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This used to be called cardboard city number one. Embankment used to be called cardboard city number two. | 0:00:06 | 0:00:12 | |
One, two, three, four, | 0:00:30 | 0:00:34 | |
five, six, seven, | 0:00:34 | 0:00:38 | |
eight, nine, ten. | 0:00:38 | 0:00:41 | |
You died, baby, didn't you? | 0:00:52 | 0:00:54 | |
Jumped off the bridge age of 15. | 0:00:59 | 0:01:02 | |
She stood here and she jumped off the bridge. | 0:01:04 | 0:01:07 | |
12, 13, 14... | 0:01:26 | 0:01:29 | |
..15, 16, 17... | 0:01:31 | 0:01:35 | |
17. | 0:01:46 | 0:01:48 | |
She was 19. | 0:01:50 | 0:01:51 | |
She had an axe through her head. | 0:01:52 | 0:01:54 | |
Her hands tied behind her back with feet in cement. | 0:01:54 | 0:01:58 | |
The police dragged her out. | 0:01:58 | 0:02:01 | |
She got killed. | 0:02:01 | 0:02:03 | |
They was homeless. | 0:02:03 | 0:02:05 | |
And she was homeless. | 0:02:05 | 0:02:08 | |
Home sweet home... | 0:02:21 | 0:02:23 | |
and you fucking spoilt it. | 0:02:23 | 0:02:26 | |
All them cafes and shops, waiters... | 0:02:35 | 0:02:39 | |
fucking everything. | 0:02:39 | 0:02:41 | |
Where's my home? | 0:02:41 | 0:02:44 | |
Where's my home?! | 0:02:44 | 0:02:46 | |
Hello, you're gorgeous, aren't you? | 0:02:50 | 0:02:53 | |
Hang on, don't go away. | 0:02:53 | 0:02:56 | |
You're beautiful. There you go. | 0:02:57 | 0:03:00 | |
Oh, no, don't give her your money! | 0:03:00 | 0:03:02 | |
-No, there you are. -No, no, no, don't. | 0:03:02 | 0:03:04 | |
No, no, don't. I find that offensive. | 0:03:04 | 0:03:06 | |
-I'm sorry I don't mean to offend you. -No, that's offensive. | 0:03:06 | 0:03:11 | |
Now you look after your mummy, all right? | 0:03:11 | 0:03:14 | |
This very nice lady gave you that money. That's a lot of money. | 0:03:14 | 0:03:17 | |
-That's a pound there. -Mummy will look after it for you. | 0:03:17 | 0:03:20 | |
All right? But don't get drunk on it, all right? | 0:03:20 | 0:03:23 | |
Well, that's very, very kind of you. | 0:03:23 | 0:03:25 | |
-Thank you. -That's all right. But I find that offensive. | 0:03:25 | 0:03:29 | |
-I am sorry. -But she's gorgeous. -Thank you. | 0:03:29 | 0:03:32 | |
You look after your mum when you grow up. | 0:03:32 | 0:03:36 | |
I don't care about money. | 0:03:36 | 0:03:39 | |
All I care about is my home. | 0:03:39 | 0:03:42 | |
This wasn't here. | 0:03:42 | 0:03:45 | |
All that crap wasn't there. | 0:03:45 | 0:03:48 | |
Food and drinks. Fuck food and drinks - this is our home! | 0:03:51 | 0:03:56 | |
And you all took it away from us. | 0:03:56 | 0:03:58 | |
This is our home. | 0:03:58 | 0:04:00 | |
This is my home. | 0:04:05 | 0:04:07 | |
My home! | 0:04:07 | 0:04:09 | |
Have you tried to find out where a particle actually is? | 0:04:32 | 0:04:34 | |
It stops being a wave and becomes a particle in a different place. | 0:04:34 | 0:04:40 | |
-Well... -Yes, have I understood it correctly? | 0:04:40 | 0:04:44 | |
Well, these days I don't think... | 0:04:44 | 0:04:46 | |
one normally describes quantum mechanics | 0:04:46 | 0:04:51 | |
in the wave particle duality in the way that one used to. | 0:04:51 | 0:04:55 | |
I think things are treated as particles but they have... | 0:04:55 | 0:04:59 | |
their location is a probability dis...which is wave function. | 0:04:59 | 0:05:03 | |
Wave function - that's the expression I meant. The solution of | 0:05:03 | 0:05:07 | |
the Schrodinger equation is wave function. There we are! | 0:05:07 | 0:05:09 | |
It's all perfectly simple really, isn't it? | 0:05:09 | 0:05:13 | |
< Paul, what's your background? | 0:05:13 | 0:05:15 | |
Well, I did have a couple of degrees in mathematics but I concentrated most on pure. | 0:05:15 | 0:05:21 | |
There was some quantum mechanics in there, which I have forgotten mostly, and functional analysis. | 0:05:21 | 0:05:29 | |
I spend a lot of time in bookshops reading various subjects. | 0:05:29 | 0:05:35 | |
And then where do you sleep? | 0:05:35 | 0:05:36 | |
Well, um, nowhere, really. | 0:05:36 | 0:05:40 | |
Nowhere permanent. | 0:05:40 | 0:05:42 | |
So I tend to, um, | 0:05:42 | 0:05:44 | |
sleep on night buses. | 0:05:44 | 0:05:48 | |
At least it's dry, mostly, inside the night bus. | 0:05:48 | 0:05:50 | |
SIREN WAILS | 0:06:34 | 0:06:37 | |
It's too early in the morning for that. | 0:06:56 | 0:06:59 | |
It's only five o'clock, Jean, and you're awake. | 0:06:59 | 0:07:04 | |
I've been awake off and on. I couldn't sleep properly last night... | 0:07:04 | 0:07:09 | |
And their fucking racket. | 0:07:09 | 0:07:11 | |
-Come on you lazy sod, what time do you call this? -Morning! | 0:07:11 | 0:07:16 | |
Or should I say goodnight. Oh, it's gone again. | 0:07:16 | 0:07:21 | |
-Jean. -What? -It's gone again. | 0:07:21 | 0:07:24 | |
That's cos you've been lying on it, you dumbo! | 0:07:26 | 0:07:30 | |
Here they come. Watch out. | 0:07:35 | 0:07:37 | |
Oh, rise and shine, you old cunt! | 0:07:55 | 0:07:58 | |
-Your hair. -What? -I said you haven't combed your hair. | 0:08:05 | 0:08:09 | |
I just fucking got up! Sorry! | 0:08:09 | 0:08:12 | |
Get off. | 0:08:20 | 0:08:22 | |
I can do it myself. | 0:08:22 | 0:08:24 | |
All right. | 0:08:24 | 0:08:25 | |
Morning. | 0:08:29 | 0:08:30 | |
I got the shakes this morning, cor! | 0:08:32 | 0:08:35 | |
Rattling. | 0:08:36 | 0:08:39 | |
-You had a good night then. -Mmmmm, slept well, yeah, but had to get up cos I nearly wet the bed. | 0:08:39 | 0:08:44 | |
It numbs everything, really. | 0:08:53 | 0:08:56 | |
You know, you don't care after that, do you? You know. | 0:08:57 | 0:09:01 | |
You just drink and drink and drink. | 0:09:01 | 0:09:03 | |
I think I am going to be sick. | 0:09:03 | 0:09:05 | |
Yeah, so... Something's coming... Something's on its way. | 0:09:05 | 0:09:10 | |
I'm Jesus... Robin Hood. No, not Robin Hood, what's the other fella? | 0:09:25 | 0:09:28 | |
Steals from the rich and gives to the poor... Robin Hood. | 0:09:28 | 0:09:31 | |
It's not Robin Hood, it's Robin Tesco, innit. | 0:09:31 | 0:09:34 | |
If someone's hungry I'll get them summit. | 0:09:34 | 0:09:36 | |
-Whatever's on the shelves. -Are you hungry? -Yeah. | 0:09:37 | 0:09:39 | |
-What do you want - meatballs? -Food's food. -He's a very funny guy. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:44 | |
Yeah, but you know he's dying inside. | 0:09:44 | 0:09:48 | |
And as far as being Robin Hood, I don't really give a rat's ass if you steal... | 0:09:48 | 0:09:54 | |
-Yeah, but why are you here? What have you left behind? -What have I left? | 0:09:54 | 0:09:59 | |
Everyone's got their own problems, everyone's got their own reason why they're here. | 0:09:59 | 0:10:04 | |
That person's got his own individual mind and he's on the streets for his individual reason. | 0:10:04 | 0:10:09 | |
-How does that help...? -It doesn't matter what we think of him. Ken's on the street for his own purpose. | 0:10:09 | 0:10:14 | |
Everyone who's here is on the streets for their own individual purpose. | 0:10:14 | 0:10:19 | |
Doesn't matter what you say about people, people fucking... | 0:10:19 | 0:10:22 | |
-They are good to each other, you know what I mean? -He's got a family. He's got kids. He shouldn't be here. | 0:10:22 | 0:10:28 | |
-Oh, well, that's the way it goes. What have you got? -I don't know. | 0:10:28 | 0:10:32 | |
-Crinkly old bag... The environment is a hot issue and quite rightly so. -Just eat the fucking thing. | 0:10:32 | 0:10:38 | |
Perfect. | 0:10:39 | 0:10:40 | |
Easy as that. | 0:10:44 | 0:10:45 | |
Sorry about that, Father. | 0:10:45 | 0:10:47 | |
Went to prison, come out and my wife says she doesn't want to be with me any more. | 0:10:49 | 0:10:53 | |
So that's why I'm back on the street. I done this in '85 to '95. | 0:10:53 | 0:10:57 | |
And now I'm back doing it again. It's just shit, really. | 0:10:57 | 0:11:01 | |
When I was drinking, I was being an idiot, do you know what I mean? | 0:11:01 | 0:11:05 | |
I was fighting everyone. But now I've stopped the drink, I'm all right now. | 0:11:05 | 0:11:09 | |
Trying to get rid of us all. We're an embarrassment. But they put us here in the first place. | 0:11:11 | 0:11:17 | |
I don't see them trying to get rid of the Polish and all that bollocks. Send them all home. Then we'd be OK. | 0:11:17 | 0:11:22 | |
Cos you're English, don't have a drug problem, don't have an alcohol problem. No help for you, my son. | 0:11:22 | 0:11:28 | |
No, you don't get nothing, bruv. | 0:11:28 | 0:11:30 | |
I'll lay you odds - out of 30 people that go in that night shelter, 28 are Eastern Europeans. | 0:11:30 | 0:11:35 | |
You might see two English people walking through that door. | 0:11:35 | 0:11:38 | |
I am Grizzly. | 0:11:46 | 0:11:48 | |
-I am from Polish. -< Poland, yes. -Poland. | 0:11:51 | 0:11:55 | |
Where do you live? | 0:11:55 | 0:11:57 | |
Park, my life, my God... Oh, shits...cock... | 0:11:57 | 0:12:02 | |
SPEAKS IN POLISH | 0:12:04 | 0:12:07 | |
Grizzly... | 0:12:07 | 0:12:08 | |
Grizzly too. | 0:12:09 | 0:12:12 | |
This is your park. | 0:12:13 | 0:12:15 | |
INDECIPHERABLE | 0:12:16 | 0:12:19 | |
# You're as cold as ice | 0:12:19 | 0:12:20 | |
# You're as cold as ice | 0:12:20 | 0:12:23 | |
# I'll sacrifice everything for you | 0:12:23 | 0:12:26 | |
# Cold as ice... # | 0:12:26 | 0:12:27 | |
# I love you, baby I love you, baby... # | 0:12:27 | 0:12:32 | |
# ..You're as cold as ice Sacrifice everything for you... # | 0:12:32 | 0:12:36 | |
< Ah! LAUGHTER | 0:12:38 | 0:12:41 | |
I am sleeping... | 0:13:00 | 0:13:03 | |
I am homeless. | 0:13:03 | 0:13:04 | |
Life... | 0:13:05 | 0:13:07 | |
Iraq, Chechnya, | 0:13:14 | 0:13:17 | |
Bosnia, Herzegovina... | 0:13:17 | 0:13:20 | |
I-I-I...army. | 0:13:44 | 0:13:45 | |
I am sniper. | 0:13:47 | 0:13:49 | |
I'm... | 0:14:02 | 0:14:05 | |
SPEAKS FOREIGN LANGUAGE | 0:14:15 | 0:14:17 | |
SPEAKING FOREIGN LANGUAGE | 0:14:28 | 0:14:30 | |
Arthur, why do you hurt yourself? Why did you do that? | 0:14:52 | 0:14:56 | |
Why did you put cigarettes...? | 0:14:56 | 0:14:58 | |
People that you had to kill. | 0:15:00 | 0:15:02 | |
And who told you to do that? | 0:15:03 | 0:15:06 | |
A lot. | 0:15:18 | 0:15:19 | |
One, two, three, four, five, six... | 0:15:19 | 0:15:22 | |
This one happen... How am I going to say? Because you're going to think I am crazy. | 0:15:39 | 0:15:46 | |
But this one I cut my throat, I cut my throat. | 0:15:46 | 0:15:52 | |
Everyone can tell you I'm crazy sometimes. | 0:15:52 | 0:15:55 | |
Why? Why did you do that? | 0:15:55 | 0:15:57 | |
Because I'm crazy sometimes. | 0:15:57 | 0:15:59 | |
I don't know why, just my... | 0:16:03 | 0:16:08 | |
my mum now is dead. | 0:16:08 | 0:16:11 | |
Yeah, she's dead. | 0:16:11 | 0:16:13 | |
46 years... | 0:16:14 | 0:16:16 | |
-You have? -My mum is dead also. | 0:16:17 | 0:16:21 | |
You have... How old are you? | 0:16:21 | 0:16:24 | |
-Ah, me, 59. -Oh, 59. -Yeah. | 0:16:24 | 0:16:27 | |
My mum have 46 and gone. | 0:16:28 | 0:16:32 | |
Eh, it's all right. | 0:16:36 | 0:16:39 | |
-Not for me it's all right. -No. | 0:16:39 | 0:16:41 | |
I show you. | 0:16:41 | 0:16:43 | |
I show you. | 0:16:46 | 0:16:48 | |
Me know... Watch. | 0:16:55 | 0:16:58 | |
Oh, no! Ricky, no. | 0:16:58 | 0:17:00 | |
So then, Ricky, when you were 14 | 0:17:07 | 0:17:09 | |
and you were on the street in Slovakia, yeah, | 0:17:09 | 0:17:14 | |
you joined a gang? | 0:17:14 | 0:17:17 | |
Like your tattoos. | 0:17:17 | 0:17:19 | |
-Me tattoo? -Yes. | 0:17:19 | 0:17:22 | |
Yeah, 14 years and I have these tattoos... | 0:17:22 | 0:17:26 | |
Is for because... | 0:17:29 | 0:17:31 | |
I don't know why I tell you... Me no like gypsy guy. | 0:17:33 | 0:17:38 | |
-You don't like gypsies. -No like black people. | 0:17:38 | 0:17:41 | |
And have same on there... | 0:17:41 | 0:17:45 | |
I show you. | 0:17:45 | 0:17:47 | |
Two black people...have knife... | 0:17:56 | 0:17:59 | |
..and taken me... | 0:18:00 | 0:18:02 | |
..just... | 0:18:05 | 0:18:06 | |
-So you were sleeping in the night and what happened? -This. -That. | 0:18:06 | 0:18:12 | |
All there stitching. | 0:18:12 | 0:18:15 | |
-What happened? -Just sleep. | 0:18:15 | 0:18:17 | |
You were sleeping and somebody came... | 0:18:17 | 0:18:20 | |
Yeah, and coming two mans, two black people and have knife | 0:18:20 | 0:18:25 | |
and touch me and take me everything. | 0:18:25 | 0:18:29 | |
My insurance, my home office, my documents, my money. | 0:18:29 | 0:18:34 | |
Now I don't have nothing. | 0:18:39 | 0:18:42 | |
I don't know why I tell you. | 0:18:44 | 0:18:46 | |
Just...just... | 0:18:46 | 0:18:48 | |
PIANO MUSIC | 0:18:52 | 0:18:54 | |
And the other tablets that I take are just to cure the voices in my head. | 0:19:11 | 0:19:18 | |
Wake up, you lazy bastard. | 0:19:22 | 0:19:25 | |
She died with cancer... | 0:19:35 | 0:19:37 | |
and then her husband, | 0:19:37 | 0:19:40 | |
his daughter's husband started to rape me. | 0:19:40 | 0:19:44 | |
From the age of 12. | 0:19:46 | 0:19:47 | |
They raped you when you were 12. | 0:19:47 | 0:19:49 | |
I'm used to getting raped, it doesn't bother me now. | 0:19:52 | 0:19:54 | |
I'm used to getting hurt. | 0:19:56 | 0:19:58 | |
It's like an addiction. | 0:19:58 | 0:20:01 | |
You can't live without it. | 0:20:01 | 0:20:03 | |
And then I ran away from home and then at the age of 15, | 0:20:12 | 0:20:16 | |
this guy asked me to go home with him. | 0:20:16 | 0:20:18 | |
Cos I said no, he had a knife at my throat, | 0:20:18 | 0:20:20 | |
then he chucked me over the bridge wall, ended up on the railway lines, | 0:20:22 | 0:20:26 | |
raped me and the next thing I know I was in Hammersmith Hospital. | 0:20:26 | 0:20:29 | |
Charing Cross, uh, Hammersmith. | 0:20:29 | 0:20:31 | |
Then I spent two years in Blackpool and I got raped down there. | 0:20:38 | 0:20:42 | |
One afternoon. | 0:20:42 | 0:20:43 | |
Then I came back here and I got raped down here. | 0:20:43 | 0:20:47 | |
See, so I'm used to it. | 0:20:47 | 0:20:50 | |
I'm used to getting raped. | 0:20:50 | 0:20:52 | |
Doesn't bother me now. | 0:20:56 | 0:20:57 | |
That's my kind of life. | 0:21:00 | 0:21:02 | |
I get this feeling I'm being followed. | 0:21:23 | 0:21:26 | |
If I feel like it's going to be damp during the night, | 0:21:29 | 0:21:32 | |
I quite often sleep under the bridge at Waterloo. | 0:21:32 | 0:21:36 | |
Which is quite a nice wide bridge. | 0:21:36 | 0:21:38 | |
Sometimes if it's really chilly, I sleep up by the Buddha Bar. | 0:21:38 | 0:21:43 | |
Which is quite nice because then I... By the Buddha Bar. | 0:21:43 | 0:21:47 | |
I get to listen to music and if it's really chilly, | 0:21:47 | 0:21:51 | |
their central heating system keeps it just a little bit warmer. | 0:21:51 | 0:21:55 | |
Thank you very much. Thank you, thank you. | 0:22:14 | 0:22:17 | |
'I've been given the opportunity to stop a lot of waste from occurring | 0:22:18 | 0:22:23 | |
'and, at the same time, help some people. | 0:22:23 | 0:22:25 | |
'And every day we, as a race, we throw away so much food.' | 0:22:25 | 0:22:30 | |
And food is life, so to throw away life, I think, is a criminal act. | 0:22:30 | 0:22:35 | |
The majority of the people that come to pick up sandwiches | 0:22:35 | 0:22:39 | |
are obviously just... | 0:22:39 | 0:22:40 | |
There are some people that are just... | 0:22:40 | 0:22:43 | |
penniless, skint. | 0:22:43 | 0:22:45 | |
Noodles and cashew? | 0:22:46 | 0:22:47 | |
Yes, please. | 0:22:47 | 0:22:49 | |
Tuna Salad. | 0:22:49 | 0:22:51 | |
-Yes, please. -Bean Salad. | 0:22:51 | 0:22:53 | |
-Thank you. -Thai chicken. | 0:22:53 | 0:22:55 | |
Club sandwich. | 0:22:56 | 0:22:58 | |
Green salad. | 0:22:58 | 0:22:59 | |
Bean salad. | 0:22:59 | 0:23:00 | |
Thanks, friend. | 0:23:01 | 0:23:03 | |
-You got two. -I can't give it back, can I? | 0:23:05 | 0:23:08 | |
-See you soon. -Yeah, thanks a lot, friend. | 0:23:09 | 0:23:13 | |
-Is that enough. Will that get you through? -Yeah. | 0:23:13 | 0:23:16 | |
Are you sure? If not, I will be along in the Strand in a bit. | 0:23:16 | 0:23:19 | |
-HE RECITES: -Life is one and singular As is the ever-constant all | 0:23:19 | 0:23:24 | |
To break or damage any bit Will be the way I fall. | 0:23:24 | 0:23:30 | |
I must learn to share with I and it's ego I must drop | 0:23:30 | 0:23:33 | |
Or peace will never rule on earth And wars will never stop. | 0:23:33 | 0:23:39 | |
-Do you have crayfish? -No. | 0:23:39 | 0:23:41 | |
We make the future, I and I That ego tries to take | 0:23:42 | 0:23:46 | |
Stealing and deceiving | 0:23:46 | 0:23:48 | |
What looks like give is just a fake... | 0:23:48 | 0:23:50 | |
Chicken? | 0:23:50 | 0:23:51 | |
HE LAUGHS | 0:23:51 | 0:23:53 | |
-Thank you very much. -It's a pleasure. | 0:23:53 | 0:23:56 | |
My life is about trying to make that world a more beautiful place. | 0:23:56 | 0:24:00 | |
Living for the love of life. | 0:24:00 | 0:24:03 | |
I don't earn money. I don't claim. | 0:24:03 | 0:24:06 | |
I don't have any income. | 0:24:06 | 0:24:07 | |
But every now and then someone will give me some pennies | 0:24:07 | 0:24:10 | |
for some tobacco or I find a fiver blowing down the street. | 0:24:10 | 0:24:13 | |
The only bit of me that's actually me | 0:24:13 | 0:24:17 | |
that I can claim ownership of is consciousness | 0:24:17 | 0:24:22 | |
within this physical body, | 0:24:22 | 0:24:23 | |
and the consciousness within the physical body has no physical space. | 0:24:23 | 0:24:28 | |
It doesn't physically... | 0:24:28 | 0:24:30 | |
MECHANICAL SQUEAL | 0:24:30 | 0:24:31 | |
HE LAUGHS | 0:24:31 | 0:24:33 | |
Doesn't physically exist. | 0:24:33 | 0:24:35 | |
Why haven't they put you into, um... | 0:25:03 | 0:25:05 | |
I've tried, I've tried, I've tried every angle known to man. | 0:25:05 | 0:25:09 | |
I cannot get a roof over my fucking head. No local connection. | 0:25:09 | 0:25:13 | |
I was in Brighton. Brighton fucking sent me to London | 0:25:13 | 0:25:17 | |
and now London want to send me to Timbuk-fucking-tu. | 0:25:17 | 0:25:19 | |
Know what I mean? Hang on a minute. | 0:25:19 | 0:25:21 | |
I'm talking to these people, right? | 0:25:21 | 0:25:23 | |
So, where the fuck do I go then? | 0:25:23 | 0:25:26 | |
Where is my connection? | 0:25:26 | 0:25:27 | |
I ain't fucking got one. I've buried every cunt. | 0:25:27 | 0:25:30 | |
Everyone's dead. Do you know what I mean? | 0:25:30 | 0:25:32 | |
They're all fucking brown bread. The lot of them. | 0:25:32 | 0:25:35 | |
Fuck you. No. | 0:25:47 | 0:25:49 | |
No! | 0:25:49 | 0:25:50 | |
The deepest corner of the deepest, darkest night | 0:25:55 | 0:25:57 | |
There's a little fella that blinks With his eyes wide open... | 0:25:57 | 0:26:01 | |
No, what is it? | 0:26:01 | 0:26:02 | |
In the darkest, darkest corner In the darkest, darkest nightmare... | 0:26:03 | 0:26:07 | |
In the darkest, darkest corner In the darkest, darkest nightmare... | 0:26:07 | 0:26:10 | |
-When you toss and turn... -When you toss and turn... | 0:26:10 | 0:26:13 | |
-Your eyes blink when they're shut... -Your eyes blink when they're shut... | 0:26:13 | 0:26:16 | |
I'm the little cunt in the corner watching. | 0:26:16 | 0:26:18 | |
He's the little cunt in the corner that's watching you. | 0:26:18 | 0:26:21 | |
Nature, it is. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:26 | |
This is when it begins... | 0:26:26 | 0:26:28 | |
What begins? | 0:26:28 | 0:26:30 | |
Life begins. | 0:26:30 | 0:26:33 | |
This is when it gets hard work. | 0:26:33 | 0:26:35 | |
Beat up, kicked up, spat on, | 0:26:39 | 0:26:41 | |
pissed on, set on fire. | 0:26:41 | 0:26:44 | |
This is when it begins. | 0:26:44 | 0:26:46 | |
This is the weary part of time. | 0:26:46 | 0:26:48 | |
And so how much do you get on benefits? | 0:27:07 | 0:27:10 | |
I think it is just a bit over £60. | 0:27:10 | 0:27:13 | |
And you pay for your ticket on the bus, don't you? | 0:27:17 | 0:27:20 | |
Oh, yes, I've got an Oyster card somewhere. | 0:27:20 | 0:27:23 | |
I hope I've got an Oyster card somewhere. | 0:27:23 | 0:27:25 | |
I have an oyster card! | 0:27:25 | 0:27:26 | |
I don't want to sort of give up, throw myself down on the ground. | 0:27:26 | 0:27:30 | |
One little bit of self respect I can hang on to. | 0:27:30 | 0:27:35 | |
Possibly at an enormous cost. | 0:27:35 | 0:27:37 | |
ANNOUNCEMENT: Green Park, Constitution Hill. | 0:27:48 | 0:27:51 | |
Hyde Park Corner station. | 0:27:54 | 0:27:56 | |
To Putney Heath. | 0:28:00 | 0:28:03 | |
Eden Street. | 0:28:05 | 0:28:07 | |
I'd fallen on hard times and of course Christmas was coming | 0:28:24 | 0:28:30 | |
and I moved into an emergency winter shelter. | 0:28:30 | 0:28:32 | |
That...was very awful, too. | 0:28:32 | 0:28:37 | |
In the first place, they allowed dogs which means that the... | 0:28:37 | 0:28:41 | |
It was a sort of office building. | 0:28:41 | 0:28:43 | |
And they just put beds in office rooms. | 0:28:43 | 0:28:47 | |
But they allowed people with dogs in and that meant there was dog shit | 0:28:47 | 0:28:52 | |
all over the corridors and staircases. | 0:28:52 | 0:28:54 | |
And then you had to share a room and my roommate, | 0:28:54 | 0:28:58 | |
who was a very long-established tramp, | 0:28:58 | 0:29:01 | |
just pissed on the floor in the middle of the night. | 0:29:01 | 0:29:04 | |
I allowed one night as an aberration, but the second night he pissed on the floor it was too much. | 0:29:04 | 0:29:10 | |
I couldn't stay for the third. | 0:29:10 | 0:29:12 | |
So that was how I ended up sleeping out in the snow. | 0:29:18 | 0:29:22 | |
Welcome to the Strand, the loony bin. | 0:29:38 | 0:29:41 | |
We just had a really nice fight | 0:29:41 | 0:29:43 | |
but it got a bit gruesome when someone had their face cut up. | 0:29:43 | 0:29:47 | |
-And you've had a drink. -I haven't had one drop. | 0:29:47 | 0:29:49 | |
I don't drink, I'm sober as a judge. | 0:29:49 | 0:29:51 | |
So the hand out came early tonight? | 0:29:56 | 0:29:58 | |
No, we went to the shop round the corner. | 0:29:58 | 0:30:01 | |
-They gave them to you? -No, we got them out the bin. | 0:30:01 | 0:30:04 | |
Oh. | 0:30:04 | 0:30:06 | |
Hey, this guy's got a prawn cocktail. | 0:30:06 | 0:30:09 | |
He's got two prawn cocktails. | 0:30:09 | 0:30:11 | |
I mean, I never got a prawn cocktail. | 0:30:11 | 0:30:13 | |
He dropped them off around the corner about half an hour ago. | 0:30:13 | 0:30:17 | |
I mean, how much does that cost, about £6.50? | 0:30:17 | 0:30:20 | |
-Do you eat quite well on the streets? -Oh, yeah. | 0:30:20 | 0:30:23 | |
Very well. Food is the least of our problems. | 0:30:23 | 0:30:26 | |
My computer has been hacked. | 0:30:29 | 0:30:31 | |
They took files out and put files in. | 0:30:31 | 0:30:34 | |
Their intention was to put blood diamonds in my suitcases. | 0:30:34 | 0:30:37 | |
I flew to Vancouver without my suitcases, | 0:30:37 | 0:30:40 | |
just the clothes on my back. | 0:30:40 | 0:30:42 | |
For that reason. When I got to Vancouver the guy says, customs, | 0:30:42 | 0:30:47 | |
"Where are your suitcases?" I said, "I didn't bring any, | 0:30:47 | 0:30:50 | |
"and you guys are waiting for me, right? | 0:30:50 | 0:30:52 | |
"I'm supposed to have diamonds. Did you have an anonymous report?" | 0:30:52 | 0:30:56 | |
They managed to leave enough debt with the company in Brazil | 0:30:57 | 0:31:03 | |
-that... -SHOUTING | 0:31:03 | 0:31:04 | |
It's going to kick off tonight. | 0:31:08 | 0:31:10 | |
-You stay one end and... -I'm not scared of nobody. | 0:31:10 | 0:31:14 | |
Do you think it's about food? | 0:31:14 | 0:31:16 | |
Well, of course it is. It's about food and tobacco. | 0:31:16 | 0:31:19 | |
Unfortunately, people haven't learned yet now to love each other. | 0:31:19 | 0:31:23 | |
Yeah, and we're all stupid but, you know, if there's not enough food | 0:31:23 | 0:31:27 | |
to go around, what do we do? | 0:31:27 | 0:31:28 | |
You know? I like the way you act so smart when you were kicking off the other day... | 0:31:28 | 0:31:33 | |
All right, just calm down, come on. | 0:31:33 | 0:31:35 | |
When you were kicking off and wanted to kill everybody. | 0:31:35 | 0:31:38 | |
All right, come this way. | 0:31:38 | 0:31:39 | |
You didn't get the whole story there without being | 0:31:39 | 0:31:42 | |
in the street with these orangutans bouncing around. | 0:31:42 | 0:31:45 | |
It's, you heard what the guy said. | 0:31:45 | 0:31:46 | |
"Your story is huge, get money for it." | 0:31:46 | 0:31:48 | |
It's blood diamonds, it's... it's wickedness, it's evil. | 0:31:48 | 0:31:53 | |
-I want Tom Hanks to play my part in the film and I want Dan Brown to write the book. | 0:31:53 | 0:31:57 | |
Messy's no the worst. It is a mess. Pure mess. | 0:31:59 | 0:32:03 | |
What? | 0:32:06 | 0:32:07 | |
What the matter, Jean? Have you sorted her out? | 0:32:07 | 0:32:10 | |
She's not a full shilling. Allow it, I allow it. You know. | 0:32:10 | 0:32:13 | |
HE RAPS: On TV, commercial artist So I keep spitting my face | 0:32:13 | 0:32:16 | |
I don't even want my face to be seen | 0:32:16 | 0:32:17 | |
I keep screaming this and it's my dream to get there | 0:32:17 | 0:32:19 | |
Anywhere but here. | 0:32:19 | 0:32:21 | |
All those that are fundamentalists and say... | 0:32:21 | 0:32:23 | |
-They should be shot. -It's not right, is it? | 0:32:23 | 0:32:25 | |
He's throwing food on the floor. | 0:32:25 | 0:32:27 | |
Guns and nuclear bombs, yeah. | 0:32:27 | 0:32:28 | |
I could name so guns - LS50, AK47, shotgun, handgun, Desert Eagle, | 0:32:28 | 0:32:32 | |
-a machine gun, .22 rifle... -Are you filming? | 0:32:32 | 0:32:35 | |
It's disgusting. | 0:32:35 | 0:32:36 | |
Hold Tight. | 0:32:36 | 0:32:37 | |
HE BEATBOXES | 0:32:37 | 0:32:39 | |
What has happened? Why do you look so smart? | 0:32:39 | 0:32:43 | |
I've got off the street, I'm in a hostel now. | 0:32:43 | 0:32:47 | |
Just come down to see friends and that and... | 0:32:47 | 0:32:50 | |
I mean, I'm in full-time work now so... | 0:32:50 | 0:32:53 | |
Where do you work, Ken? | 0:32:53 | 0:32:55 | |
I'm at Queens Hotel doing kitchen portering. | 0:32:55 | 0:32:59 | |
And let's see your watch and your lovely... | 0:32:59 | 0:33:02 | |
There it's upside down but... | 0:33:02 | 0:33:05 | |
You look like quite the man there. | 0:33:05 | 0:33:07 | |
Yeah, he's a high flyer now. | 0:33:08 | 0:33:10 | |
Ken, yeah, he is - look at him. | 0:33:10 | 0:33:12 | |
Hey, you're welcome to me old bed. | 0:33:12 | 0:33:15 | |
I'm getting fucked off with picking up rubbish. | 0:33:15 | 0:33:18 | |
Everybody explain to everybody else in every language that there is, | 0:33:18 | 0:33:24 | |
don't leave any rubbish or I won't give you any food | 0:33:24 | 0:33:27 | |
to leave rubbish with. | 0:33:27 | 0:33:29 | |
Yeah? | 0:33:29 | 0:33:32 | |
Well, explain it to everybody. | 0:33:32 | 0:33:34 | |
Is there anybody... Does everybody understand? | 0:33:34 | 0:33:37 | |
Raise your hand if you understand what I just said. | 0:33:37 | 0:33:40 | |
-Fuck you. -Thank you. | 0:33:40 | 0:33:42 | |
-We'll give it a bash. -Cheese and pickle? | 0:33:44 | 0:33:47 | |
-Yes. -Ham & Cheese. | 0:33:47 | 0:33:50 | |
Brie and Tomato. | 0:33:51 | 0:33:53 | |
Chicken Caesar? | 0:33:53 | 0:33:55 | |
Understand that I'll do it, I'm going through it and I'll keep going until there's nothing left... | 0:33:55 | 0:34:02 | |
GLASS SMASHES | 0:34:02 | 0:34:03 | |
Scottish roast beef and horseradish. | 0:34:03 | 0:34:06 | |
Ham and cheese... | 0:34:06 | 0:34:10 | |
I'm not standing up, just tell him to leave me alone. | 0:34:19 | 0:34:24 | |
No. I'm not standing up. | 0:34:24 | 0:34:26 | |
HE SHOUTS | 0:34:28 | 0:34:30 | |
Wagh! | 0:34:30 | 0:34:31 | |
Bill, behave yourself. | 0:34:31 | 0:34:33 | |
Bill, Bill, you're making it worse. | 0:34:35 | 0:34:38 | |
Oh, Christ. I told him, I told him. I told him. | 0:34:43 | 0:34:47 | |
To them, that's one off the street. | 0:34:52 | 0:34:54 | |
This is what the police was waiting for. | 0:34:57 | 0:35:00 | |
And they're all playing right into their bloody well hands. | 0:35:00 | 0:35:05 | |
All the bloody time. | 0:35:05 | 0:35:07 | |
It's like you got two societies. You got the normal human society | 0:35:18 | 0:35:21 | |
and then you got the sub-human society | 0:35:21 | 0:35:23 | |
and when you're on the street, it's different because people will just ignore you. | 0:35:23 | 0:35:28 | |
But then London... London is, erm... It's a selfish place. | 0:35:28 | 0:35:31 | |
I have a friend who's been living in Parliament Square for the last five years. | 0:35:51 | 0:35:56 | |
I'm tent-sitting this week. | 0:35:56 | 0:35:58 | |
She's set me up with all the home comforts. | 0:35:58 | 0:36:02 | |
He says. | 0:36:02 | 0:36:03 | |
We can have a campaign, we can have a campaign which is targeted by this government, | 0:36:05 | 0:36:11 | |
which really stands up for trying to save real people's lives. | 0:36:11 | 0:36:14 | |
We can have hypocrites that deal in drugs that can walk away | 0:36:14 | 0:36:18 | |
from their campaign whenever they feel like it. | 0:36:18 | 0:36:21 | |
And they don't mind state violence being used on people. | 0:36:21 | 0:36:24 | |
We can all have a jolly good smile. We cannot look at them in the eye... | 0:36:24 | 0:36:27 | |
I'm afraid I talk to policemen the same way as I talk to you, | 0:36:27 | 0:36:30 | |
the same way as I talk to any other friend. | 0:36:30 | 0:36:32 | |
Which is hopefully to benefit everything. | 0:36:32 | 0:36:34 | |
The man's an imposter. | 0:36:34 | 0:36:36 | |
He's no more a peace... peace campaigner than Mr Tony Blair. | 0:36:37 | 0:36:42 | |
He works for the police. | 0:36:42 | 0:36:43 | |
He's a collaborator. This is all a front. | 0:36:43 | 0:36:46 | |
He just comes along here and uses it as a crash pad. | 0:36:46 | 0:36:50 | |
And he peddles drugs, and the police give him the drugs | 0:36:50 | 0:36:54 | |
and they're very happy with him. | 0:36:54 | 0:36:56 | |
And he's a great friend of Inspector BLEEP, | 0:36:56 | 0:36:59 | |
one of the nasty ones who helped put me on crutches. It's nice, isn't it? | 0:36:59 | 0:37:04 | |
We're peace... My names Brian Hoar, you might have heard of me. | 0:37:04 | 0:37:07 | |
We're peace campaigners. We've been here for eight years. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:10 | |
That corrupt government uses the police to try to destroy us. | 0:37:10 | 0:37:15 | |
They've dragged that lady off 33 times. | 0:37:15 | 0:37:18 | |
33 times. No law. | 0:37:18 | 0:37:21 | |
Just drag her off, violently. | 0:37:21 | 0:37:23 | |
This one here, he wants to be great friends with the one Inspector BLEEP | 0:37:23 | 0:37:27 | |
who dragged her off, who dragged me off. | 0:37:27 | 0:37:30 | |
It's a disgrace. | 0:37:30 | 0:37:33 | |
Shame on you. | 0:37:33 | 0:37:34 | |
Unfortunately, it's difficult to make friends with people that don't want to make friends. | 0:37:43 | 0:37:49 | |
And if we see this world as split into friends and enemies | 0:37:49 | 0:37:54 | |
we're stuck in this problem where we create enemies. | 0:37:54 | 0:37:58 | |
And if we see, actually - life and death. | 0:37:58 | 0:38:04 | |
Then if you're on the side of life, | 0:38:04 | 0:38:06 | |
you're on the same side. | 0:38:06 | 0:38:09 | |
And we've got to try and all look at it that way. | 0:38:09 | 0:38:12 | |
But it's sometimes a bit difficult with neighbours. | 0:38:12 | 0:38:15 | |
ANNOUNCEMENT: 156 to Vauxhall. | 0:38:21 | 0:38:24 | |
Grosvenor Gardens. | 0:38:29 | 0:38:31 | |
N38 to Walthamstow Central. | 0:39:07 | 0:39:11 | |
Hello? | 0:39:17 | 0:39:19 | |
ANNOUNCEMENT: This bus terminates here. | 0:39:22 | 0:39:25 | |
Please take all your belongings with you. | 0:39:25 | 0:39:27 | |
PEOPLE CHAT IN BACKGROUND | 0:39:27 | 0:39:30 | |
KNOCKING | 0:39:34 | 0:39:36 | |
Wakey, wakey. Rise and shine. | 0:39:39 | 0:39:41 | |
So, Ricky, sometimes you're looking for things. | 0:40:08 | 0:40:11 | |
-Yeah. -Yeah, and what do you do? | 0:40:11 | 0:40:14 | |
I'm looking for... | 0:40:15 | 0:40:18 | |
dog ends... | 0:40:18 | 0:40:20 | |
Thank you. | 0:40:20 | 0:40:23 | |
I'm looking for this, dog ends. | 0:40:23 | 0:40:24 | |
I have good, good... | 0:40:24 | 0:40:26 | |
Me have money, me have everything, yeah. | 0:40:26 | 0:40:30 | |
Where did you get the money? | 0:40:30 | 0:40:32 | |
Uh, because I move in yesterday in the... | 0:40:32 | 0:40:35 | |
..in the street and tell him, | 0:40:38 | 0:40:41 | |
tell over there, tell everybody, people, "Change, please." | 0:40:41 | 0:40:47 | |
-Yes. -And have money. | 0:40:47 | 0:40:49 | |
This is my park. | 0:41:14 | 0:41:16 | |
It's your park? | 0:41:16 | 0:41:17 | |
Yeah. Every day, every time. | 0:41:17 | 0:41:21 | |
Coming every day. | 0:41:21 | 0:41:23 | |
People looking for me. What are you doing all the day? | 0:41:23 | 0:41:27 | |
Sleep. | 0:41:27 | 0:41:29 | |
Quiet sleep, you know, our home. | 0:41:29 | 0:41:32 | |
Because it's not our home. | 0:41:32 | 0:41:33 | |
-What is that? -This is for... | 0:41:33 | 0:41:36 | |
-Aftershave? -Yeah. | 0:41:36 | 0:41:38 | |
That's very nice. Did you buy it? | 0:41:40 | 0:41:42 | |
-Where did you get that? -In the skip. | 0:41:42 | 0:41:44 | |
-You found it in the skip? -Yeah, in the skip. | 0:41:44 | 0:41:47 | |
-It's very nice. -It's very nice. | 0:41:48 | 0:41:51 | |
Just waiting, waiting, | 0:41:53 | 0:41:55 | |
and waiting. | 0:41:55 | 0:41:57 | |
I don't know... | 0:42:00 | 0:42:02 | |
..what me... | 0:42:03 | 0:42:06 | |
doing over there in the fucking...no, fucking... | 0:42:06 | 0:42:11 | |
fucking England. | 0:42:11 | 0:42:13 | |
-This is my friend. -You are his friend from Warsaw? | 0:42:27 | 0:42:30 | |
Yeah, yeah we meet from Warsaw and together come to UK. | 0:42:30 | 0:42:35 | |
What was his work when you were in Warsaw? | 0:42:35 | 0:42:39 | |
He say he very like you. | 0:43:17 | 0:43:21 | |
He very like you, like friends. | 0:43:22 | 0:43:24 | |
Before, Grizzly said that he was a sniper. | 0:43:36 | 0:43:39 | |
-Sorry? -He said the other time we were filming, he said he was a sniper. | 0:43:40 | 0:43:46 | |
Him! | 0:43:46 | 0:43:47 | |
Sorry. | 0:43:51 | 0:43:53 | |
HE TALKS OWN LANGUAGE | 0:43:53 | 0:43:56 | |
Yes, yes. | 0:43:56 | 0:43:58 | |
Yes. | 0:43:58 | 0:44:00 | |
He say yes. | 0:44:05 | 0:44:06 | |
You know how sniper he can be? I show you. | 0:44:16 | 0:44:21 | |
Yes. | 0:44:25 | 0:44:27 | |
This is a sniper. | 0:44:27 | 0:44:29 | |
Leave me. | 0:44:29 | 0:44:31 | |
Please... | 0:44:32 | 0:44:34 | |
I drink...you... | 0:44:34 | 0:44:38 | |
HE LAUGHS Sniper! | 0:44:41 | 0:44:42 | |
Is a sniper?! | 0:44:42 | 0:44:46 | |
GRIZZLY TALKS OWN LANGUAGE | 0:44:46 | 0:44:48 | |
In army, my friend...service in a commando. | 0:44:54 | 0:45:00 | |
In commando. Only be a cook. | 0:45:00 | 0:45:03 | |
Oh, he was a cook. | 0:45:04 | 0:45:05 | |
What happened on your arm? | 0:45:46 | 0:45:48 | |
Here. What happened to you? | 0:45:52 | 0:45:54 | |
And here? | 0:45:59 | 0:46:00 | |
And here? | 0:46:09 | 0:46:10 | |
You want your mum to come and get you? | 0:46:36 | 0:46:39 | |
What happened to you there? | 0:46:53 | 0:46:55 | |
You've got a flat now. | 0:47:27 | 0:47:28 | |
Yeah, with no electric. | 0:47:28 | 0:47:31 | |
Moved in there last night, ain't got no key meter. | 0:47:31 | 0:47:34 | |
And when I moved in there, there was no furniture in there. | 0:47:34 | 0:47:37 | |
The furniture's in there now but there's still no electric. | 0:47:37 | 0:47:40 | |
There's no key meter. It's £61 for an emergency. | 0:47:40 | 0:47:43 | |
I phoned the landlord up this morning who said he'll try and do something today. | 0:47:43 | 0:47:48 | |
But whether he does or not is another thing. | 0:47:48 | 0:47:50 | |
Most of the things I've done myself, | 0:47:50 | 0:47:52 | |
I got myself off the alcohol do you know what I mean? | 0:47:52 | 0:47:55 | |
I put myself into counselling, do you know what I mean? | 0:47:55 | 0:47:58 | |
Just so to calm myself down as I suffer from anger management a lot. | 0:47:58 | 0:48:01 | |
Yeah, the wife wants to come over at the weekend. | 0:48:01 | 0:48:04 | |
-Hello, missus. -Hello, missus. In the bin, please. | 0:48:15 | 0:48:20 | |
Oh, here you are, I'll give you something to read. | 0:48:28 | 0:48:30 | |
-It's a hostel license agreement. -Yeah. | 0:48:30 | 0:48:34 | |
All the rules and regulations. | 0:48:34 | 0:48:36 | |
It's like a fucking prison, I might as well go back there. | 0:48:36 | 0:48:40 | |
Stick! Stick! | 0:48:46 | 0:48:48 | |
Whoops. | 0:49:03 | 0:49:05 | |
There we are. | 0:49:06 | 0:49:08 | |
-Ah, going to sit down then? -That was very dramatic. | 0:49:08 | 0:49:10 | |
I've been in all the hostels you can think of in London. | 0:49:10 | 0:49:14 | |
I can never settle in a hostel. | 0:49:14 | 0:49:17 | |
I can't even settle in my own flat never mind a fucking hostel. | 0:49:17 | 0:49:21 | |
Have you had a flat? | 0:49:21 | 0:49:22 | |
Only in Blackpool. | 0:49:22 | 0:49:24 | |
That was... | 0:49:24 | 0:49:26 | |
-your partner, right? -Mm. | 0:49:26 | 0:49:28 | |
She done me over big time. | 0:49:32 | 0:49:35 | |
Fucking Liverpool bastard. | 0:49:39 | 0:49:41 | |
Ah, well. | 0:49:43 | 0:49:44 | |
I was back in Blackpool infirmary. | 0:49:46 | 0:49:49 | |
It's this Scotch nurse, I remember her, this Scottish nurse says, | 0:49:51 | 0:49:56 | |
"Jean, why do you let her keep doing this to you?" | 0:49:56 | 0:49:59 | |
I said, "Cos I'm a punch bag. | 0:49:59 | 0:50:01 | |
"She enjoys hitting me." | 0:50:02 | 0:50:04 | |
There was one night I was nearly at death's door, | 0:50:07 | 0:50:12 | |
I had tubes up my nose, the heart machine on me. | 0:50:12 | 0:50:16 | |
-Fucking... -Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. | 0:50:16 | 0:50:18 | |
I was like fucking...like a robot. | 0:50:18 | 0:50:21 | |
And I still didn't fetch no charges. | 0:50:21 | 0:50:23 | |
LAUGHING Oh, that's funny. | 0:50:35 | 0:50:38 | |
You can see the funny side of it. | 0:50:39 | 0:50:42 | |
No, you don't see the funny side of it, you don't. | 0:50:42 | 0:50:45 | |
You don't see the funny side of it. | 0:50:45 | 0:50:47 | |
Not being in hospital all the time. No way. | 0:50:47 | 0:50:49 | |
Oh, no. I don't want to cry. | 0:50:55 | 0:50:57 | |
Stay down till you get home. | 0:51:09 | 0:51:12 | |
Basically I just lost my job. | 0:51:32 | 0:51:34 | |
It was sort of a knock-on effect - losing your job, then... | 0:51:36 | 0:51:40 | |
couldn't find another one. | 0:51:40 | 0:51:41 | |
And lost my flat and everything else, | 0:51:43 | 0:51:46 | |
so decided to come to London and start again. | 0:51:46 | 0:51:51 | |
And what job did you do? | 0:51:55 | 0:51:56 | |
I was a website designer. | 0:51:56 | 0:51:59 | |
Meeting other homeless people, they give you good tips on | 0:51:59 | 0:52:03 | |
where's good to sleep, where you're not going to get moved on. | 0:52:03 | 0:52:07 | |
These are the guys I stay with. | 0:52:07 | 0:52:09 | |
..which is like a dormitory hostel. | 0:52:10 | 0:52:12 | |
And I was in there for about three days, but it was so mental in there | 0:52:12 | 0:52:16 | |
I wanted to come back out here. | 0:52:16 | 0:52:17 | |
Some hostels are just crazy. | 0:52:17 | 0:52:20 | |
I was more stressed in the hostel than I was out here. | 0:52:22 | 0:52:25 | |
Sleeping rough ain't actually the bad thing about it. | 0:52:25 | 0:52:28 | |
That's not what I found, not now I'm with this lot. | 0:52:28 | 0:52:31 | |
It don't, that's...that's not a chore. | 0:52:31 | 0:52:34 | |
It's the day times, finding something to do and... | 0:52:35 | 0:52:39 | |
-It's shutting everything out, isn't it? -Yeah, that's it. | 0:52:39 | 0:52:42 | |
You seem to go from one queue to the next, that's all you do, | 0:52:42 | 0:52:45 | |
wait and wait and wait around, that's all you do. | 0:52:45 | 0:52:48 | |
If you're a single bloke and English, you don't get no help. | 0:52:48 | 0:52:52 | |
Nothing. | 0:52:52 | 0:52:54 | |
You'll find every homeless person on the street will say... | 0:52:54 | 0:52:58 | |
if they're English they'll say, "It's the fucking foreigners." | 0:52:58 | 0:53:01 | |
I love London but... | 0:53:01 | 0:53:05 | |
this has opened my eyes to how many | 0:53:05 | 0:53:08 | |
eastern Europeans there are in here. | 0:53:08 | 0:53:11 | |
I was working front of house in a hotel in Little Venice. | 0:53:14 | 0:53:17 | |
A posh hotel, five-star hotel. | 0:53:17 | 0:53:19 | |
What happened to your job? | 0:53:21 | 0:53:23 | |
Lost it. Lost it. | 0:53:23 | 0:53:25 | |
I'm homeless, aren't I? What's going to happen? | 0:53:27 | 0:53:30 | |
I got sent home once for bad hygiene. Sent me home. | 0:53:30 | 0:53:34 | |
Because I was dirty and smelly. | 0:53:34 | 0:53:36 | |
Fucking hell, I couldn't say I was living on the street, could I? | 0:53:36 | 0:53:40 | |
It's a five-star hotel. | 0:53:40 | 0:53:42 | |
"Yeah, I live on the street, sorry I ain't shaved and had a wash." | 0:53:42 | 0:53:46 | |
The more you get pissed, the more you don't want to work. | 0:53:53 | 0:53:56 | |
Why should we? What's the point? | 0:53:56 | 0:53:59 | |
There's no point at all. | 0:53:59 | 0:54:01 | |
I'll be here, I've got a feeling I'm going to be here in 20 years' time, on the street. | 0:54:01 | 0:54:07 | |
But with crutches... | 0:54:07 | 0:54:08 | |
..bad back, fucked hips. | 0:54:10 | 0:54:12 | |
Sleeping on a cold floor every day. | 0:54:12 | 0:54:15 | |
Getting pissed on every day. | 0:54:15 | 0:54:16 | |
But I'm English. Onwards and upwards. | 0:54:19 | 0:54:22 | |
Why are you drinking? | 0:54:43 | 0:54:45 | |
How does the drinking help you? | 0:54:45 | 0:54:48 | |
At the moment, this problem, this street, | 0:54:48 | 0:54:53 | |
is very cold, | 0:54:53 | 0:54:54 | |
very, very cold, this rain. | 0:54:56 | 0:54:59 | |
No drinking, | 0:54:59 | 0:55:02 | |
no life. | 0:55:02 | 0:55:05 | |
Why are you doing that? | 0:55:20 | 0:55:22 | |
For change, please. For change, this cup. | 0:55:22 | 0:55:27 | |
In the change, please. | 0:55:27 | 0:55:29 | |
And if you break it, it's better? | 0:55:29 | 0:55:31 | |
-Yeah, it's better. -Why? | 0:55:31 | 0:55:33 | |
Because... | 0:55:33 | 0:55:35 | |
I don't know why I tell you. | 0:55:35 | 0:55:37 | |
It's better because people feel sorry for you. | 0:55:37 | 0:55:40 | |
Yeah, yeah, yeah. | 0:55:40 | 0:55:42 | |
-So, how are you doing? -Yeah, all right, not too bad. | 0:57:15 | 0:57:18 | |
-Is this your neighbourhood? -Not really. I hate this area. | 0:57:18 | 0:57:21 | |
-Really? -Yeah. | 0:57:21 | 0:57:23 | |
So Andy, when we last interviewed you, | 0:57:25 | 0:57:28 | |
you'd got a job and a place and you were feeling pretty good. | 0:57:28 | 0:57:33 | |
So what happened? | 0:57:33 | 0:57:34 | |
Just worked half a day. | 0:57:36 | 0:57:38 | |
Do you know what I mean? | 0:57:38 | 0:57:40 | |
Basically what it was, it was my wedding anniversary the day I started. | 0:57:40 | 0:57:44 | |
Arranged everything to meet my wife... Straight down, yeah. | 0:57:44 | 0:57:48 | |
Arranged to meet my wife and then she fucking, excuse my language, | 0:57:48 | 0:57:52 | |
-screwed me over. -Oh, Andy. -So now I've been back on the street. | 0:57:52 | 0:57:55 | |
I've been arrested five times since I come out of prison in April. | 0:57:55 | 0:57:59 | |
And each time for the same thing? | 0:57:59 | 0:58:01 | |
Erm...drinking, yeah. | 0:58:01 | 0:58:03 | |
-Are you lonely? -Yeah, do you know what I mean? | 0:58:04 | 0:58:07 | |
The hardest thing with splitting up from my wife is taking rejection. | 0:58:07 | 0:58:11 | |
It's normally me splits up before they do. Do you know what I mean? | 0:58:11 | 0:58:15 | |
I'd rather hurt them before they hurt me. | 0:58:15 | 0:58:17 | |
-And she hurt me before I could get a chance. -Hm. | 0:58:17 | 0:58:19 | |
They put me out here, I'm miles away from anybody. | 0:58:24 | 0:58:26 | |
I asked them not to put me out here, do you know what I mean? | 0:58:26 | 0:58:30 | |
And they just stuck me out here. | 0:58:30 | 0:58:32 | |
-And you're in Wood Green now, right? -Yeah. | 0:58:32 | 0:58:34 | |
And they think cos we lived on the street, they can just stick us anywhere, do you know what I mean? | 0:58:53 | 0:58:59 | |
Right, this is the bathroom. | 0:58:59 | 0:59:00 | |
It's a toilet and a shower in there. | 0:59:02 | 0:59:05 | |
It works out £693, or summat. | 0:59:07 | 0:59:11 | |
So basically, when you're in this room and you don't know anybody, you're just sitting here... | 0:59:11 | 0:59:16 | |
Sitting here drinking, smoking, | 0:59:16 | 0:59:18 | |
do you know what I mean? | 0:59:18 | 0:59:20 | |
What were you thinking when you put that on your head, though? | 0:59:28 | 0:59:32 | |
I thought I'd just pee my wife off, but it ain't really. | 0:59:32 | 0:59:35 | |
It's cutting your nose off to spite your face. | 0:59:35 | 0:59:37 | |
But I just went and done it. | 0:59:37 | 0:59:39 | |
Just sat here one day and just drunk and went, "Fuck it" | 0:59:39 | 0:59:43 | |
and duh, duh, duh. Done my hand, do you know what I mean? | 0:59:43 | 0:59:47 | |
I just thought it would be my way of getting back at her. | 0:59:47 | 0:59:50 | |
Every time I phone her, I threaten her and all that, | 0:59:50 | 0:59:53 | |
say I really want to kill her, I want to hurt her bad. | 0:59:53 | 0:59:56 | |
But I never would, you know? And the thing is, she knows that. | 0:59:56 | 0:59:59 | |
So you mainly do things to yourself, don't you? | 0:59:59 | 1:00:02 | |
Self harming. Do you know what I mean? | 1:00:02 | 1:00:04 | |
Cut all my face up before. | 1:00:04 | 1:00:05 | |
There was a point when I was in Trafalgar Square, I tried to cut | 1:00:05 | 1:00:08 | |
my throat with a piece of glass because I couldn't take it no more. | 1:00:08 | 1:00:12 | |
And do you know why you do that, Andy? | 1:00:12 | 1:00:14 | |
Don't know, no, not really. | 1:00:17 | 1:00:19 | |
It's just how I felt at the time, do you know what I mean? | 1:00:19 | 1:00:22 | |
Yeah. | 1:00:22 | 1:00:24 | |
I remember you saying that your dad used to hit you when you were little. | 1:00:24 | 1:00:28 | |
-Yeah. -Do you think it's maybe connected? | 1:00:28 | 1:00:32 | |
Well, I used to hurt myself before he even try to hit me, do you know what I mean? | 1:00:32 | 1:00:37 | |
So that's where it probably stemmed from. | 1:00:37 | 1:00:39 | |
-What did he used to do to you? -Just used to punch me and stuff like that. | 1:00:40 | 1:00:44 | |
When he found out I used to steal, he used to grab my fist and try and punch it through the wall. | 1:00:44 | 1:00:49 | |
So, like, try and break my knuckles or whatever. | 1:00:49 | 1:00:51 | |
When I was young, I stole £50, I think I was eight or nine, | 1:00:51 | 1:00:54 | |
I was living in Charlton, I stole £50 and I wanted to leave home then. | 1:00:54 | 1:00:58 | |
I wanted to go to America with £50. | 1:00:58 | 1:01:00 | |
I was only young, I didn't know what to do. | 1:01:00 | 1:01:02 | |
And do you think the same thing happened to your dad when he was a kid? | 1:01:04 | 1:01:08 | |
I know my old man used to get beaten up by my grandfather, yeah. | 1:01:08 | 1:01:12 | |
Got hit by my grandfather. | 1:01:12 | 1:01:13 | |
Until everybody has one, keep quiet. | 1:01:28 | 1:01:32 | |
-Thai chicken? Noodles and cashew? -Yes, please. | 1:01:34 | 1:01:38 | |
Club sandwich? | 1:01:38 | 1:01:40 | |
Lemon, chicken, black pepper on rye? | 1:01:40 | 1:01:42 | |
-I was on the streets for seven years. -And where did you sleep? | 1:01:44 | 1:01:47 | |
I slept on the Strand here, in a doorway down there. | 1:01:47 | 1:01:51 | |
Erm, it was quite hard. | 1:01:51 | 1:01:53 | |
Very, very hard. | 1:01:53 | 1:01:55 | |
You can get stick off a lot of people. | 1:01:55 | 1:01:57 | |
You know, like, people can spit at you when they're walking past, they can be really horrible to you. | 1:01:57 | 1:02:03 | |
I've had people give me a kicking on the streets. | 1:02:03 | 1:02:05 | |
You know what I mean? Just for being homeless, so it can be quite hard. | 1:02:05 | 1:02:09 | |
-Did you have a difficult time as a child? -Yeah. | 1:02:09 | 1:02:13 | |
What happened to you? | 1:02:13 | 1:02:14 | |
I was abused. | 1:02:14 | 1:02:16 | |
And then it messes with your head. | 1:02:16 | 1:02:19 | |
Do you think you ever recover from anything like that? | 1:02:19 | 1:02:23 | |
No. | 1:02:23 | 1:02:25 | |
Does it still plague you now? | 1:02:25 | 1:02:27 | |
Yes. It affects relationships and stuff. | 1:02:27 | 1:02:31 | |
And trust. I don't trust anyone. | 1:02:31 | 1:02:33 | |
Sometimes I go from St Pancras down to Bedford and back. | 1:02:48 | 1:02:54 | |
Takes about an hour, hour and a half. | 1:02:54 | 1:02:57 | |
All depends if you catch a slow train or a fast train. | 1:02:57 | 1:03:00 | |
I normally try and catch a slow train because the more time I spend on the train, | 1:03:00 | 1:03:06 | |
then sometimes it's more rest I can get, and the better it is for me in the morning. | 1:03:06 | 1:03:12 | |
What was your childhood like, Matthew? | 1:03:18 | 1:03:20 | |
Not very good. | 1:03:20 | 1:03:21 | |
I didn't really have a good one because I went into care from a very young age. | 1:03:21 | 1:03:26 | |
I didn't like it at all. | 1:03:26 | 1:03:28 | |
They treat you... some members of staff treat you like dirt. | 1:03:28 | 1:03:33 | |
I had one member of staff who used to literally just launch me from room to room and get away with it. | 1:03:33 | 1:03:39 | |
But you've just got to know what to do. | 1:03:42 | 1:03:45 | |
I put complaints in all the time. | 1:03:45 | 1:03:47 | |
If you don't learn quickly, then you will die. | 1:03:47 | 1:03:53 | |
This year just over 200 people have died on the streets. | 1:03:53 | 1:03:57 | |
Which is a lot of people to die. | 1:03:57 | 1:03:59 | |
I would come here quite a few times. | 1:04:10 | 1:04:13 | |
I normally just go into the train station and just sit in there for a little bit. | 1:04:13 | 1:04:17 | |
Leicester is the next train. | 1:04:20 | 1:04:22 | |
Nine minutes past one in the morning. | 1:04:22 | 1:04:25 | |
So where will you go now? To Leicester? | 1:04:29 | 1:04:31 | |
No. | 1:04:31 | 1:04:32 | |
Because I don't know where Leicester is | 1:04:32 | 1:04:35 | |
and I wouldn't risk going somewhere where I don't know. | 1:04:35 | 1:04:39 | |
You see coming here, I know that there's a train going back. | 1:04:39 | 1:04:45 | |
So, from Leicester, I wouldn't know what's what. | 1:04:45 | 1:04:49 | |
Yeah. | 1:04:49 | 1:04:50 | |
And normally at this point, I normally just... | 1:04:52 | 1:04:55 | |
sit over there | 1:04:55 | 1:04:58 | |
and then sit against the radiator and fall asleep. | 1:04:58 | 1:05:03 | |
Sometimes me and my mate sometimes sit there, | 1:05:03 | 1:05:06 | |
or we sit here. | 1:05:06 | 1:05:08 | |
In that respect, it's not too bad. | 1:05:08 | 1:05:11 | |
And I show you where I sleep, yeah? | 1:05:32 | 1:05:35 | |
OK. | 1:05:37 | 1:05:39 | |
Over there, because it's hot. | 1:05:41 | 1:05:43 | |
Very good place because very hot. Very nice. | 1:05:45 | 1:05:51 | |
So, Jean, something happened to you a long time ago? | 1:07:08 | 1:07:12 | |
Not found it yet? | 1:07:15 | 1:07:17 | |
Where have you put it? | 1:07:17 | 1:07:20 | |
-Sorry? -Something happened to you a long time ago... | 1:07:20 | 1:07:24 | |
Baby, I forgot. | 1:07:24 | 1:07:25 | |
I've got no nuts for you, I forgot. | 1:07:27 | 1:07:29 | |
Sorry. Next time. | 1:07:29 | 1:07:31 | |
So after all this, what happened to you when you were 12, what has been the result of it? | 1:07:33 | 1:07:39 | |
It'll always stay with me until the day I die. | 1:07:39 | 1:07:42 | |
Why do you think I jump underneath vehicles? | 1:07:48 | 1:07:51 | |
Just so that one would fucking hit me. | 1:07:51 | 1:07:53 | |
When you get raped, you see the pictures what they do to you. | 1:07:57 | 1:08:01 | |
You hear the voices. They don't let you go. | 1:08:01 | 1:08:04 | |
When I am dead, they will leave me. | 1:08:04 | 1:08:07 | |
Because they've got what they want. | 1:08:07 | 1:08:09 | |
And these voices, where do they live? | 1:08:11 | 1:08:14 | |
They're inside you for the rest of your life until you kill yourself. | 1:08:14 | 1:08:17 | |
Gis a light. | 1:08:17 | 1:08:18 | |
It's either that or live with them for the rest of your life until you do die. | 1:08:21 | 1:08:25 | |
That's why I can't wait until I'm dead. | 1:08:25 | 1:08:27 | |
And what do they say to you? | 1:08:28 | 1:08:30 | |
If I knew she wanted me to talk about this... | 1:08:31 | 1:08:36 | |
To hurt people. | 1:08:46 | 1:08:47 | |
Hurt people who want to help me. | 1:08:51 | 1:08:53 | |
And what do they tell you to do to yourself? | 1:08:58 | 1:09:00 | |
They just tell me to do damage to myself. | 1:09:13 | 1:09:16 | |
If I do damage to myself, they leave me alone for a bit and then they start again. | 1:09:16 | 1:09:20 | |
At the moment, they're asleep. | 1:09:30 | 1:09:33 | |
But basically, they're the three men that did that to you when you were a little girl? | 1:09:45 | 1:09:49 | |
Four men. | 1:09:49 | 1:09:51 | |
Hello, beautiful. | 1:09:52 | 1:09:54 | |
Not going to say hello? No? | 1:09:56 | 1:10:00 | |
Since I was 12, I've seen them. | 1:10:06 | 1:10:09 | |
I see them, I hear them talking to me. | 1:10:09 | 1:10:13 | |
And believe it or not, they're starting to wake up. | 1:10:13 | 1:10:15 | |
Ah, it was a good life. | 1:11:35 | 1:11:36 | |
Getting raped. | 1:11:36 | 1:11:38 | |
You what? | 1:11:39 | 1:11:41 | |
Sorry. | 1:11:42 | 1:11:45 | |
That wasn't me, that was them saying it. | 1:11:45 | 1:11:47 | |
-They said that? -Hm. | 1:11:47 | 1:11:49 | |
-What did they say to you? -It was a great life, raping me. | 1:11:59 | 1:12:04 | |
I guess that's why I like getting raped. | 1:12:10 | 1:12:12 | |
Cos they enjoy it. | 1:12:13 | 1:12:15 | |
I just can't wait to get raped again. | 1:12:17 | 1:12:19 | |
Oh, don't say that, Jean. | 1:12:19 | 1:12:22 | |
I'm telling you. | 1:12:22 | 1:12:23 | |
The quicker the better. | 1:12:26 | 1:12:27 | |
If I get raped again, it keeps them lot happy. | 1:12:29 | 1:12:33 | |
Maybe I might feel something. | 1:12:33 | 1:12:37 | |
Until then, I don't feel nothing. | 1:12:37 | 1:12:39 | |
I mean, this is not my life. | 1:12:43 | 1:12:45 | |
This is their life. | 1:12:45 | 1:12:48 | |
The life that you're living now? | 1:12:48 | 1:12:49 | |
It's not my life, I haven't got a life. | 1:12:49 | 1:12:52 | |
My life's with them. | 1:12:52 | 1:12:54 | |
-Sounds crazy, doesn't it? -Yes. | 1:12:56 | 1:12:58 | |
Yeah. | 1:12:58 | 1:12:59 | |
Oh, brother, I can't win. | 1:13:01 | 1:13:03 | |
Tea for the camera woman... | 1:13:32 | 1:13:35 | |
And what is this place? | 1:13:35 | 1:13:37 | |
Well, it's my new studio flat. | 1:13:37 | 1:13:41 | |
Moved in last Thursday. | 1:13:41 | 1:13:44 | |
Had to go through this... | 1:13:44 | 1:13:46 | |
whole process of getting depressed and the landlord to throw me out because | 1:13:46 | 1:13:51 | |
I failed to claim benefits and failed to pay rent. | 1:13:51 | 1:13:55 | |
And take a very long time to recover from the whole process. | 1:13:55 | 1:14:00 | |
Hm. | 1:14:00 | 1:14:02 | |
And what do you hope now, I mean if... Do you feel that you're in | 1:14:02 | 1:14:07 | |
a position to look forward to a different kind of life? | 1:14:07 | 1:14:11 | |
Umm... | 1:14:11 | 1:14:13 | |
It's, you know, | 1:14:16 | 1:14:19 | |
very hard. | 1:14:19 | 1:14:22 | |
When I came to London and started work, it seemed | 1:14:22 | 1:14:25 | |
that I entered this male menopause, this Reginald Perrin situation. | 1:14:25 | 1:14:31 | |
Being frustrated by work. | 1:14:31 | 1:14:32 | |
Just right from the start, I could never cope. | 1:14:32 | 1:14:35 | |
I drink the Holsten's now, 5%, I'm down to 5%. That's not bad. | 1:14:41 | 1:14:45 | |
I mean, I'm, I reckon I'm doing a self-detox, know what I'm saying? | 1:14:45 | 1:14:49 | |
Know what I mean? | 1:14:49 | 1:14:51 | |
I could go to a clinic, complain to a doctor, I could do this and that, | 1:14:51 | 1:14:54 | |
you know, at the end of the day, you need a bit of backbone, you got to make a decision for yourself. | 1:14:54 | 1:14:59 | |
You're not in the doorway of Karen Millen any more. | 1:14:59 | 1:15:01 | |
No, do you know what, I'm not. | 1:15:01 | 1:15:02 | |
Let me introduce you, you open the front door, there's your little kitchen, | 1:15:02 | 1:15:08 | |
all your appliances, double bed, bay window, | 1:15:08 | 1:15:11 | |
and in here is your separate shower and hand basin and toilet. | 1:15:11 | 1:15:16 | |
All done, do you know what I mean? Fantastic. | 1:15:16 | 1:15:19 | |
I want to get my life back, do you know what I mean? | 1:15:19 | 1:15:22 | |
This is not a career move. | 1:15:22 | 1:15:24 | |
In a sleeping bag. Do you know what I'm saying? | 1:15:24 | 1:15:26 | |
Bit of fun, you know, during the summer you can sort of laugh it off, but... | 1:15:26 | 1:15:30 | |
weather's starting to turn now and I tell you, I done the snow in Brighton in January, and that was not funny. | 1:15:30 | 1:15:36 | |
-I'm telling you. -Bye. | 1:15:36 | 1:15:38 | |
Cheers, guys. | 1:15:38 | 1:15:40 | |
See you later. | 1:15:40 | 1:15:43 | |
See you soon. | 1:15:43 | 1:15:44 | |
Got a place, haven't we? Both ended up in the same building. | 1:15:52 | 1:15:56 | |
Yeah? | 1:15:56 | 1:15:57 | |
Keys. | 1:15:57 | 1:15:59 | |
-But it's all good. I've got a job now as well. -Really? | 1:15:59 | 1:16:03 | |
-Started last week. Working in a bar. -Yeah. | 1:16:03 | 1:16:07 | |
Which is cool, and you just got one, ain't ya? | 1:16:07 | 1:16:10 | |
Yeah, good money. | 1:16:10 | 1:16:12 | |
£9 an hour. | 1:16:12 | 1:16:13 | |
-You're kidding! -No, I'm not kidding. | 1:16:13 | 1:16:16 | |
Do I lie? I don't tell lies. | 1:16:16 | 1:16:18 | |
-He's going to take me out for Christmas dinner. -Yeah, I am, yeah. | 1:16:18 | 1:16:21 | |
Here we are. | 1:16:21 | 1:16:23 | |
Not very tidy at the moment. | 1:16:42 | 1:16:44 | |
So, it's a room. | 1:16:44 | 1:16:46 | |
We're proof that it can be done. | 1:16:46 | 1:16:49 | |
Without being brash. And I don't mean any disrespect to anyone, | 1:16:49 | 1:16:54 | |
but it wasn't that difficult, | 1:16:54 | 1:16:58 | |
-and there is a lot of help out there. -Yeah. | 1:16:58 | 1:17:02 | |
Take care. | 1:17:02 | 1:17:03 | |
-So are you back on the street, then? -Yeah. | 1:17:18 | 1:17:21 | |
So, Ken, how many times have you been in and out over the years? | 1:17:21 | 1:17:24 | |
In and out, all together... | 1:17:24 | 1:17:26 | |
About 25 year, all together. | 1:17:30 | 1:17:32 | |
-Yeah, on and off. -On and off. | 1:17:32 | 1:17:34 | |
I tried settling in hostels, tried going back home | 1:17:34 | 1:17:39 | |
but I just, I just can't settle. | 1:17:39 | 1:17:41 | |
I need that sort of support from health workers | 1:17:41 | 1:17:46 | |
and, uh, social workers, really. | 1:17:46 | 1:17:52 | |
At least I've got you though, Uncle Ken. At least you're my uncle. | 1:17:58 | 1:18:02 | |
You know you've got good friends round you. | 1:18:02 | 1:18:04 | |
So, Ken, who is this? | 1:18:04 | 1:18:08 | |
It's me niece, Mystique. | 1:18:08 | 1:18:11 | |
I was searching throughout the whole of this country | 1:18:11 | 1:18:14 | |
just to find my baby uncle, you know. | 1:18:14 | 1:18:17 | |
He's the only family I got left. | 1:18:17 | 1:18:18 | |
-I was getting chucked down stairs, I was getting kicked... -By whom? | 1:18:18 | 1:18:23 | |
By my ex boyfriend, and he loved beating me up, he was an alcoholic. | 1:18:23 | 1:18:27 | |
A terrible, terrible alcoholic. | 1:18:27 | 1:18:30 | |
I didn't know what to do. | 1:18:30 | 1:18:32 | |
I just thought, I can't stay here, I've got to go | 1:18:32 | 1:18:35 | |
up to my uncle and look after... and he's got to look after me. | 1:18:35 | 1:18:37 | |
So I've looked after him and everything. | 1:18:37 | 1:18:39 | |
We got to turn down here now, this is the way we got to go. | 1:18:39 | 1:18:43 | |
See this, and this is how cold it is. | 1:18:43 | 1:18:46 | |
I was in the Royal Engineers, King Fusiliers area, I was looking after the Queen all the time. | 1:18:46 | 1:18:52 | |
I was acting sergeant, and I was everything I could have been. | 1:18:52 | 1:18:56 | |
When I was young, I didn't know where my uncle was. I was in the army. | 1:18:56 | 1:19:01 | |
I needed my uncle home, and finally I got my uncle with me. | 1:19:01 | 1:19:04 | |
Ain't that right, Uncle Ken? | 1:19:04 | 1:19:07 | |
-Yeah. -So were you in care, as well, as a child? | 1:19:07 | 1:19:10 | |
I was in children's care. | 1:19:10 | 1:19:12 | |
I was in a children's home in Herefordshire. | 1:19:12 | 1:19:15 | |
And it was quite horrendous to be in children's care. | 1:19:15 | 1:19:19 | |
I've had a lot of bullying from them and all. | 1:19:19 | 1:19:22 | |
Never again. | 1:19:22 | 1:19:25 | |
And you weren't in care when you were a child, were you, Ken? | 1:19:25 | 1:19:29 | |
-I was, yeah. -You were in care? | 1:19:29 | 1:19:31 | |
I were in care since I were six month old. | 1:19:31 | 1:19:35 | |
That's one box... I'll have that space. | 1:19:35 | 1:19:40 | |
This is where we sleep. | 1:19:40 | 1:19:43 | |
We have no trouble at all. Uh, we keep ourselves to ourselves | 1:19:43 | 1:19:49 | |
and we'll clean all our mess up if there is any. | 1:19:49 | 1:19:54 | |
That underneath... | 1:19:54 | 1:19:57 | |
So Mystique's mum was homeless as well. | 1:19:59 | 1:20:01 | |
Yeah, yeah, till she got herself right. | 1:20:01 | 1:20:04 | |
She was only 13 when she was on the streets. | 1:20:04 | 1:20:06 | |
I know. | 1:20:06 | 1:20:08 | |
Just leave that for now, love. | 1:20:08 | 1:20:11 | |
Raspberry nougat. | 1:20:11 | 1:20:13 | |
Hang on, why is it called coconut if it's got no nuts? Uh! | 1:20:13 | 1:20:16 | |
I don't know...cos it looked like a nut when it were all done. | 1:20:16 | 1:20:22 | |
Hm. Are you happy to have him back? | 1:20:29 | 1:20:32 | |
Sometimes, yeah, do you know what I mean? | 1:20:32 | 1:20:35 | |
For the company, but sometimes it's stressful because | 1:20:35 | 1:20:38 | |
sometimes I wonder why...if I was too selfish by taking him back. | 1:20:38 | 1:20:42 | |
Because sometimes...this old place is too small for him, not really a garden, do you know what I mean. | 1:20:42 | 1:20:48 | |
It's unfair on him. | 1:20:48 | 1:20:49 | |
I've been stressed out the last week or so, smashed my phone up, and smashed up the cupboard on the door. | 1:20:49 | 1:20:57 | |
Do you know what I mean? | 1:20:59 | 1:21:01 | |
Tried to cut the tattoo out of my head as well. | 1:21:01 | 1:21:04 | |
With a razor blade. | 1:21:04 | 1:21:06 | |
Didn't do a good job because it's still there. | 1:21:06 | 1:21:08 | |
Does it make you feel better when you do that? | 1:21:11 | 1:21:15 | |
In some respects it does, yeah, but it just, it's like a, a memento just | 1:21:15 | 1:21:20 | |
to say like, well, you won't do that again, do you know what I mean. | 1:21:20 | 1:21:23 | |
But at least you've still got a roof over your head. | 1:21:23 | 1:21:26 | |
Yeah, but this roof is really stressing me out. | 1:21:26 | 1:21:28 | |
Being out here on my own again is just like I was saying, I just want to pack up and just go. | 1:21:28 | 1:21:33 | |
Just leave everything, just take my dog and my clothes and go again. | 1:21:33 | 1:21:36 | |
I'd rather go back to the street. I'm just stressing out here now. | 1:21:36 | 1:21:39 | |
Wow! | 1:22:02 | 1:22:04 | |
Engaged. | 1:22:04 | 1:22:05 | |
-Uh? -Engaged to me. | 1:22:07 | 1:22:09 | |
-What? -Engaged to me. | 1:22:09 | 1:22:11 | |
Ow, my bone! | 1:22:15 | 1:22:16 | |
She's staying silent. | 1:22:27 | 1:22:29 | |
She's hidden it. She's being quiet. | 1:22:29 | 1:22:31 | |
Don't blame her. | 1:22:33 | 1:22:35 | |
-Jean, are you not supposed to kiss him now? -I have to get up again now. | 1:22:35 | 1:22:39 | |
You're blushing! | 1:22:51 | 1:22:53 | |
Oh, God. I need a drink. | 1:22:53 | 1:22:55 | |
MUSIC AND CHANTING | 1:23:04 | 1:23:06 | |
So your niece actually stole your money? Mystique? | 1:23:35 | 1:23:39 | |
Yeah, Mystique stole it. | 1:23:39 | 1:23:41 | |
I said, OK, you can stay with me till following day, we'll sort out a flat. | 1:23:41 | 1:23:46 | |
I had the money ready. | 1:23:46 | 1:23:48 | |
£200. | 1:23:48 | 1:23:50 | |
I thought, right, I'll put it away in my secret pocket in my sleeping bag. | 1:23:50 | 1:23:55 | |
Got up to go to the toilet, I didn't realise at the time. By the time I come back, she'd gone. | 1:23:57 | 1:24:04 | |
So I checked my sleeping bag and she'd took the money as well. | 1:24:04 | 1:24:08 | |
She has to fight her own battles now cos I'm not fighting them for her any more, | 1:24:14 | 1:24:19 | |
not after what she did to me. | 1:24:19 | 1:24:21 | |
No. So... | 1:24:21 | 1:24:24 | |
I've only got another year to go. | 1:24:36 | 1:24:38 | |
-Until what happens? -Well, I came to London and I said that what I want is I want to realise paradise. | 1:24:38 | 1:24:45 | |
-Yeah. -And if the race that I belong to hasn't got round to starting within three years of me doing | 1:24:45 | 1:24:51 | |
my utmost to do it as beautifully and peacefully as I can, then fuck 'em. | 1:24:51 | 1:24:56 | |
-I shall go out and do it by other means. -What sort of means? | 1:24:56 | 1:25:00 | |
Well, if I haven't succeeded in, by peaceful means, | 1:25:00 | 1:25:04 | |
trying to bring about change such as getting people to willingly give up | 1:25:04 | 1:25:08 | |
fossil-fuel use, then I shall go out of my way to make sure that there's no fossil fuels for people to use. | 1:25:08 | 1:25:16 | |
And I don't mind if I get locked up because, | 1:25:16 | 1:25:18 | |
you know, the worst that can happen to me is I can get locked in jail. | 1:25:18 | 1:25:23 | |
Have a room, a bed and three meals a day. | 1:25:23 | 1:25:26 | |
-And that's the worst that can be thrown at me. -Yeah. | 1:25:26 | 1:25:30 | |
There's one lemon cheesecake, | 1:25:30 | 1:25:33 | |
lemon cheesecake. | 1:25:33 | 1:25:34 | |
Ham. | 1:25:34 | 1:25:36 | |
Hands up who hasn't got anything, there's two chocolate fudge. | 1:25:37 | 1:25:42 | |
Has anybody else not got one? | 1:25:42 | 1:25:45 | |
Do us a favour. | 1:25:45 | 1:25:47 | |
When you sit down up the street and eat your food, pick your rubbish up and put it in the bin. | 1:25:47 | 1:25:53 | |
If I find a pile in the corner like I did yesterday, | 1:25:53 | 1:25:57 | |
I'll screw the rubbish into a ball and stick it up your rectum. Yeah? | 1:25:57 | 1:26:01 | |
Straight up. It goes in the bin, not on the street. | 1:26:02 | 1:26:07 | |
I bet he's been on the heat again. | 1:26:24 | 1:26:27 | |
But, Jean, you're still in the hostel, right? | 1:26:30 | 1:26:33 | |
But you're not sleeping out, Jean? | 1:26:41 | 1:26:43 | |
Off and on, yes. | 1:26:45 | 1:26:46 | |
I love this. What are you on about? | 1:26:48 | 1:26:50 | |
It's really cold! | 1:26:50 | 1:26:52 | |
Jean, what about your engagement? | 1:26:54 | 1:26:56 | |
She's asking that again. | 1:26:56 | 1:26:58 | |
I'm not getting involved in this. | 1:27:01 | 1:27:03 | |
Sorry, Penny. | 1:27:06 | 1:27:07 | |
It's all right, it's just voices, but go on. | 1:27:07 | 1:27:10 | |
So what's this about... | 1:27:10 | 1:27:13 | |
-you're not engaged any more. No ring. -No. He had that back ages ago. | 1:27:13 | 1:27:17 | |
Have you seen John, Jean? | 1:27:21 | 1:27:24 | |
Good morning, Ken. | 1:28:18 | 1:28:19 | |
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