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This programme contains some strong language | 0:00:02 | 0:00:05 | |
My eyes get tears in the corners all the time, | 0:00:05 | 0:00:08 | |
which I absolutely hate. | 0:00:08 | 0:00:10 | |
Jonathan Lancaster was born with Treacher Collins Syndrome. | 0:00:10 | 0:00:15 | |
Only one in 10,000 babies are born with this rare genetic condition. | 0:00:15 | 0:00:19 | |
He's never met his biological parents who gave him up for adoption | 0:00:19 | 0:00:22 | |
when he was 36 hours old because of the way he looked. | 0:00:22 | 0:00:26 | |
Luckily for Jono, he was adopted by Jean. | 0:00:26 | 0:00:30 | |
When I looked at him, I thought, "How could your mum leave you?" | 0:00:30 | 0:00:35 | |
Yes, his face did look different, but it didn't put me off wanting to look after him. | 0:00:35 | 0:00:41 | |
Two years ago, Jono contacted his birth parents through an adoption agency | 0:00:41 | 0:00:46 | |
and asked if they wanted to meet him. | 0:00:46 | 0:00:48 | |
Just going through that conversation in my head, they don't want to see you, they do want to see you... | 0:00:48 | 0:00:53 | |
My heart's racing at the moment. | 0:00:53 | 0:00:57 | |
Thank you for calling. | 0:00:57 | 0:00:59 | |
No, that's... Yeah, erm... Obviously not what I wanted to hear. | 0:01:03 | 0:01:10 | |
-They don't want to meet me. -They don't? -No. | 0:01:10 | 0:01:14 | |
-They didn't want to see me. -Not at all? -No. | 0:01:17 | 0:01:23 | |
HE SOBS | 0:01:23 | 0:01:27 | |
But that wasn't the end of the story. | 0:01:32 | 0:01:36 | |
Six months ago, Jono received a message on Facebook | 0:01:36 | 0:01:39 | |
from someone claiming to be a member of his family. | 0:01:39 | 0:01:41 | |
She was just really sincere, she was like, | 0:01:41 | 0:01:45 | |
"I'm family, if you ever want to meet up or have a conversation or a chat then I'm more than happy to do so." | 0:01:45 | 0:01:52 | |
Could this be the family reunion he's been waiting all his life for? | 0:01:52 | 0:01:57 | |
-You good? You hungry? -I'm starving. | 0:02:04 | 0:02:08 | |
Jono and Laura have been together for five years and they recently bought their first home together. | 0:02:08 | 0:02:13 | |
-Ah, am I getting one this year? -No. -You've just said you're going to get me one. | 0:02:13 | 0:02:18 | |
-I said, "Do I need to get you a card?" -Yeah, you do. It's my 21st! | 0:02:18 | 0:02:22 | |
I can see your bum! | 0:02:22 | 0:02:26 | |
Laura was there for Jono when he tried to contact his birth parents | 0:02:26 | 0:02:29 | |
and more recently when his relative got in touch online. | 0:02:29 | 0:02:32 | |
The relative who messaged Jono turned out to be a cousin. | 0:02:34 | 0:02:37 | |
I was really unsure whether to believe her or not because she had no friends on Facebook, | 0:02:37 | 0:02:44 | |
She only had one picture. I was, like, "I'm sorry, I don't believe you. | 0:02:44 | 0:02:48 | |
"People have taken the piss in the past. Have you got any proof?" | 0:02:48 | 0:02:52 | |
And she was really sincere and she did get in touch again. | 0:02:52 | 0:02:56 | |
We exchanged numbers | 0:02:56 | 0:02:58 | |
and arranged to meet at her house and went from there. | 0:02:58 | 0:03:05 | |
Jono's like, "Yeah, but she's only my cousin, cousin's aren't that close." | 0:03:05 | 0:03:10 | |
You were asking me what a cousin's meant to be? | 0:03:10 | 0:03:13 | |
I know what a cousin is, but is the relationship, | 0:03:13 | 0:03:18 | |
are you close with your cousins or is it a more distant thing? | 0:03:18 | 0:03:22 | |
Jono's cousin and her family had wanted to stay in touch with him when he was born, | 0:03:22 | 0:03:26 | |
but his birth parents didn't want contact to continue. | 0:03:26 | 0:03:29 | |
It brought a wedge between them. | 0:03:29 | 0:03:32 | |
26 years that they've missed out on. They must have been wondering, "What's happened to him? | 0:03:32 | 0:03:36 | |
"Is he OK? Has he met somebody? How's he grown up?" | 0:03:36 | 0:03:42 | |
They wanted to find out, so I think that's brilliant and I'm glad they did get in touch. | 0:03:42 | 0:03:48 | |
They're all so chatty and open and really nice, welcoming is the word. | 0:03:48 | 0:03:52 | |
They are very welcoming. | 0:03:52 | 0:03:54 | |
If, like, we ever got married, you'd have loads of family... | 0:03:54 | 0:04:00 | |
on your side! | 0:04:00 | 0:04:03 | |
Jono's been invited to have a meal with his cousin and her family. | 0:04:06 | 0:04:11 | |
My extended family inviting me over for a curry night is very new. | 0:04:11 | 0:04:15 | |
This is the third one I've been to, so it's very new, very recent. | 0:04:15 | 0:04:18 | |
I still find it a bit weird in a sense. | 0:04:18 | 0:04:22 | |
Do I give them a hug, do I give them a kiss? | 0:04:22 | 0:04:26 | |
Do I keep my distance? What do I ask them, what do I say? | 0:04:26 | 0:04:30 | |
I still get nervous. | 0:04:30 | 0:04:33 | |
Whenever I meet somebody, I do try and be the best I can be. | 0:04:36 | 0:04:41 | |
Just I get more nervous... when I'm meeting certain people, | 0:04:43 | 0:04:50 | |
and these are them sort. | 0:04:50 | 0:04:53 | |
I've done everything, haven't I? | 0:04:53 | 0:04:55 | |
We're good. | 0:04:59 | 0:05:00 | |
It's all still very, very confusing in my head. | 0:05:00 | 0:05:06 | |
They're family, but they were like strangers | 0:05:08 | 0:05:11 | |
and slowly but surely they're becoming more than strangers. | 0:05:11 | 0:05:15 | |
I can't describe it, it's weird. | 0:05:15 | 0:05:18 | |
-Hiya! -Hiya! -Sorry I'm late. -Oh, red wine, thank you. | 0:05:20 | 0:05:23 | |
Jono's extended family want to be part of his life. | 0:05:23 | 0:05:27 | |
We can't show their faces or feature their real voices because that may identify Jono's birth parents, | 0:05:27 | 0:05:33 | |
who have made it clear they don't want any contact with him. | 0:05:33 | 0:05:37 | |
I've had one mouthful and my mouth is on fire! | 0:05:37 | 0:05:39 | |
-Are you having a tattoo? -Sorry? | 0:05:41 | 0:05:44 | |
When I come to these things for the first half an hour I feel so nervous and so awkward. | 0:05:45 | 0:05:50 | |
I don't know what to say. | 0:05:50 | 0:05:52 | |
They've all been around each other the last few days and they're just nattering away and I'm like, so... | 0:05:52 | 0:05:58 | |
I just find it so uncomfortable. I don't know what to say or who to talk to. | 0:05:58 | 0:06:04 | |
It's a bit awkward at times. | 0:06:04 | 0:06:07 | |
My mouth is on fire! | 0:06:09 | 0:06:11 | |
-Seeing as this is all new, I mean, what this, what, six months? -Yeah, it was just, yeah, | 0:06:13 | 0:06:19 | |
because I contacted you just before Christmas and, you know, | 0:06:19 | 0:06:23 | |
-it had taken me three months to think about it before I did do that. -Yeah. | 0:06:23 | 0:06:27 | |
There are still lots of questions Jono wants to ask his relatives. | 0:06:27 | 0:06:31 | |
-The worst thing was you didn't have any friends on Facebook. -I explained that when I... I know. | 0:06:31 | 0:06:36 | |
-That's the thing, you joined Facebook. -Yeah, just solely to contact you, but, um... | 0:06:36 | 0:06:42 | |
My son advised if I go onto Facebook | 0:06:42 | 0:06:46 | |
that would be the easiest way of contacting you. | 0:06:46 | 0:06:50 | |
But because I'd not been on it before, I'd no friends whatsoever. | 0:06:50 | 0:06:56 | |
The only reason I've come on Facebook is to contact you. | 0:06:56 | 0:06:59 | |
That's it, I'd love to meet him and let him know a little of the side of our family | 0:06:59 | 0:07:04 | |
and what we've felt like over the years. But you did seem very wary. | 0:07:04 | 0:07:09 | |
What made you ultimately like press send? | 0:07:09 | 0:07:12 | |
It took a lot of doing. It was about at least three months, | 0:07:12 | 0:07:15 | |
because I didn't want to upset you and cause more grief | 0:07:15 | 0:07:18 | |
and I know I can't replace your mum and dad. | 0:07:18 | 0:07:21 | |
So I wanted to let you know our side of it. | 0:07:21 | 0:07:24 | |
But it took ages to think, what do I write? | 0:07:24 | 0:07:27 | |
And then to actually click it took a lot of thought. | 0:07:27 | 0:07:31 | |
Cos you don't know what you're going to start. Cos you were a total stranger. | 0:07:31 | 0:07:36 | |
But because you're blood it's weird. | 0:07:36 | 0:07:38 | |
-I feel like I've known you for ages now. -Thank God for Facebook. -Yeah! | 0:07:38 | 0:07:42 | |
Certain expressions you pull, I can see your dad. | 0:07:42 | 0:07:48 | |
-Saw your picture on Facebook, you look just like your dad. That's the first thing she said. -Yeah. Yeah. | 0:07:48 | 0:07:55 | |
-Now and again, yeah. Now and again. -Weird. -Strange. | 0:07:55 | 0:08:01 | |
Yeah. | 0:08:01 | 0:08:03 | |
When I'm driving home, I just wished that my mum or dad was there. | 0:08:06 | 0:08:13 | |
It makes me smile when she says I remind her of my dad. | 0:08:13 | 0:08:17 | |
It kind of feels nice that I have traits of my father. | 0:08:17 | 0:08:22 | |
And it just frustrates me that I missed out on so much. | 0:08:22 | 0:08:26 | |
The fact that I can't do anything about it kind of infuriates me. | 0:08:26 | 0:08:30 | |
Ever since I was a kid, I always felt lonely for some reason, | 0:08:30 | 0:08:35 | |
and I had this horrible emptiness feeling in my tummy. | 0:08:35 | 0:08:39 | |
And I get that feeling when I'm back home. | 0:08:39 | 0:08:43 | |
Maybe it will go away when I start my own family, I don't know. | 0:08:43 | 0:08:50 | |
It would just be nice if it didn't happen so often. | 0:08:50 | 0:08:54 | |
Adoption agencies have seen a rise in the number of people using Facebook to contact birth family. | 0:09:00 | 0:09:05 | |
And it doesn't always go as well as it did with Jono and his cousin. | 0:09:05 | 0:09:11 | |
Milly is 16. She was given up for adoption as a baby. | 0:09:11 | 0:09:15 | |
Ever since she can remember, Milly's wanted to know more about her birth mother. | 0:09:15 | 0:09:21 | |
As soon as Milly joined Facebook she searched for her mother's profile. | 0:09:21 | 0:09:26 | |
Her adoption notes didn't give her much to go on. | 0:09:26 | 0:09:29 | |
All I had was a bit of paper saying her name, her children, | 0:09:29 | 0:09:32 | |
her average height, hair colour and that she enjoyed sewing. | 0:09:32 | 0:09:39 | |
I didn't have any reason why she didn't want me or anything. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:45 | |
What did you write? | 0:09:45 | 0:09:47 | |
I said something like, "I don't know... | 0:09:47 | 0:09:51 | |
"if you'd remember having a baby about 14, 13 years ago." | 0:09:51 | 0:09:57 | |
Did you tell anyone you were doing this? | 0:09:57 | 0:10:02 | |
No. But my birth mum, I always imagined her to be so perfect | 0:10:02 | 0:10:07 | |
and not nag at all, be like a super parent. | 0:10:07 | 0:10:12 | |
But then when I met her she was just a normal person, | 0:10:12 | 0:10:16 | |
not really anything worth bothering about. | 0:10:16 | 0:10:18 | |
Did you put her on such a high pedestal? | 0:10:18 | 0:10:22 | |
Yeah, like, she'll be perfect, she'll tell me how much she loves me | 0:10:22 | 0:10:27 | |
and that she wishes she'd never given me up and stuff. | 0:10:27 | 0:10:31 | |
After months of sending her birth mum messages on Facebook, | 0:10:31 | 0:10:34 | |
Milly finally got a reply. | 0:10:34 | 0:10:37 | |
The first thing I asked her was, "Why didn't you keep me?" | 0:10:37 | 0:10:41 | |
-Straightaway? Not... -Yeah. Not, "Hi, how are you?" Nothing, no. | 0:10:41 | 0:10:45 | |
She said she was 23, she already had two kids | 0:10:45 | 0:10:48 | |
and she couldn't cope with another one. | 0:10:48 | 0:10:50 | |
Including me, there are six of us | 0:10:50 | 0:10:53 | |
and I was the only one she didn't keep. | 0:10:53 | 0:10:56 | |
How did that make you feel, that you was again the odd one out? | 0:10:56 | 0:11:02 | |
I had counselling about that at school | 0:11:02 | 0:11:04 | |
because it was so hard to cope with. | 0:11:04 | 0:11:06 | |
How did that make you feel? | 0:11:06 | 0:11:08 | |
A lot better because... Well, not a lot... | 0:11:08 | 0:11:11 | |
She explained some of the things I was feeling. | 0:11:11 | 0:11:13 | |
Did that sink in or make you feel better? | 0:11:13 | 0:11:16 | |
It made sense, I understood it, | 0:11:16 | 0:11:19 | |
but it couldn't really make me feel better. | 0:11:19 | 0:11:23 | |
After six months of messaging, | 0:11:23 | 0:11:26 | |
Milly finally met her birth mum face-to-face. | 0:11:26 | 0:11:28 | |
She'd only told her adoptive mum a week before the meeting. | 0:11:28 | 0:11:33 | |
She came to Hastings, we walked round here. | 0:11:33 | 0:11:37 | |
I was happy, but I was aware that she didn't actually want to meet me. | 0:11:37 | 0:11:41 | |
I felt like she owed it to me. | 0:11:41 | 0:11:42 | |
She came right up to me and she was, like, | 0:11:42 | 0:11:45 | |
"Have you got a hug and a kiss for me?" | 0:11:45 | 0:11:47 | |
Like, two second delay in what I said, I was, like, "Oh, yeah sure," | 0:11:47 | 0:11:54 | |
and, like, hugged her. | 0:11:54 | 0:11:55 | |
-Did that feel natural or... -No. She was a complete stranger. | 0:11:55 | 0:12:01 | |
It was really awkward. | 0:12:01 | 0:12:03 | |
Cos she's not my mum. She's just the person that gave birth to me. | 0:12:03 | 0:12:07 | |
Is she still this dream celebrity person? | 0:12:09 | 0:12:12 | |
I wanted her to be, but it was disappointing meeting her. | 0:12:12 | 0:12:17 | |
It wasn't her, it was purely me making stuff up | 0:12:17 | 0:12:21 | |
about how she is meant to be. | 0:12:21 | 0:12:23 | |
I was hoping since she carried me for nine months, given birth to me, | 0:12:23 | 0:12:27 | |
that she might feel something | 0:12:27 | 0:12:29 | |
but it seemed like I was just a bit of a nuisance to her. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:33 | |
When she left, was there a hug goodbye, a kiss goodbye? | 0:12:33 | 0:12:37 | |
A hug goodbye, then she... It was, like, "Bye." | 0:12:37 | 0:12:41 | |
And then she got on her train. | 0:12:41 | 0:12:43 | |
Milly did not meet up with her mum again. | 0:12:48 | 0:12:51 | |
Her story makes Jono wonder | 0:12:51 | 0:12:53 | |
whether he's been idealising his parents all these years too. | 0:12:53 | 0:12:56 | |
Jono recently found some adoption review notes. | 0:13:01 | 0:13:04 | |
These notes are some of the only information | 0:13:04 | 0:13:07 | |
he has on what happened in the run up to his adoption. | 0:13:07 | 0:13:11 | |
It's, like, really shit. | 0:13:14 | 0:13:16 | |
It feels like these are talking about some bloody monster | 0:13:16 | 0:13:22 | |
or something that's grotesque. | 0:13:22 | 0:13:27 | |
"A social worker had offered a photograph of Jonathan | 0:13:27 | 0:13:31 | |
"to his parents, but they had refused this. | 0:13:31 | 0:13:34 | |
"They've not seen Jonathan since his birth and do not wish any new contact." | 0:13:34 | 0:13:39 | |
And this review was almost a year after I were born. | 0:13:39 | 0:13:44 | |
So...it's again, people trying to justify to my parents | 0:13:44 | 0:13:49 | |
why to have me rather than give me up for adoption. | 0:13:49 | 0:13:53 | |
They shouldn't really need persuading, so... | 0:13:53 | 0:13:58 | |
Reading the medical notes is not easy. | 0:14:03 | 0:14:06 | |
"The chairman said he felt it was important that the department | 0:14:09 | 0:14:12 | |
"should agree to the treatment which was in Jonathan's interest | 0:14:12 | 0:14:15 | |
"as a person and not as an interesting medical case." | 0:14:15 | 0:14:19 | |
It's not nice. | 0:14:22 | 0:14:24 | |
I'm still a person at end of the day. | 0:14:24 | 0:14:28 | |
Although the notes are tough to read, | 0:14:35 | 0:14:39 | |
there's one positive to take from them. | 0:14:39 | 0:14:41 | |
My extended family. They wanted to be a part of my life | 0:14:41 | 0:14:44 | |
and they wanted to see me grow up. | 0:14:44 | 0:14:47 | |
At least I have met them now and...we've got a future together. | 0:14:47 | 0:14:54 | |
Jono wants to spend some long overdue time with Jean, | 0:15:18 | 0:15:21 | |
the woman who adopted him and brought him up. | 0:15:21 | 0:15:25 | |
-Hello? -Hello, darling! Haven't seen you for ages? | 0:15:25 | 0:15:29 | |
She may not be his birth mum, but she's definitely his real mum. | 0:15:29 | 0:15:33 | |
-Are you OK? -Yeah. | 0:15:33 | 0:15:35 | |
They're ridiculously bad for you. | 0:15:35 | 0:15:37 | |
-How much protein has each bite got in it? -1.2 grams. -That's per bite? | 0:15:40 | 0:15:46 | |
-Yeah. -1.2. | 0:15:46 | 0:15:50 | |
-How many carbs? -11.5. | 0:15:50 | 0:15:56 | |
Jean's on a diet and Jono's on calorie watch. | 0:15:56 | 0:15:59 | |
Four points for one of them. Ridiculous! | 0:15:59 | 0:16:04 | |
Considering I am only out 29 points a day. | 0:16:04 | 0:16:08 | |
THEY LAUGH | 0:16:08 | 0:16:11 | |
So six of these...that's it! | 0:16:11 | 0:16:14 | |
Shall we just eat those? | 0:16:14 | 0:16:16 | |
He's been so wrapped up in worrying about his birth family, | 0:16:16 | 0:16:19 | |
Jono's forgotten to tell Jean about the reunions he's been having. | 0:16:19 | 0:16:24 | |
I went to my relative's birthday party a couple of week ago. | 0:16:24 | 0:16:27 | |
-Did you? No, you didn't tell me, love. -I told you. | 0:16:27 | 0:16:32 | |
-You don't tell me anything! -Honestly, I told you. | 0:16:32 | 0:16:34 | |
-No, love, you didn't. -I did! Cos I was debating what card to get him. | 0:16:34 | 0:16:39 | |
-No, I know nothing about that. -Whether to get him a plain card or a named card? | 0:16:39 | 0:16:43 | |
It's at an awkward stage sort of thing. | 0:16:43 | 0:16:46 | |
Even when I go to see them, are you supposed to give them | 0:16:46 | 0:16:50 | |
a cuddle and a kiss or are you supposed to be quite formal? | 0:16:50 | 0:16:54 | |
Well, I suppose they'd like a cuddle and a kiss. | 0:16:54 | 0:16:57 | |
Oh, yeah, I know, I do, but it's still a bit weird. | 0:16:57 | 0:17:01 | |
I love going and seeing them all and being invited and included, | 0:17:01 | 0:17:07 | |
but I wonder what I'm missing out on with, like, my immediate family. | 0:17:07 | 0:17:12 | |
You know? So... | 0:17:12 | 0:17:14 | |
as much as I love it, I do come away feeling a bit frustrated, | 0:17:14 | 0:17:18 | |
erm...which is... | 0:17:18 | 0:17:20 | |
Yeah. You miss out on that... | 0:17:20 | 0:17:23 | |
but you... | 0:17:23 | 0:17:26 | |
you get it in this side of the family, don't you? | 0:17:26 | 0:17:29 | |
Oh, definitely, yeah. | 0:17:29 | 0:17:30 | |
Yeah, I've got, you know, everything here, | 0:17:30 | 0:17:33 | |
-but I could be having a little bit of that as well. -Mmm. | 0:17:33 | 0:17:36 | |
Mmm. | 0:17:36 | 0:17:37 | |
'I find it very hard to share my feelings with anybody to be honest. | 0:17:44 | 0:17:50 | |
'I keep them to myself. | 0:17:50 | 0:17:52 | |
'I don't want to burden anybody, I don't want to upset anybody | 0:17:52 | 0:17:56 | |
'or put anybody through any pain. | 0:17:56 | 0:17:59 | |
'When I was about seven or eight' | 0:17:59 | 0:18:03 | |
and we was on the tube, | 0:18:03 | 0:18:05 | |
and a young couple were sat across from us and they were laughing at me | 0:18:05 | 0:18:12 | |
and talking about me, | 0:18:12 | 0:18:14 | |
and I knew that it was going on and... | 0:18:14 | 0:18:16 | |
I didn't think my mum had noticed | 0:18:16 | 0:18:19 | |
and we stepped off the tube | 0:18:19 | 0:18:21 | |
and my mum was like a little bit behind me | 0:18:21 | 0:18:23 | |
and when she stepped off, she was in tears and... | 0:18:23 | 0:18:26 | |
You know, she had a little word with them | 0:18:26 | 0:18:29 | |
and I didn't realise she noticed that sort of stuff, | 0:18:29 | 0:18:32 | |
I thought I only noticed the stares and the comments and stuff. | 0:18:32 | 0:18:36 | |
And ever since that moment I didn't want my mum | 0:18:36 | 0:18:41 | |
to go through those emotions again, | 0:18:41 | 0:18:43 | |
I didn't want to bring any tears to her eyes. | 0:18:43 | 0:18:46 | |
Oh, you can get a pink barbeque! | 0:19:04 | 0:19:07 | |
Get one for your birthday. | 0:19:09 | 0:19:10 | |
I haven't read this magazine, actually. | 0:19:12 | 0:19:15 | |
Jono grew up knowing his birth parents | 0:19:15 | 0:19:17 | |
went on to have children after they gave him up, | 0:19:17 | 0:19:20 | |
but he didn't know any details about them. | 0:19:20 | 0:19:24 | |
Two years ago, he requested his adoption notes | 0:19:24 | 0:19:26 | |
and discovered his birth siblings' names and ages. | 0:19:26 | 0:19:31 | |
I went home and within moments I were on Facebook, | 0:19:31 | 0:19:34 | |
typing their names in. Never... Didn't find them. | 0:19:34 | 0:19:37 | |
One day Laura was like, "Oh, I think I know who your sibling is." | 0:19:37 | 0:19:41 | |
You were like, "They're the spitting image of you! In a weird way sort of thing." | 0:19:41 | 0:19:45 | |
Like, if you go like that on the picture on Facebook, | 0:19:45 | 0:19:50 | |
it's the nose more than anything. | 0:19:50 | 0:19:52 | |
It was so good to be able to put a face to the person, | 0:19:52 | 0:19:57 | |
that felt so good. | 0:19:57 | 0:19:59 | |
It were no longer a name, no longer a bit of paper. | 0:19:59 | 0:20:04 | |
There was a real person now, they were out there and... | 0:20:04 | 0:20:08 | |
Yeah, it was... | 0:20:08 | 0:20:10 | |
And they look so cool. | 0:20:10 | 0:20:11 | |
And every time I'm on Facebook, before I log out, you know, | 0:20:11 | 0:20:16 | |
I go on their profile and have a look to see if anything's happened. | 0:20:16 | 0:20:20 | |
I can't believe it's only been ten months | 0:20:20 | 0:20:23 | |
-that I've actually started looking at them. -It's cos you do it every day. | 0:20:23 | 0:20:27 | |
I look at the profile as well because I want to see another picture, | 0:20:27 | 0:20:32 | |
I want to see another thing of what they look like, | 0:20:32 | 0:20:34 | |
but it never changes. | 0:20:34 | 0:20:36 | |
Even now I could just go on their page, their profile, | 0:20:36 | 0:20:41 | |
and just click "Add As Friend". But I won't do that. | 0:20:41 | 0:20:45 | |
It would be so easy as well if you came home drunk one night | 0:20:45 | 0:20:49 | |
to just log in and do some serious damage | 0:20:49 | 0:20:51 | |
and do something that you seriously regret. | 0:20:51 | 0:20:54 | |
I've been tempted myself, so I don't know how tempted he is! | 0:20:54 | 0:20:57 | |
It is so tempting, but no, I refuse to go against my parents' wishes. | 0:20:57 | 0:21:01 | |
I totally understand where Jono comes from, | 0:21:01 | 0:21:05 | |
where he doesn't... | 0:21:05 | 0:21:06 | |
You know, his parents have said they don't want any contact, | 0:21:06 | 0:21:09 | |
and from what we know, we don't think his siblings do know about him. | 0:21:09 | 0:21:14 | |
And if Jono did go in there all guns blazing, | 0:21:14 | 0:21:16 | |
"I'm your brother", it could potentially break up the family, | 0:21:16 | 0:21:20 | |
because they would probably feel...lied to | 0:21:20 | 0:21:25 | |
and betrayed by their parents for not knowing | 0:21:25 | 0:21:28 | |
and I think Jono has the right to meet them! | 0:21:28 | 0:21:31 | |
Yeah, but...they're getting on with their lives and they're happy | 0:21:31 | 0:21:35 | |
and, you know, they're...they're good. | 0:21:35 | 0:21:37 | |
They're missing out on an older brother. | 0:21:37 | 0:21:40 | |
Yeah, true, but they don't know that they're missing out on it so... | 0:21:40 | 0:21:44 | |
No, they don't, but there's no easy way around doing it, I know it would cause stuff between anybody. | 0:21:44 | 0:21:49 | |
-Somebody's going to get heartbroken. -I know. | 0:21:49 | 0:21:51 | |
It's just me that's upset and frustrated. | 0:21:51 | 0:21:53 | |
Why should it be you that gets hurt all the time? | 0:21:53 | 0:21:56 | |
Why should it be you that gets the shit end of the stick all the time? | 0:21:56 | 0:22:00 | |
-Because I've had it all my life and... -So why... | 0:22:00 | 0:22:03 | |
Why shouldn't you do something that makes you happy for a change | 0:22:03 | 0:22:06 | |
and put yourself first rather than everybody else? | 0:22:06 | 0:22:08 | |
But it wouldn't make me happy if I ruin their lives. | 0:22:08 | 0:22:11 | |
It may make everybody's life ten times better. | 0:22:11 | 0:22:14 | |
I used to hate gardening, I really did. | 0:22:30 | 0:22:32 | |
I didn't used to appreciate it whatsoever. | 0:22:32 | 0:22:35 | |
But since I've started... | 0:22:35 | 0:22:38 | |
This is my own garden and since I've started planting stuff | 0:22:38 | 0:22:42 | |
and I've seen them grow, I absolutely love it! | 0:22:42 | 0:22:45 | |
I constantly wonder about my siblings. | 0:22:49 | 0:22:52 | |
Every time I think about them, it's just like I hope that | 0:22:52 | 0:22:55 | |
they're all happy and I hope they're all together and they've got each other. | 0:22:55 | 0:23:00 | |
Maybe what's right for me is getting in touch with my siblings... | 0:23:00 | 0:23:05 | |
..but that may not be right for my siblings | 0:23:06 | 0:23:10 | |
and it's definitely not right for my birth parents. | 0:23:10 | 0:23:12 | |
I want them to continue to have a good relationship. | 0:23:12 | 0:23:17 | |
I don't know anything about them. | 0:23:19 | 0:23:22 | |
Everything I say and everything I feel for them, | 0:23:22 | 0:23:26 | |
it's kind of all make believe. | 0:23:26 | 0:23:29 | |
Erm... | 0:23:30 | 0:23:32 | |
No, I just don't want to cause them any pain or any... I can't, I can't. | 0:23:37 | 0:23:42 | |
Jono's aware that his relationship with his cousin's family | 0:24:05 | 0:24:09 | |
makes it more likely his siblings will find out he exists. | 0:24:09 | 0:24:12 | |
He realises he needs some professional advice. | 0:24:12 | 0:24:15 | |
I kind of were burying my head in the sand with it. | 0:24:15 | 0:24:20 | |
I was kind of, "OK, if we just carry on, nothing will happen. | 0:24:20 | 0:24:23 | |
"If I don't make any attempts to track down my siblings | 0:24:23 | 0:24:28 | |
"or get in touch with them, they won't get hurt | 0:24:28 | 0:24:33 | |
"and nothing further will be done about it." | 0:24:33 | 0:24:35 | |
If it doesn't come from me, it's going to come from somebody else. | 0:24:35 | 0:24:39 | |
Adoption agencies warn that adopted children and their families | 0:24:41 | 0:24:46 | |
need to be aware of the risks of using Facebook | 0:24:46 | 0:24:48 | |
to reconnect with birth family. | 0:24:48 | 0:24:50 | |
-Hello. Hi. -How are you? -Nice to meet you. | 0:24:50 | 0:24:54 | |
'It's a very new phenomenon now that lots of people contact that way.' | 0:24:54 | 0:24:58 | |
I'm sure in some cases it works out, but in many cases | 0:24:58 | 0:25:01 | |
it can be disastrous because you don't know what you're entering. | 0:25:01 | 0:25:05 | |
We hear some real horror stories. | 0:25:05 | 0:25:07 | |
With any contact and reunion, it's so important to be prepared | 0:25:07 | 0:25:10 | |
and think about what the consequences are for you, | 0:25:10 | 0:25:13 | |
for your family, for the birth family, everybody. | 0:25:13 | 0:25:16 | |
I look at my siblings' picture, | 0:25:16 | 0:25:18 | |
one of them, I found one of them Facebook, | 0:25:18 | 0:25:20 | |
I look at their picture every single day, | 0:25:20 | 0:25:23 | |
but I won't send them a message, | 0:25:23 | 0:25:25 | |
I won't get in touch with them and a few of my extended family | 0:25:25 | 0:25:31 | |
have got in touch with me through Facebook. | 0:25:31 | 0:25:33 | |
So, I've been lucky enough to meet them a few times. | 0:25:33 | 0:25:37 | |
-So, you have met them a few times? -I have seen them quite a lot now. | 0:25:37 | 0:25:42 | |
So it will get out at some point, won't it? | 0:25:42 | 0:25:44 | |
It will, but I'm more thinking about my siblings, | 0:25:44 | 0:25:50 | |
the fact that I don't want to hurt them and I don't want to cos any pain | 0:25:50 | 0:25:53 | |
and that's why I won't do anything on Facebook. | 0:25:53 | 0:25:56 | |
Who has got the rights in this? | 0:25:56 | 0:25:57 | |
I mean, do you have the rights to contact your siblings? | 0:25:57 | 0:26:00 | |
-Do your birth parents have the right to prevent you? -He should have a right to meet them. | 0:26:00 | 0:26:04 | |
So what do you think, Jono? | 0:26:04 | 0:26:06 | |
They're doing what's best for their immediate family. | 0:26:06 | 0:26:09 | |
It's a difficult situation, | 0:26:09 | 0:26:11 | |
you've really got to work and negotiate | 0:26:11 | 0:26:13 | |
so that everyone's needs are met. | 0:26:13 | 0:26:15 | |
You're saying Facebook is not the right way forward | 0:26:15 | 0:26:18 | |
and I think I would agree with you, because it's going to be very sudden, very instant, | 0:26:18 | 0:26:23 | |
you're putting a bomb in that family and it's going to explode. | 0:26:23 | 0:26:27 | |
But when you first approached your birth parents | 0:26:27 | 0:26:30 | |
and found out there were siblings, | 0:26:30 | 0:26:32 | |
were any subsequent letters sent to say, | 0:26:32 | 0:26:34 | |
"Well, Jono understands your position at this time, | 0:26:34 | 0:26:39 | |
"but there may be a time that he would like to be in touch | 0:26:39 | 0:26:42 | |
-"with his siblings"? -No. On the form it said, | 0:26:42 | 0:26:46 | |
"Regarding this subject, we do not wish to be contacted." | 0:26:46 | 0:26:49 | |
Do you think it's important that your birth parents know | 0:26:49 | 0:26:52 | |
how close you are becoming | 0:26:52 | 0:26:55 | |
to knowing much more about your siblings? | 0:26:55 | 0:26:57 | |
I've never thought about that actually until now. | 0:26:57 | 0:27:00 | |
Yeah, that's a good... | 0:27:00 | 0:27:01 | |
I think it would be a good thing to say, "These are the facts. | 0:27:01 | 0:27:05 | |
"If you want to start thinking about telling them and preparing them." | 0:27:05 | 0:27:09 | |
Somehow just leaving it may not be the best thing. | 0:27:09 | 0:27:12 | |
Adoption agencies recommend people wanting to reconnect | 0:27:16 | 0:27:19 | |
with birth family seek professional advice | 0:27:19 | 0:27:22 | |
and always use an intermediary to make contact. | 0:27:22 | 0:27:24 | |
Jono's keen to meet someone | 0:27:29 | 0:27:31 | |
who's had success getting in touch with their birth family. | 0:27:31 | 0:27:34 | |
He's in contact with James, | 0:27:34 | 0:27:36 | |
a 23-year-old who has recently been messaged | 0:27:36 | 0:27:38 | |
by a long-lost family member on Facebook. | 0:27:38 | 0:27:40 | |
James. Nice to meet you. Come on in. | 0:27:40 | 0:27:43 | |
-Do you want to come in through here. -Yeah. -Mind him. | 0:27:45 | 0:27:47 | |
Come on through. | 0:27:49 | 0:27:50 | |
Thank you. | 0:27:50 | 0:27:52 | |
It was about three or four weeks ago he contacted me out of the blue. | 0:27:52 | 0:27:55 | |
Sent me a Facebook message saying, "Hi, I think I'm your dad." | 0:27:55 | 0:27:59 | |
JAMES LAUGHS Yeah? | 0:27:59 | 0:28:02 | |
It didn't really register who it was to start with. | 0:28:02 | 0:28:05 | |
James was put into care when he was one and adopted at four years old. | 0:28:05 | 0:28:09 | |
He has heard nothing from his father until now. | 0:28:09 | 0:28:12 | |
It was only about two and a half, three hours earlier that day | 0:28:12 | 0:28:16 | |
that I'd changed my profile picture, | 0:28:16 | 0:28:18 | |
put the one of when I was a baby with my brother | 0:28:18 | 0:28:22 | |
and before you know it, you get an unexpected message on Facebook. | 0:28:22 | 0:28:27 | |
I have got his number, I haven't rung him yet. | 0:28:27 | 0:28:30 | |
The fact that you're going to have to dial that number in | 0:28:30 | 0:28:33 | |
and press ring, I think those are the moments... | 0:28:33 | 0:28:36 | |
And then... | 0:28:36 | 0:28:37 | |
Then the phone is ringing. Then you're waiting for that voice. | 0:28:37 | 0:28:41 | |
-That voice that... -That you don't know. -Yeah. | 0:28:41 | 0:28:44 | |
It is daunting when you say it like that, | 0:28:44 | 0:28:47 | |
what's he going to sound like and all that, | 0:28:47 | 0:28:50 | |
but I don't...tend to think about that yet till the moment I do it. | 0:28:50 | 0:28:55 | |
Jono knows that every adopted person's situation is different | 0:28:57 | 0:29:01 | |
and what might work for someone else, won't work for him. | 0:29:01 | 0:29:04 | |
There's no easy answer to his dilemma. | 0:29:04 | 0:29:07 | |
'I've got to the point where I've tried to put myself | 0:29:07 | 0:29:09 | |
'in everybody else's shoes and end up doing nothing about it, | 0:29:09 | 0:29:14 | |
'but you only get one shot at this | 0:29:14 | 0:29:16 | |
'and I want my shot to be the best possible shot it can be.' | 0:29:16 | 0:29:20 | |
Hello? | 0:29:34 | 0:29:36 | |
-Hiya, love. -Hiya. All right? | 0:29:40 | 0:29:42 | |
Jono goes to see his mum Jean for some advice. | 0:29:44 | 0:29:47 | |
Jean's best mate Dorothy is round, who Jono has known since he was a child. | 0:29:47 | 0:29:51 | |
How's your WeightWatchers going? | 0:29:51 | 0:29:52 | |
-Fine, thanks, another two pound and I've lost half a stone. -Well done. | 0:29:52 | 0:29:57 | |
5.7. | 0:29:57 | 0:30:00 | |
Carbs...29, that's a lot, can't have that. | 0:30:01 | 0:30:07 | |
There we go. | 0:30:11 | 0:30:13 | |
-Put your feet up. -I will. | 0:30:14 | 0:30:16 | |
-When did you last see Jonathan? -I can't remember. | 0:30:16 | 0:30:20 | |
I get to know a lot more when Dorothy's here | 0:30:20 | 0:30:23 | |
because he tells Dorothy everything. | 0:30:23 | 0:30:25 | |
-He doesn't have much option really, does he? -No. No, third degree. | 0:30:25 | 0:30:30 | |
No, not quite, not quite. Oh, he's here. | 0:30:30 | 0:30:33 | |
-You talking about me? -Yes. -Yes. | 0:30:33 | 0:30:35 | |
I'm just saying I get to know more | 0:30:35 | 0:30:38 | |
when Dorothy's here than when I'm on my own. | 0:30:38 | 0:30:41 | |
That's because Dorothy interrogates me! | 0:30:41 | 0:30:44 | |
Jono talks through all his options with Jean and Dorothy. | 0:30:44 | 0:30:49 | |
For me and my siblings, I feel that if I send them a message on Facebook | 0:30:49 | 0:30:54 | |
and then they fall out with Mum and Dad, | 0:30:54 | 0:30:57 | |
they might end up hating me and I'll never ever meet them. | 0:30:57 | 0:31:00 | |
Whereas, if maybe Mum and Dad speak to them first, then they can decide. | 0:31:00 | 0:31:07 | |
If somebody sent a letter to your parents, | 0:31:07 | 0:31:11 | |
would it be you or somebody else? | 0:31:11 | 0:31:12 | |
The adoption agency that I used before | 0:31:12 | 0:31:15 | |
to try and get in touch with my birth parents, I'd use them again, | 0:31:15 | 0:31:20 | |
have their advice and I'd hope they would send one on my behalf. | 0:31:20 | 0:31:26 | |
I don't think your birth parents would tell your siblings, | 0:31:26 | 0:31:30 | |
but that's just my thoughts. | 0:31:30 | 0:31:32 | |
It's a big thing for them to find the words to how to start. | 0:31:32 | 0:31:38 | |
Once you start it flows, doesn't it? But it's that starting. | 0:31:38 | 0:31:42 | |
-But I just have the fear that they wouldn't open the mail. -No. | 0:31:42 | 0:31:45 | |
If they don't give that information | 0:31:45 | 0:31:47 | |
after they've had the opportunity, | 0:31:47 | 0:31:49 | |
do you think you'll go on Facebook to your siblings? | 0:31:49 | 0:31:52 | |
I don't, erm... | 0:31:53 | 0:31:54 | |
I think it's that knowing how long to wait, but once that wait's over, | 0:31:54 | 0:31:59 | |
I think it might be down to me doing it then. | 0:31:59 | 0:32:01 | |
You'd have to do it on Facebook, | 0:32:01 | 0:32:03 | |
they wouldn't throw that in the bin, would they? | 0:32:03 | 0:32:05 | |
They'd have to read it. | 0:32:05 | 0:32:07 | |
Mind, they could just click off, couldn't they? | 0:32:07 | 0:32:09 | |
But it would be straight to siblings, not parents then. Yes. | 0:32:09 | 0:32:13 | |
They wouldn't even know who I am, it's like, | 0:32:13 | 0:32:16 | |
"What's this message? Who are you? What makes you say this?" | 0:32:16 | 0:32:19 | |
-You could be right. -But then again, it might just be like, | 0:32:19 | 0:32:21 | |
"We know about you, we don't really care." | 0:32:21 | 0:32:24 | |
-But at least you'd know. -Yeah. | 0:32:24 | 0:32:26 | |
It wouldn't be the closure that you wanted, | 0:32:26 | 0:32:29 | |
cos everybody wants a happy ending, | 0:32:29 | 0:32:30 | |
but at least you'd have some sort of closure, wouldn't you? | 0:32:30 | 0:32:34 | |
Yeah. True. | 0:32:34 | 0:32:37 | |
Jono may never have known his birth siblings, | 0:32:42 | 0:32:45 | |
but Jean's children, Stephen and Claire, | 0:32:45 | 0:32:47 | |
have always been like a brother and sister to him. | 0:32:47 | 0:32:50 | |
How far can you throw it? | 0:32:50 | 0:32:51 | |
-Oh, Uncle Jonny's here! -What you doing? -Hello, Jonny! | 0:32:51 | 0:32:55 | |
So, you working this Thursday or can you get to the match? | 0:32:55 | 0:32:59 | |
-I've got Thursday off. -It's on Sky again, so... | 0:32:59 | 0:33:03 | |
Yeah, on Sky again. | 0:33:03 | 0:33:05 | |
The first time I saw Jono when he came back home, | 0:33:05 | 0:33:08 | |
I remember him laid in the room in his crib, | 0:33:08 | 0:33:12 | |
he were just another baby to me. | 0:33:12 | 0:33:14 | |
I didn't think he'd be stopping, but then...my mum just adopted him | 0:33:14 | 0:33:20 | |
and he was just like my brother then, that were it, | 0:33:20 | 0:33:23 | |
just one of them things, so... | 0:33:23 | 0:33:25 | |
I ended up with a brother! | 0:33:25 | 0:33:27 | |
He didn't really look any different to me, | 0:33:27 | 0:33:30 | |
just like another baby and that were it then, like you say, | 0:33:30 | 0:33:33 | |
went to rugby and football and that were it, just like any brother. | 0:33:33 | 0:33:37 | |
-Much younger brother. -THEY LAUGH | 0:33:37 | 0:33:40 | |
-How old are you, 42? -45. Yeah, thanks, Jonny! | 0:33:40 | 0:33:44 | |
-Yeah, 45, me. -18 years. -18 years, yeah. | 0:33:44 | 0:33:50 | |
Back in your pond. | 0:33:50 | 0:33:52 | |
-No. -The best thing about Stephen, Claire and my mum, | 0:33:52 | 0:33:57 | |
regarding finding my birth parents and all that stuff, | 0:33:57 | 0:34:01 | |
was that they always supported me. | 0:34:01 | 0:34:04 | |
There was no jealousy or negativity or anything like that. | 0:34:04 | 0:34:09 | |
You want to know where you're from and everything, | 0:34:09 | 0:34:12 | |
even though he's always been with us, so... | 0:34:12 | 0:34:15 | |
But if that's what he wants to do, go for it. | 0:34:15 | 0:34:18 | |
-I feel like I can't get in touch with my siblings. -Yeah. | 0:34:18 | 0:34:23 | |
-Ducky! -Some other people might just say, "Sod it and go for it." | 0:34:23 | 0:34:27 | |
Yeah, they would. I think a lot of people would. | 0:34:27 | 0:34:30 | |
-He's pinched some bread! -Has he?! | 0:34:30 | 0:34:34 | |
Pinched some bread! Don't pinch the bread. | 0:34:34 | 0:34:38 | |
They're for the ducks, doggie! | 0:34:38 | 0:34:40 | |
They're food for ducks! | 0:34:40 | 0:34:43 | |
-You shouldn't eat it. -No, he shouldn't eat it. | 0:34:43 | 0:34:46 | |
Are we going, then? | 0:34:48 | 0:34:49 | |
Don't get lost! | 0:34:51 | 0:34:52 | |
While Jono still wonders about his siblings, | 0:34:58 | 0:35:02 | |
James' Facebook reconnection with a dad he hasn't heard from | 0:35:02 | 0:35:05 | |
for 20 years is about to become a lot more real. | 0:35:05 | 0:35:08 | |
Within the next half an hour, | 0:35:09 | 0:35:12 | |
I'm going to be speaking to my biological dad. | 0:35:12 | 0:35:15 | |
First time I spoke to him | 0:35:15 | 0:35:17 | |
was probably about three or four weeks ago, through Facebook | 0:35:17 | 0:35:21 | |
when he contacted me, so... | 0:35:21 | 0:35:23 | |
this will be the first time that I have spoken to him, | 0:35:23 | 0:35:26 | |
you know, listened to his voice. | 0:35:26 | 0:35:28 | |
I'm not a very emotional person, I don't show it very often, | 0:35:28 | 0:35:33 | |
I tend to bottle it in quite a bit. | 0:35:33 | 0:35:35 | |
Explaining it to someone who doesn't know | 0:35:37 | 0:35:39 | |
what...how you feel in that situation, | 0:35:39 | 0:35:42 | |
where it's going to be the initial contact... | 0:35:42 | 0:35:45 | |
It's quite hard even to explain for me. | 0:35:45 | 0:35:48 | |
It's still exciting | 0:35:48 | 0:35:49 | |
because it is the first time that I'm going to speak to him. | 0:35:49 | 0:35:52 | |
PHONE RINGS | 0:35:52 | 0:35:55 | |
-Is that him? -Don't know. | 0:35:56 | 0:35:58 | |
0-1-2-7-7 - yeah, probably. | 0:35:59 | 0:36:01 | |
-What you want to do? -I'm going to go! | 0:36:01 | 0:36:03 | |
Hello? | 0:36:06 | 0:36:08 | |
Hello. | 0:36:08 | 0:36:09 | |
Yeah, how are you? | 0:36:10 | 0:36:11 | |
Oh, yeah. Where do you start? | 0:36:17 | 0:36:20 | |
Ah. | 0:36:22 | 0:36:23 | |
How many brothers and sisters have you got? | 0:36:24 | 0:36:27 | |
Cos I... Yeah. Cos I'll be honest, I know absolutely nothing. | 0:36:27 | 0:36:31 | |
She's what? | 0:36:31 | 0:36:33 | |
Right. | 0:36:33 | 0:36:34 | |
Yeah. | 0:36:37 | 0:36:38 | |
Yeah, yeah. | 0:36:38 | 0:36:40 | |
Yeah. Right. | 0:36:42 | 0:36:44 | |
Yeah. | 0:36:45 | 0:36:46 | |
Yeah, yeah. | 0:36:46 | 0:36:48 | |
See you later. Cheers. Bye. Bye. | 0:36:48 | 0:36:53 | |
God, that was forever, that was. How long was that phone call? | 0:36:54 | 0:36:57 | |
An hour. | 0:37:00 | 0:37:02 | |
We talked about his job, you know, all the hours that he works | 0:37:03 | 0:37:07 | |
and discussed his hobbies, he's into sailing, that's good. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:10 | |
I like sailing, I've never been. | 0:37:10 | 0:37:12 | |
Don't know whether I'd do it, | 0:37:12 | 0:37:14 | |
but, you know, he could help me. Yeah, it was really good actually. | 0:37:14 | 0:37:18 | |
It was really, really good. | 0:37:18 | 0:37:20 | |
The next day, Jono's keen | 0:37:27 | 0:37:29 | |
to find out how James' first call with his birth dad went. | 0:37:29 | 0:37:32 | |
So it was quite easy? | 0:37:32 | 0:37:34 | |
-Like... -'Yeah, I was relieved afterwards.' | 0:37:34 | 0:37:38 | |
-Yeah. -'You know, there wasn't any tension or any...' -Oh, brilliant! | 0:37:38 | 0:37:45 | |
So, are you tempted to be like, "Oh, my God, let's meet," | 0:37:45 | 0:37:50 | |
or were you again still playing it quite methodical, | 0:37:50 | 0:37:54 | |
"Let's be logical about this, let's have time to process this." | 0:37:54 | 0:37:57 | |
-What's... -'Logic went out the window!' -Really? | 0:37:57 | 0:38:01 | |
Mate, I am super, super happy for you, I proper am and... | 0:38:01 | 0:38:05 | |
that's brilliant news. | 0:38:05 | 0:38:07 | |
'I'll definitely keep you in touch with everything and, you know...' | 0:38:07 | 0:38:10 | |
All right, matey. Speak soon. | 0:38:11 | 0:38:13 | |
Bye. | 0:38:13 | 0:38:15 | |
After hearing how easy it was for James and his dad | 0:38:23 | 0:38:26 | |
to reconnect on Facebook, Jono's sure about one thing. | 0:38:26 | 0:38:30 | |
I do feel that maybe one day | 0:38:31 | 0:38:35 | |
I will meet my siblings | 0:38:35 | 0:38:38 | |
and I have got a feeling that we're going to have a conversation | 0:38:38 | 0:38:42 | |
of why didn't we do this sooner? | 0:38:42 | 0:38:44 | |
At the moment, I'm in a good place and I reckon I am coping with it. | 0:38:45 | 0:38:51 | |
Although saying that though, yesterday I was in tears, | 0:38:51 | 0:38:54 | |
so maybe I'm not coping with it so well. | 0:38:54 | 0:38:57 | |
I don't... I don't... I don't know. | 0:39:04 | 0:39:07 | |
I don't know any more, do you know? Erm... | 0:39:09 | 0:39:12 | |
Aware that Jono might need some cheering up, | 0:39:31 | 0:39:34 | |
Laura prepares a special meal. | 0:39:34 | 0:39:36 | |
-Hi, Wauwa. -Hey. -Something smells like it's burning. -It's not burning! | 0:39:38 | 0:39:43 | |
-How you doing? -All right. I burnt my fingers. | 0:39:43 | 0:39:47 | |
I knew you'd open that as soon as you got in. Blows leaves everywhere. | 0:39:47 | 0:39:51 | |
Better than setting the fire alarm off. | 0:39:53 | 0:39:55 | |
-I set the fire alarm off as well. -Have you? | 0:39:55 | 0:39:58 | |
-Don't be eyeing up the salad like that! -I'm admiring it! | 0:39:58 | 0:40:03 | |
-I think it looks really nice! -It does, it looks lovely! | 0:40:05 | 0:40:08 | |
What?! | 0:40:14 | 0:40:15 | |
Thank you, Laura! | 0:40:15 | 0:40:17 | |
He's got OCD with his food, did you not notice? | 0:40:26 | 0:40:29 | |
He ate all his cucumber first and then his sugar snap peas | 0:40:29 | 0:40:33 | |
and then his lettuce and left all the chicken for last, | 0:40:33 | 0:40:37 | |
and then he's going to, like, devour the chicken, | 0:40:37 | 0:40:40 | |
not even chew it to taste it. | 0:40:40 | 0:40:42 | |
And then say it were really nice | 0:40:42 | 0:40:43 | |
and I don't understand how he can enjoy it like that! | 0:40:43 | 0:40:46 | |
-Do you think the chicken is a bit dry? -No, you cooked it lovely! | 0:40:46 | 0:40:51 | |
It doesn't take long for the conversation to return | 0:40:57 | 0:41:01 | |
to the subject of Jono's adoption | 0:41:01 | 0:41:03 | |
and why he thinks his parents gave him up. | 0:41:03 | 0:41:06 | |
-I think this is why we disagree on your parents. -Why? | 0:41:06 | 0:41:09 | |
Because you've had all these years to make excuses for them. | 0:41:09 | 0:41:12 | |
Whether they were right or whether they were wrong, | 0:41:12 | 0:41:15 | |
you're convinced they did it for the right reasons, | 0:41:15 | 0:41:18 | |
but you don't know that. But you've convinced yourself. | 0:41:18 | 0:41:22 | |
They did it for the right reasons, | 0:41:22 | 0:41:24 | |
the right reasons for them was that... | 0:41:24 | 0:41:27 | |
they didn't want to deal with that situation. | 0:41:27 | 0:41:29 | |
They wanted to stay together, | 0:41:29 | 0:41:30 | |
-they felt... -But an outsider looks at that as being quite selfish. | 0:41:30 | 0:41:34 | |
No, but they did it for love, like you'd do anything for me. | 0:41:40 | 0:41:44 | |
-What's that look for? -No, I'm not doing a look. | 0:41:45 | 0:41:48 | |
Back to the point, I think people who are adopted | 0:41:52 | 0:41:55 | |
just try and justify it for them to make themselves feel better. | 0:41:55 | 0:41:58 | |
Trying to get closure on it. | 0:41:58 | 0:42:00 | |
Not necessarily closure, it's just you've got all these questions | 0:42:00 | 0:42:03 | |
that need answering and they're never ever going to get answered, | 0:42:03 | 0:42:07 | |
-so you kind of start answering them yourself. -Yeah, I suppose. | 0:42:07 | 0:42:10 | |
And as well a little bit of trying to make yourself feel better | 0:42:10 | 0:42:14 | |
by painting a more pleasant picture of, maybe, reality. | 0:42:14 | 0:42:20 | |
Jono's in contact with a woman who's been traced online by her son | 0:42:27 | 0:42:30 | |
who she gave up for adoption as a baby. | 0:42:30 | 0:42:34 | |
'I've never ever had the opportunity | 0:42:34 | 0:42:36 | |
'to meet somebody who's given up a child for adoption. | 0:42:36 | 0:42:39 | |
'Pretty scared about meeting her, nervous.' | 0:42:39 | 0:42:42 | |
-Would you like to come and sit down here? -Thank you. | 0:42:47 | 0:42:51 | |
Well, I gave a child up for adoption when I was 18, which was 1975. | 0:42:51 | 0:42:57 | |
I don't regret the decision because, you know, | 0:42:57 | 0:43:01 | |
it's something that...at the time, it was the '70s, | 0:43:01 | 0:43:05 | |
and it wasn't accepted to be a single parent like it is today. | 0:43:05 | 0:43:08 | |
I never wanted to look for him, | 0:43:08 | 0:43:11 | |
-I've never wanted to search for him because... -Why? | 0:43:11 | 0:43:14 | |
Well, because I thought, | 0:43:14 | 0:43:15 | |
what if his parents hadn't told him he was adopted at all in his life | 0:43:15 | 0:43:19 | |
and then I sort of drop a bombshell on him. | 0:43:19 | 0:43:23 | |
Did you ever wonder or think that maybe one day he'd get in touch? | 0:43:23 | 0:43:28 | |
Yeah, I did, I always hoped he would. | 0:43:28 | 0:43:30 | |
-Did you make yourself known on a social networking site? -Yes, I did. | 0:43:30 | 0:43:34 | |
I joined Facebook and I joined Genes Reunited, | 0:43:34 | 0:43:38 | |
where he found my family tree. | 0:43:38 | 0:43:40 | |
And a message came up at the end of August last year | 0:43:40 | 0:43:44 | |
-when we were on holiday. -On Facebook? -On Facebook. | 0:43:44 | 0:43:46 | |
When I opened it up it said, | 0:43:46 | 0:43:49 | |
"You might not want to reply to this, | 0:43:49 | 0:43:51 | |
"but I was born on the 22nd of June 1975." | 0:43:51 | 0:43:56 | |
I said, "Oh, my goodness! My son's found me!" | 0:43:56 | 0:44:00 | |
Then a couple of days later I got the telephone number for him | 0:44:00 | 0:44:03 | |
and I rang him up. | 0:44:03 | 0:44:05 | |
-We just got on like a house on fire. -Really? -Yeah, really good. | 0:44:05 | 0:44:08 | |
And he said, "I'm just so pleased I found you." | 0:44:08 | 0:44:11 | |
And I said, "Well, if you want to come down and see us..." | 0:44:11 | 0:44:14 | |
-He said, "Yes, I'd love that. I'm free next weekend." -That's brilliant! That's really good. | 0:44:14 | 0:44:20 | |
It's been like he's never been away, you know, he's always been here! | 0:44:20 | 0:44:26 | |
When Jono hears about successful reunions | 0:44:36 | 0:44:40 | |
or thinks about his siblings, | 0:44:40 | 0:44:41 | |
his thoughts always return to his parents | 0:44:41 | 0:44:43 | |
and how they've made it clear they want no further contact with him. | 0:44:43 | 0:44:48 | |
So much of Jono's life has been out of his control, | 0:44:48 | 0:44:51 | |
he likes to keep his daily routines ordered. | 0:44:51 | 0:44:54 | |
All my gym stuff's in here... | 0:44:54 | 0:44:56 | |
like, I keep my shorts and my tops separate, really. | 0:44:56 | 0:45:02 | |
But then even my gym stuff's got a bit of an order. | 0:45:02 | 0:45:05 | |
I've got stuff that I do my fighting in, | 0:45:05 | 0:45:08 | |
erm, so that's them two stuff. | 0:45:08 | 0:45:10 | |
And then I've got tops and shorts that I'll do weights in, | 0:45:10 | 0:45:16 | |
erm, I've got stuff that I'll specifically go running in. | 0:45:16 | 0:45:19 | |
And everything has... | 0:45:19 | 0:45:22 | |
I even have a revealing vest that I'll do my bicep curls with. | 0:45:22 | 0:45:27 | |
So everything, you know, has its purpose! | 0:45:27 | 0:45:31 | |
The stuff I'm wearing now is stuff I knock around the house in. | 0:45:31 | 0:45:35 | |
Erm, I've got clothes that are just for work, | 0:45:35 | 0:45:38 | |
I've got clothes that I'll go out with my friends in | 0:45:38 | 0:45:41 | |
and then I've got clothes that I'll go out-out in, | 0:45:41 | 0:45:44 | |
erm, and then I've got T-shirts that I'll... | 0:45:44 | 0:45:47 | |
Say if I'm driving for a few hours, | 0:45:47 | 0:45:50 | |
I'll have specific T-shirt or rough clothes | 0:45:50 | 0:45:53 | |
that I'll wear in the car. | 0:45:53 | 0:45:55 | |
And then when I get to that destination, | 0:45:55 | 0:45:57 | |
I'll change quickly into my nice clothes. | 0:45:57 | 0:45:59 | |
So again, everything has a purpose and everything has a place as well. | 0:45:59 | 0:46:04 | |
I've come for an early-morning swim before work. | 0:46:08 | 0:46:11 | |
I've got so much going on in my head. | 0:46:11 | 0:46:15 | |
You know, these exercises give you such a release | 0:46:15 | 0:46:21 | |
from all that frustration and all that emotion. | 0:46:21 | 0:46:25 | |
It does me the world of good. | 0:46:25 | 0:46:27 | |
'I do have issues with rejection, | 0:46:42 | 0:46:44 | |
'I do find rejection really hard to deal with, | 0:46:44 | 0:46:47 | |
'but that wouldn't stop me | 0:46:47 | 0:46:48 | |
'from trying to get in touch with my siblings. | 0:46:48 | 0:46:51 | |
'If I get rejected again, I know I'd be able to deal with it. | 0:46:51 | 0:46:55 | |
'It might really upset me, it might be painful, but I'll get through it.' | 0:46:55 | 0:46:59 | |
Jono's going to meet a girl who had the chance to reconnect | 0:47:08 | 0:47:12 | |
with her birth sibling online, but was forced to make a difficult decision. | 0:47:12 | 0:47:16 | |
I wake up every day | 0:47:16 | 0:47:19 | |
thinking, maybe today will be the day I'll change my mind | 0:47:19 | 0:47:25 | |
and I'll be more, "Fuck it, I'm going to send my siblings a message." | 0:47:25 | 0:47:29 | |
And that's what I hope from all these meetings. | 0:47:29 | 0:47:32 | |
I hope they have a story or a situation to make me think, | 0:47:32 | 0:47:37 | |
"Oh, my God, yeah, you're right!" | 0:47:37 | 0:47:39 | |
Sasha was given up at birth. | 0:47:46 | 0:47:48 | |
She knows she has biological half-siblings, | 0:47:48 | 0:47:50 | |
but doesn't think they know she exists. | 0:47:50 | 0:47:53 | |
I did end up having a strange coincidence on Twitter, | 0:47:53 | 0:47:58 | |
which led me to have contact with one of my siblings. | 0:47:58 | 0:48:03 | |
Sasha was online | 0:48:03 | 0:48:04 | |
and spotted a profile that looked unexpectedly familiar. | 0:48:04 | 0:48:07 | |
I looked at it again | 0:48:07 | 0:48:10 | |
and I thought either this is a real coincidence or it was my sibling, | 0:48:10 | 0:48:16 | |
because the parents have got exactly the same names | 0:48:16 | 0:48:20 | |
as my biological mother and her new husband. | 0:48:20 | 0:48:24 | |
I was in a real dilemma as to what I should do. | 0:48:24 | 0:48:27 | |
Sasha's worry was that her birth mother | 0:48:27 | 0:48:30 | |
had never told her siblings about her existence. | 0:48:30 | 0:48:32 | |
If I was the one to blow it open and cause a hurt, I couldn't do it. | 0:48:32 | 0:48:39 | |
So I just deleted everything off, cut off all contact. | 0:48:39 | 0:48:43 | |
Do you think your half-siblings have a right to know you exist? | 0:48:43 | 0:48:48 | |
They have a right to know, | 0:48:48 | 0:48:49 | |
but a right to know coming from the parents, | 0:48:49 | 0:48:52 | |
rather than a right to know through me. | 0:48:52 | 0:48:58 | |
It's so nice and refreshing to actually have somebody say, | 0:48:58 | 0:49:02 | |
"Oh, I think you're doing the right thing and I'm the same." | 0:49:02 | 0:49:05 | |
No-one else apart from someone that's been through that | 0:49:05 | 0:49:08 | |
can really...really understand, I don't think. | 0:49:08 | 0:49:12 | |
-Because you have to do what feels... what is true to you, I think. -Yeah. | 0:49:12 | 0:49:17 | |
'The best thing about meeting Sasha today | 0:49:21 | 0:49:25 | |
'was that her thought processes | 0:49:25 | 0:49:29 | |
'and quite a lot of the way she dealt with things | 0:49:29 | 0:49:32 | |
'were quite similar to mine. | 0:49:32 | 0:49:33 | |
'It's just good to know that I'm not on my own.' | 0:49:33 | 0:49:36 | |
Everybody agrees that my siblings finding out about me | 0:49:36 | 0:49:41 | |
from my birth parents is the best way | 0:49:41 | 0:49:44 | |
and I think that's something I want to do | 0:49:44 | 0:49:46 | |
and that's something... That's my next step. | 0:49:46 | 0:49:49 | |
When Jono gets home to Wakefield he's come to a decision. | 0:49:58 | 0:50:01 | |
Facebook's not the best way to get in touch with his siblings. | 0:50:04 | 0:50:08 | |
He wants to go through his adoption agency | 0:50:08 | 0:50:11 | |
and see if they'll contact his birth parents on his behalf. | 0:50:11 | 0:50:15 | |
He believes sooner or later his siblings are going | 0:50:17 | 0:50:20 | |
to find out about him and he has to do something about it. | 0:50:20 | 0:50:23 | |
I'm about to call the mediator | 0:50:29 | 0:50:31 | |
and see if she has any advice straightaway, | 0:50:31 | 0:50:37 | |
what to do about my siblings | 0:50:37 | 0:50:39 | |
and getting in touch with them. | 0:50:39 | 0:50:42 | |
A couple of years ago, I used you guys | 0:50:42 | 0:50:45 | |
to, erm, contact my birth parents. | 0:50:45 | 0:50:48 | |
The siblings probably wouldn't know anything about me | 0:50:49 | 0:50:52 | |
and I get the impression that my birth parents, | 0:50:52 | 0:50:55 | |
they've fought so hard to keep me a secret | 0:50:55 | 0:50:58 | |
and to keep their family unit together, | 0:50:58 | 0:51:00 | |
the last thing I want to do | 0:51:00 | 0:51:02 | |
is cause any aggro or any upset | 0:51:02 | 0:51:05 | |
between my siblings and my birth parents. | 0:51:05 | 0:51:08 | |
That is the last thing I want to do. | 0:51:08 | 0:51:10 | |
I think it would be even worse | 0:51:12 | 0:51:14 | |
if a mutual friend, or an extended family, | 0:51:14 | 0:51:17 | |
or some other way my siblings found out | 0:51:17 | 0:51:19 | |
and then that makes it even worse for the birth parents, | 0:51:19 | 0:51:23 | |
like, "Why didn't you tell us?" | 0:51:23 | 0:51:25 | |
And... I don't know, I'm wanting... I'm hoping my birth parents | 0:51:25 | 0:51:30 | |
are going to tell them. | 0:51:30 | 0:51:32 | |
And it's... Yeah. | 0:51:32 | 0:51:36 | |
I would like to look at the option | 0:51:36 | 0:51:38 | |
of sending something to my birth parents, just saying, | 0:51:38 | 0:51:41 | |
"Look, this is what Jonathan knows. | 0:51:41 | 0:51:44 | |
"Maybe you want to do something about it, maybe you don't, | 0:51:44 | 0:51:47 | |
"but this is what Jonathan knows." | 0:51:47 | 0:51:50 | |
Cool. | 0:51:52 | 0:51:54 | |
Thank you very much and I really appreciate it. | 0:51:54 | 0:51:56 | |
All right, thanks, bye. | 0:51:56 | 0:51:58 | |
Bye. | 0:51:58 | 0:51:59 | |
'Her motto was taking things slowly often gets you further.' | 0:52:04 | 0:52:08 | |
I just wait for an appointment. | 0:52:08 | 0:52:10 | |
That waiting's made easier | 0:52:10 | 0:52:12 | |
by the fact that I've got my mum and Claire and Stephen and Laura. | 0:52:12 | 0:52:17 | |
That waiting's not so bad cos I've got good people around me. | 0:52:17 | 0:52:21 | |
I think if I didn't have them there, | 0:52:21 | 0:52:24 | |
I don't know if I'd be able to wait three months. | 0:52:24 | 0:52:26 | |
With an appointment in the diary, | 0:52:37 | 0:52:40 | |
Jono can concentrate on getting back to spending time with Laura. | 0:52:40 | 0:52:44 | |
What we having for tea? | 0:52:44 | 0:52:46 | |
-Veg? -Yeah. | 0:52:48 | 0:52:51 | |
-Courgette, mushrooms, tomatoes... -I want one of them cream buns! | 0:52:51 | 0:52:54 | |
Full of vitamins and minerals! | 0:52:54 | 0:52:56 | |
-I should be a size six, but I'm not! -Laura's on a diet you see. | 0:52:58 | 0:53:02 | |
All I've been eating is soup every day. | 0:53:02 | 0:53:04 | |
-By the time I got home last night I were ravenous! -Ravenous? | 0:53:04 | 0:53:08 | |
-Yeah. -Is that an actual word? -Yeah. It means really hungry... | 0:53:08 | 0:53:12 | |
-I think! -No, ravished. | 0:53:12 | 0:53:14 | |
-No, ravenous. I'm ravenous! -You're not ravenous, it's ravished! | 0:53:14 | 0:53:20 | |
-Yeah! No! -It is! -No. | 0:53:20 | 0:53:23 | |
Yeah, I'm ravished or I'm ravenous! | 0:53:23 | 0:53:27 | |
A rainy summer's not going to stop Jono and Laura | 0:53:28 | 0:53:31 | |
from hosting their first family BBQ in their new home together. | 0:53:31 | 0:53:35 | |
I'll eat it, Laura. Especially if you've made it. | 0:53:35 | 0:53:39 | |
Shut up! You're so sarcastic. | 0:53:39 | 0:53:43 | |
Ooh, nearly lost a finger. | 0:53:44 | 0:53:47 | |
-Can we try and not spend the night in A&E, please? -Nearly. | 0:53:47 | 0:53:51 | |
Oh, you idiot! | 0:53:51 | 0:53:53 | |
Little piece of kitchen roll. | 0:53:53 | 0:53:55 | |
-What a moron. -Not a good start, is it? | 0:53:58 | 0:54:02 | |
Oh, well, could have been worse, could have been on the way to A&E. | 0:54:03 | 0:54:09 | |
Oh, that looks like it really hurts. It actually makes me cringe. | 0:54:09 | 0:54:14 | |
-You need to kiss it better, Wauwa! -I'm not kissing that. | 0:54:14 | 0:54:17 | |
But it would make me feel better. | 0:54:17 | 0:54:19 | |
-You can clear your blood up and you can do one. -And another one, please? | 0:54:21 | 0:54:27 | |
That one's split. Shouldn't you have stuck them so they didn't split? | 0:54:29 | 0:54:34 | |
I know. Don't really know what I'm doing, to be fair. | 0:54:34 | 0:54:37 | |
-Thank you, love. -Do you need a hand? | 0:54:38 | 0:54:41 | |
No, we're under control. | 0:54:41 | 0:54:43 | |
-How you doing? -All right, how are you? | 0:54:43 | 0:54:45 | |
-Good. -We get lost every time we come. | 0:54:45 | 0:54:47 | |
-Hiya! -All right? -Hiya! | 0:54:47 | 0:54:51 | |
Does anybody want a burger or a hot dog? No? | 0:54:55 | 0:55:00 | |
No point in cooking, is there? | 0:55:02 | 0:55:04 | |
Jono can't have his birth family there, | 0:55:11 | 0:55:13 | |
but he's got all of his adoptive family together - | 0:55:13 | 0:55:17 | |
the family he's always known. | 0:55:17 | 0:55:19 | |
That's my family down there. | 0:55:21 | 0:55:23 | |
I do at times get so caught up about my siblings | 0:55:23 | 0:55:27 | |
and my birth family and stuff, and I do often, | 0:55:27 | 0:55:30 | |
not forget about them, but I take them for granted and... | 0:55:30 | 0:55:34 | |
I think it's very easy to lose sight of what you've got. | 0:55:34 | 0:55:37 | |
I think a lot of people chase things they can't have | 0:55:37 | 0:55:41 | |
or are out of reach. | 0:55:41 | 0:55:43 | |
Or we're so focussed on doing something | 0:55:43 | 0:55:45 | |
that we lose what we have got, | 0:55:45 | 0:55:47 | |
what's right in front of our eyes, you know? | 0:55:47 | 0:55:50 | |
-But no, I think they all know how much I love them. -You coming down? | 0:55:50 | 0:55:55 | |
Yeah, yeah. | 0:55:55 | 0:55:56 | |
I need another plaster on my finger. | 0:55:58 | 0:56:00 | |
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