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# To your soul | 0:00:08 | 0:00:10 | |
# To your soul | 0:00:12 | 0:00:13 | |
# Cry... # | 0:00:16 | 0:00:21 | |
I can remember somebody mentioning something in relation to the word | 0:00:21 | 0:00:25 | |
"faggots". They heard that word, "faggots". | 0:00:25 | 0:00:28 | |
# You leave in the morning | 0:00:34 | 0:00:35 | |
# With everything you own in a little black case... # | 0:00:35 | 0:00:40 | |
I was going out with a group of friends. | 0:00:40 | 0:00:43 | |
We were just holding hands, walking... | 0:00:43 | 0:00:45 | |
And as I crossed the street... | 0:00:45 | 0:00:47 | |
A guy shouted behind us... | 0:00:47 | 0:00:49 | |
-"Faggot." -"Poofter." | 0:00:49 | 0:00:52 | |
-"Gayboy." -I turned around and challenged them on it. | 0:00:52 | 0:00:55 | |
Four guys got out of the car. | 0:00:55 | 0:00:57 | |
"Come out here, you batty boy." | 0:00:57 | 0:00:59 | |
# Mother will never understand why you had to leave... # | 0:00:59 | 0:01:06 | |
Then he literally swung for her. | 0:01:07 | 0:01:09 | |
Literally, just like that, boom. | 0:01:09 | 0:01:12 | |
Horrific injuries. | 0:01:14 | 0:01:16 | |
# The love that you need will never be found at home... # | 0:01:16 | 0:01:21 | |
I remember standing up for the first time. | 0:01:25 | 0:01:28 | |
Dain looked at me and said, "I can't see." | 0:01:28 | 0:01:31 | |
# Cry, boy, cry... # | 0:01:31 | 0:01:34 | |
The girl was then jumping on him. | 0:01:34 | 0:01:37 | |
She was on his chest and on his face and he didn't move. | 0:01:37 | 0:01:40 | |
Kicking and stamping. | 0:01:40 | 0:01:42 | |
And shouting, "Faggot, faggot," at him. | 0:01:42 | 0:01:47 | |
Every generation has to fight the same battles, and the battles, | 0:01:47 | 0:01:53 | |
the battles are never won. | 0:01:53 | 0:01:55 | |
It blows my mind that a mob would set upon anybody | 0:01:56 | 0:02:00 | |
because of their sexuality in Great Britain in 2017. | 0:02:00 | 0:02:07 | |
-INTERVIEWER: What were you like at school? -Oh, you don't want to know. | 0:02:18 | 0:02:21 | |
Yeah, I was all right, though. | 0:02:21 | 0:02:24 | |
Yeah. I was all right. | 0:02:24 | 0:02:25 | |
Not too bad. But I got what needed to get done | 0:02:25 | 0:02:29 | |
and had fun at the same time, yeah. | 0:02:29 | 0:02:32 | |
Cos I used to do, like, music and stuff at school, obviously, | 0:02:32 | 0:02:34 | |
all rap and all that stuff. | 0:02:34 | 0:02:36 | |
Everyone used to treat me, like, boss. | 0:02:36 | 0:02:39 | |
It was a good time, it was a good time, yeah. | 0:02:39 | 0:02:41 | |
There was a reputation that I had, | 0:02:44 | 0:02:46 | |
a strong reputation in school that I had that I wanted to keep and I was | 0:02:46 | 0:02:50 | |
scared of losing it. | 0:02:50 | 0:02:51 | |
Probably the age of about 13, 14, I had my first boyfriend. | 0:02:56 | 0:03:00 | |
I didn't really feel different or, like, judged in school, I guess. | 0:03:00 | 0:03:04 | |
I guess I've grown up in a time | 0:03:04 | 0:03:05 | |
where our generation are probably just | 0:03:05 | 0:03:08 | |
more comfortable to be themselves, which is brilliant. | 0:03:08 | 0:03:10 | |
Coming out, I think that was a bit shocking to my parents but they kind | 0:03:13 | 0:03:17 | |
of accepted that. They accepted me for who I was, which was great. | 0:03:17 | 0:03:21 | |
Do you know what? | 0:03:23 | 0:03:25 | |
I regret not telling people sooner, | 0:03:25 | 0:03:27 | |
because I didn't have one bad comment, | 0:03:27 | 0:03:30 | |
I didn't have any awkward conversations, | 0:03:30 | 0:03:33 | |
anyone taking the mick. | 0:03:33 | 0:03:35 | |
I didn't have any of that, which is what I was scared of happening. | 0:03:35 | 0:03:38 | |
We met on one of these gay apps a few years ago, | 0:03:45 | 0:03:49 | |
but we just tell people we met on Facebook! | 0:03:49 | 0:03:52 | |
We met, er, on Grindr. | 0:03:52 | 0:03:55 | |
We just stayed up for ages, just talking. | 0:03:58 | 0:04:01 | |
Like, we hit it off really well on the kind of first time we met. | 0:04:01 | 0:04:06 | |
His eyebrows were so bad. | 0:04:06 | 0:04:09 | |
They were, like, massive. | 0:04:09 | 0:04:11 | |
He'll hate me for saying this, but he will agree with it. | 0:04:11 | 0:04:13 | |
But he was hot as well. | 0:04:13 | 0:04:16 | |
But, yeah... | 0:04:16 | 0:04:18 | |
We were just kind of besotted since day one, really. | 0:04:20 | 0:04:24 | |
Here we are now. Five years later. | 0:04:24 | 0:04:27 | |
INAUDIBLE | 0:04:40 | 0:04:42 | |
VOICEOVER: Bank holiday weekend, last year, in May, | 0:04:42 | 0:04:45 | |
we were out for my friend's birthday. | 0:04:45 | 0:04:48 | |
We were having a really good weekend. | 0:04:48 | 0:04:51 | |
It was bank holiday. | 0:04:51 | 0:04:53 | |
I was with Dain and a bunch of our mates in Brighton. | 0:04:53 | 0:04:56 | |
Summer was starting. | 0:04:56 | 0:04:58 | |
All the bars were open, all the clubs were open. | 0:04:58 | 0:05:01 | |
It was just a buzz, and that's what you love when you go out, obviously, | 0:05:01 | 0:05:05 | |
the buzz. | 0:05:05 | 0:05:06 | |
They're lovely together. | 0:05:13 | 0:05:15 | |
Literally, like, I feel embarrassed | 0:05:15 | 0:05:17 | |
going out with the two of them because they are just so beautiful. | 0:05:17 | 0:05:20 | |
When they're out together, you can see how much fun they have together. | 0:05:20 | 0:05:25 | |
They're always dancing, singing. | 0:05:25 | 0:05:26 | |
They're the first ones on the dance floor and the last ones to go home. | 0:05:26 | 0:05:30 | |
But the strange thing was, on that night, | 0:05:33 | 0:05:35 | |
they both had a feeling that something was going to go wrong. | 0:05:35 | 0:05:38 | |
Yeah, it was good, the atmosphere was good, really good. | 0:05:44 | 0:05:47 | |
We were having a great time. | 0:05:47 | 0:05:49 | |
I guess it was probably about three o'clock. | 0:05:50 | 0:05:54 | |
We were at the bar and just got this look from a couple of guys from | 0:05:54 | 0:05:58 | |
across the dance floor area. | 0:05:58 | 0:06:00 | |
It takes a lot to make me feel uncomfortable, | 0:06:02 | 0:06:04 | |
but it was just such a weird look that they gave us. | 0:06:04 | 0:06:08 | |
And my friend came up to me and said, | 0:06:08 | 0:06:11 | |
"Those two guys are looking at you really weirdly." | 0:06:11 | 0:06:13 | |
-But I just ignored it. -Dain didn't see what I saw. | 0:06:13 | 0:06:16 | |
At this point, Dain had his arm round me, | 0:06:16 | 0:06:20 | |
but I think they didn't like that. | 0:06:20 | 0:06:23 | |
-At this point, they just started, like, shouting... -"Fucking gayboy." | 0:06:29 | 0:06:33 | |
They said, "Oh, is that your fucking boyfriend?" | 0:06:33 | 0:06:35 | |
Dain realised, and I told him, | 0:06:35 | 0:06:37 | |
"The best being that we need to do is get out of this club, | 0:06:37 | 0:06:40 | |
"into a taxi, the quickest way possible." | 0:06:40 | 0:06:41 | |
Me and James just thought, | 0:06:41 | 0:06:43 | |
"We're just going to take ourselves out of that situation." | 0:06:43 | 0:06:46 | |
No-one was about. | 0:06:48 | 0:06:49 | |
All of a sudden, I hear running behind us. | 0:06:52 | 0:06:54 | |
I was kind of like, "Right, things just got real." | 0:06:54 | 0:06:57 | |
I could feel there's no way we were going to outrun them. | 0:06:59 | 0:07:02 | |
They just grabbed us from behind and just chucked us to the floor. | 0:07:02 | 0:07:06 | |
I mean, it was all, like, mayhem from there. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:20 | |
We were both on the ground. | 0:07:22 | 0:07:24 | |
I was laying on the pavement and all I could see was James, | 0:07:24 | 0:07:27 | |
but then the next thing I saw was just a shoe coming to my face. | 0:07:27 | 0:07:31 | |
That just knocked me completely unconscious. | 0:07:31 | 0:07:33 | |
One of the boys started kicking Dain's face, | 0:07:37 | 0:07:39 | |
like, really, really rapidly. | 0:07:39 | 0:07:41 | |
There was a lot of words and aggression, they were shouting. | 0:07:43 | 0:07:47 | |
They were shouting, like, "Gayboys." | 0:07:47 | 0:07:48 | |
Every time I tried to crawl closer to Dain, | 0:07:48 | 0:07:51 | |
he was literally dragging me along the pavement. | 0:07:51 | 0:07:54 | |
At that point, a taxi driver drove past | 0:07:58 | 0:08:00 | |
and I think he called the police straightaway. | 0:08:00 | 0:08:03 | |
And then, finally, the police got to us. | 0:08:06 | 0:08:09 | |
I remember standing up for the first time, and | 0:08:11 | 0:08:16 | |
Dain looked at me and said, "I can't see." | 0:08:16 | 0:08:19 | |
And it's when Dain said to me that he can't see, I thought, | 0:08:29 | 0:08:33 | |
"OK, this is bad." | 0:08:33 | 0:08:35 | |
I was going out with a group of friends. | 0:08:43 | 0:08:46 | |
Friday night, we were walking together in South London. | 0:08:46 | 0:08:50 | |
Me and my girlfriend at the time left the bar. | 0:08:52 | 0:08:54 | |
We were meeting some friends in Soho. | 0:08:54 | 0:08:57 | |
A bunch of teenagers who I walked past on my way home. | 0:08:57 | 0:09:00 | |
A car drove by, they leant out the window. | 0:09:02 | 0:09:06 | |
-"Bender." -"Nancy boy." | 0:09:06 | 0:09:07 | |
"Nigger faggot." | 0:09:07 | 0:09:09 | |
"Did he just call us fucking lesbians?" | 0:09:09 | 0:09:12 | |
Why would you think that it was OK | 0:09:12 | 0:09:14 | |
to say something, when you can see that it's our wedding day? | 0:09:14 | 0:09:19 | |
I turned around and challenged them on it. | 0:09:19 | 0:09:21 | |
I said, "What did you say?" | 0:09:21 | 0:09:23 | |
He went, "You're a fucking lesbian." | 0:09:23 | 0:09:25 | |
I stepped in and asked for an apology. | 0:09:25 | 0:09:28 | |
I turned round to him and said, "You're a fucking idiot, go home." | 0:09:31 | 0:09:34 | |
"The only reason why you're giving me hate is because you're turned on | 0:09:34 | 0:09:37 | |
"by my arse and you can't even admit it to yourself." | 0:09:37 | 0:09:39 | |
Four guys got out of the car. | 0:09:42 | 0:09:43 | |
The door flung open. | 0:09:43 | 0:09:45 | |
And then they got out a chain. | 0:09:45 | 0:09:48 | |
"Come out here, you batty boy." | 0:09:48 | 0:09:50 | |
He just threw the beer all over us. | 0:09:50 | 0:09:52 | |
And then they hit me. | 0:09:56 | 0:09:58 | |
And just started hitting us with it. | 0:09:58 | 0:10:00 | |
And I got kicked in the face. | 0:10:00 | 0:10:01 | |
-And they just came for me. -Punches to the head, punches to my face. | 0:10:01 | 0:10:05 | |
He just kept punching me to the side of my head. | 0:10:05 | 0:10:07 | |
He hit me a few more times. | 0:10:07 | 0:10:09 | |
They kicked and kicked and kicked and kicked... | 0:10:09 | 0:10:10 | |
Smashed my face onto the floor. | 0:10:10 | 0:10:14 | |
I had a scaffold pole smashed across my face. | 0:10:15 | 0:10:20 | |
All four of them, on the floor, stamping on my head. | 0:10:20 | 0:10:24 | |
And then everything went black. | 0:10:24 | 0:10:27 | |
I just saw two feet running in the distance. | 0:10:27 | 0:10:29 | |
My eye socket was completely shattered. | 0:10:37 | 0:10:41 | |
I had haemorrhages in both my eyes, I had fractures on my cheeks. | 0:10:41 | 0:10:45 | |
My eyes were completely red. | 0:10:45 | 0:10:48 | |
My tooth was chipped and my nose was broken as well, | 0:10:48 | 0:10:51 | |
at the top. | 0:10:51 | 0:10:52 | |
I remember being in hospital and I kept asking them, | 0:10:56 | 0:10:58 | |
"Am I going to be able to see again, am I going to be able to see again?" | 0:10:58 | 0:11:01 | |
And they said, "We can't tell you because everything is so swollen." | 0:11:01 | 0:11:04 | |
They couldn't even open my eyes, because it was just out here. | 0:11:04 | 0:11:08 | |
I remember, when he said that, | 0:11:12 | 0:11:13 | |
obviously when we walked out, | 0:11:13 | 0:11:15 | |
I just remember him squeezing | 0:11:15 | 0:11:16 | |
my hand, saying, "James, | 0:11:16 | 0:11:18 | |
"I'm not going to be able to see again." | 0:11:18 | 0:11:20 | |
I was like, "No, you will. Let's wait for it to heal and you will." | 0:11:20 | 0:11:23 | |
Me and James, at that point, | 0:11:37 | 0:11:39 | |
we were very close because we'd kind of gone through it together... | 0:11:39 | 0:11:42 | |
I mean, we were close in general anyway, | 0:11:42 | 0:11:43 | |
but just spending that much time with each other, | 0:11:43 | 0:11:46 | |
and we were actually there for each other, | 0:11:46 | 0:11:49 | |
and that kind of really proved it to me, how strong our relationship is. | 0:11:49 | 0:11:53 | |
I'm a very resilient person, and I don't want... | 0:11:57 | 0:12:00 | |
I'm not going to live my life how someone else wants to, | 0:12:01 | 0:12:03 | |
or whatever anyone else thinks, I'm me. | 0:12:03 | 0:12:05 | |
I have my own personality, as everyone else does, | 0:12:07 | 0:12:09 | |
and I'm not going to let anyone change that. | 0:12:09 | 0:12:11 | |
If anything, that's made me kind of want to be who I am even more so. | 0:12:11 | 0:12:14 | |
I think it's made him stronger. | 0:12:17 | 0:12:19 | |
And I think that it has made him not care about what other people think | 0:12:19 | 0:12:24 | |
and made him want to go out there and be himself even more. | 0:12:24 | 0:12:26 | |
Whereas it's done the opposite to me. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:32 | |
Like, it's changed the whole... | 0:12:32 | 0:12:34 | |
It's just changed... | 0:12:34 | 0:12:36 | |
to how I was before. | 0:12:36 | 0:12:39 | |
And it's sad because... | 0:12:47 | 0:12:49 | |
..I remember how we were before it happened... | 0:12:51 | 0:12:54 | |
..and I look at us now... | 0:12:56 | 0:12:57 | |
And it's upsetting because it's them who made this happen. | 0:13:03 | 0:13:07 | |
So that's what's hard to accept. | 0:13:10 | 0:13:11 | |
No, I wouldn't forgive them. No, plain and blunt, no, I wouldn't, | 0:13:30 | 0:13:34 | |
I couldn't ever. Like, it might get easier to accept it. | 0:13:34 | 0:13:39 | |
But I would never, like, forgive them or forget what happened. | 0:13:40 | 0:13:43 | |
Obviously it will stay with me, and I'm sure it will stay with them | 0:13:43 | 0:13:46 | |
for obviously the rest of their lives. | 0:13:46 | 0:13:47 | |
Angry. | 0:13:58 | 0:14:00 | |
Really angry. | 0:14:01 | 0:14:02 | |
And I'm starting to kind of doubt myself, | 0:14:05 | 0:14:09 | |
like, "What if her friends HADN'T been kissing at the time?" | 0:14:09 | 0:14:14 | |
I'm just angry with everything that happened since, | 0:14:16 | 0:14:19 | |
absolutely everything. | 0:14:19 | 0:14:20 | |
The fact that I had a black eye to explain to a six-year-old, | 0:14:20 | 0:14:24 | |
why Mummy was hurt, why Becky had bruises. | 0:14:24 | 0:14:28 | |
It's not something that I want to explain to my child, | 0:14:28 | 0:14:30 | |
that there's hate in this world, | 0:14:30 | 0:14:32 | |
and I had to, because of him. | 0:14:32 | 0:14:34 | |
What do you want to play? | 0:14:43 | 0:14:45 | |
Do you want to do hangman? | 0:14:45 | 0:14:47 | |
Yes. Let me get up here. | 0:14:47 | 0:14:50 | |
Go on, then. Careful. | 0:14:50 | 0:14:51 | |
Yeah, I'm nervous. | 0:15:00 | 0:15:01 | |
But at the same time, I want to know that he gets his comeuppance, | 0:15:03 | 0:15:06 | |
at the same time. | 0:15:06 | 0:15:07 | |
It's seeing him again, bringing up | 0:15:11 | 0:15:13 | |
those kind of memories again, isn't it? | 0:15:13 | 0:15:15 | |
I mean, we know that he lives close by, about 10, 15 minutes away. | 0:15:15 | 0:15:21 | |
So, what if he isn't found guilty and we're kind of stuck? | 0:15:21 | 0:15:26 | |
It's going to be really disappointing. | 0:15:28 | 0:15:31 | |
-No, that's what -I -was going to do! | 0:15:31 | 0:15:33 | |
VOICEOVER: It's just odd that it still happens. | 0:15:33 | 0:15:36 | |
And just because we chose to love each other. | 0:15:38 | 0:15:40 | |
I don't know. In this day and age, should we... | 0:15:41 | 0:15:44 | |
Like, we're a normal couple, aren't we? | 0:15:44 | 0:15:47 | |
-We're just normal. -I don't know about normal, but, yeah...! | 0:15:47 | 0:15:49 | |
No, but we are. You know, we've got Josh. | 0:15:49 | 0:15:52 | |
-Who's normal, really? -We've got Josh... We've got... | 0:15:52 | 0:15:54 | |
-Who's she? -Becky, my stepmum. | 0:15:55 | 0:15:58 | |
INTERVIEWER: What's she like as a wife? | 0:16:00 | 0:16:02 | |
Hard work! | 0:16:02 | 0:16:04 | |
No, like, we have our good moments. | 0:16:08 | 0:16:10 | |
Like every other couple in the world, you know, | 0:16:10 | 0:16:12 | |
they've got their moments. | 0:16:12 | 0:16:14 | |
I didn't... | 0:16:17 | 0:16:19 | |
I'm the typical, like... | 0:16:19 | 0:16:20 | |
..like "man" lesbian, no? | 0:16:24 | 0:16:27 | |
The manly one. I don't know what you call them. | 0:16:27 | 0:16:29 | |
She thinks she is, but she's really, really girlie inside. | 0:16:29 | 0:16:33 | |
She's very, very girlie inside. | 0:16:33 | 0:16:35 | |
Actually, I've been... I told you that. | 0:16:35 | 0:16:37 | |
The little boy was talking to his mum, he went past, | 0:16:37 | 0:16:41 | |
and the boy said to his mum, "That's Josh's dad." | 0:16:41 | 0:16:44 | |
I just, I didn't say anything, actually. | 0:16:46 | 0:16:49 | |
Like, we never went out, ever, really. | 0:16:50 | 0:16:53 | |
For once, we had a baby-sitter, | 0:16:53 | 0:16:56 | |
and got out of the house, and that happened. | 0:16:56 | 0:16:59 | |
I mean, we haven't been out since, have we, Bec? | 0:16:59 | 0:17:01 | |
So, we're sitting down, um, a guy comes over. | 0:17:07 | 0:17:10 | |
And the first thing he says is, "Oh, I like lesbians." | 0:17:11 | 0:17:14 | |
Yeah! So, "Oh, God, not one of these," you know. | 0:17:16 | 0:17:20 | |
He had a South African accent. | 0:17:20 | 0:17:22 | |
All seemed quite pleasant. | 0:17:22 | 0:17:25 | |
He seemed quite tipsy, but I'm never really rude to anyone. | 0:17:25 | 0:17:29 | |
He asked them, our friends, to kiss. | 0:17:30 | 0:17:32 | |
To which they were like, "No." | 0:17:34 | 0:17:35 | |
And I'm like, "Sorry, mate, it's not just for you, | 0:17:35 | 0:17:39 | |
"your pleasure," kind of thing. | 0:17:39 | 0:17:41 | |
And then he said something which then offended one of my mates. | 0:17:42 | 0:17:47 | |
I think he said "dyke" or something. | 0:17:47 | 0:17:49 | |
Do you know what I mean? That's offence. You don't say that. | 0:17:50 | 0:17:53 | |
We just sort of got up and we were like, "Come on, | 0:17:56 | 0:17:58 | |
"let's just go to the kebab shop," | 0:17:58 | 0:17:59 | |
because we were going to get a bit of food. | 0:17:59 | 0:18:02 | |
I didn't ever think that it was going to start getting violent. | 0:18:03 | 0:18:07 | |
The other guy that had joined in had then begun kind of circling us | 0:18:10 | 0:18:14 | |
as a group. And quite obviously stuck his attention in on me. | 0:18:14 | 0:18:20 | |
Then that's when he started getting a bit touchy-feely, groping, like, | 0:18:22 | 0:18:26 | |
her breasts, and... | 0:18:26 | 0:18:28 | |
Yeah, just literally, really hanging on her arm. | 0:18:28 | 0:18:30 | |
So I was just, like, trying to | 0:18:33 | 0:18:35 | |
just edge him away from me, kind of thing. | 0:18:35 | 0:18:37 | |
Then Becky was like, she'd had enough, | 0:18:37 | 0:18:39 | |
after he'd done it about eight, nine times, she'd had enough. | 0:18:39 | 0:18:42 | |
I don't think he liked that, to be honest. | 0:18:45 | 0:18:48 | |
And then he came forward, "Fat dykes," and all this. | 0:18:48 | 0:18:52 | |
Alex took offence. | 0:18:54 | 0:18:56 | |
Ran in front, just pushed him away from her. | 0:18:56 | 0:18:58 | |
The other guy saw her do it... | 0:18:59 | 0:19:02 | |
..and then he literally swung for her. | 0:19:04 | 0:19:06 | |
Literally, just like that, boom. | 0:19:08 | 0:19:10 | |
"I got groped, punched and slammed into a street light. | 0:19:14 | 0:19:17 | |
"My wife got punched and our two friends got punched, too. | 0:19:17 | 0:19:19 | |
"To hit a woman and to punch a woman is wrong, but to do that | 0:19:19 | 0:19:22 | |
"just because we didn't want them, disgusting and vile. | 0:19:22 | 0:19:25 | |
"I'm so angry that I've been violated for the love of my wife. | 0:19:25 | 0:19:27 | |
"I want this shared as I know hate crime is brushed under the carpet. | 0:19:27 | 0:19:30 | |
"Not this time." "Update. They have been arrested | 0:19:30 | 0:19:33 | |
"and are facing different five counts between them both. | 0:19:33 | 0:19:35 | |
"Justice will be served." | 0:19:35 | 0:19:36 | |
"Update two. CPS have come back and charged both of them. | 0:19:36 | 0:19:39 | |
"One is on remand and one has bail. | 0:19:39 | 0:19:41 | |
"Now just wait for a court date. | 0:19:41 | 0:19:43 | |
"I will be standing up in court 100% | 0:19:43 | 0:19:44 | |
"to fight this to the ground to make sure they will never do this again." | 0:19:44 | 0:19:47 | |
But, yeah, the next day, it was just cover it up | 0:19:48 | 0:19:51 | |
and smile and keep going. | 0:19:51 | 0:19:53 | |
I had to wear glasses. | 0:19:53 | 0:19:55 | |
I couldn't cover up the darkness around my eye. | 0:19:55 | 0:19:57 | |
Emotionally, it was... | 0:20:06 | 0:20:08 | |
It has a big impact on your relationship. | 0:20:08 | 0:20:12 | |
To not be able to be myself, | 0:20:12 | 0:20:16 | |
I felt imprisoned. | 0:20:16 | 0:20:17 | |
Do you stop holding hands when somebody approaches you? | 0:20:18 | 0:20:23 | |
If you don't hold hands, then the situation has already won. | 0:20:23 | 0:20:27 | |
Walking down the street with your boyfriend and you have to question | 0:20:29 | 0:20:32 | |
yourself, that's damage, | 0:20:32 | 0:20:35 | |
it's damaging to do that, to think that. | 0:20:35 | 0:20:37 | |
It makes you feel ashamed, | 0:20:39 | 0:20:42 | |
powerless. | 0:20:42 | 0:20:44 | |
They're kind of, they're dehumanising you a little bit. | 0:20:44 | 0:20:47 | |
You know before you even know you're gay that it's not... | 0:20:47 | 0:20:50 | |
it's not going to be an easy ride. | 0:20:50 | 0:20:53 | |
You think you will always be discriminated against. | 0:20:53 | 0:20:57 | |
Everybody will hate you for who you really are. | 0:20:57 | 0:21:01 | |
You have no reference point whatsoever. | 0:21:01 | 0:21:04 | |
You did not decide for yourself who you love. | 0:21:04 | 0:21:07 | |
It's a bit graphic but I used to force myself to masturbate over | 0:21:07 | 0:21:10 | |
Page 3 girls because I did not want to be this person. | 0:21:10 | 0:21:15 | |
That's how powerful the heteronormative society is. | 0:21:15 | 0:21:20 | |
Society in general doesn't know how to deal with people who do not fit | 0:21:20 | 0:21:23 | |
into one category or another. | 0:21:23 | 0:21:25 | |
The assumption, I think, is always that people are straight. | 0:21:25 | 0:21:29 | |
When I was kind of like working in offices, | 0:21:29 | 0:21:32 | |
I would not bring up the fact that | 0:21:32 | 0:21:35 | |
I was gay. | 0:21:35 | 0:21:36 | |
I think every gay, queer, bisexual person, people of colour, | 0:21:36 | 0:21:42 | |
anyone who has a difference to the WASPy white norm knows all of these | 0:21:42 | 0:21:48 | |
subtle differences. | 0:21:48 | 0:21:50 | |
Some people take a second glance and think, oh, you know, | 0:21:51 | 0:21:54 | |
"Is she in the right toilet?" | 0:21:54 | 0:21:55 | |
I started to change the way I dressed to look more straight. | 0:21:55 | 0:21:58 | |
Are you that ignorant you can't see that I'm a girl or are you saying it | 0:22:00 | 0:22:04 | |
because you are trying to make a point of it? | 0:22:04 | 0:22:05 | |
You're equalising your way through, you're turning knobs, | 0:22:05 | 0:22:09 | |
you're revealing bits, you are putting stuff away. | 0:22:09 | 0:22:12 | |
Day-to-day familiar violence that you experience, | 0:22:12 | 0:22:16 | |
aggressively pushing past somebody or calling somebody a batty boy | 0:22:16 | 0:22:20 | |
on the street, that's the crux, | 0:22:20 | 0:22:22 | |
that's the thing that we actually need to be tackling | 0:22:22 | 0:22:24 | |
because that is what feeds the bigger stuff. | 0:22:24 | 0:22:26 | |
"I can change you." That's the typical phrase. | 0:22:26 | 0:22:29 | |
I can change you. Change me? | 0:22:29 | 0:22:30 | |
What? Change my mind? | 0:22:30 | 0:22:32 | |
You're never going to change my mind because I fought so hard to be | 0:22:33 | 0:22:36 | |
the person that I am and to accept the person I am. | 0:22:36 | 0:22:39 | |
I mean, come on, what logic or sense is that? | 0:22:39 | 0:22:43 | |
It just breaks my heart. | 0:22:43 | 0:22:45 | |
Tell me what it's like being gay in Margate? | 0:22:49 | 0:22:52 | |
Horrendous. | 0:22:54 | 0:22:55 | |
I get so many people, like, saying to me, "Oh, you're gay, | 0:22:56 | 0:23:01 | |
"you should be dead." And everything like that. | 0:23:01 | 0:23:04 | |
It's horrible. | 0:23:04 | 0:23:05 | |
A lot of people obviously used to give me a lot of stick | 0:23:16 | 0:23:19 | |
for being gay. Like, all the way through school, | 0:23:19 | 0:23:22 | |
everyone used to pick on me and bully me for being, well, | 0:23:22 | 0:23:26 | |
I hadn't come out as gay then but, yeah, for being gay. | 0:23:26 | 0:23:29 | |
No, he was a lovely little lad. | 0:23:32 | 0:23:34 | |
Really chubby, really lovely. | 0:23:34 | 0:23:38 | |
Full of mischief, which he still is to a certain extent, | 0:23:38 | 0:23:42 | |
but he's not had it easy, bless him. | 0:23:42 | 0:23:44 | |
The nearest he ever got to having a mum and dad was me and his grandad. | 0:23:44 | 0:23:48 | |
My nan, I know she's always there for me whenever I need her. | 0:23:50 | 0:23:54 | |
She's amazing. | 0:23:55 | 0:23:57 | |
She always looks after me and she always tries her best for me. | 0:23:57 | 0:24:00 | |
I think he was about 15, 16 when he came out. | 0:24:02 | 0:24:06 | |
As I say, we knew he was gay. | 0:24:06 | 0:24:08 | |
I thought, "He'll come out when he's ready. | 0:24:09 | 0:24:12 | |
"He'll tell me in his own time." | 0:24:12 | 0:24:14 | |
Nobody has to live a lie these days. | 0:24:15 | 0:24:17 | |
Abbie, my best friend, told me about a room going spare, | 0:24:29 | 0:24:33 | |
up above her flat. | 0:24:33 | 0:24:35 | |
It was just like a double-sized room, really. | 0:24:36 | 0:24:39 | |
There was two bedrooms in the flat. | 0:24:39 | 0:24:41 | |
The guy, Joseph, had his own bedroom which had a lock on it | 0:24:41 | 0:24:45 | |
and I had a bedroom as well, but I think my lock was broken. | 0:24:45 | 0:24:49 | |
Joseph Olusegun Williams is the name. | 0:24:51 | 0:24:54 | |
Mr Williams was born in Nigeria, lived in Croydon. | 0:24:56 | 0:25:00 | |
He came from a fairly strict Catholic background. | 0:25:00 | 0:25:03 | |
Connor moving into his flat was sort of forced upon him by the landlord. | 0:25:05 | 0:25:09 | |
I'd met him a few times before I moved in there. | 0:25:10 | 0:25:14 | |
He thought I was a girl, first of all, | 0:25:14 | 0:25:17 | |
because I did kind of have hair down to my shoulder and it was bright red | 0:25:17 | 0:25:22 | |
and I wore make-up all the time. | 0:25:22 | 0:25:24 | |
Abbie's boyfriend said that I weren't a girl, | 0:25:24 | 0:25:27 | |
that I was gay and that I was a boy. | 0:25:27 | 0:25:29 | |
He came to see me on the Saturday, as he moved in on the Sunday. | 0:25:34 | 0:25:38 | |
And he said to me, "I'll ring you in the morning, Nan." | 0:25:39 | 0:25:42 | |
The flat, it was absolutely disgusting. | 0:25:47 | 0:25:49 | |
There was broken eggshells everywhere. | 0:25:51 | 0:25:53 | |
Vile. | 0:25:53 | 0:25:54 | |
There were skid marks all around the bowl on the inside | 0:25:54 | 0:25:57 | |
cos he lived like a tramp. | 0:25:57 | 0:26:00 | |
So my friends came down from Faversham to help me clean the flat. | 0:26:01 | 0:26:06 | |
Took six hours to clean, pretty much. | 0:26:06 | 0:26:09 | |
And then they got the last train back to Faversham. | 0:26:11 | 0:26:14 | |
And then I walked back to the flat on Athelstan Road. | 0:26:15 | 0:26:18 | |
And then I had a cigarette with Abbie downstairs | 0:26:20 | 0:26:24 | |
before going upstairs. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:25 | |
I was meant to watch this whole film and I obviously fell asleep. | 0:26:28 | 0:26:31 | |
I was sleeping on a blow-up mattress. | 0:26:32 | 0:26:35 | |
The next thing I knew, I woke up in hospital. | 0:26:37 | 0:26:39 | |
We know that Mr Williams got home | 0:26:45 | 0:26:47 | |
around about five o'clock in the morning, from phone records. | 0:26:47 | 0:26:50 | |
We know that about 10.30 was the phone call to the police, | 0:26:52 | 0:26:56 | |
from Williams, to say that he thought | 0:26:56 | 0:26:58 | |
that there was somebody in his flat who was dead. | 0:26:58 | 0:27:01 | |
I was working with my crewmate, Tor, | 0:27:04 | 0:27:06 | |
on the day and we were already out | 0:27:06 | 0:27:08 | |
in the ambulance. | 0:27:08 | 0:27:09 | |
When we arrived, there were three other police officers there. | 0:27:09 | 0:27:13 | |
They were let into the flat by Williams. | 0:27:15 | 0:27:18 | |
He was calm and compliant. | 0:27:18 | 0:27:20 | |
The officers then searched the flat and found Connor on the airbed. | 0:27:20 | 0:27:25 | |
Connor was lying on the floor and he... | 0:27:27 | 0:27:30 | |
he had been attacked with a hammer | 0:27:30 | 0:27:32 | |
which was still embedded in his head. | 0:27:32 | 0:27:34 | |
The flat end, | 0:27:39 | 0:27:40 | |
the end you'd use to bang nails in normally | 0:27:40 | 0:27:43 | |
was actually all the way into Connor's head. | 0:27:43 | 0:27:45 | |
I've always wanted to go in a helicopter. | 0:27:54 | 0:27:57 | |
The one time I was in a helicopter, basically dead. | 0:27:58 | 0:28:02 | |
Abbie phoned me. "Has the police been in touch with you?" | 0:28:07 | 0:28:10 | |
I thought, "Oh, shit, what's he up to now?" | 0:28:11 | 0:28:13 | |
The surgeon said to me, "Be prepared... | 0:28:16 | 0:28:19 | |
"..he's in a mess." | 0:28:20 | 0:28:22 | |
I've never seen anything so bad. | 0:28:22 | 0:28:24 | |
And, um... Sorry. | 0:28:28 | 0:28:30 | |
We went into the ward. | 0:28:32 | 0:28:34 | |
I didn't even recognise him. | 0:28:38 | 0:28:39 | |
I don't know what I thought. | 0:28:41 | 0:28:42 | |
I honestly thought he was going to die. | 0:28:46 | 0:28:48 | |
Because he was in such a state. Bless his heart. | 0:28:50 | 0:28:52 | |
They had to cut a quarter of the skull out of my head | 0:29:04 | 0:29:07 | |
to relieve the pressure on my brain, | 0:29:07 | 0:29:10 | |
and I had a blood clot as well. | 0:29:10 | 0:29:12 | |
I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk, I couldn't eat. | 0:29:14 | 0:29:17 | |
I had to learn to do all of that again so it was like... | 0:29:17 | 0:29:20 | |
..being a newborn baby. | 0:29:21 | 0:29:22 | |
I've got... | 0:29:26 | 0:29:27 | |
Well, I've still got a dent in my head now. | 0:29:29 | 0:29:32 | |
I've got epilepsy but there's also a bit of, um, | 0:29:32 | 0:29:36 | |
bone from my skull that pokes through my skin and gives me, like, | 0:29:36 | 0:29:40 | |
a really bad migraine. | 0:29:40 | 0:29:41 | |
But I can't run, I can't use my right hand | 0:29:43 | 0:29:45 | |
and I've got to take tablets | 0:29:45 | 0:29:47 | |
every single day for the rest of my life. | 0:29:47 | 0:29:50 | |
I do suffer with, like, memory loss now. | 0:29:50 | 0:29:54 | |
And my depression is coming back as well. | 0:29:54 | 0:29:56 | |
Great. | 0:29:56 | 0:29:58 | |
-REPORTER: -He'd been asleep in bed after his first night | 0:29:59 | 0:30:02 | |
in the new flat, when Williams, who already lived there, | 0:30:02 | 0:30:04 | |
struck him so hard with a claw hammer, | 0:30:04 | 0:30:07 | |
it became embedded in his skull. | 0:30:07 | 0:30:09 | |
No motive was established but Mr Huntley was openly gay | 0:30:09 | 0:30:12 | |
and Williams had previously made disparaging remarks | 0:30:12 | 0:30:15 | |
about gay people. | 0:30:15 | 0:30:16 | |
Certainly for Kent Police, | 0:30:19 | 0:30:20 | |
the perception of a hate crime is down to the victim. | 0:30:20 | 0:30:23 | |
If the person on the receiving end | 0:30:23 | 0:30:26 | |
of any type of crime perceives it to be based on their diversity | 0:30:26 | 0:30:31 | |
or their religious view or their sexuality, | 0:30:31 | 0:30:35 | |
then that's how we would treat it. | 0:30:35 | 0:30:37 | |
Williams' defence had been that he'd had a psychotic episode | 0:30:39 | 0:30:43 | |
and while he did suffer with mental illness, | 0:30:43 | 0:30:46 | |
the jury agreed that he'd known what he was doing when he attacked | 0:30:46 | 0:30:50 | |
his flatmate. | 0:30:50 | 0:30:51 | |
Why do you think he did what he did? | 0:30:59 | 0:31:01 | |
Because it's against his religion for me to be gay. | 0:31:01 | 0:31:05 | |
But it, like, I don't know why, but when I sit there, | 0:31:08 | 0:31:10 | |
it makes me sad for what he done to me. | 0:31:10 | 0:31:12 | |
It's always constantly in the back of my head, obviously. | 0:31:15 | 0:31:18 | |
I just think he's vile. | 0:31:21 | 0:31:23 | |
And whatever he done to me, I want to do to him, | 0:31:25 | 0:31:27 | |
but a million times worse. | 0:31:27 | 0:31:29 | |
But I also want the answer of why he done it, | 0:31:31 | 0:31:34 | |
because he's never told anyone why he's done it. | 0:31:34 | 0:31:36 | |
Have I ever tried to put myself in the mind of a homophobe? | 0:31:41 | 0:31:44 | |
Yes. | 0:31:47 | 0:31:48 | |
Gone are the days of the thug with the skinhead and the tattoos. | 0:31:50 | 0:31:55 | |
Perpetrators now that we are finding are well-dressed, | 0:31:55 | 0:31:59 | |
well-educated people. | 0:31:59 | 0:32:01 | |
There must be some thought process which leads them to the decision | 0:32:01 | 0:32:06 | |
that it's OK to hit this person. | 0:32:06 | 0:32:08 | |
People think I'm a joke, | 0:32:08 | 0:32:10 | |
that queer people are disposable and that queer people can have this | 0:32:10 | 0:32:13 | |
violence against them because they don't do anything. | 0:32:13 | 0:32:16 | |
The unifying factor is that it's always men. | 0:32:16 | 0:32:20 | |
White men. All ages. Usually in groups. | 0:32:20 | 0:32:23 | |
I do think it was interesting that it was a group of people who did it. | 0:32:23 | 0:32:26 | |
I think straight men kick off at gay men because they know what | 0:32:27 | 0:32:30 | |
men are like. They're men. | 0:32:30 | 0:32:32 | |
We're men. We are exactly the same. | 0:32:32 | 0:32:34 | |
They do seem to be quite obsessed with our sex lives! | 0:32:34 | 0:32:38 | |
There's a moment when, usually a man, because it is usually a man, | 0:32:38 | 0:32:42 | |
is attracted to that person that they're seeing | 0:32:42 | 0:32:45 | |
and they're so repulsed by | 0:32:45 | 0:32:47 | |
the attraction that they have, they have to react to it. | 0:32:47 | 0:32:50 | |
Jealousy. | 0:32:54 | 0:32:56 | |
Envy! | 0:32:56 | 0:32:57 | |
Fear of difference, fear of sex. | 0:32:57 | 0:33:00 | |
Well, I think it's fair enough. | 0:33:00 | 0:33:02 | |
I mean, sex is repulsive, isn't it, really? | 0:33:02 | 0:33:04 | |
At least it should be, if you're doing it right. | 0:33:04 | 0:33:06 | |
If you think about it! | 0:33:06 | 0:33:07 | |
Deep down, they don't agree with it. | 0:33:09 | 0:33:11 | |
They think there's something wrong with it. | 0:33:11 | 0:33:13 | |
Because you don't know LGBT people, that's why you have a fear of them. | 0:33:13 | 0:33:16 | |
I think it's a lot to do with misogyny. | 0:33:16 | 0:33:18 | |
A hatred of women and feminine people. | 0:33:18 | 0:33:21 | |
I think it starts with your parents. | 0:33:21 | 0:33:22 | |
The messages you get from your siblings, your friends, your family. | 0:33:22 | 0:33:26 | |
It's been indoctrinated within them. | 0:33:26 | 0:33:29 | |
It destabilises their idea of what it is to be a man or a woman. | 0:33:29 | 0:33:34 | |
A threat to their masculinity. | 0:33:34 | 0:33:37 | |
A worry about the strength of your own position. | 0:33:37 | 0:33:40 | |
They automatically think they've got more power. | 0:33:40 | 0:33:43 | |
And it is a power game to some people. | 0:33:44 | 0:33:47 | |
There is an element of fear at the root of it. | 0:33:50 | 0:33:53 | |
There is an institutional homophobia which still runs through. | 0:33:53 | 0:33:58 | |
Having a house and a family and two kids, | 0:33:58 | 0:34:00 | |
that was just a whole economic ruse. | 0:34:00 | 0:34:04 | |
Trans people, queer people, non-binary. | 0:34:04 | 0:34:06 | |
We're an assault. We're different. | 0:34:06 | 0:34:09 | |
That's very threatening. | 0:34:09 | 0:34:10 | |
These here, it depicts seeing the light coming towards you | 0:34:19 | 0:34:24 | |
of the cars and the number of cars | 0:34:24 | 0:34:26 | |
that there were on the road that night. | 0:34:26 | 0:34:29 | |
The squares themselves depict trouble, | 0:34:31 | 0:34:36 | |
and these spots are the spots where | 0:34:36 | 0:34:40 | |
things haven't gone quite right. | 0:34:40 | 0:34:42 | |
And this is really about the disaster | 0:34:42 | 0:34:45 | |
and the effect that it had at the end. It does - | 0:34:45 | 0:34:49 | |
it sort of symbolises Ian, | 0:34:49 | 0:34:52 | |
and what happened to him but it's also something that is very nice and | 0:34:52 | 0:34:57 | |
reassuring to have around. | 0:34:57 | 0:34:59 | |
But, yeah, that twist of fate. | 0:35:00 | 0:35:03 | |
And you can just about pick him out, Ian Baynham. | 0:35:05 | 0:35:08 | |
That's also very special. | 0:35:08 | 0:35:09 | |
Well, that night... | 0:35:19 | 0:35:21 | |
..he was walking down the street with his friend, Philip. | 0:35:23 | 0:35:27 | |
He'd just had his first week at work, so he was going out | 0:35:29 | 0:35:32 | |
to have a drink. | 0:35:32 | 0:35:33 | |
They'd just alighted from a bus, | 0:35:36 | 0:35:39 | |
when Ian was, um, verbally abused, basically, I'd say. | 0:35:39 | 0:35:44 | |
Something was said to him in relation to his sexuality - | 0:35:48 | 0:35:52 | |
or his presumed sexuality. | 0:35:52 | 0:35:54 | |
The word "faggots" - they heard that word, "faggots". | 0:35:56 | 0:35:59 | |
Ian turned round to speak to the person. | 0:36:02 | 0:36:05 | |
They shouted out... | 0:36:08 | 0:36:10 | |
.."Fucking faggots". | 0:36:12 | 0:36:14 | |
My brother turned round and said, "I may be gay, but..." | 0:36:17 | 0:36:22 | |
Ian was not the sort of person who would let a comment pass. | 0:36:28 | 0:36:32 | |
You know, he wasn't ashamed of who or what he was, | 0:36:32 | 0:36:35 | |
in any shape or form. | 0:36:35 | 0:36:37 | |
If you were going to call him something, you would get a response. | 0:36:39 | 0:36:42 | |
And then, there was some sort of altercation that went on. | 0:36:44 | 0:36:49 | |
There was a short tussle. | 0:36:51 | 0:36:53 | |
The blonde girl was hitting Ian Baynham | 0:36:53 | 0:36:56 | |
with her handbag, and Ian managed to grab hold of it. | 0:36:56 | 0:37:00 | |
I turned the corner and saw the young girl | 0:37:02 | 0:37:05 | |
sort of struggling with the older guy, | 0:37:05 | 0:37:07 | |
though it looked like he was trying to take her handbag. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:10 | |
The girl just seemed angry. | 0:37:12 | 0:37:14 | |
They just seemed like pissed off, drunk, young, angry girls. | 0:37:14 | 0:37:19 | |
One of the witnesses said that he was kicked in the groin. | 0:37:23 | 0:37:27 | |
At which case, he flailed out at the girl. | 0:37:29 | 0:37:32 | |
At that point, Joel | 0:37:36 | 0:37:39 | |
threw the punch. | 0:37:39 | 0:37:41 | |
Ian, he was the first-born in the family. | 0:37:49 | 0:37:53 | |
And he was four years older than I was. | 0:37:53 | 0:37:56 | |
He always... He was... | 0:37:58 | 0:37:59 | |
He had this amazing smile. | 0:37:59 | 0:38:01 | |
He just loved life, really. | 0:38:03 | 0:38:04 | |
When things were tough, | 0:38:07 | 0:38:08 | |
he'd be there, and he'd never judge you. | 0:38:08 | 0:38:11 | |
As we grew up, | 0:38:14 | 0:38:16 | |
um, we went our separate ways. | 0:38:16 | 0:38:18 | |
In our early 20s, I went to a gay party with somebody, a girl. | 0:38:20 | 0:38:25 | |
It was packed. | 0:38:25 | 0:38:27 | |
I looked across the room | 0:38:30 | 0:38:32 | |
and I thought, "It can't be! | 0:38:32 | 0:38:35 | |
"That's Ian." | 0:38:35 | 0:38:36 | |
He spotted me, I could see, cos there were people in the middle. | 0:38:38 | 0:38:41 | |
It was absolutely crowded. | 0:38:41 | 0:38:44 | |
And he came up to me, put his arms around me... | 0:38:44 | 0:38:47 | |
..and he said, "What are YOU doing here?" | 0:38:48 | 0:38:51 | |
And from that moment, we realised that, you know, we were both gay. | 0:38:51 | 0:38:58 | |
That really forged this inseparable link. | 0:39:00 | 0:39:04 | |
My memory of it was like | 0:39:17 | 0:39:18 | |
a combination of, like, a running kick-punch. | 0:39:18 | 0:39:21 | |
Ian was punched to the ground by another member of that same group. | 0:39:24 | 0:39:28 | |
I saw that and thought, "That looks a bit excessive." | 0:39:31 | 0:39:33 | |
According to Philip Brown, Ian fell to the ground like a corpse. | 0:39:37 | 0:39:42 | |
As soon as he'd hit the ground, he was out. | 0:39:47 | 0:39:51 | |
The girl was reported by many witnesses | 0:39:55 | 0:39:59 | |
to start kicking and stamping and | 0:39:59 | 0:40:03 | |
shouting, "Fucking faggot," at him. | 0:40:03 | 0:40:06 | |
The girl was then jumping on him. | 0:40:11 | 0:40:12 | |
She was on his chest and on his face, and he didn't move. | 0:40:12 | 0:40:16 | |
And it was at that point I called the police. | 0:40:16 | 0:40:18 | |
Kicking him | 0:40:22 | 0:40:23 | |
while he was laying on the ground, | 0:40:23 | 0:40:26 | |
with blood coming from his ears and his nose. | 0:40:26 | 0:40:29 | |
Exactly where he'd fallen. | 0:40:32 | 0:40:34 | |
You know, shocking. | 0:40:39 | 0:40:41 | |
Absolutely shocking. | 0:40:41 | 0:40:42 | |
Um...I... When I heard it, I couldn't believe it. | 0:40:42 | 0:40:47 | |
And there was a crowd of people round him, | 0:40:49 | 0:40:51 | |
which you can see on the CCTV footage. | 0:40:51 | 0:40:54 | |
How could you leave somebody in that state? | 0:41:05 | 0:41:08 | |
Why didn't they go back to him, | 0:41:10 | 0:41:13 | |
check he was OK? Those questions still nag at the back of my mind. | 0:41:13 | 0:41:19 | |
To walk away... | 0:41:22 | 0:41:24 | |
How could you do that? | 0:41:25 | 0:41:27 | |
She seemed to be pretty pleased about what she'd been involved in. | 0:41:33 | 0:41:37 | |
She had her arms raised. | 0:41:37 | 0:41:39 | |
She seemed to have a smile on her face. | 0:41:39 | 0:41:41 | |
Others were there. | 0:41:41 | 0:41:43 | |
Maybe a little less exuberant. | 0:41:44 | 0:41:48 | |
But nevertheless, they all knew what had happened. | 0:41:48 | 0:41:50 | |
They left the scene, you know, they left the scene. | 0:41:59 | 0:42:02 | |
They left | 0:42:02 | 0:42:04 | |
Ian in that state. | 0:42:04 | 0:42:06 | |
I got there and went in to see him and he was in intensive care. | 0:42:17 | 0:42:21 | |
He was unconscious. | 0:42:22 | 0:42:24 | |
He'd got two big black eyes. | 0:42:24 | 0:42:26 | |
I looked at him and I thought... | 0:42:28 | 0:42:30 | |
..you know, "How can he survive this?" | 0:42:32 | 0:42:34 | |
When you say someone's been punched and they're unconscious, then you... | 0:42:36 | 0:42:39 | |
I suppose you have an idea in your mind what you're going to see when | 0:42:39 | 0:42:43 | |
you get to the hospital. You're just hoping that... | 0:42:43 | 0:42:46 | |
..you know, things aren't quite as horrific as they sound. | 0:42:48 | 0:42:51 | |
I said, "George, his breathing is changing." | 0:43:05 | 0:43:08 | |
And my experience told me that, you know, | 0:43:08 | 0:43:12 | |
this was sort of the final breath and... | 0:43:12 | 0:43:16 | |
And he struggled a bit with his breathing and... | 0:43:16 | 0:43:21 | |
and then he stopped breathing. | 0:43:21 | 0:43:23 | |
We were with him... | 0:43:24 | 0:43:25 | |
It was very sad. | 0:43:32 | 0:43:34 | |
And so he died. | 0:43:38 | 0:43:40 | |
-APPLAUSE -Ladies and gentlemen, | 0:43:45 | 0:43:47 | |
I wanted her to come up on the stage and just see for herself. | 0:43:47 | 0:43:50 | |
Would you please welcome Ian Baynham's sister, Jenny. | 0:43:50 | 0:43:53 | |
APPLAUSE AND CHEERING | 0:43:53 | 0:43:55 | |
VOICEOVER: Extraordinary coming together of gay people, | 0:44:06 | 0:44:10 | |
straight people, just because of what had happened. | 0:44:10 | 0:44:14 | |
There were thousands, and they had lights, they were twinkling. | 0:44:17 | 0:44:21 | |
It was magic, really. | 0:44:21 | 0:44:23 | |
And such a fitting event for Ian, really. | 0:44:26 | 0:44:32 | |
And just across the road was where he was last conscious. | 0:44:36 | 0:44:41 | |
I went there a couple of times just to have a look. | 0:44:45 | 0:44:47 | |
You know, it really is significant, and... | 0:44:49 | 0:44:52 | |
Yeah. That tree, I know it very well. | 0:44:53 | 0:44:57 | |
He is part of Trafalgar Square now and...where it all happened. | 0:44:59 | 0:45:03 | |
-REPORTER: -A former public school girl and her male friend have been | 0:45:13 | 0:45:16 | |
found guilty of the manslaughter of a man | 0:45:16 | 0:45:18 | |
who was killed in a homophobic attack in Trafalgar Square. | 0:45:18 | 0:45:21 | |
18-year-old Ruby Thomas and 20-year-old Joel Alexander | 0:45:22 | 0:45:25 | |
will be sentenced in January. | 0:45:25 | 0:45:27 | |
Guilty of carrying out a brutal homophobic killing, | 0:45:29 | 0:45:31 | |
during a drunken night out in Trafalgar Square in September | 0:45:31 | 0:45:34 | |
last year, 18-year-old Ruby Thomas and 19-year-old Joel Alexander, | 0:45:34 | 0:45:39 | |
friends from south London. | 0:45:39 | 0:45:41 | |
One witness compared their actions to a scene | 0:45:41 | 0:45:43 | |
from the ultraviolent film, A Clockwork Orange. | 0:45:43 | 0:45:46 | |
They will have to live with what they've done | 0:45:59 | 0:46:02 | |
for the rest of their lives. | 0:46:02 | 0:46:04 | |
I hope that they will continue to think about what they've done. | 0:46:04 | 0:46:08 | |
Because that's perhaps a greater punishment than, you know, | 0:46:08 | 0:46:11 | |
being locked away for a couple of years. | 0:46:11 | 0:46:14 | |
The lasting effect to me of something like this, | 0:46:21 | 0:46:24 | |
you'll see something in the street one day, | 0:46:24 | 0:46:27 | |
and you'll laugh about it and you'll think, | 0:46:27 | 0:46:31 | |
what pleasure he would've taken in it. | 0:46:31 | 0:46:33 | |
You've had a good friend that you can share things with, | 0:46:35 | 0:46:38 | |
and they are taken away for no valid reason. | 0:46:38 | 0:46:44 | |
Someone perceived that they were gay | 0:46:45 | 0:46:47 | |
and that was something that they felt they should comment on. | 0:46:47 | 0:46:50 | |
It's been a really tough week for us. | 0:47:01 | 0:47:03 | |
I haven't slept right in, like, five, six days, | 0:47:03 | 0:47:06 | |
because I've just been worrying about everything | 0:47:06 | 0:47:08 | |
and just so angry and worked up about it. | 0:47:08 | 0:47:10 | |
The defence changed everything around - | 0:47:17 | 0:47:20 | |
to then say that it never happened, | 0:47:20 | 0:47:23 | |
you're calling me a liar. | 0:47:23 | 0:47:25 | |
I've no reason to lie. I don't know this man from Adam. | 0:47:25 | 0:47:28 | |
It wasn't nice. | 0:47:29 | 0:47:30 | |
It hit me and I just... | 0:47:30 | 0:47:32 | |
Yeah, as soon as I came out of the courtroom, I broke down. | 0:47:34 | 0:47:37 | |
It was nothing like what I thought it would be. | 0:47:38 | 0:47:41 | |
Nothing like it at all. | 0:47:41 | 0:47:43 | |
He got told that he was guilty, even though he wasn't there. | 0:47:55 | 0:47:59 | |
But unless he returns to the country, he will not be sentenced. | 0:48:00 | 0:48:04 | |
It's difficult. | 0:48:05 | 0:48:06 | |
But, yeah, annoyed that he didn't attend and get sentenced. | 0:48:08 | 0:48:12 | |
How one guy can, you know, | 0:48:21 | 0:48:23 | |
be found guilty and then the other guy not guilty, | 0:48:23 | 0:48:26 | |
and they were both there at the same time, it's... | 0:48:26 | 0:48:28 | |
It doesn't make sense. | 0:48:29 | 0:48:31 | |
It's a lot easier for me. | 0:48:31 | 0:48:32 | |
Alex, it's going to be a little bit harder. | 0:48:34 | 0:48:36 | |
She holds it in a lot, you know, personal, and all that. | 0:48:37 | 0:48:41 | |
We know what happened. | 0:48:43 | 0:48:45 | |
We haven't lied. | 0:48:46 | 0:48:47 | |
And now we have to live with it. | 0:48:48 | 0:48:50 | |
It's easier said than done. | 0:48:51 | 0:48:52 | |
Easier said than done. | 0:48:54 | 0:48:56 | |
What's happening today, Bec? | 0:49:02 | 0:49:04 | |
I'm going to hell. | 0:49:06 | 0:49:07 | |
-INTERVIEWER: What's happening today? -I'm going to... | 0:49:13 | 0:49:15 | |
-Notinam! -Nottingham! -NottingHAM! | 0:49:15 | 0:49:19 | |
You're being silly. Stop. | 0:49:19 | 0:49:21 | |
-Nottingham. -You're going to Nottingham. | 0:49:21 | 0:49:23 | |
Not exactly specifically a fresh start, | 0:49:23 | 0:49:25 | |
but it's just a new life for all of us. | 0:49:25 | 0:49:29 | |
Now I feel guilty, because I've chosen to love Becky, | 0:49:30 | 0:49:34 | |
which, in turn, has brought this crap into Josh's life. | 0:49:34 | 0:49:38 | |
Just me and my son... | 0:49:38 | 0:49:40 | |
..we look completely normal. | 0:49:41 | 0:49:43 | |
We wouldn't gather attention, and being with Becky gathers attention, | 0:49:43 | 0:49:46 | |
cos she is so obviously gay. | 0:49:46 | 0:49:48 | |
I'm disappointed and upset and angry | 0:49:50 | 0:49:54 | |
at him and the court and the justice system and... | 0:49:54 | 0:49:57 | |
..just hope and pray that it doesn't happen to someone else. | 0:49:58 | 0:50:01 | |
We're a year on now since it happened and I thought that... | 0:50:09 | 0:50:12 | |
I think I thought that things would probably get a bit easier, | 0:50:14 | 0:50:18 | |
but they haven't. | 0:50:18 | 0:50:19 | |
When we're out and about, he wants us to look like we're together, | 0:50:23 | 0:50:27 | |
obviously, but I'm scared of someone taking the wrong look, | 0:50:27 | 0:50:32 | |
or it happening again, something similar. | 0:50:32 | 0:50:34 | |
It wasn't like that a year ago. | 0:50:36 | 0:50:38 | |
Yeah, we didn't go down the street holding hands | 0:50:38 | 0:50:41 | |
but I wasn't... I wasn't, like, fully aware of us | 0:50:41 | 0:50:44 | |
making sure that we weren't seen as a couple. | 0:50:44 | 0:50:47 | |
Right, we don't need a hair dryer, do we? | 0:50:47 | 0:50:50 | |
No. I don't think you can bring your laptop, | 0:50:50 | 0:50:52 | |
-if you were planning on doing that. -Why can't I bring my laptop? | 0:50:52 | 0:50:55 | |
Because you can't bring stuff on the plane any more. | 0:50:55 | 0:50:57 | |
-INTERVIEWER: -None of those summer shirts going? Look at those. | 0:50:57 | 0:51:00 | |
Oh, right. That was... That was the old days. | 0:51:00 | 0:51:02 | |
No more of that. More of this, though. | 0:51:02 | 0:51:05 | |
We used to share clothes, and it was quite handy, | 0:51:07 | 0:51:10 | |
but now James just wears tracksuits all the time. | 0:51:10 | 0:51:13 | |
There's nothing wrong with that. | 0:51:13 | 0:51:14 | |
No, there's not, but obviously I don't see that sort of thing. | 0:51:14 | 0:51:17 | |
Yeah, and you used to have glitter parties and wear pink everywhere. | 0:51:17 | 0:51:21 | |
And now you just want to dress like a chav. | 0:51:21 | 0:51:24 | |
But you say it like there's something wrong with it. | 0:51:24 | 0:51:26 | |
No, but it annoys me, like, obviously. | 0:51:26 | 0:51:28 | |
-Why does it annoy you? -Because you're not the same person any more. | 0:51:28 | 0:51:30 | |
You're like this completely different person. | 0:51:30 | 0:51:33 | |
VOICEOVER: I think we've both... | 0:51:33 | 0:51:34 | |
I don't know, changed a lot in that last year, I'd say. | 0:51:34 | 0:51:38 | |
Yeah, we've definitely changed into different people because of what | 0:51:40 | 0:51:43 | |
happened, and some of it for the best, some of it's... | 0:51:43 | 0:51:47 | |
I wouldn't necessarily say from what happened. | 0:51:47 | 0:51:49 | |
I would say from what happened, from like the mental side of it, | 0:51:49 | 0:51:53 | |
the way that our thought processes... | 0:51:53 | 0:51:54 | |
OK, yeah. But I still... | 0:51:54 | 0:51:57 | |
I don't... I don't... I'm not ashamed to be gay like you, like. | 0:51:57 | 0:52:00 | |
-I'm not ashamed. -Yeah, you are. | 0:52:00 | 0:52:01 | |
I'm not ashamed. I wouldn't say it's ashamed. | 0:52:01 | 0:52:04 | |
I haven't said those words like that. | 0:52:04 | 0:52:05 | |
No, you said, "Oh, I don't want people to know I'm gay." | 0:52:05 | 0:52:08 | |
That means you're ashamed of being gay. | 0:52:08 | 0:52:10 | |
-No, I didn't say that. -You did. You've said that to me before. | 0:52:10 | 0:52:12 | |
-I think you've got the wrong end of the stick. -I don't think I have. | 0:52:12 | 0:52:15 | |
-I said I need to be careful. -You don't need to be careful | 0:52:15 | 0:52:17 | |
-of who you are. -Of course I need to be careful. | 0:52:17 | 0:52:19 | |
-Because of what happened. -Not really. Bullshit, | 0:52:19 | 0:52:22 | |
absolute bullshit. I don't agree with that. | 0:52:22 | 0:52:24 | |
You're full of shit. | 0:52:24 | 0:52:25 | |
VOICEOVER: For me, it's really sad, because I've seen him change into | 0:52:25 | 0:52:28 | |
someone that I don't really recognise any more. | 0:52:28 | 0:52:33 | |
And it's really upsetting for me. | 0:52:33 | 0:52:36 | |
But I have to be wary, cos I don't want what happened... | 0:52:36 | 0:52:39 | |
It's not going to happen. Well, how is that going to happen again? | 0:52:39 | 0:52:42 | |
Cos... How did it happen THAT night? | 0:52:42 | 0:52:43 | |
Because we were being, like, you know... | 0:52:43 | 0:52:45 | |
We were being people. We were being humans. | 0:52:45 | 0:52:47 | |
Yeah, we were being ourselves. Which was quite flamboyant. | 0:52:47 | 0:52:50 | |
There's nothing wrong with being ourselves. | 0:52:50 | 0:52:52 | |
-Not at all. We are who we are. -I know, but we have to be wary. | 0:52:52 | 0:52:55 | |
-No, we don't. Not at all. We don't. -We do. | 0:52:55 | 0:52:58 | |
I've changed my thought process and mind-set of everything | 0:53:02 | 0:53:06 | |
than how it was before. | 0:53:06 | 0:53:08 | |
Of how I think about how I look, how I act, how I speak, | 0:53:08 | 0:53:12 | |
who I'm with, where we go, | 0:53:12 | 0:53:13 | |
where I'm seen, everything. | 0:53:13 | 0:53:17 | |
I think it's a terrible thing that happened to us | 0:53:18 | 0:53:21 | |
and I would honestly not wish that to happen to anyone. | 0:53:21 | 0:53:25 | |
So much bad has come out of it, I guess, in terms of | 0:53:26 | 0:53:30 | |
physically and mentally for both of us. | 0:53:30 | 0:53:32 | |
We're going to have to see what happens. | 0:53:36 | 0:53:39 | |
I miss the smiles, the cuddles. | 0:53:51 | 0:53:53 | |
I miss my old Connor. | 0:53:53 | 0:53:56 | |
As I say, at the end of the day, he's still my grandson. | 0:53:56 | 0:54:00 | |
He's a little bugger at times, I know, but he is a good kid, really. | 0:54:02 | 0:54:06 | |
He's strong, he's a good person. | 0:54:09 | 0:54:11 | |
He's not the bad person. | 0:54:11 | 0:54:13 | |
It was like literally love at first sight as soon as I met him. | 0:54:15 | 0:54:17 | |
I didn't want to let go when I gave him a cuddle. | 0:54:17 | 0:54:20 | |
Oh, I've got my best friends, the person that I love, just everything, | 0:54:23 | 0:54:28 | |
really. Everything I've ever wanted... | 0:54:28 | 0:54:30 | |
..out of a relationship. | 0:54:31 | 0:54:33 | |
What's the future for you, guys? | 0:54:34 | 0:54:36 | |
Spend the rest of our lives together. | 0:54:37 | 0:54:39 | |
Getting married next year. | 0:54:39 | 0:54:41 | |
He wants it all like a royal wedding. | 0:54:42 | 0:54:44 | |
Like, he wants a red carpet, all the bling and glitter, and... | 0:54:44 | 0:54:47 | |
-Not something -I -would want, but... -And the butterflies! | 0:54:48 | 0:54:51 | |
-Maybe not that. -Butterflies as the table decorations. | 0:54:53 | 0:54:55 | |
-Maybe not. -Yeah. | 0:54:57 | 0:54:58 | |
It's been 50 years since we've achieved equality and yet, | 0:55:03 | 0:55:06 | |
in reality, we haven't really achieved equality. | 0:55:06 | 0:55:08 | |
We've just achieved some legal sanction. | 0:55:08 | 0:55:10 | |
I am a gay man but I'm not ONLY a gay man. | 0:55:10 | 0:55:14 | |
Until we can be seen to be knitted within families and knitted within | 0:55:14 | 0:55:19 | |
communities, we'll continue to be pigeonholed in the way that we are. | 0:55:19 | 0:55:24 | |
We... We... We are who we are, | 0:55:24 | 0:55:25 | |
and if you think you're normal... | 0:55:25 | 0:55:28 | |
I think I'm normal, | 0:55:28 | 0:55:29 | |
what is normality? | 0:55:29 | 0:55:31 | |
We've been having this discussion for a very long time. | 0:55:31 | 0:55:33 | |
But it's...what's the new norm. | 0:55:33 | 0:55:35 | |
The only way that things will improve is to be visible | 0:55:37 | 0:55:41 | |
and just stand up for ourselves, you know? | 0:55:41 | 0:55:43 | |
Education, education, education. | 0:55:43 | 0:55:45 | |
You have to be exposed, you have to be exposed to that culture. | 0:55:45 | 0:55:50 | |
Changing the young people will, in a couple of generations, make a huge | 0:55:50 | 0:55:55 | |
-difference. -It's possible in our generation as well. | 0:55:55 | 0:55:59 | |
If we live long enough. | 0:55:59 | 0:56:00 | |
-Yeah. -My goal for my liberation at the moment is to, like, | 0:56:00 | 0:56:03 | |
not have a fear of being violently attacked. | 0:56:03 | 0:56:05 | |
That's not really like a high goal, right? | 0:56:05 | 0:56:07 | |
It's rather bleak, isn't it? | 0:56:07 | 0:56:08 | |
Sorry. | 0:56:08 | 0:56:10 | |
It's not OK for somebody to shout "faggot", or "gay boy", or whatever. | 0:56:10 | 0:56:14 | |
When we walk away, they've got away with it. | 0:56:14 | 0:56:17 | |
It's the gay community getting the confidence to come forward and | 0:56:17 | 0:56:20 | |
report these crimes. | 0:56:20 | 0:56:22 | |
I think that's one of the biggest things for the police is | 0:56:22 | 0:56:24 | |
wanting people to report things so we can do something about it. | 0:56:24 | 0:56:28 | |
We will definitely get there. | 0:56:28 | 0:56:30 | |
We have a saying - keep on keeping on, because we will get there. | 0:56:30 | 0:56:35 | |
Who cares why they do it? | 0:56:35 | 0:56:37 | |
Stop, just stop. | 0:56:37 | 0:56:39 | |
Deal with it yourself. | 0:56:39 | 0:56:40 | |
You know, it's not OUR job to train you up. You know? | 0:56:40 | 0:56:43 | |
I hate to think about him, because then that sets me on a roll. | 0:56:50 | 0:56:54 | |
We always used to say, "Oh, well, look, | 0:56:56 | 0:56:59 | |
"we can always live together when we get older and get retired, you know, | 0:56:59 | 0:57:03 | |
"we'll be like Darby and Joan and, you know, | 0:57:03 | 0:57:06 | |
"have a few tea parties and this..." | 0:57:06 | 0:57:08 | |
And we'd laugh about it and so... | 0:57:08 | 0:57:12 | |
..I probably miss him more and more as I've got older. | 0:57:13 | 0:57:16 | |
You can't... | 0:57:19 | 0:57:21 | |
You can't have hate. | 0:57:21 | 0:57:23 | |
You can't have hate. | 0:57:23 | 0:57:25 | |
And I think hate is a very... | 0:57:26 | 0:57:28 | |
..divisive thing to hold on to. | 0:57:30 | 0:57:34 | |
I don't want to be like that and I've never been like that. | 0:57:35 | 0:57:38 | |
I'm starting the restorative justice programme | 0:57:43 | 0:57:50 | |
and hoping that... | 0:57:50 | 0:57:51 | |
..that'll give me some sort of closure | 0:57:53 | 0:57:56 | |
and also, that that will help the offenders. | 0:57:56 | 0:58:00 | |
I'd like to meet them all. | 0:58:01 | 0:58:02 | |
They're still alive and they have a life. | 0:58:04 | 0:58:07 | |
I do care what happens to people. | 0:58:08 | 0:58:11 | |
And I know that some people don't have the same advantages as others. | 0:58:12 | 0:58:16 | |
I actually think he would | 0:58:19 | 0:58:22 | |
support me doing this. | 0:58:22 | 0:58:24 | |
And I think this will really be a bit like a springboard in helping me | 0:58:24 | 0:58:29 | |
move on. | 0:58:29 | 0:58:31 | |
I'm hopeful. | 0:58:31 | 0:58:33 |