Episode 34 Inside Out

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BBC News, inside out report on the

growing problem of knife crime. Good

evening. This week, the young people

trying to stop my crime in their

keen unity and the women using

social media to help others battling

eating disorders. -- in their

community.

Hello, I'm Keeley Donovan.

This week we're in Leeds.

Coming up on the programme:

A year since the death

of teenager, Irfan Wahid,

the young people still living

in fear of knife crime.

Do you still carry

a knife now?

No, not really.

Not really?

Also tonight, the woman

battling an eating disorder

but trying to inspire

others to be healthy.

Being hot wasn't good enough.

The only thing that

would've been good enough

is if my heart stopped.

That's the only thing that

would've satisfied my

anorexia.

And later in the programme,

like a duck to water,

looking back at one

of the most notorious sports

finals of all time.

ARCHIVE:

It was certainly the

wettest Wembley in history.

In some areas, living

with the threat of knife crime

has become an everyday

reality and one that

gets vastly underreported.

Next week marks a year

since 16-year-old Irfan Wahid

was stabbed and killed

in Harehills, Leeds.

Our reporter, Tracey Gee,

has been speaking to people,

including members of Irfan's

family, who are determined

to change things

for the better.

Some people feel like they

can't be safe in Harehills.

Around the streets, there's

loads of crime and that

and you need

to protect yourself.

You can't really trust anyone,

really now, can you?

I have reported on many murder

cases, knife crime incidents

and stabbings, but I get

to go home afterwards

and you are saddened

by the loss of life,

but imagine if that's your

home, that's your reality,

that's your family.

Harehills, East Leeds,

is home for the boys

at this youth club.

Boys who used to be out

on the street, some

with a blade in their pocket.

Screwdrivers, little

table knives, anything

that was sharp, to be honest,

anything that could protect me

from anyone else.

Why did you carry it?

Because it made me feel safe,

that's what it was.

It made me feel like a bigger

person but, when I think

about it now, it was stupid.

Everything changed on the 10th

of February, last year,

when their friend,

Irfan Wahid, was

stabbed and killed.

The 17-year-old attacker

said he carried a knife

for his own protection.

He is now serving time

for manslaughter.

When it is someone that

you know, it gets to you.

So you understand what could

happen and the consequences.

They set up this youth club

in the wake of Irfan Wahid's

death.

One of the leaders had

a personal reason for doing

this - Irfan was his cousin.

The person you grew up with,

who you shared most

of your life with...it's...

It is pretty shocking.

It upsets me every day.

Till this day, I still think

Harehills could be safer.

I helped push kids off

the street and bring

them to here.

I do not want one of

their family, or one

of their friends to pass away.

I wouldn't let my worst enemy

feel the pain I felt.

I would not wish it

upon anyone.

Yeah, we've got over 60 young

people now attending...

They brought most of the boys

into the youth club by walking

the streets

and talking to them.

The lads come to us because we

are part of the community

as well and they are not

shy to talk to us.

Some of the young people

they come across are growing

up in a culture where everyday

objects, like these,

are being used as weapons.

Two of the boys who go to this

club spent time in youth

offenders institutions

for possessing a blade.

No one could fight with their

fists, there's all these

knives, hammers,

and all sorts around.

You say no one has a fight any

more without a weapon?

No one.

What sort of things

are we talking?

Knives and hammers,

screwdrivers.

At one point, do

you know what I did?

Basically, I was in

the classroom and you know

the sharpeners, like,

there's this blade part,

I used to take that out

and keep it in my pocket.

You mean you were at school?

Yeah.

Do you still carry

a knife now?

Not really.

Not really?

Obviously, if I feel I may

be in danger that day,

I carry something on me,

but I'm not scared to cut

someone in the throat,

something like that.

Doesn't it exacerbate

the problem if you pull

a knife on somebody?

Yeah, it does, but obviously

you have to stay protected.

I don't want to die at a young age.

Knife crime has been a reality

in Harehills for a long time.

Four years before Irfan

Wahid's death at just 16,

Kieran Butterworth was stabbed

just a couple of streets away.

He was 17.

When he got took away

in the ambulance, a taxi had

been driving past,

and I stopped the taxi.

Me, me mate, and me partner

jumped in the taxi.

When we've actually arrived

at the A&E, the ambulance

doors were open, and the bed

that they transported him off

on was still outside,

covered in blood.

It is like I just knew.

My legs just went

from underneath me.

Everyday, it's stuck in my

mind, ain't it, obviously.

I remember him and the

stuff we used to do.

And that day is stuck forever.

Guilty of murder,

over £170 drug debt -

when you see that...

It gets me angry.

It weren't even £170.

He only owed the man £100.

My son's dead because he owed

a man £100 for cannabis.

Sarah is Kieran's mum.

Like a bomb just exploded

and this big nothingness.

Sarah's loss centres

on a mission - to stop other

young people carrying knives.

You have a picture here...

Explain this to me?

I go into schools and I spill

my heart and I try to make

a difference, to re-educate

these children that it is not

good to carry a knife,

that you're not safe

for carrying a knife.

I have been doing it ever

since he died and I don't feel

I am reaching a big

enough audience.

So she started

a university degree.

I'm doing teaching, next year

I'm doing counselling so that

I can offer support and help

lots of bereavement groups.

Hopefully keep the attention

on knife crime awareness

in the community because

it is getting worse.

Knife crime is on the rise.

Last year, West Yorkshire

police made 481 arrests

for possession of a bladed

weapon - that's more than one

a day, and a third more

than the year before.

Sarah thinks the police

could be doing more.

I'm hearing every day,

this has happened, that's

happened, somebody's

been stabbed.

Deal with it, put strategies

in place to change things.

As you can see

that's a machete...

A knife amnesty is just one

of West Yorkshire's police

responses.

We are working really hard

to educate young people right

across the force that carrying

a knife is not the answer.

You have dealt with

grieving families.

We have spoken to some

of those grieving families

and they've said to us,

the police force are not doing

enough.

What would you like

to say to that?

It would disappoint me that

a grieving family that we have

supported as much as we

possibly can through very,

very tragic and upsetting

circumstances do not feel

that we are doing enough.

We do recognise that we have

had an increase in knife crime

but we are committed as a

force to dealing with that,

and addressing it, bringing

people to justice and getting

knives off the streets

of West Yorkshire.

Back in Harehills,

the street team are bringing

boys on side.

With this youth club

and all of these guys,

I do feel safer in my area

because they do help out,

they're out there,

they're in the streets,

and they're helping people.

Without the youth club,

we would be probably be local

drug dealers and no one

would care but here everyone

shows respect and

they care about you.

If you have a story you would

like to tell us about,

you can contact us

on Facebook or Twitter.

Coming up on Inside Out...

Splashing fun - we remember

the rugby league game that

descended into farce.

Now to the story of

a beautiful young woman

who posts pictures of herself

on Instagram to more

than 80,000 followers -

it doesn't sound particularly

unusual, does it?

But Bonnie Inglis' photos

are not about fashion

or make-up, they're

a statement about her recovery

from an eating disorder that

has dominated her life

since her early teens.

She's told her story

to Lucy Hester.

82,000 people are about to get

a new photograph of Connie

Inglis.

I'm just trying to figure out

what clothes to wear

for my picture today,

for my Instagram.

It just depends on what I'm

feeling and what I would say

to myself that day.

Connie posts images of herself

to her followers in Instagram

most days.

It is a visual record

of her recovery from anorexia.

I think people follow me

because I tried to be truthful

in my account.

Rather than just show

positive sides of recovery,

I show a lot of the negative

sides and how hard it is.

Connie's blog celebrates the

fact that she is still alive.

She has struggled with

anorexia since she was ten

and has been hospitalised

three times in nine years.

I do try and show the reality

for what a normal body is -

like I do not photo shop,

I do not use editing

on Instagram, I do not

put filters on there.

I do comparison photos

of breathing in and out,

sitting down, versus standing

up, just the different

ways your body moves.

So I'm trying to say that

all these things are normal

and that most of the

population has them and not

everyone has to look

like a Victoria's Secret model

all the time.

Newsflash, you have a body,

there is no wrong way

to have a body -

it is completely yours

and it is beautiful.

I'm beautiful, you're

beautiful, everybody

is beautiful so the next time

body too small comes to play,

remember what you know

not what you think.

Connie's posts today

is a kickback against

bod body image.

I do it still because I really

love helping people

and I think that it is really

important for people

going through recovery,

especially, to realise

they are not alone

in their struggles.

No matter how hard it gets,

it can always get better.

You don't have to give up.

Do you feel like

giving up sometimes?

Yeah.

Yeah, I do.

Connie is officially

in recovery, a healthy weight

and recently discharged

from outpatient care but two

years ago she almost died.

That's from January 2016.

I was emergency admitted

to Saint James.

You seem very,

very thin there.

Yeah, I was bedridden

and stuff like that so,

I couldn't leave my bed

without a wheelchair.

Here, Connie aged 20 weight

about as much as a 5-year-old

child and was sectioned

to prevent her from starving

herself to death.

I was a really low weight.

My white blood cells

were really low and my heart

rate was really low

so they admitted me and put me

on a tube feed.

I was not taking in any

of the tube feed, I was still

capable of pulling it out

so they put a bridle

in my nose, which is like

a tube that goes around

the back of the bone,

so if you pull it out you pull

the bone out.

I didn't really care

about living, dying, whatever.

I didn't mind.

I just wanted to lose

the weight, everything,

'cause it had gotten

to the point where...

cos it had gotten

to the point where...

Being in hospital

wasn't good enough.

The only thing that would have

been good enough is if my

heart stopped and that is

the only thing that would have

satisfied my anorexia.

The impact on Connie's

family has been huge.

Years of visiting hospitals

and being powerless

to halt the illness.

The last time, Connie

was in two years ago,

um, I went every day at least

once and we normally chatted

if she was up

for talking but...

Unless I asked you to leave.

..If she wasn't up for talking

and wanted me to leave...

I was not a nice person

sometimes when I was ill

so I did frequently ask him

to leave, tell him to get out,

which was really lovely

of me, sorry, Dad.

It gets worse than that.

Yeah, but I do appreciate

you sticking around

even though I didn't

at the time.

I don't think you get a choice

to stick around when you're

a dad, darling.

Yeah, I know.

Did you think

that she would die?

Twice I think I did.

She has such a strong

will and but I always sort

of believed that that

will would be turned around

and she would fight it.

So even at the point

where I was told she had

a couple of weeks to live

if we didn't do something

differently, I do not think

I ever really believed that

that was going to happen

but as her dad I probably just

did not want to face that.

My drawer is predominately sweets

because I don't eat them.

So these are sweets

that you don't eat?

So who bought the sweets,

did you buy the sweets?

I bought the sweets to try and eat

the sweets because I feel

like I should, but...

You feel like you should be able

to conquer that fear?

Yeah.

So, is that - are those

fear foods for you?

Yeah.

Which are the most

difficult of those?

Um...

The sweets probably,

processed sugar scares me.

Mm hm.

Why is it scary?

I think it's just left over

from my eating disorder,

like, I think it's just

a habit that's still there,

that I subconsciously avoid them.

So what kind of things did you try,

what kind of things did

you challenge yourself to eat?

Milk, um...

Cheese...

Oh God, this is going

to be a long list.

Pizza, pasta, corn, butter,

bread, noodles, fish.

OK.

So all those things you found

difficult to eat, so now you've

challenged yourself and you have

eaten all of those things?

Yeah.

Do they form part of your

diet generally now?

Yeah.

Today, her attitude to food

is a bit more relaxed.

I enjoy cooking for people.

It seems a bit pointless to spend

an hour on a dish if I'm just

cooking for little old me.

Connie is eating rice

and mackerel for lunch,

a sensible meal, but she wouldn't

eat it in front of us.

Eating disorders are on the rise.

Anorexia has the highest mortality

rate of any psychiatric illness -

less than half of sufferers

will fully recover.

During our filming, it

becomes clear that Connie,

while generally feeling positive,

does struggle with her recovery

and worries that she might relapse.

I have asked for further treatment,

not to do with my eating disorder

but to do with the initial problems

that caused my eating disorder.

But...

The NHS doesn't have

enough funding to help,

which is very annoying

because it seems like...

If I'm not starving myself, then no

one's going to take me seriously.

Despite her struggles,

Connie is making huge strides

in her recovery.

In her last year at

Leeds Art University,

she's planning an extraordinary

installation for her final

exhibition.

Connie has made Barbie and Bratz

dolls body pieces out of boiled

and coloured sugar.

I'm really interested to see

the colour that's starting

to come through these.

Can you talk a bit about your

choice of colour palette?

I was trying to make them

all really bright colours,

and I just really liked

the whole concept -

like the whole idea of it all being

really appealing and sickly.

Connie's work is still in the early

stages, but it will be an ironic

twist on the pressures

on women to be thin.

A lot of young girls's toys do

encourage poor body image,

and people aspire to be

this model like figure.

If Barbie was a real woman,

she would not have half her organs,

she would be classed

as severely anorexic,

if not dead.

Did that strike a chord with you?

Yeah, it was a bit...

It was just ridiculous.

I can't help but be struck

by Connie's talent and vitality,

but it's clear that after ten years,

she's still waging an internal

battle between happiness

and despair and hope and fear.

The fact that I actually feel

like I have a future is brilliant.

I want to not relapse again,

that would be really great.

I'd like to finish university.

I'm a lot happier than I was,

and a lot more positive

than I was in the depths

of my eating disorder.

We get our fair share of wet

days but our next story

is about a particularly soggy one.

In 1968, the Rugby League Challenge

Cup final between Leeds

and Wakefield Trinity was played

in torrential conditions.

So much so, that it became known

as the Watersplash final.

Well, 50 years on, Leeds Rhinos star

Jamie Jones-Buchanan has been

finding out why the game has lasted

so long in the memory.

This weekend saw the opening

round of Super League,

rugby league's premier competition.

2018 marks my 20th straight season

playing for the same club,

Leeds Rhinos.

But this year, there's another

rugby league anniversary.

It's 50 years since one

of the wettest major sporting

occasions in the history

of British sport.

NEWSREEL: Wembley,

the Rugby League Cup final,

Leeds versus Wakefield Trinity.

May 11 1968, Wembley was poised

and ready for what was undoubtedly

back then the biggest event

of the rugby calendar,

the Challenge Cup final.

The last time my club,

Leeds, had reached a final

at Wembley was 1957.

Wakefield, on the other hand,

had won the trophy in 1960,

62 and 63.

The venue, London's Empire

Stadium at Wembley.

Before Super Rugby,

the Challenge Cup final was always

played in May and more often

than not, the weather was always

warm and sunny, but the 1968 final,

the heavens opened.

NEWSREEL:

Wembley was witnessing

a soggy, soggy duel.

Water polo players would

have been more at home

than the 26 rugby leaguers.

It was certainly the wettest

Wembley in history.

So much rain fell that day that

for obvious reasons,

it's usually referred

to as the Watersplash final.

Many people said the game should

have been called off,

but with 87,000 people in the ground

- most of which had travelled down

from Yorkshire - the referee

and probably the rugby football

league said the show must go on.

NEWSREEL: 1968 rugby league

Challenge Cup final...

The rivalry between neighbours,

Leeds and Wakefield,

remains fierce, so I was more

than a little bit nervous

when I visited Charleston Rovers

rugby league club in a former pit

village, on the edge of Wakefield.

I was there to watch the game

and to meet some people who remember

the Watersplash final

as if it were yesterday.

I wouldn't say it was the best game,

I think it's probably the most

memorable rugby league game ever.

This guy came rushing in about 15

minutes before kickoff,

we're all there in

the dressing room.

"You'll never believe it", he said,

"it's absolutely throwing it down."

On slightly safer ground

at Headingley - the home of my club,

Leeds Rhinos - I also met up

with some of that 1968 Leeds side.

We're standing in the tunnel.

"This is it, boys, this is it."

And we walked out into the sunshine,

but it's like a lake.

The water covered your boots.

I've never played in conditions

like that before, it was...

Frightening at times.

One tackle I made, Ian Brooke broke

clear and I were covering the cross

and I took him down,

and we slid 15 yards.

Everybody was slipping and sliding.

When somebody come in to tackle ya,

it were like somebody diving

in the two feet end

and you were like...

Trying to get water

out of your mouth.

But the climax of the Watersplash

final was still to be told.

With the game already

deep in injury time,

Leeds were four points clear.

Wakefield Trinity needed both a try

and a conversion to win.

And surely, there was

no time for either.

COMMENTATOR:

Oh, he's

gone over for a try!

He's got a try.

It's a try!

It's been saved at

the last minute, try!

Everyone jumps up and

thought "we snatched it".

How did it feel when it went in?

Did you think "we've got

this, we've done it"?

If you watch the thing,

I'm jumping up and down

like somebody was just deposed.

You know, I'm so embarrassed.

I'm so embarrassed when I look

at it, I'm doing this and giving it

all this, and you know.

But that's how it felt,

it were that emotional coming out.

I can't believe it.

I couldn't believe it.

Like this, and then we're just

waiting for Don to kick it.

It's a formality really,

and Don kicked the ball.

Normally, Wakefield's goalkicker

was Don Fox's brother and teammate,

Neil.

But Neil was watching the game

from the stands with an injury,

so Wakefield's fate

and the Watersplash final lay

in Don's hands.

No pressure.

How did you feel?

Was he a player or was he your

brother, or was he a bit of both?

Did you have nerves,

what was going through your mind?

That I wish it was me who was taking

the kick at the time.

Right.

Because Don was a bit softhearted,

he was a gentle man really.

Yeah.

And I was sat in the stand

and thinking well, he's got to kick

this, but this is a kick that

I wouldn't have liked to have taken.

COMMENTATOR: He's missed it!

He's on the ground, he's missed it.

Well, and there goes

the whistle for time.

What a dramatic...

Everybody's got their head

in their hands and he's in tears,

he's in tears.

He's a poor lad, poor Don Fox...

They all jumped up in

the air and cheered.

Poor old Don were on his knees.

I went across to him

and said look...

And moved on to celebrate.

And it was Clarke who collected

the cup, not the Wakefield captain.

You can tell it

touched a real nerve.

I've never recovered.

You never recovered?

No, 50 years on.

I'm damaged for life.

I've got friends who'll tell ya,

you know, I'm a wreck

as a consequence of 68.

To me, it was an out

of body experience.

The bottom line is that we won.

We were fortunate.

There's no doubt about that.

Well, here with me, and it's whike

the trophy is being paraded around,

must be one of the saddest

sporting stories in history,

Don Fox, who just missed kicking

that winning penalty.

Don, it must be a desperate thing

for a situation like that to occur?

Shocking, shocking.

I can't speak, I'm that upset.

Anyway, I've got some tremendous

news for you that I know

you don't know yet.

You have been awarded the Lance Todd

memorial trophy for the outstanding

player on the field.

Yeah, I don't...

Thank you, David.

Any consolation to you?

Er, not really, no.

That match has been nothing but good

for the game because people

who didn't understand

rugby, look at that.

Does that 1968 final rank up

there with one of the more special

rugby league moments in your career?

Yeah.

It's the number one,

I've played five Wembleys

and I only won one.

In May, it's 50 years

since that final.

There's been a lot of watta watta

under th'bridge since then,

and some amazing games,

but do you know what?

I don't think you'll

ever see another game

like the Watersplash final.

That's it from here in Leeds,

but make sure you join us next week.