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I was born in Zwickau, which is in Eastern Germany. | 0:00:25 | 0:00:28 | |
There's quite a big mountain range | 0:00:28 | 0:00:30 | |
which separates Germany from the Czech Republic, | 0:00:30 | 0:00:32 | |
and these are called the Erzgebirge, the Copper Mountains. | 0:00:32 | 0:00:36 | |
My father took us all over the mountains, | 0:00:36 | 0:00:39 | |
leaving everything behind, and went to Prague. | 0:00:39 | 0:00:42 | |
Hitler marched into Prague in March, 1939. | 0:00:42 | 0:00:46 | |
My father realised he's on a wanted list, | 0:00:46 | 0:00:48 | |
so he left my mother and went to Poland. | 0:00:48 | 0:00:51 | |
It was extremely difficult for my mother | 0:00:51 | 0:00:54 | |
to be left alone with two small children. | 0:00:54 | 0:00:57 | |
Street by street, Jews were cleared, | 0:00:57 | 0:01:00 | |
and any moment, it was probably our turn. | 0:01:00 | 0:01:04 | |
My mother, she must have had a will of iron, and great courage. | 0:01:04 | 0:01:08 | |
She went from one embassy to another, queued up all night. | 0:01:08 | 0:01:12 | |
And, if she ever got to the desk, | 0:01:12 | 0:01:14 | |
they said to her, "We will take you, | 0:01:14 | 0:01:17 | |
"but we can't take your two children." | 0:01:17 | 0:01:20 | |
My mother wouldn't separate us, so she hung on to us. | 0:01:20 | 0:01:24 | |
The only thing she could think of | 0:01:24 | 0:01:26 | |
was to hope somebody would take her and the children. | 0:01:26 | 0:01:29 | |
She was rejected by everyone. | 0:01:29 | 0:01:32 | |
But then, the miracle happened. | 0:01:32 | 0:01:36 | |
A knock on the door meant death, | 0:01:36 | 0:01:38 | |
because it meant deportation. | 0:01:38 | 0:01:41 | |
But for us, a knock on the door was the beginning of a new life. | 0:01:41 | 0:01:45 | |
We opened the door to a woman from the British Embassy, | 0:01:45 | 0:01:49 | |
who had braved the curfew. | 0:01:49 | 0:01:52 | |
She brought the entry visa to Britain, | 0:01:52 | 0:01:55 | |
train tickets to get through Germany, through Holland, | 0:01:55 | 0:01:59 | |
and a ferry to Ramsgate, | 0:01:59 | 0:02:02 | |
but she did not have an exit visa. | 0:02:02 | 0:02:05 | |
You were supposed to have an exit visa to cross borders. | 0:02:05 | 0:02:07 | |
And she said, "You'll just have to say you're going to see family | 0:02:07 | 0:02:11 | |
"in Holland, and take nothing with you that could possibly | 0:02:11 | 0:02:14 | |
"show anyone that you're going for more than a day." | 0:02:14 | 0:02:17 | |
We made it through Czechoslovakia without any problem, | 0:02:17 | 0:02:20 | |
and we got on the train in Germany. | 0:02:20 | 0:02:22 | |
Sat down, thinking, "Good, we've got a carriage to ourselves," | 0:02:22 | 0:02:26 | |
when an SS officer came and sat next to her. | 0:02:26 | 0:02:32 | |
He was trying to chat her up. | 0:02:32 | 0:02:34 | |
And he realised what was going on, and he couldn't help us. | 0:02:34 | 0:02:37 | |
But the fact that he sat there, now that might have been her salvation. | 0:02:37 | 0:02:42 | |
Off we went, to the Hook of Holland, and got on a ferry to Ramsgate. | 0:02:42 | 0:02:47 | |
On the ferry, I kept saying, "When are we going to be in England?" | 0:02:47 | 0:02:51 | |
My mother got really fed up of me, | 0:02:51 | 0:02:53 | |
she said, "When it starts raining, you'll know you're in England." | 0:02:53 | 0:02:57 | |
So, as I was on the train, it began raining, | 0:02:57 | 0:03:02 | |
and I must have been the only person there who was just totally thrilled, | 0:03:02 | 0:03:07 | |
because I knew I was in England. | 0:03:07 | 0:03:11 | |
The next morning was Sunday, September 3rd, 1939. | 0:03:11 | 0:03:17 | |
As we arrived into Liverpool Street Station, | 0:03:17 | 0:03:21 | |
I put my foot on the platform, | 0:03:21 | 0:03:23 | |
suddenly, everything went quiet and there was a huge announcement | 0:03:23 | 0:03:28 | |
on the loudspeaker, and everybody stood perfectly still. | 0:03:28 | 0:03:32 | |
The announcement was Chamberlain saying... | 0:03:32 | 0:03:36 | |
"I am speaking to you from the Cabinet Room at 10 Downing Street. | 0:03:36 | 0:03:42 | |
"This morning, the British Ambassador in Berlin | 0:03:42 | 0:03:47 | |
"handed the German Government a final note, | 0:03:47 | 0:03:51 | |
"stating that, unless we heard from them by 11 o'clock, | 0:03:51 | 0:03:57 | |
"that they were prepared at once to withdraw their troops from Poland, | 0:03:57 | 0:04:02 | |
"a state of war would exist between us. | 0:04:02 | 0:04:06 | |
"I have to tell you now that no such undertaking has been received, | 0:04:08 | 0:04:13 | |
"and that consequently, this country is at war with Germany." | 0:04:13 | 0:04:19 | |
That was 11 o'clock, 3rd September, 1939, | 0:04:21 | 0:04:25 | |
as my foot hit the platform. | 0:04:25 | 0:04:28 | |
And that was the beginning of the Second World War. | 0:04:28 | 0:04:31 | |
I was 12 when the war finished. | 0:05:40 | 0:05:42 | |
And, although I was only 12, I was very mature, | 0:05:42 | 0:05:47 | |
very mature as a child. | 0:05:47 | 0:05:49 | |
My parents didn't talk a lot about what was going on during the war, | 0:05:49 | 0:05:53 | |
but I had, I knew... | 0:05:53 | 0:05:55 | |
I'd known sufficiently that things were quite bad. | 0:05:55 | 0:05:58 | |
At the end of the war, of course, they started searching... | 0:05:58 | 0:06:02 | |
The search was out to see if any of our extended, | 0:06:02 | 0:06:05 | |
our family and extended families, were still alive. | 0:06:05 | 0:06:08 | |
My mother's family had been, possibly still were, | 0:06:08 | 0:06:12 | |
as far as they were concerned, | 0:06:12 | 0:06:14 | |
in Romania, the Bukovina, which is Northern Romania. | 0:06:14 | 0:06:18 | |
And my father's family had been deported to Poland. | 0:06:18 | 0:06:23 | |
So they're in different parts of Europe, | 0:06:23 | 0:06:26 | |
and the search was to see if we could find anyone. | 0:06:26 | 0:06:30 | |
The liberation of Belsen had been put on general release | 0:06:30 | 0:06:33 | |
in every cinema and people were asked to go and see that. | 0:06:33 | 0:06:36 | |
Of course, I went - | 0:06:36 | 0:06:38 | |
there was no question of me being too young to see that sort of thing. | 0:06:38 | 0:06:41 | |
I was totally and absolutely horrified, | 0:06:41 | 0:06:45 | |
as everyone was, watching it. | 0:06:45 | 0:06:47 | |
And I just felt terribly emotionally disturbed, | 0:06:47 | 0:06:51 | |
and the feeling was overwhelming. | 0:06:51 | 0:06:54 | |
I just couldn't believe that these sort of things had happened, | 0:06:54 | 0:07:00 | |
and that my family had disappeared in that terrible way. | 0:07:00 | 0:07:03 | |
I have never got over | 0:07:05 | 0:07:08 | |
what I have learned about the Holocaust, | 0:07:08 | 0:07:11 | |
and what I've read. | 0:07:11 | 0:07:13 | |
I mean, if you look around this house, | 0:07:13 | 0:07:15 | |
you'll see I've got a huge section in the next room | 0:07:15 | 0:07:17 | |
of Holocaust literature, people who have written about the Holocaust. | 0:07:17 | 0:07:20 | |
Every thing that I do, I believe has an element that relates to it. | 0:07:20 | 0:07:27 | |
Not voluntarily, it's something I can't help myself. | 0:07:27 | 0:07:32 | |
For example, if I'm peeling potatoes, | 0:07:32 | 0:07:35 | |
as I throw the potato peel away, | 0:07:35 | 0:07:37 | |
I think about the girls in Auschwitz who looked for a bit of potato peel | 0:07:37 | 0:07:42 | |
because they were starving. | 0:07:42 | 0:07:44 | |
Another thing that's been left with me, | 0:07:44 | 0:07:47 | |
and my children and grandchildren always laugh about it, | 0:07:47 | 0:07:50 | |
I'm terrified of being without food. | 0:07:50 | 0:07:53 | |
In my car, I always have something to eat. | 0:07:53 | 0:07:56 | |
Now, I don't eat a great deal myself, | 0:07:56 | 0:07:59 | |
but feel I always have water and I always have something to eat. | 0:07:59 | 0:08:03 | |
That is definitely a throwback to the fear of hunger. | 0:08:03 | 0:08:08 | |
I think it's important to tell the story, | 0:08:08 | 0:08:11 | |
but I think it's how you tell it that's very important. | 0:08:11 | 0:08:14 | |
It's not a matter of giving kids a horror story, | 0:08:14 | 0:08:17 | |
because they see enough horror - | 0:08:17 | 0:08:18 | |
just switch the television on, or internet, or plays, I don't know - | 0:08:18 | 0:08:22 | |
you go and see films that are really horrible. | 0:08:22 | 0:08:24 | |
I don't think it's the horror, | 0:08:24 | 0:08:26 | |
I think it's the fact that, to make them understand, | 0:08:26 | 0:08:30 | |
that it wasn't someone from out of space that did this, | 0:08:30 | 0:08:34 | |
that doesn't happen, actually the horror is that someone so normal | 0:08:34 | 0:08:40 | |
and so ordinary can do it to someone who looks exactly like they do. | 0:08:40 | 0:08:44 | |
I think that isn't emphasised enough | 0:08:44 | 0:08:47 | |
when people tell the story of the Holocaust. | 0:08:47 | 0:08:50 | |
That people... Their next-door neighbours did this, | 0:08:50 | 0:08:55 | |
or encouraged it, | 0:08:55 | 0:08:57 | |
or stood silently by whilst all this happened. | 0:08:57 | 0:09:01 | |
It wasn't necessarily strangers, | 0:09:01 | 0:09:04 | |
and people with big boots on that did it. | 0:09:04 | 0:09:08 | |
It's the fact that ordinary people stood by and allowed it to happen. | 0:09:08 | 0:09:12 | |
In 1938 when I was eight years old, | 0:09:24 | 0:09:28 | |
there occurred what has become known as the Polenaktion. | 0:09:28 | 0:09:33 | |
Early in the morning, we were all sleeping in our beds. | 0:09:33 | 0:09:36 | |
The Nazis entered our flat. | 0:09:36 | 0:09:39 | |
We were going to be taken away. | 0:09:39 | 0:09:42 | |
We were put on board a train. | 0:09:42 | 0:09:44 | |
We came to realise that we were all Polish Jews. | 0:09:46 | 0:09:50 | |
We were luckier than some. | 0:09:51 | 0:09:52 | |
We had been taken as an entire family. | 0:09:52 | 0:09:55 | |
Some of the people had been separated, they didn't know | 0:09:55 | 0:09:59 | |
whether they would ever see one another again. | 0:09:59 | 0:10:03 | |
To make matters worse, there were people of all ages. | 0:10:03 | 0:10:07 | |
Babies, there were very old people, people who were ill, | 0:10:07 | 0:10:12 | |
some had been taken out of hospital beds. | 0:10:12 | 0:10:15 | |
Travelled for the rest of the day and, after it got dark, | 0:10:17 | 0:10:21 | |
the train stopped and we were told to get off. | 0:10:21 | 0:10:25 | |
Outside the station, there were two rows of SS men. | 0:10:26 | 0:10:30 | |
We were marched off. | 0:10:30 | 0:10:31 | |
And the rumour went round that we were being taken to some | 0:10:31 | 0:10:35 | |
remote place where we would all be shot. | 0:10:35 | 0:10:39 | |
I did see people collapse through exhaustion, | 0:10:39 | 0:10:43 | |
and I was left in no doubt about the brutality of these SS men. | 0:10:43 | 0:10:48 | |
We marched for some hours. | 0:10:49 | 0:10:51 | |
And then we were stopped at a railway line, | 0:10:51 | 0:10:54 | |
and we were told that the SS men were not coming any further. | 0:10:54 | 0:10:59 | |
It seems likely that this was, in fact, the Polish frontier. | 0:11:00 | 0:11:05 | |
The SS men wouldn't want to cross that at this particular stage - | 0:11:05 | 0:11:09 | |
that could provoke an international incident. | 0:11:09 | 0:11:12 | |
We were told that we would have to go on marching between the rails, | 0:11:13 | 0:11:18 | |
because on either side there were ditches, and anybody who fell | 0:11:18 | 0:11:22 | |
risked injury not only from the fall, but also being trampled. | 0:11:22 | 0:11:27 | |
Eventually, soldiers and police came and took us prisoner. | 0:11:28 | 0:11:32 | |
What the Poles were trying to do was to force us back into Germany. | 0:11:34 | 0:11:38 | |
The German authorities were ready for that | 0:11:38 | 0:11:40 | |
and attempts to send us back failed. | 0:11:40 | 0:11:42 | |
We managed to get to Krakow, where we had some relations, | 0:11:44 | 0:11:48 | |
and we arrived on their doorstep. | 0:11:48 | 0:11:51 | |
Round about the time that we went to Poland, Britain allowed children | 0:11:52 | 0:11:57 | |
to be brought over, in what came to be known as the Kindertransport. | 0:11:57 | 0:12:02 | |
I was very lucky to be one of the few to be rescued from Poland. | 0:12:02 | 0:12:07 | |
I would have died with all the rest of my family if I hadn't been. | 0:12:07 | 0:12:12 | |
I went to foster parents in Coventry. | 0:12:12 | 0:12:16 | |
In the autumn of 1940, the so-called Blitz began. | 0:12:17 | 0:12:22 | |
Coventry was one of the most severely bombed cities. | 0:12:22 | 0:12:27 | |
We had 17 raids when a few bombs were dropped on the city. | 0:12:27 | 0:12:31 | |
And then, one night, we had a very big raid. | 0:12:31 | 0:12:35 | |
Now, Home Office advice was that if you hadn't got an air-raid shelter, | 0:12:35 | 0:12:40 | |
the safest part of the house was under the stairs. | 0:12:40 | 0:12:44 | |
Under our stairs, we had a small pantry. | 0:12:44 | 0:12:48 | |
So we all crowded into that - foster parents, | 0:12:48 | 0:12:51 | |
my sister and I, and the dog. | 0:12:51 | 0:12:54 | |
He was very vicious, he bit quite a few people. | 0:12:54 | 0:12:57 | |
We tried to keep our distance, but whenever a bomb came very near, | 0:12:57 | 0:13:01 | |
the dog growled and we were really afraid, all of us. | 0:13:01 | 0:13:08 | |
We heard a very loud hissing sound | 0:13:08 | 0:13:11 | |
and it was obvious the bomb was coming near. | 0:13:11 | 0:13:13 | |
It landed just a few doors down. | 0:13:13 | 0:13:15 | |
The next morning, when we emerged, the house had lost its doors, | 0:13:17 | 0:13:22 | |
and its windows, and part of the roof. | 0:13:22 | 0:13:26 | |
It's amazing that there were many small air-raids, | 0:13:26 | 0:13:30 | |
and, generally speaking, people took them in their stride. | 0:13:30 | 0:13:33 | |
But during these big air-raids, | 0:13:33 | 0:13:35 | |
I certainly felt very much afraid, and I don't think very many people | 0:13:35 | 0:13:41 | |
if they are truthful could say otherwise. | 0:13:41 | 0:13:44 | |
Germany was a very, very advanced country. | 0:14:36 | 0:14:42 | |
It's produced some of the world's finest musicians, | 0:14:42 | 0:14:45 | |
some of the world's finest writers. | 0:14:45 | 0:14:48 | |
It had made advances in human civilisation in all its spheres | 0:14:48 | 0:14:56 | |
and so it is utterly amazing that a country which was | 0:14:56 | 0:15:01 | |
so advanced should suddenly descend to barbarities, which really... | 0:15:01 | 0:15:08 | |
..bear comparison with what was happening in the Middle Ages. | 0:15:09 | 0:15:14 | |
Though the barbarities of the Middle Ages were terrible, | 0:15:14 | 0:15:19 | |
they weren't done on an industrial scale | 0:15:19 | 0:15:23 | |
in the way in which the Nazis did them. | 0:15:23 | 0:15:25 | |
Now, if you ask me why, the answer is, I think, that nobody knows. | 0:15:25 | 0:15:31 | |
This is something that one would have thought was impossible. | 0:15:31 | 0:15:36 | |
And, of course, it serves as a warning to us, | 0:15:36 | 0:15:40 | |
that even a country that can achieve so much in the advancement | 0:15:40 | 0:15:47 | |
of human civilisation can suddenly revert to barbarities that | 0:15:47 | 0:15:53 | |
we shouldn't have thought possible. | 0:15:53 | 0:15:56 | |
My feelings towards the Germans then | 0:15:57 | 0:16:01 | |
were very different from my feelings towards the Germans now. | 0:16:01 | 0:16:05 | |
People sometimes ask me, "Do you resent the Germans?" | 0:16:05 | 0:16:09 | |
I say to them, if you go to Germany today, | 0:16:09 | 0:16:13 | |
the vast majority of Germans whom you meet had not been born then. | 0:16:13 | 0:16:17 | |
A few very old people had been born, but were children, | 0:16:17 | 0:16:23 | |
and, as children, many of them | 0:16:23 | 0:16:26 | |
will not have understood what was happening, and even those who did | 0:16:26 | 0:16:30 | |
understand it wouldn't have been in a position to do anything about it. | 0:16:30 | 0:16:34 | |
So I would consider it very wrong to be resentful to people like that. | 0:16:34 | 0:16:41 | |
But that, of course, was not the case then. In those days, | 0:16:41 | 0:16:47 | |
the majority of Germans had lived through those periods. | 0:16:47 | 0:16:53 | |
There were some, of course, who were simply caught up in events, | 0:16:53 | 0:16:57 | |
but I knew from my own experiences in Germany, that there were | 0:16:57 | 0:17:02 | |
many who had enthusiastically followed the Nazi cause. | 0:17:02 | 0:17:07 | |
And I must say that I was resentful to them, | 0:17:07 | 0:17:13 | |
whilst realising that there were a small number | 0:17:13 | 0:17:19 | |
who had at least mentally opposed, | 0:17:19 | 0:17:24 | |
even if they couldn't do anything about it. | 0:17:24 | 0:17:27 | |
There are some people who think, quite wrongly, that the study | 0:17:29 | 0:17:34 | |
of history is a waste of time, | 0:17:34 | 0:17:36 | |
that one should study things more to do with the present age | 0:17:36 | 0:17:39 | |
rather than study a bygone age. | 0:17:39 | 0:17:42 | |
I don't agree with that at all, because, first of all, | 0:17:42 | 0:17:48 | |
the only way we can understand the present is by finding out | 0:17:48 | 0:17:53 | |
how it came into being, as a result of the past. | 0:17:53 | 0:17:57 | |
But at least as importantly, and perhaps even more so, | 0:17:57 | 0:18:02 | |
is those who don't study history are destined to repeat it. | 0:18:02 | 0:18:06 | |
And things which can happen once can happen a second time. | 0:18:06 | 0:18:12 | |
One must study the conditions which led up to them, | 0:18:12 | 0:18:18 | |
and try to avoid the... | 0:18:18 | 0:18:21 | |
..the repetition of these dreadful things. | 0:18:22 | 0:18:26 | |
Back in my school days, around 1938, | 0:18:40 | 0:18:45 | |
I have a wonderful photograph, a class photograph, of all of us here. | 0:18:45 | 0:18:50 | |
It's something which is a great pleasure to look at, | 0:18:50 | 0:18:53 | |
but also extremely sad | 0:18:53 | 0:18:55 | |
because, unfortunately, the Germans killed many, many children. | 0:18:55 | 0:19:00 | |
One and a half million innocent children were killed | 0:19:00 | 0:19:03 | |
during the Holocaust. | 0:19:03 | 0:19:04 | |
Why should innocent people, just because they were Jewish, | 0:19:04 | 0:19:08 | |
be killed for no reason at all? | 0:19:08 | 0:19:11 | |
And I look at these faces, I don't know who survived and who didn't. | 0:19:11 | 0:19:15 | |
I only know that I survived. | 0:19:15 | 0:19:18 | |
We had this radio in our dining room, | 0:19:19 | 0:19:21 | |
and Father was often listening, | 0:19:21 | 0:19:24 | |
but when he had the news on, you could hear this shouting... | 0:19:24 | 0:19:27 | |
HITLER MAKING SPEECH | 0:19:27 | 0:19:28 | |
..and that, of course, was the typical Hitler speech-making. | 0:19:28 | 0:19:32 | |
Everybody was aware of this knock at the door | 0:19:32 | 0:19:35 | |
and it always came during the night, when they came to take | 0:19:35 | 0:19:38 | |
away people, either to take them to prison or to beat them up, | 0:19:38 | 0:19:41 | |
or whatever, and that fear was there all the time I was at home. | 0:19:41 | 0:19:45 | |
You feel insecure, you don't feel at ease. | 0:19:46 | 0:19:49 | |
You can't relax and you know that something is wrong. | 0:19:49 | 0:19:53 | |
Germans didn't come into Czechoslovakia | 0:19:54 | 0:19:57 | |
until 15th March, 1939. | 0:19:57 | 0:20:00 | |
And I realised that my parents were wanting | 0:20:00 | 0:20:04 | |
to get the children away to safety. | 0:20:04 | 0:20:07 | |
And my turn came, I left home on 28th March, 1939. | 0:20:07 | 0:20:13 | |
The only thing I really remember is getting into a taxi. | 0:20:13 | 0:20:16 | |
I remember my mother and father and my brother standing near me. | 0:20:18 | 0:20:22 | |
But I cannot remember saying goodbye to them, | 0:20:22 | 0:20:25 | |
I can't remember whether I hugged them, kissed them, whether I cried. | 0:20:25 | 0:20:28 | |
I have absolutely no recollection whatsoever. | 0:20:28 | 0:20:31 | |
We were travelling by train, through to London. | 0:20:32 | 0:20:35 | |
But I end up in Wallsend on Tyne, | 0:20:35 | 0:20:38 | |
where a very kind family had offered to give me a home. | 0:20:38 | 0:20:42 | |
I start getting homesick and I start feeling very, very poorly. | 0:20:44 | 0:20:48 | |
Because, A, I was missing my parents, | 0:20:48 | 0:20:51 | |
B, I didn't speak one word of English. | 0:20:51 | 0:20:54 | |
The food was totally different. | 0:20:55 | 0:20:57 | |
I'd never eaten toast, porridge, kippers, marmalade, | 0:20:57 | 0:21:01 | |
all these normal English things. | 0:21:01 | 0:21:03 | |
And I just basically cried for as long as I stayed with them. | 0:21:03 | 0:21:07 | |
From the age of nine, in those four years, in those war years, | 0:21:08 | 0:21:12 | |
I lived with so many different people. | 0:21:12 | 0:21:15 | |
I mean, I would think I must have been at least | 0:21:15 | 0:21:17 | |
through 15 to 20 different places. | 0:21:17 | 0:21:19 | |
I never saw my parents after 28th March, 1939. | 0:21:22 | 0:21:29 | |
Father, he was transported on 19th of April, 1942, | 0:21:30 | 0:21:37 | |
and he was already dead by 8th May. | 0:21:37 | 0:21:41 | |
My mother is a different story altogether. | 0:21:42 | 0:21:45 | |
The last proper evidence I have that she was alive | 0:21:45 | 0:21:50 | |
was when she was transported to a small concentration, | 0:21:50 | 0:21:54 | |
transportation camp, near Bratislava, called Sered. | 0:21:54 | 0:21:57 | |
And I've been working for years and years to try and trace her. | 0:21:57 | 0:22:01 | |
And I am almost at the end of the trail. | 0:22:01 | 0:22:06 | |
I received some evidence from a testimony | 0:22:06 | 0:22:09 | |
given by somebody in 1962, | 0:22:09 | 0:22:11 | |
who could have been on the same transport | 0:22:11 | 0:22:14 | |
that my mother was taken on, | 0:22:14 | 0:22:17 | |
and on a death march on which she would have been shot and killed. | 0:22:17 | 0:22:22 | |
The impact on me is something which has never left me. | 0:22:24 | 0:22:27 | |
Every single day, I rue the destruction of my family. | 0:22:27 | 0:22:33 | |
To me, family is the most important building brick for human beings | 0:22:33 | 0:22:37 | |
and that's why I find it so hard today. | 0:22:37 | 0:22:40 | |
Well, after liberation, I still had two years of school | 0:23:32 | 0:23:36 | |
and I was in Surrey, | 0:23:36 | 0:23:37 | |
but, of course, at that stage I was trying to see | 0:23:37 | 0:23:40 | |
if my parents were still alive. | 0:23:40 | 0:23:42 | |
And at one part, very early on, we had a letter from a variety | 0:23:42 | 0:23:48 | |
of friends who'd been in Czechoslovakia during the war, | 0:23:48 | 0:23:52 | |
and they thought my father was still alive. | 0:23:52 | 0:23:55 | |
Unfortunately, that turned out to be a false hope. | 0:23:55 | 0:23:58 | |
Mother, we had no...anything on. | 0:23:58 | 0:24:01 | |
Anyway, like with everything else, you get on with life, | 0:24:01 | 0:24:05 | |
you keep on looking, but you get on with things. | 0:24:05 | 0:24:07 | |
So, the first two years after the end of the war | 0:24:07 | 0:24:11 | |
I was still at school and then by 1947 | 0:24:11 | 0:24:15 | |
I'd got a county major scholarship from Surrey and I came up | 0:24:15 | 0:24:20 | |
to university here in Leeds and have been in Yorkshire ever since. | 0:24:20 | 0:24:24 | |
I think the biggest impact on me is the fact that I've learned to | 0:24:26 | 0:24:31 | |
stand on my own two feet and fight my own battles. | 0:24:31 | 0:24:34 | |
I was brought up, | 0:24:36 | 0:24:37 | |
even as a young child, in a household | 0:24:37 | 0:24:40 | |
where education was prized, and... | 0:24:40 | 0:24:43 | |
..all of us, I think, wanted to aspire to | 0:24:45 | 0:24:48 | |
a good education and do things. | 0:24:48 | 0:24:51 | |
I am actually the least qualified member of my siblings. | 0:24:51 | 0:24:54 | |
Obviously, my first nine years at home must have had | 0:24:54 | 0:24:58 | |
some effect on me, but the only ones that I can clearly remember | 0:24:58 | 0:25:01 | |
are my four years with Kingsley School during the war, | 0:25:01 | 0:25:05 | |
run by these four fantastic women. | 0:25:05 | 0:25:08 | |
High morals, high standing, | 0:25:08 | 0:25:10 | |
doing good for the sake of helping other people. | 0:25:10 | 0:25:13 | |
This was ingrained into us | 0:25:13 | 0:25:15 | |
and I think this has been my driving situation and, in fact, | 0:25:15 | 0:25:19 | |
my kids always describe me as, "Mother, she has a mind | 0:25:19 | 0:25:22 | |
"like a drawing pin, she's always upright," and this and the other. | 0:25:22 | 0:25:26 | |
They always tease me. | 0:25:26 | 0:25:28 | |
I have not reached what I had set out to do, | 0:25:29 | 0:25:33 | |
but looking backwards now, it doesn't really make any odds. | 0:25:33 | 0:25:37 | |
I've been basically lucky. | 0:25:37 | 0:25:39 | |
I had a decent husband, I've got a family. | 0:25:39 | 0:25:42 | |
Although, there's nobody here. | 0:25:42 | 0:25:44 | |
And what can you expect? | 0:25:44 | 0:25:47 | |
I consider, although many human beings like to think | 0:25:47 | 0:25:50 | |
they're superior to animals, we are only an animal. | 0:25:50 | 0:25:53 | |
We are basically robots. We can't control anything. | 0:25:53 | 0:25:57 | |
We've just got to cope with what we've got. | 0:25:57 | 0:25:59 | |
Initially, if you'd asked me when I was starting out to study | 0:26:01 | 0:26:06 | |
I would have loved to have been in a sort of white ivory tower in | 0:26:06 | 0:26:09 | |
some fantastic research laboratory, I could see myself as that. | 0:26:09 | 0:26:13 | |
But that wasn't to be, | 0:26:13 | 0:26:15 | |
and now for the last 20 years since I've retired | 0:26:15 | 0:26:18 | |
and I've forgotten all my science and background, | 0:26:18 | 0:26:22 | |
I feel striving possibly | 0:26:22 | 0:26:24 | |
for the human condition is something which I have a large feeling for. | 0:26:24 | 0:26:29 | |
I'm sure it has quite a lot to do with my history | 0:26:30 | 0:26:33 | |
because I've no graves to go to, where are my parents, | 0:26:33 | 0:26:36 | |
one God knows where, one in the ashes up in Auschwitz. | 0:26:36 | 0:26:40 | |
Therefore I also don't have a religious belief. | 0:26:40 | 0:26:43 | |
I mean, one of the things which often comes into my mind, | 0:26:43 | 0:26:46 | |
you know, if we have a terrible accident, | 0:26:46 | 0:26:48 | |
everybody prays for these people. | 0:26:48 | 0:26:50 | |
How many millions and millions and millions of prayers have been | 0:26:50 | 0:26:53 | |
said since religion and superstition came in? | 0:26:53 | 0:26:57 | |
And we're no better. | 0:26:57 | 0:26:59 | |
I do remember the day the Nazis came to power. | 0:27:11 | 0:27:14 | |
I was almost 13, and I remember looking down from our window. | 0:27:14 | 0:27:18 | |
And Nazis always celebrated their successes by torchlight processions. | 0:27:18 | 0:27:23 | |
And the Nazis marched past and sang songs, bloodthirsty songs. | 0:27:23 | 0:27:28 | |
The Nuremberg Laws which came in, in the autumn of '35, | 0:27:29 | 0:27:33 | |
legalised anti-Jewish measures. | 0:27:33 | 0:27:36 | |
We were no longer allowed to go to cinemas and theatres | 0:27:36 | 0:27:40 | |
and be members of clubs. | 0:27:40 | 0:27:42 | |
As a child, of any age, | 0:27:43 | 0:27:44 | |
to be excluded from your peers is a blow. You feel inferior. | 0:27:44 | 0:27:49 | |
And you question your existence. | 0:27:49 | 0:27:51 | |
There were three Jewish boys, including me, left in the class. | 0:27:53 | 0:27:57 | |
The main Hitler Youth leader came and said, | 0:27:57 | 0:28:00 | |
"It's time you left the school, we don't want you here." | 0:28:00 | 0:28:03 | |
I left school at 16. | 0:28:03 | 0:28:05 | |
If it hadn't been for the Nazis, I probably would have gone | 0:28:05 | 0:28:08 | |
to university, but we could no longer do that, | 0:28:08 | 0:28:10 | |
because universities were no longer accepting Jews. | 0:28:10 | 0:28:13 | |
At the age of 18, I went to Hamburg, to college, to learn English. | 0:28:13 | 0:28:19 | |
In the evenings, we got together, and we heard the news, | 0:28:19 | 0:28:23 | |
and we knew something was going to happen. | 0:28:23 | 0:28:25 | |
In Nuremberg, my parents were arrested, | 0:28:25 | 0:28:29 | |
kept standing in the square in the centre of the town | 0:28:29 | 0:28:32 | |
for about two hours. | 0:28:32 | 0:28:33 | |
Were abused, spat upon. The synagogue was set on fire. | 0:28:33 | 0:28:37 | |
The women, the older people and the children were sent home. | 0:28:37 | 0:28:41 | |
When my mother got home, about four o'clock in the morning, | 0:28:41 | 0:28:44 | |
she rang where I was staying. | 0:28:44 | 0:28:46 | |
She said, "Father's gone away," | 0:28:46 | 0:28:49 | |
which was code for, "He's been arrested. | 0:28:49 | 0:28:52 | |
"Get dressed. Go for a walk." | 0:28:52 | 0:28:54 | |
So that's what I did. I sat on park benches. | 0:28:56 | 0:28:59 | |
Then I went round the department stores. | 0:28:59 | 0:29:02 | |
I tried to make myself small, not to stand out. | 0:29:02 | 0:29:06 | |
I could see the smoke from the burning synagogues everywhere. | 0:29:07 | 0:29:11 | |
I could also see groups of Jewish people, | 0:29:11 | 0:29:14 | |
being frogmarched through the streets. | 0:29:14 | 0:29:16 | |
Windows were smashed. | 0:29:18 | 0:29:19 | |
The Germans invented the term Kristallnacht, | 0:29:21 | 0:29:24 | |
because of all the broken glass. | 0:29:24 | 0:29:26 | |
Eventually, I went home. | 0:29:28 | 0:29:29 | |
The landlady said, "The Gestapo's been for you." | 0:29:29 | 0:29:33 | |
There's a good job that I did leave the digs, | 0:29:33 | 0:29:36 | |
otherwise I would have been sent to a concentration camp. | 0:29:36 | 0:29:38 | |
Father was arrested and then sent | 0:29:40 | 0:29:42 | |
to Dachau concentration camp near Munich. | 0:29:42 | 0:29:45 | |
He was there for five or six weeks. | 0:29:45 | 0:29:47 | |
Most of the people were released just before Christmas '38. | 0:29:47 | 0:29:51 | |
And he came home and he was a completely changed man. | 0:29:52 | 0:29:55 | |
It was then quite obvious that there was no future for us in Germany. | 0:29:57 | 0:30:02 | |
There was nowhere to go. | 0:30:03 | 0:30:05 | |
No country wanted us. | 0:30:05 | 0:30:06 | |
Frank, my brother, was in Leeds. He tried very hard | 0:30:06 | 0:30:10 | |
to get me a trainee post and finally succeeded. | 0:30:10 | 0:30:13 | |
And I came to Leeds. | 0:30:13 | 0:30:15 | |
We managed to get visas for our parents and they came. | 0:30:15 | 0:30:19 | |
Thank God, because, four days later, war broke out. | 0:30:19 | 0:30:22 | |
Well, the day war broke out, | 0:30:23 | 0:30:25 | |
a policeman came asking us to come down | 0:30:25 | 0:30:28 | |
and report to police headquarters. | 0:30:28 | 0:30:31 | |
We were registered as enemy aliens. | 0:30:31 | 0:30:33 | |
Cameras and binoculars were impounded, | 0:30:33 | 0:30:35 | |
which were considered spying equipment. | 0:30:35 | 0:30:38 | |
Churchill was by then just become Prime Minister. | 0:30:39 | 0:30:42 | |
And his civil servants famously asked him, | 0:30:42 | 0:30:45 | |
"What shall we do with these enemy aliens?" | 0:30:45 | 0:30:48 | |
and Churchill's words were, "Collar the lot." | 0:30:48 | 0:30:51 | |
So we were interned, Father, brother and me. | 0:30:51 | 0:30:54 | |
Well, all of us felt a bit sore, | 0:30:54 | 0:30:56 | |
because we were more opposed to the Nazis than the British natives were. | 0:30:56 | 0:31:01 | |
We were kicked out there because we were Jewish. | 0:31:01 | 0:31:04 | |
And we were interned here because we were German. | 0:31:04 | 0:31:06 | |
We wanted to fight the Nazis | 0:31:06 | 0:31:08 | |
and, instead, we were kept behind barbed wire. | 0:31:08 | 0:31:11 | |
Survival is instinct, it's natural. | 0:32:10 | 0:32:13 | |
Everybody has that. | 0:32:13 | 0:32:15 | |
You try desperately to get out of Germany, | 0:32:16 | 0:32:19 | |
which we eventually succeeded in. | 0:32:19 | 0:32:22 | |
And, well, you know, you... | 0:32:23 | 0:32:27 | |
..you are a survivor because you're there. | 0:32:28 | 0:32:31 | |
Obviously, my contemporaries who committed these atrocities | 0:32:32 | 0:32:38 | |
are dreadful. | 0:32:38 | 0:32:40 | |
But I'm concerned that I sometimes think what I would have been | 0:32:40 | 0:32:47 | |
if I hadn't have been Jewish. | 0:32:47 | 0:32:49 | |
Would I have been a Nazi? And I probably would. | 0:32:49 | 0:32:53 | |
You know, it's very difficult for a 12, 13, 14-year-old to resist | 0:32:54 | 0:32:59 | |
the temptations the Nazis offered for kids of that age. | 0:32:59 | 0:33:03 | |
Uniforms, campfires, learning to shoot rifles, | 0:33:03 | 0:33:07 | |
things like that, as they did in the Hitler Youth. | 0:33:07 | 0:33:11 | |
And it's very, very difficult for a kid of that age to resist | 0:33:11 | 0:33:16 | |
that temptation, and not be part of the crowd. | 0:33:16 | 0:33:19 | |
Well, I felt gratitude obviously to this country for allowing us in | 0:33:20 | 0:33:26 | |
at a time when this country had economic problems before the war. | 0:33:26 | 0:33:31 | |
And relief of being saved the fate that fell upon all those people | 0:33:33 | 0:33:40 | |
who were left behind. | 0:33:40 | 0:33:41 | |
So that was really the overwhelming feeling. | 0:33:41 | 0:33:45 | |
We felt grateful, we applied for naturalisation, | 0:33:45 | 0:33:50 | |
British citizenship, | 0:33:50 | 0:33:53 | |
which had been suspended during the war, there were no naturalisations. | 0:33:53 | 0:33:58 | |
And, in 1947, we were actually granted British citizenship | 0:33:59 | 0:34:05 | |
and a passport. | 0:34:05 | 0:34:07 | |
I found what I was aiming for in my wife, | 0:34:08 | 0:34:15 | |
who also came from Germany - she was younger, | 0:34:15 | 0:34:19 | |
she came on the Kindertransport... | 0:34:19 | 0:34:21 | |
..she was a trainee nurse at the time and we fell in love, | 0:34:22 | 0:34:27 | |
and we eventually got married immediately after VE Day, | 0:34:27 | 0:34:33 | |
although it wasn't planned that way... | 0:34:33 | 0:34:35 | |
..and... | 0:34:37 | 0:34:39 | |
Well, that's how we started life together. | 0:34:41 | 0:34:45 | |
We had two sons who were both successful in their own ambitions. | 0:34:45 | 0:34:50 | |
And, career-wise, I managed to get a job eventually | 0:34:50 | 0:34:57 | |
which was very fulfilling. | 0:34:57 | 0:35:00 | |
And that was as Chief Executive of the Jewish Welfare Board | 0:35:00 | 0:35:04 | |
and the Jewish Housing Association, | 0:35:04 | 0:35:07 | |
the formation of which I was instrumental with... | 0:35:07 | 0:35:10 | |
..which is now very flourishing. I mean, they've 400 properties. | 0:35:12 | 0:35:17 | |
I think, on the whole, with a lot of effort, | 0:35:18 | 0:35:22 | |
we managed to make a success of things, I think. | 0:35:22 | 0:35:27 | |
I had a fairly good career and a good family life, | 0:35:27 | 0:35:31 | |
and that's satisfying. | 0:35:31 | 0:35:33 | |
I was 14. In the wagon was only a very small window. | 0:35:47 | 0:35:51 | |
It was hot. | 0:35:51 | 0:35:53 | |
We were so cramped, we couldn't even sit down. | 0:35:53 | 0:35:56 | |
Some people had some water and some people didn't. | 0:35:56 | 0:35:59 | |
After two days and one night, | 0:36:00 | 0:36:02 | |
through the wagon I could see SS men with dogs, barbed wire, | 0:36:02 | 0:36:07 | |
electric fences. | 0:36:07 | 0:36:09 | |
We'd arrived in Birkenau, Auschwitz. | 0:36:09 | 0:36:13 | |
And they said, "Men on one side. | 0:36:15 | 0:36:17 | |
"Women and children on the other side." | 0:36:17 | 0:36:19 | |
And we made two long queues. | 0:36:19 | 0:36:22 | |
Mengele happened to be on the selection platform. | 0:36:23 | 0:36:27 | |
He pointed the finger to the left or to the right. | 0:36:27 | 0:36:30 | |
I noticed a lot of people | 0:36:30 | 0:36:32 | |
who were chosen to go to the right were fitter men. | 0:36:32 | 0:36:36 | |
To the left, children went, mothers with children, elderly men. | 0:36:36 | 0:36:41 | |
And I knew that's not a good point. | 0:36:41 | 0:36:45 | |
You know, if they don't need you, they kill you and that's it. | 0:36:45 | 0:36:48 | |
Then, suddenly, they tried to take a child away from her mother, | 0:36:48 | 0:36:53 | |
and she started screaming, and the SS men run towards her. | 0:36:53 | 0:36:57 | |
As they run there, I decided to go over to the right. | 0:36:57 | 0:37:01 | |
I was very lucky. | 0:37:01 | 0:37:03 | |
All the people which went to the left-hand side | 0:37:03 | 0:37:07 | |
went to the gas chambers. | 0:37:07 | 0:37:09 | |
And they gassed them and then burned their bodies. | 0:37:09 | 0:37:12 | |
We walked into a place called the sauna, a brick-built building | 0:37:13 | 0:37:17 | |
in Birkenau, | 0:37:17 | 0:37:19 | |
and we were told to leave all our clothing on the floor. | 0:37:19 | 0:37:24 | |
I had six photographs of my family. | 0:37:26 | 0:37:29 | |
And that's the last time I had a photograph of my family. | 0:37:29 | 0:37:32 | |
I had my hair shaved off. | 0:37:34 | 0:37:36 | |
And from there, we went into the next room and we had our uniforms. | 0:37:36 | 0:37:40 | |
Striped suits. | 0:37:40 | 0:37:42 | |
It was big on me, so I put it up. | 0:37:42 | 0:37:46 | |
They didn't give us any bath or shower. | 0:37:46 | 0:37:48 | |
They soon started getting problems with lice. | 0:37:49 | 0:37:53 | |
Lice walked round all over us. Itchy, it was very itchy. | 0:37:53 | 0:37:57 | |
They live on your skin. | 0:37:57 | 0:38:00 | |
We were 1,000 men in a barrack. | 0:38:00 | 0:38:02 | |
Three bunks high, ten people on a bunk. | 0:38:02 | 0:38:06 | |
We slept on the boards. | 0:38:06 | 0:38:09 | |
There was no straw, there was no covers. | 0:38:09 | 0:38:12 | |
People snored, people moaned, people died next to you. | 0:38:12 | 0:38:16 | |
5:30 in the morning, they woke us up. | 0:38:16 | 0:38:19 | |
And they allowed us to go to the washroom. | 0:38:19 | 0:38:22 | |
In the washroom, there was about five buckets of water. | 0:38:22 | 0:38:25 | |
And you just dipped your hands, washed your eyes and that was it. | 0:38:25 | 0:38:30 | |
I was just skin and bones because they didn't feed us. | 0:38:32 | 0:38:36 | |
They gave us a small piece of bread in the morning, | 0:38:36 | 0:38:39 | |
with some black coffee made of burnt wheat. | 0:38:39 | 0:38:42 | |
And lunchtime we got some watery soup | 0:38:42 | 0:38:45 | |
with a few leaves swimming round, and that's it. | 0:38:45 | 0:38:48 | |
Live on that for months and years, | 0:38:48 | 0:38:51 | |
going on, you're just like a skeleton. | 0:38:51 | 0:38:54 | |
Your mind can't think properly, your body is weak, | 0:38:54 | 0:38:59 | |
and you're starving all the time. | 0:38:59 | 0:39:01 | |
You think about food all the time. | 0:39:02 | 0:39:05 | |
You can't help but think about it. | 0:39:05 | 0:39:07 | |
In Auschwitz, I've been tattooed. I've got a number B7608, | 0:39:08 | 0:39:14 | |
on my left hand. | 0:39:14 | 0:39:17 | |
It's still there now. And I just can't take it off. | 0:39:17 | 0:39:19 | |
I've lost 81 from my family. | 0:39:21 | 0:39:24 | |
I've only found my sister, two years after the war. | 0:39:24 | 0:39:27 | |
How could I say how it changed me? | 0:39:28 | 0:39:30 | |
I'll never forget what I went through. | 0:39:30 | 0:39:35 | |
I suffered so much. | 0:39:36 | 0:39:38 | |
It was the most horrific thing any human being should ever see. | 0:39:38 | 0:39:44 | |
The world should never see that again. | 0:39:44 | 0:39:46 | |
I've lost 81 from my family. | 0:40:36 | 0:40:39 | |
Everybody I had, I've lost. | 0:40:39 | 0:40:42 | |
Brothers, sisters, my parents, | 0:40:42 | 0:40:45 | |
and my cousins, my uncles, I've lost everybody. | 0:40:45 | 0:40:49 | |
I've just found my sister - she escaped across into Russia. | 0:40:51 | 0:40:56 | |
I found her two years after the war, through the Red Cross, | 0:40:56 | 0:40:59 | |
my elder sister. | 0:40:59 | 0:41:01 | |
I knew she'd got across into Russia, | 0:41:01 | 0:41:03 | |
but she was the only one who survived. | 0:41:03 | 0:41:06 | |
But she died about 20 years ago. | 0:41:06 | 0:41:09 | |
She went to America, | 0:41:09 | 0:41:11 | |
and she went over, | 0:41:11 | 0:41:14 | |
and I went to her funeral, | 0:41:14 | 0:41:16 | |
and that's it. That was it. | 0:41:16 | 0:41:18 | |
I came over to this country with 260 boys and 40 girls | 0:41:20 | 0:41:27 | |
to the Lake District in 1945. | 0:41:27 | 0:41:30 | |
And... | 0:41:32 | 0:41:34 | |
we were there for six months. | 0:41:34 | 0:41:37 | |
And then, after that, we went to different cities | 0:41:37 | 0:41:41 | |
and I went to Liverpool with 20 boys. | 0:41:41 | 0:41:44 | |
Manchester took 30, | 0:41:44 | 0:41:47 | |
London took about 120 and... | 0:41:47 | 0:41:51 | |
Glasgow, and so on. | 0:41:51 | 0:41:53 | |
And, erm, eventually we were distributed around the country. | 0:41:53 | 0:41:58 | |
I was young. | 0:41:59 | 0:42:01 | |
16, life is only just beginning, and so on. | 0:42:02 | 0:42:07 | |
I tried everything to do what I could. | 0:42:08 | 0:42:12 | |
I had difficulties going through the whole system | 0:42:15 | 0:42:20 | |
of getting on my feet, and so on. | 0:42:20 | 0:42:24 | |
It was very difficult without any parents, | 0:42:24 | 0:42:26 | |
and no schooling, and this was a very low point for me. | 0:42:26 | 0:42:32 | |
In 1995, I wrote my book, A Detail Of History, | 0:42:34 | 0:42:39 | |
and... | 0:42:39 | 0:42:40 | |
..then the two brothers from Beth Shalom, | 0:42:42 | 0:42:45 | |
from the Holocaust Museum, came to ask me | 0:42:45 | 0:42:49 | |
would I speak, would I go down and speak to children, | 0:42:49 | 0:42:54 | |
to schoolchildren, and, eventually, I agreed... | 0:42:54 | 0:42:58 | |
..and that's how I started talking about my life. | 0:43:00 | 0:43:03 | |
I came to this country with nothing, and I've got a nice home, | 0:43:05 | 0:43:10 | |
and I've done, basically, everything I wanted to do, | 0:43:10 | 0:43:15 | |
and...and life goes on. | 0:43:15 | 0:43:18 | |
I'm now 85 and I still look forward to my life, | 0:43:18 | 0:43:23 | |
to carry on regardless. | 0:43:23 | 0:43:25 | |
I'm going to Poland, on the Walk Of The Living. | 0:43:25 | 0:43:29 | |
I was there last year. | 0:43:31 | 0:43:32 | |
11,000 people were walking from Auschwitz 1 to Birkenau. | 0:43:32 | 0:43:37 | |
And I took a bus load of young people, about 18 years old... | 0:43:39 | 0:43:46 | |
..and I'm going to do the same this April. | 0:43:47 | 0:43:51 | |
I will never forgive the older generation of Germans, never. | 0:43:53 | 0:43:57 | |
I've nothing to those which were born after the war. | 0:43:57 | 0:43:59 | |
But I will never, never forgive the Germans what they did to me | 0:43:59 | 0:44:04 | |
and to other people. Never. | 0:44:04 | 0:44:07 | |
I'm a very strong minded person, in myself. And... | 0:44:08 | 0:44:14 | |
..if I want to do something, I usually do it. | 0:44:17 | 0:44:20 | |
And I try everything I can to achieve certain things. | 0:44:20 | 0:44:26 | |
Now I'm... | 0:44:26 | 0:44:28 | |
..I'm relaxed, I'm... | 0:44:30 | 0:44:32 | |
I'm actually retired. | 0:44:33 | 0:44:35 | |
But I still carry on teaching young people, which is very, | 0:44:35 | 0:44:41 | |
very important to me. | 0:44:41 | 0:44:43 | |
I'll do it till the day... | 0:44:43 | 0:44:45 | |
..somebody calls me to the other side. | 0:44:47 | 0:44:49 | |
Ooh, my Paris was gorgeous. I lived in the 20th arrondissement. | 0:45:02 | 0:45:07 | |
I loved Paris, being a little girl there was fun. | 0:45:09 | 0:45:12 | |
We used to walk along the Seine and over the bridges. | 0:45:12 | 0:45:15 | |
My mum used to buy me lovely ice cream. | 0:45:15 | 0:45:19 | |
And she used to put me on a carousel ride. | 0:45:19 | 0:45:22 | |
And the marionettes in the park! | 0:45:22 | 0:45:25 | |
There was music always playing. | 0:45:25 | 0:45:27 | |
And it was a lovely life. It was a cultured life. | 0:45:27 | 0:45:31 | |
I remember going to a pre-school. I loved going there. | 0:45:32 | 0:45:36 | |
But I didn't go there for very long. | 0:45:36 | 0:45:38 | |
Slowly, slowly, my life changed. | 0:45:38 | 0:45:42 | |
The first thing we couldn't do, we couldn't go out. | 0:45:42 | 0:45:45 | |
You started to hear noises that you hadn't heard before. | 0:45:45 | 0:45:49 | |
It was really scary sometimes. | 0:45:49 | 0:45:52 | |
As I understand it now, we were occupied. | 0:45:52 | 0:45:55 | |
And all the shouting | 0:45:55 | 0:45:57 | |
and the carrying on you could hear outside were soldiers. | 0:45:57 | 0:46:00 | |
The day it happened, it was August and it was hot. | 0:46:03 | 0:46:06 | |
And I was with my father at the window. | 0:46:06 | 0:46:09 | |
And suddenly he said, "They're here." | 0:46:09 | 0:46:11 | |
And we went into the bedroom and my mum pushed me under the bed. | 0:46:13 | 0:46:18 | |
You could hear all these boots on the stairs. | 0:46:18 | 0:46:21 | |
And they banged on the... Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang! | 0:46:21 | 0:46:24 | |
And we didn't answer the door. We stayed in the bedroom. | 0:46:24 | 0:46:27 | |
And then they took an axe, and they came in, | 0:46:27 | 0:46:31 | |
told us, "Raus!" Out! | 0:46:31 | 0:46:33 | |
And they told my parents, "Pack a bag!" | 0:46:33 | 0:46:36 | |
During all the commotion, Madame Collomb came in, | 0:46:36 | 0:46:39 | |
she was our next-door neighbour. | 0:46:39 | 0:46:40 | |
And she said, "What's my child doing in this apartment?" | 0:46:40 | 0:46:44 | |
She took me by the hand, took me away. | 0:46:44 | 0:46:47 | |
Had they realised what she was doing, | 0:46:47 | 0:46:49 | |
we'd have all been shot on the spot, and she got away with it. | 0:46:49 | 0:46:52 | |
She took me to her apartment and put me underneath her dining table, | 0:46:52 | 0:46:57 | |
with a big chenille tablecloth over it, | 0:46:57 | 0:46:59 | |
made me a little bed, and I lived there for two or three weeks. | 0:46:59 | 0:47:02 | |
And it was dark, and it was solitary, and it was lonely, | 0:47:02 | 0:47:05 | |
and I had nightmares there. | 0:47:05 | 0:47:07 | |
I never saw my parents again after that. | 0:47:08 | 0:47:11 | |
And I was a lost, totally lost child. | 0:47:11 | 0:47:14 | |
After that, Madame Collomb took me out at night. | 0:47:16 | 0:47:19 | |
And furtively, we had to go to catch a train. | 0:47:19 | 0:47:22 | |
The first hiding place she took me to was Mondoubleau, | 0:47:23 | 0:47:26 | |
which is south-west of Paris. | 0:47:26 | 0:47:28 | |
I couldn't go to school, I couldn't go out on the street | 0:47:28 | 0:47:30 | |
because there were German soldiers everywhere. | 0:47:30 | 0:47:33 | |
They hid me in sort of a strange outhouse. | 0:47:33 | 0:47:37 | |
Stayed there two years in hiding. | 0:47:37 | 0:47:39 | |
Then I was taken to the Auvergne, to a farm in the middle of nowhere. | 0:47:40 | 0:47:44 | |
There's no light, there's no water. | 0:47:46 | 0:47:48 | |
You have to be self-sufficient. | 0:47:48 | 0:47:51 | |
You grow up overnight. | 0:47:51 | 0:47:52 | |
I slept occasionally inside the house, but then other times | 0:47:54 | 0:47:58 | |
I went and slept with the goat, cos she'd had some kids. | 0:47:58 | 0:48:02 | |
They were warm and they were friendly | 0:48:02 | 0:48:04 | |
and snuffle against your cheek. | 0:48:04 | 0:48:07 | |
During the day, I had to go out and work like a man. | 0:48:08 | 0:48:12 | |
It's hard, in the winter, when it's frozen. | 0:48:13 | 0:48:16 | |
My hands were blue and they were cracked, and bleeding, and sore, | 0:48:16 | 0:48:20 | |
and my feet were in the same condition, | 0:48:20 | 0:48:22 | |
because I didn't have shoes. | 0:48:22 | 0:48:24 | |
I used to sit down and cry sometimes. | 0:48:24 | 0:48:27 | |
But it didn't do any good so I stopped that. | 0:48:27 | 0:48:30 | |
Nobody heard. | 0:48:30 | 0:48:31 | |
Nobody ever said, "Oh, I'll explain what happened to you. | 0:48:32 | 0:48:36 | |
"I will explain what war means. | 0:48:36 | 0:48:38 | |
"I will explain what happened to your parents, | 0:48:38 | 0:48:40 | |
"but you're never going to see them again. | 0:48:40 | 0:48:43 | |
"I will explain that you are never going back | 0:48:43 | 0:48:45 | |
"to your house in Paris, forget it, it's gone." | 0:48:45 | 0:48:48 | |
The war finished in '45 and I was still in the Auvergne for two years. | 0:48:52 | 0:48:57 | |
We didn't know, we hadn't been told. | 0:48:57 | 0:48:59 | |
I didn't know the war was over, cos we didn't have newspapers, | 0:48:59 | 0:49:02 | |
we didn't have a radio, we didn't have electricity. | 0:49:02 | 0:49:05 | |
Nobody knew. | 0:49:05 | 0:49:06 | |
My war really started when I came to Britain. | 0:49:46 | 0:49:49 | |
I couldn't speak the language. | 0:49:49 | 0:49:51 | |
I didn't know who I was. I was traumatised. | 0:49:51 | 0:49:53 | |
Couldn't talk. Didn't want to talk. | 0:49:53 | 0:49:55 | |
They thought I was dumb. I didn't speak. | 0:49:55 | 0:49:57 | |
I came into England with the Red Cross, | 0:49:57 | 0:50:01 | |
and put into a family in Newcastle. | 0:50:01 | 0:50:04 | |
And I couldn't speak the language, | 0:50:06 | 0:50:09 | |
and I couldn't communicate with anyone. | 0:50:09 | 0:50:11 | |
I remember just crying for three nights. | 0:50:11 | 0:50:15 | |
When I was growing up, I was about 17, | 0:50:15 | 0:50:18 | |
I was going to go and join the Army | 0:50:18 | 0:50:20 | |
and I was going to go over there and kill them all. | 0:50:20 | 0:50:22 | |
That was my anger. | 0:50:23 | 0:50:25 | |
I hated them. | 0:50:25 | 0:50:26 | |
I couldn't bear to hear the German accent. | 0:50:26 | 0:50:28 | |
And it made me very... | 0:50:30 | 0:50:33 | |
..cautious. | 0:50:34 | 0:50:36 | |
And never wanting to go anywhere near those countries or associate | 0:50:36 | 0:50:41 | |
with anything that had to do with Germany for a long time. | 0:50:41 | 0:50:46 | |
It was fear, anger... | 0:50:46 | 0:50:49 | |
I can't express that enough. | 0:50:52 | 0:50:54 | |
Fear, anger, um... Indignation. | 0:50:54 | 0:50:58 | |
How dare they do this to human beings? How dare they? | 0:50:58 | 0:51:02 | |
That's one of the biggest... You know, as I got older, | 0:51:02 | 0:51:04 | |
not as a small girl - I didn't know the word - | 0:51:04 | 0:51:06 | |
but as I got older, I felt such indignation. | 0:51:06 | 0:51:10 | |
I know that the younger generations can't help | 0:51:10 | 0:51:13 | |
what their grandfathers did, | 0:51:13 | 0:51:15 | |
but I still feel very angry. | 0:51:15 | 0:51:17 | |
It causes you to have post-traumatic stress, it does. | 0:51:17 | 0:51:22 | |
You're shocked, you're in shock, | 0:51:22 | 0:51:24 | |
and when you come to your new country, you're still in shock. | 0:51:24 | 0:51:27 | |
Nobody says, "How are you?" They didn't say it then. | 0:51:27 | 0:51:31 | |
"Do you feel... What do you feel? How are you feeling? | 0:51:31 | 0:51:35 | |
"Are you very unhappy? Do you want to talk about it?" | 0:51:35 | 0:51:38 | |
Instead of which they used to say to me, "Oh! Don't talk about it! | 0:51:38 | 0:51:42 | |
"Forget about it!" Wrong. | 0:51:42 | 0:51:45 | |
Talk about it. Bring it out in the open, | 0:51:45 | 0:51:48 | |
because that way, that's where the healing starts. | 0:51:48 | 0:51:51 | |
The healing begins when you talk about it, | 0:51:51 | 0:51:53 | |
so people saying, "Oh, suppress it," | 0:51:53 | 0:51:55 | |
it makes you poorly, and then they say, "Oh, this child's always ill." | 0:51:55 | 0:51:59 | |
I'm very, very, VERY grateful to Great Britain for letting me | 0:51:59 | 0:52:05 | |
stay, for a start. I came with a visa, so I wasn't a citizen, | 0:52:05 | 0:52:10 | |
and then I got my... | 0:52:10 | 0:52:11 | |
Forgotten! Oh, British naturalisation, so this country, | 0:52:14 | 0:52:17 | |
I have to say a big thank you, because they've helped me a lot. | 0:52:17 | 0:52:20 | |
The country has helped me a lot. | 0:52:20 | 0:52:22 | |
And the way that I felt | 0:52:22 | 0:52:26 | |
when I first arrived in England wasn't that way | 0:52:26 | 0:52:29 | |
because I wasn't aware, I was too young. | 0:52:29 | 0:52:31 | |
I wasn't educated, I didn't go to school. | 0:52:31 | 0:52:34 | |
So... | 0:52:34 | 0:52:36 | |
it's been hard. You know... | 0:52:36 | 0:52:39 | |
I've educated myself by reading books - | 0:52:39 | 0:52:41 | |
that's where my knowledge came from - | 0:52:41 | 0:52:44 | |
I ate, literally ate, books, | 0:52:44 | 0:52:46 | |
and gained all the things that I knew, | 0:52:46 | 0:52:49 | |
and the wonderful things about life and in the world. | 0:52:49 | 0:52:53 | |
And then nature taught me a lot. It was nature first, books next. | 0:52:53 | 0:53:00 | |
I look at my sons, I look at my grandchildren, | 0:53:00 | 0:53:03 | |
I look at my great-grandson, and he's a fabulous little boy, | 0:53:03 | 0:53:07 | |
and I'm just very happy about what I have achieved. | 0:53:07 | 0:53:10 | |
And every day I say, "Thank you," | 0:53:10 | 0:53:12 | |
about 10,000 times a day. Thank you! | 0:53:12 | 0:53:15 | |
I've read everything that I can lay my hands on, | 0:53:23 | 0:53:25 | |
from literature, to poetry, to art, to people's testimony, and so on, | 0:53:25 | 0:53:31 | |
and I can read them over and over again | 0:53:31 | 0:53:34 | |
and I feel I must, I feel it's my duty | 0:53:34 | 0:53:38 | |
to give them that because there's so many of them, | 0:53:38 | 0:53:42 | |
so many of the six million Jews who died | 0:53:42 | 0:53:45 | |
including 1.5 million children | 0:53:45 | 0:53:48 | |
have no-one to follow them, families were completely wiped out. | 0:53:48 | 0:53:52 | |
So the fact that I am here and my children | 0:53:52 | 0:53:55 | |
and grandchildren are here, | 0:53:55 | 0:53:57 | |
as survivors... | 0:53:57 | 0:53:59 | |
..it is our duty to remember them | 0:54:00 | 0:54:04 | |
so they should not go un... | 0:54:04 | 0:54:06 | |
They're not unknown, that they've got to be remembered | 0:54:06 | 0:54:09 | |
in some way or other, and it's our job to remember them | 0:54:09 | 0:54:12 | |
and what they went through. | 0:54:12 | 0:54:14 | |
Historically, if you talk about it to people, | 0:54:14 | 0:54:18 | |
to groups, and so on, people learn, and if anything like that | 0:54:18 | 0:54:23 | |
could come up again, they would stand up against it, and so on. | 0:54:23 | 0:54:29 | |
So that's why, basically, I talk about it all the time. | 0:54:29 | 0:54:34 | |
I know myself that I've done quite a bit, educated people, | 0:54:34 | 0:54:39 | |
and so on, and young people, I've educated them. | 0:54:39 | 0:54:43 | |
I told them the history, and so on, what I went through. | 0:54:43 | 0:54:48 | |
And the suffering I did go through. | 0:54:48 | 0:54:50 | |
And I never want to see that happen to them. | 0:54:50 | 0:54:53 | |
One should try to keep all this in people's memory, | 0:54:55 | 0:55:01 | |
not with a view to fermenting hatred or perpetuating hatred, | 0:55:01 | 0:55:06 | |
but with a view to reminding people that we humans are not quite as good | 0:55:06 | 0:55:11 | |
as we may think we are, | 0:55:11 | 0:55:14 | |
and we can descend into these horrors | 0:55:14 | 0:55:17 | |
if we don't take precautions. | 0:55:17 | 0:55:20 | |
However much you can learn about history, | 0:55:22 | 0:55:24 | |
and of course it is important to learn and to think you're not going | 0:55:24 | 0:55:27 | |
to make the same mistakes again, the fact is we do, as human beings, | 0:55:27 | 0:55:32 | |
as parents, we make mistakes that we promise ourselves we will never do. | 0:55:32 | 0:55:37 | |
I think human beings can't help it, | 0:55:37 | 0:55:40 | |
the frailty of the human being is such that we do repeat mistakes. | 0:55:40 | 0:55:44 | |
But I think, whatever people say about young people today, | 0:55:44 | 0:55:50 | |
I think they are more tolerant. | 0:55:50 | 0:55:52 | |
So maybe there is hope. I think humanity is getting better. | 0:55:52 | 0:55:57 | |
Hopefully, I'm right. | 0:55:59 | 0:56:01 | |
I think people are not aware of other people's experiences | 0:56:05 | 0:56:09 | |
and how it can be hurtful or how it can be good. | 0:56:09 | 0:56:12 | |
The other story which I could tell you is the kindness of strangers. | 0:56:12 | 0:56:16 | |
The number of people who have helped me | 0:56:16 | 0:56:19 | |
till I was able to stand on my own feet is amazing. | 0:56:19 | 0:56:22 | |
I believe that because they're going to keep | 0:56:25 | 0:56:28 | |
the Holocaust Memorial Day in perpetuity, I hope, | 0:56:28 | 0:56:31 | |
and that there are certain places like Yad Vashem | 0:56:31 | 0:56:35 | |
and Beth Shalom who have a memorial to the Shoa, | 0:56:35 | 0:56:39 | |
which is the Holocaust, | 0:56:39 | 0:56:40 | |
I do believe that it should be at least remembered. | 0:56:40 | 0:56:45 | |
Yes, I do. I do. | 0:56:45 | 0:56:47 | |
I think it should be taught, you know, in perpetuity | 0:56:47 | 0:56:49 | |
because even if it is not the Holocaust, | 0:56:49 | 0:56:52 | |
the other story - Rwanda, Syria, | 0:56:52 | 0:56:57 | |
Yugoslavia - should be told. | 0:56:57 | 0:57:01 | |
They should be kept alive in the memory of people. | 0:57:01 | 0:57:06 | |
They shouldn't be allowed to be forgotten, | 0:57:06 | 0:57:08 | |
because that way, things will... | 0:57:08 | 0:57:11 | |
Because we're human, we will forget. | 0:57:12 | 0:57:15 | |
It's a warning, I suppose, to people to be vigilant, | 0:57:16 | 0:57:20 | |
not to be bystanders, but to speak out | 0:57:20 | 0:57:24 | |
if they encounter bad things, or evil things. | 0:57:24 | 0:57:29 | |
This is exactly what happened. | 0:57:31 | 0:57:33 | |
The Germans stood by and did nothing | 0:57:33 | 0:57:37 | |
and at some times were enthusiastic supporters of Hitler. | 0:57:37 | 0:57:42 | |
So, that is the warning - constant vigilance. | 0:57:44 | 0:57:49 |