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Hey everyone, so I am Katie Snooks and you can normally find me here. | :00:00. | :00:07. | |
I've suffered with acne for the last decade and honestly, | :00:08. | :00:09. | |
it has controlled every single aspect of my life from my | :00:10. | :00:12. | |
social life, dating, and also my self-confidence. | :00:13. | :00:21. | |
I don't feel beautiful at all, my confidence is really low today. | :00:22. | :00:24. | |
Until recently I finally had success. | :00:25. | :00:39. | |
I have spent the last eight months vlogging my journey taking | :00:40. | :00:41. | |
the sometimes controversial drug isotretinoin, more commonly | :00:42. | :00:43. | |
The success rate is high but it's also hard to get. | :00:44. | :00:49. | |
You can't get it from your GP and it took me a couple of years to get | :00:50. | :00:53. | |
I recently finished my treatment and I just uploaded my last skin | :00:54. | :00:58. | |
update on my Youtube channel and the transformation in my skin | :00:59. | :01:02. | |
So I finally found a drug that cleared my skin but I want to know | :01:03. | :01:16. | |
how other people deal with their acne but not just | :01:17. | :01:18. | |
the treatments but how they deal with the emotional side, | :01:19. | :01:21. | |
the self-confidence and the way you feel about being you. | :01:22. | :01:30. | |
Time to catch a train, I'm off to Edinburgh. | :01:31. | :01:32. | |
Libby and Lauren are taking me on a night out. | :01:33. | :01:36. | |
Libby's tried roaccutane three times without success so now she's trying | :01:37. | :01:38. | |
So the first time I went on it, it totally cleared up | :01:39. | :01:48. | |
And then it just came back all of it, and I feel like it came | :01:49. | :01:55. | |
You so you lived with perfect skin for a whole year? | :01:56. | :01:59. | |
I wouldn't say perfect, I still had scarring from obviously | :02:00. | :02:02. | |
the spots before but I was happy with my skin and that's | :02:03. | :02:04. | |
like the only time in about eight years that I have actually been | :02:05. | :02:08. | |
You are trying a new treatment now, can you tell me a bit about that? | :02:09. | :02:12. | |
So it's a suction and laser treatment and they go | :02:13. | :02:16. | |
around your skin and they suck the bacteria out and zap it | :02:17. | :02:18. | |
with a laser to kill any leftover bacteria. | :02:19. | :02:24. | |
What's the first step in your make-up regime? | :02:25. | :02:26. | |
I always start with covering the majority of the redness with | :02:27. | :02:28. | |
"This is BBC Radio 1, Saturday night, this is Danny Howard, | :02:29. | :02:38. | |
a big shoutout to the girls getting ready for a massive | :02:39. | :02:42. | |
Libby's training to be a beauty therapist and she says nights out | :02:43. | :03:02. | |
like this are one of the times she feels most self-conscious | :03:03. | :03:05. | |
You feel like the odd one out, like you stick | :03:06. | :03:08. | |
Also I feel like sort of through the night | :03:09. | :03:12. | |
like your make-up comes off, as well, like it's not as nice | :03:13. | :03:14. | |
Do you feel like you completely let go on a night out regardless of how | :03:15. | :03:20. | |
you're feeling about yourself at that particular time? | :03:21. | :03:22. | |
If I have had enough drink, then yeah, but if I have not.. | :03:23. | :03:32. | |
I am with my friends and trying to enjoy myself. | :03:33. | :03:36. | |
When I have a problem about anything I can always go to them, | :03:37. | :03:39. | |
they're so nice about it, I love them. | :03:40. | :03:41. | |
Do you feel like Libby at any point gets jealous of you and the friends | :03:42. | :03:45. | |
that don't have acne and have never really suffered with it? | :03:46. | :03:47. | |
I wouldn't say so, Libby's not like a jealous person, | :03:48. | :03:52. | |
I do see she is not confident in her of herself | :03:53. | :03:54. | |
Do you think her acne has held her back with dating | :03:55. | :04:02. | |
As far as I have known her it's been school since we started there she's, | :04:03. | :04:09. | |
I have never known her to have a boyfriend. | :04:10. | :04:13. | |
Which is a real shame because there are so many other | :04:14. | :04:16. | |
She's had acne the whole time you have known her. | :04:17. | :04:20. | |
Never known her without and I just hope something does happen | :04:21. | :04:23. | |
for her that she can gain her confidence back. | :04:24. | :04:25. | |
She's not really dated many guys since I have been friends with her. | :04:26. | :04:30. | |
Do you think that could be because of that? | :04:31. | :04:32. | |
If Libby never looked good before she went out she wouldn't go. | :04:33. | :04:36. | |
She would be like, I am not going out. | :04:37. | :04:38. | |
Do you think her confidence has been affected by having acne? | :04:39. | :04:41. | |
Sometimes we have to come in the morning without any make-up | :04:42. | :04:43. | |
on and I think Libby is quite self-conscious coming out into | :04:44. | :04:49. | |
college with absolutely no make-up on. | :04:50. | :04:50. | |
If you are giving someone a facial with great skin | :04:51. | :04:56. | |
but you have not great skin, so yeah definitely. | :04:57. | :05:03. | |
So, it's been lovely to spend the evening | :05:04. | :05:05. | |
with you and after spending the last couple of hours with you and your | :05:06. | :05:08. | |
friends I've been thinking are you kind of pinning | :05:09. | :05:10. | |
all your hopes on this current treatment that you're on? | :05:11. | :05:19. | |
Yeah, I'd say I am just because the amount of money | :05:20. | :05:22. | |
I've paid towards it, it's like my own savings | :05:23. | :05:24. | |
But if it doesn't work, it doesn't work and I'll try something new. | :05:25. | :05:28. | |
Hopefully not as expensive but I have noticed a difference | :05:29. | :05:30. | |
in my skin and I have only had two treatments, so fingers crossed. | :05:31. | :05:39. | |
It was lovely to meet Libby, but after meeting her it really | :05:40. | :05:43. | |
dawned on me just how much she's spending on this acne treatment, | :05:44. | :05:46. | |
it's costing her ?600 and that's on top of all the make-up she's | :05:47. | :05:49. | |
I can relate to her so much and I really know how it feels | :05:50. | :05:57. | |
to pin all your hopes on one acne treatment. | :05:58. | :05:59. | |
I've taken one pill so it's kind of the first day but nothing's | :06:00. | :06:07. | |
I'm very worried about these big ones all coming at the same time. | :06:08. | :06:21. | |
That will be very painful and very unattractive. | :06:22. | :06:23. | |
Day 18, I wasn't going to film today because I didn't feel like it | :06:24. | :06:27. | |
but I thought I would be completely honest and show you guys. | :06:28. | :06:30. | |
My skin hasn't been this bad in a really long time. | :06:31. | :06:34. | |
I put so much hope and so much faith into every single thing I tried | :06:35. | :06:41. | |
for acne and when things didn't work it just crushed me even more. | :06:42. | :06:49. | |
I'm wondering what are the other solutions available | :06:50. | :06:52. | |
So I've come to meet one of the UK's leading dermatologists. | :06:53. | :07:01. | |
I met Libby a few days ago and she's tried roaccutane three times and it | :07:02. | :07:09. | |
hasn't worked for her and now she's paying her own money for a new light | :07:10. | :07:13. | |
therapy treatment which she's kind of pinning all her last hopes on. | :07:14. | :07:16. | |
I was wondering if there are any other treatments left available | :07:17. | :07:18. | |
I wouldn't say there's anything imminent that's going to topple | :07:19. | :07:27. | |
roaccutane off its perch but there are particularly | :07:28. | :07:32. | |
light-based treatments now that seem to be gaining more evidence | :07:33. | :07:34. | |
For Libby, I think getting support from consultant dermatologists, | :07:35. | :07:42. | |
either privately, if it's not possible, because the NHS | :07:43. | :07:48. | |
is so burdened, would probably at least make her feel more | :07:49. | :07:51. | |
So I've just finished my course of roaccutane | :07:52. | :07:54. | |
before I started I was googling it and researching it an awful lot. | :07:55. | :07:58. | |
There are a lot of kind of controversial things about | :07:59. | :08:00. | |
Well, roaccutane is an extremely strong | :08:01. | :08:06. | |
medication for acne, and acne is not a life-threatening disease. | :08:07. | :08:10. | |
So it's always a matter of balancing up the | :08:11. | :08:17. | |
pros and cons, but it doesn't come without risks and it's understanding | :08:18. | :08:19. | |
the risks, informing the patients of the risks so they can | :08:20. | :08:22. | |
make their own decision, but it can be extremely | :08:23. | :08:25. | |
effective for people who have severe and/or stubborn acne. | :08:26. | :08:27. | |
It's understanding what the risks are. | :08:28. | :08:30. | |
Someone who knows all about those risks is Jessica. | :08:31. | :08:36. | |
I'm off to third wheel her date night with boyfriend Brendan. | :08:37. | :08:39. | |
Jess hasn't used roaccutane because she's been diagnosed with | :08:40. | :08:41. | |
Dermatologists say the side-effects range from dry lips to, | :08:42. | :08:50. | |
much more rarely, kidney damage and even mental health problems. | :08:51. | :08:53. | |
We met at my dad and my stepmum's wedding. | :08:54. | :08:56. | |
So I'm 22 now, so kind of all started when I was about 12. | :08:57. | :09:10. | |
I'd get, like, really bad whiteheads on | :09:11. | :09:12. | |
my face and my friends were like, let me pop your spot and I'd be like | :09:13. | :09:15. | |
And I think forget, like, the physical side of | :09:16. | :09:19. | |
Kind of worse on my shoulders but it does go down my | :09:20. | :09:23. | |
back as well, and I like to call it bacne. | :09:24. | :09:26. | |
See, they don't look too inflamed at the moment. | :09:27. | :09:31. | |
It looks like scarring, but it has been worse in the past? | :09:32. | :09:36. | |
How about when you first met, was that kind of awkward? | :09:37. | :09:40. | |
I think I was a bit embarrassed, and especially | :09:41. | :09:43. | |
I kind of, like, made a joke out of it but I think it was... | :09:44. | :09:51. | |
And do you have any ways in particular to make yourself feel | :09:52. | :09:55. | |
better whilst you're, like, really suffering with acne? | :09:56. | :09:58. | |
Just, like, having somebody, having your friends | :09:59. | :10:00. | |
and family and just know that they're always there. | :10:01. | :10:02. | |
None of my friends, my family, my boyfriend, | :10:03. | :10:04. | |
So spending time with them, and I just | :10:05. | :10:08. | |
make sure that I use, like, a moisturiser. | :10:09. | :10:09. | |
So, I just wanted to talk a little bit about how, kind of, | :10:10. | :10:21. | |
Jessica's acne has affected your relationship at all? | :10:22. | :10:28. | |
She does have low confidence sometimes, especially | :10:29. | :10:32. | |
when wearing tops where her back's revealed, because she feels quite | :10:33. | :10:35. | |
Has it ever, like, caused any friction in your | :10:36. | :10:38. | |
relationship, her low self-confidence, because of her | :10:39. | :10:40. | |
I've always been able to kind of notice when Jess has been quite | :10:41. | :10:44. | |
So when she's been quite quiet or quite upset, | :10:45. | :10:47. | |
I've approached her and spoken to her about it. | :10:48. | :10:49. | |
It was really lovely to meet Jessica last night, | :10:50. | :11:02. | |
and although she is feeling confident and happy | :11:03. | :11:04. | |
concerned because I know from experience that if you have acne, | :11:05. | :11:09. | |
it's always there in the back of your mind, no matter how many | :11:10. | :11:13. | |
kind of smiles you can put on for the | :11:14. | :11:15. | |
Supposed to be going out tonight and now I just don't... | :11:16. | :11:23. | |
Not only is it breaking out, it's also so itchy and | :11:24. | :11:27. | |
It becomes really infuriating and frustrating when girls with clear | :11:28. | :11:35. | |
skin on social media, especially some of the ones I follow on Twitter | :11:36. | :11:38. | |
and Snapchat, they're like, oh, I've got a spot, | :11:39. | :11:41. | |
And they've got the tiniest, tiniest little spot you can't even see. | :11:42. | :11:48. | |
I've got something going on with my eyes, | :11:49. | :11:53. | |
It makes me want to gouge my eyes out. | :11:54. | :11:59. | |
She got in touch with us about her acne. | :12:00. | :12:06. | |
She's suffered with it for an awful long time. | :12:07. | :12:08. | |
And we're also going to be meeting her son | :12:09. | :12:11. | |
I'm unsure about how much he's going to talk to | :12:12. | :12:15. | |
us about it, but let's go and have a chat. | :12:16. | :12:18. | |
So your mum got in touch with us about her acne. | :12:19. | :12:23. | |
I mean I think it's quite good that you're doing a | :12:24. | :12:38. | |
documentary, because everyone can understand what it's like. | :12:39. | :12:40. | |
Almost everyone has or suffers with acne at | :12:41. | :12:42. | |
But when you're going through it kind of | :12:43. | :12:45. | |
almost feels like you're the only one. | :12:46. | :12:47. | |
I look at myself in a mirror and think, yeah, this is worse | :12:48. | :12:51. | |
Because I don't really see, I don't look at other people | :12:52. | :12:54. | |
specifically, I kind of just criticise myself for it. | :12:55. | :12:56. | |
You sometimes wear make-up to cover your acne, can you tell me a bit | :12:57. | :13:02. | |
about that? It comes as a bit of a shock at first, people are like, are | :13:03. | :13:07. | |
you wearing make-up? Then everybody realises, what is the difference? | :13:08. | :13:11. | |
All the girls in my year slather themselves in make-up as soon as | :13:12. | :13:16. | |
they get a spot, at this stage I was, I think everyone could | :13:17. | :13:19. | |
empathise with me and see why I was doing this, because I was in such a | :13:20. | :13:26. | |
bad point. It made you feel better? It did. I covered it up, when I | :13:27. | :13:32. | |
looked in error I did not look atrocious, I looked normal. Do you | :13:33. | :13:36. | |
have any pictures, would you me having a look? | :13:37. | :13:40. | |
George is 15 and it takes him real guts to show me these pictures. | :13:41. | :13:47. | |
These back on holiday. As you can see, I look pretty bad. That is not | :13:48. | :13:53. | |
at my worst. He is now on roaccutane butchering the camera photos up when | :13:54. | :13:59. | |
he was not is a step too far. -- but sharing the camera photos. It looks | :14:00. | :14:05. | |
really painful, your entire face is covered with quite big... It was | :14:06. | :14:10. | |
quite bad, it was not just on my face, it was my back, my neck. | :14:11. | :14:15. | |
Getting to sleep was a struggle. I would have to deal with my face in | :14:16. | :14:26. | |
the day and my back at night. I'm sorry to say this but it also... It | :14:27. | :14:28. | |
almost makes you look like a different person because the cysts | :14:29. | :14:31. | |
are so big they kind of distort your face. I was quite swollen as well. | :14:32. | :14:36. | |
Thank you so much for sharing me these pictures and board talking to | :14:37. | :14:42. | |
me today, you are super in inspiring. I thought me and George | :14:43. | :14:47. | |
had a unique story, we both have acne, we both have acne, we're both | :14:48. | :14:51. | |
on roaccutane. The bias is showing the world has acne at its worst is | :14:52. | :14:55. | |
too much for George, his mother has had decades to grow in confidence. | :14:56. | :15:04. | |
Oh, my gosh! That was pretty much rock bottom. That was horrendous. | :15:05. | :15:12. | |
How did... When you woke up every day, what did... Literally every | :15:13. | :15:17. | |
time I looked in the mirror it changed, it was like it was moving | :15:18. | :15:23. | |
around. It got worse and worse. When George was nearing the age when you | :15:24. | :15:28. | |
started to get it, were you worried? I always said as soon as they got | :15:29. | :15:33. | |
spots they would go to the doctors. Did it make you feel guilty? No, | :15:34. | :15:39. | |
just sad. I can feel guilty, I have done nothing wrong but I feel sad, I | :15:40. | :15:43. | |
feel for George that he has had to go through this and he has dealt | :15:44. | :15:48. | |
with it really, really well. He is a very resilient kids. | :15:49. | :15:53. | |
Seeing acne that bad has really touched a nerve. I can remember | :15:54. | :15:57. | |
exactly how I used to feel when mine was that bad and it just isn't fair. | :15:58. | :16:03. | |
You just want someone that you feel like you can turn to land will have | :16:04. | :16:09. | |
answers for you. But obviously it does not happen with everyone. I was | :16:10. | :16:12. | |
lucky enough to have found a dermatologist I could connect with. | :16:13. | :16:18. | |
It got me thinking about Jessica, she has not really nailed any | :16:19. | :16:22. | |
solutions despite putting on a brave face, so I have decided to put into | :16:23. | :16:29. | |
each with a doctor. -- put her in touch with. I thought I would tell | :16:30. | :16:37. | |
you a bit about myself. I am 22, I have had acne for about ten years | :16:38. | :16:43. | |
now. I saw a dermatologist and was offered roaccutane but we decided it | :16:44. | :16:48. | |
was not the best thing for me, so I was wondering if there were any | :16:49. | :16:54. | |
alternatives. Every patient is different, I am meeting you for the | :16:55. | :16:58. | |
first time but roaccutane may be a treatment option for someone with | :16:59. | :17:02. | |
your skin type, but it is not just your skin, it is the emotional side | :17:03. | :17:07. | |
and anxiety. There are lots of options. Do you think there will | :17:08. | :17:13. | |
ever be a cure for acne? In many patients, roaccutane or isotretinoin | :17:14. | :17:17. | |
can cure the acne, turn it off and it does not come back, but not all. | :17:18. | :17:25. | |
We always live in hope of a cure. I have heard things about diet, skin | :17:26. | :17:29. | |
care, that that affects acne. Is there any truth behind that? Whether | :17:30. | :17:33. | |
or not one develops acne is pretty much genetically determined, but | :17:34. | :17:38. | |
there are outside factors. Stress can trigger it, you need strategies | :17:39. | :17:44. | |
to manage it so that you feel happy that it is acceptable and you are | :17:45. | :17:48. | |
coping with the condition rather than its ruining your life. Thank | :17:49. | :17:52. | |
you for talking to me. That is what it is all about. You | :17:53. | :17:59. | |
finding ways to deal with and cope with the acne, rather than its | :18:00. | :18:02. | |
controlling every aspect of your life. Somehow you have to finds a | :18:03. | :18:04. | |
way to stay positive. I am really, really happy | :18:05. | :18:08. | |
with how my skin's looking. For the first time in a real long | :18:09. | :18:12. | |
time I am just using like a stick concealer foundation which I've | :18:13. | :18:16. | |
never been able to do before because my skin's | :18:17. | :18:19. | |
always been so blemished. Still really happy | :18:20. | :18:21. | |
with it apart from this, Today is my last ever | :18:22. | :18:24. | |
day of roaccutane. I am the happiest I've | :18:25. | :18:30. | |
ever been within myself for a really long time, | :18:31. | :18:34. | |
like ten since since I have had acne and I couldn't be happier, | :18:35. | :18:37. | |
yeah, this is my skin, But the up with thing I've | :18:38. | :18:40. | |
learned is that your skin So whatever stage of your acne | :18:41. | :18:48. | |
journey you are on, you have got I am a keen photographer, it is for | :18:49. | :19:23. | |
my degree is in. I wanted to do something to help the people I have | :19:24. | :19:28. | |
met feel better. What were your thoughts about chatting to doctor | :19:29. | :19:33. | |
Tamara? I feel more confident about talking to my doctor about seeing a | :19:34. | :19:38. | |
dermatologist, she put my mind at rest and I might go on Rocky Tain. | :19:39. | :19:43. | |
It is good you spoke to her, you have not spoken to anybody about | :19:44. | :19:47. | |
your acne for awhile. About four years, it was nice for her to put my | :19:48. | :19:55. | |
mind at rest. Cute! Big smile. Do you guys have one | :19:56. | :20:01. | |
thing that you would say this one suffering with acne? Go to the | :20:02. | :20:06. | |
doctor, if the doctor does not give you the answer you want, go to | :20:07. | :20:11. | |
another and keep asking, as for a referral to the dermatologist if the | :20:12. | :20:16. | |
medication is not working. You are never alone, there is always yells | :20:17. | :20:19. | |
out there suffering, try to find someone to talk to, even if they do | :20:20. | :20:21. | |
not have acne. Don't pick your spots, it leaves you | :20:22. | :20:37. | |
with so many scars. Every time I get a new spot, I don't judge. Locale | :20:38. | :20:44. | |
beautiful that is. Thanks. Do you like it? Yes. | :20:45. | :20:52. | |
It has been amazing to meet so many inspiring people along this acne | :20:53. | :20:55. | |
journey, who all have great ways of dealing with their acne to make | :20:56. | :20:59. | |
themselves feel better. You can talk to your doctor and see what | :21:00. | :21:04. | |
treatments are available, you can visit a dermatologist, listen to | :21:05. | :21:08. | |
their advice and take it in because they are the experts. Whatever stage | :21:09. | :21:11. | |
of your acne journey, there are still ways to feel great about | :21:12. | :21:13. | |
yourself. | :21:14. | :21:18. |