 1:21:24 | 1:21:28 | |
" 'They're right,' he thought, 'I'm useless | 1:21:28 | 1:21:31 | |
" 'Oh, I feel like such a clot.' " | 1:21:31 | 1:21:33 | |
-That's me all the time. -No, it's not. How is that you all the time? | 1:21:33 | 1:21:38 | |
You're the one that can do all this stuff. | 1:21:38 | 1:21:42 | |
"So he crept off from the dance floor and he started walking home | 1:21:42 | 1:21:47 | |
"He'd never felt so sad before, so sad and so alone | 1:21:47 | 1:21:51 | |
"Then he found a little clearing and he looked up at the sky | 1:21:51 | 1:21:55 | |
" 'The moon can be so beautiful,' he whispered with a sigh | 1:21:55 | 1:21:58 | |
" 'Excuse me,' coughed the cricket, who'd seen Gerald earlier on | 1:22:00 | 1:22:05 | |
" 'But sometimes when you're different | 1:22:05 | 1:22:07 | |
" 'You just need a different song' | 1:22:07 | 1:22:09 | |
"Then Gerald felt his body do the most amazing thing | 1:22:11 | 1:22:14 | |
"His hooves had started shuffling, making circles on the ground | 1:22:14 | 1:22:18 | |
"His neck was gently swaying and his tail was swishing round." | 1:22:19 | 1:22:24 | |
-Wow. -Wow, eh? | 1:22:24 | 1:22:27 | |
"Gerald felt so wonderful, his mouth was open wide | 1:22:27 | 1:22:30 | |
" 'I'm dancing, yes, I'm dancing. I'm dancing,' Gerald cried." | 1:22:30 | 1:22:35 | |
He's higher than the owl, and everyone sees him now. | 1:22:35 | 1:22:39 | |
Look, down there, all those people that laughed at him. | 1:22:39 | 1:22:42 | |
-Now they see that he's not. -Yeah. | 1:22:42 | 1:22:46 | |
"Then one by one, each animal who'd been there at the dance | 1:22:46 | 1:22:49 | |
"Arrived while Gerald boogied on and watched him, quite entranced | 1:22:49 | 1:22:54 | |
"They shouted, 'It's a miracle, we must be in a dream | 1:22:54 | 1:22:58 | |
" 'Gerald's the best dancer that we've ever, ever seen | 1:22:58 | 1:23:03 | |
" 'How is it you can dance like that? Please, Gerald, tell us how' | 1:23:03 | 1:23:07 | |
"But Gerald simply twizzled round and finished with a bow | 1:23:07 | 1:23:10 | |
"Then he raised his head and looked up at the moon and stars above | 1:23:12 | 1:23:16 | |
" 'We all can dance,' he said, 'when we find music that we love' | 1:23:16 | 1:23:21 | |
"The end." | 1:23:22 | 1:23:24 | |
# You don't hear me | 1:23:24 | 1:23:29 | |
# You don't see me | 1:23:29 | 1:23:34 | |
# You don't even know I'm alive | 1:23:35 | 1:23:39 | |
# So why do you call me? # | 1:23:41 | 1:23:45 |