19/05/2016 EastEnders

MUSIC AND CHEERING IN DISTANCE

WATER DRIPPING

Dad, why did Uncle Grant leave so soon?

He did what he had to do. Saw your gran.

He could've stayed a bit longer.

I didn't even get a chance to say hello.

He's a busy man.

What, you heading home?

Yeah, well, it's getting messy in here.

Besides, I've got to check on Mum.

She looked like her old self earlier.

Yeah. Yeah, she did, didn't she?

Clear, clear.

I saw your mum earlier.

She looked tired.

Yeah, she's...

She's had a busy day.

Emotional.

Where you headed?

Well, just thought I'd go for a quick walk. Clear my head.

Well...

the Vic's a madhouse so I'd keep away if I was you.

Yeah, I will.

And if you're looking for Grant...

he's gone.

You should've told me you'd called him.

And what would you have said?

Phil, I thought he should know about your mum.

I was thinking of Peggy and the family,

and if you're angry with me, I'm sorry, but...

I ain't angry.

I'm glad he came.

So did you patch things up?

Some things you just can't mend, can you?

Even if you want to.

But it ain't about me and Grant, is it? It's about Mum.

And I'm going to look after her.

I'm going to make every second count.

Pizza? You never order pizza.

Yeah, it's a treat.

For helping me with the cake.

You going to stick Martin and Stacey on top?

You're good at this.

You never know, you might end up in the catering trade,

just like me and your dad.

What?

You don't go to a school like St Bart's

and end up working in a restaurant.

There is nothing wrong with cooking for a living, young man.

They do pizza at school on a Saturday night. It's amazing.

Yeah, there's something I've been meaning to tell you about school...

Did you order any drinks?

No, check the fridge.

I mean, it's clear you're really enjoying it there

and that's great, but...

Nothing. Just milk.

I'm trying to talk to you.

KNOCK AT DOOR

Doesn't matter. Eat your pizza.

Sharon?

I'm not interrupting, am I?

No, no. Course not.

Bobby, say hello.

Hello.

Have you got any wine on the go?

Has something happened?

Something nearly happened.

Or maybe it didn't, Jane. I don't know. My head's in a spin...

It's Grant. Phil.

Well, sounds like a two-bottle conversation...

Mum?

Mum, do you want a drink?

-You kissed him?

-No.

No, he kissed me.

Well, just on the cheek.

Well, it's hardly Fifty Shades Of Grey, Sharon.

What are you worried about?

It's the way he looked at me.

It's the way I felt when he looked at me.

I swear, Jane, if he'd gone for more,

I don't know what I'd have done.

Yeah, well, he didn't.

And he's gone now, so congratulations.

You escaped Grant Mitchell with your underwear intact.

And not everyone can say that, can they?

So, you heard about that, then.

I was living with Michelle in America.

They beat the jungle drums quite loud round these parts.

What? What is it, Sharon?

Ignore me. I'm being stupid.

Course you're not.

It just upset me, that's all.

The thought of doing that...

just the thought.

It felt like a betrayal, a betrayal of Phil.

I mean, this is stupid.

We're as good as divorced, yet I still feel guilty.

It's totally understandable, Sharon. It really is.

I saw him just now.

When Grant left, I thought my head was going to explode.

I went out onto the Square and there he was.

Going back home.

And we spoke.

He knew about Grant.

What, about the kiss?

No.

No, he knew I called him,

told him to get his backside on an aeroplane.

I thought he'd flip, but he was nice, you know.

He was reasonable.

I think he was grateful, even, that I cared enough to do that.

And I do care.

Course you do, Sharon.

Phil's been part of your life for a long time.

It'll take a while to move on.

And what if I don't want to move on?

As he walked away,

I just wanted to link my arm in his and go back with him.

Back home.

Our home.

Sharon...

seeing Grant again, it's churned things up.

It's bound to make you feel a bit strange.

No, it's not just Grant.

I've been feeling this for a while.

I miss him.

Well, have you talked to Phil?

No.

So how do you know he doesn't feel the same?

He's got enough on his mind with Peggy.

Well, what about Peggy?

Well, her staying over there.

I don't want to make things more complicated.

Don't sound complicated to me.

Seems to me this is about as simple as it gets.

Mum?

Will you tell them to get a move on?

We're done, we're done.

We have been away from the party for far too long.

Jack.

So what, you left your own stag?

Yeah, just, you know... Needed a breather.

It's hot in there.

You lot look hot.

-THEY LAUGH NERVOUSLY

-Come on, we should...

-See you in a bit.

-See you later.

-Oh, Belinda.

-Mm?

That deal you mentioned.

Do you want to talk about it now?

Oh, yeah, no. I got a phone call and it fell through.

So...

-That's a shame.

-Yeah.

-What was it?

-Mm?

-What was it?

Oh, you know. Stuff.

Building stuff.

Building stuff.

See you in there.

Really? Building stuff? You couldn't have just made something up?

Like what?

Bricks! I could've said bricks.

Just keep walking, keep walking.

Hello?

Andy.

Now, who nicks a load of toilets then breaks in to put them back?

# I had a dream there were clouds in my coffee... #

Oi-oi! The happy couple return!

What you been doing? You look a bit red-faced!

You been a bit naughty?

As it happens, you all look a bit flushed!

What's going on here?

-Flushed. Do you think he knows?

-No, he don't know nothing.

Just smile and get me a drink.

Shall we do Peggy's toast now they're back?

-Yeah, let's do it.

-Yeah?

Go and talk to him now.

I don't know.

All right, you can stay here and help me make a million sandwiches.

What have you got to lose?

My dignity?

Still got some?

Come here.

Mum!

Can I have a drink?

Giving you grief?

Let's just say you're not the only one trying to buck up

the courage to have a difficult conversation.

We decided not to sell the restaurant.

When?

Today.

You must be popular.

Not with Bobby...

Means we can't keep him at his school.

Does he know?

Not yet. It'll break his heart.

Can't you find the money from somewhere else?

Sharon, the school fees are off-the-scale.

Selling the restaurant was the only way

we could afford to keep him there.

Well, maybe it's for the best.

Maybe.

But he won't see it that way.

You don't have to tell him tonight, do you?

I don't like lying to him.

You're not lying to him.

You're just not telling him.

Here, Shirl, who paid for all this?

Peggy Mitchell.

Wanted everyone to have a booze on her

which is fine by me.

Think she might have had a soft spot for you, Stace.

Aw!

I'll tell you what, we'll go round

-and see her first thing tomorrow, yeah? Say thanks.

-Yeah.

Mum?

Mum, you awake?

HE GASPS

(Mum. Mum.)

CHEERING

We got a lively one here! Whoa!

KNOCK AT DOOR

KNOCKING AT DOOR

Phil?

Phil?

Phil?

What's happened?

What is it?

Everyone have a listen up. Everyone have a listen.

So, this beautiful bubbly that you're all drinking

is courtesy of the one and only Peggy Mitchell.

-OTHERS:

-Ah!

-Yeah.

There's a few words she'd like to say, as well.

-Babe, go on.

-Yeah, on her behalf.

To Martin and Stacey,

wishing you health, happiness and long life.

Champagne to our real friends...

and real pain to our sham friends!

-LAUGHTER

-Real friends!

Real friends!

Hello?

Sharon, you'll have to speak up.

Look, just tell Kathy to take Ben back to yours.

Yeah, and Louise.

No, I don't know where she is.

Ben'll have her number.

LIVELY DISCO MUSIC PLAYS

We should call the police.

Phil, you don't need to do this now.

Just leave it.

Selfish cow!

What is it?

Mum?

What's happened?

I've called the police.

Did she say anything to you?

About suicide?

You knew?

Phil, please talk to me.

I can't help if I don't know what happened.

She...

She wanted me to be there with her.

I went along with it at first.

She seemed...

She seemed so desperate.

But then...then I changed my mind.

I thought she'd changed hers.

But maybe that's...

Maybe that's what I wanted to believe.

I really thought we'd talked her round, me and Grant.

It was such a relief.

We were going to make the most of the time we had left.

But she was lying.

The last thing she did was lie to me.

And she had to lie cos I let her down.

No, Phil, you didn't.

It wasn't fair of her to ask you.

She probably realised that.

I should've checked on her, shouldn't I?

I mean, I took one bottle of pills away from her.

I didn't bother to check for any more. I could've done that.

I mean, why didn't I check for some more?

She wanted to go, Phil.

Yeah, but she didn't want to go alone.

She asked me to be there with her

and I said no.

You saw her in that room.

She was alone.

I just don't know how I'm going to live with that.

Oh, Phil.

She must have been so scared.

It seems to me, death wasn't the thing she was scared of.

PHONE BEEPS

It's Jane.

They've found Louise. They're all over at theirs.

We need to tell them.

They won't understand.

Then you make them.

What's this all about, mm?

Why you all looking so miserable?

Sit down, Lou.

Is it Dad?

# You'll never know, dear

# How much I love you

# Please don't take my sunshine... #

They've all gone round to Ian and Jane's.

She was only here a minute ago.

I know, darlin'. I know.

You all right, Shirl?

It's...

Peggy Mitchell.

She's dead.

MUSIC STOPS

She was...

She was unhappy.

She was ill and...

..she weren't going to get any better.

I knew there was something wrong.

I should've gone home.

-No.

-But if I'd gone back like she asked...

This ain't on you. She gave up. End of story.

-Ben!

-What?

That's what they'll say. Peggy Mitchell gave up.

She knew the way things would go, Ben.

It's not for us to judge her.

What can we do, Phil?

Do you want us to wait for the police at the house?

We could all go.

No, I'm...

..best on my own.

Phil, you can all stay here, if you like.

I...

I best get back to her.

I'm so sorry, Dad.

How are they doing?

He's lost his mum.

Ian, this'll be too much for Bobby. Call him through.

He's not in there.

Well, where is he?

Well, must be in his room. Where else would he be?

SMASHING

Phil's going to be devastated.

Who's with him?

Paul said that Sharon was there when he found her.

Good.

Nobody should be on their own at a time like this.

Phil.

Do you want me to come with you?

Oh, no. You've...

You've done enough.

See you in the morning?

-Sharon...

-Yeah?

DOOR OPENS

Only saw her a couple of hours ago.

She was kind, Martin.

She was really kind to me.

I know she was.

And we should remember her tomorrow.

We can say something for Peggy at our wedding day.

Or not.

It's up to you.

I can't do this. Not now.

You can't do what?

The wedding.

PEGGY: 'My darling Phil.

'I'm writing your letter last because it's the hardest.

'You're probably angry with me.

'Try not to stay angry.

'This isn't what you wanted, but, one day,

'I hope you'll accept my decision.

'I only have one regret.

'I should never have asked you to help me. It was selfish.

'I was scared. I was worried about being alone.

'But I'm not scared now and I'm not alone.

'And neither are you.

'Phil, you're surrounded by people who love you.

'Just try to love yourself as much as they do...

'as I did.

'Cos I've always loved you,

'from the moment I first held you in my arms.

'My gorgeous boy.

'My first, best boy.'

HE SOBS LOUDLY