My Perfect Body? Hayley


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I had a boob job nearly two years ago.

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I'd always wanted bigger boobs,

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never needed bigger boobs cos I had a good set of boobs,

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but, yeah, I just thought,

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"I'll go and buy a pair of tits."

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But they're not fake-fake boobs like I wanted -

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they wobble, they bounce,

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I still need to wear a bra every day,

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I have to flick them sometimes to get my nipple out. Yeah.

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So, I know I've got a cracking cleavage, don't get me wrong,

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but sometimes I just think, "What a waste of four grand."

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I mean, if money was no object, would I have more stuff done?

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Well, I'm not going to lie, I can't stand my feet.

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I don't know if anyone can fix these trotters, though, so, yeah,...

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Maybe the odd bit of fat from here and there.

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No, I'm quite happy the way I am.

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But one thing I am actually considering is having lip filler.

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Loads of my friends have had it done, it's like the in thing now.

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They only last a couple of months,

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but I just think, you know, if you mess them up,

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that's your face.

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I'm Hayley Pearce.

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You know, the tea lady from BBC Three's The Call Centre.

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I'm a fairly typical twenty-something from the Valleys

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just trying to get by and make sense of it all.

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MUSIC: Millionaire by Cash Cash and Digital Farm Animals feat. Nelly

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# I feel like a millionaire

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# I feel like a millionaire... #

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We're all in search of the perfect body,

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and for most of us that means keeping fit,

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going to the gym as often as possible.

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But that takes time and effort.

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# ..whenever I hear that sound

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# She smell like money when she walk by

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# All heat, no smoke but she on fire... #

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Cosmetic surgery is the shortcut to perfection.

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In the last two years alone,

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more than 100,000 of us have had a nip and tuck.

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I'm 26 and half of all people my age

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are now considering going under the knife.

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But is getting the perfect body a guaranteed route to happiness?

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Before I make my decision,

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I want to find out a bit more about it.

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I'm starting in Swansea,

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taking a look at one of the fastest-growing of all procedures -

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lip and face fillers.

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Cupcakes, girls?

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I've been invited to a ladies night at my local hair salon,

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where bubbly and botox are both on the menu.

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Fillers and Botox are relatively cheap and easy.

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Costing on average 200 quid a shot,

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cosmetic procedures are no longer just for the rich and famous.

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How does it feel?

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Weird.

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For hair salon owner Vicky, trying out the latest cosmetic trends

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is one of the perks of her job,

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and tonight it's a forehead full of botox.

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-How are you feeling after yours?

-Oh, I feel good.

-Yeah?

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I'm glad I've done it. It was a little bit painful, but it's good.

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-I think you should.

-Well, no, my lips.

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It's my lips that I want, and obviously I'm torn,

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but when see Jess and Louise's I want them done so bad.

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-I do. I really do when I look at yours.

-I love mine.

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-They look fabulous.

-Best thing I ever did.

-Best thing.

-Yeah.

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-Really?

-Yeah.

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I've spent about £1,000 on my lips.

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It's just normal now. It's like natural.

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-Especially in Swansea, isn't it?

-Yeah.

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We've all got to have it done now.

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We've got things like social media, Instagram,

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like, I stalk girls more than I stalk the guys.

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I know, and me, I stalk girls.

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We tend to look at other girls and say,

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"Oh, my gosh, she looks really good."

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So, by looking at other girls, I think that's why we do it.

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-Yeah, we go, "We like her bum..."

-Yeah.

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-..or "we like her boobs, we like her lips, her hair."

-Yeah, yeah.

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"I want them!" And now everything is accessible,

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as you said, it's more affordable, so we can go out and do it.

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-Yeah.

-Definitely.

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I find that we're getting younger

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-and younger people coming in for botox.

-I know!

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-I was shocked with the young girls walking in tonight.

-Mad, isn't it?

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Like, years ago it used to be, like, over 30s,

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now it seems like, you know, it's just the young girls having it.

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-Yeah.

-So, it's good.

-Yeah.

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We're trying to prevent the ageing now,

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-instead of trying to fix it.

-I know, I know.

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-We'll be forever young.

-Forever young, I like it.

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-I like it, forever young.

-That's what we want.

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-That's the goal.

-THEY LAUGH

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-Definitely. We ain't growing old, are we?

-No. I'm not.

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THEY LAUGH

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MUSIC: Forever Young by Jay Z feat. Mr Hudson

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# Forever young

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# I want to be forever young

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# Do you really want to live forever?

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# Forever and ever... #

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Last night's party has really got me thinking

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about what I'd look like with fuller lips.

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So I've downloaded this app

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that allows you to play around and change your features

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to see what you're going to look like after cosmetic surgery,

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so I'm going to have a look to see what I look like with the lips.

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# So we live a life like a video

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# Where the sun is always out

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-# And you never get old... #

-Oh!

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My face just looks completely different now.

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Oh, my God, what have I done to myself?

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SHE LAUGHS

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That's terrible.

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It's just mad to think that having one procedure

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can change your whole image.

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Anyone with insecurities playing around on this app,

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you know, it's addictive.

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I wonder what I'd look like now with a stronger jawline.

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'Playing around with your face on an app is one thing,

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'but I'm about to meet someone who does it in real life.'

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# G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S, yeah... #

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25-year-old Jordan James Parke first dabbled

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with cosmetic procedures when he was just 17

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in a bid to look more like his idol, Kim Kardashian.

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Since then, he's made a career out of it,

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and he's now got 80,000 followers on Instagram.

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Not bad, eh?

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-Hello!

-Hello, look who's arrived.

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-Nice to see you. Are you OK? Mwah!

-Come on in.

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Look at those lips! Oh, my God. HE LAUGHS

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Key to his unique look is his trademark pout.

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But his obsession with fillers nearly cost him his sight.

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OK, so I can tell you've had your lips done,

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what else have you had done, then?

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So, altogether I've had two nose jobs,

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I had a chin implant, I've had neck liposuction,

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I've had cheek filler, chin filler, jaw line filler,

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I've had nasal fold filler,

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a full face of Botox.

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I have microdermabrasion, chemical peels...

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But I'm having my nose done again in ten days, so... Why?

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Just, I want it a bit more like Kim's,

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so I'm just going to have it a bit more pinched in,

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a bit more chiselled. I just want it smaller.

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-I just want a little cute button nose.

-You have.

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Oh, no, it's still big. I hate it.

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'As well as surgery,

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'make-up artist Jordan uses contouring

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'to help achieve his Kim K look.

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'He's offered to work his magic on me,

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'giving me a full Kardashian makeover.'

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So, Jordan, obviously you're taking my face off me now,

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and I'm insecure, everyone's insecure,

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like, are you an insecure person or...?

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Why did you start it all?

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The thing is, people always think that I'm going to be insecure,

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but I'm actually not.

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Like, I'm so confident, like, I'm not insecure whatsoever.

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-Yeah?

-I love myself, I'm very happy with me.

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So, if you're happy with yourself, then, like, why don't you stop?

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-Why do you keep having more work done?

-I just love it.

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I just love when you get something done,

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the feeling you get, you just get such a good feeling.

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I just love it.

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So, how much have you actually spent, if you don't mind me asking?

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Cos obviously, cosmetic surgery and procedures ain't cheap, you know.

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Oh, my God, I've probably spent about...

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-£130,000.

-SHE GASPS

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That's a house!

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-Well, it is in Wales, anyway.

-I know, but...

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HE LAUGHS

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I know, but what would you rather -

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walk around looking like shit,

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or walk around looking good with flawless skin?

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'But perfection doesn't just do damage to our wallets

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'as Jordan found out.'

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So, I used to have, like, huge lips before.

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-Yeah, I thought you did.

-Yeah.

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They went really wrong.

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Like, they went so bad they were leaking.

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-Leaking?

-Yeah.

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So, it all started, like, I had a spot at the side of my lip

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and I was literally just like, "What is that?"

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And I literally popped it and filler squirted onto the mirror.

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-SHE GASPS Ugh!

-I know.

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And I actually went to LA and saw some doctors and they were like,

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"Jordan, you need to stop with the lip filler,

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"cos you might lose your lips, you might lose your sight,"

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-but there's that many...

-Your sight?

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Yeah, there's that many things in your lips and things

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that are connected to the rest of your face

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that you don't even realise.

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'Although very rare,

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'extreme overuse of lip filler can block blood vessels in the face

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'leading to permanent blindness.'

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'But thankfully Jordan took the doctors' advice

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'and has now toned down his trout pout.'

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You know what? Your lips would be amazing just with a tiny bit of filler.

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-Just a bit.

-Oh, I don't know now.

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I don't want them to leak like yours. HE LAUGHS

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Oh, my God, look at your teeth, they're stunning.

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-Oh, thanks.

-Look how white they are.

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-I know. They're not real.

-Veneers, is it?

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SHE GASPS AND HE LAUGHS Oh, my God!

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-They're clip-ons!

-What?

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Oh, my God! HE LAUGHS

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-What have you done?

-They're like clip-on teeth.

-Oh, my God.

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What?! Oh, my God! What?

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Ah! What are you doing? HE LAUGHS

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Come on, let's get a selfie so you can see it

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and see what you think.

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-Oh, my God, I love it.

-Do you love it?

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-You'll have to come down every week now.

-I love Wales, I will.

-Yeah?

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# Cos your lips are moving Baby, don't you know I'm done. #

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# Oh-oh

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# Don't you know, don't you know

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# Oh-oh

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# Beautiful, don't you know

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# Beautiful people... #

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While more and more of us are having lip fillers and botox,

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we're signing up for more invasive cosmetic procedures, too.

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Topping the surgical wish list is breast augmentation -

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the good old-fashioned boob job.

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Around 10,000 women in the UK had the procedure last year.

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I've been given a rare opportunity to go behind-the-scenes

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at Cardiff's Spire Hospital

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and see it from the surgeon's point of view.

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So, I'm just about to go into theatre now

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to watch a boob operation.

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Obviously I'm really nervous and excited at the same time.

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It's not every day you get to see this.

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I've had it done myself, so it's really interesting for me

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because, you know, I'm going to be watching from the other side how it's done.

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Unbelievably, cosmetic surgery is an unregulated industry.

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Many cosmetic doctors operate without proper qualifications and experience.

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But no such worries here.

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Leading plastic surgeon Dean Boyce has carried out

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over 1,000 of these ops.

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So today's patient is in very good hands.

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WHISPERS: I can't believe that was me one time.

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'Dean starts by marking up the incision points on the patient.'

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'Then cuts an opening in the breast crease.'

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QUIETLY: Oh!

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WHISPERS: I've had that done!

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Oh, my God, that's the implant.

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It's bigger than what I had.

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'There are two main types of implant,

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'silicone gel or saline,

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'and today Dean's using silicone.'

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'With such a small incision,

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'the implant has to be slowly inserted bit by bit.'

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It's really physical.

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They look really...

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They look really nice and hard

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and mine are soft now.

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'Once the implants are in,

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'the incision is closed and Dean's careful stitching means

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'they'll be hardly any scarring left behind.'

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'It's taken just an hour-and-a-half

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'for the patient to go from approximately an A-cup to a D-cup.

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'90 minutes that could change a life.'

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Well, that was absolutely amazing.

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That hour-and-a-half flew by there.

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He's clearly a very skilful surgeon,

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but it's not just the surgeon doing the work,

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all the nurses, they're all putting that care

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into that patient on the bed.

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And I tell you one thing now,

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she's going to be happy with her new breasts when she wakes up.

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The transformation I saw today was incredible,

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and the operation has got me thinking about my own breasts

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and how the end result wasn't quite what I'd hope for.

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I just think, like, you know, unless you really, really want them,

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then have a think about it

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because with me I've wasted four grand

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that could have gone towards a house.

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Don't get me wrong, I have my days when I love them,

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and then I have my days when I hate them.

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Did it give me extra happiness?

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No, it didn't give me happiness.

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I'm glad I've got a better pair than I had,

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but I had nothing wrong with my old ones.

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For some of us, the cost of cosmetic procedures in the UK

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puts it well out of reach.

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So more and more of us are opting to fly abroad

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in search of cut-price surgery.

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Trouble is, it can sometimes go horribly wrong.

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-Hi, girls.

-Hi!

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-You must be Charlotte.

-Yes.

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-And who's this?

-Chantelle.

-Hi, Chantelle.

-Hi.

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-Cup of tea?

-Oh, yes, please.

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Cafe owner Charlotte Hayward found that out the hard way

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when she travelled to Thailand for a tummy tuck.

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I believe you've got some horror stories to tell me, Charlotte.

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I have. Have your cuppa.

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We'll sit down and I'll tell you all about it.

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Oh, God, I don't think I want to hear this.

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We went to Bangkok. We went to a hospital, it was gleaming,

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really, really nice, me and my husband and my young daughter.

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Everything looked perfect, so we paid the money,

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put the deposit down.

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Three days later, I arrived at the hospital

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and they had a bus waiting for me.

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They put me in the bus, told me that the surgeon couldn't do it

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in that hospital, but we would go to another hospital,

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drove four hours into Bangkok City,

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and we were just basically put into a backstreet shop.

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It wasn't anything like the first hospital I'd seen before.

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It was just, like, in a back alley.

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Curtains, a few beds put up.

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But I paid the money and I was there,

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and I just thought, "Right, just go for it."

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-Worst mistake.

-God, it sounds like something out of a horror movie.

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It gets ten times worse.

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They put a needle in the top of my spine

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and I was in and out of consciousness.

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Then I sort of came around on the operating bed

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and I was thinking, "Oh, right, OK,"

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then I realised that they were actually operating on me

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-whilst I was awake.

-Oh, my God.

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So I was shouting, saying, "I'm awake, I'm awake!"

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Obviously, crying, getting upset.

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They ended up tying my hands down to the bed,

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because I kept trying to get up

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and they put a cone, almost like a dog cone,

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around my head and just carried on with the operation.

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I could see my stomach was put by the side of my head

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and the tattoo - that's the only reason I knew,

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I had a tattoo on my stomach and as I looked,

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I could see the tattoo that was on my stomach

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was now by the side of my head.

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-Did you think you were going to die on the operating table?

-Yeah.

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The most scary thing I've ever been through in my entire life.

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I genuinely thought I was going to die.

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A tummy tuck is one of the most complicated and extensive

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cosmetic procedures available,

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which usually requires at least one overnight stay in hospital.

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But not for Charlotte.

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So what was the aftercare like, then? Was there any?

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It was non-existent.

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Straight after my operation, they put me on a bus,

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three-and-a-half-hours' journey back to the hotel.

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It was a major operation

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and they just literally threw me out of the door

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-and just left me to get on with it.

-Oh, my God.

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Unsurprisingly, with no aftercare,

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Charlotte's wound got infected.

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Instead of flying home, she checked herself into a private hospital.

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Doctors there discovered

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that she'd not even been given a surgical drain,

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increasing her risk of blood clots.

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Had she boarded the plane back to Wales,

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it could have been fatal.

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Charlotte faced a further three-week stay in Thailand

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and a hefty medical bill.

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The infection left behind some heavy scarring,

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most of which she's managed to cover with a tattoo.

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If I could go back three years ago,

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and tell myself not to do it, 100%, it's not worth it,

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your life being put at risk just for the way you look, vanity,

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it's just 100% not worth it.

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Shockingly, Charlotte's story is not an isolated case.

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Nearly one in ten of us who've had cosmetic surgery abroad

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need help from the NHS when we come home.

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# Hot lips

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# Hot lips

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# Hot lips. #

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Sometimes the risks come not from how far we travel,

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but how far we'll go in pursuit of the body beautiful.

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Former glamour model and TV personality Alicia Douvall

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has been dubbed Britain's most nipped and tucked woman.

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First going under the knife at 17,

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Alicia made headlines with her extreme addiction to surgery.

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She's had a staggering 350 procedures

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at a cost of a whopping £1.5 million.

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-So 350 procedures.

-Mm-hm.

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Was there ever a point in that time where you just stopped

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and looked in the mirror and thought, "OK, I'm happy now"?

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At the time, at the height of my addiction,

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-I was having procedures every week.

-Every week?

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I was waking up on the hospital bed and planning the next one.

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I was never happy with the results, never.

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You know, I kept finding surgeons that would do it.

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I kept going until I found the surgeon that said yes.

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There's a lot of unscrupulous surgeons out there

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that will take your money and give you what you want.

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So who did you want to look like? Was there anyone in the public eye?

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Yeah, I went into a surgeon's with a Barbie doll.

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-My thing was I wanted to look like Barbie.

-Right.

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You had the blonde hair...?

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I have long, blonde hair, and I have my ribs shaped,

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I have my waist like Barbie.

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-You had your ribs shaped?

-Yep. I wanted to be like a Barbie doll.

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She had a very, very small waist.

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So what was the most extreme procedure you've ever had?

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I had over 1,000cc implants, so I had, like, a G-cup.

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-I had my toes shortened, so...

-You had your toes shortened?

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-Yeah.

-What do you mean?

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So I went and had the bones shaved,

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so cut and then shortened.

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So I could have perfect feet, so I could wear sandals.

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I mean, I had to be on crutches for six weeks.

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For me, the most extreme was having loads of implants put in my face,

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which destroyed my looks.

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Did you care what people thought of you?

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When I lost sight of trying to look like Barbie

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and then I became quite extreme,

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I did care when people would look around at me

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and, you know, kind of look at me as a freak show,

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but I was addicted.

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So what did your friends and family think, then?

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Did they not try and stop you?

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Yeah, they did, but they knew after a while they couldn't bring it up,

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cos I would literally disconnect from people and not talk to them

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if they confronted me with my addiction.

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So if you could turn back time,

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would you have not had anything done?

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Oh, my gosh, I'd have loved to never have had surgery.

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-Not even boobs, nothing?

-Nothing. I'd love to...

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I'd love to have been like, "This is me, proud of me,

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"and I make the most of Mother Nature and what she gave me."

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Thankfully, Alicia's now recovered from her extreme addiction

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after being diagnosed and treated for a condition

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called body dysmorphic disorder, or BDD for short.

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Sufferers can become obsessed with a flaw in their appearance

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that's either really minor or totally imagined.

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I've come to meet Dr Rob Willson,

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a psychotherapist and chair of the BDD Foundation, to find out more.

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So, how severe does it get?

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Body dysmorphic disorder can be extremely severe.

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It's probably got about the highest rate of suicide

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of any psychiatric disorder,

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and there are a lot of people that are very disabled,

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very housebound, and typically people spend, say,

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most of their working day, certainly five, eight hours a day,

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worrying, researching cosmetic procedures.

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It can be pretty much like a full-time job

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and drives a great deal of distress.

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So do you find that many sufferers feel

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that cosmetic surgery is the answer?

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A lot of people with BDD do think that cosmetic procedures

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or dermatological procedures are going to be the answer,

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cos the hope is that the flaw in their appearance

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that they're preoccupied with, that that can be removed.

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Unfortunately, we know from the research

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that that virtually never works

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and that, even if the flaw is removed,

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the BDD just refocuses and zeroes into another area

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of their appearance which is in some way flawed or not quite right.

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So, for some of us,

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no amount of cosmetic surgery will ever bring happiness.

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But, for others, their physical quirks aren't just all in the mind,

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and a simple procedure can have a very real impact.

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So today is the day, Sue. How are you feeling?

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-Nervous? Excited?

-I'm excited and nervous.

-Yeah?

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I've been waiting for this day all my life, since I was 12 years old,

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and I can't believe I'm actually going to do

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what I should have done years ago.

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52-year-old Sue Owens was born with an unusually thin upper lip.

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With a family party looming,

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she's finally now plucked up the courage to do something about it.

0:25:040:25:08

So how have your lips affected you, then?

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It makes me feel anxious, because I think,

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especially with the world nowadays,

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everyone perceives a beautiful person to have lips,

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a top lip, if you like, which I haven't got.

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Literally, on my 21st birthday,

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I don't think there's one person that didn't buy me any present

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that didn't say "Froggy"

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or have some kind of frog associated with it,

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cos that was my nickname, Froggy, cos my lips go like that.

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It was quite cruel, really, but I've laughed it off.

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-But deep down, was it affecting you?

-Deep down, yes, it has affected me.

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I've even not gone out on nights out, cos I've not felt confident.

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I've got ready to go out and I've actually not gone,

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and I just can't wait to see if it will be what I'm looking for,

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the answer that I'm looking for to get the confidence back.

0:25:510:25:54

Sue's booked an appointment at her local salon in Sketty

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to have lip fillers with nurse Steph Williams.

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It's a good opportunity for me to see the procedure first-hand.

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So, Sue, I'm just going to start now, OK? We're just going to have...

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You might feel a sharp little scratch.

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I feel quite sick.

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-Sorry, Sue.

-No problem.

-I'm not even scared of needles,

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but that's going through me watching it go in your lip.

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It reminds me of when I'm in the dentist.

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I actually feel quite shaky watching it.

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Oh, is that blood?

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It's a tiny little bit, a pinprick of blood.

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So, Sue, if you'd like to just sit up for me,

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so I can have a little look.

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SHE IMITATES DRUMROLL

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Sorry!

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Let me see.

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Awww!

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Don't cry!

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God!

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Do you like them?

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Yeah, I've got lips!

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They look great.

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-You're glowing, you look so happy.

-It's nice.

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Wow!

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# Would you let me

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# See beneath your beautiful

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# Would you let me

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# See beneath your perfect

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# Take it off, now, girl, take it off, now, girl

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# I want to see inside

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# Would you let me

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# See beneath your beautiful

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# Tonight... #

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We all just want to look our best,

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and whether it's done out of vanity,

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to feed an addiction,

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or just to boost our self-confidence,

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cosmetic procedures can change us inside and out,

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for better or for worse.

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But, for me, having my boobs done,

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they didn't make me a happier person,

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and I don't think if I had my lips done

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that would make me a happier person as well.

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I'll never say never, I won't, you know,

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and with the Swansea lot, we're all like dominos,

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we all copy each other,

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but for now, I've found this awesome lip gloss

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that plumps my lips right up.

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Pain-free.

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No bleeding.

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No needles.

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For now, I'll stick to my plump-it-up lip gloss.

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