Synecdoche, New York

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This film contains strong language.	0:00:01	0:00:05
# There's a place I long to be	0:00:05	0:00:08
# A certain town that's dear to me	0:00:08	0:00:11
# Home to Mohawks and GE	0:00:11	0:00:15
# It's called Schenectady	0:00:15	0:00:17
# I was born there and I'll die there	0:00:17	0:00:21
# My first home I hope to buy there	0:00:21	0:00:23
# Have a kid, Or at least try, there	0:00:23	0:00:27
# Sweet Schenectady	0:00:27	0:00:29
# And when I'm buried	0:00:29	0:00:33
# And I'm dead	0:00:33	0:00:35
# Upstate worms will eat my head... #	0:00:35	0:00:39
RADIO: 'It's the 22nd of September in Schenectady.	0:00:40	0:00:43
'And it's the first day of fall.	0:00:43	0:00:45
'So in honour of that fact, we have Elke Putzkammer,	0:00:45	0:00:48
'professor of literature at Union College,	0:00:48	0:00:50
'to talk about autumn in poetry and literature.	0:00:50	0:00:52
-'Good morning, professor.' -'Hi, Alex.'	0:00:52	0:00:54
'So, what about it? Why do so many people write about the fall?'	0:00:54	0:00:58
'Well, I think it's seen as the beginning of the end, really.	0:00:58	0:01:01
'If the year is a life,	0:01:01	0:01:03
'then September, the beginning of autumn	0:01:03	0:01:05
'is when the bloom is off the rose and things start to die.	0:01:05	0:01:08
'It's a melancholy month and maybe because of that, quite beautiful.'	0:01:08	0:01:12
'Is there something you might read to us?'	0:01:12	0:01:15
'Oh, I'd love to.'	0:01:15	0:01:16
'Whoever has no house now Will never have one	0:01:16	0:01:20
'Whoever is alone will stay alone	0:01:20	0:01:23
'Will sit, read, write long letters through the evening	0:01:23	0:01:28
'And wander the boulevards	0:01:28	0:01:30
'Up and down, restlessly	0:01:30	0:01:32
'While the dry leaves are blowing.'	0:01:32	0:01:34
'Goodness, that's harsh, isn't it?'	0:01:34	0:01:36
'Well, perhaps.	0:01:36	0:01:38
'But truthful.'	0:01:38	0:01:40
SHE COUGHS	0:01:41	0:01:43
Mommy, done!	0:01:43	0:01:45
OK.	0:01:45	0:01:47
-Good morning. -Morning. I tried not to wake you.	0:01:48	0:01:51
Well, thanks. You didn't. I just, you know, couldn't get up.	0:01:51	0:01:54
PHONE RINGS	0:01:54	0:01:57
-Caden, can you get that? -It's Maria, I don't want to.	0:02:01	0:02:03
Caden... Oh, that's weird.	0:02:03	0:02:05
'Hey, it's me. How are you?'	0:02:05	0:02:07
Mommy, is something wrong with my poop?	0:02:07	0:02:10
No, honey, it's just green. You probably ate something green.	0:02:10	0:02:13
I didn't. What's wrong with me?	0:02:13	0:02:15
MOBILE RINGS	0:02:15	0:02:17
I have to get that, Olive. You're going to be fine, OK?	0:02:17	0:02:19
-But Mommy! -I'll be right back, Olive.	0:02:19	0:02:22
Oh, nothing. Just wiping Olive's ass. You?	0:02:22	0:02:25
Oh, you're kidding. Holy fuck!	0:02:27	0:02:29
I don't feel well.	0:02:31	0:02:33
Oh, my goodness.	0:02:34	0:02:35
Harold Pinter died.	0:02:58	0:03:00
Well, he's old, right?	0:03:00	0:03:02
No, wait. He won the Nobel Prize.	0:03:02	0:03:04
-Mom! -What, honey?	0:03:04	0:03:05
You need to look at my poop again.	0:03:05	0:03:07
You sure it's all right?	0:03:07	0:03:08
It's fine, Olive. Just flush.	0:03:08	0:03:11
What if it's alive?	0:03:11	0:03:12
What if I kill it? It's green like plants.	0:03:12	0:03:15
It's not alive, honey.	0:03:15	0:03:16
Remember the production of The Dumb Waiter I did at Albanyfest?	0:03:16	0:03:20
Have your oatmeal, honey.	0:03:22	0:03:24
I want peanut butter and jelly.	0:03:24	0:03:26
It's oatmeal. This isn't a restaurant.	0:03:26	0:03:29
-I don't want oatmeal. -OK. Fine.	0:03:29	0:03:32
Mommy, I'm sorry.	0:03:32	0:03:34
They found avian flu in Turkey. In the country Turkey, not turkeys.	0:03:34	0:03:38
Can I watch TV till school?	0:03:38	0:03:40
Yeah.	0:03:40	0:03:42
'There is a secret something at play under the surface,	0:03:44	0:03:47
'growing like an invisible virus of thought.	0:03:47	0:03:50
'But you're being changed by it.'	0:03:50	0:03:51
Milk's expired.	0:03:51	0:03:53
-OK. -Jesus.	0:03:53	0:03:55
-You better eat this. -I will.	0:03:57	0:03:59
Yeah.	0:03:59	0:04:01
How did I guess you'd ask me that question?	0:04:01	0:04:04
Happy Halloween, Schenectady.	0:04:04	0:04:06
And how long have you been in New York for?	0:04:06	0:04:08
The first black graduate of the University of Alabama died.	0:04:08	0:04:13
Vivian Malone Jones.	0:04:13	0:04:15
Stroke.	0:04:15	0:04:17
63.	0:04:17	0:04:19
GUSHING	0:04:30	0:04:32
Ow! Fuck!	0:04:34	0:04:36
Argh! God! Somebody!	0:04:36	0:04:39
Adele, help!	0:04:39	0:04:41
Jesus, Caden, what the fuck?	0:04:41	0:04:43
I was shaving and the thing flew off!	0:04:43	0:04:45
Oh, my God!	0:04:45	0:04:47
Jesus, look at your head. Oh, shit.	0:04:47	0:04:50
Oh, God, I can't turn it.	0:04:50	0:04:52
Oh, wait.	0:04:52	0:04:54
Mommy, Daddy has blood.	0:04:58	0:05:01
Yeah.	0:05:01	0:05:02
Will there be a scar?	0:05:02	0:05:04
Probably. It looks like a mud flap.	0:05:04	0:05:06
I prefer there not to be a scar.	0:05:06	0:05:08
PATIENT GROANS	0:05:08	0:05:11
That fellow is annoying. He's in here every week, like clockwork.	0:05:11	0:05:14
There. I think that should... Let's see.	0:05:14	0:05:18
What?	0:05:19	0:05:21
Change in bowel movements?	0:05:21	0:05:23
It's a little more yellow than usual. Why?	0:05:23	0:05:24
Yeah, I'd like you to see an ophthalmologist.	0:05:27	0:05:30
-A neurologist? -What? No.	0:05:30	0:05:33
An ophthalmologist. I said, ophthalmologist.	0:05:33	0:05:35
Do you hear that?	0:05:35	0:05:37
Yeah.	0:05:37	0:05:39
And today is Tuesday.	0:05:39	0:05:41
Mommy, is today Tuesday?	0:05:41	0:05:43
No, honey, today is Friday.	0:05:43	0:05:45
So, what exactly did he say?	0:05:45	0:05:46
That my pupils weren't...	0:05:50	0:05:53
..properly... opening and closing.	0:05:54	0:05:56
-Dilating. -No. -Yeah.	0:05:56	0:05:59
I don't think that's what he said.	0:05:59	0:06:01
Yes.	0:06:01	0:06:02
That's not what he said.	0:06:02	0:06:04
Is it the bump to your head?	0:06:04	0:06:05
He doesn't know. Maybe.	0:06:05	0:06:07
He said he doesn't think so, but maybe.	0:06:07	0:06:09
But he doesn't know. But maybe. Who knows?	0:06:09	0:06:11
OK, Jesus, Caden, I got it.	0:06:11	0:06:13
He doesn't know.	0:06:13	0:06:15
Sorry. I'm a little anxious.	0:06:15	0:06:16
Did you have to get a shot, Daddy?	0:06:16	0:06:18
No, honey. It's the start of something awful.	0:06:18	0:06:20
-Do I have to get a shot? -Course not.	0:06:20	0:06:23
Did you tell him I have green poo?	0:06:23	0:06:25
It's just fucked timing.	0:06:25	0:06:26
Remind me to call the plumber. Hey.	0:06:26	0:06:28
Sorry. I have rehearsal. Fuck.	0:06:28	0:06:30
-Hey, come on. -Sorry, sorry, sorry.	0:06:30	0:06:32
Everybody, I'm sorry.	0:06:32	0:06:33
How many years until I have to get more shots?	0:06:33	0:06:36
Not for a really long time, babe.	0:06:36	0:06:38
A million years?	0:06:38	0:06:40
Remember what Dr Woodman said...	0:06:41	0:06:43
Dad, what's a plumber?	0:06:43	0:06:45
He's a man...	0:06:45	0:06:47
Or a woman, Dad.	0:06:47	0:06:48
Right. He's a man or a woman who fixes sinks and toilets and...	0:06:48	0:06:54
-Do you know what pipes are? -No.	0:06:54	0:06:56
Hey, Jim. I had an accident.	0:06:56	0:06:58
Like to smoke out of?	0:06:58	0:07:00
A different kind of pipe, honey. All right, bye.	0:07:00	0:07:03
Houses have pipes, and they're made of...	0:07:05	0:07:08
They're like tubes, and they're behind the walls	0:07:08	0:07:11
and they're under the floors and everywhere. And...	0:07:11	0:07:15
-What's the matter, baby? -Every single where?	0:07:15	0:07:17
It's OK, honey. They just carry water to and from sinks and toilets.	0:07:17	0:07:21
It's like in your body. You have veins.	0:07:21	0:07:24
-Capillaries. -Capillaries filled with blood.	0:07:24	0:07:26
I have blood? I don't want blood. I don't want blood.	0:07:26	0:07:29
-Jesus. What are you doing? -Just trying to explain plumbing.	0:07:29	0:07:32
-Well, stop. -God, I can't do this now.	0:07:32	0:07:34
Don't worry, you don't have blood.	0:07:34	0:07:36
Don't tell her she doesn't have blood.	0:07:36	0:07:38
-Caden, stop it. -I don't want blood.	0:07:38	0:07:40
Thanks for getting me in right away.	0:07:47	0:07:49
Was it the bump to the head?	0:07:52	0:07:54
No.	0:07:55	0:07:56
Could be. But I think we need to get you to a neurologist.	0:08:00	0:08:04
-Neurologist? -It's a brain expert.	0:08:04	0:08:06
I know what a neurologist is.	0:08:06	0:08:08
-I thought from the way you asked... -I just thought you said urologist.	0:08:08	0:08:12
Why do I need to see a neurologist?	0:08:16	0:08:18
Just for a look-see.	0:08:18	0:08:20
The eyes are part of the brain, after all.	0:08:21	0:08:24
No, that's not true, is it?	0:08:24	0:08:27
Why would I say it if it weren't true?	0:08:29	0:08:31
It doesn't seem right.	0:08:31	0:08:34
Like morally correct or right as in accurate?	0:08:35	0:08:38
I don't know. Accurate, I guess.	0:08:42	0:08:46
Interesting.	0:08:49	0:08:50
Now, when you kick off, boy, I want a 70-yard boot.	0:08:50	0:08:53
And get right down the field under the ball.	0:08:53	0:08:55
And when you hit, hit low and hit hard, because it's important, boy.	0:08:55	0:08:59
There's all kinds of important people in the stands.	0:08:59	0:09:02
And the first thing you know... Ben?	0:09:02	0:09:05
Ben, where do I...?	0:09:05	0:09:07
Ben, how do I...?	0:09:09	0:09:10
Willy, you coming up?	0:09:10	0:09:11
Shh!	0:09:11	0:09:12
Willy?	0:09:12	0:09:14
Willy, answer me.	0:09:16	0:09:17
CAR ENGINE STARTS	0:09:17	0:09:19
Willy!	0:09:19	0:09:20
No!	0:09:20	0:09:22
-Oh, crap. -Claire, are you OK?	0:09:23	0:09:25
What's happening? It's too late in the game to have these problems.	0:09:25	0:09:28
I know, Caden. I'm sorry. We'll get it.	0:09:28	0:09:30
-Oh, my God. -You OK? -Yeah, I think the wig saved my life.	0:09:30	0:09:35
Yeah.	0:09:35	0:09:36
It's OK, honestly.	0:09:36	0:09:38
-That was good, Tom. -Yeah? -Yeah.	0:09:38	0:09:41
I was trying something different. I was crashing differently.	0:09:41	0:09:44
-Ambivalently. -I saw that. I like it. Um...	0:09:44	0:09:49
Try to keep in mind that a young person playing Willy Loman	0:09:54	0:09:57
thinks he's only pretending to be at the end of a life full of despair.	0:09:57	0:10:01
But the tragedy is that we know that you, the young actor	0:10:01	0:10:04
will end up in this very place of desolation.	0:10:04	0:10:07
OK.	0:10:07	0:10:08
That's great.	0:10:13	0:10:15
Let's try it again. How long, David?	0:10:15	0:10:17
I think 15.	0:10:17	0:10:19
Anything?	0:10:21	0:10:22
Er, mmm.	0:10:22	0:10:24
So now what?	0:10:24	0:10:25
Hey.	0:10:29	0:10:31
Hey. In search of the elusive signal.	0:10:31	0:10:34
The signal's good here, oddly.	0:10:34	0:10:36
That is odd.	0:10:36	0:10:38
-I know. Cell phones, they're crazy. -See you in a few.	0:10:38	0:10:40
Yep.	0:10:40	0:10:42
Yeah, Dr Heshborg said I should see a Dr Scoriano.	0:10:45	0:10:48
My pupils don't work.	0:10:50	0:10:52
I think I have blood in my stool.	0:10:59	0:11:01
That stool in your office?	0:11:04	0:11:06
-When I was pregnant with Olive... -What was it like?	0:11:09	0:11:12
I don't know. Hopeful or something. Like something was going to change.	0:11:12	0:11:16
-Yes, something did. No? -Yeah. -Yeah, of course. -I mean, big time.	0:11:16	0:11:20
I mean, maybe not as much as I'd hoped.	0:11:20	0:11:23
I'm sorry. That's a terrible thing to say.	0:11:23	0:11:25
There are no terrible things to say in here, only true and false.	0:11:25	0:11:29
Can I say something awful?	0:11:29	0:11:31
Yes, please do.	0:11:31	0:11:33
I've fantasised about Caden dying.	0:11:35	0:11:38
Being able to start again, guilt free.	0:11:41	0:11:44
I know that's...	0:11:44	0:11:46
That's bad.	0:11:47	0:11:50
Caden, does that feel terrible?	0:11:50	0:11:51
-Yeah. -OK, good.	0:11:51	0:11:54
It's a nightmare in there.	0:12:11	0:12:13
I'm sorry.	0:12:14	0:12:16
So, I'm reading The Trial.	0:12:26	0:12:28
-Yeah? -Yeah.	0:12:28	0:12:30
You like?	0:12:32	0:12:33
Love.	0:12:33	0:12:34
I'm such an idiot for not knowing about this book.	0:12:34	0:12:37
It's famous, as it turns out.	0:12:37	0:12:39
Yeah.	0:12:39	0:12:41
You're not an idiot.	0:12:41	0:12:43
Then you say,	0:12:46	0:12:49
"In fact, Hazel, you're very bright, and I love your eyes."	0:12:49	0:12:53
In fact, Hazel, you're very bright.	0:12:57	0:12:59
Oh, am I?	0:12:59	0:13:01
And I love your eyes.	0:13:01	0:13:02
Do you?	0:13:02	0:13:04
Oh, darling.	0:13:04	0:13:06
Then what do I say?	0:13:12	0:13:14
I can't say what then you say.	0:13:14	0:13:16
Why?	0:13:16	0:13:17
Cos it's dirty.	0:13:18	0:13:20
C... D... Could you step out for a second?	0:13:23	0:13:27
Go ahead. I've seen boy parts.	0:13:27	0:13:30
Can I take a piss in your sink?	0:13:36	0:13:39
Yeah, sure. I guess.	0:13:39	0:13:41
We're sold out.	0:13:51	0:13:54
Great.	0:13:54	0:13:56
Gorgeous.	0:14:03	0:14:04
Thanks.	0:14:06	0:14:08
How was rehearsal?	0:14:08	0:14:09
Awful.	0:14:09	0:14:11
We have 560 lighting cues.	0:14:11	0:14:15
I don't know why I make it so complicated.	0:14:15	0:14:17
Because that's what you do.	0:14:17	0:14:19
Yeah.	0:14:19	0:14:20
We got through it though.	0:14:23	0:14:26
That's really pretty.	0:14:26	0:14:27
Caden, I'm sorry, I...	0:14:28	0:14:30
I just... I can't come tonight. I'm sorry.	0:14:34	0:14:36
I have two canvases I have to get ready to ship for tomorrow.	0:14:36	0:14:40
-I know, it sucks... -It's opening night. -I know.	0:14:40	0:14:42
I wish I could come. I would if I could.	0:14:42	0:14:45
I've gotta get ready.	0:14:45	0:14:46
Tomorrow will be like the premiere...	0:14:46	0:14:48
I have to get ready. I don't know what I'm going to wear.	0:14:48	0:14:51
I have to figure out what I'm going to wear.	0:14:51	0:14:53
MUSIC PLAYS	0:15:19	0:15:21
Hey. Oh, boy, oh, boy.	0:15:26	0:15:28
Willy?	0:15:28	0:15:29
It's all right, I came back.	0:15:30	0:15:33
Ohh...	0:15:34	0:15:35
I hated myself tonight.	0:15:35	0:15:37
Plus, I'm so... Excuse me.	0:15:38	0:15:40
Hey, Tom.	0:15:40	0:15:41
I'm so bloated and enormous.	0:15:41	0:15:43
-No, you look good. You were great. I was very pleased. -You OK?	0:15:43	0:15:46
Sorry. A little bit of a headache.	0:15:46	0:15:48
Willy Loman.	0:15:48	0:15:49
Aww!	0:15:51	0:15:52
I just wanted to say thank you for everything.	0:15:52	0:15:55
You've been absolutely brilliant.	0:15:55	0:15:57
It's going to be miserable going ahead without you.	0:15:57	0:16:00
I'll be around. I'll check in.	0:16:00	0:16:02
I'm such a baby.	0:16:02	0:16:04
OK. I'm going to go get drunk, that's what.	0:16:04	0:16:07
OK.	0:16:07	0:16:08
Claire.	0:16:08	0:16:09
Sweetheart.	0:16:09	0:16:11
Good. Good job.	0:16:14	0:16:15
-Oh, don't worry, I'll get better. -Good work.	0:16:15	0:16:18
Don't worry, it'll get better.	0:16:18	0:16:20
Hey. I... I figured I'd better get in fast.	0:16:22	0:16:26
Hey, you want to sit?	0:16:26	0:16:28
Yeah, yeah.	0:16:28	0:16:30
Where's el wife-o?	0:16:35	0:16:38
Had to work.	0:16:38	0:16:39
Her show in Berlin is in two weeks.	0:16:39	0:16:43
We're going to go there for like a month.	0:16:43	0:16:45
Why do I like you so much?	0:16:45	0:16:46
I couldn't begin to guess.	0:16:46	0:16:49
Me neither.	0:16:49	0:16:50
Do you get high, my friend?	0:16:52	0:16:54
You know, sometimes.	0:16:56	0:16:58
Do you want to now? With me, in my car?	0:17:00	0:17:02
I get kind of...	0:17:02	0:17:04
..something when I'm stoned.	0:17:06	0:17:09
What does 'something' mean?	0:17:09	0:17:11
You know...	0:17:12	0:17:14
Bothered.	0:17:15	0:17:17
What does 'bothered' mean?	0:17:17	0:17:19
You know.	0:17:19	0:17:20
Bothered. Horny.	0:17:21	0:17:24
Oh.	0:17:24	0:17:25
(COUGHS)	0:17:25	0:17:27
And me with a station wagon and all. Could be dangerous.	0:17:27	0:17:30
Yeah, could be.	0:17:30	0:17:32
You're absolutely zero fun.	0:17:32	0:17:34
When are the reviews going to get here?	0:17:47	0:17:49
Don't know.	0:17:53	0:17:55
His best friends finger two babies. And one this big, one this big.	0:17:59	0:18:04
And two kittens.	0:18:04	0:18:05
Hey.	0:18:05	0:18:06
Hi, Caden. How'd it go?	0:18:06	0:18:09
-Hi. -Hi.	0:18:11	0:18:13
It's late.	0:18:13	0:18:15
Maria came over to keep me company because...	0:18:16	0:18:18
We just lost track. I got everything done.	0:18:18	0:18:21
I'm sorry I missed your play. I'm sorry. But how'd it go?	0:18:21	0:18:25
Great. We're a hit.	0:18:26	0:18:28
Reviews are great.	0:18:28	0:18:31
Times said it was brilliant casting young people as Willy and Linda.	0:18:31	0:18:35
That's great, Caden. Good for you.	0:18:35	0:18:38
That's great. I can't wait to see it tomorrow... Tonight.	0:18:38	0:18:44
That's great.	0:18:44	0:18:45
Wow, it's really late...early.	0:18:45	0:18:49
Early. It's late.	0:18:49	0:18:53
Hey, I would love to see it too.	0:18:53	0:18:55
Can we get Maria a ticket?	0:18:55	0:18:57
You're stoned.	0:18:57	0:18:58
I mean, a little. It's, you know... I don't know.	0:19:00	0:19:02
But... Are you happy with it?	0:19:02	0:19:05
Yeah. Yeah, I'd love for you... To know what you think.	0:19:05	0:19:10
It doesn't matter what I think.	0:19:10	0:19:12
Absolutely. It's all about your artistic satisfaction, Caden.	0:19:12	0:19:17
Ah, whatever.	0:19:24	0:19:26
Congratulations.	0:19:26	0:19:27
Yeah.	0:19:27	0:19:29
I've always loved this house.	0:19:39	0:19:42
Yes, it's a wonderful place.	0:19:42	0:19:45
The truth is, I never really imagined I could afford it.	0:19:45	0:19:48
Well, sellers are very motivated now. (COUGHS)	0:19:48	0:19:52
It's a scary decision.	0:19:54	0:19:56
I never thought I'd buy a house alone.	0:19:56	0:20:00
But, you know, I'm 36, and I wonder what it is I'm waiting for.	0:20:00	0:20:03
Home buying is always scary.	0:20:03	0:20:06
And with the fire and all especially.	0:20:06	0:20:08
It's a good size, though.	0:20:08	0:20:09
2,200 square feet, not including the partially finished basement.	0:20:09	0:20:13
Oh, I don't know.	0:20:13	0:20:14
I'm thinking I should go.	0:20:15	0:20:17
It's a perfect size for someone alone.	0:20:17	0:20:20
I like it, I do. I'm...	0:20:20	0:20:22
I'm just really concerned about dying in the fire.	0:20:22	0:20:26
It's a big decision how one prefers to die.	0:20:26	0:20:29
Would you like to meet my son?	0:20:29	0:20:31
Derek.	0:20:31	0:20:32
Derek's living in the basement since his divorce, if that's OK.	0:20:33	0:20:37
Hey, Mom.	0:20:37	0:20:38
Let's go, Ma.	0:20:44	0:20:45
I want just a minute.	0:20:45	0:20:46
I never...	0:20:55	0:20:56
Forgive me, dear. I can't cry.	0:20:58	0:21:01
I don't know what it is, but I can't cry.	0:21:04	0:21:06
It seems to me that you're just on another trip.	0:21:09	0:21:14
I keep expecting you.	0:21:14	0:21:15
Why did you do it?	0:21:15	0:21:18
I search and I search and I can't understand it.	0:21:18	0:21:21
I made the last payment	0:21:21	0:21:24
on the house today.	0:21:24	0:21:25
We're free and clear. We're free.	0:21:25	0:21:29
We're free.	0:21:29	0:21:30
Well done. It was very successful.	0:21:39	0:21:42
I thought it was wonderful.	0:21:42	0:21:44
Why did the older people look so young?	0:21:44	0:21:46
It was a choice, Dad. I'll explain later.	0:21:46	0:21:49
I can't get excited about your restaging someone else's old play.	0:21:49	0:21:53
It just... There's nothing personal in it.	0:21:53	0:21:55
People are coming out of the theatre crying.	0:21:55	0:21:58
Great. Be a fucking tool of suburban, blue-haired regional theatre subscribers.	0:21:58	0:22:02
-You didn't think it was long? -No, I did not.	0:22:02	0:22:04
But what are you leaving behind?	0:22:04	0:22:06
You act as if you have forever to figure it out.	0:22:06	0:22:08
When you're dead, there's no time.	0:22:08	0:22:10
I don't know. I slept maybe three hours. So we're both tired.	0:22:10	0:22:16
No, I cuddled with Olive all night. It was great.	0:22:18	0:22:21
Morning. Morning.	0:22:26	0:22:27
Morning, Caden.	0:22:30	0:22:31
I think I might have arthritis.	0:22:31	0:22:34
Friends on fire.	0:22:34	0:22:35
I'm going to.	0:22:38	0:22:39
No, I know exactly.	0:22:41	0:22:43
OK, I will. I'll call you later.	0:22:43	0:22:46
I know. You're right. Bye.	0:22:46	0:22:47
My joints are stiff.	0:22:50	0:22:52
Who was that?	0:22:55	0:22:57
Maria.	0:22:59	0:23:00
Right.	0:23:00	0:23:01
Three hours since you spoke.	0:23:01	0:23:04
Caden, I think I want to go to Berlin with just Olive.	0:23:04	0:23:08
I think it would be good for us.	0:23:10	0:23:13
Oh, Christ.	0:23:13	0:23:14
Morning, kiddos.	0:23:14	0:23:15
Why don't you want me to go?	0:23:18	0:23:20
You know, I think it would be a good thing for the two of us to do...	0:23:20	0:23:24
alone.	0:23:24	0:23:26
How do you think I'm supposed to respond to something like that?	0:23:26	0:23:29
Want me to zip your coat up?	0:23:32	0:23:34
Yeah.	0:23:34	0:23:35
What's wrong with your face, Daddy?	0:23:40	0:23:42
Er...	0:23:42	0:23:44
It's pustules.	0:23:44	0:23:46
It's called sycosis.	0:23:46	0:23:49
Spelled differently than psychosis, but it sounds the same.	0:23:49	0:23:53
I don't know what that means.	0:23:53	0:23:54
Of course not. Well, there are two kinds of psychosis.	0:23:54	0:23:58
They're spelled differently.	0:23:58	0:24:00
P-S-Y is like if you're crazy.	0:24:00	0:24:03
Like Mama.	0:24:03	0:24:05
S-Y is like these ugly things on my face.	0:24:06	0:24:09
You could have both, though.	0:24:09	0:24:10
I could, but I don't.	0:24:10	0:24:12
Can I ask you something, Ad?	0:24:20	0:24:23
Have I disappointed you somehow?	0:24:27	0:24:29
I don't know what I'm doing.	0:24:30	0:24:32
We're just spending a little time apart.	0:24:32	0:24:34
We'll talk when I get back, OK?	0:24:39	0:24:41
Everyone is disappointing. The more you know someone, it just...	0:24:44	0:24:48
This whole romantic love thing, it's a projection anyway, right?	0:24:49	0:24:53
I mean, I don't know.	0:24:53	0:24:55
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.	0:24:59	0:25:01
I love you.	0:25:03	0:25:05
I don't know what I'm doing.	0:25:12	0:25:14
I don't know.	0:25:14	0:25:16
We'll talk when I get back.	0:25:23	0:25:24
OK?	0:25:28	0:25:29
'Flurostatin TR allows you to live life	0:25:41	0:25:43
'when it's your turn to face the challenges of chemotherapy.'	0:25:43	0:25:47
'Ask your doctor if Flurostatin TR is right for you.'	0:26:02	0:26:05
'And I'm on the first train out of Palookaville.'	0:26:21	0:26:23
'The Miracle Brush, you can scour everything from bottles...'	0:26:23	0:26:27
'Rise and shine...'	0:26:27	0:26:28
'Lift those legs...'	0:26:28	0:26:30
'There's no real way of coping, when your parachute won't open.	0:26:30	0:26:33
'You're falling down.	0:26:33	0:26:35
'You're going down.	0:26:35	0:26:38
'You fell.	0:26:38	0:26:39
'Then you died.	0:26:39	0:26:41
'Maybe someone cried.	0:26:42	0:26:44
'But not your one-time bride.'	0:26:44	0:26:49
I'm lonely.	0:26:49	0:26:51
Yes. Anything else?	0:26:51	0:26:53
I'm hurt.	0:26:53	0:26:55
Yes. And?	0:26:55	0:26:58
I think Adele's right when she says I'm not doing anything real...	0:27:01	0:27:05
What would be real?	0:27:05	0:27:07
I'm afraid I'm going to die.	0:27:07	0:27:09
I don't know what's wrong with me.	0:27:10	0:27:12
I want to do something important while I'm still here.	0:27:12	0:27:15
That would be the time to do it, yes.	0:27:15	0:27:17
I have a book that might help you get better.	0:27:17	0:27:20
Better?	0:27:20	0:27:21
It's called Getting Better.	0:27:21	0:27:22
-Who wrote it? -I did. All of these.	0:27:24	0:27:27
Wow, I never knew that.	0:27:27	0:27:29
Yes. Well, wow, indeed.	0:27:29	0:27:31
'In conclusion... Cats eat rats... Within his own plumbing...	0:27:33	0:27:36
'Me who am as a raw nerve... Synthetic vaginal juices...	0:27:36	0:27:39
'Substantial crease...'	0:27:39	0:27:40
That's 45.	0:27:40	0:27:42
Five.	0:27:54	0:27:55
Five.	0:27:56	0:27:58
Five.	0:27:59	0:28:01
Some fives. That's not good.	0:28:03	0:28:04
Keep with the flossing.	0:28:04	0:28:06
We'll see you in three months.	0:28:06	0:28:08
Six.	0:28:08	0:28:09
Six.	0:28:09	0:28:11
Six.	0:28:11	0:28:12
I'm going to recommend you see a periodontist.	0:28:12	0:28:15
He'll probably recommend gum surgery.	0:28:15	0:28:17
SUCKING	0:28:17	0:28:19
Hello?	0:28:22	0:28:23
Hey, I'm so glad I finally got you.	0:28:23	0:28:26
Hello, who is this?	0:28:26	0:28:28
It's Caden.	0:28:28	0:28:29
Ellen?	0:28:29	0:28:31
Caden.	0:28:31	0:28:33
I can't wait to see you and Olive on the 12th...	0:28:33	0:28:36
No, I have to go. I'm sorry, there's a party. I'm famous.	0:28:36	0:28:39
Have fun...	0:28:39	0:28:40
PHONE BEEPS	0:28:40	0:28:41
'911. State your emergency.'	0:28:57	0:28:59
-I'm sick! -'Ma'am?' -I'm sick!	0:28:59	0:29:00
BEEP SOUNDS	0:29:13	0:29:16
Mr Cotard?	0:29:24	0:29:25
Mr Cotard.	0:29:28	0:29:29
Mr Cotard?	0:29:41	0:29:43
You've had a seizure of sorts.	0:29:53	0:29:55
What does that mean?	0:29:57	0:29:59
Seems to be some synaptic degradation, fungal in origin.	0:29:59	0:30:03
Autonomic functions are going haywire.	0:30:03	0:30:05
You'll lose your ability to salivate, cry, et cetera.	0:30:05	0:30:08
-Is it serious? -We don't know.	0:30:08	0:30:10
But, yes. We'll get you enrolled in some bio-feedback program.	0:30:10	0:30:15
Maybe you can learn some sort of manual override.	0:30:15	0:30:18
We should get a drink. It would be fun.	0:30:30	0:30:33
It would be weird.	0:30:33	0:30:34
I like weird.	0:30:34	0:30:36
I like you. See?	0:30:36	0:30:38
Anyway, I don't want to make you uncomfortable, I...	0:30:39	0:30:42
OK, so I do want to make you uncomfortable.	0:30:45	0:30:47
And what do we do with all this?	0:30:59	0:31:01
You want to come over to my place, Cotard?	0:31:04	0:31:06
I won't let you off the hook this time by saying, "Never mind."	0:31:10	0:31:14
Adele is only on vacation.	0:31:14	0:31:17
She hasn't called since she left.	0:31:17	0:31:20
It's been a year.	0:31:20	0:31:21
It's been a week.	0:31:21	0:31:24
I'm going to buy you a calendar.	0:31:26	0:31:28
OK.	0:31:37	0:31:38
Just for one drink.	0:31:41	0:31:42
Scraps for my scrapbook.	0:31:48	0:31:49
I can't... I really can't drink very much because of my condition.	0:31:53	0:31:57
Did you put something in it?	0:32:06	0:32:09
If that's what it takes, consider it done.	0:32:09	0:32:12
Love potion number 69.	0:32:14	0:32:16
Hm! It's good.	0:32:19	0:32:21
Does it make you want to kiss me?	0:32:21	0:32:23
Kind of.	0:32:24	0:32:25
Tell me why.	0:32:25	0:32:27
Because I feel a lot of longing.	0:32:27	0:32:31
Beg a girl, why don't you?	0:32:31	0:32:33
-Please, Hazel. -On your knees.	0:32:33	0:32:35
What?	0:32:37	0:32:39
I want you to beg me on your knees for a kiss.	0:32:39	0:32:42
Just for fun.	0:32:42	0:32:44
Why am I doing this?	0:32:47	0:32:49
For fun, baby.	0:32:51	0:32:52
Will you help me forget my troubles?	0:32:56	0:32:59
Oh, kiddo.	0:32:59	0:33:01
You don't even know.	0:33:03	0:33:04
-What? -I don't know.	0:33:08	0:33:10
-What is it? -I don't know, I'm sorry.	0:33:10	0:33:14
I'm sorry.	0:33:16	0:33:17
-What? -I don't know, I'm just...	0:33:19	0:33:21
I'm just really confused.	0:33:24	0:33:26
I'm sorry.	0:33:28	0:33:30
I...	0:33:30	0:33:32
I'm really... I'm really sick.	0:33:36	0:33:38
And I think I'm dying.	0:33:40	0:33:42
I have a kid,	0:33:44	0:33:46
and I'm married.	0:33:46	0:33:48
I just thought this might change things, you know?	0:33:53	0:33:58
I had a good time,	0:33:58	0:34:00
and I think you're a very nice person.	0:34:00	0:34:02
That is just the wrong thing to say right now, Caden.	0:34:04	0:34:07
You should go.	0:34:19	0:34:21
RINGING TONE	0:34:25	0:34:27
'Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime.'	0:34:27	0:34:30
'Hi. You know, I haven't heard from you in a while	0:34:30	0:34:33
'and I just thought I'd call and say hi.	0:34:33	0:34:35
'Hi, Hazel.	0:34:35	0:34:37
HE LAUGHS	0:34:37	0:34:38
HE COUGHS	0:34:38	0:34:39
-'Now. Now. Be here now.' -PHONE RINGS	0:34:42	0:34:46
ADELE: 'Olive wanted me to ask you not to read her diary.	0:34:46	0:34:49
'She left it under her pillow by mistake. Glpef n mesr-siy.'	0:34:49	0:34:53
KNOCK ON DOOR	0:34:56	0:34:59
'Dear Mr Cotard. It is my pleasure to inform you	0:35:10	0:35:12
'that you have been named the 2009 MacArthur Fellow.	0:35:12	0:35:14
'It is our hope that you will use your newly found financial freedom	0:35:14	0:35:18
'to create something unflinchingly true, profoundly beautiful	0:35:18	0:35:21
'and of unremitting value to your community and to the world at large.	0:35:21	0:35:25
-So, I got this MacArthur grant... -Oh, Caden.	0:35:25	0:35:27
-Yeah, a lot of money. -Know what you're going to do with it?	0:35:27	0:35:29
Theatre piece. Something big and true and tough.	0:35:29	0:35:33
I'm going to finally put my real self into something.	0:35:33	0:35:35
What is your real self, do you think?	0:35:35	0:35:39
I don't know yet.	0:35:41	0:35:42
The MacArthur is called "the genius grant"	0:35:44	0:35:47
and I want to earn it.	0:35:47	0:35:49
It's wonderful. God bless.	0:35:49	0:35:51
I guess you'll have to discover your real self, right?	0:35:51	0:35:55
Yeah.	0:35:55	0:35:56
I wanted to ask you, how old are kids when they start to write?	0:35:56	0:35:59
There's an absolutely brilliant novel written by a four-year-old.	0:35:59	0:36:03
-Really? -Little Winky by Horace Azpiazu.	0:36:03	0:36:07
-That's cute. -Oh, hardly.	0:36:07	0:36:09
Little Winky is a virulent anti-Semite.	0:36:09	0:36:11
The story follows his initiation into the Klan,	0:36:11	0:36:14
his immersion in the pornographic snuff industry	0:36:14	0:36:17
and his ultimate degradation at the hands of a black ex-convict	0:36:17	0:36:20
named Eric Washington Jackson Jones Johnson...	0:36:20	0:36:24
-Written by a four-year-old? -..Jefferson.	0:36:24	0:36:26
Wow! Written by a four-year-old?	0:36:26	0:36:29
Well, Azpiazu killed himself when he was five.	0:36:29	0:36:31
Why did he kill himself?	0:36:31	0:36:33
-I don't know. Why did you? -What?	0:36:33	0:36:36
I said, why would you?	0:36:37	0:36:38
Oh, I don't know.	0:36:39	0:36:41
Yeah, I want to bring my production to New York	0:36:44	0:36:48
to get it seen by people, you know, who matter.	0:36:48	0:36:53
The sooner the better.	0:36:53	0:36:54
This theatre, centrally located.	0:36:54	0:36:56
Heart of the theatre district, so, you know, great for plays.	0:36:56	0:36:58
Yeah?	0:36:58	0:36:59
Oh, yeah. Absolutely. There it is.	0:36:59	0:37:04
What was this used for?	0:37:04	0:37:05
Plays.	0:37:05	0:37:07
Like, theatre plays?	0:37:08	0:37:10
Hm-mm. Shakespeare.	0:37:10	0:37:11
King Lear.	0:37:12	0:37:14
The storm.	0:37:15	0:37:17
You see, the idea is to do a massive theatre piece.	0:37:18	0:37:23
You know, uncompromising, honest.	0:37:23	0:37:26
Here's what I think theatre is.	0:37:27	0:37:29
It's the beginning of thought.	0:37:29	0:37:32
It's...the truth not yet spoken.	0:37:32	0:37:35
It's what a man feels like after he's been clocked in the jaw.	0:37:35	0:37:39
It's love...	0:37:39	0:37:40
..in all its messiness.	0:37:42	0:37:43
You know, and I want all of us, players and patrons alike,	0:37:44	0:37:48
to soak in the communal bath of it,	0:37:48	0:37:52
the mikvah, as the Jews call it.	0:37:52	0:37:56
Because we're all in the same water, after all.	0:37:56	0:38:00
You know, soaking in our...	0:38:02	0:38:05
very menstrual blood and nocturnal emissions.	0:38:05	0:38:09
This is what I want to try to give people.	0:38:09	0:38:13
OK, here you go. Here's your salad.	0:38:13	0:38:16
-Here's your soup. -Thanks.	0:38:18	0:38:20
-Thank you. -Enjoy.	0:38:22	0:38:24
What are you doing?	0:38:31	0:38:32
Salivating.	0:38:32	0:38:34
The bio-feedback training.	0:38:35	0:38:37
So I was wondering if you'd help.	0:38:40	0:38:42
In your box office?	0:38:42	0:38:43
No, as my assistant.	0:38:43	0:38:47
I'm not sure I can work with you, Caden.	0:38:47	0:38:49
I'm kind of angry.	0:38:51	0:38:52
I just want to normalise it.	0:38:53	0:38:55
I think we'd have a lot of fun together.	0:38:58	0:39:00
I miss you.	0:39:13	0:39:15
Really disturbing.	0:39:16	0:39:17
I know.	0:39:17	0:39:19
OLIVE: 'Dear diary, thank you for being my new best friend.	0:39:22	0:39:25
'My name is Olive Cotard, and I'm four years old.	0:39:25	0:39:28
'I like chocolate and my favourite colour is pink.'	0:39:28	0:39:31
This is pink.	0:39:34	0:39:36
Yeah, that's good.	0:39:39	0:39:41
We'll start by talking honestly and out of that,	0:39:50	0:39:53
a piece of theatre will evolve.	0:39:53	0:39:56
I'll begin.	0:39:57	0:39:58
I've been thinking a lot about dying lately.	0:40:00	0:40:03
You're going to be fine, sweetie.	0:40:03	0:40:05
-I appreciate that, Claire, but... -You are, you poor thing.	0:40:05	0:40:09
Yeah, well, regardless of how this particular thing works itself out,	0:40:09	0:40:13
I will be dying.	0:40:13	0:40:15
And so will you.	0:40:16	0:40:18
And so will everyone here.	0:40:20	0:40:22
And that's what I want to explore.	0:40:26	0:40:29
We're all hurtling towards death.	0:40:29	0:40:31
Yet, here we are, for the moment, alive.	0:40:35	0:40:38
Each of us knowing we're going to die.	0:40:38	0:40:41
Each of us secretly believing we won't.	0:40:43	0:40:45
It's brilliant.	0:40:47	0:40:49
It... It's everything.	0:40:49	0:40:52
It's Karamazov.	0:40:54	0:40:57
-Stop. -I'm just asking.	0:41:01	0:41:03
You're so obnoxious.	0:41:03	0:41:04
You're so obnoxious!	0:41:04	0:41:06
You do not want to cross me.	0:41:06	0:41:08
Don't I?	0:41:08	0:41:09
Hi, Claire.	0:41:14	0:41:15
Hi.	0:41:17	0:41:18
Hazel.	0:41:18	0:41:20
Yeah. No, no. I know, I know. Hazel. You're the box office.	0:41:20	0:41:23
-Yeah, I'm the box office. -How are you?	0:41:23	0:41:25
Wonderful. You?	0:41:25	0:41:27
Yeah, yeah. I'm good. I'm fine. Thank you.	0:41:27	0:41:29
Actually, I'm meeting Caden here.	0:41:29	0:41:32
You know Mr Cotard, right?	0:41:32	0:41:34
Yes, I recall Mr Cotard.	0:41:34	0:41:36
Yeah. I'm waiting...	0:41:38	0:41:39
-Oh. -Oh, oh.	0:41:41	0:41:42
-Hey. -Hi, Caden.	0:41:45	0:41:46
-Hey. -Hi, Caden.	0:41:46	0:41:48
Hi, Hazel. Hi, Claire.	0:41:48	0:41:50
Hi.	0:41:50	0:41:52
-This is Derek. -Hi, Derek.	0:41:52	0:41:54
-Hi, Derek. -Hi, Derek.	0:41:54	0:41:56
Hi.	0:41:56	0:41:58
Well, we'll leave you be. It's nice to see you again.	0:42:01	0:42:05
Take care.	0:42:05	0:42:06
Why am I bowing? OK, bye.	0:42:06	0:42:09
That was awkward.	0:42:11	0:42:13
Yeah, I guess.	0:42:13	0:42:15
Do you like beaver?	0:42:17	0:42:18
-So could you tell me maybe what it is that you want from me? -Hm?	0:42:18	0:42:22
You know, like, from my character.	0:42:22	0:42:25
Oh...	0:42:25	0:42:27
Well, we'll build it over time together.	0:42:28	0:42:30
You know, try to find a real person, maybe, to model it after.	0:42:30	0:42:33
That Hazel girl's kind of interesting maybe. You know, like, why...?	0:42:33	0:42:37
Although...	0:42:37	0:42:38
Why is she still working at a box office at her age?	0:42:38	0:42:40
I don't know. Probably not that interesting.	0:42:40	0:42:43
Maybe she wanted to be an actress, but she lacked the confidence.	0:42:43	0:42:46
-Yeah, we'll talk about it. -I'm so excited. -Really? Why?	0:42:46	0:42:48
Because I think that it's...	0:42:51	0:42:53
brave.	0:42:53	0:42:54
And I just feel like I'm going to be part of a revolution.	0:42:54	0:42:59
I keep thinking about Artaud, Krapp's Last Tape, you know,	0:42:59	0:43:02
and Grotowski, for Christ's sake.	0:43:02	0:43:04
I don't know what I'm doing.	0:43:05	0:43:07
But that's what so refreshing.	0:43:08	0:43:10
Knowing that you don't know	0:43:10	0:43:12
is the first and the most essential step to knowing, you know?	0:43:12	0:43:16
I don't know.	0:43:17	0:43:19
-Well, I'm proud of you. -Thanks.	0:43:24	0:43:26
-Don't say that, not to me. > -Oh, sorry. >	0:43:26	0:43:28
My mother died last night.	0:43:30	0:43:33
Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.	0:43:34	0:43:37
What are you doing out?	0:43:37	0:43:39
-This is me. -Well...	0:43:43	0:43:46
Well, it was nice meeting you. Oh, God, did I just say "meeting"?	0:43:46	0:43:50
I'm sorry. I'm so stupid.	0:43:50	0:43:53
Slip of the tongue, is all.	0:43:53	0:43:55
Yeah, it's a...	0:43:55	0:43:56
Freudian slip, right?	0:43:56	0:43:58
I don't know how it's Freudian.	0:43:59	0:44:01
To meet, you know? Like, to meet.	0:44:01	0:44:05
Oh.	0:44:05	0:44:08
There she met Ralph Keene.	0:44:09	0:44:11
They fell in love, married and soon their first child, Claire, was born.	0:44:11	0:44:16
I used to be a baby.	0:44:17	0:44:18
Claire Elizabeth Keene was a joyous child...	0:44:18	0:44:21
I'm sorry.	0:44:21	0:44:22
..The apple of her mother's eye.	0:44:22	0:44:24
She made her parents proud with her politeness and gymnastic skills.	0:44:24	0:44:28
God, you're beautiful.	0:44:28	0:44:30
When she was seven, little Claire was bitten by the acting bug.	0:44:30	0:44:35
She starred in almost every school musical,	0:44:35	0:44:38
playing Ado Annie in Oklahoma,	0:44:38	0:44:39
Adelaide in Guys And Dolls,	0:44:39	0:44:42
and Maria in The Sound Of Music.	0:44:42	0:44:44
I have to fuck you.	0:44:44	0:44:46
I have to.	0:44:46	0:44:48
There will be no other before you.	0:44:52	0:44:55
I'd like to buy a ticket, please.	0:44:59	0:45:01
-Oh. -OK. Hold it.	0:45:01	0:45:03
That'll be 40.	0:45:03	0:45:06
We're not really...	0:45:08	0:45:09
We need to investigate.	0:45:09	0:45:12
You know, to really discover the essence of each being.	0:45:12	0:45:15
You know, I think I need to work with both of you separately.	0:45:17	0:45:19
Davis, I'll start with you.	0:45:19	0:45:22
"Davis, I'll start with you"?	0:45:27	0:45:29
There's a difference between favouring me	0:45:29	0:45:31
and pretending we've never met.	0:45:31	0:45:33
I mean, we've had Ariel. I think people know that we've fucked.	0:45:33	0:45:37
We'll talk about your character after we put Ariel to bed?	0:45:37	0:45:40
OK.	0:45:40	0:45:42
I think I made a breakthrough. This character is so beautiful...	0:45:49	0:45:54
Yeah, I have to go find my daughter.	0:45:54	0:45:56
-Your daughter's right here. -My real daughter. -Excuse me?	0:45:56	0:45:59
I mean, my first daughter, Olive. I have to go find her.	0:45:59	0:46:02
Please, don't do this to us.	0:46:02	0:46:05
She's tattooed. She's tattooed.	0:46:05	0:46:07
Oh, everyone is tattooed.	0:46:07	0:46:09
Oh, I've never seen that before.	0:46:09	0:46:12
You have responsibilities.	0:46:12	0:46:14
Yeah, I'll be quick. I'll do it quick.	0:46:14	0:46:16
"Redundancy is fluid.	0:46:16	0:46:18
"Life moves to the south.	0:46:18	0:46:20
"There is only the now, and I am always with you.	0:46:20	0:46:24
"For example, look to your left."	0:46:24	0:46:26
Hi.	0:46:28	0:46:30
When you cancelled, it freed me up, so I'm travelling, too. Yippee.	0:46:30	0:46:35
You know, I'm not sure I'm getting the book.	0:46:38	0:46:41
Oh, but it's getting you.	0:46:51	0:46:53
You're almost non-recognisable now.	0:46:53	0:46:56
Thank you.	0:47:01	0:47:03
"I show you my leg.	0:47:08	0:47:10
"I stand close, and you inhale my perfume.	0:47:10	0:47:14
"I offer my ripe flower to you and you deny it.	0:47:14	0:47:17
"This book is over."	0:47:17	0:47:19
ANNOUNCEMENT IN GERMAN	0:47:19	0:47:20
Hi.	0:47:33	0:47:34
I don't speak German.	0:47:34	0:47:36
Ja, ja. I may help you, mister?	0:47:36	0:47:38
I'm... I'm looking for Adele Cotard. Adele Lack.	0:47:38	0:47:42
We must not give addresses or other personal informations.	0:47:42	0:47:45
I'm her husband.	0:47:45	0:47:47
No, you are not her husbands, which is named Gunther und Heinz.	0:47:47	0:47:51
I'm the father of her daughter, Olive.	0:47:51	0:47:53
Oh, I see.	0:47:53	0:47:55
Sorry, I cannot help you.	0:47:55	0:47:58
OLIVE: "Dear diary, Germany is wonderful.	0:47:58	0:48:00
"So many friends here.	0:48:00	0:48:02
"My new dads are great and handsome, and brilliant directors of theatre."	0:48:02	0:48:07
Hello.	0:48:07	0:48:08
-You're here? -Yeah.	0:48:13	0:48:15
I live with Adele and Olive	0:48:15	0:48:18
and Gunther and Heinz and Uschi and Britt.	0:48:18	0:48:21
I'm everyone's nanny.	0:48:21	0:48:22
I want to see my daughter.	0:48:22	0:48:24
Hm. Yeah, they sent me.	0:48:24	0:48:27
They?	0:48:27	0:48:29
Who are they? Who the fuck are Uschi and Britt?	0:48:30	0:48:33
Yeah, they decided it's not time to see you yet...	0:48:33	0:48:36
-They decided? Who decided? They had her tattooed. -I did that.	0:48:36	0:48:39
Olive is my project...	0:48:39	0:48:41
She's a four-year-old!	0:48:41	0:48:43
She's a fucking four-year-old!	0:48:43	0:48:47
She's...	0:48:49	0:48:50
She's almost over 11 now.	0:48:50	0:48:52
She's my muse.	0:48:55	0:48:57
I love her.	0:48:57	0:48:59
You don't love her!	0:49:02	0:49:04
Where is she?	0:49:07	0:49:09
What did you do to my daughter?	0:49:10	0:49:13
HE WAILS	0:49:40	0:49:42
"Death comes faster than you think."	0:50:07	0:50:11
Dr Williams, that was your last patient for the day.	0:50:14	0:50:16
Jennifer, let's stop this charade.	0:50:16	0:50:18
I don't know what you're talking about.	0:50:18	0:50:20
You're actually having an affair off-set.	0:50:20	0:50:23
-Palpable, huh? -Oh, OK.	0:50:23	0:50:25
-Who told you? -And it's not good.	0:50:25	0:50:27
-Not good, oh, OK. -You're actors playing actors.	0:50:27	0:50:29
You're in this scene, you're not just filming it.	0:50:29	0:50:32
-You're in the scene. -Just like that...	0:50:32	0:50:34
As you're telling him this,	0:50:34	0:50:35
you realise you're attracted to him also.	0:50:35	0:50:37
How are you going to let him know that?	0:50:37	0:50:39
And the guilt you feel about telling him about somebody else knowing.	0:50:39	0:50:43
Daddy, Daddy is mine.	0:50:43	0:50:44
Daddy can't play now, honey.	0:50:44	0:50:46
Daddy doesn't live with us any more, baby. He had to go find himself.	0:50:46	0:50:50
They still feel a little tight in the toe.	0:50:50	0:50:52
Have an argument. You're having an argument. Have it.	0:50:52	0:50:56
I don't buy it.	0:50:57	0:50:58
You, sir, are a horse's ass.	0:50:58	0:51:00
What? Just get the fucking shoe. You gave me two sizes too big...	0:51:00	0:51:03
Tom, don't turn into another person	0:51:03	0:51:05
just because I say change your action.	0:51:05	0:51:07
-And this started just today? -Hm-mm.	0:51:07	0:51:10
-It never happened before? -Nn-mm.	0:51:10	0:51:12
OK. Good.	0:51:12	0:51:15
You can get dressed.	0:51:15	0:51:17
You're a doctor, right? Am I dying? Can you tell me that?	0:51:20	0:51:23
No.	0:51:23	0:51:24
No, you can't tell me?	0:51:24	0:51:26
I can't tell you.	0:51:26	0:51:27
You can't tell me if you can't tell me?	0:51:27	0:51:29
No.	0:51:29	0:51:30
-No, you can't tell me, because you're not allowed to? -No.	0:51:30	0:51:35
HIS FOOT TAPS	0:51:44	0:51:46
Caden.	0:51:58	0:51:59
What are you doing here?	0:51:59	0:52:01
Oh, I was wondering if I was going to bump into you.	0:52:01	0:52:06
-You look great. -Thanks.	0:52:06	0:52:08
-Is that a new haircut? -Yeah. For a while now.	0:52:08	0:52:11
What are you doing in New York?	0:52:11	0:52:14
I'm here with Derek and the boys.	0:52:14	0:52:16
A mini vacation.	0:52:16	0:52:18
The boys?	0:52:18	0:52:19
Yeah. I thought you knew.	0:52:19	0:52:22
How old?	0:52:22	0:52:23
Five.	0:52:23	0:52:24
Twins.	0:52:24	0:52:26
Robert and Daniel and Alan.	0:52:26	0:52:28
Yes.	0:52:29	0:52:31
They're nice names. Where are they?	0:52:32	0:52:35
Derek took them to the Natural History, so I could shop.	0:52:35	0:52:39
Ah.	0:52:39	0:52:41
It's so good to see you, Caden. I... How are things?	0:52:42	0:52:46
You know, I was with Claire.	0:52:46	0:52:49
And we have a daughter.	0:52:49	0:52:51
But we're separated.	0:52:51	0:52:54
How about with you?	0:52:54	0:52:56
Good.	0:52:56	0:52:58
I have a great job at Lens Shapers.	0:52:58	0:53:01
Shapers. Great.	0:53:01	0:53:02
You wear a lab coat.	0:53:02	0:53:04
It's so good to see you.	0:53:06	0:53:08
Oh, good to see you, Hazel.	0:53:08	0:53:10
Hey!	0:53:39	0:53:41
"How I love Maria. She is so much more of a father than Caden ever was	0:53:45	0:53:51
"with his drinking and unfortunate body odour and rotting teeth.	0:53:51	0:53:55
"I could only loathe him, and perhaps pity him.	0:53:55	0:53:59
"But Maria..."	0:53:59	0:54:01
KNOCK ON DOOR	0:54:01	0:54:02
I want to come back.	0:54:03	0:54:05
I want to take care of you and Olive.	0:54:05	0:54:08
Ariel. Ariel. Fuck.	0:54:08	0:54:10
Ariel.	0:54:14	0:54:15
PHONE RINGS	0:54:21	0:54:22
No, no, no, it's so late. Please.	0:54:24	0:54:27
No, no, no. Please.	0:54:27	0:54:28
Hello?	0:54:30	0:54:32
OK.	0:54:36	0:54:37
My father died.	0:54:47	0:54:49
Oh, baby.	0:54:53	0:54:54
They said his body was riddled with cancer and that he didn't know.	0:54:58	0:55:03
That he went in because his finger hurt.	0:55:03	0:55:05
They said he suffered horribly.	0:55:06	0:55:09
And that he...	0:55:12	0:55:14
That he called out for me before he died.	0:55:16	0:55:19
They said that he said he regretted his life.	0:55:20	0:55:24
And they said he said a lot of things.	0:55:27	0:55:30
Too many to recount.	0:55:31	0:55:32
They said it was the longest	0:55:33	0:55:36
and saddest death-bed speech any of them had ever heard.	0:55:36	0:55:39
There was so little left of him,	0:55:40	0:55:44
they had to fill the coffin with cotton balls	0:55:44	0:55:47
to keep him from rattling around.	0:55:47	0:55:49
I'm really sorry for your loss.	0:55:55	0:55:57
Thank you.	0:55:57	0:55:59
-Can you excuse me a moment? -Of course.	0:55:59	0:56:01
-I need to use the bathroom. -All right.	0:56:01	0:56:04
God bless you and your family.	0:56:06	0:56:09
God bless you. Will you excuse me?	0:56:09	0:56:11
PHONE RINGS	0:56:11	0:56:13
'Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime.'	0:56:13	0:56:17
BEEP SOUNDS	0:56:17	0:56:18
Sorry.	0:56:24	0:56:26
Caden?	0:56:27	0:56:28
-Hi, Derek. -RADIO: 'Officials suspect arson.'	0:56:28	0:56:31
In other news, a German pharmaceutical giant	0:56:31	0:56:34
has won its libel suit against patients	0:56:34	0:56:37
claiming chromosomal damage from use of the arthritis medication...	0:56:37	0:56:40
Will you...	0:56:40	0:56:42
Just tell me what to do?	0:56:43	0:56:44
'In Pakistan today, the government there...'	0:56:47	0:56:50
Caden, everyone has to figure out their own life, you know.	0:56:59	0:57:02
I just want you to look at me the way you used to.	0:57:02	0:57:06
Oh, honey, I can't any more.	0:57:06	0:57:08
You know I'm sorry.	0:57:09	0:57:11
I screwed everything up, and I don't have any courage.	0:57:12	0:57:17
And I'm sorry.	0:57:17	0:57:19
Caden...	0:57:19	0:57:20
I'm OK.	0:57:21	0:57:23
I don't want you to be OK.	0:57:23	0:57:26
I mean...	0:57:26	0:57:28
I do, but I... It just...	0:57:28	0:57:30
It rips my guts out.	0:57:30	0:57:32
I'll help you through any way I can.	0:57:32	0:57:35
And I'll help you through, too.	0:57:35	0:57:38
I'm fine.	0:57:40	0:57:42
I have Derek.	0:57:42	0:57:44
OK, I'm going.	0:57:51	0:57:53
Honey, I'm coming...	0:58:00	0:58:02
"Dear diary, today I felt a wetness between my legs.	0:58:02	0:58:06
"Maria explained to me now I am a woman.	0:58:06	0:58:09
"And being a woman is wonderful with Maria to guide me."	0:58:09	0:58:13
Olive?	0:59:03	0:59:04
Olive.	0:59:10	0:59:12
Olive, it's Daddy.	0:59:14	0:59:16
Olive, it's Daddy!	0:59:20	0:59:22
Olive, it's Daddy!	0:59:23	0:59:25
Olive, it's Daddy!	0:59:25	0:59:27
Don't fucking stare at me! Olive!	0:59:27	0:59:30
Get off! It's my daughter! That's my daughter!	0:59:30	0:59:35
Get off!	0:59:35	0:59:37
Get off!	0:59:37	0:59:39
I won't settle for anything less than the brutal truth.	0:59:43	0:59:47
Brutal.	0:59:47	0:59:49
Brutal.	0:59:50	0:59:51
Each day I'll hand you a scrap of paper.	0:59:53	0:59:55
It'll tell you what happened to you that day.	0:59:55	0:59:57
You felt a lump in your breast.	0:59:57	0:59:58
-You looked at your wife and saw a stranger, etc. -Caden?	0:59:58	1:00:01
What?!	1:00:01	1:00:03
When are we going to get an audience in here?	1:00:03	1:00:07
It's been 17 years.	1:00:07	1:00:09
All right, I'm not excusing myself from this either.	1:00:11	1:00:15
I will have someone play me	1:00:15	1:00:17
to delve into the murky, cowardly depths	1:00:17	1:00:20
of my lonely, fucked up being.	1:00:20	1:00:23
And he'll get notes too, and those notes will correspond to the notes	1:00:25	1:00:29
I truly receive every day from my god.	1:00:29	1:00:33
Get to work!	1:00:38	1:00:41
They fired me.	1:01:04	1:01:06
-I caused an outbreak of conjunctivitis. -'Oh, God.'	1:01:08	1:01:11
I didn't wash my hands.	1:01:11	1:01:13
-'I had pinkeye hands.' -Oh, God.	1:01:13	1:01:15
'I'm such a stupid cow.'	1:01:15	1:01:17
Fucking private Christian school is killing us. You know, it's not cheap.	1:01:17	1:01:20
It's Derek's thing. I don't believe in that shit, you know.	1:01:20	1:01:24
You try to be a good person. I mean, that's all there is.	1:01:24	1:01:27
Do you have anything for me, Caden?	1:01:28	1:01:30
Er...	1:01:30	1:01:32
I mean, I already have an assistant.	1:01:33	1:01:36
Um... You know, I don't have a box office yet, but...	1:01:36	1:01:40
Please, Caden.	1:01:40	1:01:41
Please, Caden. I...	1:01:41	1:01:44
Please, Caden.	1:01:45	1:01:46
Sammy Barnathan?	1:01:50	1:01:52
Sammy Barnathan.	1:02:02	1:02:05
CAMERA PINGS	1:02:09	1:02:10
I don't have a resume or a picture.	1:02:15	1:02:18
I've never worked as an actor.	1:02:20	1:02:21
Good. Tell me why you're here.	1:02:21	1:02:24
Well, I've been...	1:02:24	1:02:26
I've been following you for 20 years.	1:02:27	1:02:30
So I knew about this audition because I follow you.	1:02:30	1:02:33
And I've learned everything about you by following you.	1:02:33	1:02:36
So hire me,	1:02:36	1:02:39
and you'll see who you truly are.	1:02:39	1:02:41
Peekaboo.	1:02:42	1:02:45
OK.	1:02:47	1:02:49
Hazel, I don't think we need to talk to anyone else.	1:02:52	1:02:54
This guy has me down.	1:02:54	1:02:55
I'm going to cast him right now. Then maybe you and I can get a drink.	1:02:57	1:03:01
And we can try to figure out this thing between us, why I cried.	1:03:01	1:03:04
Because I've never...	1:03:04	1:03:06
..felt about anybody...	1:03:07	1:03:09
the way I feel about you.	1:03:09	1:03:11
And I want to fuck you until we merge into a chimera.	1:03:12	1:03:16
A mythical beast with penis and vagina eternally fused.	1:03:17	1:03:22
Two pairs of eyes that look only at each other.	1:03:22	1:03:25
And lips ever touching.	1:03:25	1:03:28
And one voice that...	1:03:30	1:03:32
whispers to itself.	1:03:32	1:03:34
OK.	1:03:45	1:03:47
Yeah.	1:03:48	1:03:50
You've got the part.	1:03:50	1:03:52
I've never seen your shit grey.	1:04:10	1:04:13
It's new.	1:04:14	1:04:16
That's a good boy.	1:04:20	1:04:22
When is it opening?	1:04:28	1:04:31
When it's ready.	1:04:31	1:04:32
We need to get in. It's bad out here.	1:04:32	1:04:34
Sorry.	1:04:34	1:04:36
You know, I was thinking of calling it Simulacrum.	1:04:39	1:04:42
I don't even know what it means.	1:04:43	1:04:45
Can I have a nickel if I doesn't play with my peepee no more?	1:04:47	1:04:51
Yeah.	1:04:51	1:04:53
How about The Flawed Light of Love and Grief?	1:04:53	1:04:58
I'm not sure.	1:04:58	1:04:59
Claire, I want you to play yourself.	1:05:01	1:05:04
Sammy's going to move into your apartment set as me.	1:05:04	1:05:07
It would be my honour to play your husband, Claire.	1:05:10	1:05:13
You're an amazing actress.	1:05:13	1:05:14
No, I saw you do Bernarda Alba last year at the Roundabout.	1:05:14	1:05:18
Yeah?	1:05:18	1:05:20
That was a fun play.	1:05:21	1:05:23
Emotionally, it was tough, but fucking fulfilling.	1:05:23	1:05:28
Plus, I loved working with so many strong female actresses.	1:05:28	1:05:31
I am going to start thinking about myself.	1:05:33	1:05:37
Start, huh?	1:05:41	1:05:43
Who is Claire Keen?	1:05:44	1:05:46
Claire Keen. Claire Keen.	1:05:46	1:05:49
Why did we leave Adele, Caden?	1:05:49	1:05:51
She left us.	1:05:54	1:05:55
You know that better than anybody.	1:05:58	1:06:00
Except me.	1:06:01	1:06:03
An amazing artist, though.	1:06:03	1:06:06
The best living artist.	1:06:06	1:06:08
I mean, there's no-one who stares the truth in the face like she does.	1:06:08	1:06:11
Sweet pussy, too.	1:06:11	1:06:13
How do you know that?	1:06:16	1:06:18
Oh...	1:06:19	1:06:21
I read it.	1:06:21	1:06:23
Anyway...	1:06:30	1:06:31
I don't know where she is.	1:06:34	1:06:35
SHIP'S HORN SOUNDS	1:06:35	1:06:37
Well, maybe she's got a sublet in New York.	1:06:37	1:06:39
Maybe she's got a retrospective at the Met.	1:06:39	1:06:42
Maybe, baby.	1:06:42	1:06:44
Why are you giving me this?	1:06:52	1:06:53
I want to follow you there and see how you lose even more of yourself.	1:06:53	1:06:58
Research.	1:07:00	1:07:02
You know, for the part.	1:07:04	1:07:05
Partner.	1:07:07	1:07:08
BUZZ SOUNDS	1:07:42	1:07:44
Hold it. Hold it, please.	1:07:55	1:07:57
Hold it, please.	1:07:57	1:07:59
I asked you to hold the door.	1:08:02	1:08:04
I'm sorry. I pressed the button, but I think it was too late.	1:08:04	1:08:08
You didn't press it.	1:08:08	1:08:10
Have a good night.	1:08:12	1:08:14
Yeah, thanks.	1:08:14	1:08:15
-Are you Ellen? Ellen? -What?	1:08:17	1:08:19
-Are you Ellen Bascomb? -What?	1:08:19	1:08:21
I'm to give the key to 31Y to Ellen Bascomb.	1:08:21	1:08:25
Yes, I'm Ellen.	1:08:26	1:08:28
She said you should just go ahead and get started. And don't forget	1:08:28	1:08:31
-to change the sheets. -OK, thanks. -Oh, sweetheart.	1:08:31	1:08:35
SHOWER RUNS	1:08:37	1:08:39
Adele?	1:08:47	1:08:48
Adele?	1:08:57	1:08:59
Hi, Ellen. Be a doll and do the sheets and whatever's in the hamper.	1:09:03	1:09:08
Your money's under the toaster. Kisses, Adele.	1:09:08	1:09:11
PS - Bag of stuff in bedroom closet for Goodwill. Take what you want.	1:09:11	1:09:15
Went for a walk.	1:09:38	1:09:40
I had to think.	1:09:40	1:09:41
All night?	1:09:49	1:09:52
You smell weird.	1:09:53	1:09:54
Are you wearing lipstick?	1:09:55	1:09:57
No.	1:09:58	1:09:59
What do I smell like?	1:10:01	1:10:02
Like bad? Like an old person?	1:10:04	1:10:07
I don't know. Like mould and cleaning products.	1:10:07	1:10:09
-Like you're menstruating. I don't know. -Menstruating?	1:10:09	1:10:12
You tell me.	1:10:12	1:10:14
I don't menstruate. I don't know how I could smell like I'm menstruating.	1:10:14	1:10:18
I wouldn't know.	1:10:18	1:10:20
I don't like the guy you got to play you.	1:10:30	1:10:33
You don't like Sammy? Why? I think he's good.	1:10:33	1:10:35
I think you should fire...	1:10:35	1:10:36
Fuck you. I'm 45 years old. I don't want to do this shit any more.	1:10:36	1:10:40
He's the best thing in the play, except you.	1:10:40	1:10:43
He's coming on to me, grabbing my ass in rehearsal.	1:10:43	1:10:45
-He's your husband. -Good, Jimmy.	1:10:45	1:10:47
He's not my goddamn husband. You are. What the fuck is wrong with you?	1:10:47	1:10:51
I'm going to rehearsal.	1:10:52	1:10:54
It's about the play. We're getting at something real here.	1:10:54	1:10:57
That's great, you guys. Beautiful, Sammy.	1:10:57	1:11:00
Caden? Timeout?	1:11:02	1:11:04
Yeah.	1:11:04	1:11:05
What's up?	1:11:05	1:11:07
Well, I feel we need a Hazel in here.	1:11:09	1:11:11
I mean, there's a whole side of Caden	1:11:11	1:11:14
I can't explore without a Hazel.	1:11:14	1:11:16
I guess, yeah.	1:11:16	1:11:18
I get to be a character?	1:11:18	1:11:20
-Yeah. -Hooray.	1:11:20	1:11:22
"Hi, Ellen. Crackerjack job last night.	1:11:26	1:11:29
SHE COUGHS	1:11:29	1:11:30
"Would you do sheets again?	1:11:30	1:11:32
"We had quite a fuck, and it's musky and gross. Kisses, A."	1:11:32	1:11:37
Hi, Adele.	1:11:38	1:11:39
Realigned the cabinets.	1:11:39	1:11:40
I just wanted to let you know I won a MacArthur grant.	1:11:40	1:11:43
And I'm mounting a play which I think is going to be pure and truthful.	1:11:43	1:11:48
Best, Ellen.	1:11:48	1:11:50
I went for a walk. I had to think.	1:11:56	1:11:59
Caden, what are you doing at night?	1:12:00	1:12:04
I have a right to fucking know.	1:12:05	1:12:06
I've been going to Adele's place.	1:12:07	1:12:10
And cleaning it.	1:12:13	1:12:14
Do you have any idea what I've given up for you?	1:12:17	1:12:20
For this? For you? For you? KNOCKING	1:12:20	1:12:22
Could you please get that?	1:12:22	1:12:24
Uh-oh. This looks serious. Am I interrupting?	1:12:31	1:12:34
What's going on, Hazel?	1:12:34	1:12:36
I just wanted you to know that the actress playing me	1:12:36	1:12:39
-is ready to start today. -That's great.	1:12:39	1:12:41
That's all we need around here, is two Hazels.	1:12:41	1:12:43
OK, I'll take that as my cue.	1:12:43	1:12:45
-Maybe you could clean her toilet. -Maybe I will.	1:12:47	1:12:50
This is over.	1:12:52	1:12:54
No, Claire...	1:12:54	1:12:55
I'm not talking to you.	1:12:55	1:12:57
I didn't say... I was going to clean Hazel's toilet. He did.	1:12:57	1:13:00
-But you thought it! -I thought it, but I didn't say it.	1:13:00	1:13:03
I got an offer to do Needleman In A Haystack.	1:13:03	1:13:07
And I'm going to take it.	1:13:07	1:13:08
I want you out of the apartment.	1:13:08	1:13:10
The real one. You can keep this one.	1:13:10	1:13:13
Claire!	1:13:13	1:13:14
Jesus.	1:13:14	1:13:16
Claire!	1:13:16	1:13:18
Hi, yeah, we're going to need a Claire replacement.	1:13:18	1:13:21
Claire!	1:13:21	1:13:23
I didn't say it.	1:13:23	1:13:25
I already put out a call for a Claire replacement.	1:13:31	1:13:35
But I'm afraid I'm going to have to move on.	1:13:35	1:13:37
Just like that? You don't give a guy even a chance?	1:13:37	1:13:40
I'm not a chance-giving girl.	1:13:40	1:13:42
I'm a fun-loving girl, remember?	1:13:42	1:13:44
I try and be fun-loving, see?	1:13:44	1:13:46
SHE LAUGHS	1:13:46	1:13:47
Sorry. My analyst says you have complexes.	1:13:47	1:13:51
Once you enjoyed Needleman's complexes.	1:13:51	1:13:54
-That's before my analyst taught me... -This is the last of my stuff. -Bye.	1:13:54	1:13:57
Bye. From the top?	1:13:57	1:13:59
Oh, Needleman, you had such potential.	1:13:59	1:14:01
But I'm afraid I'm going to have to move on.	1:14:01	1:14:02
CLAIRE LAUGHS	1:14:11	1:14:12
Oh, Needleman, you had such potential.	1:14:28	1:14:30
But I'm afraid I'm going to have to move on.	1:14:30	1:14:33
Just like that? You don't even give a guy a chance?	1:14:33	1:14:36
I'm not a chance-giving girl. I'm a fun-loving girl.	1:14:36	1:14:39
Once you enjoyed Needleman's complexes.	1:14:39	1:14:42
-That's before my analyst taught me... -This is a lie.	1:14:42	1:14:45
Come here. I try to be fun-loving, see?	1:14:45	1:14:48
-She told me your hatred of... -Will.	1:14:48	1:14:50
Wall it up.	1:14:50	1:14:52
All of it.	1:14:52	1:14:54
Claire.	1:15:02	1:15:04
BEEP SOUNDS	1:15:05	1:15:07
Oh, Needleman.	1:15:09	1:15:10
SHE LAUGHS	1:15:10	1:15:11
All right.	1:15:11	1:15:13
Oh!	1:15:13	1:15:14
SHE COUGHS	1:15:15	1:15:17
ADELE: Good for you with your grant.	1:15:17	1:15:19
Listen, I fixed up the walk-in as a sort of bedroom if you want.	1:15:19	1:15:22
We'd love to have you and you wouldn't have to shlep	1:15:22	1:15:25
all the way to Queens. It's just a thought. Kisses, A.	1:15:25	1:15:29
"Dear diary, I'm afraid I'm gravely ill.	1:15:39	1:15:41
"It is perhaps times like these that one reflects on things past.	1:15:43	1:15:47
"An article of clothing from when I was young. A green jacket.	1:15:47	1:15:50
"A walk with my father.	1:15:50	1:15:52
"A game we once played.	1:15:52	1:15:53
"Pretend we're fairies.	1:15:53	1:15:56
"I'm a girl fairy, and my name is Lauralee	1:15:56	1:15:58
"and you're a boy fairy, and your name is Teetery.	1:15:58	1:16:01
"Pretend when we're fairies, we fight each other.	1:16:01	1:16:03
"And I say, 'Stop hitting me or I'll die.'	1:16:03	1:16:06
"And you hit me again, and I say 'Now I have to die.'	1:16:06	1:16:09
"And you say, 'But I'll miss you.'	1:16:09	1:16:11
"And I say, 'But I have to.'	1:16:11	1:16:14
"And you'll have to wait a million years to see me again.	1:16:14	1:16:18
"And I'll be put in a box and all I'll need is a tiny glass of water	1:16:18	1:16:22
"and lots of tiny pieces of pizza.	1:16:22	1:16:24
"And the box will have wings like an airplane.	1:16:24	1:16:26
"And you ask, 'Where will it take you?'	1:16:26	1:16:29
"'Home,' I say."	1:16:29	1:16:31
This is to hear.	1:16:47	1:16:49
So... words English here, yeah?	1:16:50	1:16:55
It's Maria. She did this.	1:17:19	1:17:21
Your mother and Maria took you away.	1:17:28	1:17:30
I've tried for years to find you. I didn't leave you.	1:17:30	1:17:32
I'm not a homosexual.	1:17:36	1:17:38
Well, she's a liar. She's lying to you.	1:17:40	1:17:42
Maria is your lover?	1:17:50	1:17:51
You have no idea how evil she is.	1:17:58	1:18:01
I just want...	1:18:08	1:18:09
Can you ever forgive me?	1:18:16	1:18:18
For abandoning you.	1:18:21	1:18:23
I will, I'll say it.	1:18:33	1:18:35
For abandoning you...	1:18:37	1:18:39
..to have anal sex...	1:18:41	1:18:43
with my homosexual lover, Eric.	1:18:43	1:18:46
I hope you are happy, faggot.	1:19:22	1:19:25
I'm not happy.	1:19:25	1:19:27
I'm not happy.	1:19:28	1:19:29
I've talked to you before. This is not a play about dating.	1:20:15	1:20:18
It's about death. Make it personal. Move along.	1:20:18	1:20:21
He doesn't need to yell at them.	1:20:22	1:20:25
It is a play about dating.	1:20:27	1:20:30
It's not a play just about death.	1:20:30	1:20:32
It's about everything.	1:20:32	1:20:34
Dating, birth, death, life, family all that.	1:20:34	1:20:39
-This doesn't look real. -What?	1:20:40	1:20:42
-It's not real. -I can't hear you.	1:20:42	1:20:45
TOOTING	1:21:08	1:21:10
HONKING	1:21:10	1:21:12
Morning, Haze.	1:21:15	1:21:16
Hi, Caden. How was your night?	1:21:16	1:21:19
It was OK. Yours?	1:21:19	1:21:21
Phillip was colicky. I was up all night.	1:21:21	1:21:24
-Oh, sorry. -Sorry.	1:21:24	1:21:27
-Everybody here? -Sammy's not here.	1:21:27	1:21:30
Jimmy called and said there's some subway problem.	1:21:30	1:21:34
Sorry. Sorry.	1:21:34	1:21:36
Hi, Hazel.	1:21:36	1:21:37
Hi, Sammy.	1:21:37	1:21:40
Sammy likes you.	1:21:43	1:21:45
I need you to build this. This is just the facade.	1:21:56	1:21:59
It's Adele's place. We'll be casting an Ellen.	1:21:59	1:22:02
I can get you the interiors later.	1:22:02	1:22:04
TOOTING	1:22:04	1:22:06
A few days?	1:22:06	1:22:08
Millicent Weems?	1:22:18	1:22:20
Caden, this is...	1:22:28	1:22:30
Hazel, what do you think of this title?	1:22:30	1:22:33
Unknown, Unkissed and Lost?	1:22:33	1:22:36
Ah...	1:22:36	1:22:39
Anyway, this is Millicent Weems.	1:22:41	1:22:44
Have a seat.	1:22:44	1:22:46
How are you at cleaning?	1:22:48	1:22:50
Very, very good at it.	1:22:51	1:22:53
This part requires a lot of it. You'd be playing a cleaning lady.	1:22:53	1:22:57
I played Egga, the cleaning lady, in Hedda Gabler at the Roundabout.	1:22:57	1:23:01
Great. OK.	1:23:01	1:23:03
And...	1:23:03	1:23:05
Mrs Dobson in Scrub-A-Dub at the Pantages.	1:23:05	1:23:08
You're weirdly close to what I visualise for this character.	1:23:09	1:23:13
Glad to be weirdly close.	1:23:16	1:23:18
Sorry, everybody. >	1:23:25	1:23:27
Maurice, what's going on?	1:23:28	1:23:30
I'm sorry. We have a couple of new guys on.	1:23:30	1:23:33
We're not in sync yet.	1:23:33	1:23:34
-We good to go? -Yes, sir.	1:23:34	1:23:36
I'm sorry.	1:23:39	1:23:41
(Fuck.)	1:23:42	1:23:43
Are you Ellen?	1:23:44	1:23:46
Are you Ellen Bascomb?	1:23:46	1:23:48
Shit.	1:23:48	1:23:50
Line, please?	1:23:50	1:23:51
"What?"	1:23:54	1:23:56
Right, right. What?	1:23:56	1:23:57
I'm to give the key to 31Y to Ellen Bascomb.	1:23:57	1:24:02
Yes, I'm Ellen.	1:24:02	1:24:04
Oh, dear. It's the wrong key.	1:24:08	1:24:10
ADELE: I'll be in in a second.	1:24:10	1:24:12
-Did you hear that? -What?	1:24:12	1:24:13
Caden, you're breaking the fourth wall.	1:24:15	1:24:17
This is the wrong key.	1:24:17	1:24:18
I'm supposed to open the door.	1:24:18	1:24:20
Hold on.	1:24:20	1:24:22
-Are you in there? -There's no-one in there.	1:24:22	1:24:24
Adele?	1:24:25	1:24:27
Caden.	1:24:27	1:24:28
I'm jumping in the shower. I'll be out in a second.	1:24:29	1:24:32
Do you want some coffee? I can make a fresh pot.	1:24:34	1:24:36
Did you look at the new painting on my easel?	1:24:37	1:24:40
What do you think?	1:24:40	1:24:41
Hey, thanks for the fuck this morning.	1:24:41	1:24:44
People don't walk like that.	1:24:44	1:24:46
What? Is it too...?	1:24:46	1:24:48
No, just walk like yourself.	1:24:48	1:24:50
Watch. Watch this.	1:24:50	1:24:52
I gotta go.	1:24:55	1:24:56
Watch this.	1:24:57	1:24:59
Where's Hazel and Sammy?	1:25:16	1:25:20
Sammy.	1:25:26	1:25:28
Sammy.	1:25:28	1:25:29
THEY LAUGH	1:25:29	1:25:31
-Sammy. -Hi, Caden.	1:25:31	1:25:32
What are you doing?	1:25:32	1:25:34
I was being you.	1:25:34	1:25:36
You know, you like Hazel, I like Hazel.	1:25:37	1:25:39
This Hazel doesn't exist for you.	1:25:39	1:25:41
If you want to like a Hazel, like that one.	1:25:41	1:25:43
That's what I tried to tell him.	1:25:43	1:25:45
No harm, no foul, Caden. It's equity break anyway.	1:25:45	1:25:48
Ten minutes, everybody!	1:25:48	1:25:50
-Hazel. -What?	1:25:51	1:25:53
You don't like him, do you?	1:25:53	1:25:55
Yeah, he reminds me of you.	1:25:55	1:25:57
HE LAUGHS	1:25:57	1:25:58
-I'M -me. You don't need someone to remind you of me.	1:25:58	1:26:01
Oh, don't worry, Caden.	1:26:01	1:26:04
I like you more. I do. It's just, Sammy's fun.	1:26:04	1:26:07
MOBILE RINGS	1:26:07	1:26:09
I'm fun.	1:26:09	1:26:10
Oh, sweetie, no, you're not.	1:26:10	1:26:12
Hold on a sec. ..Yes?	1:26:12	1:26:14
-'Is this Caden Cotard?' -Yes.	1:26:14	1:26:16
'This is Officer Melnin of Schenectady PD. I'm sorry	1:26:16	1:26:19
'to inform you your mother's been the victim of a home invasion.'	1:26:19	1:26:22
What does that mean?	1:26:22	1:26:23
'She is dead.'	1:26:23	1:26:25
Was my father standing with us?	1:26:32	1:26:34
I don't know what he looks like.	1:26:36	1:26:38
He's dead.	1:26:38	1:26:40
So he looks dead, I guess.	1:26:40	1:26:43
Probably wasn't him, then.	1:26:43	1:26:45
He was a big guy.	1:26:45	1:26:47
Anyway...	1:26:51	1:26:53
Thanks for coming with me.	1:26:57	1:26:59
That's OK.	1:27:01	1:27:02
I asked Hazel,	1:27:04	1:27:06
but she was busy tonight, and you're the next best thing.	1:27:06	1:27:09
I mean,	1:27:09	1:27:11
it's not that you're the next best thing,	1:27:11	1:27:14
but because you play her, it feels comforting.	1:27:14	1:27:17
Does that make sense?	1:27:19	1:27:20
Although the thing is, offstage you're nothing like her.	1:27:23	1:27:28
But you play her very well, though.	1:27:28	1:27:30
Did Hazel mention what she was doing tonight?	1:27:40	1:27:43
Because I called her house before we left, and her husband told me	1:27:43	1:27:46
she wasn't going to be back till late.	1:27:46	1:27:49
And I just thought that was weird, because she said Phillip was sick.	1:27:49	1:27:52
She's having dinner with Sammy.	1:27:54	1:27:56
-That's interesting. -He's supposed to like me.	1:27:56	1:27:58
I'll have another talk with him.	1:27:58	1:28:00
Will you excuse me? I need to go to the bathroom.	1:28:05	1:28:08
Don't forget your phone.	1:28:12	1:28:13
Thanks, Yammy.	1:28:16	1:28:17
'It's Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime.'	1:28:23	1:28:26
You can stay in my parents' room.	1:28:35	1:28:37
ENGAGED TONE ON PHONE	1:28:40	1:28:44
I thought someone would have cleaned it up.	1:28:45	1:28:48
Who?	1:28:48	1:28:49
I don't know. Someone.	1:28:51	1:28:52
This is my room. You can sleep here.	1:28:56	1:28:59
Where are you going to sleep?	1:28:59	1:29:02
The living room couch.	1:29:02	1:29:04
Don't you want to sleep with me?	1:29:04	1:29:07
It's just sex.	1:29:09	1:29:11
OK.	1:29:11	1:29:13
If you think it's OK.	1:29:13	1:29:15
How can you be like that?	1:29:17	1:29:19
I get undressed every day. >	1:29:19	1:29:22
In front of someone is different.	1:29:22	1:29:24
I don't see why.	1:29:25	1:29:27
Maybe because you have a beautiful body.	1:29:27	1:29:29
Maybe that makes it easier.	1:29:29	1:29:31
Yeah, I suppose it might.	1:29:31	1:29:33
Do you want to fuck?	1:29:33	1:29:35
I do. Um, do you?	1:29:35	1:29:39
Take your clothes off.	1:29:39	1:29:41
I'm sorry.	1:29:41	1:29:43
I'm very, very lonely.	1:29:43	1:29:45
I don't...	1:29:48	1:29:50
..know what's wrong. I just...	1:29:51	1:29:54
HE SOBS	1:29:54	1:29:56
I'm sorry.	1:29:56	1:29:58
Do you understand?	1:30:00	1:30:02
I mean, can you understand loneliness?	1:30:02	1:30:06
Yeah. I mean...	1:30:08	1:30:10
I don't know, I... I feel OK, mostly.	1:30:11	1:30:15
Fucking might help.	1:30:17	1:30:18
I'm sorry.	1:30:21	1:30:23
It's OK, I don't mind.	1:30:23	1:30:25
Take your clothes off.	1:30:25	1:30:28
You're very pretty.	1:30:29	1:30:31
Thanks.	1:30:31	1:30:32
Sometimes I wish I could be... pretty like that. >	1:30:32	1:30:36
What, you wish you were a girl?	1:30:37	1:30:39
Sometimes I think I might have been better at it.	1:30:39	1:30:41
Interesting. It's kind of a drag in a lot of ways.	1:30:41	1:30:46
Do you like guys?	1:30:46	1:30:48
No! I only...love women.	1:30:48	1:30:51
Well, I'm getting cold.	1:30:51	1:30:54
Pretty Caden.	1:31:06	1:31:07
Thanks for saying that.	1:31:10	1:31:13
Come to bed, pretty Caden.	1:31:15	1:31:16
I shouldn't have drunk so much fucking beer last night.	1:31:22	1:31:26
< What are you going to do about it?	1:31:29	1:31:31
Get lunch. What are you going to do?	1:31:31	1:31:32
Good, Roland.	1:31:32	1:31:34
< Thanks, Caden.	1:31:34	1:31:35
We need to fire him.	1:31:35	1:31:37
We don't need to fire him.	1:31:39	1:31:41
Jeremy's playing to us.	1:31:41	1:31:43
Tell him to talk to Donna, and we'll hear what we hear.	1:31:43	1:31:47
Sammy's explaining too much. It feels expository.	1:31:47	1:31:50
It needs to be shorthand, like, "Jeremy, big."	1:31:50	1:31:53
Caden, can we stop a second?	1:31:53	1:31:55
Sure.	1:31:57	1:31:58
If Hazel's in love with Sammy, and Caden's in love with Hazel,	1:31:58	1:32:01
there would be a big confrontation where	1:32:01	1:32:03
Caden turns to me and says, "It's obvious he's a substitute for me."	1:32:03	1:32:08
Then I think Hazel would have a good moment where she cries	1:32:08	1:32:12
or gets angry... I'm not sure which yet,	1:32:12	1:32:14
-but I think it's dramatically sound... -That didn't happen, Caden.	1:32:14	1:32:17
-I think Hazel would do that, Hazel. -But Hazel -hasn't -done that, Tammy.	1:32:17	1:32:20
Caden, what do you think?	1:32:20	1:32:22
I...I feel like we could... we could try it.	1:32:27	1:32:31
Great.	1:32:31	1:32:33
Fuck.	1:32:33	1:32:34
Let's try it.	1:32:38	1:32:41
Maybe it could happen at the director's table.	1:32:41	1:32:45
Fuck.	1:32:48	1:32:50
You know, Tammy's right. I don't understand why you're with Sammy.	1:32:51	1:32:55
He's nice, he's available, he fucks me without crying.	1:32:57	1:33:00
Since when are you available?	1:33:00	1:33:03
Derek left...	1:33:03	1:33:05
because of you.	1:33:05	1:33:07
When? How come you never told me?	1:33:09	1:33:12
I don't know, Caden. How come a lot of things, huh?	1:33:12	1:33:16
Fuck. I gotta let go of the actor who played Derek. What's his name?	1:33:16	1:33:20
What? That is such a romantic response. I am touched.	1:33:20	1:33:24
-It's not my response... -Derek is played by...	1:33:24	1:33:26
It crossed my mind. We have enormous budgetary concerns here.	1:33:26	1:33:29
Joe...	1:33:29	1:33:31
Joe.	1:33:32	1:33:33
Stop. OK? No, just stop.	1:33:33	1:33:35
I do not like Tammy, and she's nothing like me.	1:33:35	1:33:39
-How can you like her, anyway? -She looks like you.	1:33:39	1:33:42
Joe Abernathy. No, she does not.	1:33:42	1:33:44
She offered to have sex with me. Abernathy?	1:33:44	1:33:46
Yeah.	1:33:46	1:33:48
-Was it good? -It was nice.	1:33:48	1:33:50
I'm just being honest. It was nice. It wasn't earth-shattering.	1:33:50	1:33:54
-Did you cry? -No.	1:33:56	1:33:58
You're making progress.	1:33:58	1:34:00
OK, I cried a little before.	1:34:02	1:34:04
Hazel, you've been a part of me forever. Don't you know that?	1:34:12	1:34:15
I breathe your name in every exhalation.	1:34:19	1:34:23
What are we doing?	1:34:26	1:34:28
I don't know.	1:34:28	1:34:29
Oh, this is the place I stayed with Derek and the kids.	1:34:48	1:34:52
Yeah, we're almost...	1:34:52	1:34:53
Caden...	1:34:53	1:34:55
Caden...!	1:34:57	1:34:59
-Caden! Caden, look at me! -What are you doing?	1:34:59	1:35:02
Sammy, stay right where you are. I'm coming up.	1:35:02	1:35:04
There's nothing to talk about, Hazel. It's not your fault.	1:35:04	1:35:07
What are you doing?	1:35:07	1:35:09
I've watched you forever, Caden.	1:35:09	1:35:10
But you've never really looked at anyone other than yourself.	1:35:10	1:35:13
So watch me. Watch my heart break.	1:35:13	1:35:17
Watch me jump.	1:35:17	1:35:19
Watch me learn that after death there's nothing.	1:35:21	1:35:23
No more watching, no more following, no love.	1:35:23	1:35:25
Say goodbye to Hazel for me. And say it for yourself too.	1:35:25	1:35:30
None of us has much time.	1:35:30	1:35:32
Sammy! Come down!	1:35:32	1:35:34
Hazel, I love...you!	1:35:34	1:35:38
Sammy!	1:35:38	1:35:39
I didn't jump, Sammy.	1:35:39	1:35:42
A man stopped me before I jumped. Get up!	1:35:43	1:35:45
I didn't jump.	1:35:48	1:35:50
I know how to do it now.	1:35:56	1:35:58
There are nearly 13 million people in the world.	1:35:58	1:36:02
I mean, can you imagine that many people?	1:36:02	1:36:04
And none of those people is an extra.	1:36:04	1:36:06
They're all leads in their own stories.	1:36:07	1:36:11
They have to be given their due.	1:36:11	1:36:13
I know how to do it now.	1:36:13	1:36:15
There are 13 million people in this world.	1:36:15	1:36:18
Can you imagine how many people that is?	1:36:18	1:36:20
None of those people are an extra.	1:36:20	1:36:22
They're all a lead in their own story.	1:36:22	1:36:24
They have got to be given their due.	1:36:24	1:36:27
Do you see what I'm saying?	1:36:27	1:36:28
Come over tonight.	1:36:29	1:36:31
Please.	1:36:34	1:36:36
You know, we could get a place together. We could get a loft.	1:36:37	1:36:41
God, Caden, that sounds nice. I miss my daughter.	1:36:41	1:36:45
Maybe she could come live with us.	1:36:45	1:36:48
I miss Olive. And the other one.	1:36:48	1:36:51
I'm a bad person.	1:36:51	1:36:53
Oh, no, you're not.	1:36:53	1:36:55
I am. I should never have gone out with Sammy.	1:36:55	1:36:59
I was just trying to get to you.	1:36:59	1:37:00
You can't cause someone to kill himself.	1:37:00	1:37:04
He was very troubled.	1:37:04	1:37:06
God, Caden.	1:37:06	1:37:09
I wish we had this when we were young.	1:37:11	1:37:14
And all those years in between.	1:37:17	1:37:19
My heart aches so much for you.	1:37:19	1:37:22
We're here, Caden.	1:37:22	1:37:24
I'm here.	1:37:25	1:37:27
I'm aching for it being over.	1:37:27	1:37:29
Yeah. The end is built into the beginning.	1:37:31	1:37:35
What can you do?	1:37:36	1:37:39
God, you're just perfect.	1:37:39	1:37:40
I'm a mess.	1:37:40	1:37:42
But we fit, don't we?	1:37:42	1:37:45
Yeah.	1:37:45	1:37:46
It doesn't always happen for me now,	1:37:56	1:37:58
because of the medication and everything. I take a lot of pills.	1:37:58	1:38:03
It's OK.	1:38:03	1:38:05
I'm embarrassed.	1:38:05	1:38:07
I don't want you to think it's about you or me.	1:38:07	1:38:10
It's OK.	1:38:10	1:38:12
I have a title.	1:38:54	1:38:56
The Obscure Moon	1:38:58	1:39:01
Lighting An Obscure World.	1:39:01	1:39:03
I think it might be too much.	1:39:07	1:39:09
Yeah, probably.	1:39:12	1:39:13
< Sir, could you come up here, please?	1:39:25	1:39:28
Might be smoke inhalation.	1:39:45	1:39:48
'It's Hazel. Leave a message or not. It's your dime.'	1:39:53	1:39:56
I know how to do the play now.	1:39:56	1:39:58
It'll all take place over the course of one day...	1:40:02	1:40:05
..and that day will be the day before you died.	1:40:06	1:40:09
It was the happiest day of my life.	1:40:11	1:40:13
And I'll be able to relive it forever.	1:40:16	1:40:19
See you soon.	1:40:19	1:40:21
So, have you got any thoughts for today's rehearsal?	1:40:26	1:40:30
I have a new title, maybe.	1:40:32	1:40:34
-Oh. -Infectious Diseases In Cattle.	1:40:34	1:40:37
Oh.	1:40:37	1:40:38
The title means a lot of things.	1:40:41	1:40:43
You'll see, it means a lot.	1:40:43	1:40:45
I need a Caden for my Hazel.	1:40:56	1:40:59
I'd very much like to play Caden.	1:40:59	1:41:02
I know...	1:41:03	1:41:05
I know...I know that it would be non-traditional casting,	1:41:05	1:41:09
but I think I could do it. I think I understand him.	1:41:09	1:41:13
I don't understand him.	1:41:13	1:41:16
Well, Caden Cotard is a man...	1:41:16	1:41:20
already dead.	1:41:20	1:41:22
He lives in a half-world between stasis and antistasis.	1:41:22	1:41:29
And time is concentrated, chronology confused.	1:41:29	1:41:32
Yet up until recently, he's...	1:41:32	1:41:36
strived valiantly to...	1:41:36	1:41:39
make sense of his situation.	1:41:39	1:41:42
But now he...	1:41:42	1:41:44
he's turned to stone.	1:41:44	1:41:46
OK. Sounds good.	1:41:46	1:41:49
OK.	1:41:49	1:41:50
-Thanks! -She's right? I didn't see that at all.	1:41:52	1:41:56
I saw it as much more hopeful.	1:41:56	1:41:57
None of those people is extras.	1:41:59	1:42:03
They're all leads in their own stories.	1:42:03	1:42:05
No, this is...this is tedious. This is nothing.	1:42:08	1:42:12
Hi, your scene's over. Would you leave the stage?	1:42:15	1:42:19
-What is she doing? -He's directing.	1:42:19	1:42:22
Can I get you down at the coffin there?	1:42:22	1:42:25
She's not getting the feel of you, Caden.	1:42:25	1:42:28
You don't move around like that. You don't talk to people.	1:42:28	1:42:31
Sit on the ground there. OK, everybody, let's run it.	1:42:35	1:42:38
Everything is more complicated than you think.	1:42:40	1:42:43
You only see a tenth of what is true.	1:42:43	1:42:46
There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make.	1:42:46	1:42:51
You can destroy your life every time you choose.	1:42:51	1:42:54
But maybe you won't know for 20 years	1:42:54	1:42:57
and you may never, ever trace it to its source.	1:42:57	1:43:00
And you only get one chance to play it out.	1:43:00	1:43:02
Just try and figure out your own divorce.	1:43:02	1:43:05
And they say there is no fate. But there is. It's what you create.	1:43:05	1:43:10
And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here	1:43:12	1:43:16
for a fraction of a fraction of a second.	1:43:16	1:43:19
Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born.	1:43:19	1:43:22
But while alive, you wait in vain wasting years for a phone call	1:43:22	1:43:27
or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right.	1:43:27	1:43:32
And it never comes, or it seems to, but it doesn't really.	1:43:32	1:43:36
So you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope	1:43:36	1:43:40
that something good will come along. Something to make you feel connected.	1:43:40	1:43:44
Something to make you feel whole.	1:43:44	1:43:46
Something to make you feel loved.	1:43:46	1:43:50
And the truth is...	1:43:50	1:43:53
..I feel so angry.	1:43:54	1:43:57
And the truth is...	1:43:57	1:44:00
I feel so fucking sad.	1:44:00	1:44:03
And the truth is...	1:44:03	1:44:05
I've felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long.	1:44:05	1:44:10
And for just as long, I've been pretending I'm OK	1:44:10	1:44:13
just to get along, just for...	1:44:13	1:44:16
I don't know why.	1:44:16	1:44:19
Maybe because no-one wants to hear about my misery,	1:44:19	1:44:24
because they have their own.	1:44:24	1:44:26
Well...	1:44:26	1:44:27
..fuck everybody.	1:44:30	1:44:31
Amen.	1:44:33	1:44:35
Amen.	1:44:35	1:44:36
-Delightful. -Thanks.	1:44:51	1:44:53
I'm out of ideas.	1:44:53	1:44:55
I'm dead.	1:44:58	1:45:00
Well, I could take over as you for a bit until you feel refreshed.	1:45:01	1:45:07
I think you're tired, Caden. All these years of creative work.	1:45:07	1:45:11
I think you just need some...	1:45:11	1:45:14
time to regroup.	1:45:14	1:45:17
I need to keep my hand in.	1:45:18	1:45:21
-Well, Ellen needs to be filled. -What do you mean?	1:45:21	1:45:23
Her role. Just for a bit.	1:45:23	1:45:25
It's a choice role.	1:45:25	1:45:26
I do like to clean.	1:45:29	1:45:31
Ellen?	1:45:45	1:45:46
Yes?	1:45:51	1:45:53
Caden asked me to give you this.	1:45:53	1:45:55
You're to keep it in all the time.	1:45:55	1:45:58
'So touched by the sadness of Adele's neighbour,	1:46:02	1:46:06
'so close to death.	1:46:06	1:46:08
'Say, "Thank you," to Adele's neighbour.'	1:46:08	1:46:11
Thank you.	1:46:11	1:46:13
You're very welcome, young lady.	1:46:13	1:46:15
'Now say, "Have a very good day." '	1:46:15	1:46:17
Have a very good day.	1:46:17	1:46:19
I will indeed.	1:46:19	1:46:20
'Reach for the toilet paper.	1:46:24	1:46:26
'Wrap some around your hand.	1:46:28	1:46:30
'Wipe yourself.'	1:46:31	1:46:33
'There was supposed to be something else.	1:46:38	1:46:40
'You were supposed to have something -	1:46:41	1:46:43
'a calm.	1:46:43	1:46:46
'Love.	1:46:46	1:46:48
'Children.'	1:46:48	1:46:50
A child, at least.	1:46:50	1:46:52
Children.	1:46:53	1:46:55
Meaning.	1:46:55	1:46:58
Everything OK, Eric?	1:47:05	1:47:07
Everything is everything.	1:47:09	1:47:13
He hates me.	1:47:13	1:47:15
I disappointed him, and he hates me.	1:47:15	1:47:17
Everyone is disappointing... when you know someone.	1:47:19	1:47:23
'I remember having that picnic with my mother. Look at me.'	1:47:28	1:47:33
Ellen, what is it?	1:47:33	1:47:35
'I was so young.'	1:47:35	1:47:37
I'm going to remember this moment for the rest of my life, Mama.	1:47:37	1:47:40
-And in exactly 20 years, come here with -my -daughter	1:47:40	1:47:44
and have exactly the same picnic.	1:47:44	1:47:46
'There was so much hope.'	1:47:46	1:47:48
Baby, that the loveliest thing I've ever heard.	1:47:48	1:47:50
'Oh, God...	1:47:52	1:47:55
'Sorry, Mommy. I'm sorry.'	1:47:55	1:47:59
'Where is my little girl?	1:48:17	1:48:19
'Where is my little girl?	1:48:19	1:48:21
'Where is my little girl?'	1:48:21	1:48:24
'Look at the night table for a note from Adele.'	1:48:33	1:48:37
'Adele died of lung cancer last night.	1:48:37	1:48:40
'You may stay on if you like.'	1:48:40	1:48:42
'Stare out the window.	1:48:44	1:48:46
'Remember the time she got you to pose for one of her paintings?	1:48:48	1:48:52
'How she told you how beautiful you were?	1:48:52	1:48:54
'How she made you feel pretty again for a little while?	1:48:54	1:48:57
'Think how you'll miss her.	1:48:57	1:49:00
'Stand up.'	1:49:00	1:49:03
BOOMING	1:49:09	1:49:11
'Now it is waiting, and nobody cares.	1:49:11	1:49:15
'And when your wait is over, this room will still exist...'	1:49:15	1:49:18
SHOUTS OF "FREEDOM!"	1:49:18	1:49:20
'..and it will continue to hold shoes and dresses and boxes,	1:49:20	1:49:24
'and maybe someday another waiting person.	1:49:24	1:49:27
'And maybe not.	1:49:27	1:49:29
'The room doesn't care either.'	1:49:29	1:49:31
SHOUTING AND SCREAMING	1:49:32	1:49:36
SILENCE THEN BOOM	1:49:42	1:49:45
'Walk.'	1:49:47	1:49:48
VOICE FIZZLES OUT WITH STATIC	1:49:48	1:49:50
HE WAILS	1:49:53	1:49:55
There's nobody running the elevator any more.	1:50:08	1:50:12
'What was once before you, an exciting and mysterious future,	1:50:46	1:50:50
'is now behind you - lived, understood, disappointing.	1:50:50	1:50:55
'You realise you are not special.	1:50:55	1:50:57
'You have struggled into existence	1:50:57	1:51:00
'and are now slipping silently out of it.	1:51:00	1:51:02
'This is everyone's experience.	1:51:02	1:51:05
'Every single one.	1:51:05	1:51:07
'The specifics hardly matter.	1:51:07	1:51:09
'Everyone is everyone.	1:51:09	1:51:12
'So you are Adele,	1:51:12	1:51:14
'Hazel, Claire, Olive.	1:51:14	1:51:19
'You are Ellen.	1:51:19	1:51:21
'All her meagre sadnesses are yours.	1:51:21	1:51:24
'All her loneliness.	1:51:24	1:51:26
'The grey, straw-like hair.	1:51:26	1:51:28
'Her red, raw hands.	1:51:28	1:51:31
'It's yours.	1:51:31	1:51:32
'It is time for you to understand this.'	1:51:32	1:51:36
'Walk.'	1:51:45	1:51:47
'As the people who adore you stop adoring you, as they die,	1:51:54	1:51:57
'as they move on,	1:51:57	1:52:00
'as you shed them, as you shed your beauty, your youth,	1:52:00	1:52:04
'as the world forgets you, as you recognise your transience,	1:52:04	1:52:07
'as you begin to lose your characteristics one by one,	1:52:07	1:52:11
'as you learn there is no-one watching you and there never was,	1:52:11	1:52:15
'you think only about driving.	1:52:15	1:52:18
'Not coming from any place, not arriving any place.	1:52:18	1:52:22
'Just driving, counting off time.	1:52:22	1:52:26
'Now you are here. It's 7.43.	1:52:26	1:52:30
'Now you are here. It's 7.44. Now you are...	1:52:30	1:52:33
'..gone.'	1:52:35	1:52:36
Where is everybody? >	1:52:42	1:52:44
Mostly dead.	1:52:46	1:52:48
< Some have left.	1:52:48	1:52:50
Would you sit with me for a moment?	1:52:57	1:52:59
Cos I'm very tired	1:52:59	1:53:01
and lonely.	1:53:01	1:53:03
I feel like I know you.	1:53:22	1:53:24
Well, I was the mother in Ellen's dream.	1:53:24	1:53:28
Yes.	1:53:28	1:53:30
You seem a bit older than I remember.	1:53:33	1:53:36
That dream was quite a while ago.	1:53:36	1:53:38
'Apologise.'	1:53:38	1:53:40
I didn't mean to say you looked old.	1:53:40	1:53:43
There's everyone's dreams in all those apartments.	1:53:52	1:53:56
All those thoughts	1:53:59	1:54:01
I'll never know. That's the truth of it.	1:54:01	1:54:04
I wanted to do that picnic with my daughter.	1:54:10	1:54:12
I feel like I've disappointed you terribly.	1:54:16	1:54:19
Oh, no.	1:54:19	1:54:21
I am so proud of you.	1:54:21	1:54:23
'Ask her if you can put your head on her shoulder.'	1:54:23	1:54:26
Can I lay my head on your shoulder?	1:54:26	1:54:29
Yes.	1:54:29	1:54:31
I love you.	1:54:40	1:54:42
I love you too.	1:54:45	1:54:47
I know how to do this play now.	1:55:09	1:55:11
I have an idea.	1:55:14	1:55:15
I think...	1:55:15	1:55:17
if everyone...	1:55:17	1:55:19
'Die.'	1:55:19	1:55:21
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