Just a Few Drinks


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My name is Alan and when I was 14 I had a really bad experience

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due to alcohol.

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I like playing on the Xbox, watching DVDs

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and I enjoy listening to music.

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I like playing football as well, with my mates.

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I've played for two, three football teams and I won a cup with them.

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Although most under-16s never drink alcohol, Alan is one who did.

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At 14, his drinking led to him being rushed into A&E.

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About two years ago, on a Saturday, as usual we went to town.

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Me and a group of friends.

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And for the first two hours we were just skateboarding,

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having a laugh, messing around, it was quite fun.

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And then we got bored a little bit.

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And one of my friends went off and he came back saying, "I've got

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"someone who can get served for us.

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"Shall we get something to drink?"

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In the end, we got some beers.

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One of my friends got some cider

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and I went halves with a mate for some vodka.

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We just really wanted to get drunk because that's

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when all the fun begins.

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Even though it's not true, but that's what you think.

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We probably drank the whole bottle of vodka quite quickly.

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And then after half an hour, it hits you and you're like, "Oh, crap, oh!"

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Once inside the body, alcohol moves from the stomach to the small

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intestine, where it's absorbed into the bloodstream.

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The faster it's absorbed, the sooner you feel drunk.

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Alcohol then interacts with the nervous system,

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slowing down the messages sent from your ears and eyes to the brain.

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As your body's reactions slow down, you become less aware

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of your surroundings and more likely to cause yourself harm.

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After about half an hour, we were thinking that, "Yeah, we're fine."

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Stood up, went to have a go with a skateboard,

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and wasn't really that fine at all.

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And just probably got about ten yards and then flew off.

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Inside the brain,

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the motor cortex initiates the body's muscle movements.

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The cerebellum coordinates these movements, allowing the body

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to move smoothly, but excess alcohol disrupts this functioning,

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so you become uncoordinated and find it difficult to balance.

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Everyone who was around us, they were just laughing at me.

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I wasn't taking it the wrong way, I was laughing my head off as well,

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cos it was funny.

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That's what you do when you're drunk, you act like an idiot.

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But then, as it drags on, you start to get,

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your head starts hurting a little bit.

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You just want to sit down.

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You start to get a little bit more, you know, sulky.

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A little bit more agitated at anything.

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And people just start angering you when they're really just being nice.

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You say, like, "Shut up, leave me alone."

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I'd probably finished off the vodka and had a few beers.

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Two of my friends said they wanted to go to the shop.

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So I went with them,

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didn't go in, I stayed outside with one of them at a bus stop.

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It was me, one of my mates and then a girl who my mate knew anyway,

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I didn't know her.

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That was the worse I'd felt all day.

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My head was spinning and it'd stop and I'd feel fine

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and then it would spin again.

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And my stomach felt like it was upside down.

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And I was just sitting there with my head in my hands, just trying

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to wait for it to all just wear off so I could just go home.

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And I started to hear like a group of men shouting as they were

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walking up on the same side of the road as me.

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And then one of them must have banged on the window.

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And then they shouted something aimed at the girl I was with.

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I'm not usually aggressive.

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If someone I think has done something wrong, I won't argue,

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start shouting abuse at them. I jumped up and started arguing

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with them, definitely to do with the fact that I was drunk.

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Alcohol affects the largest part of the brain, the cerebrum,

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which controls anxieties and inhibitions.

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Drinking too much can lead to overconfidence.

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Excess alcohol also affects the limbic system,

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which controls your emotions,

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inducing sadness,

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tearfulness or, as with Alan, aggression.

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Eventually they came over, we started squaring up to each other.

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And then it looked like one of them was going to like, swing for me

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so I swang for him.

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He just blocked it, picked me up by the throat and threw me

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against the bus stop.

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For a few minutes I didn't really know what had happened.

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And didn't really feel, you know, that I knew where I was.

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And then I went to twist my arm round and it was hurting

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a little a bit until one of my mates lifted my top up and had a look.

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He went, "You've broke your collarbone."

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And the bone was like that, sticking upwards.

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And that was when it started hurting properly.

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I felt a little bit stupid in front of my mates

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because obviously I'd just been "done in" by a group of people.

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And that's obviously not cool.

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One of my friends called 999.

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And I got took to the hospital.

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In the hospital, they had to ring for my mum.

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They put me in a sling which was really,

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really painful to get my arm into place.

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It was like two bones rubbing against each other.

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It was excruciatingly painful.

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My mum was quite shocked because she'd never known me

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to be a drinker.

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She'd just gone from...her son's not a drinker, to...he's in hospital

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because of alcohol abuse.

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Even now, in the morning ,I wake up

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and there's a real ache on all the muscles surrounding

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the collarbone and I have to roll my shoulder for ages

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and sometimes throughout the entire day before it starts feeling OK again.

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Due to the drinking underage, it definitely affected my education

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cos I was off for three weeks, maybe four weeks.

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I can't really play as much sport as I used to.

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I can't play in goal. I can't play rugby.

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Then I was out of PE for six months.

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Had I not been drinking that night, I wouldn't have ended up into a fight.

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I wouldn't have been as aggressive as I was.

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I wouldn't have lost three weeks of school.

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I wouldn't have lost six months of PE.

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And I wouldn't have lost countless nights without sleep.

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My name's Anna.

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I'm 17 and this year I've ruined a friendship due to alcohol.

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I was just like in the normal crowd at school.

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I'm quite awkward with boys,

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like, just talking to them, in case I say the wrong thing.

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I don't mind being a bit quiet and sitting in the corner

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and, like, taking a back seat occasionally.

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Anna lives in the north-west of England.

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This is the story of how a night of drinking alcohol has damaged

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her relationships with her friends.

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It was the first weekend after starting school,

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so everyone was sort of stressed.

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There was a party, all my friends from my social group were there.

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I took some cider. It was quite a big bottle.

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As the alcohol hit me I was a bit more confident,

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so I was milling around talking to people I don't know.

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I was more social than I'd normally be if I hadn't been drinking.

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Once inside the body, alcohol is absorbed into the bloodstream

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through the stomach wall

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and small intestine.

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Drinking on an empty stomach is more dangerous, as without food,

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alcohol enters the bloodstream a lot faster.

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The liver is put under extra pressure and cannot break down all

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the alcohol in the system, leaving it to circulate around vital organs.

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I sat down with my friends from school.

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We just had a drink together.

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As we drank more, we started talking about boys a bit more.

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And usually you don't want to say, "I like him," but once you've had

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a drink, you don't care what people think as much.

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And then with a bit of encouragement from one of my best friends,

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I went over and talked to a guy that I liked.

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He had been dating one of my close friends.

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And she was at that party as well.

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I was flirting with him.

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And I was doing it quite openly, as well.

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I was so much less self-conscious, even after only, like, one drink.

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As alcohol circulates around the bloodstream

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and enters the body's organs, it disrupts the chemistry

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of the cells, changing the way they, and you, behave.

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In the brain, alcohol represses the areas that control your inhibitions,

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making you feel temporarily more outgoing, extroverted and confident.

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I went into the kitchen. I got a bottle of alcopops.

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I got chatting to this other guy I'm sort of friends with from school.

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I don't know him that well.

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I probably wouldn't usually talk to him at school.

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He was flirting with me

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and I wouldn't usually have been interested.

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But after a bit of quite open flirting, he leaned in for a kiss,

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and I kissed him back. Probably, I wouldn't...if I wasn't drunk.

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Alcohol interferes with a hormone called testosterone that

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affects the reproductive system and also sexual attraction.

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It can make females feel more confident

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and increase their sexual desire.

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Recent research suggests alcohol may

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also impede the brain's judgement on the attractiveness of potential

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partners, encouraging decisions that might later be regretted.

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At this point, I'd had, like, the big thing of cider.

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probably about three glasses, I think, equivalent to.

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And then I was on my second alcopop.

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And then I went to find my friends.

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There was a load of us in this bedroom, including the guy who

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I did actually quite like.

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His ex, one of my close friends, was there.

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And I was just flirting with him

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even though she was in the same room.

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We were still having a good time.

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There was, like, a camera going round.

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Me and him were, like, taking pictures of ourselves.

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My close friend left the room, and when everyone had kind of left,

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we started kissing, me and the boy who I quite liked.

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I wouldn't have done that if I was sober, even though him

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and my friend had broken up.

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After we finished kissing,

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I think maybe we did say, "This isn't a good idea.

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"You're good friends with my ex."

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I don't really remember a great deal of it.

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An area of the brain known as the hippocampus

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is responsible for recording new memories.

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Alcohol can prevent this process,

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leading to the brain blacking out events,

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so they can't be remembered.

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The regret did kick in, you know, waking up the next day.

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The more I thought about it,

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the more I was like, "Oh, no, what have I done?"

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And I just kept, like, closing my eyes

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and just wishing that I could go back and not do it.

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And then, you know, got a notification on social media.

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His ex, my close friend, has put these pictures up of you.

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There were a few nice group shots of us all,

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there were pictures of us kissing each other's cheeks.

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And I just had this in the back of my mind.

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"What if there's photos of us actually kissing?"

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My main concern was, "His ex is going to find out

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"and it's going to affect our friendship, and it's going to

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"affect my friendship with all our mutual friends."

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I thought, "OK, maybe I should tell her, you know.

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"I was drunk, so she'll understand that I didn't mean it.

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"I'll just pass it off as, whatever, a drunken mistake."

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So I told her. Um...

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At first, she was fine.

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Like at first, she was just like, "Whatever, I'm over him."

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And then, after a few days, she's like, "I'm really hurt,

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"I'm really angry, I feel betrayed. You should have thought of this."

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But I just, I hadn't thought of it... Like...I was...

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If I hadn't drank, then I wouldn't have got into this mess.

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She's still angry at me for what happened

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and she's still not talking to me now.

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My name is Jordan and when I was 16, drinking caused me

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to be publicly humiliated in front of all of my friends.

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I enjoy reading and writing poetry.

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I can be assertive, but sometimes stubborn.

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When I'm in my room, I don't have a TV, so I'm usually playing music.

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I'm very inquisitive as well.

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Jordan lives in London.

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His experience with alcohol put his life at serious risk.

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I was 16 and I was working at the time.

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One of my friends was having a big party for his birthday

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and I thought, "Yeah, tonight I'm going to get some brandy," cos

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I just got paid and that's what the big boys drink, apparently.

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We went over to the shop and bought two bottles of brandy.

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We had every intention of getting drunk that night.

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It was the first time I'd actually ever bought drink.

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So, yeah, it was a big moment, but it was crazy,

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because it was £70-worth of drink.

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I wanted to have a wild night, I guess,

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because I'd never been drunk before.

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I had money now

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and I didn't really have a care in the world for that one night.

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Then we made our way to the party drinking a bit on the way,

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to get a bit, not drunk, but tipsy, so we were in a nice place

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when we get to the party.

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Alcohol is measured in units which vary, depending on the size

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and strength of the drink.

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A small bottle of medium-strength beer is roughly one unit.

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A small glass of wine is around 1.6 units,

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whilst Jordan's bottle of brandy contained at least 28 units.

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For adults aged 18 or over, it's recommended that men

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shouldn't regularly drink more than three to four units per day

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and women shouldn't regularly drink

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more than two to three units per day.

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We got to the party with the two brandies

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and everyone was like, "Oh, they've brought brandy."

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I wouldn't say we felt like kings, but we felt very powerful, I guess.

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Thought, "Yeah, we're big guys," so we sat at the table,

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put our bottles of brandy down.

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We didn't think about pacing ourselves at all.

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Most of the time I was swigging it from the bottle

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and I didn't know how much I had been drinking...

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and I was drinking it like it's juice.

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We were just drinking, drinking, drinking.

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When you're drunk, you feel a bit more confident in yourself.

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So we was ordering people about, telling them to put on my music.

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Telling them to go shop and get some more drink.

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Telling them to get me some chicken and chips.

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I was having a really good time and then I went to sit down

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and I missed the chair.

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And I was like, "Oh." And then my head started.

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It all happened in the space of about two minutes.

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My head started spinning. I felt sick.

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I was like, "Oh, no." I looked at the bottle, it was empty.

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I was like, "Oh, no, I've had too much to drink."

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It was like everything you imagine it to be like

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when you're absolutely drunk, off your face.

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And it's not a nice thing at all.

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It was a nightmare because the whole party was just spinning around my head.

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As alcohol reaches the liver, it's broken down into water and

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carbon dioxide, which is expelled through sweat, urine and breath.

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But the liver can only break down one unit per hour,

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whereas Jordan had drunk over 15 units.

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Highly dangerous amounts of alcohol and toxins were building up

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in his bloodstream, putting his body at serious risk.

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Then I started being sick.

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After I was sick for the first time, no-one really knew what to do, to be honest.

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Everyone was hanging about like, "Oh, Jordan's been sick."

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And I was just lying there.

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I remember people getting annoyed.

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I just wanted the ground to swallow me up.

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I just wanted to be home and for it to all be over.

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The friend I came with and another friend they said, "No, take him

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"outside to the drive."

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So they've taken me out on the drive and I'm just lying on the floor.

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It was quite messy. I was lying in my own sick a bit.

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I was trying to fall asleep, I think, but I can't really remember.

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Alcohol irritates the stomach

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and can cause it to discharge or vomit its contents.

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Large amounts of alcohol can disrupt the gag-reflex system

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triggered in the throat, which prevents sick entering the lungs.

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If the airways are blocked by vomit,

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breathing can become disrupted, leading to choking, and even death.

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In this state, an individual should never be laid out on their back,

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left alone or allowed to fall asleep.

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Medical advice should be sought immediately.

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No-one knew what to do,

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so they just called my parents to come pick me up.

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I just felt humiliated.

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Throughout the night you don't think about any of the medical effects.

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You just think about how fun it's going to be when you get drunk.

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You don't think about any side effects of what could poss...

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You don't think about possibly being sick.

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But back then, it was like, "Nah, it's never going to happen."

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I woke up the next day without any memory of what had happened.

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I stood up. And as soon as I stood up, the whole room started spinning

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and I had the most banging headache.

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It was a nightmare. My stomach was doing somersaults.

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It was the worse possible thing that could ever happen

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after a night of drinking, I guess.

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I remember I went through stages.

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I felt like I was ill, but I knew what made me ill.

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It was really humiliating, I guess.

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Alcohol is a diuretic, making the body urinate and sweat more.

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Dehydration from loss of water makes the body feel thirsty and weak,

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and increases the heart rate, all of which occur during a hangover.

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The throbbing headache associated with a hangover is thought

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also to be partly caused by alcohol opening up the blood vessels

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to the brain, putting pressure on its protective layers.

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It wasn't worth it at all.

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It sounds a bit extreme, but I could have died that night.

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I didn't really realise

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until probably a few days later how serious it could have been.

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And it's something that you don't think about

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while you're drinking or even probably while you're being sick.

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But it can happen.

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This is Emily and when she was 16,

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alcohol made her vulnerable to a traumatic experience.

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Harry Potter books, I'm like a massive geek about.

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Drawing. I never stop drawing.

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Been told that I'm good at giving advice,

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but not taking my own advice at the same time.

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The following is what Emily remembers of the incident.

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I'd had a bad week, sort of personal problems,

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and I was having a really bad day.

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I was already out with a few mates, we were just in town.

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And one of them was 18 already.

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Everyone was just chilled and having a laugh.

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I was like, "It will cheer me up a bit after the week that I'd had."

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So that was my general idea for going out drinking.

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My mate then went to the shop, bought everyone beer.

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I'd given them money to buy me a bottle of vodka.

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So everyone was just chilled on this field, just all having a drink.

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When I first started drinking, I still felt down

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about having my bad week.

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Then the more I was drinking, the more tipsy, I started having a laugh.

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I could assume I was probably slurring my words.

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I was giggling at everything. Couldn't walk in a straight line.

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I felt better in myself.

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I felt like, "Yeah, I've cheered up a lot now."

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Alcohol affects the brain's chemical messengers,

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called neurotransmitters, which control our thoughts,

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behaviour, movement and emotions.

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Alcohol increases the concentration of two neurotransmitters

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called GABA and dopamine.

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This reduces our inhibitions and

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makes us feel temporarily happier.

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We finished the few of the drinks off

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and we started walking back in towards the town centre.

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I saw a few of my other mates.

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And a couple of them who were 18, 19, said they were going round town

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and asked did I want to go with them.

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So I went with them to a bar not far from where we were.

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I started by getting my friends to buy my drinks at the bar, just

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so I didn't get, like, run the risk of getting ID'd at the bar.

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I was drinking pints. I had a few shots.

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I was drinking quite a lot.

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After a while, I started thinking about how bad my week had been.

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I started getting down. I was like, "I'll have another drink to cheer me up."

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And it wasn't, I just kept feeling worse and worse and started crying.

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And I went outside for some fresh air

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and the minute the fresh air hit me, I felt even more drunk.

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My head was spinning all over the place.

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And I was sick outside.

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I was just, like, crying, being sick.

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I wasn't really aware of what was going on around me.

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The inner ear helps the body stay balanced.

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Alcohol can change the inner ear's sensitivity to gravity,

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making it hard to coordinate your movements,

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and making you feel dizzy, as if everything is spinning around you.

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Alcohol also irritates the stomach where it's

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absorbed into the bloodstream.

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This makes the stomach vomit out its contents.

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So my friends who I was with were saying,

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"Right, well, which one of us are going to get her home?"

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And they were both drunk as well.

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And just as everyone was deciding, who was all sitting in front,

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a lad who we all knew walked past.

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And he came over talking to us and he was like, "Is she OK?"

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They were like, "Yeah, she's just a bit drunk and upset."

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And he was like, "Well, I've not had a drink, so do you want me

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"to get her home and yous can stay in the bar?"

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And my mates were like, "Yeah, OK."

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And he said he was going to walk me to a taxi office.

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So I just left with him.

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And I could not see where I was walking at all.

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I was following him, trusting him to take me somewhere.

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After I'd say about, what felt to me

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about ten or 15 minutes of walking, I realised that we was on a field.

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And my legs buckled underneath me sort of near a ditch.

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And I was laying there.

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I tried to get myself back up and realised that I couldn't move.

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And I tried saying something to him and I couldn't speak.

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And I remember thinking to myself, "Why isn't he helping me back up?"

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And he came to, like, in front of me.

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And he pulled my legs straight and he pulled my dress up.

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I was thinking to myself, "What's he's doing?"

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I was trying to say to myself, "Just push him off, push him off."

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I was proper willing myself and I just couldn't move at all.

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I was like, "Why can't I move?" And I wanted to scream and cry.

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And he lay on top of me and started kissing me.

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And I wasn't responding at all.

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All I wanted to do was get him off me and just scream at him and hit him.

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I wasn't doing anything, he was kissing me.

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He was like, running his hands all over my body.

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And he just carried on and wouldn't get off.

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He tried to do other things.

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He put his hands up my dress and on my legs and everything else.

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He tried doing other stuff.

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I remember, like in my head, screaming as loud as I could,

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just willing myself to actually make a noise.

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And I just couldn't do anything.

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And I don't know how long it had been,

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but to me it felt like for ever.

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He just got up, pulled my dress down, kissed me again

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and just left me in the ditch.

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And I just blacked out at that point.

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Inside Emily's body,

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alcohol was flowing around her bloodstream

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and into her vital organs.

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She eventually lost consciousness,

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and passed out, as her brain shut down.

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Because of what actually happened that night, it ended up

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affecting my mental health more than anything.

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I couldn't sleep in my own bed for a few weeks after that.

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I spent most nights sleeping on the couch.

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I would be crying most nights.

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I'd wake up in the middle of the night and I could feel

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the weight of him on top of me. I could hear his voice in my head.

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If I'd been a bit more sober that night, I wouldn't have said,

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"Oh, yeah, I'm just going to leave with him."

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I'd have asked one of my friends who I knew closer,

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would they come with me? Instead of just going off with some lad

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who I knew the name of and I'd spoke to him a couple of times.

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A lot of my friends were saying, "It wasn't your fault, "it wasn't your fault."

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I blamed myself a lot for a long time.

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And it made me really depressed for a long time as well.

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When I was in school, there was the popular group.

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You'd hear the stories of how good their night was after having

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a few drinks.

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You think, "Yeah, that sounds dead good,"

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but you never heard how ill they were the next day.

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But no-one ever discusses the worst stuff.

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It's just always, "Yeah, it was a fun night."

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