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Now it is time for HARDtalk. Cycling is one of the most | :00:04. | :00:07. | |
physically demanding professional sports. It is also one of the most | :00:07. | :00:11. | |
tainted. In the last decade, a host of top riders have been exposed as | :00:11. | :00:17. | |
drugs cheats, including David Millar. Millar held the Tour de | :00:18. | :00:21. | |
France's yellow jersey and was a world champion before he was | :00:21. | :00:25. | |
exposed. Banned for two years, he then came back, committed, not just | :00:25. | :00:29. | |
to racing, but to cleaning up cycling. But is there room for | :00:29. | :00:39. | |
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integrity in a world where winning is everything? | :00:55. | :01:05. | |
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David Millar, welcome to Hardtalk. You are an elite professional | :01:09. | :01:13. | |
cyclist. You are now 34. You have put yourself through the Tour de | :01:14. | :01:23. | |
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France again. Do you care about winning any more? I think that is a | :01:25. | :01:30. | |
natural state for any professional athlete, you care whether you win, | :01:30. | :01:34. | |
for your team for your team-mates. If we are not winning we are not | :01:34. | :01:39. | |
doing our job. So winning matters for you today as much as it ever | :01:39. | :01:42. | |
did? You when you were a young lad setting up a prodigious talent, it | :01:42. | :01:46. | |
is the same feeling? If I didn't have that ambition or decide to | :01:46. | :01:50. | |
achieve success, which is winning, I wouldn't be doing it and I would | :01:50. | :01:55. | |
love it so much. I wouldn't work so hard and I wouldn't go through the | :01:55. | :02:01. | |
suffering. Suffering is the key word that I hear from cyclists a | :02:01. | :02:09. | |
lot. When you say suffering, do you mean mental or physical anguish? | :02:09. | :02:13. | |
The two. It is an integral part of professional cycling - there is a | :02:13. | :02:18. | |
huge amount of physical suffering and there is obviously mental | :02:18. | :02:21. | |
suffering. A lot of the time you are hanging on for dear life | :02:21. | :02:25. | |
waiting for the guy in front of you to crack. Once he cracks the race | :02:25. | :02:29. | |
is on. We are all pushing each other and waiting for the guy next | :02:29. | :02:34. | |
to us to crack before you do. A lot of the time it doesn't happen. | :02:34. | :02:39. | |
have been through more than a decade of professional suffering as | :02:39. | :02:45. | |
a cyclist. I would like to go back to the beginning of your career as | :02:45. | :02:49. | |
a boy and a young man. He clearly had a talent for racing your | :02:49. | :02:54. | |
bicycle. What was it that pushed you towards the idea that you could | :02:54. | :03:00. | |
make a life after that, a career? Dreaming more than anything. | :03:00. | :03:06. | |
Watching the Tour de France and realising it was possible... That | :03:06. | :03:11. | |
the sport existed at that level we could go do it full-time and get | :03:11. | :03:15. | |
paid for it. When I was young I didn't have much to do with money | :03:15. | :03:20. | |
or glory - I wanted to do that would have France. I thought it was | :03:20. | :03:24. | |
an epic thing, something so magnificent and other-worldly. It | :03:24. | :03:33. | |
was idealistic and sort of, yeah, it was a dream. And this is a | :03:33. | :03:36. | |
loaded word, but were you arrogant enough, in the early years of your | :03:36. | :03:41. | |
career, but you could do your best? Push yourself all the way, win the | :03:41. | :03:46. | |
Tour de France? For sure, I think arrogance - you have to have an | :03:46. | :03:50. | |
element of arrogance to you as a young sportsman if you want to | :03:50. | :03:56. | |
achieve. If you want to become - if you want to get into the elite | :03:56. | :04:02. | |
level. Just to get in, let alone remain there. You have to go | :04:02. | :04:09. | |
against the grain in many ways. They were, a cocksure young man. | :04:09. | :04:13. | |
You were bored and you knew you were good and you believe you can | :04:13. | :04:18. | |
be at the top of this sport one day. -- you were good. At what time did | :04:18. | :04:21. | |
you realise that a lot of the riders around you were using | :04:21. | :04:26. | |
illegal drugs to enhance their performance? Almost immediately | :04:26. | :04:31. | |
when I turned professional. It was quite obvious that there was doping | :04:31. | :04:39. | |
going on. That was apparent immediately from seeing suspicious | :04:39. | :04:44. | |
behaviour - things being delivered to rooms - ice. Asking why ice was | :04:44. | :04:53. | |
being delivered to rooms. Asking, why does my room-mate need ice? And | :04:53. | :05:02. | |
they would just say, oh, it is to keep the E P O called. -- cool. | :05:02. | :05:09. | |
That was the drug of choice at the time. I didn't want to believe | :05:09. | :05:13. | |
there was any doping. At the time it wasn't in the media. There had | :05:13. | :05:20. | |
not been any real big drug scandals. This is before the scandal in 1998. | :05:20. | :05:23. | |
To come into this world and have all my dreams shattered and realise | :05:23. | :05:28. | |
that doping was prevalent was shocking. You have written about | :05:28. | :05:33. | |
this a lot. Orme one ride with a training team-mate you ask him what | :05:33. | :05:40. | |
sort of difference can be E P O make. He said it could turn a pony | :05:40. | :05:50. | |
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in to a racecourse. That's the truth. -- racehorse. Doping is | :05:52. | :05:56. | |
abuse, but it was amazing there were different degrees of abuse. | :05:56. | :05:59. | |
Some guys would do with to just tweak a little bit, other guys | :05:59. | :06:03. | |
would literally take as much as they possibly could, risking their | :06:04. | :06:09. | |
health and pushing the limits of what was possible. Those guys were | :06:09. | :06:13. | |
the guys who were turning themselves... They became | :06:13. | :06:20. | |
racehorses. You were not a donkey - you were a thoroughbred. Very early | :06:20. | :06:24. | |
on, you lead the Tour de France. You had the yellow jersey. I am | :06:24. | :06:28. | |
trying to establish the kind of mindset that put you over the edge | :06:28. | :06:31. | |
from having consistently, for a number of years, saying you would | :06:31. | :06:35. | |
not take drugs because you believe you can win without them, to then | :06:35. | :06:42. | |
deciding - you know what, I will take the E P O. I will become a | :06:42. | :06:48. | |
cheat. This is what is so hard to explain and it is why I wrote the | :06:48. | :06:53. | |
book. I want people to understand the accumulation of factors that | :06:53. | :06:57. | |
kind of pushed me towards doping for the first time. In all honesty | :06:57. | :07:01. | |
there is not one thing I can pinpoint. Didn't you push yourself? | :07:02. | :07:06. | |
Oh, yes, I pushed myself - as I said, there was an accumulation of | :07:07. | :07:11. | |
factors. It was only ever me that made the decision. The buck stops | :07:11. | :07:17. | |
with me. In all honesty, I gave up. I stopped fighting being cleaned. | :07:17. | :07:22. | |
It's not like I was really standing my ground and being stubborn. It | :07:22. | :07:26. | |
almost felt like I was being idealistic for nothing. Nobody | :07:26. | :07:32. | |
cared if I was clean or not. Even your own team manager? At one point | :07:32. | :07:36. | |
that they used the phrase after you had a catastrophic 2001 talk, you | :07:37. | :07:42. | |
had to retire in the Alps - they told you to go off and "prepare | :07:42. | :07:47. | |
properly". And you said you knew what they meant. I completely new | :07:47. | :07:51. | |
what they meant. There was a lot of innuendo. To prepare properly at | :07:51. | :07:58. | |
that time meant to take drugs. To say that you may have well have | :07:58. | :08:05. | |
said - OK David, you're going to go and take E P O. Did you ever think | :08:05. | :08:11. | |
of saying no? I said No four years. What is interesting is that you | :08:11. | :08:15. | |
stop saying no after you had a reverse. You were one of the young | :08:15. | :08:19. | |
greats of the Tour de France and you had just had a serious setback. | :08:19. | :08:23. | |
Maybe your pride was injured - you wanted to get to the top. It was | :08:23. | :08:30. | |
hurt. I wanted to be what people expected me to be. I was aspiring | :08:30. | :08:34. | |
to expectations - there was a lot of ego involved. There was pride. | :08:34. | :08:40. | |
There was the desire for glory. Funnily enough, mummy didn't come | :08:40. | :08:48. | |
into it. It was an ego thing in many ways. -- money. To not let | :08:48. | :08:53. | |
down the people around me. There were many things involved. You won | :08:53. | :08:58. | |
as a cheat. You won a terrific World Championship time-trial in | :08:58. | :09:07. | |
2003, on drugs. Did you take... dominated it. During the race I | :09:07. | :09:14. | |
knew I had won it. It was just ticking boxes. It was business time | :09:14. | :09:17. | |
- there were none of the raw sensations that you were supposed | :09:17. | :09:22. | |
to get from the sport. It is supposed to be pure, existential | :09:22. | :09:27. | |
but as soon as I was taking drugs, especially to that degree - I was | :09:28. | :09:34. | |
firing on alring on als. It was too easy and I knew I was cheating. I | :09:34. | :09:39. | |
knew that all I was therefore was to win. When you stood on a podium, | :09:39. | :09:46. | |
you got the garlands and the big prize, what did you feel? Bow, not | :09:46. | :09:56. | |
much. Not much at all. Empty? was not much feeling. You were | :09:56. | :10:00. | |
always a smart young man, he had many options in your life. You | :10:00. | :10:03. | |
chose to go down the path of cycling because you could. Because | :10:03. | :10:07. | |
you were articulate and bright, white, at that point, did you not | :10:07. | :10:14. | |
decide, voluntarily, to confess? To stop going down that path that was | :10:14. | :10:19. | |
not satisfying? I couldn't.. I didn't have the courage to do it. | :10:20. | :10:25. | |
It was an endgame situation. If we are going back to the pride and ego | :10:25. | :10:30. | |
- I would be destroyed. This image that people have of me. I would be | :10:30. | :10:37. | |
disliked. That was something I was scared of going. It was almost a | :10:37. | :10:43. | |
self- sabotage, the fact that I kept those last two also whinges in | :10:43. | :10:52. | |
my bookshelf. -- bowled some whingers. I had to get caught. I | :10:53. | :10:57. | |
had to have them catch me. The big question for David Millar is - if | :10:57. | :11:01. | |
the French police had been busted due in 2004, partly because they | :11:01. | :11:05. | |
got information from your team-mate, if they hadn't asked to do, would | :11:05. | :11:12. | |
you ever have been almost? I can't - I don't know. There was a high | :11:12. | :11:17. | |
chance that, no, I wouldn't have been. I don't think I would have | :11:17. | :11:20. | |
been alive now, judging by what happened to some of the other guys. | :11:21. | :11:25. | |
I was on a downward spiral already, emotionally and I was tormenting | :11:25. | :11:31. | |
myself in many ways. I was a very unstable person. I think if I | :11:32. | :11:36. | |
hadn't - if the French police hadn't stepped in and the governors | :11:36. | :11:40. | |
had and taken control the situation I would have destroyed myself. | :11:40. | :11:45. | |
Although I wouldn't have admitted it, I would have burnt that flame a | :11:45. | :11:50. | |
little too long. It is one hell of a world, isn't it? Where the people | :11:50. | :11:53. | |
were managing you, supposed to be nurturing new and responsible for | :11:53. | :11:58. | |
you are watching you going down that spiral and, frankly, far from | :11:58. | :12:03. | |
preventing it - are encouraging you. That has been one of my biggest | :12:03. | :12:07. | |
things in regards to coming back into the sport and trying to be | :12:07. | :12:11. | |
proactive in educating people on my experiences. One of the things that | :12:11. | :12:14. | |
cut me up the most with what happened to me was that it was | :12:14. | :12:19. | |
preventable. It shouldn't have happened to me. That angered me so | :12:19. | :12:24. | |
much that the people who were supposed to look after me as a | :12:24. | :12:29. | |
young man didn't. They did the opposite - that is something that I | :12:29. | :12:34. | |
have always remembered. Is it personal? Are their particular | :12:34. | :12:37. | |
individuals who you feel would have been happy to watch you, in your | :12:37. | :12:46. | |
own words, come very close to, frankly, ending it all? Yeah. I | :12:46. | :12:49. | |
don't have any anger towards individuals, as such - I have anger | :12:49. | :12:52. | |
that it could have happened, that's all. This has happened to many | :12:53. | :12:56. | |
other guys with people around them, different personalities and | :12:56. | :13:02. | |
background. It is a generic thing, which is worse, almost. As I said - | :13:02. | :13:05. | |
you never confessed voluntarily. In the end it was forced out of you | :13:05. | :13:15. | |
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and then you told all because the police got you. You only got eight | :13:17. | :13:22. | |
2-year ban. Some people think because you didn't confess | :13:22. | :13:29. | |
voluntarily you should have been banned forever. A very successful | :13:29. | :13:33. | |
rider who has always insisted that getting drugs after sport has to be | :13:33. | :13:37. | |
a priority says that cheats should be locked up - imprisoned. And that | :13:37. | :13:44. | |
happens now in Europe. It is criminal to dope in France, Spain, | :13:44. | :13:48. | |
Italy, Belgium. That is in the last few years that has happened. You | :13:48. | :13:57. | |
get locked up now, briefly. But I think it is easy to lose track of | :13:57. | :14:03. | |
the big picture. We are sportsmen. There is a certain vengeance to | :14:03. | :14:10. | |
this idea of a lifetime bans. I think every person has the right to | :14:10. | :14:14. | |
rehabilitation and a second chance. I know that his personal opinion | :14:14. | :14:18. | |
because of what happened to me - but I think other people can do it. | :14:18. | :14:21. | |
That might be naive of me, but I think everybody should be given a | :14:21. | :14:31. | |
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You have told me that you care enormously about cleaning up the | :14:32. | :14:37. | |
sport. It can never be cleaned up as long as one shadow remains over | :14:37. | :14:47. | |
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it - the shadow of a Lance Armstrong - around whom there is so | :14:47. | :14:54. | |
much speculation and controversy about his alleged use of drugs. | :14:54. | :15:04. | |
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think that... This is what the US FDA investigation is about. He has | :15:07. | :15:11. | |
denied using drugs, says every single test he has taken has never, | :15:11. | :15:18. | |
ever proven that he took an illegal substance. It is a whole period in | :15:18. | :15:22. | |
the history of cycling that has a shadow cast over it. What we have | :15:22. | :15:28. | |
to do with that now is, at some point we have to give closure. | :15:28. | :15:32. | |
Maybe this investigation in the Un Uns will do that, one way | :15:32. | :15:38. | |
or another. I want us to move forward. That is what I do with my | :15:38. | :15:43. | |
team and with myself. I do not want to spend my entire career dwelling | :15:43. | :15:50. | |
on the last decade. This man is perhaps the one cyclist that | :15:50. | :15:57. | |
everyone in the world can names. He epitomises the strength and the... | :15:57. | :16:02. | |
He made the sport what it is. The fact that my team exists is because | :16:02. | :16:10. | |
of her Lance Armstrong. We are an American team, with American | :16:10. | :16:16. | |
sponsors. The negative effect of the allegations but at some point, | :16:17. | :16:23. | |
I have be will get pleasure on it. Otherwise we will go on about what | :16:23. | :16:28. | |
he did, did not do. I needed to be really honest about what you mean | :16:28. | :16:38. | |
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by Cluj. -- I need you to be clear about closure. You said it is not | :16:44. | :16:53. | |
possible to complete the 1990s Tour de France without taking EPO. | :16:53. | :17:03. | |
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believed that, that is why I don't, eventually. I gave in. You say a | :17:03. | :17:13. | |
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generation of riders have the DEC as -- have to be seen as Rutten? | :17:15. | :17:23. | |
rotten. Although there was widespread doping there were guys | :17:23. | :17:30. | |
are achieving, and they were clean. It was rare but it was happening. | :17:30. | :17:37. | |
They will get tarnished. Look at the Science of this. I know you | :17:37. | :17:43. | |
have studied this very closely. There are two men who have studied | :17:43. | :17:49. | |
the physiology of cycling in great detail. They say the performances, | :17:49. | :17:57. | |
the top performances in the 1990s, they lead to thousands "Routinely | :17:57. | :18:06. | |
exceeded the physiological capacity of human beings." can make it is | :18:07. | :18:16. | |
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nonsense to think we can do a three-week stage race clean. With | :18:17. | :18:27. | |
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respect they are doing it saw it now. -- doing it clean now. You | :18:31. | :18:38. | |
have to ask Lance Armstrong. He can deny it. The bottom line is that it | :18:38. | :18:43. | |
is him, the only person who knows the truth. Leaving aside that | :18:43. | :18:47. | |
investigation, which have you saved his continuing from the US Federal | :18:47. | :18:54. | |
are authorities, you have, in 2007, had a long conversation with Lance | :18:54. | :18:58. | |
Armstrong about his commitment to cleaning up the sport. He told him | :18:58. | :19:03. | |
directly that you do not think he did enough. Why did you say that? | :19:03. | :19:08. | |
have got a lot of time for him. He is a pretty phenomenal human being. | :19:08. | :19:13. | |
What he can achieve, what he has achieved with his foundation. I | :19:13. | :19:18. | |
believe whatever he has, has not done, he has so much power and | :19:18. | :19:26. | |
influence. I know easily and idealistically believe that he | :19:26. | :19:32. | |
could change this sport for the better. -- I was naive to believe. | :19:32. | :19:37. | |
I wanted to make the sport a new sport. Do you think he has met that | :19:38. | :19:43. | |
obligation, that you see? In some ways, yes. He came back. He showed | :19:43. | :19:53. | |
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his love for the sport. The bottom line is, he is a one-off. You raced | :19:53. | :20:02. | |
the Tour de France this year. that make you are a respected member of | :20:02. | :20:08. | |
the peloton. Do you believe that the professional racers are now | :20:08. | :20:14. | |
straight? Hand on heart, I can say that the majority are. | :20:14. | :20:22. | |
majority? There will be a minority that would news drugs. An Austrian | :20:22. | :20:27. | |
rider who was very good, third in the Tour de France three years ago | :20:27. | :20:32. | |
and said there are ways, sophisticated ways for riders to | :20:32. | :20:42. | |
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dupe the authorities. Where there is a will, there will be a way. | :20:43. | :20:48. | |
They create profiles for each individual athlete. Instead of | :20:48. | :20:52. | |
looking for the cause, they are looking for the effect it has on | :20:52. | :20:58. | |
the body. For you, they would monitor your blood levels, or | :20:58. | :21:04. | |
hormones over at two years and get your line on the graph. See if | :21:04. | :21:12. | |
something is happening. That is the way the sport is going. It demands | :21:12. | :21:18. | |
a massive amount of money, skill and the bottom line is that it is | :21:18. | :21:23. | |
proper criminal activity now if you are doing that. The wire employee | :21:23. | :21:33. | |
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in a group of people to cheat the system. -- you are employing. | :21:36. | :21:45. | |
EU actually love this sport? More than anything. When I retire I will | :21:45. | :21:52. | |
miss it so much. And the feeling of racing down a mountain and being at | :21:52. | :21:58. | |
my absolute limit and having to go further and getting back-up and... | :21:58. | :22:02. | |
It is a wonderful sport. I experience thing is that money | :22:02. | :22:08. | |
cannot buy, I get to do things, take myself to places that very few | :22:08. | :22:16. | |
people get to go and it is thanks to the sport. You say that you are | :22:16. | :22:23. | |
suffering - and you use that word - you were so far behind everyone | :22:23. | :22:29. | |
else in 2010 in the Alps and he refused to quit. Is it then a way | :22:29. | :22:36. | |
of seeking redemption from the past in the sport? I think so. I used to | :22:36. | :22:42. | |
think that the redemption was unachievable, a pipe dreams. I have | :22:42. | :22:47. | |
been very lucky and feel I am achieving it and it has involved me | :22:47. | :22:54. | |
perhaps doing things that I would not have done as a young man. I | :22:54. | :23:02. | |
think that day in 2010 in the Alps was a bit of an epiphany for me. I | :23:02. | :23:07. | |
realised I had to do that for myself. I find it fascinating. I | :23:07. | :23:12. | |
began by asking you about caring about winning but may be due care | :23:12. | :23:15. | |
more about restoring respect than winning. I would love to be | :23:16. | :23:22. | |
respected again. Do you think you are? I don't know. For some people. | :23:22. | :23:27. | |
If you are not, is there anything more you can do in the sport? | :23:27. | :23:31. | |
I think I have a responsibility and I live with the responsibility to | :23:31. | :23:39. | |
make a difference. I take pride in that. It is a duty, I think. If you | :23:39. | :23:45. | |
ever saw a young man going down the party went down all those years ago, | :23:45. | :23:49. | |
what would you say if he was trying to consider getting the edge by | :23:49. | :23:54. | |
doing something illegal? I would take him under my wing, make sure | :23:54. | :24:04. | |
he did not. It ruin is your life. David Millar, thank you for being | :24:04. | :24:14. | |
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Low pressure is close by to the western side of the British Isles. | :24:27. | :24:32. | |
It is not all doom and gloom. There will be showers but at the same | :24:32. | :24:36. | |
time, there will be sunshine as well. There are one or two | :24:36. | :24:42. | |
exceptions to the rule and we will come to those in just a second. | :24:42. | :24:52. | |
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This is how the big picture looks. The low pressure gets even closer | :24:55. | :24:58. | |
over the next couple of days. The showers will come in thanks to the | :24:58. | :25:02. | |
area of low pressure. A weather front and rain associated with that | :25:02. | :25:05. | |
will come through as showers. It will be a different story with no | :25:05. | :25:15. | |
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sunshine across the Northern Isles. The rain on Tuesday will be quite | :25:18. | :25:20. | |
significant. Coming down the eastern side, sunshine and | :25:21. | :25:24. | |
sufficient cloud. Things will improve. Signs of improvement are | :25:25. | :25:27. | |
there through the Midlands, into central and southern England but | :25:27. | :25:31. | |
towards the south-west of England, Wales and the Isle of Man, showers | :25:31. | :25:41. | |
from the word go for some. There are plenty to go around as the day | :25:41. | :25:48. | |
goes on. Some of them will be quite heavy across the south-west, | :25:48. | :25:53. | |
western side of Wales. The chance of thunder in the west of Scotland. | :25:53. | :25:58. | |
Towards the east, some of the cloud will break-up. What a contrast in | :25:58. | :26:08. | |
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temperatures - 22, 23 degrees is possible. Forget about showers as | :26:09. | :26:11. | |
they gang together during the course of Wednesday night into | :26:11. | :26:16. | |
Thursday. More persistent rain coming up through central, southern | :26:16. | :26:22. | |
England, the Midlands and the north-east of England. It will be | :26:22. | :26:30. | |
there as a feature on Thursday. The showers will get going again across | :26:30. | :26:35. | |
the western areas and temperatures will fall back by a degree or two. | :26:35. | :26:43. | |
That is the pattern for Friday with little overall change. Plenty of | :26:44. | :26:47. |