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As many days of the year as possible, I begin here. | 0:00:11 | 0:00:14 | |
Other than constant chatter in my head, | 0:00:15 | 0:00:18 | |
it's a time that is largely language-free. | 0:00:18 | 0:00:20 | |
If, that is, it is ever possible to be language-free. | 0:00:21 | 0:00:25 | |
In 2011, my brother-in-law, Dennis, had a stroke that significantly | 0:00:28 | 0:00:33 | |
affected his ability to use language - | 0:00:33 | 0:00:36 | |
particularly cruel for a man whose living had been as a journalist, | 0:00:36 | 0:00:40 | |
a writer. | 0:00:40 | 0:00:41 | |
Until Dennis had his stroke, | 0:00:54 | 0:00:56 | |
I hadn't realised just how common aphasia is. | 0:00:56 | 0:01:00 | |
Dennis had joined the ranks of over a third of a million people living | 0:01:00 | 0:01:03 | |
in the UK whose language, to some degree, has gone missing - | 0:01:03 | 0:01:08 | |
the vast majority the result of stroke. | 0:01:08 | 0:01:11 | |
People like Barry. | 0:01:13 | 0:01:14 | |
I...need...some...help. | 0:01:14 | 0:01:19 | |
And Junior. | 0:01:19 | 0:01:20 | |
I'm anxious about language. | 0:01:20 | 0:01:23 | |
-You're anxious? -Yes. | 0:01:23 | 0:01:25 | |
Two men who know what it is to live in a world where a sudden storm in | 0:01:25 | 0:01:28 | |
the brain has left them unable to rely on what is the invisible | 0:01:28 | 0:01:32 | |
mainstay of life - language. | 0:01:32 | 0:01:34 | |
This is a film about language and its loss, | 0:01:38 | 0:01:41 | |
about aphasia and about the organ that controls it all. | 0:01:41 | 0:01:45 | |
Queen's Square in London and the National Hospital for Neurology | 0:01:56 | 0:02:00 | |
and Neurosurgery. | 0:02:00 | 0:02:01 | |
Everything that goes on behind these walls is about the brain. | 0:02:04 | 0:02:08 | |
In February 2017, I meet Barry, | 0:02:11 | 0:02:14 | |
an inpatient on the hospital's neuro-rehab unit. | 0:02:14 | 0:02:17 | |
Barry has been in hospital every day since a devastating stroke | 0:02:19 | 0:02:22 | |
four months earlier. | 0:02:22 | 0:02:24 | |
Once a gym-loving fitness fanatic, | 0:02:25 | 0:02:27 | |
he now finds himself in a wheelchair barely able to use the right-hand | 0:02:27 | 0:02:32 | |
side of his body, | 0:02:32 | 0:02:34 | |
and barely able to speak. | 0:02:34 | 0:02:35 | |
He's now halfway through a stay on the rehab unit that's intended to | 0:02:37 | 0:02:41 | |
help him back into the world. | 0:02:41 | 0:02:42 | |
So we did talk about this earlier in the team meeting. | 0:02:45 | 0:02:48 | |
-Yes. -We were talking about... | 0:02:48 | 0:02:49 | |
..thinking about making a visit home. | 0:02:51 | 0:02:54 | |
-Yes. -Do you want to talk about that? | 0:02:54 | 0:02:56 | |
Months, months. | 0:02:59 | 0:03:01 | |
Three months. | 0:03:01 | 0:03:02 | |
You haven't been home in three months? | 0:03:03 | 0:03:05 | |
-Four months. -Four months. | 0:03:06 | 0:03:08 | |
Four months. | 0:03:08 | 0:03:10 | |
Four months. | 0:03:10 | 0:03:11 | |
Do you mean it's four months since the stroke? | 0:03:11 | 0:03:15 | |
-Yes. -Or you're not due to go home... | 0:03:15 | 0:03:17 | |
..for four months? | 0:03:19 | 0:03:21 | |
-Ah... -Since the stroke? | 0:03:21 | 0:03:23 | |
Four months. | 0:03:24 | 0:03:25 | |
Four...months. | 0:03:28 | 0:03:30 | |
Four months haven't | 0:03:31 | 0:03:36 | |
go home. | 0:03:36 | 0:03:39 | |
You haven't been home in four months? | 0:03:39 | 0:03:40 | |
Yes. Yes. | 0:03:40 | 0:03:42 | |
-It's a long time. -Ah... | 0:03:42 | 0:03:44 | |
Are you looking forward to going home? | 0:03:44 | 0:03:46 | |
-No. -No. | 0:03:46 | 0:03:48 | |
Why not? | 0:03:48 | 0:03:49 | |
-Are you scared? -Yeah. | 0:03:50 | 0:03:51 | |
Yeah. What makes you frightened? | 0:03:51 | 0:03:53 | |
Four months. Four months. | 0:03:57 | 0:04:00 | |
Four months. | 0:04:00 | 0:04:03 | |
So this is the CT scan, | 0:04:03 | 0:04:05 | |
so the Cat scan that was performed on Barry when he was initially | 0:04:05 | 0:04:09 | |
admitted to Watford General Hospital. | 0:04:09 | 0:04:12 | |
So in this scan the white areas, the bright white is bone. | 0:04:12 | 0:04:17 | |
And what you can see here are Barry's eyes and his nose. | 0:04:17 | 0:04:20 | |
And it is immediately apparent, is it, that there's a lot of... | 0:04:20 | 0:04:22 | |
-I couldn't see it terribly clearly that there is a lot of damage. -OK. | 0:04:22 | 0:04:25 | |
So that's the initial scan. | 0:04:27 | 0:04:28 | |
OK. | 0:04:31 | 0:04:32 | |
This is the normal side of the brain, the right side. | 0:04:32 | 0:04:35 | |
-Yeah. -And this darker bit... | 0:04:35 | 0:04:38 | |
..is what we call kind of the low density. | 0:04:39 | 0:04:43 | |
So it's much darker. | 0:04:43 | 0:04:44 | |
This is all the affected area of the brain here. | 0:04:44 | 0:04:47 | |
So, basically, the brain tissue, | 0:04:47 | 0:04:48 | |
when the blood supply has been cut off, the brain tissue dies. | 0:04:48 | 0:04:52 | |
This is the brain of a man in his 70s who died of a cancer-related death, | 0:05:06 | 0:05:11 | |
so it's essentially, from a neuropathological perspective, a normal brain. | 0:05:11 | 0:05:14 | |
The vast majority of the brain is the cerebrum, | 0:05:16 | 0:05:19 | |
which is divided into left and right cerebral hemispheres. | 0:05:19 | 0:05:23 | |
So when you're looking from the outside of the brain, what you are | 0:05:23 | 0:05:25 | |
seeing, really, is the cerebral cortex. | 0:05:25 | 0:05:27 | |
So different areas of the cerebral cortex | 0:05:27 | 0:05:32 | |
are involved in different functions, different neurological functions, | 0:05:32 | 0:05:36 | |
so the area I've marked in blue at the back of the temporal lobe | 0:05:36 | 0:05:39 | |
is Wernicke's area, | 0:05:39 | 0:05:41 | |
and that's an area that's important in the comprehension of language. | 0:05:41 | 0:05:44 | |
The other important speech area, which I've marked in red here, | 0:05:44 | 0:05:48 | |
is at the bottom of the frontal lobe, the left frontal lobe. | 0:05:48 | 0:05:51 | |
That is called Broca's area, and that's responsible for the | 0:05:51 | 0:05:54 | |
production and planning of speech. | 0:05:54 | 0:05:57 | |
So in the vast majority of people, | 0:05:57 | 0:05:59 | |
language areas are entirely on the left hemisphere. | 0:05:59 | 0:06:02 | |
What do you understand language to be? | 0:06:09 | 0:06:11 | |
I would say language is something that's almost completely uniquely | 0:06:11 | 0:06:16 | |
human and it's one of the things that has enabled us | 0:06:16 | 0:06:19 | |
to do so well as a species. | 0:06:19 | 0:06:21 | |
And the reason for that, I think, | 0:06:21 | 0:06:22 | |
is because it allows us to model the world. | 0:06:22 | 0:06:26 | |
So how can we plan for something that we're going to do next Wednesday | 0:06:27 | 0:06:31 | |
if we don't have language? So "next Wednesday" allows us to talk about a | 0:06:31 | 0:06:34 | |
specific potential event forward in time and without language we can't | 0:06:34 | 0:06:39 | |
really do that. We can have a concept of time and a concept of things | 0:06:39 | 0:06:43 | |
happening in the future or the past, and I suspect other animals do that, | 0:06:43 | 0:06:45 | |
but for precise planning, we really need language. | 0:06:45 | 0:06:48 | |
And language is a form of abstraction. | 0:06:48 | 0:06:51 | |
It's a way of abstracting the world and getting control of it. | 0:06:51 | 0:06:56 | |
Barry, 55 years old - still young for a stroke. | 0:06:58 | 0:07:03 | |
Why had it happened? The frightening thing is that it wasn't fully clear. | 0:07:04 | 0:07:09 | |
The only certainty is that for this landlord and father of three | 0:07:09 | 0:07:13 | |
grown-up children, married to his childhood sweetheart, Linda, | 0:07:13 | 0:07:17 | |
life has been dramatically knocked off course. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:19 | |
Now Barry is living alongside other men and women recovering from a | 0:07:22 | 0:07:26 | |
variety of neurological conditions, | 0:07:26 | 0:07:28 | |
their days divided between therapies and family visits. | 0:07:28 | 0:07:32 | |
Barry, what's your favourite biscuits? | 0:07:33 | 0:07:36 | |
-Jammie Dodgers? -Yeah. | 0:07:36 | 0:07:38 | |
Linda visits most afternoons, | 0:07:39 | 0:07:42 | |
often bringing cake and biscuits to share with the other patients. | 0:07:42 | 0:07:45 | |
One day, she tells the story of Barry's stroke, | 0:07:46 | 0:07:50 | |
describing how an ordinary working day had ended with the whole family | 0:07:50 | 0:07:53 | |
concerned that Barry had not come home. | 0:07:53 | 0:07:56 | |
Jess was calling all the hospitals. | 0:07:56 | 0:07:59 | |
She thought maybe you'd been in an accident and they hadn't identified | 0:07:59 | 0:08:02 | |
you. So Jess was on the phone all night. | 0:08:02 | 0:08:04 | |
Sam calling, calling all night all the hospitals. | 0:08:04 | 0:08:08 | |
So then, at about 7.30 in the morning, | 0:08:08 | 0:08:10 | |
Sam called a private detective and he was able to tell us roughly the | 0:08:10 | 0:08:15 | |
vicinity where your phone was. | 0:08:15 | 0:08:17 | |
So Ben and Sam jumped in Ben's car and went towards Borehamwood, | 0:08:18 | 0:08:24 | |
where your phone was. | 0:08:24 | 0:08:26 | |
Jess and Tammy went down the A1 and Tammy said, "Stop, stop! | 0:08:26 | 0:08:32 | |
"I think that's my daddy's van." | 0:08:32 | 0:08:34 | |
And Tammy ran back down the A1 and found you. | 0:08:35 | 0:08:39 | |
-Oh! -And then she called the ambulance. | 0:08:39 | 0:08:41 | |
We've estimated you were maybe 12, 15 hours in the van. | 0:08:41 | 0:08:45 | |
Ten. Ten hours. | 0:08:46 | 0:08:50 | |
Ten hours. | 0:08:50 | 0:08:52 | |
-What's ten hours? -In a van? | 0:08:54 | 0:08:57 | |
Yeah. Oh... | 0:08:57 | 0:09:00 | |
Do you remember being in the van, Barry? | 0:09:05 | 0:09:07 | |
No. | 0:09:07 | 0:09:09 | |
It's good you don't remember that. It's better. | 0:09:09 | 0:09:12 | |
I worked hard to... | 0:09:18 | 0:09:19 | |
..accept what had happened... | 0:09:21 | 0:09:24 | |
..but I couldn't really do that until I got over the shock, | 0:09:26 | 0:09:28 | |
the shock of him being in the van on his own all night, | 0:09:28 | 0:09:31 | |
the shock of him having the stroke. | 0:09:31 | 0:09:33 | |
Then I worked on accepting the situation it put him and myself... | 0:09:33 | 0:09:37 | |
..and our children. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:41 | |
Barry was always a real people's person, full of life. | 0:09:41 | 0:09:45 | |
A bit of a lad. I just think... | 0:09:46 | 0:09:49 | |
..at times he must feel very lonely, very isolated. | 0:09:50 | 0:09:55 | |
Not fully understanding what one is saying. | 0:09:57 | 0:10:00 | |
Not being able to join in the conversation. | 0:10:00 | 0:10:03 | |
So, for me, that's the biggest challenge. | 0:10:07 | 0:10:10 | |
-COMMENTATOR: -It's a flick on from Junior Agogo. It's Richard Walker. | 0:10:15 | 0:10:18 | |
Can he find Ryan Williams? He does! It's Agogo! | 0:10:18 | 0:10:20 | |
Surely! It is! | 0:10:20 | 0:10:23 | |
This is Junior Agogo, | 0:10:23 | 0:10:25 | |
former Premier League footballer and former patient on the neuro-rehab unit. | 0:10:25 | 0:10:30 | |
Great ball to Agogo. What a goal! | 0:10:30 | 0:10:33 | |
Junior had had a stroke in January 2015 when he was just 36 years old, | 0:10:33 | 0:10:39 | |
two years after ending his football career. | 0:10:39 | 0:10:41 | |
Today, he lives in London with his dog, Blanket, and his mother, Jeannie. | 0:10:44 | 0:10:48 | |
The flat is a shrine to his football days. | 0:10:50 | 0:10:52 | |
He's made a good physical recovery from his stroke, | 0:10:53 | 0:10:56 | |
but he still struggles greatly with the impact that it's had | 0:10:56 | 0:10:58 | |
on his language. | 0:10:58 | 0:11:00 | |
Do you remember how long it was before Junior was able to speak again? | 0:11:01 | 0:11:05 | |
I think it's after... It's after a year. | 0:11:05 | 0:11:08 | |
-No, no, no. -No, after six months, sorry. | 0:11:08 | 0:11:10 | |
No, no, no. After three months. | 0:11:10 | 0:11:13 | |
Was it? No, no, no, three months, the first word you said was... | 0:11:13 | 0:11:17 | |
-BOTH: -"Fucking hell." -Yeah, yeah. -"Fucking hell." | 0:11:17 | 0:11:21 | |
And I said, "Don't be swearing!" | 0:11:21 | 0:11:23 | |
Then the second one was... | 0:11:23 | 0:11:25 | |
There were some things that he was saying and I couldn't understand | 0:11:25 | 0:11:28 | |
what it was. He was trying, he was struggling, you know? | 0:11:28 | 0:11:32 | |
I think it was after six months that you started... The speech started coming out. | 0:11:32 | 0:11:36 | |
-Yeah, yeah. -When he started doing his speech therapy. | 0:11:36 | 0:11:39 | |
Did they find out why you had a stroke? | 0:11:39 | 0:11:40 | |
-No. -No, they still can't, you know... -No. | 0:11:40 | 0:11:44 | |
But... | 0:11:44 | 0:11:45 | |
I'm alive, I'm well. | 0:11:45 | 0:11:48 | |
-Let's see what... -Yeah, but deep down in your heart, | 0:11:50 | 0:11:53 | |
there is something bothering you. | 0:11:53 | 0:11:55 | |
-Yes, yes, yes. -Yeah? | 0:11:55 | 0:11:56 | |
OK, look, let's get on to my football days, yeah? | 0:11:56 | 0:12:01 | |
HE LAUGHS | 0:12:01 | 0:12:03 | |
-Oh, God! -Yeah! | 0:12:03 | 0:12:05 | |
So, where are we here? | 0:12:05 | 0:12:07 | |
This one was Barnet. | 0:12:07 | 0:12:08 | |
Barnet. | 0:12:08 | 0:12:10 | |
That's Nottingham. | 0:12:10 | 0:12:12 | |
Nottingham. Bristol. | 0:12:12 | 0:12:14 | |
-There's Ghana. -Yeah, Ghana, as well. | 0:12:15 | 0:12:18 | |
Ghana? How many times did you play for Ghana? | 0:12:18 | 0:12:20 | |
27 times. | 0:12:20 | 0:12:22 | |
Wow! How many years did you play for? | 0:12:22 | 0:12:25 | |
For 17 years. | 0:12:25 | 0:12:27 | |
-At the very top level? -Yeah, yeah, yeah. | 0:12:28 | 0:12:30 | |
Come on. | 0:12:30 | 0:12:32 | |
-This is the Hall of Fame, is it? -Yeah. | 0:12:32 | 0:12:34 | |
This one. | 0:12:34 | 0:12:35 | |
-Michael Essien. -Yeah. -Chelsea. -Yeah. | 0:12:36 | 0:12:38 | |
Yeah. | 0:12:40 | 0:12:41 | |
Samuel Eto'o. | 0:12:42 | 0:12:44 | |
-Oh, right. -Didier Drogba. | 0:12:44 | 0:12:46 | |
Wow, Drogba. Are these guys you're in touch with? | 0:12:46 | 0:12:51 | |
Um, now, nobody gets in touch with me. | 0:12:51 | 0:12:55 | |
LAUGHTER | 0:12:55 | 0:12:56 | |
-Really? -Yeah. | 0:12:56 | 0:12:58 | |
Do you think that's because... Is that you, because you're not getting | 0:12:58 | 0:13:01 | |
-in touch with them? -I don't know, man, | 0:13:01 | 0:13:03 | |
because I used to talk with a couple of boys in the national team, | 0:13:03 | 0:13:10 | |
but when the stroke happened, they all said, "No". | 0:13:10 | 0:13:15 | |
How do you know that? Do you mean they said "No", | 0:13:15 | 0:13:17 | |
-or you stopped talking to them? -Because I couldn't speak. | 0:13:17 | 0:13:21 | |
-Yeah? -Yeah. | 0:13:21 | 0:13:23 | |
Yeah, Blanket! | 0:13:25 | 0:13:28 | |
Blanquito, out. | 0:13:28 | 0:13:30 | |
Are you still struggling to find words, | 0:13:30 | 0:13:32 | |
or are you just not putting yourself in a position where you use them | 0:13:32 | 0:13:35 | |
because you're anxious about language because of what happened to you? | 0:13:35 | 0:13:39 | |
Yeah, yeah. I'm anxious about language. | 0:13:39 | 0:13:42 | |
-You're anxious. -Yes. | 0:13:42 | 0:13:44 | |
What about finding the words and stuff? | 0:13:45 | 0:13:47 | |
-Are you able to...? -No, no, I can find the words, but I'm anxious | 0:13:47 | 0:13:53 | |
to... Because I am anxious if I get the word wrong. | 0:13:53 | 0:13:57 | |
Does that happen often? | 0:13:59 | 0:14:01 | |
-Oh, many times. -Yeah. | 0:14:01 | 0:14:02 | |
He's just struggling to bring out that word, | 0:14:02 | 0:14:05 | |
that particular word he wants to say, and that word is not | 0:14:05 | 0:14:09 | |
coming out, you know? So that's also... | 0:14:09 | 0:14:13 | |
I want to speak like you three. | 0:14:13 | 0:14:16 | |
-Um-hm. -Yeah. | 0:14:16 | 0:14:19 | |
Yeah. | 0:14:19 | 0:14:20 | |
That's all. | 0:14:20 | 0:14:22 | |
That's all. | 0:14:22 | 0:14:23 | |
It seemed to me that Junior's language is pretty good. | 0:14:25 | 0:14:29 | |
He can describe his world, present and past. | 0:14:29 | 0:14:32 | |
But he of course doesn't see it like that. | 0:14:34 | 0:14:36 | |
He is living with an acute sense of loss. | 0:14:37 | 0:14:39 | |
Four months after his stroke, | 0:14:43 | 0:14:45 | |
Barry has none of Junior's admittedly hesitant fluency. | 0:14:45 | 0:14:48 | |
One day, so that Barry's speech therapist Jonathan might know him better, | 0:14:50 | 0:14:55 | |
Linda brings in a DVD of a BBC programme, Homes Under The Hammer, | 0:14:55 | 0:14:59 | |
in which Barry had appeared some years before. | 0:14:59 | 0:15:02 | |
There he is. | 0:15:04 | 0:15:06 | |
-LUCY ALEXANDER: -The new owners are brothers Barry and Tony. | 0:15:06 | 0:15:09 | |
They like to buy houses that need some TLC and bring them back to life. | 0:15:09 | 0:15:13 | |
Part of the appeal for Barry was the location. | 0:15:13 | 0:15:16 | |
Barry, where is your shirt? | 0:15:16 | 0:15:18 | |
All right, hang on a minute. | 0:15:22 | 0:15:24 | |
Can I just pause? | 0:15:25 | 0:15:26 | |
Barry, You look so different. | 0:15:26 | 0:15:28 | |
You've got dreadlocks. | 0:15:28 | 0:15:31 | |
And no top on. | 0:15:31 | 0:15:32 | |
LAUGHTER | 0:15:32 | 0:15:34 | |
It must have been warm. | 0:15:38 | 0:15:39 | |
Yes, yes. | 0:15:39 | 0:15:41 | |
So I want to know all about you. | 0:15:41 | 0:15:43 | |
Well, I spent 25 years with a big plc. | 0:15:43 | 0:15:47 | |
And I managed to get made redundant four years ago. | 0:15:47 | 0:15:50 | |
And that was an opportunity. | 0:15:50 | 0:15:52 | |
It was an opportunity to do what I'm doing now. Having spent many years | 0:15:52 | 0:15:56 | |
with a big company, working my 12 hours a day, short hair, suit, | 0:15:56 | 0:16:00 | |
-I can now do what I want. -You've gone mad. | 0:16:00 | 0:16:03 | |
I mean, look at me, I can do what I want, which is great. And I'm delighted I'm doing what I'm doing. | 0:16:03 | 0:16:07 | |
I wish I'd done it ten years earlier. | 0:16:07 | 0:16:09 | |
-You are a landlord? -I am a landlord, yes. | 0:16:09 | 0:16:12 | |
What type of landlord are you, then? | 0:16:12 | 0:16:13 | |
As my wife would say, I'm a very soft landlord. | 0:16:13 | 0:16:16 | |
I'm too easy-going. I believe, in life, if you're courteous with | 0:16:16 | 0:16:19 | |
people, if you're fair with people, they reciprocate. It goes both ways. | 0:16:19 | 0:16:23 | |
Can I pause it? | 0:16:23 | 0:16:24 | |
I really got a sense of you as quite a bubbly character. | 0:16:26 | 0:16:29 | |
Yeah. Yeah. | 0:16:29 | 0:16:31 | |
And you were really talking lots and lots and lots. | 0:16:31 | 0:16:35 | |
Yes, yes, yes. | 0:16:36 | 0:16:39 | |
I... | 0:16:39 | 0:16:40 | |
That was fun... | 0:16:41 | 0:16:46 | |
So your talking was really clear. | 0:16:48 | 0:16:50 | |
-Yeah? -Yeah. | 0:16:52 | 0:16:54 | |
-Yeah. -The other part of you as a landlord, | 0:16:54 | 0:16:57 | |
you said to be courteous to people. | 0:16:57 | 0:16:58 | |
-Yes. -So there's something about you and your communication that is very | 0:16:58 | 0:17:04 | |
fair, courteous. | 0:17:04 | 0:17:06 | |
Yes. Yes. | 0:17:06 | 0:17:07 | |
-Yes. -We notice that now, | 0:17:07 | 0:17:10 | |
we still notice that you have that... | 0:17:10 | 0:17:13 | |
..sort of value of courtesy. | 0:17:15 | 0:17:16 | |
Yes, yes, yes. | 0:17:16 | 0:17:18 | |
Even though you have got aphasia. | 0:17:18 | 0:17:22 | |
No. | 0:17:22 | 0:17:23 | |
Thirsty... | 0:17:27 | 0:17:30 | |
-Courtesy. -Kirsty. -Mm-hm. | 0:17:33 | 0:17:36 | |
That... | 0:17:39 | 0:17:40 | |
Oh! | 0:17:42 | 0:17:43 | |
Brains have been around for a very, very long time. | 0:17:58 | 0:18:01 | |
Human language, possibly as little as 100,000 or 200,000 years. | 0:18:01 | 0:18:05 | |
So the view is it must have somehow been grafted onto brain regions that | 0:18:05 | 0:18:09 | |
were already there. And if we look at some of those brain regions, | 0:18:09 | 0:18:12 | |
those areas of the brain, we know do other things anyway. | 0:18:12 | 0:18:15 | |
So the frontal part of the brain is to do with... | 0:18:15 | 0:18:17 | |
..decision-making, memory. | 0:18:18 | 0:18:21 | |
For instance, we have a verbal working memory, | 0:18:22 | 0:18:24 | |
which seems to involve certain parts of the brain quite similar to, | 0:18:24 | 0:18:28 | |
very close to, or identical with language areas. | 0:18:28 | 0:18:31 | |
So it's possible, in the extreme view, | 0:18:31 | 0:18:34 | |
that there is no such thing as a purely language part of the brain. | 0:18:34 | 0:18:37 | |
Now I've sliced the brain, | 0:18:39 | 0:18:41 | |
you can see the left side here where the red ink is... | 0:18:41 | 0:18:43 | |
..is the Broca's speech area. | 0:18:45 | 0:18:46 | |
Where a lesion there - a stroke or a tumour, for example - | 0:18:48 | 0:18:51 | |
may cause an expressive aphasia, | 0:18:51 | 0:18:55 | |
where they knew what they wanted to say, they could comprehend language, | 0:18:55 | 0:18:59 | |
but they struggled to get the words out. | 0:18:59 | 0:19:02 | |
You can see further back, where the blue ink is, that's the Wernicke area. | 0:19:03 | 0:19:08 | |
A stroke there, for example, would cause receptive aphasia, | 0:19:08 | 0:19:11 | |
where the sufferer can speak fluently | 0:19:11 | 0:19:14 | |
but often devoid of any meaning. | 0:19:14 | 0:19:16 | |
So I have here slices of a different brain. | 0:19:19 | 0:19:22 | |
You can see... | 0:19:22 | 0:19:23 | |
..in this area here, in the inferior frontal lobe, | 0:19:25 | 0:19:29 | |
at this level there is an old cavity there, | 0:19:29 | 0:19:32 | |
which is an old stroke or cerebral infarct. | 0:19:32 | 0:19:35 | |
So, it's literally a hole, yeah. | 0:19:35 | 0:19:36 | |
So the blood flowing to that part of the brain will have been cut off | 0:19:36 | 0:19:40 | |
and that part of the brain will have died. | 0:19:40 | 0:19:42 | |
So this patient may have had an expressive aphasia during life | 0:19:42 | 0:19:48 | |
where they know what they want to say, but they can't get the words out. | 0:19:48 | 0:19:51 | |
The modern view is that language is instantiated within the brain as a | 0:19:53 | 0:19:57 | |
network of key nodes and that's probably why people can improve with | 0:19:57 | 0:20:03 | |
therapy, because if there was just one region that did one job and | 0:20:03 | 0:20:07 | |
nothing else, if that bit becomes damaged, how can anything take over? | 0:20:07 | 0:20:12 | |
It's not possible, it's gone. | 0:20:12 | 0:20:14 | |
Unless you grow a new bit of brain. | 0:20:14 | 0:20:16 | |
Whilst the brain is changing all the time - it's a dynamic environment - | 0:20:16 | 0:20:19 | |
it doesn't seem like you can grow a new brain any more than you can grow | 0:20:19 | 0:20:22 | |
a new finger. But if we think of language function, | 0:20:22 | 0:20:25 | |
if it's shared across multiple regions with multiple connections and there's damage to that network, | 0:20:25 | 0:20:29 | |
that gives us some hope that therapy could work, because with a bit of | 0:20:29 | 0:20:33 | |
experience-dependent learning we can perhaps retrain the brain | 0:20:33 | 0:20:37 | |
to learn. | 0:20:37 | 0:20:38 | |
Retraining Barry's brain to improve his communication is the business | 0:20:40 | 0:20:44 | |
of the speech and language therapists on the neuro-rehab unit. | 0:20:44 | 0:20:47 | |
Do you know any good strikers, then? | 0:20:47 | 0:20:50 | |
Rooney. | 0:20:50 | 0:20:52 | |
Sometimes Barry's sessions with Jonathan focus on straightforward | 0:20:52 | 0:20:55 | |
conversation, the give and take that underpins all relationships. | 0:20:55 | 0:21:00 | |
-He's a striker? -Yes. -All right. Tell me that. | 0:21:00 | 0:21:02 | |
-So... -Wayne Rooney... -Is a... | 0:21:02 | 0:21:07 | |
Striker. | 0:21:07 | 0:21:09 | |
Right. | 0:21:09 | 0:21:10 | |
Who does he play for? | 0:21:11 | 0:21:13 | |
Erm... W... No, no, no. | 0:21:13 | 0:21:17 | |
Ma... No, no, no. | 0:21:18 | 0:21:20 | |
However effortful and fractured the conversation, | 0:21:20 | 0:21:24 | |
it's still possible and meaningful. | 0:21:24 | 0:21:27 | |
And Barry's identity, the Barry-ness of Barry, | 0:21:27 | 0:21:30 | |
seems to transcend language. | 0:21:30 | 0:21:32 | |
Manchester United. | 0:21:32 | 0:21:35 | |
United. | 0:21:36 | 0:21:37 | |
-Manchester United. -Yes. | 0:21:38 | 0:21:40 | |
OK. | 0:21:41 | 0:21:42 | |
-So... -Oh! | 0:21:43 | 0:21:45 | |
Other sessions with Jonathan can feel more like a linguistic | 0:21:46 | 0:21:50 | |
boot camp, in which Barry's given very specific language drills. | 0:21:50 | 0:21:54 | |
-Jacket. -With me... | 0:21:54 | 0:21:56 | |
-BOTH: -Where's my jacket? | 0:21:58 | 0:22:01 | |
When, for example, you ask him to repeat phrases, | 0:22:01 | 0:22:05 | |
are you... | 0:22:05 | 0:22:08 | |
just trying to give him, like, a kind of card he can carry | 0:22:08 | 0:22:11 | |
so he can answer that, he can use that as a useful sentence in social situations, | 0:22:11 | 0:22:16 | |
or is the act of repeating and repeating and repeating | 0:22:16 | 0:22:19 | |
somehow fixing a broken bit of his brain? | 0:22:19 | 0:22:23 | |
I think we know that with the therapy that we're doing, | 0:22:23 | 0:22:27 | |
what we're trying to achieve is generate neuro-plasticity, | 0:22:27 | 0:22:32 | |
so the areas that are functioning in the brain that are still working for | 0:22:32 | 0:22:35 | |
Barry, we're really trying to target and we're really trying to get to | 0:22:35 | 0:22:40 | |
work better and compensate for the area that's been really damaged. | 0:22:40 | 0:22:44 | |
So with exercises like the repetition, | 0:22:45 | 0:22:47 | |
or with exercises like looking at pictures and hearing a sentence | 0:22:47 | 0:22:51 | |
and trying to understand the meaning of that, | 0:22:51 | 0:22:55 | |
we're working towards activating areas around the damaged area. | 0:22:55 | 0:23:00 | |
I...need...some...help. | 0:23:00 | 0:23:04 | |
Yeah? | 0:23:04 | 0:23:06 | |
I...need...some...help. | 0:23:06 | 0:23:12 | |
-Good. -You're using most of your brain all the time, | 0:23:12 | 0:23:15 | |
you can't afford to have any spare bits doing nothing, | 0:23:15 | 0:23:19 | |
but we've mentioned how the brain is a network and when you've got networks, | 0:23:19 | 0:23:23 | |
it means you've got the potential to re-channel, so it's a simple analogy, | 0:23:23 | 0:23:27 | |
but I think it's a reasonable one. If you think of a metro network like the London Underground and you take | 0:23:27 | 0:23:33 | |
out King's Cross, a major node in that network, | 0:23:33 | 0:23:37 | |
you say, "Well, is the whole thing going to come to a halt?" | 0:23:37 | 0:23:40 | |
Initially, of course, there'll be all sorts of problems, | 0:23:40 | 0:23:42 | |
but over time and with a bit of help, you could bypass. | 0:23:42 | 0:23:46 | |
You're going to have to change here, here and here, whereas you would only have changed once. | 0:23:46 | 0:23:50 | |
And I personally think that happens a lot with language. | 0:23:50 | 0:23:53 | |
I think that's mainly what we're doing in terms of neuro-plasticity. | 0:23:53 | 0:23:56 | |
The brain's plasticity is related to its age. | 0:24:01 | 0:24:04 | |
The younger it is, the more it can adapt to new circumstances. | 0:24:04 | 0:24:08 | |
Junior had youth on his side in his impressive recovery. | 0:24:09 | 0:24:13 | |
That and the fact that, unlike Barry, | 0:24:13 | 0:24:15 | |
he was brought quickly to hospital. | 0:24:15 | 0:24:17 | |
In the world of neurology, they say "time is brain". | 0:24:19 | 0:24:23 | |
For every hour without treatment, | 0:24:23 | 0:24:25 | |
a stroke-affected brain ages by more than three and a half years. | 0:24:25 | 0:24:29 | |
Junior was in hospital within 60 minutes of the onset of his symptoms | 0:24:31 | 0:24:35 | |
and was given medication to dissolve the clot which was also physically | 0:24:35 | 0:24:39 | |
removed from his brain. | 0:24:39 | 0:24:40 | |
What happened on the day you had the stroke? | 0:24:44 | 0:24:47 | |
I know you don't remember it all, but can you kind of take us through what happened? | 0:24:47 | 0:24:50 | |
I was running with my dog, I was coming back home | 0:24:52 | 0:24:57 | |
and... | 0:24:57 | 0:24:58 | |
DOG WHIMPERS | 0:24:58 | 0:25:01 | |
..I was near the Marriott Hotel... | 0:25:01 | 0:25:04 | |
-Shut up. -..and the stroke happened. | 0:25:04 | 0:25:06 | |
-Shut up. -And when I got up, I was in hospital... | 0:25:06 | 0:25:10 | |
..with my mum saying that I couldn't speak. | 0:25:11 | 0:25:15 | |
I was... | 0:25:17 | 0:25:18 | |
I was in a bad way. | 0:25:18 | 0:25:20 | |
-Yeah? -Mmm. | 0:25:21 | 0:25:23 | |
But now, I'm doing OK, but... | 0:25:25 | 0:25:27 | |
-..yeah. -Just came out of the blue? | 0:25:28 | 0:25:31 | |
-Yeah. -No warning? | 0:25:31 | 0:25:33 | |
-No. -No, I don't think so. | 0:25:33 | 0:25:37 | |
I thought you said you had a blackout, you felt dizzy. | 0:25:37 | 0:25:40 | |
Yeah, no, no, no, I felt dizzy. | 0:25:40 | 0:25:43 | |
But I was thinking that... | 0:25:43 | 0:25:46 | |
..I've not eaten. | 0:25:47 | 0:25:48 | |
-Oh, OK. -Yeah. | 0:25:48 | 0:25:50 | |
-On the day. -Yeah. | 0:25:50 | 0:25:52 | |
Cos I run in the morning... | 0:25:52 | 0:25:54 | |
..at five, no... | 0:25:55 | 0:25:56 | |
-..five o'clock. -Was Blanket actually with you when you had the stroke? | 0:25:58 | 0:26:01 | |
-Yeah. -What did he do? | 0:26:01 | 0:26:04 | |
-He ran home? -No, no, no, no, he came to my... | 0:26:04 | 0:26:08 | |
He went on my test. | 0:26:08 | 0:26:09 | |
-Chest. -Chest. | 0:26:09 | 0:26:11 | |
Yeah. | 0:26:11 | 0:26:13 | |
Actually, the ambulance, the lady that treated him, | 0:26:13 | 0:26:19 | |
said Blanket was sitting on his chest and Blanket didn't want anyone to touch him. | 0:26:19 | 0:26:24 | |
So, like, if they wanted to take off his clothes, he was barking. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:29 | |
When you woke up, you came round, can you remember what you were thinking? | 0:26:31 | 0:26:35 | |
Cos you couldn't speak - could you not have thoughts? | 0:26:35 | 0:26:38 | |
Yeah, I had thoughts. | 0:26:38 | 0:26:40 | |
But I'm saying that, "Where is my voice?" | 0:26:40 | 0:26:44 | |
I was baffled, man. | 0:26:45 | 0:26:47 | |
Could you understand what people were saying to you? | 0:26:49 | 0:26:51 | |
Yes, yes, yeah. | 0:26:51 | 0:26:54 | |
But I was thinking, like, "Where is my voice?" | 0:26:54 | 0:26:57 | |
I cannot speak. | 0:26:58 | 0:26:59 | |
Were you able to sort of have kind of conversations in your head? | 0:27:03 | 0:27:06 | |
Were you able to kind of form in your mind what you wanted to say? | 0:27:06 | 0:27:11 | |
Yeah. | 0:27:11 | 0:27:12 | |
Yeah. But it was mad, man. | 0:27:14 | 0:27:18 | |
Because I could think it, but I couldn't say it. | 0:27:18 | 0:27:22 | |
And it was mad. | 0:27:23 | 0:27:24 | |
Do you think a big part of the next challenge is your confidence? | 0:27:27 | 0:27:30 | |
Yeah. | 0:27:30 | 0:27:32 | |
I haven't got any confidence. | 0:27:33 | 0:27:36 | |
-You've lost that. -Yeah, yeah. | 0:27:36 | 0:27:39 | |
But it's OK. | 0:27:39 | 0:27:40 | |
Did you tend to hide away, or...? | 0:27:40 | 0:27:42 | |
Yeah. | 0:27:42 | 0:27:43 | |
But that's life. | 0:27:48 | 0:27:50 | |
Junior's stroke seemed to haunt him. | 0:27:56 | 0:27:59 | |
His mother said that sometimes he spent whole days in bed, | 0:27:59 | 0:28:03 | |
avoiding the risk of being in situations where his language | 0:28:03 | 0:28:06 | |
might let him down. | 0:28:06 | 0:28:07 | |
Do you make chicken soup? | 0:28:11 | 0:28:13 | |
Yes. | 0:28:13 | 0:28:14 | |
It's quite... It's quite nice, but it's not very difficult. | 0:28:15 | 0:28:18 | |
It's not something that's... It's quite easy to do. | 0:28:18 | 0:28:21 | |
Chicken soup. | 0:28:21 | 0:28:23 | |
-Chicken soup. -Am I right? | 0:28:23 | 0:28:26 | |
Chicken soup. | 0:28:26 | 0:28:27 | |
For Barry, his world since his stroke is dominated by the here and now, | 0:28:27 | 0:28:32 | |
his days divided between various therapies preparing him for the | 0:28:32 | 0:28:36 | |
ultimate goal of a return to life at home. | 0:28:36 | 0:28:39 | |
There's occupational therapy with Shauna, | 0:28:41 | 0:28:44 | |
his key worker helping him with all aspects of practical daily life. | 0:28:44 | 0:28:48 | |
Well done, yeah, that's OK. Bring your hand in. | 0:28:48 | 0:28:51 | |
Physiotherapy is with Ellen, working to get Barry back on his feet. | 0:28:55 | 0:29:00 | |
-Thank you. -Can you still breathe? | 0:29:00 | 0:29:02 | |
-No. Yeah. -Yes. | 0:29:02 | 0:29:04 | |
-Can you still breathe? -Yes. -Good. | 0:29:04 | 0:29:06 | |
Left, right, left, right foot, left foot, right foot. | 0:29:07 | 0:29:14 | |
And most weeks, Barry has a session with the unit's | 0:29:14 | 0:29:17 | |
neuropsychologist, Sherilyn. | 0:29:17 | 0:29:20 | |
It's her role to help Barry with his emotional life, | 0:29:20 | 0:29:23 | |
especially his anxiety about returning home. | 0:29:23 | 0:29:26 | |
Who's going to be at home tomorrow? | 0:29:26 | 0:29:28 | |
-I don't know. -Cos Linda's in Spain, isn't she? | 0:29:28 | 0:29:31 | |
-Yes. -Do you still have a house key? | 0:29:31 | 0:29:33 | |
Yes. | 0:29:35 | 0:29:36 | |
Wowee! | 0:29:36 | 0:29:38 | |
Home seems to hover over everything. | 0:29:38 | 0:29:41 | |
Sometimes, the prospect appears to excite Barry, but mostly, | 0:29:41 | 0:29:45 | |
it fills him with dread. | 0:29:45 | 0:29:46 | |
And then, if you feel comfortable, we will drive up to here. | 0:29:46 | 0:29:50 | |
He'd made it clear that he was worried that with his | 0:29:50 | 0:29:52 | |
language problems, he couldn't call for help. | 0:29:52 | 0:29:55 | |
But it feels deeper than that. | 0:29:55 | 0:29:56 | |
A series of home visits are planned by Barry's team. | 0:29:57 | 0:30:00 | |
Photos and videos of his house are shown to him to try and reduce his anxiety. | 0:30:00 | 0:30:06 | |
Is this a room that you would sit in a lot? | 0:30:06 | 0:30:08 | |
-I don't know. -OK. | 0:30:08 | 0:30:09 | |
I don't know. | 0:30:09 | 0:30:12 | |
Are you trying to say to us that you're not sure how you're going to | 0:30:12 | 0:30:14 | |
feel about this? | 0:30:14 | 0:30:17 | |
I don't know. I don't know. | 0:30:17 | 0:30:21 | |
-It's been a while, hasn't it? -I don't know. | 0:30:23 | 0:30:26 | |
OK, shall we look at another picture, Barry? | 0:30:29 | 0:30:31 | |
-What's this one? -Bathroom. | 0:30:32 | 0:30:36 | |
Have things changed much? | 0:30:36 | 0:30:37 | |
Yes. Yes. | 0:30:39 | 0:30:42 | |
In the house or with you? | 0:30:42 | 0:30:43 | |
Erm... | 0:30:45 | 0:30:46 | |
-Both. -Does it still feel like your house? | 0:30:47 | 0:30:52 | |
No. | 0:30:52 | 0:30:53 | |
Yeah. | 0:30:54 | 0:30:56 | |
But we'll do this in small stages until you feel comfortable, | 0:30:56 | 0:30:59 | |
until you get used to it and then until it starts feeling more like | 0:30:59 | 0:31:03 | |
your home. | 0:31:03 | 0:31:05 | |
-You're doing really well. -No, no. | 0:31:05 | 0:31:07 | |
No, no, these things will be difficult, Barry, they will. | 0:31:07 | 0:31:11 | |
But this is the best way to do it, | 0:31:12 | 0:31:14 | |
rather than just take you there and leave you. | 0:31:14 | 0:31:17 | |
To deal with it, the anxiety. | 0:31:18 | 0:31:20 | |
This is a nice, gradual way for you to get used to seeing it again. | 0:31:20 | 0:31:25 | |
For you to connect again with your home. | 0:31:25 | 0:31:27 | |
Oh. | 0:31:29 | 0:31:30 | |
Barry, I think this plan of going there and experiencing what it feels | 0:31:34 | 0:31:39 | |
like to be there will be really helpful for you. | 0:31:39 | 0:31:43 | |
-Thank you. -Yeah. -You're not going to do it on your own. -Yeah. | 0:31:43 | 0:31:46 | |
Oh... | 0:31:48 | 0:31:50 | |
-Ready for another one? -Yes. | 0:31:50 | 0:31:51 | |
-Go on, then. -I'm going to show you the outside of the van first. | 0:31:51 | 0:31:54 | |
Are you ready? | 0:31:54 | 0:31:55 | |
Linda said that you loved this van almost more than her. | 0:31:58 | 0:32:01 | |
Is that true? | 0:32:03 | 0:32:04 | |
Yeah. | 0:32:04 | 0:32:05 | |
She's got a lot to compete with, hasn't she? | 0:32:07 | 0:32:09 | |
That van... | 0:32:11 | 0:32:14 | |
-Happy. -Happy. | 0:32:14 | 0:32:16 | |
Happy, lucky, seven days a week. | 0:32:16 | 0:32:20 | |
-Seven days a week you'd be in that van. -Yeah. | 0:32:20 | 0:32:23 | |
No wonder Linda thinks you love it more than she does. | 0:32:23 | 0:32:27 | |
P, Q, R... | 0:32:29 | 0:32:31 | |
Now you're just doing the alphabet. | 0:32:31 | 0:32:33 | |
-Michael's going to bring you up, OK? -Thank you. | 0:32:36 | 0:32:39 | |
-Oh. -How are you feeling about this? | 0:32:45 | 0:32:47 | |
I don't know whether... | 0:32:48 | 0:32:52 | |
I... Confused. | 0:32:52 | 0:32:53 | |
-Confused. -You're feeling confused? | 0:32:55 | 0:32:59 | |
Yes. | 0:32:59 | 0:33:00 | |
-One minute. -OK. | 0:33:16 | 0:33:17 | |
Can we just drive up quite slowly, Mike? | 0:33:23 | 0:33:25 | |
-Is that OK? -Just drive past quite slowly. OK. So we're just going to drive slowly past. | 0:33:25 | 0:33:31 | |
-No. -Yeah. -No. | 0:33:31 | 0:33:34 | |
-That one there. -That one there. | 0:33:34 | 0:33:37 | |
That one there. | 0:33:37 | 0:33:38 | |
OK. | 0:33:38 | 0:33:40 | |
Yeah, ready, steady... | 0:33:51 | 0:33:54 | |
It's all right. | 0:33:56 | 0:33:57 | |
OK. So just look around slowly. | 0:34:03 | 0:34:06 | |
Those pictures of your kids up on the mantelpiece. | 0:34:07 | 0:34:10 | |
OK. | 0:34:14 | 0:34:15 | |
Yep. All up there. Lots of pictures, aren't there? | 0:34:16 | 0:34:20 | |
-Uh. -Three kids. Yeah, lovely. | 0:34:20 | 0:34:24 | |
Are you happy to sit here for a while? | 0:34:24 | 0:34:26 | |
-No, no, no. -Or do you want to go somewhere else? | 0:34:26 | 0:34:29 | |
-I don't know. -Remember we said that you might be happy in the kitchen? | 0:34:29 | 0:34:33 | |
Oh. | 0:34:39 | 0:34:40 | |
Oh. | 0:34:42 | 0:34:43 | |
OK. | 0:34:50 | 0:34:51 | |
Look at this one. | 0:34:58 | 0:35:00 | |
Oh. | 0:35:01 | 0:35:02 | |
I don't know whether... | 0:35:07 | 0:35:10 | |
It's a lovely photo, isn't it? | 0:35:13 | 0:35:15 | |
Is it after you got married? | 0:35:18 | 0:35:20 | |
You've got a ring on the finger there. | 0:35:20 | 0:35:22 | |
Yeah. OK. | 0:35:28 | 0:35:29 | |
And then more photos up here. | 0:35:34 | 0:35:36 | |
These look like photos of parents. | 0:35:36 | 0:35:38 | |
-Yeah. -Yeah. | 0:35:38 | 0:35:39 | |
Is that... Is that you? | 0:35:41 | 0:35:42 | |
-Yes. -Oh! | 0:35:42 | 0:35:43 | |
Is that you and your brother? | 0:35:43 | 0:35:45 | |
-Yeah. -Oh, and you had a dog, as well. | 0:35:45 | 0:35:47 | |
Do you want to leave, Barry? | 0:35:49 | 0:35:51 | |
Do you want to leave? | 0:35:51 | 0:35:53 | |
-Yes. -You want to leave. | 0:35:53 | 0:35:55 | |
-Yes. -All right. | 0:35:55 | 0:35:58 | |
-Back to the ambulance. -Thank you. -OK. | 0:35:58 | 0:36:00 | |
Aphasia is sometimes described as an invisible disability. | 0:36:05 | 0:36:09 | |
It's only when you talk to someone that you might know it's there. | 0:36:09 | 0:36:13 | |
And it's only by talking or trying to talk that a person with aphasia | 0:36:13 | 0:36:17 | |
can make any degree of recovery. | 0:36:17 | 0:36:20 | |
"Use it or lose it," | 0:36:20 | 0:36:22 | |
I was constantly told by the neurologists and therapists. | 0:36:22 | 0:36:25 | |
Two years after his stroke, Junior's still struggling with this. | 0:36:26 | 0:36:30 | |
He makes occasional visits to the neuro-rehab unit to discuss his | 0:36:31 | 0:36:35 | |
progress with consultant speech and language therapist Jax. | 0:36:35 | 0:36:39 | |
How has your week been? | 0:36:39 | 0:36:41 | |
My week hasn't been too good. | 0:36:41 | 0:36:44 | |
Why? | 0:36:44 | 0:36:45 | |
Because the stroke, man. | 0:36:47 | 0:36:50 | |
I know that it's for the rest of my life, yeah. | 0:36:50 | 0:36:54 | |
-Yeah. -But it's getting me down a bit. | 0:36:54 | 0:36:58 | |
Who do you talk to about that? | 0:36:58 | 0:36:59 | |
No-one. | 0:37:01 | 0:37:02 | |
So he had his stroke two years ago. | 0:37:03 | 0:37:05 | |
Presented with severe aphasia. | 0:37:05 | 0:37:07 | |
It was difficult to assess him cos his language was so impaired. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:11 | |
Was he speaking at all? | 0:37:11 | 0:37:13 | |
Not at the beginning, he wasn't speaking at all at the beginning. | 0:37:13 | 0:37:16 | |
When I first saw him, he couldn't say anything at all. | 0:37:16 | 0:37:18 | |
But started to make quite a... | 0:37:20 | 0:37:23 | |
..quick recovery in the early stages | 0:37:24 | 0:37:26 | |
of some words, some gestures. | 0:37:26 | 0:37:28 | |
But it's been much slower in the last year. | 0:37:28 | 0:37:31 | |
Is that because of the area of the brain that's been damaged, | 0:37:31 | 0:37:34 | |
or is that because of his approach to the problem that he now faces? | 0:37:34 | 0:37:38 | |
I think it's both. I think it's a psycho-social adjustment to the | 0:37:38 | 0:37:41 | |
level he's at. It's about who you are, how you want to move forward. | 0:37:41 | 0:37:46 | |
You know, some people with a level of language as Junior might do more, | 0:37:46 | 0:37:52 | |
some people might do much less. | 0:37:52 | 0:37:54 | |
But he doesn't go outside his safety zone at the moment. | 0:37:54 | 0:37:58 | |
Your aphasia isn't the thing that's really stopping you doing these | 0:37:58 | 0:38:02 | |
things any more, your aphasia's... | 0:38:02 | 0:38:04 | |
You're good. | 0:38:04 | 0:38:06 | |
Am I good? | 0:38:06 | 0:38:08 | |
-Yeah. -But you see it, but why doesn't other people see it? | 0:38:08 | 0:38:13 | |
-See what? -That I'm good. | 0:38:13 | 0:38:16 | |
Do you behave differently, less confident? | 0:38:17 | 0:38:19 | |
-Yeah. -Yeah. | 0:38:19 | 0:38:21 | |
So in this room, you're quite confident, aren't you? | 0:38:21 | 0:38:23 | |
Yeah. Do you remember... | 0:38:25 | 0:38:27 | |
-Why is that? -Why do you think? | 0:38:27 | 0:38:29 | |
But I know you? | 0:38:29 | 0:38:31 | |
But when I spoke to... | 0:38:31 | 0:38:33 | |
You don't like being judged. | 0:38:33 | 0:38:34 | |
-Yes. -You don't like your communication being judged, do you? | 0:38:34 | 0:38:37 | |
Yeah. | 0:38:37 | 0:38:38 | |
-But I was... -But no-one likes that, being judged on their communication. | 0:38:38 | 0:38:42 | |
No, of course. No, of course they don't. | 0:38:42 | 0:38:45 | |
Of course they don't. With me, you, other people here, | 0:38:45 | 0:38:51 | |
he communicates really quite well, | 0:38:51 | 0:38:53 | |
in the moment, functionally, ably, | 0:38:53 | 0:38:56 | |
and socially, to some degree. | 0:38:56 | 0:38:58 | |
But beyond that, | 0:38:58 | 0:39:00 | |
he doesn't have the free flow of language to communicate his needs, | 0:39:00 | 0:39:05 | |
his thoughts. | 0:39:05 | 0:39:06 | |
-But is that...? -It's a concern. | 0:39:07 | 0:39:08 | |
But if he's having trouble having thoughts... | 0:39:08 | 0:39:11 | |
-..is that because he can't...? -He says he doesn't have. | 0:39:12 | 0:39:15 | |
But does he need language to have thoughts? | 0:39:15 | 0:39:18 | |
Well, that's... That's the million-dollar question. | 0:39:18 | 0:39:20 | |
Some patients claim that they just really have a problem with word-finding. | 0:39:23 | 0:39:28 | |
They feel like it's about this gap between having ideas and then | 0:39:28 | 0:39:31 | |
having the words to express them. | 0:39:31 | 0:39:33 | |
They just can't grab the words in order to spit them out to tell them | 0:39:33 | 0:39:36 | |
to you. And in that case, | 0:39:36 | 0:39:38 | |
you can almost think of them as someone who is language-locked-in, | 0:39:38 | 0:39:41 | |
so that inside their head, | 0:39:41 | 0:39:43 | |
everyday language is going on relatively normally. | 0:39:43 | 0:39:46 | |
But when they want to communicate with you and find those language | 0:39:46 | 0:39:49 | |
tokens and spit them out as speech, they can't do it. | 0:39:49 | 0:39:52 | |
I'm not sure how common that happens. | 0:39:52 | 0:39:54 | |
I think there's a bit of a halfway house where if your word-finding | 0:39:54 | 0:39:57 | |
difficulties are bad enough, you will also... | 0:39:57 | 0:39:59 | |
Certain ideas are hard to grasp, as well, | 0:39:59 | 0:40:02 | |
because you just cannot hold certain abstract ideas in your mind if you | 0:40:02 | 0:40:05 | |
haven't got those language tokens... | 0:40:05 | 0:40:07 | |
..as sort of placeholders. | 0:40:08 | 0:40:09 | |
But we can almost judge from behaviour, | 0:40:12 | 0:40:13 | |
so patients with aphasia have not lost knowledge of the world, | 0:40:13 | 0:40:18 | |
they do not have what we call a semantic problem with the world. | 0:40:18 | 0:40:21 | |
They may make what we call semantic errors, so when they want to say dog, they may come out with cat, | 0:40:21 | 0:40:25 | |
but that is a sort of language error. | 0:40:25 | 0:40:27 | |
They know what a dog is, they know what a cat is, they know who you | 0:40:27 | 0:40:30 | |
are, they know who they are, they know everything around them. | 0:40:30 | 0:40:32 | |
So they don't have a problem with understanding the world, | 0:40:32 | 0:40:35 | |
but they have a problem with the language aspects, | 0:40:35 | 0:40:38 | |
the way of understanding the world in a more abstract level. | 0:40:38 | 0:40:40 | |
It seemed to me that Junior's discomfort in the world in a sense | 0:40:46 | 0:40:49 | |
confirms his understanding of the world and the situation that he | 0:40:49 | 0:40:53 | |
finds himself in with his aphasia. | 0:40:53 | 0:40:55 | |
-Hello, Daddy. -She's videoing you. | 0:40:58 | 0:41:01 | |
My brother-in-law's aphasia was very different. | 0:41:01 | 0:41:04 | |
-Hello. -Dennis' stroke had been like a sniper attack on his language only, | 0:41:04 | 0:41:09 | |
sparing his mobility, | 0:41:09 | 0:41:10 | |
but leaving him speaking a sort of colourful gibberish, | 0:41:10 | 0:41:13 | |
with all the rise and fall of meaning, | 0:41:13 | 0:41:16 | |
but none of the actual sense, | 0:41:16 | 0:41:18 | |
at least not to anyone else. | 0:41:18 | 0:41:20 | |
Dennis, can you say something for the camera? | 0:41:20 | 0:41:23 | |
Say something, make a speech. | 0:41:23 | 0:41:25 | |
Hello. | 0:41:25 | 0:41:27 | |
UNINTELLIGIBLE WORDS | 0:41:27 | 0:41:30 | |
LAUGHTER | 0:41:30 | 0:41:32 | |
It wasn't ever entirely clear - | 0:41:35 | 0:41:38 | |
did Dennis think he was making sense and we were not? | 0:41:38 | 0:41:42 | |
Did he understand others from their words or from their actions and gestures? | 0:41:42 | 0:41:46 | |
Dennis lived like this for four years until his death. | 0:41:48 | 0:41:51 | |
It must have been isolating, lonely, | 0:41:51 | 0:41:54 | |
despite being at home with those he loved. | 0:41:54 | 0:41:57 | |
Is it nearly lunchtime? | 0:41:59 | 0:42:01 | |
In the weeks after Barry's first home visit, | 0:42:07 | 0:42:09 | |
his mood declines dramatically. | 0:42:09 | 0:42:11 | |
He seems to withdraw from the world, | 0:42:14 | 0:42:16 | |
as if the home visit had been a sort of statement of all that he's lost, | 0:42:16 | 0:42:20 | |
something too much to bear. | 0:42:20 | 0:42:22 | |
Barry, I'm going to do your hair. | 0:42:22 | 0:42:25 | |
Even with his closest friend, Barry seems to shut down. | 0:42:25 | 0:42:29 | |
Barry, do I look funny with glasses? | 0:42:29 | 0:42:31 | |
Yeah. | 0:42:31 | 0:42:32 | |
I'm quite nervous doing your hair, by the way. | 0:42:37 | 0:42:40 | |
It's very tricky, you know. | 0:42:40 | 0:42:42 | |
Very tricky, Barry. | 0:42:42 | 0:42:43 | |
-OK? -It's hard to know what's going on in Barry's head. | 0:42:45 | 0:42:49 | |
It must be exhausting, forever hunting for that | 0:42:50 | 0:42:53 | |
tip-of-the-tongue thing when you can't quite | 0:42:53 | 0:42:56 | |
get to the word, the name or the place | 0:42:56 | 0:42:58 | |
that you know is in there somewhere. If only. | 0:42:58 | 0:43:01 | |
And I'd heard that one patient with aphasia had described his thoughts | 0:43:03 | 0:43:07 | |
as sticky, as though the inner chitchat of daily thinking | 0:43:07 | 0:43:11 | |
got constantly snagged on its way out into the world. | 0:43:11 | 0:43:14 | |
This is true friendship. | 0:43:14 | 0:43:16 | |
It's been a pleasure. | 0:43:16 | 0:43:18 | |
I'm going to take this off. | 0:43:18 | 0:43:20 | |
How long have you two guys known each other? | 0:43:20 | 0:43:22 | |
Barry, how long have we known each other? | 0:43:24 | 0:43:27 | |
Barry. | 0:43:27 | 0:43:28 | |
How long have you known me? | 0:43:28 | 0:43:30 | |
How long have you known me, Barry? | 0:43:32 | 0:43:34 | |
Ten years? | 0:43:35 | 0:43:36 | |
-22 years. -22 years, yeah, move forward a bit. | 0:43:38 | 0:43:42 | |
22 years, roughly. | 0:43:42 | 0:43:44 | |
All right. | 0:43:44 | 0:43:45 | |
I'll clean you up, don't worry. | 0:43:47 | 0:43:50 | |
You happy? OK. | 0:43:50 | 0:43:51 | |
OK. Give me two minutes, I'll just finish it. | 0:43:53 | 0:43:56 | |
How are you? | 0:44:09 | 0:44:10 | |
How are you feeling in yourself? | 0:44:12 | 0:44:14 | |
I hear it's been a hard week. | 0:44:16 | 0:44:17 | |
Yeah? | 0:44:19 | 0:44:20 | |
I know that when you come closer to going home, it gets difficult. | 0:44:24 | 0:44:31 | |
OK. But when you go home, you will have more support, | 0:44:31 | 0:44:36 | |
there will be more therapists from the community. | 0:44:36 | 0:44:39 | |
OK? Six months here is a long time. | 0:44:40 | 0:44:43 | |
It's good to get home because you won't need to be in a hospital, | 0:44:43 | 0:44:49 | |
you'll need to be at home with people coming to you, | 0:44:49 | 0:44:53 | |
you know, doing the things you want to do in your house. | 0:44:53 | 0:44:56 | |
OK? | 0:44:56 | 0:44:58 | |
Because here, it's not home. | 0:44:58 | 0:45:00 | |
You know? | 0:45:00 | 0:45:01 | |
But you will still have ongoing... | 0:45:03 | 0:45:05 | |
..rehabilitation, OK? | 0:45:06 | 0:45:08 | |
It doesn't stop when you leave us. | 0:45:08 | 0:45:10 | |
Yeah? | 0:45:11 | 0:45:13 | |
OK. | 0:45:17 | 0:45:18 | |
So when I see Barry on his own in the day room, sitting there, | 0:45:20 | 0:45:23 | |
is his head sort of in conversation, or is it a blank space? | 0:45:23 | 0:45:26 | |
Erm... | 0:45:27 | 0:45:29 | |
-Or we don't know? -Who can know? | 0:45:29 | 0:45:31 | |
He can't tell us, so everything is... | 0:45:31 | 0:45:33 | |
..an assumption, really. | 0:45:35 | 0:45:36 | |
You know, it's very difficult, you know, | 0:45:36 | 0:45:38 | |
if somebody is not able to write and is not able to speak, | 0:45:38 | 0:45:44 | |
it's very difficult to know exactly what's going on. | 0:45:44 | 0:45:46 | |
We can ask whether he has a word in his head, you know, | 0:45:47 | 0:45:51 | |
but he can't get it out, or he's searching for a word. | 0:45:51 | 0:45:54 | |
It's very difficult to drive that down. | 0:45:54 | 0:45:56 | |
I would imagine | 0:45:56 | 0:45:58 | |
there's a lot of activity there - whether it's with words, | 0:45:58 | 0:46:01 | |
it's difficult to say for him. | 0:46:01 | 0:46:03 | |
But we are aware he is significantly cognitively impaired, as well. | 0:46:03 | 0:46:07 | |
His ability to process things, | 0:46:07 | 0:46:09 | |
the speed with which he kind of works through things and generates | 0:46:09 | 0:46:13 | |
an output has been impacted on. | 0:46:13 | 0:46:15 | |
You would have trouble understanding your place in the world if you lived | 0:46:24 | 0:46:27 | |
on a desert island and had nobody to talk to, | 0:46:27 | 0:46:29 | |
so when you discuss things with people, your ideas change. | 0:46:29 | 0:46:31 | |
That's the whole point. | 0:46:31 | 0:46:33 | |
The other thing I'd say is that language is social. | 0:46:33 | 0:46:36 | |
I mean, Wittgenstein tells us that and I think he's right. | 0:46:36 | 0:46:38 | |
So there's no such thing as a private language, there's no... | 0:46:38 | 0:46:41 | |
There's no utility to a private language, there's no point in it. | 0:46:41 | 0:46:44 | |
I'm not sure I fully understand that. | 0:46:44 | 0:46:46 | |
Is that the notion that language only exists for social interaction? | 0:46:46 | 0:46:51 | |
So we may all have a different, or slightly different, perception of | 0:46:51 | 0:46:56 | |
red, or what we would call red. I mean, this is a classical argument. | 0:46:56 | 0:47:00 | |
How do I know that the red you're seeing is the red I'm seeing? | 0:47:00 | 0:47:03 | |
At some level, we'll never know that, because that's to do with perception. | 0:47:03 | 0:47:06 | |
But as soon as we give it a label, and we call it red, that's when we | 0:47:06 | 0:47:09 | |
start discussing it and it becomes a thing for both of us. | 0:47:09 | 0:47:12 | |
And we know that we've got a shared object or subject that we're talking | 0:47:12 | 0:47:16 | |
about, and that's really what Wittgenstein meant when he said | 0:47:16 | 0:47:18 | |
there's no such thing as a private language. | 0:47:18 | 0:47:21 | |
Sorry, Barry, just giving your leg a bit of a stretch. | 0:47:21 | 0:47:24 | |
So, Barry, if I wanted to buy in south London... | 0:47:27 | 0:47:29 | |
-Yeah. -..what area would you recommend me to buy? | 0:47:29 | 0:47:32 | |
-Leytonstone. -What about South London? | 0:47:32 | 0:47:36 | |
-Clapham. -Clapham? | 0:47:36 | 0:47:38 | |
-Yeah. -That's expensive. | 0:47:38 | 0:47:40 | |
Not for my budget, I don't think. | 0:47:40 | 0:47:42 | |
-Lewisham. -Lewisham. | 0:47:42 | 0:47:44 | |
OK. Catford area, around there? | 0:47:44 | 0:47:46 | |
-Maybe. -Yeah. | 0:47:46 | 0:47:48 | |
£800,000. | 0:47:50 | 0:47:54 | |
-£800,000? -Yeah. | 0:47:54 | 0:47:56 | |
Yeah, I don't have that kind of money, | 0:47:56 | 0:47:57 | |
I don't think I've got a deposit to put on that. | 0:47:57 | 0:48:02 | |
I'm going to have to move out of London, Barry. | 0:48:02 | 0:48:05 | |
Yes. Yes. | 0:48:05 | 0:48:07 | |
Good. Better. | 0:48:10 | 0:48:12 | |
OK. | 0:48:14 | 0:48:16 | |
-You all right? -Yes. | 0:48:16 | 0:48:17 | |
So we're going to do some walking on that leg. | 0:48:17 | 0:48:20 | |
-Yes. -OK. Off we go. | 0:48:20 | 0:48:21 | |
Right, bigger steps. You OK? | 0:48:24 | 0:48:26 | |
-Yes. -OK. Bigger step on the right. | 0:48:26 | 0:48:29 | |
Big step. | 0:48:29 | 0:48:31 | |
Good. Now, a bit faster. | 0:48:31 | 0:48:33 | |
That's it. Bigger step on that leg. | 0:48:39 | 0:48:42 | |
For both Barry and Junior - for everyone with aphasia - | 0:48:42 | 0:48:46 | |
it seems that being able to be in the world with depleted language | 0:48:46 | 0:48:49 | |
is the most essential, but also the hardest task of all. | 0:48:49 | 0:48:53 | |
What have you been up to? | 0:48:57 | 0:48:59 | |
Now? | 0:48:59 | 0:49:01 | |
No, since I last saw you. | 0:49:01 | 0:49:03 | |
Since I last saw you? | 0:49:03 | 0:49:05 | |
I went to the cinema... | 0:49:07 | 0:49:09 | |
..this weekend. | 0:49:11 | 0:49:13 | |
I saw Fast And Furious 8. | 0:49:13 | 0:49:15 | |
It was good, man. | 0:49:17 | 0:49:18 | |
But this... | 0:49:20 | 0:49:22 | |
Vin Diesel has got to stop acting in Fast And Furious. | 0:49:22 | 0:49:28 | |
He's done it eight times, man. | 0:49:28 | 0:49:31 | |
Yeah. | 0:49:33 | 0:49:34 | |
Yeah, but, Vin Diesel is a good actor. | 0:49:36 | 0:49:41 | |
What have you got coming up, any plans? | 0:49:43 | 0:49:44 | |
I need to get my... | 0:49:44 | 0:49:46 | |
..communication back on point | 0:49:48 | 0:49:51 | |
with speech and language therapists. | 0:49:51 | 0:49:54 | |
Have you found one you're going to work with? | 0:49:54 | 0:49:56 | |
Yeah. Yeah. | 0:49:56 | 0:49:58 | |
Great. How often are you seeing someone? | 0:49:58 | 0:50:01 | |
-Twice a week. -Great. | 0:50:01 | 0:50:02 | |
Is that going well? | 0:50:03 | 0:50:05 | |
It's going OK. | 0:50:06 | 0:50:08 | |
-It's going OK. -Good. | 0:50:08 | 0:50:11 | |
I'm cold, man. Yeah, yeah. | 0:50:17 | 0:50:21 | |
-You better go. -Yeah. | 0:50:21 | 0:50:22 | |
-See you later, man. -OK. | 0:50:24 | 0:50:26 | |
-All right. -Thank you for coming here. | 0:50:26 | 0:50:28 | |
Yeah, cool. | 0:50:35 | 0:50:37 | |
-Oh! -As Barry's stay on the unit approaches its end, | 0:50:37 | 0:50:41 | |
despite his many improvements, | 0:50:41 | 0:50:43 | |
he remains reluctant to accept that he will soon be moving home. | 0:50:43 | 0:50:46 | |
After almost seven months in hospital, | 0:50:48 | 0:50:50 | |
it's understandable that the institution has become the home. | 0:50:50 | 0:50:54 | |
But it feels more than that. | 0:50:55 | 0:50:57 | |
It seems that part of the problem for Barry is not being able to | 0:50:57 | 0:51:00 | |
acknowledge the progress that he is making, | 0:51:00 | 0:51:03 | |
nor perhaps accept the extent of the damage to his brain. | 0:51:03 | 0:51:06 | |
That's what it looks like if you've got a problem in your language area. | 0:51:06 | 0:51:13 | |
Brains just don't get better easily. | 0:51:13 | 0:51:16 | |
As you know. How many months? | 0:51:16 | 0:51:18 | |
Six months. Seven months. | 0:51:22 | 0:51:24 | |
Yes, yes. | 0:51:24 | 0:51:25 | |
And have you got better? | 0:51:25 | 0:51:27 | |
-No. -No? | 0:51:28 | 0:51:29 | |
-Yes. -What's got better? | 0:51:31 | 0:51:33 | |
What can you do now? | 0:51:34 | 0:51:36 | |
What can your brain still do? | 0:51:36 | 0:51:38 | |
-Think. -Think, yeah. | 0:51:39 | 0:51:42 | |
-Talk? -Talk. | 0:51:42 | 0:51:44 | |
-Walk. -Walk. -It's supposed to be walk, it's a funny gesture. | 0:51:47 | 0:51:50 | |
-Walk. -Sometimes, you get cross because it's not happening | 0:51:50 | 0:51:53 | |
-quick enough. -Yeah. | 0:51:53 | 0:51:55 | |
Are you OK about that some days? | 0:51:56 | 0:51:58 | |
And then not on other days? | 0:51:58 | 0:51:59 | |
-No. -No. | 0:51:59 | 0:52:00 | |
-Always want it to be quicker, don't you? -Yes, yes. -It's all right. | 0:52:00 | 0:52:03 | |
It's a tough one. So tough, Barry. | 0:52:03 | 0:52:06 | |
How do you... | 0:52:10 | 0:52:11 | |
How do you, you know, keep getting motivated? | 0:52:12 | 0:52:16 | |
-I don't know. -Because you are so good at that. | 0:52:16 | 0:52:20 | |
Oh, you hate people praising you, don't you? | 0:52:20 | 0:52:22 | |
You don't like it when I praise you. No. | 0:52:24 | 0:52:26 | |
It's not a great thing, is it, a stroke? No. | 0:52:28 | 0:52:31 | |
Five days before his final discharge, | 0:52:36 | 0:52:39 | |
Barry goes on one last home visit. | 0:52:39 | 0:52:41 | |
On Tuesday, then, what time do want to go? | 0:52:45 | 0:52:49 | |
I don't know. | 0:52:49 | 0:52:51 | |
Most people kind of stick around until just after lunch. | 0:52:51 | 0:52:54 | |
-They have some tea and cake with everybody. -Yeah. | 0:52:54 | 0:52:56 | |
-Do you want to do something like that so that you can say goodbye to everyone? -Yes. No. | 0:52:56 | 0:53:00 | |
I don't want... | 0:53:02 | 0:53:04 | |
-..fuss. -You don't want a fuss? | 0:53:06 | 0:53:08 | |
OK. And when you are saying you do not want a fuss, | 0:53:10 | 0:53:14 | |
what do you mean by that, Barry? | 0:53:14 | 0:53:16 | |
Are you talking about when you come home? | 0:53:20 | 0:53:22 | |
I don't know whether... | 0:53:27 | 0:53:30 | |
..it's viable. | 0:53:32 | 0:53:34 | |
-Viable? -Viable. | 0:53:36 | 0:53:37 | |
-Yes. -OK. | 0:53:37 | 0:53:40 | |
So you... Are you talking about coming home and managing at home? | 0:53:40 | 0:53:44 | |
-No. -OK. | 0:53:47 | 0:53:49 | |
Are you talking about needing some help at home? | 0:53:49 | 0:53:51 | |
-Yes. -Yeah. | 0:53:51 | 0:53:53 | |
Debs and the community team, they are there to help you get stronger. | 0:53:53 | 0:53:58 | |
So rehab isn't over. | 0:53:58 | 0:54:00 | |
You don't need to stay in with us, Barry. | 0:54:01 | 0:54:03 | |
You need to come home now. | 0:54:03 | 0:54:05 | |
Yeah? | 0:54:09 | 0:54:10 | |
On the eve of Barry's last day in the unit, | 0:54:12 | 0:54:14 | |
he and Linda have a final meeting with a neuropsychologist, Hannah. | 0:54:14 | 0:54:19 | |
How do you feel about your relationships at the moment | 0:54:20 | 0:54:25 | |
with Linda or with your children? | 0:54:25 | 0:54:27 | |
In terms of being able to speak with them? | 0:54:29 | 0:54:31 | |
How do you feel you get on with Linda when you can't speak so clearly? | 0:54:33 | 0:54:36 | |
Hit and miss. And can I ask Linda the same question? | 0:54:41 | 0:54:44 | |
Yes. | 0:54:44 | 0:54:46 | |
How is it for you in terms of your relationship with Barry since he has | 0:54:46 | 0:54:50 | |
not been able to speak so clearly? | 0:54:50 | 0:54:52 | |
Sad. | 0:54:54 | 0:54:55 | |
One of the things which we know following a stroke is that people | 0:54:57 | 0:55:02 | |
have lots of losses. | 0:55:02 | 0:55:04 | |
-Yes. -And one of the most significant losses that can happen is | 0:55:04 | 0:55:07 | |
-in terms of aphasia... -Yes. | 0:55:07 | 0:55:09 | |
..and not being able to speak so clearly or understand easily. | 0:55:09 | 0:55:13 | |
-Yes, yes. -And it then leads to a whole element of | 0:55:13 | 0:55:20 | |
what your role is and what other people's role is who you know | 0:55:20 | 0:55:26 | |
and the difficulties that can follow | 0:55:26 | 0:55:29 | |
in the renegotiation of relationships. | 0:55:29 | 0:55:33 | |
Is that something that you have experienced, Linda? | 0:55:33 | 0:55:35 | |
Mm. | 0:55:35 | 0:55:36 | |
Hassle, hassle, hassle. | 0:55:40 | 0:55:43 | |
-Hassle. -Yeah. | 0:55:43 | 0:55:45 | |
Is that hassle for you, or do you feel that you are a hassle? | 0:55:45 | 0:55:49 | |
I don't know. | 0:55:57 | 0:55:58 | |
I don't know. | 0:55:59 | 0:56:00 | |
Hassle, hassle, hassle. | 0:56:02 | 0:56:04 | |
Hassle for who? | 0:56:06 | 0:56:07 | |
-You. -Me? | 0:56:09 | 0:56:12 | |
-Me, you. -For you, as well? | 0:56:12 | 0:56:15 | |
-Yes. -And for me? -Yes. | 0:56:15 | 0:56:17 | |
What you used to say all the time was, "It is what it is." | 0:56:17 | 0:56:22 | |
-Yeah. -When things happened. -Yeah. -Well, it is what it is. | 0:56:22 | 0:56:25 | |
-Yes. -So, it is what it is, you have had a stroke, | 0:56:25 | 0:56:29 | |
and now you need to come home tomorrow and continue with your | 0:56:29 | 0:56:32 | |
rehabilitation at home. | 0:56:32 | 0:56:34 | |
Yes. | 0:56:34 | 0:56:35 | |
# Regrets, I've had a few | 0:56:35 | 0:56:40 | |
# But then again... | 0:56:40 | 0:56:43 | |
# Too few to mention... # | 0:56:43 | 0:56:46 | |
I don't know. | 0:56:46 | 0:56:47 | |
Six months. Six months he has been in this bed. | 0:56:51 | 0:56:53 | |
Six long months. | 0:56:54 | 0:56:56 | |
# I've planned each charted course | 0:57:00 | 0:57:04 | |
# Each careful step... # | 0:57:05 | 0:57:08 | |
Are you feeling ready for this? | 0:57:09 | 0:57:11 | |
Yes. | 0:57:13 | 0:57:14 | |
# Much more than this... | 0:57:15 | 0:57:17 | |
# I did it my way. # | 0:57:17 | 0:57:22 | |
OK, so, which hand do you want to shake with? That hand, or that hand? | 0:57:26 | 0:57:30 | |
I don't know. | 0:57:30 | 0:57:32 | |
Both hands. | 0:57:36 | 0:57:38 | |
Really good. | 0:57:39 | 0:57:40 | |
Yeah. | 0:57:42 | 0:57:44 | |
-Thank you, thank you, thank you. -Thank you. -Thank you. | 0:57:44 | 0:57:48 | |
You are very welcome. | 0:57:48 | 0:57:49 | |
-Yeah, yes. Yeah. -I've enjoyed working with you. | 0:57:49 | 0:57:53 | |
-Thank you, thank you, thank you. -You're very welcome. | 0:57:53 | 0:57:57 | |
Oh, well done. | 0:57:57 | 0:57:59 | |
It's been a pleasure. | 0:57:59 | 0:58:00 | |
Bye-bye. | 0:58:06 | 0:58:07 | |
Bye-bye. | 0:58:09 | 0:58:11 | |
-No tears. -Bye, Barry. | 0:58:14 | 0:58:16 | |
I'm going to cry. | 0:58:16 | 0:58:17 | |
All the very best. | 0:58:20 | 0:58:22 | |
Do you know what? We are going to turn around. | 0:58:22 | 0:58:25 | |
Are you going down? Yeah, we're going down. | 0:58:25 | 0:58:28 | |
Oh, look, we've got the farewell party. | 0:58:28 | 0:58:30 | |
Ellen and Shauna. | 0:58:30 | 0:58:32 | |
Our girls, our best girls. | 0:58:32 | 0:58:34 | |
-Bye. Bye. -Bye. | 0:58:37 | 0:58:41 | |
Bye. Bye. | 0:58:41 | 0:58:43 | |
# And now, as tears subside | 0:58:43 | 0:58:49 | |
# I find it all so amusing | 0:58:49 | 0:58:54 | |
# To think I did all that | 0:58:56 | 0:59:00 | |
# And may I say, not in a shy way | 0:59:01 | 0:59:07 | |
# Oh, no, oh, no, not me | 0:59:08 | 0:59:13 | |
# I did it my way... # | 0:59:14 | 0:59:19 |