20/01/2017 Part One EastEnders

From Grant.

Might have known he couldn't be bothered to show.

I could have really done with Jay today.

He can't help being ill.

Billy, I'm not sure I can do this...

Yeah. You can. We'll just be strong for each other, eh?

I've ironed Amy's dress...

Are you OK if Ricky wears the Beavers' uniform?

SHE SIGHS

In a few hours it'll all be over.

It will never be over.

I know, but...

And they're not going to the funeral.

Oh, I'm so glad you agree with me.

Yeah...

..I'm not going either.

Your father...

He was the last one to use that polish.

Thanks, Dot, I knew you'd have some.

Would you like something to eat, you know, before we go to...

No, I'm all right, thanks.

I've got a nice pork and herb sausage.

Used to be Charlie's favourite.

I've tried to get hold of him,

you know, through that mother of his, Yvonne.

Well, I think the last thing Jack needs is him turning up at

the funeral claiming Matthew.

Well, he was his father.

I still can't understand, you know, how it could have happened.

Well, we'll never know, will we.

There you go...

Do you think the kids will be at the funeral?

I don't know. They're a bit young, ain't they?

I was a babe in arms when I went to my first funeral.

Didn't do me any harm.

You know, by rights you should be charging double for this spread.

What are you talking about?

Might just be the one set of mourners but it's a double funeral.

You're losing out.

Don't you think Jack's got enough on his plate,

other than me bleeding him dry for readies?

-I'm just saying...

-Well, don't.

Don't, all right?

Because you've been trapping off far too much lately.

What have I done now?

Whitney - blaming her for Lee's mess.

I only said...

I know what you said. And it's not her fault, all right?

Lee has dug this hole for himself.

Look at her...

she ain't heard from him, how do you think she feels?

And she's got you coming up giving your little, slippery little digs.

You are skating on very thin ice.

I'll tell her I'm sorry. All right?

Do you think the marriage is over?

Take no notice of her.

SHE SIGHS

Mick, do you mind if I pop out in a bit?

I've got to go back to the flat and get something while he's at work.

You know, this is just ridiculous. I'm going to go and talk to him.

No, Mick, I told you...

he needs to realise that he's wrong, himself. Don't he?

He's acting like a child.

I know.

Wasn't expecting to see you on my doorstep.

Yeah, well, I'm taking these over for the funeral.

And I thought - if you haven't got any of your own,

you might want to put your name on the card.

Is that from you and Patrick or just you?

Does it make a difference?

You either want to put your name on the card or you don't.

All right, put me and Vincent down.

Good.

If you wait here, I'll just get my purse.

Oh, no, there's no need for that, it's paid for.

I would prefer it if I gave you money.

Kim, it cost 30 quid.

All right.

So how's Mum?

Oh, she's enjoying her grandchild.

Are you going to go to the funeral, or...?

I've got things to do.

I'm not going to go -

I just don't want to be around all those people...

If you didn't want people to talk about your choices,

you shouldn't have given away your baby.

DOOR BANGS

Jack, seriously - you don't need to be working out your move to Ongar.

You need to get showered and get your suit on.

I told you, I'm not going.

-What are people going to say?

-I don't care.

It's my daughters' funerals today...

I want people to be thinking about them, not wondering why you're a no-show!

Look...

I don't want this to be about me, all right.

I'll just tell them that I don't want the kids there, all right,

and I'm staying with them.

When your father died, I didn't see the point of going to his funeral.

Like you said, the time for goodbyes had gone.

Yeah, but you did go, Dot.

Yes...

But I didn't go because everybody expected me to...

I went because of the vows I'd made when I married him -

"Till death us do part".

-But he was already dead.

-Yes, I know...

His soul weren't there and it was just a body in the coffin...

But it was the body of a man that I loved.

And to me, it wasn't a matter of saying my goodbyes,

it was me taking his last journey with him.

And I think Ronnie would feel better knowing that you were there.

Don't you?

I just don't want the kids at the graveside.

I'll stay in the church with them...

And I so hoped that you and Ronnie would have

a lifetime of happiness together...

SHE SNIFFLES

Hi...

What are you doing here? It's the middle of the day.

What, are you skiving again?

I was just useless at work. I couldn't stop thinking about us...

Ain't you glad to see me?

Better late than never, I suppose.

I've been in a bad place...

I'm sorry.

You're sorry?

I've heard nothing. I've been checking my phone...

I thought you wanted us to be over.

No, that's the last thing I want...

Then, why didn't you come yesterday?

Anyway, you're here now...

I'm really sorry.

Yeah...

Until the next time you get jealous and accuse me

-of cheating on you.

-I didn't...

You did - you might as well have.

You clearly don't trust me.

-SIGHING:

-I do...

I just keep getting everything wrong.

You really hurt me.

I know...

I know, I know and I hate myself.

Stop fighting me.

I'm your wife.

And I love you.

I'll make it up to you, I promise.

Communication and trust, yeah?

That's all I want.

Yeah - and you'll get it.

No more secrets...I promise.

Well, go on, then - you'd better get back to work.

That's the last thing we need, ain't it? You getting the sack.

You can't make me feel any worse than I already do.

Is that right?

Just sort yourself out, boy.

Louise got too much on, has she?

No.

No, she wanted to come,

but... Well, we felt it'd be too upsetting so soon after Peggy.

She'd have managed - she's a Mitchell.

I see Lady Penelope's here.

They were her daughters, Sal.

Only when it suited her for them to be.

I'll have another cup of tea...

But put some more milk in it, I'm not a navvy.

I thought he'd be here by now.

-Who?

-Charlie.

I mean, I know it didn't end well for him and Ronnie,

but they did love each other once.

And I was hoping...

Right, that's Matthew dropped off with Lauren.

I think maybe you're right, though, Glenda...

the other two should probably stay here as well.

Yes, well - I think that Jack feels he needs them there.

You bearing up, Glenda?

Not really...

Some people have always been able to turn on the waterworks.

Listen, take no notice of her.

You never change, Glenda -

you always make everything about yourself.

Not today, Sal, please...

She didn't care at all for those girls when they were alive.

Most of the time, they never entered your head.

Oi, keep your mouth shut or go home!

Oi? Do you know who you're speaking to?

-An old relic with a big mouth!

-Now, just shut up!

All right? Let's just all remember why we're here.

What is all the shouting about?

The kids are going to hear you.

It's nothing for you to worry about.

-Denise... Denise... Just hang on...

-Hi.

I just, erm...

I just wanted to check you were OK.

-Yeah, I'm good, thanks.

-I, er...

I know what it's like... You know...

Letting Martin bring Arthur up...

I'm not saying it's the same thing...

It is. It is.

You gave your son up...

You've got to see him living across the Square all the time.

Not sure that's something I could deal with.

Is it that time already?

Whitney, erm...

What I said about you being the cause of Lee's problems...

That was wrong of me.

Please... say you'll forgive me.

Yeah, of course...

Thank you for apologising.

Oh, I'm the first to put me hand up when I'm in the wrong.

I hope Lee's done the same...

Did you forgive him or are you making him sweat?

Well, we're back on track. That's all you need to know.

Well... let's hope it stays that way.

Cos you know what they say about leopards and their spots...

They can change. If you love someone enough.

She had the kindest heart of anyone I know.

Er, Jack...

They're, erm... They're outside.

Where's my gloves...? I must have left them at home.

Don't worry, we'll go and get them, OK?

Phil, you and Sharon are in the second car with Ben, Honey and...

Second car?

You're with us, Sal. We need to stick together.

-Glenda...

-I can't do this...

Yes, you can, you've got to be strong for Ron and Rox.

Come on, mate. Best not keep them waiting...

There's something I need to do.

GLENDA WAILS

No...! No...!

Come on...

Not my girls! Not my babies...!

So we're going to get in a big black car and we're going to go to

the church where you did your Harvest Festival...

And we're going to sing songs.

To Mummy?

Yeah, and Auntie Ronnie.

And if you feel sad or, erm...

Or scared in any way, you just hold my hand.

Cos I'm never going to leave you...

Either of you, or Matthew.

Come here.

Don, do you need a lift?

No, I'm sorted.

Oh, did you manage to get the stuff?

Yeah - I've sorted it.

What stuff?

You'll see later. I cleared it with Jack yesterday.

I keep expecting to see Roxy coming round the corner.

Yeah.

Oh, look at them...

Amy, darling - look at the flowers over there.

They're the ones you got for Mummy.

They're very pretty, Amy.

You chose beautiful flowers.

Puts everything into perspective, doesn't it?

Mm...

I owe you an apology.

What for?

When you came to me about having the termination...

Oh, the way I reacted...

We've already spoken about this... It doesn't matter.

Yes, it does. To me.

You didn't have to tell me anything,

but you did.

You came to me because I'm your mum and you wanted my support.

-You supported me.

-Yeah, eventually...

After I'd given you a hard time.

Yeah...

You didn't make me feel good about myself.

Oh, and I'm sorry about that... I am so, so sorry.

I just didn't understand it, but...

..now I do...

And it's not been fair of me to expect you to support me

about the adoption.

Have you seen anything of Auntie Kim?

-SCOFFING:

-Yeah...

I don't think she's going to be supporting me

over anything I do for a very long time.

Oh, now I know why he came back, he ran out of boxers.

Erm... I think he's learnt his lesson.

You know, he's stupid, but he's not stupid enough to let you slip

through his fingers.

Thanks... And thanks again for letting me stay.

You mean the world to me and L, right? You remember that.

And check his pockets cos he's always leaving, like, bits of

tissue or something in there, or...

HE EXHALES

See, look. And I bet you it's something important.

Please, please, don't tell me it's a bird's number.

No, no, it's a payslip...

I just didn't know he earned that little.

THEY SING: All Things Bright And Beautiful

# All creatures great and small

# All things wise and wonderful, The Lord God made them all. #

If you'll all be seated...

Thank you, Amy and Ricky, for choosing that beautiful hymn.

I think we sang it at the Harvest Festival, didn't we?

And very apt it is too...

DOOR OPENS

..because Veronica and Roxanne were both bright and beautiful.

Now, I understand Veronica and Roxanne's cousin Phil

is going to read a poem.

I can do it for you.

I, er...

couldn't find anything to read...

Ben just gave me this...

Don't cry for us now...

..we have died...

..for we're still here, by your side.

Ronnie's the snowflake that kisses your nose...

..Roxy's the frost that nips your toes.

Ronnie's the sun, bringing you light...

..Roxy's the star, shining so bright.

Ronnie's the bird, up in the sky...

..Roxy's the cloud, that's drifting by.

We are the thoughts inside your head...

..while we're still here...

we can't be dead.

Thank you for that very beautiful poem.

Jack, I think you're going to add a few words...

No.

Excuse me.

I just want everyone to know how lovely those two girls were.

They were very greatly loved by everyone...

And I have something to say to you, Glenda...

I'm truly very, very sorry that you missed so much

of those girls' lives.

By running away when they were so young.

But I want to thank you for abandoning them,

cos they had fabulous lives without YOU!

Well...

Before we say prayers I understand there's another song...

Which I believe was a particular favourite of Veronica and Roxanne...

DANCE MUSIC PLAYS

SHE WAILS

See here - that one was taken when I brought Chelsea back

from the hospital.

Oh, gosh, I was only a kid myself.

I remember, there was this dragon of a midwife.

And she saw me - I was trying to change her nappy - I was making

a right pig's ear of it and she give me this right dirty look

and she goes, "Oh, you, you'll never cope."

And she walks off!

Oh, what a cow.

Oh, no.

She knew what she was doing.

After that, I was determined to cope.

So after I had you, I became quite a

dab hand at it.

THEY LAUGH

Oh, look - that's you there.

I think that's the only one of you I've got left.

I lost the rest in the fire.

Do you have a scan photo of the baby?

Yeah.

Put it in here. It should be with the other baby photos.

I will.

All my babies have been beautiful.

We have entrusted our sister Veronica to God's mercy,

and we now commit her body to the ground,

earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

In sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life

through our Lord Jesus Christ,

who will transform our frail bodies

that they may be conformed to his glorious body.

Who died, was buried, and rose again for us.

To him be glory for ever.

Amen.

I'll always love you, Ron.

Forgive me, my darling girl...

Sleep tight, Ron.

Give Mum my love.

If you could all take a few steps back while we position

Roxanne's coffin...

-MAX:

-Jack, where are you going?

Jack!

Jack, get back here!

You're not still brooding over that, are you?

This is nearly half of what he told me he earned.

Well, maybe they docked his wages, or, you know, he paid too much tax.

Or maybe it's just another one of his lies.

Something else that he's covering up.

Don't jump to conclusions, all right?

Just put it on him, ask him, see what he says.

Who does he think he is, eh?

He's upset... People do all sorts of things when they're grieving.

She was giving up her daughter,

so they could go and play happy families.

What more does he want from her?

Go on - you, erm, you go,

I just want to have a word with Max.

OK.

You OK?

Listen, don't tell Jack.

What?

I found cocaine in Roxy's room at the hotel...

I think that's how they died.

I think she was off her head and Ronnie was trying to save her.

I've been trying to figure out a way to tell Jack - but after

he walked off like that...

But it'll come out in the inquest, won't it?

Yeah, but if he finds out for sure that Roxy's responsible...

Stace, it's going to kill him.

At least you, you did the right thing for Ronnie.

I couldn't stay for Roxy... I'm not a hypocrite.

No, no, I understand. But you're a good man, Jack.

You know, you mustn't think otherwise.

I'll go and get the children, shall I?

They've been good as gold. Like little angels.

Jack...

SIGHING: Look, Glenda,

I didn't mean to upset you by walking away...

I just...

That's the least upsetting thing that happened to me today.

Well, I wouldn't listen to Aunt Sal, no-one ever does.

Well, they should...

Because she's right.

-I

-did

-abandon my daughters.

I was selfish and put myself first...

And they never forgave me for it.

That's something I'll carry to my own grave.

I believe that Ronnie saw the good in you...

I've been thinking...

and I know I can still make amends.

-It's

-not

-too late.

I'm going to bring...Matthew up.

I'm taking my grandson.