03/05/2013 EastEnders

Sharon? Sharon? Sharon, wake up.

Sharon?

# Happy birthday, dear Billy Happy birthday to you. #

All right, son!

-Come on, mate! Happy birthday.

-Happy Birthday, Billy.

Sharon. Sharon, it's Lola.

-It's all right.

-What happened?

I don't know. I just found you on the floor.

I must have fainted. Banged my head.

-It's all right, I'm going to call an ambulance. Just stay there.

-No.

-No, you need to go to the hospital, Sharon.

-Lola. Lola, I'm fine. Just help me up, yeah?

Easy. Careful, careful.

Careful.

Here you go, mate. So, you know, are you and Carol a bit...?

Actually, I think you make a nice couple.

Well, it's early days yet.

-A lot to take on though, innit, the Jacksons?

-Ian!

I'm just saying.

All right. I'm going to leave you to it, then.

Yeah, maybe we should make tracks.

It was just a joke.

Didn't sound like a joke to me.

I was having a laugh. Oh, come on, don't be like that.

It's my birthday.

Up she goes!

Janine, is there any need to flaunt her? Really?

-Well, Michael can always leave.

-Listen Janine, I think she might need changing.

-Actually, I was going to ask. Do you mind if she goes to sleep upstairs?

-Course you can.

Great. Bye bye.

You're such a pushover, do you know that?

Cheers.

Well, that's the third three-course meal you've cooked me this week.

I didn't see you complaining.

I hope you've got room for some cake.

If you fancy cooking for someone else, I can be round your house in ten minutes.

-Careful, though, cos she can eat you out of house and home.

-Oi, shut up!

-There you go.

-No, put it away. It's on Janine, ain't it?

-If I'd known that, I'd have ordered a large one.

-Be nice. We need her onside.

-Oh, yeah.

-That's the happiest I've seen him in a long time.

Yeah, well...let's just say things are looking up.

Oooh!

Yes.

I'll give you a week. You'll be tearing your hair out.

You just don't know when you're beaten, do you?

She's actually been managing fine without that.

I'm sure she has. Putting a baby to bed above a pub - that's impressive.

Look good in court.

Oh, so you want to take me to court now?

BACK OFF, Michael. Or you can kiss goodbye to your little access visits.

Here you are, he's got the right idea.

-Do you think so?

-I don't believe this.

-I came in for a quiet drink.

-If you come anywhere near me you'll be wearing it.

Now's the time to talk him round.

It's no use, Kat.

You may as well kiss goodbye to our stall.

What have you got on, eh?

Lola bought me this aftershave.

Well, I hope you're going to give it back.

Like she said, it's the thought that counts, innit?

So I'm going to grit my teeth and wear it.

You smell like a gigolo.

Thank you.

Here you go. It's from Lexi.

-Lexi?

-Yeah, not that you deserve it.

What are you saying - that I'm old? Or I'm a mug?

Both!

I shall treasure that until I die.

-That's all right. Not long now, then!

-Take no notice of them, Billy.

You don't look a day over 49.

She's fast asleep.

Yeah, she was tired.

Look, Sharon, I really think you should go see a doctor, you know. Or I can get Phil.

What, and ruin Billy's party?

No, he can drive you to A & E.

No, he ain't driving me nowhere.

-Yeah, but you might have a little bit of concussion.

-Yeah, and you're really not helping.

Just get me some water please, yeah?

-Yeah.

-Thanks.

Oi, Phil. Phil, where's Lola got to?

-With Sharon. But she'll be back in a bit.

-Just like old times this, eh?

Mitchell Boys getting drunk in the Vic.

-Speak for yourself.

-You and Sharon back together.

Never go back, Philip. You'll just get a stark reminder of what went wrong in the first place.

-Who's asking you?

-I'm merely saying.

-Although in Roxy's case, I'd be pleased to make an exception.

-In your dreams.

Leave it out, all right, Michael?

Changed your mind, then?

I'm just keeping an eye on Billy, innit?

Bosh. Gone down.

-Happy birthday.

-Cheers, Ian.

I'd buy you a drink but Janine's got that covered.

-Oh, yeah, yeah, did you two sort out that bit of business?

-You'll find out soon enough.

Hey, now if you've come here to have a pop at me...

I came to say thanks.

For helping me win that bet earlier.

Yeah, well, that's the sort of bloke I am.

Just relax. This don't mean I like you, yeah?

OK.

Are you ill, or something?

-I'm fine.

-Well, it must be serious, cos people don't just faint for no reason.

-There's nothing wrong with me.

-So what were these doing in your bag, then?

-They're just painkillers.

Sharon?

I just feel a bit dizzy.

Right, that's it.

-What are you doing?

-I'm phoning Phil.

-Let's just keep this between us.

I should have called him the second I found you.

I said NO!

Phil can never know about this.

Do you understand me?

Lucy? Um, we need to talk.

Can't it wait? I'm out with Joey.

-You didn't waste no time, did you?

-We're just friends, actually.

Dad, you're so embarrassing.

-What did I say?

-Just don't get too drunk, all right.

I need you to open up tomorrow.

We might be subject to gossip.

Yeah? At least it gives them something to talk about.

Maybe we should go somewhere quieter?

Yeah, maybe we should.

It's nice to see my dad making a fool of himself.

I think it's sweet.

Well, you know, at least we're all out. Having fun.

-I got it.

-Oh, thanks.

We're just going to go somewhere where we can hear ourselves talk.

Who said romance was dead, eh? I bet they're going to...

-All right darling, she get down all right?

-Yeah. She's fast asleep. I must have the magic touch.

Ha, ha, ha!

Alfie! Come on, let's get some drinks for me and the birthday boy.

You are dangerous, you are.

So they tell me.

Hoi! Raymondo! Come on, no hard feelings. Join the party.

In case you hadn't noticed, I'm still working.

Fair play. Billiam. Come on, some champagne.

Some brandy. Come on, Janine's paying.

Yeah...well, you get it in and I'll be back in a minute.

-I'll get them in.

-I'll be back in a minute. All right?

Nice party.

Yeah. Yeah, all right, yeah.

Didn't realise you were quite so popular.

Well, you know. I don't like to brag.

I'm glad you came though.

Yeah. Me too.

I used to really admire you.

Really?

Market Inspector. Man of the people.

Funny how things work out, innit.

I've lost Alfie. I've lost my pub.

Now I've even lost my stall.

I know you all think I'm a bit of a jobsworth,

but it's really the only thing I live for.

You know yesterday - that had nothing to do with me. It was Bianca.

-Yeah.

-She takes things a bit too far.

I'm sorry you got involved, but I am NOT changing my mind.

Fair enough. Doesn't stop US having a quiet drink, though, does it?

You can tell me what REALLY happened with Mrs Lister.

She lost interest.

Really? I find that hard to believe.

I know...I know what you're doing.

What am I doing?

You're using your feminine wiles to try and make me change my mind.

No, I just want a bit of fun.

I think we both do.

Um...maybe I could buy you a drink?

I've got a better idea.

Why don't we meet in the barrel store in 15 minutes?

We can have our own little party.

I'll just go freshen up.

How many of these have you taken?

-A couple.

-A couple?

Three or four. I can't remember.

I don't know what you're making such a fuss about.

-Because I found you unconscious on the bathroom floor!

-I didn't realise how strong they were.

You were meant to be looking after Lexi.

-Lexi's fine.

-Yeah, no thanks to you.

Look, I was stressed. I wasn't thinking straight.

These last few weeks have been really hard for me.

Right, so getting loaded on painkillers makes everything better, is that it?

-They help me cope.

-They wipe you out.

Well, sometimes maybe that's what I need.

How can you say that?

-Look, I take a few pills now and again. It's hardly a crime, is it?

-What, to get high?

-To feel normal.

Right, I see.

Come home early from the party, cos you had a little comedown

and you wanted more of these - dirty little fix?

-It wasn't like that.

-What was it like, then, Sharon? Cos I'm really struggling to understand this.

OK.

I used to have a problem. I got clean.

I put it behind me.

I trusted you. I trusted you with Lexi.

And now you can't?

I don't know. You tell me.

You think you know it all, don't you?

I know an addict when I see one.

How could you possibly understand what I've been through? You're a child yourself.

You've got everything going for you. You've got a home.

You've got a family.

And what if that's not enough?

What if I wake up scared every morning?

Terrified of messing everything up.

Oh, give it a rest will you, we all get scared sometimes.

You know, the day Dennis died, part of me died with him.

I ran away. Not for the first time.

It's easier to lose yourself in another country.

You can forget where you came from. Who you really are.

A doctor in Florida prescribed me some pills.

They softened the edges.

You lied to me. You lied to Phil.

You are lying to yourself.

I'm going to check on Lexi.

No. No, I don't want you anywhere near her. Not now.

You don't mean that.

What if Dennis was here?

-He wasn't.

-What if your son had come home to find you

lying like that on the floor!

I swear to you, I can stop.

Right, OK.

So you won't mind if I chuck these away then, will you?

-Give those to me.

-Why? I thought you didn't need these.

Stop playing games and give me that bottle.

You're just a stupid little girl!

Yeah, well, at least I ain't no junkie.

I'd thought you'd never get here.

Don't worry, I'm worth the wait.

Yeah. Look, I'm not sure we should be doing this.

No, it's exciting, ain't it?

Well, come on then, get your trousers off.

Sorry?

I ain't got all night.

Yeah.

Cor, there's a sight for sore eyes.

Smile!

KAT LAUGHS

Quick. Run! Run!

Stop!

So. Tamwar. Um...you seen any good films recently?

None you'd have heard of.

Yeah, Tamwar's DVD collection - it's a little bit weird.

-It's eclectic.

-Oh, I love a good romcom. Don't you, Alice?

Actually, I prefer a Western.

-Really?

-Yeah. Frontier Living. Codes Of Honour.

Cowboys.

-Indians.

-Native Americans.

-Real men.

Strong women.

-Well, that's...

-That's surprising.

Yeah.

Guess there's lots about me you don't know.

What's your favourite Western?

The Magnificent Seven.

No, you see, it's Pale Rider.

I do love a rainy Sunday with a Western on the telly,

-curled up on the sofa.

-Yeah, eggy soldiers.

-Yeah.

Right, well I think it's our round?

So, babes, yeah, I think I could do with a hand.

Yes, baby.

I was hoping I'd find Lauren here.

I ain't seen her.

Pleased with yourself, are you?

It wasn't working out, all right?

So you dropped her and moved on?

-It was her own fault.

-I'm not talking to you, though I get it.

Joey needed a delicate shoulder to cry on, did he?

-Isn't that what friends are for?

-Just leave it please, Lucy, yeah?

And what about Lauren? She could do with a friend right now.

You broke her heart, do you know that?

Do you hear that crackle? That is the sound of sexual chemistry.

No, babe, you got to trust me on this one, all right?

Alice just ain't right for Tamwar.

Why? She's caring. And she's considerate.

Yeah, yeah. And she's clingy, and she's homely.

No, no, they're perfect for each other.

They just don't know it yet.

Thank you.

Lola's taking her time.

-Yeah, well, she ain't answering her phone.

-It's not as if she's missing much, is it?

Excuse me, everyone. Just have your attention for a moment?

-I don't want to hijack the party or nothing.

-Bit late for that.

I've just got some news I'd like to share.

With my new business partner, Janine,

we've recently acquired the lease to the Emporium,

and we're going to turn it into a fine-dining restaurant.

We're going to open in a couple of weeks' time, so I'm hoping with your help and support,

it will become a welcome addition to the Walford dining scene.

You'd think he'd learn from his mistakes.

And just lastly, I'd just like to thank someone who's been a big help

and support - my lovely girlfriend, Denise.

Stop it! Don't be so silly.

Full of surprises, aren't you?

-Ain't he just.

-Yeah!

Did you see the look on his face?

Hold on! Look, here he comes.

-You tricked me.

-Are you talking to us?

You'd better keep that quiet if I were you.

Now that we've got this picture.

-That's blackmail.

-Well, you'd better give us our pitch back.

Otherwise I'm going to show this to everyone on the market.

Not that there's much to see.

Fine, fine! You can have your pitch back.

Don't think I'll forget this.

Who says we don't make a good team, eh?

-Fancy a drink?

-I can't, I'm going to call it a night.

-I got to get home to the kids.

-Oh, right.

-I'll see you after.

-Ta-ra.

You went behind my back?

Lucy, I asked you to support me and you said no.

-Yeah. For a good reason.

-Cos you'd rather I was a skivvy in the caff?

-You've got the stall. That's all you're ready for.

-All right, I'll be the judge of that, OK?

-What happens if you get ill again?

-I'm not going to.

I'm going to have to pick up the pieces.

I'm opening this restaurant. And you're going to have to trust me, OK?

Your baby has woken up.

Well, sometimes you're better off leaving them. "Controlled crying"?

-She's going to wake up Amy.

-OK. OK. She's obviously missing her mummy.

I'm surprised she even knows who she is.

Watch yourself, you clown, will you!

You want to watch that temper, Philip.

Or what?

Listen, why don't I take you home?

-You'd like that, wouldn't you?

-Michael, home time now, yeah?

-You're making a fool of yourself.

Anybody else want to have a go, by the way?

Hit a man when he's down. EH? NOW'S YOUR CHANCE!

Cheers, Bill.

You really think I don't know how it feels

to lose someone that you love?

All the kids at school used to laugh at me, you know.

Lola Pearce, the care home kid.

With second-hand scrunched-up clothes and no mum to iron them.

I was going to show them, you know.

I was this close to getting my baby back.

Believe me, Lola. You're going to get her back.

As long as we keep this between us.

And what kind of mum would that make me, eh?

I thought you was my friend.

So did I. It turns out that I barely even know you.

-Please, darling. Give me another chance.

-Why should I?

Because we both know what it's like to lose control.

We're the same, you and me.

No. No, I'm nothing like you.

I'm a fighter, I'm not a victim.

You couldn't control your temper, which is why they took Lexi away.

I've had just about all that life can throw at me, you know.

And I didn't need any painkillers to make myself feel better.

I took a pill. You took a pop. What's the difference?

Everyone said...

Everyone said that she should stay here and that it was for the best.

Well, it was. It is.

How am I going to sleep at night knowing that she's here now?

We keep this between us.

I swear to you I'll never touch another pill again.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Sharon,

but I've had enough empty promises to last me a lifetime.

The second Phil walks through that door, I'm telling him everything.

You breathe a word of this... He'll have me out of that door so fast...

I've got my daughter to think about.

Then let's forget this happened.

Take the pills. Go on, take them.

-Do what you want with them.

-I don't want any part of your dirty secret, do you understand me?

Fine.

Fine, tell Phil.

First thing in the morning, he'll ring social services.

In case you'd forgotten, I'm part of Lexi's care plan.

-Not for much longer.

-They'll take her straight back into care. Is that what you want?

You'd better stick with me, Lola.

Because right now, I'm the best bet you've got.

You smell nice.

Is this where you've been sleeping?

Yep.

She took the house. Where can I go?

Why don't you come and stay with me and Kat?

No, she wouldn't have me now.

Well, that depends on whether or not you decide to see sense.

There's a bottle of Scotch in that top drawer. Will you get it?

-Don't you think you've had enough?

-Just go and get it, will you?

-Go on, Alice. Pour me one and all.

No, no, I want to drink on my own.

Tough.

-Right, time I made a move, yeah?

-Why don't you stay for one more?

One more orange juice, you having a laugh?

-All right, fair enough.

-It's been a great night.

-Well, enjoy the rest of the evening, Bill.

-Yeah, yeah. Tell Lola to get back here.

-OK.

-See you later.

-One more?

Why not?

There you go.

Fine dining! I could get used to that.

You think I'm ready?

I know you are.

At least you've got faith in me.

Come here.

What was that for?

I dunno, I'm just - I'm proud of you, that's all.

Why don't you give your old man a break for once, Luce?

What, the same way you did with yours?

You don't know what he's capable of.

-He's had a rough time, ain't he?

-Yeah, so have I.

I've had to keep the Beale name in business when he ditched us.

Maybe it's time you took a step back from all that. You know, give him a chance to make things up to you.

Here you go, sweetheart.

You all right, Nan?

I think my mum's got something she wants to ask you.

Um...I just wondered,

would you like to go for a drink sometime soon?

Yeah. I'd like that.

Good. I'll call you, then.

Good.

You see. Now was that so bad?

A deal's a deal.

Oh, yeah - I've invited Billy round for dinner.

Just the three of us, yeah?

We should do this again sometime.

Yeah, we could go up west.

-You never know, if you play your cards right...

-Yeah.

-Right. well, I should...

-Yeah, yeah.

Night, then.

Yeah, night.

What is this, then? Good cop, bad cop?

I've seen you with Scarlett and I know how much you love her.

Me with a kid! It was never going to work. Who was I kidding?

Janine cannot stop you from seeing her.

It's this limited access thing, you know. Just two hours!

Two hours and she drags me away? I'd rather cut my own throat.

How can you say that? Scarlett needs you.

She's better off without me and you can ask her that.

She knows what kind of man I am.

Michael, I grew up without my dad.

And I tell you, I thought about him every single day.

Thought that he didn't care about me, that he didn't love me.

And I hated him for it. Janine's done this.

Scarlett deserves so much better than that.

And you're better than that.

My dad.

He...he messed me up.

That's what they do, your parents.

They may not mean to, but they do.

So you're just going to make the same mistakes?

It's inevitable.

Look, this is your chance to put all that behind you.

And make everything right. Because if you don't, Michael.

it will ruin you. Believe me, I know.

See, THAT - that is the reason why I didn't want to have kids.

I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE KIDS. THAT IS THE REASON.

Because you spend all your time, you put your energies into them.

You FALL IN LOVE with them. And then what happens?

They just get TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU.

AND IT BREAKS YOUR HEART.

You think they're going to save you from yourself and they break your heart.

I miss her.

Oh, I do miss her.

I know you do. But you'll see her next week.

This isn't over.

We are going to fight, yeah, and get her back.

THE BABY LAUGHS

SHE SIGHS

Sharon?

Don't you ever answer your phone? Ten minutes, you said.

Yeah, we got talking.

About what?

Oh, you know. Just girl stuff.

-Lexi all right?

-Yeah, fine.

Yeah, she was um, ready for her bed. Out like a light.

Oh, Billy might need walking home.

Well, I'd better get back there, then.

Well, don't let us keep you.

Sounded like quite a party.

Yeah, shame you missed it.

Yeah, well, we were having too much fun here, weren't we?

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