Whitney: Can I Be Me


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This programme contains very strong language

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SIRENS BLARE

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People say Whitney died from an overdose of drugs.

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Whitney Houston was drugged out.

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I know Whitney Houston actually died from a broken heart.

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She died from a broken heart.

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CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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THEY CHEER

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Oh, it's like that, huh?

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Hallelujah. Thank you.

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I'm tired! Let's do this show.

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Well, sir, I hear the people. CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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-Now, that's the crowd out there.

-That's the crowd.

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I want you to go out there and do what I tell you.

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It's my prerogative.

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# It's my prerogative

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# It's my prerogative. #

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# She can do what she wants to do. #

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-Let's do it!

-Yes!

-Yes!

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CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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# I hope life treats you kind

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# And I hope you have all you dreamed of

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# And I wish you joy and happiness

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# But above all this I wish you love

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# Sweet love

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# Love

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CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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# And I

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# Will always love you

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# I will always love you

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# I will always love you

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# I will always

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# Always love you

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# I will always love you

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# I'll always love

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# You. #

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I'm sitting... I'm playing drums behind her, right?

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And I'm sitting and I'm watching her.

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And I'm watching the muscles in her back

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and everything just expand like that, you know?

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It was like a... She was like a doggone body-builder.

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And that's how she sang every night, every song.

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Whitney's voice, you know, unparalleled.

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I mean, she was ridiculous.

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It also cost her near the end of the tours.

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I mean, you could see the toll it took on her voice

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to have to do those performances night after night.

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She was totally brilliant.

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Totally brilliant but...

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Everything came so naturally to her.

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Whitney was created by God and Whitney's gift came from him.

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So the only one who could mess it up was her.

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There was a timbre, a sound to her voice that was just angelic.

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There were many, many times when Whitney's voice was just gone.

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By the time... You know, we would lower the key

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to songs and then lower it again and then maybe lower it again.

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But even then, you know, when it became time for her

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to hit those notes, she wasn't there because she wasn't

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taking care of herself.

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Whitney's voice broke barriers.

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We did not have Beyonces.

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And any African American female artist

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that can now be at the top of the pop chart,

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that absolutely was not going to happen before Whitney Houston.

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It had not happened before Whitney Houston.

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So she changed history for us

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and she paid a price for it.

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People may not know it but Whitney was from the 'hood.

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They wanted to present her as the princess.

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That's what white America was presented.

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They weren't presented with Newark, New Jersey, Whitney.

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I grew up in Newark, New Jersey, and in East Orange, New Jersey.

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I do know what it is to be black.

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I know what it's like to see my black community and people not being

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given the opportunity as others are given the opportunity.

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GOSPEL MUSIC PLAYS

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Whitney was very in touch with her spiritual...

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You know, with her thoughts about being spiritual

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and knowing where it came from - from my mother.

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You know, from growing up and going to church,

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you know, from reading the Bible, from singing gospel songs,

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from being affiliated with people who were in the church.

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You know, things of that nature.

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# Celebration

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# Jubilation

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# Celebration

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# Jubilation

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# When the Lord comes back

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# We'll be ready when he comes

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# When the Lord comes back

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# We're gonna have a great celebration. #

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The memories of singing in church are ones

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that I cherish the most.

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# If you just

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-# Have a little talk

-A little talk

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# With Jesus... #

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THEY CONTINUE SINGING

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It wasn't worldly, it wasn't...

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It was fresh, it wasn't stale.

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Singing gospel was an energy, a passion.

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THEY CONTINUE SINGING

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I taught Whitney. Nobody else taught her.

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I taught her what she knew.

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She sang from her heart.

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She knew how.

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She learnt how. She learnt to craft well

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and that's very important.

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If you're going to sing, you have to know how to sing

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and most people sing...

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I guess they learn their way, but she learned the right way

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because that's what I taught her.

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She was spoiled. She was the baby.

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She was John's baby.

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Nobody messed with her anyway, nobody did.

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They didn't have the heart to...

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They didn't have the heart to mess with Nippy.

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I think she was closer to her dad than her mother.

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She felt that love more from her dad.

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It could be, you know, she was the only girl...

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Cissy's no joke.

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Cissy is straight, stern.

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She didn't doubt that her mother loved her, but whether she could

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feel it the way she did with, like, her dad, I'm not sure.

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Her mother made her decisions.

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Her mother, I feel, was instrumental in creating the enormous career.

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She guided her, she chose her people that were around her, she...

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She influenced Whitney in her voice and her training, and her choices.

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Cissy was everything.

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We were the first black family up here.

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House has been painted, because it was white.

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No, they put whatsitsname on it.

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The tower, the little panelling, or whatever.

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It's amazing, it's amazing.

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So many memories.

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I used to sneak into the house and climb into the window

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of Whitney's bedroom.

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She opened the window for me.

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"Daddy's going to whoop your ass!"

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My God.

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We were always, like I say, being together most of the time,

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and her following behind me, I taught her to drive, you know.

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We played together, you know, and everything that you do together

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as you're growing up, and then, when you get into drugs,

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you do that together, too.

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You know, like I say, at ten years old, I tried drugs.

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I mean, you know, I was ten years old.

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I mean, I saw people that I looked up to using drugs,

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and I saw them doing their best, being at their best.

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When Whitney and I met, we were in our teens, 18, 19.

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They did drugs! You know, it was the thing you do,

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you go out, you party, you drink, you do a little drugs,

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everybody did it, and her brothers gave it to her.

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It was just something you do to have fun.

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I mean, you know, my mother had a good, pretty good rein on me,

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you know what I'm saying? Erm...

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When you're raised in church, and in the background of

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God-fearing religions, you kind of - and it's instilled in you -

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there is a certain boundary that you don't cross.

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You know what I'm saying? Like, I could have got into

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a lot more trouble than I got into if I hadn't thought about,

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"My mother's going to kill me,"

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or, "My father and my mother are going to be so disappointed,"

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or, you know, "I know God is watching me".

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I've been working with Whitney for 18 years now, and I guess you

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can say that I've known her for 18 years, too.

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I have a friendship - that's our foundation.

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I knew her brothers, went to school with them,

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but never knew they had a sister.

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And she was pretty low-key, smart.

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She knows how to play, she's funny.

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She's funny.

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I didn't know... She was like this, she would come over, and my mom

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was real cool with it, and Whitney would hang out. And she would be

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on the cover of Seventeen, and wouldn't even tell anybody.

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Isn't that funny? My mother would have to go to the grocery store,

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come back, and say, "Robyn, you know so-and-so?"

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I would know that maybe she had a photoshoot some time ago,

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but Whitney wouldn't tell me anything.

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Isn't that strange?

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Young, and you would think she would be like, "Check me out!"

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Mm-mm.

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None of that.

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I wonder if she was scared to, like, see it.

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I've never asked her that.

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But she would do strange things like that, she's...

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I would say that Whitney is sort of strange.

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-So are you going to...?

-Last one.

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-And then...

-You're looking quite spinny today.

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-VOICEOVER:

-When I met them, I think Whitney had just moved into her very

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first apartment, and her and Robyn were sharing an apartment.

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Robyn was older than Whitney, and I think people were picking on Whitney

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at school, and Robyn would, you know, step in to keep people

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from fighting her, and protect her from those people.

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So they, I guess, created a bond then, and then they just kept it.

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And then Robyn became instrumental in helping her make those decisions,

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with her career, and stuff like that.

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I first met Whitney when I started to work at Arista Records.

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She was... She was a sweet kid at the time.

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She was very insecure, she was not that polished.

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I remember at a dinner in Washington DC, she made a joke about the amount

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of silverware, the amount of service placing at dinner,

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and how do you use it? And I remember telling her this trick,

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the way I learned the first time -

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you watch everybody else and just start from the outside.

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She was very naive, she was very insecure.

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She was always very concerned if people were going to like her,

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if people were going to accept her.

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And it's interesting, because it was never really about the talent.

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It was about how she looked, and how she presented herself.

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When Merv returns, Arista Records president Clive Davis

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introduces a great new singing talent.

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This girl is 19 years old, yeah, and rarely do you find...

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There was Lena Horne, there was Dionne Warwick, who is

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-certainly currently...

-She's Dionne Warwick's cousin, isn't she?

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By coincidence, I have never even talked to Dionne about this.

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I mean this sincerely.

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Clive was a master at pop music.

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He had a vision for a pop artist.

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He tried to do it with Dionne and Aretha,

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but they were far too established in their career as to who they were.

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And along comes Whitney, who was so mouldable,

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and she was the perfect vehicle for his foolproof vision.

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-She's got it.

-She got it. Wait till you hear.

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# It's real, it's real to me

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# And I've learned that we must look inside

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# To find

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# Yeah, we gotta find

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# A world full of love

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# Like yours, like

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# Like mine,

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# Like home

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# Home. #

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APPLAUSE

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The company had this image in mind that they were going to create

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a pop icon, an artist that was accepted by the masses,

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translating to white America.

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How did you market Whitney for a white audience?

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Put the past behind them,

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and don't focus on it.

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And that's what we did.

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You know, it sounds trite and small and insignificant, but it's not.

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As you have said, this is a very racial country, and racism,

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especially on the part of a black person that's an artist

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or whatever they may be,

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normally, folks are looking for something in the background.

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The news about Whitney Houston is crackling through the music world,

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and the news is good.

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"She is a talent with tremendous potential" - The New York Times.

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"Whitney has the pedigree and the style to be a major vocalist,

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"there is no doubt about it.

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"Whitney Houston is going to be a star."

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She was who she was. She came from she came from.

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If you're from the 'hood, you're from the 'hood.

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There are certain things you do, there are certain things you like,

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you dance, you play, you...

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It is part of the culture you have,

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so we are going to take you out of that, present you to be another way

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to a mass audience, and you're going to play the part.

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And Whitney played that part great,

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because that was part of who she was. She WAS classy.

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Her mother was Cissy Houston, her cousin was Dionne Warwick.

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But at the heart of it, she was still Nippy.

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My next guest is a rather spectacular 21-year-old singer,

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whose recent album - debut album, as a matter of fact -

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has received great reviews from the critics. She is the daughter of

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singer Cissy Houston, and cousin of Dionne Warwick.

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Whitney Houston, cousin of Dionne Warwick

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and daughter of gospel singer Cissy Houston...

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-Your aunt is...

-My cousin is Dionne Warwick.

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-And your aunt is Thelma...

-No, no, no, we're no relation at all.

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Oh! And who was your father, Duke Ellington?

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Her music was deliberately pop.

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Anything that was too black sounding was sent back to the studio,

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and to say "black sounding", in case you have a problem with that,

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it's to say that it's too George Clinton, it's too Funkadelic,

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it's just too R&B.

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We want Joni Mitchell, we want Mariah Carey,

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we want Barbra Streisand, we want to achieve that sound

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more so than we want to achieve the other R&B sounds.

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We don't want a female James Brown.

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Hold cameras.

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OK, congratulations, first of all,

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on having the number one song in America.

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-Isn't that something? Thank you!

-How does that feel?

-It feels great.

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It feels really, really great, I must tell you.

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I should explain to you, also, in the final product,

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I'm not going to exist, it will be just you.

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-Oh!

-Yeah, too bad.

-Oh, poor thing!

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-So, you need to make your answers fairly complete and...

-Oh...

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Ideally about a minute long, but if you go longer, that's fine,

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-but just not really short, OK?

-Oh, OK.

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Some of the criticisms of the album were that your voice was so good,

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it shouldn't be wasted on pop cliches and things like that.

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Do you feel that way at all, or will that influence your next album?

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I doubt it.

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I doubt it.

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I did not go into the studio wanting to make a pop album.

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I went into the studio wanting to make good music.

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# I found the greatest love of all

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# Inside of me

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# The greatest love of all

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# Is easy to achieve

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# Learning to love yourself

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# It is the greatest love of all

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# And if, by chance, that special place

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# That you've been dreaming of

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# Leads you to a lonely place

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# Find your strength in love. #

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APPLAUSE

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Clive Davis was right.

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In January of 1986, she collected five American Music Awards,

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and in February, she took top female vocalist honours at the Grammys.

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Whitney Houston!

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Greatest Love Of All, Whitney Houston.

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Whitney Houston, Whitney Houston!

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Whitney Houston!

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Whitney Houston!

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CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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All right.

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They told me...

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They told me to take as much time as I wanted.

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And they're asking for it now!

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APPLAUSE AND CHEERING

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Gosh. What can I say?

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I'd like to thank my mom and dad, for their love and support.

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I wouldn't have made it without you.

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My brothers, Michael and Gary.

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And Robyn.

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Whitney and Robyn, they fought those battles together,

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from the beginning to a bona fide superstar.

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They were close, they were tight.

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Robyn was my go-to person, I love Robyn.

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Whitney was at the top of the charts,

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she had four or five, six, seven consecutive number one records.

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These were pop records, they were massive.

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She was everywhere.

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And to the black ear, these records didn't have a natural feel.

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These records were not natural R&B records.

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So for the black audience, the perspective was in the community,

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that Whitney had sold out.

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Whitney had been nominated for either Record Of The Year

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or Female Vocalist Of The Year.

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When her picture came across the screen, there was this massive boo.

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BOOING

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And the winner is...

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It's not a good feeling. It is horrible, and it's kind of funny.

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You go, "Are they booing me?"

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You have to sit there and be, like, cordial, and be smiling,

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and be like, "Everything's OK," and you're feeling, like,

0:25:020:25:05

"Oh, my God, they're not booing me, are they?"

0:25:050:25:07

Sometimes, it gets down to - you're not black enough for them.

0:25:090:25:13

You know, or you're not R&B enough.

0:25:130:25:15

You're very pop, the white audience have taken you away from them.

0:25:150:25:18

That moment of being booed on Soul Train was not only tough

0:25:210:25:26

for Whitney, it was devastating.

0:25:260:25:30

It was devastating. It was emotionally devastating.

0:25:300:25:33

She, I don't think, ever recovered from it.

0:25:330:25:36

It is one of those boxes that was checked,

0:25:360:25:39

that when ultimately she perished,

0:25:390:25:42

it was because of those boxes, and that was a big one.

0:25:420:25:45

Whitney insisted they crossed her back over to black music.

0:25:460:25:50

I'm Your Baby Tonight was not a record that

0:25:500:25:53

Clive Davis wanted to make, but she says,

0:25:530:25:55

"I'm not making another record like you want, I'm going to do me now."

0:25:550:25:59

Her favourite saying was, "Can I be me?"

0:26:060:26:08

In fact, she would say it so much, that we had it sampled.

0:26:110:26:14

"C-c-c-c-can I be me?"

0:26:140:26:16

And that was the conundrum, like, "Damn it, I have made all this

0:26:170:26:21

"money, and made all these people happy, and I still can't be me."

0:26:210:26:26

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you so much!

0:26:260:26:30

I love you, Mommy and Daddy, and my brothers, God bless you...

0:26:310:26:34

When you create somebody, when you create something, at some point,

0:26:340:26:38

that something realises, "This isn't me.

0:26:380:26:42

"I have been created and I have been moulded into this,"

0:26:420:26:45

and they break out of it.

0:26:450:26:46

She came from such a controlling family situation.

0:26:460:26:51

And she allowed that to happen, of course,

0:26:510:26:56

because maybe of her upbringing, I don't know why, but...

0:26:560:27:00

..after a certain point, I think that anybody, and it was clear

0:27:010:27:05

in her case, that you can't take it much longer,

0:27:050:27:09

and you break out, you fall apart, you crumble.

0:27:090:27:12

You're like, "I can't take the pressure any more."

0:27:120:27:15

-And who do you think was controlling her, mainly?

-Oh, her mother.

0:27:160:27:19

Her mother, clearly. I think that, you know,

0:27:210:27:24

Whitney had the career that her mother always wanted.

0:27:240:27:27

Her records never achieved any real major success,

0:27:270:27:30

and here comes her daughter, and if you read in her book,

0:27:300:27:33

she referenced in her book, Whitney stole all of her style.

0:27:330:27:35

# I wanna say, happy birthday...

0:27:380:27:46

# ..to my daddy

0:27:480:27:50

# I love you, so happy birthday...

0:27:530:27:57

# Happy birthday...

0:27:590:28:01

# ..to you. #

0:28:030:28:08

APPLAUSE

0:28:080:28:11

You're surprised, aren't you?

0:28:110:28:13

I just want to thank you for your love...

0:28:150:28:19

..and for being the best daddy any girl could ever have.

0:28:210:28:24

There was a deep, very complicated relationship with her father.

0:28:260:28:30

One of the things about being rich is that your family is either

0:28:320:28:37

dependent on you in one way or another, financially,

0:28:370:28:40

or they actually work for you.

0:28:400:28:42

And in this case, her father and mother worked for her,

0:28:420:28:45

and so did her brothers, and her sister-in-law. And with Whitney,

0:28:450:28:48

we saw just the weirdness of that relationship with her dad.

0:28:480:28:52

Because he was constantly trying to do what was right for her,

0:28:520:28:56

you thought, but then there were times, you'd go,

0:28:560:28:58

"I don't know if you are doing what is right for her,

0:28:580:29:00

"as much as what is right for the career, but how about her?"

0:29:000:29:05

# I love you so much, yes, I do.

0:29:050:29:07

# Couldn't make it without you.

0:29:080:29:12

# Hallelujah, I love you, Daddy. #

0:29:120:29:16

APPLAUSE

0:29:160:29:18

Thank you.

0:29:180:29:20

After the second album, and this phenomenal success,

0:29:220:29:29

folks didn't realise, they really didn't know a whole lot about her,

0:29:290:29:33

intimately.

0:29:330:29:35

Who she was hanging out with, who she was going out with,

0:29:350:29:38

and, you know, who she was partying with.

0:29:380:29:41

Is there somebody that you're seeing?

0:29:410:29:43

Yeah, I'm seeing someone, absolutely, sure.

0:29:430:29:47

Sure. I'm seeing you right now, with my own two eyes.

0:29:470:29:50

-Has he actually what?

-Rung you up, since you've been over here?

0:29:570:30:00

MOCKING ENGLISH ACCENT: Rung me up!

0:30:000:30:02

Has he actually rung me up?

0:30:040:30:07

Yes, he has actually rung me.

0:30:080:30:10

He has rung me and I've rung him.

0:30:120:30:15

I said I want to fuck her.

0:30:150:30:17

He says you are great.

0:30:210:30:23

You are the best of the best...

0:30:360:30:38

-Thank you.

-..madame.

0:30:380:30:39

A lot of what I have learned, a lot of what I know...

0:30:420:30:45

..kind of takes the fun out of it.

0:30:470:30:48

I enjoy doing what I do.

0:30:490:30:52

I enjoy singing, I enjoy performing for people.

0:30:520:30:55

You know, but there's a lot of it, about the business,

0:30:560:31:00

and about what I do, that's not fun, that you're subjected to,

0:31:000:31:06

and it's often not very fair.

0:31:060:31:09

Then it started again, real intense in terms of questions.

0:31:120:31:17

And, um, you know, I'd have people call from radio stations

0:31:170:31:22

and be in a conversation with programme directors,

0:31:220:31:25

and they'd say, "Hey, man, is Whitney gay?"

0:31:250:31:29

I'd say, "Huh? Hell, no. What made you ask?"

0:31:310:31:35

"Well, I've heard..." You know. And that was all over the place.

0:31:350:31:39

Rumours had already started about her sexuality.

0:31:400:31:43

When we travelled, Robyn was with us. Depending on who you were,

0:31:450:31:49

you had to get through Robyn to get to Whitney.

0:31:490:31:51

You have to understand the make-up of these guys who did promotion.

0:31:530:31:58

700 music programme directors, that, uh, 99.9% heterosexual,

0:31:580:32:06

99.9999999 homophobic.

0:32:060:32:10

And the woman goes, "Oh, this woman is not a heterosexual."

0:32:140:32:18

They had a field day with that.

0:32:190:32:21

And heterosexual men always have a field day with that, anyway,

0:32:210:32:24

because the first thing they say is that, you know,

0:32:240:32:27

"Oh, she doesn't need me."

0:32:270:32:29

HE LAUGHS CYNICALLY

0:32:290:32:31

This wasn't her world.

0:32:310:32:32

I mean, I brought her into this madness, and she goes, "What?

0:32:320:32:35

"Why am I the target? What did I do?"

0:32:350:32:38

I said, "You're my friend. What else do you want?

0:32:380:32:41

"You play basketball. They think you're a man! I don't know!"

0:32:410:32:44

She's a damn good basketball player.

0:32:450:32:47

She can beat any guy there is. I love it!

0:32:470:32:49

Because she plays basketball, people think she's a lesbian.

0:32:490:32:52

She's a very tall, very broad woman. She's been my friend for years.

0:32:520:32:57

I don't know, we just... stuck it out.

0:32:570:33:00

This was her friend, that she'd had around her for, you know,

0:33:030:33:06

since the beginning of her career,

0:33:060:33:08

and all of a sudden I think she had people telling her what to do.

0:33:080:33:12

Her mother was very much against it, Clive was very much against it.

0:33:120:33:15

They said, "Was it cool to have a lesbian affair?"

0:33:150:33:19

You know, today - I always think, if she were an artist today,

0:33:190:33:21

she'd be fine, everything would be lovely.

0:33:210:33:24

She'd probably still be here. But back then,

0:33:240:33:26

it was this tremendous emphasis on being the perfect girl.

0:33:260:33:30

It became quite a conflict. And it's interesting,

0:33:300:33:32

because you have drugs, you have this family riddled with drugs,

0:33:320:33:35

and yet the homosexuality is what you're going to focus on,

0:33:350:33:38

when, you know, you would have had a better time probably trying to

0:33:380:33:42

handle those drugs than you would have with that.

0:33:420:33:44

But again, that religion, that fierce religion that I think

0:33:440:33:48

Cissy had, that was very important to her,

0:33:480:33:50

because it's people talking, it's the church talking.

0:33:500:33:53

She's an elder in the church, she's a trustee in the church,

0:33:530:33:56

and your daughter's a homosexual.

0:33:560:33:57

And again, female homosexuality in the black community is

0:33:570:34:00

absolutely never spoken about.

0:34:000:34:02

I don't hear that at all. You never hear that.

0:34:020:34:04

-Black men, yes. Black women, no.

-Even now?

-Even now.

0:34:040:34:08

I've not got five minutes to eat!

0:34:110:34:14

What?!

0:34:140:34:15

They hate it. Hey, listen, I'm going onto a...

0:34:160:34:21

Whitney didn't have a closeness and feel safe with many people.

0:34:240:34:30

Robyn provided a safe place for her, Robyn loved her, cared for her,

0:34:300:34:36

was a friend to her and didn't want to ever disappoint her.

0:34:360:34:42

In that, Whitney found safety and solace.

0:34:420:34:48

I don't think that she was gay.

0:34:480:34:50

I think she was bisexual. If you loved her and she loved you,

0:34:500:34:54

it's possible for her to get into a physical relationship,

0:34:540:34:58

because Whitney loved to be held and she loved to be embraced,

0:34:580:35:02

and she wanted to feel protected.

0:35:020:35:06

Do you believe that Whitney and Robyn were in a gay relationship?

0:35:060:35:10

I don't really know. I thought, you know...

0:35:100:35:13

Would it have bothered you if your daughter Whitney was gay?

0:35:130:35:19

Absolutely.

0:35:190:35:20

-It would have bothered you?

-Mm-hm.

0:35:200:35:22

-So, were you happy when Bobby Brown came into the picture?

-No.

0:35:230:35:27

-You weren't happy about that?

-Mm-mm.

0:35:270:35:29

# ..strange relationships

0:35:290:35:31

# That really gets me down

0:35:310:35:34

# I see nothing wrong... #

0:35:340:35:36

CHEERING

0:35:360:35:38

# Right!

0:35:380:35:39

# Everybody's talking now

0:35:420:35:46

# I don't need... #

0:35:480:35:49

And as you may be aware, the Soul Train Awards, where she was

0:35:490:35:54

booed, was that not the night she met Bobby Brown,

0:35:540:35:57

at the Soul Train Awards?

0:35:570:35:59

So you're talking about a total 360 image reversal.

0:35:590:36:03

This beautiful pop starlet

0:36:030:36:05

is now with the bad boy of R&B, Bobby Brown.

0:36:050:36:08

And the winner is...

0:36:130:36:14

..Bobby Brown!

0:36:140:36:16

I think I had won three awards that night,

0:36:190:36:22

and all of a sudden someone's hitting me in the back of the head.

0:36:220:36:26

And I turned around, and it was Whitney Houston.

0:36:260:36:30

And they said I was crazy, huh?

0:36:300:36:32

She was like, "Oh, was I hitting you? I'm sorry."

0:36:320:36:35

And then she did it again.

0:36:350:36:36

She was trying to get my attention, because I was fly.

0:36:360:36:39

I knew it, she knew it. You know?

0:36:390:36:41

Thank you. I'm outta here, baby.

0:36:410:36:43

We found that we had a lot in common,

0:36:430:36:45

and we started hanging out more and more.

0:36:450:36:48

Bobby was street. Bobby was 'hood.

0:36:500:36:53

Bobby was... Bobby had... As they say, Bobby had swag.

0:36:540:36:58

Whitney didn't grow up in Long Island, she grew up in Newark.

0:36:580:37:02

Bobby grew up in Boston, came from a similar culture.

0:37:030:37:07

They just had a chemistry, for whatever reason,

0:37:070:37:10

that worked for them.

0:37:100:37:11

NO SOUND

0:37:110:37:13

I met Bobby Brown in 1988, I believe.

0:37:280:37:33

We had a birthday party at Whitney's new home.

0:37:330:37:36

On the gate were three guys,

0:37:360:37:38

one of whom was dressed in a floral turquoise short-trousers suit...

0:37:380:37:46

..black loafers and white socks scrunched up round his ankles.

0:37:470:37:51

And his hair was cut like this, at a diagonal.

0:37:510:37:53

Bobby, what brings you round these parts?

0:37:530:37:56

Whitney, Whitney, Whitney.

0:37:560:37:58

Um, she invited me. I'm having a great time.

0:37:580:38:01

I just want to say happy birthday, Whitney.

0:38:010:38:03

You're doing great. I wish I could be like you one day.

0:38:030:38:07

And as that evening went on...

0:38:070:38:12

..she actually danced with him.

0:38:120:38:14

Robyn didn't take it especially well.

0:38:160:38:19

I think it adversely impacted on her relationship with Whitney.

0:38:190:38:22

# Come home

0:38:280:38:30

# Come home... #

0:38:310:38:34

Mr Bobby Brown!

0:38:340:38:35

# Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

0:38:350:38:37

# I-I-I-I-I-I-I I-I-I-I-I-I-I

0:38:370:38:43

HE SCATS

0:38:430:38:45

# Boom!

0:39:120:39:13

# Yeah, hoo HE CONTINUES TO SCAT

0:39:230:39:26

# Yeah, yeah, yeah!

0:39:260:39:27

# Oh, baby!

0:39:280:39:31

# Hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo

0:39:310:39:34

# One more time

0:39:340:39:37

# A-one more time

0:39:370:39:40

# Whoa!

0:39:400:39:41

# Here we go! Mr Brown!... #

0:39:430:39:47

MUSIC STOPS The record is not over yet.

0:39:470:39:49

MUSIC RESTARTS # Oh, yeah!

0:39:490:39:53

# Bobby Brown!

0:39:560:39:58

# Oh, yeah!

0:40:050:40:07

# Oh, baby!

0:40:090:40:10

# Oh, baby!

0:40:120:40:13

# Yeah, yeah! Yeah!

0:40:140:40:17

# Yeah! Yeah!

0:40:170:40:19

# Yeah! Yeah!

0:40:200:40:22

# Oh, yeah!

0:40:220:40:24

# Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!

0:40:240:40:28

# Yeah! #

0:40:280:40:30

He loved her as herself.

0:40:300:40:33

She could come off that stage and not have to be the person that

0:40:350:40:39

everybody in the world expected her to be or who they thought she was.

0:40:390:40:43

He understood that part of her. He understood the pressures,

0:40:440:40:49

because he was Bobby Brown, you know?

0:40:490:40:51

He understood her pressures and he understood her pain.

0:40:510:40:54

What do I think that Bobby and Whitney gave each other?

0:40:560:40:59

Acceptance. Love.

0:40:590:41:03

You know, because, again, they absolutely...

0:41:030:41:05

she absolutely loved him. And they loved each other.

0:41:050:41:10

But there was ACCEPTANCE.

0:41:100:41:11

You know, for who they were.

0:41:130:41:15

And that feeling of when you don't feel like you have to be

0:41:150:41:20

anybody but yourself with somebody...

0:41:200:41:23

..they had that.

0:41:240:41:26

Where are you at this point of your life?

0:41:260:41:28

WHITNEY CHUCKLES

0:41:280:41:30

Um, married with a baby. Happy.

0:41:300:41:35

-Um, content.

-Hm!

-Yeah.

0:41:350:41:38

Yeah. You know, I've got a great career. I have no complaints.

0:41:380:41:41

I am blessed.

0:41:410:41:43

So, then, will you tell me about Bobby?

0:41:430:41:45

Bobby...

0:41:470:41:50

..was ready for the same things I was ready for.

0:41:500:41:54

Commitment. Loyalty. Security. Trust. A good woman, a good man.

0:41:540:42:01

They call him a womaniser. You know, that's pretty harsh, you know?

0:42:010:42:06

Um, I don't think that my husband womanised anybody,

0:42:060:42:10

because I know that if he wanted them, they definitely wanted him.

0:42:100:42:16

You know? I don't think, you know, it was about womanising.

0:42:160:42:19

I think boys will be boys, and they have their fun, and they play.

0:42:190:42:22

When they really become smart and they find a good woman,

0:42:220:42:25

they marry her.

0:42:250:42:27

And that's what he did! SHE GIGGLES

0:42:270:42:29

THEY SHOUT HAPPILY

0:42:300:42:33

I think I'm a slave. I'm a slave. I'm a horse.

0:42:410:42:44

I'm a horse.

0:42:440:42:46

She's the most loving mother, um...

0:42:570:43:00

..the craziest wife...

0:43:020:43:04

..for me...

0:43:060:43:09

..because I'm crazy myself, you know?

0:43:090:43:11

I'm... Everybody knows me, you know?

0:43:110:43:14

Knows OF me.

0:43:140:43:16

But in order to deal with a person like me,

0:43:160:43:19

she has to be the sweetest person in the world

0:43:190:43:22

and also the meanest person in the world at times, because...

0:43:220:43:27

..it's, like, I'm...

0:43:270:43:28

..I'm Bobby Brown, I'm the original bad boy, they say.

0:43:300:43:34

But I'm not as bad as everybody thinks I am, so...

0:43:340:43:38

My wife, to me, is just like...

0:43:380:43:41

She's just a joy to be around.

0:43:410:43:43

Mm. I told you, I'd never seen nothing like it...

0:43:450:43:49

..that bond.

0:43:510:43:53

People could say what they want to say, but I lived in the house.

0:43:530:43:57

You know what I'm saying?

0:43:570:43:58

For years. So...

0:43:590:44:02

And what were they like together?

0:44:050:44:07

Hm! They were funny. I tell you, they used to do skits from movies.

0:44:070:44:12

She'd be Tina Turner and he'd be Ike!

0:44:140:44:18

HE COUGHS VIOLENTLY

0:44:180:44:20

LAUGHTER

0:44:200:44:22

Oh, no way!

0:44:230:44:25

Hey, hey, hey.

0:44:430:44:44

-Da-da-da!

-LAUGHTER

0:44:440:44:46

LAUGHTER

0:44:530:44:55

So now, I got the cutter.

0:44:590:45:01

That's what Tina DIDN'T do!

0:45:050:45:07

LAUGHTER

0:45:070:45:10

LAUGHTER

0:45:250:45:27

Lovely!

0:45:500:45:51

TV: GUNFIRE

0:46:010:46:03

# Why, oh, why? #

0:46:140:46:17

Yes!

0:46:170:46:18

QUIET CONVERSATION

0:46:200:46:22

SHOUTING

0:46:410:46:44

How long did you work as bodyguard for Whitney?

0:46:550:46:59

From April 1988 until October 1995.

0:46:590:47:03

She knows that I looked after her with my life.

0:47:030:47:06

Very few people commit like that.

0:47:060:47:08

They didn't interview me for the job, I interviewed them.

0:47:090:47:12

"Are these somebody I'm prepared to die for?"

0:47:120:47:15

She was.

0:47:150:47:16

That film encapsulated in two hours and ten minutes what had then been

0:47:220:47:26

six years of our life together, absent two elements -

0:47:260:47:32

I've never been shot at while with her and I've never made love to her.

0:47:320:47:36

You take those two out of the film,

0:47:360:47:38

it really becomes quite a boring two-and-a-half hours, yes?

0:47:380:47:41

# If I...

0:47:410:47:44

# ..should stay... #

0:47:450:47:49

Kevin Costner had said to me, "When she sings that song, in the first

0:47:490:47:52

"chorus I want it to be with no music."

0:47:520:47:56

And I said, "Kevin, that's so stupid. No music?

0:47:560:47:59

"Are you kidding me? We're trying to get on radio."

0:47:590:48:02

And I'm standing there, and she goes, "# If I... #"

0:48:020:48:06

And it was like, "Ohhh! My God, are you kidding me?

0:48:060:48:09

"This is the most incredible thing I've ever seen in my life."

0:48:090:48:13

And my demo did not include that. I had music right from the start.

0:48:130:48:16

And from that second on, I knew that the only way that record

0:48:160:48:19

could ever be that way was with that a cappella opening.

0:48:190:48:22

It's just one of the most breathtaking things I've ever

0:48:220:48:25

been part of. And it wasn't even my doing. It was Kevin Costner.

0:48:250:48:29

The Bodyguard just exploded her popularity,

0:48:350:48:39

so she was not prepared for that.

0:48:390:48:41

Before she became really, really big after The Bodyguard,

0:48:420:48:46

we would go to the mall and we'd just go shopping.

0:48:460:48:50

And then we noticed people would stop and nobody would be moving.

0:48:500:48:56

She had to realise, "I can't come out any more,"

0:48:560:48:58

because you couldn't get from

0:48:580:49:00

point A to point B without 20 people asking for her autograph or a photo.

0:49:000:49:04

When it comes to the drugs, I don't think that she realised

0:49:100:49:15

she had a problem until after The Bodyguard.

0:49:150:49:19

It was no longer recreational.

0:49:190:49:23

This was something that she was doing more out of necessity

0:49:230:49:28

than just to have fun.

0:49:280:49:30

How much has success changed you? How different are you?

0:49:310:49:35

Probably...

0:49:380:49:39

Probably a lot more paranoid! SHE LAUGHS

0:49:410:49:44

I, um...

0:49:440:49:46

Success...

0:49:460:49:47

..doesn't change you, fame does.

0:49:490:49:52

Fame does.

0:49:530:49:55

You get a whole world of people calling your name

0:49:550:49:58

and you really don't know them.

0:49:580:50:00

It's weird.

0:50:000:50:02

Is there...Is there...Is there a misconception of the fact that,

0:50:030:50:07

when we become famous, that we have these beautiful,

0:50:070:50:10

perfect lives and that nothing is ever on a low?

0:50:100:50:14

SHE SCOFFS It's a bad conception,

0:50:140:50:16

because then people always think that you have to be this

0:50:160:50:19

grand old person that's just happy about life and everything,

0:50:190:50:22

because, what, we got money? Well, money doesn't make you happy.

0:50:220:50:25

It never did. I mean, history will tell you that.

0:50:250:50:28

And fame certainly doesn't make you happy. You know?

0:50:280:50:31

People will tell you that who are famous. You know? Um...

0:50:310:50:35

You got to find the happiness in yourself.

0:50:350:50:37

You got to know who you are before you step into this business, because

0:50:370:50:40

if you're trying to find it, you'll probably wind up being

0:50:400:50:43

somebody else that you probably don't even like.

0:50:430:50:47

Jesus!

0:50:530:50:55

Watch your step.

0:51:030:51:05

Her rise to fame just took the wind out of her.

0:51:090:51:12

And those were the times when she turned to God,

0:51:130:51:17

she turned to her faith.

0:51:170:51:19

She said, "God, you're the only one who understands.

0:51:190:51:22

"You're the only one who accepts me as I am."

0:51:220:51:24

# Babe

0:51:290:51:31

# If I could...

0:51:310:51:32

# Oh! #

0:51:320:51:34

I think maybe the greater of them, the greatest disappointment,

0:51:350:51:39

was that she felt like she had let God down, too.

0:51:390:51:42

She knew that her gift came from Him.

0:51:420:51:44

She felt that she had let Him down with the way

0:51:440:51:47

she had not taken care of her body, of her instrument.

0:51:470:51:51

Are we out here?

0:51:510:51:53

All right, we here. We here, we here.

0:51:530:51:55

We're asking for a special,

0:51:570:51:59

special blessing, that you bring it on down here...

0:51:590:52:02

..that you go inside, Father God, because only you know what's inside.

0:52:020:52:07

Only you know what's inside,

0:52:070:52:08

only you know how to fix things that we can't even fix.

0:52:080:52:12

We know there's power in the name of Jesus,

0:52:140:52:16

we know that the blood of the lamb covers all

0:52:160:52:19

and that it's a healing power,

0:52:190:52:21

and we're asking that you do not pass us by.

0:52:210:52:24

AUDIENCE CHEERS

0:52:240:52:26

Can I take you someplace with me? Will you go there?

0:52:500:52:54

MUSIC STARTS

0:52:540:52:55

So, when we go to church, which is

0:52:570:52:59

where I want to take you right now...

0:52:590:53:01

..we get very excited, we get very happy, we may start to cry...

0:53:010:53:07

..because we feel a joy like a river in our souls,

0:53:070:53:10

and we just have to let it out...

0:53:100:53:12

BACKING SINGERS CROON

0:53:120:53:14

..and sing praises to the Almighty God, you know?

0:53:140:53:17

# Ooh, Lord Oh, Lord

0:53:190:53:22

# I love you

0:53:220:53:24

# I do

0:53:240:53:26

# I love you

0:53:260:53:28

# I love you, I love you

0:53:280:53:31

# I love you

0:53:310:53:34

# I hasten to His mighty, mighty, mighty, mighty...

0:53:340:53:41

# Going to praise Him

0:53:410:53:43

# I hasten to I'll hasten to

0:53:430:53:47

# Your love, yeah

0:53:470:53:51

# I will know Yes, I will

0:53:510:53:55

# Lord, I love you

0:53:560:53:58

# You know, you know I do, Lord

0:53:580:54:01

# I surely love you I can't do without you

0:54:010:54:05

# I can't live, yeah, I can't live I can't live another day without you

0:54:050:54:11

# I can't live without you, Father

0:54:110:54:13

# No! No! No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no

0:54:130:54:18

# I cannot make it, I cannot make it

0:54:180:54:23

# Without your love, without your peace, your joy

0:54:230:54:27

# You give your joy unspeakable

0:54:270:54:31

# You give your joy unspeakable

0:54:320:54:35

# You give your joy You give your joy

0:54:360:54:41

# Joy, joy, joy, joy, joy, joy, joy

0:54:410:54:45

# You give your joy You give your joy

0:54:450:54:50

# Nobody, nobody can take it away... #

0:54:500:54:54

There were moments when we and the audience were transformed

0:55:020:55:05

by her voice, and that is a God thing, that's not a human thing.

0:55:050:55:09

# Ooh, give it up for God... #

0:55:090:55:12

Whitney knew that she had that gift.

0:55:120:55:14

She could knock you over and sing a gospel riff, or whatever.

0:55:140:55:18

But then she could just caress a note in such a way that said,

0:55:190:55:21

"Oh, my God, is this...?"

0:55:210:55:25

It's a God thing.

0:55:250:55:26

# Ooh, Lord

0:55:260:55:29

# Oh, Lord

0:55:290:55:31

# Ooh, Saviour

0:55:310:55:34

# Don't pass me by. #

0:55:340:55:36

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

0:55:360:55:38

This is the home of the dancers, the background singers,

0:55:450:55:51

the gentlemen we call the main corps to the band,

0:55:510:55:53

the backing unit...

0:55:530:55:54

-..make-up...

-Hello.

0:55:550:55:58

-..hair.

-Hi!

0:55:580:56:01

Robyn!

0:56:010:56:02

-Robyn I want to get this photo of you...

-OK.

0:56:040:56:06

Robyn and Whitney were like twins. They were inseparable.

0:56:110:56:17

They were inseparable.

0:56:170:56:18

And everybody, again, knew the power that Robyn had.

0:56:180:56:23

..in your respective places.

0:56:230:56:26

Band and dancers up, up in the front here.

0:56:270:56:31

Right here. Excuse us. On your knees.

0:56:310:56:34

Whitney and Robyn had a bond.

0:56:340:56:37

They had a bond,

0:56:370:56:39

and Bobby Brown could never remove Robyn from the relationship.

0:56:390:56:45

And that was part of his frustration, because he wanted

0:56:450:56:49

Whitney Houston to love him as the man of the relationship...

0:56:490:56:52

..and he wanted Whitney to remove Robyn from their relationship,

0:56:540:57:00

and Whitney didn't want to do it,

0:57:000:57:03

because Robyn cared for Whitney more than

0:57:030:57:07

she probably would care for anybody.

0:57:070:57:09

After a while, you get sleepy. You just go with the flow.

0:57:300:57:36

-VOICEOVER:

-I kinda know what Whitney wants to go on around her.

0:57:380:57:42

And sometimes it's a little difficult to convey that to people.

0:57:440:57:48

You have to just go and do it yourself.

0:57:480:57:50

So most people would say I'm just about everywhere.

0:57:510:57:56

One, two, three, go.

0:57:560:57:58

-ALL:

-# If we take this chance

0:57:580:58:02

# Extend to each other romance

0:58:020:58:05

# I hope it will be

0:58:050:58:11

# The right thing... #

0:58:110:58:14

See, slide, like... # If we take this chance

0:58:140:58:20

# Extend to each other romance

0:58:200:58:24

# I hope

0:58:240:58:26

# It would be... #

0:58:260:58:28

# You and you and you and you

0:58:280:58:32

# Uh-huh

0:58:320:58:34

SHE SINGS ALONG

0:58:400:58:43

# If I told you that...

0:58:460:58:48

# I know that we're just friends

0:58:490:58:51

# But what if I decide to bring something in?

0:58:510:58:57

# Oh, my, my, my, my, my

0:58:570:58:59

# I hope it won't affect the trust we have

0:58:590:59:03

# Because I don't want this to end... #

0:59:030:59:06

Bobby Brown and Robyn Crawford together was

0:59:060:59:09

the equivalent of fire and water, petrol and a short fuse.

0:59:090:59:15

They hated each other.

0:59:150:59:17

Yes. Simple.

0:59:170:59:19

They would battle for her affection, they'd battle for her attention,

0:59:190:59:23

mainly to identify with the hate they had for each other.

0:59:230:59:27

Come here.

0:59:460:59:47

There were numerous fights between Robyn and Bobby Brown.

0:59:520:59:57

Serious fights.

0:59:570:59:59

Bobby and Robyn had some physical altercations,

0:59:591:00:06

and I think there were times when he wasn't always the winner!

1:00:061:00:09

Yes! Yes.

1:00:091:00:12

But then, Whitney would come in-between them and she'd...

1:00:151:00:18

..you know, pour the oil on the troubled waters.

1:00:201:00:23

# How will I know? #

1:00:231:00:26

CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

1:00:261:00:28

You know, I...I often have a conversation with my daughter...

1:00:341:00:39

..one that I cherish so much, so I'm going to share it with you.

1:00:411:00:45

I...

1:00:461:00:48

Just so that I know that she knows the real deal...

1:00:481:00:52

..I ask her...

1:00:531:00:56

.."Who put the sun in the sky?"

1:00:561:00:58

She says... # God did. #

1:01:011:01:04

# If tomorrow is just we two

1:01:131:01:15

# And I'm standing on the front line... #

1:01:181:01:22

You look so pretty.

1:01:221:01:24

# And the Lord asks me what I did with my life

1:01:241:01:28

# I will say, "I spent it with you..." #

1:01:281:01:34

Go ahead, I'm here.

1:01:341:01:36

# My name is Bobby Kris And I just wanna say

1:01:361:01:39

# Clap your hands Clap your hands... #

1:01:391:01:44

Say it again.

1:01:441:01:45

# My name is Bobbi Kris And I just wanna say

1:01:451:01:48

# Clap your hands Clap your hands

1:01:481:01:53

# Clap your hands... #

1:01:531:01:55

Go reggae, go.

1:01:551:01:57

# Clap your hands

1:01:571:01:59

WHITNEY VOCALISES

1:01:591:02:02

Come on, Kris! Come on.

1:02:051:02:08

# Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump

1:02:081:02:10

# Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump

1:02:281:02:31

# Clap your hands Clap your hands... #

1:02:311:02:36

MUSIC STOPS

1:02:381:02:40

I said the record is not over yet!

1:02:401:02:42

AUDIENCE CHEERS

1:02:421:02:44

You know, these days you have to stay up with your children,

1:02:481:02:50

you have to be as hip as they are,

1:02:501:02:52

and Bobbi Kris and I have a great relationship.

1:02:521:02:55

We really do, and I'm very, very proud of that. I cherish it.

1:02:551:02:59

And I am really, really dying to get home to see her little face,

1:02:591:03:05

and she's dying for me to come home.

1:03:051:03:08

You know? So that's a good feeling, you know,

1:03:081:03:11

when she talks about me to her friends, "My mom's away."

1:03:111:03:14

"My mom's coming back." "Look what my mom bought me. She sent me..."

1:03:141:03:18

I send her dollies every now and then, you know,

1:03:181:03:21

because she loves dolls. She loves to play with them.

1:03:211:03:23

I try to talk to her at least three times a week,

1:03:231:03:28

although it's very hard to talk.

1:03:281:03:30

It's worse to talk sometimes than not to,

1:03:301:03:34

because you feel that longing, you feel that passion,

1:03:341:03:37

that love between a child and a mother, and it's very deep.

1:03:371:03:41

It's very strong. Very strong.

1:03:411:03:43

Um, when she had to leave... I had her out here the first half,

1:03:441:03:48

before she went to school.

1:03:481:03:50

That day that she had to leave, I thought that we would be strong,

1:03:501:03:53

I thought I would be strong and I wouldn't cry,

1:03:531:03:56

but I couldn't help it, and I just really broke down, and she did, too.

1:03:561:04:00

And it made me feel really good -

1:04:001:04:03

and I felt really bad because I knew I had to let her go -

1:04:031:04:06

but it made me feel really good to know that she would miss me

1:04:061:04:09

and love me as much as I missed and loved her.

1:04:091:04:11

Sweet girl, she really was. She'd run up and down the corridor,

1:04:131:04:17

in and out of everybody's rooms and that sort of thing. Yeah.

1:04:171:04:20

I didn't think, "The writing's on the wall for this kid,"

1:04:201:04:23

no, I did not,

1:04:231:04:24

because you always think that with new life comes new hope

1:04:241:04:27

and something would have twigged or clicked

1:04:271:04:30

and it would have made it better for her.

1:04:301:04:32

But as time went on, no.

1:04:321:04:35

No. No chance for Bobbi Kristina.

1:04:371:04:40

She came into the environment just when it started to get worse.

1:04:451:04:50

And I'm convinced now...

1:04:521:04:54

..that, had anyone read...

1:04:551:04:59

..listened to and acted upon my reports...

1:04:591:05:03

..she would now be alive...

1:05:051:05:08

..as would her daughter.

1:05:081:05:10

I submitted my report to the family members who

1:05:121:05:15

were in charge of the business of Whitney Houston

1:05:151:05:19

after a disastrous tour to Singapore.

1:05:191:05:23

It's part of my duty not only to protect a principal

1:05:231:05:27

from the outside elements, it's to protect them from themselves.

1:05:271:05:32

She had nodules on her throat.

1:05:361:05:37

It was being destroyed, presumably with the chemicals.

1:05:371:05:41

Whitney overdosed while she was making the film Waiting To Exhale.

1:05:441:05:48

That's when you've got a problem.

1:05:491:05:51

Everybody was on drugs.

1:05:531:05:55

It's a case of degrees, to what degree the individuals

1:05:551:06:00

concerned were on drugs, that's all.

1:06:001:06:02

I put it down on paper, and I got the telephone call and the meeting.

1:06:061:06:11

"Thank you very much.

1:06:111:06:13

"Miss Houston has decided she doesn't need anyone of your calibre

1:06:131:06:17

"and experience again,

1:06:171:06:19

"because she's not touring internationally in the future.

1:06:191:06:22

"Should we need someone of your skills, we will call upon you."

1:06:221:06:25

And that was the answer to the "do something to help her" report.

1:06:251:06:29

PHOTOGRAPHERS SHOUT OUT

1:06:291:06:31

We're five now!

1:06:341:06:35

There was that level of inevitability about the end of this

1:06:381:06:41

shortly after 1992. Bobby Brown came on the scene.

1:06:411:06:46

Lots of drinking, lots of partying.

1:06:471:06:50

Though by herself she would have done anything to remain

1:06:501:06:55

nondescript, when in his presence it became a competition.

1:06:551:07:01

-So, put that motherfucking camera on me.

-That's right.

1:07:011:07:04

-Here you go.

-I'm the man.

1:07:041:07:07

-Let me get that mic.

-There you go.

1:07:071:07:10

-Let us do this ourselves. Check it out, y'all. Yo, yo.

-You just talk.

1:07:111:07:15

Man, just talk.

1:07:151:07:17

Can you tell me what tonight's all about and why everyone's here?

1:07:171:07:21

"Why everyone's here"? Isn't it obvious? It's my birthday, dawg.

1:07:211:07:25

-Check it out. It's my birthday. My wife gave me a party, right?

-Yeah.

1:07:251:07:30

And we just chilling, right? Yo, MTV. This is my birthday, dawg!

1:07:301:07:35

It's my birthday, dawg! Boom!

1:07:351:07:37

Whitney was getting high before Bobby ever came in the picture.

1:07:411:07:46

I think they had a co-dependent relationship.

1:07:461:07:50

Bobby didn't do drugs when he met Whitney,

1:07:501:07:52

Whitney didn't really drink when she met Bobby.

1:07:521:07:54

But they both had their thing - she had her drugs, he had his liquor -

1:07:541:07:57

and when they came together they both started doing both,

1:07:571:08:00

which was terrible.

1:08:001:08:01

HE MOUTHS

1:08:071:08:09

Bobby was notorious for sleeping with the girls on the tour.

1:08:191:08:23

He was not really ready to take on the role of a husband.

1:08:231:08:28

Remember, he was much younger than her.

1:08:281:08:30

When Whitney got married, Whitney got married forever.

1:08:311:08:35

That was her biggest downfall.

1:08:351:08:37

The longer she stayed in it, the harder it was to get out.

1:08:371:08:41

She didn't want to go against God and get a divorce, and then,

1:08:411:08:46

once she had Bobbi Kristina, she wanted her to have her father,

1:08:461:08:50

and even though he was not treating her right, I think

1:08:501:08:54

she stayed for Bobbi Kristina.

1:08:541:08:56

WHITNEY LAUGHS

1:09:261:09:28

Bobby brought her down because he wanted to be up,

1:09:421:09:46

and she brought herself down trying to be on his level.

1:09:461:09:49

So it was this emotional sort of blackmail of, you know,

1:09:491:09:52

"You're no better than me. You're not that big of a star.

1:09:521:09:54

"You don't deserve all this. You're just lucky."

1:09:541:09:57

Just things like that played tricks with her mind,

1:09:571:09:59

because she had low self-esteem.

1:09:591:10:00

She was so worried about her hair. She wore wigs and weaves,

1:10:031:10:07

and her hair wouldn't grow and her nails wouldn't grow.

1:10:071:10:10

This is this big superstar,

1:10:101:10:12

and she never had that security that she sort of needed,

1:10:121:10:15

she never had that inner belief that she was this amazing person.

1:10:151:10:19

She was always sort of doubting herself.

1:10:191:10:21

And I think Bobby contributed to that tremendously.

1:10:211:10:26

Did Robyn try and keep Whitney off drugs?

1:10:421:10:45

She did. She did.

1:10:451:10:48

They had dozens of arguments...

1:10:481:10:52

..over...

1:10:531:10:55

..Whitney getting high.

1:10:551:10:58

And something that started as simple as Whitney smoking weed...

1:11:071:11:13

..turned into a monster...

1:11:151:11:19

turned into something that Whitney lost control of.

1:11:191:11:25

All of the people that had positions of power that could have

1:11:251:11:31

steered her the right way was either not seeing what was happening or...

1:11:311:11:39

..being a part of it.

1:11:391:11:41

On page 128, you write about the first time you hear

1:11:431:11:47

anything about Whitney using drugs.

1:11:471:11:51

You say, "One afternoon in the late 1980s, Robyn came to visit me.

1:11:511:11:58

"She told me that Nippy was using drugs, which was news to me."

1:11:581:12:02

-She was telling on Nippy, actually, you know?

-Mm-hm.

1:12:021:12:05

-I guess I said... Well, I went to her.

-You went to Nippy?

-Mm-hm.

1:12:051:12:10

-After the visit from Robyn.

-Mm-hm. I saw her one time really high.

1:12:101:12:13

-And I wanted to kill her.

-Mm-hm...

-I really did.

1:12:131:12:17

But I held myself back and, I tell you, she said, "Mommy, Mommy..."

1:12:171:12:21

And she was so sad and pitiful.

1:12:211:12:23

One time, Whitney wasn't even talking to her mom.

1:12:251:12:28

Nobody wanted to blame Whitney.

1:12:321:12:35

But Cissy made it no secret. She wanted to beat Robyn onto something.

1:12:361:12:42

She wanted to kick Robyn's ass.

1:12:421:12:45

You know? Every opportunity she got, she wanted to do something to Robyn.

1:12:451:12:50

Ridiculous!

1:12:501:12:52

They needed to blame somebody. Before it was Bobby, it was Robyn.

1:12:561:13:00

We blamed Robyn because Whitney don't want to talk to us.

1:13:001:13:04

It's Robyn's fault. "No, it's YOUR fault."

1:13:041:13:06

Did she shut off from it? Did she try and shut off from it?

1:13:111:13:14

Did she refuse to answer phone calls from these people?

1:13:141:13:17

Hell, yes, she did.

1:13:171:13:18

For her own sanity, her own peace of mind.

1:13:191:13:23

Would that kind of pressure being brought on her by others have

1:13:241:13:28

driven her in a direction she otherwise may not have gone?

1:13:281:13:31

Hell, yes, it did! Yes, it did.

1:13:311:13:35

That's why there is not one person out there

1:13:351:13:38

not responsible for the demise of that beautiful woman.

1:13:381:13:42

MUSIC PLAYS, AUDIENCE CHEERS

1:13:421:13:45

There was nothing I could do.

1:14:411:14:42

And not being a family member or someone

1:14:421:14:47

high enough in the food chain, I had no say-so.

1:14:471:14:51

I could only talk to her in those moments when we were doing hair,

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and I could just tell her, "Whitney, you're killing yourself.

1:14:561:14:59

"You're going to die. You have to stop."

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I also spoke to other people in her camp.

1:15:051:15:07

"Maybe she needs to just stop for a while, she needs to go to rehab..."

1:15:071:15:11

But when you making money for people, you paying their rent,

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they don't want you to stop.

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CHEERING CONTINUES

1:15:171:15:18

Nippy, who made you cry out there? Who made you cry out there?

1:15:181:15:23

Them.

1:15:231:15:25

People forget that they're human beings, and she felt deeply.

1:15:271:15:32

That's how she could bring what she did to songs,

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that's how she could make every song her own.

1:15:381:15:40

How many times did you change?

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MUSIC PLAYS, AUDIENCE CLAP ALONG

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She would have to pull and sing from every place in her, and

1:16:091:16:15

then to couple that with the emotion,

1:16:151:16:17

that takes all of your body.

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Who does that at the level that Whitney Houston did it?

1:16:201:16:24

I haven't seen anybody do it. Not in my lifetime.

1:16:241:16:28

There will always only be one Whitney Houston,

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and to watch the world...

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..receive from her and appreciate her, there aren't words for that.

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And all you can say is, "Drug addict"? Come on. Please!

1:16:401:16:44

# When the tears are clouding up your eyes

1:16:441:16:49

# Just remember it was you, you, you, you, you, you

1:16:511:16:55

# Who said goodbye

1:16:551:16:58

# Who said goodbye

1:16:591:17:01

# You said goodbye

1:17:011:17:11

# I learned from the best I learned from the best

1:17:111:17:16

# I learned from the best Oh! #

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-All right, OK. You got it. You got it.

-Whitney...

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MUSIC PLAYS

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-No, we're not leaving! We're not leaving!

-Wait! We're not leaving.

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-We're not leaving.

-We're not leaving.

1:18:291:18:31

That's right, we're not leaving.

1:18:311:18:33

Get the cars organised. We're not leaving, but get the cars.

1:18:331:18:37

-DAVID ROBERTS:

-It was from one disaster to another disaster.

1:18:391:18:42

There was no order from chaos.

1:18:441:18:46

I can't remember there ever...

1:18:471:18:50

..being a good moment between Robyn and Bobby Brown.

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In my opinion, there came a time

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when even Whitney couldn't tolerate it any more, and Robyn finally left.

1:19:021:19:08

Robyn totally disappeared. I'm assuming they paid her off.

1:19:481:19:50

I don't know. But she just disappeared.

1:19:501:19:53

I never saw her again. And she was everywhere with her before.

1:19:531:19:56

I think they prevented it. I think it was sort of understood

1:20:001:20:03

that they could not connect again.

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It had to be Bobby and Whitney in this family unit.

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I will always say that was the downfall of Whitney.

1:20:091:20:12

Robyn was the person who was keeping her together.

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And I think that's why the drugs became so important to her.

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That was the crutch that she used to get through that.

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The drugs sent her spiralling.

1:20:231:20:26

This is the 72nd annual Academy Awards!

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CHEERING AND APPLAUSE

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We did the rehearsal Friday night.

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She sings the first 12 bars of, um...

1:20:401:20:42

..Somewhere Over The Rainbow...

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..and she's singing her own notes, basically,

1:20:481:20:51

or changing the melody substantially.

1:20:511:20:53

Then a couple of other things just went wrong,

1:20:551:20:58

she came in on the wrong song, and so it just was like a train wreck.

1:20:581:21:03

It was kinda startling.

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It was so dangerous. This is live television.

1:21:071:21:10

And there was no salvation on something like that.

1:21:101:21:14

If she sang the wrong song, nobody would know what to do -

1:21:141:21:17

even Ray Charles wouldn't know how to cover that -

1:21:171:21:19

and how we would jump around, and we'd be scrambling.

1:21:191:21:23

So, you know, the right decision was made.

1:21:231:21:26

Of course, that's a very difficult thing to do at that hour of

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the night, at midnight on a Friday night and the show goes on Sunday,

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to replace her.

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CHEERING

1:21:361:21:39

# If you can't feed your baby... #

1:21:391:21:41

That Michael Jackson concert, when she was emaciated,

1:21:411:21:46

I remember walking in that day. They called me to do her hair.

1:21:461:21:50

And I could not believe what I was seeing.

1:21:501:21:52

And I could hear people saying, "You look fabulous."

1:21:521:21:56

And I'm saying, "No, she doesn't."

1:21:561:21:58

And I take Whitney in the bathroom...

1:21:581:22:00

..and I close the door and I pull her shirt up in the mirror,

1:22:001:22:04

and I say, "Look, you're dying." And she started crying.

1:22:041:22:08

She's like, "I know. I don't know what to do."

1:22:081:22:10

Is it alcohol? Is it marijuana?

1:22:121:22:16

Is it cocaine? Is it pills?

1:22:161:22:18

It has been, at times.

1:22:201:22:23

All?

1:22:231:22:24

At times.

1:22:241:22:25

If you had to name the devil, for you,

1:22:271:22:29

the biggest devil among them...?

1:22:291:22:31

That would be me.

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And then, last September, the biggest blow of all.

1:22:381:22:42

Houston's father, who managed his daughter's finances, joined

1:22:421:22:45

his business partner in a lawsuit against her, demanding 100 million.

1:22:451:22:50

I'm tired of being hurt.

1:22:501:22:52

I'm tired of being...

1:22:551:22:57

..in a neglected state.

1:22:571:22:59

You get your act together, honey...

1:22:591:23:01

..and you pay me the money that you owe me.

1:23:021:23:04

My father is...

1:23:041:23:06

..81, very sick.

1:23:081:23:11

His health is failing.

1:23:121:23:15

The bad part about it is that it's about money.

1:23:151:23:17

And that really sucks.

1:23:181:23:20

That hurts more than anything.

1:23:211:23:24

And when you think it's the dad who dressed you

1:23:241:23:27

and walked you down the aisle...

1:23:271:23:29

What are you thinking?

1:23:311:23:32

That moment.

1:23:351:23:37

-Can we stop, please?

-Sure.

1:23:421:23:45

-Thanks. I'll be back.

-Sure.

1:23:451:23:47

I think the biggest change in her came when her dad disappointed her.

1:23:501:23:57

She was closer to her dad than her mother.

1:24:001:24:03

She was secure in the fact that, "Daddy got my back,

1:24:051:24:09

"Daddy's going to take care of me, he's going to protect me."

1:24:091:24:11

And when that trust was broken for her, I think

1:24:111:24:15

it broke something inside of her that she could never repair.

1:24:151:24:19

She disappeared for a while. I remember I went to ask people,

1:24:281:24:31

"Where's Whitney?"

1:24:311:24:32

Particularly after the show, which was hard,

1:24:321:24:34

she got out of town for a while.

1:24:341:24:36

I heard that she'd moved to Atlanta, and that provided a whole

1:24:371:24:41

other area of, you know, sort of, I guess, a little bit more freedom.

1:24:411:24:45

It's a very fun place, and I think there's less spotlight on you there,

1:24:451:24:51

because she was away from her mother, as well.

1:24:511:24:53

I'm taking water.

1:25:291:25:31

She wanted to be normal.

1:25:481:25:51

Many nights, she'd lay in her bed and cry, cry, cry.

1:25:511:25:55

She missed her dad.

1:25:571:25:59

She loved Bobbi girl so much.

1:26:001:26:02

That was her life.

1:26:041:26:05

-We used to slide down that banister.

-SHE LAUGHS

1:26:101:26:13

Me and Whitney used to slide down here!

1:26:131:26:16

That's probably why... Yeah.

1:26:161:26:17

Remember when I told you that Cissy came to the house for her rehab?

1:26:211:26:27

You see that balcony?

1:26:271:26:29

When I was backing up here with the girls in the car,

1:26:291:26:34

they was like, "No, wait, wait! Look!"

1:26:341:26:37

-She had one leg over.

-INTERVIEWER:

-Over the balcony?

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She said, "If you don't come back, I'm going to jump."

1:26:391:26:42

What could I do? I had to go back.

1:26:421:26:44

Then she jumped out the back window!

1:26:461:26:49

Crazy.

1:26:501:26:52

She was an addict.

1:26:531:26:55

It was an everyday thing.

1:26:571:26:59

I would do my work, but it was, like, after I did the work,

1:26:591:27:03

like, for a whole year or two, it was every day.

1:27:031:27:08

I was still reading my Bible, amazingly enough.

1:27:091:27:12

I would still read my Bible.

1:27:121:27:14

I still had it in me, I knew God was there

1:27:141:27:15

and I knew a light was there, and I was just trying to get back to it.

1:27:151:27:19

I was definitely not happy by that point in time. I was losing myself.

1:27:191:27:24

My mom came and got me twice.

1:27:241:27:26

When it gets to the point where you're sitting in your home

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and you're just trying to cover what you don't want people to know,

1:27:291:27:34

it's painful.

1:27:341:27:36

And then you want more, just so that you don't

1:27:361:27:39

let anybody see you cry.

1:27:391:27:41

You don't want anybody to see that, you know, we're unhappy.

1:27:411:27:45

Whitney said to me her heart was broken.

1:27:461:27:50

She was broken-hearted, you know?

1:27:531:27:56

This was my friend, my sister. She was so loving and generous.

1:27:561:28:02

Why isn't anybody out there rallying for that with the same

1:28:021:28:07

fervour of attack and criticism against her?

1:28:071:28:11

Where is the great appreciation for her contribution to the world?

1:28:111:28:16

Whitney talked about how it was very, very painful for her.

1:28:171:28:22

She was bad at that time, but she wanted help. She wanted help.

1:28:251:28:29

But she didn't want to be in some rich,

1:28:291:28:32

extravagant treatment facility.

1:28:321:28:35

She wanted to be home, she wanted her daughter with her.

1:28:351:28:38

All she wanted to do was be married and raise Krissie and, you know,

1:28:401:28:44

be in love and be happy and give her daughter what she wanted.

1:28:441:28:48

And she wanted to be normal.

1:28:481:28:49

She really didn't care about the fancy clothes, the fancy cars

1:28:491:28:54

and stuff like that. She just wanted to be normal.

1:28:541:28:57

# It's time to make that change

1:28:571:28:59

# People of the world today are failing

1:28:591:29:01

# It's all about ups and downs

1:29:011:29:03

# You're gonna take a fire and you won't be around

1:29:031:29:06

# All we need is a little bit of love

1:29:061:29:08

# Sent by God from Heaven up above. #

1:29:081:29:10

She would say to me,

1:29:101:29:12

"I want to get out of drugs and I want to be a mother to my daughter.

1:29:121:29:17

"I want to take care of my daughter."

1:29:181:29:21

Ready to go work out? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.

1:30:251:30:30

THEY LAUGH

1:30:301:30:32

Come on.

1:30:341:30:35

In the beginning, Bobby was very supportive with Whitney being clean.

1:30:351:30:42

But the third month that we were together, he had

1:30:421:30:45

said that, "This stuff that my wife is doing clean is disturbing to me."

1:30:451:30:53

She started saying no.

1:30:541:30:56

She started taking cars, she started taking houses.

1:30:561:31:00

Why are you looking at me like that?

1:31:001:31:01

THEY LAUGH Your father's a nut.

1:31:011:31:04

So I became the enemy, with Bobby...

1:31:041:31:06

Tell me why!

1:31:101:31:11

..because she said, "I always got to be the ballerina on the stage,

1:31:111:31:15

"singing, pulling in the money to take care of everybody else.

1:31:151:31:22

"And everybody else is working for me. So where do I find time for me?"

1:31:221:31:28

# Need you desperately

1:31:281:31:32

# Can you please tell me

1:31:351:31:40

-# Oh

-Where do broken hearts go?

1:31:401:31:45

# Can they find their way home

1:31:451:31:48

# Back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there, Lord?

1:31:491:31:56

-# If somebody loves you

-If they love you

1:31:561:32:01

# Won't they always love you?

1:32:011:32:04

-# I look in your eyes

-I look in your eyes... #

1:32:041:32:08

At the end, like any other man, you know,

1:32:081:32:13

I guess he started dating, messing around with somebody else,

1:32:131:32:20

which was painful for Whitney.

1:32:201:32:22

He was my drug. I didn't do anything without him.

1:32:261:32:29

I wasn't going out by myself. It was with him.

1:32:291:32:32

We were partners. And that's what my "I" was - him,

1:32:321:32:36

he and I being together. And whatever we did, we did together.

1:32:361:32:39

No matter what, we did it together.

1:32:391:32:41

# No matter how I try

1:32:431:32:47

# You're always... #

1:32:471:32:49

Bobby getting into another relationship was real

1:32:491:32:52

painful for her.

1:32:521:32:54

So I think that's why she reverted back to drugs...

1:32:571:33:01

..because when you're using, you don't care about nothing.

1:33:041:33:07

Especially crack.

1:33:071:33:09

I have to say, for ten years or so

1:33:121:33:16

I started waiting for the phone call that we all finally got...

1:33:161:33:20

..that she had passed.

1:33:221:33:25

When I opened the door...

1:33:311:33:33

..it was dark.

1:33:351:33:37

But...

1:33:371:33:39

..she wasn't in the bed.

1:33:411:33:43

-SHE SIGHS

-She wasn't in the bed.

1:33:511:33:53

SHE SIGHS

1:33:581:34:00

So...

1:34:021:34:04

..I walked into the bathroom.

1:34:081:34:10

My baby was in the tub.

1:34:141:34:17

-SIREN WAILS

-Go, go, go, go, go!

1:34:261:34:28

This is Camera 4 there tonight with Whitney Houston's family,

1:34:551:34:59

including her mother and daughter.

1:34:591:35:02

VOICE FADES OUT

1:35:021:35:04

Oh, God!

1:36:111:36:12

How would I like to be remembered?

1:36:121:36:15

It probably doesn't even matter anyway, because they're

1:36:151:36:18

going to remember me how they want to remember me anyway!

1:36:181:36:20

They're going to write books, write this, write that,

1:36:201:36:23

and everybody's going to have their own idea.

1:36:231:36:25

I don't know, I just think I want people just to remember me

1:36:251:36:28

just being a real nice person!

1:36:281:36:29

You know? Somebody who cared, you know?

1:36:311:36:33

Somebody who tried to do, you know, everybody righteously, you know?

1:36:331:36:38

I don't want to go down for being a hag!

1:36:381:36:41

-You know?

-I don't think you will.

1:36:431:36:45

-Don't worry about it.

-Yeah.

-OK, so that's it for me.

-OK.

-Finished.

1:36:451:36:49

Great. Nice talking to you.

1:36:491:36:51

# Whatever you want

1:36:511:36:55

# Whatever you need

1:36:551:36:58

# Oh, baby

1:36:581:37:00

# Anything you want done, baby

1:37:001:37:03

# I will do it naturally

1:37:031:37:07

-# Cos I'm every woman

-Every woman

1:37:071:37:13

# It's all in me

1:37:131:37:17

# It's all in me

1:37:201:37:30

# Oh!... #

1:37:301:37:31

Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on.

1:37:311:37:35

-# Anything you want

-Anything

1:37:351:37:38

# Anything you want, anything

1:37:381:37:41

# Oh, yeah! #

1:37:411:37:43

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