Review of the Year, Part 1 Victoria Derbyshire

Over the next half-hour, we will bring you some

of our original stories and exclusive interviews

Back in April, we learned that the NHS is now seeing

dozens of young children each year who are unhappy

Doctors told us of a fourfold increase in youngsters aged

ten or under who have been referred for help in the last six years,

We spoke exclusively to six-year-old Lily,

who was born a boy but has spent the last few years living as a girl.

I really didn't want to be a boy. I feel like I am in the wrong body.

Would you be able to draw me Now I am living as a

Would you be able to draw me a picture of how you look,

wanted to wear girl clothes? I wanted to, because I wanted to just

see how it looked, and see if anyone laughed or not. And I would be

happier then. Why were you so sure you would be happier wearing girls'

clothes? Because sort of I am a girl. I like girls' stuff. Can you

remember what you were thinking what he felt when you were wearing boys'

clothes? I was a bit cross and sad. clothes to school, I felt much

better. I have girl trousers, a girl cardigan, a girl top

the day that they had last summer? My friend is a footballer. What

please? OK. It is there. It is the pink one. So, is this

there some more stuff in here? Just my wings. They are gorgeous!

I just wish they could make me fly. I bet you do. Do you think as you

grow up, you might change your mind? To be a boy again? No. How do you

know? Because I will just have girl clothes and never forget about

anything, because girl things are all over my room, and I have a bunch

of Hello Kiddie things. Loads. didn't like girls' stuff? I suppose

what I mean is, if you were not allowed to play with

still treated you as a boy. Really upset. I would tell my mummy and

daddy. I would see if they said yes and no, but if they said no I would

get really cross. And upset, more upset. Now I am living as a girl, I

feel much better. That was sexual Lily, born a boy but

who has been living as a girl for the past few years. -- six-year-old

drawn. You can find all our exclusive films and interviews on

our programme page. -- six-year-old Lily. I wanted to record the diaries

on breast cancer to of the treatment. Every diagnosis

and experience is different is, this is mine.

I am in hospital, as you can see. I am in a hospital room and today I

had a mastectomy. And I feel all right. I can't believe it. I went

under the anaesthetic at about 10:45 this morning. I woke up at about

2:40 five. I looked at the clock and thought, my children will be coming

to see me. And I feel all right, I can't it! The NHS staff have been

awesome and completely -- I am completely in awe of them, they are

so inspiring and so caring and I feel so grateful for them. When I

woke up from the anaesthetic, I did cry, because it was just relief,

such a relief to stop the malignant tumour in my right breast has gone.

Everyone who is diagnosed from cancer has a different story and a

different experience. A different way of approaching it. For what it

is worth, I do not feel I am battling cancer, I do not feel I am

fighting cancer, I am simply being treated for cancer. Here is the

thing. Having cancer is manageable. It can be manageable. Having a

mastectomy is totally doable. I did not know those things until I got

cancer. And that is what I want to tell people. I know everyone is

different when they are diagnosed, every cancer is different, everyone

has a different experience, but that is mine, and I hope you do not mind

me sharing that with you. Good morning. It is the morning

after the day before, that'll do! I am just about to have some

breakfast. Cornflakes, toast, I am starving. I feel good, a bit tired,

that's it. The sun is shining and I am being discharged today, I am

going home. In the last few days in the build-up

to this first cycle of chemotherapy, I have been feeling quite vexed and

anxious and apprehensive, because it is fear of the unknown, what is it

going to feel like? And also, really impatient to get the first one under

my belt. Right now I have got to where this hat for another hour so

it keeps my scalp cool. But I just feel like you want to go to sleep.

I just got back from the hospital, I was there for about three hours in

total. The worst bit for me was definitely wearing the cold cap.

When it came off, the headache disappeared and the feelings of

nausea went away, which was brilliant. There was ice in my hair

and in the cap, so that is how cold it was. I think it reminded me of

having a hangover, you have a headache, you don't want to talk and

you feel really sleepy. But the handover you usually want to eat

lots of carbohydrate and I did not feel like eating a thing. I am

really glad, one down and five to go.

Quick update. Early evening, I spent most of the afternoon in bed. As the

day has gone on, I have felt increasingly queasy and drained.

Which is really boring! Good morning. It is a grey November

morning and it is winning a bit but I don't mind because I have spent

the last day and a half in bed, feeling lethargic and... Not

miserable but just no motivation to do anything. Today, I feel, 48 hours

after the first session of chemotherapy, I am desperate for

some fresh air so I have come to take Gracie for a walk. Good girl! I

feel lucky today, I don't want to speak too soon because it is only

the first session I have had but I feel OK. I am under no illusions, I

know that is the chemotherapy goes on, things will get worse, but so

far, so good. Thank you for all your messages

following those video diaries, they really are very much appreciated.

Earlier this year we also gave a video camera to three people living

with various stages of dementia. Meet Wendy, Keith and Christopher.

For those of us living with dementia, our memories are our most

valued possessions. So, here in this room I have pictures on the wall,

pictures of people, family and friends, so when I forget where all

these places are, or the names of the people in the pictures, when I

stand here and look at them, I feel is one of happiness. Because when we

lose our memories, it doesn't mean we lose emotions that we feel

inside. To my mind, you have to think of any

positive you can. For having such a cruel disease. I love Great British

Bake Off. Everybody talks about the sadness and the emptiness when the

final comes and you know it is not good to be on again next week. Well,

I can just stop watching it from the beginning again, and not remember

who won, or who gets knocked out, each week, I without Great British

Bake Off. I have three biggest fears, one is going over the edge

into someone else that I don't recognise, the other fear is losing

my independence, and the final one is not recognising two people that

mean so much to me. I have said to them that one day, I will come in

the room and I would know who you are, I will not know your name, but

I'm sure I will feel that emotional connection of love that we have for

each other. And for them to always remember that, even though I won't

recognise them, I still love them. Dear diary, this morning I went for

a walk, I had been thinking recently, reflecting on what it is

like to live with dementia. I suppose the honest answer is it is

up and down. Some days, the sun is shining, clear and good days, other

days, the fog descends and I had to say that recently, there has been

more foggy days and I had previously. My word retrieval is not

as good. People say to me, sometimes we would hardly know you have

dementia. That is true, on good days, I cope very well. Other days,

I am less good. But the days that those days I can to withdraw into

myself so that people outside see me. Is it frustrating? It is

extremely frustrating. It makes me angry as well. It makes me angry

that I'm not better able to deal with it.

It is Sunday morning. I am just going to talk to you about my early

morning ritual in the bathroom. It is not as bad as it sounds!

For some time I have struggled to remember if I've brushed my teeth,

shaved or combed my hair. I put everything out of the box, use it,

and as I've used it, place it back in the box again. So when I've

cleaned my teeth, the booth brush goes back in, when I've shaved, the

shaving stuff goes back in. It is developing strategies like that that

allow me to live independently and to live well. You've done lots of

things, but in the middle of your working career, you made boats for

ten years. Yes. Scr And you were a magistrate and when you were a

magistrate you realised that things weren't quite right. That's right.

Things were passing you by was how you put it.

LAUGHTER You never know who you put away or

didn't! You don't really want to dwell too

much on what it should have been like, what it would have been like

if you hadn't like, what it would have been like

if you hadn't got it. And when you first get it, people say, "Oh, I

always forget what I've gone upstairs to collect." It's different

and I used to say to people, "It's different." You can go and do

something and the moment we get in the car, it's gone. Which is quite

shattering actually for a bit until you get used to it. We get used to

most things, don't we? Yes. A wonderful afternoon. The sun has

just gone down. What is it, darling? What are we looking at?

It is a beautiful moon. The moon, yes. I hope it comes out because it

is quite spectacular, isn't it wonderful? It maybe too early, but

you remember what it is now. Yes. What is it that we're looking at?

It's a... It's the moon, isn't it? Yes.

To live in a beautiful place like this, I think, adds to sometimes the

sadness that we can't enjoy some of the things that we thought we would,

but I think basically, it's a huge help to be in a lovely place.

Do you find it difficult to say to yourself I've got to be positive, I

must be like you are? Well, I just want to keep on going because if I

come and hit something or do something, I can't do that, I can't

do this, if there is something there, I can and so you crack on.

Does it scare you, Christopher? No. Because if it happens, the chances

are, someone says, "I know that." Does the Alzheimer's scare you to

think that you've lost memories? No, I don't think so. I don't think so

because I've done that and what's in the back of me. This is something,

always going forward. Thanks to Wendy, Keith and

Christopher for recording their thoughts and experience of living

with dementia for you. Next, in this Christmas special, our

reporter Benjamin Zand meets the preppers, the men fixated on making

sure they are fully equipped to survive in the event of a ka that is

trofy. Roach spent most of his time in the force and he is a prepper.

Preppers feel as if catastrophe is imminent and prepare for a range of

disasters from nuclear war to financial collapse. He escapes to a

location in preparation for such an event. So I asked him to take me

along. So Roach told me to come to this door which is supposedly his

house. The specific scenario we were doing was in the case of contagion

or a pandemic. It's not the most inconspicuous

tent, is it? It isn't survival. This is living simply.

In the space of about 30 minutes we have set-up campment we've got a

fire. We've got some food and he is cooking bangers and mash, life is

good, but we're still in a forest, but it's not that good.

If there was contagion and some zombie-like creatures came out...

I'd kill them. How? With the knife or something? With anything. With

anything. With anything like this. With anything. With your hands, with

a piece of wood. Would you try and bail out if there was people who

came, or would you try and fight back? Ultimately, it's, there are so

many possibles. Yeah, welcome to my world. So do you

think that deep down inside you kind of, because you've spent so long

preparing for it, you kind of hope something is going to happen? No, I

don't. I don't want the world to end. I don't want bad things to

happen to good people, you know. But I'm not in control of the world. Are

you paranoid? No. LAUGHTER

Because I just suppose most people don't think about such consequences

and such potential disasters. Some people would say that you're taking

this too far. To a degree, they are absolutely right. What you could do

is put every spare penny you've got in the bank for a rainy day, that's

prepping. You could pay off your mortgage ten years early. Whatever

you decide, you have to do to prepare for the future, that makes

you a prepper. Some men are preparing for the end of the world,

others are pumping their money into super cars, flash cars which cost

hundreds of thousands of pounds and are paraded around the streets of

London each year. It has become a problem that some councils are

considering a supercar ASBO. We headed into the middle of

Knightsbridge in Central London to talk to some of the car owners and

the fans. I'm Tim, I run a YouTube channel

where I upload car videos of all sorts including car spotting in

knight bridge. I've got a Lamborghini. I'm Alex. I'm a

supercar dealer. Admittedly, I do sell the kipped of cars which are

making the noise. My name is Josh and I'm here car spotting.

This is a Lamborghini. It is one of the newest models out. But the

majority of the people want all these cars out on the road,

especially the tourists, you know, they come to Central London to see

these cars. They actually stop us and say, "Please can we take a

picture of your car with us beside it?" This is what brings and makes

London. People come here, you know, and then also it brings business to

the bars, to the restaurants and to all the cafes. We shouldn't look at

the small negative side that people are complaining about, this noise

issue, but we should look at the bigger picture where, you know, this

is actually bringing money to London. When the summer comes out

and all the cars come out, quite a few people bring out their cars,

there is a bit more noise than usual, but this is city life and I

also believe that the people that want 100% peace and quiet, they

should move out to the countryside. The truth of it is, they are very

difficult not to make a noise because they are so hyper and they

are so highly tuned that that is what they are designed to do. It is

abnormal on a nice day in London to see quite a few special cars that

normally you'd see in a Motor Show. The reason that I come here as

opposed to car shows, you see more of them and they are driving around,

whereas in car shows, they are more just static.

LOUD REVVING We get like an adrenalin rush when we see them and

then we chase after them and try and film them and we stick them on

YouTube channels and Instagram. That's a Maserati, I am not too sure

about that model, but it is a really nice one!

When I started car spotting, there was no real purpose to it, it was

just a wait of taking photos and posting them on the internet, but

with the rise of Instagram has opened up content you post to a vast

audience around the globe and when you take pictures of super cars, a

lot of people are seeing things on your social media streams that they

will never see in real life. These things you are supposed to hear, you

are supposed to see and feel the passion and the majority of people

out in the street, they get a lot of pleasure from seeing these things

otherwise you only see them in magazines and on the television.

When you purchase a supercar, you buy it not bass it is quiet, they

are supposed to be, look this is a ?2 million plus tax Ferrari, if it

doesn't make a noise and if you don't get noticed in it, if you

don't have that special feeling when you're driving it, it is pointless

buying it. We have road traffic laws that should stop most of the

behaviour you don't want to see happening. It should stop the

pointless revving, for noise disturb Abs, driving fast or recklessly,

there are plenty of laws to stop this. The councils shouldn't be

making rules regarding motoring, that should be done by the police if

there is an issue, but I don't think there is. If they spent hours

witnessing what happens, there would be a different understanding of it

and I feel it is almost something that could be solved just by having

a higher police presence. They are designed and built for a racetrack,

but the King's Road is a good place to drive them. In a car park, you

would have the same thing happening, but with less expensive cars.

CAR HORNS SOUND Thank you for watching this Christmas specialment

we're back on air on 4th January and in the meantime, you can watch our

stories on our programme page.