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'I'm Keith Dube, also known as Mr Exposed. | 0:00:02 | 0:00:05 | |
'I'm a blogger with a massive following on social media | 0:00:05 | 0:00:08 | |
'and I host the breakfast show | 0:00:08 | 0:00:10 | |
'on one of London's newest radio stations. | 0:00:10 | 0:00:12 | |
Please call in today, we want to hear your experiences. | 0:00:12 | 0:00:15 | |
'But behind the microphone, I used to have a very big secret.' | 0:00:15 | 0:00:19 | |
I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago. | 0:00:19 | 0:00:22 | |
It was a hollow feeling of worthless a lot of the times | 0:00:22 | 0:00:24 | |
and there's times when you're supposed be happy, | 0:00:24 | 0:00:27 | |
but you can't feel happy, no matter what's going on around you. | 0:00:27 | 0:00:29 | |
That's when I realised, "Something's really wrong here." | 0:00:29 | 0:00:32 | |
It was a horrible experience, very confusing, | 0:00:32 | 0:00:35 | |
cos black people don't really do mental illness. | 0:00:35 | 0:00:38 | |
It's not something you grow up hearing a lot about. | 0:00:38 | 0:00:40 | |
Why did I get depressed? | 0:00:40 | 0:00:42 | |
When I was younger, I was obsessed with money and status | 0:00:42 | 0:00:45 | |
and I broke the rules to get it. | 0:00:45 | 0:00:48 | |
But over time, that lifestyle impacted | 0:00:48 | 0:00:50 | |
more and more on my state of mind. | 0:00:50 | 0:00:52 | |
My lowest point was when I was continually waking up thinking, | 0:00:53 | 0:00:58 | |
"I don't want to live any more." | 0:00:58 | 0:01:00 | |
For over two years, | 0:01:01 | 0:01:03 | |
I didn't utter a single word about my depression to anyone. | 0:01:03 | 0:01:06 | |
I was too ashamed, but then I decided to out myself. | 0:01:06 | 0:01:10 | |
I wrote a blog, closed my laptop and I went to sleep, | 0:01:11 | 0:01:14 | |
So I've woken up a couple of hours later and yeah, | 0:01:14 | 0:01:17 | |
I had a crazy amount of messages from people. | 0:01:17 | 0:01:19 | |
All the messages were positive | 0:01:19 | 0:01:21 | |
and I also did realise that there were a lot of people just like me | 0:01:21 | 0:01:24 | |
that were going through the exact same things I was. | 0:01:24 | 0:01:26 | |
After that response, | 0:01:28 | 0:01:30 | |
I started to look into black mental health | 0:01:30 | 0:01:32 | |
and what I found shocked me. | 0:01:32 | 0:01:33 | |
I'm 17 times more likely to be diagnosed | 0:01:33 | 0:01:36 | |
with a serious mental health issue. That's scary. | 0:01:36 | 0:01:40 | |
I'm also six times more likely than a white man to be an inpatient | 0:01:40 | 0:01:44 | |
or sectioned to a mental health hospital. | 0:01:44 | 0:01:47 | |
I want to find out what's going on, | 0:01:47 | 0:01:49 | |
why black people are more likely to end up with mental illness. | 0:01:49 | 0:01:52 | |
Why is it more prevalent in our community? | 0:01:52 | 0:01:54 | |
What is the cause and what can we do about it? | 0:01:54 | 0:01:56 | |
What can we do to stop it? | 0:01:56 | 0:01:58 | |
Even though I struggled with my depression for years, | 0:02:03 | 0:02:05 | |
I was lucky that I was never so unwell | 0:02:05 | 0:02:07 | |
that I had to be admitted into a mental health unit. | 0:02:07 | 0:02:10 | |
But every year, thousands of black people do end up here and many | 0:02:12 | 0:02:15 | |
of them are detained against their will under the Mental Health Act. | 0:02:15 | 0:02:19 | |
I want to find out why and how this is happening. | 0:02:26 | 0:02:29 | |
What kind of conditions do most people come in here with? | 0:02:30 | 0:02:33 | |
Schizophrenia, depression, anxiety. | 0:02:33 | 0:02:36 | |
Psychotic depression, bipolar affective disorder. | 0:02:36 | 0:02:39 | |
How does your assessment process work? How do you decide? | 0:02:39 | 0:02:43 | |
We have two assessment rooms. You can see it's just soft chairs. | 0:02:43 | 0:02:47 | |
The patient normally stays here with their relatives or the police. | 0:02:47 | 0:02:50 | |
Sometimes we need the police to stay. | 0:02:50 | 0:02:52 | |
They need to search the patient and their bag | 0:02:52 | 0:02:54 | |
in case they have any sharps, | 0:02:54 | 0:02:56 | |
especially if they are harming themselves. | 0:02:56 | 0:02:58 | |
We don't want them to harm themself. | 0:02:58 | 0:02:59 | |
A lot of black patients kind of feel like they're treated differently | 0:02:59 | 0:03:03 | |
from, I guess, their white counterparts. | 0:03:03 | 0:03:05 | |
Is there any truth to that? | 0:03:05 | 0:03:06 | |
It will happen, it happens, | 0:03:06 | 0:03:09 | |
but I wouldn't say on the whole that that is what the staff do. | 0:03:09 | 0:03:13 | |
As a black woman, would you be worried | 0:03:13 | 0:03:15 | |
about coming through the mental health system? | 0:03:15 | 0:03:18 | |
Maybe if I didn't have any knowledge of mental health, | 0:03:18 | 0:03:20 | |
I probably would be worried. | 0:03:20 | 0:03:23 | |
I would be worried about going anywhere actually | 0:03:23 | 0:03:25 | |
because I have so many things against me - | 0:03:25 | 0:03:27 | |
being black, being a woman. | 0:03:27 | 0:03:30 | |
'To find out just how it feels to be sectioned, I'm meeting Kemeta. | 0:03:34 | 0:03:39 | |
'She's been in and out of hospital since 2010 | 0:03:39 | 0:03:41 | |
'and suffers from bipolar disorder, | 0:03:41 | 0:03:43 | |
'a condition where your moods can swing from one extreme to another.' | 0:03:43 | 0:03:47 | |
So, how did you find yourself here? | 0:03:48 | 0:03:51 | |
My first admission was back in 2010 at the birth of my son. | 0:03:51 | 0:03:56 | |
So, after I gave birth... It was quite a difficult birth. | 0:03:56 | 0:04:00 | |
I lost two litres of blood or something | 0:04:00 | 0:04:02 | |
so eventually I went home, tried to relax, | 0:04:02 | 0:04:05 | |
but I still wasn't fully recovered. | 0:04:05 | 0:04:07 | |
So, my mum thought something was wrong. | 0:04:07 | 0:04:09 | |
I then went to a GP and then when I was at the GP, | 0:04:09 | 0:04:13 | |
apparently no-one from the early intervention team was available, | 0:04:13 | 0:04:17 | |
so they called the police. | 0:04:17 | 0:04:19 | |
So five policemen came into the GP and held me down, | 0:04:19 | 0:04:24 | |
physically held me down to the floor, because no woman | 0:04:24 | 0:04:27 | |
in their right mind is going to give up their six-month-old. | 0:04:27 | 0:04:30 | |
Wow. So how did that make you feel at the time? | 0:04:30 | 0:04:33 | |
Words cannot describe the pain. | 0:04:33 | 0:04:35 | |
Even now, I still have a lot of pain. | 0:04:35 | 0:04:37 | |
What's your experience been like since then? | 0:04:37 | 0:04:39 | |
How many times have you been in hospital? | 0:04:39 | 0:04:42 | |
About three to four times I've been in hospital. | 0:04:42 | 0:04:44 | |
I feel it's, like, taken a chunk of my life away | 0:04:44 | 0:04:48 | |
and it's just made me so frustrated at times. Yeah. | 0:04:48 | 0:04:52 | |
Now I try to do too much and then if I do too much, | 0:04:52 | 0:04:55 | |
then I can become unwell again and then be back in hospital. | 0:04:55 | 0:04:58 | |
You know, cos with me, I get manic episodes. | 0:04:58 | 0:05:01 | |
I don't get depressed, I just get manic. | 0:05:01 | 0:05:03 | |
I know it's something that's not very easy. | 0:05:03 | 0:05:06 | |
-Thank you very much. -Thank you. | 0:05:06 | 0:05:08 | |
'My heart goes out to Kemeta for what she's been through, | 0:05:08 | 0:05:11 | |
'but I've no idea if she'd have been treated any differently | 0:05:11 | 0:05:14 | |
'if she was white. | 0:05:14 | 0:05:15 | |
'How normal an experience is this for black people getting sectioned? | 0:05:15 | 0:05:19 | |
'Twice a week I host a show on internet radio | 0:05:21 | 0:05:23 | |
'and I want to ask my listeners what they think.' | 0:05:23 | 0:05:25 | |
We'll be talking about black mental health, | 0:05:26 | 0:05:29 | |
cos I think it's something that's very, very, very slept on. | 0:05:29 | 0:05:32 | |
We've got an amazing guest coming on the show today. | 0:05:32 | 0:05:34 | |
He's a psychologist, I'll be talking to him, | 0:05:34 | 0:05:37 | |
seeing what he's seen in his 25 years | 0:05:37 | 0:05:40 | |
in the mental health industries. | 0:05:40 | 0:05:42 | |
-Good morning, Malcolm. -Good morning. | 0:05:42 | 0:05:43 | |
Tell us a little bit about you and what you do. | 0:05:43 | 0:05:46 | |
At the moment, I manage mental health services. | 0:05:46 | 0:05:49 | |
We look after around 450 people with severe and enduring mental illness. | 0:05:49 | 0:05:55 | |
We've got a caller on the line. | 0:05:55 | 0:05:57 | |
-Good morning, sir. -I'm actually a carer for my mum. | 0:05:57 | 0:06:00 | |
Mum has been sectioned quite a few times. | 0:06:00 | 0:06:03 | |
It's always been something where the sectioning is, | 0:06:03 | 0:06:05 | |
in my opinion, very unreasonable. | 0:06:05 | 0:06:07 | |
Were you given support to understand what was going on for your mum? | 0:06:07 | 0:06:11 | |
Not really. I don't know. | 0:06:11 | 0:06:13 | |
The way the sectioning works, if someone reports someone in, | 0:06:13 | 0:06:17 | |
they'll section first and explain later. | 0:06:17 | 0:06:19 | |
That's not how the act is supposed to work. | 0:06:19 | 0:06:22 | |
We must work with families. | 0:06:22 | 0:06:24 | |
You're the people who are closest, | 0:06:24 | 0:06:26 | |
you're the people who have the most information. | 0:06:26 | 0:06:28 | |
I would encourage you to not accept that, | 0:06:28 | 0:06:30 | |
demand that the family are more involved. | 0:06:30 | 0:06:32 | |
That's not something that's easy to talk about. | 0:06:32 | 0:06:34 | |
-We're very, very grateful for your input. -Thank you. -Take care. | 0:06:34 | 0:06:37 | |
Me and you, as black men, we're 17 times more likely to be diagnosed | 0:06:37 | 0:06:43 | |
with a serious mental condition. | 0:06:43 | 0:06:45 | |
When I look at the picture across Britain, it's poor, man, | 0:06:45 | 0:06:49 | |
it's pretty bad. You're much more likely to be diagnosed as suffering | 0:06:49 | 0:06:52 | |
from schizophrenia, you're much less likely | 0:06:52 | 0:06:56 | |
to get any talking treatment, | 0:06:56 | 0:06:58 | |
much more likely to be held under compulsion of the Mental Health Act. | 0:06:58 | 0:07:01 | |
You're going to be sectioned, you're going to be locked up, | 0:07:01 | 0:07:04 | |
you'll get higher doses of medication, it's pretty rough. | 0:07:04 | 0:07:07 | |
Why is it that black people are being diagnosed, | 0:07:07 | 0:07:10 | |
why are we being put in that box? | 0:07:10 | 0:07:13 | |
Black people when they go for help | 0:07:13 | 0:07:14 | |
are generally seen as more dangerous. | 0:07:14 | 0:07:16 | |
So they're more likely to get a more severe diagnosis. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:20 | |
It's shocking to hear someone who works in mental health | 0:07:22 | 0:07:25 | |
say we're seen as more dangerous, | 0:07:25 | 0:07:27 | |
and it goes a long way to explaining the stats. | 0:07:27 | 0:07:29 | |
But I do feel that sometimes as a community, | 0:07:32 | 0:07:34 | |
we're too quick to blame everything on racism. | 0:07:34 | 0:07:37 | |
Instead, do we need to look at our own behaviour? | 0:07:38 | 0:07:41 | |
Why is there such a stigma around mental health? | 0:07:41 | 0:07:44 | |
I've tweeted my followers to find out | 0:07:52 | 0:07:54 | |
what kind of experiences they've had. | 0:07:54 | 0:07:56 | |
"I lost my dad, a middle-aged black Caribbean man. | 0:07:57 | 0:08:01 | |
"He committed suicide aged 39. | 0:08:01 | 0:08:03 | |
"I myself, as a result, have struggled | 0:08:03 | 0:08:05 | |
"with my own mental health quite severely." We've got a message here. | 0:08:05 | 0:08:09 | |
"I'm happy to discuss my struggle with mental health. | 0:08:09 | 0:08:12 | |
"I don't think people talk about it enough, | 0:08:12 | 0:08:14 | |
"so I'm happy to help lift the stigma." | 0:08:14 | 0:08:16 | |
I didn't think this many people would be up to talk about it. | 0:08:16 | 0:08:20 | |
It definitely proved me wrong on that one. | 0:08:20 | 0:08:24 | |
One message in particular has caught my eye. | 0:08:26 | 0:08:28 | |
It's from a 20-year-old uni student from Surrey called Simone. | 0:08:28 | 0:08:32 | |
I'm going to read a little bit of my exchange with Simone to you guys. | 0:08:32 | 0:08:35 | |
"Even though I wasn't diagnosed by a doctor, I knew I was depressed. | 0:08:36 | 0:08:40 | |
"I've been in and out of it for about five years now. | 0:08:40 | 0:08:42 | |
"I think the mentality towards mental health like depression | 0:08:42 | 0:08:45 | |
"and anxiety that some black people currently have | 0:08:45 | 0:08:47 | |
"may have been passed down by their parents. | 0:08:47 | 0:08:49 | |
"Usually it should be our parents that we can turn to, to express how | 0:08:49 | 0:08:53 | |
"we feel, but if they have a negative thought towards this, | 0:08:53 | 0:08:55 | |
"then who else can we turn to?" That's the same as me. | 0:08:55 | 0:08:58 | |
When I was going through it, I didn't want anyone to know. | 0:08:58 | 0:09:00 | |
I was embarrassed by it, but in my case I prejudged the situation | 0:09:00 | 0:09:04 | |
and I didn't really step forward and speak to my parents | 0:09:04 | 0:09:07 | |
and when I initially did | 0:09:07 | 0:09:08 | |
and actually spoke to my dad, his response was not what I expected. | 0:09:08 | 0:09:11 | |
For me it was like, wow, "We could have had this conversation many years ago | 0:09:11 | 0:09:16 | |
"and things could have turned out different," but because I assumed | 0:09:16 | 0:09:19 | |
he'd be a certain way about it, I kept it all to myself. | 0:09:19 | 0:09:21 | |
-Hey, Simone. -Hey! -We finally get to meet. | 0:09:21 | 0:09:25 | |
How are you doing? | 0:09:25 | 0:09:27 | |
I'm good. How are you? | 0:09:27 | 0:09:28 | |
I'm not too bad. | 0:09:28 | 0:09:29 | |
Wow, you have a wonderful little room. | 0:09:30 | 0:09:32 | |
I try to make it as holy as possible. | 0:09:32 | 0:09:34 | |
I've got my Bible verses and prayers. | 0:09:34 | 0:09:38 | |
You're very religious. | 0:09:38 | 0:09:39 | |
-Yeah. -How do you fit religion into your battle with depression? | 0:09:39 | 0:09:44 | |
-There were times when I felt like I was alone... -Yeah. | 0:09:44 | 0:09:47 | |
..and I just turned to God. | 0:09:47 | 0:09:50 | |
When did you first kind of feel like something wasn't right? | 0:09:50 | 0:09:54 | |
I think one time in year ten, | 0:09:54 | 0:09:56 | |
there was a week where I just started having breakdowns. | 0:09:56 | 0:09:59 | |
There was one time when I just started crying | 0:09:59 | 0:10:01 | |
randomly during break time. | 0:10:01 | 0:10:03 | |
I didn't even know why I was crying. | 0:10:03 | 0:10:04 | |
I just kept on crying. | 0:10:04 | 0:10:06 | |
I just felt so low. | 0:10:06 | 0:10:07 | |
I realised there was something wrong. | 0:10:07 | 0:10:09 | |
At any point did you speak to your parents? | 0:10:09 | 0:10:11 | |
Uh-uh. | 0:10:11 | 0:10:13 | |
Why did you feel that you couldn't speak to your parents? | 0:10:13 | 0:10:16 | |
I felt that if I was to tell my parents, | 0:10:16 | 0:10:19 | |
"Hey, I'm going through X, Y, Z," | 0:10:19 | 0:10:22 | |
I knew that the first reaction would be, | 0:10:22 | 0:10:25 | |
"God forbid, no, I rebuke this," and... | 0:10:25 | 0:10:28 | |
..they would kind of brush over it | 0:10:29 | 0:10:31 | |
and not find out the root of the problem. | 0:10:31 | 0:10:34 | |
Do you feel like there's a stigma surrounding mental health? | 0:10:34 | 0:10:38 | |
With parents, especially African parents, erm... | 0:10:38 | 0:10:43 | |
..they don't have enough knowledge about it, | 0:10:44 | 0:10:47 | |
especially the ones that were born and raised in Africa. | 0:10:47 | 0:10:50 | |
My parents were born and raised in Congo. | 0:10:50 | 0:10:52 | |
Speaking to a professional, essentially, | 0:10:52 | 0:10:56 | |
I got to speak to someone that was impartial. | 0:10:56 | 0:10:59 | |
Could you say you're scared of speaking to the doctors? | 0:10:59 | 0:11:02 | |
Is there a kind of fear? | 0:11:02 | 0:11:04 | |
It's the fear of... | 0:11:04 | 0:11:05 | |
..just being so exposed to someone | 0:11:08 | 0:11:10 | |
-and telling them exactly what I'm going through, it's scary. -Yeah. | 0:11:10 | 0:11:15 | |
-It's that fear of knowing that I could have something. -Yeah. | 0:11:15 | 0:11:19 | |
At this point, do you feel like you're ready to see a doctor? | 0:11:19 | 0:11:24 | |
I think I'm ready to see a doctor and finally get all checked out. | 0:11:24 | 0:11:29 | |
OK. Would you be comfortable with me coming along? | 0:11:29 | 0:11:32 | |
Yeah, that would be great. Thank you. | 0:11:32 | 0:11:35 | |
I've heard from Kemeta, the woman I met at the hospital. | 0:11:39 | 0:11:42 | |
She's been discharged from the unit, | 0:11:44 | 0:11:46 | |
but instead has ended up in temporary accommodation. | 0:11:46 | 0:11:49 | |
Hi, Kemeta. | 0:11:50 | 0:11:51 | |
-Come in. -How are you doing? | 0:11:51 | 0:11:53 | |
I'm fine, thank you. | 0:11:53 | 0:11:54 | |
'I want to find out why she's in a B&B above a shop | 0:11:54 | 0:11:57 | |
'and not being cared for by her family at home.' | 0:11:57 | 0:12:00 | |
I'll be here for one week. | 0:12:00 | 0:12:02 | |
-A roof over my head, so I'm quite happy. -It's a really nice place. | 0:12:04 | 0:12:06 | |
Yeah, I think it's nice. | 0:12:06 | 0:12:07 | |
The discharge coordinator kindly pushed for my case | 0:12:07 | 0:12:10 | |
for me to have somewhere to stay so that I could be out of hospital | 0:12:10 | 0:12:13 | |
because it just wasn't the right environment | 0:12:13 | 0:12:15 | |
and I needed to move on, and I had nowhere else to go. | 0:12:15 | 0:12:18 | |
What kind of things did you do in your spare time in hospital? | 0:12:18 | 0:12:22 | |
I just did some reading. I like modern architecture | 0:12:22 | 0:12:25 | |
and also I like Bauhaus and I like design as well. | 0:12:25 | 0:12:29 | |
Those are the kind of books that I read, a bit of self-help. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:32 | |
Now you're out of the hospital, how does that feel? | 0:12:32 | 0:12:35 | |
I'm very happy that I'm out of hospital, I feel relieved, | 0:12:35 | 0:12:39 | |
I feel like I'm in my own skin. | 0:12:39 | 0:12:41 | |
So being unwell, how has that affected your family life? | 0:12:41 | 0:12:45 | |
My dad has been very understanding and very supportive, practically, | 0:12:45 | 0:12:50 | |
but my mum, we have had a relationship breakdown, yes. | 0:12:50 | 0:12:54 | |
I still love my mum, I still respect my mum, | 0:12:54 | 0:12:56 | |
but I'm looking for the future to get my own flat | 0:12:56 | 0:13:00 | |
and have my son living with me, as opposed to my mum caring for him. | 0:13:00 | 0:13:06 | |
How does it feel to be away from your son? | 0:13:06 | 0:13:08 | |
Pretty, pretty painful. | 0:13:08 | 0:13:11 | |
Yeah. I mean, there were times that I couldn't sleep. | 0:13:11 | 0:13:15 | |
I could just feel... It's like a stone in your stomach or your womb. | 0:13:15 | 0:13:18 | |
You know, just like a weight, like a heavy weight. | 0:13:18 | 0:13:24 | |
I couldn't concentrate. | 0:13:24 | 0:13:26 | |
Now, I just want him for myself, like every mother would. | 0:13:26 | 0:13:29 | |
A lot of people see mental illness as embarrassing. | 0:13:29 | 0:13:32 | |
-A curse. -The person's dirty little secret, | 0:13:32 | 0:13:35 | |
because some people see stuff like that, they think, | 0:13:35 | 0:13:37 | |
"I'm not going to say anything," | 0:13:37 | 0:13:38 | |
-because of how other people treat it. -Yeah. | 0:13:38 | 0:13:40 | |
Do you think that plays a big part? | 0:13:40 | 0:13:42 | |
That does play a big part, actually. | 0:13:42 | 0:13:45 | |
When I first was in hospital and I came back to study, | 0:13:45 | 0:13:47 | |
there was a Ghanaian woman. She put her hands on me | 0:13:47 | 0:13:49 | |
and was praying on me as if to exorcise a demon from me. | 0:13:49 | 0:13:55 | |
This is apparently an educated woman, | 0:13:55 | 0:13:58 | |
she had a master's from the UK. | 0:13:58 | 0:14:00 | |
This is a Ghanaian black woman, | 0:14:00 | 0:14:02 | |
so, um, I can imagine anyone in that position, | 0:14:02 | 0:14:05 | |
you'd probably never want to tell | 0:14:05 | 0:14:06 | |
that you had any mental health difficulty. | 0:14:06 | 0:14:09 | |
'It's good to see her well and happy. | 0:14:09 | 0:14:12 | |
'From talking to her, you can tell that the situation' | 0:14:12 | 0:14:15 | |
with her family is kind of complex, | 0:14:15 | 0:14:17 | |
but I don't personally think that's a great place for someone | 0:14:17 | 0:14:21 | |
going through mental health issues - to be in a B&B by themselves. | 0:14:21 | 0:14:25 | |
I think she should be with her family. | 0:14:25 | 0:14:28 | |
Both Kemeta and Simone had talked to me about religion | 0:14:28 | 0:14:31 | |
and over the years I've heard plenty of stories of pastors that | 0:14:31 | 0:14:35 | |
believed in prayer and even exorcism as a cure for mental health. | 0:14:35 | 0:14:39 | |
What effect is the church having? | 0:14:39 | 0:14:40 | |
In north London, I'm meeting the leader of an evangelical church | 0:14:48 | 0:14:52 | |
who also has a day job as a mental health professional. | 0:14:52 | 0:14:55 | |
Peace into your life! | 0:14:55 | 0:14:58 | |
As a pastor and as a nurse, how does that work out for you? | 0:14:58 | 0:15:03 | |
Cos I guess it's conflicting theories, essentially. | 0:15:03 | 0:15:06 | |
So you're following the Bible correctly, to a T, | 0:15:25 | 0:15:28 | |
could that keep me from ever experiencing | 0:15:28 | 0:15:30 | |
any mental health issues? | 0:15:30 | 0:15:32 | |
So, you know, I come forward to you, pastor, | 0:16:03 | 0:16:05 | |
and I tell you that I've been hearing voices | 0:16:05 | 0:16:08 | |
and I'm not sure what's wrong with me. | 0:16:08 | 0:16:10 | |
Where do we go from there? | 0:16:10 | 0:16:11 | |
So if I'm hearing, I guess, the not so good voices? | 0:16:20 | 0:16:23 | |
A lot of people go to pastors to speak to them when they need help | 0:16:46 | 0:16:48 | |
and there's many pastors that encourage people only to pray | 0:16:48 | 0:16:53 | |
and they keep them away from seeking medical help. | 0:16:53 | 0:16:55 | |
What are your views on that? | 0:16:55 | 0:16:57 | |
I was glad to hear that the pastor draws a line between preaching | 0:17:19 | 0:17:22 | |
and his day job in the NHS. | 0:17:22 | 0:17:25 | |
But if some churches are encouraging unwell people | 0:17:25 | 0:17:27 | |
to stay away from doctors, | 0:17:27 | 0:17:28 | |
that has to be a factor in the black mental health crisis. | 0:17:28 | 0:17:32 | |
If people are warned against getting an early diagnosis and treatment, | 0:17:32 | 0:17:35 | |
their problems will only become more severe. | 0:17:35 | 0:17:37 | |
For the past five years, student Simone has been using prayer | 0:17:40 | 0:17:44 | |
to deal with her mental health issues. | 0:17:44 | 0:17:46 | |
-Hey, Simone. -Hey, how are you? | 0:17:47 | 0:17:49 | |
-I'm not too bad. How are you doing? -I'm good, thank you. | 0:17:49 | 0:17:52 | |
'But now she's visiting a GP to ask for help.' | 0:17:52 | 0:17:55 | |
How are you feeling about today? | 0:17:56 | 0:17:57 | |
I feel like now, | 0:17:57 | 0:18:00 | |
I'll be able to actually... | 0:18:00 | 0:18:02 | |
..speak to someone and know that somebody's actually listening to me. | 0:18:03 | 0:18:06 | |
-Hi. -Hi, Simone. My name's Martin, lovely to meet you. | 0:18:10 | 0:18:13 | |
Nice to meet you, too. | 0:18:13 | 0:18:14 | |
-Have a seat, please. -Nice to meet you. I'm Keith. | 0:18:14 | 0:18:17 | |
-I'll be sitting in with Simone. -Have a seat. | 0:18:17 | 0:18:20 | |
I just thought I'd like to hear it in your own words, if you could, | 0:18:20 | 0:18:23 | |
so just take your time. We've got plenty of time. | 0:18:23 | 0:18:25 | |
It started off in, like, secondary school times. | 0:18:25 | 0:18:28 | |
My education, I wasn't really doing well. | 0:18:28 | 0:18:31 | |
I wasn't really receiving any positive energy from anyone. | 0:18:31 | 0:18:36 | |
When I moved to university, I was having more breakdowns. | 0:18:36 | 0:18:41 | |
I basically just broke down, | 0:18:41 | 0:18:43 | |
I was like, "I don't like how I'm growing up too fast." | 0:18:43 | 0:18:46 | |
You've used the phrase "breakdowns". | 0:18:46 | 0:18:48 | |
Yeah. | 0:18:50 | 0:18:51 | |
What does that mean to you? | 0:18:51 | 0:18:52 | |
I can feel myself breaking down in my head, feeling like... | 0:18:52 | 0:18:56 | |
..I'm not worth it. | 0:18:58 | 0:18:59 | |
My mind is basically attacking my heart and everything | 0:19:01 | 0:19:05 | |
and basically having a battle with myself. | 0:19:05 | 0:19:07 | |
And then I basically just give up and then I'm just like... | 0:19:07 | 0:19:10 | |
I don't know what to do with myself, but the battle's still going on. | 0:19:10 | 0:19:13 | |
What about family at the time? | 0:19:13 | 0:19:15 | |
I didn't really tell them how I felt, because my parents, | 0:19:15 | 0:19:21 | |
I didn't feel like they would understand either, so... | 0:19:21 | 0:19:24 | |
I just left it. | 0:19:24 | 0:19:25 | |
It can be incredibly normal, | 0:19:25 | 0:19:28 | |
and I say that wholeheartedly, to have... | 0:19:28 | 0:19:30 | |
..quite negative thoughts. | 0:19:32 | 0:19:34 | |
By that, I mean thoughts of doing something to harm yourself... | 0:19:34 | 0:19:38 | |
Mm-hm. | 0:19:38 | 0:19:39 | |
..even thoughts of ending your own life. | 0:19:39 | 0:19:42 | |
The question is, have you had those types of thoughts | 0:19:42 | 0:19:45 | |
over the last couple of weeks? | 0:19:45 | 0:19:48 | |
-Not at all? -Mm-mm. -OK. | 0:19:48 | 0:19:50 | |
That was a pretty decisive answer. | 0:19:50 | 0:19:52 | |
OK. | 0:19:52 | 0:19:53 | |
There's a very big, big crossover between depression and anxiety. | 0:19:53 | 0:20:00 | |
It sounds to me like you do have... | 0:20:02 | 0:20:04 | |
..various things that trigger off... | 0:20:06 | 0:20:08 | |
..prolonged episodes of anxiety. | 0:20:09 | 0:20:12 | |
But if there is an element of depression, it's mild, I would say. | 0:20:12 | 0:20:16 | |
A perfect starting point would be | 0:20:16 | 0:20:18 | |
seeing a counsellor or a psychologist | 0:20:18 | 0:20:21 | |
and talking to them about basically what you've spoken to me about, | 0:20:21 | 0:20:25 | |
but in a lot more depth. | 0:20:25 | 0:20:27 | |
What do you think about that? | 0:20:27 | 0:20:29 | |
I feel like it'll be helpful. | 0:20:29 | 0:20:32 | |
By sitting here today and talking to me, you've done the hardest bit. | 0:20:32 | 0:20:36 | |
Thank you so much. | 0:20:36 | 0:20:37 | |
It's a pleasure. | 0:20:37 | 0:20:38 | |
So, what were your thoughts on, you know, | 0:20:40 | 0:20:42 | |
the meeting with the doc today? | 0:20:42 | 0:20:43 | |
He gave me the answers that I needed and I wanted to know. | 0:20:43 | 0:20:47 | |
After what you've gone through today, | 0:20:47 | 0:20:49 | |
do you feel like it would be easier to speak to your family? | 0:20:49 | 0:20:52 | |
I think it's just... | 0:20:52 | 0:20:54 | |
Their reaction is what I'm fearful of. | 0:20:54 | 0:20:57 | |
For Simone, school was where her anxiety attacks first began. | 0:20:59 | 0:21:03 | |
But for me, the trigger was very different. | 0:21:03 | 0:21:06 | |
The majority of my depression was based on my lifestyle. | 0:21:06 | 0:21:11 | |
I was doing a lot of things I wasn't supposed to be doing - | 0:21:11 | 0:21:13 | |
I was chasing money, | 0:21:13 | 0:21:14 | |
I was addicted to, you know, an unsavoury lifestyle, | 0:21:14 | 0:21:17 | |
and with that kind of lifestyle | 0:21:17 | 0:21:18 | |
comes an unsavoury type of people you're around. | 0:21:18 | 0:21:21 | |
You're always thinking, | 0:21:21 | 0:21:24 | |
"When are these people going to do something to me?" | 0:21:24 | 0:21:27 | |
And, you know, living like that's not a nice way... | 0:21:27 | 0:21:29 | |
It's not a nice way to live. | 0:21:29 | 0:21:31 | |
You're anxious all the time, you're paranoid | 0:21:31 | 0:21:34 | |
and I eventually lost all my money. | 0:21:34 | 0:21:37 | |
I went through a point in time where I felt worthless. | 0:21:37 | 0:21:39 | |
I didn't even see a point in living at some point, essentially. | 0:21:40 | 0:21:44 | |
And that's something that I do see in a lot of people like myself. | 0:21:44 | 0:21:47 | |
You know, we attach our self-worth to the wrong kind of things. | 0:21:47 | 0:21:51 | |
I want to find out what we can do to support people like me, | 0:22:00 | 0:22:03 | |
so I'm visiting a local mental health charity. | 0:22:03 | 0:22:05 | |
Do you struggle to bring young black males in? | 0:22:07 | 0:22:10 | |
Yeah, definitely. It's just the fear factor, isn't it? | 0:22:10 | 0:22:12 | |
A lot of people are out in the community unsupported, | 0:22:12 | 0:22:15 | |
which is half of our problem. | 0:22:15 | 0:22:17 | |
Because they're the people that people see in the black community - | 0:22:17 | 0:22:20 | |
unwell, shuffling around, heavily medicated | 0:22:20 | 0:22:23 | |
and not making any kind of journey to wellbeing or recovery. | 0:22:23 | 0:22:27 | |
So obviously why would you want to tell anybody | 0:22:27 | 0:22:30 | |
if you even think that you've got mental health issues? | 0:22:30 | 0:22:33 | |
Cos you're looking at the result of what we do as a society | 0:22:33 | 0:22:35 | |
-when we look after people. -As you know, | 0:22:35 | 0:22:37 | |
us black males think we're 17 times more likely to be diagnosed | 0:22:37 | 0:22:40 | |
with a serious mental health issue. | 0:22:40 | 0:22:43 | |
Why do you think that is, personally? | 0:22:43 | 0:22:45 | |
We keep on putting black communities in rundown, poor, deprived areas, | 0:22:45 | 0:22:50 | |
generation upon generation, | 0:22:50 | 0:22:52 | |
and then expect them to do, what, better than the last generation? | 0:22:52 | 0:22:55 | |
There's something about living in a ghetto | 0:22:55 | 0:22:57 | |
that isn't good for us anyway. | 0:22:57 | 0:22:58 | |
Long before you get to a point where you need specialist services | 0:22:58 | 0:23:02 | |
or need to be sectioned, there's a journey. | 0:23:02 | 0:23:03 | |
You don't wake up one day with mental health. | 0:23:03 | 0:23:06 | |
So that means lots of people in your community | 0:23:06 | 0:23:08 | |
saw you becoming more and more unwell, | 0:23:08 | 0:23:10 | |
whether it's with your anxiety, | 0:23:10 | 0:23:11 | |
with your depression or just with your thoughts, | 0:23:11 | 0:23:14 | |
what's going on in your life. | 0:23:14 | 0:23:15 | |
So somewhere along the line, our communities are failing us, | 0:23:15 | 0:23:18 | |
not just professionals. | 0:23:18 | 0:23:20 | |
Because you only get to a professional | 0:23:20 | 0:23:22 | |
at the point that you're really unwell. | 0:23:22 | 0:23:23 | |
So we need to step up and look after our own communities, | 0:23:23 | 0:23:26 | |
and more people need to get involved in going out | 0:23:26 | 0:23:29 | |
and raising awareness about mental health. | 0:23:29 | 0:23:31 | |
We can mitigate against the urban situations they put us in | 0:23:31 | 0:23:35 | |
if we're aware that that's not good for us. | 0:23:35 | 0:23:38 | |
Lynette wants me to meet her newest recruit, | 0:23:43 | 0:23:47 | |
who's going to be joining the charity as a support worker. | 0:23:47 | 0:23:49 | |
-How are you doing, man? -Yeah, hi. | 0:23:51 | 0:23:53 | |
-I'm Keith. -My name's Ashley. | 0:23:53 | 0:23:55 | |
-Nice to meet you, man. -Yeah, yeah, nice to meet you. | 0:23:55 | 0:23:58 | |
'Like me, 26-year-old Ashley | 0:23:58 | 0:24:00 | |
'has personal experience of mental health problems. | 0:24:00 | 0:24:03 | |
'Five years ago, he was diagnosed with psychosis, | 0:24:03 | 0:24:06 | |
'a condition whose symptoms can include hallucinations | 0:24:06 | 0:24:08 | |
'and paranoia.' | 0:24:08 | 0:24:10 | |
So, yeah, tell me a bit about yourself | 0:24:10 | 0:24:12 | |
and how you got to where you are now. | 0:24:12 | 0:24:14 | |
When I was eight, I went into care. | 0:24:14 | 0:24:16 | |
I stayed in that care home for, like, nearly eight years, | 0:24:16 | 0:24:18 | |
but I weren't getting the love that I needed. | 0:24:18 | 0:24:20 | |
I was still missing those hugs, | 0:24:20 | 0:24:22 | |
all the little things that I didn't get from having my own family. | 0:24:22 | 0:24:25 | |
I think that played a part on my mental state later on in life. | 0:24:27 | 0:24:31 | |
When I was like 18, I went to jail for the first time. | 0:24:31 | 0:24:34 | |
And then, from then, | 0:24:34 | 0:24:35 | |
I went to jail, like, five or six more times, probably, | 0:24:35 | 0:24:39 | |
after that. | 0:24:39 | 0:24:40 | |
Then it's only when I got to... | 0:24:40 | 0:24:42 | |
..21, coming out of jail, I got stabbed. | 0:24:43 | 0:24:47 | |
When I was laying there, I was thinking, "Am I going to die?" | 0:24:47 | 0:24:50 | |
All the things I've done. | 0:24:50 | 0:24:51 | |
"Am I going to go to hell, heaven?" | 0:24:51 | 0:24:53 | |
That was the breaking point, | 0:24:53 | 0:24:55 | |
cos that year I was diagnosed with bipolar. | 0:24:55 | 0:24:57 | |
I had my first psychotic breakdown. | 0:24:57 | 0:24:59 | |
When you were going through psychosis, | 0:24:59 | 0:25:00 | |
what was your story, essentially? | 0:25:00 | 0:25:02 | |
What did you kind of see? | 0:25:02 | 0:25:04 | |
I started thinking I'm a superhero! | 0:25:04 | 0:25:06 | |
And, like, superstitious things. | 0:25:06 | 0:25:09 | |
So when I go into psychosis, | 0:25:09 | 0:25:11 | |
I start going down, like, demons, superheroes, | 0:25:11 | 0:25:14 | |
people with power, supernatural. | 0:25:14 | 0:25:16 | |
And that's where it always takes me, | 0:25:16 | 0:25:18 | |
cos that's the stuff I was interested in before. | 0:25:18 | 0:25:21 | |
And that's what a lot of people don't realise. | 0:25:21 | 0:25:23 | |
They just think psychosis is totally random, but it goes with the person. | 0:25:23 | 0:25:26 | |
So what was your first hospital experience like? | 0:25:26 | 0:25:28 | |
That's probably the worst. | 0:25:28 | 0:25:30 | |
It's awful because I'm put in a place that I don't know about. | 0:25:30 | 0:25:33 | |
There's people ordering me about. | 0:25:33 | 0:25:35 | |
From living life freely to now being told I'm locked away, | 0:25:35 | 0:25:39 | |
I'm not allowed to have exercise, everything. | 0:25:39 | 0:25:42 | |
Getting told everything - when to smoke, when to eat. | 0:25:42 | 0:25:46 | |
So, were you involved in, you know, I guess, drug use, | 0:25:46 | 0:25:49 | |
smoking weed and stuff like that? | 0:25:49 | 0:25:50 | |
And do you think that played a big part in your psychotic break? | 0:25:50 | 0:25:54 | |
That's what I think drugs do. | 0:25:54 | 0:25:56 | |
They take people that are unstable with their thinking | 0:25:56 | 0:25:58 | |
and they make them more unstable, or possibly have a breakdown. | 0:25:58 | 0:26:02 | |
If I was manic, it definitely made me psychotic. | 0:26:02 | 0:26:05 | |
So, I guess this is the best point your life has been | 0:26:05 | 0:26:08 | |
in the last couple of years? | 0:26:08 | 0:26:09 | |
Up till now, it's been a year and a half, roughly, | 0:26:09 | 0:26:11 | |
that I've stayed out of hospital. And, before that, | 0:26:11 | 0:26:14 | |
I was going to hospital every single year, | 0:26:14 | 0:26:16 | |
sometimes twice, three times a year. | 0:26:16 | 0:26:18 | |
It was nice to meet you, man. | 0:26:18 | 0:26:19 | |
And thanks a lot for taking the time... | 0:26:19 | 0:26:20 | |
'He reminds me quite a bit of me, you know? | 0:26:20 | 0:26:24 | |
'We're literally two guys that got caught up in a lot of things | 0:26:24 | 0:26:27 | |
'that we weren't supposed to. | 0:26:27 | 0:26:28 | |
'He got psychotic, I went through depression,' | 0:26:28 | 0:26:31 | |
and I sit there and I think that could have easily been me, you know, | 0:26:31 | 0:26:34 | |
going down a worse route. | 0:26:34 | 0:26:36 | |
I want to check in on another person whose story has struck a chord. | 0:26:39 | 0:26:43 | |
Hey, Simone. | 0:26:43 | 0:26:45 | |
-How are you? -I'm good. How are you? | 0:26:45 | 0:26:47 | |
I'm not too bad. | 0:26:47 | 0:26:48 | |
'Like me, Simone spent many years | 0:26:50 | 0:26:51 | |
'hiding her mental health problems from her family, | 0:26:51 | 0:26:54 | |
'but now she's finally had the courage | 0:26:54 | 0:26:56 | |
'to speak to her mum and dad.' | 0:26:56 | 0:26:57 | |
You've spoken to Mum and Dad. | 0:26:57 | 0:26:59 | |
You know, tell us a bit about how that went. | 0:26:59 | 0:27:01 | |
I expected them, originally, to... | 0:27:01 | 0:27:03 | |
..get a bit ticked off, | 0:27:05 | 0:27:09 | |
but they were quite calm about it. | 0:27:09 | 0:27:11 | |
Do you kind of feel like this is the start of a process, you know, | 0:27:11 | 0:27:13 | |
the start of you kind of talking more about it to them | 0:27:13 | 0:27:17 | |
and hopefully getting it all out into the open eventually? | 0:27:17 | 0:27:20 | |
I think that this will be, like, the start | 0:27:20 | 0:27:22 | |
of me just opening up to them, | 0:27:22 | 0:27:24 | |
and also a way for them to understand. | 0:27:24 | 0:27:28 | |
I know this isn't easy... | 0:27:28 | 0:27:29 | |
-Yeah. -..but you will get through it. | 0:27:29 | 0:27:31 | |
-Yeah. -And it does get easier. | 0:27:31 | 0:27:32 | |
It's true. Like, I'm doing well now, so... | 0:27:32 | 0:27:35 | |
-Yeah. -..it'll get better. | 0:27:35 | 0:27:37 | |
I wish you all the best. | 0:27:37 | 0:27:38 | |
-You too. -Take care. -You take care. | 0:27:38 | 0:27:41 | |
Ashley's also trying to move on from his mental health issues. | 0:27:48 | 0:27:52 | |
-How's it going, man? -Love, man. | 0:27:52 | 0:27:54 | |
Are you ready for it today? | 0:27:54 | 0:27:56 | |
Yeah, I'm ready to start. Yeah, good to go. | 0:27:56 | 0:27:59 | |
-After you. -Yeah, let's go upstairs. -All right. | 0:27:59 | 0:28:01 | |
'It's a big day for him, | 0:28:01 | 0:28:02 | |
'he's starting his new job at the charity.' | 0:28:02 | 0:28:04 | |
It's my desk, bruv! | 0:28:04 | 0:28:06 | |
It's my desk! | 0:28:08 | 0:28:10 | |
Look at that. | 0:28:10 | 0:28:11 | |
My table. MY table! | 0:28:11 | 0:28:13 | |
ASHLEY LAUGHS | 0:28:13 | 0:28:15 | |
So, do you think, I guess, people like yourself, me, | 0:28:15 | 0:28:18 | |
we're the people that are going to change society's view, you know, | 0:28:18 | 0:28:22 | |
our community's view on mental health? | 0:28:22 | 0:28:25 | |
I just want to help with the knowledge that I've got. | 0:28:25 | 0:28:28 | |
But the way I see it is I can only help one, two, three, | 0:28:28 | 0:28:31 | |
four people at a time. The most I can do. | 0:28:31 | 0:28:33 | |
Like, I can only help as many people as I can help. | 0:28:33 | 0:28:35 | |
But the way it's going to change... Like I said, | 0:28:35 | 0:28:38 | |
it's not going to change from individuals like ourselves, | 0:28:38 | 0:28:41 | |
it's young black males that are living...normal already. | 0:28:41 | 0:28:45 | |
They're the ones who are getting judged. | 0:28:45 | 0:28:46 | |
So we're not the ones to change it, | 0:28:46 | 0:28:48 | |
it's for other people to change their opinions. | 0:28:48 | 0:28:50 | |
And the only way that's going to happen, like I said, | 0:28:50 | 0:28:52 | |
is by everyone jumping on board. | 0:28:52 | 0:28:54 | |
Best of luck, man. | 0:28:54 | 0:28:55 | |
Thanks for letting me come along on your journey | 0:28:55 | 0:28:57 | |
and see how everything's going. | 0:28:57 | 0:28:58 | |
I wish you the best for the future, man. | 0:28:58 | 0:29:00 | |
Yeah, thank you very much, man. Thanks for everything, Keith. | 0:29:00 | 0:29:03 | |
Love, bro, thank you very much. | 0:29:03 | 0:29:05 | |
We need more people like Ashley | 0:29:05 | 0:29:07 | |
to show that you can go from a very bad situation | 0:29:07 | 0:29:09 | |
with your mental health | 0:29:09 | 0:29:10 | |
to having a job where you help other people. | 0:29:10 | 0:29:14 | |
It was an interesting journey, you know what I mean, to see... | 0:29:14 | 0:29:17 | |
..someone like Ashley, someone like myself, you know what I mean, | 0:29:18 | 0:29:22 | |
who's gone through a lot... | 0:29:22 | 0:29:24 | |
..who has definitely gone through a lot, | 0:29:25 | 0:29:27 | |
coming to a point where great things are happening for him. | 0:29:27 | 0:29:30 | |
So I wouldn't say the journey's ending, you know what I mean, | 0:29:30 | 0:29:33 | |
it's just the beginning. | 0:29:33 | 0:29:34 | |
The last few months have been... | 0:29:39 | 0:29:40 | |
It's been a real eye-opener for me, you know what I mean. | 0:29:40 | 0:29:43 | |
'I've met a lot of wonderful people.' | 0:29:43 | 0:29:44 | |
-It was very nice to meet you. -Take care. | 0:29:44 | 0:29:46 | |
'It's a privilege that they were willing | 0:29:46 | 0:29:48 | |
'to share their intimate experiences with me.' | 0:29:48 | 0:29:50 | |
-How's it going, man? -Love, man. | 0:29:50 | 0:29:53 | |
'As you dig deeper into it,' | 0:29:53 | 0:29:54 | |
you start to realise it's a complex issue with multiple causes. | 0:29:54 | 0:29:58 | |
I hate to use the word racism, | 0:30:01 | 0:30:02 | |
but the authorities aren't getting it right all the time | 0:30:02 | 0:30:05 | |
and a lot of black people are getting treated differently | 0:30:05 | 0:30:07 | |
and that has to change, | 0:30:07 | 0:30:08 | |
because it is, really... It's disgraceful. | 0:30:08 | 0:30:10 | |
But within our communities, | 0:30:13 | 0:30:14 | |
we have to be a lot more supportive of our own people. | 0:30:14 | 0:30:17 | |
We need to drop the taboo. | 0:30:17 | 0:30:18 | |
It's not a dirty little secret. | 0:30:18 | 0:30:19 | |
You know, and if you or a family member | 0:30:19 | 0:30:21 | |
is going through mental health issues, | 0:30:21 | 0:30:23 | |
you know, you need to drop the shame. | 0:30:23 | 0:30:25 | |
And those churches that see everything as a spiritual problem | 0:30:26 | 0:30:29 | |
and they encourage people not to seek medical help, | 0:30:29 | 0:30:31 | |
they need to grow up. | 0:30:31 | 0:30:32 | |
So what can we do about this? | 0:30:34 | 0:30:35 | |
We can start talking about it more. | 0:30:35 | 0:30:37 | |
You know, start a conversation - that's something I'm good at. | 0:30:37 | 0:30:39 | |
Getting people to think about things differently, that's what we need. | 0:30:39 | 0:30:42 | |
We're not going to solve the problems of the system | 0:30:42 | 0:30:45 | |
overnight, but if we do talk about these things, | 0:30:45 | 0:30:47 | |
that's the beginning. | 0:30:47 | 0:30:48 | |
And what I want to do is send out a tweet, #blackmentalhealth, | 0:30:50 | 0:30:53 | |
get everyone talking about it, because that's what worked for me. | 0:30:53 | 0:30:56 | |
And I'm hoping that this does get people thinking | 0:30:56 | 0:30:58 | |
and it does help people realise that this isn't a dirty little secret, | 0:30:58 | 0:31:02 | |
it's something that a lot of people go through | 0:31:02 | 0:31:04 | |
and you could go through it yourself. | 0:31:04 | 0:31:06 |