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Actor and Londoner Lisa Hammond is best known as sharp-tongued market | 0:00:02 | 0:00:06 | |
stall holder Donna Yates from EastEnders. | 0:00:06 | 0:00:09 | |
Being from an East End family, I grew up watching EastEnders. | 0:00:09 | 0:00:12 | |
Julia Crampsie, who cast it, her words to me was, | 0:00:14 | 0:00:17 | |
"We wanted a gobby market stall trader | 0:00:17 | 0:00:20 | |
"and you're the first person I thought of." | 0:00:20 | 0:00:23 | |
Up here, next to the smelly fish stall, is my stall. | 0:00:25 | 0:00:30 | |
I thought you was over him? | 0:00:32 | 0:00:33 | |
Or are you hoping to get back under him? | 0:00:33 | 0:00:36 | |
Donna! I'm sorry. | 0:00:36 | 0:00:38 | |
-Happy birthday. -Yeah, thanks. | 0:00:38 | 0:00:40 | |
What? | 0:00:40 | 0:00:41 | |
There's something about being disabled | 0:00:42 | 0:00:45 | |
that people have no expectation of your life, | 0:00:45 | 0:00:49 | |
in terms of what you do as a job. | 0:00:49 | 0:00:51 | |
So when you become an actor or a creative, people are like, "Great!" | 0:00:51 | 0:00:56 | |
Lisa began her career as a child actor on Grange Hill. | 0:00:57 | 0:01:01 | |
Since then, she's appeared regularly on stage and television. | 0:01:01 | 0:01:05 | |
I think I'm from London. | 0:01:05 | 0:01:06 | |
I feel very connected with city. | 0:01:06 | 0:01:09 | |
I like the fact that, if you might fall over, | 0:01:11 | 0:01:13 | |
someone might step over you. | 0:01:13 | 0:01:15 | |
That's why I like it here. | 0:01:15 | 0:01:16 | |
I like anonymity. | 0:01:16 | 0:01:17 | |
In London, I could be fat, thin, tall, small, wheelchair user. | 0:01:19 | 0:01:23 | |
No-one cares. | 0:01:23 | 0:01:24 | |
I used to cry buckets when my mum used to take me | 0:01:24 | 0:01:28 | |
to my Aunt Linda's house in Oxford and I'd be going, "It's too green! | 0:01:28 | 0:01:33 | |
"I don't like it! It smells!" | 0:01:33 | 0:01:36 | |
Lisa's parents separated when she was six. | 0:01:36 | 0:01:39 | |
Although she's always stayed in touch with her dad, | 0:01:39 | 0:01:41 | |
she and her older sister, Nicola, grew up with their mum. | 0:01:41 | 0:01:44 | |
My mum's mum died when she was around 17. | 0:01:45 | 0:01:48 | |
And my mum's dad died when she was around six. | 0:01:48 | 0:01:51 | |
So the connection to the past was gone, | 0:01:51 | 0:01:55 | |
because she didn't even know about my grandad. | 0:01:55 | 0:01:57 | |
Very, very rarely saw my dad's dad. | 0:01:58 | 0:02:02 | |
So I don't know anything. | 0:02:02 | 0:02:05 | |
But I hope to discover... | 0:02:07 | 0:02:09 | |
..that I'm not from the country! | 0:02:11 | 0:02:13 | |
Lisa's starting her search with her paternal grandfather, Harry Hammond. | 0:02:48 | 0:02:53 | |
On my hands, I can count the times that I met Harry, | 0:02:53 | 0:02:55 | |
so I know nothing about Harry. | 0:02:55 | 0:02:57 | |
Where he came from, nothing. | 0:02:58 | 0:03:00 | |
The story in my family was that he was in the army, | 0:03:00 | 0:03:04 | |
but there's conflicting sort of stories as to what part. | 0:03:04 | 0:03:09 | |
Harry's a bit of a mystery. | 0:03:10 | 0:03:12 | |
She's come to north London to visit her Uncle Chris. | 0:03:13 | 0:03:16 | |
Lisa's grandparents separated when Chris was ten and he stayed with his | 0:03:17 | 0:03:21 | |
father, her grandfather. | 0:03:21 | 0:03:23 | |
-Hello! -You all right? -Yeah, you? | 0:03:25 | 0:03:27 | |
Lisa's Cousin Katy and Aunt Angela are also here to see her. | 0:03:29 | 0:03:34 | |
Do you remember him? | 0:03:34 | 0:03:35 | |
I'm younger than you so I probably know even less. | 0:03:35 | 0:03:38 | |
Yeah, our family is a total mystery. | 0:03:38 | 0:03:41 | |
Absolutely, honestly. | 0:03:41 | 0:03:43 | |
I lived with Grandad for about 15 years. | 0:03:43 | 0:03:46 | |
-Right. -Just us two. | 0:03:46 | 0:03:47 | |
Wow. | 0:03:47 | 0:03:49 | |
-But, as I say... -You still sort of don't know him? | 0:03:49 | 0:03:52 | |
Not really, not his earlier life. | 0:03:52 | 0:03:54 | |
He's not been dead that long and he's lived with you | 0:03:54 | 0:03:57 | |
but yet none of us... | 0:03:57 | 0:03:59 | |
don't know what's... | 0:03:59 | 0:04:01 | |
None the wiser. He would just clam up about his earlier life. | 0:04:01 | 0:04:05 | |
After her grandparents died, | 0:04:05 | 0:04:07 | |
Lisa's Uncle Chris inherited their few remaining family photographs. | 0:04:07 | 0:04:11 | |
And there's Grandad Harry. | 0:04:11 | 0:04:13 | |
-What's he drinking? -My milk. | 0:04:13 | 0:04:15 | |
I was busy eating a toffee apple. | 0:04:15 | 0:04:17 | |
And that's got to be 1960. | 0:04:19 | 0:04:21 | |
He looks quite handsome, doesn't he? | 0:04:21 | 0:04:23 | |
See, it's so strange, Chris, cos I can't picture him, in a way. | 0:04:23 | 0:04:29 | |
-Really? -Like, I sort of picture him as a sort of still person. | 0:04:29 | 0:04:34 | |
I can't imagine him again. | 0:04:34 | 0:04:35 | |
-Yeah. -But it's cos I didn't see him much. | 0:04:35 | 0:04:38 | |
What was he like, like, as a person? | 0:04:38 | 0:04:42 | |
Well, to the people he knew, he was quite gregarious. | 0:04:42 | 0:04:47 | |
-Yeah. -But he loved his horse racing, his couple of pints. | 0:04:47 | 0:04:53 | |
He was not an excessive drinker. | 0:04:53 | 0:04:54 | |
There's the family portrait. | 0:04:55 | 0:04:57 | |
Grandad again, Annie, Daddy and me. | 0:05:00 | 0:05:05 | |
Thing is, everybody knew him as Harry, but he was born | 0:05:05 | 0:05:09 | |
Henry George Hammond. | 0:05:09 | 0:05:12 | |
Henry. | 0:05:12 | 0:05:13 | |
And there's a death certificate. | 0:05:14 | 0:05:16 | |
As you can see, Henry George. | 0:05:16 | 0:05:19 | |
And he passed away in October 1995. | 0:05:19 | 0:05:23 | |
Did Grandad ever tell you about what he did in terms of his job? | 0:05:23 | 0:05:29 | |
There was talk of sort of an army background. | 0:05:29 | 0:05:32 | |
I did have a picture, it was either of me or Daddy in his arms, | 0:05:32 | 0:05:37 | |
but I cannot, for the life of me, remember what uniform it was. | 0:05:37 | 0:05:41 | |
But he would never talk about the war. | 0:05:41 | 0:05:44 | |
Whether something really bad happened to him | 0:05:44 | 0:05:47 | |
or he lost a lot of friends | 0:05:47 | 0:05:49 | |
and just blocked it out and never wanted to talk about it. | 0:05:49 | 0:05:52 | |
I'm really not sure. | 0:05:54 | 0:05:56 | |
There's no information about Harry. | 0:05:56 | 0:05:58 | |
So I'd like to find out more about what he did in the war, | 0:05:59 | 0:06:03 | |
what is this war connection and what happened to him | 0:06:03 | 0:06:06 | |
to make him not want to talk about it. | 0:06:06 | 0:06:09 | |
So I'm going online to look at a register of everyone | 0:06:18 | 0:06:22 | |
when the war broke out. | 0:06:22 | 0:06:24 | |
So search for relatives. | 0:06:24 | 0:06:26 | |
Henry...Hammond. | 0:06:28 | 0:06:31 | |
1923. | 0:06:33 | 0:06:34 | |
There he is, straight away. | 0:06:36 | 0:06:38 | |
Henry G Hammond. | 0:06:38 | 0:06:41 | |
1923, Shoreditch, London. | 0:06:41 | 0:06:44 | |
Preview. | 0:06:45 | 0:06:46 | |
Oh. Here he is. | 0:06:48 | 0:06:50 | |
Hammond household. | 0:06:51 | 0:06:53 | |
Minnie JE Hammond is also on this record. | 0:06:53 | 0:06:58 | |
Who's Minnie? | 0:06:58 | 0:07:01 | |
Female, was born 17th March, 1878. | 0:07:01 | 0:07:06 | |
Is that his mum? | 0:07:06 | 0:07:08 | |
It's just them two. | 0:07:09 | 0:07:10 | |
Where's his dad? | 0:07:13 | 0:07:14 | |
And we've got Henry, Harry, as "S". | 0:07:16 | 0:07:23 | |
Single? | 0:07:23 | 0:07:24 | |
And Hammond, Minnie JE - "W". | 0:07:26 | 0:07:32 | |
Widow. | 0:07:34 | 0:07:35 | |
So his dad was dead, he was living with his mum and he was only 16 | 0:07:36 | 0:07:42 | |
and he was working, clearly, as a wheel builder. | 0:07:42 | 0:07:47 | |
And Minnie... "unpaid domestic duties". | 0:07:48 | 0:07:52 | |
They're clearly not rich people, they're working-class people. | 0:07:52 | 0:07:55 | |
So if the war started in 1939, did he get called up? | 0:07:57 | 0:08:01 | |
If he was signed up, then he should be here. | 0:08:03 | 0:08:07 | |
Search Second World War. | 0:08:07 | 0:08:09 | |
British Army casualty list. | 0:08:10 | 0:08:12 | |
I wonder what happened to him? | 0:08:15 | 0:08:16 | |
So they're all Hammonds. | 0:08:19 | 0:08:21 | |
I've got one, two, three, four, five, six, seven Hammonds. | 0:08:21 | 0:08:25 | |
One of them must be him. | 0:08:26 | 0:08:28 | |
Must be. | 0:08:28 | 0:08:29 | |
So he was in the war. | 0:08:30 | 0:08:31 | |
To discover what happened to her grandfather, Harry, | 0:08:38 | 0:08:41 | |
also known as Henry, during the war, | 0:08:41 | 0:08:43 | |
Lisa's come to the Imperial War Museum in London. | 0:08:43 | 0:08:46 | |
She's meeting with historian Dr Amy Fox. | 0:08:51 | 0:08:54 | |
Thank you. A little bit of research of my own. | 0:08:54 | 0:08:56 | |
-OK. -In order to help you narrow down your search for your grandfather. | 0:08:56 | 0:09:01 | |
-Thank you. -And came up with this list here. | 0:09:01 | 0:09:05 | |
There he is, Hammond. | 0:09:05 | 0:09:08 | |
10th. | 0:09:08 | 0:09:09 | |
So 10th Battalion. | 0:09:11 | 0:09:12 | |
-Right, Royal Berkshire Regiment. -Yep. | 0:09:12 | 0:09:18 | |
And it says, "Date of casualty 11/11/1943." | 0:09:18 | 0:09:25 | |
Italy. | 0:09:27 | 0:09:28 | |
So, to give you a little bit more information, | 0:09:29 | 0:09:31 | |
I've got Henry's service record. | 0:09:31 | 0:09:34 | |
So record of service paper. | 0:09:34 | 0:09:36 | |
Hammond, Henry. | 0:09:37 | 0:09:39 | |
Deemed to have been enlisted, 19th of the 2nd, '42. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:44 | |
So this is an 18-year-old boy. | 0:09:44 | 0:09:49 | |
He spends four months doing general training before he joins this | 0:09:49 | 0:09:52 | |
particular battalion, the 10th Battalion, | 0:09:52 | 0:09:54 | |
the Royal Berkshire Regiment. | 0:09:54 | 0:09:56 | |
And what's important to note is, in August 1942, | 0:09:56 | 0:10:01 | |
he goes overseas to Italy. | 0:10:01 | 0:10:03 | |
So he's just an East End boy with only his mum in the house | 0:10:03 | 0:10:07 | |
and then he does a tiny amount of training | 0:10:07 | 0:10:11 | |
and then the journey to Italy. | 0:10:11 | 0:10:15 | |
It's then actually happening, isn't it? | 0:10:15 | 0:10:17 | |
I can't imagine what was going through his head. | 0:10:17 | 0:10:19 | |
In October 1943, Harry Hammond's battalion landed in Salerno, | 0:10:23 | 0:10:27 | |
southern Italy. | 0:10:27 | 0:10:28 | |
The Italian campaign was one of the most vicious and costly | 0:10:30 | 0:10:34 | |
of World War II, with over 300,000 Allied casualties | 0:10:34 | 0:10:37 | |
during 20 months of fighting. | 0:10:37 | 0:10:39 | |
After only basic training, | 0:10:43 | 0:10:45 | |
Harry fought his way up the west coast of Italy towards Rome. | 0:10:45 | 0:10:48 | |
Someone like Henry is having to fight in some of the most atrocious | 0:10:49 | 0:10:53 | |
weather conditions. | 0:10:53 | 0:10:54 | |
I mean, it's rivers you have to forge, | 0:10:54 | 0:10:56 | |
you have to fight in mountains, | 0:10:56 | 0:10:58 | |
it's cold, the wind cutting through them like a knife. | 0:10:58 | 0:11:02 | |
It's really, really miserable conditions. | 0:11:02 | 0:11:05 | |
You're not especially trained for this. | 0:11:05 | 0:11:07 | |
So this is really, really tough going. | 0:11:07 | 0:11:10 | |
And the Germans have been here a long time, | 0:11:10 | 0:11:12 | |
-they have lots of defensive lines. -They're well-established. | 0:11:12 | 0:11:15 | |
Very well-established. | 0:11:15 | 0:11:16 | |
-And also, the other side know that terrain. -They know they're coming. | 0:11:16 | 0:11:20 | |
So, you know, they've got knowledge of what's coming next, | 0:11:20 | 0:11:23 | |
so they can catch people out, you know. | 0:11:23 | 0:11:26 | |
In order to keep going up their advance towards Rome, | 0:11:26 | 0:11:29 | |
they needed to take Monte Camino, | 0:11:29 | 0:11:32 | |
which is a gateway almost to the capture of Rome. | 0:11:32 | 0:11:36 | |
He's holding a position called Bare Arse Ridge. | 0:11:36 | 0:11:38 | |
Presumably because it's very exposed! | 0:11:40 | 0:11:42 | |
And is subject to a number of German counterattacks. | 0:11:43 | 0:11:47 | |
When you think of the mountain tops with all those crevices, | 0:11:47 | 0:11:49 | |
it's really, really difficult to work out where everyone is | 0:11:49 | 0:11:52 | |
at any given time. | 0:11:52 | 0:11:53 | |
These conditions will test any man's mettle. | 0:11:53 | 0:11:56 | |
And in that kind of hubbub, the confusion of battle, | 0:11:56 | 0:12:00 | |
Henry goes missing. | 0:12:00 | 0:12:02 | |
Missing? | 0:12:04 | 0:12:05 | |
And it tells us the date that that happens. | 0:12:07 | 0:12:10 | |
-What happened? -That could mean all manner of things. | 0:12:10 | 0:12:13 | |
Whether Henry's deserted. | 0:12:13 | 0:12:16 | |
So, gone absent without leave. | 0:12:16 | 0:12:17 | |
-Right. -He could have been seriously wounded. | 0:12:17 | 0:12:20 | |
Or he could have been captured by the other side. | 0:12:20 | 0:12:22 | |
So where would he have gone missing? | 0:12:22 | 0:12:23 | |
So he would have gone missing just around here, | 0:12:23 | 0:12:26 | |
between Caserta and Cassino. | 0:12:26 | 0:12:28 | |
I can put you in touch with someone who was there at the time | 0:12:28 | 0:12:31 | |
and will be able to explain to you what Henry would have experienced | 0:12:31 | 0:12:34 | |
and what kind of conditions he would have had to have faced. | 0:12:34 | 0:12:38 | |
I'd love to find out. | 0:12:38 | 0:12:39 | |
Well, it's a bit of a weird one, isn't it? | 0:12:39 | 0:12:43 | |
I don't know whether I want to find out, it sounds horrible. | 0:12:43 | 0:12:46 | |
-Hello. -Hello. | 0:12:46 | 0:12:47 | |
Amy has tracked down a veteran of the Italian campaign | 0:12:47 | 0:12:50 | |
for Lisa to meet, 97-year-old Doug Wayhort. | 0:12:50 | 0:12:53 | |
-Very pleased to meet you. -You, too. | 0:12:53 | 0:12:55 | |
Like Lisa's grandfather, he fought in the Allied assault | 0:12:55 | 0:12:58 | |
on southern Italy. | 0:12:58 | 0:13:00 | |
The beginning of November, | 0:13:00 | 0:13:02 | |
the second attack went in and your grandfather's regiment | 0:13:02 | 0:13:06 | |
was in that attack. | 0:13:06 | 0:13:07 | |
The same one as you? | 0:13:09 | 0:13:10 | |
-Yeah. -So it's possible, is what you're saying, | 0:13:10 | 0:13:13 | |
-that you met my grandad? -We were on Monte Camino at the same time. | 0:13:13 | 0:13:19 | |
Fighting next to him. | 0:13:19 | 0:13:21 | |
Yes. | 0:13:21 | 0:13:22 | |
What was it like there? | 0:13:26 | 0:13:28 | |
Fairly... | 0:13:30 | 0:13:32 | |
Fairly intense, the fighting. | 0:13:32 | 0:13:35 | |
Many, many casualties, cos the Germans, | 0:13:35 | 0:13:38 | |
they were looking down on us, and their snipers were very good shots. | 0:13:38 | 0:13:43 | |
Amy talked a lot about the mountains and how the terrain was so bad. | 0:13:45 | 0:13:49 | |
It was. The mountains were mainly rock, you couldn't dig in. | 0:13:49 | 0:13:54 | |
The German artillery fire along the mountains, | 0:13:55 | 0:13:59 | |
shells landed and there was rock pieces flying all over the place. | 0:13:59 | 0:14:03 | |
They were quite lethal. | 0:14:03 | 0:14:04 | |
My grandad apparently went missing in Monte Camino in November 1943. | 0:14:13 | 0:14:21 | |
-Yes. -I still don't know what happened to him. | 0:14:21 | 0:14:24 | |
Well, it says here... | 0:14:24 | 0:14:26 | |
-What's this? His service record? -Yeah. The POW denotes | 0:14:28 | 0:14:34 | |
he was a prisoner of war from 11th of April 1943, | 0:14:34 | 0:14:39 | |
till he was released on 26th April 1945. | 0:14:39 | 0:14:45 | |
Wow. That's amazing. | 0:14:45 | 0:14:47 | |
That's a long time. | 0:14:47 | 0:14:48 | |
So I'm totally not surprised that he didn't want to talk about it. | 0:14:49 | 0:14:53 | |
No. I mean, I'd understand that. | 0:14:53 | 0:14:57 | |
Many men didn't talk about anything. | 0:14:59 | 0:15:01 | |
Meeting Doug was amazing. | 0:15:10 | 0:15:12 | |
The fact that he was in the same place as Harry, at the same time, | 0:15:12 | 0:15:16 | |
I thought was extraordinary. | 0:15:16 | 0:15:18 | |
And discovering Harry was a prisoner of war. | 0:15:18 | 0:15:21 | |
So I want to find out where he was, and what that was like. | 0:15:22 | 0:15:27 | |
I'm a bit nervous about it. | 0:15:27 | 0:15:29 | |
I feel a bit... | 0:15:29 | 0:15:31 | |
..I don't know, a bit shaky, | 0:15:31 | 0:15:33 | |
cos it's becoming more of a reality for me now. | 0:15:33 | 0:15:36 | |
Lisa's come to the British Red Cross Museum in London, | 0:15:40 | 0:15:44 | |
which holds one of the country's biggest archives | 0:15:44 | 0:15:46 | |
on prisoners of war. | 0:15:46 | 0:15:47 | |
She's meeting military historian Stacy Astell. | 0:15:49 | 0:15:51 | |
My grandad was a prisoner of war for almost 18 months. | 0:15:53 | 0:15:58 | |
I don't know where he was. | 0:15:58 | 0:16:00 | |
So, here for you, we've actually got your grandfather's POW record | 0:16:00 | 0:16:05 | |
from when he was released. | 0:16:05 | 0:16:07 | |
So we've got... | 0:16:07 | 0:16:08 | |
General questionnaire for British, American ex-prisoners of war. | 0:16:10 | 0:16:15 | |
Harry Hammond. | 0:16:15 | 0:16:17 | |
Original place of capture, Italy. | 0:16:19 | 0:16:21 | |
Main camps or hospitals in which imprisoned. | 0:16:23 | 0:16:27 | |
Location - Mooseburg. | 0:16:28 | 0:16:30 | |
Muleburg. | 0:16:32 | 0:16:33 | |
Hartmansdorf. | 0:16:35 | 0:16:37 | |
So he was in three different camps. | 0:16:37 | 0:16:39 | |
After being captured in Italy, | 0:16:41 | 0:16:43 | |
Harry was taken through enemy territory to Mooseburg, | 0:16:43 | 0:16:46 | |
a vast camp in Nazi Germany. | 0:16:46 | 0:16:48 | |
Here, he was imprisoned with tens of thousands of other Allied soldiers... | 0:16:50 | 0:16:54 | |
..before being moved to another camp, and then another. | 0:16:55 | 0:16:58 | |
So Minnie, Henry's mum, | 0:16:59 | 0:17:03 | |
would she have been told that he was now in the camps? | 0:17:03 | 0:17:07 | |
So she might not have found out immediately, | 0:17:07 | 0:17:09 | |
but this is an example postcard that they get filled out. | 0:17:09 | 0:17:12 | |
So you can see it's got the German post stamp on it there. | 0:17:12 | 0:17:15 | |
So this would have been sent from the camp to the next of kin, | 0:17:15 | 0:17:21 | |
to the person at home? | 0:17:21 | 0:17:23 | |
SHE READS: | 0:17:23 | 0:17:28 | |
This must have been horrific for Minnie, my great-grandmother. | 0:17:34 | 0:17:39 | |
I don't know what's worse, in that sense, | 0:17:39 | 0:17:41 | |
whether it's worse to not know anything | 0:17:41 | 0:17:45 | |
or to start imagining what the conditions are like | 0:17:45 | 0:17:49 | |
for your loved one in that case. | 0:17:49 | 0:17:51 | |
So, "Please do not write to this address." | 0:17:53 | 0:17:55 | |
Because they were going to maybe get moved? | 0:17:55 | 0:17:58 | |
So a lot of people would get moved | 0:17:58 | 0:17:59 | |
after they'd initially been registered. | 0:17:59 | 0:18:01 | |
So this is with Mooseburg, that's what happened to Henry. | 0:18:01 | 0:18:05 | |
He started out in Mooseburg but was there for a very short period | 0:18:05 | 0:18:08 | |
of time and then be moved off to the next camp. | 0:18:08 | 0:18:12 | |
And then after a few months there, was moved on again. | 0:18:12 | 0:18:14 | |
What would these camps have been like? | 0:18:14 | 0:18:17 | |
So the first camp he's in is Mooseburg | 0:18:17 | 0:18:19 | |
and this was one of the larger camps for the prisoners. | 0:18:19 | 0:18:22 | |
Initially, this was designed to hold about 10,000 people. | 0:18:23 | 0:18:26 | |
But actually, later in the war, it was holding about 70,000. | 0:18:26 | 0:18:30 | |
So, definitely when he was there, | 0:18:30 | 0:18:32 | |
it would have been very crowded and a very hard situation | 0:18:32 | 0:18:35 | |
for him to be in. The prisoners were kept in long, low bunks, | 0:18:35 | 0:18:39 | |
sometimes huts, which would hold quite a lot of people. | 0:18:39 | 0:18:43 | |
There would be a huge amount of prisoners all in one space, | 0:18:43 | 0:18:46 | |
so there wasn't much private time or personal space or anything like that | 0:18:46 | 0:18:49 | |
-either. -It says here that he was working on the railway. | 0:18:49 | 0:18:53 | |
So, some of the railway work, | 0:18:53 | 0:18:55 | |
we do actually have a photograph of some prisoners of war | 0:18:55 | 0:18:58 | |
-working on a railway. -Wow. | 0:18:58 | 0:18:59 | |
You can see here, this is some of the heavy labour | 0:18:59 | 0:19:01 | |
that they would have been engaged in. | 0:19:01 | 0:19:03 | |
So you can see here, they're carrying the huge beams. | 0:19:03 | 0:19:05 | |
These are the prisoners of war. God, that looks tough. | 0:19:05 | 0:19:08 | |
Yeah. So you can see the weight of the things that they're carrying. | 0:19:08 | 0:19:11 | |
Near these camps, it was actually very cold. | 0:19:11 | 0:19:14 | |
In the winters, the prisoners would sometimes have to clear the snow and | 0:19:14 | 0:19:17 | |
they could be cutting out up to a foot square of snow | 0:19:17 | 0:19:20 | |
to move blocks of it. | 0:19:20 | 0:19:22 | |
What would their day have looked like, in terms of what they ate? | 0:19:22 | 0:19:27 | |
In some cases, their breakfast would consist of an ersatz coffee, | 0:19:27 | 0:19:31 | |
which was essentially just crushed chestnuts | 0:19:31 | 0:19:33 | |
or something to that effect. | 0:19:33 | 0:19:35 | |
For midday, they sometimes got some food, they sometimes didn't. | 0:19:35 | 0:19:38 | |
So it might be, like, quite a thin soup. | 0:19:38 | 0:19:41 | |
And then for evening meal, it was usually again a thin soup, | 0:19:41 | 0:19:44 | |
which may sometimes have some bits of meat in it, or some vegetables. | 0:19:44 | 0:19:48 | |
So some of these men were very severely malnourished. | 0:19:48 | 0:19:51 | |
And I have a picture here of some of the men sat around in a camp. | 0:19:51 | 0:19:55 | |
That's horrific, isn't it? | 0:19:57 | 0:19:58 | |
It's the sort of skeleton-y look that they... | 0:20:02 | 0:20:06 | |
You know, like, so prominent. | 0:20:06 | 0:20:08 | |
It was a very tough time, obviously. | 0:20:09 | 0:20:12 | |
Some of the prisoners could end up weighing something like six stone | 0:20:12 | 0:20:15 | |
by the time they finally got home. | 0:20:15 | 0:20:17 | |
So they were very severely malnourished. | 0:20:17 | 0:20:19 | |
It's making me think about Harry and the fact that my Uncle Chris | 0:20:19 | 0:20:24 | |
and my dad know nothing of this, of his experience there. | 0:20:24 | 0:20:30 | |
He did not talk about the war. | 0:20:30 | 0:20:32 | |
So I wonder how, mentally, he... where he put that. | 0:20:32 | 0:20:37 | |
I don't think it's possible to go through a situation like | 0:20:37 | 0:20:40 | |
that without some issues. | 0:20:40 | 0:20:41 | |
One of the things that came out of it was a condition which men would | 0:20:41 | 0:20:44 | |
sometimes refer to as being stalag loopy, or barbed wire madness. | 0:20:44 | 0:20:48 | |
And that could lead to men just literally sitting, staring out | 0:20:48 | 0:20:51 | |
through the barbed wire and that would be them. | 0:20:51 | 0:20:54 | |
They would sometimes end up engaging in quite repetitive behaviour | 0:20:54 | 0:20:58 | |
and sometimes rocking backwards and forwards. | 0:20:58 | 0:21:00 | |
It was a very hard situation for them to be in. | 0:21:00 | 0:21:04 | |
Harry was there for 18 months. | 0:21:04 | 0:21:07 | |
So what happened to him after he was freed? | 0:21:07 | 0:21:10 | |
So I actually have his service record here for you. | 0:21:11 | 0:21:14 | |
And just down at the bottom, it'll actually tell you a little bit. | 0:21:14 | 0:21:17 | |
As you can see, towards the end of the war, | 0:21:17 | 0:21:19 | |
it'll tell you what happened then. | 0:21:19 | 0:21:21 | |
So it says, "PA, number five, civil resettlement unit. | 0:21:21 | 0:21:27 | |
-"Bally..." -Ballymena. | 0:21:27 | 0:21:29 | |
"Ballymena, NI. | 0:21:29 | 0:21:32 | |
"Northern Ireland, UK." | 0:21:32 | 0:21:35 | |
In April 1945, | 0:21:45 | 0:21:47 | |
Harry Hammond was freed from the camp and returned to London. | 0:21:47 | 0:21:50 | |
To discover what happened to him once he arrived home, | 0:21:55 | 0:21:58 | |
Lisa's come to Kneller Hall in Twickenham. | 0:21:58 | 0:22:00 | |
She's meeting historian Dr Alice White. | 0:22:03 | 0:22:06 | |
I found out that my grandad went to a civil resettlement unit, | 0:22:07 | 0:22:12 | |
and I don't know what that is. | 0:22:12 | 0:22:13 | |
Civil resettlement units were special places set up, | 0:22:13 | 0:22:18 | |
created by psychiatrists to help prisoners of war | 0:22:18 | 0:22:22 | |
who had returned to the UK to readjust | 0:22:22 | 0:22:25 | |
to being back in civil society. | 0:22:25 | 0:22:28 | |
It was on a voluntary basis, so they could choose to go. | 0:22:28 | 0:22:32 | |
So it was a way to get them used to back in their own country? | 0:22:32 | 0:22:36 | |
It helped them to reconnect with society, which, in many ways, | 0:22:36 | 0:22:40 | |
had changed a lot in their absence for many people. | 0:22:40 | 0:22:42 | |
-Yeah. -And for Henry, | 0:22:42 | 0:22:44 | |
we've got a reason why it would have been a particular change for him. | 0:22:44 | 0:22:48 | |
So that's where... | 0:22:48 | 0:22:50 | |
31 Bridport Place is where Harry lived with Minnie... | 0:22:50 | 0:22:54 | |
-Yeah. -..before the war. | 0:22:54 | 0:22:56 | |
-Yeah. This is a report of bombing. -Oh! | 0:22:56 | 0:22:59 | |
So we can see what's happened to the property throughout the course | 0:22:59 | 0:23:02 | |
of the war. | 0:23:02 | 0:23:04 | |
"Damage...major." | 0:23:04 | 0:23:07 | |
So his house is no longer there. | 0:23:07 | 0:23:09 | |
Was Minnie involved in the bombing? | 0:23:09 | 0:23:11 | |
No, Minnie was fine. | 0:23:11 | 0:23:12 | |
OK. So he thinks he's going to get back to his life, his home, | 0:23:12 | 0:23:17 | |
and there was no home to go to now. | 0:23:17 | 0:23:20 | |
Yeah, so he's coming back from... | 0:23:20 | 0:23:22 | |
God, it's even worse, isn't it? | 0:23:22 | 0:23:25 | |
Like, being freed to come home and then you've not even got that. | 0:23:25 | 0:23:31 | |
Yeah. And it's great that Harry did attend the civil resettlement unit, | 0:23:31 | 0:23:36 | |
cos of the amount of time that he spent in the prisoner of war camp, | 0:23:36 | 0:23:39 | |
he was deemed to be a high-risk person. | 0:23:39 | 0:23:43 | |
So he was traumatised by his experience? | 0:23:43 | 0:23:46 | |
Yeah. He would have been one of the people they were particularly trying | 0:23:46 | 0:23:49 | |
to target with this sort of a programme. | 0:23:49 | 0:23:51 | |
One of the fascinating things is that until around 1941, '42, | 0:23:51 | 0:23:57 | |
nobody thought that returning prisoners of war | 0:23:57 | 0:23:59 | |
would have any psychological issues because they were believed | 0:23:59 | 0:24:02 | |
to have been insulated from danger and, therefore, | 0:24:02 | 0:24:05 | |
insulated from psychological trauma. | 0:24:05 | 0:24:07 | |
Which... | 0:24:07 | 0:24:08 | |
Well, that's completely not the case in hearing the conditions | 0:24:08 | 0:24:12 | |
that they were in. | 0:24:12 | 0:24:14 | |
There were horrific things that happened in the camp. | 0:24:14 | 0:24:16 | |
So there's a real rethink on that point of view in the early 1940s, | 0:24:16 | 0:24:21 | |
and as a result of that rethink, | 0:24:21 | 0:24:23 | |
the army psychiatrists frantically try their best to sort of figure out | 0:24:23 | 0:24:28 | |
what is the case for people like Harry? | 0:24:28 | 0:24:31 | |
What sort of symptoms would he have had? | 0:24:31 | 0:24:34 | |
This is his medical card and, as you can see, | 0:24:34 | 0:24:37 | |
what we've got on his diagnosis here. | 0:24:37 | 0:24:39 | |
It says... | 0:24:39 | 0:24:41 | |
"Physical defects - physically fit. | 0:24:43 | 0:24:46 | |
"Chronic field anxiety state." | 0:24:47 | 0:24:49 | |
So he was struggling mentally at that point. | 0:24:51 | 0:24:55 | |
Yeah, it suggests that he would have been experiencing symptoms | 0:24:55 | 0:25:00 | |
such as a persistent state of general anxiety, | 0:25:00 | 0:25:04 | |
but also things like nightmares and depression, potentially, | 0:25:04 | 0:25:07 | |
-were connected with this kind of... -Right. | 0:25:07 | 0:25:09 | |
..kind of diagnosis. So he had real psychological trauma, | 0:25:09 | 0:25:14 | |
judging by this. | 0:25:14 | 0:25:15 | |
So in terms of...if a soldier, or someone in this day and age, | 0:25:15 | 0:25:21 | |
were to be diagnosed with something like that, | 0:25:21 | 0:25:24 | |
what would the comparison be like? | 0:25:24 | 0:25:26 | |
Nowadays, people would be diagnosed | 0:25:26 | 0:25:28 | |
with something like post-traumatic stress disorder. | 0:25:28 | 0:25:31 | |
That diagnosis didn't exist back in the Second World War, | 0:25:31 | 0:25:34 | |
that was something that came out of Vietnam, | 0:25:34 | 0:25:36 | |
but you can see some overlaps in the sort of symptoms. | 0:25:36 | 0:25:40 | |
So would he have been treated for that? | 0:25:40 | 0:25:42 | |
What the returning prisoners of war, like Harry, | 0:25:42 | 0:25:45 | |
very often didn't realise was that there were a lot of psychological | 0:25:45 | 0:25:48 | |
underpinnings to what they were doing. | 0:25:48 | 0:25:50 | |
So there were things like group therapy, | 0:25:50 | 0:25:53 | |
but it wasn't called group therapy. | 0:25:53 | 0:25:55 | |
It was just an opportunity to have a group discussion with a group of | 0:25:55 | 0:25:58 | |
other repatriated prisoners of war. | 0:25:58 | 0:26:00 | |
And at that time, the world would not have been used to psychiatry | 0:26:00 | 0:26:03 | |
and stuff like that. | 0:26:03 | 0:26:04 | |
So it would have been even more edgy than it is today. | 0:26:04 | 0:26:07 | |
Yeah, that's exactly it. | 0:26:07 | 0:26:08 | |
And the psychiatrists were worried about men being frightened off if it | 0:26:08 | 0:26:12 | |
looked too psychological. | 0:26:12 | 0:26:14 | |
I wonder if he talked about it in the group. | 0:26:14 | 0:26:16 | |
I wonder how open he was about what happened to him. | 0:26:16 | 0:26:20 | |
This would have been a place where everyone there would have understood | 0:26:20 | 0:26:24 | |
what it was like to be a prisoner of war. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:26 | |
And we're here at Kneller Hall | 0:26:26 | 0:26:28 | |
because this was a civil resettlement unit. | 0:26:28 | 0:26:30 | |
To deal with their post-war trauma, many ex-prisoners of war, | 0:26:32 | 0:26:36 | |
like Harry Hammond, | 0:26:36 | 0:26:37 | |
took up the offer to go to civil resettlement units. | 0:26:37 | 0:26:40 | |
Harry will have learnt new skills and joined group discussions | 0:26:42 | 0:26:46 | |
and social events, all carefully designed to ease his transition | 0:26:46 | 0:26:50 | |
back to normal life. | 0:26:50 | 0:26:52 | |
Here's a newspaper article about the unit in Ballymena. | 0:26:55 | 0:27:00 | |
-Which is where my grandad was. -The specific one he was at, yeah. | 0:27:00 | 0:27:04 | |
It says, "Every dish was served at the table by ATS orderlies." | 0:27:04 | 0:27:08 | |
-Yeah, so that would have been a member of the women's army. -OK. | 0:27:08 | 0:27:12 | |
"The employment of the girls for the work was a vital factor because the | 0:27:12 | 0:27:17 | |
"repatriates, through their long segregation, | 0:27:17 | 0:27:21 | |
"had, in many cases, become frightened of women." | 0:27:21 | 0:27:25 | |
Exactly, and they would have dances | 0:27:25 | 0:27:27 | |
so that they could get used to being in female company again, | 0:27:27 | 0:27:29 | |
-which I'm sure... -I bet that was nice after so long! -Yeah. | 0:27:29 | 0:27:33 | |
And I think that, in the short term, | 0:27:33 | 0:27:35 | |
it seems to have worked well for Harry, | 0:27:35 | 0:27:37 | |
because he continued to serve. | 0:27:37 | 0:27:39 | |
-He did. -He chose to remain in the army and linked with the army. | 0:27:39 | 0:27:44 | |
I don't know if I'd want to do that after that experience, | 0:27:44 | 0:27:47 | |
but good on him. | 0:27:47 | 0:27:48 | |
We've got his military conduct and testimonial here. | 0:27:48 | 0:27:50 | |
"Military conduct - good." | 0:27:50 | 0:27:53 | |
"Honest and trustworthy and a good worker under supervision." | 0:27:55 | 0:28:01 | |
-Aww. -So he had a glowing report, erm... | 0:28:01 | 0:28:04 | |
-..later on. -Oh, that's brilliant. | 0:28:05 | 0:28:08 | |
So he managed to overcome at least some of his anxiety. | 0:28:09 | 0:28:16 | |
Oh, good on him. | 0:28:16 | 0:28:18 | |
-It can't have been easy for him. -No. | 0:28:19 | 0:28:21 | |
-Finally. -A bit of light at the end of the tunnel. -Yeah. | 0:28:21 | 0:28:24 | |
Maybe the CRU helped him at the time, | 0:28:28 | 0:28:31 | |
but it sounds like my grandad had still some trauma going on. | 0:28:31 | 0:28:38 | |
But he was working towards getting on with his life, | 0:28:38 | 0:28:41 | |
moving on in his life. | 0:28:41 | 0:28:43 | |
Two years after leaving the civil resettlement unit, | 0:28:44 | 0:28:47 | |
Harry Hammond married Lisa's grandmother, Lillian, in 1947. | 0:28:47 | 0:28:52 | |
Lisa's father, Peter, was born in 1950, | 0:28:52 | 0:28:55 | |
followed in 1958 by her uncle, Chris. | 0:28:55 | 0:28:58 | |
Harry never spoke to his sons about the war. | 0:28:59 | 0:29:02 | |
He died aged 72. | 0:29:07 | 0:29:08 | |
His ashes are buried at Worthing Crematorium in West Sussex. | 0:29:11 | 0:29:14 | |
I've got details of a Henry George Hammond, who died | 0:29:17 | 0:29:20 | |
on the 19th of October 1995. | 0:29:20 | 0:29:22 | |
And his ashes are interred into one of the communal plots | 0:29:22 | 0:29:26 | |
at section 35/21, which is on our main lawn up here. | 0:29:26 | 0:29:31 | |
Before this journey, when I pictured Harry, | 0:29:40 | 0:29:42 | |
I had no image, even, in my head. | 0:29:42 | 0:29:45 | |
I can't even remember his face. | 0:29:45 | 0:29:47 | |
And now when I think of my grandad | 0:29:47 | 0:29:50 | |
I have something to think about, | 0:29:50 | 0:29:53 | |
rather than just a name - Harry, Henry. | 0:29:53 | 0:29:56 | |
I have someone in my head. | 0:29:56 | 0:29:58 | |
And that's really lovely. | 0:29:59 | 0:30:00 | |
So this is where you ended up! | 0:30:06 | 0:30:08 | |
I know much more about him than even his sons do. | 0:30:13 | 0:30:18 | |
So, yeah. | 0:30:19 | 0:30:21 | |
That's for Daddy. | 0:30:25 | 0:30:26 | |
That's for Chrissy. | 0:30:27 | 0:30:28 | |
Lisa has returned to London and is on her way to see her mother, Janet. | 0:31:00 | 0:31:05 | |
I know a little bit about my mum's dad and her mum, | 0:31:05 | 0:31:07 | |
but not very much because she lost them when she was so young. | 0:31:07 | 0:31:12 | |
Together, we did a bit of searching on the family tree, | 0:31:12 | 0:31:15 | |
but I think she knows a bit more than I do. | 0:31:15 | 0:31:19 | |
I'm expecting it to be fully London stock, like, going back. | 0:31:19 | 0:31:24 | |
Hello? | 0:31:30 | 0:31:32 | |
-Hello! -Hiya, kid! You all right? | 0:31:34 | 0:31:36 | |
That's me at school. | 0:31:39 | 0:31:40 | |
Aw... | 0:31:40 | 0:31:41 | |
So that's the age I would have been when my dad died, probably, | 0:31:41 | 0:31:45 | |
-I would have probably been about six there. -OK. | 0:31:45 | 0:31:48 | |
So this is my mum and dad. | 0:31:48 | 0:31:50 | |
My dad is Richard Henry Hilditch, | 0:31:50 | 0:31:55 | |
and this is the family tree. | 0:31:55 | 0:31:58 | |
-So there is... -So we've got me, Lisa Hammond at the bottom, then you, | 0:31:58 | 0:32:02 | |
my mum, Janet Ann Hilditch and then we've got Richard, your dad, | 0:32:02 | 0:32:07 | |
Richard Henry Hilditch, born 1908. | 0:32:07 | 0:32:11 | |
Mile End. Died 1962. | 0:32:11 | 0:32:15 | |
Shoreditch. His dad, your grandad... | 0:32:15 | 0:32:20 | |
My grandfather, yeah. | 0:32:20 | 0:32:22 | |
..was Richard Thomas Hilditch, born 1874, Mile End, | 0:32:22 | 0:32:26 | |
dock labourer. | 0:32:26 | 0:32:27 | |
So, East End, East End, again. | 0:32:29 | 0:32:31 | |
It is pretty self-explanatory, dock labourer, isn't it? | 0:32:31 | 0:32:34 | |
However, if you go back one generation... | 0:32:35 | 0:32:37 | |
Can't keep up with it! | 0:32:37 | 0:32:39 | |
Henry Hilditch, again, another Henry. | 0:32:39 | 0:32:42 | |
Born 1836, Stepney. | 0:32:42 | 0:32:46 | |
Again, East End. | 0:32:46 | 0:32:48 | |
Corn porter. | 0:32:48 | 0:32:49 | |
Corn porters used to pack the corn into bags. | 0:32:49 | 0:32:53 | |
-What, on the dock? -No, off the ships. | 0:32:53 | 0:32:56 | |
So we've got your great-great-granddad, | 0:32:56 | 0:33:00 | |
my great-grandad of three times, William Henry Hilditch, | 0:33:00 | 0:33:07 | |
born 1797, Limehouse, died 1875, Mile End. | 0:33:07 | 0:33:13 | |
And then, this is the 1851 census for William Henry | 0:33:13 | 0:33:20 | |
and he is living at Limehouse. | 0:33:20 | 0:33:24 | |
He's got Ann, who is his wife. | 0:33:24 | 0:33:28 | |
So one, two, three kids. | 0:33:28 | 0:33:31 | |
William Henry Hilditch, head of the family. Lighterman. | 0:33:31 | 0:33:35 | |
-Lighterman? -I thought it is one of these ones that go around | 0:33:35 | 0:33:38 | |
putting the gas lights out. But I can't see it. | 0:33:38 | 0:33:40 | |
Dock labourer, foreman, painter, dock labourer, corn porter, | 0:33:41 | 0:33:46 | |
it's all by the river. | 0:33:46 | 0:33:48 | |
So we've got Stepney. | 0:33:49 | 0:33:51 | |
I'm not surprised at all that my mum's side of the family | 0:33:51 | 0:33:55 | |
is all from the East End. | 0:33:55 | 0:33:57 | |
So that pleases me, in a way, | 0:33:57 | 0:33:59 | |
because I feel connected with London. | 0:33:59 | 0:34:02 | |
My three times great-grandfather William Henry Hilditch | 0:34:02 | 0:34:07 | |
was a lighterman. | 0:34:07 | 0:34:08 | |
I've not a clue what that means. | 0:34:09 | 0:34:12 | |
I mean, they're round by the docks, so maybe something to do with that. | 0:34:12 | 0:34:15 | |
But...I think were going to have to go to my manor, the East End. | 0:34:15 | 0:34:21 | |
We are headed toward Limehouse, | 0:34:43 | 0:34:46 | |
which is where William Henry Hilditch was born. | 0:34:46 | 0:34:51 | |
And he was... All my family, all the great-grandfathers, | 0:34:51 | 0:34:55 | |
all worked around the docks area, | 0:34:55 | 0:34:57 | |
so we are now in the territory of where they worked. | 0:34:57 | 0:35:00 | |
They're all luxury apartments now, obviously. | 0:35:00 | 0:35:03 | |
But I guess they might have been quite poor. | 0:35:07 | 0:35:09 | |
Not like the old days. | 0:35:13 | 0:35:14 | |
-ANNOUNCEMENT: -When leaving the train please remember to take all | 0:35:14 | 0:35:18 | |
your belongings with you. | 0:35:18 | 0:35:20 | |
Lisa has travelled to one of London's oldest pubs, | 0:35:29 | 0:35:31 | |
by the city's 19th-century docks. | 0:35:31 | 0:35:34 | |
Her three times great-grandfather William Hilditch lived in this area. | 0:35:34 | 0:35:37 | |
To find out more about his profession, | 0:35:39 | 0:35:41 | |
she is meeting the historian Fiona Rule. | 0:35:41 | 0:35:44 | |
So what did a lighterman do? | 0:35:44 | 0:35:47 | |
So this picture is really interesting, actually, | 0:35:47 | 0:35:49 | |
because it shows the London docks | 0:35:49 | 0:35:51 | |
and in the foreground you've got a lighterman in his craft | 0:35:51 | 0:35:55 | |
-which, as you can see, is just like an open barge, really. -Yeah. | 0:35:55 | 0:35:59 | |
And so what is a lighterman, then? | 0:35:59 | 0:36:02 | |
There's a lighterman in his barge, but what's he doing? | 0:36:02 | 0:36:05 | |
What they did was they went right up alongside the ships | 0:36:05 | 0:36:08 | |
and they took the cargo from the ships off the side, | 0:36:08 | 0:36:11 | |
it was called unloading it offside, | 0:36:11 | 0:36:13 | |
straight into their barges, the lighters were big, open barges, | 0:36:13 | 0:36:17 | |
and stacked it up high and then took it out of the docks | 0:36:17 | 0:36:20 | |
into the River Thames and along to the warehouses. | 0:36:20 | 0:36:23 | |
In the 1820s, London was the world's busiest port... | 0:36:26 | 0:36:30 | |
..bringing in goods from across the globe, | 0:36:31 | 0:36:33 | |
including sugar from the Caribbean and spices from the Far East. | 0:36:33 | 0:36:37 | |
Skilled lighterman, like William Hilditch, | 0:36:41 | 0:36:43 | |
would gather in the docks, often at local pubs, | 0:36:43 | 0:36:47 | |
in the hope of picking up jobs from ship captains and wharf owners. | 0:36:47 | 0:36:51 | |
What would his life have been like? | 0:36:53 | 0:36:56 | |
I wonder how poor they were. | 0:36:56 | 0:36:59 | |
They were very hard-working people on the docks for very little reward, | 0:36:59 | 0:37:03 | |
and a lot of the communities there were just, | 0:37:03 | 0:37:05 | |
it was grinding poverty, all the time and feast and famine, really. | 0:37:05 | 0:37:09 | |
You know, you'd get a lot of work coming in | 0:37:09 | 0:37:11 | |
-and so you would make the most of it. -A bit like acting! | 0:37:11 | 0:37:14 | |
It's like champagne one minute, and Savers' Beans the next. | 0:37:14 | 0:37:20 | |
William had three kids. | 0:37:20 | 0:37:23 | |
You said it was unpredictable. | 0:37:23 | 0:37:25 | |
What did he do for money? Did he do well? | 0:37:25 | 0:37:27 | |
What I've got here is an interesting document, | 0:37:27 | 0:37:30 | |
which is incredibly difficult to read. | 0:37:30 | 0:37:33 | |
-Wow. -You can have a go, if you want. | 0:37:33 | 0:37:34 | |
"To the..." | 0:37:38 | 0:37:39 | |
-Nah! -Here's a transcript. | 0:37:41 | 0:37:44 | |
The petition of William Henry Hilditch, citizen and Carman. | 0:37:44 | 0:37:49 | |
He's a carman, not a lighterman now. | 0:37:50 | 0:37:52 | |
Yeah. Basically, I think we can read from this that the lighterman stuff | 0:37:52 | 0:37:57 | |
simply wasn't as well paid enough for him to support his family, | 0:37:57 | 0:38:02 | |
so he became a carman, which was, basically, the same thing | 0:38:02 | 0:38:05 | |
as a lighterman, except they were transporting goods by road | 0:38:05 | 0:38:08 | |
-instead of on the water. -From the dock? -From the docks. | 0:38:08 | 0:38:11 | |
OK, so it says, | 0:38:11 | 0:38:13 | |
"Hilditch citizen and carman candidate | 0:38:13 | 0:38:16 | |
"for the office of Deputy Corn Meter." | 0:38:16 | 0:38:19 | |
What does corn meter do? | 0:38:19 | 0:38:21 | |
He was there to make sure that the sacks of corn that came off the boat | 0:38:21 | 0:38:24 | |
and went out of the warehouses did indeed have the weight of corn | 0:38:24 | 0:38:29 | |
or, in fact the corn, in the sacks that they should have done. | 0:38:29 | 0:38:32 | |
"Showeth that your petitioner has a wife and three children | 0:38:32 | 0:38:36 | |
"entirely dependent on him for support. | 0:38:36 | 0:38:40 | |
"That owing to losses in trade was reduced, | 0:38:40 | 0:38:43 | |
"has reduced him to very slender means for support of himself | 0:38:43 | 0:38:47 | |
"and his family." | 0:38:47 | 0:38:49 | |
So we were struggling at this point. | 0:38:49 | 0:38:51 | |
I think he was really struggling. | 0:38:51 | 0:38:53 | |
He's applied for the post of corn meter because his previous jobs | 0:38:53 | 0:38:56 | |
just haven't paid well enough. | 0:38:56 | 0:38:57 | |
-So this is his application. -Yeah. -Did he get the job as corn meter? | 0:38:57 | 0:39:02 | |
He did get the job is corn meter, | 0:39:02 | 0:39:04 | |
and I guess that he's just thinking that the office of corn meter | 0:39:04 | 0:39:08 | |
is just going to provide him with more regular work. | 0:39:08 | 0:39:11 | |
Stability, as well, that he wouldn't have had with the self-employment. | 0:39:11 | 0:39:14 | |
Exactly. Exactly. | 0:39:14 | 0:39:15 | |
So he's...on the up? | 0:39:15 | 0:39:19 | |
Well, I've got a document here that shows you, | 0:39:19 | 0:39:21 | |
tells you a little bit more about how he was getting on | 0:39:21 | 0:39:24 | |
a few years later. | 0:39:24 | 0:39:25 | |
Joseph Hilditch's will. | 0:39:25 | 0:39:28 | |
Now, Joseph Hilditch was the brother of your four times | 0:39:28 | 0:39:32 | |
great-grandfather. | 0:39:32 | 0:39:34 | |
So that means that he was William Hilditch's uncle. | 0:39:34 | 0:39:36 | |
In 1835. | 0:39:36 | 0:39:38 | |
Mm-hm. | 0:39:38 | 0:39:39 | |
"I give, and bequeath, unto to Mrs Elizabeth Hilditch, | 0:39:39 | 0:39:44 | |
"the widow of my late brother, Richard Hilditch, | 0:39:44 | 0:39:49 | |
"and my two nephews, Joseph Hilditch and William Henry Hilditch..." | 0:39:49 | 0:39:54 | |
My three times great-grandfather. | 0:39:54 | 0:39:56 | |
"..the sum of one shilling each." | 0:39:56 | 0:39:58 | |
"Had they not behaved the most rude and unfeeling manner towards me, | 0:40:00 | 0:40:05 | |
"they would have shared a larger portion of my property." | 0:40:05 | 0:40:08 | |
-They've obviously displeased their uncle in some way. -Wow! | 0:40:11 | 0:40:14 | |
"Most rude and unfeeling manner." | 0:40:14 | 0:40:16 | |
The mind boggles as to what they did. | 0:40:18 | 0:40:21 | |
Well, we all know that rude and unfeeling runs in the family, | 0:40:21 | 0:40:24 | |
so maybe we've got it from them. | 0:40:24 | 0:40:25 | |
Lisa has found out that her three times great-grandfather, | 0:40:34 | 0:40:37 | |
William Hilditch, | 0:40:37 | 0:40:38 | |
his brother and stepmother were only left a very small sum | 0:40:38 | 0:40:41 | |
in the will of his uncle, Joseph Hilditch. | 0:40:41 | 0:40:44 | |
To try and discover why, | 0:40:52 | 0:40:53 | |
she's come to Gray's Inn in London's historic legal district. | 0:40:53 | 0:40:57 | |
She's meeting with historian Professor Alistair Owens. | 0:40:58 | 0:41:02 | |
So, William Hilditch... | 0:41:02 | 0:41:05 | |
His uncle, Joseph Hilditch, dies and leaves him an inheritance, | 0:41:05 | 0:41:11 | |
but only of one shilling. | 0:41:11 | 0:41:13 | |
-What happened? -Well, that's right. | 0:41:13 | 0:41:15 | |
I mean, the one shilling thing is quite interesting | 0:41:15 | 0:41:18 | |
because it was a very deliberate act to disinherit William. | 0:41:18 | 0:41:22 | |
It acknowledged that they hadn't been forgotten, | 0:41:22 | 0:41:24 | |
it was a public statement that, "I am annoyed at this person." | 0:41:24 | 0:41:27 | |
It almost seems worse, doesn't it? | 0:41:27 | 0:41:29 | |
If he hadn't have been cut out of the will | 0:41:29 | 0:41:31 | |
and all those three been given one shilling, | 0:41:31 | 0:41:34 | |
how much would they have been given? | 0:41:34 | 0:41:36 | |
So this tells you how much Joseph Hilditch was worth. | 0:41:36 | 0:41:41 | |
It says, "Joseph Hilditch died | 0:41:41 | 0:41:45 | |
"possessed of 5,000..." | 0:41:45 | 0:41:49 | |
-Is that 5,000? -That's right, yeah. £5,000. | 0:41:49 | 0:41:51 | |
So he was worth £5,000. | 0:41:51 | 0:41:53 | |
-That's a lot of money, isn't it? -It was a lot of money in 1834. | 0:41:53 | 0:41:57 | |
So... | 0:41:57 | 0:41:58 | |
It's very difficult to convert historical values | 0:41:58 | 0:42:01 | |
to contemporary values but, roughly speaking, | 0:42:01 | 0:42:04 | |
maybe worth about £500,000... | 0:42:04 | 0:42:07 | |
-Wow. -..by today's standards. | 0:42:07 | 0:42:09 | |
It would have been around the sort of top 10% of wealth holders | 0:42:09 | 0:42:12 | |
at that moment. So this guy is pretty comfortable. | 0:42:12 | 0:42:16 | |
So he must have really peed him off. | 0:42:16 | 0:42:19 | |
-Quite. -What's the gossip behind the family feud? | 0:42:19 | 0:42:22 | |
So this document here tells us about a court case that took place | 0:42:22 | 0:42:26 | |
very soon after Joseph had died, | 0:42:26 | 0:42:29 | |
a court case that was about determining | 0:42:29 | 0:42:31 | |
the validity of his will. | 0:42:31 | 0:42:32 | |
So someone's questioning the will. | 0:42:32 | 0:42:35 | |
Exactly, and the people questioning are Elizabeth, Elizabeth Hilditch, | 0:42:35 | 0:42:39 | |
-so the stepmum of William, and also Joseph, his brother. -OK. | 0:42:39 | 0:42:44 | |
And the testimony that we get, | 0:42:44 | 0:42:47 | |
and in this case it is testimony from someone called Edward Bridger, | 0:42:47 | 0:42:51 | |
and he was the person who wrote Joseph's will. | 0:42:51 | 0:42:54 | |
-So he knows everything about that case. -That's right. | 0:42:54 | 0:42:58 | |
"He mentioned to me that he had been very ill-used by his relations | 0:42:58 | 0:43:03 | |
"and particularly mentioned this Mrs Hilditch, and his two nephews, | 0:43:03 | 0:43:08 | |
"Joseph and William. | 0:43:08 | 0:43:09 | |
"He said that they had decoyed him out of his lodging in Duke Street, | 0:43:09 | 0:43:14 | |
"Smithfield, and taken him to Lambeth poor house, | 0:43:14 | 0:43:18 | |
"whence he had been sent to the mad house in Brixton | 0:43:18 | 0:43:22 | |
"and there they had kept him six weeks. | 0:43:22 | 0:43:25 | |
"He had been put into the same room with two or three mad people | 0:43:26 | 0:43:31 | |
"and whose language was shocking and dreadful and he was, | 0:43:31 | 0:43:34 | |
"as well as the said two persons, fastened down to a bed." | 0:43:34 | 0:43:39 | |
What's he sent there for? | 0:43:39 | 0:43:42 | |
Like, what did he do to get to that? | 0:43:42 | 0:43:44 | |
It's something that's very difficult to know, to be honest. | 0:43:44 | 0:43:48 | |
So he may well have been showing signs of mental ill health, | 0:43:48 | 0:43:52 | |
mental illness of some kind, and maybe his relatives, | 0:43:52 | 0:43:54 | |
including William, thought that the best thing | 0:43:54 | 0:43:57 | |
was to have him admitted to this mad house. | 0:43:57 | 0:44:00 | |
-In that way they get the money. -Exactly. | 0:44:00 | 0:44:02 | |
"He made a will very shortly before he was taken thus away, in favour | 0:44:02 | 0:44:07 | |
"of Mrs Hilditch and his said nephews whom, at the time, | 0:44:07 | 0:44:11 | |
"he really had intended to leave all his property to, | 0:44:11 | 0:44:16 | |
"and that they should have had it, | 0:44:16 | 0:44:18 | |
"have not used him in a cruel manner." | 0:44:18 | 0:44:21 | |
So he was going to leave the money to them before this happened. | 0:44:21 | 0:44:27 | |
That's right. | 0:44:27 | 0:44:28 | |
"I asked him how he got out of the mad house and he said | 0:44:28 | 0:44:31 | |
"that people at last found that there was nothing the matter with him." | 0:44:31 | 0:44:35 | |
Did they win? Were they successful in contesting the will? | 0:44:35 | 0:44:38 | |
No, they weren't, actually. | 0:44:38 | 0:44:40 | |
So all the evidence that was given at the court case | 0:44:40 | 0:44:43 | |
suggested that Joseph was of sound mind... | 0:44:43 | 0:44:46 | |
-Right. -..when he made the will. | 0:44:46 | 0:44:47 | |
And, therefore, they inherited nothing. | 0:44:47 | 0:44:49 | |
Having missed out on a share of his Uncle Joseph's fortune, | 0:44:53 | 0:44:56 | |
Lisa's three times great-grandfather William Hilditch continued to work | 0:44:56 | 0:45:00 | |
on the docks until his death in 1875, aged 78. | 0:45:00 | 0:45:06 | |
So there's something else really interesting, actually, about this court case, | 0:45:06 | 0:45:09 | |
in terms of some of the detail it tells us about the family | 0:45:09 | 0:45:11 | |
and about Joseph Hilditch. | 0:45:11 | 0:45:14 | |
"He said his... | 0:45:14 | 0:45:17 | |
-Native. -"..native place was Wales." | 0:45:19 | 0:45:23 | |
-Wales? -Was Wales, exactly. | 0:45:23 | 0:45:25 | |
"And he intended to return and end his days there." | 0:45:26 | 0:45:30 | |
He wanted to go back to Wales to die. | 0:45:30 | 0:45:31 | |
-That was his wish. -That was one of his wishes, | 0:45:31 | 0:45:33 | |
but he wanted to return to his place of birth. | 0:45:33 | 0:45:35 | |
-So he came from Wales? -Yeah. So the family... | 0:45:35 | 0:45:39 | |
So my family come from Wales? | 0:45:41 | 0:45:43 | |
That's right, yeah. | 0:45:43 | 0:45:44 | |
That is so weird. | 0:45:46 | 0:45:48 | |
Was not expecting that. | 0:45:48 | 0:45:51 | |
So this is a register from the parish of Denbigh in North Wales. | 0:45:52 | 0:45:57 | |
-OK. -So this is actually, you can see at the top there... | 0:45:57 | 0:45:59 | |
Oh, yeah. | 0:45:59 | 0:46:01 | |
"Christenings of the year 1759." | 0:46:01 | 0:46:05 | |
-So we're kind of 80 years... -Wow. | 0:46:05 | 0:46:07 | |
..prior. | 0:46:07 | 0:46:09 | |
"Richard, son of Joseph Hilditch." | 0:46:09 | 0:46:13 | |
Richard, there, that's your four times great-grandfather. | 0:46:13 | 0:46:17 | |
-Richard. -Yeah. | 0:46:17 | 0:46:19 | |
And then his father there, in other words, | 0:46:19 | 0:46:21 | |
your five times great-grandfather, is another Joseph, Joseph Hilditch. | 0:46:21 | 0:46:26 | |
-Farmer. -Yeah. | 0:46:26 | 0:46:27 | |
That is hysterical. | 0:46:31 | 0:46:33 | |
That was what I was saying to my mum! | 0:46:34 | 0:46:35 | |
I was like, "Oh, my God, can you imagine if we're farmers?!" | 0:46:35 | 0:46:38 | |
-You are. So that is your... -Oh, that is so funny. | 0:46:39 | 0:46:42 | |
That's your great-great-great-great grandfather. | 0:46:43 | 0:46:47 | |
He was a farmer in North Wales. | 0:46:47 | 0:46:49 | |
We come from the country, is what you're telling me, Alistair. | 0:46:50 | 0:46:53 | |
You're not East Enders at all. | 0:46:53 | 0:46:54 | |
Ah...! | 0:46:54 | 0:46:56 | |
That's brilliant. | 0:46:56 | 0:46:58 | |
That is so funny. | 0:46:59 | 0:47:01 | |
Can't wait to tell my mum. | 0:47:01 | 0:47:02 | |
She's going to go crazy! | 0:47:04 | 0:47:05 | |
But I hate the country! | 0:47:07 | 0:47:09 | |
And I'm not fit for purpose, am I? | 0:47:12 | 0:47:15 | |
Blocking the middle of a field! | 0:47:16 | 0:47:18 | |
OK. Just breathe... | 0:47:22 | 0:47:24 | |
It's fine. Just won't be able to wear my heels. | 0:47:26 | 0:47:29 | |
Get some new tyres. | 0:47:30 | 0:47:31 | |
That's a complete bolt out of the blue. | 0:47:35 | 0:47:38 | |
I thought we were all from London because we've all sort of got that | 0:47:38 | 0:47:42 | |
London thing, you know? | 0:47:42 | 0:47:44 | |
But turns out we've got the farmer thing. | 0:47:44 | 0:47:46 | |
Although four generations of her ancestors were born in London, | 0:47:49 | 0:47:52 | |
Lisa's four times great-grandfather Richard Hilditch was born in Wales | 0:47:52 | 0:47:57 | |
and his father, Joseph, was a farmer. | 0:47:57 | 0:48:00 | |
To trace her rural ancestry, she's come to Denbighshire in North Wales. | 0:48:06 | 0:48:10 | |
Here we are in deepest countryside | 0:48:20 | 0:48:24 | |
and, yeah, I'm shocked that I'm not a city girl, | 0:48:24 | 0:48:28 | |
and I'm not used to all this greenery | 0:48:28 | 0:48:31 | |
and these country winding lanes and all the animals, | 0:48:31 | 0:48:36 | |
hence why I wore my horse top, in honour of my Welsh routes. | 0:48:36 | 0:48:39 | |
I can appreciate the beauty of it. | 0:48:41 | 0:48:43 | |
I mean, it's gorgeous. | 0:48:43 | 0:48:45 | |
But again, do I want to live here? | 0:48:45 | 0:48:48 | |
I can't see any sheep yet. Oh, there they are! | 0:48:51 | 0:48:53 | |
Don't even know where we are. | 0:48:55 | 0:48:57 | |
Lisa's come to St Marcella's Church in Denbigh | 0:49:06 | 0:49:08 | |
to meet Welsh historian Nia Powell. | 0:49:08 | 0:49:11 | |
-Hello. -Hello. -You must be Nia. | 0:49:11 | 0:49:15 | |
Welcome to Wales, Lisa. | 0:49:15 | 0:49:16 | |
-Thanks. -And welcome to St Marcella's. | 0:49:16 | 0:49:19 | |
Nia's researched the Hilditches and prepared a family tree for Lisa. | 0:49:19 | 0:49:24 | |
Down at the bottom we've got me | 0:49:24 | 0:49:27 | |
and we've got my mum and we've got all people of the East End | 0:49:27 | 0:49:32 | |
jump to Wales and farming. | 0:49:32 | 0:49:34 | |
I know that Richard Hilditch, | 0:49:36 | 0:49:38 | |
because I've seen his parish records, | 0:49:38 | 0:49:41 | |
he was christened in Denbigh. | 0:49:41 | 0:49:43 | |
In this church, actually. | 0:49:44 | 0:49:46 | |
-In this church? -Yeah. -And his father, Joseph Hilditch, | 0:49:46 | 0:49:51 | |
my five times great-grandad was a farmer. | 0:49:51 | 0:49:57 | |
But it says here, it doesn't say farmer, | 0:49:57 | 0:49:59 | |
it says that he was yeoman of Denbigh. | 0:49:59 | 0:50:03 | |
Right, well, yeoman is a label, if you like, or a status. | 0:50:03 | 0:50:09 | |
-OK. -It's just below the gentry and it generally meant | 0:50:09 | 0:50:15 | |
quite prosperous farmers. | 0:50:15 | 0:50:17 | |
And, indeed, prosperous he was. | 0:50:17 | 0:50:20 | |
So they were well-off, they were not working-class. | 0:50:20 | 0:50:23 | |
Status of yeoman implies that he actually did work, | 0:50:23 | 0:50:28 | |
he did some of the work. | 0:50:28 | 0:50:29 | |
So he didn't sit in his house and let his workers do... | 0:50:29 | 0:50:34 | |
He was an actual worker, but he wasn't gentry. | 0:50:34 | 0:50:36 | |
That's the difference between being gentry and being a yeoman. | 0:50:36 | 0:50:41 | |
I see. And this is 1735. | 0:50:41 | 0:50:43 | |
He was born in 1735. | 0:50:43 | 0:50:46 | |
What is even more interesting, perhaps for you, | 0:50:46 | 0:50:51 | |
is that as you move back, the status of the family seems to rise. | 0:50:51 | 0:50:57 | |
That implies, of course, that there's some kind of a fall | 0:50:58 | 0:51:01 | |
as you come the other way. | 0:51:01 | 0:51:03 | |
That wouldn't surprise me! | 0:51:03 | 0:51:05 | |
But if you look at Joseph's father, William Hilditch, | 0:51:05 | 0:51:09 | |
he was actually of Kilford Farm, which is opposite the church... | 0:51:09 | 0:51:13 | |
-Oh. -And the father of William Hilditch, | 0:51:13 | 0:51:16 | |
-we are going back now to... -1701. | 0:51:16 | 0:51:20 | |
..another William Hilditch. | 0:51:20 | 0:51:22 | |
William Hilditch of Whitchurch. | 0:51:23 | 0:51:26 | |
-Yes. -So that's my seventh great-grandfather. | 0:51:26 | 0:51:31 | |
That's your seventh great-grandfather. | 0:51:31 | 0:51:33 | |
OK. Of Whitchurch. | 0:51:33 | 0:51:35 | |
Right, well, Whitchurch isn't the name of a town. | 0:51:35 | 0:51:39 | |
It's here. This is the white church of Denbigh. | 0:51:39 | 0:51:43 | |
-Amazing! -And within this church, | 0:51:43 | 0:51:46 | |
there is evidence of William Hilditch's role within this area. | 0:51:46 | 0:51:50 | |
So he was actually here? | 0:51:50 | 0:51:52 | |
He was, and he was churchwarden, and he commissioned a board, | 0:51:52 | 0:51:58 | |
but at the bottom is his name, if you want, if you think about it... | 0:51:58 | 0:52:02 | |
-And so where...? -Well, just look behind you, there it is. | 0:52:02 | 0:52:05 | |
-Can you see his name? -Oh, my God, I was right in front of it! | 0:52:08 | 0:52:10 | |
In bold letters, yes. | 0:52:10 | 0:52:12 | |
William Hilditch. | 0:52:12 | 0:52:14 | |
Yes, churchwarden. | 0:52:14 | 0:52:15 | |
Now, we're quite lucky to have a bond relating to the marriage | 0:52:17 | 0:52:22 | |
of this William Hilditch with a woman called Jane Lloyd. | 0:52:22 | 0:52:28 | |
And perhaps you would like to read it? | 0:52:28 | 0:52:30 | |
Yeah, you've got no chance. | 0:52:34 | 0:52:35 | |
It's in Latin, the first part of the bond. | 0:52:37 | 0:52:39 | |
Well, that would explain it, then! | 0:52:39 | 0:52:41 | |
So we've got the marriage bond of William Hilditch, 1701. | 0:52:41 | 0:52:46 | |
"All should know by these present that we, William Hilditch, | 0:52:46 | 0:52:51 | |
of the parish of Denbigh, in the county of Denbigh, gentleman..." | 0:52:51 | 0:52:57 | |
So that really places him amongst the toffs. | 0:52:57 | 0:53:01 | |
My seven times great-grandad is now a gentleman. | 0:53:01 | 0:53:03 | |
Yes. So we are in a different social stratum altogether, really. | 0:53:03 | 0:53:10 | |
We're amongst the people who had sufficient money to employ servants | 0:53:10 | 0:53:15 | |
to do all the work for them... | 0:53:15 | 0:53:17 | |
So we now are no working. | 0:53:17 | 0:53:19 | |
Exactly. | 0:53:19 | 0:53:20 | |
-We are in the house watching the workers do the jobs for you. -Yeah. | 0:53:20 | 0:53:24 | |
Oh. Jane Lloyd, who he married, it says, under her name, "of the Lodge". | 0:53:24 | 0:53:30 | |
So "of the Lodge," meaning... | 0:53:30 | 0:53:32 | |
Well, the Lodge was another property in this area. | 0:53:33 | 0:53:38 | |
It's closer to the town of Denbigh, really, | 0:53:38 | 0:53:41 | |
and within view of the Castle of Denbigh. | 0:53:41 | 0:53:44 | |
In relationship to where we are now, where is that? | 0:53:44 | 0:53:47 | |
-Well... -And is it still there? | 0:53:47 | 0:53:49 | |
Well, it is actually still there. | 0:53:49 | 0:53:52 | |
Is that one house? | 0:54:02 | 0:54:04 | |
It is indeed. That's the home of Jane, Jane Lloyd, | 0:54:04 | 0:54:09 | |
wife of William Hilditch. | 0:54:09 | 0:54:11 | |
They married, of course, | 0:54:11 | 0:54:12 | |
in 1701, and this is where she was brought up. | 0:54:12 | 0:54:15 | |
It's been altered since, but it's a grand house. | 0:54:30 | 0:54:33 | |
-Yes. -It's far larger than the normal farmhouse that you'd expect, | 0:54:33 | 0:54:38 | |
and this reflects really the prosperity of the family. | 0:54:38 | 0:54:42 | |
She was Lloyd, but her mother was this character | 0:54:43 | 0:54:46 | |
called Margaret Vaughan, and it was from her father, Thomas Vaughan, | 0:54:46 | 0:54:54 | |
that the holding came down in the family. | 0:54:54 | 0:54:56 | |
So Thomas Vaughan, gentleman of the Lodge, who died in 1691, | 0:54:56 | 0:55:04 | |
-was my... -He was your nine times great-grandfather. | 0:55:04 | 0:55:08 | |
-Wow. -So you can think of yourself, you know, as being a descendant... | 0:55:10 | 0:55:15 | |
As being a gentry... | 0:55:15 | 0:55:16 | |
-Oh, yes. -..of the country. -Yes, yes. | 0:55:16 | 0:55:19 | |
Of which I'm not used to. | 0:55:19 | 0:55:21 | |
They're huge. | 0:55:26 | 0:55:27 | |
You don't really realise until you're up close, do you? | 0:55:30 | 0:55:32 | |
Wow. I've probably been this close to cows maybe | 0:55:34 | 0:55:39 | |
three times in my life, and I'm knocking on 40. | 0:55:39 | 0:55:44 | |
So... | 0:55:44 | 0:55:45 | |
I appreciate them, but, you know... | 0:55:47 | 0:55:50 | |
This, no matter how random, | 0:56:02 | 0:56:06 | |
has sort of linked me back to the past. | 0:56:06 | 0:56:10 | |
I think it's going to sink in a little bit later, to be honest, | 0:56:12 | 0:56:15 | |
because I'm still in the "Oh, my God, oh, my..." | 0:56:15 | 0:56:18 | |
I want to carry on doing that, almost. | 0:56:19 | 0:56:22 | |
And it's awoken the thing, the instinct, | 0:56:22 | 0:56:25 | |
that made me and my mum start the family tree. | 0:56:25 | 0:56:27 | |
It has awoken that in me again. | 0:56:27 | 0:56:29 | |
I'll accept my rural Welsh roots, but do I like it? | 0:56:31 | 0:56:36 | |
I'm not going to be getting wellies or a rain mac. | 0:56:38 | 0:56:42 | |
I'm playing the city girl gone to the country, | 0:56:44 | 0:56:47 | |
but I do really feel connected with the city. | 0:56:47 | 0:56:50 | |
This is lovely to visit, but it's not my home. | 0:56:50 | 0:56:54 | |
Back to London. | 0:56:56 | 0:56:57 | |
Back to the pollution and the rudeness | 0:56:59 | 0:57:02 | |
and, quite frankly, the anonymity. | 0:57:02 | 0:57:05 | |
Because, if I lived round here, everyone would know my business, | 0:57:05 | 0:57:07 | |
and I would be a village idiot! | 0:57:07 | 0:57:10 |