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My name's Georgia Howes, I'm 14. | 0:00:02 | 0:00:04 | |
When I grow up I want to be an architect, actress | 0:00:04 | 0:00:08 | |
and maybe a glamour model, but I'm not sure yet. | 0:00:08 | 0:00:13 | |
My mum wants me to be a glamour model. | 0:00:13 | 0:00:15 | |
That's it. That's the one. | 0:00:16 | 0:00:19 | |
Adolescence is awkward enough for most teenagers, | 0:00:20 | 0:00:24 | |
but what would it be like if your mum was kiss-and-tell queen, | 0:00:24 | 0:00:28 | |
topless model and plastic surgery addict Alicia Douvall? | 0:00:28 | 0:00:32 | |
-I need it. -You don't need plastic surgery. | 0:00:35 | 0:00:38 | |
It's not a need. | 0:00:38 | 0:00:40 | |
Georgia and Alicia have an extraordinary relationship. | 0:00:40 | 0:00:45 | |
I am, a lot of the time, the mother and she's the daughter sometimes. We swap around. | 0:00:45 | 0:00:52 | |
She's more like a sister to me. | 0:00:52 | 0:00:54 | |
Georgia's supposed to be this gorgeous next top model and all she does is study biology | 0:00:54 | 0:01:02 | |
and Macbeth. She came from my womb! How can she be that different? | 0:01:02 | 0:01:08 | |
This film follows them on an unforgettable trip to America... | 0:01:08 | 0:01:13 | |
The bandages are coming off! | 0:01:19 | 0:01:22 | |
-Wasn't quite the holiday we thought it would be, is it? -No. | 0:01:22 | 0:01:27 | |
-You're having a go at me! -No, I'm not. -You are! | 0:01:27 | 0:01:30 | |
There's certain things in the relationship you want to change. | 0:01:30 | 0:01:35 | |
..as Alicia's past collides with Georgia's future. | 0:01:35 | 0:01:40 | |
I'm still trying to decide what to do with my life. | 0:01:40 | 0:01:43 | |
When she was 12, Georgia announced she wanted a boob job like her mum. | 0:01:59 | 0:02:04 | |
Two years on, she's developed opinions of her own. | 0:02:04 | 0:02:08 | |
You're a bad influence. You want me to do topless modelling. | 0:02:08 | 0:02:13 | |
-It's not a bad influence. -It is. -Welcome to the real world. | 0:02:13 | 0:02:17 | |
I'm not going to just ruin my career... | 0:02:17 | 0:02:21 | |
It didn't do Jordan any harm. Or me. | 0:02:21 | 0:02:26 | |
-It just cuts out the competition. If you're prepared to do topless, a lot of girls aren't... -Exactly! | 0:02:26 | 0:02:33 | |
That's for a reason. | 0:02:33 | 0:02:35 | |
It's easier, you get more money, you get guaranteed work | 0:02:35 | 0:02:40 | |
and you'll become famous within... days for taking your top off. How easy is that? | 0:02:40 | 0:02:46 | |
'Being a woman is powerful. | 0:02:46 | 0:02:48 | |
'That's what I try to teach her.' | 0:02:48 | 0:02:51 | |
That's the most important lesson you can teach a girl. Know what? This...is going to get you far. | 0:02:51 | 0:02:59 | |
Britney Spears had a boob job at 16. You've got two years left. | 0:02:59 | 0:03:03 | |
Well, I don't want a boob job, so I don't have two years left. | 0:03:03 | 0:03:08 | |
-She'll change her mind. -I will not! | 0:03:08 | 0:03:11 | |
I will not. | 0:03:12 | 0:03:14 | |
'Before, I was more...' | 0:03:14 | 0:03:17 | |
I wanted surgery because I thought, "Well, she's had it. It's normal. It's just something that you do." | 0:03:17 | 0:03:24 | |
But I think I've been put off of it because I've seen her have so many operations go wrong. | 0:03:24 | 0:03:30 | |
-Do I know best? -Yes, you know best. | 0:03:30 | 0:03:33 | |
Thank you. Really, you slag me off and stuff, | 0:03:33 | 0:03:37 | |
-but at the end of the day, you know I'm right. That's why you follow my lead, isn't it? -Yeah. | 0:03:37 | 0:03:43 | |
One, two, three! | 0:03:53 | 0:03:56 | |
Mwah! | 0:03:56 | 0:03:57 | |
You've got to do this. | 0:03:58 | 0:04:00 | |
Like that. One, two, three! | 0:04:00 | 0:04:03 | |
Mwah! | 0:04:03 | 0:04:05 | |
-I don't know what you did there. -I just go... | 0:04:05 | 0:04:08 | |
-OK. -If you're going to be a model, you've got to do it. | 0:04:08 | 0:04:12 | |
-Just tell me what you want me to do! -Like that. | 0:04:12 | 0:04:16 | |
That's it! | 0:04:17 | 0:04:19 | |
With the eyebrow. I can't do that. My face is paralysed. I can't do the eyebrow. | 0:04:19 | 0:04:25 | |
OK, now do it to camera nicely. Go with the eyebrow like that. | 0:04:25 | 0:04:30 | |
-Like... -To the camera. Yes! That's the one. | 0:04:30 | 0:04:34 | |
Good girl. | 0:04:34 | 0:04:35 | |
It's Saturday morning. Alicia's preparing for a photo shoot, | 0:04:45 | 0:04:50 | |
leaving Georgia to a full morning of homework. | 0:04:52 | 0:04:56 | |
Georgia goes to an exclusive boarding school in Kent. | 0:04:58 | 0:05:02 | |
She spends weekends and holidays in London with her mum. | 0:05:02 | 0:05:06 | |
-Will you do your piano practice today, Georgia? -Mm-hm. | 0:05:10 | 0:05:14 | |
-And can you walk the dog for me? -Yep. | 0:05:15 | 0:05:18 | |
-Chemistry. -Chemistry. | 0:05:19 | 0:05:21 | |
I have to do page 53, question 5. | 0:05:23 | 0:05:26 | |
-Boring(!) -Yeah. -And what else have you got to do? | 0:05:26 | 0:05:30 | |
That's it. The Chemistry will take me about an hour. | 0:05:30 | 0:05:34 | |
-That's an hour wasted. -But I have to do the Chemistry, otherwise you get a minus. | 0:05:34 | 0:05:40 | |
All it takes is another little cross across it and you've got a plus! | 0:05:43 | 0:05:47 | |
Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Put pressure on for your piano because that's a talent. | 0:05:47 | 0:05:55 | |
-Singing and acting. -Mm-hm. -Cos they're actual talents. | 0:05:55 | 0:06:00 | |
Chemistry. | 0:06:00 | 0:06:01 | |
-You don't need that. That comes naturally. -Does it? | 0:06:01 | 0:06:06 | |
It does, honestly. Naturally. | 0:06:06 | 0:06:09 | |
So you know what sodium sulphate plus magnesium... magnesium oxide is? | 0:06:09 | 0:06:15 | |
And? | 0:06:16 | 0:06:18 | |
I could become a chemistry-ologist or...you know. | 0:06:20 | 0:06:24 | |
I could cure cancer because of that textbook. | 0:06:24 | 0:06:28 | |
-Do it, then. -Yeah. | 0:06:30 | 0:06:33 | |
You can text me and tell me how it goes. | 0:06:39 | 0:06:43 | |
-You text me. Keep in touch. -I will. | 0:06:43 | 0:06:46 | |
-See you later! -Bye! | 0:06:46 | 0:06:48 | |
-Bye! Love you lots! -Love you, too. | 0:06:48 | 0:06:50 | |
"Experiment to investigate the rate of decomposition on a hydrogen peroxide solution | 0:07:01 | 0:07:06 | |
"in the presence of magnesium oxide." Yeah. Sounds interesting. | 0:07:06 | 0:07:12 | |
SHE PLAYS | 0:07:24 | 0:07:26 | |
No. | 0:07:30 | 0:07:31 | |
I enjoy acting and music and things. | 0:07:34 | 0:07:38 | |
I like that when you're acting you can just do what you want, really, | 0:07:38 | 0:07:44 | |
be another character. | 0:07:44 | 0:07:47 | |
When I'm acting, it makes me feel more alive, I suppose, and there's not as many troubles | 0:07:47 | 0:07:54 | |
and you can pretend to be someone else, learn about them, and all their emotions and feelings. | 0:07:54 | 0:08:01 | |
Although Georgia's never met her real father, her godfather Paul has been a family friend for years. | 0:08:10 | 0:08:16 | |
When Georgia was a baby, Alicia was abandoned, homeless and sleeping in a hostel. | 0:08:18 | 0:08:24 | |
-Hello! -He helped Alicia out of a tough situation | 0:08:24 | 0:08:29 | |
and has always taken a keen interest in Georgia's education. | 0:08:29 | 0:08:34 | |
These are all home-made, by the way. | 0:08:34 | 0:08:36 | |
-Mmm! -Aaah! -Georgia! | 0:08:36 | 0:08:39 | |
There you go. Someone's happy. | 0:08:40 | 0:08:43 | |
-That's yours. Look at that - yum! -She won't eat a whole one. | 0:08:43 | 0:08:48 | |
Do your best. There you go. | 0:08:48 | 0:08:50 | |
Alicia wants Georgia to skip sixth form in favour of stage school. Paul has other ideas. | 0:08:50 | 0:08:57 | |
If you've got your A Levels and a degree, | 0:08:57 | 0:09:03 | |
not in Medieval Literature, but if you've got a degree in drama and arts, | 0:09:03 | 0:09:09 | |
apart from anything else, you've had three years of drinking lager, wearing funny clothes, | 0:09:09 | 0:09:14 | |
having no responsibility, wandering around Europe on your weeks off. That's not too bad, is it? | 0:09:14 | 0:09:21 | |
But if she goes to drama school, it's what she wants to do. | 0:09:21 | 0:09:25 | |
I think she's such a good actress that she will make it anyway. She doesn't need a back-up plan. | 0:09:25 | 0:09:31 | |
-Keira Knightley made it. -And then you can't get a proper job ever cos you're stuck. | 0:09:31 | 0:09:37 | |
That's that. You'll wander around the world, never have any money... | 0:09:37 | 0:09:43 | |
-Like Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt... -Living hand to mouth. | 0:09:43 | 0:09:46 | |
What Alicia, to me, needs to do | 0:09:46 | 0:09:50 | |
'is to let go of her own frustrated ambitions. | 0:09:50 | 0:09:55 | |
'And say, look,' | 0:09:55 | 0:09:59 | |
Georgia's going to make her own choices in life, in due course. | 0:09:59 | 0:10:03 | |
Give her all the different opportunities that she can have so she has the biggest range of choice. | 0:10:03 | 0:10:10 | |
Despite his different views, Paul does understand Alicia's mindset. | 0:10:10 | 0:10:15 | |
Georgia's now unfurling her wings and she's getting ready to leave the nest and Alicia's scared. | 0:10:15 | 0:10:21 | |
And Alicia's trying to kind of keep her in the church of glamour | 0:10:21 | 0:10:25 | |
because that's what Alicia knows and feels safe with. | 0:10:25 | 0:10:29 | |
"If Georgia becomes a chartered accountant or a vet, I've lost her." | 0:10:29 | 0:10:34 | |
'This morning, Georgia and Alicia are off to a cosmetics clinic.' | 0:10:55 | 0:10:59 | |
-Is your routine in the morning as complicated as your mum's routine? -Em... | 0:11:01 | 0:11:08 | |
I don't know if it's as complicated, maybe. I just wash my face, brush my teeth. | 0:11:09 | 0:11:16 | |
-You don't like wearing that much makeup? -No, I don't really. | 0:11:19 | 0:11:23 | |
I think it's bad for your skin, really, and your eyelashes and things. | 0:11:23 | 0:11:31 | |
-So you like to look natural? -Yeah. | 0:11:31 | 0:11:34 | |
'Alicia's going to get her lipstick and eyebrows tattooed on, while Georgia is just in for a manicure.' | 0:11:37 | 0:11:45 | |
My mum does look pretty when she wears all her makeup and her dress and everything. | 0:11:46 | 0:11:53 | |
-Do you think she's beautiful? -Yeah, I do think she's beautiful. | 0:11:55 | 0:12:00 | |
I'm not sure if she thinks she's beautiful. | 0:12:03 | 0:12:07 | |
We had a discussion before and she said, | 0:12:07 | 0:12:11 | |
"I'm not perfect." I said, "No one is perfect." And she said, "I'm far off perfect, though." | 0:12:11 | 0:12:16 | |
Georgie, are you ready, darling? | 0:12:16 | 0:12:19 | |
Because my mum is quite obsessed with her appearance, I think it makes me not so obsessed. | 0:12:39 | 0:12:46 | |
Basically, I'd like to get rid of... I've got this. I'm not sure if it's my own fat. | 0:12:46 | 0:12:53 | |
I had filler put in years ago and it's not permanent filler but it's never come out. | 0:12:53 | 0:12:59 | |
I like to look nice. It's nice when people say, "Oh, you look nice." | 0:12:59 | 0:13:04 | |
I don't think I try that hard. It's an all-girls school. It doesn't really matter. | 0:13:06 | 0:13:12 | |
I think a lot of people judge you at the moment because in magazines | 0:13:12 | 0:13:17 | |
there's people who look really pretty. | 0:13:17 | 0:13:20 | |
A lot of people in my school are pressured by that. | 0:13:20 | 0:13:23 | |
So this is the opposite to filler. I'm having filler taken out. | 0:13:23 | 0:13:28 | |
I made mistakes before. | 0:13:28 | 0:13:31 | |
This man's going to sort them out, sort all my mistakes in life out. | 0:13:32 | 0:13:37 | |
Now it sometimes feels like an electric shock, sometimes warm | 0:13:37 | 0:13:42 | |
and if you leave it, it gets hot. | 0:13:42 | 0:13:44 | |
OK, a tiny scratch coming up. | 0:13:44 | 0:13:47 | |
Well done. Very good. Now... | 0:13:47 | 0:13:50 | |
Let me know if you feel anything. | 0:13:50 | 0:13:53 | |
Ahh! Yeah. | 0:13:54 | 0:13:56 | |
As well as her firm views on body image, having a celebrity mum has also given Georgia | 0:14:00 | 0:14:07 | |
an interesting perspective on fame. | 0:14:07 | 0:14:10 | |
Most girls in my class probably want to be famous and do singing and acting. | 0:14:10 | 0:14:15 | |
A lot of people want fame like Britney | 0:14:15 | 0:14:19 | |
or an actress, the red carpet and everything. | 0:14:19 | 0:14:23 | |
And what about you? Do you really want to be famous? | 0:14:23 | 0:14:28 | |
I wouldn't... I wouldn't want to be famous, but I want to be an actress | 0:14:28 | 0:14:33 | |
and I want to be successful at it and to enjoy what I'm doing. | 0:14:33 | 0:14:37 | |
I like acting, so I'd enjoy it. I wouldn't do it just for fame. | 0:14:37 | 0:14:41 | |
-Georgia, when you're older, are you wanting to have all this done...? -No. | 0:14:57 | 0:15:03 | |
-You'd stay more natural? -Yeah, I'm fine with my own eyebrows, | 0:15:03 | 0:15:07 | |
just having them, you know. | 0:15:07 | 0:15:10 | |
Thank you! | 0:15:14 | 0:15:16 | |
Your eyelashes and your eyebrows look really good. | 0:15:17 | 0:15:22 | |
You look lovely. | 0:15:22 | 0:15:24 | |
-So do you. -Are you pleased with it? | 0:15:24 | 0:15:28 | |
# Don't wanna be second best | 0:15:28 | 0:15:30 | |
# Don't wanna stand in line Don't wanna fall behind... # | 0:15:30 | 0:15:37 | |
Although Alicia is keen to see her daughter rise to stardom, | 0:15:38 | 0:15:43 | |
she still worries about the damaging effects her notoriety could have on Georgia. | 0:15:43 | 0:15:48 | |
It's Sunday morning. A secret affair between Alicia and England's football captain John Terry | 0:15:48 | 0:15:55 | |
has hit the papers. It's dragged Alicia into one of the biggest tabloid scandals of the year. | 0:15:55 | 0:16:01 | |
Georgia's doing her Duke of Edinburgh camping and stuff | 0:16:02 | 0:16:07 | |
so she's all right. | 0:16:07 | 0:16:08 | |
I'm pleased she's not around anyway today, | 0:16:12 | 0:16:16 | |
because of the paper. | 0:16:16 | 0:16:18 | |
-Because of what? -You know. (The paper.) | 0:16:19 | 0:16:22 | |
It's nice to protect her from that, you know. | 0:16:22 | 0:16:26 | |
Does it worry you, her seeing the papers sometimes? | 0:16:32 | 0:16:36 | |
I wouldn't like to think my mum's a slag, would you? | 0:16:37 | 0:16:42 | |
Not many 14-year-olds have got their mother in the newspaper... | 0:16:42 | 0:16:46 | |
..being linked to footballers. | 0:16:49 | 0:16:51 | |
A few days later, Alicia's decided to tell Georgia to stop her hearing it from someone else first. | 0:17:01 | 0:17:08 | |
-Georgie turns a blind eye to my antics. -Yeah. | 0:17:08 | 0:17:12 | |
I don't know. It's just... I'm not going to have a go at you or something, am I? | 0:17:12 | 0:17:19 | |
Basically, I was in the papers with this whole John Terry thing. Just vaguely I was part of it. | 0:17:19 | 0:17:25 | |
And obviously it's not very nice and it's not true. Well, it is true, but it's exaggerated in the papers | 0:17:25 | 0:17:31 | |
to make me look like a slapper. | 0:17:31 | 0:17:34 | |
Did anyone talk to you about it, Georgia? Did anyone you know see it? | 0:17:34 | 0:17:38 | |
-No, no one told me about it. -That's good, that's good. | 0:17:38 | 0:17:42 | |
-I don't think many of my 14-year-old friends read... -The papers. -Yeah. -So it's fine. | 0:17:42 | 0:17:48 | |
So no harm done there, then. | 0:17:48 | 0:17:51 | |
Just ignore it, you know. | 0:17:51 | 0:17:54 | |
-I do anyway. -And you know I'm not like that. Mummy doesn't climb in the back of cars, does she? -No. | 0:17:54 | 0:18:01 | |
-So it doesn't really bother you, then, Georgia? -No, it doesn't affect me, really. | 0:18:03 | 0:18:10 | |
-What counts is that I'm a good mother. -Yeah. | 0:18:10 | 0:18:13 | |
I'm proud that she's kind of amazing. She's done something with her life and everything. | 0:18:13 | 0:18:19 | |
But every time she's in a magazine, there's always a positive part, | 0:18:19 | 0:18:24 | |
but I'd say 60% of the magazine is always a negative part. | 0:18:24 | 0:18:30 | |
So I never want to read them, really, cos it's not what I want to hear about her. | 0:18:30 | 0:18:36 | |
I know more cos I live with her and I talk to her. | 0:18:36 | 0:18:40 | |
-It's not a best friend! -We hang out together, do everything together! -You're not a best friend, though. | 0:18:52 | 0:18:58 | |
-Oh, thanks(!) -You're related to me! You're like a best friend in a different way! You're my mum! | 0:18:58 | 0:19:04 | |
You can't be more than one thing. | 0:19:04 | 0:19:07 | |
-Hard as nails, this girl. Hard as nails. -I love you, too. You're the best friend I ever had(!) | 0:19:07 | 0:19:14 | |
-I was only joking! -Oh, I forgot to laugh, it was so funny(!) | 0:19:14 | 0:19:19 | |
Right. Water. | 0:19:29 | 0:19:31 | |
-I am your friend really, though, aren't I? -Mm-hm. -Thank you. | 0:19:38 | 0:19:43 | |
Although Georgia seems relatively unfazed by tabloid gossip, | 0:19:44 | 0:19:49 | |
one thing in her mum's life does concern her - Alicia's addiction to plastic surgery. | 0:19:49 | 0:19:55 | |
Despite being diagnosed with body dysmorphia, she's now planning her 16th boob job. | 0:19:55 | 0:20:02 | |
-Everyone says she has big boobs. -I haven't got big boobs. -You have! | 0:20:02 | 0:20:07 | |
-OK? -I've got big as in normal big, but I haven't got big, big. | 0:20:07 | 0:20:12 | |
-But no one wants big, big. -I want big, big. -You don't. -I do. | 0:20:12 | 0:20:17 | |
-Well, you go do that. -That's what I'm trying to do. -You'll regret it and get smaller again! | 0:20:17 | 0:20:23 | |
-I'm just saying you'll regret it. There's no-one to stop you. -I need it. | 0:20:23 | 0:20:30 | |
-You don't need plastic surgery. It's not a need. -I do need it. You don't understand. | 0:20:30 | 0:20:36 | |
It's like me needing...I don't know. A bag. I've already got one. | 0:20:36 | 0:20:41 | |
I haven't... Georgia, you said yourself my face needs doing. | 0:20:41 | 0:20:45 | |
-No, you don't. -You said it yourself. | 0:20:45 | 0:20:48 | |
If you want to do something to your face, you can, but you don't need to touch anything else, OK? | 0:20:48 | 0:20:55 | |
-How can I get my face done if I don't get my boobs done? -That has nothing to do with your face! | 0:20:55 | 0:21:02 | |
It's only a little bit, a size bigger. Might as well at the same time... | 0:21:02 | 0:21:08 | |
You're making me lose this game, I'm afraid. You don't need anything done to your boobs. | 0:21:08 | 0:21:14 | |
-I just need... -You don't! | 0:21:14 | 0:21:17 | |
If you get your boobs bigger, you'll just look like an ugly blow-up doll. | 0:21:17 | 0:21:23 | |
-What do you know about body dysmorphia? -It's when you're obsessed with your appearance | 0:21:25 | 0:21:32 | |
and you, em... | 0:21:32 | 0:21:34 | |
..you just want to change it all the time when you see someone else. You think you're ugly. | 0:21:34 | 0:21:41 | |
-Do you think it has affected you? -No, not really. | 0:21:41 | 0:21:46 | |
Maybe. | 0:21:46 | 0:21:48 | |
-I don't know. -I haven't got body dysmorphia, though, so this is pointless. | 0:21:48 | 0:21:53 | |
No, you haven't got body dysmorphia. You're just in denial. | 0:21:53 | 0:21:58 | |
-She doesn't care. -I do care, but you've led me to the point of not caring | 0:21:58 | 0:22:04 | |
because you don't give me a choice. You said yourself, you can do what you want. | 0:22:04 | 0:22:09 | |
I can't tell you what to do, so... | 0:22:09 | 0:22:12 | |
You know? | 0:22:14 | 0:22:16 | |
If you enjoy...having surgery, then whatever makes you happy. | 0:22:16 | 0:22:21 | |
Everything's back to front in this house! | 0:22:38 | 0:22:42 | |
Even the dog's back to front. | 0:22:42 | 0:22:45 | |
Alicia's been told by therapists that her problems stem from abuse she suffered during her childhood. | 0:22:45 | 0:22:52 | |
'I think' | 0:22:53 | 0:22:55 | |
it does sometimes get me down, maybe. | 0:22:55 | 0:22:58 | |
-What does? What gets you down? -Her having surgery, I suppose. | 0:22:58 | 0:23:03 | |
I think she's wasting her time, money and pain | 0:23:03 | 0:23:08 | |
on just having surgery that she doesn't need done. | 0:23:08 | 0:23:12 | |
It's like a therapy that she feels she has to have. | 0:23:12 | 0:23:16 | |
It's like who wants to go and see someone in their family go and have an operation | 0:23:16 | 0:23:22 | |
for something? And the fact that she's self-inflicting it. No point. | 0:23:22 | 0:23:26 | |
It's half-term and Alicia's taking Georgia on one of their regular trips to Los Angeles. | 0:23:32 | 0:23:39 | |
She's planned for Georgia to meet a model agency there who are interested in signing her up. | 0:23:45 | 0:23:52 | |
# Go west Paradise is there | 0:23:52 | 0:23:57 | |
# You'll have all that you can eat | 0:23:57 | 0:24:00 | |
# Of milk and honey over there | 0:24:00 | 0:24:03 | |
# You'll be the brightest star the world has ever seen | 0:24:04 | 0:24:08 | |
# Sun-baked slender heroine | 0:24:09 | 0:24:12 | |
# Of film and magazine... # | 0:24:12 | 0:24:15 | |
Unfortunately, the holiday hasn't got off to the best start. | 0:24:15 | 0:24:20 | |
Can I just say, Cindy, I'm deformed right now? I feel awful. | 0:24:20 | 0:24:25 | |
I am absolutely devastated. I've looked in the mirror and my breast is completely deformed. | 0:24:25 | 0:24:32 | |
OK, but can I just explain to you? It's very hard for me to do a picture and it's clear what's happened. | 0:24:32 | 0:24:38 | |
The implant I can see, because I'm skinny, has flipped upside down. | 0:24:38 | 0:24:42 | |
It's literally happened overnight. | 0:24:42 | 0:24:45 | |
I got here last night so it might have been the plane journey. I don't know how. | 0:24:45 | 0:24:52 | |
But I woke up, got in the shower and my breast is deformed. | 0:24:52 | 0:24:57 | |
It's bulky at the top and nothing at the bottom. | 0:24:57 | 0:25:00 | |
Yeah, but I am seriously needing to sort this out right now. I am deformed. | 0:25:01 | 0:25:07 | |
I don't want to spend a minute looking like this. | 0:25:07 | 0:25:12 | |
I don't... | 0:25:13 | 0:25:15 | |
This morning, when I got up with my mum, | 0:25:19 | 0:25:23 | |
her breast implant has turned. | 0:25:23 | 0:25:25 | |
So at the moment she's just trying to get someone to help her with it and sort it out. | 0:25:25 | 0:25:31 | |
I don't know what to do. | 0:25:31 | 0:25:33 | |
-There's nothing you can do. -I have to be proactive! | 0:25:34 | 0:25:38 | |
-You have to wait for them to do it. -I can't just sit here and wait for a phone call! | 0:25:38 | 0:25:44 | |
I have to do something. | 0:25:44 | 0:25:47 | |
Today we're supposed to be going to a model agency, | 0:25:47 | 0:25:51 | |
but we have to sort this out first. | 0:25:51 | 0:25:54 | |
You look nice. | 0:25:55 | 0:25:57 | |
-Thank you. You do, too. -No, I don't, Georgie. | 0:25:57 | 0:26:02 | |
-You do. I was thinking that. -I don't look good! I don't. | 0:26:02 | 0:26:07 | |
-You look lovely. -Thank you. | 0:26:12 | 0:26:15 | |
-So I'll take you to your modelling agency, yeah? -Yeah. | 0:26:17 | 0:26:21 | |
-You want to go? -Yep. | 0:26:21 | 0:26:24 | |
All right. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:26 | |
You look pretty. It would be a shame not to go. | 0:26:27 | 0:26:31 | |
# There's a drumming noise inside my head that starts when you're around | 0:26:35 | 0:26:41 | |
# I swear that you could hear it... # | 0:26:41 | 0:26:44 | |
If the agency decide to sign Georgia up, today could mark the start of a Stateside modelling career, | 0:26:44 | 0:26:51 | |
following in the footsteps of her mum. | 0:26:51 | 0:26:55 | |
The main thing for me is just to get this done. I'm a model. I've had to cancel two shoots already | 0:26:55 | 0:27:01 | |
because I can't work with my breast implant upside down. | 0:27:01 | 0:27:06 | |
You've got to go in there with loads of confidence. Shoulders back. | 0:27:10 | 0:27:15 | |
You've got to fake it until you make it, yeah? | 0:27:15 | 0:27:18 | |
-Hi. -Hi. -How are you? | 0:27:24 | 0:27:27 | |
-What's your name? -I'm Alicia. This is Georgia. -Nice to see you guys. | 0:27:27 | 0:27:33 | |
-And you are...5ft 2? -Yeah, I think so. | 0:27:33 | 0:27:37 | |
-Let me have you walk for me. Let's do 12-14. She looks really youthful. -Yeah. | 0:27:37 | 0:27:43 | |
Very good. | 0:27:48 | 0:27:50 | |
She's got a really cute look. What we need to do is be able to get together | 0:27:50 | 0:27:56 | |
and talk about the issues with her moving here, with her signing with the agency. | 0:27:56 | 0:28:02 | |
-Good news! Happy? -Yeah. | 0:28:03 | 0:28:06 | |
-(It's embarrassing.) -Why? -Walking. -Why is it embarrassing? | 0:28:06 | 0:28:11 | |
-You've got to be more comfortable. It's all in your head. -Mm-hm. | 0:28:11 | 0:28:16 | |
-Are you happy? -Yeah. Can you stop doing that, please? | 0:28:16 | 0:28:21 | |
-She's never happy. -I am! I said I was happy! | 0:28:21 | 0:28:25 | |
-You're not happy, are you? -I am! | 0:28:25 | 0:28:28 | |
-You can't tell me what I'm feeling. You're annoying me. You keep... -I'd be like, "Wicked! Woo!" | 0:28:28 | 0:28:34 | |
Yeah, I'm happy! I am. I don't have to be over-exaggerating, like, "Woo!" | 0:28:34 | 0:28:40 | |
I'm fine. | 0:28:40 | 0:28:42 | |
Over the next few days, Alicia focuses all her efforts on finding the right surgeon | 0:28:46 | 0:28:52 | |
for the repair job on her breast. | 0:28:52 | 0:28:54 | |
Teardrop shapes are more expensive. "Big implants cause drooping over time." | 0:28:58 | 0:29:04 | |
I wondered if he was around today or tomorrow so I could just pop in and see if he could flip it. | 0:29:06 | 0:29:13 | |
Oh, I had them done like... a year and a half ago. | 0:29:13 | 0:29:17 | |
No, no, they're not new. Could it have been the aeroplane that's done this? | 0:29:17 | 0:29:23 | |
Obviously I can't do some things that I'd like to do, like go to the beach. | 0:29:23 | 0:29:28 | |
She doesn't want to wear a bikini or go swimming. | 0:29:28 | 0:29:32 | |
MUFFLED How would you like it if you had a tit like that and a tit like that? | 0:29:32 | 0:29:38 | |
We waited here the last time, when she was having her appointment, for the whole morning. | 0:29:39 | 0:29:46 | |
Now we're waiting again. | 0:29:47 | 0:29:50 | |
-Is this the first time you've been affected by your mum's plastic surgery? -No. | 0:29:53 | 0:29:58 | |
It's not the first time. A lot of the time if we go to America, | 0:29:58 | 0:30:03 | |
that's where all the plastic surgeons are and she usually gets something done. | 0:30:03 | 0:30:09 | |
Unable to ignore the potential profits in her plastic surgery disasters, | 0:30:10 | 0:30:16 | |
Alicia's invited a British tabloid to cover the story. | 0:30:16 | 0:30:20 | |
Literally massive like that. Red and veins popping out. | 0:30:20 | 0:30:24 | |
Basically, the implant had burst, so I've had that problem before, | 0:30:24 | 0:30:29 | |
but this time it has moved and caused internal bleeding. | 0:30:29 | 0:30:34 | |
You can't see it, can you? | 0:30:35 | 0:30:38 | |
It's there now. | 0:30:38 | 0:30:40 | |
This morning when I spoke to you, ten minutes ago it was at the side. | 0:30:40 | 0:30:44 | |
You can see when you have your arms back like this, you can see on the side that it's moved. | 0:30:44 | 0:30:51 | |
-Can you? -Yeah. -Ever so slightly. | 0:30:51 | 0:30:54 | |
Because of the complications Alicia's had in the past, | 0:30:58 | 0:31:02 | |
most surgeons are reluctant to work on her, but a detached implant is dangerous and needs to be fixed. | 0:31:02 | 0:31:09 | |
She'll see if she can get me in. She said they've got nothing, so I might have to stay longer. | 0:31:09 | 0:31:15 | |
We might be stuck here longer than we thought, due to Mummy's tits. | 0:31:15 | 0:31:20 | |
-You'll get worried about missing two weeks of school. -Yeah. | 0:31:23 | 0:31:28 | |
We're going into GCSEs and I have got quite a lot of lessons in those two weeks. | 0:31:28 | 0:31:34 | |
It's important for me to go to them. When I go back and I have to catch up on so much, | 0:31:34 | 0:31:40 | |
it'll seem like overload. | 0:31:40 | 0:31:43 | |
But it's two weeks off school. | 0:31:44 | 0:31:47 | |
-You'll miss two weeks. -That's quite a lot. | 0:31:47 | 0:31:50 | |
I have six lessons a day and they're fully packed with stuff. | 0:31:50 | 0:31:56 | |
Two weeks. And then the week that I get back, | 0:31:56 | 0:31:58 | |
it'll be schoolwork plus homework, plus the last two weeks, | 0:31:58 | 0:32:02 | |
-plus the last two weeks' catching up work. -What I'm saying is take home tutoring in nice, sunny LA, | 0:32:02 | 0:32:09 | |
I recover with my boobs and we stay here for, like, it could be up to a month. | 0:32:09 | 0:32:16 | |
A month? | 0:32:16 | 0:32:18 | |
We're here for a week, another week for the operation and one to recover. | 0:32:18 | 0:32:24 | |
-It could be three weeks. -OK. -But obviously you only need two weeks of home tutoring. | 0:32:24 | 0:32:30 | |
Yeah. | 0:32:30 | 0:32:32 | |
-I'll buy you new clothes. -I don't care if you buy me new clothes. | 0:32:32 | 0:32:36 | |
-Or you can get on a plane by yourself? -No, I'll stay. | 0:32:40 | 0:32:45 | |
Hopefully people will feel sorry for you because of who your mum is. | 0:33:04 | 0:33:08 | |
-People think it must be awful living with a mum like that. -If they say that, "You don't live with her, | 0:33:08 | 0:33:15 | |
-"so maybe you can't judge." -Yeah. Thank you. | 0:33:15 | 0:33:19 | |
Every single day, my reputation affects Georgia. | 0:33:19 | 0:33:23 | |
People judge Georgia on my reputation. Of course they do. | 0:33:23 | 0:33:27 | |
They think Georgie is going to be like what my perceived... um, persona is. | 0:33:27 | 0:33:34 | |
And people are shocked because she is the complete opposite to me. | 0:33:34 | 0:33:39 | |
She'll probably find it a struggle all through her life because she'll be tarnished with her mother's name. | 0:33:39 | 0:33:46 | |
Being my daughter, she's tarnished. | 0:33:46 | 0:33:49 | |
And the rest of your life, you'll have to work harder and prove yourself more | 0:33:49 | 0:33:56 | |
-just because you're my daughter. -Mm-hm. -That's what'll happen. | 0:33:56 | 0:34:00 | |
-I'm phoning for my tits now. -OK. | 0:34:00 | 0:34:03 | |
As the day goes on, discussions about Georgia's future continue. | 0:34:04 | 0:34:09 | |
You've got to go out and prove what a lovely person you are and a talented actress and prove everyone wrong. | 0:34:09 | 0:34:15 | |
Everyone's pointing the finger at me. If anyone says it, just deny it. Say, "That's not my mum." | 0:34:15 | 0:34:21 | |
-Why would I do that? -I'm giving you permission. | 0:34:21 | 0:34:25 | |
-I'll just say, "That's your own opinion." -I'm giving you permission. -They won't affect me. I don't care. | 0:34:25 | 0:34:33 | |
-But just deny it. -Why? I'm not going to be ashamed of who you are. | 0:34:33 | 0:34:37 | |
Awww. | 0:34:37 | 0:34:39 | |
Cos you're funny, you're kind, | 0:34:39 | 0:34:41 | |
but you're... | 0:34:41 | 0:34:43 | |
What's the word? | 0:34:43 | 0:34:45 | |
-Beautiful? -Yeah... | 0:34:46 | 0:34:48 | |
Determined and caring. | 0:34:48 | 0:34:52 | |
-A sandwich short of a picnic? -Yep. | 0:34:52 | 0:34:55 | |
Em... | 0:34:55 | 0:34:56 | |
Like, you do what's best for me. You... | 0:34:56 | 0:35:01 | |
-Do you wish you had another mum? -No! | 0:35:01 | 0:35:03 | |
One that didn't have to do boob jobs when they turn upside down? | 0:35:03 | 0:35:08 | |
No, I mean, it would be nice if you didn't, | 0:35:08 | 0:35:12 | |
-but I wouldn't want to swap you. -Would you not? -No. | 0:35:12 | 0:35:17 | |
As well as visiting surgeons, Alicia's made an appointment with her LA therapist. | 0:35:21 | 0:35:27 | |
She receives ongoing counselling for problems from her childhood trauma. | 0:35:30 | 0:35:34 | |
Today she's taking Georgia with her. | 0:35:34 | 0:35:38 | |
She doesn't get excited. | 0:35:39 | 0:35:41 | |
-Even if something good happens, she doesn't get excited. -My excitement is different to yours. | 0:35:41 | 0:35:48 | |
-Exactly. Say that again. -My excitement is different to yours. | 0:35:48 | 0:35:52 | |
You might feel like jumping up and down, screaming. I'm just happy in myself. | 0:35:52 | 0:35:58 | |
-I don't know. -You two are very different. | 0:36:01 | 0:36:05 | |
You're wanting her maybe to be like you. | 0:36:05 | 0:36:09 | |
And you're wanting to be yourself and maybe not like your mom. | 0:36:09 | 0:36:13 | |
But you're passionate and your daughter is more reticent. | 0:36:13 | 0:36:18 | |
-Then why does she want to be an actress? -Ask her that. -Why? | 0:36:18 | 0:36:23 | |
-Cos I enjoy it. -Why do you enjoy it if you're the opposite to me? | 0:36:23 | 0:36:27 | |
I don't have to feel the same to enjoy the same things. | 0:36:27 | 0:36:32 | |
What do you want for your daughter? Let's talk about the physical. | 0:36:32 | 0:36:36 | |
I'd like her obviously to let me know when she's not happy. | 0:36:36 | 0:36:41 | |
I brought her up like my sister, so I don't have boundaries about what not to say in front of her | 0:36:41 | 0:36:47 | |
-or you know... Sometimes I'd like her to say, "No, don't do that." -I do say that. | 0:36:47 | 0:36:54 | |
-No, you don't. -I do. | 0:36:54 | 0:36:56 | |
There's certain things in the relationship that you want to look at and change. | 0:36:56 | 0:37:02 | |
You do want to be the mom. And she's not your sister. | 0:37:02 | 0:37:06 | |
-So you want to look at... -But she's my sister sometimes. And we're friends sometimes. | 0:37:06 | 0:37:12 | |
-It's easier that way. -For whom? | 0:37:12 | 0:37:15 | |
We get on all the time. When you're a mum, you're in battle with them, but we get on like Siamese twins. | 0:37:16 | 0:37:23 | |
-I know and that's lovely. Whether you get along as Siamese twins... -It's unique. | 0:37:23 | 0:37:29 | |
But you are still the mom whether you are friends, twins... | 0:37:29 | 0:37:34 | |
Look at the ways you can take care of her. What do you need from her? | 0:37:34 | 0:37:39 | |
Just... Maybe to listen more. | 0:37:39 | 0:37:43 | |
-To be honest, I did try. I got her into... -Hold on. | 0:37:43 | 0:37:47 | |
What happens is she says something and you go into your own thing. It's like you didn't hear her. | 0:37:47 | 0:37:53 | |
You have to slow down and get in touch with her. | 0:37:53 | 0:37:57 | |
She's very in touch with you. Your daughter is so attuned to you. | 0:37:57 | 0:38:02 | |
Exquisitely attuned to you and making sure everything is OK in your world. That's what she does. | 0:38:02 | 0:38:08 | |
And you can try that with her, too. | 0:38:08 | 0:38:11 | |
Hmm. | 0:38:11 | 0:38:12 | |
I think you two have a really wonderful relationship. | 0:38:12 | 0:38:17 | |
You're going to speak up more. You know, you can say to your mom, "Mom, be quiet and listen." | 0:38:17 | 0:38:25 | |
Do you think you can do that? You can do that. | 0:38:25 | 0:38:29 | |
She'll still love you. | 0:38:29 | 0:38:31 | |
And you want to meet her where she is and not try to change her into who you want her to be. | 0:38:32 | 0:38:39 | |
Four days into their supposed half-term holiday, the stress is starting to take its toll. | 0:38:47 | 0:38:53 | |
-I can do that at home! -You tell me what a good thing to do is! -I don't know. | 0:38:54 | 0:38:59 | |
We can't do anything because we have to go to your thing soon. | 0:38:59 | 0:39:04 | |
-You tell me what a good thing to do is. -I don't know. I don't know. -What's a good thing to do? | 0:39:05 | 0:39:11 | |
I don't know. | 0:39:11 | 0:39:13 | |
-Why don't you want to go on a boat? -It's boring. -How is it boring going on a boat?! | 0:39:15 | 0:39:21 | |
-It's not interesting. -Why? -It isn't interesting to me. | 0:39:21 | 0:39:26 | |
-You're in a bad mood today. -I'm not. -Your hormones are all over the place. -You're having a go at me! | 0:39:26 | 0:39:33 | |
-I'm not. -You are! -I'm telling you... -You're shouting! | 0:39:33 | 0:39:37 | |
-You have to do productive things. -I'm coming and sitting in a waiting room watching your whatever. | 0:39:37 | 0:39:44 | |
Yeah, but in-between that you can do productive things. Get your hair dyed. | 0:39:44 | 0:39:49 | |
-That's not productive! -It is. It's towards your modelling and acting. | 0:39:49 | 0:39:54 | |
-You can get your hair dyed blonde. -It's up to you, isn't it? | 0:39:54 | 0:39:59 | |
After a week of searching, the only surgeon prepared to attempt repairing Alicia's breast | 0:40:07 | 0:40:14 | |
is 2,000 miles away in Nashville, Tennessee. | 0:40:14 | 0:40:18 | |
SOUTHERN DRAWL: I'm going to Nashville to have me some new boobs. | 0:40:18 | 0:40:24 | |
I'm a-gonna get me some new boobs | 0:40:24 | 0:40:26 | |
and maybe get me a new face cos everybody keeps calling me a mess and I don't like it. | 0:40:26 | 0:40:34 | |
And as my boobs exploded... Oh, I'm Australian now. | 0:40:34 | 0:40:38 | |
'The bad thing is that I will miss school.' | 0:40:59 | 0:41:03 | |
I'll have to catch up on a lot of work and things there. | 0:41:03 | 0:41:08 | |
That's going to be hard to do. | 0:41:08 | 0:41:11 | |
We've been to the pharmacy | 0:41:23 | 0:41:26 | |
and we got drugs... Mama got some drugs! | 0:41:26 | 0:41:31 | |
Mama got some antibiotics. | 0:41:33 | 0:41:37 | |
And Mama got some Scrabble, so we're all fine. | 0:41:37 | 0:41:42 | |
-Tomorrow I'm going to have my tits stitched up again. -OK. | 0:41:43 | 0:41:47 | |
What are you going to do after the operation? | 0:41:47 | 0:41:52 | |
Well, I won't be in any sane state because I'll be on painkillers. | 0:41:52 | 0:41:57 | |
I'll just read a book. | 0:41:58 | 0:42:00 | |
-You'll be asleep. -I won't be asleep, will I? -You usually are. | 0:42:00 | 0:42:06 | |
Usually! Like you're an expert. "Usually are. | 0:42:06 | 0:42:10 | |
"This is how it usually goes..." | 0:42:10 | 0:42:12 | |
Hopefully, this will be the last one. You won't have to endure any more. | 0:42:14 | 0:42:19 | |
# Help | 0:42:27 | 0:42:28 | |
# I have done it again | 0:42:28 | 0:42:32 | |
# I have been here many times befo-o-ore | 0:42:35 | 0:42:43 | |
# Hurt myself again today... # | 0:42:43 | 0:42:48 | |
With no access to home tutors in this part of the country, Georgia tries to do her schoolwork alone. | 0:42:50 | 0:42:58 | |
I'm doing trigonometry that my teacher sent me by email, | 0:42:58 | 0:43:04 | |
but I've never done it before so I can't do any of it because I don't know what it is | 0:43:04 | 0:43:10 | |
because we haven't done it in class. | 0:43:10 | 0:43:13 | |
So I can't really learn something if you just give me a piece of paper and say, "Do this question." | 0:43:13 | 0:43:19 | |
You haven't taught it to me. | 0:43:19 | 0:43:22 | |
-Is it a bit frustrating? -It's annoying because I don't have my books or anything, | 0:43:24 | 0:43:31 | |
but it's just pointless, really. I'm not going to learn anything if I don't know how to do it. | 0:43:31 | 0:43:37 | |
Luckily, the surgery is quick and Alicia is in and out in just three hours. | 0:43:45 | 0:43:50 | |
'They want me to stay in Nashville longer' | 0:44:23 | 0:44:27 | |
because if I fly with my drains, it might cause more problems. | 0:44:27 | 0:44:33 | |
What's happened is when I was on the aeroplane, it expanded the pocket | 0:44:33 | 0:44:39 | |
which made the implant turn, which has caused the problem. | 0:44:39 | 0:44:43 | |
If I fly, it might cause the same problem. | 0:44:43 | 0:44:48 | |
-How did your homework go? -She sent it to me, but I don't know what to do because I don't know... | 0:44:48 | 0:44:54 | |
-You don't know what to do? -No. It didn't tell me how to do any of it. | 0:44:54 | 0:45:00 | |
Well, we have hit a problem, haven't we? She can't do her Maths. | 0:45:00 | 0:45:05 | |
-You can concentrate on History and all that. -I don't do History at school. -You don't do History? | 0:45:06 | 0:45:12 | |
-No! -You don't do Geography? -No, I told you before the subjects that I do. | 0:45:12 | 0:45:18 | |
-What do you do, then? -I do Music, Drama, Art, three Sciences, | 0:45:18 | 0:45:24 | |
English, Maths and Religious Studies. | 0:45:24 | 0:45:28 | |
So Drama... OK, then? | 0:45:28 | 0:45:31 | |
I want you to write a play that me and you perform. | 0:45:31 | 0:45:35 | |
Georgie, don't start moaning. At the end of the day, you're supposed to be at school. | 0:45:36 | 0:45:42 | |
No, I prefer school if I have to do that kind of work. | 0:45:42 | 0:45:47 | |
-I don't have any paper. -Maths will have to be put on hold until we work out Trickolokogy. | 0:45:47 | 0:45:53 | |
-Trigonometry. -Yeah, that. | 0:45:53 | 0:45:56 | |
The surgeon has left Alicia with DIY nursing instructions | 0:46:05 | 0:46:11 | |
and she's asked Georgia to help. | 0:46:11 | 0:46:13 | |
Can you undo one of those, Nurse Georgia? | 0:46:18 | 0:46:22 | |
-Yeah, it's about 25. -25? | 0:46:30 | 0:46:34 | |
Jesus. I'm draining a lot of blood. | 0:46:34 | 0:46:36 | |
The bandages are coming off! The bandage has just come off! | 0:46:55 | 0:46:59 | |
Oh, no! I don't need this. | 0:46:59 | 0:47:02 | |
Don't...fiddle with it. | 0:47:02 | 0:47:04 | |
Darling, I have to fiddle with it to try to mend it myself. Is there bandages in that thing? | 0:47:04 | 0:47:10 | |
In your bag? No. | 0:47:10 | 0:47:14 | |
-Can you help me get my jumper off, please? I need to investigate so I can mend this -BLEEP. | 0:47:15 | 0:47:21 | |
-It's all -BLEEP -... Aaaah. I can't lift my arm up. | 0:47:21 | 0:47:25 | |
Do it this side, please. | 0:47:25 | 0:47:28 | |
OK, you need to take it off, yeah? | 0:47:30 | 0:47:32 | |
Now, shh. There now. | 0:47:32 | 0:47:35 | |
It's not in the middle. | 0:47:36 | 0:47:39 | |
-It will be. You've just got to wait for it to... -It's not though, is it, Georgie? | 0:47:39 | 0:47:44 | |
I'm worried it's gone wrong in the middle. The implants are like that. | 0:47:47 | 0:47:51 | |
And there's no bandages to separate them. I've done it with my scarf. | 0:47:52 | 0:47:58 | |
The implants are too close together! | 0:47:58 | 0:48:01 | |
-What do you think, Georgia? -I think she's overreacting. | 0:48:01 | 0:48:06 | |
-I'm not overreacting! -OK, well, just calm down. | 0:48:06 | 0:48:10 | |
-How would you like it if someone gave you one boob? -I wouldn't, but I wouldn't start moaning. | 0:48:10 | 0:48:17 | |
Seven letters. | 0:48:17 | 0:48:19 | |
Georgie, can you pass me my handbag? | 0:48:19 | 0:48:22 | |
Do plastic surgeons never see tits? | 0:48:25 | 0:48:28 | |
-Do you think that's what it is? -No! | 0:48:28 | 0:48:30 | |
Every time I have a boob job, one's over there, one's up there. | 0:48:30 | 0:48:34 | |
Or they're meeting in the middle, | 0:48:34 | 0:48:36 | |
like Eiffel Towers across like that. These look like missile launchers! | 0:48:36 | 0:48:40 | |
They look ridiculous! | 0:48:40 | 0:48:43 | |
Mm. | 0:48:43 | 0:48:44 | |
-OK, do you want to start? -OK. | 0:48:44 | 0:48:47 | |
It's much more painful, much more painful. | 0:48:58 | 0:49:02 | |
The bandages are all coming off. | 0:49:02 | 0:49:05 | |
-That's a lot of blood. -But that's because it was the whole night. | 0:49:09 | 0:49:13 | |
I'm like a patchwork quilt. Stitched up everywhere. | 0:49:13 | 0:49:17 | |
That's where the drain's coming out. | 0:49:17 | 0:49:20 | |
I'm like an old woman, sitting here with my bandages and my knitting. | 0:49:28 | 0:49:33 | |
-You all right, Georgia? -Yeah. | 0:49:34 | 0:49:37 | |
-It wasn't quite the holiday we thought it would be, is it? -No. | 0:49:37 | 0:49:41 | |
You expected to be eating out in Nobu, but you're watching your mum get bandaged up | 0:49:41 | 0:49:48 | |
-and playing Suko in bed. -It's OK. | 0:49:48 | 0:49:52 | |
-You said you don't want a boob job now. It's putting you off. -Yeah. | 0:49:52 | 0:49:57 | |
-But Georgie probably will have a boob job one day. -I don't think so. | 0:49:57 | 0:50:01 | |
-Why? -Cos I don't... I don't want one. -Why? | 0:50:01 | 0:50:06 | |
Because of all the blood and all the pain you go through and all the stitching and everything. | 0:50:06 | 0:50:13 | |
But what if you didn't have all that? That's reconstruction. | 0:50:13 | 0:50:18 | |
You still have to get cut open either way. | 0:50:18 | 0:50:21 | |
-You don't want to get cut open? -No. It's not attractive, is it? It's not nice. -Not attractive? | 0:50:21 | 0:50:28 | |
It's not worth it. | 0:50:28 | 0:50:30 | |
As soon as we get back to LA, I'll get you a home tutor, acting classes, get home tutoring going. | 0:50:30 | 0:50:38 | |
Mm-hm. | 0:50:38 | 0:50:39 | |
After five days in Nashville, Alicia and Georgia have flown back to the West Coast, | 0:50:45 | 0:50:51 | |
where Alicia can continue her recovery and Georgia can finally get some schooling. | 0:50:51 | 0:50:58 | |
"..not without ambition, but without the illness should attend it." | 0:50:58 | 0:51:02 | |
She's saying it because she wants what he doesn't want. | 0:51:02 | 0:51:07 | |
-Mm-hm. -She's more ambitious than he. | 0:51:07 | 0:51:10 | |
You know when she would rather be dead and killed like Duncan was | 0:51:10 | 0:51:15 | |
than to be what she is now, a killer, because she goes crazy of the blood and everything. | 0:51:15 | 0:51:22 | |
The therapist's advice and the experiences of the last few weeks | 0:51:24 | 0:51:29 | |
have made Alicia more aware than ever of their differences. | 0:51:29 | 0:51:35 | |
Georgia's supposed to be this gorgeous next top model... | 0:51:35 | 0:51:39 | |
and all she wants to do is go in there and study Biology and Macbeth. | 0:51:40 | 0:51:45 | |
She's the squarest person I know. | 0:51:45 | 0:51:48 | |
She's not my daughter. Someone's replaced her. | 0:51:48 | 0:51:52 | |
She came from my womb! How can she be that different? | 0:51:52 | 0:51:57 | |
She speaks like another language to me. She speaks about atoms | 0:51:58 | 0:52:03 | |
and measurements and stuff. | 0:52:03 | 0:52:05 | |
She doesn't want to leave the table when it comes to Biology, | 0:52:05 | 0:52:10 | |
but when it comes to doing a photo shoot, I have to drag her. | 0:52:10 | 0:52:15 | |
Does it make you feel alienated from her? | 0:52:15 | 0:52:18 | |
It's not alienated, but she's not the little girl that I knew. | 0:52:18 | 0:52:23 | |
My little girl likes bikinis and photo shoots and... | 0:52:23 | 0:52:27 | |
..you know, wants to be onstage singing and acting and wants to be the next Britney Spears. | 0:52:29 | 0:52:35 | |
# How far we've gone | 0:52:47 | 0:52:52 | |
# How far we're going... # | 0:52:53 | 0:52:57 | |
'I've just done a lot of thinking and it's really sad because I look back at all my friends' | 0:52:57 | 0:53:04 | |
that are glamour models - one's lap-dancing in a seedy club, | 0:53:04 | 0:53:08 | |
one's going to prison... | 0:53:08 | 0:53:11 | |
'..some of them are now escorting or they're drinking. | 0:53:12 | 0:53:17 | |
'And it's just made me realise...' | 0:53:17 | 0:53:19 | |
..signing up to be a glamour model seems to be, nine times out of ten, | 0:53:21 | 0:53:26 | |
a really bad idea. | 0:53:26 | 0:53:29 | |
It's been six weeks since they came back from America | 0:53:47 | 0:53:52 | |
and Georgia is home from school for the weekend. | 0:53:52 | 0:53:54 | |
I'll make one of Mum's special smoothies for you. | 0:53:54 | 0:53:58 | |
My special recipe. | 0:53:58 | 0:54:02 | |
Alicia wants to have a chat about how her new thinking has affected her ambitions for Georgia. | 0:54:09 | 0:54:15 | |
Come on then, Versace. Come and have a picnic. | 0:54:17 | 0:54:22 | |
I think you'd be selling yourself short if you did topless modelling. | 0:54:38 | 0:54:42 | |
-You're much better than that. You don't have to sell out. -Mm-hm. | 0:54:42 | 0:54:47 | |
You don't need to dye your hair or have silicone put in because you're perfect as you are. | 0:54:51 | 0:54:57 | |
Everything's good as it is. | 0:54:58 | 0:55:01 | |
'It is difficult letting her grow up' | 0:55:03 | 0:55:07 | |
but your role as a parent, I think, | 0:55:07 | 0:55:09 | |
is to let them grow up | 0:55:09 | 0:55:12 | |
and let them... move forward and go on. | 0:55:12 | 0:55:16 | |
In my future, I want to finish my education to university level, become a serious actress. | 0:55:20 | 0:55:28 | |
'I don't want to be a glamour model.' | 0:55:28 | 0:55:31 | |
If you want to go to university, I'd be happy for you to go. | 0:55:33 | 0:55:37 | |
From where I've come from, where I started... | 0:55:37 | 0:55:42 | |
..I've got you where you need to be, I hope. | 0:55:44 | 0:55:48 | |
'I've learnt that my mum' | 0:55:48 | 0:55:50 | |
has had a difficult life, but she's tried not to pass her mistakes on to me | 0:55:50 | 0:55:56 | |
and that's what makes her a perfect mum, for me. | 0:55:56 | 0:56:00 | |
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