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Patrick Melrose is five years old. It's a hot summer's day | 0:00:07 | 0:00:10 | |
and his father goes to play an old game of theirs | 0:00:10 | 0:00:12 | |
where he lifts up his son and pretends to hold him by the ears, | 0:00:12 | 0:00:15 | |
only this time he changes the rules. | 0:00:15 | 0:00:18 | |
"Please let go!" said Patrick. "Please!" | 0:00:18 | 0:00:21 | |
He felt that he was going to cry, | 0:00:21 | 0:00:23 | |
but he pushed back his sense of desperation. | 0:00:23 | 0:00:26 | |
His arms were exhausted, but if he relaxed them, | 0:00:26 | 0:00:29 | |
he felt that his ears were going to be torn off. | 0:00:29 | 0:00:32 | |
The child is the alter ego | 0:00:32 | 0:00:34 | |
of novelist Edward St Aubyn. | 0:00:34 | 0:00:37 | |
When St Aubyn sat down | 0:00:37 | 0:00:38 | |
to describe the terrible thing that happened to him that day, | 0:00:38 | 0:00:41 | |
he was sweating with fear of what he was about to reveal. | 0:00:41 | 0:00:45 | |
I wrote it without wearing a shirt, | 0:00:46 | 0:00:48 | |
and just with a towel wrapped around my waist | 0:00:48 | 0:00:51 | |
because I poured with sweat so much. | 0:00:51 | 0:00:54 | |
The conflict and the tension of breaking this taboo | 0:00:54 | 0:00:57 | |
was so painful. | 0:00:57 | 0:01:00 | |
'St Aubyn doesn't normally give TV interviews. | 0:01:04 | 0:01:08 | |
'Ever since he conceded the facts of his biography - | 0:01:08 | 0:01:12 | |
'that he was raped by his father as a child, | 0:01:12 | 0:01:15 | |
'that he became a drug addict in his teens | 0:01:15 | 0:01:17 | |
'and suicidal by his 20s - | 0:01:17 | 0:01:20 | |
'he's been understandably wary of interrogation.' | 0:01:20 | 0:01:24 | |
'I'm paranoid and my basic assumption | 0:01:25 | 0:01:28 | |
'is that people are out to get me.' | 0:01:28 | 0:01:31 | |
The Melrose novels begin with an act of appalling incestuous violence | 0:01:48 | 0:01:53 | |
committed by an aristocratic father on his young son. | 0:01:53 | 0:01:56 | |
St Aubyn was five when his father first raped him. | 0:01:57 | 0:02:01 | |
He turned this day and the traumatic formative experiences that followed | 0:02:01 | 0:02:06 | |
into a series of books that critics rate amongst the finest achievements | 0:02:06 | 0:02:10 | |
of contemporary British fiction. | 0:02:10 | 0:02:12 | |
What he did with the grim material of his life | 0:02:12 | 0:02:16 | |
was transform it into exquisitely controlled prose. | 0:02:16 | 0:02:20 | |
He also made it wickedly funny. | 0:02:21 | 0:02:24 | |
This aloof novelist has so closely guarded his privacy, | 0:02:24 | 0:02:28 | |
that hardly anyone knows who he is. | 0:02:28 | 0:02:31 | |
But with his Melrose novels being adapted for the screen | 0:02:31 | 0:02:35 | |
and a new book just out, | 0:02:35 | 0:02:36 | |
he won't be a secret for long. | 0:02:36 | 0:02:38 | |
The novels you're best known for | 0:02:40 | 0:02:43 | |
form a quintet, I guess, | 0:02:43 | 0:02:45 | |
you could call it the Melrose Quintet. | 0:02:45 | 0:02:49 | |
And the core material of those novels | 0:02:49 | 0:02:52 | |
is your life as well, isn't it? | 0:02:52 | 0:02:54 | |
Yes, Patrick is an alter ego | 0:02:54 | 0:02:56 | |
and Eleanor and David are portraits of my mother and father. | 0:02:56 | 0:03:00 | |
I knew that enough people | 0:03:00 | 0:03:02 | |
would recognise the features of my own life and parents. | 0:03:02 | 0:03:08 | |
And then I was asked whether the books were autobiographical | 0:03:08 | 0:03:11 | |
and I felt that, as the whole mission | 0:03:11 | 0:03:15 | |
was to tell the truth, | 0:03:15 | 0:03:17 | |
that it would be rather pointless to crown it with a lie, | 0:03:17 | 0:03:20 | |
and so I said it was. | 0:03:20 | 0:03:22 | |
Although that's caused me a world of woe, | 0:03:22 | 0:03:26 | |
nevertheless, the right decision. | 0:03:26 | 0:03:28 | |
In Never Mind, | 0:03:28 | 0:03:30 | |
there's the extraordinary scene | 0:03:30 | 0:03:33 | |
where Patrick is raped by his father for the first time | 0:03:33 | 0:03:37 | |
and he has a kind of out-of-body experience. | 0:03:37 | 0:03:41 | |
Yes, he is totally unable | 0:03:41 | 0:03:44 | |
to understand what's happening, | 0:03:44 | 0:03:46 | |
and he starts staring at the curtain pole... | 0:03:46 | 0:03:49 | |
over the window in his father's bedroom. | 0:03:49 | 0:03:53 | |
"For a moment, Patrick felt he was up there, | 0:03:53 | 0:03:56 | |
"watching with detachment | 0:03:56 | 0:03:58 | |
"the punishment inflicted by a strange man on a small boy." | 0:03:58 | 0:04:02 | |
"As hard has he could, Patrick concentrated on the curtain pole | 0:04:03 | 0:04:07 | |
"and this time, it lasted longer. | 0:04:07 | 0:04:09 | |
"He was sitting up there, | 0:04:09 | 0:04:11 | |
"his arms folded, leaning back against the wall. | 0:04:11 | 0:04:15 | |
"Then he was back down on the bed again, | 0:04:15 | 0:04:17 | |
"feeling a kind of blankness | 0:04:17 | 0:04:19 | |
"and bearing the weight of not knowing what was happening. | 0:04:19 | 0:04:22 | |
"He could hear his father wheezing | 0:04:22 | 0:04:26 | |
"and the bedhead bumping against the wall. | 0:04:26 | 0:04:29 | |
"From behind the curtains with the green birds, | 0:04:29 | 0:04:32 | |
"he saw a gecko emerge | 0:04:32 | 0:04:33 | |
"and cling motionlessly to the corner of the wall | 0:04:33 | 0:04:37 | |
"beside the open window. | 0:04:37 | 0:04:39 | |
"Patrick lanced himself towards it. | 0:04:39 | 0:04:41 | |
"Tightening his fists and concentrating | 0:04:41 | 0:04:44 | |
"until his concentration was like a telephone wire | 0:04:44 | 0:04:47 | |
"stretched between them, | 0:04:47 | 0:04:49 | |
"Patrick disappeared into the lizard's body." | 0:04:49 | 0:04:52 | |
I mean, it's an extraordinary... process of kind of escaping... | 0:04:55 | 0:04:59 | |
Escaping from... He escapes from himself, | 0:04:59 | 0:05:02 | |
cos what's happening is so terrible to him. | 0:05:02 | 0:05:05 | |
Absolutely. | 0:05:05 | 0:05:06 | |
I think, on the one hand, he forms this sort of magical contract | 0:05:06 | 0:05:10 | |
with the surroundings of the house in France. | 0:05:10 | 0:05:14 | |
He's being protected by this landscape. | 0:05:14 | 0:05:17 | |
It's a massive substitute | 0:05:17 | 0:05:19 | |
for the care that he's not getting from his parents. | 0:05:19 | 0:05:22 | |
He's being looked after by geckos | 0:05:22 | 0:05:26 | |
and tree frogs and hiding places. | 0:05:26 | 0:05:29 | |
And do you remember... | 0:05:29 | 0:05:30 | |
You sat down to write it, what, when you were in your early 30s, | 0:05:30 | 0:05:33 | |
the first volume, Never Mind? | 0:05:33 | 0:05:35 | |
I mean, was that... Was that quite a tough thing to do | 0:05:35 | 0:05:38 | |
if it was made out of such terrible experiences? | 0:05:38 | 0:05:42 | |
Yes, I was actually 28 | 0:05:42 | 0:05:44 | |
when I wrote the first chapter of Never Mind. | 0:05:44 | 0:05:48 | |
And I had to lie down, | 0:05:48 | 0:05:50 | |
thinking I was having heart attacks on the ground the whole time. | 0:05:50 | 0:05:53 | |
Every day after it had been accepted by Heinemann, | 0:05:53 | 0:05:58 | |
I... I rang up... | 0:05:58 | 0:06:01 | |
and when the phone was answered, I hung up. | 0:06:01 | 0:06:05 | |
But I'd been planning to say that they should withdraw the book. | 0:06:05 | 0:06:09 | |
I was completely...persuaded | 0:06:09 | 0:06:13 | |
that... That everyone would be disgusted | 0:06:13 | 0:06:17 | |
by what I'd revealed in the book. | 0:06:17 | 0:06:20 | |
And, you know, the shame I felt... | 0:06:20 | 0:06:23 | |
I'd projected the shame I felt onto the world | 0:06:23 | 0:06:25 | |
and thought it would be served back to me. | 0:06:25 | 0:06:28 | |
The events of St Aubyn's extraordinary upbringing | 0:06:31 | 0:06:34 | |
are soon to be turned into a series of films. | 0:06:34 | 0:06:37 | |
The Melrose novels are currently being adapted | 0:06:37 | 0:06:40 | |
by the writer behind the romantic comic novel One Day, | 0:06:40 | 0:06:42 | |
David Nicholls. | 0:06:42 | 0:06:43 | |
-Hi, David. -Hello, hi. | 0:06:43 | 0:06:46 | |
-How are you? -I'm good, thank you. | 0:06:46 | 0:06:48 | |
-You found a very balmy spot! -I know. It's beautiful, isn't it? | 0:06:48 | 0:06:51 | |
Perfect spot. | 0:06:51 | 0:06:53 | |
Throughout the books, David Melrose looms. | 0:06:56 | 0:06:59 | |
And Patrick's a wonderful character | 0:06:59 | 0:07:01 | |
but I think his father, David Melrose, | 0:07:01 | 0:07:03 | |
is one of the great literary monsters, | 0:07:03 | 0:07:05 | |
a man full of self-loathing | 0:07:05 | 0:07:09 | |
and hatred and contempt. | 0:07:09 | 0:07:11 | |
And Patrick's struggle to acquire some kind of understanding | 0:07:12 | 0:07:16 | |
is a strand that runs through all the books, some kind of... | 0:07:16 | 0:07:20 | |
Not forgiveness, but at least comprehension | 0:07:20 | 0:07:22 | |
of what might have led his father to these crimes. | 0:07:22 | 0:07:24 | |
He is a dangerous presence | 0:07:24 | 0:07:27 | |
but a kind of thrilling presence as well. | 0:07:27 | 0:07:30 | |
I remember a conversation between the father, David, | 0:07:30 | 0:07:33 | |
and his friend, his spiteful friend, Nicholas, | 0:07:33 | 0:07:37 | |
about the courtship of Patrick's mother, Eleanor. | 0:07:37 | 0:07:41 | |
Yes, it's another example. | 0:07:41 | 0:07:43 | |
He cooks her a wonderful meal, | 0:07:43 | 0:07:45 | |
and as a test of her love, | 0:07:45 | 0:07:47 | |
puts it on the floor and makes her eat off the floor. | 0:07:47 | 0:07:51 | |
And she does it. | 0:07:51 | 0:07:53 | |
It's shocking and evil, really. | 0:07:53 | 0:07:57 | |
And you can't quite look away. | 0:07:58 | 0:08:01 | |
So do you think we understand, | 0:08:01 | 0:08:03 | |
from the first of the novels in particular, | 0:08:03 | 0:08:06 | |
why David, the father, does what he does? | 0:08:06 | 0:08:09 | |
In the first book, it seems to be pretty much about power. | 0:08:09 | 0:08:13 | |
Erm... A sort of twisted sense | 0:08:13 | 0:08:17 | |
of what a father should be. | 0:08:17 | 0:08:20 | |
He tells... The wisdom... He imparts wisdom to his son, | 0:08:22 | 0:08:26 | |
but it's all twisted and wrong - | 0:08:26 | 0:08:27 | |
never trust anyone, hate women, you know, | 0:08:27 | 0:08:29 | |
it's these terrible words of wisdom. | 0:08:29 | 0:08:31 | |
-Observe everything. -Observe everything. | 0:08:31 | 0:08:34 | |
So he's doing what a father should do | 0:08:34 | 0:08:36 | |
but with this...terrible morality. | 0:08:36 | 0:08:39 | |
But there's a wonderful moment in the third book | 0:08:39 | 0:08:42 | |
where Patrick, who's on his way to becoming a father himself, | 0:08:42 | 0:08:47 | |
um, has an insight as to his own father's childhood, | 0:08:47 | 0:08:53 | |
er, the cruelty and abuse that he must have experienced. | 0:08:53 | 0:08:56 | |
So it's that old theme of, | 0:08:57 | 0:08:59 | |
you know, the sins of the father being visited on the son, | 0:08:59 | 0:09:03 | |
of it being a legacy, | 0:09:03 | 0:09:04 | |
something that's passed down through the generations. | 0:09:04 | 0:09:07 | |
And Patrick's job is to stop that, | 0:09:07 | 0:09:11 | |
is to stop that legacy | 0:09:11 | 0:09:13 | |
and to be a different kind of father to his own son. | 0:09:13 | 0:09:16 | |
As an adaptor, | 0:09:16 | 0:09:18 | |
looking at these novels, | 0:09:18 | 0:09:20 | |
clearly, the big challenge is | 0:09:20 | 0:09:22 | |
so much of it happens in peoples' heads | 0:09:22 | 0:09:25 | |
and, particularly, in Patrick's head. | 0:09:25 | 0:09:27 | |
How can you cope with that? | 0:09:27 | 0:09:29 | |
Yes, and when you turn a book into a script, | 0:09:29 | 0:09:33 | |
the emphasis is inevitably on what people say and do, | 0:09:33 | 0:09:35 | |
not what they think. | 0:09:35 | 0:09:37 | |
You know, Patrick is often very charming, often extremely polite, | 0:09:37 | 0:09:41 | |
and the voice in his head is vicious... | 0:09:41 | 0:09:45 | |
and spiteful or full of self-loathing | 0:09:45 | 0:09:50 | |
or contempt. | 0:09:50 | 0:09:52 | |
And, um... I don't know if we've quite cracked that yet. | 0:09:52 | 0:09:56 | |
"'Patrick, my dear,' | 0:09:58 | 0:10:00 | |
"he said in a strained and drawling voice, | 0:10:00 | 0:10:02 | |
"slightly delayed by its Atlantic crossing, | 0:10:02 | 0:10:04 | |
"'I'm afraid I have the most awful news for you. | 0:10:04 | 0:10:07 | |
"'Your father died the night before last in his hotel room. | 0:10:07 | 0:10:10 | |
"'I've been quite unable to get hold of either of you or your mother. | 0:10:10 | 0:10:14 | |
"'I believe she's in Chad with Save The Children Fund, | 0:10:14 | 0:10:17 | |
"'but I hardly need to tell you how I feel. | 0:10:17 | 0:10:19 | |
"'I adored your father, as you know. | 0:10:19 | 0:10:21 | |
"'I'm sorry to be the bringer of such bad news,' said George. | 0:10:21 | 0:10:25 | |
"'You're going to need all your courage during this difficult time.' | 0:10:25 | 0:10:28 | |
"'Thanks for calling,' said Patrick. | 0:10:28 | 0:10:30 | |
"'I'll see you tomorrow.' 'Goodbye, my dear.' | 0:10:30 | 0:10:32 | |
"Patrick put down the syringe he had been flushing out | 0:10:32 | 0:10:36 | |
"and sat beside the phone without moving. | 0:10:36 | 0:10:38 | |
"Was it bad news? | 0:10:38 | 0:10:39 | |
"Perhaps he would need all his courage not to dance in the street, | 0:10:39 | 0:10:42 | |
"not to smile too broadly. | 0:10:42 | 0:10:44 | |
"Sunlight poured in through the blurred and caked windowpanes | 0:10:44 | 0:10:47 | |
"of his flat. | 0:10:47 | 0:10:48 | |
"Outside, in Ennismore Gardens, | 0:10:48 | 0:10:50 | |
"the leaves of the plane trees were painfully bright. | 0:10:50 | 0:10:52 | |
"He suddenly leaped out of his chair. | 0:10:52 | 0:10:54 | |
"'You're not going to get away with this!' he muttered vindictively. | 0:10:54 | 0:10:57 | |
"The sleeve of his shirt rolled forward | 0:10:57 | 0:11:00 | |
"and absorbed the trickle of blood on his arm." | 0:11:00 | 0:11:03 | |
By the time he was 16, | 0:11:10 | 0:11:12 | |
St Aubyn's need to numb the effects | 0:11:12 | 0:11:14 | |
of the mental and physical violence inflicted on him as a child | 0:11:14 | 0:11:18 | |
had lead him to heroin | 0:11:18 | 0:11:19 | |
and then a lost decade as a junkie, | 0:11:19 | 0:11:22 | |
hanging out mostly in New York. | 0:11:22 | 0:11:24 | |
In the second novel, Bad News, | 0:11:26 | 0:11:28 | |
it's 16 or 17 years later | 0:11:28 | 0:11:30 | |
and Patrick has gone to collect his father's ashes from New York, | 0:11:30 | 0:11:35 | |
and all he can think about is drugs, really. | 0:11:35 | 0:11:39 | |
He's addicted to drugs, he wants to get drugs, | 0:11:39 | 0:11:43 | |
but it's weirdly a comic novel. | 0:11:43 | 0:11:45 | |
Yes, I think that... | 0:11:45 | 0:11:47 | |
I mean, as a child, it was the landscape and the animals | 0:11:47 | 0:11:50 | |
which were his consolatory system, | 0:11:50 | 0:11:53 | |
but now he's moved on and he's discovered heroin and cocaine. | 0:11:53 | 0:11:56 | |
It isn't obvious | 0:11:56 | 0:11:59 | |
why that should be funny, | 0:11:59 | 0:12:02 | |
but somehow it is. | 0:12:02 | 0:12:04 | |
I suppose a lot of humour depends on distance. | 0:12:04 | 0:12:08 | |
And Patrick's looking at his own life | 0:12:08 | 0:12:11 | |
as a kind of strange farce | 0:12:11 | 0:12:13 | |
from which he's detached by the drugs, | 0:12:13 | 0:12:15 | |
and that's why he takes them. | 0:12:15 | 0:12:16 | |
I mean, the headline about that part of my life | 0:12:18 | 0:12:21 | |
was that heroin did save my life, | 0:12:21 | 0:12:23 | |
you know, because it was a kind of limbo | 0:12:23 | 0:12:26 | |
in which I was not choosing to live | 0:12:26 | 0:12:29 | |
or choosing to kill myself. | 0:12:29 | 0:12:31 | |
It was a holding pattern, | 0:12:31 | 0:12:34 | |
and it was very useful to me at the time. | 0:12:34 | 0:12:38 | |
I think, without it, I would have killed myself. | 0:12:38 | 0:12:41 | |
-Really? -Mm. | 0:12:41 | 0:12:42 | |
KNOCK AT DOOR | 0:12:42 | 0:12:44 | |
'In the books, his alter ego has a psychoanalyst friend, | 0:12:49 | 0:12:53 | |
'Johnny, in whom he confides, | 0:12:53 | 0:12:56 | |
'much like Teddy's own oldest friend, | 0:12:56 | 0:12:58 | |
'clinical psychologist Oliver James.' | 0:12:58 | 0:13:01 | |
You accompanied me on one of the scenes in Bad News, | 0:13:02 | 0:13:07 | |
where Patrick goes, | 0:13:07 | 0:13:10 | |
in the second novel, | 0:13:10 | 0:13:12 | |
to score in Alphabet City. | 0:13:12 | 0:13:15 | |
-And, um... -Does he score from... I've forgotten now, | 0:13:15 | 0:13:19 | |
is the character who he scores from called Chilly Willy? | 0:13:19 | 0:13:21 | |
-Chilly Willy was the real name? -Chilly Willy was the real name, yes. | 0:13:21 | 0:13:24 | |
But what I didn't put in the novel | 0:13:24 | 0:13:26 | |
was YOU coming down with me to Alphabet City. | 0:13:26 | 0:13:30 | |
It really was quite cool what you did, cos we were walking along... | 0:13:30 | 0:13:33 | |
If you remember, we were walking along that dark road | 0:13:33 | 0:13:36 | |
-in Avenue B way, wasn't it? -Yeah. | 0:13:36 | 0:13:40 | |
In the days when that part of Manhattan | 0:13:40 | 0:13:42 | |
was actually really quite dodgy. | 0:13:42 | 0:13:44 | |
And as we approached some steps, | 0:13:44 | 0:13:48 | |
where there were five or six of the local inhabitants, | 0:13:48 | 0:13:52 | |
and they started to stand up, | 0:13:52 | 0:13:54 | |
as we approached them, | 0:13:54 | 0:13:57 | |
you moved your hand very, very gradually | 0:13:57 | 0:14:02 | |
inside your jacket, | 0:14:02 | 0:14:05 | |
and they were all just... | 0:14:05 | 0:14:06 | |
There was a sort of glinting of knives. | 0:14:06 | 0:14:09 | |
Seriously, I remember that. I really do. | 0:14:09 | 0:14:11 | |
And as you moved your hand in, they ALL sat down. | 0:14:11 | 0:14:14 | |
And I thought, "Holy shit!" | 0:14:14 | 0:14:16 | |
Cos I was trying to think about | 0:14:16 | 0:14:18 | |
what do you do in this situation, you know? | 0:14:18 | 0:14:20 | |
You're about to be sort of attacked by a mob of drug-crazed lunatics. | 0:14:20 | 0:14:24 | |
I just did it intuitively. | 0:14:24 | 0:14:26 | |
I mean, I had a huge advantage over you. | 0:14:26 | 0:14:29 | |
-Can you remember doing that? -I do remember, yes. | 0:14:29 | 0:14:31 | |
I pretended I was carrying a gun. | 0:14:31 | 0:14:32 | |
I just put my palm to my sweaty armpit. | 0:14:32 | 0:14:35 | |
But because they lived by violence, | 0:14:35 | 0:14:39 | |
they assumed I WAS armed, | 0:14:39 | 0:14:41 | |
and they said, "He's packed" | 0:14:41 | 0:14:43 | |
and they all showed that they weren't going to attack us, | 0:14:43 | 0:14:47 | |
and we just glided through. | 0:14:47 | 0:14:49 | |
But I wasn't really cool. | 0:14:49 | 0:14:50 | |
I was, you know, detached because I was stoned - A - | 0:14:50 | 0:14:54 | |
and, secondly, I had a huge advantage over you, | 0:14:54 | 0:14:57 | |
which is that I quite wanted to die, | 0:14:57 | 0:15:00 | |
whereas you didn't. | 0:15:00 | 0:15:02 | |
-No, I certainly didn't! -And, er... That gave me the edge | 0:15:02 | 0:15:04 | |
in a situation like that. | 0:15:04 | 0:15:05 | |
How long have you actually known each other? | 0:15:08 | 0:15:10 | |
The first time that I recall Teddy on my radar | 0:15:10 | 0:15:13 | |
was when I went to stay | 0:15:13 | 0:15:14 | |
at his parents' house in the south of France, | 0:15:14 | 0:15:16 | |
where the Melrose books are set. | 0:15:16 | 0:15:19 | |
He was nine, I think, um... | 0:15:19 | 0:15:23 | |
and I was 15, | 0:15:23 | 0:15:25 | |
and I shared a room with him, | 0:15:25 | 0:15:29 | |
and I really could not believe my eyes | 0:15:29 | 0:15:32 | |
when we went to bed | 0:15:32 | 0:15:34 | |
and Teddy was reading the Encyclopaedia Britannica. | 0:15:34 | 0:15:37 | |
And I said, you know, "What is the matter with you? | 0:15:37 | 0:15:41 | |
"What on earth are you doing?" | 0:15:41 | 0:15:43 | |
And he said, "Well, I have to do this. | 0:15:43 | 0:15:45 | |
"I have to read - whatever it was - six or seven items every night | 0:15:45 | 0:15:49 | |
"and my father will test me in the morning." | 0:15:49 | 0:15:51 | |
And I said, "Well, you must be joking!" | 0:15:51 | 0:15:53 | |
I mean, Roger... I knew Roger, of course. | 0:15:53 | 0:15:56 | |
So Roger, who's David, his dad, in the books? | 0:15:56 | 0:15:58 | |
Yes. Yeah, Roger is pretty much... | 0:15:58 | 0:16:00 | |
I think Teddy would say pretty much indistinguishable. | 0:16:00 | 0:16:03 | |
I certainly do remember him being cruel to women. | 0:16:03 | 0:16:06 | |
My mother loathed him. | 0:16:06 | 0:16:09 | |
And I expect he did try to humiliate her, | 0:16:09 | 0:16:11 | |
and it wouldn't have been easy to do | 0:16:11 | 0:16:13 | |
cos she was a pretty tough character. | 0:16:13 | 0:16:15 | |
And what about the most terrible thing? | 0:16:15 | 0:16:17 | |
I mean, what about the fact that he raped his own son? | 0:16:17 | 0:16:20 | |
I mean, did you know about that | 0:16:20 | 0:16:24 | |
before you read the novelized version of it? | 0:16:24 | 0:16:26 | |
Er... Yes! | 0:16:28 | 0:16:29 | |
In fact, that's one illustration | 0:16:29 | 0:16:30 | |
of perhaps the way in which I am Johnny, | 0:16:30 | 0:16:33 | |
in that Patrick discloses it to Johnny. | 0:16:33 | 0:16:35 | |
And I can't remember exactly how it happened | 0:16:35 | 0:16:38 | |
but he then disclosed that he had been sexually abused. | 0:16:38 | 0:16:41 | |
He didn't give me any details, | 0:16:41 | 0:16:42 | |
but he just told me that his father had sexually abused him. | 0:16:42 | 0:16:45 | |
Um... Which was a bit of a sort of, "Oh, right." | 0:16:45 | 0:16:49 | |
Complete sort of gob-smacker. | 0:16:49 | 0:16:51 | |
And I worked in a mental hospital, you know, | 0:16:51 | 0:16:53 | |
but I was still completely gobsmacked. | 0:16:53 | 0:16:55 | |
There are bits of Bad News | 0:16:55 | 0:16:58 | |
where the novel is suddenly full of voices, | 0:16:58 | 0:17:01 | |
full of all these weird voices which are going on in his head, | 0:17:01 | 0:17:04 | |
-although they're quite funny. -Oh, I mean, I think that, | 0:17:04 | 0:17:07 | |
as so many people who've had a lot of maltreatment | 0:17:07 | 0:17:10 | |
create little bits of themselves, | 0:17:10 | 0:17:12 | |
and I think he did have kind of sub-personalities, | 0:17:12 | 0:17:15 | |
and that's, you know, one step away from becoming schizophrenic | 0:17:15 | 0:17:20 | |
where you completely fragment | 0:17:20 | 0:17:23 | |
and you just become possessed by these...personae. | 0:17:23 | 0:17:27 | |
From a technical point of view, | 0:17:27 | 0:17:29 | |
the interesting question about Teddy | 0:17:29 | 0:17:31 | |
is why he didn't become schizophrenic | 0:17:31 | 0:17:33 | |
and also why he didn't actually kill himself. | 0:17:33 | 0:17:36 | |
He got jolly close to it, but he never actually did. | 0:17:36 | 0:17:39 | |
You say... How do you know he got jolly close to it? | 0:17:39 | 0:17:42 | |
Well, I mean there was one occasion where, | 0:17:42 | 0:17:46 | |
after a party I'd had, | 0:17:46 | 0:17:48 | |
he very deliberately tried to take an overdose. | 0:17:48 | 0:17:50 | |
He came out of the kitchen, | 0:17:50 | 0:17:52 | |
fell down and, you know, | 0:17:52 | 0:17:55 | |
he was obviously... He'd had an overdose. | 0:17:55 | 0:17:57 | |
And I rang the ambulance and went with him in the ambulance. | 0:17:57 | 0:18:00 | |
Basically, he was quite lucky, I think. It was a close-run thing. | 0:18:00 | 0:18:04 | |
'Patrick had greeted the day with the basic question - | 0:18:06 | 0:18:09 | |
'"Can anyone think of a good reason not to kill himself?"' | 0:18:09 | 0:18:13 | |
"Since he lived at the time in a theatrical solitude | 0:18:14 | 0:18:18 | |
"crowded with mad and mocking voices, | 0:18:18 | 0:18:20 | |
"he was not likely to get an affirmative answer. | 0:18:20 | 0:18:23 | |
"Elaborate postponement was the best he could hope for | 0:18:23 | 0:18:27 | |
"and, in the end, the obligation to talk | 0:18:27 | 0:18:29 | |
"proved stronger than the desire to die. | 0:18:29 | 0:18:32 | |
"During the next 20 years, | 0:18:32 | 0:18:34 | |
"the suicidal chatter died down | 0:18:34 | 0:18:36 | |
"to an occasional whisper on a coastal path or in a quiet chemist. | 0:18:36 | 0:18:40 | |
"When it returned in full force, | 0:18:40 | 0:18:42 | |
"it took the form of a grim monologue | 0:18:42 | 0:18:44 | |
"rather than a surreal chorus. | 0:18:44 | 0:18:46 | |
"The comparative simplicity of the most recent assault | 0:18:46 | 0:18:49 | |
"made him realise that he'd only ever been superficially in love | 0:18:49 | 0:18:54 | |
"with easeful death, | 0:18:54 | 0:18:56 | |
"and was much more deeply enthralled by his own personality. | 0:18:56 | 0:19:00 | |
"Suicide wore the mask of self-rejection, | 0:19:00 | 0:19:04 | |
"but in reality, | 0:19:04 | 0:19:05 | |
"nobody took their personality more seriously | 0:19:05 | 0:19:09 | |
"than the person who was planning to kill himself on its instructions." | 0:19:09 | 0:19:15 | |
It's really clever. | 0:19:15 | 0:19:17 | |
What a clever boy! | 0:19:20 | 0:19:21 | |
In 2005, St Aubyn, seemingly done with writing about his father, | 0:19:28 | 0:19:34 | |
turned his elegant rage on to his mother | 0:19:34 | 0:19:36 | |
and wrote Mother's Milk. | 0:19:36 | 0:19:39 | |
In Mother's Milk, | 0:19:43 | 0:19:45 | |
Patrick realises that his mother has been complicit, | 0:19:45 | 0:19:50 | |
in some ways, | 0:19:50 | 0:19:52 | |
in what his father did to him. | 0:19:52 | 0:19:54 | |
I mean, does that parallel | 0:19:54 | 0:19:56 | |
a confrontation between you and your mother? | 0:19:56 | 0:19:59 | |
Um... Yes, to some extent, | 0:20:00 | 0:20:04 | |
but like everything else in fiction, | 0:20:04 | 0:20:07 | |
it was a little more complicated than that. | 0:20:07 | 0:20:09 | |
I mean, she did go into a decline into dementia | 0:20:09 | 0:20:14 | |
and she did give her money away. | 0:20:14 | 0:20:18 | |
But he comes to the realisation | 0:20:18 | 0:20:21 | |
that his mother was a kind of collaborator, | 0:20:21 | 0:20:25 | |
that she was in this kind of sadomasochistic marriage with David | 0:20:25 | 0:20:31 | |
and that he was a toy within it, | 0:20:31 | 0:20:34 | |
and that she wasn't, you know, | 0:20:34 | 0:20:37 | |
planning to hand over her child to a paedophile | 0:20:37 | 0:20:40 | |
but, in fact, she tolerated it. | 0:20:40 | 0:20:44 | |
And her ability to split off | 0:20:44 | 0:20:47 | |
one part of her self from another | 0:20:47 | 0:20:50 | |
meant that she knew, | 0:20:50 | 0:20:53 | |
but was able to deny that she knew. | 0:20:53 | 0:20:56 | |
And she did ask me to help her commit suicide, | 0:20:56 | 0:21:02 | |
which is... | 0:21:02 | 0:21:04 | |
you know, an annoying request. | 0:21:04 | 0:21:06 | |
In the fifth and final book in St Aubyn's Melrose series, | 0:21:09 | 0:21:13 | |
Patrick buries his mother, | 0:21:13 | 0:21:15 | |
welcoming her death as "the best thing to happen to me since... | 0:21:15 | 0:21:19 | |
"Well, since my father's death." | 0:21:19 | 0:21:22 | |
So is that it for St Aubyn's alter ego? | 0:21:23 | 0:21:26 | |
He's just written a new book. | 0:21:26 | 0:21:28 | |
Patrick Melrose isn't in it. | 0:21:28 | 0:21:31 | |
So you've written a new novel, Lost For Words, | 0:21:31 | 0:21:34 | |
which seems a very different book | 0:21:34 | 0:21:35 | |
from all the other ones you've written. | 0:21:35 | 0:21:37 | |
Yes, well, it's a satire about a literary prize. | 0:21:37 | 0:21:43 | |
What amazes me is no-one's written a satire | 0:21:43 | 0:21:45 | |
about a literary prize before. | 0:21:45 | 0:21:47 | |
It's just begging to be satirized! | 0:21:47 | 0:21:50 | |
Time now to find out | 0:21:50 | 0:21:51 | |
who's won the literary world's most prestigious prize for fiction. | 0:21:51 | 0:21:55 | |
The authors on the Man Booker shortlist | 0:21:55 | 0:21:57 | |
have been wined and dined... | 0:21:57 | 0:21:59 | |
St Aubyn knows about the world of literary awards. | 0:21:59 | 0:22:02 | |
In 2006, he was tipped to win the Booker Prize for Mother's Milk. | 0:22:02 | 0:22:07 | |
It was the first time in nearly 20 years of writing | 0:22:07 | 0:22:11 | |
that he came close to major public recognition for his work. | 0:22:11 | 0:22:15 | |
But he didn't win. | 0:22:15 | 0:22:17 | |
I felt sick. I felt like someone had punched me. | 0:22:17 | 0:22:20 | |
I could not believe it. | 0:22:20 | 0:22:22 | |
I think to have written a book THAT good | 0:22:22 | 0:22:24 | |
and to be on a shortlist for a prize and not to win it, | 0:22:24 | 0:22:28 | |
I mean, Jesus Christ, so unfair. | 0:22:28 | 0:22:30 | |
To me, it was so unfair. | 0:22:30 | 0:22:33 | |
And you can probably tell, even as we're talking about it, | 0:22:33 | 0:22:36 | |
the injustice of it still rankles with me, you know. | 0:22:36 | 0:22:40 | |
I feel enraged about it, even now. | 0:22:40 | 0:22:43 | |
-Why do you think he didn't win? -Well, I... | 0:22:43 | 0:22:45 | |
You know, I can't tell you that. It's unfathomable. | 0:22:45 | 0:22:49 | |
You know, I have pressed his books on people, | 0:22:49 | 0:22:51 | |
and I have been told by people who are voracious readers, | 0:22:51 | 0:22:54 | |
"Oh, no, "I'm not reading that. It's not my kind of thing at all." | 0:22:54 | 0:22:57 | |
And that may be because they perceive it to be posh. | 0:22:59 | 0:23:02 | |
But, you know, more fool them! | 0:23:02 | 0:23:05 | |
It's as daft as saying, | 0:23:05 | 0:23:07 | |
"I'm not going to read a book | 0:23:07 | 0:23:09 | |
"because there are working-class people in it!" | 0:23:09 | 0:23:11 | |
I mean, to me, it's just stupid. | 0:23:11 | 0:23:13 | |
I mean, his new novel, Lost For Words, | 0:23:13 | 0:23:16 | |
you know, is that sort of revenge, do you think, | 0:23:16 | 0:23:19 | |
for what happened to him? | 0:23:19 | 0:23:20 | |
There will be reviewers who will say this is sour grapes. | 0:23:22 | 0:23:26 | |
Um, but, you know, | 0:23:26 | 0:23:28 | |
they can all sod off, really! | 0:23:28 | 0:23:31 | |
At bottom, this is quite an important subject. | 0:23:31 | 0:23:35 | |
Prizes - what do they mean? | 0:23:35 | 0:23:37 | |
How have they skewed our literary culture? | 0:23:37 | 0:23:39 | |
Um... | 0:23:39 | 0:23:41 | |
And what this book, Lost For Words, is saying, I think, | 0:23:41 | 0:23:44 | |
is that on the one hand, prizes have never mattered more. | 0:23:44 | 0:23:49 | |
You know, if you don't win a prize | 0:23:49 | 0:23:52 | |
your publisher is, you know, | 0:23:52 | 0:23:54 | |
likely to pay you very little or to drop you from their list. | 0:23:54 | 0:23:58 | |
But in another way, | 0:23:58 | 0:24:00 | |
prizes matter not a jot. | 0:24:00 | 0:24:02 | |
And anyone who has won a prize | 0:24:02 | 0:24:05 | |
knows that in their heart. | 0:24:05 | 0:24:07 | |
Only posterity matters. | 0:24:07 | 0:24:09 | |
That's all that counts. | 0:24:09 | 0:24:10 | |
And, um...I think that that's, you know, | 0:24:10 | 0:24:14 | |
the quite serious point that this rather silly book makes. | 0:24:14 | 0:24:18 | |
"One thing about choosing the best novel of the year | 0:24:20 | 0:24:23 | |
"had become absolutely clear to Malcolm - | 0:24:23 | 0:24:25 | |
"Jo must be stopped at any cost. | 0:24:25 | 0:24:29 | |
"Her stranglehold over the shortlist was truly scandalous. | 0:24:29 | 0:24:33 | |
"He reinvigorated his alliance with Penny on the phone | 0:24:33 | 0:24:36 | |
"later that evening. | 0:24:36 | 0:24:38 | |
"She felt the same way about Jo's growing power | 0:24:38 | 0:24:41 | |
"and they agreed that, after reading her choices, | 0:24:41 | 0:24:43 | |
"they would compare notes over dinner | 0:24:43 | 0:24:45 | |
"and see which of her novels most deserved to be attacked." | 0:24:45 | 0:24:49 | |
THEY LAUGH | 0:24:49 | 0:24:50 | |
So what you do is you line them up and then you shoot them down. | 0:24:50 | 0:24:53 | |
And, you know, there are two of you doing the shooting, | 0:24:53 | 0:24:56 | |
so much the better. | 0:24:56 | 0:24:57 | |
That's how to get your way. | 0:24:57 | 0:24:59 | |
-I'm sure you've done that in your time! -No... | 0:24:59 | 0:25:01 | |
THEY LAUGH | 0:25:01 | 0:25:03 | |
I mean, he's done, in the Melrose novels, | 0:25:03 | 0:25:05 | |
his dark materials. | 0:25:05 | 0:25:07 | |
And without that... I mean, is it as good? | 0:25:07 | 0:25:11 | |
Um...it's different. | 0:25:11 | 0:25:14 | |
My strong feeling is that there will be some critics | 0:25:16 | 0:25:20 | |
who dislike the novel. | 0:25:20 | 0:25:22 | |
-They will miss Patrick. -Yes. | 0:25:22 | 0:25:24 | |
But I think he just thinks, | 0:25:24 | 0:25:25 | |
"Well, I'll do something completely different | 0:25:25 | 0:25:28 | |
"and make myself feel a bit better | 0:25:28 | 0:25:30 | |
"about the fact I didn't win the Booker Prize in the process." | 0:25:30 | 0:25:33 | |
And I say good for him. | 0:25:33 | 0:25:35 | |
Is your experience behind the satire? | 0:25:38 | 0:25:42 | |
I... Listen, I wrote a book using material, | 0:25:42 | 0:25:46 | |
as I've generally done, | 0:25:46 | 0:25:47 | |
which was just lying around and close to hand. | 0:25:47 | 0:25:50 | |
But I think... | 0:25:50 | 0:25:52 | |
I don't know that it's, uh... | 0:25:52 | 0:25:55 | |
That it's just about the Booker Prize. | 0:25:55 | 0:25:57 | |
It's also about the mentality of comparison, | 0:25:57 | 0:26:01 | |
of constant comparison, | 0:26:01 | 0:26:03 | |
which steals people's lives away, | 0:26:03 | 0:26:06 | |
endlessly wondering whether they are better or worse than someone else, | 0:26:06 | 0:26:10 | |
or richer or poorer | 0:26:10 | 0:26:12 | |
or stupider or cleverer. | 0:26:12 | 0:26:13 | |
And the prize, the prize is the climax of that mentality. | 0:26:13 | 0:26:18 | |
It's all about comparing and excluding. | 0:26:18 | 0:26:21 | |
And making lots of people unhappy | 0:26:22 | 0:26:24 | |
and then making one person provisionally happy, | 0:26:24 | 0:26:28 | |
until they have to spend the next two years being interviewed. | 0:26:28 | 0:26:31 | |
JOHN LAUGHS | 0:26:31 | 0:26:33 | |
I mean, at a deeper level, I think I was questioning | 0:26:33 | 0:26:36 | |
a kind of psychological contract | 0:26:36 | 0:26:39 | |
under which I had written all my previous books. | 0:26:39 | 0:26:42 | |
When I started Never Mind, | 0:26:42 | 0:26:44 | |
I made a deal with myself | 0:26:44 | 0:26:46 | |
that I would either finish a novel and get it published or kill myself. | 0:26:46 | 0:26:50 | |
I did finish Never Mind | 0:26:50 | 0:26:53 | |
and it did get published, | 0:26:53 | 0:26:54 | |
so I thought, "Well, that worked!" | 0:26:54 | 0:26:57 | |
THEY LAUGH | 0:26:57 | 0:26:58 | |
I better continue to work under the... | 0:26:58 | 0:27:02 | |
You know, the same employment terms. | 0:27:02 | 0:27:04 | |
And I did, and it always made it very grim and desperate - | 0:27:04 | 0:27:09 | |
"If I don't write, I'll go mad, | 0:27:09 | 0:27:10 | |
"if I go mad, I'll have to kill myself", and so forth. | 0:27:10 | 0:27:13 | |
And that produced a lot of books, but they were very unpleasant, | 0:27:13 | 0:27:17 | |
they were very difficult to write, | 0:27:17 | 0:27:19 | |
they were a grim obligation rather than a pleasure. | 0:27:19 | 0:27:22 | |
So with Lost For Words, I thought... | 0:27:22 | 0:27:24 | |
The question I was asking is | 0:27:24 | 0:27:26 | |
is it possible to enjoy writing a book | 0:27:26 | 0:27:29 | |
which other people enjoy reading? | 0:27:29 | 0:27:30 | |
And that was a very transgressive, daring thought. | 0:27:30 | 0:27:34 | |
I was throwing the old contract on the fire | 0:27:34 | 0:27:37 | |
and seeing if I could still write. | 0:27:37 | 0:27:38 | |
Of course, one of the ironies of writing this satirical novel | 0:27:38 | 0:27:42 | |
is that prize committees | 0:27:42 | 0:27:45 | |
will sit around reading it amongst other novels | 0:27:45 | 0:27:48 | |
and working out if they kind of dare... | 0:27:48 | 0:27:53 | |
choose it as one of the up-and-coming shortlists. | 0:27:53 | 0:27:57 | |
I think it's pretty bulletproof, really. | 0:27:57 | 0:27:59 | |
THEY LAUGH | 0:27:59 | 0:28:02 | |
I don't think it's going to be chosen by anyone, no. | 0:28:02 | 0:28:05 | |
So we've got through it, Teddy - | 0:28:08 | 0:28:11 | |
without too much suffering? | 0:28:11 | 0:28:13 | |
I can't feel anything any more, John, | 0:28:15 | 0:28:17 | |
so I can't really comment. | 0:28:17 | 0:28:18 | |
# Unsentimental | 0:28:20 | 0:28:22 | |
# Driving around | 0:28:23 | 0:28:24 | |
# Sure of myself | 0:28:25 | 0:28:27 | |
# Sure of it now | 0:28:28 | 0:28:30 | |
# You stand this close to me | 0:28:31 | 0:28:33 | |
# Like the future was supposed to be | 0:28:33 | 0:28:36 | |
# In the aisles of the grocery | 0:28:36 | 0:28:39 | |
# In the blocks uptown | 0:28:39 | 0:28:41 | |
# I remember | 0:28:43 | 0:28:45 | |
# Remember it well | 0:28:45 | 0:28:48 | |
# And if I'd forgotten | 0:28:48 | 0:28:51 | |
# Could you tell? | 0:28:51 | 0:28:54 | |
# In the shadow of your first attack | 0:28:54 | 0:28:57 | |
# I was questioning and looking back | 0:28:57 | 0:28:59 | |
# You were standing on another track | 0:28:59 | 0:29:02 | |
# Like a real aristocrat. # | 0:29:02 | 0:29:05 |